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Tighter Harder. Deeper. Each quick quiver ixacry of approval Then, thee comes the pint when it can no longer manage to command, too aut and tense, tock sill in asretchedout scream, ‘My ene to pm. Jest pam, Just bob up and down its shaft, just nod a sit succession of yexes over and over and over and over until it ges that inl jplt of strength nd bursts into the fiercest, maddest, weitest fit never thought it could make. And the, finaly, Bke in most Haresaps, there i that short bout of shame, All empty ctiquete rely The twitching, the embling. Paying up how humbled «is bythe favor Tid just granted oping that the more it recedes to its old sl. the less annoyed Tbe that i lost my sayin the convertion, But Tm never annoyed. On the contary, giving hea isa ever ok forward to used to bea thambsucker, Hardcore, fanatical, prctcally professional, Kept att until] was thirteen, which got me tugged as strange among the girs Taal lepovers with back then, Even though I behaved the sme vay they didi most other respects. Late oven toaster pizzas like they did, minding the crumbs becise Classmate X's mother loved the carpet— and the commissioned Orlin Sculptures, and the smuggled lephanttusks—more than she di her offspring. I squirmed before fokl-out posters of Jonathan Taylor Thomas Bike they did, verbalizing (with many a sigh and squeal) my extreme coriosty as regards firs-kis mechanics Tas pst as spooked by stories of divans Keaving dewy footprints in Classmate Y's backyard, just as tried atthe Sight ofthe smal bottle of gin Cissmate Z had stowed! avy in her overnight bug But once the nal posh care out, once it ‘was time fort irl to paint our digits over futher dchate on LIET's dimples. 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[hd barely managed to squeeze out acegree in Intercscipinay ‘Stugies—four years of “dabbling” i the basics of communication, psychology and business the bi course for people who didn't know what to do with themselves—and ended up “dabbling” in jobs for people who didn know what to-do with themselves, Web content. Freekance copscriting. “Mace web content. ‘Tarsus had lodged a decent command of English grammar into me atleast that place made sure even the drepsof thei slum had some sot of income. Yet couldn fee aly thankful fr that consiering how dull work Was. [had to string the same words together for who knows how many times. ‘erdant. Lash. Premier Picturesque. Ambience. Convenience. ‘Utmost. Savor. Indulge. My ks job was a this rinky-dink publishing house in Magallanes, writing basic English manuals for Koreans. Alhouse tral of more lke one room in a house, crammed with cheap desk sets and PCS that could only run on Windows 98. The tasks were jst as numbing: Mostly dlalogue for everday survival i you call"survval” being able to quizthe fiendly neighborhood baker on bread quality (Mk LAST NAME OF BAKER. how fresh are your baguettes, (orto introduce the fiend you're with to another frend you {st happened to bump ino at tain platform (ERIEND LS NAME and [are getting off at YOUR LOCATION station. ‘Where shall you be getting off, FRIEND 2 NAME) Blowjobs sved me, realy. After ahard day's work putting drivel into other people's mouths at east I could have something more wohl jammed into my own, But somthing happened while I was working t Golden Tower Publishing House that never would have expected, Testarted when Bret Almonte asked me out on a dae. ‘There were eight writers employed there a the ime—five uySand three gt As usual, [had made a point to befriend and blow as many of my make officemates as I could. Alot us would go out drinking almost everynight after work. Al of us ended up knowing a ot about each other. and its petty obvious what these people knew best about me. had socked off all the guys but Bret. And he knew this [knew the other guys had told im how unbelievable I as it, how he had berer take his tur before my personal five ‘month Hong job tolerance was up. And I Knew that he knew that Tew. The ar of expectation was 00 tasty. ‘What made things even more delectable was that Bret enjoyed his own infamy. Bret had a beautfl cock He was hung. Like horse that had been exposed to gamma rays. It was thick and long and very smoothly shaped, so perfect t looked sythetic, He was promiscuous in his owa right, and T vas also the one remaining-emale oficemate he ad yet to grace wit his alorious ods. The other gs, eventhough [rarely acknowledged thei exitence sil ved gushing about ito me. They loved priming me forthe incredible inevitable just hecause they could. They sore that Bret vwould be any gs peste achievement, | CRAVVLED UP moreso mine Andie tatheknewthat 1s, GROIN ONE BIG. BLAST FROM HIS ARTILLERY, AND | COULD CALL THIS Both of us knew the dail so well thatthe wining and dining part was tedious. We _snbbled down ou moussaka and falafel ‘wea ike solders on a 20-minute mess hall break. The way ke the thick, white Iéchamel sauce off rom my fingers, oF the ‘way Bret commended me fr bing down on SIMPLE, STUPID the whok girth of my wrap with schease, — SKIRMISH OVER seemed so compuksory, unecessary. Even though we only had a glass of table wine each, there was no hemming and having whatsoever over where after. We flagged down that cab to Bret’ apartment ke Someone, or something, was after Us. (Once we got to his bedroom, we started kissing instantaneously, scrapping the aiggestve banter a showing ‘off of hosehold knick knacks, almost ike two morons i love T didnt remember us speaking ta. We were two people who had never seen the importance of words, typing scores of them down in the same configurations over andl over jst to fill ur dally quota, owing specific parts of our bodies had aways said thing best for ws. Bret grabbed my wrist and yanked me this futon, We both reached for his bet back, the two pats ‘of hands scrambling at the lop and straps with haste and fry. like siblings fighting over atoy they were told to shire. “The cock looked colosal even beneath Bets blak bres. Towa far beyond a bulee, and half expected it to snarl as 1 ‘eed it from all that tight fabric. And it really was a beaut nck, Forall my wide vocabulary I eoulda’t—shoulat—find a beter deseiption fori. [FT sil kept my old journal ts entry vwomle've been a Follows Guys name and age: Bret 25 Length of cock: Gatorade bottle Girth of cock: corn the cob fold-out umnbelln Unique features and or behavior af cock: achieved perfection Nevertheless, I made sure not to give my stonshment away. Forcing myself to look up a Bret gave him only a small sng sie, Like he a to eam my appeoval, He stared hack at me with similar composure, his own tiny sin belying ‘the msive pride he must carry along with that package. Like 1 had to ear his approval as well. ‘We were a woe, That fat wis all too apparent tous gifted individuals, our reputations hanging over our heads ike flthy litle halo. What wasn obvious however was that Twas going, to wi, Bret eased himself down on the futon resting his head decadentlyon pillow His cock stayed on ede with happy defiance. [craved up fo his goin. One big bas from his artsy and I could cal this imp stupid skiemish over. ‘Releoos: Storebloge & FanbihligCE en ren rey wn eenGiving it my all each and everytime is standard for ‘me: it's something automatic, anprompted. Teouldn"t help but monitor myself st this particular occasion, Tdid everything T usually do and without warning, ‘memories from so many. many past encounters skidded to my vision, aside show to accompany —arbitrate— every teensy move I made. As [licked the head very, very lowly, I ended up recalling all those other gloss, pale pink knobs ve auceled, all those other moments when I saw them beaded with pre-cum like dewy mushrooms. "The countless other times my indomitable gag reflex ‘vas employed while [took the whole lengih down sy throat. Press tle, practiced pressure, others’ balls, others’ grateful ‘runts, wrestled themselves out from the back of my ‘memory. All past swiling of tongues, tensing up of hs, feeling of hands stroking and gripping my hair a various intervals all of that came back to me, taking it upon themselves to guide me through this precious Yet it was guidance I didn ask for. The visions sed at me they tried to make sure I saci something Tid never heen less than spectacular at 1 felt £0 tired all of a sudden. Not a cick in the neck or ache in the jaw or anything ike that. That was for amateurs. Mine vasa kethargy that charned all he way down to the tips of my toes, something that made me too aware cof every part of me. But I wis a trooper. Keeping my mouth agape at the required angle, I kept pumping “Technically the nex sie in that strenuous show ‘would reveal all the previous ejaculations I've been responsible for. The sundry favors (sickly sweet, soapy. ‘metallic, tat) and textures (glutinous, walery,sinisterly chunky) that have spurted onto my tongue, bret cejelid, wherever else the guy pleased. The countless ‘ways a male face winces in bliss octaves a male voice can swoop down of soar up to. But Bret suddenly ppashed me avay. His hands held thei grip on my shoulders with light, frightening resolve and I finally switched my gaze to his face. ee wanted to fuck. I knew that gleam inthe eye ‘well. And hod always managed to prove this whim unnecessary. A lick and nibble here and there was all it usualy took for me to pick up from where I'd elt olf, and the guy would very slay forget his lapse in judgment. But Bret wouldn't let me bend down an inch, He was too proud of his cock for that. Before I knew i the had lipped me onto my back and pinned me down fon the sheets like we were a self-defense demo. Even his smirk was instructor-like. This, people, isthe proper sway to save yoursel. T could have refused. I could have Fought back iit came to that; I've had enough pushy guys before and had learnt to knce them inthe groin i need be. Yet I couldn't stand the thought of revisiting that Thad done with all the other litle steps in that nights blowjob routine. I was sick of going through the ‘motions, Becnsse it had finally sunk in that Las theowgh them inthe ist place. So I ‘meant tht Bret had become oF use we in, Even iitSe ee re‘Sioelaga.com Res igmnine Ooi te Tus POE fous As aconsolation. I reminded myself that I had just ‘Bone dossn on the world’s most beautifl cock. I had ‘made ths distinguished specimen happy to a point. No one coukd take that fact avay from me, although a8 I thought this, the lethargy T was feeling seemed 10 have tripled, this tremendous, unseen weight helping to fasten me dawn to that foton, I was kidding myself and Thnew it ‘And then Bret pushed my thighs apart and eased hime in, thad been a while since my last actual fuck. About 1 yea’ and a half ago, and only because the guy had managed to get i up again just as T was about to fall asleep. I had lan there half-conscious and could barely recall the act the morning after. This time around, I was, Wide awake, This time around, I coukl feel everything Tt was absolutely nothing ike Td imagined it would be. screamed, A real scream. It was the most noise T'd ‘ever made in bed, having only made muffled moans of encouragement inthe past. The tightness of my cunt and the enormity of his cock brought a vicious sound ‘out of my lips It seemed fo trigger something in Bret. He followed his entry with a round of pumping so ferocious that I ‘count do ansthing eke. He Kept grinding me into the mattress, yanking my arms and legs over his shoulders -ritting his teeth in some brutal grin, He wanted to do all the work. He wanted to steer all sensation towards that one point below my hips, wanted to stoke my cavity with a potent. piercing energy that would render ‘everything else worthless, As my scream sputtered to total silence, my throat choked with dead ait, he ‘grunted in triumph and pumped even harder. Bret was able to numb me from the waist up. That, in all our fiercely quaking glory, couldn be denied But what he count tell was that what I couldn't feel \was just as incredible. My mouth was open the entire time. Empty. Dry. State. Before [ wouldve found it unbearable, T now found the strangest thrill in this barenness. It was such a different kind of comfort, Tne thought ofall that space, of how my lips «didn have to cut! over ansthing, of how my teeth no longer posed the threat of scraping on tender flesh in the heat of the moment. My mouth was on vacation. A decadent little break after so much hard work and dedication. The fact that I deserved this blazed over ‘every part of me, a heat far more intense than the one in betvween my lees. Thad spent enough time and energy proving myselt all those years. Almost 100 much, in fact since Thad nearly forgotten that deeming myself worthy was only the first step towards being okay. I still wasn't sure then ‘of what had fo come after, but atleast had gotten past certain things and was ware of it. Thad that. Tt was something, Brot pulled out justin time, his semen spattering safely onto my breasts, He didn't have to warn me that he was about to come: I had given him the trust hat experts of any kind give to their equals. That, and my newfound state of ecstasy blinded me from this very high-risk situation. I wanted to keep my mouth empty {or as long as I could. I wanted to leave Bret to his own. distractions while T relished my lusciously hollow head or those lst Few seconds. I wanted to savor. Indulge Tt was a new pleasure I was enjoying and getting used. to, Nobody could blame me for wanting to live a litle. Could you? 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My mask, with the red and black plumes the maker pphicked from a rooster, iy over her smiling ghosts “The elders here at Sasaya Nino tell the story of a boy ‘sho claimed he could speak to God. The boy said that God's voice commanded him to go in search ofan island somewhere inthis area,” se says, her own voice heavy and whispering, But I can understand her clearly. “He was asst of things in halves born with a body bisecod cleanly inthe vertical. He hopped on one leg and kept steady with one hand, He was ako born of half cultures His mother was a prostitute who had borne him fom a client, a black serpeant of tie old US Brses. ‘The story g0es that he ached forthe divine so much that he fervently believed God could be found oat in this fionter. That the island he was promised ws where he ‘would be closes to Him, He began a land trk thet took him the breadth and width of the Palawan mainland. On the way, the villagers he passed insuhed him, tated him thst God \Would never reveal himself to an abomination such she, an incomplete creature. They threw stones at him but aways missed because they hit his absent half. When he reached the town the local police shot at him, but they 400 missed “On the coast fisherman leat him a boat, doubtful of his quest but seeing the strength of the boy's faith ‘The sharks that leapt from the waters snapped only at comply ar, at his missing half. He paddled long and hard but a squall overturned his boa! and, exhausted, he let the current take him. When he awoke he had already made landfall. He walked into the forest and it was there that Zacherius, lst in the wilderness, found God, How she talks with her mouth full I can fathom, “What did God do?" “Only one thing” she answers as I wrthe under her touch, ‘God made Zacherius whole, But he couldnt dupkate his other hall which as bom of despand enguish, So God made hi comple bur made his othr hal as white as an angel's feather. A deep and noble mesizo color. The perfect mix of dark and white. And so Suit Zacheris vas made whole, one half deep brovn, the other smooth mesizo, which lat his other miraculous adventures. Asa consequence of his alteration though, Zacherius vasa mare sexkss, or perhaps of bath” “Oh.” Tsay. Was all [could actually sy. “Zacherius di perform alt of miraces afterward, \when word of is finding the island spread, This is how Saya Nino has been reclaimed from the sea, over the centuries, asthe devotees became immigrants and the immigrants became setters. Though we sill keep in contact \ith the Palawan msialand through Bulabse:” "But was Zacherius really a sant?” [say between gritted teeth. There isa phone ringing on the desk behind me, Its distant, but inteusive "Vex. He was canonized two years aftr his cleat But then they sy there was something unasal even preternatural, about the way Sasaya Nino attracted settlers, and how the sea readily gave itself up to be mate into land Move your ke, pleas.” ‘So I do, watching her as she falls o her silent Iministations, Her cess i a atered camison of @ metallic, shter blue cloth that reaches her ankles. Her delicate oval Face isthe sum ofa pooting mouth and lacquer mois eyes. In resembles the rest of her: flower stem spine, tapering ieee Tie doriigestnm wat wih HER DELICATE Sums lervnpwemactadtiaas OVAL FACE IS some invisible wiring ted under each of THE SUM OF on eraitedieshom fouled meinchtenielge nar hea Prmuomwwacetataktetebek MOIST EYES. 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Liza tells me its ke this every year ‘A long butt tables set adstance from the stag. Beyond that, ighted candies, sampaguita necklaces and ‘offerings of each dish from the buffet surround an altar to San Zacherius. Inthe middle, 2 two-Foot high statue of the Sain stands smiling and resplendent in red! and gokl robes. His left hand holds an ebony globe with across on top of it ‘matching his brown skin, his right a silver dagger poin upwards shining with his white hal “This looks more ikea rock show than a religious cekebration,” Ls. The Feast ofthe Black Nazarene is lot ke this” "Hmm, ou Te right, But this one is more controled, ‘more amiable. For tourist, [ mean.” “Exactly,” she sas, ‘But to celebrate what?” She looks at me incredulously, “The coming of day.” Tmouth an “Ah, Raleooe: Btorablage & FanMlaas‘Sioeliaga.com - Res iagmine Owais te Thus POF rons ‘She smiles sweetly. So much that I sweep her into Kiss. She has to stand on tiptoe for this and I feel the pressure of her weight on my shoes as she stepson them, then shifts her weight from lef to right and back. She sneers a me when we separate and nicks my shoulder With one of her long nails, "What was that for?” She has drawn blood, I try to catch her arm but she's already running into the crowd of dancers follow her and Tam at once lost inthe crowd. Tn the multitude agit stops me. Young, no more than sinteen, I think. Her face exudes a peaceful urgency ike news of adivine nature that cannot wat to be shazed, that [just have to stare at her siken face laden with baby fat, illuminated by a crown of Christmas lights coiled on her head, Her eys blink yellow, blue, green, She shows me her hands, First the back, crisscrossed with veins, then she slowly turns them over with the suspense of a strip tease “Thee aze two red dots in the middle ofeach palm, From them drips a red liquid. I look at her face laminated in yellow, then blue then green. I ook again at her hands and back to her face. I put my hands up to my ovm face and wipe them down my closed lids T push Ms, Stigmata gently away and run past. [find Liza nally, nearly underneath the stage with an absorbed expression. I drag her out ofthe mosh pit and she runs again, Her hand in mine, we go dow one Street Where a mini-shadow thester re enacts the life and ascension of San Zacherits ee wings tral inthe breeze behind her as we sprint. (On another street, pavement artists are laying down their atin praise of the Saint. We run on. Sueidenly she stops. I run fora ew more meters before T realize Tam not holding her hand anymore. I look back nd stat walking to het, bat she spots something to hee left, inside an alleyway and she goes in. When I reach it, she is gone. Calling her name, I peek into open doors and empty, candlelit houses. It was also tradition during the yearly Feast to open all portals, shut down all the lights and eave candles burning at doorsteps and windowsills. They say such a ritual will entice San Zacherias to visit theie house and leave gifts, bless them, bring good fortune, I enter one ofthese houses, knocking and calling for anybody inside. Finding no response Ist down on a plush cove to catch my breath. ‘Then I hear her laughter. She i upstairs. ryto follow the sound, but the candles in the house ae spars Even if wanted t0 I couldn't turn on the lights. The 'siand’s power grid is turned off on all the residential areas, focused only af the main tourist spots, the beaches. ‘This greatly reduced the chances of electrical fre while proportionally increasing the chances of one of the candles tippsig over and burming the whole residential area to crisp. Fad told Liza this and she just sad only thre fires have ever occusted inthe Feasts history. Only at midnight, when most ofthe offical activity ends, is the electricity turned back on, Presumably so the island's drunken populace can find thee way back to their beds. "Yes. do think she's on the second floor, Stumbling, 1 find the stairs and follow the sound of her gielin. Islip ‘once and fll heaslyto the landing ""Goddamait Liza, this isnt funny!” T massage my bruised ankle. 1 un up angrily to the top floor and push a door open. I a child's room, I was mistaken, She's not here, but all the windows are open: Outside, something dark and massive is obscuring the sky. Covering the moon isan apparition of a winged, angelic arm. “The light reflects off the curved backs of their wings, glistening with the decoration ‘of whorls and cites. Their pasage is marked with terible splendor in sigs ‘of burnished pastels and heady neon T stumble back onto the bed, my hand tipping the sheets to reassure myself. But Te climbed up the stairs to an othertand, anekewhere, ‘The army inthe sky is coming closer. or the moon is becoming smaller. I can’ tel ‘What Fcan see is that one of the army's number fas separated from the pack and is heading for me “Taking another step back was a mistake. I rip on the bed and. tripping, dazed with alcohol, T can only aise my head and watch asthe winged creature ‘comes close by the second until it obliterates, with its ‘enormous wings, even the sight of its fellows i passes through the window screaming a shrill a cry. T manage to find a pillow. A feeble weapon but I am ready to throw i to do anything to stop it. Then the lights come blink back atthe sudden brightness and the creature ‘veering away, confusion on its heels, back tothe general direction of the window. Under the harsh lamination T see its real nature: I is the size ofa fist, black and coarse ‘mammalian fur covering i. Then T understand the high Pitched scream, “The bat comes crashing onto a wall with a comic splatter Its shock isa thud on the linoleum floos Only frit bat. try to laugh, find T can‘ and just bury my face inthe pillow. smelling achi’sseent and powder ‘on the cloth. Tsien never to drink the local alcohol again, Fora few minutes I just breathe. Emiboldened by the ligt T pluck up the courage to pick up the fruit bat, huge and with blood wet on its snout, lying in the middle ofthe floor. Disoviente. with one wing broken from the impact, i ‘wie to sink its fangs into my fingers. I hold it by its good vwing and throw it outside, It would have moce chance in the streets than when the occupants of the house came buck. In the sky, the lock of fit bats have passed the moon and are heading for their eave, unconcerned that one ‘of theirs has strayed and fallen, turn back 10 the room and am confionted by a big lock, so uncharacteristic in a child's room, The time i ‘quarter to 11. Then the lights turn ack on. Wel isn't midnight yet. Maybe some intoxicated comptroller had hit the ON sitchin the heat of a tryst? From downstairs I hear Liza faintly calling my oame. 1 start to descend the stirs, stop. then go back and close the windows, OUTSIDE, SOMETHING DARK AND MASSIVE |S OBSCURING THE SKY. COVERING THE MOON |S AN APPARITION OF A WINGED, ANGELIC ARMY Raleove Storablags & FantiStoroltegecun ~ Rr hlagaatine Downleed ty Thus POF dona Liza is throwing wp in the toilet bowl. Her wings are drooping andl tensing with her. When she's done she flushes and puts dovsn the seat cover. She pats the seat and smiles at me. [lock the door to the Bathroom then [sit down and give her a las of water, pushing away a wing to give her the gs, She spits into the sink then rests her heal on my lap. The lst of her lipstick sticks to my palm as T wipe her lips clean of food and saliva Heer tongue is warm, the alcohol oni sharp and harsh, “Tim sorry about that" She is coming out of her fugue, She sits astride me, Her legs gleam inthe window's faint light bears "Your wings.” Tsay "My wings?" she looks up a the dead fight bulb on. the ceiling. “They te shaking ‘She smiles and hfs her eyes so thar the whites show, ‘So they a.” We kiss fora few minutes before she pulls back and looks at her watch, “Look at the time. “Are you hungry? Seriously, We just ate." I un my lips down her neck toe ltt shoulder. The strap there comes down easily the right one following suit. try to undo the cords on her wings but can't find them. She is naked enough For me. T feel her nails scratching the back of my neck. ‘There’ a ripping sound and she inhales hard. [look down at my list I've torn off her panties but barely hotice. Her wings seem to be flapping on their own, L cat see her face inthe hal Hit streaming through the window but she is arcing her back and a slow. incandescent flame is beginning to spread on my lap. Toss the flimsy, white cloth (o the sink. T sow her down, trying to catch up. Shouts and music are coming up the street The last le of the parse has begun and they are headed our way. Her face and closed eyes are content inthe light of a passing torch, despite the fact that she is grinding her pubic bone on mine as iti didnt pain her. She chokes back whimpers but continues prinding. ‘The toilet cover is pummeled under both our ‘weights, With her eyes closed, she bends her head to my shoulder, Then I feel her teeth dig into my neck, (On instinet my hand comes up and slaps her. She eries out. “Tm sony,” she says. “Please, Please, Hold sill ‘She draws her legs farther out for leverage. Sffening, relaxing, then quivering in seizures, she passes her heat to me. Though she is far from tired my hands are numb so I give he fre reign, She uses the bull of her feet to pivot om the td floor. ‘Sweat glistens on her legs and she looks down at ime. She is trying to tell me something, I shake my head. I could barely car her above the noise. She takes ry fave with both her hands and whispers. There is a ridiculously serious one in her voi. [ waned to kaugh but she puts a finger, it nil ikea knife, on my lips to silence me “What ae you saying?” She shushes me. “I'm praying.” In answer I grip her waist to speed us up then close my eyes. ean feel gusts of wind andl faint tolling ke rmuifled bells There isan acute pain in my back and I ‘new she had raked her nails there. Her legs ate now at right angles withthe erook of my arms and she i sobbing ‘openly, her cries a pitch higher Climax approaches ikea io an angelic amy, flock ‘of bats, and falling confetti. Christ, give my thanks to the Sint and his land's women for coming am T. She is kissing me very fast, spreai and spit on my face from ear to mouth to eat. Sweat falls from her chin to my chest and plunges down the furrow ther Tramytntsdomonervoim CHRIST. GIVE deer Tenemiyar paces MY THANKS TO Sitetinewse obmebat geste THE SANT AND HIS ISLAND'S WOMEN FOR COMING HERE ‘When am able to unstick my ids all Jean see are bine and black stars. “What were you praying for? ask ‘Look at me" she says, easing ‘Then I know her prayer. There fs Liza before me sll doing gisping labor. Her wings flapping, oF rather whooshing in the small expanse of the balheoom. So long are they that they touch the opposite ends of the wall, railing alter-images of ochre and magenta in my blurred sight. ‘Where are the wires? What is wrong with the scene? Her alitter blue dress les in aneap around her waist and though the lisht i scarce I can see her hands on my shoulders, her wings flapping in the recently heated sir ‘without Support. wires oF sraps. She is touehing my face, “The wounds on my back are pulsing and my throat unlocks. am aware of her powerful grip on my shoulder, her nails have mate new wounds there even as she licks ihe blood off her other hand. F groan atthe pain. try to slap her hand away bat my arms are too tired, too heavy. ‘The red dribble om her chin fll o her lp, spots of red ‘onthe golden skin of her thighs. Theie meaning I can't possiiy fathom. Her wings are five-feet long each, lapping like muffled bells, touching the darkened spaces ofthe ‘athroom. “This is the Feas and the prayer.” she sys Heer delicate face is frowming in mock seriousness, koking asifshe's having some argument about what to wear, She Tooks upto the ceiling." give thanks, my Lord ‘They flap mightily, her wings carrying us tothe ceiling unt an fel the seat cover anymore, The hive deess slinks dovn her legs then drops tothe floor. She wraps, her legs around my waist and her arms around my neck. ‘The para drowns me out. My arms are pine to the side. look up just in time to see the light bul shatter with the mighty force of her wing. The shards of els fall in arain of bright shrapnel “There sa prayer in the air, hundkeds of voives ‘mouthing a chant and its counterpoint. Tick 2 heat close asa lovers breath it moves witout hesitation, Tach my back trying eat its meaning to discern its mesage above the clamor in this, the height of our imcimacy. FHM Asteone Storsdloge & FaniailagStuehigacuu Flew blaine Downie Thus POP ian NMA ANNETE ‘Rolling in the muck is not the best way to get clean’ PHOTOGRAPHY: DR. MARLON PECIO; NIERVEW. CHARMAINE Z. CHANCO SSIVUNG: TANIA MENZIES; MAKE UP: DIANA DE CASTRO; HAIR: ALLAN BACINA; CLOTHES: MOSSIMO Fist oft Tell us something we should know about you. changes with each day-—- spontaneous, oval, introverted, extroverted, an the list goes on. I'm wit they talk about in boks you haven rea. Does that make sense? Haha What's keeping you busy? Allsorts of stuf, changing passions, planning escapes, and Inissing lovers What's youridea of a fun night? Any night out in Manila with my closest gitfiends, a Pale Plsn in my lft hand, an Amarstto Sour in my right hand, and dance-worthy music, ‘And for some down time... ‘Maybe some shy singing. memorable revelry, much travel impulsive shopping fine dining, writing, and reading. Where can we find you usually? TFrvall over the place, When I'm in Ayala Alabang, probably Tbe in bed or inthe pool In Makati, Thang out ‘in Cuisine, nd Street, Fianima or Ascend, If Tim not here could be in Singapore or Los Angeles. We're quessing you're a night ow. On. can you drink in one night? ‘Quite afew'T would imagine. Neturlly, I lose count of Beverages consumed after a certain point. Ha ha hal Ever got drunk and ended up making out with stranger? Haven't we all? As for the second part, I don’ sce the sense in regretting past things. Rolling inthe muck is not the best, sway to get clean, Haha! 'S0 what type of guy deserves your attention? Someone with a good fashion sense, Usually, check out at hes wearing Ars So's is sens of se tha | notice frst ferage, how much and ithe doesn’t seem to notice you? ‘Fhe Tl make the fst move, lean stand waiting Way not ty fring fst? ‘Yes that's what Ido. T make eye contact, Then approach them and just make genuine conversation You seem like someone who knows what she wants, What ‘gots you In the mood?” Intellect isa must. The ability to make me lnigh, Creativity ko, namely in art and music. What ean’ ake are ignorance and dlless ‘You looked incredibly hot in the shoot. How did you do it? 1 actualy crank a couple of rum cokes before the shoot just to boost my confidence, Haha. Otherwise Pd have ben extremely nervons ‘Was thore a moment when you actually flt really sonsual? Sure, Doing & shoot like tha how could you not?! Haha. Can you tll us the most exciting make-out session you've ‘experienced? 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Part ofa collection he had Pen on teeta es eee ae Pec cries Rem n ess eerie en Len eed Pe Lee ‘Dawn was jst a fist tint of purple hue inthe sky. ee ene eee see ea beige Honda Civie with its engine running to keep the ait eer ee ere ee [aes teen O} Gre AL NLS CTS ce eS Cente eg ce een en) eres ey Pee RY are eee a See nn ae ead eo Hee gently laid down the knife and drummed his fingers ee em eee UE seek oa Reg Seen ae ne ge Soren a ret ee ee cee ee es Parking lot, her presence snapping his attention like a OEsect ‘Sonahiege.can - Free Kiazeenee Downises b Thus POE rubber band. He couldn't have looked sway even if he wanted to. He sheathed the knife, slipping its ie cord around his neck. He opened the door of his car. Immediately the nights summer heat steeped him in his own sweat. He stepped out, reeched out for a paper bag from the back. From the comer of his eye, he watched her come closer ‘When the gic passed by the front of his cat—she was texting on her cell phone, a hand covering her black leather bag protectivel)—he straightened and, bag in hand, nonchalantly approached her. ‘She didn even look up. ‘Then arate of wings swept from the night air, seemingly coming from nowhere. Stalled, the worms, tumed to look up. “What the fuck’? le was gone by that time, back tothe safety of the shadows of the parking lot le hated being distracted, hated it when he was diverted from his goal. Bat that yas ll ight. He had the patience of ‘chopping block. Jack Jove the call amterindistry, its insular werd fall ‘cides manned by bobbing, maicmaring heads. He loved the nournal generation that was slowly rowing up under the baleful glare of the flues lamps and the wan Fight of the mca, He enjoy how they drank themelves dry from the wee ours ofthe mening day until noon, slesping through the aflernom craw of the sun acras the sky, ely to Fise ‘agin at evening's cil like the unde. ‘Alter all, they came cat at night whem he did ‘what he did best His office ID read Jonethan Santillan but that wasn't his real name. He preferred the name Jack Estranghero [yas the only name he knew. “Hi, Jon,” sid Ivy with a shy smile, Ivy was under him, part of the team handling the corporate account of Emerson Exceutive and based on the 17th flor, She was fa gents in marketing strategy. Unfortunately, she wasn ‘much to look at, mousy to the point of squeakiness. ‘He knew she had a terrible crush on him, He thought it was cute, her fration on him. He had managed to wrap her around his finger by fucking her on a group outing 10 Boracay and then never talking about it asin “Evening, vy.” he sai, “Is everyane here already Um, except for Mike,” she suid. “He reported in sick today. “That's his tied absence already. can't keep covering for him, you know.” he sid, putting a hint of exasperation in his voice. “Obs, Eto him that" Ivy said quickly had cold” He shrugged and gave her a quirk ofa smile, as iit was the only one he could spare, Isy's return smile vas enthusiastic and akmost painful to se. “Tell him again, okay?” “L will,” she suid. Almost a caress, he flicked away a lone strand of hair from her check and heard he hiss her breath. He remembered that night in Boracay standing raked with an erection before her in his room, nt he said he e remembered taking of her shorts ut leaving on her fon the balcony railing, He remembered entering her from bebind, hee mouth making only mewn sounds es she tried not to atret the TALK WAS Afterwards, he remembered holding UNAVOIDABLE her in his arms, his mind detached from wnat he wis doing av she cried. He was | ewe CENTER WORLD have to killer afterwards, But he dii' He looked into he eyes and he knew she was also remembering that night clevators without a word or backward glance. He pressed the up button. ont" Ramon, holding hands as they approached. He nodded them. ‘Wete going down for a bite to eat at Jack's Loft,” Des pushed the down button. “Want to join us?” e tried hard not to Kt the two men sce his grimace. Des avoided work without being obvious about it while Ramon had forced most of thei tears to quit the company: "The two defended their management sige as driven. He ‘woul have loved to have them for ome night, but no the ‘oversized shirt o cary her in bis arms and bend her over "utention ofthe pecpe passing below them. IN THE CALL vworndering idly atthe time if he would ee turned abruptly and headed towards the bank of He turned around to see the two managers Des and ssid with a sly grin. Ramon petulantly ignored him 28 he kept petty grudges. He knew both hada nasty streak that vray they expected. TI pass.” he said Suit yourself,” Des said, Ramon leaned to him and they both laughed. Fucking fagsts, he thought. He knew the whispers shout him: handsome, clen-looking, but passionate as ‘cold marble, He knew a number of the women—as well asthe homoseswals ike Des and Ramon—at the office ‘wanted him badly “Talk was unavoidable in the call center word He knew all about it, who was fucking who, which ‘employee was seeping with which manager. Sometimes he ‘watched the camers when the guards were way froen the Sccurity oom, studying the couples who thought they had found privacy in some oul-of-the-way room, eid ako gotten a copy of the electronic key that gave him acess to sbsohitely anywhere in the who building. He new where all the couples hiding places were. Sometimes he ‘watched without the ners knowing he was there, "The doors slid open and he stepped inside the wall-c- wall mirrored elevator to find someone ele already on the ‘She was pretty but not beauifl, not someone men would go eri for. Dressed in conservative corporate attire that he thought subtly revealed her figure no matter what she did, she was carrying a number of Files that threatened to oversselm her “ello.” he said. She gave him a glance, nodded and ‘went back to looking a the elevator doors. He did the some, studying her reflection with a frank appraisal ‘Then the inevitable happened: the files dropped from her white-knuckled grip. Aslsoos: ShoraMings & Fantail”‘Sioelaga.com Res igmnine Ooi te Tus POE fous Puta” she said as she kneeled sideways to stem the avalanche of white paper and yellowing folders, (Quickly, he knelt to help her gather up the papers, inadvertently brushing her hand several times. He couldn't help noticing her firm round butt stretch her skirt and her blouse dipping to reveal a lace bra. Let me help you.” he sad, his voice loud in the closeness ofthe elevator. Nol... mean, Fm fine, Don't worry about i." she ssid Both of them stood up. each with an untidy pile of receipt forms and current account sheets. He stepped forward, trapping her agains the elevator wall as he shifted his ple on top of hers. Her breath smelled of mint leaves, her hair of cts, and her neck a faint wisp of Tommy Hilfiger. He leaned even closer, mashing the ils against er that he thought he could feel her breasts against the sheaves of papers and cardboard Here you are. I hope you don't mind,” he said as he looked straight into her eyes. She looked back at him with strange ight in her eyes. “The doors opened at the 21* loor—his stop, the Hoor \where his office was, he had to remind himself, He twned away and stepped outside As he walked away, he rubbed his tongue against the back oF his teeth, as if he could still taste the ae of hee presence. ‘Theres a beat between the jump and the fll, where ne is nite cne nr the ctr Jock fat that vay When he was hunting. Beire the fil, be et sall—insignitiont eve, But whan be started the hunt, when be lead ver the ledge and steppe into that ays. Tt ns then bef ikea go. One with blely bands Jack Found out that her name was Delia Jesamyo Guevara and she was part ofa select team on the 23" floor, an account that Was top rated and high-end but so small that its members were a tight-knit, close group, Looking ack ait, he was surprised to have caught her by her lonesome in the elevator as members ofthat group traveled in a pack or in paits. But somehow it never happened again no matter how long he prowled the 28° oor. Tt didnt help that what he thought was the alpha male of their group, a slight young man named Jared a pretty boy with dark eyes and a permanent sneer on his lips, kept a watchful guard over her: Bur he Woukd also feel Deliah's dark eyes on him \whenever he would find a reason—any reason—to be fn the 25" floor and he would catch hee walking in the corridor. Which was why he kept going despite the unsettling feeling he got whenever he weot there. Strangely enough, the cartidors on the 23" floor were somehow less wel lt and is shadows longer than usual for an office that never slept. Hoy! Tkaw! What ae you doing here? You're not supposed to be here.” He looked up and saw a mean Joking fae. He did not recognize this guard: he didnot think he was 2 guard at all except forthe Fact that he was dressed like one, in a Barong Tagalog and an earphone wire dangling from the side of his he "You don't have an ID for this floor,” said the man. He only looked at the guard and thought idly how it would feel to have is teeth on his neck. “The man hesitated, said, "I'm afraid you can't stay her.” en est didn saying the aug gpa Stee coer) domiansovnibo-Rewspaimste KING THE none Raised his ait nd went NOMEN; FIRST sntogohont, bese Daan eens VVITH HIS HAND, AND THEN sacmnvacanetie "WITH KNIVES Tmoeing he ough oo ee Suse ica rasta Taig etnias lnecioudibe down to go home, he saw Della leaving er lace stayed long in his mind that he dn’ go back to knife around his neck. With her Friends, While the group was his lonely apartment yet Insenl he went out and took is sweet pcp were to jug Jak’ lite befire he started his real ch ble eeu realizad his eal name, they ‘cul find nehing of vale that would say: This Was el. He hacl a normal cbildhood, loving parents, and 8 preted innocence. People would say that he was 8 beautiful ld, a mestizo-cheeked derubi cots in fesh, But behind the fagade was nothingnes: He Could, Net. Fed. Anything. Growing up, this dferece set him apart fram the rest ofthe Weld, This ia brcught solidly home when he start dating—and having sex-—with women sho ‘were enamered with his cld beauty. He started killiag the omen; ist with his hanes, tnd than With Knives. A‘ be started eating them. Tt ‘ss then he realizad that ith this—at least—he fet tinge of ree Tt was when he discovered the secret access door 10 ‘hidden observation deck between the 22"! and 23" floors that things started getting exciting for Jack. ‘At the time, he had noticed the mean-looking security ‘guard walking corridors of the 20" floor. This was the frst time he had seen the man on this evel He studied the man. The guard was taking his time wandering the corridor’ as i he was looking for someone, ‘Then the man stopped before a group of women: he saw Delilah was part of the group. ‘The guard addressed the young woman, Delilah looked irked then nodded, She said Something to her companions before she went off with the guard His curiosity piqued, he followed. The guard led her to the stairway, opened it and motioned for Delilah to follow. ‘She wavered for-a moment before following. The door closed behind them, Releooe Storalags & Fanbikag‘Sioelaga.com Res igmnine Ooi te Tus POE fous He counted for five seconds before he opened the door and stepped inside. Inside the stairwell, he peeked to see the two climbing up the stairs. He followed quietly, his leather shoes noiseless on the tiled steps. He heard them talking: “What does Jared want with ime anyway?” ‘don't know, ma'am.” the guard sai. ‘Yon didn’t ask bin?” He didn't say anything ma‘am, ‘You don't know anything, no?” ‘No ma'am. ‘The two reached the 22% floor but instead of stopping, the guard led her past it to another door halfway to the 23% floor that had a sign that read "Security Personnel Only. “The man opened it with an electronic Key and w inside, together with Delilah He did't know there was another door between the 2" and 254 floors. He had never seen the door before. and he had used this route far more times than he coud count. After waiting for twenty seconds, he used his own electronic key to open the door. Pushing the door forward, he Was shocked to find the open night sky hove him, the stars bright despite the yellaw glow from the strets and buildings below. The hamity was almost bearable at this height though he stil fl perspiration dew on his arm ater the coolness ofthe office airconditioning “That was when he discovered the bloody feast before him. Jack had alvays thought that he was the enly ene. ‘Oh, he Knew there were others like him allover the ‘werd, Especially in the US with their fascination fe those dark gids who hid ameng mortals and took the sarifioes they Knew was their right He had watched the movies and the television shows listened to the songs and rend the books. He knew what they were called: Crazies, Mass ‘murderers. Psychopaths. Serial killers. Bt net in this cunty, he thought. He had never encountered any of his kind before But now he Knew there were mensters that deemed the night their hunting round. Like him, they appeared to be hun, But that ws the oaly thing similar about them ‘Standing in the shadows of the door, lack didnot breathe ashe vatched the feeding He recopnized the three before him they were all part of Delia's group on the 23" floor He aso recognized the banguet lying on the concrete deck, her body masticated and eviscerated in several pars He thought of lvyand how he wookd never find hee fixation on him amusing again. This somehow made him ang. ‘She was ming, he thought. Sarrounding the body were three figures crouching over her, eating their fil. All of them were naked, all male. His foot nudged something and he saw a shoe. It ‘was then he noticed clothes neatly piled to one side- they didn’ want to get any blood on their elothes. ‘Thea one of the men Stood up and he recognized Jared, slim and lithe, a six-pack abdomen and muscular arms. His grin was bloody as he waved to Delilah and ign Sado ethos of he dose ‘Rincon Toa len” “Tine Yo edn forth” Delt shore p or aig re ne hinge ae at ste batik ur pi wed si sry aA en al pun ae ssa ays an his naked, bloodied chest SURROUNDING Sebclstany et dint syantane. THE BODY WERE ma iat panttcniesines Nt THEE FIGURES Wremhadoutatindsndexeset — CROUCHING neck Setrepnd Hepa Smoot binmingeteeh Mea, OVER HER, Suiqnacd enn oametsing EATING THER FILL Ste ogi eee Dali Wer a sett raced te say ik dow ingen ote the og Stating wp Bel endo Te ie esa em ate ing at He secur an capone oer eat hs owe "Charen 0 hrm pring tk ike nna erg oe An vost etn a pony te at ashy han eouh. 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The guard wats obviously vundecided even as he held his gun out. Delilah was ‘watching. hang "This image almost got him killed then, distracted him when Jared lished out with his tongue, ts whipcord strength ripping his shir and desing Jack grimaced. When Jared tied to hit him again wi ts tongue, 1 he grabbed it with one hand—and SCORPION’ despite the fierce pain blossoming in his pam, like rubbing a sandpaper like snake—and eut a part of i off with his knife. Jared screeched snd his bleeding tongue snapped back, his hands holding is mouth i pai, Ti was easy enough then to stick the knife into Jared's ye to shut him up permanently. Afterwards, it was quiet and Jack turned tothe guard and Delia Raising his sun though his hand was shaking badly the guard suid, “Hang kang sen Jack looked at him for a moment and ssi his frst words since he stepped onto the deck: “T wonder how your eyeballs taste hike.” "That was enough for the guard, who raise his gum to fie, Jack threw the knife and tumbled into the st to sink hhome hlt-fst into dhe man’s throat. With a gurl the guard fell on the round, his blood combining with Ivy's ‘And there was only Delia SMe laughed then, the sound lke the paltering of children’s fet on the pavement. Then se walked forward and kissed him, her tongue—a normallength one, he thought atthe back of his mind—thrusting against his 3s ifshe wanted to taste the blood lst in hit. He clutched at her, ripping of her blouse and feeling her braccovered breasts aginst his ches. She moaned, ‘sid in his mouth, “Tkiew you were differen. knew i er hands clawed the rags of his shiet and let furrows in is back that made him hiss in pain, In return, he hitched up her skit to fel soft legal the way to her panies He stated to roll it down and she helped him by raising one leg and then the other. ‘With one gesture. he threw her panties behing hie “Jared was an idiot. He didn't know..." she sai, her ‘breath hitching in her ibroat as he eft bite-sized nips on hher neck. “What T sa. When Hooked at you." Her hand reached dow to the front of his pants and felt the stretching bulge. She sid witha smile. “But 1 new you were the one forme. ‘With that, she unzipped his fly and took his erection in her hand to guide tt her. She gasped. He stated {husting, pumping in her, slamming her against the decks ruling behind her even as he held her leg up for beter position ‘She kissed him agin, asi she was trying to suck everything inside him through his mouth "That was when he heard a ripping sound an fe something brush his hand holding the back of her neck. He openci his eyes to sce dark wings before him, sprouting from her back. The hand he was using to hold he les up switched to her waist and he felt the tear there stretching from one sce and all the way arownd her torso. ‘She laughed, embraced him with bots arms and beat her wings. "They lew upward and he felt his penis slip out of her legs as they left it behind. As they flew upward into the hot night ait, he heard her say against his neck, “How do you like me now. lover-boy. He said, “Have you ever heard of the tale of the scorpion and the frog” ‘She looked a him blankly and he memorized those yes thal bud etched itself in his desire for her. Then he slammed his head against her face, making her seream and release his arms sill pinned by hers. Before he Could fll, he grabbed her by the neck with one hand and with the other hand, proceeded to pall out et entrails ‘She screamed again, raking her nals on Jack's chest even as her wings faltered re said, his calm voice a counterpoint to her pained struggles: “Don't ever tus! the nalare of a scorpion.” "Then they both fll fo the sky. What is dite? Desite is nod and want. It is Hunger, herve, desire is ppetite tis eating ‘shat yar vant Fer me this is my nature The woicdess, nameless vile inside me that scmetimes grants mercy but mest ofthe time wants blond to sve it, fem. Trementer the flktale ofthe sxxpicn that wanted to cross the river, and stung the free without regard baaune it was in its nature todo so, And [empathize with the srxpicn: why should Ines todung: my nature? Besiuse I am illrent fram ‘what everyone says I should be? ‘Why should Ibe. normal? ‘That is why when Took my ams T also tok any place cutside hammonity, a strange to the rules of sccety. As the sang sres— pleased to mech, ope yeu ics my name, Tk was quiet om the deck ofthe building except forthe distant honking sound of care and the revving engines of passing jeepneys on the C-S strip. And then a hand raised ise’ up from the edge ofthe deck and Jack Estranghero pulled himself forward on the floor of the deck. Breathing heavily, he lay onthe deck fora while, looking up at the stars. Then he grimaced and with a sudden slacrty he put himself inside his pants and Zipped himself up. He propped himself up and looked ft the four bodies lying beside him Intersting he thought. He remembered what red said, of how there had been others of bis kind who bd ben killed. He smiled, not knowing he was doing so. 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He swerved alittle nd, though rot intending to, put the car into a short drift bore stabilizing He felt the adrenaline rush to his head, clarity winning cover the buze as his driving skills took over It was only tafler a few seconds that Jonas noticed he'd heen holding his breath, He took a deep breath then exhaled, He realized they were gone. The hiceups were gone. He smiled again and leughed. With the windows rolled down, he stick his head out and let out a “Woot!” He relaed, held the wheel with fone hind while he smoothed his hair back with his kt hand, ‘ He bad relmed, and when Jonas’ body tensed with that last hiccup, his arm jerked toa se and the car drove into a deep pothole, From there the car seemed to jap. Tnstead of biting the brakes, his font went dawn on the gs and all Jonas could feel was a tumbling sensation before he blacked out Jonas knew where he was but, atthe same time, he didn’t. Moments earber he wes speeding away from a party but he had no idea what he vas driving to. ‘He couldn't reall crawling from the wreck, but he found himself on a curbside, There were no paramedics, He dil not find this unusual In fat, though he had been in a terrible car accident, he fel no urgency or fear. There was a calmness he could not exp, ‘ons tried to lift his head, That was when he felt it 1 was lke a raging ocean in his head, vicious waves ‘wracking his mind, Twas as if it had somehow become lunghied. He imagined someone standing above htm, shaking his sal the brain sloshing around. He fll over gain. He could not sayit was an out-of-body experience. It \was something Jonas was not equipped to describe. He oul think of appliances in is homte that might emulate ‘what his mind hal been through. The blender came to sind the quickest, bt the juicer might be more apt ‘There was something there, something picking through his brain, sifting, separating, extracting. He definitely felt 1 separation. Then it was a vacuum, a suklden rush, and all these things that were separated found themselves together agai. Tons lay om the street. He rolled onto his belly. tempting to craw. He thought of checking himself for blood, wounds, broken bones, but the impulse to crawl to the eurb superseded everything. ‘She was atthe curb. He became avure of her when he got s hold of her lowing dress. His fingers brushed gains the hem, and he looked up and ssw her. Held tlvays loved the look of well-kept feet. With the ureck behind hima and his body and mind that could be simirly described, her feet were the fist sign that there was sil beauty in his world Tis eyes crept from her preity toes in flip-lops up to her smooth Jong legs that met just enough to keep her summer dress closed. Though she was sitting, he could make out the curves that delined her body. It was no time tobe checking outa girl, but with a sample like this he ‘coulda't help bimsclt ‘When he finally sw her face it was as ihe had forgotten the accident, the pain, everything. [twas as if there was this sudden rush, this euphoria that came over him He could not describe er. In fac, he stumbled to She sed down at him asf she had jst noticed him fying thereon the eh Stesmoothed cu somecremesonker — VWVHEN HE dress and inva moment in nquck ash, — FINALLY SAW heats aghimpse of er pans. They LED FP VANS reminded fone of his fir giitiend, the AS [F HE HAD. ‘ne he frst had sex with, Se was wearing panies ike his fst gitfiend did when FORGOTTEN they did ifr the fis time He crvld towards ber He fek'no TIF PANY tobe near her, as ither presence would EVERY THING > bel him ofall he had been through, The {il held her arms Out him, drew hi to her and put His head in er lp. She stroked his hae “Joni looked into her face. He felt that he could ie submerged in something comfortable and sothing ‘overtook him and he almost moaned in plssare ws she stoked his hair st the ve "That vas x del breaker, how many women had he left became they had figured out how to sroke his bai ‘As this feeling of please washed over hin, he had the ed sensation that he was home or atest a home in er arms, The cub, the sidewalk, the car crs, all oft seemed to blur and disolve as he sare up into her face. He knew be had never met her before, and yet he felt he face, bute knew they bad shad something THe tied to think back, o classmates to old fends, to people he'd met at parties. The question then came to him, and though i was one that he had never asked another person before, seemed the one that she would "Yes, mas, many times, vena been yours. You can have me whenever you vai.” Like now? She iy down and beckoned him. When he approached her he found tht he could move normaly, began Kissing er. Her tong snaked into his mouth. She exuded an innocence tha contrasted with n tanad technique Her body moved just he wanted, as were wholly inllesbE to fis every whim, He Tel er legs wrapping int he. “ona et tha every inc of his boy was being plsured bythe act. Heth ino her and dhe moaned tnd sruched his bac. She screamed his nae and be thst harder, wating her fo scream der. He wanted her find words to describe her beauty. I lft him dumbstruck. were innocent white cotton panties. They THE ACCIDENT, more pain and instead found this impetus there staring up at her face forever. The feeling of being that way? had known her forever He coukdn't put a name to the answer: “Have we ever made love before?” move aif there'd been no accident. He approached and around his back. She held his nape as she pushed him to beg for more and just ashe though it she hegan begsing ”Bier cyeesiconSuddenly she locked her legs around him and with them threw him to the ground. No woman had ever done this to im, but he'd imagined one doing it to him many times. “Mmm. 1 lke it when girls get a ttle rough.” “T know.” she said as she plunged him into her With one strong thrust. As she pumped, Jonas felt oversihelmed, a if he could no longer control his body. It was as if she had taken over and she was doing everything she wanted to with him, He would willingly give up to her for this kind of pleasure. Her rhythm Was perfect, building him towards climax. She screamed and grabbed him and stared into his eyes "You see, Jonas?T give it to you like you want it Pall yours and Tl do anything for you. Anything. AIL want is to be yours and yours alone.” “Where have you been all my ife? Where did you come from? “Te always been with you. I was yout first 1 never left you. Not lke all the others?” “Though she was sill pumping and plssuring him, the answer give Jonas pause. "Fist? But tht was Tin "Yes, Jonas,” and when he looked up he saw that her face had changed to Tin’s, Jonas felt himself ‘oing limp even as the woman pumped away. Her face morphed. changed in front of him as if he was watching an old Michael Jackson video: the faces changed and he recognized each and every face, each and every conquest. "I was your first, 1 was every gil ‘you were with, That’s why T wonder, why did you have to look elsewhere?” ‘A tone of malice took hold of her voice. All the comfort and pleasure of a moment ago were replaced by a dark sense of foreboding, As the tone ‘of their lovemaking darkened, Jonas noticed that their surroundings followed suit. ‘The street, the buildings. everything had disappeared and in thei stead he sav a background that Delonged in contemporary art display of abstract desolation. The colors were dark and dreary browns and grays with hortific splashes of orange and red. Everything seemed suspended in motion, frozen in the ai waiting for some consummation that never came. She pounded down on his penis that had gone limp. She held him down and kept pumping on him. “You, you alvays have your other women, Why do you have to leave me for them? give you everything you want. ‘why? She kept pumping and she twisted her pelvis, “Though he was already limp that twist caused Jonas to ithe. When he lifted himsef up she pushed! him back down and drove her nails into his shoulders, Heer eyes were wild now, the whites almost gone ‘rom them. They were obsidian orbs that were flere in their blackness, as if that blackness threatened to engl hin "You pretend that you don’t know me, Jonas You've always had me. You bastard!” Her nals pierced his flesh, When she fet that Jonas had stopped moving, stopped fighting she said, “Don't you understand? I'm yours and you're mine.”