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Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
SVU, Criminal Intent-- Sven liked them all. He was a software developer,
newly married. And he and his wife had just bought a new house-- his
first. The house had a flagpole in the front and a hammock out back.
After work he'd come home, relax on the couch, and watch his legal
dramas. Jury duty was going to offer an inside view of the TV shows he
loved.
Sven Berger
Not Sven, though. During the selection process, he engaged with the
questions the lawyers posed as best he could. And when he was asked
how he felt about capital punishment, he answered candidly.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
The case was The State of Texas versus Paul David Storey. Storey was a
22-year-old accused of the murder of Jonas Cherry, the manager of a mini
golf course in Hurst, Texas. Storey and an accomplice forced Cherry into
the back office, made him unlock the safe, and put the money-- a few
hundred dollars-- in a bag. And then they shot him multiple times.
Storey's trial lasted two weeks, and would have felt familiar to anyone
who watches TV courtroom dramas. There were lawyers with thick
binders full of ballistics reports and medical examinations, character
witnesses were called, and disturbing photographs of the victim's body
were shown. The only thing missing was any suspense about the verdict.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
The jury had to decide between life imprisonment or the death penalty. It
seemed the victim's family knew what they wanted. "It should go without
saying," the prosecutor announced to Sven and the other jurors, "that all
of Jonas's family and everyone who loved him believe the death penalty
is appropriate."
The prosecutor asked the jurors to sentence Paul Storey to death. The
instructions stated that for the death penalty to be imposed, the jurors
must judge three things to be true-- that Paul Storey was guilty, that there
were no mitigating circumstances-- like, say, mental illness or
provocation-- and lastly, that Storey posed a future threat to his
community.
Sven Berger
That was the one I had issue with. I seriously doubted that he
would be a continuing threat to the prison community.
Jonathan Goldstein
And what was it about Paul Storey that made you feel like you
just didn't necessarily see him as a continued threat?
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
The young man Sven saw in the courtroom appeared confused, in over
his head, and remorseful. This was his first offense. And some of the
evidence suggested that it was Storey's accomplice who had been the
mastermind behind the horrible crime, as well as the one who had fired
first. Sven was certain that Paul Storey should be punished, but he didn't
think he should be put to death.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
At 27, Sven was the youngest juror by several years. And he was the kind
of guy who avoided speaking up at all costs. At home, if his neighbor
parked in his space, he let it go. At the office, if his boss told him to do
something, even if he disagreed, he did it without question. In other
words, even though he'd been looking forward to being a juror, when he
found himself in the jury room, Sven wasn't exactly Henry Fonda in 12
Angry Men.
The way he understood it, the jurors had to reach a unanimous decision.
And the idea of swaying 11 strangers over to his way of thinking seemed
impossible. He was also afraid that if he opposed the group, it would
result in a hung jury and a mistrial. They'd have to start the whole process
over again with a new jury. Everyone would be mad at him. So Sven said
nothing.
An hour and a half later, Paul Storey was sentenced to death by lethal
injection.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven went over to his parents' house, where he had dinner and drank
scotch with his dad. He told his family about the trial. And then he went
home, where he had more to drink before bed.
Sven Berger
And then that was that. Then it was over. And then I went on
with my life.
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
But what did you do with these feelings? I was just stuck. It
was done. It was cast in stone. And-- yeah, no, I felt terrible. I
felt massive amounts of regret. I felt guilty, sending someone
to death row.
Jonathan Goldstein
When you think about the people that a trial effects, you think of the
victims and their loved ones. And you think of the accused, their families,
and what they're going through. You don't usually think about what it
does to the jurors. But for Sven, the trial wasn't something you could put
behind him at the crack of a gavel.
In the days and weeks after the verdict, he read every article about the
case he could find. But the more he read, the more shame he felt. So
eventually he just stopped.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
And it only got worse after the trial. It got a lot worse after the
trial.
Jonathan Goldstein
He was drinking more, beginning as soon as he got home from work, and
spending more days hungover. His wife didn't understand what was going
on.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
A year after the trial, and Sven's life had changed. The new house with
the hammock and the flagpole was sold, and Sven moved out of Texas.
He tried to escape through alcohol, but it didn't free him from his shame.
Sometimes, after a night out drinking, he'd return to a Facebook page
Paul Storey's mother had made for her son. One mother had already lost
her son. And now, because Sven had been too afraid to speak up, another
mother was going to, as well.
Sven Berger
I'm not trying to excuse his crime. It was terrible. But to send
a guy to death? The presence in your mind, the recurring
thoughts about it-- can that go away?
Jonathan Goldstein
For all the bad rap it gets, shame offers a certain safety. It provides a
comfortable hole to hide in, away from the judgment of others. But it can
also lead to isolation and inertia. And for eight years-- eight years in
which Paul Storey sat on death row, awaiting an execution date-- Sven
barely talked about the trial with anybody.
But then, in 2016, the year after Paul Storey's federal appeal had been
denied, a reporter writing a series of articles about the judicial system
approached Sven about his experience as a juror. Sven was tired of being
all alone with his regrets. And so, for the first time, he opened up about
his feelings.
"I felt guilty," he told the reporter, "and sad, and a little helpless. I don't
think I made the right call." Sven had hoped that talking about the trial
might help. And it did-- up until the article was published. That was when
Sven received an uncomfortable phone call from a lawyer who had read
the article.
Sven was at work. Fearing his coworkers might overhear, he took the call
outside, behind his office building. It was there that he learned that, eight
years earlier, he had misunderstood a key part of the jury instructions.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Preventing the death sentence only required one dissenting vote-- a vote
Sven could have cast. So there would have been no mistrial, no hung jury.
And instead of the death penalty, Paul Storey would have gotten life in
prison without parole.
Sven Berger
That would have been nice to know. I could have changed--
well, I could have let him live.
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
For Sven, it didn't make sense. Why would Marilyn want to speak with
him? How could she, of all people, forgive him for something he couldn't
forgive himself for?
Sven Berger
I didn't know how to deal with-- I still kind of don't know how
to deal with that. And I couldn't match her message.
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
A few months after Sven received Marilyn's email, an execution date was
set. The state would put Paul Storey to death on April 12 of 2017. But
then something unexpected happened. Glenn and Judith Cherry, the
parents of the victim, came forward.
It seems that, at the trial, the prosecution had lied. The Cherrys, in spite
of their son's murder, are and always have been against capital
punishment. In a video they released publicly, Judith Cherry presents a
statement which reads in part, "We do not want Paul Storey's family,
especially his mother, to witness the purposeful execution of their son.
They are innocent of his deeds."
Based on this testimony, with only five days to spare, Paul Storey's
execution was postponed. When news of the stay of execution reached
Sven, it felt like a second chance, an opening to finally respond to
Marilyn's email. But he didn't.
It's now been over two years. He's remarried, doesn't drink anymore-- but
he still hasn't contacted Marilyn.
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Shame leads to inertia. And as even the most casual reader of the
fundamentals of physics will tell you, an inert object will remain inert
until it is acted upon by an external force. In other words, it takes a little
nudge. And who better to supply a little nudge than a little "nudge?"
And so I write Marilyn a letter. "I know this is a really sensitive and
deeply personal issue," it reads, "and I hope I'm not being too forward." I
ask Marilyn if she remembers a juror by the name of Sven Berger. About
a week later, I receive a note back via email-- "Thank you so much for
your letter," Marilyn writes. "I have no ill will toward Mr. Berger. I have
offered him my email address, as well as my phone number, with no
reply."
She also forwards her original email to Sven-- the one she sent two years
ago, the one he can't stop thinking about. When I read it, I'm expecting a
grand gesture of forgiveness. But Marilyn never mentions forgiveness--
never even uses the word. Instead, it's just six short sentences in which
Marilyn thanks Sven for the article, and says she shared it with her son.
Her tone is breezy. She ends with, "have a great day," exclamation mark.
Jonathan Goldstein
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
Jonathan Goldstein
Yeah? OK.
Marilyn lives in Fort Worth, Texas. The two of us meet in a hotel suite
downtown where I can't stop offering her food that she can't stop
refusing.
Jonathan Goldstein
Marilyn Storey
No.
Jonathan Goldstein
Marilyn is tall and stately, with smiling eyes. She's in slacks, boots, and a
cropped blazer, all in black. She sits on the end of the couch, next to an
empty armchair, and tries to give me a sense of what her life was like
before the trial.
Marilyn Storey
I was always the life of the party. I mean, I was a jokester--
oh, make sure you have Marilyn there, because she's going to
keep the party going. I was always kind of the one that
everybody went to. People knew you can call me in the
middle of the night. If you need somebody to come pick you
up, call Marilyn. She'll get up. She'll go do it.
Jonathan Goldstein
Since the trial, Marilyn doesn't feel like the same person. Every day, she's
reckoning with the horror of her son's crime, and worrying endlessly
about his safety in prison. Her friends have fallen away. The thing that's
hardest, though, is how the people who remain-- the people closest to
her-- now look upon her son.
She says that everyone's passed judgment on Paul, written him off as
worthless and un-redeemable. And they blame him for her pain.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
Fighting for him meant working with her son's lawyers to change his
sentence to life in prison.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
It took up all of her time and energy, which affected the hospitality job
she worked out for over 30 years.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
After losing her job, Marilyn then lost her house. She was forced to move
in with her younger son.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
10 years after the trial, and everyone-- her friends, her family-- have all
moved on. So when Marilyn read Sven's article, she saw in him someone
like her-- someone who had never gotten past that final day of the trial.
Marilyn Storey
[PHONE RINGING]
Jonathan Goldstein
Marilyn and I have been talking for about an hour and a half when the
front desk phones.
Jonathan Goldstein
I think it probably--
Marilyn Storey
Now, how do you pronounce his name?
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven.
Marilyn Storey
Is it "Sven?"
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven-- S-V-E-N.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven, yeah.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
But before we get a chance to practice our Svens, Sven is at the door.
Sven Berger
Hi.
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Marilyn is here.
Sven Berger
Hi.
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
Sven.
Marilyn Storey
Sven.
Jonathan Goldstein
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
The last time Marilyn and Sven had been in the same room was 10 years
ago, at the trial. Marilyn was seated behind the bar. Sven sat in the jury
box. But today, he sits down in the empty armchair beside her. He can't
quite bring himself to look at her. As he tells Marilyn what it was like to
receive her email, he gazes down at his lap.
Sven Berger
It was very surprising. And I read it, and I reread it. And I
even began several letters that never went anywhere. I didn't
know what to say. What do you say about that? I don't want to
write a letter that's trying to make me feel better. Do you know
what I mean?
Marilyn Storey
Mmm hmm.
From the moment the vote was cast, I had regret. I thought, I
am doing the wrong thing. And although it was great hearing
that you forgave me, I couldn't forgive myself, exactly. And I
can't even imagine how you must feel.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
I can tell by Sven's face that he isn't convinced. He doesn't feel like he's
righted anything. This is because for years, Sven has been avoiding all
traces of the case-- no googling, no newspapers. He never even read the
article he'd been interviewed for. So he doesn't know what Marilyn
knows, which is the chain of events that his article set in motion.
The jury instructions for Paul Storey's case were written in dense legalize,
and nowhere in their nine pages did they state that a single dissenting
vote can prevent the death penalty. In fact, courts in Texas are prohibited
from telling jurors that. In theory, that's to encourage them to arrive at a
consensus. But what it means is Sven's confusion wasn't his fault.
For years, legal advocates had wanted to bring a bill before the legislature
that would clarify the instructions. But they needed someone who could
say, I would have done things differently if I had understood. Marilyn
explains to Sven that with him, and the things he'd said in the article, they
had finally found that person.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven Berger
Really?
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
While his eyes have tended to dart around the room, looking at me or
down at his hands, right now Sven is looking directly at Marilyn. She
tells him that had he in fact voted against the death penalty at her son's
trial, these attempts at reform might never have happened.
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein
Sven physically shrinks from the word hero. It's as though she's placed a
large, awkward crown atop his head.
Sven Berger
Marilyn Storey
Oh, to me.
Sven Berger
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
Sven Berger
No.
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
Marilyn Storey
I can tell.
Sven Berger
After all these years, Sven is finally able to accept Marilyn's forgiveness,
even if he still isn't ready to forgive himself.
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
After the crime, Marilyn's family never saw her son the same way again.
From that moment on, he was nothing more than a murderer. And on the
final day of the trial, 12 jurors confirmed that judgment. Her hope had
been that maybe someone had seen something else. It wasn't a hope for
someone to recognize in her son anything special or good. She just
wanted them to see him as something other than a monster.
Sven Berger
Marilyn Storey
Sven Berger
Jonathan Goldstein
Paul Storey is still on death row, and Sven still can't reverse the sentence.
But in speaking aloud the words that Marilyn's been repeating to herself
for so long, Sven's made her feel less alone.
Marilyn Storey
You have-- some of the hurt that I have carried on my heart
for the last 12 years. You just lifted it. You have no earthly
idea what that meant to me. It meant a lot. And for you to say
that-- it really eased my heart.
Jonathan Goldstein
After years of worry over what to say to Marilyn, Sven's finally found the
right words.
Sven Berger
Marilyn Storey
Jonathan Goldstein