Men koi cheez hon?….

Tum kuj b bolo aur mujy kuj

b na lagay…..mazaaq uratay rho gay? meri apni ak
space ha na.. men bhi human being hon na, mujy b
kuj lagta ha na…ab mujy rishty se dar lagta ha uska
men kya karon?dar is baat ka nahin k anay wali lrki
mujy sukh degi nhin de gi, dar is baat ka h k men ose
sukh de pao gay a nahin? Toxic hon men uske liye,
ab men uska kya kro ? uska mazaq urao gay?...ye
sahi nhin h… tmhen nhin lgta?
Mera apna ak ilaqa ha wahan mat ao yarr…har jaga
apna nak dalo gay, ye kya ha? Ye kya ha? Mat kro
yrr ,tmne do shadiyan ki pehli ku baghi dosri baghi
ni bhaagi? Ye kesay huwa wo kasay huwa? Pocha
kbi?
Nhin pocha… tera ak apna ha dard ka wo jo ha na
kona us konay men Janay ka mujy haq nhin ha…
men ye smjta hon ku k men tmhara dost hon….i
must understand that…,nahin ha nhi banta rishta
mujse nhi chlta rishta mujse kya karo uska? itna
safar akely teh kiya ab chand kuj kadam baqi
hen….usme kya ha? Uska mazaaq urao gay?
Meray kaan men ak awaaz ha usko meny ak shakl di
ha,,ab us shakal ko kureed kr nikalo gay nikalo gay
nikaal diya ..chalo ab ye dosri ha jao isko mil k ao…
isko mil k aoo… isko mil k ao…esa kasay chaly ga
yrrr? Nikalo gay tou dard hoga na? khoon nikly
ga….wo dard baant sako gay? Chalo bhai lo 100
gram tum lelo 100 gram tum lelo aur 100 gram tum
lelo, esa hoga kya?
Nhin hota ha na asy…wo mera apna dard ha
bhai….aur mera apna hi rhy ga…esa nhi hota bhai…
esa nhi hota…. Sala kitni bar esa huwa men tmharay
smny rona chahta tha,tery kandhy pe rona chahta tha
salay…lakn men ni roya ku k mujy laga tu mazaaq
uraye ga…akely men bhi men nhi rota ku k dar lgta
ha mujy koi kahin se dekh lega…men ni rou ga, see
this is what I am….men kamzoor hon…men
kamzoor hon, kya tum smj skty ho? Be my
friend……