I am trying to understand him, but I just couldn’t understand.

There’s a man whom I met during MYSA Conference last July. He was my first dance and I didn’t expect
that na mafafall ako sakanya, because that time iba yung crush ko. After the said event, He chatted me
saying he remembered me as one of those women na naisayaw niya. I was surprised kasi he was my first
dance, and I won’t deny the fact that he’s kind of cute din naman. I still remember that day kasi ayaw
niya muna ko patulogin kasi gusto niya daw ako kausap. As we continue chatting, at first he was hesitant
if I was his first dance, but as he tries to remember it, he remembered me as his first dance as well.

As times passes by, we became close friends, he also confess that he likes me, and I started to like him
also so I accepted him. We became MU.

He bombarded me with sweet messages, chatting me this and that things, he even sang a song just for
me, I also felt special when he says that he stopped playing guitar but if it's for me, he will gladly play me
a guitar. I fell hard. I knew I am getting attached with him. I also sang him a song, for he requested it. He
said I have an angelic voice but I think his voice is beyond that, we both know that he can’t sing well but
his voice is so comforting in a way that I am craving to hear his voice whenever I am not okay. I prayed
for him. I prayed that he won’t change.

He changed. He says that he only see me as a friend, that his love for me is only for a friend.

I just don’t understand it at all, why?

Why do people act like they actually love you, when they’re not. Why would you come into someone’s
life if you aren’t sure? I am not angry at all, perhaps, I was disappointed and broke as well.

I accepted his apology. At first, I told him to stay but he says that he didn’t want to fool himself and fake
his feelings towards me. Am I a joke? I cried a lot. But then, I let him go. I respected his decisions.

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