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24/
04,
5:33am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
**TAMAR* *

*Epi
sode1*

“Thisonedoesn’
tlooktoogood…t
oowhiteli
ket hef
lakes
,toothi
n,t
oougl
y,t
ooweak,
toomuc
h
hairfi
ll
edwithli
ce…J ustt
oomuchofeveryt
hing…Howmuc hdoess
hegofor
?"

“Donotunderes
timateher .
.
.Herl
ookmaybedec eit
ful
…Sheisasstrongasacamel ,
shewal
ked
100mi l
esf
romt hesaharatothelakeyIc
eland,
Iswearwi
thtwail
,thegodofthunderandst
orm,
shemaybethinandfrailbutshei
soneoft hest
ronges
t…Andsheisgoingforthi
rty-f
ive
shi
ll
ings…That’
sthepricemygoodf ri
end..
."

“Hahahaha,Ican’
tpays uchabi gamountforher
,Iwil
lpaytwentyshil
lings,weareintos
ame
businessandyouknowt hatshedoesn’
tworthit
,everyt
hingcount
swhenpur chasi
ngaslave,t
he
lookandbodyc ount,butshehasnone, s
hejusthasbigeyeball
sandI wanttobuyherbec aus
e
yous ai
dsheisstrong.Ij
us thopeyou'
resayi
ngthetruthwhenyous ays hewalkedfromthe
saharatolakeyIcel
and…

“I
t'
struemyfriend,Is
weartoyouwi t
ht hegodofthunder.
Remember,Ican’
tliewiththename
oftwail
,twai
lstri
kesdownthosethatliewit
hhisname…She'swort
ht hepriceIhavegivenyou.
Youcanpaythirtyi
nsteadofi
tthi
rty-f
iveshi
lli
ngs
, I
’
mgi vi
ngyouagoodpr i
ce,takeher…"

"
Well
,Idon’tbeli
eveinanygod,I
wor s
hi pmoney,
becausemoneyanswersallt
hings
..
.Iwi
llpay
t
wenty-
five,i
fyou'r
enotsell
ingthenI
'llmovetoanotherdeal
er,
Idon’
thaveti
met owast
eon
s
omeus eles
sslave…"

“
Okay.
.
.Payt
het
went
y-f
ives
hil
li
ngs
…"
Iwatchedinsi
lentasthefi
rstdealercountedt hemoneybef orehandingmeovert ot hesecond
man.Hewashappyt obef reefromme, Ihadbeenwi t
hhi mforlongandnobodyhadbeenabl e
tobuymeof f,
andwhenhef i
nallysol
dme, hewashappybec ausehewasnott otall
yatlossHe
boughtmei ntheSahara,
fromas l
avemarket ,aft
erthemer chantsoff
loadedusf r
omt heseat o
theshore,
heboughtmef ort wenty-t
hrees hi
lli
ngsands ol
dmef ortwenty-f
ive,
afterwalking
underthescotchi
ngsunandar rivi
ngatthepr esentport
.

Theseconddeal ermademewal ks ofastashel edmewi t

hot herslavesthroughapas s
ageway.
Weallseemedt obebetweenel evenands eventeenyears,notmor et hanthat,andIwast he
mostfr
ailamongt hem.Iwast ir
ed,hungr yandt hir
styyet,Ihadnor ighttoc omplai
nbec auseI
wasonlyas lave.Myfatehadbeenpr edestined,butIwasnots cared,I mightbeinaforeignland
fi
ll
edwithdi ff
erentgods,c
ar vedindiffer
ents hapesands i
zes ,I
mi ghthavel ostmymot herand
fat
her,
wi thJoemybr other,andKat hri
neandDebmyt wos i
sterstothec oldhandsofwar ,but
I'
mnots cared.

Mot herhaddiedinmyar ms.Shehaddiedofs tarvati

on,af
terthewarbr okeout.Joehadgone
outins earc
hoffoodbutwasc apt
uredbythes oldiers,
andkil
led. Hewasdumpedont hesame
pil
esofdeadbodi eswherefat
herwasdiscardedaf terhewaskilled.Iwat
c hedfr
omt heti
nyhol
e
ofourr oomastheys ett
hemonf ir
e,andt
hes mokewenthi gh,Is hutmyeyesandhel dmy
breathf ors
omes econds,
thi
nkingIwasgoingtodi etoo,butIdidn’tdi
e,Ineededtobestr
ong.

AfterKat hri
ne,mys i
s t
erdiedthatmor ning,andmot herwhohadbeeni l
lf orlonggaveupi nt
he
evening, Ibegantodoubtmyf ai
th,Ihadques ti
onsandI neededanswers
. Ihel dmyonly
survi
vingbl ood,mys is
terDeb, s
hes obbedi nmyar msandI hushedhersever all
ytobequiet
whiletryingt oholdmys el
ffroms cr
eami ng,sothatwewoul dnotbehear d.Wewer equi
etwith
everything.Thes ol
diersmaybepas sing,theywer egoingfr
omhous etohous etomakesurethat
theyclear edoffeveryhousehold.Anynoi sefr
omuswoul dattr
actthemfas ter.

DebandI c
leanedmotherandKat hri
neup,wecombedthei
rc ur
lyhai
rsint
obonds,anddr es
sed
themup,andlaidthemont hebed,asift
heywereas
leepandwoul dwakeupsoon.Thatwasmy
wish,t
hateveryt
hinghappeningarounduswasater
ribl
enightmare,
butitwasreal
,realand
closet
otheskin.

Motherwasverybeauti
fulevenass
helaidindeath,
shewasatpeac
e,I
satbes
ideherand
watchedher
,andjusthopersomepartofherbodywouldmovetosi
gni
fyt
hatshewassti
llal
ive,
butnothi
ngmoved.

Itouc
hedherbodyanditwassocold.
Iheldherhands,
hopingmywarmhandswoul
dwarmup
hercoldhands
,buts
til
lnot
hinghappened.Debwaslooki
ngatthest
reetf
romthet
inyhol
eI
creat
ed,Isaweverythingfr
omt here.DebwasallIgotnow,Iusetohavemyel derbrother
,Joe,
myt woyoungersi
s t
er s,
KathandDeb, andalsomylovingpar
ents,butnotagai
n.IonlygotDeb
whowast heyounges tandwasni neyearsol
d,Kat
hrinewaselevenyears,s
helovedGod
passi
onately,
shewast hestrongestamongthethreeamongus .

shewaskindandyetGodwasnotmer c
ifulenoughtosaveherfromdying,heall
owedhertodie
andall
owedmotheralsowhostoodf
orupr i
ghtnessandtrut
h,t
ogot oo,l
eavingtheweakones
.
myfait
hwasweak,Ilookedweakphysi
call
yyet,Igotstr
engthoftenpeoplei
nmewhi chnoeyes
cansee

Iknewwhatmot herwouldsayinthispresentsi
tuat
ion,shewouldsay“Tamar,don’tl
etyour
heartbetroubl
ed, i
neveryt
hingrejoi
ce,thisworl
dwi l
lpassonedaybutours oulsbel
ongtoone
trueGod.Evenifheallowsustobes tr
uc kwithf
amineands ic
kness,Hewillhealourl
andand
restor
eourhealth,forinHi
mwel iveandmove, inHimwehaveourbei ng…"

AsIwasl ostinthought ,Debcalledmyat tent

iontothehol eandI sawsoldi
ersapproachingour
door.Mys tomac htightened,myhear tskipped.Iwantedt ohideDebbuti fshestayedinheres he
mightpr obabl
ydi eofst ar
vati
on. I
didn'twantt ol
os eher,Ithoughtofwhatt odo,withmot her
andKat hri
nelyingdeadont hebedasi ft heyweres l
eeping,andwi thDebshakingalloverfrom
fear
.Mywhol efaithweakened, Icouldn’tdoanything,andwhent hesoldi
ershitourdoorwi t
h
thei
rironboot sIwass hakingallover,theywer etwoandl ooks cary.

Theycamei nandIheldDebass hecri

edands hook.
I wastryingtobebraveli
kef
atherwoulddo,
butnott
histime.Iwastr
ulyafrai
d,Ididn'
tknowwhatf atehel df
orus.
Out si
dewasdeadl
y,yet
i
nsidewaslonelyandsmeltofdeath.Nowherewass afet
os tay.

Thefir
stsol
dierslookedatus,
whilet
hesec ondpassedtowheremotherandKathlaidpeaceful
ly.
Thefir
stsol
dierswor east
hesecondonec all
edhisattent
iontomotherandKathr
ine'
scorpsesin
bed.Thefi
rstst
eppedoutandbr oughtawoodent ruck,whic
htheyusedinevac
uatingthedead.
Theythrewinmot hersandKathr
ine'
sdeadbodiesintothetruckc
areles
sly,
andtheywere
pushedtowher edeadbodieswerekeptandbur nt
.

Icried,
Iscreamed,
Iwantedtohol
dmot herforthelastti
me.Iwant
edt oc
hec
kifshewoul
d
shake,Iwantedtol
ookuponherbeauti
fulf
ac eandbes t
rengt
hened,buts
hewasgone.
Iwoul
d
neverseeherorfat
herorJoeandevenKathrineagain.

AsI
wasdr
aggedout
sidewi
thDeb,
Ilookedupt
othes
kyandbegant
ocur
se.

IhatedGod,Ihatedhimf oral l
owi ngsomuc hbadt hi
ngsi
ntot heworl
d,andforall
owingt he
wickedtooppres st
hehel pless.IhatedGodf orallowingf
athertobekil
ledonthes t
reet
. Father
wasar el
igi
ousleaderandhewasaf ait
hfulfoll
owerofGod, yethewaskill
ed.Joewasayoung
manwhowast r
yingtofollowever yoffat
her’sstep.Hebecamet hebr
eadwinnerwhenf ather
died,hewassixteenyearsol d,andwaski ll
edashewenti nsearchoff
ood.Godallowedhunger
andsi
cknesstotakemymotherandmys is
terKat
hrine,
leavingmewi t
hDeb.WhatkindofGod
wasthat
?IfHewass tr
ongenough,hecoul
dhavesavedus ,andst
oppedthewar.Whydidbad
thi
ngshappentogoodpeopl
e,especi
all
ypeoplewit
hgoodhear t
slikemotherandf
ather?God
all
owedit
.

Ihadunanswer edquest
ions.I
wasf i
ll
edwithangerastheydr aggedDebandItoanopens quar
e
whereothersur vi
vor
softhewarwer ekept.
Wec rawledupt oourkneesandsatontheground,
holdi
ngoneother .Whateverl
aidaheadwasfarbiggerthanwhatI coul
dfac
e.Isi
lent
lyhopedI
woulddietoo,becausel
ifewaslikeapuredefi
nit
ionofhell.

Deb,
myonl
ysur
vivi
ngf
ami
lybec
amei
llanddi
edaf
terf
ivedays
.

Shec ont
ract
edflui
ntheopens quar
eands tar
tedcoughi
ngoutblood.It
r i
edeverything,
even
prayedtoGodnotmindingthatIwasangrywithHim.Ihadprayedthati
fHec ouldsavemyonly
survi
vingsi
ster
,Iwoul
dl oveHimagain.
Iwouldapologi
zeforeverybadthingIsai
dt oHimordid,
Iwoul ds
erveHimmoret hanIhadeverdone,butGodwassil
ent.

Thef l
uquickl
yspreadalloverDeb’
sbody.
Ther
ewasnogoodwaterandfoodandmedicineto
properlyc
areforher.I
us edthepi
eceofcl
otht
iedt
omywai s
ttocoverherf
romcoldatnight
.I
stayedawaketryi
ngtowar mherupwi thmyownbodybec
auseDebwasmyonl yfamil
y.

I
fshedieswhatwouldIdo?Ikeptbeggi
ngGod,butGoddidn’
thearme,Hedidn’tl
ist
entomy
s
uppli
cati
ons
.Debdiedinthemi ddl
eofthef
if
thnightatt
heopens quar
e,andthesoldi
ersc
ame
t
otakeheraway,I
sti
llc
ouldn’tbeli
eves
hewasgone.

“Hey,wal kfastorI wi
llbef orcedt ous ethewhi pony ou,
I don’twanttotouchyoubec aus eyou
looktoof rai
lasifyou'lldropdeadanys econd.Iwantt oresellyouandmakeeveni fit
'sal it
tle
gain.Igavet hatdealertwent y-fivefiveshill
ingsforyou,andi t
'swaytoomuc h.Ishoul dn’thave
spents uchahugeamount .
Youl ookweakandI wonderhowyoumanagedt ot r
ekf romt he
Sahar atotheIceland,thatdeal ermus tbeagoodl i
arswearingwi t
htwailbecausehedi dn't
wantyout oremai nwithhi m..
. Ihatet owas t
emoneybec ausemoneyi smygod, nowt ellmet he
truth:doy outrekfroms aharatol akeyIceland?"

Ilookedatt
heman'sst
onef ace,
hedi strac
tedmef rommys addenedt hought,I
wassti
ll
wonder i
ngwhyIwasst
illal
ive,t
het hinnestandweakestoneinmyf ami l
y.Ihadbeenshi
pped
ands muggl
edli
keordi
narygoods, Ihadbeenexpos edt
oc ol
dandheat ,beenhungryandthi
rst
y.
Ihadgonefromhandtohandofs lavet r
aders,andyetI
ams ti
llal
ive.Theonlythingt
hathadnot
happenedtomewasr ape.I
watchedasotherbeauti
fulslavegir
lsgotrapedint hecabi
nbutany
ofthedeal
erst
hatgott omewouldlookatmeallover ,
shaketheirheadsandwal kaway.Idi
dn'
t
lookl
ikegoodf
oodtot hem,onl
ymys unken,bi
gwhit eeyeball
s ,
withmyf ullcurl
yhair
,thet
rai
t
Igotfr
ommybeaut i
fulmotherwhichwasnowc overedwi thl
iceanddirtscaredthemaway.

Theytaggedmeugly,whi
chwasanaddedadvantaget
oo,
beingfr
ailhadal
sosavedmefr
om
somemaltreat
ment.I
wasstr
ongenoughinsi
de,I
hadenoughstr
engthtowalkandrunmil
es
buti
twasnevershowninmyphysi
calbody.

Mys li
mnat ur
ewasdec eivi
nganybodyt hatc ameincont
actwithme.Thedealert
hatsol
dmeof f
thoughtIwoulddropdeadal ongthewayf romt heSahar
a,buthewassurpri
sethatImadeit
,
whilesomeot hers
lavesdroppeddeadandt heywerelef
ttheretobedevour
edbywi l
danimals
.
Themer ethoughtofwildanimalsfeedi
ngonmewasenought okeepmemovi ng.

Iwasjol
tedoutofmyt houghtswhenI hear
dinahar s
hloudvoice“
...
Answermes l
ave,orI
wil
l
thr
owyout othecir
cusanimalsbytheent r
ancegate!
!!You'
rearejustamout
hfultothem,
nothi
nginyouwillbeenjoyabl
e.speakuporcan’tyouspeak,don’
tyouhaveavoic
e?"

“
Icans
peaks
ir!Yes
,hewasr
ight
.It
rekkedf
romt
heSahar
atot
hel
akeyI
cel
and.
.
."I
repl
iedhi
m.

“Then,
that’
sgood. l
et’
skeepgoing,yousti
llhavelotsoftr
ekkingtodo,I
justhopeyourbodyc
an
carryi
t,andthatyourhai
rwillbebarbed.I
ts t
inks,andIwishyou'
llbeagoodsalef
orme
becauseIdon’tdealwi
thloss
, I
likemakingprofit
…"

I
wasr eadyf
orwhat
everthatc
omesmyway,
andI
als
ohopedI
woul
dendupasahous
ehol
d
s
lavenotasatempl
eslave.

Temples l
aveswereusedtoser
vedif
fer
entgods
.Thel
andweareinwerefi
ll
edwit
hpagan
worshipers
,ther
eweredif
fer
enthandmadegodsandt
emplesever
ywhere,
inever
ysquar
eand
junc
tion,hungontr
eesandhouses
.

Ever
ybodychosewhattheywant
edt owor
ship,
butthef
ait
hIwaspr
act
ici
ngs
inc
eIwasbor
n
wasneveral
lowedher
e;itwasatabooi
nthispl
ace.

However
,Iwil
lbegi
venachoi
cetoc
hooset
hegodIwantedt
oworshi
pher
eifIendedupasa
hous
eholdsl
avei
nagoodhouseorI
wil
lendupser
vingmymast
erandmis
tres
sasgods.

I
twaswel
lexpect
edofeverysl
avet
omaket
hei
rmas
terormi
str
esst
hei
rgod,
whomt
heywoul
d
s
ervef
ort
herestoft
heirl
ives
.
I
wasnotafr
aid,
Ius
edt obe,
butnotanymor
e.I
haves
eent
oomuc
hcal
ami
ti
esi
nmyyoungl
if
e
t
obescar
edofanyt
hing.

Wher
everf
atel
ead,
Iwi
llf
oll
ow.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.

[
24/
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5:34am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR*

*Epi
sode2*

Thedealerpai
dfi
ves
hil
li
ngst
oaf
atwomanbyt
hepoolt
obat
hmeandoneot
hers
lavegi
rlwho
lookedwornout.

Thefatwomanshavedmyhairandgavemeanewwearaft
erthebat
h, s
hegavemeasmall
t
urbantowrapmyheadsothatnobuyerwoul
dbedi
scour
agedbymyl ook,I
wrappedt
he
t
urbanroundmyheadasi
twasi ns
truct
ed.

Wejourneyt
oanot
herdis
tri
ct,andt
heot
hers
lavesgotbuyer
squi
ckl
yandasus
ual
,nobuyer
wantedtogi
vemeasecondlook.

Mos tofthebeaut if
ulonesamonguswer eei
therboughttobet emplepr ost
itut
esorhous ehold
slaves.I
stoodt herehopingtogetagoodbuyersothatIcouldbefreef r
omt hedealerwhowas
alreadygetti
ngf rustr
atedwithhavi
ngme,hedidn'twanttorunatl oss,heworshi
ppedmoney
andl i
kedmaki ngpr ofi
t.Nomat t
erhowheconvincedcustomerstot akemef oranegotiable
rate,noonewant edtobuymebec auset
heythoughtIwoul dprobablydiesoonorthatIhadan
i
llnessduetohows ki
nnyIlook.
Thedeal
erwhoboughtmefortwenty-
fives
hil
li
ngswant
edtos
ellmeoutf
ort
hir
ty-
fives
hil
li
ngs
,
hewasdeter
minedtomaketenshil
li
ngsofgai
nfromsel
li
ngme.

Amaninawhit
er uberdec
oratedsas
h,washeadedt
othepubl
icwel
lwi
thhi
swar
es,
hewas
obvi
ous
lyamerchantandhelookedri
ch.

Mydeal
erinc
reasedthemoneyt
ofor
ty-
fives
hil
li
ngswhenhes
awt
hatt
her
ichmer
chantwas
l
ooki
ngatmeinteres
tingl
y.

“Sheisverys trong,herlooki
sdeceptive,
shec ant
ravelfarbyfoot
, s
hewalkedfr
omt heSahara
tolakeyIceland, s
hec andoallsor
tsofjob..
.Shehasbeenwas hedandc l
eaneduptoo.Idon’
t
dealindirtyslaves,askaboutmear oundhereandmys lavesareallheal
thyandhardworki
ng,
sheisgoingf orforty-f
iveshi
ll
ings
..
."

Theric
hmer c
hantr eplied,”
Sheisj
ustachil
d,shelookssober
.I havewat chedherfromafarand
seenthatshedoes n’thaveabuyer,nobodywant stobuyherf
r omyou. Ifeltpit
yforher,
Ijus
t
hopemywi f
ewilllikeher .
Ineedahouseholdslaveformywife, s
healreadyhast wo,butshe
complainedthattheyar el
azy,
shewantsas t
rongers l
ave,
andi fwhatyous ai
distr
uethenIwil
l
takeherforfort
ys hill
ings.
..
"

“
Bri
ngt
hemoneyandt
akehert
hen,
shewi
lls
erveyourwi
feandt
heent
irehous
ehol
dwel
l.
"

I
wass
oldf
orf
ort
yshi
ll
ingss
urpr
isi
ngl
y,j
usts
ameamountmeantf
ort
wos
mal
lsl
avesl
ikeme.

IwashappyasIjour
neyedwit
hthemerchantwhoboughtfoodandwaterformeal
ongt
heway.
Hewass i
lentt
hroughoutt
hejour
neyandwasnotharshtome, hel
aterspoke:

“
I don’tknowwhatpus hedmet obuyy oubuti
tmus tbesomeuns eengodbecaus
eI can'texplai
n
i
t.payingf ort
ys hil
li
ngsjusttopurchaseyouwast oomuch.ThehighestamountIpai
df oras l
ave
wast hirtyshi
lli
ngs,andt heywerefullandbeauti
ful
.Thekivis
lavesgi
rlsar
ebeautif
ulandmy
wifelikesbeautifulsl
aves ,
shehatessomec ert
ainsetofsl
aves.I
t'
sbettert
oknownows othat
shewi llnottakeyout oludrust
empl e.Whatgoddoyous erve?

”I
havenogod,
Ionl
yservemymasterandmi
str
ess
."I
repl
iedbol
dly,
hopi
ngheandhi
swi
fewi
ll
atl
eas
tkeepmeasahousehol
dsl
ave.

Themani
sni
cet
ome,
aft
erbuyi
ngf
oodanddr
inkf
orme,
hes
pokes
oft
lywi
thoutanyhar
shnes
s
l
iket
heot
herdeal
ersus
est
ocommuni
cat
etome

“
Don’tbeaf
raid,
I’
mnotl i
keeveryoneyouhaveenc
ountered.Whatgoddoesyourhous
ehol
d
s
erve?Areyourparent
sstil
lal
ive?Whatgoddotheyserve?"Heaskedc
almly

”
mypar
ent
sands
ibl
ingsar
eal
ldead,
theys
ervedt
heuns
eenGod,
theywer
eChr
ist
ians
…"

“Shhhh, don’tsayitl
oud. Thatr eli
gioni sanabomi nati
ontotheear
. Foryoursaf
ety,don’
ttell
anyoneoryouwi l
lbestonedt odeat hort heyfeedyourmeattothec ir
cusanimalsbythe
entranc egate.Mypeopl et hi
nkChr i
stiansactliketheyknowital
l,worshippi
nganuns eengod
whoc an’ts
avet hem,it
'sagoodt hi
ngyout oldme. Lis
ten,
Whenwegethome,t el
lmywi feyou
wors hiplucrus
, t
hegoddes soff ert
ili
tyandpr oduction.mywif
ewillbehappybec ausewear e
hopingont hegodsforac hil
d..
"

I
thankedhi
mforhi
ski
ndhear
t.

Whenwefinal
lygothome,themer c
hant’
swif
ewasonthestai
rs.
Shewasbeaut
if
ul,
shespoke
f
romther
east hehousehol
dslavescametounpac
kwhatthemerchantr
etur
nedbackwi
th.

”Lami,youhavebeengoneforfourdays,
andyousai
dyouwillonlyspendthr
eedays.whoist
he
li
ttl
ewitchwithyou?Don’tt
ellmeyouboughtasl
avegir
llooki
ngl i
keshewasaleftoverbythe
gods,hopeyoudidn’
tspendmoneyt obuyher
?Themerchantwifequeriedhi
mimmedi at
elys
he
sawme.

“
Canmybeaut
if
ulwif
ecomedowntogr
eetherhus
bandwhoms hehasnots
eenfordays
?I’
m
s
orr
yIt
ookanextr
aday,I
neededt
osel
lal
lthewaresbef
orer
eturni
nghome..
.
"

Thewomanc amedownandgaveherhus bandanangrylookbefor

et urni
ngtome.Shel
ookedat
meal loverandpull
edofft
heturbanonmyhead, s
hebec ameangrierasshesawmybarehead
withnohai r
.Ki
ndlyhiomeon+233544142683tobeaddedtostoryheadquart
ersr
oomformore
stor
ies.

”
Lami
,no,
no.
.
.Idon’
twanther
,andt
her
eisnot
hingy
ouwi
lls
ayt
hatwi
llc
onvi
ncemet
otake
her.
Hopeyoudi
dn’
tspenduptofi
ft
eenshi
ll
ingsonher
?Retur
nherandgetyourmoneyf
rom
thewic
keddeal
ert
hatsol
dhertoyou,
Ican’
tall
owherint
omyhouse!
"Shebarkedmoreangr
y

“Jus
tgiveherachancefi
rst
,sheisst
rongandshealsoworshi
pslucrus,I
knows helookstoo
sl
enderbutwithfoodshewilladdmorefl
eshtoherski
nandherhai rwil
lalsogrow.Givehera
chanceoffour
teendaysandifyoust
il
ldon’twanther
,thenI'
lls
ellheroffatyourpl
eas ur
e..
.
"
Themer c
hantsaidtohi
swife.

”Is
wearbyt henameoflucrusi
fshecomesintomyhouseIwil
lsendhertothecir
cusanimals
andherbloodwillbeonyoubecauseIwarnedyou,
Isai
dIdon’
twanther!Lookatthoseeyesof
hers,
sodeepands unkenli
kethebluesea,s
hemakesmet omes hi
veri
nfear,t
akeheraway
fr
omherenow! "Shestormedoutinrage.

Themer chanttookmeoutatt hewif

e'scommand, I
wrappedmyheadwi ththeturbanagai
n.He
didn’tknowwhatt odowithme. Herodeonhishors
ewheels earchi
ngforbuyer,hewaswill
ing
tores el
lmef ortwentyshi
lli
ngs,hedidn'
twanttobeatatotallossandifhehadt ol
dhiswif
ehe
paidf or
tys hi
ll
ingstopurc
haseme, t
hewomanwoul dhavetornhi mint
opieces.Aft
ersometime,
hes awayoungmanwhowasc omingf r
omthes l
avemarketwi t
ht womaleslaveswithhi
m.

Hesaidtohim,“
Shei
sforsal
e,ver
yst
rongforyourhousehol
d,addhert
oyoursl
aves.I
coul
d
havekeptherbutmywif
edidn'
twanther
,please,
takeherandgivemewhatyouhave.
"

Theyoungmanl
ookedatmeandsmil
ed,
maki
ngmefeelatease.Hegavethemer
chantf
if
teen
shi
ll
ingswhi
chs
eemedliket
heonl
ymoneywi
thhi
mandI si
lentl
yfol
lowed.

Whenwegott
othebi
gbeaut
if
ulgat
e,hel
ookedatmef
ors
omet
imebef
ores
peaki
ngqui
etl
yto
me.

“Therei
ssomethi
ngaboutyou, youar espec
ial
.thisbigbeautifulhousebelongstothes econd
primerul
erofthi
swhol ekingdom. Heandhiswifearekind,theyhavet woc hil
dren,Vimt hei
r
sonisrut
hles
s,hedoeswhat everpleaseshi
mandt heprinc
es swhos enamei sZit
y,Shei sful
lof
li
feandmaybeofs ameagewi thyou.Iamtheheadoft hehous eholdsl
aves,youcanc al
lme
Abel.Wehaveenoughs lavesherebutmymas terhasor der
edmet ogettwomal eslavesforhis
shippi
ngbusi
ness.Idon’
tknowwhyI boughtyoufromt hatmer chant,
butIknowt hatthe
madami sl
ookingf oralit
tleper s
onals l
avegirlf
orheronlydaughterZit y. Zi
tymaynotwantyou
butdon’tbeaf r
aid,forGodwi l
lsoft
enherhear t.Iwasal
solitt
lewhenI camedownher e.I
was
j
ustelevent henandI ’mthirty-t
woyear soldnow. Mymas t
erandmymi s tressj
ustgotmar ri
ed
backthenwhenI ar r
ivedhereandI washerewhent heygavebi r
thtoal lt hei
rchil
dren,botht he
onesthatdiedandt hetwot hatsurvived.Vi
mi stwentyandZityisfourteen. Mymas terand
mistr
essar egoodpeopl e,theyhavewant edtofreemeons everaloccasionsbutI toldthemI
wasn’tready,maybebec auseI hadbec omeusedt othem.Ifeelcomfortabl ehereandt heyare
ki
ndt ome. Whati syournameandhowol dareyou?Whatgoddoyous er ve?Tellmet hetruth,
don’
tbeaf raid.
"

“
MynameisTamarandI
’
mf our
teenyear
sol
d.I
usedt
obeaChr
ist
ianbef
orel
oos
ingmyf
ait
h,
I
’
mreadyt
os er
vemylor
d..
.
"

”I
’mnotyourLor dTamar ,CallmeAbel .
Now, IunderstandwhyGodl edmet othepathItook
today.Hewant edmet omeetyou. I’
maChr i
sti
ant oobutIhi
deitwel lfromeveryone.i
t'
sver y
danger oustoannounc es uchfaithhere,.Iwi
llhelpyoubeli
eveagain, butkeepyourfai
tht o
yourselfanddon’ tletanyonet oknowabouti t.Icanseeyouhavebeent hroughs omuc
h, You
haves urvi
vedwhatki ll
edother sandisobviouslynotbecauseyouares trongerbutbec
aus e
there’
sar easonf orthatands oonyou'llfi
ndoutwhyGodkeptyout illthisti
me. Let
sgoinside,
theprimer ulerandhi sfamilyareallin..
"

I
qui
etl
yfol
lowedhi
mint
othebi
gbeaut
if
ulgat
e.

Myl
ifei
saboutt
otakeaser
ioustur
nwhic
hImaynotbeprepar
edf
orbutasAbels
aidwhat
ever
r
eas
onGodkeptmei samyster
yandI'
maboutt
ofi
ndout.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..

[
24/
04,
5:36am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR*

*Epi
sode3*
“Youcan’tdot
hist
ome,t
hisi
snotf
airmot
her
…It
houghtyoul
ovedme,
nomot
her
.Ic
an’
t
acceptthis
…Ican’
t…"

“
Wewantt
hebes
tforyoupr
inc
ess
.Youknowwel
oveyou,
right
?"

“Then,thi
sisnottherightwayt opr oveit
,thi
si snotjustfai
r!
!!Yous ayyouwantt hebestforme
butyouar egivi
ngmet hewor st,shedoes n’
tevenhaveanyhai ronherhead. Zai
n,myf r
iendhas
beautif
ulmaidsat t
endingt oher .Theyar eTi
vi gi
rlswithlonghairandr oundwaists
.Herfather
makess urehebuysbeaut ifulslavesforher,sheboas tsofherpers onalmai dst
omeandI have
toldherthatminewi l
lbef armor ebeautif
ulthanher s.Now,shewi l
llaughatmewhens hes ees
this,
shewi l
lmoc kmei fshes eest hekindofslavet hatmyparent shavegi ventome. I
don’tcare
whatyous aybutI j
ustdonotwanther .Idon’
t..
."Shebegant os ob.

Aswewenti nsidethatday,Abelhadaskedmet owai tt

il
ltomorrowbeforegoingtomeett he
LordandLadyoft hehouse.Het ookmetotheout-house,abighousewithi
nt hecompoundbui lt
foral
ltheslaves .Is
tayedinoner oomwithtwoothergirls
,whoneversaidawor dt omebec aus
e
Abelhadas kedt hemnott obotherme.Theywerebigandbeaut i
fulandcouldbemi stakenfor
royal
tywitht hewayt heyactedanddressed.I
wasgi venclot
hstowearandgoodf oodtoeat,
andIsleptallthroughthenight.

Abellat
ercamet ofetc
hmewheni twasti
met opresentmetothemas ter
.Ic
leanedupand
dress
edint hecl
othIwasgi ven,andwrappedmyheadup. Abelhadtoldmenott obeaf
rai
dor
worri
ed,thatevenifZi
tydidn'twantmeandherpar entsagr
eedtoit
, hewouldputmeinthe
ki
tchenasoneoft heassi
stantcooksorinthegarden.

Zit
y, t
heprincessisverybeautiful
,shewasf arbiggert
hanherage, maybebecauseherparents
wer ever
yt al
l.Herbrother,Vimwasal sohands ome,hehadhisfather
’sst
atur
e.Thehousewas
bigandbeaut i
ful,
differ
ents hapesofanimalsandi mageswerec ar
vedandpositi
onedatevery
cornerofthehous e,t
herewasawat erfallandal ar
gegarden,andlot
sofbeautif
ulsl
avegirls
doingdif
ferentthings.

I
wat
chedasonebr
oughtat
rayofgi
zzar
dandl
iver
,wel
lspi
cedandgar
nis
hed.
Shebr
oughti
tto
LordRees eandLadyPhi n,themas terandmadamoft hehous e.Sheknel tdownands er
vedt hem,
whiletheypi ckedfromt het r
ayofmeat ,andanot hers lavebroughtr edwine.IwatchedasVi m
lookedatt hegirlcar r
yi ngt hegizzardtray,andwhens hebr oughtt het r
ayofmeatt ohim, she
kneltdownandwi thoutf ear,l
ookedf ull
yathisf ace.I wastolds laveswer enotallowedt olook
attheirmas ters'f
ac eswhi leservi
ngt hem, butthegi rldid.Vims mi ledandLadyPhi n,who
noticedwhatt ranspi r
edqui cklydi
s missedthemai d.Themai dprompt l
ys t
oodupandwal ked
seduc t
ively,
andVi ml ookedatherbehi ndass hewhi nedherwai st .
Shewentt oZi
tybuts hewas
veryangr yandt hrewt het rayofmeatof fherhandandi tal
ls catteredallovertheplace.

LadyPhi
nspoke,

“Youcanbeangr yfromnowt illtomorrowZity, i

t'
sallfi
ne,butyourfatherandIwil
lnotchange
ourmi ndsont his
.Ifeelcomf ortablewiththisone, I
don’tknowwher eAbelgotherf r
ombuts he
makesmef eelatpeac e.IknowI cantrustherwi t
hyou. Yourfri
end,Zainmayhaveallthe
beautifulmaidsattendingtoherneedsbuts hes t
il
lfeelsemptyands ad,andwit
htime, s
hewi l
l
alsogetjealousofyourmai di fyout r
eatthei nnocentgirlwel
l,but,
it'
smyc hoi
cetomakes ure
youarei nsafehands .For
getaboutherhai r,i
twi l
lgrowbac k,andwithgoodfood,shewillgrow
fat.St
opwor r
ying..
.
"

“
Zit
y,pl
eas
eli
stent
oyourmot
her
,andt
akeher
…",
themas
teroft
hehous
e,Lor
dRees
espoke
c
almly.

Hel
ookedatmewhi
lemyheadr
emai
nedbent
.Then,
hes
poket
ome:

“.
..
Chil
d,Abelsai
dyou'
refourt
een,andthatyou'r
everydevot
ed.It
rustAbelandIknow
whatevercomesfromhimisgood.so,
ifhepickedyouformydaughterthenIhavenowor
ries.
Abelhasspokengreat
lyofyou.Whatisyournameandwher edoyoucomef r
om?Whatofy our
parent
s?Whatgoddoyoubel ievei
n?"

“MynameisTamar,myLord.
Ilivedc
losetot
heAbkhazia,ac
rossthebl ackseawit
hmypar ent
s
andsi
bli
ngsbefor
ethewarbrokeoutandtheyar
ealldead.Iwasc apturedandsoldof
f,andwas
lat
ershi
ppeddowntothi
splace.Andaboutt
heGodI beli
evein,I
s erve…I s
er..
.
"

Gettingtothel
astpar
tIbecamespeechl
ess.
denyi
ngmyf ai
thhads eemednormal,hati
ngGod
foreverythi
ngIwentthr
oughandthedeathofmypar
entsandsiblingshadappearokaytome
untilImetAbel
,andIbegantof
eelashamedofmysel
f.Abeldi
splayedGod’ski
ndoflovetome
andhadt oldmeI wasspeci
alandt hatGodmusthavesenthimtopassthatroadandmeett he
mer chantwhos oldmet ohi
m. Hes aidhedi
dn'
tli
kepassingther
ebecauseitwastoobr oadbut
theremus tbeahandt hatguidedhi mtopasst
hereandhemetme. Heas kedmenott ogi veup
onGodbec aus
eGodhadnevergi venuponme, Hehadkeptmef orapurposeandI wouldf i
nd
outwhatt hepur posewas,s
oon.J oinourWhat
sAppandt el
egrampageformor estor
iesthrough
Ishmaelon+233544142683.

Ist
ammer edasIwasabouttel
li
ngthemas terthegodIser
ved,Idi
dn’
twanttoli
eneit
herdi
dI
wanttoexposemyselft
oanotherdanger.
Abelhadwar nedmet obecar
efuls
othatnonewoul
d
f
indoutthekindofGodIser
ved.AsIstammer ed,LadyPhi
nspoke,

“I
t'sfineTarmar ,i
tappear syoudon' tknowt hegodt os er ve. youc anc hoos eanygodher e.Your
mas terwor shipsJ upiter,thegodofs trengt hands uc cess ,heal s owor shipst wail
,thegodof
thunder .Iwor shipVenust hegoddes sofl oveandpr otec tion, myc hil
drens ervewhat evergod
theyl i
ke,andever ysl
avei nt hehous ec hoos esagodf ort hems elves .Feelf r
eetoc hooseanygod,
wear enotgods ,don’tbeaf raid.Abelmus thavet oldyout hatwe' regoodpeopl e,andthat ’sthe
truth.Serveuswi thyourhar dwor kandobedi ence.Youar ededi catedt omydaught erZity.Make
sureyous er veherwel l,don’ts eeusasgods . Wegiveoutones hilli
ngt oever yslavehere
everyday, youc andowhat everyoul i
kewi t
ht hemoney. I toldAbelt ogetmeal i
ttl
es l
avegi rl,
withinZity’sager angeandi thast akenhi mt imet odot hat ,bec aus eIas kedhimnott obuyj ust
anor dinarys l
avegi r
l.Beautyi sallinvain, I’
mnotc ount ingont hat .
Igues sAbelpr ayedt ohis
godwhodi r
ec t
edhi mt obuyyou. Beagoodgi rlandyouwi llalwaysf indf avorbeforeus. Serve
yourmi stressZi tyasisr equiredofyou. Iknowmydaught erc anbedi fficulttopleasebutj ustdo
yourjobdut i
fully,don’tdoeyes er
vicelikemos tofthes lavesher edoes .Ifeelatpeacewi thyou
already,you'vegots omes pec i
althinginyouTamar , beofgoodbehavi or…"

LadyPhi
nspokewi
thc
ompas
sioni
nhervoi
ce,
whi
lemyheadwasbenti
nres
pec
tass
hes
poke.

Themasterofthehous
e,Lor
dReesestoodupandl
eft
.Hewasbei
ngc
all
edupont
oat
tendt
oan
impor
tantis
sue.Zi
tycr
iedoutagai
n,

“Is
ai dIdon’twanthermot her!Whywi l
lyouandf athert
eamupagai nstme?Whyc an’tyou
li
stentome?I don’twanther ,jus
tt akealookather ,bar
ehead,ti
nybodyl i
kes hehass omekind
ofdisease!Doyous eeherbigeyes ?I wonderhows hemakesyouf eelatpeacewi ththosebig
ballsofeyesmot her .Sheistoostr
ange, Ican’
tevenboas ttoZai
nabouther,s hewillmakejestof
met oever yone,I
'l
lr atheral
lowot herslavest
os ervemei nst
ead.t
hisisnotjustfai
r…"
Shes obbedass heturnedtoherbrot
herwhowasn'
treal
lypayi
ngattenti
on."
..
Vim,s
ay
somet hing!Yourfri
endswil
llaughatmeift
heyseetheki
ndofslavemotherhasgi
vent ome.
everybodywi llf
indreasontomockme,tr
ytoconvi
ncemotherthatIdon’
twantthi
sslave
gir
l…Pl ease.
..
"

I
watchedasVims
uddenl
yst
art
edl
aughi
ng,
buts
uddenl
yst
oppedwhenhi
ssi
ster
’sc
ryt
urned
i
ntowhimper
.

“Okay…I t'
sokayZi ty,sor
rythatI l
aughed. I
knowyouar es ad,don’tbe..
. Noneofmyf r
iendswill
daretryt omoc kyoubec auseofyours er vantgir
l,Iwillbreakt heirteethiftheytryit
.Zity,t
he
slavegirlisnott hatbad, herhairwillgr owbac kasmot hers ai
dands hewi l
laddwei ghtwith
ti
me. Ifany ones aysanythingbadj ustt ellthemt hatshec an…uhmms i
ng. I
don’tknowi fshecan
actuallysing,butj usttel
lthems hehasgotagoodvoi c eandt hats hecans i
ngmuc hbetterthan
allofZain’smai dsputt ogether.IknowZai ni sj
ealousofyoubec aus eyouar emuc hmor epretti
er
thanher .Don’tal l
owhert oint
imidat eyouwi thallthosebeaut ifulmaidsofher s,
inti
mi dateher
wi t
hyour sinstead. .
."

Vimt urnedtohi smot herands aid".

.
.Butmother ,
youc anaswel lallowZityt omakeherc hoi
ce.
Sinces hehass aids hedoes n’
twantt hi
sone,thengetl i
ket hreebeaut i
fulslavesandlether
makeherc hoic e.thissl
avegirllooksli
keshewon’ tbeabl etodomuc hwor k,shelookswornout
andmal nour
is hed. Sheappearslikeshehasbeenc ursedbyt hegods .
Iwantmys ist
ertohave
goodt hingsofl if
e, sheisr
oyaltyandherper sonalmaids houldbeasbeaut i
fulasthesun.Abel
couldhavebr oughtoneoft heTivigi
rls,
Iknowt heycanbever ylazybutt heyareverybeauti
ful
.
thisslaveisfarf rombeaut y,Ican'tl
iebutshe'snotappealingtot heeyes…"

LadyPhi
nspokeup,
hus
hingVi
mtobequi
et.

“Youmeanl i
keObi a?Yes,Iknowwhathavsbeengoi ngonbet weenyout wo…Vi m.Isawtheway
youlookedatherwhens hec amet oser
vet hegi
zzar d.
Is wearbyVenusI wil
lsellt
hatgir
loff
li
keabagofpot atoes .
sheac tsal
lseducti
vewhenevers hes eesyouandyoul ookatherhungril
y.
Ihavetoldyousever al
lytotakeyourpleasureoutside.I
ft hegirl
friendsyouhavearenotenough,
thengetmor eandl eavethehous ehol
dservantsalone.Obi aisdisplayi
ngarroganceandbad
atti
tudebecauseyouar esleepingwithher…"
“Mother!That’snottrue...I
onlyadmi redher .I
’
mamanmot herandIhavegirl
sdyingforme
outsi
deher e,I
’mnotal waysall
owedt obringthemhome, onlyAprili
sall
owedher e.Ir
espec t
youandf ather’
spolicy,Obiaistryingherbes tli
keeveryothermaidinthi
shous etogettome. I
havenott ouchedher ,whot ol
dyout hat?Whywi llIs
toops olowtohaveanythi
ngt odowi t
h
households l
aves?I haveawoman, mother .
IfApri
lhearsthis
,shewon'tfi
nditfunny,please.I
havenothingwi thObi a,youcans ellherifyouwant,that’
snoneofmybus iness
..
."Vimsaid
loudl
yinhi sdefense.

Zi
tywhohass
toppedc
ryi
ngs
aid,

“Vim, i
haves eenObi asneakingintoyourchamberatni ghtands neakingoutt oo,butI havenot
toldmot heranyt hing.Iswearbyt hegods,I
’monl ys ayingitnowbec aus eyouar elyi
ngt o
mot her.Youl i
edofnothavi nganythingwithher .Obiathrowsher sel
fatyouever ytimeyouar e
around, sheac t
slikeahar lotbecauseyouar ehavings omet hingwithher .Don’tyouknowyou
empowerherwhenyouadmi reherorliei
nbedwi thher ?I
fs hedaresac tdisrespec t
fullytome
anyday, I wi
llbreakhernec k.Vim,youhaveawomanout si
deandal sohaveonei nsi
de. Ihave
lostcountofhowmanywoment hatarefr
olickingwi t
hyou. Defini
tely,i
t '
snotj ustApril.Apri
lis
beaut i
fulandI wantt obel ikeherwhenI growupbutyouar enots atis
fiedwi thher .Herfatheri
s
weal t
hyt ooands heistheonl ychil
dofherpar ents.
..Doyous eeherper sonals l
avegi r
ls?She
hast woandt heyar esobeaut i
ful…"

I
lis
tenedi
nsi
lent
,st
il
lwi
thmyheadbentasVi
mst
oodupands
pokeangr
il
ytohi
ssi
ster
.

“I
’msoegl adthatmot hergotyout hiski
ndofuglys lavegirlasyourpersonalmai
d,it'
syourgood
rewardfornots hut t
ingupandmi ndingyourbusines s
.WhatI dowithmyper s
onalli
feis
nobody’sbusiness,andI wasevent ryingtoconvi
nc emot hert ogetyouanothersl
ave,nowIsee
thatwiththisonet hatl ookslikeal i
ttl
etemplewi t
ch, you'l
llearntomindyourbusiness.
Yes,
keepcrying,Idon’tcar e!Mot her,i
fyouwantt osellObi a,pl
eas egoaheadsothatIcanhave
peaceinthishouse, I’
mgoi ngt ot
hepor ttofores
eet hingsforf at
her.I
willbebackaftert
wenty
ninedays,Ineedt obr eathi nfres
hai rfr
omt hesea,bef or
eI getchokedfromeverybody
meddlinginmyaf fair
s .
"

Vi
mst
ompedoutwhi
leZi
tyc
riedandr
ant
oherc
hamber
.LadyPhi
ndi
smi
ssedme.

Abelsmi
ledonseei
ngmebac
ktot
heouthous
e.Her
eas
sur
edmet
hatever
ythi
ngwoul
dbef
ine,
andIbel
ievedhi
m.
Thenextday,Zitydidnotaskforme.Evenonthet hir
ddaywhenherfr i
end,Zainvi
sit
ed,Idi
dnot
gonearherasherf ri
end,whowasnotasbeaut if
ulasz i
ty,
wasbusyboastingloudl
yaboutthe
beautif
ulmaids hecamealongwi t
h.Hermiadswer eevenmorepret
tierthanher,butZi
tynever
reactedtoanyofwhatZains ai
d.Shechangedthetopictosomet
hingelseandt heyateand
laughedtogether.

Abelputmei ntheki
tchenasoneoftheassi
stantcookswhenZitydidnotsendformeafterf
ive
days.Anothers
lavegi
rlwasatt
endingtoher.Iwasalreadyf
eel
ingcomf or
tabl
ewi thmynewj ob
i
nt hekit
chenwhenI wastol
dthatZit
ywasas kingaft
erme.Iquickl
yrantoherc hamber
.

“
Wherehaveyoubeensi
nce.
.?Youaremeantt
oser
veme,now,
youc annotevendoyourj
ob.
I
wast
oldyouarei
ntheki
tchen.I
sthatwher
eyouar
esuppos
edtobe?"

“
Nomyl ady,
myapol ogies
. I
waswai
ti
ngfort
heri
ghtti
mef oryout
osendf
orme,
I’
mher
eto
s
erveyoumyl ady.
.
."Irepl
iedwi
thmyheadbenti
nobedience.

“Good,thenser
vemeher enotinthekitchen,I
’mbored.Noslavehasanygoodstoryforme,do
youhaveany?I l
over omanticstor
ies,
ands tor
iesofhands
omemenf i
ghtingwars.
Ilovetol
isten
tot hos
elovest
ories,thati
swhyI praytoVenus ,
thegoddessoflovetogi
vemeahands ome
princewhomI wil
lloves owellwhenthet i
mec omesorwhenf athert
hinksit
'st
imeformet o
startaromanti
cjourney..
.So,doyouhaveanyi nter
esti
ngstorytotel
lme?"

Ithoughtofstori
esI c
ouldtell
,Irememberedallt
hebiblestori
esthatmotherandf
atherusedto
tellmysister
sandI backthen,soIstar
tedtel
li
ngherthes t
oryofSampsonandDeli
lah,butI
nevertoldheritwasf r
omt heBible.
Abelhadbeenteachingmewi sdom,andhowtobec ar
eful
withmyki ndoffait
h.

BythetimeI f
ini
shedt
hest
ory,
Zit
ywashappyandshesaidshewasgoingtot
ellZai
nthatI
may
nothavelongshi
nyhai
rorf
atli
keothers
laves
,butI
cantellgoods
tor
ies.

Shel
aughedandc
lappedherhands
,shec
oul
dn’
twai
tforZai
ntovi
si
tsos
hec
oul
dtel
lZai
nthatI
wasagoodst
oryt
ell
er.
Aft
erthatday,
Zityneverc
omplai
nedofchangingmeorwant inganothermai dagain,s
he
becamecomfortabl
ewithmearoundher.Someti
mes ,
I woul
dt el
lherstor
iesuntilshesleptof
f.I
hadaspaceinherchamberwhereIsl
eptatnight
.Ihardlyl
efthersi
ghtexc epti
fs heaskedme
to.

Myc ur
lyblackhairstartedgrowingagainwithtime.araregeneti
ctrai
tIi
nheri
tedf rommy
mother.Iwasgraduallyaddingweight.Abellookedatmeonedayands ai
d,“
You'r emore
beauti
fulthananyoneI haveeverseen, i
nsi
deandout .Don’
tall
owanybodyt ot
el lyouotherwis
e,
Goddidn’tmakeami s t
akewhenhec reatedyou.af
terGodc r
eatedyou,hesmil
edands aid,
'my
daughterissoperfec
t l
ymade' ,
sobelievewhathes aysaboutyouandnotwhatt hewor ldsays
."

Abelgavemehopeever
yday,
hemakemebel
ievei
nGodandmys
elfagai
nandmyf
ait
hwas
gradual
lybei
ngr
est
ored.

I
knowhar
ddayswer
ecomi
ng,
butI
wasnotaf
rai
danymor
e.

Not
hings
urpr
isesme,
Iwaswher
eGodwant
edmet
obe.

I
'
mgl
adAbelf
oundme.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..

[
24/
04,
5:37am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
~TAMAR~*

*Epi
sode4*

“
TodayI
wil
lbet
aki
ngawal
kwi
thZai
ntot
hemus
eum,
soget

t
hingsr
eadyf
ort
heout
ingbec
aus
ewewon’
tbebac
kti
lldus
k,

hur
ry,
anddon’
tgetf
oodordr
inkwewi
llbuys
omet
her
e.

I
qui
ckl
ypac
kedupf
ewt
hingsi
ntoal
eat
herbag,
Ial
soputher
s
hawl
,andac
overj
usti
ncas
etheweat
herget
scol
d,I
puta

l
it
tlewat
erbot
tleandf
riedmeatwi
thf
ewf
rui
ts,
event
hough

s
heas
kedmenott
obr
ingf
oodorwat
er,
knowi
ngt
heki
ndof

per
sons
hewas
,shemaynotgetagoodf
oodout
sideandwi
ll

endupangr
ywi
thme,
soi
twasbet
terI
car
ryever
ythi
ng

nec
ess
ary,
eveni
fshedi
dnotdemandorneedsi
tIwi
llr
etur
n

t
hembac
k.

Ayearhasgr
adual
lygoneby,
Icans
til
lremembert
hedayAbel

br
oughtmet
oli
veands
erveher
e,andi
thasnotbei
ngeas
y

s
ervi
ngZi
tybutI
getus
etoherever
yday.

Zai
n,herf
riendmetupwi
thher
,sheal
soc
ameal
ongwi
thher

per
sonalmai
d,whol
ookedmeoverl
ikeI
neverexi
sted,
she

r
oll
edhereyesands
igh,
whi
leZi
tyandZai
nwal
kinf
ront
,we

qui
etl
yfol
lowedbehi
nd,
Zit
ymakesment
otur
nands
tar
eat

her
,shewasver
ybeaut
if
ul,
shenevergaveat
tent
iont
oany

oneass
hewentaheadt
alki
ngwi
thherf
riendwhos
eemt
obe

boi
li
ngwi
thj
eal
ous
yatt
hewaymenandwomenwer
est
ari
ngat

Zi
ty,

Zai
nsuddenl
ysai
dshewant
edt
ores
tyl
eherhai
randal
sot
o

addmor
emakeupt
oherf
ace,
soZi
tyal
lowedher
,andwes
top

atal
it
tleki
osk,
andZai
nor
der
edhermai
dtor
est
yleherhai
r

andaddmor
emakeupt
oherf
aceandt
hegi
rlwhos
eemangr
y

wi
thhermi
str
essdi
stur
banc
e,gr
udgi
ngl
ydi
d,andwhens
he

wasdone,
Zai
nchec
kedher
sel
fint
hemi
rrorands
eem

s
ati
sfi
ed.
ThemakeuponZai
n’sf
acewasmuc
hbuts
hewasokaywi
th

i
t,Zi
tys
poke

“
Isn’
tthatmuc
h,I
meant
hemakeup,
theoneyouhadon

bef
orewasf
arbet
terof
f…

“
whatdoyoumeanZi
ty,
whatoft
heoneyouhaveonyourf
ace

i
sn’
tthatal
somakeup…ar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osayyouar
emor
e

beaut
if
ult
hani
?

“
mmh,
I’
mnots
ayi
ngt
hat
,Idi
daver
yli
ghtmakeupbec
aus
eI

s
weatal
ot,
andt
heweat
heri
sver
yhot
,I’
mjus
tsayi
ngt
he

whol
emakeuponyouwi
llpr
obabl
ywi
peouti
ftheweat
herget
s

hot
ter
…youwi
lls
weat
…

“
don’
twor
ryaboutt
hat
,that
’swhyI
havemymai
dwi
thme,

s
hewi
llf
anmei
ftheweat
herget
shot
,herj
obi
stomakes
ure

I
don’
tget
sunc
omf
ort
abl
e…s
oevent
houghI
knows
hei
sver
y

ar
rogantandl
azys
hewi
lls
til
lhandf
anme,
maki
ngs
ureI
’
m

al
ri
ght
.

Whenwegott
othemus
eum,
whi
chwasc
rowdedwi
thpeopl
e,

t
heys
tar
tedt
our
ingr
oundt
hewhol
epl
ace,
Zai
npoi
ntedat

s
omegr
oupofhands
omemen,
theywer
efouri
nnumber
,and

af
ters
omet
ime,
twooft
heyoungmen’
swal
kedawayl
eavi
ng

t
heot
hert
wobehi
nd,
theyl
ookyoungandvi
brant
,Zai
nst
art
ed

ur
gingZi
tyt
ower
etheyoungmenwher
est
andi
ng,
butZi
ty

whowasnoti
nter
est
edi
nwhatZai
nwass
howi
nghert
urned

away.

“
lookt
heyar
esohands
omel
ikeyourbr
otherVi
m,t
heyl
ook
r
oyalt
oo,
comel
etusgoc
los
emaybet
heywi
llnot
iceme,
jus
t

t
akeagoodl
ookatt
hem,
theyl
ookl
iket
heywer
ecar
vedby

mar
s,j
ustl
ikeyourbr
otherwhoi
sal
waysr
udet
ome,
henever

paysmeat
tent
ionnomat
terwhatI
do,
andyouhaver
efus
eto

makei
tpos
sibl
e,youc
ant
ellyourbr
othert
hatI
real
lyl
ikehi
m

orj
usts
ayanyt
hingt
hatwi
llmakehi
mlookatmel
ikeI
’
m

s
pec
ial
,Vi
mispr
oudandf
ullwi
thhi
msel
f,Apr
ili
sal
ways

f
loc
kingher
sel
far
oundhi
m,maybebec
aus
eApr
ili
sol
dert
han

us
,Apr
ils
houl
dbeei
ght
eenorni
net
eenr
ight
…andherf
atheri
s

i
nchar
geoft
hebi
gar
enagame,
buts
hei
snotasbeaut
if
ulasI

am…

“
Zai
n,mot
herhast
houghtmenevert
oli
e,andI
knowI
canbe

s
tubbor
nbutt
her
ear
ecer
tai
nteac
hingf
rommypar
ent
sIhol
d

dear
ly,
int
rut
hApr
ili
sbeaut
if
ul,
farmor
ethanyou.
leavemy

br
otheroutofourdi
scus
sion,
hedoes
n’twantyouandno

mat
terwhati
doors
ayhewi
lls
til
lnotwantyou,
Vimi
sjus
tli
ke

t
hat
,leavehi
mal
one,
youknowI
cant
eardownwheni
tcomes

t
omybr
other
…fat
hers
aidI
’
mtooyoungt
okeepamanf
riend

andmot
herhaswar
nedmenott
ogot
ooc
los
etoanyman

exc
eptmybr
other
,Vi
mwi
llki
llanymanhes
eesc
los
etome

bec
aus
eI’
mnotal
lowedt
okeepmenasf
riends
,mypeopl
e

wantmet
omar
ryasavi
rgi
n,keepi
ngamanf
riendmaybr
ing

di
stas
teandwi
lls
tai
nthei
rgoodname,
Idon’
twantt
hatei
therI

j
ustt
urnedf
if
teennowandmot
herhass
aidwhenI
’
msi
xteeni

wi
llbeal
lowedt
ohaveamal
epar
tner
,ort
heywi
llgetme
mar
riedof
f,I
don’
twantt
hatt
hough,
Iwantt
ochoos
eapar
tner

f
ormys
elf
…IknowI
wil
l

“
somet
imes
,Idon’
tli
keyou,
Ihat
eyouf
oral
wayspai
nti
ng

your
sel
fasanangel
,I’
mal
somyf
ather
’sf
avor
iteyetheal
lows

met
odowhat
everI
want
,loos
ingyourvi
rgi
nit
ydoes
n’tmean

youwi
llbr
ings
hamet
oyourpar
ent
s,i
sonl
ywhenyout
ell

t
hem,
theydon’
tevenhavet
oknow,
youhaveyourownl
if
eto

l
ive,
Ilos
tmi
newhenI
wast
wel
veandi
tfeels
ogood,
Itol
d

youbac
kthent
otr
yitbuty
ouar
eal
wayspr
eac
hing“
mot
her

s
aidt
hisf
athers
aidt
hat
”event
ual
lyyouwi
lls
til
lloos
eitbef
ore

yougetmar
riedoraf
ter
,whi
cheverway,
youwi
ll
,exc
epti
fyou

wantt
ogr
owol
danddi
ewi
thi
t,pl
eas
est
opac
tingl
ikeyouar
e

per
fec
t,wi
llyouwal
kmedownt
othos
eboysornot
..

“
Zai
n,i
cameher
etoc
hec
koutt
hear
tofhi
stor
yandf
inewor
k

oft
hec
raf
tsmennott
ochec
koutboy
s,youc
angoI
’
mnot

goi
nganywher
e…

I
fel
tsopr
oudofZi
ty,
shec
anbedi
ff
icul
ttopl
eas
ebuts
he

wasver
ypr
inc
ipl
edes
pit
ehavi
ngever
ythi
ngatherdi
spos
al,

s
hes
til
lres
pec
therpar
ent
sbot
habs
entandpr
esent
.

Oneoft
heyoungmans
uddenl
ytur
nedt
oourdi
rec
tion,
and

t
appedhi
sfr
iend’
sshoul
derwhoal
sot
urned

“
aaah,
I’
mhotal
lover
,Theyar
elooki
ngatme,
theyl
ikeme,

hopemymakeupi
sst
il
lther
e,i
smyhai
rwel
lst
yled,
Ias
ked

mymai
dtos
tyl
eiti
nper
fec
tor
der
,Zi
tyhopei
sper
fec
t,s
top

bei
ngj
eal
ousofmebec
aus
eIknowyouar
e,wel
lIwashopi
ng
I
wil
lmeetwi
tht
hemandmakemyc
hoi
ceamongt
hem,
Zit
y

pl
eas
e,beat
ruef
riendf
oronc
eandwal
kwi
thmet
owher
e

t
heyar
e,I
’
mbl
ushi
ng,
look…l
ookt
heyar
ecomi
ng…t
heyar
e

wal
kingt
owar
dsme…oohI
’
mhot
,theyar
etoohands
ome,
look

att
het
all
erone,
hehass
omuc
hmus
cle,
broads
houl
derand

c
hes
tout
,hehasr
edl
ipst
oo,
ohI
’
mmel
ti
ngi
nsi
de…I
jus
tneed

hi
mtos
mil
eatmeandI
wil
lbehi
s,hei
sli
keagod,
oneof

t
hos
egodc
arvedi
nthet
empl
e,asi
fhewasper
fec
tlyc
arvedby

mar
s,t
hegodofs
unl
ightandr
ain…I
’
minl
ovewi
thhi
m

al
ready…

Themenwal
kupt
owher
ewear
e,t
heygr
eet
edusandwal
k

pas
sedZai
nwhowasadmi
ri
ngt
het
allonewi
thaf
ulls
mil
eon

herf
ace,
thi
nki
ngt
heywer
ecomi
ngt
oher
,shef
rownedas

t
heywents
trai
ghtt
oZi
ty,
Zai
n’sheavymakeupf
acec
hanged

i
ntot
err
orl
ikeoneoft
hos
esmal
lwi
tchesi
nthei
ridolt
empl
e,

Thet
all
eronet
hatZai
nhaswant
eds
tar
teds
peaki
ngt
oZi
ty

whos
eemuni
nter
est
ed,

“
youl
ookl
ikeyouc
amef
romAl
iah,
thegoddes
sofbeaut
y,ar
e

youi
nanywayr
elat
edt
othegoddes
s,youar
ebeaut
if
ul,
your

ki
ndofbeaut
yishar
dtobehol
d,I
’
mchakan,
myf
atheri
sthe

t
hir
ddi
str
ictr
uler
,her
eisal
somyf
riend,
Igotc
aughtupi
n

yourbeaut
ythemomentI
sawyou,
youl
ookl
ikeLor
dRees
e

pr
inc
ess
,ohI
’
mri
ght
,youwer
eli
ttl
ethel
astt
imeI
sawyou

wi
thyourpar
ent
sandyourbr
otheratt
hegl
adi
atorpar
ole,
I

haveadmi
redyouf
romwher
eIs
at,
asyouwavewi
thyour
par
ent
sont
hec
har
iott
hatday,
isbei
ngf
iveyear
snow,
and

youl
ookf
armor
ebeaut
if
ult
hanal
lther
oyalmai
densoft
he

l
andputt
oget
her
,whati
syourname,
pleas
eIwantt
obeyour

f
riend…

“
isgoodt
omeetyou,
I’
mnotal
lowedt
okeepmenasf
riends
,

myf
riendZai
nwi
llappr
eci
ateyourf
riends
hipmor
e…

t
heyoungmanwasobvi
ous
lynoti
nter
est
edi
nZai
nwho

s
tor
medoutwi
thhermai
dangr
il
y,het
riedt
ogetZi
ty’
sname

buts
hes
uddenl
ywal
kedoutt
ooaf
terZai
nranoutoft
he

mus
eum,

whenwegotout
side,
Zit
yst
art
edl
ooki
ngf
orZai
nandwhen

s
hef
oundher
,si
tti
ngunderat
reewhi
lehermai
dwasf
anni
ng

her
,Zi
tyj
oinedherands
atdownonhermat
,Zi
tyapol
ogi
zedt
o

herands
hepr
etendnott
obeangr
y

“
Idon’
tevenl
ikehi
m,t
heonet
hats
aidhi
snamewasChakan,

t
hes
onofac
ommondi
str
ictr
uler
,hemaybehands
omebuthe

i
snotmyt
ype,
hel
ookl
ikehehast
oomanywomen,
Idon’
tli
ke

s
uchmen…

I
wat
chZi
tyl
aughandl
aters
aid

“
youwer
edyi
ngf
orhi
mear
li
ernowhei
snotyourt
ypeofman,

wel
laf
teryour
anof
fhewhi
sper
edt
omet
hathel
ikesyouand

don’
tknowhowt
otal
ktoyou…buts
inc
eyous
aidyoudon’
tli
ke

hi
mtheni
sfi
ne,
anydayI
seehi
magai
nIwi
lldel
iveryour

mes
sage

I
wat
chasZai
n’seyel
ightupj
oyf
ull
y,notknowi
ngt
hatZi
ty
wasonl
yjoki
ng

“
don’
tyoudar
esayanyt
hingt
ohi
m,ohgoddes
sofki
ndnes
s

andl
ovehasf
avor
edme,
Ali
ahhasvi
si
tedmeandhasputa

s
mil
eonmys
addenedf
ace,
didhes
aidt
hathel
ikesme,
I

t
houghthewant
edyou,
ili
kehi
mtoomuc
hal
ready,
pleas
ewai
t

her
eletmegoandl
ookf
orhi
mins
ideori
shec
omi
ngoutt
o

meetus
…ohI
’
mget
tinghotal
loveragai
n…

“
Iwasonl
yjoki
ngZai
n,henevers
aidt
hat
…

“
youar
eac
urs
edbei
ngZi
ty,
mayt
hegodsdealwi
thyouf
or

l
aughi
ngatmymi
sfor
tune,
howc
anyouj
okewi
ths
omet
hing

l
iket
hat
,whodoyouevent
hinkyouar
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waysget
tingt
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goodt
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if
e,goodf
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ly,
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omebr
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ohaveyoui
nst
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ens
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t
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iaht
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lyandwhent
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doI
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ome,
andbef
oreI
for
get

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canal
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twi
thmymai
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hei
sfarmor
ebeaut
if
ult
hen

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s,event
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ternowt
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he

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irs
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hec
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ompar
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omi
ne,
andI
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needyout
otel
lmet
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ant
ellgoods
tor
iesors
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shei
s

s
til
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if
ulasmi
ne,

“
andyetyouc
ompl
ainedt
hatyourmai
dist
ool
azy,
yout
oldme

f
ivedaysagot
hatyouwi
shyourmai
disashar
dwor
kingas

s
ubmi
ssi
veasTamari
s,Tamari
snotonl
yhar
dwor
kingand

r
espec
tfuls
het
ell
smegoodr
omant
ics
tor
iesal
lni
ghtandc
an

al
sos
ing,
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’shai
risc
over
edupnow,
haveyous
eenher
c
oyl
yfi
nehai
r,s
hegoti
tfr
omhermot
hert
hati
swhats
het
old

me,
I’
mgl
admot
herpi
ckedherf
orme,
Idi
dnott
auntyouZai
n,

I
wasonl
yjoki
ngandI
don’
thaveal
lthegoodt
hingsofl
if
e,I
’
m

al
waysgr
atef
ulf
orwhatt
hegodsbl
ess
edmewi
th,
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msor
ry

anyway,
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eas
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opf
ight
ingandac
tli
kef
riends
,we

s
houl
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tfi
ghtoverever
ythi
ng…

Zai
npr
etendt
obeatpeac
eandas
kZi
tyt
ogi
vehert
he

nec
klac
eonhernec
kifs
hewanthert
obeherf
riendagai
nand

Zi
tyr
emovedi
tandgavei
ttoher
,wewer
eas
kedt
ogoand

l
ookf
orf
oodanddr
inkbutI
tol
dthemI
pac
kedups
omef
ood

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nthebagandI
qui
ckl
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oughti
toutands
ervet
hem,
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hst
art
edeat
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tal
kingandl
aughi
ngwhi
leI
stoodbes
ide

Zi
tyandZai
n’smai
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arawayf
romherass
heeat
sthef
ood

I
gaveher
.

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twass
undownal
readyandal
ongwal
kbac
khome,
whenwe

ar
rived,
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oundhergar
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thVi
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on,
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yrant
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otherwhowashar
dlyar
ound,
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her
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rmot
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e,I
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etwat
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or

Zi
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t

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eehi
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ualpl
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ound
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urnedandl
ookedatmebef
ores
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het
appedmys
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der

gent
ly,

“
iss
omet
hingbot
her
ingyouAbel
…youl
ikes
itt
ingouther
eal
l

al
ones
omet
ime,
Ithoughtyouar
epr
ayi
ngbutyourmout
h

nevermoves
…

“
Iam,
that
’st
hewayI
pray,
ipr
ais
eGodl
oudl
yinmymi
nd

whi
lel
ist
eni
ngt
othewat
erf
all
,It
ellGodal
lmywor
riesand

al
lowhi
mtos
peakt
ome,
Ican’
tsayi
toutl
oud,
Ican’
tpr
ayor

wor
shi
pli
keI
woul
dhavel
ovet
obec
aus
eisf
orbi
ddent
odos
o,

s
omedayI
wil
lhavet
hebol
dnes
sbec
aus
eIs
til
lhavef
ear
s,

andI
’
mpr
ayi
ngt
oGodt
ohel
pmeover
comei
t,youc
anal
sot
ry

t
osi
touther
ebyyour
sel
fsomet
ime,
andhaveaqui
ett
ime

wi
thGod,
tel
lhi
mwhat
everbot
her
syouorwhat
everyourf
ear
s

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e,al
lowhi
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opeyoui
nhi
slove,
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na

s
trangel
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hingeverhappenswi
thoutGod’
s

knowl
edge,
heknowsyouwi
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e,hewi
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etheweakt
o

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hamet
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trongandwi
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ethet
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hewor
ldc
allf
ool
ish

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oshamet
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se,
Gods
aid“
mywaysar
enotyourways
”I

haves
ett
heLor
dal
waysbef
oreme,
bec
aus
ehei
satmyr
ight

hand,
Ishal
lnotbemoved.

“
myf
atherus
etor
eadps
almst
ouswhenhewasal
ive,
Ist
il
l

r
ememberf
ew,
Iwonders
omet
imehowt
hispeopl
ehavegods

ofdi
ff
erents
hapesands
izesal
lar
oundt
hemandyett
heyf
eel

empt
yands
ad.
“
int
hebegi
nni
ngwast
hewor
dandt
hewor
dwaswi
thGodand

t
hewor
dwasGod.
Nomat
tert
hei
magest
heybowt
oitc
an

neverdoanyt
hingf
ort
hem,
fort
heyhaveeyesbutc
annots
ee

andear
sbutc
annothear
.

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satwi
thAbelasheempower
edmewi
tht
hewor
dofGod,
I

exc
usedhi
mtogoandc
hec
kuponZi
tyandt
oknowi
fshe

wasdonewi
thherbat
h.

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sti
llwonderwhatI
wil
ldowi
thoutAbel
,whenI
seemt
obe

l
oos
inghopehes
trengt
hensmeup,
Ifeels
ocl
oset
oGod

anyt
imeI
’
mcl
oset
oAbel
,If
indf
avorbef
oremyowner
s,and

nomat
terhowmuc
hofs
ongands
tor
iesI
tel
lZi
tys
heonl
y

s
eest
hemasr
omant
ics
tor
iesnotasGoddel
iver
inghi
speopl
e

ors
howi
ngl
oveandki
ndnes
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e,s
omeday,
Ihavet
his

bel
ievet
hatoneoft
hemwi
llc
omet
oknowt
her
ealGodmor
e

t
hant
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arvef
ort
hems
elvesand

c
alli
taname.
butf
ornowI
wil
lkeeps
ervi
ngasI
wasmeantt
o

s
erve.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.

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24/
04,
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*TAMAR.
*

*Epi
sode5

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ngday,
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hands
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Zi
ty,
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ter
day,
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oher

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MyLadyi
sther
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em,
youhavebei
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nbeds
inc
e

mor
ningandi
spas
tyourbat
hti
me.
.

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tseemt
ogethi
mof
fmymi
nd,
hel
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tlyl
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wast
rul
ycar
vedoutf
romMar
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keptt
hinki
ng

abouthi
m

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oul
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“
Chakan,
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aidhi
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,thehands
ome
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hemus
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nkI
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ngt
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agai
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mmynamewhenheas
kedbutI

was
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havehear
dpeopl
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mebutc
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eehi
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sent

you,
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Wil
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ure

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qui
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ear
chedever
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side

andwai
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etur
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idedt
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mri
ddi
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iend,
bef
oreI
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dhi
de

amongt
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awme,
hel
ookedatmeandI
bentmy

head,
her
odeandpas
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d.

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qui
ckl
yrant
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ewel
rys
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lI’
mas
kedt
o

buybef
oreheadi
ngbac
khome

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atel
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mst
andi
ngout
side,

“
Wher
ear
eyouc
omi
ngf
rom,
whyar
eyouatt
het
empl
eof

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wai
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hegodoft
hunderands
tor
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he

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eoft
wai
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hat
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ee

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goddes
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ayt
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l

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ans
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rikeyourenemi
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areweyour

enemy,
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her
etowor
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porwhat
..
speakup

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…I,
no,
myl
ord,
idi
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her
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wasgoi
ngt
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ewel
ryForLadyZi
ty,
andher
etheyar
e,I

don’
thaveenemy…

“
Ever
ybodyhasenemy,
mos
tes
pec
ial
lyac
ommons
lave,
run

aheadnow,
Ithi
nkZi
tyneedsyou,
youc
anas
kot
hers
lavest
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shi
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i
n..

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ty’
s

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ngwai
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avor
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e

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ett
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tel
lme,
I’
meagert
oknow,
speakup

now

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dn’
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ndhi
mmyLady,
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chedever
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oal
lthet
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ebutnos
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m,I
als
o..

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oreI
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ros
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ace,
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hout
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lyours
tor
ies
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kedyout
ogoand

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indChakanandyous
til
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ryouts
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mys
ightnow.

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ount
ain,
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itandpr
ay,

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ight
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otal
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of
fmyhead,
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tdownands
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deand
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tar
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peaki
ngt
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lsme,
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feel
,I

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our
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m

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atef
ulf
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imes
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me,
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nal
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oseei
n

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pmet
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maf
rai
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vef
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ff
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hisl
and,
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shi
pyouLor
d…I
ador
eyo…

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eyoudoi
ngouther
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sel
f…Byt
hist
imeoft
he

ni
ght
,whi
leever
yones
leeps
,kneel
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thyourhandss
pread

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de,
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neswi
tht
hemoon,
cryi
ngoutt
oanunknown

god,
whatgoddoyoupr
ayt
o?

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hoc
kedasI
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m,I
qui
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n

hi
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ghtwear
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tar
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los
etome.
Idi
dn’
tknow

whatt
osayordo.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
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24/
04,
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*TAMAR*

*Epi
sode6.
*

“
Youar
esuppos
etobeat
tendi
ngt
omys
ist
er’
sneeds
,not

bei
ngouther
eal
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vinganunknowngod,
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own

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ofas
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othet
imemot
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orZi
ty,
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eaddi
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urvest
oyours
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stevent
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hos
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othsbutI
sti
llnot
icet
hem,
andt
hos
eli
psofyour
s

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ookss
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ulent
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owi
ngbeaut
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ull
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nevers
eent
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ore,
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ight
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oryou,
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terwat
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or

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omet
imesandI
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aysnot
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ngabl
etos
leep

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idedt
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igur
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ount
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izedt
hatyouar
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hegodshass
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edatme,
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ess
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tha

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ort
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ough

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ly

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tme,
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seyesal
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ust
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ustwaswr
itt
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y

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urnedmyf
aceandwass
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ryoutt
oGodi
n

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ear
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ilent
ly,
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heps
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romAbelwas

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ingi
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dn’
trememberal
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ysoI
begant
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ayt
hef
ewonmyhead,

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fort
heLor
dwi
llhi
demei
nhi
spavi
li
oni
nti
meoft
roubl
e,no

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mwi
llbef
allme,
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lls
endhi
sangel
stohol
dmei
n

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hei
rar
mss
othatI
wil
lnots
tri
kemyf
eetagai
nstt
hes
tone,
as

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herhenpr
otec
tit
schi
ckss
oal
sot
heLor
dpr
otec
thi
s

peopl
efr
omt
hewi
cked.
.
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mqui
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ypus
hedmeawayi
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atel
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awme

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mur
ingpr
ayer
s,I
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hudt
othegr
ound,
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abbedmys
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over
edmyheadands
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ood

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stanc
easI
wat
chhi
mboi
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thanger
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n’taf
rai
d

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easI
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tGod’
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lar
oundme

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ayi
ngt
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ost
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hatan

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ncant
ati
onI
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dyous
ay,
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ayt
o…why

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iket
hehai
rsbehi
ndmyheads
tood,
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ocal
led

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amet
ofi
ghtf
oryou,
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houghtI
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odevourt
hei
r

l
it
tlevi
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ngi
rl
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owi
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ndmyhead,
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ive,

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knowyouc
an’
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aus
eIhear
dyoupr
ayl
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ist
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ian.
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ather
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oof
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hisl
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etheChr
ist
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ort
hem,
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hats
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his

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ngdomdeni
ess
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ait
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hel
andi
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atel
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ed,
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atheri
sa

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econdpr
imer
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hingwi
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ons
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ulesand

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awoft
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mjus
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vingyouat
iporr
efr
eshi
ngyour

memor
ytounder
standwher
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e,t
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hegodyoupr
ay

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o,ar
eyouaChr
ist
ian…Ans
wermes
lave.
.

I
fel
tunaf
rai
dyetwi
sdomkeptmemut
easI
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ooki
ngat

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m,I
thoughtofwhatAbelwi
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ayi
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sconf
ront
edwi
tht
he

t
rut
hri
ghti
nthef
aceofdanger
,hewi
llpr
ayps
alms”t
houghan
ar
myenc
ampagai
nstme,
myhear
tshal
lnotf
ear
,thoughwar

ar
iseagai
nstme,
yetI
wil
lremai
nconf
ident
”that
’swhathe

woul
dsay

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Ishal
lnotbeaf
rai
dofevi
leveni
nas
trangel
andf
il
ledwi
th

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dol
s,f
orMyhear
tiss
teadf
ast
lyt
rus
tingi
ntheLor
d.

I
sai
ditoutl
oudt
ohi
shear
ing,
hemovedc
los
ert
omeagai
n

butt
her
ewass
til
ladi
stanc
eashes
toodl
ooki
ngatme

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d,unaf
rai
dands
ozeal
ous
,that
’swhat

Chr
ist
iansf
ool
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ydoyetI
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eent
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rgods
avet
hem

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irc
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ionsorevenwhent
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e

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ics
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e

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rgodnevers
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ifyout
akeawal
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egat
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ist
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eso

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ool
ishl
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indt
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ters
eent
hist
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emai
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ubbor
n

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terc
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his

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and,
thei
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eal
oti
fgodst
ochoos
efr
om,
Idon’
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o

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ieveyouar
eaChr
ist
ianTamar
,nei
therdoI
everwantt
osee

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epr
ayi
ngt
oanunknowngodwhi
leever
yones
leeps
,

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angi
veyourvi
rgi
nit
ytoyourgodi
don’
tcar
e,ort
oAbel

bec
aus
eIhaveof
tens
eenyouar
oundhi
m,yous
eemst
obe

f
ondofhi
m,butNomat
terwhat
,Abelwi
llnotl
aywi
thyou,
I

haveknownhi
mal
lmyl
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e,hepr
act
icec
eli
bac
y,andnobody

knowst
hegodhes
erve,
rumorhasi
tthathewasaChr
ist
ian
andhedi
dn’
tagr
eenei
therdi
dhedenyt
heal
legat
ionwhenhe

wasc
onf
ront
ed,
andnobodydugdeept
otheki
ndofgodhe

s
ervebec
aus
efat
herl
ikeshi
manddoes
n’twanthar
mtobef
all

hi
m,Abelmaybei
mpot
entbec
aus
eheneverent
angl
eswi
thany

mai
den,
evenaf
terhewasgi
venhi
sfr
eedomher
efus
etogo

ands
tar
taf
ami
lyofhi
sown,
soi
fyouar
esavi
ngyourvi
rgi
nit
y

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orhi
myoubet
tert
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e,Abell
oveshi
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rangegodand

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k,hewon’
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oveI
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f

youl
etme,
Ihavenots
eenanyWomant
hats
aysnot
ome,
I

don’
tcar
ewhat
everyous
ervebutI
neverwantt
oseeyouout

her
eatt
hist
imei
ftheni
ghteveragai
n,doyouunder
stand

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Yes
,myLor
d..

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I’
mgl
adyous
til
lrememberI
’
myourl
ord,
nowr
etur
nto

yourdut
ywhi
chi
stos
ervemys
ist
er.
.

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wal
kedpas
sedhi
mandr
etur
nedt
oZi
ty’
schamber
,It
hanked

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ors
avi
ngmef
romVi
m’ss
trongar
msandnotexpos
ing

mys
trongf
ait
hwhi
chmayl
eadt
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ter
,Wi
sdomwas

i
ndeedapr
inc
ipalt
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hebookofpr
over
bsays

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terf
ourdaysZi
tygoti
nfor
mat
iononwher
eshec
anf
ind

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ckl
yLef
t,I
wentwi
thherands
toodata

di
stanc
eass
heandChakanhuggedandt
alk,
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oll
owi
ng

days
hewasoutt
omeetChakanagai
nandt
heys
ati
nahi
dden

pl
aceandI
wat
chChakanki
ssherForal
ongt
imebef
ore

l
eavi
ngher
,shebl
ushedasheki
ssedheragai
n,

Shes
tar
tedgoi
ngoutal
mos
tever
ydayt
omeetChakani
nthei
r
s
ecr
ethi
deout
,wher
etheyc
an’
tbes
een,

r
ighti
nherc
hamberal
lshes
pokeaboutwasChakan,
shewas

obvi
ous
lydeepl
yin-
lovewi
thhi
mandwi
shs
heWi
llbeal
lowed

t
omar
ryhi
mwhent
her
ightt
imec
omes

Af
ters
omet
ime,
whenZi
tyt
urneds
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eent
henewsc
ame

t
hatherf
ather
,Lor
dRees
ewasar
rangi
ngaweal
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or

hert
omar
ry.

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tyc
riedhereyesoutatt
henews
,sher
efus
edt
ocomeoutof

herc
hamberandLoc
kher
sel
fins
ide

Vi
mst
il
llooksatmes
trangel
y,hewasmos
tlyar
oundunl
ike

bef
ore,
evenwhenhi
sfr
iendsc
omesvi
si
ti
nghi
mhes
tays

wi
thi
nthehous
eandent
ert
ainst
hem,
hehar
dlygooutandhas

neverbot
her
smeagai
naf
tert
hef
irs
tti
meenc
ount
erwi
thhi
m

att
hef
ount
ain.

I
wis
hAbelc
oul
dcomebac
k,I
trul
ymi
sshi
m,I
prayf
orhi
m

ever
yday.

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ikebef
oreI
don’
tgets
car
ednotevenaf
terVi
m’st
hreat
s,I

bec
omemor
ebol
d,I
avoi
dedgoi
ngoutt
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ount
ainatni
ght

butI
sti
llf
indawayt
otal
ktoGodqui
etl
y.

Ever
ydayI
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orwar
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ngAbelbac
k,I
feelhappyand

s
ecur
edwhenhei
sar
ound,
Iwi
shhehomesbac
ksoon

bec
aus
eisal
mos
tayearhehasbei
nggone,

I
needhi
mmos
tlynowt
hatVi
misac
tings
trangear
oundme,

maki
ngmeunc
omf
ort
abl
ewi
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slooks
,andZi
tyWi
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riedof
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ichManoneofherf
ather
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riendwhol
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hemanhasonl
yones
onnamedChakan,
Zit
y’ss
ecr
etl
over
.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
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..
.

[
24/
04,
5:42am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
TAMAR*

*Epi
sode7.
*

“
wewantt
hebes
tforyoupr
inc
ess
,amanwhoc
angi
veyoual
l

youneed,
andwi
llbeabl
etot
akec
areofyouandyourc
hil
dren

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ess
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mwho

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llbeabl
etopr
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tyou,
agoodmanwhohasnos
tai
ntohi
s

name,
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fol
ikest
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yatt
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esc
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nhi
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eti
me,
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yhasonec
hil
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on,

whowi
llnott
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l,hei
saf
ineyoungmanwho

manageshi
sfat
herbus
ines
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ravel
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othemus
eum

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los
etot
hemar
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ace,
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iends
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cor
ding

t
ohi
sfat
her
,hei
sal
sobr
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li
antl
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fo,
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t

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obl
embei
ngas
tepmot
hert
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m,Adol
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sver
y

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ntel
li
gentands
mar
t,hei
sonl
yfor
tyt
hree.
.

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Isai
dIwi
llnevermar
ryhi
m,I
won’
tfat
her
,nomat
terwhatyou

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hers
ays
,Iwon’
tmar
ryamanol
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obemy

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ather
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ent
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fe,
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o

makemyownc
hoi
ce…I
havet
riednott
odi
sobeyyouf
atheror

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her
,Is
itwhenI
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mas
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’
mper
mit
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o

goout
,Idoever
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ngI
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mas
kedt
odo,
evenwhenTamarwas

br
oughtt
omeI
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irs
tbutI
endedupwi
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aus
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ist
ed,
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hoi
ce

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ceptandnowt
hisone…noway,
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ce,
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il
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thyout
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ure,
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snamei
swi
llnot

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omant
ic,
stopmaki
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hoi
cesf
orme…I
loveanot
her

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sonnotAdol
fo,
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hoi
cesyoumakef
ormear
eus
ual
ly

bad,
thegodsbearmewi
tnes
sthi
sday,
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tmar
ryhi
m,t
o

hel
lwi
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mandever
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ingmys
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s,f
atheryouar
e

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ustbei
ngs
elfc
ent
ered,
bec
aus
ehei
soneofyourweal
thy

f
riendandyoudec
idedt
opus
hyouronl
ydaught
ert
ohi
m…what

ki
ndoff
atherar
eyou,
andmot
heryouar
eal
waysagr
eei
ngt
o

ever
ythi
ngf
athers
aysordoes
…thi
sispur
ewi
ckednes
s…

I
wat
chasLor
dRees
est
oodupangr
il
yands
tri
kehi
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er

ac
ros
sthef
aceandever
yones
eems
hoc
k,Zi
tywass
hoc
kas

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hel
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athers
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isi
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tywhowass
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ore,
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ng,
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tgues
sshehasnotbei
ng

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enbef
oret
hat
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iseatLor
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e
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tion,
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ary,
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teni
ntoever
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s

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e,Zi
tydes
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ce,
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riendofabout

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riedyouc
anc
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eforhers
inc
e

youdon’
twanthert
omakeherc
hoi
ceort
obewi
tht
heper
son

s
hes
aids
hei
sinl
ovewi
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can’
tshebeal
lowedt
omakeher

c
hoi
ces
hei
snomor
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ft
een,
Fat
her
,shec
andi
ff
erent
iat
e

goodf
rombad,
Zit
yisnotac
hil
d,nobodypi
ckedwi
fef
oryou,

youc
hos
emot
heratayoungage,
shef
elli
nlovewi
thyouand

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hgotmar
ried,
andy
ouar
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herevers
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e,gr
owi
ng

ol
dwi
thher
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oveneverf
ades
,Iwat
chbot
hofyouand

s
mil
e,t
hat
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riages
uppos
etobe,
als
ogi
veZi
tyt
hat

c
hanc
efat
herpl
eas
e,mot
her
,pl
eas
etal
ktof
atherbec
aus
eI

knowheonl
yli
stenst
oyou,
mot
herwhenyoubr
oughtTamar

andhandedherovert
oZi
ty,
shehadnoc
hoi
cet
hant
oac
cept

her
,weal
ldes
erves
omec
hanc
einourl
ivest
omakeourown

c
hoi
ce,
str
iki
ngherwasnotnec
ess
aryf
ather
,ther
e’sabet
ter

wayt
ocor
rec
therandmakehers
eer
eas
onswhyyouc
hoos
e

Adol
fof
orher
,its
houl
dn’
tcomet
oenf
orc
ingl
awonher
,we

l
ivei
nal
andt
hatal
lowsust
owor
shi
pdi
ff
erentgods
,andal
so

f
reedomt
odoal
lwewantwi
thoutr
est
ric
tion…

“
nott
oli
veac
aref
reel
iveandmakemi
stakes
,Iamyourf
ather

andwhenI
speakI
expec
tsi
ttos
tands
til
l,t
hec
iti
zenoft
his
l
andt
akesmywor
dss
eri
ous
ly,
theyr
espec
tmyever
ywor
dyet

myownc
hil
drenpl
aysandt
oil
swi
thi
t,andques
tionmeon

ever
ygi
venoppor
tuni
ty,
Iamt
heki
ndoff
athert
hatwantt
he

bes
tforherc
hil
drenandwi
llnotwat
chanyofyoumakeabad

c
hoi
cet
hatyouwi
llr
egr
etl
ater
,Vi
m,I
maynothavec
ont
rol

overwhatyoudobec
aus
eyouar
eagr
ownmanandy
ou

s
uppos
etoknowt
her
ightt
hing,
Ifeelpr
oudoft
hef
ineyoung

manyouhavebec
omebutI
somet
imef
eeldi
sappoi
ntedatt
he

wayyoul
iveyourl
if
etoo,
thi
sfewweeksyouhavebei
nghome

ands
eemc
almandc
oll
ect
ed,
havi
ngf
ewf
riendswhovi
si
ts,

unl
ikebef
ore,
alt
houghI
don’
tknowwhatyouar
eupt
owi
th

yourc
almbehavi
orwhi
chi
sunl
ikeyou,
Iknowmyt
woc
hil
dren

l
iket
hepal
mofmyhand,
Abelac
tmor
eli
keas
ont
ome,

bec
aus
eIwat
chedhi
mgr
owupi
ntot
hemanhei
stoday,
and

hehasneverdi
sappoi
ntedme,
Icant
rus
thi
mwi
thever
ythi
ng

andf
eelatpeac
e,whyc
an’
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ear
nfr
omyour

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urr
oundi
ng,
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oobi
gtol
ear
nevenf
romac
ommon

s
lave,
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ywashous
edt
utor
edonhowt
oreadandwr
ite,
Vim

wes
entyout
ooneoft
hebes
tlear
ningpl
acewi
thagr
eatand

mos
tsor
tedt
eac
her
s,t
oteac
hyou.
ever
ythi
ngI
labor
edf
ori
s

f
oryouandyours
ist
er,
youc
anc
hos
etodoawaywi
thi
twhen

t
hegodsc
all
smet
ores
t,I
won’
tbet
her
etos
eewhatyoudo,
I

wi
llber
est
ingf
romal
lthet
oilandl
aborofl
if
e,meandyour

mot
her
,shewi
llnots
eet
hemes
syouwi
llbec
omei
fyoukeep

upwi
thyourr
eckl
essl
if
est
yle,
Ihavedonemyownpar
tasa
f
atherandyourmot
herhass
acr
ifi
cedt
oomuc
hfort
his

hous
ehol
d,t
hel
it
tleweas
kist
obeobeyed,
res
pec
tedandl
ove

aswebot
hdes
erve,
stopbei
ngs
elf
ish,
isnotal
waysabout

you,
isaboutever
yone,
bec
aus
ethemi
stakeyoumaket
oday

wi
llaf
fec
tthos
ecl
oset
oyout
omor
row,
Ist
rikeyouZi
ty

bec
aus
eyouneededc
aut
ioni
ng,
ther
ear
ethi
ngsac
hil
ddoes
n’t

s
ayi
nthepr
esenc
eofherpar
ent
s,andi
fIneedt
odoi
tagai
nI

wi
ll
,ift
hatwi
llmakeyoul
ist
enandl
ear
n,nobodyhat
esyouwe

l
oveyouZi
ty,
youar
eourpr
inc
essandal
lwewanti
sonl
ythe

bes
tforyou,
ifI
sayyous
houl
dmar
ryAdol
foi
sjus
tbec
aus
eI

knowAdol
foi
sagoodmanandhec
ant
akegoodc
areofyou,

hei
sayoungf
riendt
ome,
hegotmar
riedont
imeandl
osthi
s

wi
fet
ochi
ldbi
rth,
Adol
fohasneverr
emar
ries
,hes
ingl
e

handedl
ybr
oughtuphi
sonl
yson,
whoi
sal
lgr
ownnow,
Adol
fo

hasmai
ntai
nedagoodname,
andhasr
emai
nedc
ommi
ttedt
o

hi
sbook,
readi
ngmakeshi
mfeell
ikehewasneverl
onel
y,he

s
awyouonedayc
omi
ngoutofhi
ses
tat
ewi
thyourmai
d,

Tamar
,Ias
kedyouwhatyouwer
edoi
ngf
arawayi
nAdol
fo’
s

es
tat
eandyous
aidyour
odeonac
har
iott
ovi
si
toneofyour

s
ickf
riendt
her
e,andI
bel
ievedyoubec
aus
eyouneverl
iet
o

meandyourmot
her
,Adol
fos
awyout
her
etwi
ceandas
kabout

youandhewasgi
veni
nfor
mat
iononwhoyouar
e,andhe

c
ons
ult
edme,
Adol
foi
sthet
hir
ddi
str
ictr
ulerwhi
chpr
act
ical
ly

makesyout
hequeenoft
hatdi
str
icti
fyougetmar
riedt
ohi
m,

I
’
mnotgoi
ngt
oal
lowyout
omakeac
hoi
ceofc
hoos
ingal
lthi
s
boysoft
hiski
ngdomwhos
til
lwantt
oli
veac
arel
essl
ive,
like

yourbr
otherVi
m,I
don’
twantyout
ohavet
oomuc
hregr
ets
,I

l
oveyoumypr
inc
ess
,Iwantyout
obehappyandI
knowwi
th

t
imeyouwi
lll
ear
ntol
oveAdol
fowhenyous
eet
hegoodman

hei
s,j
ustgi
vet
hisac
hanc
eandwewi
llt
ryt
oreduc
eour

i
nvol
vementi
nyourper
sonall
if
e,I
andyourmot
herwantt
he

bes
tforyou,
pri
nces
s,atl
eas
tyouc
amet
oreal
izedt
hatt
he

youngmai
denwegotf
oryouwasac
tual
lynotugl
yandyou

s
eemhappywi
thher
,Ihaveover
hear
dhers
ingi
ngandt
ell
ing

yous
tor
ies
,shei
shumbl
eandc
aresdeepl
yforyoul
ikes
he

wi
lldot
ohers
ist
er,
Tamarwasabadc
hoi
ceatf
irs
ttoyou

bec
aus
eyous
awonl
ythephys
icalpar
tofherbutwel
ook

beyondphys
ical
lyandwef
eltatpeac
ewi
thher
,weal
ways

havet
hebes
tathear
tforyou,
giveAdol
foac
hanc
eandbe

r
oyalandr
espec
tfult
ohi
m,bui
ldupl
ovei
nyourhear
tforhi
m,

hedes
ervei
t,andal
lowhi
mtobet
hehus
bandofyourdr
eams
,

ever
ythi
ngi
sal
laboutyou,
butI
knowl
ucr
us,
thegoddes
sof

f
ert
il
it
ywi
lls
eeyout
hroughandwi
llbl
essyouwi
thbot
hmal
e

andf
emal
e…

Theweddi
ngpr
epar
ati
onbegan,
andy
etnobodyknowsofZi
ty

andAdol
fo’
sson,
Chakan,
shewasneveral
lowedoutagai
n,

s
hewast
ost
ayi
nsi
deandundergos
omec
leans
ingbef
oreher

weddi
ngday,

ThedayAdol
fovi
si
ted,
hewasnotol
dli
keZi
ty’
sfat
her
,who

wasal
mos
tsi
xty,
Adol
fowasf
ort
ythr
eeyear
sandhel
ooks
evenyoungert
hanhi
sage,
andwasal
sohands
ome,
he

dr
ess
edl
ikeaweal
thyl
ear
nedman,
ands
peakf
luent
ly,
Lor
d

Rees
eands
omeot
hermens
atatt
hebi
gsi
tti
ngc
hamber
,whi
le

Adol
fos
pokeabouthi
stor
yandwi
tht
hewayhes
aidi
t,

ever
yonewasqui
etl
yli
steni
ngt
othei
nter
est
ingt
opi
cher
ais
ed,

I
wasamongt
hepeopl
ethats
ervedf
oodanddr
inksont
hef
irs
t

mar
riagegat
her
ing,
Zit
ywasqui
et,
shes
eemt
ohaveherown

pl
anass
hepr
etendst
obehappyandc
alm,
butI
knoweven

herl
aught
erwas
n’tr
eal
,herhear
twaswi
thChakan,
whos
at

bes
idehi
sexc
itedf
ather
,andc
hakanandZi
tyl
ooksateac
h

ot
hers
hyl
y,t
heywer
ecaut
ious
lyl
ooki
ngateac
hot
her
,sot
hat

t
heydon’
tat
trac
tat
tent
iont
othems
elves
,

Ont
heweddi
ngday,
Isawdi
ff
erentt
ypesofdr
ess
ing,
dif
fer
ent

di
sheswher
epr
epar
ed,
dif
fer
entt
ypesofgues
twer
epr
esent
,

wewer
egi
venf
inedr
ess
est
owear
,Zi
tywasbeaut
if
ull
y

dr
ess
ed,
shel
ookss
tunni
ngast
heyc
over
edherf
acewi
tha

vei
landwhenAdol
fopul
ledbac
kthevei
lshes
mil
ed,
andt
he

of
fi
ci
ati
ngol
dmar
riagepr
ies
tbi
ndt
hemupwi
thac
olor
ful

r
ope,
whi
chs
tandst
hatt
hei
rhomewi
llbeexc
iti
ngandc
olor
ful

f
ort
wooft
hem,
theweddi
ngvowwasexc
hange,
theydr
ank

t
hebl
ess
edwat
erandI
wat
chZi
tys
mil
ebeaut
if
ull
yasAdol
fo

ki
ssedherl
ips
,Il
ookedatc
hakan’
sfac
eashewat
chhi
sfat
her

andZi
ty,
hisf
acewasexpr
ess
ionl
ess
,Ic
oul
dn’
ttel
lifhewas

happyors
ad,
hiseyeswasf
ixedonZi
ty,
thebi
ndi
ngr
opewas

l
aterl
oos
enandAdol
fodanc
edwi
thhi
swi
fe,
Af
tert
hewhol
ecer
emonywasover
,Zi
tyf
oll
owedherhus
band

bac
ktohi
ses
tat
e,I
wasas
kedt
ost
aybehi
ndf
ors
omet
ime

unt
ilZi
tys
ett
ledi
nands
endf
orme,
soI
stayedwor
kingwi
th

ot
herhous
ehol
dmai
ds,

Abelc
amebac
kandI
coul
dn’
thol
dbac
kmyj
oy,
Ihel
dhi
m

t
ightandr
efus
etol
etgoevenaf
ters
eei
ngVi
mpas
singbyand

wat
chi
ngme,
Abelwasl
aughi
ng,
andwhenI
loos
enedupI

ki
ssedt
hebac
kofhi
shandj
oyf
ull
y,whi
chs
howsr
espec
t,he

gent
leds
queez
edmys
houl
derwi
thaf
ulls
mil
ebef
oregoi
ng

downt
ogr
eetVi
mwhowass
tandi
ngathi
schamber
’sbal
cony,

Vi
mshakehi
shandwar
mlywi
thas
mil
e,andr
espondver
ywel
l

t
oAbel
’
sgr
eet
ing,
Vimas
kedhi
mhowhi
sjour
neywentAbel

r
epl
iedaf
fi
rmat
ivel
y,af
tert
hewhol
epl
eas
ant
ries
,hewent

i
nsi
det
ogr
eetl
ordRees
eandhi
swi
fe,
LadyPhi
n,I
wai
tedf
or

hi
mout
sidet
hedoorashes
atdownwi
tht
hemanddi
scus
s

howhi
sjour
neywentandal
lthebus
ines
str
ans
act
ionwhi
ch

wass
ucc
ess
fulatt
heendaf
terenc
ount
eri
ngf
ewpr
obl
emt
hat

madehi
mst
aymor
ethanhewass
uppos
etos
tay,
ever
yone

s
eems
ohappyt
oseehi
mbac
kes
pec
ial
lyme,
Ihavemi
ssed

hi
msomuc
h,I
wasout
sidet
hedoorofLor
dRees
echamber

wai
ti
ngf
orAbels
othatI
cant
ellhi
mal
lthet
hingst
hathas

happenedwhi
lehewasonaway,
Vimc
ameands
awmet
her
e

andI
bentmyheadons
eei
nghi
m,hes
toppedandl
ookedat

me,
hewant
edt
osays
omet
hingbuts
uddenl
yst
opandwal
k

i
ntohi
sfat
her
’sc
hamberwher
eAbelwas
.
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ookt
imet
alki
ngandl
aughi
ngwi
tht
hem,
soI
dec
idedt
o

got
othewat
erf
all
,wher
eheus
ual
lys
itandpr
ay,
Isatt
her
e

hopi
nghewi
llc
omeouts
oonandj
oinme,

Si
nceZi
tyl
eftwi
thAdol
fo,
herhus
band,
tohi
ses
tat
e,I
have

l
esst
odo,
Ijus
tjoi
ntheot
hers
lavest
odof
ewt
hings

s
omet
ime,
wai
ti
ngt
il
lthet
imeZi
tywi
lls
endf
orme,

I
satt
her
eforaver
ylongt
ime,
itwasal
readyeveni
ngbef
ore

Abels
howedup,
hehasr
efr
eshedandc
hangedhi
sjour
ney

dus
tyc
lot
hbef
orec
omi
ngdownt
othef
ount
ainwhi
chweal
so

c
allt
hewat
erf
all
,hel
ooks
ohands
omei
nhi
snewc
lot
hs,
and

hass
limdownf
romt
hel
astt
imeI
sawhi
m,I
rans
trai
ghtt
o

hi
magai
nandhuggedhi
mandhehel
dmyhandaswewal
k

bac
ktot
hef
ount
ainc
hai
rands
atdown.

I
thankGodf
ormaki
nghi
sjour
neyas
ucc
ess
,ever
ydaywi
thout

hi
mint
hehous
ewass
olonel
y,Vi
mmayber
ightaboutAbel
,I

havenevers
eenAbelpi
cki
nter
esti
nwomen,
Iwast
heonl
ygi
rl

mos
tlys
eenar
oundhi
mandyethet
reat
smel
ikehi
ssi
ster
,I

l
ikeAbelbec
aus
ehebui
ldsmyf
ait
handhehasagoodhear
t,I

l
ikei
twhenhes
mil
est
ome,
itmel
tdownmybui
ltupwal
ls,
if

heeverwant
stohaveaf
ami
lyt
omor
rowI
knowhi
swi
fewi
ll

al
sobeabel
ieverj
ustashi
mands
hewi
llbeoneoft
he

l
ucki
estwomanbec
aus
eAbelwi
llmakeagoodhus
bandanda

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eatf
athert
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ount
ainashes
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seyesand

begant
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lyt
oonl
ymyhear
ing,
Iwant
edt
oshotmy

owneyesbutI
needt
oknowwhens
omeonei
scomi
ng,
soi

wai
tedf
orhi
mtof
ini
shpr
ayi
ngs
othatI
cant
ellhi
mal
lthat
’s

onmymi
nd.

“
ifI
haveat
hous
andt
onguesi
sneverenought
othankyou,
I’
m

al
waysgr
atef
ult
oyoual
oneLor
d,f
oral
lyourmer
ciest
owar
ds

meandt
hishous
ehol
d,andal
sot
oTamar
,thegi
rlyoul
eadme

t
ofi
ndands
ave,
whol
ostever
ythi
ngbutneverl
ostyou

bec
aus
eyouc
anneverbel
ost
,youar
eeverpr
esenti
nti
meof

need,
andal
waysr
esc
uesusf
romt
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e,outofnowayyou

havemadeaway,
Ithankyouf
ormys
ucc
ess
fulj
our
ney,
you

madei
tpos
sibl
e,youl
edmeoutandbr
oughtmebac
kbec
aus
e

yous
aidi
nyourwor
dthatourgoi
ngoutandc
omi
ngi
nshal
l

al
waysbebl
ess
ed,
Iret
urnedbac
kinpeac
enoti
npi
ecesand

metever
yoneI
lef
tbehi
ndi
nper
fec
tor
der
,I’
mgr
atef
ulf
ort
his
,

ohLor
d,onl
yyoudes
ervet
hegl
ory,
onl
yyouLor
dnott
heempt
y

godsoft
hisl
and,
foryous
ayt
hos
ewhomaket
hemar
eli
ke

t
hem,
inwi
sdomI
askt
hatyouwi
llal
waysgui
deus
,andmay
weal
waysf
indf
avorbef
oremenandwomen,
takeawayour

f
earandgi
veusbol
dnes
stos
tandoutf
oryou,
thepeopl
eof

t
hisl
andar
elos
tindar
knes
s,t
heyhat
esanyt
hingt
hatc
omes

f
romyou,
pleas
efat
her
,hel
pthemt
oseet
hel
ightt
hatt
hey

mayc
omet
oknowyouandt
hepoweri
nyourname.
Thankyou

Lor
dforourans
wer
edpr
ayer
s,i
nJes
usname….
.

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iedwi
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sheadf
ors
omet
ime

wi
thoutopeni
nghi
seyes
,andwhenhel
aterdi
dandt
urnedt
o

l
ookatmeI
wasl
ooki
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m,s
mil
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ngI
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s

ki
ndoff
ait
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tayedqui
etl
ylooki
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erf
alland

i
t’
spl
eas
urabl
enoi
se,
Ijus
timagi
nedGod’
swonder
fulwor
k,no

humanhasbei
ngabl
etoc
ompr
ehendt
hewayGodwor
ks.

“
Iwast
oldt
hatZi
tyhasbei
ngmar
riedof
f…ands
hewi
lls
end

f
oryoul
ater
,doyoueverwi
sht
obemar
rieds
omeday…

I
hadt
hisf
inef
eel
ing,
likeabut
ter
fli
esi
nmys
tomac
hwhen

Abell
ookedatmeandas
kedt
heques
tion,
mypal
mwas

s
weat
ingasI
begant
obl
ush,
Ihavel
ayi
nbedmanyt
imesand

wi
shf
ormanyt
hings
,aGodf
ear
ingmanl
ikeAbel
,Ii
magi
ned

havi
ngbeaut
if
ulki
dsandgr
owi
ngaf
ami
lywhol
ovesGod,
I

wi
shf
ormanyt
hingyetI
’
mjus
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lavewhoc
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haveanyt
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ree,
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and

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omebodyl
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howsi
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nget
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llI
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andI
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l

s
erveherbec
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ookmys
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edi
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hugepal
m

“
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eelunc
omf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
heques
tion,
don’
tyou

wantt
ohaveaf
ami
lyofyourowns
omeday…oh.
Sor
ry,
IfI
’
m

maki
ngyouuneas
y,youar
eful
lygr
owi
ngi
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hemos
t

beaut
if
ulmai
den,
isbei
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mos
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edt
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Tamar
,ti
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li
ess
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ethes
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ed,
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,

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it
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romt
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ustf
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li
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irs
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e,I
knowyouhavewor
riesbutf
irs
tin

ever
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ngl
ovet
hel
ord,
puthi
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rst
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s

ac
knowl
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veyout
hedes
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hear
tdon’
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inebywher
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indyour
sel
fins
tead

s
tandoutandbeaves
selofhonort
oever
yonewhoc
omesi
n

c
ont
actwi
thyou…

I
keptqui
etasAbels
poke,
Ihavef
ewques
tiont
hathasbei
ng

bot
her
ingme,
soI
asked

“
thepeopl
eoft
hisl
and,
theydodi
ff
erentabomi
nabl
ethi
ngs
,

andmos
toft
hef
oodweeather
ear
egi
vent
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irs
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car
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ythat

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hinghappenst
ome,
ifI
haveac
hoi
ceI
wil
lnevereatanyof

t
hos
ethei
rcur
sedf
ood…

“
rej
oic
e,bec
aus
eyouhaves
omet
hingt
oeat
,whoar
eyout
o

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allt
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oodbad,
whent
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orwhat
ever
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spur
eandgood,
formanyar
elooki
ngf
ors
uch

oppor
tuni
ty,
tol
ivei
nahous
efi
ll
edwi
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ent
ytoeat
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ine

hous
ehol
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ket
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ace.
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tert
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ood

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sbei
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ter
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hankst
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inkpos
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ohavei
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tal

men,
Tamar
,don’
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car
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inganyf
oodi
nthi
shous
e,

f
orwhatyoueatdoesnotdef
yyoubutt
hewor
dthatc
omesout

ofyourmout
hdoes
.

“
Yous
eemt
ohaveans
wert
omanyques
tionsAbel
,Iover
hear
d

s
omebodys
ayt
hatyouar
eonc
eli
bac
y,youdon’
thavei
nter
est

i
nwomen…i
sthatt
rue,
youdon’
twantt
ohaveaf
ami
lyofyour

owns
omeday

“
cel
ibac
yfornowbec
aus
eIl
ostt
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ldandgai
nfr
omt
he

Lor
d,I
knowyouwi
llnotunder
stand,
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o

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tar
taf
ami
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,Tamar
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ay

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imes
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oll
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oll
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indyourf
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Ihaver
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ssedyouAbel
,yourwor
ldi
sal
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our
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ome,
Ial
waysf
eels
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ear
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fil
li
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tht
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thankGodever
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or

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Icoul
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obabl
yendedupl
ike

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hem,
thepeopl
eoft
hisl
and,
ifnotf
oryou.
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haven’
tsayi
t

bef
oreorhavenevers
aidi
tenough,
thankyou,
thankyouagai
n

andagai
nfor
…for
…Ever
ythi
ng…

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ingmys
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eti
meI
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al
lowhi
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LadyPhi
ncal
ledmeonedayt
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Lor
dRees
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want
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wents
trai
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n

s
atbes
idehi
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her
e,Obi
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so

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tandi
ngt
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e,Lor
dRees
espokeupf
irs
t

“
Obi
a,r
epeatexac
tlywhatyout
oldusaboutTamar
…

“
myl
ordandl
ady,
Icaughtheragai
n,Tamarwasgi
vingmoney

t
osomebody,
somet
imesdi
ff
erentmen,
somear
eeven

women,
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ual
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omet
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ngandI
foundout

wher
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epeopl
est
ays
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mnotl
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eenher

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ever
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een

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orec
omi
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ord,
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and

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avorher
,that
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e.

Vi
mlookedatmeandbenthi
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Lor
dRees
eandLadyPhi
n

wer
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ngatme,
Ibentmyheadnoti
nshameor

bec
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eObi
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,Iwas
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hing

wi
thi
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orwhat

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heywi
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ells
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terObi
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nar
rat
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ail
swhatI
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dRees
espokeagai
n

“
Tamar
,youknowwhatwedot
opeopl
ethats
teal
s,doyou

knowwhatwedot
osl
aveswhos
teal
sfr
omt
hei
rmas
teror

mi
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ethei
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bac
kopen,
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vet
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rokesofani
nter
twi
nedwhi
p

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ilt
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eedandmakes
uret
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llal
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ndt
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o

s
tealagai
n,whywi
llyous
tealf
romus
,youhaveever
ythi
ngat

yourdi
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al,
wet
reatever
yonei
nthi
shous
efi
ne,
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terof

t
hanhowmus
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eat
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rl,
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ng

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hingst
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ing,

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nthemar
ket

s
treetandt
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eroad,
whyTamar
…

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breat
heddeepl
y,I
tryt
ospeakbutI
coul
dn’
t,Vi
mlookedupat
mebef
ores
ayi
ng

“
Fat
her
,Idon’
tthi
nkTamars
tol
ethemoneyObi
asawherwi
th,

pr
obabl
yZi
tygavei
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,weal
lknowt
hatTamardoes
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teal
,andwhywi
lls
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tar
tnow,
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ieveObi
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s

pr
obabl
ynotTamars
hes
awbec
aus
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annotdos
ucha

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hing,
she…

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uddenl
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spar
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pri
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tht
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endsme,
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m

s
pokei
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ens
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sos
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endsme

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tedi
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lls
uppor
t

Obi
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he

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ount
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ent
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urnedt
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rlook

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ktome,
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ngmet
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moneyObi
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th,
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ageand

s
poke,
sti
llwi
thmyheadbent
.

“
themas
tergi
vesusones
hel
li
ngever
yday,
Ikeptmi
ne,
and

af
ters
omet
ime,
IfoundoutI
havenoneedofi
t,ever
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ngI

want
edwasi
nthehous
e,I
havebei
ngbl
ess
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ths
omuc
h

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e,I
havegoodf
ood,
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lot
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ines
hel
ter
,whi
le

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her
ear
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sint
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elyhave

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oeat
,so…s
oIs
har
edi
tfort
hem,
andI
somet
imebuy

f
oodandwear
swi
thmys
hel
li
ngandgi
vet
othem…I
havenever

s
tol
enbef
ore,
myLor
d…I
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msor
ryi
fwhatI
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sagai
nstt
he

l
awoft
hel
andoroft
hishous
ehol
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wast
ouc
hedbys
omany

beggar
sanyt
imeI
pas
sthr
ought
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kets
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e
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apol
ogi
esmyLor
dandmyLady

Ever
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ebec
ames
ilentagai
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dRees
eas
kedObi
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l
eavehi
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terwar
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inganynewst
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hewas
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ureoft
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ks

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,Vi
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ngatme,
Lor
dRees
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obeoutof

wor
d,hel
ookedatmeands
mil
ed,
whi
leLadyPhi
nspokeup

“
Myhus
band,
Ihavet
oldyouI
wil
lsel
lObi
a,s
hei
sfi
ll
edwi
th

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eal
ous
y,s
hei
ssobi
tterandhass
educ
tives
pir
it.
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wi
lls
ellt
hatgi
rlof
f,s
hei
sget
tingoutofhand.
Tamar
,whywi
ll

yougi
veoutt
heonl
ypos
ses
sionyougot
,yourones
hel
li
ng

whi
cht
hemas
tergi
vest
oal
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ehol
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avesever
yday,
is

j
ustas
hel
li
ngwhi
chi
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h,yougavet
hemupt
o

beggar
s,I
…I’
mtouc
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ourki
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ougaveupt
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it
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li
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stodowhat
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ty,
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eady,

Zi
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ivemont
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ocome

butwewer
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tingwi
th

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entanot
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hewi
ll

c
omeandgetyouher
sel
fifyoudon’
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ktoher
,sowe

ar
ereadyt
oletyougobac
ktoher
,wewi
llr
eal
lymi
ssyou
Tamar
..

I
smi
ledandbowwi
thoutawor
d,Vi
mwhos
eem

unc
omf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
henewsofmegoi
ngbac
ktoZi
tys
poke,

“
fat
her
,mot
her
…Zi
tyhasmanys
ervant
sandmai
dsi
nher

hus
band’
ses
tat
e,t
hel
astt
imeI
wentt
her
e,s
hehasmany

peopl
eat
tendi
ngt
oher
,whydos
hes
til
lwantTamar
,Idon’
t

l
iket
hatAdol
fos
on,
Chakan,
hemaywantt
otakeadvant
ageof

Tamar
…Idon’
tli
ket
hei
deaofs
endi
ngTamart
oZi
ty,
Icar
es

f
orherwel
lbei
ngl
ikeever
yot
herper
son,
that
’sal
l,s
lavesar
e

al
sohumanst
oo,
ifyous
til
lwanthert
oret
urnt
oZi
tyno

pr
obl
em…

“
shebel
ongt
oyours
ist
erZi
ty,
Vimwhati
sgoi
ngonwi
thyou,

whyt
hes
uddenc
aref
orTamar
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pec
ialc
hil
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hei
s

notl
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ilorObi
a,hopeal
lthi
syourc
arei
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tay

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romheri
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enotpur
etowar
dsher
.you

baf
flesme,
Idon’
tevenunder
standy
ouagai
nVi
m,whati
sthi
s

yours
uddenc
hangeal
laboutmys
on,
Iwonderwhenyous
tar
t

c
ari
ngs
omuc
hforas
lave.
anyway,
ift
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,Tamar

wi
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etur
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ime,
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ous
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allanybodyunderhi
s

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are,
andZi
tywi
llnotal
lowAdol
fos
ont
ocomec
los
etoTamar
,

andwi
thwhatI
hear
d,Chakani
sagoodyoungman,
sobur
y

yourwor
riesmys
on,
weal
lcar
esaboutTamar
’swel
l-bei
ng

too.
Youc anreadmoreoft
hes
efr
oms
tor
yheadquar
ter
spaget
hroughkwakuome
on+233544142683.

I
wasl
aterdi
smi
ssed,
andI
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eadyt
oret
urnt
oZi
ty,
aday
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oreI
lef
t,I
sawObi
a,att
hebac
khous
e,bur
ningi
ncens
e

andc
ryi
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oll
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ont
inueddoi
ng

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hant
ment
,Iwai
tedt
her
eunt
ils
hewasdoneand

appr
oac
hedherf
ull
y,

“
Obi
a,I
’
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epor
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othemas
ter

andmi
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ess
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standyoudi
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hemoneyyou

s
awmes
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eal
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ont
o

dot
hat
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llonl
ymakemeungr
atef
uli
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uch…

“
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ell
ingmet
his
,whatdoyouwant
…youal
mos
t

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nter
rupt
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onj
urat
ion,
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ngenc
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ment
,don’
tever

c
omec
los
etomei
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nthemoodofs
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cet
omy

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ess
esmys
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ererpower
s…

“
whydoesyourenc
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ments
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ikeyouwer
ecr
yingoutof

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ingyou,
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ent
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ustt
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oryouevers
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ngi
nser
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t
oit
…

“
youbet
termi
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ay,
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eVenus
,thegoddes
sof

bot
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akel
ikenes
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nsul
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I

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ookatmeor

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mand

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yday,
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ollon

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oget

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th

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hing,
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nghi
swi
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lesof
fmyway,

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lesl
ikeyou,
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ted,
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kedawayf
rom

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andoanyt
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andI
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nany

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ompet
iti
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obabl
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endmet
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eGodwant
eds
omebodyt
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and

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ati
onf
romObi
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erned

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ngt
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ty,
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oll
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abl
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ial
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omeofmy

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til
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her
elooki
ngatme.
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lent
lypr
ayedt
hatObi
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s

s
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onghaveyoubei
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ter
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eas
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s

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readyknowst
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ty

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tti
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nedherf
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m

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Idi
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las
kLor
dRees
efor

per
mis
sion,
andI
wass
urpr
iseheagr
eedont
hes
econdt
imeI

pr
esent
edi
ttohi
m,I
haves
tophavi
ngs
uchdr
eamsevers
inc
e

I
mar
riedZi
ty,
yetI
don’
tseet
heways
hei
sleadi
ngmet
o,I

j
usthopes
hewi
llopenherhear
tandl
ikemeeveni
fisnot

l
ove,
Idon’
twanthert
obeunhappy…

I
lis
tenedt
oAdol
foal
mos
tever
ydayathi
sst
udy,
hewas

begi
nni
ngt
ogodeeperanddeeperi
ntobooksands
til
lgoes

outf
orhi
sexer
cis
e,

Weekst
urnsi
ntomont
handI
als
owat
chZi
tywhohar
dlyt
alk,

s
hedec
idedt
oopenupt
omeoneday,
maybebec
aus
eher

f
riendt
hemer
chantwi
fewasonaj
our
neyands
heneededt
o

t
alkt
osomeone,

“
Idon’
tli
keanyoft
hos
eser
vant
sAdol
fobought
,theyar
ethe

t
ivi
gir
ls,
theyl
ookbeaut
if
ulbutver
ylaz
y,I
don’
ttr
ustt
hem,

nei
therdoI
all
owt
hemc
los
etome,
Icoul
dn’
twai
ttohaveyou
bac
kandwhenmot
herdi
dn’
twantt
osendyoubac
ktomeI

waswi
ll
ingt
ocomedownandgetyoumys
elf
,thi
spl
acei
s

r
eal
lybor
ingTamar
,Ihavemi
ssedyou,
nobodyt
osi
ngort
ell

mes
tor
ies
,nonoft
hos
esl
avesc
aresf
ormel
ikeyoudo,
they

ar
eononl
ypr
etendi
nganddoi
ngeyes
ervi
cewheneverAdol
fo

i
sar
ound,
Adol
foi
sal
sobor
ing,
anywaywhatdoI
expec
tfr
om

amanwhoi
soverf
ort
yal
thoughhedoes
n’tr
eal
lyl
ookhi
sage,

hebur
ieshi
msel
finhi
sst
udy,
hes
omet
imest
akesmeoutt
o

t
hos
epar
tiest
hatt
heyal
wayst
alkaboutbooks
,isonl
ymyf
ew

f
riendst
hatc
omesar
oundt
ovi
si
t,t
heyhel
psmekeep

bor
edomaway,
Ihaveac
los
efr
iendnow,
hernamei
sOkr
a,

s
hei
sawi
feofamer
chant
,shel
ivesnott
oof
arawayf
rom

her
e,s
heal
waysc
omesar
oundt
ovi
si
ts,
buts
he’
sona

j
our
neyandwi
llbebac
ktomor
row.
Ihear
dapl
an,
Iwant
edt
o

makemypar
ent
sregr
etmar
ryi
ngmeof
ftoAdol
fo,
Ihadi
tal
l

s
tor
edupbutwhenI
camedownher
ethewhol
epl
anwas

t
ras
hed,
itdi
dnotwor
k,I
coul
dn’
tevendoi
t

“I
’
mher
etos
erveyoumyl
ady,
I’
mgl
adt
oseeyoui
ngood

heal
thandyouaddedwei
ghtt
oo,
par
donmei
fIas
k,pl
eas
e

t
akenoof
fens
e,whatofChakan,
Ihaven’
tseenhi
mevers
inc
e

I
came…

Hel
ivenott
oof
arf
romher
e,hemovedout
,hedoes
n’tl
ikeme

agai
n,Chakanwaspar
toft
hepl
anI
hear
d,buthes
tar
ted

movi
ngawayf
romme,
Iwant
edhi
mtobet
heonet
otouc
hme,

t
omakel
ovet
othat
,hekepts
ayi
ngt
hatI
’
mhi
sfat
her
’swi
fe
andhewi
llneverdos
uchevi
l,hec
an’
tdi
sres
pec
thi
sfat
her

l
iket
hat
,hewanthi
sfat
hert
obehappyandt
hatI
shoul
dtr
y

nott
ohur
thi
mbec
aus
ehewi
llnotbehappyi
fIdos
uch,
that

waswhathes
aidandwhenI
keptondi
stur
binghi
mhemoved

out
,hepac
kedhi
sthi
ngsandmovedi
ntoanot
herhous
e,he

s
aidhel
ovesmebuthec
an’
ttouc
hmewhenI
’
mst
il
lmar
ried

t
ohi
sfat
her
,evenaki
ss,
liket
hos
eoneswedohavebac
kthen

bef
orehi
sfat
herdec
idedt
obeanobs
tac
le,
hes
aidnot
ome,

andkeptons
ayi
ngt
hos
eir
rit
ati
ngwor
d,“
Zit
y,youar
emy

f
ather
’swi
fenow,
pleas
elet
’sr
espec
tthat
,not
hingc
anhappen

bet
weenusbec
aus
eyoubel
ongt
omyf
ather
.”I
hat
etohear

hi
msayt
hatTamar
,Is
til
llovehi
mbuts
inc
ehemovedouthe

onl
ycomesonc
einawhi
let
ochec
konhi
sfat
her
,iss
ounf
air
,

bec
aus
eanot
herwomanwi
llhavehi
mnow,
andI
don’
twant

t
hat
,It
oldt
hemer
chantwi
fe,
Okr
a,ever
ythi
ngands
hes
aidI

s
houl
ddr
uggedhi
mandl
aywi
thhi
m…

“
whaaat
!…hopeyoudi
dnotdot
hat
,myl
ady,
thati
sver
ybad,

Chakanwasr
ightmyl
ady,
itwi
llbeabi
gbl
owt
ohi
sfat
heri
f

hel
aywi
thy
oubec
aus
eyouar
eAdol
fo’
swi
fenow,
hec
an’
t

t
ouc
hyou,
maybeyous
houl
dlear
nhowt
oloveAdol
foandt
ake

yourmi
ndof
fChakan,
Adol
foi
sindeedagoodman.
.

“
whydon’
tyoumar
ryhi
mthen,
whoar
eyout
otel
lwhati
s

wr
ongorr
ight
,youar
ejus
tac
ommons
lavewhatdoyoueven

know,
I’
monl
yaf
termyhappi
nes
s,anyt
hingt
hatmakesme

happy,
Ihat
eitwhenAdol
fot
ouc
hesme,
Idon’
tal
lowhi
mtodo
i
t,I
want
edChakan,
Okr
a,t
hemer
chantwi
fewhos
eemt
o5

under
standmeands
uppor
tsmebr
oughtami
xedpor
tiont
o

me,
shedi
rec
tedmeonhowt
ous
eit
,itwi
llmakeChakanwant

mes
obadandI
sec
ret
lyaddedi
ttoChakan’
sdr
inkands
erved

hi
mwhenhewasr
elaxi
ngwi
thhi
sfat
heratt
hegar
denoneday,

I
wasl
ooki
ngf
roms
omewher
etos
eewhenhewi
llt
aket
he

dr
ink,
Iwat
chedhi
mli
ftt
hedr
inkt
ohi
smout
hbuthedi
dn’
t

dr
inki
t,hes
uddenl
ydr
opi
tbac
kint
othet
raybef
ores
tandi
ng

up,
Adol
foas
kedhi
mtogoandgets
omet
hingf
romhi
sst
udy

f
orhi
mandbef
orehewi
llgetbac
kAdol
fohasf
ini
shedupt
he

whol
edr
ink,
Chakan,
broughtmor
egr
apewi
nfr
omt
hes
tor
e

andt
heybot
hdr
ank,
theyt
alkedandl
augh,
bef
oreAdol
fol
ater

s
toodupandl
efthi
m,hes
tayedal
it
tlebef
orel
eavi
ngand

whenAdol
foc
amei
nIwasal
readyc
ryi
ng,
itwasaf
ail
edpl
an,

hec
amei
ntomyc
hambert
hatdayandf
orc
eful
lymadel
ovet
o

me,
thec
ont
enthedr
ankt
hatwasmeantf
orChakant
ookr
eal

ef
fec
tonhi
m,andhepi
nnedmedowndes
pit
emyr
esi
stanc
e,i
t

wasi
nthemor
ningwhenhi
seyeswasc
lear
edhegothi
msel
f

andbegant
oapol
ogi
es,
andevenboughtmel
otsofgol
d

J
ewel
ri
esf
ormet
ofor
givehi
m,hes
aidhedi
dn’
tknowwhat

goti
ntohi
m,hepl
eadedever
ydayunt
ilI
gott
iredofi
t,I
cri
edal
l

t
hrought
hatdaybec
aus
eal
lIt
houghtofwasChakan,
andi
t

l
ooksl
ikeAdol
fogotmei
nwi
thac
hil
d,I
thi
nkI
’
mpr
egnant

Tamar
,donott
ellanybody,
Ijus
thopei
snott
rue,
bec
aus
eI’
m

notr
eadyf
oranyc
hil
dnow,
espec
ial
lynotf
orAdol
fo,
butI
kept
ons
eei
ngc
hangesonmybody,
mybr
e@s
tisget
tingbi
gger
,I

havet
hismor
nings
icknes
s,andeas
ilyget
sti
red,
I’
mst
il
l

obs
ervi
ngmys
elfnotyets
ure,
Ihavenott
oldt
hemer
chant

wi
feyet
,Iwi
lldooness
hec
omesbac
k,I
jus
tkeptpr
ayi
ngt
o

di
ff
erentgodst
hatAdol
fodi
dnotgetmedownwi
thac
hil
d…

“
Adol
fowi
llbes
ohappyatt
henews
,hewi
llbeagr
eatf
ather

myl
ady,
andyourmot
her
’shear
twi
llbes
ogl
addenwi
tht
he

newsofyouc
arr
yingac
hil
d,s
hewi
llf
eels
odel
ight
edt
ohave

agr
andc
hil
d,ever
yonewi
llbehappymyl
ady…

“
exc
eptme,
iwi
llnotbehappy,
idon’
twanti
t,Okr
atol
dmei
fI

everget
’spr
egnantandI
don’
twantt
hec
hil
dthens
hewi
llt
ell

mewhatt
odot
ogetr
ideofi
tqui
ckwi
thoutpai
nevenbef
ore

t
hec
hil
dfor
mpr
oper
ly,
,shes
aidi
sbei
ngwor
kingf
orher

wi
thoutherhus
bandknowi
ng,
themer
chantkeptonpr
ayi
ngt
o

manygodsf
orOkr
atoc
onc
eive,
hei
sthi
nki
ngOkr
aisbar
ren,

buts
he’
snot
,Okr
asai
dac
hil
dwi
llmakeherugl
y,s
hedoes
n’t

wantt
ohaveas
aggi
ngbr
eas
torgot
houghal
lthos
est
res
s

andt
roubl
epr
egnantwomengot
hrough,
shehat
esi
t,s
het
old

memanywomenar
edoi
ngs
oint
hiski
ngdom,
shei
snott
he

f
irs
tandI
wil
lnotbet
hel
ast
,Idon’
twantanyt
hingt
hatwi
ll

t
roubl
eme,
I’
mst
il
lver
yyoungs
omot
herc
ans
til
lhaveal
lthe

gr
andc
hil
dreni
nthef
utur
ebutnotnow,
Iwantt
oli
veandenj
oy

myl
if
e,af
teral
lI’
mnott
hei
ronl
ychi
ld,
Vimi
sal
sot
her
e,he

wi
llmar
rys
omedayandwi
llbearc
hil
drent
oo,
Ican’
tbe

wor
riedoverc
hil
dbear
ingt
hing,
Okr
aist
eac
hingmemany
t
hingsandI
thankt
hegodsf
ors
endi
nghert
ome,
Zai
nal
so

vi
si
tedme,
shes
til
lhavet
hatj
eal
ousl
ooki
nherevent
hough

s
heac
tshappy,
Idon’
twanthert
otakeChakanf
romme,
he

bel
ongst
ome,
Okr
awi
llc
omet
omor
rowandI
wil
ltel
lhermy

wor
ries
,shei
stheonl
yonet
hatunder
standsme,
evenyou

Tamardonotunder
standt
hewayI
feel
.

I
wentoutt
othegar
dent
hateveni
ngands
hotmyeyesl
ike

Abelwi
lldoandpr
ayt
hatGodwi
llc
aus
econf
usi
onbet
weent
he

mer
chant
swi
feandZi
ty,
themer
chant
’swi
fewasl
eadi
ngher

as
tray,
Zit
ywasgoi
ngdeeperanddeeperi
ntos
inevent
hough

i
tseemr
ighti
nherowneyes
,Ipr
ayt
hatGodwi
llt
ouc
hher

hear
ttokeept
hebabyandnothur
tthei
nnoc
entc
hil
d,i
ftr
uly

s
he’
spr
egnant
,Iwasgl
adt
oknowt
hatChakanmovedout
,

andZi
tydi
dn’
tsuc
ceedi
ndr
uggi
nghi
mtol
aywi
thher
,God

madei
tinawayt
hatAdol
fodr
ankt
hec
ont
entmeantf
or

Chakan,
Ipr
ayeds
odeepl
yandal
sof
orAbelt
oo.

Thef
oll
owi
ngday,
Isawt
hemer
chant
’swi
fe,
shewenti
nto

Zi
ty’
schamberandt
heyl
ockedt
hedoorbehi
ndt
hem,

whi
sper
ingi
nlowvoi
ces
,Iover
hear
dZi
tyt
ellhers
hewas

pr
egnant
,li
ket
womont
hsgone,
Okr
athemer
chant
’swi
fe,

di
dn’
treor
gani
zedme,
butI
rememberher
,shewast
hewi
feof

Lami
,themer
chantt
hatboughtmef
orf
ort
yshel
li
ngands
old

met
oAbelf
orf
if
teenShel
li
ngbec
aus
eIs
tir
redupf
eari
nsi
de

t
hewi
feac
cor
dingt
oherands
hewant
edherhus
bandt
oget

r
ideofme,
themer
chanti
sagoodman,
howc
oul
dOkr
a,hi
s
wi
febes
ohear
tles
s,wat
chi
ngt
hemanpr
ayi
nvai
nforac
hil
d

whi
les
hewast
hec
aus
eofi
tal
l,now,
shewant
stoc
orr
upt

Zi
ty’
smi
nd,
leadi
nghert
othes
amedeadl
yroad,

Mywor
riesnowi
sAdol
fo,
Iwi
shI
cant
ellhi
mthathi
swi
fei
s

c
arr
yingac
hil
d,butZi
tywi
llhavemyheadi
napl
att
eri
fshe

f
indsoutt
hatI
tol
dAdol
fo,

t
hisi
swhenI
needwi
sdommos
t,I
thoughtofwhatAbelwi
lldo

i
fhei
sfac
edwi
ths
uchs
ituat
ion,
Abelwi
llkeeppr
ayi
ngt
oGod

t
oint
erveneandt
hat
’swhatI
did.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.

[
24/
04,
8:47am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
Epi
sode10~TAMAR

Oneoft hesl
avegirlwhowast woyearsaheadofmet ookli
kenesstome,wheneverI’
mal oneat
theflowergardenshewillcomeandsitwithmeunlikeotherswhokeptthei
rdist
ance,Eurawas
quietandbeautif
ul,s
heistheonlyhouseholds
ervantwhoi mmediatel
ytookl
ikenes
stomei n
Adolfo’
shouse,

“
Youli
kebeingonyourown,most
lyinthisgar
denalone,
Ihaveseenyoumut t
eri
ngword,you
seemstr
angeandyouhaveanauraaroundyou,t
heotherser
vantsseemnottobec omf
ortabl
e
whenyouarearoundt
hem,wereyouthedaughterofapri
estes
soraf or
tunetel
ler
…

“
I’
mj us
tTamar,
anordi
nar
ygi
rl
,myfat
herwasnopr i
estnei
therwasmymot
herapr
ies
tes
s,my
f
atherwasj
ustacommonmanamonghispeopl
e,s
oal s
owasmymot her
,

“
Ili
keyou,
yous
eems
pec
ial
,howdoyouc
opewi
tht
hemi
str
ess
,shei
sins
ati
abl
e,pl
eas
etakeno
offense, buti
st rue,sheiswasunhappyandweal lknowt hatshedoes n’tl
ikeAdol f
oashel oves
her,shei squickt oanger,welikestayi
ngf arawayf r
omherunt i
lsheneedsusbuts heneverdoes ,
everyoneofuswantt oser
veherbuts heisneverc omf ort
ablewithusc omi ngc l
osetoher,I
somet imewonderhowyoudoi t,shefeelcomf or
tablearoundyou, evenwhens hes wit
chinto
rage,I havehear dhers houtatyout ogetawayf romher ,andyetyounevert akeoffencei
ns tead
yous tandbehi ndt hedoorwaitingforhert osummonyouagai n,ifI
’mt heone, Iwil
lrunsof ar
fromherunt i
ls heisc al
menought oneedmeagai n,Idon’tl
ikeviol
entmi stressnotli
keher ,Is
notlikeI real
lyhaveac hoic
e,

“I
sPat ient,Eur a, pat i
enti sthekeyt os tayingi nsaneeveni nawor ldasc razyast his,andwhen
yous eemeouther eal oneI ’
mc ommuni c atingtoGod, whol ovedmedes pitemys hort c
omi ng
andendowedmewi thbl essings,Iwast heweakes tinmyf amily, yetI haves ur vi
vedwhatki ll
ed
other s, Ihavebei ngs ol dt odi f
ferentpeopl eatthedi ffer entland, shippedt odi fferentpl ac es,
wal kmi lesI nevert houghtI wouldwal k, Ihaves eenwomengetr aped, ands eendeadhel pless
slavesabandonedont hedes ertort hrownabodei ntot hewat er,I wentt hr oughoppr essive
si
t uat i
on, inal loft hisGodkeptme, Ilos tmypar entst owar ,thenmybr ot herJ oe, myt wos i
ster
Kat handDeb, theyal ldi edyetGodkeptme, I’
mnotwor t hyyethec ount edmewor t
hyt olive,
andwhenI thi nkI wasgoi ngt oloosemyf aithands ubmi tt othewayoft hepeopl eint his
kingdom, whenI thoughtI havehear denoughofever yt hinginl ife,It houghtI wasdonewi thGod,
Istar tedhat inghi mf ort akingever ythingawayf romme, andf ornotbei ngt heki ndandl oving
Godt hatmypar ent stol dmehewas ,I wasal mos tsubmi tti
ngt ot hewayst hepeopl ewhenhe
sentayoungmanc alledAbelt orekindl edmyf aith,Abelboughtmef romamer c hantwho
want edt os ellmebec aus ehiswi fedoes n’twantme, andhebui ltbac kmyl os tfaith,andI learnt
togi vet hanki never ys i
tuationbec aus eGodkeptmef orapur pos e,hes etmeas ide,pr obabl yto
hel pZi tyors omebodywhoneedst obehel ped,I’
myett oknowbutI ’mr eadyt obel eadbyhi m…

“Youhavebei ngt hroughal ot,weal lheregotones ads t

or yort heother,
aftert hewaroutbreak
andt hesoldiersconqueredourl andandt ookt heyoungf emal esaway,Iwass oldoffand
broughtdownt ot hi
sland,Ihaves er
vedt womi s
tresses,i
ndi f
ferenthouseholdwhokepts el
ling
meof ftil
lIwasboughtbyPami ,Adol f
o’ss ervantshead, hebr oughtmet os erveinAdolfo’
s
house,Adol f
oisaki ndman, butt hemis t
res sisdiff
iculttopl ease,Tamar,yous peakgreatl
yof
thisyourGod, youmakehi ms ounds oi nteres t
ing,asifhei saf ri
endyouc aneas il
ycommuni cate
with,Iservedifferentgodsbef oreI camet oAdol f
o’shous e,andnoneoft hems eems oreal,l
ike
thewayyoumakeyour ssound, whatgodi st hat…

“Heisnotjus
tmyGodEur a,heisals
oGodforever
yone,andhei
sal
waysreadytobeyourf
ri
end
i
fonlyyouwi l
lopenyourheartandacc
epthi
mi nt
oyourhear
t,I
’
maChris
tian,
youarethef
irs
t
pers
onI havetol
dthatboldl
y…

“Pleaseletmebet heonlyandl astpersonyouwil

lboldlysaythatto,
youhavet obecareful
,I
hear dtheyei
therstonethemorgi vethemtothecir
cuitanimalbythegate,pleas
ebever y
carefulTamar,Il
ikeyoualreadyandI don’
twantanythi
ngt ohappentoyou,thepeopl
eoft hi
s
landdoesnotl i
keChr i
sti
ans,theyl i
kethei
rowngodsandgoddes s
es,andhateanystrangegod
orperil
ousrel
igi
onasthat
,Ihaveseenthemst
oneamanandhi swi
fetodeathandt
heysoldoff
theirc
hildr
entobecometemplesl
aves,
isaver
yri
skyr
eli
gionTamar,t
hiski
ngdomtakegreat
offens
einthat…

“Thisbodyyous eeisl ikeac ontainer,itcont ainst

hes oul,itwillbet akingawayf r
ommeoneday,
andmys oulwi llreturnt othec reatorwhomadei t,thi speopl eyouf earc anonlydes tr
oyt he
fleshwhichi sthisbody, whatI carryinsideofmei sfargr eat erthanwhatt hewor l
dcans ee, t
hey
can’tdestroymebec aus eI’
mas trongs eed, Idiet
ot hiswor ldandl ivet ot heLord,I’
mnomor e
sacredofdeat h, Iuset obeunt i
lAbelopenedmyeyes ,ifGodper mi tsthemt otakeal i
fetheydi d
notc reat
et hens obei t,i
tonlys howmywor kherei sdone, Iwillgladlygot obewi thmyc r eator
,
soEur a,I
’mnots caredofdeat h,forgreat erishet hati sinmet hanhet hat ’sint
hewor l
d,deat h
i
snotourf inalplace, their
sisl i
feevenaf terdeath,c omet oknowhi mt hathemaygi veyouan
everlasti
ngj oy,heisnotas kingf ortoomuc h, hedoes n’tneedabl oods acrifi
ce,youdon’tneedt o
sacrif
iceanyani malt ohim, thes acri
fi
c eofhi ssonJ esusChr i
stont hec ros swasthef i
nal
sacrif
ice,t
heonl ythingheas kofyoui syourhear t,openi tlethimc omei nanddwel l
,andf eel
thispeace, j
oyandc onf i
dentI havei nhi m, confes
syours inanddenounc et hem andas kChr ist
intoyourlife,youar enotper fectbuthei sandhewi llguideyoui nal lyoudo,

“
Aft
ert
hatwhatels
edoIdo,
I’
mwi l
li
ng,
youarefi
ll
edwiths
omuc
hconfi
denc
eandIf
eelpeac
e
i
nmyheartasyous
peak,
Iwantt
oknowt hi
sGodmore,
showmewhatt
odoTamar

AndEurawasmyfi
rstc
onver
t,whataj
oyi
nheavenoverones
innert
hatr
epent
,Iwashappyt
o
bri
ngEurat
oChri
st.

Wet al
kqui
etl
yinthegardenasI f
ill
edheri
nwit
hthewordasAbelplanti
nmewhi
chwas
begi
nningt
obearmul t
ipleseed,s
hewashappyandwaswill
ingt
olearnhowt
obec
omeabet
ter
pers
on,wequiet
lypraytogethermostt
imeint
hegarden.

Themer
chantwi
fel
atert
ravel
edagai
nandZi
tyneededmeagai
ntokeepherc
ompany

“Ican’twaittogetrideofthi
sthi
ngs othatIcanbefreeandlivemyl if
el ikeIhaveal ways
want ed,Okr at
raveled,s
hehasanotherman, andsheishappy, s
heispl anningforawayt oleave
themer c hantsothatshecanbewithhernewl over,
whenevert hemer c hanttravelst osellhi
s
war es,shealsotr
avelsandcomesbac kbeforethemerchantreturns,shes aidi
fs her eturnsfrom
herj our
neys hewillbri
ngaphysici
anformet otakeoffthething,Idon’tknowhowl ongs hewi l
l
stayt hi
st i
mebutI can’
twaittogetthi
sthingoffme…

“Mylady,
isnotathing,i
sachild,andheors hewillmakeyouhappy,I
promi seyou,pleas
edon’t
getri
deofyourchil
d,givehi
morherac hancet
obebor nandachancetolive,evenifyoudon’
t
wantherAdolfowil
loryouc antakethec hil
dtoyourmother,
isals
oAdolfo’schil
d,hehasevery
ri
ghttoknowthatyouar epregnant,heisyourhusbandmylady,pl
easedon’tdot hi
s,don’
t
dest
roythechil
dthatishappil
ygr owinginyourwomb

“
ShutupTamar
,whydoyout
alkt
omewi
ths
omuc
hconf
idenc
e,haveyoul
ostyourmi
ndand
forgotthatI
’
myourmi str
ess,whatdoyouevenknow, Iexpect
edyouofallpeopl
etounder s
tand
memor eandsupportme,thi
sthingisnotyetac hil
d,ithasnotformedint
oac hi
ld,I’
mj us ttwo
mont hsandthreeweeksgone,i
ss ti
llblood,t
hat’
swhatOkr asai
d,andi
sthebadbl oodt he
phys i
ci
anwillf
lushoutofmeonc eOkr acomesbac k,whyc an’
tyouunderst
andme, Idon’ twant
i
t ,
I wanttol
iveafreeandhappylive,Idon’twantanythingtotiemedownf romthat..

Iwentt othegar denandkeptpr aying,Eurajoi

nedme, asIaskedhertojoi
nmei nprayi
ngforthe
mistressands hewaswi l
li
ng,forwheret woorthreearegatheredi
nhisnamet heLordwillbein
thei
rmi dst,I
wentonf asti
ngforZity,IneededGod’si
nt er
venti
on,Iwasinagony, I
can’tal
low
Zit
yt odos uchevil,evenifIc
an’ttalkheroutofitIwil
laskGodt oint
ervene,exceptifhehasa
betterplanthanI cans ee,

Okradi dn’
tcomebac kfromherj ourneyont i
mel i
keshehastoldZity,shec ametwoweeksl at
er
andZitywast hreemont hsplus
, thedayshec ame,IwassentoutfromZi ty’
schamberandI
li
stenedout s
idethedoorasOkr at oldZi
tythatshehasaheatedar gumentwi thherhusband
aft
ers hetoldhims hewasleavingt hemarriage,
shetoldZi
tythats hehassomel i
ttl
epr obl
em
whichs hewantt osortoutfi
rst
,af t
erwhichs hewil
lgetaphysici
anf orher,Zi
tywasn’thappy
butsheac cepted,

Vimcametovi
sithissi
sterbutZitywashavi
ngoneofthos
eherbaddayandc
oul
dn’
treal
ly
enter
tai
nedhi
m, helef
tandpl annedtoret
urnagai
n.

Hers tomac hwasal readypr ot

ruding, pregnanc ywasn’tl
ookinggoodonher ,
earlymorni
ng
sickness,quicktoanger ,andever yt
hingi rr
itatesher,butIwashappyt hatGodengagedOkr a
withherownper sonalpr oblemwhi c hmadehernott obeablet ogettheabor ti
onmanont i
me,
byt hetimes hecameZi tywasmont hsgoneandi twasdanger oust oper f
ormanabor t
ionatthat
stage,thatwaswhatI heardOkrat ellherthatday, andshec ri
esandr efusetoc omeoutofher
chamberf ordays,Adol f
ohasc all
edmet ohisstudy,anditwasokayt otellhi
mexac tl
ywhatwas
goingonevent houghhewasgoi ngt oknowonewayort heother,Zit
ywas n’
twill
ingt
otellhim
her s
elf,butAdolfowasdef i
nit
elygoi ngt oknowwheneverhes eesZity’sbodychangesandher
smal lprotrudi
ngbel le,i
twasj ustokayt otellhimwi thoutgettingintotrouble,
Godwonover
thewi ckednessofmen, God’splanf orthec hil
dwasgoi ngt ostandwi thoutanybodydestr
oyinga
li
vet heydi dnotcreat e.

“I
syourmist
ressokay,
shehasr
efus
etoseemeevenaft
erI
wenttoherc
hambert
ochec
kupon
her,
Inoti
cedshehasnotbei
ngwell
,doyouknowwhati
swrongwi
thher
,

“Yea,
shewillbefi
ne,s
hei
sgoi
ngthroughoneofthos
ewomendi
ffi
cul
ttime,buti
sagoodt
hing
Adolf
o,bec
aus eyouar
egoi
ngtobeafatheri
nfewmonthsf
romnow,sheiswit
hababymylord,

Adolf
os t
oodupfromhisseatinshock,heheldhishandtohi
shear t
,hewass ur
pri
seatthenews
andwhyZi t
ydi
dn’tt
ellhimallthi
swhi l
e,heaskedmehowl ongs hewasgoneandI tol
dhimis
bei
ngf i
vemonthsal
ready,hewast otal
lyastoni
shed,hewass ohappythathehuggedme
for
getti
nghimsel
fbeforerunni
ngof ftoZi
ty’
schamber ,
hepleadedforhertoopenthedoor,
and
wasnotr eadyt oleaveunt i
lshedoes ,Zitylateropenedt hedoor ,andI watchedashegent ly
drewZi tyintohi sarms ,
hewasc rying, j
ustknowi ngt hathewast rulygoingtobeaf at
heragai n,
Zityac tedc oldbuts hedidnotpul lbac kfr
omAdol f
oashehel dher ,Iwatchedwi t
hasmi leas
shel aterr elaxedbac kintohisar
m,I lefttothegar den, Icouldn’
ts eatbecausemyhear twas
gladden, Ijustkneltdownt hereands ingoutmyt hankst oGod, seeinghowhappyAdol foi s
,
mademyhear tsoglad,allIcoul
ddoi nt hegar denwasj ustthanks gi
ving,whenEur aj
oinedme,
wepr aisedGodqui etl
ys othatwedon’ tattractattent i
ont oour s
elves,andI shedsomet earsasI
mar velatGod’ smi ghtywork,

Zit
ys tartedactingf i
neasOkras toppedcomingar oundher ,Ihelphert hroughever yofher
dif
ficultmoment ,someti
mesI willsuckherswol l
enf eetinawar mwat eranddr ythemupaf t
er
somet ime,ThedayVi mcameagai nIwasinAdol f
o’sstudy,hewaswr it
inganewt heory,and
want edmet ot ellhimoneoft hosebibli
calstori
esI dot el
lZit
y, whi
leIt ol
dhi m,het r
anslat
eit
i
ntohi sownt heor yandwr i
teitdown, hedidn’tevenknowi twasas toryI gotfr
omt hebiblebut
hewasi mpresswi ththestor
y, i
twasoneoft hos estoriesIwast el
li
nghi mwhenVi mc amei n,he
greetedAdol f
o, heavoidedlookingatmeandf ocusedonAdol fo,Is
toodup, bowandexc used
mys elfout,

I
wasatt
hegar
denwi
thEur
awhenVi
mcame,
heas
kedEur
atol
eaves
hebowandqui
ckl
ylef
t

“I
learntt
hatZit
yiswithachil
d,yous
houl
dbel
ooki
ngaf
terhernotherhus
band,
isheal
so
marryi
ngmys i
sterandyoutoo,

“
Myl ord,LadyZi
tydoesn’
tneedmenow, Ichec
keduponherbefor
el eavi
ngtoAdolf
o’sstudy,
s
heal s
os ometi
mes endmet ogoandcheckonAdol
fo,
Iwasonlyli
steningtohi
stheoryandwas
t
ell
inghims omeofthelit
tleIknow,
Ihav…

“Enough,Is
awyousoclosetohi
m,andhear
dyout
wol
augh,
hes
eemt
obet
akenbyyouc
an’
t
yousee,ordoyoul
ikehimtoo…

I
frownedatthequest
ion,andkeptmyheadbow, i
twasanins
ulttoAdol
fowhohasnever
t
houghtofsuch,
Iwantedt orepl
ybutkeptqui
et,
wisdomispr
ofi
tabl
etodir
ectasAbelwi
lls
ay,
s
oI t
rytochangetheatmos pher
e

“
Adolf
oisagoodman,mylor
d,andeverybodyl
ikeshi
m, I
’
mnotexc epti
onal
,I’
mgladt
os eeyou
mylor
d,youl
ookgood,howi
sthemasterandthemi s
tres
s,hopeeveryonei
singoodhealt
h

“I
’m…I’
mgl adtoseet hatyouarehappyher etoo,Ithankthegodsf orblessi
ngmys isterand
Adolf
owi t
hac hil
d,thoughnotyetbor nbutI ’
mhappyt oknowt hatZit
ywi l
ls oonbeamot her,
motherwillbethri
lledatt henews,fat
her’sheartwillbegladden,achil
dwi llkeepZi tybusy,I
don’
tliket
hekindoff r
iendsshekeeps,ItoldherofitthelasttimeIvisi
ted,es peciallyone
merchant’
swife,butnowZi t
ywillhavebetterthi
ngt ooccupyhermi nd,yesever yonei singood
healt
hbackhome, youdi dn’taskofAbel,
al t
houghhei sfi
ne, andhesenthisgr eetingswhenI
tol
dhimI wasc omingdownher e.
“
I’
mgl
adt
oknowt
hatmyl
ord.

Vimwant
edtos
aysomet
hingbuthel
dbac
kagai
n,hel
ookedatmyhandsandt
henbac
ktomy
fac
eandtomymout
h,

“LookatmeTamar
,st
opbowi
ngyourhead,
weal
lmi
ssyoubac
khome,
maybe,
I…Abel
…mi
ss
youmor e…

“Imis
sever
yonetoo,
butI
’
mgl
adt
obeher
e,t
oser
vemyLady,
sheneedsmemor
enowt
han
befor
e,mylor
d.

Ilookedupathimashesmile,
I wasfull
ylooki
ngstrai
ghtt
ohisfacenow, seeingthemansit
ting
besideme,hewastrul
yahands omey oungmanevenmor ewit
ht hosesmileofhis,hel
ooksli
ke
oneoft hos
eathl
eti
cmen, I
understandwhyObi awantedt
okil
lher s
elfoverhi m,
andmanyof
thekingdommaidensweredyingtobewi thhi
mbef or
ehestar
tedavoidingt hem,whic
hnobody
seemt oknoworunderst
andwhyhes uddenl
ychanged,

Hewasl ookingi
ntomyeyesandt
henbackt
omymout h,heswall
owedhar
dbef or
est
andingup
t
oleave,Iaskedhi
mt oext
endmykindgr
eet
ingst
oeveryoneandals
otoAbelandhepromised
t
odot hat.

Iwasgr
atef
ult
oGodmostes
pec
ial
lyf
orZityasI
prayedthatshewi
lldel
iverli
ketheHebr
ew
womenwhenshei
sdue,
myhearti
ssojoyf
ulasImarvelatGod'
swonderfulworksi
nmylif
e.

IwishIc
ansitandt al
kwit
hAbel
,Iwantt
otel
lhi
maboutever
ythi
ngt
hatwasgoi
ngonar
ound
her
e,hewil
lbes ohappyt
oo.

[
24/
04,
8:47am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR.
*

*Epi
sode11.
*

I
waspr
esenti
nheri
nnerc
hamberwi
tht
hemi
dwi
feass
he

begsZi
tyt
opus
hfor
therbaby,
themi
dwi
fewasbr
oughtby

t
hemer
chantwi
fe,
Okr
awasal
sopr
esentt
oo,
ass
her
elaxedat

onec
ornerl
ooki
ngatt
hewhol
ethi
ng,
Zit
ywasc
ryi
ngandl
ooks
exhaus
ted,
Iwasenc
our
agi
ngher
,themi
dwi
fewasdoi
ngal
l

s
hec
anf
orZi
ty,
Zit
y’smot
her
,LadyPhi
ncoul
dhavec
omebut

s
hes
entames
saget
hatLor
dRees
ewasi
llands
hec
oul
dn’
t

makei
tdown,
alt
houghZi
tys
eemshappywhent
henewsofher

mot
hernotc
omi
nggott
oher

Adol
fowass
tandi
ngout
sidez
ity’
sloc
kedc
hamber
,pac
ingup

anddown,
ever
yonewast
otal
lywor
riedf
orZi
tyass
hekept

s
creami
ng,

Af
teral
ongt
imeofl
abourandpai
nwhi
chs
eems
oobvi
ouson

Zi
tys
hebr
oughtf
ort
has
onf
orAdol
fo,
itwasaLongbat
tleand

s
hegavebi
rtht
oaboy,
shedoes
n’tl
ookhappywi
tht
henews

ofherbaby,

I
wass
ohappyandpr
oudofhert
hats
hewasnowamot
heras

t
heBabyc
ryf
il
ledi
nthec
hamber
,ever
ythi
ngwasdoneandZi
ty

wasqui
ckl
ycl
eanedup,
aft
erI
cleanandwr
appedt
hebabyup

ac
cor
dingt
othemi
dwi
fedi
rec
tion,
Itookhi
mtoZi
ty,
she

t
urnedherf
acet
othewal
landr
efus
etol
ookatt
hec
hil
d

“
Takehi
maway,
Idon’
twanthi
m,gethi
mof
fmys
ide,
Idon’
t

wantt
oknowwhathel
ooksl
ike,
goandt
hrowhi
mawayI
don’
t

wanthi
m…doasI
sayTamar

”howc
anyounotl
ookatt
hebeaut
if
ulboyyous
uff
eredt
o

bor
e,pl
eas
etakeal
ookathi
mmyl
ady,
hei
sapur
edef
ini
ti
on

ofper
fec
t,hei
ssohands
omemyLady,
youar
est
rongenough

t
ogi
vebi
rtht
othi
sfi
nebei
ng,
pleas
etakehi
mandweanhi
m,

myl
adypl
eas
e…
Zi
tyr
efus
etol
ookathi
m,t
hemer
chantwi
fe,
Okr
aspokeup

angr
il
y

“
Yout
hiss
tubbor
nsl
avegi
rl
,ar
eyoudeaf
,yourmi
str
esss
aid

s
hedoes
n’twanthi
m,whyar
eyoudi
stur
bingher
,ist
hatnot

br
e@s
tonyourc
hes
t,us
eitf
orhi
m,Zi
tydoes
n’twanthi
m,do

youwanthert
ohaveas
aggi
ngbr
e@s
t,orl
ooki
nghaggar
d

f
romal
lthet
roubl
eoft
aki
ngc
areofac
hil
d,don’
tyous
eet
he

t
roubl
eshewentt
hrought
obr
inghi
mfor
t,whi
chi
fnott
hatI

wasbus
yatt
heear
lys
tageofherpr
egnanc
yitwoul
dhave

bei
ngt
ermi
nat
edt
oavoi
dal
lthi
sbi
rtht
hing,
doyoueven

under
standt
het
roubl
eoft
aki
ngc
areoft
hist
hingst
heyc
all
ed

c
hil
d,s
owhatyouar
egoi
ngt
odoi
stof
indawayt
odi
spos
e

hi
mof
f,i
ssoeas
ytodo,
likeei
ghtors
evenyear
sago,
Iwas

c
arel
essanddi
dnott
ermi
nat
ethepr
egnanc
yont
ime,
andt
he

godspuni
shedmebygi
vingmet
wins
,Idon’
tevenknowt
hei
r

genderorwhatt
heyl
ooksl
ike,
themi
dwi
feher
ehel
pedme

di
spos
edt
hemqui
ckl
ybef
oreLami
ret
urnsf
romhi
sjour
ney,
I

pai
dherands
hedi
dac
leanj
ob,
andI
tol
dLami
Ilos
ttheBaby,

I
didn’
tevent
ellhi
mthatt
heywer
etwi
ns,
Iwat
chedLami
weep

l
ikeababy,
andI
haveal
waysbei
ngc
aref
ulevers
inc
ethen,

don’
twor
ryaboutAdol
fo,
Iandt
hemi
dwi
feWi
llt
ellAdol
foand

anybodyt
hatc
arest
hatZi
tyl
ostt
hebaby,
andt
henwhi
le

ever
yonei
sinmour
ningmoodt
her
ewi
llbeenoughc
hanc
efor

yout
ogoandbur
ythec
hil
d…makes
ureyoukeepyourmout
h

s
hutf
oryourl
if
esake,
exc
epti
fyoudon’
tval
ueyourl
if
e.
I
star
tedweepi
ng,
hopi
ngt
hatt
hiswasabadni
ghtmar
e,I
can

neverdos
uch,
Icanneverputmyhandt
osuc
hevi
l,i
fGod

madei
tpos
sibl
efort
hisbabyt
osur
viveabor
tionandwasbor
n

al
ive,
sameGodwi
llkeephi
mal
ivebec
aus
ehehasapl
anf
or

t
hec
hil
dwhi
chnei
therZi
tynort
hemer
chant
’swi
fec
anc
ut

s
hor
t.

I
hel
dthel
it
tleBabywhowashungr
yinmyar
msasI
thoughtof

whatt
odo,
Iwass
oangr
y,I
boi
ledwi
thangeratZi
tywhowas

f
oll
owi
ngt
hewaysofherbadf
riend,
Okr
aandal
sof
all
ingaway

f
romhumani
ty.

I
spokeangr
il
yatt
hemer
chantwi
fewi
thoutt
hinki
ngast
ear
sof

s
adnes
sdr
opf
rommyeyes

“
Whyar
eyout
urni
ngZi
tyt
obel
ikeyou,
howc
anyoubes
o

hear
tles
s,wi
thoutanyi
otaoff
eel
ing,
youas
kedmet
odi
spos
e

ababyt
hati
sheal
thyandal
ive,
likey
oudi
dtoyour
syear
sago,

andyout
houghtt
her
e’snoc
ons
equenc
eforyourevi
lac
tions
,

t
her
eWi
llbeagr
eatvengeanc
eonyourheadf
ormanywomen

youhavedec
eivedandever
ychi
ldyouhavedi
spos
edof
f,may

al
lthei
rinnoc
entbl
oodbr
ingdownc
urs
esuponyou,
ont
hel
ast

dayofyouonear
th,
ifyoudonott
urnf
romyourevi
lwayyou

wi
llt
akeyourownl
if
ebec
aus
eat
imeWi
llc
omewhenyouwi
ll

ans
werf
orever
yofyourevi
ldeeds
…

Sher
ushedt
omeands
tri
kesmehar
dac
ros
sthef
ace,
she

t
urnedandc
rabbedoneoft
hemi
dwi
fes
har
ptool
sand

s
las
hedmyar
mandmyhead,
shepus
hedmehar
dtot
hef
lood
andI
fel
lwi
thaheavyt
hudwi
tht
hebabys
til
linmyar
mst
othe

f
loor
,Ihel
dont
othel
it
tlec
hil
dass
heki
cksmehar
d,c
over
ed

t
hebabywi
thmybodys
othathedoes
n’tget
shur
t,t
hei
rwasa

har
dknoc
kont
hedoor
,themer
chant
’swi
fes
topped,
Iwas

c
over
edwi
thmyownbl
oodbuts
til
lnoti
npai
noft
hebeat
ing

buti
npai
noft
heBabywhowant
edt
hemot
her
’sbr
e@s
t

I
hear
dthemer
chantwi
feunl
ockt
hedoorands
teppedout
side,

c
los
edt
hedoorbehi
ndherands
hes
toodt
her
enotwant
ing

Adol
fot
oent
er,
icoul
dn’
thearwhats
hewass
ayi
ngt
oAdol
fo

s
oImovedf
arawayf
romZi
ty’
schambert
oanot
herc
orner

wher
eIc
anhearc
lear
ly,
bloodwasr
unni
ngdownf
rommy

ar
msandheadbutI
wrappedt
hec
hil
duppr
oper
ly,
ands
aton

t
hegr
oundt
ocoverupt
heBabyandc
leanmys
elfup.
Themi
d

wi
fewasj
ustl
ooki
ngatmeandwi
tht
hewayI
cuddl
eupt
he

c
hil
d,s
hehast
hispi
ti
full
ookass
hes
toodt
her
equi
etl
y,I

s
tar
tedhear
ingAdol
foandOkr
aspeak.

“
Pleas
eisever
ythi
ngal
ri
ght
,ther
e’ss
omuc
hnoi
sec
omi
ng

f
romt
hec
hamber
,It
houghtI
hear
dac
ryofbabyear
li
er,
what

ofMyWi
feandt
hebaby…i
sever
ythi
ngal
ri
ght
,

”yourwi
fei
sal
ri
ght
,butt
hebabyc
oul
dn’
tmakei
t,hedi
edf
ew

mi
nut
esaf
terZi
typus
hedhi
mfor
t,andhewass
obeaut
if
ull
ike

her
,Adol
fot
hismus
tbeas
addenednews
,aheavyl
ost

bec
aus
eweal
lknowhowmuc
hyouneededt
hisc
hil
d,I
’
m

s
orr
yforyourl
ost
,Iknowt
hegodsWi
llbl
essyouandyourwi
fe

wi
thanot
her
,wet
riedt
okeephi
mal
ive,
event
hemi
dwi
fet
ried
ever
ythi
ngpos
sibl
ebuthec
oul
dn’
tst
ay.
.

“
Ooh,
whati
smys
int
hatt
hegodsdec
idedt
oremembert
oday,

t
heyc
oul
dhavet
akenmei
nst
eadands
par
ethebaby’
sli
fe,

CanI
comei
nands
eemyWi
feandal
somyboy,
Iknowhe

maybedeadbutI
wis
htobehol
dhi
sfac
ebef
oreheWi
llr
etur
n

t
oear
th.
.

”I
’
msor
ryAdol
fobutyouar
ethel
astper
sonZi
tywant
stos
ee

r
ightnow,
shei
snoti
nagoodc
ondi
ti
onandhasmadei
tcl
ear

t
hats
hedoes
n’twantyouar
oundher
,andyous
eei
ngadead

c
hil
dbr
ingsbadl
uck,
isnotagoods
ightt
obehol
d…

I
wass
itt
ingont
hef
loorasI
sti
llhel
dthet
inyBabyi
nmyar
m,

t
hemi
dwi
fequi
ckl
ymi
xedups
omet
hingi
nat
inybaby’
sbot
tle

whi
let
hemer
chant
’sWi
fes
peakswi
thAdol
foout
sidet
hedoor
,

t
hemi
dWi
fewasf
astwi
thwhat
evers
hewasdoi
ngands
he

br
oughtt
het
hingt
hatl
ooksl
ikel
iqui
dmi
lkt
ome,
Iref
uset
o

t
akei
t,s
hebentdownandwhi
sper
edt
omyeart
otakei
tand

gi
vei
ttot
hebabys
othatt
hebabymayl
iveandwi
llnotat
trac
t

peopl
ewi
thhi
snoi
se,
Ilookedatherandal
lIwant
edt
odo

r
ightnowi
stos
creamoutt
oAdol
foandt
ellhi
mhi
schi
ldi
s

s
til
lal
ivebutt
heywant
edmet
odi
spos
ehi
masi
fhei
snot
hing,

butWi
sdomkeptmemut
e,I
knowwhatt
heki
ngdomdoest
o

womenl
iket
hemer
chant
sWi
fewhoki
ll
sthei
rchi
ldeven

bef
oret
hebabyf
orms
,andt
heys
omet
imess
weepsi
tunder

t
hec
arpeti
ftheper
soni
sweal
thyorf
amousorherpar
ent
sis
,

att
heendi
stheper
sont
hatr
epor
tsuc
hac
tWi
llbepuni
shedor
t
hrownout
,

s
omeoft
hemwor
shi
pmoney,
sowi
thmoneymanygr
aves
in

wi
llbepar
don,
Ilookedatt
hef
aceoft
hemi
dwi
feur
gingmet
o

t
akei
tandputt
hemi
lkyc
ont
enti
nthebaby’
smout
h,I
sil
ent
ly

pr
ayedi
snotapoi
sont
hatWi
llf
inal
lyki
llt
hebaby,
Itooki
t

f
romheranddi
dass
hedi
rec
ted,
shewhi
sper
edagai
ntoonl
y

myhear
ing

“
Trus
tmeTamar
,ifyouc
oul
dn’
tfi
ndanywher
etokeept
he

babys
afeandawayf
romZi
tyandt
hemer
chant
’swi
febr
ing

t
hec
hil
dtome,
Iwi
llgi
vei
ttoac
hil
dles
swomanwhol
osther

hus
bandmanyyear
sago,
shei
sapoorwi
dow,
sheal
sohave

t
woofOkr
a’sc
hil
dren,
manyyear
sago,
Iwasas
kedbyt
he

mer
chant
swi
fet
odi
spos
edt
het
wins
,dur
ingt
heear
lyyearof

hermar
riaget
othemer
chant
,Lami
wasonaj
our
neywhen

okr
abr
oughtf
ort
htwi
nandr
efus
edt
olookatt
hemj
ustl
ike

Zi
ty,
shepai
dmeahugeamountandas
kedmet
oinj
ectt
hem

adeadl
yvenomt
hatWi
llmaket
hemdi
equi
ckandi
pret
endt
o

dot
hatbef
oret
akenof
fthebabi
est
othewi
dowwhol
ivesi
n

t
heout
ski
rtoft
heki
ngdom,
andi
gavehert
het
winsmaki
ngher

s
wears
hewi
llnevert
ellanybody,
whi
chwi
llber
iski
ngmyl
if
e,

s
hepr
omi
sedmeandhaskeptt
oherpr
omi
se…evers
inc
eOkr
a

hasal
waysf
indsawayt
ofl
ushof
fanys
ignofpr
egnanc
y

bef
orei
twi
llbedet
ect
ed,
Ithasbei
ngei
ghtyear
snowaf
tert
he

t
winswer
ebor
n,nei
therokr
anort
hehus
bandknowst
hatt
hey

gotc
hil
drens
omewher
e,whoar
eal
ive,
ever
yonehasf
orgot
ten
exc
eptmeandRhondat
hewi
dow,
Isendmoneyt
othemf
rom

t
imet
oti
me,
butI
’
mGl
adt
hatt
hewi
downowhasc
hil
drenof

herown,
so,
mydearTamar
,not
imef
orl
ongs
tor
y,I
wrot
e

wher
eIl
ivei
nthi
spaper
,takei
t,her
eiswher
eIl
ive,
butpl
eas
e

donotc
omet
omyhous
ewi
tht
hisbabyt
oavoi
dbei
ngs
een,
I

Wi
llbeatahi
ddenApi
anwaywai
ti
ngf
oryout
oni
ght
,come

whenever
ywher
eisdar
k,pl
eas
ewr
apt
hebabyuppr
oper
ly,
and

br
inghi
mtome,
bec
aref
ult
oavoi
dbei
ngs
eenorf
oll
owed…

I
lis
tenedwi
thkeeni
nter
estatt
hemi
dwi
fewhoqui
ckl
yst
ood

upi
mmedi
atel
yokr
acamebac
kin,
Zit
ywasl
yingatt
heedgeof

herc
hamberhasr
efus
edt
otur
n,af
tert
hemi
dwi
fel
eft
,okr
a

t
urnedt
ome

“
Youwer
esol
uckyI
didnots
endyout
oyourear
lygr
ave,
Ido

mor
ethant
hist
osl
avest
hatt
hinkst
heyhavegr
ownwi
ngs
,

andI
wil
ldoevenwor
stt
oyou,
orI
Wil
lsendZi
tyt
odealwi
th

youi
fyoueverdar
elookupatmeort
alkbac
korevendi
sobeys

me,
jus
tgetr
eadyt
oki
sst
heear
thgoodbye,
youar
enot
hing

butac
ommons
laveandyourdeat
hdoes
n’tc
ountt
oanyone,

youwi
lldoasI
say,
dis
pos
ethatbabyt
oni
ghtandt
akeof
f

anyt
hingt
hatwi
llr
emi
ndZi
tyofhi
m,s
heneedst
oputi
tal
l

behi
ndherandmoveonwi
thherl
if
e,doyouunder
standme?

”yes
…myLady.

Andokr
alat
erLef
t,I
hidet
het
hingst
hatt
hemi
dwi
fegaveme,

I
keptgi
vingt
hec
ont
entt
othebabyasI
layhi
mfar
awayf
rom

Zi
tywhos
hout
edatmet
hats
hedoes
n’twantt
oseeorhear
anybabynoi
sei
nherc
hamber
,shewant
edever
ywher
e

s
crubbedandc
leanedup,
soasni
ghtc
ameI
cal
ledEur
ato

hel
pmef
ini
shupwi
tht
hec
leani
ngoft
her
oom,

“
ifanybodyas
kofmet
ellt
hemI
havegonet
olayt
heBabyt
o

r
est
,Ihavegonet
obur
ythec
hil
dandwon’
tbebac
ksoon,

”Adol
fol
ockedhi
msel
finhi
schamberashemour
n,t
hehous
e

i
ssaddenedwi
tht
henewsoft
hebaby,
mayt
heLor
dcomf
ort

ever
yone,
espec
ial
lyLadyZi
tyandAdol
fo,
Ihat
etos
eeAdol
fo

s
ad,
andyouTamar
,Iknowi
fiswi
thi
nyourpoweryouwoul
d

havedoneever
ythi
ngpos
sibl
etos
avehi
sli
fe,
youhaveabi
g

woundonyourf
oreheadandar
ms,
whathappened,
Igues
sis

LadyZi
ty,
car
ryi
ngoutherf
rus
trat
iononyouasi
fyouar
ethe

c
aus
eofhers
on’
sdeat
h,I
’
msor
ryf
oryourpai
n,mayt
heLor
d

al
might
ybewi
thyoual
ways

I
thankedEur
aandwenti
nsi
dewher
eIhi
det
hebabyand

wr
appedhi
muppr
oper
lyast
hemi
dwi
fei
nst
ruc
ted,
Itookal
l

mys
hel
li
ng,
andputi
tinapouc
h,I
doubl
edupmys
tepand

whenI
gott
oac
tualpl
aces
hewasal
readywai
ti
ngandwel
eft
,

i
twasaver
ylongwal
ktoRhonda’
s,t
hewi
dow’
spl
ace,
the

ni
ghtwasdeepwhenwef
inal
lygott
her
eandt
hemi
dwi
fe

c
all
edherout
,Iwass
urpr
iset
oseet
hatRhondawasver
y

young,
Iwasexpec
tingt
oseeanel
der
lyWomanbuti
stood

f
acet
ofac
ewi
thabeaut
if
ulyoungwomanwi
thadeeps
mil
e,

af
ters
peaki
ngwi
thherands
hepr
omi
sedt
osealherl
ips
,I

handedt
hes
leepi
ngbabyt
oher
,Rhonda’
sfac
eli
teuphappi
ly
ast
heBabywaspl
acedi
nherar
ms,
themi
dwi
fegaveher

s
omemoneyandi
als
ogaveheral
lMys
aveds
hel
li
ngi
nthe

pouc
hbec
aus
eRhondadoesnothaveas
tabl
einc
omeands
he

s
aidoneoft
het
wingi
rl
stooki
llands
he’
sst
abi
li
zednowand

t
heyar
ebot
hsl
eepi
ngs
oundl
yins
ide,

Shet
ookusi
nsi
dewher
ehert
wodaught
erss
leeppeac
eful
ly,

meandt
hemi
dwi
fel
aterLef
tsot
hatwec
angetbac
khome

bef
oret
hedaybr
eaks
.

AsI
gothomeear
lyhour
soft
hemor
ning,
Iwast
iredaf
terI

was
hedupandl
ayawake,
star
ings
trai
ghtahead,
tear
spour
ed

f
rommyeyesasi
thoughtoft
het
inyl
ovi
ngbabyI
handedover

t
oRhonda,
whowi
llgr
owt
obec
omeas
onf
orher
,ast
het
wins

hasbec
omeherc
hil
drenandal
soherc
omf
ort
.

I
wonder
edhowpos
sibl
eitwasf
oramot
hert
ofor
getac
hil
d

s
hebor
eandi
mmedi
atel
yawor
ddr
oppedt
omymi
nd,
itf
elt

l
ikeGodwass
peaki
ngdi
rec
tlyt
ome.

“
Canamot
herf
orget
shernur
singc
hil
d,t
hats
hes
houl
dhave

noc
ompas
sionont
hes
onofherwomb,
event
houghs
hemay

f
orgetbutI
,yourmakerwi
llnotf
orgetyou,
see,
Ihavewr
itt
en

yournameont
hepal
mofmyhand,
youar
epr
eci
ousandyou

ar
emi
ne”

I
qui
ckl
yst
oodupandt
urnedupt
hel
ightt
ochec
kifs
omebody

j
usts
poket
hos
ewor
dst
omebec
aus
eiss
ounds
orealbut

nobodywasi
nther
eexc
eptEur
awhos
leptpeac
eful
lyather

c
orner
.
I
laybac
kands
hotmyeyes
,is
mil
edeepl
yknowi
ngt
hati
tcan

onl
ybeGodWhowhi
sper
edt
hos
ewor
dtomyear
,

I
knowt
hebabyWi
llbeal
ri
ghtbec
aus
ehei
sri
ghti
nGod’
s

pal
m,hei
ssaf
ejus
tast
het
wingi
rl
s.

I
sleptof
fandi
twasadr
eaml
esss
leep.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.

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TAMAR*

*Epi
sode12.
*

I
fel
tser
iousheadac
het
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
nings
oIdi
dn’
tgetup

ont
ime,
asI
sleepi
ntot
hemi
daf
ter
noon,
Eur
atookupf
orme

andwhens
het
oldmet
hatZi
tyas
kedofmeands
het
oldherI

was
n’tf
eel
ingt
oowel
l,s
hedi
dn’
tsaymuc
hwor
d,s
hej
ustt
old

Eur
atot
ellmet
otakemyt
imeandr
estwel
l,af
terf
ivedaysI

f
eltabi
tbet
tert
ocont
inuemywor
kandwhenI
repor
tedt
oZi
ty

t
hatmor
ning

“
myl
ady,
howar
eyout
hismor
ning,
myapol
ogi
esf
ornotbei
ng

abl
etoat
tendt
oyouf
ort
hepas
tfewdays
,Iwasabi
tdown

andI
gues
sIneededt
ores
tfors
omedaysf
ormet
obeac
tive
agai
nandI
’
mal
ri
ghtnowt
owor
kforyou,
howhavey
oubei
ng?

“
Ithoughtyouwer
eangr
ywi
thmef
ornotwant
ingt
hebabyand

as
kingyout
ogodi
spos
ehi
m,I
thoughtyouwer
eangr
y…and

avoi
dingme…

“
Ican’
tavoi
dyoumyl
ady,
Iwasc
all
edt
oser
veandI
wil
l

al
waysbeatyours
ervi
ce,
itdoes
n’tr
eal
lymat
teri
fI’
mangr
yor

not
,myf
eel
ingsdoes
n’tc
ountbec
aus
eonl
yas
laveandI
’
m

her
etohel
pyou…

“
youknowI
neverwant
edt
hebaby,
andI
coul
dhaveabor
ted

hi
mevenbef
oreanybodyf
indsoutbutOkr
adel
ayedi
tandI

havet
obor
ehi
m,t
hepai
nofc
arr
yinghi
mandgi
vingbi
rtht
o

hi
misj
ustt
oomuc
hTamar
,hehasal
readydi
sfi
gur
edand

di
sor
gani
sedmyl
if
eevenbef
orehewasbor
n,I
havegone

t
hroughenought
roubl
eal
readyi
nbr
ingi
nghi
mfor
t,i
twas
n’t

Okr
athatc
onvi
ncedme,
don’
that
ehers
heonl
ywantwhati
s

bes
tforme,
Idi
dn’
twantt
hebabyt
oo,
Idon’
t,af
terOkr
atol
d

meofwhats
hedi
dtoher
s,t
hats
hemi
stakenl
ybor
e,andhow

s
hedi
spos
edt
hem,
thatwasenoughenc
our
agementf
ormet
o

t
hrowawaymi
ne,
andnobody’
sopi
nionc
ount
,itwasmybody,

s
oIc
anc
hos
etodowhat
everI
wantwi
thi
t,f
atherandmot
her

madeadec
isi
onf
ormet
omar
ryAdol
fo,
whi
chwi
llbet
hel
ast

t
imeI
wil
lli
stent
othem,
bec
aus
eI’
mnothappyi
nthi
sso

c
all
edmar
riage,
nomat
terhowI
pret
endI
can’
tloveAdol
fo,
I

c
an’
tTamar
,nei
therdoI
wantt
ohaveanyc
hil
dforhi
m,wel
lit

wasunf
ort
unat
eIc
arr
iedt
hebabyandgavebi
rtht
ohi
mbutI
c
an’
tjus
tlookathi
sfac
e,Okr
asai
ditwasbet
ternott
olookat

t
hebaby’
sfac
esot
hatI
won’
trememberwhathel
ooksl
ikeor

f
eelpi
ty,
orevenal
lowt
hememor
ytot
ormentme,
Ineededt
o

dowhatI
havet
odo,
myhappi
nes
sismypr
ior
ityTamar
,Idon’
t

wanti
ttos
eeml
ikeI
’
mnotdoi
ngmywi
fedut
iest
oAdol
fo,

pl
eas
ekeepgoi
ngt
okeephi
mbus
ysot
hatAdol
fowon’
teven

t
hinkofme,
orc
omet
odi
stur
bmei
nmyc
hamber
,Idon’
twant

hi
mIs
til
lwantChakanandi
ssopai
nfulwheneverI
thi
nkof

hi
mbei
ngwi
thanot
herwoman,
orwi
thZai
n,s
hehasbei
ng

avoi
dingmewhi
chpr
obabl
ymeanss
hehasbei
ngs
eei
ng

Chakan,
Ihat
eZai
n,s
he’
ssuc
habadf
riend,
Ihat
eChakanf
or

t
urni
nghi
sbac
konmewhenI
neededhi
mandmos
tlyI
hat
e

Adol
fof
orkeepi
ngmeher
e,I
don’
twantt
obehi
swi
fe,
Ihave

neverwant
edt
o,andI
feelevenwor
stnow,
bec
aus
e…I
know

hei
sagoodmanandhedes
erves
omebodyt
hatwi
lll
ovehi
m

butnotmebec
aus
eIc
an’
tlovehi
mTamar
,Ic
an’
t.

“
myl
ady,
youdi
dn’
tevenas
kwher
ethebabywasbur
ied,
is

t
hathowmuc
hyouhat
ehi
morhat
eAdol
fo…

“
Idon’
twantt
oknowTamar
,Idon’
tcar
ewher
everhei
sbur
ied,

andI
wil
lneveras
k…i
tisbet
tert
hatway,
stopr
emi
ndi
ngmeof

whatI
’
mtr
yingt
ofor
get
,st
opt
ell
ingmeaboutt
hebabyI
don’
t

wantt
ohearofi
tanymor
e,doyouunder
stand

“
yesmyl
ady,
Ilear
ntt
hatyourf
atheri
sil
l,t
hatwaswhyyour

mot
herc
oul
dn’
tcomedown,
wil
lyougoands
eehi
m…

“
I’
msuppos
etobemour
ningf
ormyl
ostbaby,
ifI
got
her
enow
l
ooki
ngal
lcheer
fult
heywi
llhaver
eas
ont
oas
kques
tionsof

howt
hebabydi
edandI
don’
twantanybodyr
emi
ndi
ngmeof

t
hat
,isi
nmypas
tnow,
I’
mmor
egl
adt
hatmot
herdi
dnot

c
ome,
eveni
fshehasc
omedownI
woul
dn’
thaveeven

al
lowedherknowofmypl
ans
,orbet
her
edur
ingdel
iver
yand

s
hewi
llhavenoc
hoi
cet
hant
ores
pec
tthat
,Ic
an’
tgohome

now,
Iwi
llpr
ayt
othegodsf
romher
etohealf
ather
,Is
uppos
e

t
oac
tli
keI
’
mmour
ningf
ormyl
atec
hil
d,I
can’
tbes
een

movi
ngar
ound,
Vimc
amet
ochec
kuponmet
hreedaysago,

heal
soas
kedofyouandI
tol
dhi
mthatyouar
eonabedr
est

bec
aus
ethedeat
hoft
hebabyhasbei
ngt
oughonever
yone,
do

youwantt
ogohome,
bec
aus
eIdon’
tli
ket
hewayyouac
t

ar
oundmenow,
maki
ngmef
eelgui
lt
ywi
thyourpr
esenc
e,and

r
emi
ndi
ngmeofmydeeds
,whi
chI
don’
thaver
egr
etf
or,
my

onl
yregr
eti
sconc
eivi
nghi
mandnotabor
tinghi
matt
heear
ly

s
tage,
ifyouwantt
ogohomet
omot
herandf
ather
,isf
ineby

me,
pleas
ego,
Iknowyoumi
ssAbel
,st
rangeAbel
,ifI
giveyou

yourf
reedoms
omedaywi
llyoumar
ryhi
m,bec
aus
eIknowyou

ar
efondofhi
m,youar
eal
wayss
eenar
oundhi
m,andl
ooks

uponhi
mli
kehei
sagod,
youl
ovehi
mri
ghtandyouwantt
o

mar
ryhi
m…t
ellme

“
Abeli
sagoodmanwi
thagoodhear
t,buthei
snotr
eadyf
or

mar
riage…

“
youar
etr
yingt
oes
capef
romt
heques
tionof“
ifyoul
ovehi
m”,

weal
lknowt
hathei
sas
trangeper
sonandhasneverl
ooked
uponanywomanf
orpl
eas
ure,
evenaf
terf
atherf
reedhi
m,

as
kinghi
mtogoands
tar
thi
sownf
ami
ly,
her
efus
edt
ogo,

ever
yonet
hinkshei
saChr
ist
ianpr
act
ici
ngc
eli
bac
y,butf
ather

al
waysdef
endshi
m,I
don’
thaveanyi
ssuewi
thwhatanybody

pr
act
ice,
butOkr
adoes
n’tl
ikeChr
ist
ians
,shes
aidt
hatt
he

Chr
ist
iansac
tli
ket
heyknowsi
tal
l,ands
hehat
est
hatr
eli
gion,

s
het
hinksyouar
eaChr
ist
ianoryoupr
act
iceJ
udai
smbec
aus
e

s
hehasnots
eenyoubowt
oanygodbef
ore,
orac
tli
ket
he

mai
denoft
hel
and,
likeObi
aki
ndofwor
shi
port
het
ivi
gir
ls,

s
hes
aids
hehass
eenyouatt
hegar
denbowi
ngyourheadand

pr
ayi
ng,
youpr
ays
trangel
yshei
snots
ureoft
hegodyoupr
ay

t
obuts
het
hinksyouar
eaChr
ist
ian,
Ias
sur
edhert
hatyouar
e

not
,Ihavebei
ngwi
thyouf
oroverf
iveyear
snowandI
have

nevers
eeny
oupr
ayorc
all
ingyourGodnameoutofs
udden,
I

maynotr
eal
lyknowt
hegodyouwor
shi
pbutI
ass
uredOkr
a

t
hatyouar
enotaChr
ist
ian,
Okr
ahasbi
gfr
iendsi
nhi
ghpl
aces

whoal
sohat
esChr
ist
ianwi
thpas
sionandt
heyar
ereadyt
o

s
endanyonet
heyc
atc
htot
hec
irc
uitani
mal
,soyougott
obe

c
aref
ulwi
thyourWayofwor
shi
psoi
twon’
tbemi
staken,
wil
l

youl
iket
ogohome,
Ineedyout
o,s
othatyouwi
llkeepmot
her

awayf
romc
omi
ngdownandhaveoppor
tuni
tyt
oseeAbel
,I

wi
llmi
ssbuti
sbes
tthatyougo,
Iwi
lls
endf
oryouwhenI
need

you,
butbef
oreyougoI
needyout
otakes
omet
hingt
oOkr
ain

herhous
e,i
sagol
djewelandabr
acel
ets
hes
awi
tinmy

c
los
etandwant
edi
t,s
oIhavedec
idedt
ogi
vei
ttoheraf
ter
s
hehel
pedme.
Takei
ttoherbec
aus
eshes
aids
hewi
llbe

t
ravel
ingt
odayandmaynots
topby…

I
pic
kupt
hepouc
hthatc
ont
ainst
hegi
ftf
orOkr
aandl
eftt
o

herpl
ace,
whenI
gott
her
e,I
wast
olds
hehasal
readyl
efton

herj
our
neybutt
hemer
chantwasi
nsi
de,
Iwant
edt
oseet
he

mer
chantagai
n,s
oIwasus
her
edt
owher
ehes
ati
nhi
supper

hous
elooki
ngatnot
hingi
npar
tic
ular

“
Myki
ndgr
eet
ingst
oyoumyl
ord,

“
HowmayI
beofhel
ptoyouyoungl
ady,
Iwast
oldyouwant
ed

t
oseeme

“
iwass
entt
oyourwi
fe,
buti
nherabs
enc
eIdec
idedt
osaymy

gr
eet
ingst
oyoubef
orel
eavi
ng,
doyour
ememberme,

“
Iwast
oldt
hatyouar
efr
omAdol
fo’
swi
fe,
ladyZi
ty,
whos
eem

t
omywi
feac
quai
ntanc
e,youar
eladyZi
ty’
sper
sonalmai
d…or

i
sther
eanyot
hert
hingyouwantmet
oknow

“
Youar
eabs
olut
elyc
orr
ect
,I’
mal
sot
hes
lavegi
rlyoubought

f
orf
ort
yshel
li
ngands
oldf
orf
if
teens
hel
li
ngbec
aus
eyourwi
fe

di
dn’
twantme,
myheadwasbar
ed,
myhai
rwasal
lshavedof
f

andwaswr
appedwi
that
urbanandI
tol
dyout
henI
wasa

Chr
ist
i.
.anandyouwar
nedmenevert
osayt
hatt
oanyone

bec
aus
eitwasf
orbi
ddeni
nthel
and.
.

“
oht
hegodsbepr
ais
e,I
rememberever
ythi
ng,
youhavegr
own

outwi
ths
omuc
hchanges
,youl
ookdi
ff
erent
,Iknowi
sbei
ng

year
s,I
’
mgl
adyouwer
eunderagoodhous
ehol
d,Lor
dRees
e,

t
hes
econdpr
imer
uleroft
heki
ngdomi
sagoodman,
and
bei
nghi
sdaught
erper
sonalmai
disagoodc
redi
t,i
sbec
aus
e

t
heyf
oundyouwor
thy,
I’
mpl
eas
etomeetyouagai
n,pl
eas
esi
t

wi
thme,
mywi
fei
sononeofherunknownj
our
neyandwon’
t

bebac
ksoon,
Itr
ynott
owor
ryofheri
nandoutanymor
e,you

c
ameatt
her
ightt
ime,
whati
syournameagai
n…

“
Tamar
,myl
ord,
I’
mgl
adt
oseeyouagai
n,bac
kthenyout
old

met
hatyouar
epr
ayi
ngf
orac
hil
d,hopeyourpr
ayer
shave

bei
nggr
ant
ednow

“
notatal
l,t
hegodss
eems
ilentt
omyc
ry,
andI
gues
sOkr
a,

mywi
fei
sal
sot
iredoft
hewhol
ethi
ng,
thati
swhys
hei
s

mi
sbehavi
ng,
shedoes
n’tevenal
lowmet
otouc
hheranymor
e

bec
aus
eshet
hinksi
sawas
teoft
ime,
shewant
edt
oendt
he

mar
riagebutI
pleadedwi
thhernott
oleaveme,
Ilovemywi
fe

s
omuc
handi
don’
twanthert
ogo,
buts
hei
sins
ist
ingandI

havenots
toppl
eadi
ng,
nobodyknowst
hewaysoft
hegods
,

Tamar
,Iwas
n’tas
kingf
ort
oomuc
honec
hil
dwasokayf
orme,

I
evens
ugges
ttomywi
fef
orust
ogoandt
akeuponeoft
he

homel
essc
hil
drenandc
allhi
morherour
sbuts
hewar
nedme

nevert
oment
ions
uchagai
ntoherandI
neverdi
d,howc
an

youl
oves
omebodyands
til
lhat
est
heper
sonats
amet
ime,

t
hat
’st
hewayI
feelf
orOkr
a,I
havet
ryt
oac
ceptmyf
ate,
ifs
he

want
stol
eavet
henl
ethergoahead,
Iwi
lll
ear
ntobef
ine,
she

gi
vesmet
oomuc
htr
oubl
e,s
heevenhast
hebol
dnes
stot
ell

mes
hewass
eei
nganot
hermanofwhi
chi
doubt
edand

t
hreat
ent
odealwi
thanymanI
seec
los
etoher
,butwi
tht
he
r
ecenthappeni
ng,
herc
ons
tantt
ravel
li
ngwhi
chs
hedoes
n’t

hi
deanymor
e,I
havel
ear
ntt
ojus
tli
veever
ydayatat
ime,
Okr
a

i
sdi
ff
icul
ttodealwi
thandi
ssadt
osayt
hats
hemaybeabad

i
nfl
uenc
eonAdol
fo’
syoungwi
fe,
shemaybr
ainwas
hherand

makeherdoherbi
ddi
ngt
hat
’showc
ommandi
ngOkr
acanbe…

s
otel
lmeTamar
,whatgoddoyouwor
shi
pnow,
Iknowyou

c
an’
tst
il
lbeaChr
ist
ian

“
wel
l,I
am,
noot
hergodl
ikemyGod,
Iamexac
tlywher
egod

wantmet
obe,
myl
ord,
wit
hal
lduer
espec
t,not
hingandno

onec
anc
hanget
hat
,youwant
edmet
owor
shi
pluc
rus
,thegod

off
ert
il
it
ybac
kthenwhenI
tol
dyoumyf
ait
h,yous
hunmeand

as
kedmenevert
oment
ioni
tagai
nbec
aus
eisf
orbi
dden,
andI

evenac
cept
edwhat
evergodyouwant
edmet
owor
shi
psot
hat

I
canhavear
oofovermyheadandf
oodi
nmypl
ate,
butGod

hasabet
terpl
an,
bymaki
ngyourwi
fenott
owantmeand

whenyous
oldmet
oAbelt
hatyoungmant
hatday,
myf
ait
h

wasr
est
ored,
andI
’
mst
rongert
hanI
uset
obe,
andnot
hing

c
anc
hanget
hat
,youhavet
rieddi
ff
erentgods
,andyetyous
til
l

f
eelempt
y,i
sbec
aus
ethi
sgodsc
annotof
feryouanyt
hing,

t
heyc
anonl
ytakef
romyoubutc
an’
tgi
veyout
hepeac
eyou

s
eek,
wit
hsomanygodandgoddes
soft
hisl
andyett
hepeopl
e

i
nitar
elooki
ngs
ohel
ples
s,t
her
e’speac
eandl
iber
tywi
thmy

God,
hegi
vesi
toutabundant
lyt
ohi
schi
ldr
enandt
hos
ewhos
e

hear
tar
epur
e…doyouwonderwhyt
hiski
ngdomhat
es

Chr
ist
ianbec
aus
etheyar
eaf
rai
doft
hei
rGod,
noonec
an
c
ont
endwi
thhi
m,bec
aus
ehi
mal
onei
sal
might
y,andt
his

peopl
ethi
nkbydes
troyi
ngGod’
speopl
etheywi
llbec
ome

s
trongerormakemoc
ker
yofGod,
theyt
riedt
owi
peusoutbut

wear
eli
keas
eedwekeptonmul
ti
plyi
ng…

“
whatabol
dnes
s,hmmm,
yous
eemunaf
rai
dofanyt
hing,
I

knowt
her
ewass
omet
hings
pec
ialaboutyout
hatdayf
ormet
o

haves
pentf
ort
yshel
li
ngf
orones
lave,
itwasc
raz
yyetI
didn’
t

f
eelbadabouti
t,nei
therdi
dIt
ellany
body,
notevenmywi
fe,
I

woul
dn’
twantyout
odi
eint
hehandsoft
hispeopl
ewhohat
es

yourki
nd,
bec
aref
ul,
mywi
fe,
Okr
a,does
n’tl
ikeChr
ist
ian,
she

hat
est
hem,
butyouac
tli
keanel
der
,Iwi
llnott
alkyououtof

yourbel
iefandmywi
fewi
llneverknowoft
hisbuts
til
lbe

c
aref
ulTamar
,Idon’
tknowt
hepl
anyourgodhasf
oryou

bec
aus
ehehasl
eadmet
obuyyout
hatdayf
romt
hes
lave

mar
ketandhasal
readyl
edmet
omeet
ingt
heboyI
sol
dyou

bac
kto,
whi
chwasagr
eatl
ostt
omeasamer
chantwhol
ike

maki
nggai
nbutI
neverc
ount
edont
hel
ostr
atherI
wasgl
ad

youar
esaf
e.AndI
sil
ent
lypr
ayt
othegodst
opr
otec
tyou,
I

havenotr
eal
lypai
dmuc
hat
tent
iont
oas
lavebutyouc
aught

myat
tent
ionTamar
,soj
ustbec
aref
uli
nal
lyourdeal
ings
othat

t
hispeopl
ewi
llnotc
utyourl
if
eshut
,I’
mgl
adyouar
ewel
land

mayyourGodc
ont
inuet
opr
otec
tyou…

“
Amen,
Lor
dLami
,ver
ysoonandI
means
oon,
youwi
lls
mil
e

agai
n,donotwor
ry,
ever
ythi
ngwi
llbeal
ri
ght
.Iwi
llal
wayspr
ay

f
oryou,
not
hingc
ant
heenemydot
ohur
tyou,
Iwi
llbec
aref
ul
l
ikeI
haveal
waysbei
ng,
thankyouf
oryourt
ime,
letmebeon

mywaynow.

HenoddedasI
lef
t,I
wal
kedoutandr
epor
tbac
ktoZi
tyt
hat

t
hemer
chant
’swi
fehasal
readygoneonherj
our
ney.
Bef
oreI

l
eftf
orLor
dRees
ees
tat
e,I
chec
keduponAdol
fot
hef
oll
owi
ng

daywhohasr
etur
nedt
ohi
sst
udy

“
I’
mgl
adyouar
ebet
ternowmyl
ord,
Iwaswor
riedaboutyou.
.

“
I’
mgl
adt
oseeandheart
hats
omebodyr
eal
lyc
aresf
orme,

t
hankyouTamar
,Iwi
llbef
ine,
Ihavenots
eei
ngZi
tys
inc
e

af
tert
hebi
rthandI
knows
hedoes
n’twantt
oseeme,
Ihave

c
omei
nter
mwi
tht
hatf
act
,I’
mnotgoi
ngt
oeverf
orc
eher
,

l
oves
uppos
etoc
omenat
ural
,whatI
sti
lldon’
tunder
standi
s

whymyl
atewi
fegavemet
hatmes
sagei
nmydr
eamt
hats
he

wi
lll
eadmet
otheway,
Zit
yhasnotl
eadmet
oanyt
hingexc
ept

s
adnes
sandmor
elonel
ines
s,I
havegi
venc
hanc
ehopi
ngs
he

wi
llc
omear
oundbutI
’
mreadyt
olethergo,
Iwanthert
obe

happys
hec
an’
tli
vet
her
estofheryoungl
if
efeel
ings
adand

hat
ingme,
shei
sbeaut
if
uland,
manyyoungmenofherage

wi
lldi
etohaveher
,I’
mreadyt
ocal
lof
fthi
smar
riageTamar
,

whatdoyout
hink…

“
dowhat
everyout
hinki
sri
ghtmyLor
d,I
’
mgl
adyoumadet
hat

c
hoi
ceofl
ett
ingZi
tygo,
itwi
llbebet
tert
hatway,
yout
woc
an’
t

keepbei
ngs
ad,
isnotr
ight
,thi
sisnothowmar
riages
uppos
e

t
obe,
Zit
ymaynotbet
heac
tualper
sont
hatwi
lll
eadyout
othe

wayt
hatyourl
atewi
fes
pokeabout
,butt
heper
soni
sgoi
ngt
o
c
omet
hroughher
,andZi
tyhaspl
ayedherr
olei
nthatas
pec
t,

nowl
ett
hes
eedger
minat
eandl
eti
tgr
ow

“
Youar
eyoungandwi
seTamar
,youar
emor
eofagr
eat

c
ompani
ont
obet
hanZi
tyeverwas
,andI
wil
lmi
ssyouwhenI

f
inal
lyl
etZi
tyf
ree,
Iwi
llmi
ssyougr
eat
ly,

“
Iwi
llmi
ssyout
oomyl
ord,
Iwi
llbegoi
ngbac
ktoLor
dRees
e,

hei
sil
l,andLadyPhi
nneedshel
p,s
oIwantt
ogoandhel
pout

i
nanywayI
can,
Iwi
llas
signEur
aforyou,
anyt
imeyouneed

s
omebodyt
otal
kto,
pleas
eki
ndl
ycal
lonEur
a,s
hewi
llbea

gr
eatc
ompani
ont
oyouj
ustasI
havebei
ng,
Ihavet
rai
nedher

i
nther
ightway,
shewi
llgl
addenyourhear
twi
thmany

phi
los
ophy
,somedayyouwi
lls
mil
eagai
nandal
lyourwor
ries

wi
llbef
orgot
ten

Adol
fot
ookmyhandsands
queez
edi
tgent
lywi
thas
mil
e

“
Idon’
tknowt
hegodyous
erve,
Idon’
tser
veany,
Ionl
yhave

t
imef
ormys
tudi
es,
andpr
ayt
othegener
algodsl
ikeanor
mal

per
sondoes
,butyoumakemewantt
oknowwhoyouar
eand

whatgody
ous
erve,
I’
mgr
atef
ulf
ort
het
imeyous
pentwi
thme,

andamyyourGodbl
essyougr
eat
lyTamar
,andmayLor
d

Rees
eget
swel
lsoon.
Eur
a,I
haves
eenyouandhert
oget
heri
n

t
hegar
denandI
wil
lbegl
adt
ohaves
omebodyl
ikeyouc
los
e

t
ome,
youar
eawi
sec
hil
d,yourki
ndnes
swi
llpavewayf
oryou

Tamar
.Ifyoueverneedanyt
hingt
ellmeandi
twi
llbeyour
s

I
smi
ledandt
hankedhi
m,andI
thoughtoft
hebabyand

Rhonda,
Iwi
llf
indawayt
ogetmoneyac
ros
sRhonda,
maybe
f
romAbel
,asI
wasaboutt
oleave,
Adol
fogavememoneyt
o

buys
omet
hingf
ormys
elf
,andI
thankedhi
m,whenI
tooki
tto

myr
oomandc
ount
edt
hemoneyi
twasonehundr
edandf
if
ty

s
hel
li
ng,
itwashuge,
andI
fel
trel
ief
,bec
aus
eIwi
llf
irs
tofal
l

j
our
neyt
oseeRhondabef
oregoi
nghome.

I
tal
kedt
oEur
athatni
ghtandt
oldhernott
obeaf
rai
dtot
ell

Adol
foaboutChr
ist
,butf
irs
tofal
lletherbehavi
or,
her

c
har
act
ermakewayf
orher
,peopl
eneedst
oseet
heki
ndof

per
sons
hei
sfi
rstandt
heki
ndofl
if
eshel
ivesf
ort
hemt
obe

c
onvi
ncedenought
ofol
lowherandShel
ist
ened.

Eur
ahear
kenedt
omyvoi
ce,
Ihuggedhert
hef
oll
owi
ng

mor
ningandwentt
oZi
tywhobi
dmef
arewel
l,I
thankedLami
,

Adol
fo’
sboyf
oral
lhi
ski
ndnes
s,andI
promi
sedt
oret
urnonc
e

ever
ythi
ngi
sset
tled,
Ilef
tbutnothomes
trai
ghtI
wentt
osee

Rhondaandt
ochec
khowt
hebabywasdoi
ng.
Ibought

s
omet
hingswi
tht
hemoneyAdol
fogavemeandI
wil
lgi
veher

enoughmoneyf
ort
hebaby’
supkeep,
shemus
tnotdependon

t
hemi
dwi
feorherl
it
tlet
radet
ofeedher
sel
f,t
het
wingi
rl
sand

Zi
ty’
sson.

I
jour
neyedt
oRhonda,
fol
lowi
ngal
lther
oadmeandt
he

mi
dwi
fepas
sedt
hatni
ght
,unt
ilI
gott
her
e,s
hewashappyt
o

s
eemel
ikeI
wast
oseeher
,Zi
ty’
ssonwasf
eedi
ngi
nher

ar
ms,
andt
het
winswer
ehel
pinghert
osel
lherof
fhers
mal
l

t
rades
othatt
heyc
anhavef
oodt
oeat
,Ibr
oughtoutal
lthe

t
hingsI
boughtf
ort
hemands
hewasr
eal
lyhappy.
Igott
o
knowt
hatherhus
bandwasaChr
ist
ianbef
orehedi
ed.

I
wasgl
adt
hatGodl
edust
oRhondat
hatni
ght
,shewi
llbr
ing

t
hec
hil
dreni
nherc
areupi
nthewaysoft
heLor
d,nott
heways

oft
hepagangodsoft
hel
and.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
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..

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*TAMAR.
*

*Epi
sode13.
*

“
Youl
ookyoung,
howdoyourhus
banddi
e…

“
wel
l,I
’
mnott
ooyoung,
Ihavel
iveenoughl
if
eont
hisear
tht
o

knowt
heevi
lithol
ds,
butnotl
ongenoughanyway,
I’
mjus
t

bl
ess
edwi
thyoungl
ook,
Igotmar
riedwhenI
wast
went
yone,

andI
’
mthi
rtyt
woyear
snow,
Iwasmar
riedf
oral
mos
ttwo

year
sbef
oremyhus
banddi
ed,
hewentoutheal
thyt
owor
k,

af
terwef
ini
shourqui
etmor
ningpr
ayert
hatdayandhenever

r
etur
nst
hes
ame,
theybr
oughtbac
khi
scor
pst
ome,
wit
hthe

newst
hathewasf
ounddeadbyt
her
oads
ide,
nooneknows

whathappenst
ohi
m,noonewant
edt
ohel
porbr
ingshi
ski
ll
er

t
obookj
ustbec
aus
ehewasac
ommonerandhewashat
edby
mos
taf
tert
heydi
scover
edhewasaChr
ist
ian,
hebui
ldsf
ort
he

s
econddi
str
ict
,Ionl
ythoughti
spr
obabl
ybec
aus
ehewasa

Chr
ist
ian,
whent
hebadpeopl
egott
oknowt
heypl
ott
edaway

t
oki
llhi
m,wej
ustgotmar
riednotupt
otwoyear
s,I
was

c
arr
yingmyf
irs
tchi
ldwhowasj
ustf
ourmont
hsandI
had

mi
scar
riage,
thebabyc
amedownaf
tert
hes
hoc
kofmy

hus
band’
sdeat
handI
wass
olonel
yaf
terhi
sdeat
h,unt
ilt
he

mi
dwi
febr
oughtt
het
winst
ome,
theybec
amemybi
gges
t

bl
ess
ing,
andnowI
haveanot
herwhomI
namedJ
on,
thet
wins

I
namedt
hemMi
aandMay,
Iwi
sht
obol
dlygi
vet
hema

Chr
ist
iannamebutI
havet
obewi
se,
Ican’
tri
skt
hei
rli
vesf
or

anyt
hing,
butI
sti
llwor
shi
pGodi
nmyhi
ddenc
los
et,
qui
etl
y

wi
tht
hec
hil
drent
heLor
dgaveme,
Jonwi
llgr
owt
oknowGod

j
ustl
ikehi
stwos
ist
ers
,Idon’
tcar
ewhatt
hec
irc
ums
tanc
esof

t
hei
rbi
rthwas
,evi
lrunsi
nthi
sland,
onej
usthavet
obe

pr
ayer
fulandc
aref
ul,
themi
dwi
fei
soneoft
her
emai
ninggood

womenar
oundher
e,I
knowwhats
hedoesi
sri
sky,
butI
pray

ever
ydayf
orGod’
spr
otec
tionoverher
,shehasr
esc
ueds
o

manybabi
es,
andgi
vent
hemoutt
owomenwhoneedst
hem,

s
hes
til
lmanaget
ogi
veuss
hel
li
ngf
orupkeep,
yous
aidyour

namei
sTamarandi
twasyourmi
str
esst
hatgavebi
rtht
oJon

andwant
edhi
mtobedi
spos
edasi
fhei
sat
ras
h,j
ustl
ookat

t
hats
weetbaby,
howc
ans
hehaves
uchevi
lmi
nd.
whi
ch

nor
malhumanwi
llbearac
hil
d,s
oper
fec
tandpr
eci
ousl
iket
he

babyi
sandwantt
othr
owhi
maway,
wel
l,ever
ythi
ngwor
ks
t
oget
herf
orourgood,
thewor
dofGodbec
amel
ightwheni
t

s
ays“
sing,
obar
renwoman,
youwhohasnevergi
venbi
rth,

br
eaki
ntol
oudandj
oyf
uls
ong,
youwhohaveneverc
onc
eived

orexper
ienc
edLabor
,bec
aus
emor
ear
ethec
hil
drenoft
he

des
olat
ewomant
hanoft
heonewhohasahus
band,
sayst
he

Lor
d.

“
I’
menc
our
ageRhonda,
andI
’
mhappyt
oknowyouar
eat
rue

bel
iever
,Iwi
llc
omear
ounds
omet
imet
ochec
kuponyouand

t
hec
hil
drent
hel
ordgavey
ou,
andal
sot
obr
ingl
it
tlet
hingsf
or

upkeep,
beofGodc
heer
sbec
aus
eGodi
sahus
bandt
othe

wi
dows
,hewi
llt
akec
areofyouandyour
sal
ways
.

WehuggedandI
als
ohel
dli
ttl
eJoni
nmyar
msf
ors
omet
ime,
I

huggedMi
aandMaywar
mlybef
orebi
ddi
ngt
hemgoodbye,

I
jour
neyedt
oLor
dRees
ebi
ges
tat
e,i
twasal
ongwal
kbutI

di
dn’
tfeelt
hes
tres
sordi
stanc
ebec
aus
emyhear
twass
ofi
ll
ed

wi
thj
oyaf
termeet
ingwi
thRhonda,

WhenI
final
lygothomei
twasni
ghtal
ready,
Iwas
hedof
fthe

r
oaddus
t,andputmyt
hingsi
nsi
deI
prayedmos
tpar
toft
he

ni
ghtandbyt
hemor
ningI
wasupasI
wenti
nsear
chofAbel

l
ater
,

I
sawAbelf
irs
tatt
hef
ount
ain,
her
oseupons
eei
ngme,
he

openedhi
sar
mwi
dewi
thanat
trac
tives
mil
e,andI
wenti
nand

hec
los
eduphi
sar
m,I
fel
tsos
ecur
edandwar
m,I
wass
o

happyt
oseehi
magai
nandI
dropf
ewt
ear
sri
ghtt
her
einhi
s

ar
m,Abelhasbui
ltmei
ntoaf
ear
les
swomanf
orGod,
andI
wi
shI
canal
waysbec
los
etohi
mbec
aus
eIt
hinkofhi
m

ever
ydayandwonder
edwhathewasdoi
ng,
andonet
hingi
s

c
ert
ain,
heal
wayspr
ay,
wewer
ebot
hsi
lentasI
sobbedqui
etl
y

i
nhi
sar
m,I
haves
eenevi
lint
hisl
andyetGodhasal
ways

pr
otec
tedhi
speopl
eli
kehepr
omi
set
odo,

Abell
oos
enedupasVi
mappr
oac
hedf
romhi
schamber
,he

s
mil
edeepl
yandt
riedt
owi
peof
ftear
sfr
ommyeyeswi
tht
he

bac
kofhi
shand,
yetheneverut
ter
edawor
d,Vi
mst
oodc
los
e

t
ousandI
qui
ckl
ytur
nandgr
eet
edhi
m

“
Myki
ndgr
eet
ingst
oyoumyl
ord,
I’
mgl
adt
oseeyou

“
I’
mdel
ight
edt
oseeyoui
ngoodheal
thTamar
,thel
astt
imeI

c
amet
oseeZi
tyI
wast
oldyout
ooki
ll
,Ic
ans
eeyouar
efeel
ing

bet
ternow,
howi
smys
ist
erandherhus
bandAdol
fo,
thedeat
h

oft
hebabyi
shar
donever
yone,
evenmot
herandal
sof
ather
,

di
dZi
tys
endyoudown…

“
Yesmyl
ord,
shedi
d,s
heas
kedmet
ocomedownandhel
p

outi
nat
tendi
ngt
oLor
dRees
e,yourf
atherwhomwel
ear
ntwas

i
ll
,howi
shenow

“
wel
l,notanybet
tert
hel
astt
imeI
chec
ked,
AbelI
cans
eea

war
msmi
leonyourf
ace,
Tamari
sbac
k,andyout
woc
an’
tget

enoughofeac
hot
her
,I’
m…gl
ad.

Hel
ookedatmeands
mil
ebef
orewal
kingaway,
Iret
urned

bac
kthes
mil
e,Vi
mhasmai
ntai
nedhi
scheer
ful
nes
sand

ki
ndnes
s,whi
chI
admi
remos
tlyabouthi
mnow,
hehast
rul
y

gr
ownt
obel
ikehi
sfat
her
,andhashi
sfat
her
’shei
ghtandbody
bui
lt
,hei
sli
keayoungerver
sionofhi
sfat
her
,whodes
pit
e

get
tingol
d,s
til
lmai
ntai
nshi
sgoodl
ooks
.Is
atdownwi
thAbel

aswebegant
ospeakqui
etl
y

“
Hopeal
lhasbei
ngwel
lwi
thyouAbel
,youl
ookl
ight
,sl
ime

down,
haven’
tyoubei
ngeat
ingwel
l…howar
eyou,
Ihave

mi
ssedyous
omuc
h…

“
Iwi
lleatmor
enowt
hatyouar
ear
ound,
I’
msohappyt
osee

youagai
nTamar
,Ial
somi
ssyoubutI
knowyouar
eri
ghti
n

God’
spal
m,whi
chmeansyouar
esaf
e,I
havebei
ngpr
ayi
ngf
or

youandf
ast
ingt
oo,
Isawt
roubl
elur
kingar
oundyourheadi
n

mydr
eamandI
star
tedpr
ayi
ngf
ervent
lyf
oryou,
Idon’
tknow

whati
twas
,al
lIwass
hownwasj
usty
out
ryi
ngt
ores
cuea

babyf
romabur
ninghous
e,andI
sawy
ouagai
nwi
tht
hebaby

r
unni
ngandc
ryi
ng,
Isawasawomant
ookt
hebabyf
romyou

s
hewashappy,
Iseec
hil
drenal
lar
oundher
,thenGodr
eveal
ed

anot
hert
hingt
ome,
Adol
fowi
llbewi
thanot
herwomannot

Zi
ty,
anot
herwhowi
llgl
addenhi
shear
tandl
eadhi
mtot
he

l
ight
…

“
Wow…wow,
Abel
,youhavegones
ofarwi
thyourr
elat
ions
hip

wi
thGod,
Iwi
shI
’
mli
keyou,
Iwi
shI
haveat
tendt
hathei
ght
,

I
’
mst
il
lababywhoi
slear
ninghowt
ocr
awl
,ever
ythi
ngyou

s
aidc
anonl
yber
eveal
edt
oyoubyGodhi
msel
f,I
prayI
wil
lget

t
oyourl
evelofr
elat
ions
hipwi
thGod,
but
…di
dGodr
eveal

anot
hert
hing,
likeamer
chant
’swi
fe,
ort
heper
sonAdol
fowi
ll

event
ual
lys
ett
lewi
th,
didyous
eeanyot
hert
hing.
.
“
allI
sawI
haves
poken,
not
hingel
se,
Iwasal
wayspr
ayi
ngf
or

youTamar
,bec
aus
eyous
eemt
obei
nthemi
ddl
eofi
tal
l,my

s
trongr
elat
ions
hipwi
thGoddi
dnotj
usts
tar
tyes
ter
day,
it

s
tar
tedaver
ylongt
imeago,
Idenymys
elft
othewor
ldt
obe

c
lai
medbyhi
m,i
twas
n’teas
ybutGodmadei
teas
y,I
sol
dit

al
loutt
oGod,
wit
hhol
dingnot
hingf
romhi
m,donotpani
cmy

dear
,Godwantt
obei
nar
elat
ions
hipwi
thhi
schi
ldr
en,
andyou

ar
ether
eal
ready,
donotweaveri
nyourwal
kwi
thhi
m,bec
aus
e

I
cans
eeGodus
ingyout
odogr
eat
erandmi
ght
ythi
ngs
,

t
her
e’smor
etoc
omeTamar
,don’
trel
axyet
,pr
ay,
keep

pr
ayi
ng,
tri
bul
ati
onwi
lls
til
lcome,
ther
ewi
llbeadver
sit
y,

unpl
eas
ants
ituat
ion,
butbeofgoodc
heer
,keept
hef
ait
h,f
ori
s

onl
yas
trongf
ait
hinGodt
hatwi
lls
ave.
Yourc
all
ingi
shi
gher

t
hanmi
ne,
youwer
echos
enbyGodf
oragr
eat
erpur
pos
e,I

wasonl
yas
kedt
ogui
deyout
hroughandbui
ldyouupi
nhi
mso

t
hatyouwi
llnotweaver
,andt
hat
’swhatI
wil
ldo.
Donotbe

af
rai
dbec
aus
eGod’
sangelar
eal
lar
oundyou,
theyar
eher
e

r
ightnow.
Youmaynots
eet
hembutt
heyar
eli
ket
hewi
nd,

bl
owi
ngc
oolai
rinal
lourdi
rec
tion.

“
Youmakebes
car
edwhenyout
alkaboutt
ribul
ati
onand

adver
sit
ywhi
char
eyett
ocome,
Ihavehadenought
roubl
e,I

don’
twantt
oseemor
e,c
anyouas
kGodt
otakeever
yot
her

t
roubl
eaway,
myl
if
eisf
il
ledwi
ths
omanyal
ready,
Idon’
twant

mor
e

“
wehaveoneGod,
andonei
nter
ces
sor
,youequal
lyhave
ac
ces
sjus
tli
keI
do,
tal
ktoyourf
ather
,Godi
syourf
ather
,tel
l

hi
mal
lyourwor
ries
,donotbes
car
edorwor
ried,
jus
tknowt
hat

Godhasc
all
edyoubyyourname,
youar
ehi
swor
kmans
hip,
he

wi
llmakeyous
trongert
hanwhatyouar
eri
ghtnow.
Eveni
nthe

f
aceoft
ribul
ati
onhei
sri
ghtt
her
ewi
thyou.

“
Ibel
ieve,
mayi
tbeac
cor
dingt
ohi
swi
llandnotmi
ne,

“
I’
mgl
adyouar
eher
e,I
don’
tneedt
oas
kaboutZi
tyandt
he

babywhomever
yonebel
ievedi
edi
mmedi
atel
yaf
terbi
rth,
the

babyi
sal
iver
ight
?Andi
swi
thawomanwhohasnohus
band

butal
lIs
eei
shappyc
hil
drenal
lar
oundher
,its
oundc
raz
ybut

Godhasneverl
ied,
IloveyouTamar
,notwi
tht
hel
oveoft
he

wor
ld,
butwi
thl
oveofChr
ist
,donotbeaf
rai
dIwi
llal
waysbe

hereforyou,Iwi
lli
nterc
edeonyourbehal
f,everyday…youc
anhi
omeon+233544142683t
obe
addedtos t
oryheadquart
ersr
oomformores tor
ies.

AsAbelment
ionedf
ort
hef
irs
tti
met
hathel
ovedme,
myhear
t

doubl
eski
pped,
itwast
hever
yfi
rstt
imeI
washear
inghi
mor

anyones
ayt
hatoutl
oud,
des
pit
eIknowAbelc
aresf
orme,

andI
car
edeepl
yforhi
m,I
havel
ovedhi
mandhat
etoadmi
tit

bec
aus
eAbeldoes
n’tl
iket
hewor
ldl
yki
ndofl
ove,
andI

s
inc
erel
ydonotknowt
heki
ndofl
oveI
feeli
nmyhear
tforhi
m,

butI
thi
nkofhi
mever
yday,
andi
magi
nedGods
peaki
ngt
ohi
m

t
omar
ryme,
wewi
llgetmar
riedandbui
ldaGodl
yhome.
soI

t
riedt
obebol
denought
otel
lhi
m

“
Abel
,Is
omedaywantt
obet
hewomanGodwi
llc
hos
eforyou

t
oset
tlewi
th,
Ihaveal
waysl
oveyouandwi
sh…wi
sh…hmmm.

di
dGodeverr
eveal
edwhoyouar
egoi
ngt
omar
ryi
nyour
dr
eam,
like…l
ikes
omebodyl
ikeme,
aChr
ist
iangi
rl
…di
dheever

s
howedyouoryous
til
ldonotknowGod’
spl
anont
hat
,wear
e

t
heonl
ytwobel
iever
sar
oundher
e,i
nthi
shous
ehol
d,i
sonl
y

nor
malf
oryout
ocl
aimbac
kyourf
reedomandwewi
llbe

mar
ried,
Zit
ysai
dshewi
llgi
vememyf
reedomi
fieverwantt
o

getmar
ried,
IknowLor
dRees
elovesy
ouandt
heent
ire

hous
ehol
d,butGodmayhaveot
herpl
anwhi
chi
sal
soi
nhi
s

wor
dwhenhes
aidwes
houl
dgoi
ntot
hewor
ldandmul
ti
ply,

yout
oldmet
hel
astt
imet
hati
snotgoodt
obeequal
lyyoked

wi
thanunbel
iever
,soI
lookedar
oundands
eet
hatwear
e

meantt
obe,
probabl
ythatwaswhyGodbr
oughtust
oget
her
,

f
ort
hatr
eas
ons
otha…

“
youhaves
aidenoughTamar
,donotus
ethes
cri
ptur
etoyour

f
avor
,wheni
tsui
tsyouonl
y,andl
et’
snotbeaheadofGod,
or

t
othi
nkl
iket
hewor
ldl
ypeopl
ethi
nks
,ifwedo,
wewi
llonl
ybe

i
nvi
ti
ngs
in,
andt
hedevi
lisneverf
art
osuc
h,r
emembert
he

wor
dsai
dthatt
hedevi
lisr
oami
ngar
oundt
heear
thl
ooki
ngf
or

whomt
odes
troyandwear
eagoodt
argetf
orhi
m,t
heenemi
es

ar
ewat
chi
ngusandwai
ti
ngf
oranyweaknes
sfort
hemt
o

des
troyus
,mar
riage,
likeI
tol
dyoubef
orei
snotat
ickett
o

heaven,
ifyourr
ighteyec
aus
esyout
osi
npl
ucki
tof
f,i
sbet
ter

t
oent
eri
ntoheavenwi
thoneeyet
hant
obedes
troyedwi
tht
he

t
wo,
isani
ll
ust
rat
ionf
romt
hewor
d,Godi
snotas
kingyout
o

pl
uckof
fyoureyesbutt
ores
trai
nfr
omwhat
everyout
hinkt
hat

gi
vesyouwor
ldl
ypl
eas
ure,
what
evert
hatwi
llmakeyour
una
r
aceandatt
heendGodwi
lls
ayt
oyou,
“goawayf
orI
know

younot
”suc
hshoul
dbeavoi
ded,
remembert
hos
ewhol
ookt
o

hi
mforhel
pwi
llber
adi
antwi
thj
oy,
nos
hadowofs
hamewi
ll

dar
kent
hei
rfac
es,
Tamar
,Goddi
dnots
howmeanyt
hingabout

mar
riage,
andI
’
mnotwor
ried,
neverwasandneverwi
llbe,
if

byt
omor
rowhes
aidi
syouTamar
,Iwi
llbegl
adt
oembr
ace

youasmywi
feandbui
ldaGodl
yfami
lywi
thyou,
buti
fGod

s
aidi
soneunbel
ieveroutt
her
e,orpaganwor
shi
peri
nthe

s
treets
ervi
ngdi
ff
erentgods
,sobei
t,I
wil
lref
ormhert
obea

Godl
ywoman,
ands
hewi
llc
omet
oknowt
heonet
rueGod,
I’
m

f
oll
owi
ngGod’
sleadi
ng,
anywher
ehel
eadsmet
oIwi
llgo,

f
ocusyourmi
ndonhi
manddonotbedi
str
act
edwi
thmar
riage

oranyt
hing,
Godi
sloveandi
nhi
myouwi
llf
inds
olac
e.Ther
e’s

abat
tleahead,
notaphys
icalwaryouc
ans
ee,
abat
tlet
hat

r
equi
resyougoi
ngonyourkneeandpr
ayi
ngt
oGodt
o

i
nter
vene,
I’
mnotaper
fec
tman,
butI
wal
kinhi
sown

per
fec
tion,
inhi
sgr
acet
hathehasmadepos
sibl
eforal
l,

t
hroughhi
ssonJ
esusChr
ist
,youhaveawor
ktodoher
e,

t
hat
’swhyGodbr
oughtyoubac
k,I
wil
lal
waysbepr
ayi
ngf
or

youandGodwi
llhel
pyout
oknowal
lyouneedt
oknowwhen

t
het
imec
omes
…

I
smi
led,
andI
knewI
wast
rul
ythi
nki
ngaheadofGod,
Inever

as
kedhi
mwhathi
swi
lli
sforme,
Iwasonl
ybei
ngf
ant
asi
zed

aboutmar
riage,
havi
ngc
hil
dren,
andbei
ngwi
thAbel
,If
orgot

t
hatGodhi
msel
fins
tit
utedmar
riagebef
oret
hebegi
nni
ngof
t
hewor
ld,
whenhemademan,
Adamandoutofhi
sri
bsc
ame

hi
scompani
onawoman,
Eve,
Godknowst
hebes
tformemor
e

t
hanI
do.
Iqui
ckl
yrepent
edofmyunknowns
inasAbels
pread

i
ttomyf
ace,
andI
’
mal
waysgl
adt
ohaveAbelt
oleadand

c
orr
ectme,
Godi
severmer
cif
ult
ohi
schi
ldr
en.

Lat
ert
hatdayI
wentt
oladyphi
nandknel
tingr
eet
ing,
shewas

happyt
oseeme,
andwet
alkedaboutf
ewt
hings
,mos
tlyabout

Zi
tyandt
hebaby,
bef
oreI
lef
t.

Ont
het
hir
dday,
LadyPhi
ncal
ledmeagai
nandl
eadmet
oLor
d

Rees
eChamber
,hewasc
rit
ical
lyi
ll
,Ladyphi
ntol
dmet
hey

havet
rieddi
ff
erentt
hingonhi
m,evenObi
avol
unt
eer
edt
ous
e

hermagi
cal
lypower
,butheneverget
swel
l,i
nst
eadt
hemas
ter

gotwor
st,
andt
hemas
teral
waysbat
tlewi
thunknowns
pir
iti
n

hi
sdr
eam,
hehar
dlys
leepatni
ghtbec
aus
eoft
hef
ear
,renown

phys
ici
anskeptc
omi
ngandheneveri
mpr
ove,

I
wonder
edwhyAbeldi
dnotdoanyt
hing,
andi
mmedi
atel
yI

t
houghtoft
hatawor
ddr
oppedi
nmyhear
t,Godwor
ksi
naway

wec
annotunder
stand.

I
satbes
idehi
m,andal
thoughi
twas
n’tal
lowedI
tookt
he

mas
terhandbol
dlyandhet
urnedhi
sfac
eandl
ookedatme,
he

managet
ocur
vehi
sli
psi
ntoal
it
tles
mil
e,l
adyphi
nst
ood

behi
ndme,
Ibowmyheadwi
thoutal
ter
ingawor
d,I
jus
tshot

myeyes
,andpr
ayedl
oudl
yinmymi
nd,
rebuki
ngt
heenemys
o

t
hati
twi
llf
lewf
romhi
m,I
prayedf
oradi
vineheal
ingonhi
m

wi
tht
heLor
d’swor
dthats
ayshet
ookours
icknes
sandbor
ein
hi
msel
fourdi
seas
e…andbyhi
sst
ripewear
eheal
ed,
Ipr
ayed

s
oloudl
yinmyhear
tthatal
lIwant
edt
odowass
creamedasI

f
eltt
hepowerofGod,

Af
tert
hepr
ayerI
lef
thi
mandr
etur
ntot
heouthous
e,I
saw

Vi
masI
wasl
eavi
ngandhes
toppedmebyt
heexi
tdoor
,and

al
lhedi
dasus
ualwast
olookatmewi
thoutawor
dbef
oreI

bowandl
eft
.

Byt
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningI
wasc
all
edt
hatl
adyphi
nwasc
all
ing

meandwhenI
went
,shet
hankedmet
hatLor
dRees
esl
ept

t
hroughoutt
heni
ghtaf
ters
ever
alweeksofbat
tli
ngi
nhi
s

s
leepandhei
sfeel
ingabi
tbet
tert
oday,
unl
ikebef
ore,
shewas

gr
atef
ult
omeandI
ret
urnedal
lthegl
oryt
oGodwhomadei
t

pos
sibl
e.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
.

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04,
12:
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bus
ines
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t,whi
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est
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m

as
signedabl
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ort
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obs
inc
ehi
sfat
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tdomuc
hanymor
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mandAbelwer
emos
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Abelhar
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omehomeanymor
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hi
magai
n,butI
wasal
wayspr
ayi
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orhi
m.

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keptpr
ayi
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e,I
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eroomt
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elfi
n

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ormet
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hingandever
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lnes
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lypr
ayi
ngf
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m,I
got
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schamberonl
ywhen

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’
msummoned,
ashewasi
mpr
ovi
ngdaybyday,
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hi
squi
ckr
ecover
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lst
oppedal
lthel
ear
nedandl
ocal

phys
ici
ans
,andot
hermagi
ci
anands
orc
erer
sli
keObi
awho

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hinkst
heyhavepowert
omakehi
mwel
l,buti
nst
eadt
hey

makehi
mwor
st,
Iwasnowt
heonl
yoneal
lowedt
oLor
d

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e’sc
hamber
,somet
imewhi
lepr
ayi
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orhi
mIf
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mys
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heyhave

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ait
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shear
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o

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ecei
vedheal
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nther
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imesi
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oqui
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oraver
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ng,
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tly

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ount
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ayi
ngI
jus
t

want
edt
osi
toutt
her
esi
nceI
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hdoi
ng,
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r

wasc
oolandt
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att
her
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ty,
Adol
fo,
themer
chant
,li
ttl
eJonandt
het
wins
,Eur
a,

Rhonda,
Lami
,themi
dwi
fe.
mymi
ndwasj
ustbus
ywander
ing

al
lar
oundt
hepeopl
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omet
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lent
lypr
ayf
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Zi
ty,
herques
tandherl
argeappet
itef
oryout
hfulpl
eas
urei
s

goi
ngt
odohermor
ehar
mthangood,
ifs
hekeepent
ert
aini
ng

Okr
ashewi
llf
alldeeperi
ntodar
knes
s,whi
chwi
llbet
oodeep

f
orhert
oseeawayout
,Ial
sopr
ayedt
hatGodwi
lls
et

c
onf
usi
onandt
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ebet
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aandZi
tys
othatt
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an

s
epar
ate,

I
thoughtoff
atherandmot
her
,mybr
otherJ
oe,
Kat
hyandDeb,

t
heyar
eal
lres
tingi
nthebos
omoft
hel
ord,
somedayI
wil
ljoi
n

t
hem,
thi
sear
thi
snotmypl
aceasAbelwi
lls
ay,
ther
e’sl
if
e

evenaf
terdeat
h,butf
ornow,
IknowI
gotwor
ktodoher
e,

whi
chwi
llnotbef
ini
shi
ngs
oon,
Isomet
imewi
sht
ohave

c
hil
drenofmyown,
andal
sohaveamanl
ikeAbel
,whowi
ll

l
ovemewi
tht
hel
oveofGod,
Iwi
shf
orever
yonei
nthi
s

ki
ngdomt
ocomet
oknowGodandt
urnf
romt
hei
revi
l,j
ustas

t
heLor
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dinhi
swor
d

“
ifmypeopl
ewhoar
ecal
ledbymynamewi
llhumbl
e

t
hems
elvesandpr
ay,
seekmyf
aceandt
urnf
romt
hei
rwi
cked

ways
,thenI
wil
lhearf
romheavenandf
orgi
vet
hei
rsi
nsand

healt
hei
rland…

“
Lor
dwhatc
oul
dbeyourwi
llf
orme,
Ireal
lydowantt
obewi
th

amant
hatf
ear
sandl
ovesyou,
somebodyl
ikeAbel
,Iwantt
o

bewi
thamanwhowi
llbui
ldmeupwhenI
’
mdown,
cor
rec
ts
meandpr
aywi
thme,
andt
her
e’snoot
hert
hanAbel
,Lor
dhei
s

wai
ti
ngf
oryout
otel
lhi
mwhatt
odobec
aus
ehet
hinksyou

haveot
herpl
ansf
orbot
hofus
,yous
aidwes
houl
das
kandwe

s
hal
lrec
eive,
seekwes
hal
lfi
nd,
andwhenweknoc
kthedoor

s
hal
lbeopenunt
ous
,Lor
dI’
mfer
vent
lyas
kingt
hatI
may

r
ecei
veal
lthebl
ess
ingyouhavei
nst
oref
ormeandf
orAbel
…

buti
nal
loft
his
,ibec
omenot
hingt
hatyoumaybeever
ythi
ng

i
nmyl
if
e,l
etonl
yyourwi
llbedone,
isnotaboutwhatI
want

butyourpl
anandpur
pos
eformyl
if
e,f
ather
,letyourwi
llbe

don…

“
Youar
eher
eal
one,
tal
kingt
oyour
sel
f,j
ustl
ikeAbeldoes
,

ps
yche…t
hat
’sc
raz
y,I
wonderhowyouandAbeldoest
hat
,

t
alki
ngt
oyour
sel
fli
kemadpeopl
e,ar
eyoumi
ssi
ngAbel
,…you

havenotgonet
obedyet
…hopeyouar
ewel
l…

I
wass
tar
tledasI
tur
nedands
awVi
m,heappr
oac
hedands
at

bes
ideme,
ast
hel
ightc
omi
ngf
romt
hef
ount
ainbul
b

s
hadowedus

“
Myl
ord,
I’
mdoi
ngwel
l,I
jus
tli
kel
ist
eni
ngt
othes
oundoft
he

f
ount
ain,
isl
ovel
youther
e…

“
Yeah,
iti
s,havenotr
eal
lyt
akennot
iceofi
tunt
ilnow,
Isee

whyAbelandyous
itouther
emos
tpar
tofyoureveni
ng…

Wewer
esi
lent
,bef
orehes
pokeagai
n…

“
Tamar
,isqui
etobvi
ousyoul
oveAbelandc
an’
tloveanot
her
,I

knowyouar
eaChr
ist
ianj
ustl
ikeAbeli
s,I
havec
omet
oknow

t
hatwi
thoutas
oot
hsayert
ell
ingmewhati
sgoi
ngon,
andyou
t
wof
elti
sonl
ynor
malt
omar
ryaf
ell
owbel
iever
…isf
inebutI

don’
twantyout
ogethar
m,I
havehar
dyoupr
ayoutl
oudwhen

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pas
sedt
hought
heout
hous
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Abeli
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m

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ather
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ty,
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atherand

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soAbel
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“
Thankyoumyl
ord,
Iamver
ycar
eful
,ampl
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’
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butwehave

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goodt
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andI
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ry,
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ual
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roms
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ear
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or

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ot

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tal
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uddenl
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ust

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ting

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odo,
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atherpr
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ways

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ed,
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tar
tedt
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ormeTamar
,thej
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neyof

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omi
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terman,
andI
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lyout
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ora

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ustwai
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atef
ult
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ty,
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essbutI
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ne

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ovewhenyouat
tendt
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ty,
int
hel
if
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atherandi
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if
e,al
lthi
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mgr
atef
ult
oyou,
Tamar
…

“
I’
mhonor
edt
obeas
ervanti
nthi
sfi
nehous
ehol
dandt
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ve

awonder
fulf
ami
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orwhat
evert
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pleas
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ee

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riend,
jus
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keyouc
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ord,
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riend,
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hing,
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oundyouandt
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nal
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aid

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ookat

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feels
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ee

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ul

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est
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odeat
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tsavet
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ist
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ist
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ievei
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hatagods
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mtoo,
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tdonotunder
stand…I
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lydonotunder
stand

whyt
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akeal
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iskbutI
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erel
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o

happent
oyou…doyouunder
stand.
.

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ord…Vi
m.I
dounder
stand,
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ors
peaki
ngwi
th

me,
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lyappr
eci
ate,
mayI
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inuet
obeabl
ess
ingt
othi
s

hous
ehol
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feels
oac
cept
edandi
mpor
tantwi
thyourwor
ds,

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essyoumyl
or…Vi
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donme…i
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aket
imef
orme

t
ogetus
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all
ingyoubynamebutI
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ltr
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kingaway,
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ul

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eel
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oundmys
elf

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ingwhoI
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est
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ng

get
tingi
nthi
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ehol
dandout
side,
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ythoughtt
hat

c
amet
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ndi
sthati
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ybeGod.

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wentt
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echamberasI
was

s
ummoned,
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msi
tti
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ywi
fe,
ladyPhi
nwas

bes
idehi
m,I
satoppos
itet
hemasI
wasas
kedt
osi
t

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wer
emai
ngr
atef
ult
oyouTamar
,I’
mgl
adt
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tys
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ff
erentt
hings
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ff
erentgodandgoddes
sand

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hinghappened,
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ilyouc
ameandI
sawmys
elf

get
tingbet
ter
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hil
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mgl
adt
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fe

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ckedyouf
orZi
tyanddi
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ist
ent
oherpl
eai
nthe

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nni
ngt
ochangeyou,
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yisal
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ngc
hil
dandc
anal
sobe

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ff
icul
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wayswantherways
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ent
sknows

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tert
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hedoes
,andwhenweas
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foi
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wasputi
nmyhear
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fel
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omeoutof

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hemar
riage,
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mbutac
cept
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hes
aw

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hehadnoc
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ce,
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hemot
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imes
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ortt
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edt
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and

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ameagai
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atel
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terbi
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ome,
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icknes
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ameevenwor
st,
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tiont
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ll

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lows
ucht
ohappen,
sher
efus
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omehomedur
ingher

pr
egnanc
ywhenhermot
heras
kedhert
ocomeandevenwhen

hermot
hers
entmes
saget
hats
hec
oul
dn’
tmakei
ttoher

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iver
yti
mes
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adorbot
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ed,
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shs
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ist
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,pr
obabl
ythebaby

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ed,
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hings

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hatgoesoni
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fo’
shous
e,I
knowyouar
emeantt
oal
ways

s
uppor
tyourmi
str
ess
,andwoul
dn’
twantt
obet
rayhert
o

anyone,
wewi
llnotmakeyoudot
hatasmuc
haswewantt
o

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kyouhows
hei
sli
vingwi
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fo,
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athernotas
k

agai
n,I
liveZi
tyf
ort
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pher
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hewi
lls
til
l

bearanot
herc
hil
d,andwhenVi
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nal
lymar
riesheal
sowi
ll

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andc
hil
dren,
bec
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ess
ing

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d,s
othemai
nreas
onwhyI
cal
ledyouher
eisf
oryou

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otel
lmehowyoudi
dit
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ayawor
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ustf
ew

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imes
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ayedqui
etl
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dyou

hel
ist
enedt
oyouandheal
edme,
Iknowyous
erves
ameGod
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,youar
eaChr
ist
ian,
AbelI
sbuthei
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seboy,

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sli
kemys
on,
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wayst
oldhi
mtobec
aref
ulnot

bec
aus
eofmebutbec
aus
eoft
heunknownenemi
esl
ivi
ng

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,ther
ear
esl
avesi
nthi
shous
ehol
dwhoar
enotwhat

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heys
eemt
obe,
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houghI
knowi
tmaybedi
ff
icul
tand

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mpos
sibl
eforas
lavet
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everhappensher
etot
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treetbutI
sti
llwantever
yonet
obec
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ulbec
aus
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t

knowwhoyourenemyi
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obec
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ulandI

knowAbelmus
thavet
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oal
sobec
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ult
oo,
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ight

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deher
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othatyouwi
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oldoutt
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side

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llnotbeabl
etos
aveyouwi
thmypower
s,

Abelhasneverdi
spl
ayedhi
sfai
ths
oobvi
ousl
ikeyoudi
dthat

daywhenyoubol
dlyt
ookmyhandsands
ilent
lypr
ayed

f
ervent
ly.
meandmywi
fewantt
oknowt
hisGod,
wewantyou

t
otel
lusabouthi
m,donotbeaf
rai
d…

Att
hatmomentVi
mknoc
kedandent
ered,
hel
ist
enedashi
s

f
atherasheur
gedmet
otel
lthemaboutGod,
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pokeup

bef
orei
coul
dsayanyt
hing

“
fat
her
,yout
oowantt
ohearaboutt
hegodoft
heChr
ist
ian,
you

wer
eonl
yheal
edbyTamar
’smagi
calpower
,orbyamar
e

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oinc
identnotbys
omegod,
byt
het
imes
hes
tar
ttel
li
ngyou

abouthergods
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llf
eelpr
oudt
otakei
ttot
hes
treetand

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tar
tshar
ingwi
thpeopl
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chwi
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oo

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iskyf
ather
,I’
mnotc
omf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
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ustdon’
twanther

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ngl
ikeAbelwhos
eemt
obes
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sgodandhe
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ous
,andAbeli
sonl
yal
ivebec
aus
eyoui
ssued

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ningonhi
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nghi
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ouc
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e,Abeli
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se

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ayoutl
oud,
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eehi
mpr
ay

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otheuns
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oud,
eveni
nhi
schamber
,butI
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ayi
ngoutl
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heout
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e,I
jus
tfear

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orher
,donotdot
hisf
ather
,ins
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cehert
obec
aref
ul

notmaki
ngherf
eels
hec
angoar
ounds
hout
ingI
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ma

Chr
ist
ian,
I’
maChr
ist
ian,
ands
hewi
lls
uddenl
ydi
sappearand

noonewi
llhearofheragai
nandwhens
ear
chi
scar
riedout

s
hewi
llbef
ounddeads
omewher
e,s
tonedbyt
hepeopl
ewho

hat
eshert
ypeort
ornapar
tbyt
heani
mal
s,t
het
houghtofi
t

makesmes
ickI
don’
twantt
ogor
iski
ngherl
if
efornot
hing,
for

agodwhoc
annotevens
aveher
…

“
Thef
ool
ishnes
sofGodi
swi
sert
hant
hewi
sdomofmenand

t
heweaknes
sofGodi
sst
rongert
hanmi
ght
ymen…Forhet
ook

ouri
nfi
rmi
ti
esandc
arr
iedawayourdi
seas
es…myl
ord’
shand

i
snott
oos
hor
ttos
avehi
speopl
eandhei
snotaweakGod

t
hathec
annotdel
iverusf
romt
hepl
otoft
hewi
cked,
forhe

dr
iedupt
her
eds
eawi
thhi
scommand,
tur
ningt
her
iveri
nto

des
ert
.Thel
ordi
snotdeaft
hathec
annothear
,hei
snota

Godmadebymor
talmen,
hei
sJehovah,
fori
nhi
mIl
ive,
move

andhavemybei
ng.

Ever
ywher
efel
lsi
lentast
hewor
dofGodf
lowsoutt
hroughme,

Vi
mcoul
dn’
tspeakf
urt
herashet
urnedandwal
kedout
,I

under
standhi
sfearhewant
smet
obes
afebuthei
sal
so
pr
event
inghi
spar
ent
sfr
omr
ecei
vings
alvat
ionwhi
chwass
o

c
los
etot
hem,
thedevi
lwant
edt
ous
ehi
mwi
thouthi
m

knowi
ngandi
hel
dont
othewor
dthats
ays
,“s
ubmi
tyour
sel
fto

Godandr
esi
stt
hedevi
landhewi
llf
lewf
romyou”andt
hatwas

whatI
did,
asI
spoket
hewor
dthatc
omest
omyhear
toutl
oud

wi
thoutf
ear
,Lor
dRees
eandl
adyPhi
nseems
hoc
kedatt
he

s
trongwor
dthatf
lowf
rommyl
ips
,andhes
aidI
shoul
dgo,
he

wi
lls
ummonmet
omor
rowt
ospeakaboutmyGodt
othem,
I

t
hankedt
hemagai
nandwal
kedout
.

AsI
wal
keddownt
hel
ongpas
saget
hatl
eadst
otheouthous
e,

s
omebodys
uddenl
ydr
ewmef
rombehi
ndandwhenI
tur
nedi
t

wasVi
m,heas
kedmet
ofol
lowhi
m,I
res
ist
edbuthes
eem

s
eri
ous
,het
ookmyhandsandt
ookmet
ohi
schamber
,Iwas

notaf
rai
dal
thoughhes
eemangr
y.

“
whati
swr
ongwi
thyou,
doyouwantt
ogetyour
sel
fki
ll
ed,
I

knowyourki
ndofper
sonTamar
,youc
anbef
ear
les
swhent
hat

s
pir
itc
omesuponyou,
Iwi
tnes
sedi
tatt
hef
ount
ainmanyyear
s

agowheny
ous
toodupt
ome,
andt
hat
’swhatwi
llhappen

whenyouf
orgetwher
eyouar
eandgoar
oundt
alki
ngt
o

ever
yoneaboutyourgod,
itwi
llbedanger
ous
,wor
shi
pwi
thi
n

t
hishous
eands
tops
preadi
ngt
hatl
iest
omypar
ent
s,

ever
ybodyc
annotbec
raz
yint
hishous
e,af
ters
peaki
ngt
o

t
hemyouwi
llf
eelyougott
hatpowert
ogooutt
her
eandt
alkt
o

anyoneyouf
eelt
hatneedsr
epent
ant
…andt
hat
’smywor
ry…

“
Itot
all
yunder
standyourf
ear
smyl
or…Vi
m,butpl
eas
edonot
s
topmef
roms
peaki
ngoutt
oyourpar
ent
s,I
’
mal
waysc
aref
ul

outt
her
eandnot
hingwi
llhappent
ome,
andeveni
fsomet
hing

happenst
henl
eti
tbet
otheLor
d’sgl
ory,
Idi
etot
hewor
ldand

l
ivef
orGod.
.

“
thati
sexac
tlywhatI
’
msayi
ngTamar
,doyouhearyour
sel
f,

dyi
ngt
othewor
ldandl
ivi
ngf
oryourgod,
doyouevent
hink

deat
hisani
nter
est
ingt
hingwi
tht
hewayyoumakei
tsound,

onc
eyoudi
ethati
stheendyouc
an’
tli
vef
oranygodagai
n,

s
topal
lthi
smadnes
s…pl
eas
e

“
Youwi
llnotunder
standt
hewaysofGod,
foreveni
fheal
lows

ust
owoundhewi
llal
sobi
ndsusupandi
fhes
tri
kesushi
s

handwi
llhealus
.I’
mnotc
raz
yandI
’
mnots
car
edwhatt
he

peopl
eoutt
her
ecandof
orwi
thGodI
’
msec
ured…

“
Iwi
shI
cant
alkyououtoft
his
,Iwi
shI
canmakeyoul
ist
en

ands
eet
hedangerahead,
i…I
don’
twantanyt
hingt
ohappent
o

youTamar
…

“
Not
hingwi
llhappent
ome,
whyar
eyous
owor
riedaboutme,

whydoyouwor
rys
omuc
hmor
ethanmys
….

“
Is…bec
aus
e…I
loveyouTamar
…Ir
eal
lydo…i
…ihavebei
ng

want
ingt
otel
lyouf
orl
ongbutal
way
slos
tmyc
our
age,
ihave

nur
sedt
hef
eel
ingandc
an’
tkeepi
tinmyhear
tanymor
e…i
love

you…i
…

Hepaus
edandl
ookedupatmeasi
fhehass
aidaf
orbi
dden

wor
dwhi
chhedi
dnotwantt
osay,
hel
ookedl
ikeac
hil
dthat

wasbeat
enashemovedc
los
ert
ome,
I
wass
hoc
kedathi
srevel
ati
onandI
lookedathi
mpuz
zled,
I

havenevert
houghtofi
tbef
oret
hats
omebodyl
ikeVi
mwi
ll

ac
tual
lyf
alli
nlovewi
thas
lavegi
rll
ikeme,
whenI
’
mnoti
nhi
s

c
las
sorl
evel
,hemovedc
los
eenought
omeandI
bentmy

headhel
if
tedmyheadupandgent
lyki
ssedme,
heki
ssedme

deepl
yli
kehehasbei
nghol
dingbac
ksomuc
hemot
ionandI

whenI
managedt
opul
lawayf
romhi
mhes
tar
tedapol
ogi
zi
ng,

I
wass
hoc
katt
hes
peedatwhi
chever
ythi
ngwashappeni
ng

ar
oundmeandVi
m.

I
qui
ckl
yranoutofhi
schamberandi
gnor
edhi
mashec
all
ed

met
ost
op.

I
wass
hoc
kfr
omt
hewhol
ereal
izat
iont
hatVi
mlovedmeand

al
sot
hes
uddenki
ss,
Ihaveneverbei
ngki
ssedi
nmyl
if
e

bef
oreandwi
thmyf
irs
texper
ienc
eIdon’
tknowwhatt
othi
nk

ofi
t.NowI
under
standwhyhewass
owor
riedaboutme.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
.

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ing…

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etandI

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hous
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Vi
mtr
ieds
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all
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peakt
omebutI
wasal
waysonar
unas

I
tri
edever
ythi
ngpos
sibl
etoavoi
dhi
mdes
pit
eIwant
edt
ohear

hi
mtel
lmehel
ovesmeagai
nandal
sohol
dmei
nhi
sar
mand

ki
ssedmel
ikehedi
dthatdaybuts
omet
hingbi
ggert
hanme

waskeepi
ngmei
nchec
k,s
oIkeptavoi
dinghi
m.

I
rani
ntoObi
aoneoft
hos
edayswhi
let
ryi
ngt
oavoi
dVi
m

“
thedevi
lhasr
etur
ntot
akewhatbel
ongst
omeandt
ocaus
e

c
onf
usi
onagai
n…

“
Obi
a,ni
ceseei
ngyoutoo…howar eyoudoi
ng…Hi
oheneomeon+233544142683t
ogetmor
e
s
tor
iesf
romheadquar
terspage.

“
Itwi
llneverbeni
cet
omeett
hewi
tchher
sel
f,whatar
eyou

doi
ngher
eagai
nTamar
,It
houghtt
heys
entyouawayt
oZi
ty,

di
dyous
tealors
leptwi
thherhus
bandt
hatmadehert
osend

youbac
kher
e,youar
enots
uppos
etobeher
enowt
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was

al
readyf
indi
ngf
avorbef
oret
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terandmi
str
ess
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old

t
hemI
canhealLor
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venac
hanc
etot
rymy
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ererpowerandi
twasabi
goppor
tuni
ty,
hedi
dn’
tgetbet
ter

butI
wass
til
lbur
ningi
ncens
esandi
nvoki
ngmor
epowerf
or

hi
sheal
ingwhenyouj
ustappear
edl
ikeawi
tchandt
ookmy

gl
ory,
andnowhei
swel
landt
heyar
egi
vingyoual
lthe

gr
ati
tudet
hatI
des
erve,
whi
chwasmeantf
orme,
Iwant
edt
o

healhi
msot
hatI
canal
sogai
nbac
kthehear
tofVi
m,maybe

hewi
lll
ikemeagai
nandal
lowmei
ntohi
schamber
,andi
fI’
m

al
lowedevenonc
einhi
schamberagai
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ert
ainl
y

bec
omemi
ne,
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ngt
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eal
one,
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llas
k

al
lthes
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ings
pir
itandaddanyt
hingt
hatwi
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m

r
emai
nmi
nef
orever
…Ihadpl
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orever
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ngnowyouhave

c
omeagai
ntos
cat
teri
t,youhavec
omewi
thyours
trange

bei
ngt
hatf
oll
owsyouar
oundl
ikeanaur
a,I
don’
tli
keyouandI

wi
llmakes
ureI
findawayt
opoi
sont
hehear
toft
hemas
ter

andmi
str
essagai
nstyou…

“
okay,
goodl
ucki
ndoi
ngt
hat
,butt
hel
astt
imeI
chec
ked,

whenyout
riedt
opoi
sont
hei
rhear
ttowar
dsmebyt
ell
ingt
hem

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stol
eshel
li
ngandgavei
toutt
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eint
hes
treet
,not

knowi
ngi
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hel
li
ng,
yout
riedwi
tht
hatbuti
tdi
dnot

wor
koutf
inef
oryou,
qui
ttr
yingObi
a,bec
aus
eyouwi
llal
ways

beal
oos
er,
Ias
sur
eyout
hat
,forgr
eat
eri
shet
hati
sinmet
hat

het
hati
sint
hewor
ld,
fori
beart
hemar
koft
heLor
d..
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m

unt
ouc
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efort
heenemyands
oisever
yonei
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e

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omyours
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acet
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iveandhavepeac
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’
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rai
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astt
imet
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invoket
hei
rpower
,cut

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les
handbl
eedf
ort
hemdoal
lyouwantbuti
swi
llc
omet
o

not
hing,
Ihaveabi
gGodwhoi
sAl
phaandOmega,
andhehas

gi
venhi
schi
ldr
enpowerovert
hewi
cked…andi
nhi
snameI

r
ebukeyouandever
ypoweryouar
eus
ingt
ooper
ate,
itwi
llbe

r
ender
edus
eles
sinJ
esusname…

“
ooh…s
top,
stopi
t,donotdar
esayt
hatagai
n,s
oyouar
ea

Chr
ist
ian,
Isee,
Venust
hegoddes
sofki
ndnes
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iver
ed

youi
ntomyhand,
youar
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cy,
andI
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lnotl
ist
en

t
oyourpl
eai
fyoubegmenott
otel
lanyone,
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llexpos
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I

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ellt
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terandt
hemi
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ess
,andI
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mthat

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est
hem,
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ed

your
sel
f,andI
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ureyous
uff
eranddi
e…t
hemas
ter

mus
tknowofi
t…

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nandwal
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tood,

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urpr
isi
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ooki
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otel
l

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t
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iani
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hegoest
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th

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amebac
kbr
ief
lyandmyhear
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ad,
Icoul
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t

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otel
lhi
mwhatwasgoi
ngon,
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fGodhar
dmypr
ayer

andbr
oughthi
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hef
ount
aint
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,myi
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ionwast
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ellhi
mmyl
it
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roubl
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ost
artwi
thi
t,

andhowhewi
llf
eelaboutVi
mki
ssi
ngmeordec
lar
inghi
s

f
eel
ing,
Isor
tforabet
terwayt
ost
artt
hec
onver
sat
ion

“
yous
eemt
oli
ket
hepor
tmor
ethanher
e,as
idet
hewor
kwhat

makesi
tsoi
nter
est
ing,
youhar
dlyc
omehomewheneveryou

t
ravelt
othes
eapor
t,t
ellmeaboutyourwor
kandhowmany

wor
ker
sar
ether
e…whydoyoul
iket
hatpl
acemor
e…

“
Iwas
n’tmeantt
ocomebac
know,
Iwass
uppos
etobet
her
e

f
ort
henextt
hreemont
hbef
orec
omi
nghome,
thepor
tisaver
y

l
ovel
ypl
ace,
des
pit
eIhaveal
ott
odot
her
e,I
haveenough

t
imef
orGodandI
don’
tfeeli
nter
rupt
edors
car
edwhenI
pray

t
oGod,
ever
ybodywor
kingt
her
ear
eal
lunderme,
theyar
eup

t
othi
rtywor
ker
s,mos
tlys
lavesandf
ewf
reemen,
Ior
gani
sed

andmakes
ureever
ythi
ngi
spr
oper
lydone,
wor
kiss
til
longoi
ng

t
her
eatt
hismoment
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ikel
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ngouti
ntot
hes
ea,
Ist
ayup

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ateatni
ght
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ngt
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dsheavenands
hout
ingpr
ais
est
o

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ker
sther
ehavec
omet
oknowt
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rue

Godt
hroughme,
andI
keepbui
ldi
ngt
hem,
Godl
edmet
o

bapt
istt
hos
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ieveandac
cept
edChr
istast
hei
rLor
dand

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avi
or,
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istt
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ightt
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eint
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erast
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ace

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hel
oveofGod,
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ntendt
ost
ayf
ort
woort
hreemor
e

mont
hsbef
orec
omi
ngbutGodputt
hedes
iref
ormet
ocome

home,
hewant
edmehome,
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tit
,Iwasaf
rai
dthats
omet
hing

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aus
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hez
eal
,It
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ordRees
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lypr
ayf
orhi
mandever
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hehous
ehol
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eal
soi
nmyt
houghtTamar
,andwhenI
came

homeever
yones
eemt
obeatpeac
e,andI
star
tedwonder
ing

whyGodbr
oughtmehome,
iwi
lls
tayoneweekher
e,wai
ti
ng

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ort
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pos
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leGodas
kedmet
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omani
fes
t,

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terwhi
chI
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ogobac
k,bec
aus
eIhaves
heepatt
hepor
t

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opas
tur
e,whi
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edt
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eel
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edoi
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act
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orebuket
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itual
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you

havet
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andf
irmTamar
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act
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omest
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eedt
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ebukei
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atel
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peopl
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stand

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ave

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esusChr
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vat
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hroughChr
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s,donotl
ethi
m

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ethe

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ingyoudown,
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aidbuthedoes
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l,

andhewi
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God,
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nstanypowert
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ant
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o

God,
takec
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ldTamar
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uleasGodhas
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li
ty,
Tamar
…ther
e’sal
ott
obedone,
Icr
y

aheadoft
imef
oryou,
Iseet
roubl
elur
kingar
oundyou,
ifyou

s
eewhatGodi
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ingt
omeyouwi
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aket
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c
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romyou,
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esuspr
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Get
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ily,
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mto

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e’snot
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urki
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head,
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et

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ng,
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tywi
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oryout
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row,

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riedandt
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sti
syett
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bec
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odo

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me,
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eto

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leef
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esus
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thyou.

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fmeandI
fel
l

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orme,
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th

t
hehol
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ret
urnedt
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hamberI
kept

pr
ayi
ng,

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tys
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ormej
ustl
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aid,
andI
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t

wi
thLami
,Adol
fo’
sboy,
whoc
amet
ogetme,
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erbi
ddi
ngt
he

mas
terandmi
str
essgoodbye,
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oundt
hatday,
I

s
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asmi
li
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oAbelwhodr
ew

mei
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ewpr
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ayi
ng

goodbye,
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tedl
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gots
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qui
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tywas

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Adol
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ati
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s,and

Adol
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ll
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nal
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tygo.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.
..
.

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ty

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efuland

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ohappyandyouwi
lls
eet
he

goodmani
nhi
mandl
ovehi
m,I
don’
twantyout
omakea

mi
stake,
thatwaswhyI
askedi
fthi
sisr
eal
lywhatyouwant
…

“
Yes
,iswhatI
wantTamar
,yous
houl
dn’
tevenbeas
kingt
his
bec
aus
eyouknowhowmuc
hIhaves
uff
eredi
nthi
smar
riage,

i
sti
met
obef
ree.
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obewi
tht
hemanI
real
lywant
,

Chakani
sal
lIwantTamar
,nothi
sfat
her
,It
oldmot
herand

f
athert
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llnevert
alkmeoutofi
t,I
wantt
obef
reef
rom

Adol
fo,
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tlovehi
mandI
canneverl
ovehi
m,I
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br
eat
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hel
if
eIhaveal
wayswant
ed,
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arewhatAdol
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ewor
ried

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myourmi
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ess
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doyou

havet
osuppor
tme,
eit
hergoodorbadbec
aus
eyoubel
ongt
o

menott
omypar
ent
sorAdol
fo,
doyouunder
standmeTamar
…

“
Yesmyl
ady
.

I
wentt
oseeAdol
foi
nhi
sst
udyoneday,
andhewast
alki
ng

andl
aughi
ngwi
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adt
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one

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usedus

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Yous
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fo,
youar
enotr
eal
lybot
her
edt
hat

Zi
tyi
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ngyou…youdon’
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l.
.

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li
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hinkaboutt
heunf
ort
unat
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if
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hinkabout

myl
atewi
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edl
eavi
ngmes
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ter
edandaf
teryear
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bei
ngal
oneort
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nkaboutnow,
andhowt
ofi
ndj
oyagai
n
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fisi
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trangepl
ace,
Tamar
,whenI
dec
idedt
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ry

agai
n,i
twasnotj
ustt
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rybutal
sot
ohaveaf
riendi
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wi
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acompani
on,
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perands
uppor
ter
,Iendedupwi
tha

younggi
rlwhohass
omuc
hpas
sionf
orl
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t

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cedi
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ett
li
ng

wi
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ookmi
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abl
e,I
endedupwi
thal
ady

whodoes
n’tl
ikeorwantmel
ikeI
do,
Iwant
edi
ttowor
k,I

want
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oseemeasbot
hherhus
bandandaf
riend,
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o

r
espec
tmel
ikes
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oherf
ather
,butI
seet
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an

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readyl
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ont
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tedI
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ont
oloveme,
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tfor
ceher,
TamarI
can’
tdot
hatanymor
e,s
hehasmade

herdec
isi
ont
ogoandI
havemademi
net
oac
ceptandbe

happy…

I
wasqui
etasI
wonderi
fAdol
foknowswhoZi
tywaspl
anni
ng

t
oleavehi
mfor
,hashef
oundout
,Iwonder
edi
fAdol
foknows

t
hati
twashi
ssonc
hakant
hathasal
waysbei
ngZi
ty’
swi
sh,

wi
llAdol
foagr
eei
fhef
indsout
,Ial
sowonder
edi
fChakanhas

ac
cept
edt
omar
ryhi
sfat
her
’sexwi
fe,
somanyt
hingswas

goi
ngt
hroughmymi
ndasAdol
fos
peakss
oIas
ked

“
Doyouknowi
fZi
tyi
spl
anni
ngt
omar
ryanot
herman,
ors
he

j
ustwantt
ogobac
ktoherpar
ent
’shous
e,I
mean…doyou

t
hinks
hehasanot
herman…

“
hahahaha,
youar
efunnyTamar
,youar
eZi
ty’
sper
sonalmai
d,
youknowwhatgoesi
nandoutar
oundher
,Is
uppos
etobe

as
kingyout
hatnotyouas
kingme,
butI
under
standt
hatyou

pr
obabl
ydi
dnotwantt
oexpos
eyourmi
str
esst
oanydanger
,

andunf
ort
unat
elyZi
tywoul
dn’
tcar
eifI
knowornot
,butI
do

know,
weal
lknowwhos
hewant
s,I
knewi
twasbec
aus
eof

herChakanmovedout
,Iknews
hewant
edmys
on,
Ist
art
ed

not
ici
ngwhenChakanwass
til
lli
vingher
ebef
orehemoved

out
,Zi
tyal
wayswant
edt
obear
oundhi
m,s
hei
gnor
esme

wheneverChakani
sar
ound,
sheal
wayswantt
obes
eenwi
th

hi
m,s
hegoest
ohi
schamberuni
nvi
ted,
Ihavehar
dthemar
gue

overs
omet
hingwhi
chI
ref
uset
opayat
tent
iont
o,i
sbet
terI

don’
tli
stent
owhatmayki
llme,
Iref
uset
oknoworbel
ievet
hat

Chakanwashavi
ngs
omet
hingwi
thher
,andwhenChakan

s
uddenl
ymovedoutI
knewi
twasbec
aus
eofZi
ty,
mys
on

r
espec
tsmes
omuc
handt
hat
’si
smor
ereas
onI
trus
thi
m,s
o

hec
amedownonedayandI
askedhi
m,hes
tammer
edabi
t,he

di
dn’
twantt
osaybutI
ass
uredhi
mitwasf
ine,
andhet
oldme

t
hathi
mandZi
tyus
etobel
over
s,hewast
heoneZi
tywas

c
omi
ngt
olookf
ori
nthees
tat
ebac
kthenwhenI
sawher
,I

as
kedhi
mwhyhedi
dn’
ttel
lmeal
lthi
swhi
le,
des
pit
eIhadt
his

dr
eamandmyl
atewi
fec
ameands
aids
hewi
lll
eadmet
othe

l
ightbuti
fChakanhast
oldmeaboutherI
woul
dn’
thaveput

myl
eg,
IknowZi
ty’
sfat
herandmot
herwi
llnotwanthert
o

mar
ryayoungermanbec
aus
eoft
hegener
albel
ievet
hatt
he

youngwi
llnotval
uet
hei
rwi
febutt
hos
ewi
thexper
ienc
ewi
ll
,
peopl
egi
veoutt
hei
rdaught
ert
omenol
dert
hant
hemwi
that

l
eas
ttenyear
s,s
oChakanwoul
dn’
thavegot
tenac
hanc
etobe

wi
thZi
ty.
Lat
er,
ithoughtZi
tyhasf
orgot
tenaboutChakanand

wi
llc
omear
oundbuts
heneverdi
d,t
her
ewasadaymys
on

c
ameandwet
alkedatt
hegar
denandZi
tybr
oughtdr
inkonl
y

f
ormys
on,
Ihadmi
nebes
idemeal
ready,
butwi
tht
hes
pec
ial

ways
het
reat
edt
hec
upofdr
inkbykeepi
ngi
tfarf
rommei
t

c
all
sforques
tioni
ng,
butI
didnott
hinkofi
t,I
askedChakant
o

gogetmes
omet
hingi
nsi
deandbef
orehec
amebac
kIhave

al
readyf
ini
shedhi
sdr
ink,
whi
cht
ast
enor
mal
,Ic
an’
tfor
gett
he

wayI
fel
tthatday,
aft
ers
omet
ime,
mybodybegant
oshake,

butI
hel
dunt
omys
elft
hinki
ngI
havehadt
oomuc
htodr
ink,

Chakanl
aterl
eftandI
fel
tbl
ownoutofmys
elf
,mybl
adderwas

s
ohotI
coul
dn’
tevenc
ont
rolmys
elf
,itwasunl
ikeme,
theonl
y

t
hingI
wast
hinki
ngatt
hatt
imewasZi
ty,
Iwant
edZi
ty,
I

neededZi
ty,
Iwasgoi
ngCr
azy,
asI
rant
oherc
hamberwi
thout

t
hinki
ngand…andf
orc
eful
lyl
aywi
thherwi
thoutherc
ons
ent
,I

s
weart
othegodsoft
hisl
and,
Idi
dnotj
ustknowwhathappen

t
ome,
andI
fel
tsobadwhenI
gotmys
elf
,shewasweepi
ng

s
ilent
ly,
Ifel
tli
kebeat
ingmys
elf
,If
elts
tupi
d,f
orc
eful
lymaki
ng

outwi
thawoman,
wif
eornotwi
fei
stot
all
ywr
ong,
soi

apol
ogi
sewi
thever
ythi
ngpos
sibl
e,beggi
nghert
ofor
giveme

ands
hel
aterdi
d,s
oonedayaf
termont
hsoft
hisi
nci
dent
,I

s
tar
tedt
hinki
ngoft
hewhol
ethi
ngagai
n,howI
managet
ofel
l

i
ntos
uchac
t,andI
trac
edi
ttot
hedr
inkt
hatwasmeantf
or
Chakanwhi
chI
drank,
Ijus
tcoul
dn’
tthi
nkofanyt
hingel
se,
I

c
oul
dn’
tthi
nkofanyt
hingt
hatwi
llmakemebehavet
hewayI

di
dthatdaybutevenatt
hat
.Idec
idedt
owavedi
tof
f,c
ount
ing

ont
hei
mpos
sibi
li
tyofZi
tydoi
ngs
uch,
shemayhat
emebut

s
hewi
llnotwantt
oputl
ovepot
ionf
ormys
ont
olaywi
thher
,

I
twasi
mpos
sibl
e,wher
ewi
lls
heevengett
hepor
tionwhen

s
hehar
dlygoout
,sheonl
yhavet
hemer
chant
’swi
fewho

c
omesar
oundandt
heybec
amec
los
efr
iends
,wel
lIt
ooki
tof
f

myc
hes
t,s
orec
ent
lyasever
ythi
ngkeepgoi
ngbadi
nst
eadof

get
tingbet
terbet
weenI
andZi
ty,
onedays
hec
amet
omy

s
tudy,
Iwashappyt
hinki
ngs
hehasc
omet
ochec
kuponme

whi
chwasunl
ikeher
,shet
oldmes
hewant
edoutoft
he

mar
riage,
Ipul
sef
ors
omet
imeass
hec
urs
eands
weart
hati
fI

don’
tlethergos
hewi
llki
llher
sel
f,s
hewass
hout
ingouton

hows
hehat
esmeandal
lthat
,shebol
dlyt
oldmes
hewant
ed

t
obewi
thChakan,
thats
heandChakanwer
emeantt
obe

bef
oreI
camet
omar
ryherandhasmadeherl
if
emi
ser
abl
e,

s
hes
aids
hewant
edc
hakanandanybodyt
hatoppos
eit
,she

wi
llki
llher
sel
forr
unaway
,thatc
hakanal
sowant
sherbuthas

keptawaybec
aus
eshegotmar
riedt
ome,
shekeptt
alki
ng

angr
il
yandi
didn’
tar
gueors
ayawor
d,Zi
tywasonl
ybei
ng

c
hil
dis
handI
tot
all
yunder
standandI
want
edhert
obewi
tht
he

per
sons
hes
aids
hewant
ednotwi
ths
tandi
ngt
hatChakani
s

mys
on,
ifChakans
til
lwant
shert
hent
heys
houl
dbewi
theac
h

ot
her
,shewass
urpr
iseI
sai
dokay,
Itol
dherwewi
lldot
he
nor
mals
epar
ati
ont
ermsands
hec
anbef
reeagai
ntobewi
th

whoevers
hec
hos
etobewi
th,
shewashappyatt
heendbef
ore

l
eavi
ng,
Ical
ledmys
onandt
oldhi
mmydec
isi
onofl
ett
ingZi
ty

go,
Ias
kedhi
mifhes
til
lwantZi
tyandhewass
hoc
katmy

ques
tion,
Itol
dhi
mwear
esepar
ati
ngf
orgood,
Iwanthert
obe

happyandI
equal
lydes
ervet
obehappy,
hewasqui
etf
or

s
omet
imeasI
urgedhi
mnott
obeaf
rai
dtos
peakandhes
aid

hedoes
n’tr
eal
lywanther
,hehasal
readyf
orgot
tenwhat
ever

heandZi
tyhadbef
ore,
aft
ers
hegotmar
riedt
ome,
Itol
dhi
m

t
hathes
houl
dtr
yands
eei
fitwi
llwor
koutbet
weent
hem

s
inc
eZi
tywant
shi
mandmadei
tknownt
omewi
thouts
hame,

hes
aidokay,
hewi
lldot
hat
….andher
ewear
e,bynextweek

Zi
tywi
llf
inal
lybef
ree,
Iwentt
othepar
ent
stheot
herdayand

s
pokewi
tht
hemabouts
epar
ati
ngf
romt
hei
rdaught
erandt
hey

wer
eshoc
k,t
heys
entf
orZi
tyands
hec
ameandi
nsi
stedon

whats
hewant
edandl
ordRees
eandLadyPhi
napol
ogi
set
o

meandI
tol
dthemi
sal
lfort
hebes
t,I
wat
chast
heyt
ryt
otal
k

t
oZi
tybuts
hewass
tif
f-nec
kedandt
oldt
hemt
heyc
an’
t

c
hangehermi
nd,
theymadeac
hoi
cef
orherwhi
chs
he

r
egr
ett
edeverl
ist
eni
ngt
othem,
shes
aids
hewi
llneveral
low

t
hemt
odot
hatandt
hatherdec
isi
onwi
lls
tandt
hist
ime,
and

att
heendt
heyl
etherbe.
Soonc
ewear
elegal
lyf
reef
romt
he

mar
italvowwet
ooks
hec
anbewi
thChakanass
hehasal
ways

want
ed…

I
thankedAdol
fof
ors
har
ingt
hewhol
ethi
ngwi
thme,
Idon’
t
knowwhatwi
llhappenwi
thhi
mori
fhewi
llmar
ryagai
nbut

I
’
mcer
tai
nthatZi
tywasmaki
ngawr
ongc
hoi
ce,
Adol
fowasa

goodman,
whol
ovedher
,Is
ilent
lypr
ayt
hatChakanwi
ll

genui
nel
yloveZi
tyl
ikehi
sfat
herdi
d.

Adayc
ameandI
fol
lowedZi
tyt
oChakan’
shous
e,I
not
iced

t
hatZi
tyhasbei
nggoi
ngt
ohi
spl
aceevenwhenI
wasbac
kto

Lor
dRees
ehous
e,Chakans
eempl
eas
antt
oseeheraswe

wer
eus
her
edi
nbyoneofhi
ssl
aves
,theki
tchenmai
dbr
ought

di
ff
erentdel
icac
yforZi
ty,
Isawonec
leani
ngs
omes
cul
ptur
e

onChakan’
sopenc
hamber
,thes
lavegi
rlwast
alland

beaut
if
ul,
andZi
tyf
eltt
hreat
ened,

“
Whendi
dyoubuyt
hisone,
shewasnother
ethel
astt
imeI

c
ame…

“
fourweeksago,
shewasher
e,youpr
obabl
ydi
dnots
eeheror

not
iceher
,shei
sat
ivi
gir
l…i
sther
eapr
obl
em…

“
Mus
tyoubuyat
ivi
gir
l,t
heyar
eus
ual
lyl
azy,
theyonl
yknows

howt
olookbeaut
if
ulandf
lext
hei
rwai
stupanddown

s
educ
tivel
y,I
don’
tli
ket
hisone…s
ellherof
f,

“
Why,
whys
houl
dIs
ellherwhens
hehasdonenot
hingwr
ong…

j
ustbec
aus
eyoudon’
tli
keher
,Shamar
aisnotwhaty
out
ake

hert
obe.
Takeagr
ipatyour
sel
fZi
tyands
topac
tingl
ikea

s
poi
ltc
hil
d,t
hisi
smyhous
e…

“
isal
sogoi
ngt
obemyhous
esoon…s
topmaki
ngmel
ookl
ike

as
tranger
..

I
don’
tli
ket
hewayyout
alkt
ome,
isi
tac
rimet
hatI
loveyou…
whati
sevenwr
ongwi
thyou,
wear
enotmar
riedyetandyou

ar
eal
readyc
all
ingmes
poi
ltc
hil
d,whatki
ndofmanar
eyou,
I

haveal
wayswant
edyouChakanbuty
ourf
atherc
ameand

over
shadowedever
ythi
ng,
hemademyl
if
eal
ivi
nghel
l,al
lI

t
hinkofever
ydayi
syou…Adol
fowasdr
ivi
ngmec
raz
yand.
.

“
Zit
y,Zi
tyt
hat
’senough,
enoughofal
lthi
snons
ens
e,youdi
dn’
t

wantmyf
ather
,youmadet
hatobvi
ousandweal
lgeti
t,now

wear
eget
tingbac
ktoget
her
,jus
tli
keyouhaveal
wayswant
ed,

l
ear
ntor
espec
tmyf
atherwhenyout
alkabouthi
m,l
ear
nto

s
hows
omer
espec
t,hei
sst
il
lmyf
atherandwi
llal
waysbe,
I

wi
llnott
oler
ateanyi
nsul
tfr
omyou,
Iamnots
opet
tyl
ikemy

f
atheryoubet
terknowt
hat
…

I
wat
chedasZi
tyeyegots
oil
edwi
tht
ear
sands
hewant
edt
o

c
ryandChakanhast
ogoandpetheragai
n,I
exc
usedmys
elf

andwentout
side,
andwai
tedout
sidef
oraver
ylongt
imeand

evenni
ghtc
ameands
ett
ledandZi
tydi
dnots
howup,
att
he

endI
havet
oas
kShamar
awer
eIc
anl
aymyheadf
ort
heni
ght

s
inc
emymi
str
esswasher
eandShamar
ashowedmewher
eto

pas
stheni
ght
.

Thef
oll
owi
ngdayZi
tyc
ameoutandwel
eft
,

af
tert
woweekss
hef
oundouts
hewaspr
egnantf
orChakan

evenbef
oreherweddi
ng.
Shewasf
inal
lys
epar
atedf
rom

Adol
foandhur
riedupwi
tht
hes
mal
luni
onwi
thChakan,
it

was
n’tmuc
hgat
her
ing,
itwasj
ustt
hef
ami
lyc
omi
ngt
oget
her

t
obi
ndt
hemi
nmar
riageandt
heywer
emar
ried.
I
knowi
twi
llnotbeal
lros
ywi
thZi
ty,
IknowChakaneas
ilyget

of
fendedandZi
tywi
llal
wayswantt
ocr
ytogethi
sat
tent
ion,

buti
tmaynotwor
kforheral
ways
,itwasobvi
oust
hatChakan

does
n’tl
oveherl
ikebef
ore,
Zit
yst
il
lfeel
sthr
eat
enedwi
th

Shamar
a,Okr
ast
il
lcomesar
oundt
oZi
ty’
snewhome,
Iknow

t
hingswi
llgetbad,
butI
’
mas
kingGodt
ohel
pZi
tyi
nal
loft
his
,

andal
sot
ohel
pme.

nows
hei
swi
tht
hemans
hehasal
wayswant
edt
obewi
thand

s
hei
sal
readyc
arr
yinghi
schi
ld,
whi
chi
sfewweeksol
d,and

Zi
tyf
eelgoodwi
thever
ythi
ngexc
eptwhens
hes
eesShamar
a

pas
s,

I
maynotknowwhatt
hef
utur
ehol
dforever
yoneoft
hembutI

pl
eadwi
thGodt
obei
nthec
ent
erofi
t,andt
ohel
pmei
nal
lthe

t
roubl
ethati
syett
ocome.

TOBECONTI
NUED.
.
..
..
.

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24/
04,
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TAMAR.
*

*Epi
sode17.
*
Ever
ythi
ngwasgoi
ngwel
linChakan’
shous
e,hehasabi
g

hous
etoo,
buthi
sFat
her
’shous
ewasbi
gger
,heal
sohasa

f
lowerc
our
t,wher
eIus
ual
lys
itout
,

TodayZi
tywentoutwi
thOkr
a,s
hehar
dlys
taysbac
khomet
his

days
,al
way
sat
tendi
ngonepar
tyort
heot
herwi
thOkr
a,I
have

hear
dsheandChakanquar
ryi
ngoverherc
ons
tantout
ingandI

hear
dhert
ell
inghi
m

“
Ever
ydayi
soneout
ingort
heot
her
,can’
tyous
itathome,
okr
a

i
staki
ngyout
oal
lthewhol
epar
tyi
nthi
ski
ngdom,
Idon’
tfeel

c
omf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
hisyournewpi
ckedhabi
t,I
don’
tZi
ty,
you

ar
eapr
egnantwoman,
youar
esuppos
etos
itathomenot

par
tyi
ngal
lthet
ime,
youdi
dn’
tgopar
tyi
ngi
nmyf
ather
’s

hous
e,nowyouf
eels
ofr
eet
odoasyoupl
eas
e…

“
Sobec
aus
eIgotmar
riedt
oyouI
can’
tgooutagai
n,Okr
a

i
nvi
tedmet
oMec
ano’
spar
ty,
hei
scel
ebr
ati
nghi
sgl
adi
ator

f
est
,hei
nvi
tedokr
aands
heas
kedmet
ogowi
thher
,my

pr
egnanc
yisnotyetobvi
ous
,nobodyknowsyetI
’
mpr
egnant
,

eveni
ftheyf
indsoutI
havenot
hingt
obeas
hamedof
f,I

was
n’tf
reewi
thyourf
atherorevenc
omf
ort
abl
etogoout
,or

maybeI
wass
til
lac
tingc
hil
dis
hbutnotagai
n,I
’
mwi
se,
and

t
hisi
sthel
if
eIhaveal
wayswant
ed,
Iwantt
oexper
ienc
e

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ato

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nhi
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hatday,

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ast

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ingsherhome

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I

gues
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dinghi
manddec
idedt
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thi
nkoft
heki
ssi
nhi
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swor
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love

you”

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’
swor
dbegant
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hoi
n

myear
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ightt
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ingsi
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evert
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s

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lthi
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ont
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ethi
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ghtanddar
knes
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riends
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he

l
ightofGods
hinet
hroughyout
othewor
ldTamar
…

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swal
lowedhar
dasI
remember
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’
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dtome,
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ckl
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atupanddec
idedt
ogoi
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de,
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of
fVi
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eadofdwel
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ngonat
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i
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eIdec
idedt
osayawor
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ayeri
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ead.

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eseemqui
et,

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vant
,Ther
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hing

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tti
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ervant
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aysi
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r

out
hous
e,

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et,
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ingmur
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se

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omi
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romChakan’
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,Iwant
edt
oignor
ebut

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omet
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awShamar
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ameoutandwhen

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hi
msel
fandpi
nnedhert
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tedki
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ngher

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est
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yourWi
feWi
lls
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twanther

t
roubl
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tyougot
tenenoughofmei
nsi
de,
let
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omebodymays
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ingat

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hef
lowerc
our
t,s
hemaydec
idet
ocomei
nands
eeus
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pleas
e

I
don’
twantt
roubl
e.

”nobodywi
llgi
veyout
roubl
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tywon’
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veyout
roubl
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bec
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eshedoes
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eal
lyhavet
oknow,
andTamarl
ikes

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itt
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our
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ilhermi
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essc
omeshome,
so

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ervanthasnobus
ines
s

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eunt
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ledupon,
andI
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set
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tyou,

don’
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rai
d,I
wantyoual
waysShamar
a,youar
esoSweet

pl
eas
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ares
syoual
it
tlebef
oreyougo…

“
Wehavet
obec
aref
ul,
Iwantyoumor
ethanyouwantme,
I

l
ovet
hewayyoumakeoutwi
thmei
nyourc
hamber
,Iwi
shI
’
m
yourwi
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havi
ngyouasI
pleas
e,I
’
monl
yas
ervanther
eandI

don’
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oruni
ntot
roubl
ebec
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ldf
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or

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hot
her
,youal
readyknowyourwi
fedoesnotl
ikeme

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mmor
ebeaut
if
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hanherands
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eel
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ened

byt
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lywantt
othr
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afewher
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an

onl
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he’
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makemeyourwi
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ifyour
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deands
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af
fai
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ehavi
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msi
ncer
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.

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a,t
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Zit
yremai
nsmywi
fe,
des
pit
eshe

hasbei
ngget
tingmeangr
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ryi
ngmyc
hil
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oo,
Iwantyout
ounder
standt
hat
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’snotac
tli
keki
ds,
I

want
syouever
ysec
ondt
hatZi
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oundandI
knowyou

wantmet
oo,
ret
urnt
oyourout
hous
eWi
lls
eeyout
omor
row,

pl
eas
edon’
tfai
lme,
I’
mal
lyour
swhenZi
tyi
sout
…

I
wat
chedasheki
ssedheronemor
eti
meandShamar
a

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espondedwi
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atel
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c
amei
nwi
thZi
ty,
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etur
nedt
ohi
schamberandI
came

outofmyhi
dingpl
acei
nshoc
ktogoandmeetZi
ty,
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s
ocheer
fulf
romherout
ingands
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mel
li
ngofwi
ne,
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l
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det
oherownc
hamberandputof
fhers
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s
oakedherl
egsi
nsi
dewar
mwat
erandwas
hthemof
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aids
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leanedupherbodywhi
les
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atel
yherbody

hi
tst
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herupwhi
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ty’
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,If
elts
obadt
hathei
shavi
ngaf
fai
rwi
th

Shamar
a,I
wis
hZi
tywi
lls
topf
oll
owi
ngokr
aever
ywher
eand

s
taybac
khome,

“
Whati
swr
ongwi
thher
…shehass
leptof
fagai
n,i
sshedr
unk,

i
ssheal
ri
ght
…

”s
hei
sfi
nemyLor
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sshet
ookl
it
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newhi
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he’
s

notus
etoand….
andf
elts
oti
red…buts
he’
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neandwi
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ome

t
ochamberyourt
omor
rowexc
eptyouwantt
ost
aywi
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her
etokeepherwar
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ought
heni
ght
,shei
scol
dandwi
ll

l
oveyout
oputahandar
oundher
..

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orgott
hats
he’
scar
ryi
ngac
hil
d,howc
ans
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ng

s
trongwi
nei
nthi
sherc
ondi
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on,
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mgoi
ngbac
ktomy

c
hamber
,shewantt
oli
veaf
reel
if
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ll

al
lli
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ries
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mmor
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c
onc
ernedaboutmyc
hil
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hei
scar
ryi
ng,
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tpr
ayt
othe

godst
hatnot
hinghappenst
omyunbor
nchi
ld,
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y’sc
arel
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l
ivi
ngs
houl
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eaf
fec
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hil
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ry,

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hsheandokr
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riend.
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tupi
dpeopl
e,Whogoabout

l
ivi
nganyhowl
ikewaywar
dwomenoft
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ngdom,
for
get
ting

t
hatt
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emar
ried,
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mof
ftoMyc
hamber
…

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urnedandLef
tangr
il
y,I
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her
est
ari
ngatZi
tyass
he

s
nor
esont
hebedandwonder
inghowt
oreac
hherandt
o

makeherl
ist
en,
fol
lowi
ngokr
awi
llnotl
eadhert
oanywher
e,

okr
aisar
oadt
onowher
e,I
wis
hshewi
llr
eal
izet
hatbef
orei
s

l
ate.
I
mademybedatanot
herendandl
ayawakemos
tpar
toft
he

ni
ghtasI
kepti
magi
ningChakanandShamar
a,andwonder
ed

whatZi
tyWi
lldoi
fshef
indsoutt
hatherl
ovi
nghus
bandi
s

havi
ngaf
fai
rwi
thhi
smai
d,Shamar
awhowanthi
mtoc
has
e

Zi
tyaways
othathec
anmar
ryher
,

Thatwaspur
ewi
ckednes
s,howc
oul
dShamar
abedoi
ngt
hat
,

Zi
tyhasf
earabouthernowt
heyar
ecomi
ngt
oreal
it
y,

Okr
ausl
eadi
ngZi
tyas
traywhi
leShamar
awant
stot
akeher

hus
bandf
romherandZi
tyi
stoobl
indt
oseeal
lthet
hings

happeni
ngar
oundher

I
jus
tsi
lent
lypr
ayi
tWi
llnotbet
ool
atebyt
het
imes
hef
inds

out
.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
.

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“
Areyougoi
ngoutagai
ntodaymyl
ady…

“
yes
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meandOkr
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om

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hamber
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omeChakan,
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have

l
ear
ntandI
’
mwi
sernow.

Zi
tyl
eftandc
limbedt
hec
har
iotout
side,
andi
tcar
riedher

away,
Ibr
eat
heddeepl
yasI
wat
chChakanr
etur
ntohi
s

c
hamber
,

I
wentout
sidet
otheouthous
e,I
sawShamar
agoi
ngi
ntot
he

mai
nbui
ldi
ng,
Ifol
lowedherass
hewentt
owar
dsChakan’
s

c
hamber
,

ass
hegott
ohi
sdoors
hes
topst
olookr
oundt
omakes
ure

nobodyi
swat
chi
ngher
,ands
hequi
ckl
ypaus
eins
hoc
kwhen

s
hes
awmes
tandi
ngandwat
chi
ngherf
ews
tepsaway,
I

wal
kedupt
oheranddec
idedt
oconf
ront
edher
.

“
Doest
hemas
terneedsyouf
oranyt
hing…oryouhavea

mes
sagef
orhi
m…

“
Yes
,heneedsmet
ocl
eanuphi
schamber
…

“
Hisc
hamberhasbei
ngc
leanedt
odayShamar
a,I
’
mnots
ure

i
shi
schamberyouwantt
ogoandc
lean,
doyouhavea

mes
sagef
orhi
m..

“
Whati
sal
lthi
s…I
sai
dYes
,Ihaveames
sagef
orhi
m…andI

needt
oseehi
mur
gent
ly…

“
thenwai
tout
sideher
eunt
ilhec
omesout
,orbet
ters
til
lwai
t

f
ort
hemi
str
esst
ocome,
thenyouc
angi
vehert
hemes
sage
ands
hewi
llt
akei
ttoherhus
band,
butgoi
ngi
ntot
hemas
ter
’s

c
hamberuni
nvi
tedi
snotal
lowed,
don’
tdot
hats
othatyouwi
ll

notgeti
ntot
hemi
str
esst
roubl
e,i
tdoes
n’ts
eemr
ight
,is

di
sres
pec
tingt
othemi
str
ess

“
andwhot
oldyout
hatt
hemas
terdi
dnoti
nvi
temei
ntohi
s

c
hamber
,Whati
syourpr
obl
emTamar
,what
everI
doi
nthe

mas
ter
’sc
hamberi
snoneofyourbus
ines
s,youar
esuppos
e

t
obeoutt
hei
rint
hef
lowerc
our
tli
keyoudos
itoutt
her
eand

t
alkt
oyour
sel
fli
keac
raz
yper
sonwhi
lewai
ti
ngf
ort
he

mi
str
esst
oret
urnnotf
oll
owi
ngmear
ound,
themas
terneeds

mys
ervi
ceandt
hat
’swher
eI’
mgoi
ng,
stayof
fmyways
,and

s
tic
ktoyourmi
str
ess
…

“
thenf
ine,
goaheads
inc
ethemas
terneedsyou,
Iwi
lll
ett
he

mi
str
essknowt
hatyouhavebei
nggi
vingt
hemas
terunknown

s
ervi
ceanyt
imes
hel
eavest
hehous
e,maybes
hewi
llas
kyou

t
ocomeandexpl
aint
heki
ndofs
ervi
ceyouar
erender
ingt
o

herhus
band,
goaheadandr
enderyourki
ndhear
teds
ervi
ces

t
othemas
terandI
wil
lbegl
adt
otel
lladyZi
tyt
hatShamar
a

hasbei
ngver
yki
nd,
shehasbei
nggoodt
othemas
teri
nher

abs
enc
e,s
heevenr
ender
sunknownc
aret
othemas
ter
,and

whens
hec
all
syout
ocomeandexpl
ainyours
ervi
cest
oher

hus
bandyoubet
tergots
omet
hingr
eas
onabl
etos
ayoryouwi
ll

bebac
ktot
hes
lavemar
ket
,wher
eyouwi
llbes
oldof
fto

anot
herhous
ehol
dorasat
empl
eser
vant
,Iknowl
adyZi
tywi
ll

makes
ureoft
hat
…
“
Shec
annots
ellmeof
f,t
hemas
terwi
llnotl
etherdot
hat
,

Lor
dChakanc
annotl
ethar
mcomet
ome,
hehasas
sur
edme

t
hat
,sohewi
llneveral
lowhi
swi
fes
ellmeof
f.
.

“
okay,
got
henandwat
chi
fshewi
llnots
endyoubac
ktot
he

s
lavemar
ketbyt
omor
rowornot
,youhavef
orgot
tenwhol
ady

Zi
tyi
s…s
neaki
ngar
oundherhus
bandc
anbedanger
ousf
oryou

Shamar
a…s
he

Aswewer
etal
kingChakanc
ameout
sideands
awus
,heas
ked

whatt
hepr
obl
emi
sandI
spokebef
oreShamar
acoul
dopen

hermout
h

“
IsawShamar
asneaki
ngdownt
oyourc
hamberandI
asked

herwhats
hes
eekswi
thyouands
hes
aidyous
ummonedher
,

I
was
n’ts
ureoft
hat
,bec
aus
eyourc
hamberhasbei
ngc
leaned

andyourf
oodhasbei
ngmade,
shes
aids
hegotmes
sagef
or

youandI
askedhert
owai
tunt
ilyouar
eoutofyourc
hamberor

wai
tforl
adyZi
tyt
oret
urnf
irs
tins
teadofgoi
ngi
ntoyour

c
hamberont
hemi
str
essabs
enc
ewhenyoudi
dnots
ummon

her
,thatc
oul
dsendawr
ongmes
sageands
hebegant
oar
gue

wi
thme,
butI
want
edt
obes
ureyous
entf
orher
,I’
mjus
ttr
ying

t
owat
choutf
ormymi
str
ess
…

“
Yea,
Tamar
…Shamar
ashoul
dret
urnt
otheout
hous
e,I
didnot

s
endf
orher
…

Shamar
atur
nedangr
il
yandl
eftaf
terl
ooki
ngatmef
romhead

t
otoeandr
ollhereyesatme,
Iignor
eherandf
acedChakan,

“
Igues
syoual
readyknowwhati
sgoi
ngonoryous
uspec
t,
t
hatwaswhyyouc
onf
ront
edShamar
athewayyoudi
d…

“
Yes
,IknowmyLor
d,andi
snotr
ightt
oent
angl
ewi
thanot
her

whoi
snotyourwi
fe…I
’
mnotj
udgi
ngbuti
snotf
aironZi
ty…

“
doyoubl
ameme,
whenyourmi
str
esswi
llnots
taybac
khome,

andevens
he’
shomei
sal
waysonequar
relort
heot
her
,she

c
anbever
ytr
oubl
esome,
alwayswantt
obei
ncont
rol
,tel
li
ng

meaboutwomenpower
,shewantt
obel
ikeal
lthos
eunt
rai
ned

womenc
ont
rol
li
ngt
hei
rhus
band,
likeOkr
a,hers
ocal
ledf
riend,

i
ntr
uthI
likeShamar
a,s
hehasbei
ngwi
thmef
orawhi
lenow,

f
arf
romt
het
imeI
tol
dZi
tys
hewas
,andwi
tht
imeI
gotf
eel
ing

f
orherandwebegant
oent
angl
e,I
didn’
tfor
ceheroutofher

wi
sh,
shewant
edi
tandmadeherf
eel
ingknown,
andwhenI

gotmar
riedt
oZi
tyI
want
edt
hatt
ochange,
Iwant
edt
ofoc
us

onmywi
fet
oseehowouruni
onc
anwor
kout
,li
kef
atherhas

as
kedmet
o,s
oasI
’
mtr
yingt
ofoc
usonZi
ty,
buts
hei
snot

hel
pingmeout
,ial
onec
annotmaket
hiswor
k,Zi
tyi
spr
egnant

andI
’
mser
ious
lyc
onc
ernedaboutherc
ondi
ti
onandherl
if
e

s
tyl
e,I
don’
twanti
ttoaf
fec
tmyc
hil
d,I
knows
hel
ostac
hil
d

bac
kwi
thf
ather
,Iknowhowbadt
hatf
eel
s,I
don’
twants
uch

andmayt
hegodsf
orbi
dst
hati
nmyhous
ehol
d,I
tri
edt
ost
op

myi
nvol
vementwi
thShamar
awhens
hebec
amer
ude,
I

want
edt
omakeherr
etur
ntohernor
maldut
ywhi
chi
scl
eani
ng

upt
hehous
ehol
d,I
feelgui
lt
ysomet
imesaf
tert
heac
twi
th

Shamar
a,I
knowI
don’
tsuppos
etobedoi
ngt
hatnowt
hatI
’
m

mar
riedbutmywi
fei
sjus
ttooannoy
ing,
Ican’
thel
pit
s
omet
imes
,butI
wil
ltr
yands
topands
eehowI
canmakeZi
ty

s
eer
eas
onsandyouar
ever
ycl
oset
oher
,sot
alkt
oher
,tal
kto

yourmi
str
ess
,Idon’
tli
kewhatI
dowi
thShamar
a,I
takeno

pr
idei
nthatyetZi
tyi
spus
hingmet
oanot
herwoman’
sar
m

wi
thhernegat
iveat
tit
ude…I
wantmywi
febac
khomeher
ewi
th

meandnots
pendi
ngmos
tpar
tofherdayout
side…

I
lat
erl
eftaf
ters
peaki
ngwi
thChakan,
Shamar
awasi
nthe

out
hous
eandChakanwentoutwi
thhi
schar
iotaf
terf
ew

mi
nut
es,
asI
wasaboutgoi
ngoutt
oAdol
fo’
spl
ace,
Shamar
a

c
ameoutofherr
oomandf
acedme

“
yout
hinkyouar
esmar
tandhass
ucc
eededi
ntur
ningof
fthe

mas
ter
’sf
ace,
hei
smi
neandj
ustamat
teroft
imehewi
lll
eave

hi
swi
fef
orme,
hel
ovesme,
hehast
oldmet
hatbef
oreand

pr
omi
senott
oal
lowhar
mcomet
ome,
soyouc
andoal
lyou

wantt
odohewi
llnevert
urnhi
sfac
eawayf
romme,
youand

yourmi
str
essar
ecr
azy,
alls
heknowshowt
odoi
stogo

par
tyi
ngandal
lyouknowhowt
odoi
stos
itatt
hatf
lower

c
our
t,t
alki
ngt
oyour
sel
fli
keamadgi
rl
,whi
chi
snonofmy

bus
ines
s,goands
tic
ktowhatyouknowhowt
odoandl
eave

met
odowhatI
knowhowt
odo,
stopl
ooki
ngi
ntomyper
sonal

bus
ines
s,mi
ndyour
sandl
eavemeal
oneorI
wil
lcomef
oryou

asyouhaveneverexpec
ted,
stayf
arawayf
rommeandl
ord

Chakan,
hebel
ongst
omeandhewi
lls
oonmakemehi
s

mi
str
ess
,youbet
tergetus
etot
hat
…

I
ignor
edherandwal
kaway,
Iwents
trai
ghtt
oAdol
fo’
shous
e,
Lami
,Adol
fo’
sboyandever
yonewass
ohappyt
osee,
Eur
awas

s
ogl
adt
hatI
came,
ass
het
hrewherar
msar
oundmei
nwar
m

hug,
Adol
fowasnoti
nhi
sst
udy,
hewaswal
kingr
oundt
he

gar
denandI
wentt
ohi
mandgr
eet
edhi
m,hel
ooks
ohappyt
o

s
eemet
ooandI
wasal
sohappyt
oseehi
m,het
ookmyhands

i
ntohi
sands
queez
edi
tgent
lywhi
leexpr
ess
inghi
swel
lset

t
eet
h.

“
I’
msodel
ight
edt
oseeyouTamar
,Iwaswonder
ingwhenyou

wi
llpayusavi
si
t,i
sbei
ngweeksnow,
andI
mis
syouar
ound

her
e,youc
amej
ustatt
her
ightt
ime,
howhaveyoubei
ng,
your

mi
str
ess
,mys
onandever
yoneovert
her
e…I
knowi
tisnot

eas
y,t
hel
astt
imeChakanc
ompl
ainedaboutZi
ty,
hes
aids
he

har
dlys
tayshomedes
pit
eshei
scar
ryi
nghi
schi
ld,
hehas

wor
riesandI
askedhi
mtomakei
twor
kwi
thher
,hes
houl
dtr
y

andmakeZi
tys
tayhome,
hes
houl
dmakes
urehi
sfami
lyt
urns

outf
inenott
hebadoneswehearof
fever
yday,
hec
ompl
ained

ofOkr
aandZi
ty’
sfr
iends
hip,
Itol
dhi
mZi
tywasnotl
iket
hat

bef
ore,
shehar
dlyl
eavest
hehous
ewhens
hewass
til
lmar
ried

t
ome,
ins
teadOkr
aal
waysvi
si
tsherher
e,butwhat
everr
eas
on

i
tmaybehes
houl
dmakehi
suni
onwi
thZi
tywor
k,hes
houl
dn’
t

hur
therf
oranyr
eas
on,
theyar
ebot
hyoungc
oupl
es,
andI

knowt
hegodswi
llbl
esst
hei
rmar
riagewi
thbot
hmal
eand

f
emal
e,I
knowZi
tyi
sst
ubbor
nbuts
hei
sagoodgi
rl
,andI

needmys
ont
ocal
mdownandgi
vehert
imet
oli
vet
hel
if
eshe

hasal
wayswant
edmaybewi
tht
imes
hewi
llc
omear
ound,
he
s
houl
dn’
tbehar
shonherorhi
msel
f…s
oTamar
,Ir
eal
lydo

mi
ssyou,
howar
eyou…

“
Ihavebei
nggoodmyl
ord,
butnots
ogoodwi
tht
her
ecent

happeni
ngonLadyZi
tyandl
ordChakanbutI
handt
hemover

t
otheLor
dandI
knowt
heywi
llbef
ine…

“
tal
kingaboutt
hel
ord,
Eur
ahasbei
ngt
ell
ingmes
omuc
h

aboutt
hatbutI
don’
tunder
stand,
iski
ndofc
onf
usi
ng,
Iknow

youar
eaChr
ist
ian,
andEur
asai
dshei
stoo,
thatyoumadeher

t
oseet
hel
ight
,andi
rememberyougi
vingmet
heor
yabout

yourGod’
speopl
e,i
tmakess
ens
enowt
hatEur
aisf
il
li
ngmei
n

aboutyourGod,
Ist
il
ldonotunder
stand,
hows
impl
eshe

makesever
ythi
ngs
eemyeti
scompl
icat
ing,
asmuc
hasi
t

s
oundc
raz
ybutI
wil
lwantt
ohearmor
edet
ail
s,I
have

wat
chedyoul
iveundermyr
oof
,sel
fl
ess
ly,
youl
ovedandc
are

f
oryourmi
str
essandever
yone,
yout
ookever
yonel
ikeyour

s
ibl
ingandneverc
ondemnsanyonet
oyourmas
teror

mi
str
ess
,Iwat
chedyouenc
our
agedme,
ands
peakt
omei
n

t
hos
esadl
onel
ymoment
,al
lIs
eei
nyoureyesi
sbeaut
yand

peac
e,youmakemes
mil
ewheneveryouar
ecl
oset
omeand

keptmebus
ywi
tht
heor
yfr
omt
heLor
d’speopl
eli
keyouwi
ll

s
ay,
andwhenyour
etur
nedt
oLor
dRees
eyouas
kedEur
ato

keepmebus
y,andI
mus
tsays
hehasbei
ngdoi
ngagr
eatj
ob

l
ikeyou,
shet
oldmehowyouc
onver
tedher
,its
oundss
o

s
impl
ebutI
coul
dn’
tcompr
ehendmuc
h,I
tol
dyoubef
oret
hat

yourl
if
est
yles
peaksvol
ume,
Imaynotknowt
heGodyou
s
peakt
owheneveryouar
eatt
hegar
denoral
one,
butI
real
ly

dowantt
oknowt
hisGods
owel
l,t
hisi
snott
heor
yti
me,
buti
f

youwantust
oret
urnt
omys
tudyr
oomwewi
ll
,sot
hatyout
ell

meanyofyournewdi
scover
yaboutyourGodandI
canwr
itei
t

downt
henf
il
ethem,
canwegot
omys
tudi
es…

“
int
hebookofec
cles
ias
tic
sits
ays
,“bewar
nedmys
on,
ther
e

i
snoendt
omaki
ngofmanybooks
,andmuc
hst
udywear
ies

t
hebody.
Adol
fo,
toomuc
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inbef
oret
hel
ord,

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ess
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cles
ias
tic
ssays
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een

al
lthet
hingst
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edoneundert
hes
unal
loft
hemar
e

meani
ngl
essac
has
ingaf
tert
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nd”al
lisvani
ty,
youmus
t

notbur
yyour
sel
finyours
tudy,
Iknowyouar
eaddi
ctedandi
t

hasbec
omepar
tofyou,
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nyear
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ome,
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om

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ther

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nd

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ntoappr
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atet
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goodnes
sofGodout
sidet
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youwi
llc
omet
o

under
standt
hebeaut
ythatl
iesi
nthewor
ld,
Forever
ythi
ngGod

hasc
reat
edheal
sohasapur
pos
efort
hem,
andt
her
eist
ime

f
orever
ythi
ng,
ther
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imet
obebor
nandat
imet
odi
e,God

di
dn’
tmakeagoodl
ooki
ngmanl
ikeyou,
cal
ledyouAdol
foand

s
aidgets
tuc
kint
hedar
koft
hei
nnerr
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eyouc
anonl
y

c
ommuni
cat
ebet
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thbooksnotwi
thhumans
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snot

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udgi
ngorc
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s
hei
sgr
owi
ngandI
likeherz
eal
ous
nes
s,s
hehasc
omet
o

knowt
heonet
rueGodandopenedherhear
ttoac
cepthi
m,

s
hef
eel
sthi
speac
ethatnohumanc
angi
veherandal
so

want
syout
oexper
ienc
ethi
spower
,shemaynothaves
aidi
tin

ac
learwaybutI
knowt
hel
it
tleGodl
eadhert
osayt
oyouwi
ll

bearf
rui
tinyourhear
t,andt
hati
swhyyouwant
edt
ohear

mor
eoft
hisGod,
Godi
sli
ghtandi
nhi
mther
e’snodar
knes
s,I

wi
llnotbor
eyouorc
rowdyourmi
ndwi
tht
oomuc
hwor
ds,
thi
s

i
snotamer
est
udy,
ist
her
ealwor
dandGodi
sreal
,youwi
ll

under
standmor
ewhenyouf
ull
ycomet
ohi
m,hi
sar
msar
e

openandhei
sbec
koni
ngonyout
ocomeunt
ohi
m,wi
tht
he

l
it
tleEur
aknows
,shewi
llbec
omeagui
def
oryouAdol
fo,
and

wi
thal
lIhaves
aid,
thi
nkaboutt
hemandl
etGods
hinehi
sli
ght

uponyou,
lethi
mopenyouri
nnereyesf
oryout
odi
scovert
he

beaut
yfoundi
nhi
m,andwhennextI
come,
wewi
llt
alkal
it
tle

mor
eont
his
,I’
msohappyt
hatyouar
ebegi
nni
ngt
otakea

bol
dst
epsi
nthi
sdi
rec
tionI
promi
seyout
her
e’snor
egr
eti
n
knowi
ngGod,
thi
ngsmaynott
urnoutl
ikeyouwi
shbut

whi
cheverwayi
ttur
nsj
ustknowGodi
sinvol
vei
nit
,hei
sthe

ar
chi
tec
tofourl
ives
…

“
thankyouTamar
,I’
msogl
adyouc
ameatt
her
ightt
ime,
inmy

c
onf
uses
tat
eofmi
nd,
andI
feelatpeac
eal
readywhi
leyou

s
peakt
ome,
yourbel
iefmaynotbegener
all
yac
cept
edi
nthi
s

ki
ngdom,
butI
canf
eeli
sthepat
hwayt
oawonder
full
if
e,I
wil
l

gi
veyous
omes
hel
li
ngf
oryour
sel
f,I
knowmys
onhar
dlygi
ves

outs
hel
li
ngt
ohi
sser
vant
s,whi
chI
’
menc
our
agi
nghi
mto,

eveni
fisonc
einawhi
le,
Iknowyoumayhavet
hingsyouwant

t
odowi
thmoneys
oIwi
llgi
veyout
wohundr
eds
hel
li
ng,
itwi
ll

goal
ongwayf
oryou,
wheneveryouneedanyt
hingdon’
tfor
get

t
oas
kme,
youdes
erveevenmor
ethant
hisbec
aus
eyouar
ea

s
pec
ialc
hil
d…Tamar
…

I
openedmymout
hIns
hoc
kasI
heart
heamount
,theonl
y

per
sonI
remember
edi
mmedi
atel
ywasRhonda,
isr
eal
lybei
ng

awhi
leI
vis
itedt
hem,
Adol
foj
ustkeeps
urpr
isi
ngme,
suc
ha

hugeamount
,thel
astonewasonehundr
edandf
if
tys
hel
li
ng

andnowt
wohundr
eds
hel
li
ng,
iss
uchahugeamountof

moneyandI
feell
iket
hej
oyi
nmyhear
twi
llboas
tout
,bec
aus
e

I
knowRhondaandherc
hil
drenwi
llhaveenoughi
nfewdays

f
romnowwhenI
vis
itst
hemagai
n,I
coul
dn’
tthankGod

enoughasAdol
fowenti
nsi
deandbr
oughtt
hemoneyandhand

overt
ome,
hegavemet
hemoneyi
nal
eat
herbagandI

s
howedmys
inc
ereappr
eci
ati
onandt
ugt
hel
eat
herunder
neat
h
myl
ongdr
ess
,Iwentt
oEur
aands
pokewi
thher
,shes
eems
o

t
akenwi
thAdol
fo,
shewass
mil
ingf
romeart
oearass
he

s
peaksonhowki
ndAdol
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nggoodt
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he

ent
irehous
ehol
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enc
our
agedhert
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ous
ehert
o

l
eadAdol
fot
othet
rut
handever
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oundher
,Ipr
omi
set
o

c
omear
oundonc
einawhi
let
osuppor
ther
,Is
pokewi
thher

f
orawhi
lebef
orebi
ddi
nggoodbyet
oever
yone,
inc
ludi
ngLami

Adol
fo’
sboywhowass
ohappyt
hatI
camear
ound.

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tinghomeI
sawac
har
iotout
sideChakan’
thous
e,I

t
houghtZi
tywasbac
ksoI
rus
hedi
nsi
deandi
mmedi
atel
yIs
aw

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msi
tti
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heout
sidec
otmyhear
tdoubl
eds
kip,
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therZi
ty

orChakanwashome,
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edt
ohi
dei
mmedi
atel
ybuthehas

s
eenmeandt
her
ewasnopl
acet
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ican’
tkeepavoi
ding

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ear
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wonder
edwhymyhear
tst
il
lbeat

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ofas
twheneverI
comei
ncont
actwi
thhi
msi
nceaf
termy

enc
ount
erwi
thhi
minhi
schamber
.

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swal
lowedhar
dasI
movedc
los
etot
hehous
e,I
fel
tthe

moneyAdol
fogavemewhi
chI
hideundermydr
essi
twass
til
l

i
ntac
t,I
breat
heddeepl
yagai
nands
ummonedc
our
ageasI

wal
kedupt
oVi
m.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..

[
24/
04,
6:02pm]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR*
*

*Epi
sode19.
*

WhenI
wal
kedupt
ohi
mhewasj
ustl
ooki
ngatmeangr
il
ybutI

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emai
ncal
mdes
pit
ethet
umbl
ingi
nmyhear
t,I
bentmyhead

andgr
eet
edhi
mwar
mly

“
Myki
ndgr
eet
ingst
oyoumyl
ord…

“
Yourl
ord?…youmakemel
augh,
soyouar
ebac
ktoc
all
ingme

yourl
ordaf
terI
askedyounott
o,ar
eyoudonedoi
nghi
deand

s
eekf
orme,
youwer
eavoi
dingmeasi
fI’
mst
ruc
kwi
tha

pl
ague,
likeI
haveadi
seas
e,ar
eyout
iredofr
unni
ng,
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eft

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hehous
ethenwi
thoutevenagoodbye,
andhasf
indawayt
o

keepf
arf
romme,
isi
tbec
aus
eImademyf
eel
ingsknownt
o

you…wast
hatac
rime,
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lmei
sitac
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oreyours
o

c
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edgod,
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aus
eIdon’
tunder
stand…t
alkt
ome,
Ihavet
ried

ever
ythi
ngpos
sibl
etos
topt
hinki
ngaboutyou,
tokeepyou

awayf
rommymi
nd,
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riedandyeti
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dn’
twor
k,I
feels
o

s
tupi
dwhenI
dot
his
,bec
aus
eyoudonotunder
stand,
you

don’
tunder
standTamar
,I’
mgoi
ngc
raz
ythi
nki
ngofyou

ever
yday….
isbei
ngmont
hss
inc
eyoul
eftandI
sti
llc
an’
tget

youof
fmymi
nd,
nomat
terwhatI
do,
I’
m…I
’
mgoi
ngc
raz
y…

hmm,
sowher
edi
dmys
ist
erwentt
o,I
thoughtyouar
e

s
uppos
etobebes
ideheral
waysandnotgoi
ngt
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s
hous
e,onl
ythegodsknowswher
eyouwentt
o,andwher
e’s

Zi
ty’
shus
band,
whydot
hehous
elooks
odes
ert
ed,
wher
ear
e

youc
omi
ngf
romTamar
?at
allbeaut
if
ulmai
denher
e,s
hes
aid

hernamei
sShamar
a,s
het
oldmet
hatnoonei
shomeand

whenI
askedofyous
hes
aidyouhavepr
obabl
ygonet
omeet

yourman,
yours
ecr
etl
over
…wel
lIdon’
tknowwhatt
omake

outoft
hat
…youhavi
ngal
over
…isnomor
eAbel
.hmmm,
I

knowi
snott
rue…s
owher
ear
eyouc
omi
ngf
rom…

I
star
tedf
eel
ingbadashement
ionedShamar
aandher

appear
anc
e,I
fel
tthi
shur
tfeel
ingt
omyc
hes
t,I
swal
lowed

har
dagai
nandkeptqui
et…hedr
aggedmewi
thf
orc
eint
othe

hous
ewher
enoonewi
lls
eeusandl
ockedt
hedoorbehi
nd,
my

ot
herhandwashel
dtowher
ethemoneyi
s,hes
tar
tedboi
li
ng

i
nangerashepus
hedmei
nsi
de,
andf
acedmeagai
n.

“
soi
str
ue,
youwentt
oseeyourmanf
riend,
whoi
sthe

per
son…t
ellmewhoi
sthemanyouar
eseei
ngt
hati
sbet
ter

t
hanme,
whoTamar
,youc
hos
eanot
herovermeandt
hrewmy

l
ovebac
ktomyf
ace,
whatI
’
mIs
uppos
etodonow…wi
tht
his

heavyf
eel
ingi
nmyhear
t,whatdoyouwantmet
odonow,

bec
aus
eIhavet
riedt
omakei
tst
opbutI
can’
t…youc
hos
e

anot
heroverme,
ifi
twasAbelI
woul
dn’
thavebei
ngs
owor
ried

buti
snotevenAbeli
tmus
tbes
omes
tupi
dmanoutt
her
e,you

pr
eferhi
mtome,
didhel
aywi
thyou,
didyout
wogot

ent
angl
ed,
Iswearbyt
hegodsI
wil
lbr
eakt
heman’
sjawi
fhe

l
aysaf
ingeratyou,
didyoul
aywi
thhi
m,doyoul
ovehi
m,ooh!
youl
ovehi
mandt
hat
’swhyyouhavebei
ngavoi
dingme,

maki
ngmel
ooks
tupi
dbef
oremyowneyes
,whatamI
suppos
e

t
odonow,
wit
hal
lthi
scr
azyf
eel
ingi
nmyhear
tforyou,
you

don’
tloveme,
youhat
eme,
youhat
emef
orwhatI
didt
oyou

year
sagoatt
hef
ount
ain,
orbec
aus
eIr
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edmyf
eel
ingand

ki
ssedyoubac
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hamber
,Ij
ustwantt
oknowwhatc
oul
d

makeyounott
owantmel
ikeI
wantyou,
youar
edr
ivi
ngme

c
raz
ycan’
tyous
eet
hat
,doyoul
oveme,
whoi
sthemanyou

ar
eseei
ng.
…ans
werme,

Hes
wor
eunderhi
sbr
eat
hagai
n,mymout
hwasdr
iedofs
pit

asI
kepts
wal
lowi
nghar
d,myhandwass
weat
ingandI
star
ted

s
haki
ngi
nsi
de,
hewass
oangr
yandwasbec
omi
ngvi
olent
,he

c
ombedhi
shandi
ntohi
shai
randc
amec
los
etome,
hes
hakes

mevi
olent
lyandI
begant
osc
reamandt
hemoneyt
hatI
was

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ryi
ngt
ohi
def
ellof
f,hes
uddenl
ylef
tmeashes
awt
hel
eat
her

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ellf
romundermydr
ess
,hepi
ckedi
tupandopenedi
t,

andgapsashes
awt
hemoneyi
nsi
de…hes
wor
eagai
nbef
ore

l
ooki
ngatme,
Isawonl
yfi
reofj
eal
ous
yandangeral
lover

hi
m..

“
Wher
edi
dyougetal
lthi
smoneyf
rom,
yourmanl
overgave

youal
lthi
s,hmmm…whyar
eyounots
ayi
nganyt
hing,
hast
he

godst
iredupyourt
ongue,
wasi
tbec
aus
eoft
hemoneyyouar
e

wi
thhi
m,s
oyouwentt
ohi
mbec
aus
ethemoney,
whydi
dn’
t

youc
omet
ome,
Iwoul
dhavegi
venyoumuc
hmor
ethanwhat

hegaveyou,
Iwoul
dhave,
ifyouhaveas
kedmeTamar
,what
i
smyof
fens
e,whydon’
tyouwantme,
Iwantyous
omuc
h,

ans
werme,
whyar
eyous
osi
lent
,oht
hegods
!yours
ilenti
s

ki
ll
ingmeTamar
,howdoyougett
hemoney,
whoi
syourl
over
,

whogaveyoual
lthi
smoney

“
IsAdol
fo,
hegavei
ttome…

“
whaaat
…who…Adol
fo…why…oht
hegods
…Adol
fo…whydi
dhe

gaveyous
omuc
hmoney,
Idon’
twantt
othi
nkabouti
t…hopei
s

notwhatI
’
mthi
nki
ng,
isAdol
fo…your
..
imeant
hat
’snot

pos
sibl
e,I
’
mgoi
ngc
raz
y,I
sus
pec
tedy
out
wowhenZi
tywas

s
til
lhi
swi
fe,
thewayyouar
eal
waysar
oundhi
mandheal
ways

s
eeml
ikeyouar
eever
ythi
ngt
ohi
m,I
conf
ront
edyouandyou

s
aidyouhavenot
hingwi
thhi
msoyouhavebei
nghavi
ngaf
fai
r

wi
thhi
mevenwhenhewasmar
riedt
omys
ist
er,
sohei
sthe

l
overal
lthi
swhi
le,
Iknewi
t,I
knowhi
scl
osenes
swi
thyoui
s

notor
dinar
y,hehasbei
ngl
ayi
ngwi
thyouevenbac
kwhenhe

wass
til
lmar
riedt
oZi
ty…why.
.
imean.
I’
mreal
lygoi
ngc
raz
y

r
ightnow…Adol
foi
syourl
over
?

“
Hei
snot
,Idon’
thaveal
over
,Ionl
yvi
si
tedt
hemt
oday,
jus
tto

c
hec
kup,
andAdol
fowi
ll
ingl
ygavemeal
lthi
smoney,
outof

hi
sownki
ndhear
t.Wegotnot
hingt
oget
her
…I’
msayi
ngt
he

t
rut
h,I
can’
tli
etoyou,
myl
ord…

“
Stopc
all
ingmet
hat
,cal
lmeVi
m,s
ayi
tnow…c
allmeVi
m,s
ee

t
hewayyouc
allhi
mAdol
fo,
maki
nghi
msounds
pec
ial
,cal
lme

s
ameway,
cal
lmebymyname.
Ibel
ieveyouwhenyous
ayt
hat

yougotnot
hingwi
thhi
m,butats
amet
imeI
wonderwhyyou
wi
llbeavoi
dingme…I
wantyouTamar
,Il
oveyou…I
loveyous
o

muc
hthati
tmakesmyhear
tbl
eed,
Iloveyouwi
thal
lmyhear
t

andwi
thmywhol
ebei
ng,
…pl
eas
emar
ryme…I
wanty
out
obe

mi
ne…

Myhear
tmel
tathi
ssi
te,
hel
ookedbeat
en,
ashepl
eads
,ihave

nevers
eenamans
opower
fulandyets
obeat
en,
myhear
twas

al
mos
tpumpi
ngoutt
omymout
hasI
wat
chhi
m,I
don’
tknow

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fIs
houl
dcr
yors
creamt
omakehi
munder
standwhyi
tcan’
t

wor
kbet
weenus
,butatt
hatmomental
lIc
ant
hinkofi
sthe

hands
omemans
tandi
ngbef
oreme,
pleadi
ngs
eri
ous
lyf
orme

t
obehi
s,hec
amec
los
ert
omeandmyl
egsbegant
oshake

andI
coul
dn’
tevenmoveagai
n,hec
ames
ocl
oset
hatI
can

s
mel
lhi
m,hes
mel
lsofs
weat
,hegent
lydr
awmet
ohi
msel
f

andhel
dmei
nhi
sar
mfors
omet
ime,
Iwasf
eel
inghi
shear
t

beatasi
tmi
xwi
thmi
ne,
thebot
hhear
tbeat
sli
keadr
umt
omy

ear
s,I
didn’
twantt
oleavehi
sar
mashehel
dmes
ocl
oset
o

hi
msel
f,hegent
lybentoverandki
ssedme,
Idi
dn’
tres
istashe

ki
ssedmeagai
nandI
all
owedhi
mki
ssedmes
odeepl
y,we

l
ockl
ipsanddr
ankdeepl
yofeac
hot
her
,emot
ionwasr
unni
ng

wi
ld,
Icoul
dn’
tgethi
mtos
topandyetI
don’
twanthi
mtos
top,

hel
if
tedmet
othel
ongc
ushi
onbyt
hec
ornerandt
heki
ssi
ng

c
ont
inuedashel
aymegent
ly,
heki
ssedmynec
kanddownt
o

myhear
t,her
ippedmydr
essof
fmys
houl
derandI
scr
eamed

i
nshoc
kasI
real
izedwhatwasaboutt
ohappen,
Ihel
dmy

c
lot
htoget
herasr
eal
it
yhi
tsme,
hes
atups
haki
ngands
wor
e
agai
nunderhi
sbr
eat
h,hes
toodandmovedc
los
erandI
moved

bac
kwar
d…

“
Hmm…Tamar
,i.
.
not
hinghappened,
don’
tbes
car
ed,
Iwant
ed

youasyouwant
edmebutyoupul
lof
fand…and…hmmm…I
’
m

s
orr
y,I
’
msor
ryTamar
,Ic
oul
dn’
tkeepmyemot
ioni
nchec
k,

I
’
msor
ryf
orr
ippi
ngyourdr
ess
,Iwi
llgetyouanot
her
,youl
ove

medon’
tyou…youdol
oveme,
yetyouwon’
tadmi
tit
…pl
eas
e

mar
ryme,
jus
tsayyes
,youc
anwor
shi
panygodofyourc
hoi
ce

andI
swearI
wil
lnevers
topyou,
Iwi
llal
wayspr
otec
tyou,
I

wor
shi
pwhat
everI
chos
etowor
shi
p,money,
Jupi
terorany

godI
sodes
ire,
andyouwi
llwor
shi
pthegodoft
heChr
ist
ians

l
ikeyouhaveal
wayswant
ed…j
usts
ayyes
,andI
wil
lspeakt
o

Zi
tyands
hewi
llf
reeyou,
wewi
lls
tar
tourweddi
ngc
eremony,

andbec
omehus
bandandwi
fe,
wewi
llhavec
hil
dren,
lovel
y

c
hil
dren,
whoyouwi
llbr
ingup,
andI
wil
lloveyouwi
thal
lmy

hear
t,i
twi
llbeal
ovi
ngf
ami
ly,
jus
tsayyes
…mar
rymeTamar
…

pl
eas
edonotc
ry,
don’
tdot
hist
ome…I
’
msor
ry…I
wantyout
o

bemi
neandmi
neal
one…mar
rymeI
begyoui
nthenameof

yourgodwhomyous
erve…

“
Vim,
Ican’
t,I
…weal
mos
twentdowni
nsi
n…al
lowi
ngt
hef
les
h

t
otakeoverus
…yes
,i…I
don’
tknowwhatI
feelf
oryouort
he

f
eel
ingyoubr
ingst
omyhear
t…youc
onf
useme…youar
e

bec
omi
ngmyweaknes
s…

“
thenmar
rymes
othatI
won’
tbec
omeyourweaknes
sagai
n,

s
othatwhenwef
inal
lyl
ayi
twon’
tseeml
ikeas
inanymor
e
butashus
bandandwi
fe…I
knowyouar
eavi
rgi
nbutI
donot

c
areaboutt
hat
,eveni
fyouhaves
leptwi
thal
lthemenoft
his

ki
ngdomi
twon’
tmakeanydi
ff
erenc
etomeal
lIwanti
syou,
I

wantt
omakeyoumyown,
andI
wantyout
otakemeasyour
s,

pl
eas
eIbegyoui
nthenameofyourgodt
omar
ryme…I
can

s
peakt
omot
herandf
ather
,Iwi
lls
peakt
oZi
ty,
shewi
llf
ree

you,
wewi
llbec
omeuni
tedashus
bandandwi
fe,
don’
tyou

wantt
hat
…don’
tyouwantme…I
can’
thol
dbac
kthi
sfeel
ingany

mor
e…mar
rymeTamar
…Ibegofyou…

I
gent
lypi
ckedupt
hemoneyAdol
fogavemef
romt
hef
loorand

qui
etl
ywentt
othedoort
hatwasl
ocked,
het
ryt
ocomec
los
e

t
omebuts
uddenl
yst
oppedwhenI
lookedathi
mfi
erc
ely,
he

s
tood,
looki
ngatme,
asI
unl
ockedt
hedoorandwal
kedout
,I

hel
dmyt
orndr
esst
oget
herf
romf
all
ingof
fmys
houl
der
,I

s
toodout
side,
tryt
orepl
aywhatj
usthappenedi
nmymi
nd,
I

movec
los
etot
hef
lowerc
otands
atdownont
hef
loori
nst
ead

oft
hec
hai
r,I
satt
her
e,t
ryi
ngt
ocl
earmyhead,
Ial
mos
t

al
lowedmys
elft
ofal
lint
osi
n,I
thoughtofawor
dinps
alm,
that

s
aid“
howc
anI
knowt
hes
insl
urki
ngi
nmyhear
tohLor
d,

pl
eas
efor
givemef
rommyhi
ddenf
aul
t.
.

“
Pleas
eLor
dthor
oughl
ywas
hmef
rommyi
niqui
ti
es,
and

c
leans
emef
rommys
in,
formys
insar
eal
waysbef
oreyou,
you

al
onehaveI
sinnedanddonewhati
sevi
linyours
ight
,behol
d

i
nini
qui
tyI
wasbr
oughtf
ort
handi
nsi
ndi
dmymot
her

c
onc
eivedme,
youwi
llbepr
over
ighti
nwhatyous
ayandyour
j
udgementt
owar
dsmei
sfai
r,f
oryoudel
ightt
rut
hinmyi
nwar
d

bei
ngyouwi
llt
eac
hmewi
sdomeveni
nmyi
nnerhear
t…hel
p

meover
comemyweaknes
s,I
cannotdot
hisal
oneLor
d,gi
ve

met
hes
trengt
hli
keyougavet
oAbel
,Vi
mhasbec
omemy

weaknes
sLor
d,i
tseemr
ighti
ntheey
esoft
hewor
ldt
omar
ry

hi
mands
til
lser
veyou,
butI
knowonesI
’
mmar
riedt
ohi
mhe

maydr
awmeawayf
romyou,
Imaybet
ooweakt
odr
awhi
mto

youandbec
aus
ehei
sst
rongert
hanI
hewi
llevent
ual
lywi
n,i
n

asmuc
hasI
wanthi
m,yes
,Idol
ord,
IloveVi
mbutI
don’
t

wantt
obebl
ownoutoft
hef
les
h,I
don’
twantt
ogoof
fyour

wi
ll
,Abels
aidt
her
e’sal
otmor
eaheadofmet
hanI
cans
ee,

c
oul
ditbet
hisori
sther
est
il
lmor
etoc
ome,
des
ignmy

t
hought
,hel
pmet
ost
andf
ir
minyou…hel
pmeLor
d…pl
eas
e…

hel
pme…

I
cri
edoutt
oGodr
ightt
her
eatt
hef
lowerc
ot,

AndwhenZi
tyc
amebac
kIwenti
nandc
hangeover
,af
ter

s
omet
imeVi
mlef
t,af
ters
peaki
ngwi
thhi
ssi
sterf
ors
omet
ime,

I
don’
tknowwhatt
heyt
alkedaboutbutZi
tywasl
ooki
ngatme

ands
mil
ingc
heer
ful
lywhenI
camet
oat
tendt
oher
,sheas
ked

mei
fIhavebei
ngc
ryi
ngandI
tol
dherI
wasf
ine,
shet
oldme

t
hatI
shoul
dn’
twor
ryver
ysoonever
ythi
ngwi
llbeal
ri
ght

bec
aus
eherbr
others
eemt
obei
nter
est
edi
nme,
Idi
dn’
tsaya

wor
dasI
wentaboutmydut
y

Thef
oll
owi
ngdayZi
tywentout
,andI
wasatt
hef
lowerc
ot,

Chakanwasi
nsi
dehi
schamber
,Idi
dnots
eeShamar
a,butI
wasatt
hef
lowerc
ot,
medi
tat
ingonps
alms
,af
ters
omet
ime

Zi
tyc
amebac
kbutnotwi
thherc
har
iot
,Iwass
urpr
ise

bec
aus
ethatwasunl
ikeher
,shel
ooksweak,
andwhenI
asked

heri
fshewasal
ri
ghts
hes
aids
hei
shavi
ngheadac
hes
oI

gent
lyt
ookheri
nsi
de,
ands
hes
aids
hewant
edt
ogot
othe

hus
band’
schamber
,Is
houl
djus
tmakeahotas
oupf
orhert
o

t
ake,

Whens
hegott
othehus
band’
schambers
hedi
dn’
tbot
her

knoc
king,
ass
hef
orc
eful
lyopenedt
hehus
band’
schamberand

r
ightt
her
ewasShamar
awi
tht
hehus
bandonhi
sbed,

Chakandi
dnotknowt
hatZi
tywashome,
ever
ybodyknowst
hat

s
heal
waysr
etur
nint
heeveni
ngbutt
odays
hewasbac
kway

t
ooear
lyt
hanus
ual
,anddi
dnotdr
ivei
nwi
thherc
har
iotwhi
ch

al
waysmakeal
oudnoi
ses
howi
ngs
hei
sbac
k,s
hej
ustc
ame

i
nandwents
trai
ghtt
oChakan’
schamberandt
her
ehewas

ent
angl
edwi
thShamar
a,

I
didnotevennot
icewhenShamar
awentt
oChakan’
schamber

I
woul
dhavet
ryt
ost
opher
,buti
twast
ool
ateasZi
tys
tood

t
her
eins
hoc
k,Shamar
aqui
ckl
yst
oodupandpi
ckedupher

dr
essandr
anof
f,s
hewass
haki
ngal
lover
,shewasaf
rai
d,

Zi
ty’
slegbegant
oshakeass
hes
uddenl
yfai
ntedi
nmyar
m,

Chakanr
ushedt
ohi
swi
fe,
andl
if
tedhert
ohi
sar
m,hec
arr
ied

hert
oherc
hamberandl
ayherasI
qui
ckl
ybr
oughtc
oldwat
er

ands
prayedher
,ands
oakedat
oweli
nsi
dec
oldwat
erwhi
chI

pl
acedonherhead,
shewokeup,
Chakandr
oveof
fwi
thhi
schar
iott
ogetaphys
ici
anf
orher
,I

wonderi
fZi
tywi
lleverr
ecoverf
romt
hes
hoc
kofs
eei
ngher

hus
bandwi
thanot
herwoman,

Whatwi
llhappennow,
Iwar
nedShamar
abuts
henever

l
ist
ened,
andChakan,
howwi
llhemakeamendt
ohi
swi
fe,

I
thoughtofVi
magai
n,whati
shegoi
ngt
osayaboutal
lthi
s,

whatI
’
mIs
uppos
etos
ayt
ohi
mifhec
omesbac
kagai
naf
ter

Zi
tyandhi
spar
ent
shasagr
eedandgavehi
magoaheadf
or

hi
mtomar
ryme,
whatwi
llI
doors
ay,
whatwi
llAbels
ayabout

al
lthet
hingshappeni
ng.

Ever
ythi
ngwashappeni
ngs
ofas
tyetmyc
onf
idenc
eiss
trongl
y

bui
lti
nGod,
IknowAbeli
snother
etot
ellmewhatt
odo,
Irel
y

onGodt
odi
rec
tmeandI
knowwhathewi
llwantmet
odoand

t
hati
swhatI
wil
ldo.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.

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sode20.
&21

Zi
tylayqui et
lyonherbedasthephys i
cianchec kedherandconfi
rmedt hats
heandt hebaby
werealright,Chakangaveas
ighofrelief,I
washappyt hatZi
tyandt hebabywer ef
ine,t
he
Physi
cian,whowasawomans aidthats heneededagoodr es
tandgavehers omedrugswhich
wil
lmakeherr estwell
,soIl
efther,Chakans atbesi
deher,Zityaskedhimtoleavehersideand
hequietlylef
t .

AftertwodaysZi
tywassti
llonbedr est
,shesl
eepsmostpartoft
heday, t
hemedici
net he
physic
iangavehert
ookrealeffec
t,alls
hedoeswast osl
eepandeatandmos tt
imec r
ywhenno
oneisaroundandsl
eepagain,Chakanhastri
edtopleadwit
hhers ever
all
ybutsherefuseto
al
lowhi
mcl
oset
oherorhearwhathehast
osay

OnedayasIsatbythepass
ageclos
etoZi
ty’
sroomwhic
hwasopen, wai
ti
ngf
orhert
osummon
me,Chakanwentinsi
detochec
kherandtheybot
hst
artedquar
rel
ing.

“Ihavetoldyout okeepawayf romme, Ihavewar nedtoleavemeal oneandstayf

aroff,you
di
s gui
stmewi t
hyourpr esenc
e…I willbeleavingtomyf ather’
shouseonesI’
mf ul
lyrecovered,I
don’twantyouanymor eandasf ort hebaby, youwillneverbeallowedtoseethechi
ld,Iwill
personallybr
ingupt hec hi
ldi
nmyf ather’
shous eand,mymot herwil
lbesogladtohaveal i
ttl
e
one,agr andchi
ldtokeepherbus y,youwi llbetotall
yforgott
en,I wil
lmakesureofthat…you
areac heatandI hat
eyou…I hateyouChakan…

“
Youar
emywi
feandI
can’
tleaveyoual
one…I
’
msor
ryZi
ty…

“s
orryforwhatexac t
ly,fordisrespectingmebys l
eepingwit
hac ommons lavei nyourc hamber
orisitsor
ryforcausi
ngmes omuc hpain,
I havenevercri
edsomuc hlikeI
havec ri
edt hisf
ew
days,Chakanyouareadi sgrace, anddon’tyoudar egivemetheexc us
eofi notbeingar ound
whenyouneededme, t
hatwaswhyy oustoops olowtogoafteracommons ervant,youjust
don’thaveanythi
ngt otellme, leavemeal oneI havenotdecidedwhatIwantt odowi t
hyou
becauseyoudisgustme…I hateyous omuc hforhurti
ngmet hisway…

“Itakenopr i
deint hes hamef ulac t
,Ineverwant edi tt ogot hatwaybutI tri
ed,Iwant edyouZi ty,
buti sei t
herOkr aistakingyout othiswomenpl ayonhowt obei nc har geandnotal lowyour
hus bandt oc ontrolyouors heist aki
ngyout oagl adi atorpar ty,i
twasmor eofpar tyingever yday
thanyourmar riage, It
riedtomakeyous eereas onswhyyous houlds tayhomes omet i
mesand
youas kedmei fI wasac hildthatneedsbabys itting, wheneverI needsmywi fes heisnever
aroundors heist ootir
ed, butI’
ms orryZity,Ifeelas hamedofmys elf,I promises uchwi llnever
happenagai n,Ipromi se,i
fyouwantt osellShamar a, i
fitthatwi l
lmakeyouhappyt hengo
ahead, atleastthat ’
swhatyouhaveal wayswant ed, dowhat everyouwantt odowi thher ,I l
ove
you…andI reall
ydowantyout os pendmor etimewi thmet hanyoudoout si
de,wes uppos etobe
toget heres peciallynowt hatwear eex pec ti
ngac hil
d…I ’ms orry,Iwilldoanyt hingt omakei tup
toyou. .ipromi s
e, pleaseforgiveme…pl eas eZity, don’ tleaveme, don’ tleavemepl eas e…I beg
youi nt henameoft hegods ,let’smaket hiswor k, andwai tforourc hildt oarri
ves ot hatwec an
bot hbeahappypar ent,andbr ingupt hec hildinagoodway…Zi t
ypl eas e,I
’
mdeepl ys orry…
Zitydi
dnotsayanythi
ngasChakanmovedc losetoherandkneltdown,shei
gnoredhim,he
laters
toodupandkiss
edherf orehead,
heheldherinhisar
mands hetr
iedt
of i
ghtandpush
himawaybuthehel dhersti
llunti
lshewasrel
axed,andshebegant os
obinhisarm,hewiped
offhereyeswhi
leconsol
ingher,andZit
yfor
gavehimeventuall
y.

Shamarawasnots
oldbutshewasneveral
lowedi
ntot
hemai
nhous
eagai
n,s
hewasgi
vena
hardl
aborwhi
chkeptherbusyever
yday,

Ononeoft hosedaysI havenot hi

ngmuc htodo, Idecidedtogoandvi si
tRhonda, Imades ureI
fi
nishedallIwasdoi ngandChakant ookZit
yonac hariotri
de,inoneofthoseevening, Itookt he
moneyAdol f
ogavemeandwents tr
aighttothemar ket ,I
boughtlotsofthi
ngsforRhonda, f
or
thetwinsandf orli
ttleJon, Ial
soboughtfoods t
uffsforthemandhi r
edat r
uckrider,that
conveyedmet othepl ace,
I pai
dtheol dman,whol ookshaggar dmor ethanhec hargedme, he
wasgr atef
ulandas kedmei fhecanc omebackt ocarrymel at
er,It
oldhimyes,itwillreally
makemyj ourneyeas y,becausewalkingbacktoChakan’ shous ewil
lbeaver yl
ongdi stanc e,and
Idon’twantZityandherhus bandtoc omebac kbeforeme, s
oI agr
eedforthetruckr i
dert o
returnforme.

Rhondawass ohappytos eeme, i

sbei ngmont hss inceI l
astvisit
ed, s
het oldmes hehasbei ng
pr ayingforme, shewass ohappyt oseeallthet hingsI boughtandt hec ashI handedt oher ,s
he
coul dn’tthankmeenough, Isawl i
ttl
eJ ons i
tti
ngandpl ayingwi t
hawoodent oyont heground,
hel ookss omuc hl i
keAdol f
o, andhasChakan, hiss tepbrother’seyes, l
it
tleJonwi llgrowt obea
realc arbonc opyofAdol f
omor et hanChakanwas ,heisgoingt ogrowi ntoahands omemanj ust
likeAdol fois,helookssoper fects i
tti
ngont hef loorandget t
ingbus ywi t
hhi stoys,thetwins
wer ewas hi ngtheircl
othsandt hatofLittleJon,theyqui etlysingast heywor ktoget her
,Ilif
ted
littl
eJ ont omyl apsandtickleshi m,hegi ggledal itt
leandt henI li
fthimi ntotheai randhewas
laughi ngwi thhistoot
hlessmout hwhi chmademel aughtoo.

IthoughtofVimwor d,asitf
las
hedt hroughmyhear t,“
marrymeTamars ot
hatwecanr ai
se
beautifulc
hil
drent ogether,
Iwillneverstopyoufr
omwor s
hipi
ngyourgod,
Iwil
lserve
whi c
hevergodI s
odes i
re,money,JupiterandwhatevergodIwantandyouwil
lser
veyourstoo,
I
willprotec
tyou,pleasemar rymeTamar ”…
Iquicklys nappedoutoft het hought ,ashiswor dc amef l
owi ng,Ihavenevers toppedt hinkingof
himevers i
ncehec ameandZi t
ywasr eadyt oletmegobutdeepdownI want edt opr ayabouti t
andt os eekGodandknowwhathes ays,butsil
entmetmyever ypr ayer,IdonotknowwhatGod
i
ss aying,I don’tknowwhatAbelwi llsay,butAbelhast r
ainedmeenought os eekandt rustGod
i
never ysituationandc i
rcums tances ,
Abelwi l
lwantmet ohaveami ndofmyownbutt he
thoughtofmar ryingVimc rowdedmymi nd,hei sajealousl overandc anbevi olenttoo, oneof
themos thands omeandpower fulyoungmani nt hekingdom, manymai denoft hel andwi l
lkil
l
tohavehi mast heirs
,manywi llwanthi mc los
eandt oalsobehi swi f
eyethec hos eas lavegirl
,
nots obeaut i
fulli
ket heTivigirls,l
ikeShamar aorObi anei theriss heat ruebor nmai denoft he
land,Ihavenot hingt omynameyethec hosemet obehi s
, hedidnotf or
c ehi
ms elfonmeor
rapemewhenhehast hec hanc eto,hebeggedmet omar ryhi m, whichwasneverhar dofa
royaltybeggi ngamar eservantf ormar ri
age,Ifeltsohonor edt ohavehi myetI feelGodi s
tell
ingmes omet hingelse,IfeltGodmayhaveot herpl ans,IwishAbelwasc l
os ebyt ohel pme
seekt hef aceofGodort ot ellmewhatt odoli
kehehasal waysdone, i
sadi ff
icults i
tuationandI
feelli
keI don’tevenknowwhatt odo, Iwish…

“Tamar,
areyoualr
ight
…youseemtobeindeept
hought
…ist
her
eapr
obl
em,
Idon’
tmi
ndi
fyou
shar
eitwit
hme, whattr
oubl
esyousodeepl
y…

“
hmmm, i
sver
ycompl
icat
edRhonda,
Iwi
shI
knowwhatGodt
hinksofmeort
hinksoft
hiswhol
e
t
hinghappeni
ngar
oundme…

“ForI knowt het houghtI thinkt owar dsyou, s aystheLor d,t

houghtofpeac eandnotofevi l,to
giveyouaf utureandahope. God’ sthoughtf oryoui sallgood,fornoevi lisf oundi nhi m, Idon’t
knowwhati sbother i
ngyouTamar ,
butI ’
mc er t
ainthatGodwi l
lalwaysgui deyout ot her i
ght
path, whatevert hatisnotofhi mhewi llkeepf arawayfr omyou, hel eadyouandt hemi dwi feto
saveJ onandbr inghi mt ome, hewi llal sodomuc hmoret hroughyoubec aus eyouar ehi s
mas terpiece,whenGodc reatedhumani tyinhi simage, heputs omuc hef f ortsot hatwec ant urn
outtobel i
kehim, andaf tercreationt hebi bles ai
dandGodl ookedands awt hati twasgood, God
didaper f
ectwor ki nmaki ngusandt hati swhywear ecall
eds mal lgods ,f orwear eGod’ s
mas terpiecehehasc reatedusanewi nChr istJ esussothatwec andot hegoodt hingshe
plannedf orusl ongago. Jesuss ai
dbef orehisc rucif
ixi
on, “
mypeac eI givet oyou, donotl etyour
heartbet r
ouble, havef ait
hi nGodandhavef aithalsoinme…s omys is
t eryouhavet ot rustGod
mor et hanyout rus tyourinstinct,bec aus eevendevi lcangiveyouapac kagewel lwr appedand
decor atedandi tlooks oat t
rac t
ivet hatyouc anhar dlyresis
t,butins idet hepac kagei sfil
ledwi th
venom, poisonandal lmannerofbadt hi ngsyouneverexpec tedt oseei nt hebeaut i
fulwr ap,
don’tal l
owt hewi ckedonet oc reepi ntoyourhear tandmakehi sdwel l
ing, ac r
owdedmi ndi sa
confus edmi nd,andt hat ’
sthedevi lsabode, wai ti
ngforanyl i
ttl
es pac et omakei thist er
ritory,
rebuket hedevi landhes hallf
leefr
omyou, saynotoconfusi
onandt hinkofwhatGods ays,f
or
hist houghtt owar dyouar eofgoodandnotofeviltogiveyouaf utureandahope, don’tbeaf r
aid,
yous ee,Idon’twor r
yt oomuc honwhatmeandmyc hi
ldrenwilleatordr i
nkbecauseI knowGod
wi l
lal wayspr ovideforus,Jesussai
dinthebookofMat hew,“t
her eforItel
lyou,don’twor r
y
aboutyourl i
fe, whatt oeatorwhatyouwilldri
nkoraboutyourbody, whatyouwi l
lwear ,for
isn’tlif
emor et hanf ood…Tamar ,hewil
lneverall
owourf eettobes tri
keonas tone,eveni fhe
allowsust obes mit
ehewi l
lli
ftusupandhealusagain,fori
nhi mwear esecur
ed.

I
twasasi fAbelwast al
kingt
omewhenRhondas peaks
,shespeakswithsomuchauthorit
ylike
Abel,I
didnottellherwhatmytr oubl
eisandyetGodus edhertospeaktomyheartandmadei t
sti
ll
.Iwasgladtobear oundher
, Ial
waysfeelgoodtobearoundmyf el
lowbeli
ever
s,itboastmy
fai
thandkeepmef ocuswhenIfeelconf
use,thosewhotrustandtot
all
ydependsonGodwi ll
neverbeputtoshame.

Aswes peakthetruckmanc ame,i

twastimetogo,Rhondaheldmyhandsandqui et
lypr ayed
forme,sheprayedsowellandmyhear twasgl
addenasI l
eft
, Iki
ssedli
ttl
eJonandthet wi ns
,I
huggedRhondabef orel
eavi
ngwiththetruckman,andwhenI gotc l
osetothehouseI c
ame
downandpai dtheman,hewass ohappyasherodeaway,Itrekkedtocompl et
emyj ourney
whichwasn’tfar
,

Isawanewf i
nechariot
,andtwoot
herspackedouts
idethehouse,
IknowonebelongtoChakan
andt heotherl
ooksli
keVim’sown,
butIdon’tknowwhot henewandwelldec
oratedone
belongsto,IdidnotknowwhattoexpectasIwenti
nside,

Myhear
tski
ppedasI
sawVi
m,hes
toodaheadt
all
ert
hanChakan,
andZi
tywass
itt
ingbes
ide
hi
m,

MylegshakesasImovetowardsthem,
Iwasmi s
s i
ngmys t
epbec aus
eI knowt hatVimwas
watchi
ngme, whenImanagetogettot
hem, Igreetedwarml ywithmyheadbow, andjustthen
Okracameinsi
de,Zi
tydoes
n’tseemsodel
ight
edt os eeherbutsheactedc heerf
ul,Zi
tyspoke
fi
rst

“Tamar
,Iwasalr
eadywonderi
ngwhereyouc
ouldbe,
mybr otherhasbeingher
es i
nce,heeven
hastogoandcheckyouatAdol
fo’
shous
ebutyouwerenotthere,andnoneoftheservant
s
knowswher
eyouwentt
o…wher
ecoul
dyouhavegone…

Is
tammer
edali
ttl
easItryt
ost
il
lmyheartbeatwhi
chwasbeat
ingsof
astes
pec
ial
lywi
thVim
st
andi
ngt
her
eands t
ari
ngatme,nos
ignofangerwaswr
itt
enonhimbuthewasn’
tsmi
li
ng
ei
ther
,

“I
’
ms orr
yIdidn’tt
ellyoumylady,
Iwentf
orawalk,
andtogi
vesomeofmyt
hingst
hatI
’
mnoti
n
needoftot
hos einneedofi
t…myapologi
esi
fIs
pentsomuchti
me…

Vimsmil
edandZi
tySmi
ledal
so,
Chakandi
dnots
ayanyt
hingbuthehasac
heer
full
ook,
Vim
spoke

“i
thoughtyouhavestoppedallt
hisyourcharit
ablework, whi
chalmostgotyoui
ntotroubl
eback
homewhenObi areportedyoutofat
her,butisallgood,youarenotinanytr
oubl
e,yourthi
ngs
aretot
all
yyourstodealwith,
asyous odesi
re,Iactual
lycamef oryou…

Bef
oreVi
mcoul
dsayanot
hert
hingZi
tys
pokeexc
itedl
y.

“somybr otherdec idedtot akeyouashi s,youares oluckyTamart obec hosenbymyoneand

onlybr other, hes aidmot herandf atherhasalreadyappr ovedyouruni onwi thhim, thenew
chariotyous awout si
debel ongstoyou, heboughti tforyou, andhasals ogottenthr eeservant
s
girl
swhowi llserveyoui nyournewhome, Vi
mhast akenoneoft hehous esinfather’sestat
e,
wher eyout wowi llli
veashus bandandwi fe,
anewboxoff i
nej ewelri
esandwear shasbei ng
boughtdownf oryou, youar esuchawonder f
ulandl uckygirlandyoudes erveitbec auseyou
haves ervedmewel lTamar ,soallthatisremainingnowi st ofreeyouwhi c
hI’mdoi ngr i
ghtaway,
iwillgivey ouac er t
if
icat
eofyourf reedomwhi chi havealreadypr epareddown,bec aus
eyou
aregoingt obel ongt omybr othernotmeanymor e,Iwil
lreallymi s
syoubutI knowyouc an
alwaysvi si
tandI too…

Okr
aspokeangr
il
y,asj
eal
ous
yandenvywaswr
itt
enal
loverher
“wai
tas econd,hasever yonegonec r
az y,Zi t
yI knowyourbr otherdoes n’tli
kemebutI si
ncerel
y
hastos ayt hi
snotwi thstandi ng,howc anyourbr others t
oops ol owf oramai dwhent hereareso
manybeaut if
ulmai den, atruebor nandal s oroyalbor nr eadyt odi ef orhim,whatdi dhes eein
thi
sthingyouc alledyourper s onalmai d,ordi ds hec har medhi m, ooh,shehaspr obabl y
bewitc
hedhi m, becauseyourbr other ,ar oyalt y,hands omel iket hos egodst heycar vei nthe
templeofJ upiter,power fulli
ket wai l,hec ommandr espec twher eeverhegoes ,howc anhenot
goandgetawi feofhiski nd,thisisat ot aldi sgrac etoyourhous ehold,adisgracet hatt heonly
sonofLor dRees e, t
hes econdpr i
mer uleroft hiski ngdommar riedas l
avegirl,
peopl ear egoing
tomakef unofhi mandyout oobec auseyouar ehi ss i
sterands hei syours l
avegirl,Zi tydoyou
knowt hatt hi
syours l
avewi llbehi ghert hanyouwhens hebec omesyourbr other’
swi fe,she
prac
ticallybecomesmor epower fulbec aus eshei smar r
iedt oaver yimpor t
antman, andone
wayort heot heryouwi l
lhavet os eereas onst owhatI ’
ms aying…t hisisnotjustright ..

Vi
mlaughedoutl
oudbef
ores
ayi
ng

“I’
ms ogladyouknowI don’tlikeyouandI won’t,nomat terwhatyoudo, youar etalki ngt omy
sisterasifI ’
mnotpr esentort hereisnoot herhumanher eexc epther ,whydon’ tyougoand
mi ndyourhome, rumorhasi tt hatyouar edec eivingyoungerwoment or ulingovert hei r
hus bands ,andyout hi
nkZi tyi sthenextonei nlinef oryou,yous houldbeas hamedofyours elf,
ever ybodyi snotillmi ndedl ikeyou, focusonyourbus ines sandl eavemeandmywi fet obe
aloneands t
ayawayf rommys i
s t
erorhaven’ tyouhar dt hatI havegl adiatorf r
iendswhoI can
sendt oyourhous e, ri
ghtinyourhous et ogiveyous omewhi p,ifyoudar ec omec l
os et owhatI
cher ishmus t,mindyourbus inessOkr a,goandat tendt oyourmer chanthus band,whoi ss o
unf ortunatetomar ryas hrewdwomanl ikeyou, Ilovemys i
sterdear lyandI willmar ryTamar ,be
itslaveorf reeisnotyourpr oblem, sheiswhomI c hoseandt hatishowi twi llbe,letmes ee
anybodyi nthiskingdomt hatwi lldaresayi l
lthingst oherorbehi ndherbac k,theywi llbe
hangedups i
dedownandwhi pt horoughly,Iamnotj oki ng, youc anl eavenow, thiss uppos etobe
afami l
ygat heri
ngnotf orfriendsandf ami l
ywhi chI knowt hatyouar enotevenZi ty’sf ri
end, you
areonl yfi
ndingawayt ospoilhermi ndandmakehers tar tdoingyourbi dding, l
eaveatonc e,I
hat eyourpr esenc eits mell
sonl yofhavoc …getawayf romher eanddon’ tyoueverc omec l
oset o
wher everIamorwher emywi feTamari s ,
ZityisforChakanI can’tmaket hatdec i
sionf orher ,
shehast omakei tforhers el f,i
fs hesti
llwantt obes eei ngyouandal l
owi ngyout odec eiveher ,
lethermaket hatc hoice…

Okr
alookedatVi
mangr
il
yands
ighedbef
orewal
kingaway.
SoVimas
kedmetofol
lowhimtot
henewhous
e,andI
wil
lal
sor
ideonmynewc
har
iot
,Il
ooked
atl
adyZi
tys
henoddedurgi
ngmetogo,

Despiteever ythings oundl ikeadr eam, des pit

ei twast oogoodt obet ruef orac ommonerl i
ke
mei nt heeyesoft hepeopl emar r
iedt olordRees eonl yson, oneoft hemos timport antyoung
manoft heki ngdom, yesdes pi
tehowmout hwat eringandt empt i
ngi twasyetI willnotaccepti
t,
ishardt os aynot os ucht hi
ng,I knowVi mwi llbehur t
,IknowZi tywi llbeangr y,Iknowawhol e
lotoft hi
ngswi llgobadbutI willnotac cept ,Iunders t
andAbel ’swor dt omewhenhes ai
d
there’smor etoc ome, Abelhasas kedmet oopenmyhear tandl etGods peakt omeandgui de
me, andGodhass pokent hroughRhondaandi tmaynothavec omeoutc learyetI gott he
mes sage,thi snotGod’ swi l
lformeandI willnotgi veint oal lthistempt at i
on,Iwantt obe
mar ri
ed, Ihaveal wayswant edto, Iwantt ohavec hildren,whenI heldlittl
eJ oninmyhandI
havewi s
hedI wi llalsogetmar rieds omedayandbearc hil
dr en,I knowI wantt obel ovedand
Vimhaspr ovent ol oveme, andisreadyt odoanyt hingI askofhi m, yetI don’tfeelitinmyhear t
toac ceptthi sofferpr esentedt omei napl atterofgol d,Rhondahass ai
d, somepac kagemay
comewel ldec or ated, wrappeds obeaut ifullyandhar dtores istbuti nsi
dei sfill
edwi t
hvenom,
andI under standwhats hemeansnow.

Iknowi fImar r
yVi m, hewi l
ldragmeoutoff ai
thandpul lmedownt otheirgods ,
whoamI to
disobeymyhus bandi fhedec i
destos aydon’tworshipyourGodagai n,choseanygodsoft he
landands erve,Idon’twantmywi fetobeaChr i
sti
anorwor shipherGodanymor e.Vimwi llsay
withauthor i
ty“youbel ongt omes oyouhavet odomybi ddi
ng”.andi nthatinstantIknowI ’
m
donef or,whichwaydoI go,Ic
annotdi sobeymyhus bandbec ausehehasbec omel ordoverme, I
can’tevenmakehi mt obel i
evebecaus ehishearti
ss t
ubbornandf orhimt obel i
eveGodhi ms el
f
hast oplaceahandonhi mandt urnhisstonedhear t
,Vimneedt os eewhatwi llmakehi m
believe,l
ikeami racleoranenc ounterandt hatwil
lnotc omeeas y,hehasgot tenangr ythedayI
tri
edt ospeakt ohispar entsaboutGodandhehast oldmenott ospeakt othemagai n,andt hat
washowt hedevi lheldt hegospelfr
omget t
ingtohisparents,whichIknowi twi l
lsti
llhappen
someday,

ButIcan’tmarryVim,notl
ikethi
s,notwhenhedoesn’twantt ohaveanythi
ngtodowithGod,
eventhoughhehass aidIwil
lworshi
pmygodhewi llnotdisturbmeandhewi lls
ervehisown
god,I
’
mi ndeepdoubti twil
lnevergoasits
ound,hewi l
ldragmet ohisandItwil
lbebetteri
fI
wasneverc onc
eivedinmymot her’
swomb, i
twil
lbebet t
erifIhaveneverseethesunli
ghtthan
tobowt oanIdol,
agodmadebymen. Godf
orbi
dsit
.

Iknowever
ythi
ngmaycrumbl
ebutIknowGodhasspokent
omeonwhatt odothr
oughRhonda,
andIknowasal
wayshehasdi
rec
tedmyways,f
orGodplanformei
sofgoodandnotofevi
lto
gi
vemehopeandaf
utur
e.

Sowheni
wasalonewi
thVimatthef
lowercot
,ashetal
kst
omeaboutthemarri
ageprepar
ati
on
whi
chwasal
readyi
nproc
essandwil
lbegi
ntomorrow,I
dec
idedt
otel
lhimthebi
ttert
ruth.

TAMAR.
Epi
sode21.

“youlooksad, youares upposetobehappy, thiswillbeagr eatlifeforyou, youwillbecomethe

queenofmyhear tandnotonl ythatyouwi l
lbeagr eatmistr
es shavi ngpeopletos erveyou,
diff
erentservantswi l
lbeatyours ervic
ebot hslaveandf ree,j
us tasyouwant ,i
sgoi ngtobe
greatTamar ,andI wil
lalwayspr otec
tyou, Il
oveyouandI can’twai tforthemar ri
agec eremony
tobeovers ot hatthewhol ekingdomwi llknowyouar emywi fe, youar esupposet obehappy
andc heer
fulnotl ooki
ngdej ected…whyar eyous ad…whati sthepr oblem…what everyouwantI
willdoitf
oryou…don’ tyoul oveme, don’tyouwantt ospentther es tofyourli
fewi thme…what
istheproblemTamar …

“I
’mfine…an…andI l
oveyouVi m,I’
mgr atefulforeverything,ifeelsohonor ed,reall
y,If
eelmy
heartwillboas tfromallthis
, i
sjus ttoomuc hVi m,andI’mr eall
ys ogratefulthatyouwi l
lchose
meamongal lthewor t
hymai den, I
’msohappyyoupi ckedmet obeyour s…Ifeelso
pri
vil
eged…yetI don’tknowi fI c
ant aket hisoffer,l
ookingatmybel i
ef,I
’maChr i
sti
an,youknow
thatalr
eady…andyouar enot …I wishyouar e,Iwishyouwi l
lcomet oknowt heonet rueGod, I
wishyoubel ieveandal l
owhi mt obapt istyouwi thhisbles s
ings…ifImar ryyoul i
kethis
,youwi l
l
somedaypul lmeawayf rommyf ait
h,youmayc hosetos topmef roms ervi
ngmyGod, li
feis
meaninglesswi t
houtGod, Godi snotaf antasywec reatei nourhear ttogetawayf r
ompai n,no,
Godisrealandhi sarmisopenedwi de,bec koningyout oc ome…I somuc hwantt obeyourwi fe
andthemot herofyourc hil
dr enbuthowc ant hatbewhenwear enotequal l
yyoked…

“Tamar ,thi
snotapr oblem,yous houldn’tbewor ri
edors adbec aus eoft hat,Ihavetoldyout hatI
willnotholdyoubac kyouf romwor shipi
ngyourgod, youc anwor shipyourgodandI wi lls er
ve
mi ne,youwi llgetwhat everyouwant …isfi
nebyme, youdon’ thavet obes adaboutt hat, and
abouts toppingyouf roms ervingyourgod, wellisonl ywheni sget t
ingoutofhand, Idon’ twant
mywi fetobeaf anati
cChr i
stian,ac
tingc r
azyandt alkingtoher self,no,Idefinit
elydon’tl ike
suc h,
s oifIfeelyouareget ti
ngoutofhandI willbringyout oor dereveni fitmeanss t oppi ngyou,
youwi llbelongt omeandyouhavet oobeyyourhus band…t hati sthet r
ut h,Ican’
tli
et oyou, i
f
youknowmeenoughyouwi llseethatI canbever yjealous ,yes,jealousifI l
oves omeone, soif
youdevotemor etimet oyourgodandl it
tletome, Iwil
lgetjealousbecaus eI’
maj ealous
husband…isfunnybutistrue, wellsoyouknowt hatasmuc hasI loveyouI willalsoli
keyout o
devotemoret i
met omet hanyouwi lldotoyourgod, youknowwhenawomani smar ri
ed, her
husbandbecomeshergod, theot hergods heservescomess econdonherl i
st,exc eptifshe’sa
shrewdwomanl i
kethatmer c hant’
swi f
e,andnobodywi shtomar ryatroublesomewoman, ora
womanwhowi llnotgiveherhus bandt her es
pecthedes er
ve, well,I
loveyouTamarandal lI
wantisforyoutoalsolovemeandr espectme, Idon’
twantt oc omes econdbef oreyourgod, but
youcanwor shi
pwhat ever,Iwi l
lnots t
opyou, whateveryouwantt owor s
hipisal lyourchoic eas
farasitwi
llnottakemypl ac e…

“thatistheproblemVi m,yous eewhyi twillbehardforust oli

vetogetherorbemar r
ied,
bec ausewear enotcompac table,therewillbealotofar gumentandmi sunderstandi
ng
bet weenus,myGodc annotc omes econd,asmuc hI wantt hi
swonderfulli
feyouar eoffer
ingme
butGodwi l
lalwaysbet hefi
r sti
nmyl ifeandi nmyhome, i
fyoubecomemyhus bandandI
alreadyknowyouar et heheadoft hehous eandt heheadofyourwi febutGodi syourheadandI
wi l
lalwaysputhi mfi
rstbefor eanyoneandanybody, Vim, I
’mnotgivenyouc onditi
onont his
,no,
thet rut
hisI’
mnotevenwor t hyofyoubutI c
an’tsubst
itutemyGodf orthisfai
rytalelif
eyouare
pres ent
ingtome…

“yourgodi snotreal
,st
opac ti
ngcrazyTamar
, Iwantt ohel
pyous napoutofthatfantasyand
bringyout oreali
ty,
yourgodc annotdoanyt
hi ngforyou,hecannotevens aveyouwhent roubl
e
struck,butIcan,hecannotevengiveyouchi
l dren,bothmaleandfemalebutI can,yourgodcan
notloveyout hewayI wil
l,whyareweevent alkingaboutyourgod,thi
sisaboutusnotabout
him,I wil
lmar r
yyouandl aywithyouandyouwi llconcei
veift
hegodspl easeandbearc hi
ldr
en,
yourgodi snotevenimpor t
anthere.
..

“st
opi tVim,s topitplease, withoutGodyouwi llneverbebor n,withoutGodt hereisnoVi m
Rees e, wit
houtGodnot hing, andI meanabs olut elynot hingcanbei nexistenc e,Godisnoty our
mat e,butI cannotf i
ghtf orhi mbec auseheal onei sal mightyandt hroughhi mever ythingis
beingmade, don’tbringjudgementonyour sel
f, bec aus edespit
ebei ngignor antitc analsolead
yout odes truc ti
on,Iprayt hatGodwi llprovehims elft oyouinawayyouhavenever
imagi ned…yourhear tiss ohar den,butGodwi lls of teni tatt
her ighttime, Ican’tbeequal lyyoke
withyoui nmar ri
age,Godc annotbemoc k,Ican’ tmar ryyouVim, notliket hi
s ,Ican’t
,Iwillnever
bowt oanygodoft hi
sl and, IwillneverputmyGods econd,hewi l
lalwaysbef ir
s ti
nmyl if
e…t he
wor dofGods aidinthebookofpr overb, i
never yt hingyoudoputGodf irstandhewi l
lc r
own
youref f
ortwi thsuccess ,hi
swor dalsos ai
d,seekf irs tthekingdomofGodandever yot herthing
willbeaddedunt oyou. Sowhat every ouar eoffer ingmenowi smi norcompar etot hegiftsfr
om
God…hei sthef i
rstandt hel ast,heisincompar abl e, beginni
ngandhes ti
lltheend…Godbef ore
ever
ythi
ng…

“Youar emakehi ml ookl i

kehei sreal,
hei snotevenr eal
, doyouknowhowmanyChr istinahave
beingkilled,andyourgoddi dnothing,hejustwat cht hemdi e,ifhewast hatpower f
ull ikey ou
makehi ms eemt henhec ouldhaves tri
kedownt heenemi es ,hec ouldhavedes tr
oyt hepeopl e
persecutingt heChr i
s t
ians ,butheneverdi d,atthef ountai nyear sbac k,meandyouwhenI was
sti
llfooli
sh, wellI gi
vec redittoyouf ormaki ngmet os eer easont obeabet terpersonnot
throughyourwor dbutt hr oughyourac ti
on,I f
eelinl ovewi t
hyouaf t
erthat,thatnightasI held
you,I f
eltthiss t
rangeai rbehi ndmyhead, Ialmos tthoughtyourgodc amef oryourr es c
ueunt ilI
reali
zeispr obabl yaghos tt hatgavemet hatstrangef eelingori sjustabadai r,di
dn’tyourgod
wat c
hyourmot herandf at herdieorwhat everhappenst ot hembuthenevers avesthem, he
wat c
hedyoubei ngsoldoutasas lavebuthenevers avedyou, whatki ndofgoddoest hat ,that’
s
whyourpeopl ewor shipdi ff
erentgod, i
fJupiterormar sorevenVenusc annotgi veyouyour
desires,t
henmoneywi ll
, wet hatwor s
hipmoney, ithasal waysans weredus ,Tamaryouc an’t
choseamar egodoverme, agodthatc an’
tof f
eryout heluxur yl i
feI ’
mof fer
ingyou, youc an’tdo
that.
.

Whenhesawhows er
iousI
wasasIstandonmyword,hesawthathec oul
dn’tconvi
nceme, Vi
m
st
oodupangri
ly,
andwenttothes
ister,
hespokewi
thherfors
ometime, I
c anhearhi
m
sc
reami
ng,“
hergodcanhavehersi
nc eshec
hosehi
moverme”hel aterstunsoutangri
ly.

Zi
tydidnotc
allmeoras
kmeanyt
hingands
hedi
dn’
tac
tindi
ff
erentt
hatdayorevent
henext
day.

AfterfewdaysOkracameagain,Chakanwasout, andZitywhohasbeingavoidi
ngherhasno
choicethant
ogiveheraudience,
theywereinZity’schamber,
soIstayedoutastheyaskedmet
o
goawaybutI di
dn’tgofarI
s t
ayedclosebyasIover hear
dallt
heywer esayi
ng.

“Youkeepavoi di
ngmeZi ty,why,allofas udden,youknowI knowallyoursecrets,
Iwant edyou
tobepower fulandt obeinc hargeofyourhome, Iwasagoodf ri
endtoyouZity,nof r
iendwill
evergoof fherwayt opleaseyoul ikei di
d,for
getaboutallthi
sthingsyouhearaboutmeor
what everyourbr otherissaying,Icanneverdoyouwr ong,yougottotrustme, I
helpedyouget
rideofAdol f
o’schild,Iknowyours ecretandyouknowmi ne,Iwasonlytr
yingtomakeyou
power fulandoutofs uddenyous tartedavoidingme,isthatyourownwayofs ayingthanky ou
aftereverythingI di
df oryou…
“i
snots oOkr
a,Ijustwantedtolookintomyhomemor ethanIdooutsi
de,i
twasal r
eady
affec
tingmyrelati
onshipwithChakan,thi
ngsweregoi
ngsouroverhereandIcaughtChakan
cheati
ng,hewasc heati
ngwi t
has er
vant,Shamar
a,asl
avegir
l,anditwasbecauseIwasnever
aroundandsinc
et henIdecidedtostaybackandmakemymar ri
agebetter
..
.

“yous ai
dwhat …ohmayt hegodss trikehim, whaaat …Zity,youc aughtChakanc heat ing,whatdi d
youdo, whydidn' tyout ellmeal lthiswhi le,ooh, don’tt el
lmeyouf orgi
vehi m,t hatwi llmake
youaweakwomani fyoudi d,becaus eifamanc heat sandyouj ustforgivehimwi thoutt eaching
himahar dles
s onhewi llt akeyouf orgr antedandwi lldoitagain,noZity,youhavet oteachhi m
ahar dlesson,yourhus bandf i
rstthenyouc ant hinkofwhatyouwi lldowi ththes lave,Shamar a,
andal soyourper sonalmai dIwonderwhyyouwi llallowhert obeget ti
ngmar riedt oyour
brother,Zit
yyourbr othert hatisever ywoman’ sdr eam, howc anyoual lows uch, thatgi r
lwillbe
higherthanyoubec aus es heisindirec t
lyget t
ingmar r i
edtothes econdpr imer uleroft his
kingdomi fyourpar ent sar egone. Ac ommons lave, anobody, as l
avegi rlwil
laut omat icall
y
becomes opower ful,youc an’tall
owy ourbr othert omakes uchmi stake…

“sher ejectedt hepr opos al,shes aidshecan’tmar ryhi mbec auseofhers ocall
edgod, Vimgot
angry, hehasf reedal lthes l
avesheboughtf orTamar ,andgivenoutt hechariotheboughtf or
herevent heclothsandj ewel s
,hewentbac kt olivingwi thfatherandmot her,hedoes n’
twant
tohaveanyt hi
ngt hatwi llremi ndhimofTamars inc es hechosehergodoverhi m,isasad
momentf orvimwhos eemt obei nlovewithher , Ihavenevers eenhims oc r
az yli
kethat,Vi m
hardlyf allinloveandwhenhedoi salwaysc razy, IwonderwhyTamarwi l
lchos eagodt hatc an
nots aveherovermybr ot her,Icannotevens ayanyt hingtoherbec auseI’
ms tillsos
peec hless,I
haveneveri nal lmyl ifehar dors eenas l
avewhowi llsaynotos uchopportunity,toabet t
erl i
fe,
Isti
llc an’tunder stand, evenChakanc an’
tcompr ehend…Vi miss obitt
er,hesaidhergodc an
haveher ,hes aidthatangr i
lyandI felthi
spainwhenhes ai
dt hat,hespokeoutl oudintotheai r
andc ur sedhergodands ai dlethers ocall
edgodhavehers i
nc eshechosehimoverabet terl i
fe,
overt hel uxuryhewasof feringher ,
thatmanywi llkilltohave,Tamarr ej
ectedhi m…sher ej
ec ted
mybr otherovers omes tupi dgod….

“sheiscursedbyt hevengeanc egod…t wai

l,mayt hegodoft hunder ,st
rikeherdead,t hi
sis
seri
ous ,
whatani ns ult
,shehasguttos aynot oyourbrother,howc ans heturndownyour
brother’
soffer,
howc ans hesaynotohi m,t
hatgir li
ssofullofherself,
thenl ethergodhaveher
then,Iusetotellyoubac ki nAdol
fo’
shouset hatsheisaChr ist
ian,butyoudoubt ed,nowy ouc an
see,theyaresof ulloftheirsel
ves
,theybelieveinpur i
tyandputt heirgodfirstbefor
eever yone
oranything,Ihatet hemwi thpass
ion,andshewi lldefi
nit
elysufferforturningyourbrother
down,ac ommons laveturni
ngar oyalborndown, arealsonofthesoi
l,i
sgoodhewas hedhi
s
handsoffher,nows hei
satourmer cy,
andt hegladi
atormas t
er,Mandi
oh,wil
lbesogl adtof
eed
hertohisli
ons,orherli
fewilljustdrainaway, s
hebr oughtthi
suponhersel
f,choosi
ngagod
overyourpower f
ulandhands omebr other
,welllet’
sjustl
eavehercaseasi
de,andtalkabout
yourhusband,hemus tpayforc heatingonyou, youarenotaweakwomanbec auseisweak
woment hatforgi
veeasily…

“whatdoyout hinkwes houlddo,I’

mal mostfourmont hsgone,andChakans omuc hwantt his
baby,helovesme, andI l
ovehimal s
o,soIcan’tovers tressmyself,
I don’
twantanyt hi
ngt o
happent othechild,thedoctorsaidIshoul
dbec ar
ef ulinwhatI doandmyi ntake,soIdon’twant
anythingthatwillaffectmeort hechil
d,Chakanwi llbebr oken,solet’
swaitunti
lthec hi
ldis
born,orgivehi
mt hischance,i
fheeverc heatonmeagai nthenwec anpl
anonwhatt odo…I
can’
tdoanyt hi
ngbec ausehehasbei ngagoodmanevers i
nce…

“t
hatist hesignofaweakwomanZi t
yandI di
dn’ttr
ainyoutobeweak,lookatme,I’
ms t
illvery
attr
activeandmyhus bandc annotevencontrolme,youcan’
tal
lowChakant ogetawaywi thhi
s
si
ns, i
fismeI woul
dhavec utoffthathi
smanhood, youhavetodealwi
thhim, andi
tmus tbe
whathec heri
s hmost
, t
hec hil
dyouarecarryi
ng,abortit
,andwatchhi
mweepl i
keababy…t ake
offthec hi
ld…youarebec omingweakbec auseofthatchil
d…

“Okra…Ican’
tdot
hat,
thefi
rstoneIdi
dwassopai
nful
,Ican’
tdoanot
her
,Ic
an’
t,Chakanwi
llbe
broken,
andmyl i
fei
sindanger,I
can’
tdot
hat,
notagai
n…

“hahahaha, youhavet rulybec omeaweakwomanZi ty,doyout hinkChakanl ovesyou, heonl y

loveshi schild,helovest hemai dyouc aughthi mwi thnotyou, heisonl ykeepi ngyouandac t
ing
allni
c ebec aus eofthisbaby, justtrustmeandt esthi m, bydoi ngwhatI sugges tedandyouwi ll
seether ealChakan, don’tallowyour selft obedec eivebyhi mZi ty,Chakanneverl oveyou, heis
onlyher ebec auseofthisthing, yourpregnanc y,seemeI don’thaveac hild,andI ’
ml i
vingmy
bestlife,Igoanywher eI wantt ogo, Itraveltomeetmyl overandmyhus banddoesnothavea
say,Imovewi thpower fulpeopl eofthiski ngdom, don’tyouwants uc hpower ,manypeopl emay
notlikemebec auseoft hes trengthIpul l
, butever ybodymus tnotl ikeyouZi ty,Iwasnot
broughtt othisearthtopl easeever yone, doasI sayandyouwi llunder st
andwhatI ’
mt alking
about ,
puni s hhimf orwhathedi dt oyou, dealwi thhi mZi tylethi ms eethatyouar enott hetype
tobemes sedwi th…doyouunder st
andme. Ican’tallowyout obeweaken, no,youar epower ful
andyouar einc har
ge, i
sonl yweakpeopl et hateas i
lyforgive,youar en’tweak, proveit,letme
knowwhenyouar ereadys ot hatIwillbringint hephys icianbutdonotdel aybec auset her e’
sno
t
ime,
soi
twi
llnothappenl
ikeAdol
fo’
sown.

“
Hopei
twon’
tbepai
nfulOkr
a…

“Nots opai nfulli

kec hildbirth, doyour emembert hepainyouf eeldoingc hi
ldbi rth,Iknowyou
don’ twantt ogot hroughs uc hpainagai n,itwon’ tbepainful, t
hephys icianI willcallisanol d
ladywhohasbei ngi ntot heac tfordec ades ,s hewi l
lgiveyouas ubs t
anc et odr i
nkandbef ore
youknowt hepr egnanc ywi llcomedown, isnotpai nful,
trustme, I
haveneverdec eivedyou
befor e…l etmeknowwhent obr i
ngherbec aus eshei swellknown, andmos tlys ortafter,her
servicei sver yexpens ive, s
oyouhavet opayahugeamountofmoneyf orhert or enderher
service, Iknowyouar ec apabl e,yourpar entsar eweal t
hyandyouar eal somar ri
edt hes onofa
weal thyman, soyouhavenowor ri
es,butyougott ohurryup, bewi seandkeepyourmout hs hut
,
donott ellanybody, event hatyourper sonals lavethatwi l
ls oonbeaf oodt ot hel i
onsi fshe
does n’tdenounc ehergodandt akeupanot hergodoft hel and,buteveni fshepi c
kupanygodof
thel andl ateranddenyhergodwhi chI’mi ndoubt ,stil
ldonotal l
owhert omar ryyourbr other,
bec aus es hehasherc hanc ebuts heblewi taway…t i
mef orherwi l
lsoonc omewhens hewi ll
weepandwi shshewasneverbor n,nobodyc ans avehernotevenhergod, shewi lldieifshe
don’ tchos eanygodoft hisland, don’tment ionwhatI t
oldyout oanybody, Iwillcomewi tht he
phys icianwhenyouar ereadyorI wil
ltakeyout oheri fChakanwi l
lbear ound, butI havet ogo
andbookherdownf irs
t,don’ twor ryyours ec retsar esafewi thme. Isbet weenus …youar ea
strongert hanyout hinkZi t
y…

Iwentc old,notformys elfbutf

orZit
y,Okrawasadevil
’si
ncarnatedecei
vingZi
tysoeasi
ly,
I
knowf ors ur
eI wil
lneverdenyGodf oranythi
ngnoteveninthefaceofdeath,I
wil
lnever,Il
ive
forChristandI di
et ogain,Abelhast
aughtmet hat
,andwhatAbels ai
daboutsaddaysaheadis
j
us tar
oundt hecorner.

Tear
scl
oudedmyeyes,asIr
antothefl
owercotandknel
tdownontheground,
pleadi
ngwith
Godtohavemer c
yonZi
tyonOkraandals
oforVimwhoisdrunki
nsi
n.IweepasIcryoutf
or
Godtoi
ntervene.

theonlypict
ureikepts
eei
ngisthatofOkr
asmili
ngt
ohersel
fandt
hinki
ngs
hei
str
ulypower
ful
,
butshe'sasfr
agi
leasanegg,
butshedoesnotknowt
hatyet.

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ont
inue
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25/
04,
7:06am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
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*

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sode21.
*

“youlooksad, youares upposetobehappy, thiswillbeagr eatlifeforyou, youwillbecomethe

queenofmyhear tandnotonl ythatyouwi l
lbeagr eatmistr
es shavi ngpeopletos erveyou,
diff
erentservantswi l
lbeatyours ervic
ebot hslaveandf ree,j
us tasyouwant ,i
sgoi ngtobe
greatTamar ,andI wil
lalwayspr otec
tyou, Il
oveyouandI can’twai tforthemar ri
agec eremony
tobeovers ot hatthewhol ekingdomwi llknowyouar emywi fe, youar esupposet obehappy
andc heer
fulnotl ooki
ngdej ected…whyar eyous ad…whati sthepr oblem…what everyouwantI
willdoitf
oryou…don’ tyoul oveme, don’tyouwantt ospentther es tofyourli
fewi thme…what
istheproblemTamar …

“I
’mfine…an…andI l
oveyouVi m,I’
mgr atefulforeverything,ifeelsohonor ed,reall
y,If
eelmy
heartwillboas tfromallthis
, i
sjus ttoomuc hVi m,andI’mr eall
ys ogratefulthatyouwi l
lchose
meamongal lthewor t
hymai den, I
’msohappyyoupi ckedmet obeyour s…Ifeelso
pri
vil
eged…yetI don’tknowi fI c
ant aket hisoffer,l
ookingatmybel i
ef,I
’maChr i
sti
an,youknow
thatalr
eady…andyouar enot …I wishyouar e,Iwishyouwi l
lcomet oknowt heonet rueGod, I
wishyoubel ieveandal l
owhi mt obapt istyouwi thhisbles s
ings…ifImar ryyoul i
kethis
,youwi l
l
somedaypul lmeawayf rommyf ait
h,youmayc hosetos topmef roms ervi
ngmyGod, li
feis
meaninglesswi t
houtGod, Godi snotaf antasywec reatei nourhear ttogetawayf r
ompai n,no,
Godisrealandhi sarmisopenedwi de,bec koningyout oc ome…I somuc hwantt obeyourwi fe
andthemot herofyourc hil
dr enbuthowc ant hatbewhenwear enotequal l
yyoked…

“Tamar ,thi
snotapr oblem,yous houl
dn’tbewor ri
edors adbecauseoft hat,Ihavetoldyout hatI
willnotholdyoubac kyouf romwor shipi
ngyourgod, youc anwor s
hi pyourgodandI wi lls er
ve
mi ne,youwi llgetwhat everyouwant …isfi
nebyme, youdon’thavet obes adaboutt hat, and
abouts toppingyouf roms ervingyourgod,wellisonl ywheni sgettingoutofhand, Idon’ twant
mywi fetobeaf anati
cChr i
sti
an,acti
ngc r
azyandt alkingtoher sel
f ,no,Idefinit
elydon’tl ike
suc h,
s oifIfeelyouareget ti
ngoutofhandI willbringyout oordereveni fitmeanss t oppi ngyou,
youwi llbelongt omeandyouhavet oobeyyourhus band…t hatisthet r
ut h,Ican’
tli
et oyou, i
f
youknowmeenoughyouwi llseethatI canbever yjealous,yes ,
jeal
ousifI l
oves omeone, s oif
youdevotemor etimet oyourgodandl it
tletome, Iwillgetjealousbecaus eI’
maj ealous
husband…isfunnybutistrue, wellsoyouknowt hatasmuc hasI loveyouI willalsoli
keyout o
devotemoret i
met omet hanyouwi lldotoyourgod, youknowwhenawomani smar ri
ed, her
husbandbecomeshergod, theot hergods heservescomess econdonherl i
st,exc eptifshe’sa
shrewdwomanl i
kethatmer c hant’
swi f
e,andnobodywi shtomar ryatroublesomewoman, ora
womanwhowi llnotgiveherhus bandt her es
pecthedes er
ve, well,I
loveyouTamarandal lI
wantisforyoutoalsolovemeandr espectme, Idon’
twantt oc omes econdbef oreyourgod, but
youcanwor shi
pwhat ever,Iwi l
lnots t
opyou, whateveryouwantt owor s
hipisal lyourchoic eas
farasitwi
llnottakemypl ac e…

“thatistheproblemVi m,yous eewhyi twillbehardforust oli

vetogetherorbemar r
ied,
bec ausewear enotcompac table,therewillbealotofar gumentandmi sunderstandi
ng
bet weenus,myGodc annotc omes econd,asmuc hI wantt hi
swonderfulli
feyouar eoffer
ingme
butGodwi l
lalwaysbet hefi
r sti
nmyl ifeandi nmyhome, i
fyoubecomemyhus bandandI
alreadyknowyouar et heheadoft hehous eandt heheadofyourwi febutGodi syourheadandI
wi l
lalwaysputhi mfi
rstbefor eanyoneandanybody, Vim, I
’mnotgivenyouc onditi
onont his
,no,
thet rut
hisI’
mnotevenwor t hyofyoubutI c
an’tsubst
itutemyGodf orthisfai
rytalelif
eyouare
pres ent
ingtome…

“yourgodi snotreal
,st
opac ti
ngcrazyTamar
, Iwantt ohel
pyous napoutofthatfantasyand
bringyout oreali
ty,
yourgodc annotdoanyt
hi ngforyou,hecannotevens aveyouwhent roubl
e
struck,butIcan,hecannotevengiveyouchi
l dren,bothmaleandfemalebutI can,yourgodcan
notloveyout hewayI wil
l,whyareweevent alkingaboutyourgod,thi
sisaboutusnotabout
him,I wil
lmar r
yyouandl aywithyouandyouwi llconcei
veift
hegodspl easeandbearc hi
ldr
en,
yourgodi snotevenimpor t
anthere.
..

“st
opi tVim,s topitplease, wit
houtGodyouwi llneverbebor n,withoutGodt hereisnoVi m
Rees e, wit
houtGodnot hing,andI meanabs olut elynot hi
ngc anbei nexistenc e,Godisnoty our
mat e,butI cannotf i
ghtf orhimbec ausehealonei salmightyandt hroughhi mever ythingis
beingmade, don’tbringjudgementonyour sel
f, bec ausedespitebeingignor antitc analsolead
yout odes truc ti
on,Iprayt hatGodwi l
lprovehims elftoyouinawayyouhavenever
imagi ned…yourhear tiss oharden, butGodwi lls of tenitattherighttime, Ican’tbeequal lyyoke
withyoui nmar ri
age,Godc annotbemoc k,Ican’ tmar ryyouVim, notliket hi
s ,Ican’t
,Iwillnever
bowt oanygodoft hi
sl and, I
willneverputmyGods econd,
hewi l
lalwaysbef ir
s ti
nmyl if
e…t he
wor dofGods aidinthebookofpr overb,i
never yt hingyoudoputGodf irstandhewi l
lc r
own
youref f
ortwi thsuccess ,
hiswor dal sosai
d,seekf irs tt
hekingdomofGodandever yot herthing
willbeaddedunt oyou. Sowhat every ouareoffer ingmenowi smi norcompar etot hegiftsfr
om
God…heist
hef
irs
tandt
hel
ast
,hei
sinc
ompar
abl
e,begi
nni
ngandhes
til
ltheend…Godbef
ore
ever
ythi
ng…

“Youar emakehi ml ookl i

kehei sreal,
hei snotevenr eal
, doyouknowhowmanyChr istinahave
beingkilled,andyourgoddi dnothing,hejustwat cht hemdi e,ifhewast hatpower f
ull ikey ou
makehi ms eemt henhec ouldhaves tri
kedownt heenemi es ,hec ouldhavedes tr
oyt hepeopl e
persecutingt heChr i
s t
ians ,butheneverdi d,atthef ountai nyear sbac k,meandyouwhenI was
sti
llfooli
sh, wellI gi
vec redittoyouf ormaki ngmet os eer easont obeabet terpersonnot
throughyourwor dbutt hr oughyourac ti
on,I f
eelinl ovewi t
hyouaf t
erthat,thatnightasI held
you,I f
eltthiss t
rangeai rbehi ndmyhead, Ialmos tthoughtyourgodc amef oryourr es c
ueunt ilI
reali
zeispr obabl yaghos tt hatgavemet hatstrangef eelingori sjustabadai r,di
dn’tyourgod
wat c
hyourmot herandf at herdieorwhat everhappenst ot hembuthenevers avesthem, he
wat c
hedyoubei ngsoldoutasas lavebuthenevers avedyou, whatki ndofgoddoest hat ,that’
s
whyourpeopl ewor shipdi ff
erentgod, i
fJupiterormar sorevenVenusc annotgi veyouyour
desires,t
henmoneywi ll
, wet hatwor s
hipmoney, ithasal waysans weredus ,Tamaryouc an’t
choseamar egodoverme, agodthatc an’
tof f
eryout heluxur yl i
feI ’
mof fer
ingyou, youc an’tdo
that.
.

Whenhesawhows er
iousI
wasasIstandonmyword,hesawthathec oul
dn’tconvi
nceme, Vi
m
st
oodupangri
ly,
andwenttothes
ister,
hespokewi
thherfors
ometime, I
c anhearhi
m
sc
reami
ng,“
hergodcanhavehersi
nc eshec
hosehi
moverme”hel aterstunsoutangri
ly.

Zi
tydidnotc
allmeoras
kmeanyt
hingands
hedi
dn’
tac
tindi
ff
erentt
hatdayorevent
henext
day.

AfterfewdaysOkracameagain,Chakanwasout, andZitywhohasbeingavoidi
ngherhasno
choicethant
ogiveheraudience,
theywereinZity’schamber,
soIstayedoutastheyaskedmet
o
goawaybutI di
dn’tgofarI
s t
ayedclosebyasIover hear
dallt
heywer esayi
ng.

“Youkeepavoi di
ngmeZi ty,
why, allofas udden,youknowI knowallyoursecrets,
Iwant edyou
tobepower f
ulandtobeinc hargeofyourhome, Iwasagoodf ri
endtoyouZity,nof r
iendwill
evergoof fherwaytopleaseyoul ikei di
d,for
getaboutallthi
sthingsyouhearaboutmeor
what everyourbrot
herissaying,Icanneverdoyouwr ong,yougottotrustme, I
helpedyouget
rideofAdol f
o’sc
hil
d,Iknowyours ecretandyouknowmi ne,Iwasonlytr
yingtomakeyou
power fulandoutofsuddenyous tartedavoidingme,isthatyourownwayofs ayingthanky ou
af
terever
ythi
ngI
didf
oryou…

“i
snots oOkr
a,Ijustwantedtolookintomyhomemor ethanIdooutsi
de,i
twasal r
eady
affec
tingmyrelati
onshipwithChakan,thi
ngsweregoi
ngsouroverhereandIcaughtChakan
cheati
ng,hewasc heati
ngwi t
has er
vant,Shamar
a,asl
avegir
l,anditwasbecauseIwasnever
aroundandsinc
et henIdecidedtostaybackandmakemymar ri
agebetter
..
.

“yous ai
dwhat …ohmayt hegodss trikehim, whaaat …Zity,youc aughtChakanc heat ing,whatdi d
youdo, whydidn' tyout ellmeal lthiswhi le,ooh, don’tt el
lmeyouf orgi
vehi m,t hatwi llmake
youaweakwomani fyoudi d,becaus eifamanc heat sandyouj ustforgivehimwi thoutt eaching
himahar dles
s onhewi llt akeyouf orgr antedandwi lldoitagain,noZity,youhavet oteachhi m
ahar dlesson,yourhus bandf i
rstthenyouc ant hinkofwhatyouwi lldowi ththes lave,Shamar a,
andal soyourper sonalmai dIwonderwhyyouwi llallowhert obeget ti
ngmar riedt oyour
brother,Zit
yyourbr othert hatisever ywoman’ sdr eam, howc anyoual lows uch, thatgi r
lwillbe
higherthanyoubec aus es heisindirec t
lyget t
ingmar r i
edtothes econdpr imer uleroft his
kingdomi fyourpar ent sar egone. Ac ommons lave, anobody, as l
avegi rlwil
laut omat icall
y
becomes opower ful,youc an’tall
owy ourbr othert omakes uchmi stake…

“sher ejectedt hepr opos al,shes aidshecan’tmar ryhi mbec auseofhers ocall
edgod, Vimgot
angry, hehasf reedal lthes l
avesheboughtf orTamar ,andgivenoutt hechariotheboughtf or
herevent heclothsandj ewel s
,hewentbac kt olivingwi thfatherandmot her,hedoes n’
twant
tohaveanyt hi
ngt hatwi llremi ndhimofTamars inc es hechosehergodoverhi m,isasad
momentf orvimwhos eemt obei nlovewithher , Ihavenevers eenhims oc r
az yli
kethat,Vi m
hardlyf allinloveandwhenhedoi salwaysc razy, IwonderwhyTamarwi l
lchos eagodt hatc an
nots aveherovermybr ot her,Icannotevens ayanyt hingtoherbec auseI’
ms tillsos
peec hless,I
haveneveri nal lmyl ifehar dors eenas l
avewhowi llsaynotos uchopportunity,toabet t
erl i
fe,
Isti
llc an’tunder stand, evenChakanc an’
tcompr ehend…Vi miss obitt
er,hesaidhergodc an
haveher ,hes aidthatangr i
lyandI felthi
spainwhenhes ai
dt hat,hespokeoutl oudintotheai r
andc ur sedhergodands ai dlethers ocall
edgodhavehers i
nc eshechosehimoverabet terl i
fe,
overt hel uxuryhewasof feringher ,
thatmanywi llkilltohave,Tamarr ej
ectedhi m…sher ej
ec ted
mybr otherovers omes tupi dgod….

“sheiscurs
edbyt hevengeancegod…twai
l,mayt hegodofthunder ,
stri
keherdead,thi
sis
seri
ous,whatani nsult
,shehasguttosaynot oyourbrot
her,howc ansheturndownyour
brother’
soffer
,howc ans hesaynotohim,t
hatgirlissof
ullofherself
,thenl
ethergodhaveher
then,IusetotellyoubackinAdolfo’
shous
et hatsheisaChrist
ian,
butyoudoubt ed,
nowy ouc
an
see,t
heyar esofulloftheirselves,theybelievei npur ityandputt heirgodf i
rstbef
oreeveryone
oranythi
ng, I
hatet hemwi thpas sion,andshewi lldefinit
elysufferforturningyourbrother
down,ac ommons lavet urni
ngar oyalborndown, arealsonoft hes oi
l,isgoodhewas hedhi
s
handsoffher,nows heisatourmer cy,andthegl adiatormas t
er,Mandi oh,wil
lbesogl adtofeed
hertohisli
ons,orherl i
fewilljustdr ai
naway, shebr oughtt hi
suponher sel
f,choosi
ngagod
overyourpower f
ulandhands omebr other,
wel llet’sjustleaveherc aseas i
de,andtalkabout
yourhusband,hemus tpayforc heatingonyou, youar enotaweakwomanbec auseisweak
woment hatforgi
veeas ily…

“whatdoyout hinkwes houlddo,I’

mal mostfourmont hsgone,andChakans omuc hwantt his
baby,helovesme, andI l
ovehimal s
o,soIcan’tovers tressmyself,
I don’
twantanyt hi
ngt o
happent othechild,thedoctorsaidIshoul
dbec ar
ef ulinwhatI doandmyi ntake,soIdon’twant
anythingthatwillaffectmeort hechil
d,Chakanwi llbebr oken,solet’
swaitunti
lthec hi
ldis
born,orgivehi
mt hischance,i
fheeverc heatonmeagai nthenwec anpl
anonwhatt odo…I
can’
tdoanyt hi
ngbec ausehehasbei ngagoodmanevers i
nce…

“t
hatist hesignofaweakwomanZi t
yandI di
dn’ttr
ainyoutobeweak,lookatme,I’
ms t
illvery
attr
activeandmyhus bandc annotevencontrolme,youcan’
tal
lowChakant ogetawaywi thhi
s
si
ns, i
fismeI woul
dhavec utoffthathi
smanhood, youhavetodealwi
thhim, andi
tmus tbe
whathec heri
s hmost
, t
hec hil
dyouarecarryi
ng,abortit
,andwatchhi
mweepl i
keababy…t ake
offthec hi
ld…youarebec omingweakbec auseofthatchil
d…

“Okra…Ican’
tdot
hat,
thefi
rstoneIdi
dwassopai
nful
,Ican’
tdoanot
her
,Ic
an’
t,Chakanwi
llbe
broken,
andmyl i
fei
sindanger,I
can’
tdot
hat,
notagai
n…

“hahahaha, youhavet rulybec omeaweakwomanZi ty,doyout hinkChakanl ovesyou, heonly

loveshi schild,helovest hemai dyouc aughthi mwi thnotyou, heisonl ykeepi ngyouandac ti
ng
allni
c ebec aus eofthisbaby, justtrustmeandt esthi m, bydoi ngwhatI sugges tedandyouwi ll
seether ealChakan, don’tallowyour selft obedec eivebyhi mZi ty,Chakanneverl oveyou,heis
onlyher ebec aus
eoft histhing, yourpregnanc y,seemeI don’thaveac hild,andI ’
ml i
vingmy
bestlife,Igoanywher eI wantt ogo, Itraveltomeetmyl overandmyhus banddoesnothavea
say,Imovewi thpower fulpeopl eofthiski ngdom, don’tyouwants uc hpower ,manypeopl emay
notlikemebec auseoft hes t
r engthIpul l
, butever ybodymus tnotl ikeyouZi ty,Iwasnot
broughtt othisearthtopl easeever yone, doasI sayandyouwi llunder st
andwhatI ’
mt al
king
about ,
puni s hhimforwhathedi dt oyou, dealwi thhi mZi tylethi ms eethatyouar enotthetype
tobemes sedwi t
h…doyouunder st
andme. Ican’tallowyout obeweaken, no,youar epowerful
andyouarei
nc har
ge,isonl
yweakpeoplethateas
ilyf
orgive,
youar
en’
tweak,pr
oveit,
letme
knowwhenyouar ereadysothatI
wi l
lbr
ingi
nthephysici
anbutdonotdel
aybecaus
ethere’
sno
ti
me,soitwi
llnothappenli
keAdolfo’
sown.

“
Hopei
twon’
tbepai
nfulOkr
a…

“Nots opai nfulli

kec hildbirth, doyour emembert hepainyouf eeldoingc hi
ldbi rth,Iknowyou
don’ twantt ogot hroughs uc hpainagai n,itwon’ tbepainful, t
hephys icianI willcallisanol d
ladywhohasbei ngi ntot heac tfordec ades ,s hewi l
lgiveyouas ubs t
anc et odr i
nkandbef ore
youknowt hepr egnanc ywi llcomedown, isnotpai nful,
trustme, I
haveneverdec eivedyou
befor e…l etmeknowwhent obr i
ngherbec aus eshei swellknown, andmos tlys ortafter,her
servicei sver yexpens ive, s
oyouhavet opayahugeamountofmoneyf orhert or enderher
service, Iknowyouar ec apabl e,yourpar entsar eweal t
hyandyouar eal somar ri
edt hes onofa
weal thyman, soyouhavenowor ri
es,butyougott ohurryup, bewi seandkeepyourmout hs hut
,
donott ellanybody, event hatyourper sonals lavethatwi l
ls oonbeaf oodt ot hel i
onsi fshe
does n’tdenounc ehergodandt akeupanot hergodoft hel and,buteveni fshepi c
kupanygodof
thel andl ateranddenyhergodwhi chI’mi ndoubt ,stil
ldonotal l
owhert omar ryyourbr other,
bec aus es hehasherc hanc ebuts heblewi taway…t i
mef orherwi l
lsoonc omewhens hewi ll
weepandwi shshewasneverbor n,nobodyc ans avehernotevenhergod, shewi lldieifshe
don’ tchos eanygodoft hisland, don’tment ionwhatI t
oldyout oanybody, Iwillcomewi tht he
phys icianwhenyouar ereadyorI wil
ltakeyout oheri fChakanwi l
lbear ound, butI havet ogo
andbookherdownf irs
t,don’ twor ryyours ec retsar esafewi thme. Isbet weenus …youar ea
strongert hanyout hinkZi t
y…

Iwentc old,notformys elfbutf

orZit
y,Okrawasadevil
’si
ncarnatedecei
vingZi
tysoeasi
ly,
I
knowf ors ur
eI wil
lneverdenyGodf oranythi
ngnoteveninthefaceofdeath,I
wil
lnever,Il
ive
forChristandI di
et ogain,Abelhast
aughtmet hat
,andwhatAbels ai
daboutsaddaysaheadis
j
us tar
oundt hecorner.

Tear
scl
oudedmyeyes,asIr
antothefl
owercotandknel
tdownontheground,
pleadi
ngwith
Godtohavemer c
yonZi
tyonOkraandals
oforVimwhoisdrunki
nsi
n.IweepasIcryoutf
or
Godtoi
ntervene.

theonlypict
ureikepts
eei
ngisthatofOkr
asmili
ngt
ohersel
fandt
hinki
ngs
hei
str
ulypower
ful
,
butshe'sasfr
agi
leasanegg,
butshedoesnotknowt
hatyet.
Tobec
ont
inued.
.
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[
25/
04,
10:
11am]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR*

*Epi
sode23.
*

“bowt othegodsofthelandsothatyoumayl i
ve,i
tdoesn’
ttakeanythingj
ustdenyyourf ai
th,
tellMandiohthatyouar
en’taChris
tianandproveit
,byprocl
aiminganygodoft heland,Venus,
whoi sgeneral
lyworshi
pedbywomenasyourgod…onc eyoudenounc eyourfai
thinthe
presenceofMandiohandhismen…t heywilll
etyouli
ve…isverysi
mpl eTamar…Ifearforyou

“don’tbeafraidf ormemyl ady,therei

snoot hergodbothinheavenandonear thexcept
Jehovah,hes enthi ssonJesusChristt
odi ef
ormys insothatIwillnotdi
etothi
swor l
dagain,he
tookmyc urse,myt roubl
es,mys ic
knessanddiseases,
het ookmyf earandmypaintot hecros
s
andnai l
edital lther esothatImayber edeemedfromt hemall,
Ihavenof earmylady,Idon’
t,not
forMandi ohorhi sbeast…forgreateri
shet hat’
s’i
nmet hanhet hat’
sintheworl
d.There’sa
storyinthebi ble, I
onc et
oldyout hestorybackhome,beforeyougotmar ri
edtoAdolfo…about
Danielandt hel ions…

“yes…yes
,Isti
llremember,andhisgodsavedhimf romtheli
ons…buttheyarejus
ts t
ories,
chil
dhoods t
ories,
Ihaveneverhardamanbei ngsavedfromalionbefor
e,eventheonc ethatar
e
armeds t
il
lgetkill
ed,thos
estori
esarenotrealTamar,youtol
dmeyourf atherusetotellyou
andyours i
bli
ngsthestori
esbeforehewaskill
ed,theyarej
uststor
iestogetpeople’
sattenti
on…

“t
heyar er ealstori
es,Godproveshimselfinat housandwayst ohistruechil
dren,t
hosewho
trusthimandl ovehim…myl ady,i
fGodal lowst hos
el i
onst okillmeandf eedonmet henisfine,
i
tonl ymeansmyr aceisdone,andsinc
emenhavet odiei ndif
ferentways …wellthen…minehas
beingpr edes t
inedbyGodnotbyMandi ohandI wil
lr atherdiefulfi
lledbecauseofChri
stthant o
denyhi snamebec auseofdeathands t
illhavet odi
ei nlateryears,ther
ear ethi
ngsyouwillnot
understandmyl adybutI pr
ayt hi
sdaythatGodwi llvisityousoon, andhealyourheartfr
om
doubtandhewi lll
eadyout ot
hel i
ghtsot hatyoumayc omet oknowhi mandunder st
andwhyI
can’tsubstituteGodforanythinginthewor ld…
“Iwishthi sgodyoubol dlyspeakof fisreal ,Iwishyouhavenott urndownVi m’spropos al,he
woul dhaves avedyou, Iwi s
hI canc hangeyouf orShamar a,al
lowt hemt ot akeonlyShamar a
andl eaveyouf ormebec aus eyouar eagr eathel ptome, IwishI neverc omeac r
ossOkr a,when
yous poket heotherday, youmademet ot hinkdeepandt ounder standt heki ndofper sonshe
was ,youar emor et hanaf riendt omet hanOkr awi lleverbe,I’ms or r
yI c ausedallthis ,Is
omuc h
wishI canundomymi stakes ,now, youhavet obeki l
ledbyt hoseugl ybeas tbecauseofme, I…I
can’tevent el
lVimorgot omot herandf ather,I can’tevent el
lChakan, Vimwi llnotc areifyou
li
veordi e,Fatherandmot herar eget t
ingol dandI don’twantt oc aus emor etroublef orthem
andt hatmaybeexpos ingAbelt oo,Chakanmayhat emei fheknows ,andAdol f
owhoc ouldhave
helped, Ican’tevenf acehimaf terhowI tr
eat edhi m, Ihavebeggedyout odenyyourgodi nthei
r
presenc e,justforthatt i
me, whenyouc omebac kyouc ankeeps ervinghi mwi thin,noonewi ll
know, butj ustproclaimt hegodsoft hel andasyourgodandyouwi llbes aveTamar …Mandi ohi s
aver ypower fulman, Vimwoul dhaves avedyouf romhi mbec auseher es pec t
sVim, butVi mhas
turnedhi sbac konyou, youhavet os aveyour selfTamar …please…

“St
opwor r
yingaboutme,
I’
mglad,
sogladyouarebegi
nningt
os eet
heki
ndofper
sonOkrais
andtostayawayfromher
,bec
auseadaywillc
omeands hewil
laskyout
opoi
sonandki
llyour
husband.
..

“Well,sheonc edi d,andt hatwaswhenI wass tillmar riedt oAdol fo,shesaidifI havet obef ree
fromhi mI havet oki l
lhi mbyput ti
ngpoi s oni nhi smeall i
ttlebyl i
t tl
e,sothatwhenhe
event ual
lydie, itwi l
llookl ikeanat uraldeat h. ButI couldn’ t
, Itryt othinkabouti tandf eltcol d
allover,Icoul dn’tevens peakofi ttoanyone, Iwass os cared, event houghI don’twantAdol fo
butI don’twanthi mdeadandwhens hebr oughtt hepoi sonI tooki t,wait
ingt osummonc our age
todoi tbutI justc ouldn’t,andI threwt hepoi sonouss ubs tanc eaway…I onlyf el
tgui l
tyt hatI
havet okillthec hi l
dI hadf orhim, Okr as aiditwasbet terI don’ tlookatt hec hil
ds othatI won’t
haver egretsbutevent houghI didn’tlookatt hec hil
dI s
tillfeels obadanyt i
meI remembert hat
Igavebi rthtoaheal t
hybabyandas ky out ogoanddi s posehi m, iss ad,event hought he
mar ri
agehasbei ngvoi dofl ovebutAdol fowoul dhavebei ngs ohappyt ohaveas on, Iwoul d
havebei ngs ogl adt owat chmyboygr ow, itwi lldelightmegr eat ly..
.ir
egrett hosedeeds ,i
tsit
heavilyinmyhear t
,iwoul dhavedoneanot heri fnott hatyous peaks omes ens esintome, I’
m
blessedtohaveyouandi sver ysadyouhavet ogot hisway…I wi shI cansaveyouf romMandi oh
butI can’
t…I wi shyouc anj ustsaveyour s
el fandt ellMandi oht hatVenusi syourgod, andI will
backyouupasawi tnes s,youwi l
ljustt el
lhi mt hatyouar enotaChr ist
ianandyoudon’ tserve
theChr is
tiangod, j
usts ayitoutloudandac tlikeyoumeani tandt heywillfreeyou…
AsmeandZi tys peaki ns i
deherc hamber ,Chakanwasout , ames sagec amef romas l
avet hat
Mandi oh’ smenwher eout sidewai ti
ngf orme, andOkr awaswi ththem, theyal sohaveShamar a
already, Istoodupands tepoutwi thZitywhowass til
lpleadi ngt omet odenymyGods ot hatI
willlive, butI ignor edher ,nowi snotat i
mef ort oomuc hwor disat imet os i
lentl
ypr ayt oGodt o
intervenei nanywayt hatpl eas eshi m, lethi swillbedone, butI willnevereverdenygod,
bec aus eevent hel ifeI li
vei snotmi neitbel ongst oGod, ifGodc ans avemef r
omt hewaraf ter
myal lmyf ami lymemberwer ewi pedof f,ifGodc ans avemef romdyi ngi nt hedes ert,aftera
longwal kori nt hes eaevenaf ters hipwr eck,hehass avedmet oomuc hal ready,fromt he
brut alityofmenandf roms i
c knes sanddi s
eas eshewi l
lals os avemenow, buti fi
shi swi l
lf orme
togo, formet oki sst heear thgoodbyet hens obei t,Iwilljoi nmot her ,father ,J
oe,Kat handDeb,
buti nal loft hisI amgl adI liveont hisear t
h, IknowI wil
lmi ssAbel ,
oh, myowndearAbel , who
hasf or etol dt hingsl iket hiswi llhappen, hehast riedt obui ldmeupf orat imeast his,andhe
reallydi dagr eatj ob, IamwhatI ambec aus eGods entAbelonmyway, I
’
mgl ad…sogl adI came
toknowhi m. Iwi l
lal somi ssl adyZi ty,Rhonda, Adol foandEur a,andevent hemer chantwhoI
plant os howt hel i
ght ,Iwillmi ssl ordRees eandl adyPhi n, I wil
lmi sst het winsandl i
ttleJ on,
Zitywi l
lnevergett oknowherl ittleboyi sal i
ve, Adol fowi llneverknowhehasas on, the
mer c hantwhodes iredf orc hildr enwi l
lneverknowhehasbeaut i
fultwi ngi rlssomewher e…i s
sadwhati shi ddenwi l
lremai nhi dden, Rhondai sagr eatmot her ,
andt hec hildrent heLor dgave
herwi llbeher st okeep, Iwis hZi tyhasc omet oknowt het ruegodandal soherpar ents ,Iknow
eveni fI’
mnott her eAbelwi l
lt akec harge, butAbelhass ai dmywor ki sgr eaterthanhi s ,
hewas
onlyt heret ogui demet hrough, whenI ’
mgone, Abelwi l
lt akeupt hewheelf ullybybr ingingt he
mas terandmi stresst oc hrist,I knowAdol fowi llbec onver t edbyEur a, hewasal r
eadyonhi s
wayt odoi ngt hat ,Eur awi lldot her emainingj ob.

Ihavet rynott othi

nkofVi mbuthei salwaysi nmyt hought,ispainfulhowmuc hIsti
lllovehi
m
evenaf terallofthi
s,I
pr ayonedayhi sheartwillbes of
tenandhewi llcomet ounderstandwhyI
couldn’tmar ryhi
m, i
snotbec auseI’
ms tupid,havingallthebeautifulthingsoft hi
slif
e
presentedt omei naplat t
erofgoldandI turnedhi mdown,ki ll
inghispr ide,hisego,andmaking
himl ooks tupi
d,hewillnotunderstandnowandI knowhehat esmef orrejectinghisproposal
,I
j
us tprays omedayhewi llcometounder standwhyI havetodoi tall.
Andi twaswor thit.

J
esusisthecenterofmyli
fe,al
lthat’
sgoodandperf
ectc
omesfr
omhim,I
candenytheworl
d
f
orhim,becausethere’
snoli
fewithouthi
m,heholdmybreat
h,f
ori
nhimIl
iveandmove,
inhim
I
havemybei ng.

Is
awShamar acryinginagony,shewaspleadi
ngtoZityandtothemenbutnonpaysher
at
tention,
Iturnedt oZit
ytopleadonherbehalfbutshesti
llr
efuseandsai
dletMandiondo
whateverhedes i
reswi t
hher,shecan’
thaveherunderherroof,Zi
tysai
dI s
houldbemore
worr
iedaboutmys elft
hanShamar a,
thatI’
minnocent,myonlysi
nisworshi
pingafor
biddi
ng
godwhichifIdenyhi mbef or
eMandioh,
hewi l
lletmego, butShamaraisguil
ty,shewi l
lserveas
ales
sontoot hermai denthatwi
llwanttoseducetheirmist
resshus
bandoragr eet olaywith
him,It
oldladyZitythatChakanisequal
lyguil
ty,whymus tShamarasufferal
onej ustbecause
shei
sas l
ave, Zi
tyignoredmyplea,myheartmel tr
ightthereasIwatc
hShamar aweep,

Okras
toodl
ikeawi
nneratoneend,
smil
ingasifs
hehaswonagoldmedal
,Imovedc
los
ert
oher
asMandi
oh’
smenputmeonc hai
ns,
butIwantedtos
ayfewthi
ngstoOkr
a

“somanyyear sago, ati

nys lavegi rlwasbr oughtt oyoubyyourhus band, herheadwass haved
butc overedwi that urban, andwhenyous awher ,your ejec tedherandc ursedyourhus bandfor
buyi ngs uc hs l
ave, yous aids hehasanaur a, li
keas trangepr esencear oundherandyoudon’ t
feelc omf ortable, ands hel ooksl i
kes hewi lldr opdeadanymoment ,thes lavewast akenaway
wi t
hi nas ec ondofyourout rage, doyour emembert hati nc ident.
.Yeah, youdo. Wel lI’
ms til
lthat
sames l
ave, Ididnotdr opdeadi nsteadI grews trong, andevens trongeri ntheLor dmyGod, and
Ikeepwaxi ngs trongerevennow, notevenf acet ofac ewi thdeat hwi llweakenme. Repent
befor eist ool ate,as kGodt of orgiveyours ins ,Godisj us tandr eadyt oforgive,event houghyour
sinsi sli
kes carlet,theys hallbewhi teassnow, t
hought heymayber edasc r
ims on,theys hal
lbe
aswool .Tomor rowmaybet oolatemyl ady, turnf r
omyourevi lwaysandembr ac elight.The
childr enyoubor eandt hrewawayar esafeinGod’ sc are, repentandhavet hispeaceyouyawn
for,s topal l
owi ngt hedevi ltous eyout odes troylives ,i
ns t eadbeagoodagentf orChr i
standyou
wi l
lf i
ndyour selfdoi ngmor egoodt hanevil,mayt heLor dhavemer c yonyou…

“comeandt aket hist er mi teawayf r

omher e, i
nf ewhour sfromnows hewi l
lbegoneand
forgotten, youwi llbec omef ood, theanimalswi llc hewyour aw, lookingatyou…youar enoteven
agoodf oodt ot hosel ions ,j
us tamout hf ul
landt heywi l
lchewyouup, swal l
owands t i
llwant
mor e,youwi l
lal soser veasal essont othoset hatc ross
esme, andt ot hos ewhobel ievei na
forbiddengod, yourl ifec ouldhavebei ngsavei fyouhaver ejec t
edyours oc alledgod, butno,
Christiansar ethemos tus elessands tubbor npeopl eIhaveeverknown, wor shi pingagodwho
theyc annots eeort ouc h, andevenr eadyt odief orhimwi tht hehopehewi lls avet hem, att he
endnot hinghappens ,theyal ldie,mayyourhopel esssoulrestpeac efullyi nt hel ion’sbel le…I
willsomuc henjoywat chi ngt helionchewyoul ikes omepiec esofmeat , orwai tI willevens end
ames saget oVi m, toc omeandwat chtoo,hewi llbes ogladandwi l
levent hankmef orsendi ng
yout oMadi oh,maybef romt herehewi l
lli
kemeandwemaybec omef r
iends …hahahaha…whi l
e
your otawayI keepbl oss omi ng,tohellwi t
hyouandyourgod, I
neverl i
kedyout hen, whenmy
soc all
edhus bandboughtyouandI sawyouI hatedyourpr es ence, Ineverknewyouar et heone
allthiswhi le,servingZi ty, Ihateyouevenmor enow, nowI under standwhyI dislikeyouwi th
pass i
on, getawayf rommeevi ltermite,andwhenyoumanaget olookupf r
omt hebeas tdenyou
willseemeandVi ml aughi ngt ogetheratyouwi thourgl as
sofwi nei nhand…. nobodyc ans ave
younotevenyourus
eles
sgod…

Iwastakenawayi nchainsbythes oldi

ers,
Shamar aneverstoppedc r
ying,t
heyputusintoan
openc har
iotandmovedusdownt oMandi oh, i
twasaverylongr i
de,ongettingtomandi
oh’sbig
gatetherewerefewc rowdallar
ound, s
omewher et
hrowing,pebbles,st
onesandrott
enf r
uitsat
me, s
omewher ecur
singandmaki ngf unofmeandhowI willbec ons
umedandmygodc annot
saveme, whenwegoti nsi
deMandi oh’
scellquart
ers,
Iwasloc kedwithShamar ai
nsi
dethes ame
cell
.

AndI
hel
dheri
nthedar
kcel
l,t
ryi
ngt
ocomf
ortherandt
omakehert
ost
opc
ryi
ng,

asI
begantotel
lheraboutt
heonl
yonet
hatc
ans
aveus
.Shebec
amequi
etass
hel
ist
enedt
o
metal
kaboutGod.

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ont
inued.
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*TAMAR*

*Epi
sode24.
*

Rightt
her
eatthecellShamar
aac
ceptedChri
st,
sheproc
lai
medJ es
usChr
istasherper
sonal
Lordands
avi
our,andwasnomoreafr
aidofdeat
h,Iwassoglad,

Andwhenwewer
ecal
ledoutaf
terbei
ngi
nthec
ellf
ort
wodays
,

Mandi ohstoodt herei

nabl uerobdes i
gnedwithgol d,hewasol derthanAdolfoMarelylooking
athimandhi spotbellewasprotr udingoutli
ket hatofapr egnantwoman, hewasaver ys hort
manbuts peaksofweal th,
andc ommandsr espect,hes atonhisbigli
onheads it
,andwas
surroundedwi thlionartwork,allaroundhim, hec all
shims el
faliongod,peoplesur
roundshi m,
Icans eeOkras i
t t
ingatafarend, herfacefi
ll
edwi thsmile,It
oldShamar anottosayawor dI
willspeakfortwoofusands heagr eed,Mandiohl ooksatust henbac katOkra
“Okra,thisoneswillnotdomuc hformyl i
ons,es
pec i
allythi
sski
nnyone, s
hedoesn’tevenhave
curvesliketheotheroneandnomuc hfleshonhers kinli
kehersecond,OkratheamountI paid
yout ofetchheroutI wasactuall
yexpecti
ngsomet hingthatwil
lserveasdinnerf
ormyl i
ons ,
thisoneswon’ tdo…yousaidVi mwashedhishandof fthesli
mone, Idon’
twantLordReeses on’
s
trouble,thatyoungmani sfi
lledwit
htrouble…areyouver ysur
e…

“yesMandi oh,Vi
ms ai
dhedoes n’twantt ohaveanyt hingtodowi thher, hesaidhergodc anhave
her,andtheamountyoupai dmewi llalsoencour agemeinf is
hingoutt heres toftheother
i
nf i
dels,
thos ewhowor shi
ps tr
angegodi nourki ngdom…t hissl
imone, theyc allhertermi
t e,
thereisnoneedofwas t
ingyourt imewi thher ,
hermi str
essevent rytomakeherdenounc eher
god,butthef ool
ishgir
lrefuse,sheisr eadytodief orauselessgod…s hei safanatic…butVi m
madei tcleartothesi
ster,Zit
yt hathedoes n’twantt ohaveanyt hi
ngt odowi thher ,Zi
tytoldme
thatherself,t
hetermiteturneddownhi smar ri
agepr oposal,whichI’
ms ogr atefultothegods
thatVim,ar oyal
tydidnotendupwi tht hisabomi nabl
elookingthing…

“hahahah, good,I
’mgladt oknowt hatVimdoes n’twanther,i
sar el
iefbecauseIdon’ twant
troublefromt hesecondpr i
mer uler
’sson,theyhavepoweront hei
rshoulderandI havebuil
ta
goodr elati
onshipwithVi
ms oI don’
twantanyt hingthatwil
lstaini
t,youcall
edhert ermit
e,is
thatherr ealname…butofal lthewhol ebeautif
ulandout s
tandingmaidenoft hes oil
,both
royaltyandnor malborn…whatexac tl
ydidVi mseeint hi
soneorhewaspr obablyjokingwhen
het hrewt hemar r
iageproposaltoher…I s
tillc
an’tunderst
and,youngl adywhati syourname
andt henameofyours ec
ond…

“
Tar
mar
,myl
ord,
andt
hisi
sShamar
a…

“
Tamar
…Okr
ayouar
eri
ght
,thenames
oundl
iket
ermi
te….

Ther
ewasout
bur
stofl
aught
erever
ywher
e,ast
hef
ewpeopl
egat
her
edj
ustkeptl
aughi
ng

“
SoTar
…mi
te,
what
evert
hatmeans
…isi
ttr
ueyouar
eaChr
ist
ian,
whatgoddoyouwor
shi
p…

“
Theonet
rueGod,
whot
ruehi
ssonJ
esusChr
istI
havebei
ngs
aved,
IamaChr
ist
ian.
Therewasmur muringever ywhereandMandi ohaskever yonet oremainsil
ent,heaskedme
againandI answeredbol dlytothes amet hing,heaskedShamar aandshealsoans wered
aff
irmativel
y,shewast r
yingt obebol dbutI canseef earinhereyesass heanswer edMandi oh,
shewasdet ermined, Iwhisperedtoher ,thatshehasac hoicetoliveifs
hes t
il
lwantt odenounc e
Chri
s t
,Iamnotf orcinghert obeli
evei saper sonalchoice,shemaynotr et
urntoZitybuts hewill
besoldasat emples laveort oanotherhous ehold,witht hatshewi l
lhaveherlife,
shes hakes
herheadands ai
dshei snotaf ool,
sheknowswhats hewant sands hereall
ywillnotdenyGod
jus
tlikeme, evenindeat h,thenIenc ouragedhernott obeaf rai
d.

Asther
ewasasi
lentmurmurandMandi
ohwasgivenuschancetohaveac
hangeofmi
ndbutI
t
urnedtohi
mandtoldhi
mwewon’tchangeourmindf
oranythi
ng.

“Doyouknowwhoyous t
andbefor
e…ifyoureal
lyknowwhoI am,thegodofli
ons…youwill
quickl
yhaveac hangeofmind,thi
sisnojoke…Iwil
laskyoutwomor et
imes,gi
vingyouanot
her
chancetochangeyourmi ndandli
ve,achancet
owal kawayfromhereali
ve,
becauseyoudon’t
arenotevenenoughf oodtomybeas t
…whichgoddoyous er
ve…Tar…mar…

“theonet rueGod, whohass avedmet hroughhi ssonJ esusChr i

st,Iservetheli
vingGod,notthe
godsoft hisland, madeandc arvedbymen, forthepeopl ewhomadet hemar ejustl
ikethem,
theyhavemout hbutc annots peak,eyesbutc annots ee,Iamnotaf raidofyouoryourbeas t,I
mays oundf oolisht oyoubutnott omyGod…noot herGodi nheavenoronear thexceptJehovah,
mydef ender …ever yonel is
ten…pl easelistent omeeveni fi
sthisonc e,tur
nfromyourwaysand
embr ac eChr is
t,hei sjustandr eadyt oforgiveands aveyou,hel ovesyoumor ethanyouc anever
imagine, tomor rowmaybet ool ate,c
hangef romyouri dolwors hipandc ometot heli
ght,Iam
notafr aidofdeat hbec auseI knowwhoi swi t
hme, youc an’
tseehi mwi thyourvisi
bleeyes,heis
ri
ghther eandi sbec koni ngonyoual ltocomet ohim, al
lyethatl abourandar eheavyladenand
hewi llgiveyour est,takehi syokeuponyouandl eanonhi m,forhei smeekandl owlyinheart,
andyous hal
lf i
ndr estunt oyours ouls,forhisyokei seasyandhi sbur denisl
ight…

“
hahahaha,t
hisladyisr
eal
lyfool
ish,Okr
ayouareri
ghtwhenyous ays
heisafanati
c,thi
sistot
al
madness,well
,letheri
nvi
si
bledefenderhel
pher,
boystakeherandhers
econdt otheden,and
l
et’
swatchmybeas tchewthemraw…t heywil
lbef
untolookat.
.

Theypushedusast
hef
ewc
rowdc
heer
s,I
canhearOkr
a’sl
aught
er,
shes
hout
edatmeasI
wal
k
passher
“t
ermi
te,Ihavesentmes s
aget oVi mthroughoneofMandioh’sboys
,befor
et helionseatyouall
Vimwil
lbeher etocheeralongwi thus,hewil
lsoonarr
ive,nogodcansaveyou, yours ocal
led
godwil
lbelaughingatyourf ool
ishness
, I
sweartoyouwitheverygodofthislandt hatyouwil
l
di
etodayandyouwi llbeforgott
enl i
keeveryChri
sti
aneatenawaybyt hoselions…

Whenwegott othemout hoft heden,therewasal i

ft
ert raythatwills
endusdownbel owtothe
undergr ound,int
ot heden, wewereas kedtowal kintoitandweobedi entl
ydid,Iwasn’t
li
steningt othecheeringc rowdI wassilent
lyprayingf orthembec ausetheyhavebeing
brainwas hedanddec eived, t
hewhol eplacesuddenlybegant oopenup, outofsudden,
somebodywasopeni ngitwi desothateveryonec ans eehowt heli
onwi l
leatusup,Ilookupat
them, theywer echeeringast heylookdownatusast het rayl
ift
erslowlytookusbelow,
Shamar as huthereyesass hekeptmut teri
ng“Godpl eas ehavemer cyands aveus,I
’
maf rai
dto
die….pleasesaveus…I breatheddeeply.

AsI l
ookeddownI sawtheugl ymightyl
ions,
t hreeofthem,theymovedallroundtheirc
age,
as
theli
fterwasgradual
lytakingusdown,thelionswer eeagertohavethei
rmealast heymove
aroundwaiti
ng,anti
ci
pating,theymadeat er
r i
fyingnois
ethatgotmywhol ebodycoveredwi
th
goosebomb, Shamarashakesass hehel
dontome, Mandiohshoutdownbelowt ous

“
Haveyouchangedyourmindyet
,oneluc
kychanceagai
nf oryout
obeli
ft
edoutbef
oreyouget
t
othemouthoftheli
on,Igues
syouhavechangedyourmind,whodoyouser
ve,
thegodsoft
he
l
andortheChri
sti
angod…

“maythegodsofthi
slandbur nt
oas hes,Is
ervetheonetrueGod,JehovahRohi
,whi
chmeans
Jehovahmyshepherd,healonei
sGod, therei
snoother,
notevendeat hwil
lmakemet ur
naway
fromhim,f
orthoughheallowsmet obewounded,hewillals
obandagemeup, i
fheall
owsmet o
bestri
ke,
hishandwillal
soheals,butevenindeathhewillal
ways…alwaysbemyGod.Forinhi
m
Ihavemybeing.

“
Mayyoursoulres
tpeac
efulinthebell
eofthebeas
tst
upi
dandfool
ishl
ady,
isyour
s
tubbor
nnessandpri
dethatkil
ledyoubecaus
eyouhadachanc
etoli
vebutref
usei
nst
eadyou
c
hosedeat
h.

I
tur
nedt
oat
roubl
edShamar
aandt
oldhernott
obeaf
rai
d,t
hats
hes
houl
dst
andbes
ideme
andwhenwegott othedens heshoul df oll
owmyever ymoves ot hatdeat hwon’ tfeels opai
nful,
thatonest helionisdonewi thme, that’sifGodal lowst hem, thens hes houldjustbr eathinand
sprayoutherhands othatwhent heyc omeathers hewi llnotfeelt oomuc hpain,i
twi llbeso
quickandt heywi llbedonewi thus,butt hati si
fonl yGodal lowsi t,butI wasn’
taf r
aidof
anything,Ihavef eltfearallovermeasI sawt hemi ghtbeas twal kingar oundinexpec tantsi
nc e
theyknowt hatfoodwasc omi ngdownf ort hemandt henoi sefromt hepeoplec heer i
ngatt he
li
onsmaket hems oeagert ofeedonus ,I havefeltcoldandf earandi tqui c
klyleftme,t henI
start
eds ayingps alms91. Ikeptsayingps almsuponps alms ,Isai
dPs al
m91r epeatedl yandt hen
psalm23.

Istartedshouti
ngps al
m91outl oud, t
hef ewthatc ametomyhead, Ishoutitsot hatthepeopl
e
canhear ,aswewer eloweredtotheden, Icans eehumanbonesands kullsscattered
everywher e,
theywer eateverycorner,al
lthepeopl etheli
onshaseaten,somanys kull
sand
humanboneswer ethere,Shamar ahass t
artedc r
yingasshehelduntomeasi fherlif
edepends
oni t
,I s
uddenlyst
artedhearingaf amil
iarvoiceshouti
ngdownbel owt ous,

“l
iedown…li
edownflatandpr
etendtobedead.
.Theli
onsdon’
teatdeadpeopl
e,TamarI
know
youcanhearme,pl
easedoasIsay,
liedownsothatt
heanimal
swillnothur
tyou
much…pleas
eeee…

Thevoi cewasaman, i
twasl ikeanec ho,butt hecrowdwast oonoi syandI couldn’tas certain
whoi twas ,butI stoodt her eignor ingwhoevert hatmaybeands prayedoutmyhandsi nt heai r
,I
askedShamar atoliedownandpr etendt obedeadast hevoicehasi ns truc t
ed, shequi cklydi d,
therewasl ightc omi ngf romt heot herendast helionsc amei nf ullview, Icanheart hevoi c e
clearernow, itwasVi m,hewass creami ng,hewass hout i
ngatMandi oht ogetusoutbuti twas
alreadyt ool ate,thel i
on’swer egr adual lycomi ngt ous ,theydidn’ trus hatusasexpec ted, I
openedmyeyesandt hef irstonemovedar oundme, sniff
ingmeal lover, onedugi tss harpt eeth
intomyt hight henanot herf ollows ,andI f
elltothegr ound,andanot herwasats hamar a,t hey
sniffathert oknowi fshei st rulydeadbutShamar abec ameaf raidands tarteds haking, theyput
theirteetht oherhandandot herpar tofherbody, andI quickl
ywentoverwi t
hmybl eeding
thigh,thel ionswer enots oqui ckt of ini
shusup, somet hi
ngwashol dingt hembac k,s ome
invisi
blepr es ence,thes ec ondone, digagaini ntomyc heek, myf ac ebl eed, astheyt riedt of inda
betterflesht ofeedon, t heirteet hwasal lovermeasI coveredShamar awi thmybody, its eem
mybodywasbi t
terast heykeepput t
ingt heirsharpf angsonme, i
ts eemwewer enotagood
meatf ort hemast heykeptput tingt heirmout handr emovingi tasqui ckl yaspos si
ble, butt hei
r
teethwasal lovermybodybutt heynevert ookabi teoutofme,

Thelionsl
aterl
eftusal
one,
Iwasl
oos
ingt
oomuc
hbl
oodandShamar
atoo,
fromt
hewoundbut
Ihel
don,
Suddenlyther
ewasas cr
eamandt henahardthudtotheground,Igentl
ylook,i
twasOkr a,
Vim
pushedherdown,shefel
lheavi
lyandbloodspl
att
eredever
ywher e,shewass t
il
lmutter
ing
“helpme,Tamarpl
easehelpme,telly
ourgodtosaveme,Idon’twanttodie,no…no.
.
I’
mnot
readytodienow…t
ellyourgodtohelpme…

andasI tr
yt oopenmymout htosayawor dthelionsrushedatherandI shutmyeyesast hey
begantof eedonherhungr i
ly,Ic
anhearthelift
erbr i
ngi
ngs omebodyel sewithspeeddown, and
itwasMandi oh,,I
canhearhi msay,“Vi
m, Okratoldmeyouwas hedyourhandsof fher,Idi
dnot
dothisint
ent i
onall
y,Ididn’t
,itwasOkra,shetoldmeyouar enotinterestedinhert hatwaswhy
Iproc
eeded, thepeoplec anbearmewi tnessthatIaskedher,Vimt ellthemtol i
ftmeupf r
om
thi
sli
fter,tel
lthemt otakemeup, thos
elionsbelongtome, theycannoteatme, theyareall
mine,Iownt hem…I amt heliongod…

I
canhearVi
msc
reami
ngi
npai
n…

“
I willki
llever
yoneoneofyou…al lofyou,goandgetmear i
fl
e,Iwil
lki
lleveryoneoneofyou
t
hathasahandi nthis
, i
fs hediesIwillal
soki
llasmanypeopleasposs
ibletoday,t
hiski
ngdom
willnotrestunti
leveryonei sbroughtdown,goandgetmear if
lequi
cklyoryouwi l
lbethenext
togodownt otheli
onss tomac h…

Mandiohwasl ower ed,I openedmybl oods hoteyeswideins hockandwat chast heli

onrus hhi
m,
Ishutmyeyesf romt hehor r
ibl
es ight,Shamar ahasloosedal otofbloodandwasnotmovi ng
again,
shebec ameweakatever ypassings econds,
IcanhearVi mt ell
ingt hemt ohurry,t
hen
suddenly,itwasl ikeas hovelthats hovell
edmeandShamar ai nt
ot hel i
ft
erandwewer et aki
ng
tothesur f
ace,Ic ouldn’tmove, Iwasc overedi nbl
ood,allover,Vimwaspani ckingasheas keda
mant oc heckifIwass ti
llbreathing,andI hardthemanwhos eemt obeaphys ici
antoldhimI
wasnotbr eathing, hes aidmeandmys ec
ondhavel oosedtoomuc hbl oodalready,hetoldVim
thatIwasal r
eadydead, meands hamar awer ebothdead.

Icanheareveryt
hingyetI couldn’tmove,ast hephys i
ciant ol
dVi mt hatIwasdeadI star
ted
heari
ngalouds cr
eam, Vims c r
eaming,Iwant edtos hake, Iwant edtos ayawordtos howI wasn’
t
deadyetbutIcouldn’t,I
justlayther ei
nthepul lofmyownbl ood,butI c
anheareverything
goingonaroundme, I
startedhear i
ngaheavyguns hotast hepeopl eflewindiff
erentdirect
ion,
peoplewererunning,asI c
anheart hei
rfootsound, thenI gues sVims hotattheli
onsbec auseof
theterr
ibl
enoisetheyal lmade, i
twashor rortotheear ,everywher ewasnoisy,t
heguns hot
conti
nued,downbel owintot hedenasVi mkepts hooting.
“
Sonl
if
tthi
sonet
oyours
houl
der
,Iwi
llc
arr
ythi
sone,
let
’sgoanddi
spos
ethemof
f…

I
twast hephysic
iansvoice,andIwaslif
tedtosomebody’shoulderandaf tersomet i
me, I
wason
amovingwheel ,t
hes t
rangevoices,
itseemtobet hephysic
ianandhi sson, t
heys poketoeac h
other
,asthemanas kedthes ontospeedupbef oretheywil
lbec aught,
I overheardt hems ay
theyweregoingtothefarendoft hefourt
hdistri
ct,f
arofff
romwher etheyt ookmeand
Shamarafrom.Darknessc l
oudedmeasi tshotthroughmeandI can’
thearorf eelanything,I
try
toshoutJesusbutIcan’
tmovemymout hasdarknesswaspressingmedeepl ydown

I
kepts
ayi
ngt
henamei
nmymi
ndandevent
ual
lyI
spokei
toutl
oud,

“son…hur r
y…f astenup…I justhar dhercallaname, shejustmentioneds omebody’ sname, s
heis
notreallydeads owec an’tus eherforyourpr acti
cal,i
fwegett oas aferplaceyoupar klet’
ssee
ifwec anattendt oallthisthei rdeepwound, sinceshei sst
il
lali
veI guesshers ec
onds hould
alsobe…l i
sten, nobodymus tknowt hattheyar ealive,becausewehavet oldeveryonethatthey
arebot hdead, andagoaheadhasbei nggi vent oustogoanddi sposet hematt hebur i
alground,
ift
heyknowt hatt heyareal ive,especi
all
yt hatyoungmadman, LordVi m,thesecondPr ime
ruler
'ssonwi l
lc omef orourhead, sowehavet obec areful
.

Iwass oweakthatIcoul
dn’
thearany thingagai
nast heykeptonspeaking,Iwantedt ol
ist
ento
allthei
rconver
sati
onbutstrengthfail
edme, al
lIs
eei sdarknes
sandat i
nyrayli
ghtc oming
froms omewhereIcan’
ttel
l.Butastinyastheli
ghtisitwasenought oholdonto.Itmakesme
forgetwhatpai
nfeelsli
keandr i
ghtthenI wassmi
ling,Ifel
tatpeaceasI sawthef ac
esmi l
ing
rightbackatme.

Eveni
nthedar
khi
sfac
eshones
obr
ight
.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
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..
.
.

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*
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sode25*

I
sneez
edoutl
oudands
creamedJ
esusbef
oreopeni
ngmyeyes
,

atf
irs
tever
ywher
ewass
obl
urr
ed,
Ibl
inkedr
epeat
edl
yasI
tryt
o

s
eec
lear
lyandt
oknowwher
eexac
tlyI
was
,Ial
mos
tthoughtI

wasdeadbec
aus
eofmyenc
ount
erwi
thhi
m,hehasbei
ngonmy

s
idef
orawhi
leandhashel
pedmet
oremai
ncal
m,hekepts
ayi
ng

t
hist
omeasi
fhewast
ryi
ngt
okeepi
tfr
eshi
nmyhear
t

“
Iamher
ewi
thyou,
nowandf
orever
,not
hingandnoonec
an

s
nat
chyouawayf
rommyhandsbec
aus
eyouar
est
rongl
ysec
ured,

f
oryoudi
dnotdenymebef
oremenI
wil
lnotdenyyoubef
oremy

f
atheri
nheaven,
Iamher
ewi
thyoumyc
hil
d,al
ways
.ist
imet
o

r
etur
n,goandmakedi
sci
plesofal
lnat
ion…yourwor
kisnotdone

yet
…remember
,Iamwi
thyoual
ways
…al
waysmyc
hil
d.

“
itwasJ
esus
,ohJ
esus
…itwashi
m,hi
sfac
ehass
hones
obr
ight

t
hatI
havet
oshadet
hebr
ight
nes
swi
thmyhandst
oseehi
m,he

hasbei
ngbes
idemeal
lthi
swhi
leandhi
spr
esenc
ehasbei
ngs
o

war
mandl
ovi
ng,
thatI
havewi
shedI
wil
lremai
nther
ewi
thhi
m.

“
Fat
her
,come…qui
ck,
fat
herhur
ry,
shehasawaken…

I
wat
chasamant
ryt
ochec
kmet
hrough,
mybodywass
tif
f,my

f
acef
eltl
ikei
twass
ewedt
oget
her
,myhandandt
highf
eltt
he

s
ame,
Iwasf
indi
ngi
thar
dtomovemyhandsandmyl
egs
,
c
oul
dn’
tfeels
omepar
tofmybody,
mus
tpar
tofmybodyf
eel
s

numb,
itwasasi
ftheyar
enotmi
neanymor
e,myeyeswaswi
de

openasI
star
eatt
hes
trangef
acesbentoverme…

“
Wher
e…wher
eIam…wher
eist
hispl
ace…

“
Iamaphys
ici
anandher
eismys
on,
hei
spr
act
ici
ngt
obea

r
enownedphys
ici
anj
ustl
ikeme,
youar
einmypl
ace,
mynamei
s

Coz
amandmys
oni
sTedr
an.
Youhavebei
ngi
nac
ommaf
orl
ong,

c
ount
ingbyt
heweeksi
twi
llbeni
neandhal
fweeks
,that
’sal
mos
t

t
hreemont
hsi
ncoma,
youwer
esentt
omandi
oh’
sli
on’
sden.
.Do

your
emember
,butyouwer
eluc
kyt
ohavemadei
tal
ive,
what
ever

godyous
ervemus
thavedef
endedyouandhel
pedyout
hrough,
it

s
urpr
isi
nghowyouar
est
il
lal
ivebutwear
ehappyyoumadei
t.You

s
erveat
rueGod,
bec
aus
eevenI
,bei
ngaphys
ici
anc
an’
texpl
ain

t
hel
ogi
c,Youar
ever
ysaf
eher
e,bec
aus
ewel
iveatt
hef
arendof

t
hef
our
thdi
str
ict
,theyal
lthoughtyouar
eal
readydead,
many

peopl
edi
edt
hatday,
ther
ewasayoungmant
hatgotenr
agedon

hear
ingt
hatyouwer
esentt
oMandi
on’
sdent
odi
e,onget
ting

t
her
ehepus
heddownonewomant
hathaspl
annedi
tal
lwi
th

Mandi
oh,
Mandi
ohwaseat
enbyhi
sownl
ion,
thec
raz
yyoungman

wasc
all
edVi
m,hei
sthes
onoft
hes
econdpr
imer
uler
,peopl
efear

hi
mgr
eat
ly,
Ihavet
otel
lhi
mthatyouar
eal
readydeadbec
aus
e

youl
ookl
if
eles
s,andyourwoundswer
eli
fet
hreat
eni
ng,
we

t
houghtyouwi
llnevermakei
t,wec
amet
obuys
omemedi
cal

t
hingsf
orourpat
ient
soverher
eandwhenwehar
dthatMandi
oh’
s

hasopeneduphi
sli
on’
sdenandpeopl
ewer
etr
ippi
ngi
ntowat
ch,
i
twasagoodt
ime,
andI
,havi
ngbei
ngt
ryi
ngt
oteac
hmys
on

s
omet
hingsi
nadeadhumanbody,
sowewat
chf
romaf
arast
he

l
ionsc
oul
dn’
ttakeabi
teof
fyou,
itwasasi
fyourbodywas

poi
sonoust
othemandt
hatofyours
econdt
oo,
allt
heydi
dwast
o

j
ustdugt
hei
rlongf
angsi
ntoyouandl
eftyou,
youl
osts
omuc
h

bl
oodal
readybef
orel
ordVi
mas
kedi
fther
ewasanyphys
ici
an

ar
oundandI
cameoutwi
thmys
on,
sowhenyouwer
ebr
oughtup

wet
houghti
twasus
eles
swor
kingonyoubec
aus
eyouwer
enot

movi
ngagai
nands
owet
oldhi
myouwer
egone,
wet
oldhi
mthat

youar
edeadandt
hatnewsenr
agedhi
mthemor
eandhebegant
o

s
hoot
,event
hel
ionshavet
hei
rowns
har
eoft
heguns
hot
,Igues
s

t
heyal
ldi
edl
ater
,wehavet
ogetanor
dert
ogoanddi
spos
eyou

andt
hes
econdl
adyatt
hebur
ialgr
oundbutyous
uddenl
ycal
led

outs
omebody’
snameal
ongt
heway,
ins
idet
hec
har
iotandt
hat

washowwegott
oknowt
hatyouar
eal
ive,
ands
inc
ewebr
ought

youdownher
eyouhavebei
ngunc
ons
cious
,youhavebei
ngi
n

c
oma,
I’
mgl
adyouar
eup,
soyoumus
thavenot
icedhows
tif
fyour

bodyi
s,wel
l,i
sduet
obei
ngi
nonepl
acewi
thoutmovementf
ors
o

l
ong,
nowwehavet
ohel
pyoumoveyourbody,
youhaves
tic
hes

al
loveryourt
high,
yourf
aceandal
sos
omeot
herpar
tofyourbody

whi
chi
snott
otal
lyheal
ed,
wehavet
oloos
enedt
het
hreadmaybe

t
omor
rows
othatyouwi
llbeabl
etomovear
oundgent
lyunt
ilyou

c
anf
eelyourl
egsandyourwhol
ebodybegant
ocor
por
ate,
itwi
ll

t
akel
it
tlet
ime,
andyouwi
llmakeus
eofawal
kings
tic
kbutwi
tha

c
ons
tantpr
act
iceyouwi
llbef
ine.
“
wher
…whatofShamar
a…whathappenedt
oher
…Imeanmy

s
econd.
.

“
shei
sri
ghtt
her
e,s
til
lnotawake,
buts
hewi
lll
ive,
ifyouc
an

gent
lyt
urnyourf
acet
oyourr
ights
ideyouwi
lls
eeher
,herwounds

wer
enotasmuc
hasyour
s,yous
ust
ainedaheavyi
njur
y,s
hel
ost

l
otsofbl
oodands
hei
sver
yweak,
unl
ikeyou,
yourmus
clesar
e

s
trongandyour
espondwel
ltot
reat
ment
,youl
ookf
ragi
leyetyou

ar
ever
yst
rong,
myl
ady,
I’
mgl
adyoumadei
tbutt
hishast
obe

bet
weenus
,bec
aus
eal
readyever
yonet
hinksyouar
edeadandt
hat

youngmanhasal
readybel
ieveds
o,i
twi
llbes
afef
oryout
ost
ay

her
eands
econdl
ythewoundonyourc
heekwi
llt
aket
imet
oheal

up,
andwheni
tfi
nal
lyheal
edyouwi
llbel
eftwi
thadeeps
caron

yourf
ace,
yourt
highandal
soyourar
mwi
llhaveas
car
,whi
chi
s

noteveni
mpor
tant
,themos
timpor
tantt
hingi
sthatyouar
eal
ive

andyouwi
lll
iveher
ewi
thus
,wewi
llt
eac
hyoumedi
ci
neandyou

mayevent
ual
lybec
omeaphys
ici
ant
ooi
fyous
odes
ireds
o.We

haveenoughroomsforyouandyoursecond.
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yhi
omeanoon+233544142683t
obeaddedt
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st
oryheadquart
ersr
oomf ormorestor
ies.

I
star
tedpr
act
ici
ngagai
nonhowt
omovemyl
egsandar
mandmy

whol
ebodyast
heweeksf
oll
owss
uit
,Iwasaf
rai
dtol
ookatt
he

mi
rrorbec
aus
eoft
hedeepwoundonmyc
heek,
thatwasgr
adual
ly

f
ormi
ngas
caral
ready,
wit
hinweeks
,Ic
ans
tandandmovear
ound

wi
tht
hehel
pofTedr
anandawal
kings
tic
k,t
hephys
ici
ans
on

Tedr
an,
whowasal
mos
tsameagewi
thVi
m,hewasgent
leand

ki
ndasheas
sis
tmei
nget
tingbet
terever
yday,

Tedr
anwasaf
ineyoungman,
youngert
hanVi
m,I
gues
s,hewas
goodl
ooki
ngt
ooandwasal
sot
all
ert
hanhi
sfat
her
,hewasal
ways

f
il
ledwi
ths
mil
e,andI
havet
oas
khi
monedayashemas
sagemy

l
impl
egsaf
terbei
ngi
nst
ruc
tedbyhi
sfat
hert
odos
o.

“
Youar
eal
wayswear
ingas
mil
e,t
hat
’sgood…I
admi
ret
hatabout

you,
didyourf
atheral
sot
oldyoui
spar
tofyourj
obdes
cri
pti
on…

bei
ngaphys
ici
an…

“
hahahaha,
smi
li
nghasbec
omepar
tofme,
andyes
,fat
hert
oldme

t
oal
wayss
mil
ees
pec
ial
lywhenI
’
mat
tendi
ngt
opat
ient
s,i
thel
ps

t
hemt
oeas
eup.
Soevers
inc
eIwasyoung,
fat
herhasi
nbui
lti
tin

me,
hehasbei
ngbui
ldi
ngmeupt
obec
omeasgoodashei
sandI

t
riednott
ofai
lhi
m,I
wasl
it
tlewhenmot
herdi
edandf
atherhas

neverr
emar
rieds
inc
ethen,
her
ais
edmeupandi
thasbei
ngt
wo

ofusevers
inc
e…andver
ysoonI
wil
lbel
ikef
ather
,al
readyI
know

ever
ythi
ngbutI
don’
twantt
obeaheadofmys
elf
,Ial
wayswantt
o

wat
chf
atherat
tendt
opat
ient
sandI
onl
ydot
heoneshei
nst
ruc
t

met
odo,
hes
omet
imeshes
endmeoutt
ogoandat
tendt
o

pat
ient
sonmyownandI
trynott
odi
sappoi
nthi
m…s
omedayI
wil
l

getawi
feandi
twi
llnotj
ustbemeandf
atheranymor
e,andwhen

c
hil
drens
tar
tcomi
ngt
hehous
ewi
llbel
ivel
yli
keI
haveal
ways

want
edt
hat
,Il
ikehavi
ngpeopl
ear
oundher
e.

I
lis
tenedt
oTedr
ant
alkandI
tri
edt
osmi
ledes
pit
ethewound

s
tic
hest
hathur
tsanyt
imeI
for
cef
ull
ymoveamus
cleonmyf
ace.

Shamar
awokeupaf
teraweek,
andI
wasatherbeds
idewi
thl
ord

Coz
amandhi
ssonTedr
an,
theybegant
oat
tendt
oher
,as

Shamar
atr
ytounder
standwhatwashappeni
ngar
oundherand
wher
eshewas
,Ihel
dherhandass
het
urnedt
olookatme

“
Wher
e…i
sthi
spl
ace,
ist
hisheaven…ar
ewedead,
ist
hisheaven

orhel
l…

“
wear
ebot
hal
ive,
wemadei
tShamar
a,Gods
avedus
,thi
sis

pl
anetear
th,
isnei
therheavenorhel
l,andi
fther
e’sanywher
ewe

havet
obeout
sidet
hisear
tht
heni
sheavenandnothel
l,I
’
mso

pr
oudofyou.
.

“
oh…s
eri
ous
,sowear
eal
ive,
Ithought
…It
houghtt
hel
ionat
eus
,

ohmi
ne…t
hel
ions
….i
remember
…yourGodi
sreal
,yous
aidhewas

goi
ngt
ocomeands
aveusandhedi
d…l
ookatt
hewoundonyour

f
ace,
itmus
thavebei
ngs
opai
nful
,I’
mdeepl
ysor
ry,
Ican’
teven

r
ememberwhathappenedaf
ter
…af
teryouas
kedmet
opr
etendt
o

bedeadandI
did,
Igues
sIpas
sedout
…whoar
eal
lthi
speopl
e…

“
OurGodi
sreal
,hehasneverf
ail
edandhewi
llneverf
ail
,webot
h

l
osts
omuc
hbl
ood,
andt
hes
hoc
ktookeptusi
ncoma,
isagood

t
hingt
ohaveyouher
e,t
hisi
slor
dCoz
amandhi
ssonTedr
an,
they

ar
ebot
hphys
ici
ans
,theys
avedus
…andnur
sedusbac
k,wi
thouta

s
hel
li
ngt
othei
rpoc
ket
,theyar
egoodpeopl
eandI
’
mgl
adGod

us
edt
hemf
orus
…

Shamar
amut
ter
edat
hankyout
olor
dCoz
amandhi
ssonTedr
an

andt
heygr
eet
edherwi
thas
mil
e.

Theweekc
ameandgoaswet
ryt
ohealup,
itbec
ames
ofun

bei
ngwi
tht
hephys
ici
ans
,asI
tryt
otel
lthemaboutChr
ist
,and

t
heywer
ekeent
oli
stenaf
ters
eei
ngwhathappenedatt
hel
ion’
s

denandbei
ngal
iveagai
nwhi
chwasbeyondt
hei
runder
standi
ng,
t
heyl
ist
ened,
himandhi
ssonandt
heyevent
ual
lybel
ieved,
asI

f
eedt
hemwi
tht
hewor
dever
yday,
Shamar
awasnotl
eftout
.

Weas
sis
tedwi
tht
hel
it
tlet
hatwec
andoar
oundt
hehous
e,mor
e

week’
stur
nsi
ntomont
hsandt
heni
tbec
ameayear
.Wewer
e

t
otal
lyf
ine.
Icanwal
kper
fec
tlywel
lonmyownwi
thoutanyhel
p,

s
amewi
thShamar
a,al
thought
hes
car
sar
eal
lther
ebuti
tgi
ves

menot
roubl
e.

I
plannedt
oret
urnt
ovi
si
tlor
dRees
e’sf
ami
ly,
ther
ewer
eal
otof

peopl
etovi
si
t,Abel
,mydear
estAbel
,Adol
foandEur
a,Zi
tyand

Chakan,
theys
houl
dhavet
hei
rli
ttl
eonebynow,
Rhondaandher

c
hil
dren,
themer
chant
,andhowhet
ookt
henewsofhi
swi
fe’
s

deat
h,t
henVi
m,I
wonderhowhei
sdoi
ngaf
teral
lthathappened.

I
twast
imef
ormet
ovi
si
tthemal
l,I
wil
lgoasaphys
ici
anwi
th

Tedr
an,
andwi
llwearac
overup,
fromheaddown,
onl
ymyeyes

wi
llbes
een,
Iwi
llnotr
evealmyi
dent
ityt
othemi
mmedi
atel
yunt
ilI

obs
ervet
heenvi
ronment
,andI
pleadwi
thGodt
oleadmeas

al
ways
.

I
won’
tbegoi
ngasTamar
,Iwi
lll
ett
hembel
ievemet
obea

s
trangeroraphys
ici
an’
sdaught
er,
iwi
llc
hangemynamet
oLeah.

i
’
mgoi
ngoverwi
thadi
ff
erenti
dent
ityandadi
ff
erentname.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.
.

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04,
4:49pm]+23354414268~ HENE E :
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I
didnotl
eavei
mmedi
atel
y,I
neededt
ober
eadyt
odos
o,andaf
ter

anot
heryearwentby,
maki
ngi
tthes
econdyeart
hatI
havebei
ng

wi
tht
hephys
ici
ani
fel
treadyt
ogo.

Tedr
anl
ikesShamar
aandt
heywer
epl
anni
ngt
ogetmar
ried,
Iwas

s
ohappyf
ort
het
wooft
hem,
theywi
llmakeanawes
omec
oupl
e.

Theywi
llbemar
riedwheneverTedr
anr
etur
nsf
romt
hej
our
ney.

Lor
dCoz
amas
kedmei
fIwass
ureoft
ravel
li
ngdownl
ikeI
have

i
ntendedandI
ass
uredhi
mIwas
,Iknewi
twast
ime.
Hebought

menewc
lot
hsandf
ootwear
,andal
sogotmeakhi
mar
,ahead

c
over
ing,
whi
chI
wor
ear
oundmyheadandc
overmyf
ace,
thei
r

wasanetont
hef
ace,
whi
chhel
psmei
nseei
ngever
ythi
ngand

ever
yonec
lear
lybutt
heyc
an’
tseeme,
Iwasgr
atef
ult
olor
d

Coz
am,
hes
pokewi
thmet
hatday,
tel
li
ngmet
obec
aref
uland

makes
ureI
lis
tent
othevoi
ceofGodandI
promi
set
odos
o,I
tol
d

hi
mmeandTedr
anwi
llbef
inebec
aus
ethemos
thi
ghi
swi
thus
.

I
thankGodf
orLor
dCoz
amwhowasl
ikeaf
athert
ome,
henever

ac
tedi
ndi
ff
erenc
etomeorShamar
a,andhewaski
ndanddownt
o

ear
thj
ustl
ikehi
ssonTedr
an.

I
huggedShamar
a,andt
oldhert
hatherhus
bandt
obei
ssaf
ewi
th

meandI
wil
lret
urnwi
thhi
mins
oundheal
th,
Tedr
an,
whoms
he
s
eemt
oloves
omuc
h,andhel
oveshert
ool
aughatmyf
unnyj
est
,

weal
lcr
acks
omej
okeabouti
tandl
aughs
omemor
e.I
knel
tand

gr
eet
edl
ordCoz
amashegavemeandhi
ssonhi
sbl
ess
ingsofa

f
avor
abl
ejour
ney.
Shamar
ahuggedmeandbi
dmef
arewel
l.

Wel
aterl
eft
,Is
atbes
ideTedr
anashes
peedi
ntot
hedus
tyl
ong

r
oadt
hatl
eadst
othef
irs
tands
econddi
str
ict
.Wes
toppedont
he

r
oadt
obuyf
oodanddr
inkbef
orepr
oceedi
ng,

I
twasi
ndeedal
ongj
our
ney,
andwhent
heni
ghtappr
oac
hwes
top

byani
nn,
andpai
dfort
heni
ght
,wer
est
edandt
hef
oll
owi
ng

mor
ningwec
ont
inuedourj
our
ney,
andar
rivedbyear
lynoon.

Tedr
anal
readyknowwhatt
odoands
ay,
wehavet
alkedabouti
t

andhewaseagert
ohel
pinanywayhec
an.

I
askedhi
mtos
topatRhonda’
spl
acef
irs
tandhedi
d,I
wenti
nsi
de

andmett
het
winsandl
it
tleJ
onwhowasal
readyt
hreeyear
sol
d,

t
heywer
eal
llooki
ngbi
gger
,li
ttl
eJonwasr
unni
ngar
oundt
he

c
ompound,
andt
heyal
lsuddenl
yst
oppedands
tar
eatmeasI

ent
ered,
thenoneoft
het
winsc
all
edoutt
oRhondawhowasi
nsi
de

“
Mot
her
…mot
herc
omequi
ckl
y…t
her
e’sas
trangerher
etos
ee

you…

Rhondaqui
ckl
yranoutandal
sos
toodasI
appr
oac
h,I
removed

myheadc
overt
omaket
hemf
eelatpeac
e…

Rhondaf
ellbac
kins
hoc
k,andI
hel
dher
,shewenti
ntomyar
m

ands
tar
tedc
ryi
ng…

“
Ist
hisr
eal
lyyouTamar
,ohmyGod,
youar
eal
ive,
mayGodbe

pr
ais
e…how…wher
e..
idon’
tunder
stand,
peopl
esai
dyoudi
edf
rom
t
hel
ion’
swound,
andt
heyt
ookyout
othebur
ialgr
oundandbur
ied

you…howc
ome…s
eei
ngt
hes
caronyourf
acei
sanevi
denc
ethat

youar
etr
ulyt
heone,
youar
eal
ive,
wher
ehaveyoubei
ng…mayal
l

t
hegl
orybet
oGod…ohJ
esus
..

Rhondawasc
ryi
ngandI
allI
didwast
osmi
le,
Itol
dheral
lthat

happenedaswes
atdown,
Iint
roduc
eTedr
ant
oherands
hewas

s
ogr
atef
ult
ohi
mandhi
sfat
her
,Ias
kedRhondahows
hehas

bei
ngc
opi
ngwi
tht
heki
dsands
hes
aidGodhasbei
ngpr
ovi
ding

t
hroughherl
it
tlet
rade,
Iwasgl
adt
oheart
hat
.af
tereat
ingand

dr
inki
ngt
het
hingsRhondaof
fer
edus
,Ibegant
ospeakwi
thher

andt
hes
amet
imewat
chasTedr
anpl
ayedwi
tht
heki
ds,
lit
tleJ
on

wasgi
ggl
ingal
lar
oundhi
m,ast
heyr
acet
oget
her
,Ic
an’
thel
pbut

s
mil
e,Tedr
anr
eal
lyl
oveki
dsandI
prayGodwi
llbl
esshi
mand

Shamar
awi
thc
hil
dren.

“
Thet
winsmot
herdi
edi
nthel
ion’
sden,
iss
osads
hehast
ogo

t
hatway,
shedi
dnotr
ecei
veChr
ist
,anddi
dnothaveanyc
hil
dto

c
allhermot
her
,soRhonda,
youwi
lldomeagr
eatf
avor
…

“
Ioweyoumyl
if
eTamar
,Its
til
lbaf
flesmet
hatyouar
eac
tual
ly

s
itt
ingher
ewi
thme,
thankyous
omuc
hTamar
,It
houghtI
wil
l

nevergett
hisoppor
tuni
tyt
osayt
hankyout
oyou,
I’
mreal
ly

gr
atef
ult
oGodf
orus
ingyout
obr
ingl
aught
ert
omyl
if
e,s
ay

what
everyouwantandI
wil
lbes
ogl
adt
ohel
pinanywayI
can.

“
thankyouRhonda,
Ithoughtoft
hec
hil
drenwhenI
wass
entt
o

Mandi
oh,
andt
houghtwhat
evert
hatwashi
ddenwi
llr
emai
nhi
dden,

butwhenGods
avedmef
romt
hel
ions
,Ihavepr
omi
semys
elft
o
dot
het
his
,thi
scannotbehi
ddenf
orever
,It
hinkGodwant
syout
o

dot
her
ightt
hingnowt
hatOkr
aisgone,
thet
wins
,youdon’
treal
ly

needt
oret
urnt
hem,
no,
I’
mnotas
kingf
ort
hat
.theyar
eyour
s,

evenheavenknowst
hatyouar
eagr
eatmot
hert
othemt
hant
hei
r

r
ealmot
herwi
lleverbe,
butt
hemer
chant
,Okr
a’shus
band,
mus
t

havebei
ngl
onel
y,nowi
feandnoc
hil
dren,
Idon’
tknowhowhei
s

c
opi
ngt
hrough,
butI
wil
lfi
ndouti
fhel
aterr
emar
ries
,hedes
erve

t
oknowhehasc
hil
drens
omewher
e,t
heMer
chantwi
llnott
aket
he

gi
rl
sfr
omyoubuthewi
llbes
ogl
adt
oknowt
hathehavet
his

beaut
if
ult
wins
,andt
heyhavehi
sres
embl
anc
etoo,
donotpani
c,I

wi
lldomynor
malf
indi
ngsandr
etur
nbac
ktoyou,
ifi
snec
ess
ary

f
orhi
mtoknowaboutt
hec
hil
drenI
wil
lletyouknow,
ifnot
,then

t
heyar
eyour
stokeep.
Andal
sol
it
tleJ
on…butl
etGod’
swi
llbe

doneoveryouandt
hisc
hil
dren…andmayhekeepper
fec
ting

ever
ythi
ngt
hatc
onc
ernsever
yoneofus
.

Rhondaac
cept
edwhatI
sai
d,andaf
ters
omet
imeswehuggedand

bi
dthemal
lgoodbyebef
orepr
oceedi
ngt
oAdol
fo’
shous
e,my

headwasonc
eagai
ncover
ed,

Onget
tingt
her
e,att
hegat
e,i
int
roduc
emys
elfandTedr
anasmy

br
otherandt
hatwear
ether
etos
eeAdol
fo,
wear
ephys
ici
anf
rom

t
hef
arenddi
str
ict
.Theyal
lowedusi
nandAdol
fowasi
nfor
med,
I

s
awhi
mcomi
ngoutaswes
atwai
ti
ngf
orhi
mathi
svi
si
tor
’s

s
hade,
hehas
n’tagedonebi
t,s
til
llooki
ngl
iket
hel
astt
imei
saw

hi
m,hehasaweddi
ngbandonhi
sfi
nger
,Iwonder
edwi
thi
nmei
f

hel
atergotmar
riedagai
naf
terZi
ty,
whoc
oul
dhebemar
riedt
o.
Ri
ghtt
henI
sawEur
a,andI
almos
tsc
reamedi
nshoc
k,buthel
d

mys
elfbac
k,s
hewasput
tingonar
oyalappar
elands
heal
sohad

aweddi
ngbandonherr
ingf
inger
,whi
chmeanss
hewasmar
ried

t
oAdol
fo,
Icoul
dn’
tkeepc
alm,
Iwass
ohappyandf
eltl
ike

s
creami
ngwi
thj
oy,
Ibr
eat
heds
ever
all
ytor
emai
ncal
m,Eur
awas

gl
owi
ngi
npr
ide,
shel
ookss
obeaut
if
ul,
Adol
fowasnotl
ooki
ngt
oo

c
heer
ful
,hel
ookedl
ikes
omet
hingwas
n’tr
ight
.

Eur
agr
eet
eduswar
mlyandwer
espondedbef
ores
hewal
kedpas
s

us
,Adol
foc
ameandTedr
ani
ntr
oduc
edmeashi
ssi
ster
,Leah,
and

al
soaphys
ici
ansc
omi
ngf
romt
hef
arendoft
hef
our
thdi
str
ictand

weneededapl
acet
ost
ayf
ort
heni
ght
.

Adol
fowasqui
etf
ros
omet
ime,
hec
all
edEur
a’sat
tent
ionands
he

c
ame,
bef
orehes
poke,

“
her
eismybeaut
if
ulwi
fe,
Eur
a,mynamei
sAdol
foandyouar
e

war
mlywel
comet
omyhome,
mys
ervant
swi
llat
tendt
oyour

needsbutwear
eChr
ist
ians
,andwes
ervet
heonet
rueGod…I

don’
tknowi
fyouwi
llbec
omf
ort
abl
est
ayi
ngunderourr
oof
,Iand

mywi
fewi
llbegl
adt
ohaveyouunt
ilyouar
ereadyt
ocont
inuewi
th

yourj
our
ney,
wedon’
treal
lyc
aret
heki
ndofgodyous
ervebutwe

wi
lll
etyouknowt
hatourGodi
stheonl
ytr
ueGodaboveand

bel
ow,
Jehovahi
sal
ovi
ngGod,
andhehasputi
tinourhear
tto

wel
comeanys
trangert
hatc
omest
ousi
nneed….
soyouar
e

wel
come,
butwhyi
syours
ist
er’
sfac
ecover
ed

“
Shehasani
njur
y,mor
eoff
irei
nci
dent
,andi
tlef
therwi
thadeep

bur
nts
car
…wewi
llbegl
adt
obeunderyourr
oofmyl
ord,
wear
e
al
soChr
ist
ians
,weal
lbel
ievei
ntheonet
rueGod.

“
Sor
ryt
oheart
hatmyl
ady,
I’
mgl
adt
ohaveyout
woher
e,youar
e

bot
hwel
come…I
feelgoodknowi
ngwel
lthatyouar
enotani
dol

wor
shi
perl
ikeI
uset
obebef
oremydearwi
fel
edmet
oGod,
and

al
sowi
tht
hehel
pofadears
ist
er,
shei
slat
enow,
shedi
edwi
th

honoraf
ters
hewasas
kedt
odenyGodandt
opr
ocl
aimedt
hegod

oft
hiski
ngdomashergod,
ands
her
efus
ed,
sheandhers
econd…

t
hepeopl
ethatwi
tnes
sedi
tsai
dthel
ionsc
oul
dn’
teatheraf
ter

s
hewast
hrowni
nsi
debutt
heyl
eftherwi
thl
if
ethr
eat
eni
ngwound

andbef
oret
hephys
ici
anc
oul
dat
tendt
oherandt
hes
econdl
ady,
it

wasal
readyl
ate,
theybot
hlos
ttoomuc
hbl
oodandc
oul
dn’
tmake

i
t,butt
hewomant
hatpl
annedal
loft
hatwasc
ons
umeds
amewi
th

t
heowneroft
hel
ions
,andi
sbei
ngs
osad,
evenaf
tert
woyear
s,

hermemor
yremai
nfr
eshi
nourhear
t,butwef
eelatpeac
e

knowi
ngwher
eshei
s,att
her
ighthandofGodal
might
y,I
als
olos
t

as
ont
woyear
sago,
yeah,
thati
sst
il
lpar
tofmys
adnes
s,I
los
tmy

onl
yson,
hisnamewasChakan…

I
freez
eandwentc
old,
Ifel
tfearal
loverandal
mos
tpul
lof
fmy

c
over
,asI
lis
tent
oAdol
fo.
Myeyeswaswi
denedi
nshoc
kthr
ough

myvei
lasl
ist
enedt
othes
adt
ale…

“
…Af
tert
hedeat
hoft
het
wol
adi
es,
Chakanwasangr
ywi
thhi
swi
fe

f
orpl
anni
ngs
uchwi
thherf
riend,
who’
snamewasOkr
a,Okr
awas

mar
riedt
oamer
chantbuts
hewasaver
ydi
ff
icul
twoman,
shei
s

deadnow.
Mys
ongoti
ntoaheat
edar
gumentwi
thhi
spr
egnant

wi
fe,
andl
aters
tor
medoutoft
hehous
eangr
il
y,hewasr
idi
ngwi
th
s
peedonhi
schar
iotwhenhef
ellof
fandbr
okehi
snec
k,and

s
oundphys
ici
answer
ebr
oughtdownher
e,t
ohel
phi
mgetwel
lbut

hekeptget
tingwor
st,
andt
her
e’sayoungmanc
all
edAbel
,hewas

Chakn’
sfat
heri
n-l
aws
’mas
ters
ervantandwasal
soi
nchar
geof

t
heman’
spor
tbus
ines
s,l
ordRees
ewast
hes
econdpr
imer
uler
,

youmus
thavehar
dofhi
mandmys
onwasmar
riedt
ohi
s

daught
er,
sowhenAbelc
ame,
hes
aidGodr
eveal
edt
ohi
mthat

Chakanwon’
tmakei
tandheneededt
opr
ayf
orhi
mbef
orehego.

Abels
atbyhi
sbeds
ideandpr
ayedf
orhi
m,hel
edhi
mtoChr
ist

bef
orehedi
ed.
Isbei
ngt
woyear
snow,
IwheneverI
thi
nkoft
he

s
adhappeni
ngsi
nmyl
if
e…I
feell
ikeGods
tri
pedmeof
f,i
twas

f
irs
t…mywi
fe,
fir
stwi
fewhobor
eChakanf
ormebef
orepas
sing

away,
fol
lowedbyTamar
,adearf
riendwhenI
neededaf
riendt
o

hel
pmet
hroughmyl
onel
yti
me,
thenmyonl
yson.
Chakan’
swi
fe

movedbac
ktoherf
ather
’shous
eandr
emai
nedt
her
e,t
hatwas

wher
eshei
swi
tht
hes
ons
hehadf
orChakan,
myowngr
andc
hil
d.

I
feelc
omf
ort
edandhappyt
hatI
haveagr
andc
hil
d,I
was
n’tt
otal
ly

s
tri
pedof
fbyt
heenemy.
alt
houghi
tst
il
lfeel
ssad,
nopar
ent
spr
ays

t
oloos
ethei
rchi
ld,
MeandEur
ahasbei
ngmar
riedf
orayearand

s
omemont
hsnowandyetnoc
hil
d,butwear
ebel
ievi
ngt
hatGod

wi
llbl
essuswi
thones
oon.
Abelus
etoc
omedownher
eonc
eina

whi
leands
peakt
ousaboutGodandhowmi
ght
yhewas
,wel
lhe

c
ont
ribut
edi
nbui
ldi
ngmyf
ait
hup,
thatyoungmani
ssomet
hing

el
se,
hei
sfi
ll
edwi
tht
hehol
yspi
ri
t,Devi
lmus
tbes
oaf
rai
dofhi
m

bec
aus
eAbelhear
sfr
omGoddi
rec
t.Her
efus
etot
alkaboutTamar
,
wheneverwement
ionhert
ohi
mhewi
llonl
ysmi
leands
ay

“
whoevert
rus
tint
heLor
dwi
llneverbeputt
oshame”
.That
’sal
lhe

s
ays
,hewasnots
adaboutherdeat
hli
kewewer
ebuthewas

keenonmaki
ngmeas
trongmani
ntheLor
dandI
mus
tsayhedi
d

agr
eatj
ob,
nowI
’
mal
lsol
doutf
orGod.
Mayt
hes
oulofmy

dear
ests
on,
Chakanandal
soTamar
,thes
lavegi
rlt
hatf
irs
ttook

t
hes
tepwhi
chbr
oughtaboutours
alvat
ion,
shewass
elf
les
sand

s
olovi
ngandal
sobol
d,r
eadyt
otal
kaboutGodanyt
imeand

anywher
e,mayt
heyc
ont
inuet
ores
tint
hebos
omoft
heal
might
y

God,
whoknowswhyever
ythi
nghappen…

I
fel
ttear
srunni
ngdownmyf
ace,
andi
dec
idedt
opul
lof
fmy

c
over
,Tedr
anl
ookedatmet
omakes
ureI
knowwhatI
wasdoi
ng

andI
repl
iedhi
m…

“
Tedr
an,
isf
ine,
Ican’
thi
deanymor
e,myhear
twantt
obur
stoutof

me,
don’
twor
ry,
I’
mfi
ne,
Iwi
llunc
overt
hef
aceandl
ett
hemknow

whos
itbef
oret
hem…

I
wat
chasAdol
foandEur
alookedatmes
urpr
isi
ngl
yasI
tryt
o

r
emovet
hekhi
mar
,myf
acec
over
,des
pit
ether
ewasadar
kli
neof

s
adnes
sunderAdol
fo’
seyes
,onec
ans
eet
hathel
ovesEur
a,hi
s

wi
fe,
Igent
lyl
if
tedmyheadc
over
,tot
hem,
atf
irs
ttheydi
dn’
t

r
ecogni
zedmeandt
heyl
aterdi
dimmedi
atel
yIs
aidmyr
ealname,

Eur
afel
lint
oAdol
fo’
shandi
nshoc
k,Tedr
anhel
pedherqui
ckl
yas

s
hef
elldown,
itwasasi
fshewast
raumat
ized,
andAdol
fowas

bat
tli
ngwi
thhi
sowns
hoc
kbutal
lIdi
dwast
osmi
leandwi
pemy

eyesof
ftear
s.Eur
alat
err
ecover
edf
romt
het
raumaass
hes
tar
eat
mel
ikeI
jus
tfel
lfr
omheavenorl
ikeaghos
t.Theybegant
oas
kif

I
wast
rul
ytheoneast
heydeepl
ylookedatme,
andwhent
heys
aw

I
wast
hes
ameTamart
hatwass
uppos
etobedeadandr
otaway,

i
twasuni
magi
nabl
efort
hem,
Eur
agent
lyc
amet
ome,
count
ing

herever
yst
ep,
andwef
elli
ntoawar
mhug,
shes
awt
hatI
was

ac
tual
lyr
eal
,Iwas
n’taghos
t,I
wass
ohappy,
sohappynotj
ust

bec
aus
eIwass
eei
ngt
hembutal
sobec
aus
etheypr
oudl
ysayt
hat

t
heyar
eChr
ist
iansandwasopeni
ngt
hei
rhomet
otot
als
tranger
s

wi
thoutevenknowi
ngwho*I
was
,Iwass
opr
oudofEur
a,s
he

hel
pedAdol
fot
obel
ieve,
its
addenedmet
hatChakandi
ed,
its
ound

unbel
ievabl
ebutI
wasgl
adt
hatAbelc
ameatt
her
ightt
imeandl
ed

hi
mtot
hel
ightbef
orehepas
sedi
ntogl
ory.

Asweal
lcal
mdown,
theywer
eeagert
oknowhowI
sur
vived,
I

t
oldt
hemhowi
tal
lhappened,
Itol
dthemofal
lmyenc
ount
er,
and

evenTedr
anaddedf
ewwor
d,ashes
peakt
othemonwhat

happeneddur
ingt
het
imeI
wasi
nac
oma,
Eur
abegant
ocr
*yas

s
hes
atbes
idemeandhel
dmyhands
,Adol
foc
oul
dn’
tst
il
lbel
ieve

t
hatGodc
anwor
kins
uchaway,
hes
toodandopenedhi
sar
mfor

meandI
wenti
n,hehel
dont
omemut
ter
ingat
hankyout
oGod.

Helaterl
oos
enedupandlookedatmys
car
.Hi
omeon+233544142683t
obeaddedt
ost
ory
headquar
ter
sroomformorestor
ies
.

“
Thi
sar
ethemar
koft
hel
ions
,youmadei
tal
ive…i
snotbec
aus
e

youar
est
rongbuti
twasbec
aus
eofGodwhoyoubol
dlys
peakof
f

i
nthepr
esenc
eofal
lthepeopl
eandyoudi
dnotdenyhi
mbec
aus
e

off
ear
,hec
amet
hroughf
oryouTamar
,tr
ulyt
her
eisaGodgr
eat
er

t
hanever
yot
hergodt
hateverexi
sted.
OhJ
esus
…thi
sisj
ustt
oo
muc
hofami
rac
let
obel
ieve,
yous
urvi
vedt
hel
ionsandOkr
aand

Mandi
ohwenti
ntot
hei
rbel
lel
ikewor
ms,
wow…t
hisi
s…i
stoo

muc
hGod,
thankyouJ
ehovahf
ors
avi
ngyourown…

I
twasagr
eatt
imeofr
euni
on,
Ifel
tsogl
adasI
lis
tent
oAdol
fot
alk

aboutGod,
het
ookever
ythi
ngaboutGodpr
ett
yser
ious
,Ic
an’
thel
p

butl
aughathi
szeal
ous
nes
s,I
fel
tful
fi
ll
ed,
lis
teni
ngt
ohi
m.I

t
houghtofl
it
tleJ
on,
ver
ysoonhewi
llknowt
hathehasas
on

s
omewher
ewhomGodl
edmet
osave,
event
houghChakani
s

gone,
Jonwi
llbr
ingbac
kthes
par
kinAdol
fo’
ssaddenedeyes
,and

I
knowver
ysonGodwi
llal
soopenEur
a’swombands
hewi
ll

c
onc
eiveandbearmor
eChi
ldr
enf
orAdol
foashehaspr
ayedf
or.

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ing

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ais
est
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ori
ousbei
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nhi
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esenc
ewi
th

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iever
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het
hir
dday,
meandTedr
andec
idedt
o

c
ont
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ney,
Adol
foandEur
awant
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ost
ays
ome

mor
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onandi
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ished,
we

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oldt
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etur
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oonaswear
edonewi
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our
neyedt
o

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dRees
ees
tat
e,wher
eIwi
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omeetAbel
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ty,
her

f
atherandmot
her
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soVi
m.

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sti
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ovi
si
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chantandknowhowhei
sdoi
ng.
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urns
oon,
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angetmar
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o

Shamar
a,andbui
ldahappyandGodl
yhomet
oget
herwi
thher
.
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ont
inued.
.
..
..

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on

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ort
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rom

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ly,
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idge

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tht
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er,
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ici
anc
ando

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ktoourhomes
,

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teryoudon’
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eci
ous

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imewi
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ter
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e

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,mys
oni
s

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teryoudot
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ame.

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eet
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ort
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mat
ion

bef
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oceedi
ng,
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ll
edi
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othes
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hegat
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heonest
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rmas
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ter
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tingwor
st.
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atel
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ore

l
ordVi
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eeus
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ustt
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oac
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e,myhear
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o

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adden,
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shI
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eandr
uni
ntohi
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m,oh,

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addened,
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eal
lymi
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h

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hatal
lIwant
edt
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ms,
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her
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ort
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Adol
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wasno

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asy,
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eet
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uset
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l

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ays
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stand,
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ever
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reel
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dar
knes
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ll

det
ermi
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hel
astday.

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oldi
ersgr
eet
edAbelr
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tful
ly,
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ookedatme,
my

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acewasc
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ookedatmeasi
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ee
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mar
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ndt
hemas
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ant
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tlyAbelwasl
ooki
ngats
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acewas

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over
ed,
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ookedatmeandI
havet
otouc
hmyf
acet
omake

s
uret
hatmyKhi
marwass
til
lonmyf
ace.
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uddenl
ysmi
le,
deep

andwar
msmi
let
hatgott
omys
oul
,maki
ngmet
osmi
let
oobehi
nd

mymas
k.Heor
der
edt
hes
oldi
erst
oopent
hegat
eforusandt
hey

qui
ckl
ydi
d.

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amedownf
romt
hec
har
iotandwal
kwi
thhi
masTedr
andi
d

hi
snor
mali
ntr
oduc
tion…

“
Greet
ingst
oyoumyl
ord,
youc
ameatt
her
ightt
imet
othegat
e

whent
hes
oldi
erswher
ekeenons
endi
ngusaway.
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or

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howi
nguski
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ett
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avouryouas

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avour
edus
.Wear
ephys
ici
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romt
hef
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he

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our
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str
ict
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ordCoz
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a

r
enownedphys
ici
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ci
nef
romc
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dhood,
and

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ewi
thmei
smys
ist
erLeah.
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eher
etos
eeLor
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doourbes
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ytr
eatt
othebes
tofourknowl
edge

butGodi
sthebes
theal
er,
wewi
lll
iket
oseehi
mnowmyl
ord…

“
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comel
ordTedr
an,
wewi
llbes
opl
eas
etohaveyouand

yours
ist
ers
taywi
thuswhi
leyouat
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othemas
ter
’sheal
th,
and

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inc
eyourj
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neyi
sfar
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e’senoughr
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ist
erandwhat
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ady,
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m

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adt
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ou…wehavebei
ngexpec
tingyou,
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heal
might
y

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orbr
ingi
ngyouatt
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ightt
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ecomewi
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tcor
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ly,
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wi
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ulls
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omt
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tar
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li
ar,
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ustl
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ter
day,
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ngs
eemal
mos
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ame.

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ngoutofhi
sfat
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hambermyhear
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ast
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ast

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ime,
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eds
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ingundert
hel
onggownandt
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mart
hatI

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e,t
hankGodf
ort
hef
aci
alc
over
ingt
hathi
deal
lmyt
roubl
ing

emot
ions
,wes
toppedandbowt
ohi
minr
espec
t,Abels
pokef
irs
t

“
Myl
ord,
thi
sar
ephys
ici
anf
romt
hef
arendoft
hef
our
thdi
str
ict
,

hi
snamei
sTedr
anandwi
thhi
mher
eishi
ssi
sterLeah,
theyhave

c
omet
oseet
hemas
ter
,andI
wil
las
kthes
ervant
stomaker
oom

avai
labl
etot
hemf
ort
hei
rjour
neyi
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llneedt
o

c
aref
ull
yat
tendt
othemas
terf
ordaysorweeksbef
orer
etur
ning

bac
k…

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ltheni
fyouappr
oveoft
hemi
sfi
nebyme.
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dthematt
he

gat
enott
oletanyot
herphys
ici
ani
nagai
n,f
atheri
snotget
ting

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ter
,mot
heri
sal
wayswor
ried,
itt
roubl
eshergr
eat
lyt
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ather

i
sst
il
ldowndes
pit
eal
lthepower
fulphys
ici
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omi
ngt
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th

di
ff
erents
pec
ifi
edmedi
ci
ne,
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roubl
edt
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ands
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yone,

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rus
tyourj
udgementAbel
,ifyout
hinkt
hisoneswi
llmake

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ff
erenc
ethens
obei
t,al
lIwanti
sfat
hert
ogetbet
terandf
or

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hert
ost
opwor
ryi
ng,
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athert
obeac
tiveagai
n,hec
an’
t
evens
peakr
eas
onabl
ewor
dagai
n,hei
sjus
tbedr
idden,
Iamj
ust

t
ired….
And…andwhyi
sherf
acec
over
edwi
thakhi
mar
,whyi
sshe

c
over
edal
lover
…Ineedt
oseet
hef
aceoft
heper
sonat
tendi
ngt
o

myf
ather
..
ori
sther
eapr
obl
em…

“
Par
donusmyl
ord,
mys
ist
erhasabur
nts
caronherf
ace,
andi
t

makesherf
eelunc
omf
ort
abl
ear
oundpeopl
e,s
hef
eel
sac
cept
ed

whens
hei
scover
edup…

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breat
heddeepl
y,asTedr
ans
peak,
Ineededt
osays
omet
hingt
oo,

I
don’
tknowi
fmyvoi
ces
til
lsoundf
ami
li
ar,
butAdol
foandEur
a

di
dnotr
ecogni
zemef
romt
hevoi
ceunt
ilI
pul
ledof
fmykhi
mar
.So

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clear
edmyvoi
ceandt
ryt
oseei
fIc
ant
wis
tthevoi
ceal
it
tles
o

t
hati
twi
lls
ounds
trange…

“
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sLeahandI
amaphys
ici
anj
ustasmybr
otherTedr
an

hass
aid,
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overupf
arf
ashi
ons
ake,
ismor
eoft
oshade

f
rompeopl
ewhodonotf
eelc
omf
ort
abl
ear
oundmys
car
,and

maj
ori
tyofpeopl
egett
urnof
fwhent
heys
eet
hes
caronmyf
ace,

s
otopr
eventpeopl
efr
omget
tingunc
omf
ort
abl
eIr
emai
ncover
ed

up…

I
breat
hedagai
n,wonder
ingi
fhec
atc
hanygl
imps
eoft
hevoi
ce,

Abels
toodatones
idel
ooki
ngatme,
butmyvoi
cedi
dnots
ound

f
ami
li
art
othem

“
Apol
ogi
esmyl
ady,
yout
woc
angoaheadnow…Abelwi
llt
akeyou

t
omyf
ather
’sc
hamber
…andi
fyouneedanyt
hingdon’
tfai
ltoas
k

andi
twi
llbepr
ovi
ded,
andmayyourgodf
avouryouandmake

f
athert
ogetbet
terasyouat
tendt
ohi
m…
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kpas
sus
,Ibr
eat
hedheavi
lydownagai
nas

Abelt
ookust
othemas
ter
’sc
hamber
,onget
tingt
her
eIs
awLady

phi
n,s
hequi
etl
ysatbes
ideherhus
band,
Lor
dRees
ewass
osi
ck,

hel
ooks
odr
yandhasl
osts
omuc
hwei
ght
,myhear
tmel
tdownat

hi
ssatandt
hes
ightofl
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henf
ace,
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oldmet
hen

t
hatt
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emys
heepandI
havet
opas
tur
ethem,
coul
ditbet
he

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eas
onhes
aidt
heyhavebei
ngexpec
tingmeevenwi
thout

knowi
ngwhoI
am.
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oduc
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ant
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n

whoac
tedasi
fwear
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tli
keever
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omi
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lhi
msel
f,Abel

t
urnedandl
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atel
y.

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hes
ightt
hatgr
eet
edme,
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oladyPhi
n,I

knel
tbes
ideherwhi
leTedr
anc
hec
kedonLor
dRees
e.

“
myl
ady,
wor
rynotbec
aus
ethemas
terwi
llbeal
ri
ght
,forGoddi
d

nots
endusdownher
einvai
n,hi
snameal
onewi
llbegl
ori
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edover

t
his
,themas
terwi
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inebyGod’
sgr
ace,
notbyourpoweror

mi
ghtbutac
cor
dingt
othewi
llofGod.

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wat
chass
het
riedt
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hef
acebehi
ndt
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kbutc
oul
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t

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don’
tknowwhyI
fel
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thyourpr
esenc
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ace,
Abel
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eadyoui
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oldme

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hathi
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ents
omeonef
ort
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ter
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l
adyi
nakhi
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didnotunder
standwhathemeantunt
il

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atel
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awyouI
remember
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’
swor
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he

earofagod.
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peaks
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dlyl
ikeagi
rlweus
etohaveher
e,
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ed,
fil
ledwi
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onf
idenc
eandnot

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lowi
nganyt
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shes
toodf
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pr
ocl
aimedt
henameofherGodast
heonet
rueGod.
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aidt
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l
ionc
oul
dn’
teataf
ters
hewast
hrowni
nwi
thanot
hers
lave,
but

s
hedi
edf
romi
t’
sinj
ury,
sheonc
etol
dusaboutherGodandwe

want
edt
ohearmor
ebuts
hegotbus
ywi
thl
ie.
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,whenI

pl
eadedwi
thhi
myes
ter
dayt
opr
ayt
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orhi
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o

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ing,
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ents
omeonet
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emi
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hel
adyi
namas
k,butI
sti
lldi
dnot

under
standt
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vent
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minhi
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itt
odos
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inebutnotf
orl
ong…I
don’
t

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eal
lyc
arehowl
onghehast
obebutI
wantt
ohearhi
mspeakt
o

meandl
ookatmel
ikeheus
etodobef
ore.
Eveni
fisonemor
e

t
ime,
jus
tones
,Iwi
llbef
ine,
wat
chi
nghi
mfadesawayl
iket
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s

s
addeni
ng,
Leah,
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’syourname,
pleas
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imeswhenhes
eesme,
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sto

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ready

knowwhoI
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li
arwi
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etur
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mil
eonl
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aceasherhus
band

gotbet
ter
,hi
sheal
thi
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odot
hingson

hi
sownagai
n.I
wass
itt
ingatt
hef
ount
ainal
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leTedr
anwas

i
nsi
de,
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msuddenl
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atbes
ideme,
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edt
o

t
hankmef
orhel
pingt
hef
atherwi
thhi
sheal
th,
hel
ookedatmeal
l

overagai
n,andl
aters
aid

“
whydoI
feell
ikeI
knowyou…yetI
don’
t,Leah,
I’
mgr
atef
ult
oyou

andyourbr
otherf
ormyf
ather
,butt
her
e’ss
omet
hingaboutyou,
is

asi
f…I
haveknownyoui
nmyot
herl
if
e…hahahaha…apol
ogi
se,
butI

c
an’
thel
plaughi
ngatmys
elf
…Iwi
shI
canhaveagl
imps
eofyour

f
ace…buti
sal
lgood…I
uset
oloves
omebody…s
odeepl
y…al
ong

s
tor
ythough…whi
chI
don’
twantt
orememberoryouhavepr
obabl
y

hear
dofi
tbec
aus
ethepeopl
enevers
topt
alki
ngabouti
t…butI

don’
twantt
oremember
…sheus
etoc
omeouther
etopr
ayt
oher

godwhens
hewasl
ivi
ngher
e,I
lovedherbuts
hel
ovedhergod

andc
hos
ehi
moverme…andunf
ort
unat
ethi
ngi
sthats
hedi
edf
or

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hes
amegod….
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wel
lthat
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ngal
mos
tthr
eeyear
snow

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e…havet
riedever
ythi
ngpos
sibl
etoputi
tbehi
ndme…I

t
houghtI
wil
lgoc
raz
y,I
fel
tli
keI
wasgoi
ngt
odi
ewhens
hedi
ed,
I
wantt
obur
ndownt
hiski
ngdomf
orhers
ake,
Igotakni
fec
ut,

deeponeonmybac
kast
hes
oldi
erst
riedt
ohol
dmedown,
and

af
terI
camehome,
broken,
lonel
ysadandi
npai
n,Abel
,youknow

Abel
,hedi
dhel
pme,
hes
pokewor
dst
omyhear
trepeat
edl
y,and

hel
pedmepul
lthr
ough,
andI
bec
amec
almI
sti
llhat
emys
ist
er,
I

hat
eherwi
thpas
sionf
orpl
anni
ngwi
tht
hemer
chantwi
fet
odo

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uch,
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uset
oli
stent
oheroranyones
peakt
omeonwhatl
ead

t
oTamarbei
ngt
aki
ngt
oMandi
oh…whywi
lls
hepl
ans
uchevi
l

wi
thOkr
a,why,
whens
heknowst
hatI
lovet
hisgi
rlandeven

t
houghI
gotangr
yands
aidhergodc
anhaveheraf
ters
he

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ejec
tedmypr
opos
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onf
orZi
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anwi
thher

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bec
aus
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smybl
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hel
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m

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eadyt
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giveher
,maybes
omedayI
wil
lbec
aus
ebutnot

now…s
hehur
tmes
odeepl
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areyoumar
ried…oryou

haves
omebodyas
kingf
oryourhandi
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riage…am…ams
orr
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as
kingt
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oryourt
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wat
chashes
toodup,
andwal
ktot
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oret
urni
ngt
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atme,
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ohi
schar
iotands
peedoutoft
hegat
e,I
wonder
ed

i
fhewasf
all
ingi
nlovewi
thLeah,
thenewme,
whywasdohe

wantt
oknowi
fIwasmar
riedornot
.Ineededt
ospeakt
oAbel
.

andt
hef
oll
owi
ngdayI
sawAbelagai
ntal
kingwi
thZi
ty,
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eem

t
obet
heonl
yoneZi
tygoest
o,s
hewasal
waysi
nsi
deherc
hamber
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thhers
onorout
sideatt
hef
ount
ainwi
thAbel
,andI
knows
he

mus
tbehear
tbr
okenknowi
ngt
hatheronl
ybr
otherhat
esherand

al
sol
oos
ingChakan,
herhus
bandt
odeat
h,i
tmus
thavebei
ngs
ad

f
orher
,soI
wentt
osi
twi
tht
hematt
hef
ount
ain,
Abels
toodupas

hes
awmeappr
oac
hthem,
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amet
omeandt
ookmyhandsi
nto

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tyj
ustwat
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ore

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eet
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hes
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ed,
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it
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trol
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ount
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it
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knowver
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hoc
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ionofher

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eat
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awVi
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kpas
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epl
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s

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eet
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gnor
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kpas
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adnes
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itt
enon

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ty’
sfac
ebuts
het
riedt
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dei
t.Andj
ustt
henI
wast
oldbya

s
ervantt
hatLor
dRees
ewasc
all
ingme,
soI
stoodupandl
eft
,asI

s
ilent
lywor
kal
ongt
hepas
sageI
overhear
dTedr
ant
alki
ngwi
th

Vi
m,s
oIbec
ames
oqui
et,

“
sor
ryf
ormynumer
ousques
tionbuti
sshemar
ried…yours
ist
er,

Leah…i
…Ihaveneverl
ikeanyoneevers
inc
ethel
adyI
wass
uppos
e

t
omar
rydi
ed,
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eei
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aceI
dol
ikeher
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s
oundqui
ckbutI
don’
tneedf
orevert
oli
kes
omeone…s
hei
s

al
waysqui
etandhar
dlys
peak,
Iwant
edt
oengagedheri
na

c
onver
sat
ionyes
ter
daybutI
fel
titwas
n’tpr
operands
topped…

I
lis
tenedasVi
mtal
kwi
thTedr
an,
Iqui
etl
ywal
kpas
ttoLor
dRees
e

c
hamber
.
Tobec
ont
inued.
.
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..

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eralongtal
kwit
hLordReeseandladyPhin,
theyf
inall
yunder
standt
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ful
lyac
ceptedhi
m,Iwassohappyfort
hem,lordRees
es ai
d

“thankyouLeah, andt hankyouf ort akingyourt imet oexpl ainGodt ous ,wehaveal ways
want edtoknowabouthi mbutt hegi rlwhowass upposet odos odied, itwasunf ortunateand
weal lfeltherabs ence,s hehast heki ndofaur ayouhavear oundyou, Leah, butIunder st
and
nowt hats hei sinabet terpl ace.Heaveni sapl ac etobeaf tert hisearth, thankyouf orfil
li
ngt he
gapf orTamarandpi cki
ngupwher eshes topped, wear egr atefultoyouandyourbr otherTedr an,
andI wishI canseeyourf ather,whomyous aidisc all
edLor dCoz amandal soaphys ici
an,wewi l
l
begr atefultohi m, youc amef romaphys i
cianfami ly,butyoudonotdependondr ugsbutonGod,
themaker ,byt omor r
owwewi l
lbur nallthes caredgodwekepti nthishous e,wewi llput
everythingt hatisc ont r
ar yt oournewf ait
has ideandembr aceJ ehovahf ully,
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hwat er,wear eavai l
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oa
realservantofGod, what everweneedt odojus tletusknowLeah, sot hatwec andos o,yous aid
allmys inhasbei ngwas hedaway, al
lmyi gnor anc einbowi ngt odifferentgodoft hislandhas
beingnai ledatt hec r
oss ,thatGodbei ngsoki ndandmer ci
fulhasac cept edmej ustasI am, me
andmywi fe.hewi llneverc ountours insagains tusanymor e,nowI ’manewmani nChr i
sts o
alsoismyl ovelywi fe,ams ogratefulthatitwasneverl ate, Goddi dgavemeac hanc etohear
thisandt oac c
epthi mbef or edying,ifIhavedi edbef oreyouc ame, Iwoul dhaveendedupi n
anothert orment edpl ace, butnowI knowt het ruthandI haves eent hel i
ghtIcandi epeac efull
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ngtotheground
whenhec aughtmeandgent lydr
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reezeathistouch,heheldmyhandswi thout
sayi
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ngatmyKhimarasi fhecanseet hroughme, Ishakemyhandr emindi
ng
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illhol
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tedapologiz
ing,

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Par
donmeLadyLeah,
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yous
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ited…whati
sthegoodnews

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entshaveacc
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,If
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hem,
how
aboutyou…whatdoyoubeli
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n…whodoyous erve…

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rsmakesmyparentshappyt
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ine,ever
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nd
what evermakesthemhappy,I
don’twanttost
opthemanymor eli
keIdidbefore,
allI
wanti
s
forthemt obehappy…

“areyouhappy…haveyouf oundyourownhappi ness,doesmoneymakeyouhappy, ofallthe

moneyyouhaveandt heproper t
iesandpoweryouowni nthiskingdom…dot heymakeyou
happy…whydon’ tyouwantt oexper i
encet hi
suns peakablejoy,thisundil
utedpeac ethati s
foundinJ esus…myl ord,moneydoesnotans wert oallthi
ngs ,i
fitdoesyourf atherwoul dhave
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fitdoesthel adyyous peakof ,Tamar ,
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haveac ceptedyourpr oposalandbemar r
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thingsthedeadwi llbealiveandnos icknessors adnesswillbef oundamongt her i
ch,Godal one
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st heans wertoever ythi
ngt hi
ngs ,evenafteryoudi etothewor ldyouwilll
ivef orhim, sowhat
exactlyisyourfearwi ththetrueGod, whatiskeepingyouaway…

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omt heden
bynotall
owingt helionstoeather..
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llallowedhert odie,thisladyamt alki
ngabouti s
readytodi
ef orthisgodyout al
kabout ,shewasas tr
ongChr ist
ian,shelovedyourgodyethe
all
owedhert odie,whatkindofgoddoest hat ,s hewoul dn’thavediedifshehasmar riedme, if
shehasli
stenedt omeandc hoseanothergodf orherself,howdoyouwantmet owors hi
pt hi
s
godthatwatc hhisownpeopl edie,Iwasher ethatday, givingherc hanceandhopi ngshewi ll
changehermi nd,Iwass t
il
langrybutI coul dn’tgobac kt oheraf t
ers heturnedmedown, a
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me, I
neverknewI twast hatbeas tofawomant heyc allsOkr a,thatt eamedupwi thMandi ohand
mys i
st ert oki l
lTamar ,whenI arrivedatt hepl ac e, Okr awasal lni ceandf ul lwi thwi cked
laught erass het r i
edt ogi vemeac upofagr apewi nebutI turnedi tdown, Iknews hewasupt o
somet hing, shel aughedands aidI wi l
llovethes ur prises hehasf ormeandI willc omet o
under s tandt hats hewi llnotal lowanys l
avet ohumi li
at eas t r
ongs onoft hes oil,wel lIdidnot
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wonder edwhyt her ewer es omuc hpeopl eatMandi oh’spl ac e,itonl ymeansonet hinghewas
feedingaChr i
s t
ianorani nfidelt ohislions,Igots caredasI wonderwhoc oul dbei nt here, as
theyl edmet otheopenedl ion’sdenandwhenI lookedi nside, Isawt wol adi es,atf i
rstI didn’t
knowt hats hewast heone, butwhenr eali
zationhi tme, i
twasl ikeat hunders t r
iket omyhear t,
Ialmos tj umpi nt ot hedenbutI washel dbac k, Iwass hout i
nghername, as kinghert opr etendt o
bedeads ot hel ion’swon’ thur ther ,doyouwhats hedi d, i
ns teads hes pr eadherhandswi de, asif
shewasas kingt hel i
on’stoc omeandf eedonher ,mybodywentc old,I swearandc ur s
e, I
want edheroutbutMandi ohs aidi twast ool ateandwhenI lookedagai n,itwasr eallytool ate
bec aus et hel i
on’ swer eal readyonher ,diggingt hei rdirtys har pf angsi nt oher ,andwi thever y
struckf r omt hewi c kedani mal sonheri twasasi ft heywer eal sos trokingme, Ibec ameanot her
manasi c aughtOkr awhowasr unni ngaway, Ibundl edherupandpus hedheri nt ot heden,
Tamarwon’ tbet heonl yonet odi e,anybodyt hathasahandi nherdeat hmus tpaywi tht hei r
ownl i
fe, andOkr awast hef irstt henMandi ohf ollows ,thephys iciansc ouldn’ ts aveTamareven
herGoddi sappoi ntedher …I stillfeelsomuc hangeranyt imeI remembert hes t
or y,issadLeah,
verys ad, andatt heendI startedbl amingmys elf, andt hat’
swher et hegui lts ti
lleat sdeepl yat
mebec aus eI toldhert oherf ac eandal sotoldmys i
sterl ethergodhaveher ,Itol dmys ister
thatI was hmyhandsof fTamar ,ands het ookmywor dst oOkr aandt heyhel dont omywor dand
event ual lyki lledher ,Ikil
ledwi thmyownwor d, notMandi oh’ slionbutI ,IkilledTamarwi thmy
wor ds, andi t…i s
…i

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eatheddeepl
ybefor
egoingtosearchf
orAbel
,whenIdi
dnot
seeAbel
,IwenttoTedran’
schamber

“soI amar egoingbackt omorrow,bynextweekI andShamar awi l

lbemar r
ied,Iwishyouwi llbe
there…I don’
tt hi
nkthispeoplewi l
lal
lowyout ogo, especi
all
yl ordVi m,hel i
kesyou, heactually
toldmet hat
, hewasas ki
ngmei fyouar emarr i
edorengagedt obemar ri
ed, andI t
oldhimt hat
youar enot,
hes aidhewi s
htos eeyourface,hedoes n’
tmindt hebur ntscaronyourf ac
ewhi ch
makesyout oc overupwi t
hthekhi mar,al
lthatmat tersi
sthathej ustwant stolookatyourf ace,
hes aidyour emindhimofs omeone…s oTar…s orry,Leah,I’
mt r
yi ngt ogetus etoc al
lingyouthat,
howl ongwillyoukeeponwi tht hi
sbeforeyour evealyourt r
ues el
ft hem…
“Aslongasitt
akesforGodtodirec
tmetodos o…IaskedhimtoguidemeinwisdomandGodhas
beingtrul
ygood,t
hemas terandmist
res
sfinal
lyacceptedChr
ist
,ibumpedint
oVimontheway
andhec an’
tst
optalki
ngaboutmypas tl
if
e,isdi
ff
icultf
orhimtobeli
eveinGod….

“Thenmakehi
m…hel
ikesy
ou,
asaLeah,
event
houghhes
til
lcar
riest
hehur
tingmemor
iesof
Tamar…

“Ican’
tsti
llhaveanythi
ngtodowi t
hhim,hedoes n’
tbelieveyet,andIc
an’tbeunequal
lyyoked
withhim, i
fitmeanssayi
ngnot ohimagai
nt henIwilldoitallover,
heneedstocomedownf rom
hishighstai
r s
,Godneedstohumblehim,Ican’tdomor ethanmypower ,heisGod’
spropert
y
andatt herightt
ime,Godwillbr
inghi
mt ohims el
f…

Il
aterwentdowntoZi
ty’
sroom,shes
mil
edassheopenedupherchamberandIsteppedin,
Isat
besi
deher,hers
onwaswithLor
dReeseandl
adyPhin,
hisgr
andparent
sinthei
ropenc hamber,

“
Myl
ady,
Iknowhowdi
ff
icul
tli
femus
thavebei
ng,
Iwast
oldyoul
ostyourhus
bandt
oac
cident
…

“yeah…I deser vewhat evert hathasbef al l

enme, Leah, Ihavedones omanyt er ri
blet hings ,
my
hus banddi edbec aus eofme, hegotangr ywi thmef ors endingmyper sonalmai dTamar ,and
Shamar aas lavegi rlwhohadaf fairwithhi mt ot helions ,hesaidwhywi llIdos uc hawi cked
thing, butifTamarhasl istenedt ome, shewi l
ls til
lbeal ive,ItoldTamart ojus tpickanygodof
thel ands ot hats hec anl i
vebuts heref us ed,asf orshamar a,Iwant edhert obegone, notl ikeI
want edherki l
ledbuts hej oinedTamari nherbel iefandt heybot hdied, andmyhus bandwass o
angr yandr odeoutwi thhi sc hariot,hef elloffthec har i
otandbr okehi snec kwhi chl eadt ohis
deat h,Iwaspr egnantf ormys on, peopl ebl amemef orhi sdeat h,mybr otherbl amesmef or
Tamar ’
sdeat handhass wor nnott ofor giveme…I uset obet erri
ble, myl atehus bandwast he
secondmanI wasmar riedt o, t
hef i
rstwashi sf atherandI t
reatedhi ms obadbef orel eavinghim
forhi sson, i…I even…evenl os tthebabyI hadf orhim, thebabydi ed…af terbi rth…ifI tellyouall
thet erriblet hingsI havedone, youwi llwantmet obes tonedtodeat h,andAbelhasr eally
helpedme, sinc eI r
eturnedhome, Ican’ tgoouti nt othes tr
eetwi thoutpeopl et al
ki ngaboutme,
Ican’tevent al kwi t
hmyonl ybr other ,evenmypar entsbl amesmef orTamar ’sdeat h,nobody
wantt ohearmeout ,
itwasonl yAbel , Ifeelterr i
blebei ngi nmyc hambermos tpar toft heday,
somet i
mesj ustal onewhi lemys onpl ayswi t
hmypar ent s,I’
mgl adt heyl ovehi m, Abell eadme
toChr i
st,Ius et othinkofs uicide, Iwant edt okillmys elfbac kthenaf terever ythingc ame
crumbl i
ng, butAbelpul ledmeoutofi t, hemademet oknowGod, nowI under standwhyTamar
coul dnotdenyGodi nt hepr es enc eofherenemi es ,I under s t
andwhyTamarwass t
r ongwi l
led
andr efuset obowt oanygod. Thanky ouLeahf orbr ingi ngmypar ent st olight ,Abeli sas eer, he
onest oldmet hatal adyonakhi marwi llc omeandpr ayf orf at herandhewi llrec eivehi sheal ing,
hes ai ditoneoft hos edaysatt hef ount ain, whenhei st eac hingmet hewor dofGod. Andwhen
youc amei twasasi fhi spr ophec yc amet ol i
fe, hes aidt hel adyhasanunc ommoni dent i
tybutI
wi l
ls eemypas tinher ,Ididnotunder standbutal lt hatmat t
er si st hatGodus edyout oheal
fatherandhel pt hemt oembr ac eChr i
st…t hatI ’ms ogr at ef ulfort hat ,mypar ent sc omi ngt o
knowGod, I’
mas hamedofmypas t,Ifeelr ealt er ribl ewhenI t hinkofi t,Tamardi edbec aus eof
me, Itoldaper s onI was n’tsuppos etot el laboutherf aithands het ooki tuponher sel ftodes troy
Tamar ,Tamars avedmys on, Icoul dhaveki lledhi mbuthei sal ivet odaybec aus eTamart alked
meoutofabor tion, whi chI t
houghtwasawayt opayChakanbac kf orhavi ngaf fairwi tha
slave…. shewasGods entt omeandyetI didnotr eal izet hatunt ils hewasgone, Chakanal sodi ed
bec aus eofmebutAbels aidt hatI shouldn’ twor ryt hatChakani ss aved, buts omet imeI can’t
helpwor r
y ing, Iwi shI haves tayedwi thmyf ir sthus bandwhoi smar riedt ooneofhi smai d, they
arebot hs trongi nt heLor dt hat ’swhatAbelt oldme, I feelbadf ors omebadc hoi cesI made,
espec i
allyI wasopenedandt hi nkt heper sonI trul yc al lfr iendwasr eallyaf ri
end, Idon’ tbl ame
anybodyf orwhat everI ampas singt hroughorI havepas s edt hr oughI blamedmys el f.Abels aidI
shoul dkeeppr ayi ngf orVi m, andI havebei ngdoi ngt hatandhopi ngs omedayhewi l
ll ear nto
forgiveme, I wishI canbr ingbac kTamart ol ives ot hathec anl ovemel ikehi slittles ister ,j
us t
ast heol dt ime, Idon’ thaveanyf riend…I needagoodf riendandal s oabel iever …s oI pleadwi th
you…c anyoubemyf riendLeah, I knowyouwer einvol vei naf ireac cidentt hatl eftyouwi t
ha
burnts caronyourf acewhi chmakesyouunc omf or t abl e,peopl emaypr obabl yjudgeyou
bec aus eofyourappear anc e,butI don’ tr eal l
yc ar eaboutt hat , yourl ookdoes n’tc ountf orme, al
l
Ineedi sahandt ohol dands omebodyr eadyt olist enl ikeyouar edoi ngnow, Ionl ygotone
fri
endAbelwhoi snotal waysar ound, hei st heonl yonet hatdi dnotj udgeme, ever yot her
pers onwast hrowi ngbl amesonmeandI knowI des er vei tall, soc anyoubemyf riendLeah, I
wantt os tar tmaki nggoodc hoi ceandl ivewi tht hemi ndt hatChr isthaspai df oral lmys tupidi ty
atthec ros s….

Wetal
kedforsometi
meandIassuredherthatshecanfi
ndatruef
riendi
nme,Zi
tywashappy
asI
lef
therchamberTomeetAbelwhojustretur
ned,hebegantos
mi l
easIc
ametosi
twithhi
m.

“al
lIwantt
odori
ghtnowistodrawy
oucl
oseandgiveyouahugli
keyoudes
erve,
Ihavemi
ssed
you,I
hopeyouar
enotwonderi
ngwhyIamsocor
dialwithyou…

“Ididnotwonderforl
ong,bec
auseIknowGodmus thaverevi
ewedital
ltoyou,youal
ready
knowwhoI am,theys
aidyouhavetheearofGod…Adolf
osaidsot
oo,Imustcommendyouf or
allyouhavebeingdoi
nginpeople’
sli
fe,
everyones
peakgreatl
yofyouAbel
…
“It
hankedt hel ord, himal onedes ervet heglor y, Idot hewor kofmyf atheri nheaven, andIam
mor epr oudofyouTamar ,Iknowever ything,Godr evealsi ttobeevenbef oreithappened, Itold
yout owat chandpr aybec auset rialwasc omingf oryouandI weepaheadoft i
meevenbef or eit
came,Godr eveal edi tall,andhowyou, thephys icianandhi ss onc amet oknowChr ist,God
showedmewhenyouembar kedonaj our neyofc omi ngdownher e, Isawi tli
keadr eamwhen
yous toppedatt hei nnwi thTedr anandpas sedt heni ghtt here, Is
awyouatt hepl ac
eoft he
womanwhohasnohus bandorc hi l
dofherownbutc hildrenc loudar oundher ,andoneoft hem
belongst oZi t
y, andI wasi nsidemyc hamberwhenGodas kmet ogot ot hegat ethatyouar e
here. Welcomehomemyl ady,youf oughthar dandc ameouts tronger …I havebei ngexpec ting
youf orlong, I
’mgl adt os eeyouagai n,yourgr eat err ewar disinheaven, foryouhavef oughta
goodf ightoff aith, youhavef inishedt her aceandkeptt hef aith,therei sas t
oreforyouac rown
ofrighteous ness ,whi cht helor dther i
ght eousj udgewi llawar dt oyouandnotonl ytoyoubut
als
ot oal lwhohavel ongf orhi sappear ing. I
feels opr oudyouandmyj oywass oful
lwhenI
heardyour efuset odenyGodf orthegodsoft hisl andorf oragl amor ousweddi ngwit hVim. You
choseGodoverever ythingandGodwi llneverdi sappoi ntyou, hewi l
lalwaysbet herewhenyou
cal
lonhi m. Forhes ai
dwhos oevers halldenymebef oremen, himwi llI als odenybef oremy
fat
herwhoi sinheaven.

Itwasapleasanteveni
ngwi t
hAbel,andrightther
eI f
eltGod’
spr
esencearoundus,I
tol
dAbel
aboutthemas t
erandmi s
tressacc
eptingChris
tandhes aidhewi
llbapt
isethem,I
askedAbeli
f
hewillevergetmarri
edandhes urpri
sedmewi thhisrepl
y

“yes,andsoon,
Godhass hownmewhot omarry,atfi
rstitwasfunnybutwhoI amI todoubt
God’sjudgement,Iambuil
dingherupandmaki nghers tr
ongerintheLord,herpastmaybe
terri
blebutGodlovesherandGodi sturni
ngheri mperfecti
ontohisgl
ory,Ihavenotrevealmy
i
nt enti
onstoheryetbutwaiti
ngunt i
lGodwil
lgivesmeagoahead, everythi
ngI dodependson
God’sapproval
,IthoughtIwi
llnevergetmarri
edbutGod’ swaysarenotmyway.

Wet alkedaboutotherthi
ngs ,
eventalkedaboutVim,andAbeltoldmeVi mneedstocomet o
Chri
s tandismyjobt omakes urehedoes,butIdon’
treall
yknowhowt omakeVi munder
stand
butIpr ayedf
orGod’sgrace,Itol
dAbelbyt omorr
owI wil
lbevisi
tingthemerchantaft
erIbi
d
Tedrangoodbye,Tedranhast ogosothathec anbemar r
iedtoShamar a.
Wet al
kedintot
hedeep
eveningandlaterZit
ycameoutands atwithuswhileAbelchangedthedisc
us s
ioni
ntoGod’s
wordbef orewebideachot hergoodnight
ButI sti
llI
wonderwhoAbelwast alkingabout,whoi sthepersonGodas khimt omarry,I
have
askedhi mwhot hatmaybeandhes aidattherighttimeI wi
llknowifIhaven’tyet,
coulditbe
Zit
y, Abelwil
lbeZity’
sthirdhus
bandi fhemar riesher,
I t
houghtGodwi llgi
vehimawomant hat
ispure,awomanwhohasnotdef yher s
elfwi
tht hewaysoft helandjustli
keAbelis,butIknow
God’swayar enotourway, andhisplansarehigherthanour s.I
hopeI’mnotget ti
ngaheadof
mys elf
,whatifnotZit
y, butwhot henthatbe…l etGod’
swi l
lbedone.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..

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25/
04,
5:12pm]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR.
*

*Epi
sode29.
*

Af
terbiddi
ngTedrangoodbye,
Iheadtot
hemer
chant
’spl
ace,
onget
tingt
her
ewasl
eadt
o
wherehewas,andheusheredmeint
oaseat

“
Youas
kedt
oseememyl
ady,
howmayI
beofhel
ptoyou…

“mynameisLeahandIamaphys i
cian,
someonedi
rec
tedmet
oyou,
soI
want
edt
oknowi
fIc
an
beofanys
ervic
etoyou,whatofyourwife?

“shedied,
isbei ngovert hreeyear sago…I don’tr
eallyneedaphys ici
anbecauset heycannotc ure
lonel
iness
, thatist heonl ysicknesst hatIams uf
feri
ngandi thurtrighthereinmyhear t ,
lonel
iness
, nowi fe, nochildren…onl ythegodsknowsmyof f
enset ohavepunishedmet heway
theydid,Ididnotmour nmywi fe,Ididnotevens eeherc or
ps,thelion’
sateherup, shedi dnot
evengetadec entbur ial,shebr oughtt hemishapuponher sel
f,shewasgul li
ble,nothi
ngI did
everwasenoughf orher ,shehavenor es
pectforme, anddoesnott akemywor dtohear t,she
goesandc omesanyt i
mes helikes,andI can’
tjustquestionher,Iwant edtoseparatefromher
befor
es hedi ed,butI neverwi shedforhert ogodownt hatway, shesentaninnoc entslavegi r
l
toherearl
ygravej
ustbecauses heisaChri
sti
anandshehatesher,s
het eamedupwithaman
cal
ledMandiohandsendhert odieandtheresheal
sometherowndeat h. AndIwant
edtomarry
aft
erayearbutIhavenotseenanydec entwomanofthisl
andtoendupwi th,I
don’
twantany
womant hatwil
lgi
vemet rouble,Idon’
twantawomanl i
kemyl at
ewi f
e…

“
I’
mdeepl
ysor
ryaboutyourwi
fe.
.

“Don’tbe…noneedt opityme, shedes ervewhat evershegotl ikeIsai

dear li
er,shehad
opport uni
tytobebet ter,Ilovedherbuts hewashar den,shemes saroundwi thot hermenand
rubitonmyf ace,becauseI justc oul
dn’tdoanyt hing,shetoldmes hewant edtol eavemef ora
youngerman, whos hegotent angledwi thands het r
avelstos eehimoften, wellI wasreadyto
acceptwhat evershet hrowsatme…myl adyLeah, theonlyt hi
ngt hathurtmei snothavi nga
chil
d, evenifi
sone, shec onceivedandal waysmi scarr
y,andt heones hecar r
iedtot heprime
ti
meandgavebi r
tht o..
.diedaf terbi
rth, i
sbeingoneunf ortunatehappeni ngort heot her,
I
prayedt odiff
erentgodst obl essuswi thc hi
ldrenbutnot hinghappen…

“thegodsdonotgi vec hi
ldren,mylor d,onl
yJehovah,ourcreatorgrantsdesiresofaman’sheart
andi sal
soreadyt oblessyouwi t
hal ovingfamily,
IamaChr i
sti
an,afearlessone,andGodi s
askingyoutoc omet ohimwi thallyourwor ri
esandempt i
nes sandhewi llf
illyouup,areyou
wi l
li
ngtodropof fthewaysoft hislandandc omet oGod,whoi severreadytowel comeyouwi th
anopenar m, areyouwi l
li
ngt odropyourpai nandburdenathi sfeetandallowhi mtobr i
ngback
laughtertoyourface,pleasemyl ord,tomorrowmaybet oolate,accepthimnowt hatyoustil
l
haves tr
engthandl if
e,accepthimnowbef orethecockcr
owandi stoolatetomakeac hoic
e…

“
I usetobeafrai
dbeforefortheChrist
ians
,thenI hadencounteredwiththi
sslavegirlthatwas
senttotheli
on’sbymyl at
ewi f
e,shespeakss oboldl
yofherfaith,andaf
tersheleftIlooked
f
or wardtohercomingbac kandtell
ingmor eabouthergodbuti twasunfort
unates hedied,and
I
’mgl adyouarehere,I
maynotknowyouandyouhavi ngallt
hiscoverupmakesi tunablefor
met oknowwhatyoul ookl i
kebutpleasetellmewhatt odoandl etmetrythisyourgodands ee
whati tf
eel
sli
ke…

Ismil
edasIquiet
lyuncoveredmyf acetohim,andhequicklyfel
tpityformeons eei
ngthescar,
hedidnotr
ecognizedmej ustasexpect
ed,andIgladl
yrevealmys elft
ohi m,thatIams t
il
lTamar
thesl
avegir
lthatwassentt otheli
on,It
oldhimhowGods avedmeandhes t
oodupf romhis
seati
nfear
,heopenedhiseyesi nshockandhet ooks
omes tepbac k,Ikeptonassuri
nghimt hat
Iwasn’taghos t,itwasal ongbat tl
eforhi mt obeli
eveandwhenhedi dIleadhimt oChr i
st,af
ter
whichI alsotoldhimabouthavi ngtwoc hildr
enheneverknewexi st
ed, t
herevelati
onwast oo
muc hforhi mandhewant edt oseethem, hewass hakingasher odeonhi schariot
,I kepton
encouraginghimands peakingt ohim, andwhenwegott oRhonda, sheranoutons eeingthe
chari
ot,thet winsandl it
tleJonwer eeat ingatoneendoft hehouse,Iint
roducedthemer chant
toRhondaands hegreetedki ndly,
wes atandt al
kedf ors ometi
me, andtheMer chantbegant o
cryasher ealiz
edt hathehasbei ngaf atherformanyyear swi
thoutevenknowi ng,hewepts o
bit
terl
y, andbegant opleadwi thRhondat omovei ntohi sbighouse,wher et
hec hi
ldr enwill
havespac eandwel lprovi
dedf or,IurgedRhondat oagr eeands helaterdid,

Andaf t
erthreedaysRhondaandt hetwinswit
hlittl
eJ onmovedinwi t
hthemer c
hant,the
merc hanttookones ideonthehouseandgaveRhondaandt hekidsthebi
ggerpart,
theywere
wellc aredfor,themerchantwassohappy,hedrewmei ntoalonghugfortr
ulybri
ngingtear
sof
joytohi seyes,hethankedRhondaforherpurekindnes s
.Ias
kedRhondat okeeptal
kingtohim
aboutGods inc
es heiscl
osetohimnowands heagr eed.Hiomeon+233544142683tobeadded
tostor yheadquarter
sroom.

Mynextpl
an,asIhavealr
eadyagr
eedwithRhondaist
oletAdolf
oknowofhi
sson,fi
rstofal
lI
havet
otel
lladyZit
y,shedeser
vetoknowthathers
upposedeadsoni
sal
iveandhealt
hy.

Myheartwass
ogladmoret
hanthemerchantwhosej
oywasful
l,hewass
othankf
ult
oGodand
If
eltl
iket
hehappi
nes
sinmyheartwi
llburs
toutfr
ommyc hest
,

Onget t
inghomeAbelrevealtomewhohewasac tuall
ygetti
ngmar ri
edt
o,anditwasZity,
wow,
thatwaswhatIscreamedashetol dmethat,It
houghtasmuc h,andheal
sosai
dt hathehastol
d
Zit
yaboutitandshehasagreed,
t heyhavemadetheirint
entionsknownt
olordReeseandlady
Phin,
andhasalsotoldVi
mwhos aidtheyshoul
ddowhat evermakesthemhappy,andthe
weddingdayhasbeingpi
cked,

Ever
ythi
ngs
eemt
obehappeni
ngs
ofas
t,andAbelas
kedme

“
Vimi
syours
heept
opas
tur
e,whathaveyoubei
ngdoi
ngt
owar
dst
hat
…

“
Hishearti
sst
il
lhardenandIcan’
tmakehi
mbelieve,
heispr
ovent
oodiff
icul
t,I
havetri
ed
s
everal
lyandyethewon’tobl
ige,
Abel
,Iwi
shyouunders
tandhowdi
ff
icul
tVimc anbe.
.
“Iunder stand, andt hatwaswhyGodgavehi mt oyou, hei syouras s
ignment ,don’ tyoul ovehi m,
andbef oreyoupl ayedwi tht heans wert omyques ti
on, Ial readyknowyoudo, buthol dingbac k
yourf eel i
ngbec aus ehei snotabel iever, youwantt oendupwi ths omebodyl i
keme, Godl y,
loving, selfper sever anc eandonf ir
ef orGod, isn’tit,rememberGodc hos eourbat tle,Godc an
notgi veyouabat tleheknowsyouwi l
lnotwi n, hepi ckedZi tyf orme, Ic ouldhavegowhi ningt o
God, orevengoques t
ioni ngGodandI wills ay,“NoGod, no, Ineeds omebodyl ikeTar mar , a
selfles s,lovingandGodl ywoman, IneedaGodf earingwomanl ikemys el f,nots omebodyl ike
Zitywhohasal readybei ngmar ri
edt otwomenandevens enthernewbor nc hi l
dt obedi s pos ed,
Ineedawomanwi thles ss tain.TamarI cangoc ompl ainingofwhatI don’ thaveandwhatI want
toGod. Butt hef ac ts t
illr emai nsGodi snotaman, hiswaysar ef armor et hanour s ,hegaveme
mys heept opas t ureandt hat ’
sZi tyt obec omemywi f
eandI startedbui ldingherupevenbef ore
Godr eveal edhert ome, Iac cept edwhol ehear tedly, andI feelgr atef ult hatGodf oundme
wor thyenought ogi vemeawoman, tobemywi fe, Zityi snotabadper son, shewasonl ymi sl
ead,
shewasaneas ypr eyf ort hedevi lbutt hati sc hangi ngnowt hats hewi llbemi ne. Devi lmus t
loos ei thol donherbec aus es hebel ongt ot hel ight, shei sapr eciousgi ftinGodss i
ght ,sonowi t
alldependsonyouandwhatyouwantt odowi thVi m, youneedt oloos enupyourt i
ghtgr ipand
bec omehuman, comedownt ohi sl evelandunder st andwhathef eels ,revealwhoyouar e, do
notbeont hi
sKhi marf orl ongbec aus et her e’snomuc ht ime, Godhasbr oughtyoubac k,he
does n’ twantyout ogowear i
ngKhi maral lthet ime, youar eTamar ,youar ever ys pecialint he
eyesoft hemos thi gh, Godgaveyouahi ghbat tlebec aus ehec ount syouwor thy, youar et he
li
ght , don’ tallowanyt hi ngt ohol dyoudownf roms hi ningTamar ,I loveyou, likeabr othert oa
sisterandGods etyouonmywayf ormet ogui deyout hr oughandnott omar ryyouasmuc has
thatwoul dhaves eenr ightandpl eas ingi naman’ sey esbutnotwi t
hGod, goanddowhat ever
youhavet odof orVi m, hei st heonl yonel eftint hishous ehol dt oc omet oChr ist ,ifyouneed
wisdomas kourgener ousGodandhewi llgi veitt oyou, Godwi llnotr ebukeyouf oras king, Vim
willbeonf ir
ef orGodi fhehappenst oac c eptGod, hewi llbeonr ealf ireandt hat ’swhyt hedevi l
hashar denedhi shear tf rombel ievi ngnowi syourj obt or ebuket hedevi lforhi ss akeandt he
enemywi llflewf romhi m, drawhi mt oGodandl ethi mknowt her e’
saGodi nheaven, whor ules
amongmenandhast heuni ver s
ali nt hepal moft hepal mofhi shand.

Itookti
met opraytoGodt ohel
pme,Ivisi
tedAdolf
oandEura,andtheywer es ohappytohave
mear ound,Is
tayedwiththemandIwast r
eatedasifI
amt hequeenoftheland, andwhenI lef
tI
vi
s i
tedthemerchantandRhondaandstayedwi t
hthemandt heMerchanttoldmehewant sto
makeRhondahi swife,I
askedRhondawhats hethi
nks,s
hesaidtheyhavebeingt al
kingabout
Godandpr ayi
ngtogetherandtheMerchantisagoodmanands heisal
sowi l
lingtoac c
eptand
becomehi swif
e,

Iwassohappyf
orbothofthem, Godwhohasorches
trat
edthiswi
llf
oreverbeprai
se.I r
etur
ned
back,i
twasasi
fIwasgoi
ngi ncycle,
Godusi
ngmef orcoupl
estobemar r
iedandyetI don’
thave
amant ocal
lmi
ne,andVim,itwasasi fi
twi
llt
akeabigworktomakehimbel i
eve,Ihavebeing
aski
ngGodtohelpmeforhissake.
Ast hedaybr eak,
I waitedtonoonandwentt oknockonVi m’schamber,heopenedup,Ilook
throughmyKhi mart ohisface,
hestoodf arheadtal
lerthanme, Vimwasahands omemanand
willbemos tlady’
sdr eamman,hel ookslikehewasbus yinhischamber,hehasawr i
ti
ng
featheri
nhi shand, hes t
oodlooki
ngatmedes pit
ehec an’ts
eemet hr
ough,Ibr
eatheddeeply
againathiss i
ght,hes toodtherewi
t houtsayi
ngawor d

“Ki
ndgreeti
ngst
oyoumyl
ord,
pleas
ecani
speakwi
thyou…ohI
gues
syouar
ebus
y…I
canc
ome
backl
ater…

“sure,youc anspeakwithme…doyouc ar
et oc omei n,don’tbescaredIwi l
lleavemyc hamber
open, Idon’tbit
epeople.yes,I
wasbus y,
theac countantsentinfather’
sgood’ sfigurefromt he
por t
,andI didnotwanttot r
oubleAbelsincehei sprepari
ngforhisupcomi ngweddi ngwi thZi
ty,
soI neededt otakemyt i
met odoallt
hef igure, toknowourpr ofi
tandt helos t,beingwor ki
ngon
itfordays,isactual
lyabigwor kandIneededal ltheconcentrat
iontodot hat ,butnot
wi t
hstanding,Icanstopfornowandc ontinuel ater…funnyenoughI havebei ngwant i
ngt osee
yout oo,andI guessyouhavebeingoutforweeksandhavenotbei ngar oundher e,Iburied
mys elfwithwor kandhardlycomesoutofmyc hamberexc eptwhennec essary…pl eas
ec ome
rightinLeah…

Heus heredmei ntohisbigchamber ,andIenter

ed,heleftt
hechamberdooropenl i
kehehas
sai
d, Is
awal lt
hepaperwor k,theinkandotherwrit
ingfeat
heronhi
sr eadi
ngtable,hehaseven
beingwor kingatni ghtbecauseI s
awaLampatoneendoft her
eadi
ngt abl
e.Isatandhedrawa
chairands atinfrontofme, leavi
ngdi s
tancebetweenus,hesmil
ebeforesayi
ng

“
Sowhatdoyouhavef
ormemyl
ady…I
’
mal
lear
s

“
Godandmys
elf
….

Hewass
ilentbef
ores
ayi
ngagai
n

“
Wel
lthen,
youandGod,
ver
yint
eres
ting,
goahead,
theybot
hseemt
obeani
nter
est
ingt
opi
c.
Espec
ial
lyyou,
Iwil
lliketohearmor
eaboutyouandlessaboutGod,
Iammoreinter
estedi
nyou
thanIamwithGod,butjusts
aywhateveryouhavet
osay,Iamheretol
ist
enmylady.

Isi
lentlyprayedthatGodwi l
lhel pmewi t
hVi mdi f
f i
culthear t,
becausej us
ts i
ttingunderhi s
i
nqui s
iti
vegaz eIlostwordt osayorevenhowt os tart,
howwi l
lImakehi mt olisten,espec i
all
y
wheni tcomest oGod, hestaredatmeasI rubmyt wos weat ingpalmt ogether,I knowI lovethis
fi
nemanbutI j
ustwi s
hhec ans t
opbeings ohardenands of
tenupal i
ttl
eforGodt owor k
throughhim, asAbelhass aid,hewi l
lbeonf i
reforGodi fheac ceptChr i
standt hatiswhyt he
devilhashardenhi sheart,
Abels ai
dVimismys heept opas ture,butsitt
ingrighther e,Idon’t
evenknowhowt ostartpasturinghim,thenjustatt hatmomentVi ms aidsomet hingthatI have
tolaughaboutmaki ngtheenvi ronmentlesstenset hani twasbef ore.Ieasedupf r
omhi sjokeas
hekeptl ooki
ngatmewi thas mi leplas
teredonhi sface.

Tobec
ont
inued.
.
..
..
.

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25/
04,
5:36pm]+23354414268~ HENE E :
*TAMAR.
*

*THEFI
NALEPI
SODEOFTAMAR.
*

Thats amedayZi tygott oknowofl i

ttleJonandc ri
edhereyesout ,
Vi ml atersur render edallof
hims elftoGod, itwasagr aduals tepforhim, hewant edtohearhowGoddi ditforme, because
thephys i
cianst oldhi mI wasdead, Iwasc onf ir
meddeadt ohimbyt hephys ici
ansandt heyt ook
met obebur i
ed, hehasques t
ionedandI wasr eadyt oans werhimal lhisques tions ,asweal l
gather edint hemas t
er’
sc hambert hatday, Abelf i
ll
edever yonepres entonhowGodwor ks.Vim
wasi ns hoc kandc ouldn’
ts topl ookingatmeal lthroughoutt hetimewegat her edt her eand
talkaboutGodandhi sgreatwonder st omanki nd,Vimr obhiseyess ever all
yhopi ngt hat
everythingwasadr eambutI wasr i
ghtt heredes pi
tehowmanyt i
meher obhi seyesorhi t
hims elf,hewant edt ocomet or eali
ty,het houghthewasgoi nginsane, hebec ameaf raidofGod,
becaus ehehasnevers eenanyt hinglikethisbef ore, i
twashar dforhi mt obelieveI wast ruly
ali
ve,het houghthewashal l
uc i
natingons eeingas upposedeadper s onaliveagai n,hehaswi s
h
formet obeal iveandhasc arriedmymemor yi nhishear tbutnowt hati tallseemr ealhes ti
ll
can’tsett l
ewi t
hi t
, asAbelt oldever yoneaboutGod.

Thefol
lowi
ngdayAbelbapt
izedTheRees
efami
ly,
Vimincl
usi
vewhowassti
llaf
rai
d,hewass
o
eagert
olearnt
oknowaboutGodandAbelwasmorethanwil
li
ngt
ofi
llhi
mi n,
I
tc onti
nuedthatwayasVi mhumbl edhims elftoAbel ’
steaching,Iwant edtogoandvi sitthe
Adolfo’
s,onmywayoutI heardAbel’
steachingandI havetost opbyt hedoortol i
stenfor
somet i
mebef oreproceeding,hewasnotonl ys peakingtoVimt hi
stime, Zi
tysatbes i
deher
brotherastheyhavef i
nallyreconci
leandt heirparentssatatoneend, VimandZi tywer e
bondedagain, andZit
ywass ohappytofinallyhaveherbr otherbac kafterseveralyearsof
hatredandunf orgi
veness.

“…IamaChr ist
ian,Iamnotper f
ect ,Imakemi s
t akes,I mes sup, donotj udgemewi ththe
mi s
takeofot herswhoc l
aimtobeGod’ sfollower s,bec auseGod’ sgr aceisfartoobiggert hanmy
sin,wefailthousandandonet imesbutGod’ sgr acegotusc overed,wef allshortofhisglor y
unknowi ngbuthei salwaystheref orus,butbec arefulint histhings ,
whenwes eethewr ongs
wear enots upposet odoyetwedoi tandt hens aywi thinust hatGodi samer c i
fulandfor gi
ving
God, hewillunderstand,donottakeGodf orgrant ed, heknowsyourhear tands eeyours ecrets
deeds ,
thoughGodi ski ndandsor eadytof orgiveandwi peof fouriniquit
iesbutwes houldnot
seefireandputi nourhandsorl eads omeonei nt odoi ngs o,bec auseont helastday, whenweal l
fi
nallybreathedourl astandwear epr es
ent edt oGodt obej udged,hewi llopenupourr ecord
book….

Iwalkedpastashekeptons peaki
ng,andeveryoneofthemwhereatt
enti
ve,Vimturnedand
lookedatmebef or
es mil
ingshyl
y,Ir
eturnedthesmil
e,hehasbei
ngsoquietandalsoseemshy
eversinc
ehec amet oknowthatisbemeal lt
hiswhil
e,hewasbecomingali
stenermorethan
thespeakerthatheusetobe.

AsItoldeveryonewher
eI washeaded,andas
kedi
fZi
tyifshecanjoi
nmeands hewasgl
adto
tagalongsi
dewi thme,s
owevi s
itedAdolf
oonafi
nechari
otthatwasas
signedtomebyVim,
whichwillt
akemet oanywhereIdeci
destogo.

Euraquiet
lyinf
ormedmet hatshewasfiveweekspregnant,IwassohappyforherandAdol f
o,I
askedZi
tytotel
lAdolf
oaboutlit
tleJ
onands hedi
d,attheend,Adolf
owassohappy, Euraalso,
asweallvi
sit
edtheMer c
hantandhisnewl ovingwif
eRhondaandal sot
hetwins,andt heywere
happytohaveusandRhondahandedl i
ttl
eJ ontoAdolf
o,itwasn’
tsosmoothparti
ngwi thli
ttl
e
JonbutAdolf
osaidshecanalwaysvi
sitandhewi l
lsometimesbri
ngshimalongands heagrees.

Aft
erfewweeksAbelgotmar r
iedtoZit
yinaqui etl
ovingwedding,asVi
mandI wer
enomor ein
ahast
eforours,
Vi mwasnotsocarri
edawayanymor ewi t
hfantasyofhavi
ngme,heknowshe
gotmealreadyl
ikeiass
uredhim,butfi
rstheneededtof i
ndhisfooti
ngwit
hGod,hewasfull
y
sol
doutforGod,itwas
n’tpr
eteens,
itwasar eal
nessthatcomesf r
omdeepwithi
n,Il
ovehim
mor
easI
wat
chhi
mgr
ows
pir
itual
ly.

Hes aidonedayatoneofourgat heringt hathewant edtobuildahous ef orGod, t

oever yone’s
amaz ement ,
wewer eallhappywi tht henews ,s i
nc eithasbei ngdec l
aredal lovert heki ngdom
thatanybodyc anwor shipwhat evergodt hatt heyf indpl easi
ngt othem, botht heChr i
stiansand
paganwor shiper,whateveryoudes i
re, youar ef reet oser vei
ns amemanner ,everylawagai nst
theChr i
sti
anshasbei ngliftedoff,wedon’ tneedt ohi deanymor e.Vims aidhewi l
lliket obuilda
housewher ealltheChr is
tianswi l
lgat hert oget herwi thoutfearandwor ship,Iwass ohappy
withthenewdevel opment ,sowepr oc eedwi t
ht hepl anofbui l
dingthehous eforGod, anditwas
ahugepr oject,i
twast hefirstbuil
dingbef oret heot herhous esintheRees eEs tate.Aneas y
assesforeveryonec omingf romdi f
ferentdi s
trict,andwebot hagr eedtowai tuntilthec hur
c h
buil
dingwasdonebef orewegetmar ried.

Euragavebirthtoagirlandtheynamedheraf t
erme, Tamar,i
twasagr eatbl es
s i
ngforme,and
Zit
yc onc
eivedforAbelandjustwhenI wasgetti
ngthenewsf orShamara,whogavebi rtht
oa
sonforTedran,Zit
ybroughtfortabeauti
fulbabygir
lwhot heynameLeah, everythi
ngwas
goingsowell,andLordReeseinvi
tedtheCozamf amil
ydownt othebi gestate,t
heyoc cupi
ed
onethehous esint
hees tat
e,Tedr
anandShamar awitht hei
rbeauti
fulbaby.

Aft
erthechurchwasc ompletedwhichtookalmostayear,
ourweddingplanpr
oceed,
Abelwas
goi
ngtobet hefi
rstpastori
nt hechur
ch,anditwasoff
ici
all
yopenedwithmeandVim’sweddi
ng,
AbelwedusintheLor d,
webec amehusbandandwife.

Vi
mcoul
dn’
thi
dehi
sjoy,
atl
astwear
ehus
bandandwi
fe,
aft
eral
ongbat
tle.

Lor
dReesedi
edandi
twasmoreofc
elebr
ati
onofl
if
ethanmourni
ng,evenl
adyPhi
nfol
lowedi
n
cel
ebr
ati
ngthef
actt
hehus
bandcametoknowGodbefor
edepart
ing,

Vimbec ameanas sist

antpastoralongs i
deAbel,peopl ebegantotripinfromdi fferentplaces ,
it
wast hefirstchurcheverbuilti
ntheki ngdom,andpeopl efromdi f
ferentdistri
ctc amei nandwe
welc omedt hemi nlove,t
hemer chantandhi sf
ami ly,Adolf
oandhi sfamily,TheCoz amfami ly,
andwet heRees ewer ealwayspresent,worshi
pingGodwhol eheartedl
yast hous andsofot hers
joi
nedourgat heri
ngandi tbecameabi gfell
owshi pandast heyeargoes ,
c hurchwer eplantedin
alldist
rictofthekingdom, wherebelieverswhoc an’tcomedownt oRees ees tatebec auseof
distanceareabl etoworshipwithi
n.

I
nt hesecondyearofourmar r
iagewewelc
omedourt wi
ns,Goddi
dnotjustbl
essuswit
hone
buttwoats amet i
me, i
twastoomuchofamirac
le,Godbl
essuswithtwins
,aboyandagir
l,i
t
wasreall
ygl or
ious,asIhel
dmyownf l
eshandbloodinmyarm,Ic
riedoutwit
hJoy,t
earsr
un
downmycheekasIstar
edownatmyl itt
leone,Goddi
dnotjus
tgiveusonebutt
woatthes
ame
ti
me,myheartwant
edt oburs
toutwithjoy,
Vimwashappyandalsoever
yonear
ound,
asweal
l
cel
ebr
atet
het wi
nsarri
val,
anaddit
iontothefamil
y,i
twaswonderf
ul.

Eachfamilykeepi
ncreasi
nginnumberandmorepeopl
ec amet
oknowGod,theChur
chbecame
overthousandaspeoplekeepcomingt
oChr
istandembraci
ngthei
rnewf
oundfai
th,l
eavi
ng
darknessandcomingtotheli
ght.

TodayasIs ati
nthepewwi t
hmyc hil
drenbothonmys i
de,asmyper sonalmaidshelpsmewi t
h
them,ili
stentoVimtalkaboutGodtothepeopleseated,wesangwor shipandprais
et oget
her,
andourvoic ewents
ohi ght
oheaven,Ifel
tateardrop,Vimwasr eal
lyonf i
reforGodandGod
wasusinghi minagreatway,Il
ookedathimands hutmyeyef orsometime,allIwantedtotel
l
Godis“Thankyou”,

Iknowfat
herandmot her
,wit
hJoemybr ot
her,
Kat
handDebmytwosis
t er
s,ChakanandLor
d
Reeseandal
sootherbeli
ever
swhohadpas s
edawayont
oglor
yar
eallresti
nginheaven,
somedaywewillal
ljoi
nthembutfornowwehavetopast
uret
hef
loc
ksandl eadasmany
peopl
easpossi
bletoChri
st.

Itouchedmyf aceandr obbedmys car

,themar koftheli
onwass t
il
lther
e,whic
hisaclear
evidencethatGodneverf orsakehisown, whenIleftmydesert
edhomet ownatatenderage,
andbeings oldof
ftodifferentslavedealers,I
neverknewthatIwasami r
acl
egoingsomewhere
tohappen, Iwasangrywi t
hGodf orst
rippingmeoff,andwhenIthoughtIwasgoi
ngtoloosemy
fai
thafterbeingthroughs omuc h,Godus edAbeltoreki
ndl
edme.

I knowf oreveral lgl

or yandhonorwi llbegiventoGod, whohads t
artedthi
sracewi t
hme, itwas
notaneas yrac e,averylongandt oughj ourney,i
twasnoteas yatal
landyethekeptmeand
leadmet illt
hisday, heblessedmewi thaGodf eari
nghus bandandbeaut if
ulchil
dren,whenever
ilookar oundal lIseeishisblessi
ngs ,andI'mmos tgratefultothemanwhohel pedmeand
suppor tedmet hroughpr ayerandc ounsell
ing,hehearsfromGodands peakonlywhenhei s
as kedtos peak, hewasr eadytoremai ns i
ngleunti
lGodc allshimhome, butGodgotanot her
planf orhimandhebl essedhimwi thaf amilyofhi
sown, AbelwhoGods etonmypar tt
ohel p
met hroughI thankGodever ydayforhim.

I
twasnoteas
yyetGodmadeeveryt
hingbeaut
if
uli
nhi
sownt
ime.
Iremai
nhumbl
eandgr
atef
ul
t
ohimforusi
ngmetobri
ngjoytomany.
Asformeandmyhouse,wewi
lls
ervet
het
ruel
ivi
ngGodt
il
let
erni
ty.
Hal
lel
ujaht
ohi
mal
one
for
everandever
,Amen.

*THEEND.
*