I smell you ..

smell you touch every ounce of my skin

My cheeks
My neck
My hair
Shallow n deep
I smell you
On my clothes
On the one you hugged me on ..
the one you took your hands in ..
N kissed my bones ..

I miss you
N i miss you whispering my name ..
In my ears
Miss you whispering sorry to hurt ..
Even when it’s hard for you to say it ..
i miss you taking my hairs back my ears ..
Kissing my head ..
Holding my hand ..
pinching my waist ..
n grabbing me closer to you ..
i miss you hugging me ..

I cant forget .. you ..

your eyes ..
numb with tears ..
tearing up when i said I’ll leave ..
when i said I’ll date someone else if he won’t choose me ..
still i fear of not getting chosen ..
as if those tears felling knew their existence is the truth of me not being chosen ..

N i keep smelling you on my unwashed hairs .. coz I miss you so much ..

I dont wanna forget certain moments ..

the moment you teasing me blew to my neck , hair n ears ..
naming me cute nickname ..
drunk texting me miss you so much ..
Saying to me youre so habitual of me ..
Of u sending picture of my name written on dust panel n saying hey busy girl ..
N I don’t wanna forgive you ..
forgive you the way you love me ..
treat me on the top of world ..
Making every single thing at home remind me of you .. n you ..n you ..
such that the whole house seems consuming me ..
Treating me as priority..
To not asking even if I’m okay for the day ..
N then suddenly out of all ..
You should’ve never talked to me at first ..

N i want to thank you ..

thanking you to make me feel I’m something..
To make me feel the beauty of love ..
to make me believe that love is real ..
to make me feel I’m liable to be loved ..
to make me feel I’m missed ..
missed by you ..