IREGRETSAYI

NGIDO

I
NSERT1

HereIam l
yi
ngont hebedwitht
earsflowing
fr
om thecor
ner
sofmyey esasIrecal
lwhathe
sai
dtomey est
erday,thenameshecal l
edme.

Whatdididotodeser
vesuchcruel
treat
ment
fr
om him,t
hemanIcal l
myhusband?Godwhy
can'
tyouhearmyprayersandgi
vemeasonso
Icanmakemyhusbandhappy ? 
Iwasdist
urbedbymyr
ingi
ngphone,
itwasmy
fr
iendZama. 
Me:
hel
l
ow[
Isai
dinal
owVoi
ce]
Her
:heywhat
'swr
ong?Ar
eyoucr
ying?
Me:nahIj
ustwokeupfr
om myaf ter
noonnap[
I
l
ied,mymom sai
dIshouldn'
ttel
lpeopl
eabout
what
shappeni
ngI
nmymar
ri
age.
.Notev
en
f
ri
ends]
Her:
ohIwasjustchecki
ngupony
ou,
don'
tyou
wannagoout
? 
Me:
nott
odaychom I
'
m notf
eel
i
ngv
erywel
l
. 
Her
:okaydeart
ell
mewheny
ouf
ine 
Me:
wil
ldo[
wesai
dourgoodby
esandhungup]
Isl
owlygotupf r
om t hebed.
.Iwenttot
he
ki
tchen,Ihadtostartcooki
ngbecausemy
husbandwi l
lbeheresoon.

AsIwasst i
ll
busychoppi
ngtheveget
abl
es
whenIheardthedooropeni
ng.
.Iimmedi
atel
y
fel
tfearcr
eepingi
n. 
Hegoti
nwi
thhi
sbr
iefcase.
 
Me: goodaft
ernoonmyeni
wam [Hejustlooked
atmeandpassed, hedi
dn'
tbot
hergr eet
ingme
back,butt
henawhyam Isurpr
ised?]
Hewentupstair
stoourroom thenlat
ercame
backweari
ngshotsandaT- shi
rt.
.thi
sguyhas
abodytodieforbutwi
thhisstinki
ngatt
it
ude
youcannevernoti
ce.
. 
Hi
m:wher
e'smyf
ood?
 
Me:I'
m sti
l
lcooki
ng.
.shoul
dImakey
oua
sandwichwhi
leyouwait
? 
Him:asandwich?Hav
ey oueverseenme
eati
ngasandwichbef
ore?Don'tpi
ssmeoff
pl
ease.[
Ilookdownandplaywithmyfi
nger
s]
We'vebeenmarr
iedf
ortwoyear
snowandI
don'
trememberthel
astt
imewewerehappy
,
l
ikegenui
nel
yhappy.
 
Hi
m: theonlythingyouknowistosleepthe
wholedayandspendi ngmymoneyonusel ess
t
hings..y
ouareuselessman! !
[hecli
ckedhis
t
ongueandwal kedout]Idon'
tevenknowwhyI
marri
edy ounxn. 
Thi
si swhatIhav
etodeal
wit
hev
ery
day
..t
hese
hur
tfulwords.
 
Noonet oldmet hatmar
ri
agewi
llbethishard.
.
theonl
yt hingmymom t oldmei
st hatdiv
orce
i
sn'taoption..Ishoul
dbestr
ongandf acemy
probl
emsasawoman.

Wel
lmynamei
sOmuhleKhumal
oand26and
mar
ri
edt
oBongani
Zul
uwhois30year
s..
Wal
kwit
hmyaweasItakeyouthr
ought
he
j
our
neyofourt
oxi
cmar
ri
age..
[
05/
06,
11:
34]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT2

myal ar
mr i
ngs,di
stur
bingmefrom mysl
eep.
.I
reachouttr
yingtol
ocatethephonewi
thmy
eyessti
llcl
osed.
 
Hi
m:Swi
tchthatf
uckenthi
ngoffi
t'
sdi
stur
bing
me[y
es,
Justli
kethatmydaybegi
ns]
Igetoffthebedandwalkt
othebat
hroom ,
Ido
mybusi nesst
henwashedmyfaceaft
er
brushi
ngmyt eet
h. 
Itakeoutmyhusbandsclot
hesandi
ront
hem
beforemaki
nghisbreakf
ast.
 
WellIam ahousewi
fe,t
hatissomethi
ngI
neverwantedbutt
henagainImarri
edaZulu
mansoIhadnochoi cebuttoobeyandsubmit
tohim. 
"
Omuhl
e!!
!" 
Heyel
lsf
rom upst
air
sandIi
mmedi
atel
yknow
t
hatI'
minshi
t. 
Iquickl
yruntoourbedroom.He'
sstandi
ngnext
tothemi r
rorwi
ththeshir
tIj
usti
roned.
 
Me:
myeni
wam?
Hi
m:whatthehel
lIst
his?
[Il
ookeddown,I
di
dn'
tknowwhattosaycozIsawnothi
ng
wr
ongwi
tht
heshi
rt
.]
Him: can'
tyouseet
hisshi
rti
sdi
rt
y?Arey
ou
thatdumbt haty
oucan'
tseewhensomet
hing
ain'
tclean?
 
Me:
I'
m sor
rymy
eni
wam 
Him:t
hatal
lyouknow,
say
ingsor
ry.
.goand
i
ronanot
hershi
rt
.

Ihurri
edtohi scloset
,grabbedanot hershir
tand
wentt oir
oni t
..Igaveittohim, hetookit
withoutsayingthanky ou.Wear eyoungbutwe
l
iveal i
feofa60y earoldcouple,Ihadtokneel
downev erytimeIser vehimf ood.Anywayshe
atehisbreakfastandleft.Idi
dal lmychoresin
thehouse, t
hent ookashower .
 
Iwasgoingtovisi
tmymom,I'
vemissedher
andIj
ustwannagetoutoft
hishouse.
.get
somefreshair
. 
Iwor
emymaxi
dresswi
thpumpsandst
yled
myhair
..I
'
m notr
eall
yafanofmakeupsoIj
ust
appl
i
edpondsandleft
. 
Myhusbandi
sanati
onal
l
yrecogni
zedbusi
ness
mansoheboughtmeacarandhegivesmean
al
l
owanceofR30000amonth. 
IknowmostofyoumightenvymebutI'
dgi
ve
all
thi
supj
usttohav
ehi sti
meandlove.
AnywaysIdrov
eintot
hey ar
d.Mom i
ssi
tti
ng
undert
hetreewit
hherfr
iendMaMzobe.

Igetof
fthecarandwal
kupt
othem.
 
Me:
Sani
bonani
 
Mymom st
andsupandat
tacksmewi
thahug.
Her
:ohmychi
l
dI'
vemi
ssedy
ou 
Me:I
'
vemissedy
outoomom [
MaMzobei
s
l
ooki
ngatussmi
li
ng]
Zobe:sohowismar
ri
ageMuhle?Icanseey
ou
gl
owing[Ismi
l
eshyl
y,i
fonl
yshenew]
Mom:
phel
ashe'
sswimminginthemoneynow
[
mymom l
i
kestobr
agthough]
Me:mom don'
texagger
ate.
..Marr
iagei
s
t
reat
ingmewellma,I'
m happy 
Zobe:youknowIwishmydaught
ercanfi
nda
ri
chmant oo.
.I'
mjustt
ir
edofeat
ingpapand
cabbageevery
day 
Mom:
shamekuzol
ungamnganami
 
Zobe:
ail
etmeleavey ouguys,
Muhlei
twas
ni
ceseei
ngagain.
.pleasedon'
tbeast
ranger
[
befor
eIcanevenreplymymom cutsi
n]
Mom: nono..amarri
edwomanshoul dstayat
herhouseandtakecareofherhusband.
.she
can'
tbebusyroamingthestr
eets[Ir
ollmyeyes
andwalkinsi
dethehouse]

Af
terawhi
l
eshewal
ksi
n. 
Mom: ohI'
m gl
ady oucameMumu.
.youint
his
houseIhavenot
hingbutwat
er[
wel
lthat
'
smy
mom f
ory
ou,
alway
sinneedofmoney
]
Me:
I'
ll
giv
eyoumoneyf
orgr
ocer
iesmom 
Mom:
ohMumuy
ousuchal
i
fesav
er.
 
Me:
canIst
ayher
eforf
ewday
s? 
Mom:
what
?NO!
!!
 
Me:
mom pl
easehearmeout
 
Mom: NoOmuhle,y
ouaremarri
edandy ou
shouldal
waysst
aywit
hyourhusband..
.who
wil
ltakecar
eofhi
m whenyouhere? 
Me:mamaplease.
..[
Iwasnowcr
ying]I
'
m not
happyt
her
e 
Mom:youdon'
tneedtobehappyOmu,
youj
ust
needt
odoyouwifel
yduti
es.

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IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO
I
NSERT3

I
'
m nowdrivi
ngbackhome,t
earscan'
tst
op
f
lowi
ng.
.I'
m evenhav
ingdi
ff
icul
ti
esseei
ngt
he
r
oad.
 
Ican'
tbel
ievemyownmot herwoulddomel i
ke
that
,Imeanshedidn'
tevenli
stentome..she
j
ustkeptontell
i
ngmet hatIshoul
dalways
makesuremyhusbandi shappyorel
seot her
womenout si
dewil
ldothejobforme. 
Youknowsomet
imesIev
ent
hinkmay
beshe
ai
n'
tmyrealmom. 
Imeani t
'sever
yparentsdr
eam t
oseetheir
chi
l
dr enhappybutwithmymom it'
sdif
ferent
asl
ongassheget st hemoneynothi
ngelse
matters.

AnywaysIfi
nal
l
ygothomeaf
tersomuch
st
ruggl
e. 
Ihadboughttakeaway s,butwit
hahusband
l
ikemineyou'l
lneverknow.ThereforeIdeci
ded
tocookonlyforhi
m.Hel at
ercamei nasIwas
sti
rr
ingatthebeefstew,hewaswhi stl
i
ngwhich
meanthe'sinthegoodmood.  
Hi
m:goodev
eni
ngMuhl
e
Me:ev
eni
ngmy eni
wam[wet hi
ngisI
'm not
al
l
owedtocal
lhim wi
thanypetnames]
Hewentupstai
rsandcamebackwear
ing
shor
tsasusual
. 
MybodygottensewhenIfel
thi
shandsbei
ng
wr
appedaroundmef r
om behi
nd.
 
Him:somethi
ngsmell
snicehere,
whatar
eyou
cooki
ng?[
hekissedmycheek]
Me: Imader i
cewit
hbeefstewandsome
vegetabl
es,,
Ialsoboughtsomebur
gersfrom
steerincaseyouwantsomethi
ngdif
ferent 
Hi
m: mmm nowthat
'sawi
fet
hatImarri
ed[
he
st
art
edni
bbli
ngonmyearwhi
leoccasi
onal
l
y
ki
ddi
ngmyneckandIimmedi
atel
yknewwhat
hewant
ed.
..andIr
eal
l
ywasn'
tinthemood]
Hishandsmov edtomybuttandhegrabbedit
..
Icoul
dn'thel
pbutmoanImeani t
'sbeenalong
ti
mesincehet ouchedme.
 
Heturnedmear oundandsmashedhi slipsi
nto
mine.
.weki ssedpassi
onat
ely
,Icouldfeelhi
s
manhoodpoki ngmystomach.Heswi tchedof
thest
ov eandlif
tedmeuptothekitchen
count
er.

Helif
tedmydr essupandt ookoffmy
underwear,
wi t
houtawarningheenteredme
andIscreamed.Iwasn'tthatwetbuthedidn'
t
seem tocare.Whyam Isurpri
sedthoughhe
oncetoldmet hathewon'tdoanyforepl
ay,i
t'
s
forgays.
.cany ouimagi
ne?. 
Hewenti
nandoutofmewi
thsomuchf
orcei
t
wasr
eall
ypai
nful
.
 
Me:Kubuhl
unguMy eni
wam,pl
easegoslow[
my
pl
easfel
londeafears,
asheconti
nued
pl
easuri
nghi
mself]
Hepoundedandhumpedi
ntome,
maki
ngme
moaninpai
n..
 
Iheardhi
m groanloudasheshothisl
oaddeep
i
nsideme.Hepul l
edoutandwatchedashi
s
j
uicesrundownmyl egs.
Him:cl
eanyoursel
fupanddishupformeI'
m
hungr
y[hewalkedupst
air
s,hedidn'
tev
encare
i
fIwassati
sfi
edorwhat]
Hejustlef
tmet
her
eli
keI
'
m someki
ndofa
pr
ostit
ute.

Isl
owlywal
kedupstair
sandtookashower,
I
cl
eaneduptheki
tchenthendi
shedupforhi
m
whil
eIatemyburgers.
 
Hi
m:t
her
eisaf
unct
ionatwor
konFr
iday
. 
Me:
oh 
Him: gotot
heshopstomorrowandfind
somet hi
ngdecentt
owearanddoy ourhair
..I
don'twantyouembarr
assi
ngmei nfrontofmy
col
leagues 
Me:
yeboMy
eni
wam 
Af
tereat
ingIdi
dthedi
shesandwewentt
obed.
Wesleeplikestr
anger
swhoaref
orcedt
oshar
e
abed,Idon'tr
ememberthel
astt
imewe
cuddl
ed. 
Him:ohbefor
eIf
orget
,mom want
syouhome
nextweek 
Me:
homeasi
nKwaMashu?
 
Him:y
es,you'
llbether
eforaweek[what
?]
Maybeshecant eachyouathi
ngortwoabout
bei
ngawife. 
Me: kodwaMy eni
wam Ican'
tleav
ef ort
he
wholeweek, who'
sgonnatakecareofyou?[
I
didn'
twannagot here,
hismom hatesmeand
shedoesn'tevenhideit
]
Hechuckl
edabi
t 
Hi
m:I'
m abigman,Iruncompani
esIdon'
tneed
adumbli
tt
legi
rlt
ot akecar
eofme. 
Me:
butst
il
lIcan'
tl
eav
eforaweek.
 
Him:I
'vespokenandmywor di
sfi
nal.Youare
goi
ng[withthatsai
dheswi
tchedof
fhisside
l
amp,andsleptgivi
ngmehi
sback]

Ican'tbel
i
evethi
smanrightnow,butthenagain
Ihavenosay..
.myjobi
st ojustf
oll
owor der
s..I
tossedandtur
nedbutf
inall
yfell
asleep.

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IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT4
Thenextmorni
ngIwokeupbutdi
dn'
tgetoutof
bed,
sincehesai
dhecantakecar
eofhi
mself.
 
Ifel
thim get
tingof
fthebed,goi
ngtothe
bathr
oom. .i
twasn'
tlongti
l
lIhadtheshower
runni
ng. 
Itookmyphoneandj ustbrowsedthroughi
t,
I
repl
iedtomywhat sappmessages.WhenI
heardthedooropenning,
Iquickl
ysl
idmyphone
underthepi
ll
owandpr et
endedtobesleepi
ng.
 
Him:wherethehellar
etheclothesI
'm
supposedtowear[hesaidashecamet omy
si
deandstartedshaki
ngmer oughl
y]
Ir
ubbedmyey
esandsatup
Me:
whati
sit
? 
Hi
m:whatam Isupposedt
owear
? 
Me: ohthat?It
houghtyou'
retheman, youcan
takecareofyoursel
f.
.youdon'tneedthisdumb
l
ittl
egirl
.[Hechuckl
edandshookhi sheadi n
disbel
ief
,Idon'
tknowwher eIgotthiscourage
total
kbackathi
m..
.butIf
eltl
i
keI
'
vehear
d
enoughofthi
sman]
Ij
ustcoul
dn'
ttakei
tnomor
e. 
Hedi
sappearedi
ntohi
sclosetandcameback
wi
thhi
sclothest
henheadedtothelaundr
y
r
oom t
oironthem.
Ijustsatther
eont hebed, mi
ndingmyown
businessuntil
hecameback.Hewasnow
dressed,Icouldseethattheti
ewasgiv
inghim
at oughti
me.ButIwasn' tgonnahel
phi
m, not
today. 
Hi
m:damnit!
!!
![hethr
ewtheti
eont hebedin
f
rust
rat
ion,
Iwant edtol
aughbutIheldi
t]

Het ookhislapt
opbagandwal kedoutofthe
room..hewasamessshamehi shai
rwasnot
brushed,shoelacesnott
ied.Hewalkedbackin
afterawhile.
 
Hi
m:sonowI
'
m supposedt
ogot
owor
konan
empt
yst
omach?
 
Me:youowncompani esbabyyoucansurely
makeyoursel
fsomethingtoeat[
thatj
ustsent
hi
m overtheedge,
hesl appedmesohardthatI
i
mmedi at
elysawstar
s]
Him:I
'mfuckenti
redofyoursti
nki
ngat
ti
tude,
yougonnagetoutofthatbedandmakeme
f
ood. 
Iwasjustsoshocked,Imeannev
ereverhas
Bonganirai
sedhi
shandonme, IguessI'
ve
pushedhimt oof
artoday.

Iqui
cklygotupandrant
othebathr
oom as
tear
sfell
from myey
es,Iwashedmyfacewit
h
myhandsshaking.
Iav
oidedthemir
ror
,Ij
ustdi
dn'
twannasee
whathehasdonetome.
Af
teral
lthatIwentt
otheki
tchenandmadehi
m
hi
sbreakfast
. 
Hi
m: andwi peawaythosetear
s,wheny ou
di
srespectedmey ouwerenotcry
ing[Iqui
ckly
wi
pedt hetearsaway,Idi
dn'
tevenreal
isethatI
wascrying]
Hetookhi
sfoodandat
e,t
hent
ookhi
sbagand
wal
kedout.
 
Ij
ustsankdownandcr i
ed,GodwhatdidIdoto
deserveal
lthi
s?Am Igonnal
ivel
iket
hisfor
ever
?
May beIwasjustbor
ntosuff
er.

Isatt
hereont hefl
oorforar
ound2hour
sthen
remember edthatI
'
m supposedt
ogoshopping
foradress. 
Igotupandtidi
edupt hehousebef oretaki
nga
shower.Iworeashortdeni
m dr ess.Fi
xedmy
hai
r.
.Ihadlongnatur
al hai
r,Iappli
edalitt
lebi
t
ofmakeup. 
Myfacewasal
i
ttl
ebi
tswol
l
enbutnott
hat
much. 
Anyway sIdrovetothemal l
..Iwalkedinto
dif
ferentshopslookingf orabeaut i
fuldress.
.I
fi
nallyfounditatYDE..itwasnav ybl ueandit
hadasl itonthelef
t.Itshowedmy
curves..
damni twasbeaut if
ul i
t.
 
Ipay
edanddi
dsomeshoppi
ngt
henl
aterwent
home.
-
-
Thateveni
ngIgotreadyforthatfuncti
on,
Bonganewasgonnabeher eanymi nut
efrom
now.Itoppedupmyl ookwithar edli
psti
ck.
WowIl ookedsi
zzl
i
ng, Iheardthedoor
openi
ng. 
Itookmycl
utchpur
seandwaited.Assoonas
hesawmehisjawsdropped,
hecouldn'
tbel
iev
e
thati
t'
sme.
 
Hi
m:umh.
.Hey
 
Me:
hi 
Him:[
hewasli
teral
lydr
oolingovermeandi
t
ki
ndafeel
sgood]I'
l
lgofreshenupthenwe'
l
l
go.
 
Me: okay[
her
anupst
air
sasIwentt
othe
ki
tchen]

Ipour
edmy sel
fagl
assofj
uice.
.af
terfew
minut
eshecamedown,helookedreal
l
ygood
wit
hhishunkybody
. 
Him:
let
'sgo[Inoddedandfol
lowedaf
terhim.
..
hedi
dn'
tevenopent hedoorf
orme.Jerk!
!]
Wegoti
nsi
det
hecaranddr
oveof
f…
Wegotther
eandt heplacel
ookedbeaut
if
ul,
the
décorwasj
ustoutofthisworl
d.
Het
ookmyhandint
ohisandsmil
edatme..
wowsomepeopl
earej
ustgoodatpr
etendi
ng.
 
Somel
adycameandusher
edust
oourt
abl
e.
Myhusbandi
ntr
oducedmet
ohi
swi
fe.
 
Him:majit
athisi
smywi f
eOmuhle..Mumu
wam thesearemycolleaguesMfundoand
Jasonwiththei
rgi
rl
fr
iendsBusiandNaledi
. 
Me:
nicetomeetyouall[Busi
rol
l
edherey
esat
meandIimmediat
elyknewshewasgonnagi
ve
meatt
it
ude]
Busi
:Idi
dn'tknowyoumar ri
edBongz,
Imean
i
t'
sthefi
rstti
meI'm seei
ngthatr
ingonyour
fi
nger
.[Myhusbandj ustsmil
edandandlooked
away]
Jase:
wowboyshe'sreal
l
ybeaut
if
ul,
canIgeta
hugMrsK[
Ijustsmil
edandshookmyhead]

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06,
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34]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT5
Thenightwenton,adbori
ngasIt houghti
t
wouldbe..Peoplemaki
ngbori
ng
speeches,
cracki
nglameJokes..Butmymi nd
wasn'tr
eallyt
here,
Iwassti
llt
hinkingabout
whatBusi sai
d..
 
DoesBonganereal
lyhat
emet hatmucht hat
he'
dhidet
hathe'smarri
ed?Toapointthathe
event
ookoffhi
sr i
ng,wowhowsav agecanone
be?
Myhear twasbr oken,Iwasr eal
l
yhurt.AndI
couldfeeltearsknocki ngbutItri
edbyal l
meanst opushem back.Imeani t'
snotl i
kehe
wasf orcedtomar r
yme, hedidi
twill
i
ngl y
...Let
met ell
y ouguysBonganewast hebest
boyfri
endev er,hewasper f
ectinever
ywaybut
al
lthatchangedt henightofourweddi ng..that
waswhent hisabusi v
ebeastwasbor n.

Mydearhusbandwashavi
ngt
heti
meofhisli
fe,
cr
acki
ngjokesandl
aughi
ngwi
thhi
sfr
iends
whi
l
eIsatt
her
eandj
ustwat
chedt
hem.
 
Iwasbr
oughtbackt
oli
febyJason.
 
Jase:
areyouarey ouokayMr s?[ever
yone
tur
nedthei
ratt
entiont
ome. .
.Isnappedoutofi
t
andgavehim afakesmilet
hennodded]
Jase:youseem milesaway,andy ouhaven'
t
eventouchedyourdrink[
Ilookedatmygl ass
anditwasasstil
lfull
,wel
lI'm notafanof
al
cohol ]
Nal
edi:ar
ey ousureyoufi
nesweet
s?Youseem
abi
tlost[Busil
aughed]
Busi
:she'
stoomuchofaf arm Jul
i
a,she'
snot
usedtoal
l t
his[Bongani
laughed,I
'
veneverf
elt
soembarrassed.]
Me:Ineedsomeai
r[Igr
abbedmypursethen
st
oodupandwalkedoutsi
de,
thatpl
acewas
j
ustsuff
ocat
ingme]
Andmydearhusbanddi
dn'
tseem t
omi
nd.
Therewasnooneout si
desoIjuststoodthere
al
lalone,wat
chingthest
arsasthecoldbreeze
hi
tmybodygent ly.
.Iwal
kedaroundtil
lIf
ound
abench,Isatdownandgotbusywi t
hmy
phone. 
Iwasactuall
ychatt
ingtomyfri
endZama,
tel
l
ingherthatI
'
llbevisi
ti
ngt
hev i
l
lage.
 
"Ohther eyouare"saidaboldvoicebehindme.
.
Iquicklytur
nedandi twasMf undo.Thisist
he
fi
rstti
meIhearhi sv oi
ce,he'
sbeenqui t
eall
nightlongjustl
aughinghereandt her
e.
Me:
hel
l
o 
Hi
m:mindi
fIsi
t?[
Ishookmyheadno.
.wow
hi
svoi
ce]
Wesati
nsi
l
encef
oracoupl
eofmi
nut
es.
 
Hi
m:so.
. 
Me:
.umh.
..[
webot
hsai
datt
hesamet
ime]
Hi
m:l
adi
esf
ir
st 
Me:[
Igiggled]Idon'tevenknowwhatIwanted
t
osay,butwhyar eyououthere..
youseemed
t
obeenj oyi
ngt hoseboringbusi
nesst
alks[
he
l
aughed..
.ohhhLor dtakemenow]
Him:tr
uthbetold,Iwasboredt
odeat
hI
coul
dn'twai
tforittoend 
Me:soyouleftyourgi
rl
fr
iendint
heretosuff
er
f
rom bor
edom alone?Howcr uel
areyou?[He
l
aughedagain,]
Him: youlef
tyourhusbandinther
ebutyou
don'tseemeasking[ Igi
ggl
ed]andbesi
des
Naledi ai
n'
tmygirl
fr
iend,wejustmet
yesterday.
 
Me:ohhokay
,well
myhusbanddi
dn'
tseem t
o
mi
ndmel eavi
nghi
m[henodded]
 
Wesati
nsi
l
encey
etagai
n,unt
ilhebr
okei
t.
 
Hi
m:soy
our
eal
l
ymar
ri
ed?
 
Me:
Yes[
henodded]
Hi
m:ar
eyouhappy
?[YoohIwasnev
err
eadyf
or
t
hatQuest
ion]
Me:
umh.
.uhofcour
seI
'
m happy[
Ifor
ceda
smi
l
e]
Him: y
oul ooksougl ywi ththatfakesmi l
e[I
l
ookeddownasndpl ayedwi thmyhands]y ou
don'
thav etopretendMuhl e,Icanseet hepain
behindyoursmile..[t
hisguywasr eal
lyputt
ing
mei nanawkwar dpossi on,andIdi dn'
twanna
tal
kaboutmymar ri
agewi t
hhim]
Me:Ithi
nkIshoul
dgobacki nsi
denow,i
twas
ni
cechatti
ngtoyou[Iqui
ckl
ywentbackinsi
de,
wi
thoutevenwait
ingforhi
mt orepl
y]

Peoplewerenowst ar
tingtol
eave.
.Busihad
nowswi t
chedseatsandshewasnowsi t
ti
ng
nexttoBongane.
.Ijustsatdownnextto
Naledi
. 
Jase:
ohy ouback?[
Ijustnoddedwhil
eIhadmy
eyesfi
xedonthesetwo..Busihadherhandon
Bonganesshoul
der
…ev
ery
thi
ngwi
tht
hatsetup
l
ookedwr ong]
Mf undogotinaft
erfewminutes.
.hesatdown
andpl ay
edwi t
hhisphone.
.Bonganesphone
ranghest oodupandwenttoanswerit.
 
Jase:
Ithi
nkweshoul
dcal
li
tani
ght
 
Nal
edi
:yeah,
myf
eetar
enowki
l
li
ngme 
Bongscamebackaf
terawhi
l
e. 
Him:Umhbabether
e'sapr
esent
ati
ont
hatI
havetof
ini
shatt
heoffi
ce,
doyoumindget
ti
ng
acab? 
Me:
att
hist
imeoft
heni
ght
? 
Hi
m:y
esIhav
etopi
tcht
omor
rowmor
ning.
. 
Me:can'
tyouf
etchi
tandfini
shupathome?
[Hegavemeadeathst
are]it
'sf
ineI
'
llt
akea
cab
Hi
m:good 
Mf
undo:
Nal
edi
andIcandr
opherof
f 
Him:thanksman,Ioweyouone[het
ookhi
s
keysandphone]byeever
yone 
Andjustl
i
kethathel
eft
,notev
enababyki
ss
nyanamxm. 
Weal
lst
oodupandl
eft
. 
Iwassit
ti
ngatt
hebackmi
ndi
ngmyown
Busi
ness.
 
Nal
edi
:thanksfori
nvi
ti
ngme,
Ireal
l
yhadf
un
[
shesai
dt oMfundo]
Hi
m:t
hanksf
orbei
ngmypar
tner
. 
Nal
edi
:don'
tbeastr
anger[
shesai
dasshegot
of
f]by
egirl
,i
twasni
cemeetingy
ou 
Me:
nicemeet
ingy
out
ooby
e. 
Sheclosedt
hedoorandwal
kedawayaswe
drov
eof f
 
Hi
m:arey
ouokay?[
Hewasl
ooki
ngatmeatt
he
r
arev
iewmir
ror]
Me:
yesI
'
mfi
ne 
Heplay
edmusicthensof
tl
ysangal
ongunt
ilwe
gott
othehouse.

Me:
thanksf
ort
her
ide,
Ireal
l
yappr
eci
atei
t 
Hi
m:y
ou'
rewel
come.
 
Hegotof
fthecarandwal
kedmet
othedoor
. 
Iunl
ockedandwewal
kedi
nsi
de.
Hi
m:wi
l
lyoubeokayi
fIl
eav
e?[
Ismi
l
edathi
m]
Me:il
lbef
ineMf
undo,
youdon'
thav
etowor
ry
aboutme.
 
Him:youknowwhat
,I'
m nottaki
ngthatchance.
.
I
'm gonnawai
twi
thyouti
llBongsgetback

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11:
34]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO 

I
NSERT6
Me:
dudey
ouhav
etobabysi
tme,
I'
ll
bef
ine 
Hi
m: f
orgeti
tI'
m notgonnachangemymind
[
hethr
ewhi msel
fonthecouchandlookedat
me,
Igiggl
ed]
Me:okaythensui
tyoursel
f,I
'l
lberi
ghtback[I
wentupstai
rsandchangedintomyPJ's.
..II
washedthemakeupof fmyf ace,
thenworemy
gownandheadeddownst ai
r]
Me:
canIof
fery
ouany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?
 
Hi
m:whatdoy
ouhav
e? 
Me:
wat
er,
j
uiceandt
ea[
hel
aughed]
Him:doesn'
tyourmanhav
eabeer
?Or
somethi
ngstronger
?
Me: nowear eChri
sti
ansinthishouse,
wedon'
t
touchalcohol[webothlaughed,Iwasjust
pull
inghisleg]
Hi
m:y
earr
ight
 
AnywaysIgothi
m aglassofwhi
skeysi
ncewe
di
dn'thav
ebeer.
.Me:here 
Him:
thankspr
ett
ylady[
Ismi
l
edandsatdown]
sowhatdoyoudo? 
Me:I'
m ahousewi
fe[
helaughedbutst
opped
assoonashereal
i
sedthatIwasn'
tpl
ayi
ng]
Hi
m:ohumh.
.uhI'
m sor
ryaboutt
hat
,hasi
t
al
way
sbeenyourdr
eam tobeahousewif
e?
Ishruggedmyshoul der.Iwasn'
tabouttotel
l
himt hatIwasf orced, I
'
v eal
way swantedtobe
anaccount ant..
.ifyou'dseemymat ri
c
cert
ificat
ey ou'
dcr yshame.Igotdi sti
nct
ionsi
n
all
mysubj ectsex ceptLifeOri
entat
ion.
 
Me:
enoughaboutme,
tel
lmeabouty
our
sel
f.
Hechuckl
ed 
Him:whydoIfeel
li
keI'
minanint
ervi
ew?
Anywayswhatdowanttoknowaboutme? 
Me:howoldarey
ou?[
Hel
aughed,
GodIl
ove
hi
slaughshame]
Hi
m:y
ouj
usthadt
ogot
her
e 
Me:
wel
lIgott
ost
artsomewher
eri
ght
. 
Hi
m:f
ine,
I'
m 29
Me:mmm notbad[helookedatmewit
hhis
ey
ebrowr
aised]ohgoshdidIsayt
hatl
oud?
 
Hesmi
l
edshaki
nghi
shead.
Wecontinuedt
alki
ngandlaughing,Iev
enhad
stomachcrampsduet ol
aughi
ngsohar d..I
can'
trememberthelastt
imeIlaughedliket
his.
 
Me:okayokayst
opnow[Isaidtry
ingt
ocat
ch
mybreath,
thi
sguywasr
eallyfunny]
Hi
m: I
'm ser
iousMuhl e.
.I'
veneverbeenso
embarr
assed[ Il
aughedev enmoreasI
i
maginedhimr unni
ngnakedar oundcampus,
wit
heveryonelooki
ngathi m]
Me:
shameaski
esne[
hesmi
l
ed]
Icheckedthet
imeandi
twasnow4:
30i
nthe
morning.
 
Me:umhitlooksl
ikeBonganei
snotgonna
comeback.Thanksforchi
ll
i
ngwit
hme. 
Hi
m:y
ousur
eyougonnabef
ine?
 
Me:yeahi
t'
smor
ningal
readyandy
oual
sohav
e
t
orest.
 
Hi
m: okaycomeletmet
ucky
oui
n..
[Il
aughed,
t
hisguythough]
Me:
youknowI
'
m notf
ivey
ear
sri
ght
? 
Hi
m: Iknow..y
oulook2year
st ome[weboth
l
aughedasIhithi
sshoul
derplayf
ull
y]y
ousuch
abul
lythough.
 
Me:mxm uyaphapha[oureyesl
ockedandmy
hear
timmediat
elyst
artedbeati
ngver
yfast
]
If
inal
l
ybr
oket
heey
econt
act
, 
Me:
umhuh.
..[
Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay
]
Hi
m:It
hinkIshoul
dleav
enow.
. 
Me:
umhy
eah,
thanksf
ort
oni
ght
 
Him:y
ouwelcome[
heopenedhi
sarmsf
orme
andweshar
edaheartwar
minghug]
Hesmel
l
edsodamngood,
Idi
dn'
twannal
et
go.
 
Hebroket
hehugl eav
ingmehy pnot
ized.I
wal
kedhim outandwatchedashisgotinsi
de
hi
scarbef
oredrivi
ngoff.
 

Il
ockedthedoor
sandwentt
obed.Fort
hefi
rst
ti
meinyears,
Isl
eptwi
thasmil
eonmyface.
 
Idi
dn'tev
enbothercal
li
ngBonganetoask
whereheis,
Ijustdr
if
tedtoabeaut
if
ulsl
eep.
Iwaswokenupbysomeoneshaki
ngme.
 
Me:
mmm j
ustf
ewmor
emi
nut
es 
Him:noOmuhl ewakeup[ i
twasmydear
husbandIsatupstr
aight]whyar
eyoueven
sl
eepi
ngt
hist
ime?
 
Me:
whatt
imei
sit
?
Hi
m: j
ustaft
er11o'
cl
ock,
whyareyouev
en
sl
eepi
ng..y
oushoul
dbepacki
ng 
Me:
packi
ng?
 
Hi
m:Youl
eav
ingat2ocl
ock?
 
Me:
whatIt
houghtI
'
llbel
eav
ingonMonday
. 
Him:
well
toughluckbabe,mom i
sexpect
ing
yout
oday
.yourplanel
eavesatt
wo 
Me:
butBonga.
..
.Imeanmy
eni
wam
Him: butnothing,
I'
m goi
ngt otakeashower
[hewasst i
llweari
ngyesterdayscl
othes,
that
meanshej ustcameinnow]ohandmakesur e
thehousei sspotl
ess[withthatsai
d,he
disappearedintothebathroom]

Igotupi
nfr
ust
rat
ionandst
art
edthr
owing
cl
othesi
nmybag.YouknowIdon'
tevenknow
whyI'
m goingtherebecausethatf
amilyhat
es
me.TheythinkI'
m agolddiggi
ngbitchwho'
s
af
tert
heirsonsmoney . 
Any waysImadet hebedthencleanedaround
thehousebef or
et aki
ngabath.
..Weir
disi
couldntstopthi
nkingaboutMfundo,I'
dfi
nd
my selfsmil
i
ngalone..af
terbat
hingIpull
edmy
suitcasedownstai
r s 
If
oundBonganeeat
ingwhi
l
ewat
chi
ngSoccer
..
 
Hi
m:t
rav
elsaf
e 
Me:
ain'
tyougonnadr
ivemet
otheai
rpor
t.
 
Hi
m:no 
Me:mxm [
Icall
edmy sel
facab]sonotgonna
apol
ogi
zefornotcomingbackl
ateni
ght?
 
Hi
m: noI'
mt heheadoft
hishouseIcando
whatev
erIli
ke..
andbesi
desItol
dyouIhavea
pi
tchtoprepar
e 
Me:
atl
easty
oucoul
dhav
ecal
l
ed.
.
Hi
m:Idon'
tneedt
oexpl
ainmy
sel
ftoy
ou
Omuhl
e. 
Me:
ohwow.[t
hecabhoot
edout
side,
]
It
ookmybagsandl
eftwi
thoutsay
ing
Goodby
e. 

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06,
11:
34]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT7

Theplanefi
nal
l
ylandedatuShakaairpor
t.
.I
tookacabtoKwaMashu,anditdroppedmeat
thegate.
 
Iwal
kedi
nwi
thmybagst
heSi
mphi
weski
ds
r
antome..
.yooht
heywer
esodi
rt
y,butIl
et
t
hem hugme. 
Mpume:
hel
l
oaunt
y 
Zethu:
didy
oubri
ngsweet
s[hewasal
ready
taki
ngmybag]
Me:nonoIdon'thavesweetsbutwe'
llbuy
them t
omorr
owne?[ Thenoddedandranback
towheret
heywereplayi
ng..t
hewayIseeit,i
t'
s
beenawhil
esincetheyatookbath]
AnywaysIknockedonthedoorwhichwas
opened,andIcoul
dhearpeoplet
alki
ngi
nthe
di
nningroom butt
heyneversai
dcomein.SoI
j
ustwalked. 
Simphi
weandhermom weresit
ti
ngont
he
coucheat
ingcooki
eswi
thj
uice.
. 
Simphiwe:lookever
ybodythebi
tchi
sher
e[she
saidsarcasti
cal
ly
,butI
'm usedt
osuch
tr
eatmentsoi tdi
dn'
tmov eme]
Mom:
whosai
dyoumustcomei
n? 
Me:
umhSani
bonani
ma 
Mom:
I'
m noty
ourmom wena!
!!
Si
mphiwe:youknowIdon'
tknowwhyBongane
marr
iedsuchausel
essthi
ng.
 
Mom: hepr obabl
ybewit
chedhim,noonein
thei
rri
ghtmi ndcanmarrysomeoneli
kethi
s,
someonet hisdumb[Itr
iedacti
ngstr
ongbutI
j
ustcouldn't,
Icoul
dfeelt
hetearst
hreat
eni
ng
myey es]
Ijustt
ookmybagandwal
kedt
oBonganes
room.
Ever
ythi
ngint
herewasupsi
dedown,I
tlooks
l
ikesomeonehasbeensl
eepi
ngher
e.Ichanged
thebeddi
ngandputi
nthenewone.
Ithenwenttokit
chen,thesi
nkwasf ul
lofdir
ty
di
sheswi t
hfli
eshangingall
aroundthem..
.
euwwwi twasdisgust
ing.i
tlooksli
kethey
've
beenhereformorethanaweek.  
Iwentbackt
other
oom andchangedmy
cl
othes.
.goodthi
ngIbroughtmygloves,
ther
e's
nowayI'mtouchi
ngthatwit
hmybar ehands.I
st
artedwashi
ngthatpi
leofdir
tydi
shesthen
moppedthefloor
. 
Si
mphiwe:
Ithi
nkI
'
m gonnaenj
oyhav
inga
maid 
Mom: maybeweshoul dconvi
nceBonganeto
l
etherstayhere,wecan'
tbedoingthehouse
choreswhil
eshe'sli
vi
ngli
keaQueeni n
Gauteng.[
What ??No!
!That
snotgoingto
happened,I
'm notst
ayi
ngherelongert
hana
week]
Simphi
we:goodideamom, youknowbhut
i
can'
tsaynotoyou[theygi
ggled]

Itwasnowgett
inglatesoIdeci
dedtost
art
cooki
ng,Imadefumblingwit
hbeefst
ew..my
fat
heri
nlaw'
sfavorit
e. 
I
twasn'
tl
ongunt
ilhear
ri
ved.
 
Him:mmmm somethi
ngsmel lsniceinhere[he
hadawidesmi
leonhisface,he'
st heonlyone
wholi
kesmeinthi
shouse..exceptforthekids]
Me:
that
'sbecauseImadey
ourf
avor
it
eBaba 
Hi
m:andthatwhyyoumyfav
ori
temakot
i[I
gi
ggl
edaswesharedahug]
Me:
howar
eyoubaba?
 
Hi
m:I
'
m goodmygi
rl
,howhav
eyoubeen?
 
Me:
I'
m al
sogoodbabaI
'
m notcompl
aini
ng 
Hi
m: okaynowdishup.
..I
'
m superhungr
y.[I
l
aughed,thi
sol
dmani ssocool
]
Idishedupforever
yone,
wesatdownand
start
edeati
ng. 
Bonganesdadcoul
dn'
tst
opcomplement
ingmy
cooki
ngandthatmadeSi
mphiweandhermom
ver
ymad.  
Aft
ereati
ngIdidthedi
shest
henret
ir
edtobed.
Bonganedidn'
tev
encallt
oaski
fI'
vearr
ived
saf
eorwhat
..
.Ial
sodi
dn'
tbot
hercal
l
inghi
m.

BONGANE 
Mynamei sBonganeasyouallknow,
Iowna
const
ruct
ioncompany.AndI'
mf i
lt
hyr
ich,
moneybowsdownt ome.  
Iknowmostofy oupr obablyhatemebutIdon't
carecozIdon'
tl
ikey ouei t
her.Whathappened
i
sIusedt ol
oveOmuhl e,shewasmywor l
d.The
centerofmyuni
v er
se.
Butall
thatchangedasIfell
foranot
her
woman. .
it
'sapit
ybecauseI'
m notal
lowedto
di
vorceher,myfathermadeitcl
eart
hatdi
vorce
ai
n'tt
heopt i
onforusZulumen.
AnywaysIwasbusywi t
hsomepaper wor
ki n
myoffi
cewhent hedooropened.Herper
fume
fi
ll
eduptheroom andIimmediatel
yasmiled
for
medonmyf ace.
 
Shel
oggedt
hedoorandt
urnedt
ofaceme.
 
Her:babey
ou'
vebeenwor
kingt
hewhol
eday
,I
missyou 
Me:runni
ngacompanyisnotachil
d'
splay
..I
needtogi
vei
tallmyat
tenti
on,butwor
rynotI
'm
al
mostdone[Isai
dasIconti
nuedtoty
peonmy
l
aptop]

Ifel
therhandt
ouchingmymanhood,Il
ooked
downhewaskneelingundert
het
ablebetween
mylegs. 
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
 
Her
:not
hing,
getbackt
oy ourworkbabe[It
ri
ed
t
ofocusonthel
aptopbutitwassohard.
]
Ifel
therunbuckl
ingmybeltbefor
esheexposed
myal r
eadyharddick.
.shestr
okeditbackand
fort
hthenputiti
nhermout h.
 
Me:fuck!
!![
Ilostcont
rolofev
eryt
hing,Ishut
downthelaptopandclosedmyey esasI
pushedherev enmoredeeper.
 
Me:ohfuckbaby.
..j
ustli
ket
hat
..[
shewent
downandstart
edsuckingmyball
s]
Icoul
dn'
thol
ditanymor
e. 
Me:I'
m com...
ingbabyshit
t..
justl
i
ket
hatBusi
[
IgroanedlouderasIshotmycum att
heback
ofherthr
oat]
Sheswal
l
owedev
erydr
opt
hencamet
oki
ss
me..
 
Me:
Iwanty
ousobadr
ightnow 
Her
:takeme,
I'
m al
lyour
s. 
Me:
let
'sgot
omyhouse 
Her
:whataboutt
hatdumbwi
feofy
our
s? 
Me:
she'
snotar
ound,
she'
sinKzn 
Her
:Iwi
shshecanst
ayt
her
efor
ever
. 
Me:shej
ustmight[
webothgiggl
edaswe
shar
edyetanot
herst
eamykiss]
Idon'
tthi
nkIcanwaitf
orustogethome.
.Iwas
wannahaveherri
ghtnowri
ghthere.
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OMUHLE

Iwokeupearlythefol
lowi
ngmorni
ng,Ididal
l
thehousechoresthenmadebr
eakfast
..byt
he
ti
meev er
yonewokeupIwasdone. 
Dad:mmmm whatani
cewayt
ost
artaday
,
t
hanksfort
hef
oodkot
i.
 
Me:
ohi
t'
snot
hingbaba 
Dad:Idon'
tknowwhenwasthel
astIhada
properbr
eakf
ast.
[Mot
heri
nlawcl
i
ckedher
youngandstoodup]
Mom:mxm t
hef
oodi
snotevent
hatni
ce,
I'
m
sur
eSi
mphi
wecandobet
ter
 
Si
mph:tel
lhermom [sur
pri
singl
ytheyhad
cl
eanedever
ythi
ngoutontheirpl
ates 
Dad:[
chuckl
ed]j
eal
ousymakesy
ounast
y
nkosi
kazi
Mom:
ohpl
easeI
'
m notj
eal
ous

Igotup,takingthedishesbacktothekit
chen
thenstar
tedwashi ngthem.Iwantedtogot o
themalltobuygr oceri
essincet
herewas
nothi
ngher e,soafterdoi
ngthedishesIwentto
bath.
 
Ibathedthekidst
oosi
nceIpr
omi
sedt
obuy
them sweets.
 
Zet
hu:
aunt
yyou'
ret
aki
ngust
othemal
l
?
Me:
yesbaby
 
Mpume:
youwi
l
lbuyussweetandi
cekeem?[
I
gi
ggl
edandnodded]
Theyar
esuchl
ovel
ysoul
s,i
t'
sapi
tyt
heyhav
e
Si
mphiweasamother
. 
AnywaysIdressthem upni
cel
ythenwehitthe
road.Whenwegott othemall
,wefi
rstwentto
thesal
on.TheycutZethushai
randbrai
ded
Mpume, nchootheyl
ookedsocute.
 
MyphonerangasIwaspushi
ngt
het
rol
l
ey,
it
wasanunsavednumber
. 
Me:
hel
l
o 
Per
son:
munt
'omuhl
e[Ismi
l
edasIr
eal
i
sedwho
i
twas]
Me: hey
..wher
edidyougetmynumbers
becauseIdon'
trecal
lgi
vi
ngthem t
oyou?
Hegi
ggl
edsof
tl
y.
 
Him:IknewifIaskedfort
hem y
ouwer
en't
gonnagiveme,soasamanImadeapl an[I
bl
ushedandgiggled]
Me:
mmmm suchachar
merar
en'
tyou?
 
Hi
m: It
ry,
sowher
eyout
her
e'ssomuchnoi
se
t
here? 
Me:
I'
m att
hemal
l
,canIpl
easecal
lyoul
ater
? 
Hi
m:pr
omi
se?
[Il
aughed]
Me:
yesMf
undoIpr
omi
se 
Hi
m:okayby
efornow,
anddon'
tthi
nkaboutme
t
oomuch 
Il
aughedy
etagai
n 
Me:
mxm y
ouwi
shshame 
Hel
aughedt
ooandwehungup.
 
Mpume:
aunt
ycanwebuyt
hese?Me:
okay
 
Iboughtcerealsforthem andever
ythingelse
thatthatIneeded.Aftert
hatwewentt o
McDonal d'
s,weat eburgerst
henmilkshakes.
Theywer esohappyshame, t
heycouldn'
tstop
thankingme.
-
Weoffl
oadedthegrocer
y,t
hekidsraninsi
det
o
t
ell
thei
rmom aboutthedaythey'
vehad. 
AsIwalkedi
n,Iwasmetbyahotsl
apandIl
ost
bal
ance. 
Simph:youbi
tch!!Whogaveyoupermissi
onto
takemykidsandgalli
vantwi
ththem i
nyour
hoeingpl
ace?[Iwasastoni
shedshame]
Me:wejustwenttot
hemal
l
,it
'snotl
i
keIwas
gonnast
eali
ngthem.
 
Simph: whydon'
ty oumakeyour
s,ohIfor
got
you'reaburr
en..
leavemykidsal
onenxn[she
cli
ckedhertongueandspatonthefl
oor]
l
ent'engazal
i
!!

Shethenwal
kedaway,l
eavingmewi t
ht ears
runni
ngdownmycheeks..
they'
ve beencal l
i
ng
meallsor
tsofnamesformorethan2y ears
andI'
veal
waysstoodstr
ongtell
ingmet hatI
won'tcr
y..Iwon'tgiv
ethem t
hesati
sfact
ionbut
todayIj
ustcouldn'thol
ditnomore.
.I'
veheard
enough,I
'vereachedmyl i
mit
. 
Iputevery
thi
ngthatIboughtinthekit
chenthen
wenttoBonganesroom, Ipackedeveryt
hing
thatbel
ongtome. 
Ipul
l
edmybagsandwal
kedout
,Inumbedi
nto
myfatheri
nlaw.
 
Him:ar
ey ouokaykoti?Whyar
ecryi
ng?[
Itr
ied
answer
ingbutIjustcoul
dn'
tIj
ustbr
okedown
andcri
edmyey esout]
Iwastir
ed,Iwast
ir
edofallt
heabusefr
om my
husbandandhisf
amil
y.
..i
twasjustt
oomuch 
Whenwi
l
lIbehappy
? 
Me:I'
m sor
rybaba,
butIcan'
tst
ayher
eIj
ust
cant
 
Hi
m:whathappened?
 
Me:
Ican'
treal
lyt
alkabouti
t,usal
ekahl
ebaba.
[
Wit
hthatsai
dIpull
edmysuitcase,l
eavi
nghim
t
her
e]

IhadnoideawhereIwasgoingatt
hatmoment
butIj
usthadtogetoutoft
hathouse.
 
Icaughtacab.
. 
Dr
iver
:wher
ear
eyougoi
ngma'
am?
 
Me:pl
easet
akemet ot
hest
ati
on[
att
hat
i
nst
ant,myphoner
ang]

Me:
hel
l
o[y
oucanheart
hatIwascr
ying,
]
Mfundo:youpromisedtocall
..
wai
tareyou
cr
ying?[
Hear i
nghisvoi
cemademeev enmor
e
weaker,
Ijuststar
tedcr
yingal
loveragai
n]
Hi
m: Omuhl
ewhat
'
swr
ong?Whyar
eyou
cr
ying?
 
Me:
I'
mfi
neMf
undo,
.
.i
t'
sjust
 
Hi
m:Noy
ounotokayPl
easet
alkt
ome.
.
Me:
youdonthav
etowor
ryaboutmeI
'
llbef
ine 
Him:wherear
eyouMuhl
e,pl
easet
ell
mewher
e
youare.
 
Me:
I'
m atKzN,KwaMashu..
.butI
'
m onmyway
t
ocatchabus,
I'
m comingbacktojobur
g. 
Him:nono,f
indaBnBorahot elbookyoursel
f
i
nandI '
l
lbethereassoonasIcanalri
ght?[I
noddedli
kealit
tl
egir
l]

Hi
m:Muhl
ecany
ouhearme?
 
Me:
yes.
.yesI
'
lldoasy
ousay
 
Him:okayI'
ll
bether
einnoti
me[het
henhung
up,It
oldthedri
vert
otakemetot
henear
est
hotel
]

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NGIDO
I
NSERT9

OMUHLE
Thedri
verdroppedmeofatt heguesthouse
sincei
twastheclosest
.Igotinandbookeda
room f
orthenight
. 
Theygav et
hekey sandal
lthat
,whenIgoti
nto
ther oom Ij
ustthrewmysel
font hebedand
slept..Iwasjustbot
hemotional
lyand
phy sical
lyt
ir
ed.

IwokeupwhenIfeltsomeonebr ushingmy
hai
r.
.Ipani
ckedbecausebef or
esleeping,
I
madesurethedoorislocked. 
Iqui
ckl
yjumpedof
fthebed,
 
Hi
m:heyhey
,rel
axi
t'
sjustme[
itwasMf
undo]
Il
ookedatt
hedoort
henbackt
ohi
m,sur
pri
sed
howhegoti
nher
e. 
Me:
howdidyougetin?Act
ual
l
ynev ermi
nd
t
hat
,howdi
dy ouknowIwashere.
 
Him:thesamewayIgotyournumbersmuhle,
I
'm anITspeci
ali
stsoi
twasn'
tthathar
dto
t
racky oudown.
 
Me:
oh[
Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay
]
Hest
oodupf
rom t
hebed,
openedhi
sar
msf
or
me 
Him:comeher e.[
Wehugged,I
'
veneverf
eltso
safe.
..
Ifel
tli
keinhisar
msIbel
ong]
Him:everyt
hingisgonnabef i
ne,
I'
m herenow
youdon'thavetogot hrougheveryt
hingal
one
[yooohthosewor dsjusthadtoopenat apof
tear
s,Icri
edtil
lIfel
tbetter]
WhenIwascalm,Ibr
okethehug.
..hi
sT-
shi
rt
waswetbecauseofmytear
s. 
Me:
umh.
.Im sor
ryabouty
ourT-
shi
rt
. 
Hi
m:f
orgett
heT-
shi
rt
,whomadey
ousosad?
 
Me:
canwepl
easedon'
ttasl
kabouti
tnow.
 
Him:youl
ltel
lmewhenevery
our
eady[I
noddedandhuggedhi
m agai
n]
Me:
thanksf
orbei
ngher
e 
Him:any
time[hesai
dthatwi
thasmi
l
e]hav
e
youhadanyt
hingtoeat
. 
Ishookmyheadno,t
helastt
imeIatwasatt
he
mallwit
htheki
dsandnowit'
sal
readydar
k
outsi
de.
 
Him:y
oucangofr
eshenupwhi
l
eIgetus
somethi
ngt
oeat
 
Me:
okay
..andt
hanksagai
n 
Him:stopt
hanki
ngmepl
ease,
[Ismi
l
edand
headedtot
hebathr
oom]

BONGANE 
Isl
eepnextt
oheraswe'
rebot
hbr
eat
hing
heav
il
y.
.af
terast
eamyl
ovemaki
ngsessi
on.
 
Me:
fuckt
hatwasmagi
cal
![shegi
ggl
es]
Busi
:It
hinky
oul
eftmepar
aly
zed[
webot
h
l
augh]
Me:sorrybabe,
nextti
meI'l
ltr
yt obeabit
gent
le[IsayasIwalktot
hebat hroom t
ogeta
wettowel]
Her:
babeyourphone!
!![shey
ell
from t
he
bedr
oom ]
It
aket
het
owel
andwal
kout
. 
Mymom i
stheonet
hat
'scal
l
ingsoIanswer
. 
Me:
Ndl
ovukaz[
shel
aughsabi
t]
Her
:myPr
ince,
howar
eyou?
 
Me:I
'm goodmom,I'
m happy[
Isayl
ooki
ngat
Busi
andshejustbl
ushes]
Her:
I'
m happyt
oheart
hat
,butwehav
ea
pr
oblem 
Me:
what
'
swr
ongnow?
 
Her:t
hatthi
ngofyoursleft
..andIthi
nkhe
mightcomebackthereandr uint
hingsforyou
andyourfutur
ewif
e.[Yesmymom knows
aboutBusiandshecouldn'
tbemor ehappier
thatI
'
vefall
enoutofl
ov ewithOmuhl e]
Me:what?Omuhl
elef
t?Nowonderdadhas
beencal
l
ingmenonestop.

Her:
yessouthoughtIshoul
dwar
nyoubef
ore
sheget
sther
e. 
Me: may bei
t'sti
meshef oundoutaboutBusi
,I
can'tkeephidingthewomanIl ov
ejustt
o
protectOmuhl esfeel
i
ngs..
.sheshoul
dknow
thatI'
mt aki
ngasecondwi fe
Her:Iknowyoudon'tli
kehidi
ngBobobuty ou
knowhowy ourdadis..HelovesOmuhl e,
so
he'
ll
maket hi
ngsdiff
icultf
oryou.[
Isitonthe
bedfeeli
ngdefeat
ed,I'
mt i
redofhi
ding]
Me:
Mom dadwi
l
lhav
etoaccepti
tbecause
Busi
ispregnantandIwoul
dn'
twantmybabyt
o
bebornoutofwedlock.
 
Her:
what
?Di dyoujustsaypr
egnant
?[She
st
art
sul
ulat
ing.AndIjustl
augh]
Her
:ohhBoboooZul
ubav
umi
l
e 
Me:yesmom t
hat
'swhyIwannadot
hings
r
ight
 
Her:
okayIhearyou,y
ougonnahav
etocome
downhereandtel
lyourf
ather
 
Me:
yesmom,
Iwi
l
l 
Her
:okayby
eby
e..sayhel
l
otoMakot
iwam 
Me:
okaymom by
e[shehungup]
Iturntolookatmyf
utur
ewi
fe,
shameshef
ell
asleep..

Iki
ssherslightl
yopenl
i
pst
hekisshertummy,I
can'twai
tforthi
sbabyt
oar
ri
ve...
Ican'
twai
tto
holditi
nmyar ms. 
Youknowsomet i
mesIwonderwhatIsawon
Omuhlebecauseshe'
sjustnotwomanenough
forme,shecan'
tevent
hinkforher
sel
far
gh!!
!

OMUHLE 
Il
aughmyl ungsout
,thi
sguyissofunnyshame.
Andhealsomademef or
getal
lthet
hingsthat
ar
etroubl
ingme. 
Him:Il
i
kehear
ingy
oul
augh[
Ibl
ushandl
ook
down]
Me:
soumh.
.wher
ear
eyougonnasl
eep?
 
Hi
m:her
eont
hecouch.
 
Me:what
?Youshouldhav
etol
dmet
obook
anot
herr
oom f
oryou 
Him:Ireall
ydon'tmindtosithereallni
ght
l
ookingatYou, j
usttomakesur eyou'
reokay
[noguysIcan'tall
owt hi
sguyt osl
eepi nthe
couchafterhelefthi
scomf ybedt ocomebe
withmei nanotherProvi
nce..
that'
sjustnotri
ght
]
Me:Iknowyoudon'tmindbutIj
ustcan'
tall
ow
youtosl
eeponthecouch..comejoi
nmet he
bedi
sbigenoughforthebothofus 
Hi
m:umh.
..t
hatsoundsowr
ong 
Me:ifyounotcomingthen.
.I
'
m al
sogonnasit
wit
hy ouonthatcouchandwebothgonnast
are
atanemptybed[ hel
aughed]
Hi
m:areyoualway
sthi
sstubbor
n?Me:
yeah
what
ever
..ar
eyoucomingorwhat?
 
Hi
m:f
ine 
Het
ookofhissweaterandgotundercov
ers.
Hel
eftaspacebet
weenus 
Hi
m:goodni
ghtMunt
'omuhl
e 
Me:
goodni
ghtFuf
u[hel
aughedoutl
oud]
Hi
m:Fuf
u?I
sthatanewpetname?
 
Me:yesandi
tsui
tsy
ouper
fectl
y[hel
aughed
agai
n,wit
hhi
sdeepvoi
ceechoi
ngacrossthe
room]
Him:you'r
esohor ri
bleatnami
ngthi
ngs,I
'
m
neveral
lowingyoutonameourkids[what?Di
d
hejustsayourkids?]
Ther
ewassi
l
enceaf
tert
hat
. 
Me:whatdoy
ou.
..[
hecutmeof
fbef
oreIcoul
d
f
ini
sh]
Hi
m:j
ustsl
eepMuhl
e 
Me:
mxm y
ou'
rebor
ing 
Wit
hthatsai
d,It
urnedandl
ookedawayt
hen
sl
ept

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NGIDO

I
NSERT10

OMUHLE
Iwokeupt henextmor ni
ngasIf el
tsomeone
holdingme..Iopenedmyey esandscannedthe
room, Ij
umpedassoonasIr eal
i
sedthatIwas
sleepingonMf undo'
schestandhisarms
holdingmet i
ght. 
Heal
soopenedhi
sey
es.
 
Hi
m:hey
..what
'swr
ong?
Me:umh.
.uhnot
hing,
I'
ll
got
akeashowerso
wecango 
Hi
m:buti
t'
sst
il
lear
ly,
comebackt
obed 
Me: noumh..
..
[Idi
dn'
tknowwhattosay
,Iknow
al
lthisiswr
ongsinceI'
m amar
riedwomanbut
bei
ngi nhi
sarmsf el
tgr
eat]
Him: y
oudon'twantmecomingther
eand
draggi
ngy oubackher
enowdoy ou?[Gosht
his
guythough,hi
sv oi
cej
usthast
oomuch
authori
ty]
Isl
owlygotbackt
obed,Imadesur
ethatIkeep
mydistancet
hist
ime.
 
Me:sohowdi dyousleep?
[wewerenowfaci
ng
eachotherandthat
'swhenIr
eal
izedhow
handsomet hi
sguyis]
Hi
m:Isl
eptl
ikeababy
,itwasthebestni
ghtof
myli
fe[
hesaidwi
thasmileonhisf
ace..
andmy
j
ustmel
ted]
Me:
yety
ouwant
edt
ospendi
tont
hecouch 
Him:
Iwast
ryi
ngtobeagentleman,
leav
ingt
he
bedf
ort
hequeen[
Ilaughed]
Wetalkedaboutgeneralt
hings,
famil
yandal
l
t
hat
.Thenl at
ergotupt otakeabathwhi
lehe
i
nsi
stedonmaki ngthebed. 
Iwalkedoutofthebathr
oom withat
owel
wrappedaroundmybody ..hewassi
tt
ingont
he
couchbusywithhisphone. 
Il
ookedforsomet
hingt
owearf
rom oneofmy
sui
tcase.
 
Healsowenttobat
h,gi
vi
ngmepr
ivacyt
oget
dr
essed.
..Ij
ustwor
easimpl
ewhi
tesummer
dr
essandsomegol
dsandal
s. 
-
Afterbat
hingwetookourluggage,checkedout
thenheadedtothemallt
ogetbr eakfast
. 
Hi
m:McDonal
d'
sorM&B 
Me:muggandBean.
.Isolov
ethei
rbr
eakf
ast[
I
cl
osedmyeyesasIt
hinkofi
t]
Hegi
ggl
edsof
tl
y 
Him:MuggandBeani
tist
hen.[
Wel
eftt
he
bagsi
nhiscar
.]
Weateourbreakf
astthenboughtsome
goodi
esbef
orewehi tther
oad.

BONGANE 
It
ri
edcal
li
ngOmuhlef ort
het
ent
hti
mebutshe
wasst
il
lnotanswer
ing.
Iwasnowgett
ingworr
ied,
shewassupposedto
beher
eyest
erday,
butshenevershowedup.I
maynotlov
eherbutIdon'
twi
shbadt
hings
uponher
.
Busi
:you'
vebeengl
uedont
hatphonef
orhour
s,
whati
nter
esti
ng?
Me:
Not
hingbabei
t'
sjustwor
k. 
Busi
:comeonbabeIthoughtwetookadayoff
sowecanspendti
met oget
her.[
Iputmyphone
downandtur
nedtolookather]
Me: I
'
m sor
rybabe.
..nowI'
m giv
ingy
oual
lmy
att
enti
on.[
Ibr
ushedhertummyandshesmil
ed]
howismyboyI ndoingt
here?
 
Shegi
ggl
ed.
 
Busi
:ohhhe'
sfi
ne,
justeat
ingal
ot[
Iki
ssedher
tummy]
Thenslowlywentdowntoherthighswhi
ch
wereexposedsinceshewasjustweari
ngmy
shi
rtwithnot
hingunder
neat
h.
Iopenedherlegsandjuststar
edatsuch
perf
ecti
onthatstoodbeforeme. 
Busi
:babey
ou'
remaki
ngmeshy[
shesai
d
gi
ggl
ing]
Me:
youar
eper
fect
,Il
ovey
ou 
Befor
eshecouldsayanyt
hingIpart
edher
pussyli
psandatt
ackedhercl
itwit
hmytongue.
 
Busi
:ohBaby
..
.[
shemoanedasIwentdeeper
..
]
ImadesurethatIat
eherhar
d,asshe
screamedwhil
epushingmyheadevenmor
e
deeperi
ntoher.
 
Busi
:ohhhba..
.baby.
..I
'
m abouttocuuuum [
she
i
mmedi at
elyr
eleasedherj
uicesonmyf ace]
Il
i
ckedhercl
eanasIf
eltherl
egsshook.
 
Istoodupandsatnexttoherwit
hmyboxer
s
onmyf eet
..Shestoodupandgotont
opofme
ri
dingmelikether
e'snot
omorrow.
Me:
oohf
uck"
!Yesbaby
..
.[Il
ookedatherbi
g
boobsast
heybouncedupanddown]
DamnInev erknewsexcanbet hi
sgood..I
meanwi t
hOmuhl eitwasjustdul
landbori
ng
butnowwi t
hBusiit
'sjustmindbl
owingandI
thi
nkI'
m gett
ingaddict
edtoherti
ghtpussy.
 
Busi
:ohhhbabyIwantt
obeyoursf
orev
er[
she
sai
dri
dingmeevenmorefast
er]
Me:ahhhyesyesbaby.
..any
thingyouwant.
[
Thepleasur
ewasjustoutofthisworl
d..
Iwas
oncl
oudnine]
Busi
:Iwanty
out
ohat
eyourwi
feandl
oveme,
mealone 
Me:yes.
..
fuckyes.
.Ihat
eher[
Icoul
dfeel
my
cum bui
l
dingup]

"Bongane"abrokenvoi
cesai
dbehindusandI
i
mmedi atel
yknewitwasOmuhle,
Iopenedmy
eyesandlookedather.
 
Shewasst
andi
ngbyt
hedoorwi
tht
ear
s
r
unni
ngdownhercheeksandherl
owerl
i
p

Tr
embl
i
ng.
 
Omu: i
sthi
sthereasonwhyyousentmetothe
vi
ll
ages?Soyoucanhowar ound?[
Isl
owl
y
pushedBusiof
fmeandshemoanedasIt ook
outmyD]
Omu:howcanyoudot hi
stomeBongane?I
n
ourhouse?Onourbed? 
Me:umh.
.uh[Iwasspeechless,
Ireall
ydidn'
t
knowwhatt
osaytoher,Iki
ndafeltsorr
yfor
her]
Omu: uyi
njaBongane,y
ou'r
eacoldhear
ted
bast
erdandIhat eyou!
![
sheyel
l
ed,andIj
ust
l
ostitandslappedhersohard]

Busi
:mshay
ebaby!
Me:
don'
tyoudar
erai
sey
ourv
oiceatme,
I'
m
t
hemani
nthi
shouseandy
ouwi
l
lrespectme,
y
oubowdowntome!!

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34]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT11

OMUHLE
Myhear twasbeatingsof ast
, Iwasevenscar
ed
thati
tmi ghtcomeout..Icouldn'tbel
i
evewhatI
j
ustsawont opofthatthi
sbloodymanhasa
nervetolayhisfi
l
thyhandst ome.  
Me: EnoughisEnoughBongane!!
!!I'
m sickand
ti
redofthisabuse.I
'
mt i
redofyou,butitstops
today[It
urnedandlookatthi
sBusi gir
l]andy ou
sweetybetterst
artr
unni
ngbecause1dayi t'
s
gonnabey ou. 
Busi:
shamekeept el
l
ingyour
selft
hatbutt
rut
h
ofthematt
erishelovesme..
.Igav
ehim what
youcoul
dn'
t[sherubbedhert
ummy]

Igav
eherasmi l
ethenl
ookedbackatmysoon
tobeExhusband.
 
Me:
you'
l
lhearf
rom myl
awy
ers.
 
Him:lawy
ers??Pl
easedon'
tmakemel augh.
.
canyouevenspel
lthewor
dlawyer
,letal
one
aff
ordone? 
Me: weshallseethen,ohandi wishyouallt
he
best[Iwipedmyt earsandSmi led]youguys
deserveeachother.[WiththatsaidIdragged
mysui tcase,t
heoneIcamewi thandleft
everyt
hingelsethere.
.incl
udingmyr ing]
Ifel
tli
keIwasleavi
ngapartofmebehi
nd,I
real
lyl
ovedBonganebutr
ightnowIj
usthadto
l
ov emysel
fmor e.
 
Ical
l
edacabsi
nceIdi
dn'
twannat
aket
hecar
heboughtme.Idon'
twanthi
mtr
acki
ngme
down.
 
Afterf
ewminut
esthecabwashere,Ididn'
t
knowwhereIwasgoingbutIj
ustwantedtobe
farawayf
rom t
hispl
ace.
 
Driv
er:ar
eyouokayma'
am?[
Idi
dn'
tev
en
real
iseIwascr
ying]
Me:[noddi
ng]I
'
llbef
ine[Iwastr
yingt
o
conv
incebothhi
m andmy sel
f]
I
nnot i
methecabwasparkedinfr
ontof
Mfundosapar
tment
.Thedri
verhel
pedme
of
floadt
hebag. 
Dri
ver:Idon'
tknowwhaty
ougoi
ngt
hroughbut
i
twill
pass, j
ustpr
ay 
Me:
thanky
ou 
Dri
ver:andbestr
ong,don'
tl
ety
ourenemiessee
yourtears[
witht
hatsai
dhewalkedbacktot
he
carthendroveof
f]
Iknockedont
hedooraf
ewt
imesbef
ore
someoneopened.
Fufu:
Muhle,whatarey oudoinghere?Waitar
e
youcryi
ng?[YooohIjustcri
edev enmoreashe
pul
ledmet ohishar
d,yetgentlechest
]
Me:
Idi
dn'
tknowwher
eel
set
ogo 
Fuf
u:youkeept
other
ightpl
ace.[
Ifel
tsosaf
e
i
nhisarms]

"Whatsgoi
ngonher e?"Av oi
cesaidf r
om
behi
nd,webroket hehugandl ookedather.I
t
wasNaledi
,rememberher ?Thegi rl
thatwas
mfundospartneratthatworkfuncti
on. 
Me:I
'm sorr
yIdi
dn'
tknowyouhadcompany
,I'
l
l
j
ustgo[Isai
dtoMfundo]
Hi
m: Noyounotgoinganywher
e,canyou
pl
easeexcuseus[hesai
dtoNaledit
henpul
l
ed
metothebedroom ]
Him:youcansi
tonthebed,
I
'l
lberightback[I
noddedandsatdownashedisappearedint
o
t
hebat
hroom ]
Hecamebackwit
hpil
l
sthenwentt
ogetmea
gl
assofwat
eri
ntheki
tchen.
 
Hi
m:here,
dri
nkup[
Ithankedhi
mthendr
ank
t
hepi
ll
s]
Hekneel
eddownandtookofmyshoes,
nchoo
suchagent
lement
hough.
 
Hi
m: getsomerestokay,
we'
l
ltal
kwheny
ou
wakeup[Inoddedagain]
Hecoveredmewi t
htheduvett
hensatnextt
o
me,busybrushi
ngmyhairasIdri
ft
edtoa
beaut
if
ulsleep.

-
 
Iwokeupl ateronanditwasalreadydar
k
outsi
de.Mf undowasnotnexttomeany more
butbefor
eIcoul dmove.Thedooropenedand
hegotinwi thabowlinhishands. 
Hi
m:heyy
ou'
reawake?
 
Me:
yeahIjustwokeup,
Iwasaboutt
ogot
o
t
hebat
hroom 
Hi
m:okayhur
rybackImadey
ousomef
ood 
Me:
nchoooy
ou'
resosweetkodwaFuf
u 
Hi
m: ohther
egoest
hatnameagai
n[hesai
d
l
aughingl
y]
Me:
it'
scut
e,j
ustl
i
key
ou 
Hi
m:ohshet
hinksI
'
m cut
e 
Me:pl
easedon'
tgettoexci
tedIwasonly
pul
l
ingyourl
eg[
Istuckoutmytongueandwe
l
aughed] 
Iwentt
othebat
hroom,didmybusi
nessthen
washedmyhandsbefor
ewalki
ngbacktothe
bedr
oom. 
If
oundhi
m eat
ing.
 
Me:
Ithoughty
ousai
dthef
oodi
smi
ne 
Hi
m:y
esbuty
ouwer
etaki
ngt
ool
ongsoIgot
hungr
y[Ishookmyheadt
hensatnextt
ohi
m]
Hewaseat
ingspaghet
tiandmeat
bal
l
s. 
Hi
m:openupandl
etmef
eedy
ou 
Me:
no,
Icanf
eedmy
sel
f 
Him:sui
tyour
sel
fthen[
he.Cont
inuedeat
ing
andthewayhewaseati
ngmademehungr y
evenmore]
SoIj
ustswal
l
owedmypr
ideandl
ethi
mfeed
me. 
Me:
I'
m sor
ryIi
nter
rupt
edy
ouandy
ourgi
rl
. 
Him:she'
snotmygi
rl
..andyoudi
dn'
ti
nter
rupt
anyt
hing,
shewasj
ustleavi
ng.
Me:
ohokay
 
Hi
m:soy
ouwannat
ell
mewhat
swr
ong?
 
Me:
I'
m di
vor
cingBongane
Hi
m: whywhathappened?It
houghty
ouguy
s
wer
ehappy.
 
Me: Ij
ustcan'ttakei
tanymore,I
'vebeenput t
ing
onthebr aveandSmi l
eyfacewhileinsideI'm
breaki
ng...t
hatmandest r
oyedmeMf undo[I
wasnowget ti
ngemot i
onal]f
orTwoy ear
sive
beenabusedbutIcoul dn'
tdoany t
hingabouti t
becausemymom sai dIshoul
djustt akelikea
woman[ Iwasnowcr yi
nghyster
ical
ly,hepul l
ed
i
nhi sarms]
Me: hehi
tmeMf undo,hecal
l
edMenameson
topofthathe'
scheat
ingonme,Ihat
ehi
mI
hatehim somuch 
Him:what??Hehityou??[
hei
mmediatel
ystood
up]ohthatsonofabitchi
sgonnapay[hesai
d
walki
ngtowardsthedoor]
Me:Fufuno!
[hetur
nedandlookedatme]he'
s
notwort
hit.
.Ij
ustwanthi
m outofmyli
fe,f
or
good!

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06,
11:
34]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT12

BONGANE 
soonaft
erOmhl el
eft
,Igotacal
lfrom mydad
I'
vebeenignor
inghi
m sincet
hatdayOmuhle
l
efthome. 
Me:
Baba.
 
Him:nyabanyabawhatthehell
iswr
ongwit
h
you,whyareyouall
owi
ngy ourmom t
owal
k
all
overyourwi
fe?
?..
whatkindofamanar
eyou?
Me:
Baba.
..
 
Him:st
opsayi
ngBaba.
.youareaweakli
ng
man!!
!Iwanty
ouhereonFri
daytoget
herwi
th
yourwi
fe 
Me:BabaIwon'
t.
..[
hecutmeoffbef
oreIcoul
d
ev
enfini
shwhatIwant
edtosay]
Him:mywordisfi
nalBongane,youruncl
esand
Iwil
lbewai
ti
ngforyou.[
Withthatsai
dhehung
up]
Wow.
.Iwasbl
ank 
Idi
dn'tknowwhatt
odo,Idon'
tthi
nkI'
l
lbeable
tot
ellmydadaboutmeandOmuhl espli
tt
ingup
andthatIwannamarr
yBusi.
 
Her
:what
'swrongbabe?Whydoy
oul
ookso
pal
e?[
Shelookedworr
ied]
Me:
mydadsummonedmehomet
hisweekend
Her
:what
?Why
?
Me:
toget
herwi
thOmuhl
e 
Her
:whyher
?
Me:
she'
smywi
feBusi
! 
Her:soontobeEx!!!It
hinkit
'stimeyougetyour
pri
ori
ti
esri
ght..
it
'sti
mey oustandupt oyour
dad,youcanlethim di
ctat
ey ourli
fel
ikethi
s.
You'
reagrownassmanandy ou'
reabouttobe
afat
her
..whatexampl
ewil
lyoubetoourson?
[
Whatshewassay i
ngmadesense,
I'
m myown
mannowanddadshouldknowthat]
Me:you'r
eri
ghtbabe,
it'
sti
medadknowst
hatI
don'
ttakeor
dersfr
om him 
Her
:nowt
hat
'smyman[
weshar
edaki
ss]
Myfat
heri
sinforasur
pri
se,i
fsher
eal
l
yl ov
es
Omuhl
ethatmuchthenhecanmarr
yher!Nxn.

OMUHLE
Hi
m:I
'
m gl
ady
ouher
ewi
thme 
Me:
it'
sapi
tyI
'
mleav
ingt
omor
row.
 
Hi
m:t
hatai
n'
thappeni
ng 
Me:
butFuf
u..
 
Him:no,t
herearetoomanyv ul
tur
esoutt her
e
andIwon'tbeabletoprot
ectyouwheny ou'r
e
farawayfr
om me[ Il
ookedathim andhewas
deadseri
ous]
Me:
youknowIdon'
tneedpr
otect
ionr
ight
?? 
Hi
m:you'r
esti
l
lhurtandvul
nerabl
esopeopl
e
mi
ghttakeadv
antage[Il
aughed]
Thi
sguyt
hough 
Me:
youar
ejusti
mpossi
bley
az 
Hi
m:Iknow[Il
aughedandpushedhi
m abi
t]
Hest
uckouthi
stongue 
Me:canyoupl
easehel
pmef
indal
awy
er?An
af
fordabl
eone
Him:Icancont
actmylawy
erandhecanhel
p
youwitht
hedivor
ce 
Me:FufuI'
m sureyourl
awy eri
sexpensive,I
won'taf
for
dtopayhi m andforschoolatthe
samet i
me[Ivebeensavingmymont hl
y
al
lowancefortwoyearsnowsoIt hinkIhave
aboutR720,
000inmysecr eteaccount]
Hi
m:whosai
dany
thi
ngaboutpay
inghi
m? 
Me:
Duhi
t'
sobv
ious,
hewon'
twor
kforf
ree 
Hi
m:justl
eav
eal
lthatt
ome,
Idi
dn'
tknowy
ou
st
udy
ing. 
Me:wellIwasn'
t,Iwasfor
cedtobeahouse
wi
fesonowt hatI'mfr
eeIwannafuthuremy
st
udiesandbettermysel
f.Iwannabe
i
ndependent[al
lthi
sti
mehewasl ookingatme
i
nawei r
dway ]

Me:
what
?.
Him:nothi
ng,you'r
ejustamazing[
Ismil
ed]l
et'
s
gooutforicecream you'
vebeencoopedupin
heret
hewhol eday..
 
Me:I
'm noti
nthemoodt ogoout
,whydon'
twe
or
derpi
zzainsteadandwatchmovi
es 
Hi
m:butt
hat
'sbor
ing[
hesul
ked]
Me:
pleaseFuf
u,pl
easedoi
tforme 
Hi
m:f
ine!
 
Het
ookhi
sphoneandor
der
edPi
zza.
.af
terf
ew
minutesi
twasher e.
.Idi
shedupforusandwe
watchedThinkl
ikeamant henl
aterwat
ched
Rushhour,hisf
avori
te.
 
Ireal
l
yhadfunshame,
welaterr
eti
redt
o
bed..
wel
lIsl
epti
nasparer
oom. 
-
Iwaswokenupbymyr i
ngi
ngphonet henex
t
morni
ng.
.Ij
ustanswer
edwithoutchecki
ngthe
cal
l
erID.
 
Me:
mmm what
? 
Hi
m:Omuhl
e? 
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantBongane?
Hi
m:Ineedt
otel
lyousomet
hing 
Me:Idon'
twannahearit.
.youcancontactmy
l
awyerandtel
lhi
mt hat[Ihungup,bef
orehe
coul
devenrepl
y] 
Iwantednot
hingt
odowithhi
m,hehasdone
enoughdamagealr
eady
..
.Whycan'
thej
ust
l
eav
emeal
one?
 
Anyway
sIgotup,
itookof
fmypj
sandwal
ked
tot
hebathr
oom.

WhenIwasaboutt ostar
tbathi
ng,
Ireal
i
sed
thatIf
orgotmytoi
l
etrybag.
.andasIwasabout
towalkoutIpumpedintoMfundwhowas
naked.
 
Webot
hstoodt
her
einj
ustawkwar
dsi
l
encef
or
f
ewminut
es.
Me:
umh.
.mor
ning 
Hesmi
l
ed 
Him:thi
sisjustawkward[Il
ookeddownand
myey esfel
lonhismanhoodandIimmediat
ely
swall
owedhar d..
itwashugeanddangl
i
ngin
betweenhislegs 
Me:umhIwasj
ust
..
.Ij
ustwant
ed[
Iwas
st
utt
eri
ng]
Ifr
ozeashesmashedhi
scol
dli
psonmine.
..
somethi
ngcol
djustr
andownmyspi
ne.
 
If
oundmy sel
fkissi
nghim back,thi
skissgot
mefeeli
ngthingsI'
veneverfel
t.
.butIquickl
y
br
okeitasIremeredthatI'
m sti
llmarr
iedto
Bongane.
Me:excuseme,
[Iqui
ckl
yranoutashecal
l
ed
myname]
Ij
ustl
ockedmy
sel
finmybedr
oom 
.
Howam Igonnafacehim af
tert
his.
.he'
s
pr
obabl
ythi
nkingthatI
'
m ahoe..Thi
sisjust
messedup

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IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO
I
NSERT13
OMUHLE

Hi
m:Muhlecomeon, you'
vebeenint
hatr
oom
f
orhour
snowI'm sur
ey ouhungr
ynow.
Me:umhuh..
[he'
sri
ght
,.
.I
'
m hungr
ybutIwas
j
ustnotr
eadytof
acehi
m]
Him: y
ouknowwhat,ifyoudon'
topent
hisdoor
i
nt henext5minut
esI'
m gonnabr
eakit
.[Icoul
d
hearthathewasn'
tpl
ayi
ngshame]
If
inal
l
ygotenoughcour
aget
oopent
hedoor
. 
Hi
m:ohf
inal
l
y[heat
tackedmewi
thahug]
Me:
Ican'
tbr
eat
he 
Hebroket
hehugandlookedatmewi
thhi
s
char
mingsmi
leofhi
s. 
Him:I'
m sor
ryaboutwhathappenedearl
i
er,
I
wasoutofli
ne..I
'
mj ustusedt
obealoneinthi
s
houseandmostoft heti
meIwalkaround
naked[hehel
dbothmyhands]I
'
m sor
ryf
or
makingyouuncomfor
tabl
e. 
Me:i
t'
sokayFuf
u,AndI
'
m sor
ryf
or
ov
err
eact
ing 
Him:nowthat'
soutoft
heway
,canwegoeat
I
'm hungr
y. 
Me:
youhav
en'
teat
en?
 
Him:It
ri
edbutt
heyj
ustdi
dn'
tgodownwi
thout
you.
 
Il
aughedasweheadedt
otheki
tchen.
 
Af
tereat
ingwewentt
othemal
lfori
cecr
eam.

-
Bonganehasbeencall
ingmenonst opand
busyblowingmyphonewitht
onsofmessages,
Iendedupblocki
nghisnumberandr ej
ect
ion
hiscal
ls.
.Iwasseri
ouswhenIsaidIwant
nothi
ngtodowi t
hhim. 
Any wayslivingwithMf undowassuperf un,he
wasspoi li
ngmer ott
enandhedi dn'
twantme
doingany thingaroundt hehousebecausehe
hadahel pert hatcomesonceaweek. .ohand
I'
veregisteredwi t
hUni saandIwasgonnabe
starti
ngnextweeksi nceit'
salr
eadythemi ddl
e
ofthey ear. 
Mf undowasatwor ksoIdecidedtocook
somet hingforhim,justt
osaythankyou.
.He
hasr eall
ybeenagr eatsupport
..
Ohand
tomor rowI'
llbemeet i
ngupwi t
hhisl
awyert
o
drawupt hedivor
cepapers. 
Him:mmm somethi
ngsmellsni
ce[
hesai
das
hegoti
n,wi
thhi
slaptopbagandhi
sot
herhand
hi
ddenbehi
ndhi
sback]
Me:
hey
,youback 
Him:yepandIgotsomethi
ngnicef
ory
ou[he
handedmebunchofpinkroses]
Me:
wowmyf
avor
it
e!!Howdi
dyouknow?
 
Hi
m:Ij
ustknow[
hesai
dwi
thasmi
rk]
Me:
thanky
ou,
Ilov
ethem 
Him:Iknewyouwould[
heki
ssedmyf
orehead
andheadedupst
air
s]
Ismel
l
edt
hem bef
oreput
ti
ngt
hem i
nav
ase.
 
I
tsbeenawhi
l
esi
nceIf
eltl
i
ket
his.

☆FRI
DAY,
THEDAYOFTHEMEETI
NG☆
BONGANE

I
'v
ebeent r
yingt
ocontactOmhlethewhol
e
weekbutshe'si
gnori
ngmycalls,
shewentas
f
arasblocki
ngme. .wowIguessshewasreal
l
y
f
edupwi t
hme.  
Busi
cameinfr
om t
heki
tchenchewi
ng
somethi
ng.
Her:
babeweshouldreal
l
ygetamaidphelawe
ar
ealmostoutofdi
shesandt
heki
tchenisjust
f
il
thy
. 
Me:whycan'
tyouwashthedishesandcl
ean
ar
oundthehouse,
it'
snott
hathardaft
eral
l.
 
Her:seemslikeyouf
orgett
ingthatI
'
m carr
ying
yourbaby,Ican'
tbedoi
ngchoresatthisst
ate
unlessyouwantmet olosethi
sbaby. 
Me:ofcoursenotbabe,
lookI'm sor
ryt
hatI
evensuggest
edthatyouclean.
.we'l
lhi
re
someonewhenwecomeback.  
Her:t
hanksbabe,
[shegav
emeakissonthe
l
ips]sohowlongarewegonnabeatt
he
Bundus?
Me:Idon'
tknowbutIt
hinki
t,
wil
lbej
ustf
ort
he
weekend 
Her
:okayt
hen.
 
It
ookourbagsandl
oadedt
hem i
nthecart
hen
wehi
ttheroadt
otheai
rpor
t.
 
Alongt
hewayItr
iedcal
li
ngOMUHLEbuti
tst
il
l
tookmest
rai
ghttovoi
cemai
l.
Her
:she'
sst
il
lnott
aki
ngy
ourcal
l
s?
Me:
yeah.
.It
hinkshebl
ockedme 
Her:
Isaygoodri
ddancet obadrubbi
sh[I
l
ookedather
]yesbabyy ourdadwil
lfi
nal
lysee
herf
orwhatsheis.
..uhl
ulweumendo
Me:
aiokay
,don'
tyouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
? 
Her:
justpassbyMacDonal
d,I
'
m cr
avi
ngi
ce
cr
eam 
Me:
okay
 
-
 
Lat
erwear
ri
vedatKZN,wegotat
axi
tot
akeus
homefr
om t
heai
rport
. 
Her
:yoohI'
m soti
redbabe,
Ijustwannat
akea
bat
hthensl
eep[sheyawned]
Me:nchoooli
tt
lechapbemaki
ngmommy
sl
eepy[Ir
ubbedhertummy]
Fi
nal
l
ythecabparkedatthegate.
.wegotof
f
wi
thourbagsandwalkedin,
Icanseemy
uncl
escarmeani
nghe'
sher
eal
ready
. 
Iknockedt
henwenti
n. 
Myday,myuncleandothermenIdi
dn'
tknow
weresi
tt
ingint
hedinni
ngroom ,
dri
nki
ng
t
radi
ti
onalbeer
. 
Me:Bant
uabadal
a[t
heyt
urnedandl
ookedat
us]
Mymom i mmediat
elycamerunni
ngf
rom t
he
ki
tchenassheheardmyv oi
ce.
 
Mom:wuuuumakot
iwAmi
i
i[sheat
teckedBusi
wi
thati
ghthug]
Thenki
ssedhercheek 
Busi
:hi
mama 
Mom: y
ooohawusemuhl
e[mybabej
ust
bl
ushed]
MySi
steral
socameandhuggedher,
I'
m gl
ad
t
heywelcomedherwi
thwar
m hands.
 
"
WHATTHEHELLI
SGOI
NGONHERE?
"dad
r
oar
edandt
hehousei
mmedi
atel
ywentqui
et.
 
Hi
m:Bongane?
 
Me:
Baba.
 
Hi
m:what
'sgoi
ngonher
e,whot
hehel
li
sthi
s? 
Me:
umh.
..
uh[
mymom camet
omyr
escue]
Mom:BabauBobouzot
hat
haunkosi
kazi
wesbi
l
i 
Him:overmydeadbody .
…Lokhokuzo
kwenzekangf
il
e[I'
veneverseenmydadthis
angry
,hewasfuming]there'
sonlyoneMakot
iin
thi
shouseandthatisOmuhle!!
Me:
kodwababa.
..
 
Him:BonganeI'
vespoken!
!Wenanondi
ndwa
gett
hehelloutofmyhousebefor
eIbeaty
ou 
Mom:
yehl
i
sauMoy
ababa.
 
Hi
m:Iwon'tcal
m down, Iwantthi
sBi
tchoutof
myyar
d.[
Busiwasalreadyteari
ngup] 
Me:
dady
oucan'
tcal
lheraBi
tchshe'
smy
fut
urewif
eandshe'scar
ryi
ngmyhei
r[Mydad
chuckl
edindi
sbel
i
ef]
Hi
m:you'r
esuchaf ool
ishboyBongane,
I'
m
ev
endisappoint
edtocally
oumyson..youcan'
t
ev
enreali
zethatyouar
elosingt
hemost
pr
eci
ousjewel. 
Me:Idon'
tl
oveOMUHLEany
onebaba,
Ilov
e
Busi

Hi
m:y
ouwon'
tmar
ryt
hatl
osepant
y 
Me:
Iwi
l
ldadandy
ouwon'
tst
opme 
Him:okay,butjustknowt
hatwhenyouwalk
outofthatdooryou'
renol
ongermyson.
.you'
re
deadtome 
Mom:
hai
bobaba![
Sheexcl
aimed]

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NGIDO
I
NSERT14
BONGANE

Me:dadIwon'
tst
andhereandli
stent
oyou
i
nsul
ti
ngmywoman, i
fyoulov
eOmuhl et
hat
muchwhydon'
tyoumarryher
? 
Mom:
Bobo!
!!
Me:nomom I
'mti
redofdaddi
ctat
ingmyl
i
fe,
I
'm agr
ownassManIcanmakemyown
deci
si
ons.
 
Dad:
okayson,sinceyouknowbestgoonand
marr
yherbutpleasedon'
tcomecryi
ngbackt
o
meoncethebit
chi sdonewit
hyou.
 
Me:thatwon'tbehappening,
becauseonly
deat
hshalldousapar t
.[
theol
dmanj ust
l
aughed..
.li
kereal
lyl
aughed]
Hi
m:Sbal
ear
eli
steni
ngt
othi
sboy
?[heasked
myuncl
e]
Uncl
e:Ihearhi
m Sbal
eandt
heonl
yexpl
anat
ion
i
t'
sthatheisbewit
ched.
 
Me:youknowwhat ,Idon'thaveti
mef oral
lthi
s
nonsense.
.let
'sgobabe[Iheldherhand]
Dad:j
ustknowthatwhenyouwal
kedoutoft
hat
dooryou'
redeadtome. 
Mom:
baba.No!
!!Cantwet
alkaboutt
his?
 
Dad:I
'
m donetal
ki
ng[hetookhi
sgl
assand
gul
peddownthewhiskey
]

Ihel
dmyl ady'
shandandwewal kedout,
we
Don'tneedt
hiski
ndoffucker
yinourli
fe.
.we
shouldbehappy,
focusi
ngyourbundl
eofjoy
. 
Wewer esil
enti
nsi
dethecabdr
ivi
ngt
othe
near
esthotel
.Busi
broughtmebackt
oli
feas
shetouchedmyhand. 
Her
:I'
m sopr
oudofy
oubaby
,youf
inal
l
yst
ood
uptoy
ourfat
her..andthat
'
sthemanIf
ell
in
l
ovewit
h[shethenkissedmyli
ps]
Her
:andforthaty
oudeser
vear
eward.
.[she
movedherhandupanddownmycock]
Igr
oanedasIf
eltmy
sel
fget
ti
nghar
der
. 
Me:babypleasenotinhere,
[Idi
dn'
twantt
o
makethepoordriverbyhavi
ngsexint
heback
seat
.Inbr
oughtdayl i
ght]
Wegott
othehot
elandcheckedi
n

OMUHLE 
Iwasatther
est
urantwai
ti
ngf
orMfundos
l
awyer,
heshoul
dbehereanyminut
enow. 
Iwassippingmycockt
ailj
uicewhil
ebusyon
myphonewhenIhear dsomeonecl eari
ngt
hei
r
thr
oat,Il
ookedupandther
est oodthis
handsomedarkmanwi t
hpinkl i
ps.
 
Hi
m:Omuhl
e? 
Me:
yes 
Hi
m: I
'
m sor
ryforkeepi
ngy
ouwai
ti
ng,
Igot
st
uckint
raf
fi
c. 
Me:
it'
sokayIhav
en'
tbeenher
efort
hatl
ong.
 
Him:ohI'
m Tebogobyt
heway[
weshook
hands]
Me:wellyoualreadyknowmesoIwon't
i
ntr
oducemy sel
f[hegavemeasidesmil
e
bef
oretakingouthistabl
et]
Him:soIheary
ouwannadi
vor
cey
our
husband.
 
Me:yesthatstrue,butIdon'twantany
thi
ng
fr
om him..hecankeephi smoneyand
ever
ythi
ngheboughtme, ijustwannabe
fr
ee[hewast ypingonhistab]
Him: sohowlonghaveyouguysbeenmarr
ied
for?Andareyoumarri
edincommunityof
propert
y?[
heaskedashet ookagl
anceatme
thenwentbacktohistab]
Me: we'
vebeenmar r
iedfor2andahal
fyear
s
nowandy eswe'
remarri
edincommunit
yof
proper
ty.butasIsai
dIwantnothi
ngfr
om hi
m 
Him:notev
ent
hehouseormoney
?[Ishookmy
headno]
Him: okaysomayIaskt her
easonbehindthe
di
v or
ce, youknowincasehewantstodragitto
court[hesaidthatl
ooki
ngatmestrai
ghtinthe
eye]
Me: he'sabusi
ve,bothemoti
onall
yand
physicall
ybutIstayedwit
hhim hopi
nghe'd
changebuthedi dntInst
eadhegotwor se.
.so
yeahnowweher e[IwipedatearasIthought
abouthowf arI'
vecome]
Him:okaythenthi
sshoul
dbeeasysi
ncewe
don'
thaveanyassetsweneedtospl
i
t..the
papersshouldber
eadyin2day
sandI'll
have
them del
iv
eredtoyou 
Me:
Thanky
ou,
Tebogo 
Him:I
'mj ustdoi
ngmyjobma'am,soumh
shoul
dweor der
?I'
m st
arv
ing,
I'
vebeencooped
upinthatoffi
cefort
hewholeday.
 
Me:
shamesor
ry.
 
Weor der
edsomet
hingtoeatashet
oldMe
aboutwhatt
oexpect.
 
-
 
Aft
erourl
unchIwentbackhomeaf terdoi
nga
bi
tofshoppi
ng,Ij
ustwantthi
sdi
v or
cet hi
ngt
o
end.
.soIcanmoveonwi t
hmyl i
fe. 
BUSI
 
Mynamei sBusisi
weMagwazaandasy ouall
knowI '
m dat i
ngBongane.Ican'tsayIlovehim,
Ij
ustdat edhim becauseIneededst abi
li
tyinmy
l
ifeIjustneededsomeonewhowor kshard
whil
eIj ustsitathomeander renjoythefrui
ts
ofhishar dlabor.
 
AnywaysmyphoneRangdi
stur
bingmef
rom
ournap.
 
ItwasmymothersoIstoodup,woremygown
andanswer
edasIwalkedouttothebal
cony
. 
Me:
ma 
Her
:Busi
howar
eyoumychi
l
d? 
Me:
I'
mfi
nemom,
coul
dn'
tbemor
ehappi
er.
Her
:Iguessev
ery
thi
ngi
sst
il
lgoi
ngi
nor
der
t
hen.
 
Me:he'sfal
li
ngf ormemoreever
ydaymom..
.
andtodayhef oughtwi
thhi
sdadbecauseof
me,theydisownedhim.
Mom:
goodt
hat
'sexact
lywhatwewant
 
Me:andsi
ncehisdivor
cingt
hatSkankofhi
s,he
won'
thaveachoicebuttoputmeinhiswil
l
. 
Mom:that
'smygi
rl
,thi
siswhyy
ou'
remy
f
avor
it
edaught
er[
Igiggl
ed] 
Mom: youshouldcomegetstrongerMuti
..
.we
Dontwanthim suspect
ingany
thingaboutt
he
baby 
Me:okaymom I'
l
lbethereassoonasweland
tomorr
ow[youseemymom i sasangomaso
she'
stheonemakingthesemutif
orme]
Mom:
okaybaby
,keepwel
lmommyl
ovesy
ou 
Me:
lov
eyout
ooby
e[wehungup]
Ismil
edlooki
ngatt
hisoceanvi
ew,onceI
'm
donewit
hBONGANE. .
hewon'tknowwhathit
him.
 
Iwannasuckhi
m andl
eav
ehi
m dr
y

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NGIDO

I
NSERT15
BUSI

Me:
babycany
oupl
easet
akemet
omymoms
house[
Isai
daswedr
oveof
ffr
om t
heai
rpor
t]
Hi
m:butIthoughtwe'l
lbespendi
ngt
ime
t
oget
her,
justthethr
eeofus. 
Me:andwewillbabeIj
ustwannaseeherfor
f
ewhour,she'
sbeencomplai
ningthatIno
l
ongervi
sit
 
Him:okaybuydon'
ttaketool
ong,youknowI
can'
tsurv
iveaminut
ewi t
houtyou.[
Ibl
ushed]
Me:Ipr
omi
set
obebacksoonbabe[
Iki
ssedhi
s
cheek]
Hepar
kedont
hegat
e 
Me: don'
tbuyanyt
akeaways.
..I
'
m suremy
mom hascookedsoI'l
lbr
ingyouiskhaf
ti
ni[
he
chuckled]
Hi
m:youknowIcantsaynot
oyourmom'
s
f
ood.
 
Me:
okayt
henby
e[weshar
edaki
ss]
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou 
Me:
wel
ovey
out
oodaddy
 
Iwal
kedi
nthey
ardashedr
oveof
f.
 
Me:
mommyI
'
m home 
Her:ohher
smynumberonedaught
er[
we
hugged]
Me:don'
tl
etSont
oheary
ousayt
hat[
webot
h
gi
ggl
ed]
Her:
wowbabyyougl
owi
ng.
.Iguesst
hemoney
t
reat
ingy
ougood 
Me:ohhmom don'tev
enment i
onit
,I'
venever
beensohappi
erandit
'sal
lthankst
oy ou[
she
smil
ed]
Her:Ij
ustwantwhat'
sbestfory
oubaby,
speaki
ngofwhichlet
'sgett
oitri
ghtaway[she
tookmyhandandwewentt oherconsult
ati
on
room]

Her
:t
akeof
fyourunder
wearandl
i
edown[
Idi
d
asIwast
old]
Her:openyourl
egsabit[
Idi
dandshet ook
someher bsandmixedt
hem wit
hthisbl
ack
thi
ng..sheappl
i
editonmyvir
ginal
whole]
Her:ev
eryt
imewhenyouhavesexsayt
hese
wordsoutl
oud"youar
emineandmineal
one,
youwil
lworshi
pme"
Me:
yes.Mom 
Shegavemeanothermut
itobat
hwi
th.wet
hen
wentbackt
othedinni
ngr
oom. 
Me:hav
eyouguyscooked?Ipr
omi
sedmy
hubbyi
skaf
thi
n 
Her
:wowBusi
arey
oust
il
lthatl
azy
? 
Me: mymani sami l
li
onai
remom soIhaveno
ti
mef orchores[shelaughedt
henstoodupto
godishupf orme, andofcour
seputti
ngthat
special
ingr
edient]
Wechi
l
ledf
orawhi
l
ethenl
aterIl
eft
..
BONGANE 
AssoonasIgothomeIwasmetbysi gned
divorcepaper sf r
om Omuhl eandugott oadmit
asmuchasIwant edheroutofmyl i
fe,Ididn'
t
thinkshe' dbesoqui ckastocontactmy
l
awy er.
..imeanMuhl el
ovesme, shewoul dn't
hav ejustupandl eavejustl
ikethat..
Imeanshe
didn'tev enwast ehert i
mebeggingme. .Ihave
toadmi titkindofbr uisedmyegobutt henas
Busi said" t
hesoonersheget soutofourl ives
thebet ter"..Ithrewt hepenawayandj ust
staredatnot hingt hebedroom dooropenedand
herper fumeat tachedmynost r
il
sshegav eme
herCol gat esmi leandIi mmediatelylostit
...
Shetookthepaper
'sf
rom t
hebedandwent
thr
oughthem
Her:
gladtoseeyourdamnbit
chact
edsmar
tby
notwanti
ngtosuckyoudr
y..
Me:
Muhl
eisnott
hatt
ype
[
Sher
oll
edherey
esngav
emeani
rr
it
atedl
ook]
Me:
babe,
nodon'
tbemad
Her:howcanInotbemadwheny ouarebusy
doubtingtol
etgo[tear
sstar
tedf
all
ingfr
om her
eyes]t
his[
shepoi
ntedathertummy]usweare
yourfutur
e 
Me:Iknowsthandwasam [
Itookt
hepenand
si
gnedt hest
upidpaper
s]
Her:
nowthat
'smyman[
shesmil
edgetti
ng
cl
osetomeasshesl
owl
ytookoffherdr
ess]
Me:
babeIt
hinkweshoul
dst
artpacki
ng
Her
:packi
ngwhat
?
Me:
hav
eyouf
orgot
tenaboutt
hecamp?
Her
:ohht
hat
 
[Wewer egoi
ngonacamponeofour
col
leagueshador
gani
sedi
t,i
twasacoupl
es
camp]
Me:
yeaht
hatwegot
tapack 
Her :what?
?nowayscantwej
ustbuynew
clothes?.
.i
t'
snotl
i
keyoudon'
taf
fordt
hem[she
foldedherarms]
Me:
okay.
.I
'l
lgety
ounewcl
othes,
butI
'
llwear
myoldone'
s 
Her
:okayt
hen.
.y
oucanst
artpacki
ng
Me:
Ithoughtmay
bey
ouwer
egonna.
..
.[Cut
ti
ng
i
n]
Her:
mepacky ourclot
hes??Never
!Imeanone
mightbreakhernai
l
s..Andbesi
desim pr
eggi
es
ukhohl
iwe? 
Me:
okaybabeI
'
llpackmyowncl
othes
Her
:t
hat
smyman..
themanIfel
lfor..Youar
e
t
hemanbabe[
Ismi
ledi
nvol
atur
aly]
Ij
ustl
i
kei
twhenshecompl
i
mentsmeand
makemefeel
moreofaman..
Weki
ssedpassi
onat
ely
Me:
babe,
Igot
tast
artpacki
ng
Her:oht hat..
.whi
leyouatitpleaseorderus
somepi zzaar estavi
ng[shepoi nt
edather
tummy ]y ourfoodisint
heki tchenMe:Iwil
lbe
onit[
Ikissedherbel l
yandbr usheditthen
headedoutt opackandor derthewomanofmy
l
ifesomepi zza]

OMUHLE

FufuissuchaGodsenthet reatsmesogood
andIcan'tgetenough..He'
sbeensogoodt hatI
canevenseemyf aceglowing..
.it
struewhen
theysay,Happinesscanmakey oulookyear
s
younger[l
adiesitworksyoushouldt r
yit
sometimes]
Hi
m:whatdoyouhaveinhere?thi
ssui
tcasei
s
t
ooheavyyou'
dswearther
ear ebri
cksinher
e
[
hewascarryi
ngourl
uggage'stothecar]
Me:
j
ustf
ewcl
othesandt
oil
etr
ies 
Him:l
i
ar[
Ismil
ed,
heopenedthefrontdoorf
or
me..
suchagentl
eman..Hav
ey oueverseen
Bonganedoi
ngthatf
orme??NEVER]
Hi
m:ar
eyousur
eyouar
eokay
?
Me:
yeahi
mfi
ne
[Hetouchedmyhandandcont
inuedst
art
edt
he
car]
..
.
Itwasoneoft hebestri
des,wewouldstopand
takepi
ctures..
.westoppedatgar
agesbought
somefoodandhi ttheroadagai
n..Ithi
nkI'
m
gonnaenjoythisCamp

#THE 
END 
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
[
05/
06,
11:
36]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT16
OMUHLE

Me:
arewet
her
eyet
?Mybum hur
t[
hel
aughed]
Hi
m: hol
donal
i
ttl
ebi
tlongerBoo,
weal
most
t
here.
Me:fine![
ItookoutabagofDori
tosandst
art
ed
eat
ing,Iwoul df
eedhim her
eandther
e]

Wef
inal
l
ygott
her
e,y
oohmybumscoul
dn'
t
t
akei
tanyl
onger
..
Wewer einthemiddl
eoftheforestnextto
somelake.Twocarswerealr
eadypar kedther
e,
Icoul
dseepeopletaki
ngpict
ures.
Me: wowt hi
splaceisbeauti
fulandcreepyat
t
hesamet ime,It
hinkI
'm gonnaturnbackwhile
i
t'
sst i
l
learly[y
oohFuf uwasi nsti
tchesI'
m
t
ell
ingy ou]
Me: I
'
m ser i
ous,
I'
veseent
hisbefor
e..f
riends
comef orcampingbutonl
y1or2oft hem come
backaliv
e,excusemebutI'm notr
eadyt obe
tur
nedintoami ncemeatbythosewrongt ur
n
people[t
hewayhewasl aughingsohard,he
evenhadt ears]
Him:ohpleasestopexaggerat
ingbabe,those
thi
ngsonlyhappeninmov i
es[hesqeezedmy
hand]you'r
esafewithme.[Ismi l
ed]

Hi
m:comel
et'
sgoout
,letmei
ntr
oducey
out
o
newpeopl
e.[hecameandopenedt
hedoorf
or
meandhelpedmeout]
Me:
yooohIt
hinkIneedamassage
Him:mmm letmesee[hecameasifhewas
huggingmethenputhi
shandsonmyassand
squeezedi
t,Ij
umped]
Hechuckl
ed
Me:
whatdi
dyoudot
hatf
or?
Him:Iwastry
ingt
omakeyoufeel
bett
er[he
tookmyhandandwewalkedt
ohiscol
leagues
andfri
end]
Hi
m:f
ell
as
Guy
s:shomf
ethu[t
heyshoul
derbumped]
Him: guy
st hi
sismybabeOmuhle[Ilookedat
him andthenbackt
otheguys]babeI'm sur
e
yourememberJasonandthi
si sSiy
a
Jase:umham Imi
ssi
ngsomet
hingher
e?Mr
s
Z,yourebaenow?
Hi
m:Shutupdude![Igav
ethem br
iefhugs]
Me:
nicet
omeety
ouSi
ya
Hi
m:ni
cet
omeety
out
oobeaut
if
ul.
.
Hi
m:heymanwatchi
t,she'smine[Si
yal
aughed,
t
wogir
lswhower
ebusyt akingpi
ctur
escame
t
ous]
Them:
heyguy
s
Me:
hel
l
o
Him:heyl
adies,
babethi
sisLesegoSiy
as
f
iancéandthisi
s..
.[
hel
ookedatJasonandt
hey
l
aughed]
Gi
rl
:I
'm Thubel
i
hlebuty
oucancal
lmeThuba
Me:
nicetoomeetyouguy
s,I
'
m Omuhl
e[Igav
e
t
hem hugsaswel
l]
Lesego:wowgi
rli
sthaty
ourr
eal
hai
r?
Me:
yesi
tis
Jason:
okaynowthat'
sourqueue[
theywentand
satbythel
akedr
inki
ngsomebeer]
Lesego:
wowhowl
onghav
eyoubeengr
owi
ng
i
t?
Me:
it'
sabout4y
ear
snow
Lesego:st
opl
yi
ng!
!!
Me:
I'
mtel
l
ingy
ou.
Thuba:okayokaywegetit,shehasni
cehair
..
canwepl easetal
kaboutsomethi
ngelse.
Howlonghav eyouguysbeentoget
her
?[ She
waslooki
ngatme]
Me:
nott
hatl
ong
Thuba:damn! !
![shesai
dasMfundo
approachedus,hehel
dmywaistandki
ssedmy
cheek]
Hi
m:don'
tyouwantsomet
hingt
otodr
ink?
Me:noI
'm okayf
ornow[
hesmi
l
edand
whi
sper
edt omyear]
Hi
m:don'
ttakeany
thi
ngfrom any
oneexcept
f
orme[Ismil
edandnodded]
Hewentbackt
ohi
sfr
iends.
Thuba:wowgi r
ly oumani shot,Ihopeyour
pussygamei sonpoi ntbecauseguysli
kethat
nevercommi t
.[
Ijustrol
ledmyey esather,thi
s
gi
rlreal
lygonnabor emeshame]

Isawanothercardr
ivi
nginandIj
ustcoul
dn'
t
beli
evei
t,whatishedoingher
e?

BONGANE
myey esimmediatelyf
ellonOmuhleaswe
drov
ei n.
.whatthehelli
sshedoinghere?Wow
shereall
ylookedbreat
htakingi
nthoseshor
ts.
Busi
:whati
sthi
sbi
tchdoi
ngher
e?
Me:
babepl
ease
Busi
:ar
eyoudef
endi
ngher
?
Me:nobabebutIdon'
twantyouget
ti
ngwor
ked
upoverl
i
ttl
ethi
ngs,t
hinkoft
hebaby
Busi
:mxm [Ipar
kedthecarandgotof
f,I
openedt
hedoorformyQueen]
Icoul
dseethisothergi
rldrool
i
ngoverme,
whil
eMuhlelookedannoy edbymypresence.
Theguyswal
kedupt
ousandweal
lmet
hal
fway
.
Me:
Heyguy
s
Theyallgr
eetedbackexceptf
orOmuhleof
course,
whoseemedpr ett
yoccupiedbyher
phone.Ifi
stbumpedwiththeguys.
Gi
rl
:nowt
hisi
swhatIcal
lHOT!!
[shesai
d
l
ooki
ngatmeandbit
ingherl
i
p]
Busi:bit
chpleasekeepyourclawsof
fmyman
beforeIrear
rangeyourugl
yface.
Me:
babecal
m downpl
ease
Jase:nowI'
mt ot
all
yconf used,whatthehell
is
goingonher
eBongzar en'tyoumarri
edto
Omuhle?Whatsupwi t
ht histhi
ngnexttoyou.
Busi:didyouj
ustcallmeathi
ng?HeeeeI'm
beingtest
edhere!
!Bonganear
eyoujustgonna
standther
eandwat chthi
smanwhoreinsul
tme.
Me:umhJasondudecany
oupl
easel
eav
emy
womanal
one
Jase:woman?Pleasedon'
tmakemelaugh.
..
thi
sbit
chhasbeenfuckedbyev
eryguyi
nthe
off
ice.

Ij
ustcouldntall
owhi mtotalksuchshi
tabout
myfutur
ewi fe,Ijustt
hrewinameanpunch
andhest umbledback..wi
pingbloodfr
om hi
s
bust
edlip.
Si
ya:guy
spl
easecal
m down
Gi
rl
:kuzobamnandi
la!
![Shegi
ggl
ed]
Gi
rl
2:Thubapl
ease!
Omuhl
e:pleaseexcuseme[shewal
kedaway
wi
thMfundof ol
l
owingher
]
Pleasedon'
ttel
lmethisfuckeri
saf t
ermywife.
.
I'
m gonnakil
lsomeone..
.Istoodtherel
ooki
ng
atthem wit
hmyj awsti
ghtened.
Jase:
itst
ingshuh?
?

OMUHLE.
Ifel
tahandgent
lygr
abbi
ngmyar
m.I
twas
Fufu
Hi
m:heyar
eyouokay
?
Me:
I'
m okay
Hi
m: don'
tl
etthem gett
oyouokay
,justenj
oy
t
hisouti
ngokay?[
Inodded]
Me:
sot
ell
meSi
ncewhenar
eweani
tem?
Hechuckl
ed.
Hi
m: wel
lsi
ncefrom t
odaybabe[Il
aughed]So
doyouumh..
acceptmyproposal
?
Me:[
Ilaughed]no,whatkindofproposal
ist
his?
i
nthewoodsandy ounotevenkneeli
ngdown
[hel
aughed]
Him:okayokay,[
hewentdownont heoneknee]
Omuhlekhumalowoul
dy oupleasedome
honour
sofbeingmygir
lf
riend.
?
Me:I'
m notsurehey,
I
'l
lhav
etot
hinkaboutI
t[I
sai
dlaughi
ngly]
Hi
m:comeonhav
eahear
tboo.
.
Me:okaygetupnow[hedi
d]Isupposewe
coul
dgivei
tatry
Hi
m:what
?Doest
hatmean.
..
.?[Inodded]
Heimmedi
atel
yatt
ackedmewit
hahugthen
spunmear
ound.Icoul
dn'
tst
opgiggl
i
ng.
Hi
m:Ipr
omi
seIwon'
tdi
sappoi
nty
ou
Me:Butwehav
etot
aket
hingsonest
epatt
he
t
ime.
.
Him:anyt
hingbabe,anyt
hingtomakeyou
happy[Ismiledandhel
dhishandweconti
nued
wit
hourwal k]
Hi
m:socanI
..umh
Me:
cany
ouwhat
?
Hi
m:canIki
ssy
ou?
Me:
Idon'
tknowcany
ou[
Isai
dwewi
thasmi
l
e]

#t
oBEcont
inued
Sor
ryguy
sfornotpost
ing.
.I'
mjustbusywi
th
st
uff
[
05/
06,
11:
36]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT17
BUSI
"
FuckwhatisJasondoinghere?"Isaidto
mysel
fasthecarparked.
.Ilastsawhi m att hat
f
uncti
onafterwehadaquickyinthet oi
l
et .Wel l
i
twasn'tt
hefir
stti
mehav i
ngsexwi thhim,
we'
vefuckedacoupleofti
mesanddamnt hat
whi
teboyreall
yknowshowt ousehi sdick...
pi
tyhe'
snott
hatr
ich,i
fhewasIwoul
dn'
tbewe
her
etoday
.

Wewer enowsi t
ti
ngaroundthefi
reaft
erall
t
hatchaosthatJasoncaused.Every
onewas
t
alki
ngandbusyl aughi
ngwhileBonganeandI
j
ustfel
toutofplace.Theguyswerebusy
t
alki
ngaboutsoccerandcars.Whilegir
ls
t
alkedaboutfashiontr
ends.
I
'
venev
erbeensobor
edshame,Ij
ustwant
ed
t
ogohome.
Thuba:guy
slet
'spl
ayspi
nthebot
tl
e[t
heguy
s
l
aughed]
Mf
undo:
thatgamei
sforki
ds
Si
ya:yeahIrememberbackinvar
sit
y...
..[they
st
art
edt al
ki
ngaboutthosebor
ingvarsi
t ydays]
Me:babeIthi
nkI
'
m gonnagol
i
edownokay
?[I
f
akeday awn]
Hi
m:okaybabeI
'
llcomecheckupony
oul
ater
.
Me:comeon,arey ounotgonnaaccompany
mether
ecouldbesnakesoutt her
e.[Idi
dn'
t
wannaleav
ehim outher
ealonewithhisEx.
.
whoknowswhatt hi
sbit
chmi ghtt
rytodo?]
Hestoodup,
hel
dmyhandandwewal
kedt
o
ourt
ent.
Iwor
emyPJ'
sthengotont
hebed
Hi
m:ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
nej
ustbor
edandal
i
ttl
ebi
tti
red.
Hi
m: yeahIthi
nkyoushouldr
est
,thebaby
mightbeti
redtoo.[
Herubbedmytummyfora
whil
eandkissedit… t
hengavemeasoftper
k
ontheli
ps]
Me:
yougoi
ngback?
Hi
m:y
eahbabeIj
ustwannachi
l
lwi
tht
heguy
s.
Me:orper
hapsyouwannacont
inuest
ari
ngat
Omuhle,l
i
keyou'v
ebeendoi
ngsincewegot
her
e.
Me: Busi
I'
m notgonnafi
ghtwit
hy ou,wecame
heretoenjoyandIpl
anondoingjustthat
.[He
gavemeaki ssonthefor
eheadbef or
ewalking
out]
Ican' tbel
ievehej ustwalkedoutonme. .but
thenagai nItr
ustmymomsMut i
,whatev er
Omuhl emightt r
yt odoBonganewi l
lresist
shame. .Ismi ledasIt houghtofherbeing
rejectedbyhim. .thatwill
surel
ycrushthel i
tt
le
dignishehasl eft.
Myphonebeeped,causi
ngmet
osnapoutof
mythought
s.
I
twasawhat sappmessage,Iopenedi
tandi
t
wasf
rom Jason.
⇨WHATSAPPCONVO⇦
Hi
m:whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
mey
oupr
egnant
?
Me:
becausei
t'
snonofy
ourbusi
ness!
Hi
m:Busi
doy
ouser
iousl
ythi
nkI
'
m st
upi
d?
Me:
yesy
ouar
e..whatwer
eyout
ryi
ngt
o
achi
evewi t
hthatf
uckenstunty
oupull
edear
li
er?
Werey ouhopi
ngmay bemymanwi l
ll
eaveme
andI'
l
l comecrawl
ingbacktoyou?Him:Iwas
j
usttr
y i
ngtoshowhim howmuchofawhor e
youare.
Me:shame keepont
ryi
ng,
let
sseei
f
he'
l
lbeli
evey
ou.
Him:j
ustknowthatI
'l
lfightf
ormyson!
![my
hear
timmediat
elyst
artedbeati
ngf
ast]
Me: whatson?[
Hedi
dn'
trepl
yhej
ustbl
ue
t
ickedme]
No..
Iwon'
tal
lowhim,Iwon'
tal
l
owJasont
o
r
uinmyplansnev
er!!
!
Andhowt hehell
didheknowthatthebabyI'
m
car
ryi
ngisnotBonganes?Ihavetocal
lmy
mom beforet
hingsgetoutofhand,wehaveto
movefastbefor
ewel oseever
ythi
ng.

BONGANE.
AsIwentbackoutside,af
tertuckingBusiin.
.I
foundOmuhlesi
tt
ingbetweenMf undoslegs,
withherheadonhischestandshecoul dn't
stopgi
ggli
ngasMf undowhisperedinherear.
Mybl oodjustboil
ed,thisf
uckeri
sreall
ytesting
me.IknowOmuhl eandIar enolongertogether
butthatdoesn'tgi
vehi mtheri
ghttogoaf t
er
her,he'sf
uckenbr eakingtheguycode!
Si
ya:
ohy
our
ebackman.
Me:
yeahmanIj
ustwantedt
otuckmywoman
i
n[Muhl
erol
l
edhereyes]
Les:nchooThatscute,babeIhopey
outaki
ng
notes[Siy
alaughed,
Jasonwasnowquietand
busywi t
hhisphone]
Omuhlegiggl
edyetagai
n..andi
twasr
eal
l
y
st
art
ingtoannoyme.
Muhle:
ohFuf
ucomeonnow[t
heybot
h
l
aughed]
Fuf
u??Fuf
u?Shef
uckengav
ehi
m apetname
.
.t
hatmeanst
heyar
ereal
l
ydat
ing.
WowInevert
houghtOmuhl ei
ssuchahoe..I
meanhowcanyoumov efrom onefr
iendto
anot
her
?Thatsjustwhor
ingatit'
sbest.
Si
ya:
youguy
sshoul
dser
iousl
ygetar
oom
Thuba:
Idef
ini
tel
yagr
eewi
thy
ou.
Muhl
e:Fuf
upl
easebehav
e[shesai
dlaughi
ngl
y]

Les:
let
'spl
ayt
rut
hordar
e
Jase:nowyou'
ret
alki
ng[hesai
dasheputhi
s
phonebacki
nhispocket
.]
Muhl
e:I
'
m notpl
ayi
ng
Thuba:comeondon'
tbeapar
tyPooper
..
Muhle:I'
veseenpeopl
ebei
ngdar
edt
odocr
azy
t
hings,sonowI '
mfine
Mf undo:comeonbabe, i
twil
lbef
un[hesai
d
thatandkissedhercheekasi
fhewasassur
ing
herthatallwi
llbewell]
Howdarehe??Howdarehecall
sherbabei
n
f
rontofme?Am It
hati
nvi
sibl
e?
Idi
dn'
tevenr
eal
izethatI
'm squeezi
ngmy
phonet
oohardunti
lJasonsaid.
Hi
m:ift
hatphonei
sst
il
lwor
king,i
twi
l
lsur
ebe
amir
acl
e.
Me:
canwej
ustpl
ay?
Si
ya:okayt
henI
'
llgof
ir
st.
.BONGANEbr
otr
uth
ordar
e?
Me:
trut
h
Siya:areyouov
erOmuhle?[
Ilookedar
oundand
everybodywaslooki
ngatme,waiti
ngf
ormy
reply
]
Me:umhuhyesI
'm ov
erher
.[Isai
dtry
ingt
o
conv
incemy
sel
fandever
yonearound]
Jase:
thenIdareyoutokisshertoshowt
hat
younolongerhav
efeel
ingsforher.
Muhl
e:what
?
Thuba:yeahdoit.
..
doit!Doit
![Sooneveryone
wasshout i
ng"doit
"exceptOmuhleandher
boyf
riend.
..andwellIwant
edtodoitbutthere
wassomet hingst
oppingme,agreatforce]
Me:f
uckthi
sshitI
'
m goingtobed[I
i
mmediatel
yst
oodupandwal kedawayand
wal
kedtoourTent
,l
eav
ingthem l
aughi
ngatme]

Wellt
rut
hisIneverknewIsti
l
lfeelsomethi
ng
forOmuhleunti
lIsawherbei
nghappywith
someoneelse.It
ookoffmyclothesassoonas
Igoti
nthetent
Busi
:babei
sthaty
ou?[
shesai
dinasl
eepy
voi
ce]
Me:yeahi
t'
sme,gobacktosl
eep[Iwasnow
l
eftwit
hmyboxers.
.Igoti
nnextt
oher]
IlayawakeasOmuhleoccupi
edmymi nd..why
i
sshet hathappy
?Wejustgotdi
vor
ced,I
thoughtshe'
ll
bemiser
abl
e..
.Imeanpartofme
thoughtshe'
llcomegr ovel
i
ngbackt
ome..i
s
Mf undoabettermant hanIam?ImeanI
hav en'
tseeherthathappyinal
ongti
me.
WhatifImadeami stakebylett
inghergo?"No
nonoBonganegetagr i
p,howcany out hi
nk
aboutanotherwomanwhi leyouhavey our
fut
ureinyourar ms?"Isaidtomy sel
fthengave
myqueenaki ssont hef or
eheadbeforeIdri
ft
ed
toabli
ssfulsleep.

#t
oBEcont
inued
[
05/
06,
11:
36]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT18

OMUHLE.
YoohIwasnowfeel
i
ngt
ir
edshamebuti
t
seemsasmybabewassti
l
lenj
oyi
nghi
msel
fso
Ihadtowaitf
orhi
m.I
'm scar
edtogosleep
al
oneinthatt
ent,
whati
fsomethingcomes
andtakeme?
Iy
awnedf
ort
heonehundr
edt
ime
Fuf
u:y
out
ir
ed?
Me:y
eahbutI
'
m scar
ed[
hegi
ggl
edt
henki
ssed
mycheek]
Fuf
u:guy
sIt
hinkwegonnacal
li
tani
ghtnow,
mywomanisti
red.
Thuba:
ahhhsoear
lyt
hough?
Me:y
eah.
.andrememberi
twasal
ongdr
ive
comi
nghere.
Les:
you'
reri
ghtgi
rl
,babeIt
hinkweshoul
dal
so
cal
li
tanight.
Si
ya:
yeahey
,ni
ghtguy
s
Weallsai
dourgoodby
est
henwentour
separ
ateway.
Me:
babear
eyousur
ewesaf
eher
e[Iaskedas
wet
ookof
fourcl
othes]
Hel
aughedabi
t
Him:babycanyoupleaserelax,nothi
ngis
gonnahappentoyoumyl ove..notwhileI
'
m
here[
hepulledmetohisarmsandI
i
mmedi at
elyfel
tbl
oodrushingar oundmybody
]
Me:mmm Il
i
ket
hesoundoft
hat
,myv
eryown
body
guar
d
Him:babeI'
m notabodyguard,I
'
my our
Superman[Igi
ggl
edthenturnedtol
ookathi
m..
.
hejustmakesmesohappy]
Him:whyareyoulooki
ngatmelikethat
?Ihope
younotpl
ott
ingtokil
lmeinmysl eep[
Ilaughed
outl
oud,thi
sguyiscrazyshame]
Me:howcanIki
l
l mysour
ceofhappi
ness?[
He
smil
ed,well
moreli
kebl
ushi
ng]areyou
bl
ushing?
Hi
m:mendon'
tbl
ush
Me:
wel
lmymandoes[hedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng
hej
ustsmashedhi
scol
dli
psi
ntomi
ne]
Wesmoot ched..
.hewasmaki ngmef eelthi
ngs
I
'
v enev
erfeltbefor
e..I
'
vekissedBonganea
t
housandtimebutI '
venev
erf el
tsuch..i
twas
l
ikemil
li
onbut t
erfl
i
esdancinginmyt ummy .

Him: y
oumakemesohappykodwababe. .I
can'
tev endiscr
ibehowIf
eel
insi
de,
it'
sjusta
for
eignf eel
i
ng
Me:Ifeel
thesameway[heki
ssedmyforehead
andheldmetighti
nhi
sarms..
.I'
venev
erfel
tso
saf
e]
Hi
m:Munt'
omuhl
e[ohhhIl
ovei
twhenhecal
l
s
meli
ket
hat]
Me:
Fuf
uwam [
hesmi
l
ed]
Hi
m:cany
oupl
easepr
omi
semeonet
hing
Me:
okay
?[myhear
tst
art
edbeat
ingf
ast
er]
Hi
m:pr
omi
set
onev
erl
eav
eme,nomat
ter
what[
Ikeptquiet]Iknowitwon'
tbeasmoot
h
r
idebutI
'l
lneverstoplov
ingyou
Me:
Ipr
omi
se
Him:thanksbabeandIpr
omiseyouwon't
regr
etgi
vingmeachance[Ij
ustsmil
edand
snuggl
edmy sel
fnextt
ohi
m andclosedmy
eyes]
-
Thefol
l
owingdaywehadbreakf
astthenwe
j
ustwentsi
ghtseei
ng.I
twasreall
yfunshame,
ImadesureIst
ayawayfr
om Bonganeandhis
newbri
de.
Thi
scampt hi
ngwasr
eal
l
yfunbutsadl
ywehad
togobackhome.
LesegoandIexchangednumber
s.
Her
:pl
easedon'
tbeast
ranger
.
Me:
Ipr
omi
seIwont
"babeI
'
mleav
ingy
oubehi
nd"Si
yay
ell
edf
rom
t
hecar.
.wehuggedonel
astt
imebef
oreshe
l
eft
.
Mfundowassti
llt
alki
ngt
oJasondoIwas
wait
ingf
orhi
mt hecarwhenBonganewal
ked
uptome.Iwasn'
tinthemoodforhi
m.
Hi
m:HeyMuhl
e
Me:
hi[
Isai
dcol
dly]
Hi
m:umh.
..
canIpl
easet
alki
ngt
oyou?
Me:
hai
bo!
!We'
ret
alki
ngnow,
aren'
twe?
Hi
m:IguessIdeser
vet
hat
Me:whatdoyouwantBongane?[
Iwasr
eal
l
y
annoy
edshame]
Hi
m: what'
shappeni
ngbet
weeny
ouand
Mfundo.
Me:l
astti
meIcheckedwe'r
edivor
ced,so
what
'shappeni
ngi
nmyl i
fedoesn'
tconcer
nyou!

"
YeywenaBongane"hi
swi
fecal
l
ed.
Him:It
hinkIshoul
dgo[Irol
l
edmyeyes]you
l
ooknicebytheway.Mfundocamebefor
eI
coul
dreply
,notthatIwasgonnar
epl
yanyway.
Fufu:eit
a![HesaidtoBongane,whojust
noddedt henwalkedaway]areyouokaybabe,
sorrytokeepyouwai t
ing[heki
ssedmypout ed
l
ips]
Me:
nowt
haty
ouher
e,I
'
m good
Him:okayt
henlet
'shi
tther
oad.
[heopenedt
he
doorformeandal
sowegoti nt
hendr
oveoff

BUSI
● MONTHSLATER•
•●
Iwasnow8mont hspregnantandhuge.
.you
candef
ini
tel
ytel
lthatI
'
mr eadytopopanyt
ime.
ThingsbetweenmeandBonganewer est
il
l
great,
hewasst il
lmypuppetandIwaslovi
ngit
.
OhandI '
vemanagedt ogetJasonoffmyback.
.
Ipaidthedoctortol
i
eaboutwhent hebabywas
concei
ved.
Anywaysweweresit
ti
ngonthecouchwat
ching
amov i
e.Wi
thBonganemassagi
ngmyswollen
feet
.
Him:youknowIcan'
twai
tforoursont
oar
ri
ve,
Ican'
twai
ttohol
dhiminmyarms..
Me: nchoodon'
tworrybabe,he'
ll
beher esoon
[Iki
ssedhischeek,t
ruthbetol
dIalsodon't
knowwhot hefatherisbutI
'
m defini
tel
ysurei
ts
notJason]
Hi
m:t
hanky
ouf
ormaki
ngmeamanbabe
Me: it
'sonl
yapl
easur
etocar
ryy
oursonbabe
[helookedatmeandsmil
edasweshareda
kiss]
Me:sobabeIwast
hinki
ng.
..
Hi
m:I
'
mli
steni
ng
Me:si
nceyouandOmuhledi
vorced,
howabout
youputmeandoursononyourwill
incase
somethi
nghappenst
oyou
Him: yeah,
that'
sactual
l
yagoodideababe.
.I'
l
l
contactmyl awyernow.[Hest
oodupandwent
totakehisphone]
OhhhI
'
m gonnaber
ich!
!

OMUHLE
Ihadjustgotbackfrom school
andIwas
makingmy sel
fsomet hi
ngtoeatwhenmy
phonerang.Itwasmymom,Ihav en'
thear
d
fr
om herinmont hs.
Me:
hel
l
omom
Her:wenaOMUHLEwhati sthi
sthatI'
m hear
ing
aboutyouandBonganegett
ingdi
vorced?
Me:
oht
hat
?
Her:
ny owthat
!!That
sall
yougonnasay?
Omuhlehowcany oushamemelikethi
s?Do
youknowthethewomenofstokvelar
e
l
aughingatme?
Me: mamaBonganei
s..
..
[shecutmeof
fbef
ore
Icouldf
ini
sh]
Her:Idon'twannahearitOmuhle..
.you'
re
gonnagobackt oyourhusband,askfor
for
giveness..
grovel
orkisshisassifyouhav
eto
Idon'tcar
e
Me:
mom
Her
:IhopeI
'
vemademy
sel
fcl
ear
Me:mamaBonganehitme,hebroughtanot
her
womaninourhome[Iwasnowcr y
ing,how
canshef
orcemetogobackther
e]Iwasnot
happymama
Her:
happinessdoesn'
tpaythebil
lsomuhle,
andyourhusbandhaseveryri
ghttobeatyouif
youcan'
tperfor
my ourwi
felydut
ies[Ij
usthung
up,sl
iddownandcr i
edmybal l
sout]
Howcanshedot
hist
ome?Howcanshet
ake
hi
ssi
de?
#t
oBEcont
inued
I'
m endi
ngthi
sstor ybecausethefesti
ve
seasonisal
mosther e,Ihaveal otofworkt
o
dosoIdon'tf
indt i
met otypeandy ouguysare
alwayscomplai
ningthatItaketoolongtopost.

[
05/
06,
11:
36]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT19

BUSI
Thehousel ookedsodir
ty,dishesandclot
hes
everywherebutiwasntgonnacl ean.
..
Wellthe
helperonl
ycomesonceort wiceaweeksoi ll
waitforher.
Iwasl
yi
ngont
hesof
awi
thf
oodal
lov
ermy
stomach,you'
dswearIwasoneoft hoseSushi
gi
r l
swaiti
ngforKennyKunenetoeatont opof
me. .
Bonganehasgonet oaworkfuncti
onso
basical
lyIwasalone..
myphonerangIjust
l
ookedati tbusyringi
ngbutt
hepersonwasnot
gi
v i
ngupsoIgotupandanswer edthephone.
..
Me:
WHAT?
?[Ishout
ed]
Cal
l
er:
yeeeywenantombozameungazong
j
wayel
a[that
'swhenIr
eal
izedi
twasmymom]
Me:
heyma,
i
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
t.
..
[shecutmeof
f]
Her:
spar
emeal
lthat
..
.how'
sourpl
ancomi
ng
al
ong?
Me:
goodmommy,inf
actever
ythi
ngisper
fect
,
i
minmom heputmeinhi
swill[
Isai
dexci
tedl
y]
Her
:sowhyar
eyounotcel
ebr
ati
ng?
Me:
arghmaumzukul
wanewakhoi
smaki
ngme
l
azy
Her:
hai
iyou'
veal
waysbeenlazy..
ungazobheda
l
a,gooutandcel
ebr
ate.
.whereist
hatstupi
d
husbandofy
our
sorshoul
dIsayy
ourl
ate
husband?
Me:
thel
atemama.
..
thel
atet
hat
'
smor
esui
tabl
e
[Webothl
etoutlaugh.
..
itwasawi
tchyy
et
enj
oyabl
elaugh]

Me:whenshouldIcome,
tof
etchthe.
..
uhy
ou
know.
..
ourlastst
rwaoft
heplan
Her:
anyt
imemtwana!
..
youknowf
ory
oui
m
al
waysavai
l
abl
e
[Il
ikei
twhenshespeaksli
kethat
..
mymom
alwaysmakesthi
ngshappen]
Me:
okaymom l
etmegoandbat
hI'
l
lcome
Her:
hai
iBusi
nawe!
!Youhav
en'
tbat
hedunt
il
t
histi
me?
Me:
noIwas.
.uhhhhi
tsj
ust
Her:
okayIdon'
tcarejustmakesureyouget
her
etoni
ght.
.Iwantthistobedoneandover
wi
th
Me:
yeboma[
wehungup]

Iwalkedupst
air
smor el
i
keIti
ptoedt
her
e..
.i
m
usedtoBobocarry
ingme..
Igotupst
air
sandt ookal ongandpeacef ulbat
h
..Iwi
shedtost
ayint hereevenlonger.
..ButI
recal
ledt
hatmamawasexpect i
ngme. .
soIgot
outanddri
edmy self.
.IgotdressedthenIput
onsomel i
ghtmakeupappl i
edmymer oon
l
ipsti
skandIwasgoodt ogo..
ItextedBonganetel
li
nghimI'
l
l begoingt
othe
mal l
..
hedidn'
trepl
ywhichi
ndi
catedthathe
hasn'tseenthemessageyet
..
.Ical
ledacab.
.I
l
ef tt
hehouseexactlyt
hewayitwas..

Igothomeandmom wasmor ethanhappyt

o
seemey oushoul
dveseenthelookonher
face.
..Shewelcomedmei n.
..
wesatand
chat
tedi
tgotpr
ett
ylat
e
Her:
i
tsnowt
ime.
..
fanel
esi
qal
ekusamny
ama
nj
e
Me:
yeboma
Her
:swi
tchoffyourphoneandf
oll
owme[Idi
d
asi
nstr
ucted]
WhenIgottot
hedoor.
..
Ifel
tsomeshar
p
pai
n..
andImoanedi
npain
Her
:yi
ni[
whati
sit
]
Me:
aer
hhhhhmaàaaaa[
mywat
erj
ustbr
oke]
Her
:ohhhnkosi
yam!
!
OMUHLE

Me:Ijustgothome.
.shoul
dIcookorwe'
l
lget
takeaways?[Iwast
alki
ngtomybaeonthe
phone]
Hi
m:nojustt
akeoutt
hemeatf
rom t
hef
rezzer
wewil
lcooktoget
her
.
Me:okayFuf
u..
plusi
mti
red,
I
'l
lj
ustr
estbef
ore
youcomeback
Hi
m:shamemypr
ettyyoungthi
ng.
..
whatt
ime
di
dyousayy
ourl
astlect
urewas?
Me:
13:
30
Hi
m:okay,
aft
eryouhaverestedenoughjust
t
akealonghotbathokay?usethebathsalt
s
t
hatar
eintheothercl
oset
Me:
okayby
e
Hi
m:l
ovey
ou,
seey
oui
naf
ew
Me:okayletmeleaveyoutoyourwor
kthen.
.
Yourfi
rstpret
tyyoungthi
ng
Hi
m:whydoIsensesomej
eal
ousy
..
[
Ilaughedputl
oud]
Me:
j
eal
ousohhy
ouwi
sh.
Hi
m:okaywewi
l
lseeaboutt
hat
..
byeoncemor
e
Me:
bye
Hi
m:arr
rrhJul
i
et!
![
Igi
ggl
edhej
ustl
ovecal
l
ing
methat
]
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:noIl
ovey
ouny
anaf
ory
ourRomeo?
Me:
mxm oht
hat!
!l
ovey
ou
Hi
m:andIl
oveyoumoreandmor
eandmor
e[I
bl
ushedt
henIj
usthangup]
IPutmybooksont heki tchencount er.
.Rushed
upstairstochangeLawdmyf eetwereki l
li
ng
me..Itookoutmybl ackandwhi teadidasshorts
andwor eFufuadidasT- shirtitmatchedwi th
theshor tandIsl
eepedi nt omysl eepersand
wentdownst air
s..Itookmyi Podandl i
stenedto
musi casIwasst il
lrelaxingmycel lphone
beepedi twasaWhat sAppt ext .
.
I
twasMfundodamndoest
hisguyev
erget
s
t
ir
edofme?
Hesentmeaphotoi
twasaphotoofme
sl
eepi
nginhi
sar
ms!!
ohnohedidn'
t,
fuckI
l
ookedugl y..Hesentmenumer ous
photos. .
withacapt i
onlike"whatdoest hi
s
remindy ou"..
..
thephot oswer eofthedaywe
fi
rstmadel ove..
.Di dIment i
onhowmuchofa
freakmybaei s...wellnowimt el
lingyou Fufu
i
saf uckensexf reak.
.I'
vehadsexwi t
h
Bonganecount lesst i
mesbef or
ebutwi thFufu
i
t'sdifferenthef uckswhi l
emaki ngloveatthe
samet ime..Thatguychoset hewr ongcareer
pathheshoul vet akenpornologyasacar eer.
.
Lookatmegetti
ngal
lcar
ri
edaway
..
myphone
beepedagai
n.
Fufu:
babepleasetal
ktome[Iignor
edhi
stext
againthenhi
sprofil
epi
ctur
echanged.
.Atfi
rsti
t
wast hephot
oswet ookatthecampwitht
he
capti
onofLov el
iv
ehere
Nowheitwas"Ilov
eherfrom t
hemoonto
back.
.Wewil
lsoonbeexchangi
ngvowsmama
kabamtwabam"]
Ij
ustsatt
her
ebusyst
ari
ngatt
hecut
epi
ctur
es
whil
epretendi
ngtobemadathi m ofcour
se,
He
keptcal
li
ngandcall
ingbutIj
ustputmy
cel
lphoneonsil
entanddosedoff.
..

Ifeltsomeoneshaki ngme. .
.Iopenedmyey es
thi
nkingitsbaebutIf oundsomel adystanding
nexttomeandst ar
ingatme[ Ir
ubbedmyey es
becauseIdi dn'
tbel
ievewhatIwasseei ng]..
..
Afterawhi l
eshecamewi thaglassofwat er
sheat t
empt edtosplashthewat eratme,I
pushedt heglassandt hewaterspil
ledonher
whiteshirt
..
Her
:odi
rangf
a?[Ei
shIdon'tqui
teunder
stand
Sot
hoorwhatev
erlanguageshewasspeaking]
Me:
Engl
i
shpl
ease
Her: ngwi
ngl
ishpleaseyang?Karewhatareyou
doinghereMme? [
okayshewasgi vi
ngme
att
itudebusyholdingherwaistandrol
l
ingher
eyesatme]
Me:ohht
hat[
Ikeptqui
teandwentt ot
akeamop
andmoppedwherethewat erhasspi
l
l…that
'
s
whenInoti
cedshewasn'talone]
Shewaswi t
hsomecuteyoungbaby..
.shewas
sogourgeusandi
nnocent
..Shel
ookedlikeher
mother
..
"Mommyi
sthi
sdaddy
'shouse"t
hel
i
ttl
egi
rl
asked
Her
:yeahnunui
tis
What?Whichdaddyaretheset
alki
ngabout
?
canshepossi
blybeFufu'
sbabymomma?NoI
ref
useno!
!!
Her:
Iaskedyouaquest
ion.
.whoar
eyouand
whatareyoudoi
nginmymanshouse?

Godpl
easet
akemenow.

#t
oBEcont
inued
Oneort
woi
nser
tsl
eft
[
05/
06,
11:
36]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

☆I
NSERTFI
NALE☆

20

MFUNDO
Me: Fuck!Mumupl easeanswerthephone
babe..I'
m sor
ry,Ididn'tmeantoupsetyou
sthandwasam. .
.I'
llevendelet
ethepict
ures.[
I
wasl eavi
ngav oicemai l
messageforOmuhl e
forthet went
iethtime]
"Fuckthi
s!"Isai
dasIgotupandstar
ted
packingmythings.
.Ican'
tst
ayher
ewhil
emy
babei smadatme.
Iwalkedoutofmyof
fi
ceonl
ytobumpi
nto
Khanya,t
heCEOsPA.
Her:
MrJacobs,Mrmal
uleka[TheCEO]i
s
aski
ngt
oryou.
Me:I
'
m sorr
yKhanyabutyougonnahav
etot
ell
hi
mthatI
'm notav
ail
abl
e
Her
:butMrJacobs.
..
.
Me:Ihavesomet hi
ngfarmoreimport
antso
pl
easereschedul
ethemeeting[
Ididn'
tev
en
wai
ttorherrepl
yIjustwal
kedpassedher]
Igottot heparkinglot
,gotintomycarand
i
mmedi atel
ydrov eoff
.Idr
ov epassedt
hefl
ori
st
andgother ..herfavor
it
efl
ower swithl
i
ndt
chocolate.

Igothomeandi
mmedi
atel
yrushedi
nsi
de.
Me:
babyI
'
m home[
Icl
osedt
hedoorwi
thmy
f
oot
]
"Daddy
"sai
dal i
tt
legi
rlr
unni
ngt
ome,she
huggedmylegs.
OkayImayhavebeenapl
ayerbef
orebutone
t
hingforsur
eI'
venev
erf
uckedanybit
ch
wit
houtacondom.
AsIwasst i
llfl
abber gasted,Omuhl eappeared
fr
om theli
vingroom dr essedinjustasports
braandmyshor t
..shel ookedsodamncut e
withherpoutedli
ps.Ij ustwishedt owalkupt o
herankisstheshi toutofher.Ismi l
edsweet l
y
butmysmi l
ei mmedi at
elytur
nedintoaf r
own
asNokwandaemer gefrom theli
vingroom also.
Me:whatar
ey oudoinghere?[Isai
dwit
hafi
rm
voi
ce,andpushedtheli
tt
legir
lawayfr
om me]
Her:Hel
lot
oy outoobabe[ Omuhl erol
ledher
eyesandwalkedupstai
rs.
.Ijustchuckl
edfrom
di
sbeli
ef..
thi
sgir
l sur
ehassomener v
e.
Me:
Nokwandacany
oupl
easel
eav
emyhouse
Her:awuMf undo!!
!Younotev engonnasay
Hell
otoy ourdaughter?Me:Nokwandaplease
don'
tpissmeof f.
.justtakey
ouBastedchil
d
andgettheFuckoutofmypr oper
ty.
Her
:howcany ousayt
hat
?Webot
hknow
Esi
hlei
syourchi
ld
Me: sheisnotmychild!![Ishout
edandt he
l
itt
legir
lstar
tedcryi
ng,Ihat edoi
ngthisinfront
ofherbutIjustcan'
tletNokwandadi srespect
mel i
kethis.
.aft
ereverythingsheputme
thr
ough]
Me:you'v
egotsomenervetoshowupher
e
af
tereveryt
hingy
ou'
vedone.
Her:Icameher etomaket hingsr i
ght,Isti
lll
ove
youNdoandIwantust obeaf amil
y..
.You, me
andEsi hle.Itwasv eryfooli
shofmet or un
awaywi t
ht hatguyI '
m sorry.[
Ilaughed, t
hisgir
l
can'tbeser ious..doesshehav eanyi deawhatI
wentt hroughaf tersheranawaywi thmybest
fri
end?Leav i
ngmehear tbroken,leavingme
toopickupal lthepieces]
Me:whenIcomebackIdon' twannafi
ndyou
here,orel
seyou'l
lbesorr
ynxn[Icli
ckedmy
tongueandwalkedupstai
rswit
hhercall
i
ngmy
name]
If
oundOmuhl
ely
ingont
hebedwi
thherey
es
cl
osed.
Me:
babe[shedi
dn'
tsayanythi
ng,shejustl
et
t
hetear
sfl
owfrom t
hecornersofhereyes]
Me:
baby
?
Her
:isi
ttr
ue?I
sthechi
l
dyour
s?
Me: ofcoursenot
!Nokwandai sly
ingbabe,her
andIbr okeuponourfir
styearinvar
sit
ywhen
shechoset orunawaywithmybestf r
iend
..ther
e'snowayinhellt
hatli
tt
legi
rli
smi ne
[shegotupf r
om thebedandthrewherselfi
n
myar ms.]
Her:It
houghtIwasgonnal
osey
out
othem[I
huggedherti
ght]
Me:noti
nthemill
i
onyearsbabe,myhear
t
beat
sforyou.
.onl
yyou.
BUSI
Mom:Youcan'
tbei
nlabournow,
it'
stooear
ly
[
shewaspaci
ngupanddown]
Me:j
ustmakethepai
nstopmom [
Iwascry
ing
hy
ster
ical
l
y,I
'v
eneverfel
tsomuchpai
n]
"
What'
supwi
thal
lthenoi
se"Sont
osai
dasshe
wal
kedi
n.
Mom:
yoursi
steri
sinl
abour
Sont
o: what
??Hav
eyouguy
scal
l
edt
he
ambulance?
Mom: ambul
ancewi l
ltakeit
'st
imet
ogether
e,
wecanuseBusi '
scarbutthethi
ngi
snoneof
uscandri
ve.
.exceptf
orher.
Me:justdosomet
hing!
![Iyel
led,t
hepai
nwas
get
ti
ngmor eandmoreintense]
Mom: wehavenochoi
cebutt
ocal
lthat
usel
essfi
ancéofy
ours.
Sont
o:t
hat
'sgonnat
aket
imet
ool
etmecal
l
Gi
ftf
rom nextdoor
.[
sher
anoutoft
hehouse]
Mom:
best
rongmychi
l
d,wear
eal
mostt
her
e..
.
[
Shegav
emeagl
assofwat
er]
Sont
ocamebackwi ththatGi
ftandtheyhel
ped
meintothecarthendrovemei nt
othehospit
al.
Onthewaymymom cal ledBonganeandhe
sai
dhe'l
lmeetjustther
e.

Assoonaswegott
her
eIwasr ushedi
nto
mater
nit
ywar
d.Nur
sessur
roundedme.
Me:pleaseGett
hisbabyoutofme,Ican'
ttake
i
tanymor e[
Inowhadtearsmixedwi
thmucous
f
rom cryi
ngtoomuch]
Nur
se:bepat
ientsi
si,
younoty
etr
eadyt
opush
Me:okaygiv
emesomethi
ngfort
hepai
nthen.
[
shelookedatmewi
thannoy
ance]
Nurse:y
oohsi
siI'
veal
readygi
venyoupai
n
ki
ll
erskant
iuf
unani?[
Befor
eIcoul
dsay
any
thi
ngthedooropened,
Bonganewal
kedi
n,
morel
ikerani
n]
Him:babe,Icameher
eassoonasIcan.
.ar
e
youalr
ight
?Thebaby?
Me:
doIl
ookal
ri
ghtt
oyou?
Him:I
'
m sorr
y[anot
hercont
ract
ionhi
tmehar
d
andIj
ustscr
eamed]
Me:
aahhhhhhh
Nurse2:i
t'
sti
me..ma'
am i
nt hecountoft
hreeI
needyoutopushokay?[
Ijustnodded]1.
..
2..
3
push!!
!!
IpushedandIcoul
dn'
tl
it
eral
l
yfeel
mypussy
tear
ingup.
.
Nurse:
you'r
edoinggreat,Icanseet
hehead
keeppushi
ng..1..2.
.3andpush[Ipushedov
er
andoveragainunti
lIhear
dababycrying]
Nur
se2:
it'
sagi
rl[Iwassot
ir
ed,
all
Iwant
edt
o
dowasj
ustsl
eep]
Theywrappedherwi
thabl
anketthengaveher
tome.Theputheronmychest,
allthi
sti
meI
hadmyey escl
osed.
Bongane:I
'm sor
rynur
sebutthereseem tobea
probl
em here.
.whyi
sshelikethi
s?[
Iquickl
y
openedmyey esaspanicatt
ackedmybody]
AndIgottheshockofmyli
fe.
.she'
swhi
te.
.the
babyiswhi
te?
!!Nononothi
swillr
uin
ever
ythi
ng!
!
Bongane:thi
sisnotmychil
d[het
ouchedher
bl
ondhairandlookedatt
heNursesthenback
atme]Busi?
Hewasangr
y..hi
sey
eswer
ebur
ningi
nfur
y.
Me:umh..uh..she'
salbi
nobaby[yooht
he
Nur
sesjustlaughedthei
rassoff
]

OhGodhe'
sgonnaki
l
lme.
.whatam Igonnado?
#t
oBEcont
inued
[
05/
06,
11:
36]Ron:
IREGRETSAYI
NGIDO

I
NSERT21

BONGANE
Ilef
ttheWar dwi t
hmyheadspi nningl i
keat op..
howcanBusi dot hi
stome?Af tereveryt
hing
I'
vesacrif
icedforust obet ogetherandgoes
anddomel ikethis..
.t
henst i
llhav ethedecency
toli
etomyf ace,sayingthebabyhasal bi
nism
whileeveryonecanact ual
lyseet hatthebabyi s
fuckenwhi t
e!!IguessJasonwasr ight,Busi i
s
thebiggesthoet ohaveev erli
v e.
Igotint
omycaranddr ovetotheoff
ice.
.Ij
ust
neededsomethi
ngtot akemymi ndawayfr
om
al
lthi
sdebacl
e.Iparkedmycari nmyusual
spotthenwal
kedinsidethebui
ldi
ng.
It
ri
edopeni
ngt
hedoorwi
thmyaccesscar
d
butitref
used.Itr
iedi
tov
erandov
eragai
nunt
il
thealarm wentof
f.
Me:whatt
hef
ucki
sgoi
ngonher
e?[
Iasked
mysel
f]
Twosecur
it
ymenappr
oachedme
Sec1:
SirI
'
m af
rai
dyoucan'
tent
ert
hebui
l
ding
Me:what?Why?DoyoufuckenknowwhoIam?
[
Iwasgetti
ngevenmor
efuri
ous,thi
sist
hel
ast
t
hingIneeded]
Sec2:Sorr
ySirwejustdoingourj
ob,thenew
CEOgav estr
icti
nst
ructi
onsforusnottoal
low
youin.
Me:thenewwhat
?Thi
sismyfuckenCompany
andI'
mtheCEO,yout
akeor
dersfrom me!
![
I
yel
l
edatthem]
…
Justt
henthi
sotherbuf
fedupdudewear
ing
fl
ashysui
tsappr
oachedus.
Hi
m:ist
her
eaproblem her
e?Joseph?[
hesai
d
l
ooki
ngatt
hesecur
ityguar
d]
Sec1:noSirwewer
ejustt
elli
ngMrZul
uher
e
thathecan'
tent
ert
hebuil
ding.
Me:whothef
uckar
eyou?[
Iaskedl
ooki
ngat
t
hisbuf
fguy]
Hi
m:I
'mtheowneroft
hispl
ace[
her
epl
i
edwi
th
asmi
rkonhi
sface]
Ichuckl
ed.
Me:t
heshi
tthaty
ou'
resmoki
ngcl
ear
lydoesnt
l
ikey
ou
Him: t
akealookatt hesetheymightgiveyoua
cleardef
ini
ti
onofwhoIr eal
lyam [
hehanded
met hepapers,Ireadt hr
oughthem andwhatI
sawt her
elit
eral
l
yl ef
tmyj awsont hefl
oor…it
waswr it
tenther
einbl ackandwhitethathe'
s
theownerofZuluConst r
uct
ions]
Myvi
sioni
mmediatel
ygotbl
urr
y..
.thishast
o
beani
ghtmar
e..i
t'
snotr
eal,
I'
m defini
tel
y
dr
eaming.
Hi
m:l
etmeformall
yint
roducemysel
fI'
m
Mt
hobi
siMavuso,Busi
'
shalfbr
other
.
Me:what
?[Thi
shast obeajoke,It
ookoutmy
phoneandcal
ledmyl awy
er…hepickedup
al
mostimmediatel
y]
Hi
m:MrZul
u
Me: Karenwhatt
hef uckisgoi
ngonhere..
.
ther
e'ssomefoolhereclai
mingthathenow
ownsmycompany[ t
heMt hobi
siguy
chuckled]
…
Him:I'
m sor r
ySirbutit'
strue,yousi
gned
every
thingtoy ourfi
ancé..andsheimmediat
ely
soldall
y ourshares,fr
anchiset
hengavethe
companyt oherbr other.[
Mykneesbecame
weakasmyhear tbeatsevenmor ef
ast
er]
Il
etgoofmyphoneandi
tfel
lont
hegr
ound.
Mtho:nowpleasel
eavemypropert
y[Istar
ted
f
eeli
ngdizzyandbooom!
!Lightsoutforme]
BUSI
Fewminut
esaft
erBonganelef
tmymom goti
n,
shewassmil
i
ngfrom eart
oear.
Mom:
howi
smygr
andsondoi
ng?
Me:
it'
sashe[Isai
dinal
owv
oice]
Mom:what
?[Sheexcl
aimed]
Me:andshe'
swhite[herj
awsdr
oppedasshe
cov
erhermouthwit
hherhand.
.shockwas
wri
tt
enonherface]
Mom: yoooohBusimtanam ,
ukufebakwakho
kundl
ulel
e[shesai
dthenclappedonce]
Me:
mom pl
easedon'
tst
art
.
Mom: nowonderBonganel weftt
hisplaceso
f
urious.[Il
ookeddownandplay
edwi t
hmy
f
ingers]anywayswher
eisthebaby?
Me:
theyt
ookherf
orabat
h
Mom: mmm,it
'snow t
imef
orust
oputour
f
inal
nail
int
hecoffi
n.
Me:whatdoyoumea..
.[bef
oreIcouldeven
f
ini
shthefl
ungopenandJasonwalkedin]
Hi
m:wher
eismydaught
er?

Mymom andIl
ookedathi
m,Imeanhowdi
d
heknow?
Aswewer esti
ll
shocked,thenur
segotinwit
h
thebabyandimmediatel
yJasonrushedtoher
andtookthebaby.
Him:ohhhheyprincess,[t
hebabymadea
sound]yesnana..
daddy'sher
enow[thenur
se
gavemeast are.
.]
Mymom cl
ear
edhert
hroat
.
Mom:canyoupl
easeexcuseus[shesai
dtot
he
nur
seandshei
mmediatel
ywalkedout]
Jasonwasst i
l
lplayi
ngwiththebaby,ki
ssing
heral
loverherface.Shewaswearingablue
babygrowsincewet houghti
twasaboy .
Me: umh..uhIshoul
dprobablyfeedher[Isai
d
breaki
ngt hesi
l
ence,Jasonturnedandlooked
atme, ]
Him:howcanyoubesocr uel
?Howcany ou
keepmeawayf r
om mydaught er?Howcany ou
depri
vemetherightofbondingwit
hher?[
There
wasbothangerandSadnessi nhi
sv oi
ce]
Me:
JasonIdi
dn'
t.
..[
hecutmeshor
t]
Him:don'tyoudaremakeexcuses!![
He
shouted]youknewv erywel
lthatt
hechi
l
dai n't
Bonganesbuty oustil
lpi
nneditonhi
m.[Yooh
hewasr eall
yangryshamehewasev enturning
pink]
Me:
I'
m sor
ry[Isai
dinal
owt
one]
Hi
m:y
oudeser
vet
obur
ninhel
l
Mom:woah!
!Canweal
lpl
easecal
m downand
t
alk
Hi
m:there'
snothingt
hatI
'
m gonnasayt
othi
s
whor
e..
.I'
mt aki
ngmybabywithmeandI'
m
gonnamakesureyouneverseehernxn[he
cl
ickedhi
stongueandwalkedtot
hedoor]
Me:Jasonplease[Iwasnowcryi
ng..hecan'
t
domel i
ket
his,hecan'tt
akeawaymybaby ..
myonlychi
ld..ImaynotseehowitbutIl
ove
her]
Hejustwal
kedoutandnev
erl
ookedback.
Leavi
ngmecryi
ng.
Me:
mom dosomet
hing
Mom:Busi
don'
tcr
yli
ket
his.
.atl
eastwest
il
l
hav
ethemoney
Me:
Iwantmybabymom,Iwantherback
Mom:aiuzongi
nyany
isamanje,makeanot her
babymaan!
!Maningiamadodalangaphandle!
[
Shewalkedout
]
Godwasr
eall
ypunishingmeforal
lthatI
've
donet
oBongane.Icr
iedther
eunti
lIfel
lasl
eep.
OMUHLE
♡FI
VEYEARSLATER♡
Lif
ef ormewasgoi nggreat.Ihadcompl et ed
mydegr eeandIstill
hadmybabewi thme, I
couldn'tbemor ehappier.
..ohbef or
eIforget
Fufuisnowmyf i
ancé,yeshepr oposeday ear
ago.Iaccept edhisproposalbutt ol
dhimt hat
I'
m noty etreadyformarri
age. .
.shamemybae
saidhedoesn' tmindwai t
ing..It
hankGodeach
andev erydayforblessi
ngmewi thsuchan
awesomeman, Iwouldn'
tt r
adehi mforany thi
ng.
Any
whoIf
eltsomeoneshaki
ngmel
i
ght
ly.
Me:
mmmm t
womor
emi
nut
es.
Fuf
u:nobabyyougonnabelat
eforwork.[
He
sai
dplanti
ngsof
tki
ssesal
lovermyfaceandI
j
ustgi
ggled]
Me:okayokayI'
m awake[Iopenedmyeyesand
Iwasmetbyhisweirdbutyetbeaut
if
uleyes
l
ooki
ngatme. .
.hewassmi l
ingsoIj
ustpull
ed
hi
sfaceandgav
ehi
m onehel
lofaki
ss]
Hi
m:mm wowwhatwast
hatf
or?[
Hesai
das
webr
oket
heki
ss]
Me:
mor
ningbabe
Hi
m:mor ningmyl
ove,
whatagr
eatwayt
ost
art
aday
.[Igiggl
ed]
Me:let
'sgogetourselvescleanandgetr
eady
f
ortheday.[heimmedi at
elyjumpedoffme
t
henpickedmeupbr idalstyl
e]
Heputmedowni nt hebathroom andhelped
meundress.
.Istoodinfrontofhim nakedashe
l
ookedatmel i
keit'
sforthefirstt
imehesees
mewithoutanyclot
hes.Hisey eswerefullof
l
ustandadmirat
ion,thatsomehowt urnedme
on.
Heki
ssedmeandsqueezedmybreastwhi
ch
wer
epainf
ulf
orsomereason,
Ifl
i
nched.
Hebr
oket
heki
ssandl
ookedatme
Hi
m:t
hey
'r
est
il
lpai
nful
?
Me: y
eahbutI'
m surethey'
llbefine.
.justmake
l
ovet ome[hegavemeanaught ysmi l
e,then
tur
nedont hewaterwhil
ekissingandni bbl
ing
onmyneck.Andj ustli
kethatwemadesweet
andslowloveundertheshower .]
Bytheti
mehewasdonewi
thme,Icoul
dn'
t
evenst
andonmyown.
Hecarri
edmetoourbedr
oom andhel
pedme
getdr
essed.
Me:Idon'
tfeel
li
kegoi
ngt
owor
kany
mor
e
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:whatmet
osexy
oubackt
osl
eep?
Me:
umh..
.ithi
nkifeel
finenowsoi
m gonnago
t
owork[
helaughed]
Wefi
nishedget
ti
ngr
eadyandWehitt
heroad.
.i
hadmyowncarbutienj
oyedbei
ngdr
oppedoff
bymyman.
Me:babypl
easedr
ivethr
oughmcdonal
ds.
.im
cr
avi
ngcheesebur
gers.
Him:whatupwi thy ouandy oursudden
obsessionwit
hbur gers?[Ishrugged,Ijust
l
ovedt hem Icouldeatthem alldaylong]
Me:babecanyoupleasepar
kthere,Ineedto
gotothel
oo[mybladderhassuddenlybecame
weak]
Hi
m:butbabeI
'
m al
readyl
ate
Me:pl
easebaby
..ory
ouwantmetopeeon
mysel
f.
?[hel
ookedatMeandsai
dnothi
ng]
HeparkedthecarandIimmediat
elygotoff
aft
ergett
ingki
ssi
nghischeek.
.Irantothe
toi
l
et.Ididmybusinessthenwal
kedout .
Bumpingintot
hosenyaopeguysaskingfor
money.
Me: Idon'
thav
emoney ![Isaidwit
houteven
l
ookingathim…hesmel ledsobad,Ij
ust
coveredmynoseandr ushedbacktothecar.
.I
qui
cklyopenedthedoorandgotin,Thenyaope
guyknockedont hewi
ndow.
Me:
eisht
hisper
son!
![Isai
dinannoy
ance]
Fufu:l
et'
sgi
vehi
m some.
..
.Bongane?
?[He
exclai
med]
Me:what?[t
hat
'swhenInoti
cedt
hati
twas
Bongane,myexhusband]

Whatthehellhappenedtohim?Themul t
i
mil
l
ionai
reisnowany aopestr
eetadul
t?Yah
nel
ifewil
lshowy ouflames.
[
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NGIDO

I
NSERT22
BONGANESPARENTSHOUSE.
Bonganesdadwaswatchi
ngsoccerwhenhi
s
wif
eenteredt
heroom.
Her
:babacanwet
alk?
Hi
m:okay
?[Het
urnedof
fthev
olume]
Her
:babaIknowBobodi
srespect
edy
oubut
…[hecuthershor
t]
Hi
m:don'
tment
iont
hatnamei
nthi
shouse!
!
[
Heroar
ed]
Her
:babahe'
sst
il
lourchi
l
d
Hi
m: hemaybey ourchi
l
dbutdef
ini
tel
ynot
mine!!Hest
oppedbeingmysonwhenhe
di
vorcedOmhle.
Her:howcany
oudef
endsomeoneel
seov
er
yourchi
ld?
Hi
m: thatol
df ooli
snotmychil
d,I
'
mtel
li
ngyou
t
hatforthelastti
me[Bonganesmom j
ustcr
ied,
t
hinki
ngaboutherson]

Bonganesdadgotpi
ssedandst
oodupheading
tothedoor
.Bef
orehecoul
dwalkouthi
swife
spoke.
Her:he'
smi
ssi
ng? He'
sbeenmi
ssi
ngforthr
ee
year
snow[Bonganesdadi
mmedi
atel
yfel
tcold
onhi
sknees.
..
hehat
edwhatBonganedi
dbut
hest
il
ll
ovedhim]

Hewal kedoutofthehousewit
hhishead
spinni
ng,howcanhebemi ssi
ngforthr
ee
yearsbuthiswif
enev ert
oldhi
m?Her egret
ted
disowninghim.
.may beheshouldhav
edealt
withthi
s,inanotherway.

BUSI
Ihadallt
hemoneyintheworldbutIwasn'
t
happy.
.I'
vetr
iedev
ery
thingbutnot
hingcanfi
l
l
thespaceofmydaughter.
JasonmadesurethatIdon'
tseeheroreven
crosspat
hswit
hher .He immediatel
ytookher
toLondonandIneversawhim orheragai
n.
I
'vebeenfeel
i
ngsicklat
elyandI'mlosi
ngwait
l
ikenobody'
sbusi
nessallthosecurveswer
e
nowheretobeseen..Iwaslyingonmybed
feel
ingweak, Iwascoughingnonstop.AndI
couldnowt astebl
oodi nmymout h.Iev
enhad
soresaroundmymout h.
Mymom goti
n,shehadacupi
nherhands.
Her
:her
edr
inkt
hisi
twi
l
lhel
pyou.
.
Me:nomom I
'
vebeendr i
nki
ngt
hisherbsfora
l
ongti
mebutI'
m notget
ti
nganybett
er..I
'
m
goi
ngtot
hehospit
alnow.
Her:soy
oudon'
ttr
ustmeany
mor
e?Youdon'
t
t
rustmymuti
?
Me:mom I
'
m get
ti
ngwor seokay
,justtakeme
t
othedamnhospi
tal
[Icoughedyetagain]
Her
:letmegocallGi
vensohecoul
ddr
iveus
[
shewalkedout]

Latert
heycameandtookmetothehospi
tal
andIwasimmediat
elyadmi
tt
ed.Thedoct
ors
ransometest
s.
Andshel
atercameback
Mom:
doct
orwhat
'
swr
ongwi
thmydaught
er?
Doc:umhhh..uhma'am whenwasthelastt
ime
yougott
ested?[Sheaskedlooki
ngatme]
Me:
ughI
'
m notsur
e
Doc:andwhenwast
hel
astt
imey
ouhad
unpr
otect
edsex?
Me:
what
'
supwi
thal
lthequest
ions?
Mom:
justgett
othepoi
ntal
ready
Doc:
umhy ouneedcounsel
i
ng.
..[mymi
nd
i
mmediat
elyraced]
Mom:
justsayi
tal
ready
Doc:I'
m sorr
ytoinf
ormyoubutyou'r
eHIV
posit
ive[Myheartj
ustst
opped]..
themore
unfor
tunatel
yparti
syounowhaveAIDSsincei
t
wasnott r
eatedear
ly.
Mom:
Hai
bo!
!!
MFUNDO
Iwasinameet i
ngwit
hmybosswhenmy
phonerang.
.itwasmybeaut
if
ulmunchki
n.
Me:
umhcanIpl
easet
aket
his
Hi
m:goahead[
soIanswer
ed]
Me:
babe?
Voi
ce:si
rit
'sPamel
a
Me:where'
smywif
e?I
ssheokay
?[Iwas
al
readypani
cki
ng]
Pam: sheinthehospi
tal[
Istar
tedbreat
hing
heavi
ly]shewascompl ai
ningaboutpains.
..[
I
cuthershort]
Me:
whi
chhospi
tal
?
Her:
Cityv
iewhospi
tal
[Ii
mmedi
atel
yhungup
andtur
nedtol
ookatmyboss]
Hi
m:it
'sfi
neJacobs,youcango[ Inoddedt
hen
t
ookmycarkeysbef orer
ushi
ngout .
.Igoti
n
mycaranddrov
et othehospi
tal
li
keamani ac]
Ir
ushedi
ntot
her
ecept
ion.
.
Me:I'
ml ooki
ngf
ormywi
fe,shewasbr
oughti
n
notsolongago.
Her
:name?
Me:Omuhl
eKhumal
o[shet
ypedi
nher
comput
er]
Her
:ohshe'
sint
hemat
erni
tyWar
d..r
oom 16B
Me:mater
nit
yWar
d?[Iaskedclear
lyconf
used,
Idi
dn'
tknowOmuhl
ewaspr egnant]…
Irani
nther
eandshewasbusyscr
eami
ngwhi
l
e
pushi
ng
Me:baby
?[Ir
ushedt
oher
,shel
ookedl
i
keshe
wasin

somuchpai
n]
Nurse:
Icanseet
hehead,
givemeonelast
push[shescr
eamedandpushed,wi
thme
hol
dingherhand]

Nurse2:congr
atul
ati
onsi
t'
saboy.
[wowmy
babyjustgavebir
tht
oababy?
,Icoul
dn'
tbe
morehappier]
Iwipedt
hesweatofherf
orehead.Me:
thank
youbabe
Her
:howdi
dthishappen?Howdidn'
tInot
ice?
[
Shenowhadthebabyinherar
ms]
Me:i
tdoesn'
tmatterbabe,whatmatt
ersi
swe
nowhaveourbundleofjoywi
thus.
Her
:asy
mbol
ofourl
ove
Me:
anynames?
Her
:younamehi
m
Me:howaboutAv
ethandwaJacobsHer
:Il
ove
i
t
Me:andIloveyou[Iki
ssedherl
i
psandki
ssed
Av
e'sf
orehead.
.Ifel
tcomplet
e]
Her
:wel
ovey
out
oo.

.
.
.
.

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t
il
lwemeetagai
n