Ace² poems

Random @9:32

Created Date: 2023-07-30T13:34:11.817241+00:00

Language: en

I think this is how it goes for me.

I don't know if it is contentment or agony when the only thing to do is to watch the one you love vividly from a distance.

When my friends ask me where to go

Created Date: 2023-07-25T12:08:45.536606+00:00

Language: en

In the middle of nowhere

Where I couldn't find any traces of you.

Their voices are whispering.

For whatever it takes, the ghost of you still lingers.

Flashbacks might be back again.

In every hold of my friend's hands,

I saw you there, intertwining mines.

How far can I go this time?

At this point, I couldn't catch my breath.

Neither one of us can.

Cry for Me

Created Date: 2023-07-24T15:02:12.034995+00:00

Language: en

Last week, I wanted to shout,

All the outbursts that I had in my lungs

Last Friday, I wanted to scream,

The hurtful words that are being knocked down in my head

It wasn't easy, you see.

Smiling and giggling in the middle of your chaos.

To be fine and not care that the storms have been with you since you carried it well

It is such a pain to hold it tightly while embracing the agony that is eating you day by day.

Every second counts and pounds you hard.

Standing and sitting still.

Last night, a tear came out of nowhere.

It's heavy, I know.

At the last minute, I thought of ending it.

On busy streets, raindrops fall.

Three times I told myself in the back of my mind:

 I know

I know

I know

At last

...

But I didn't.

In my Sleep

Created Date: 2023-07-24T14:37:38.263356+00:00

Language: en

I had a dream about you saying things about why we can't be together...Even in my dreams, you still manage to never accept the love I could and could only
offer.

Dream

Created Date: 2023-07-24T14:25:50.175114+00:00

Language: en

A name of a person.

Who gave me enough courage?

Brought happiness and contentment into my life.

A glimpse of hope that opened my heart once again.

The second time around, when my heart thought it couldn't beat.

I was at peace; it was gentle.

For a while, I wasn't hesitant to give it my all.

To pour and to fill the gap of someone else's lack.

Until...

The turn of events

The gap wasn't mine to fill.

My heart dropped, and it was put back into my hands afterwards.

It wasn't gentle.

It was pushed uncontrollably, without even a doubt.

I wasn't worthy for her to hold me, as I told myself.

Not even a single word for my pain.

12 am: From afar @3am

Created Date: 2023-07-24T13:45:43.511612+00:00

Language: en

As I step outside that door, With a heavy heart, I watch you from afar. It wrenched my heart. To look at you and not be able to do what I used to do. To hug you,
and I never did. For the last glimpse I had, As I walk away without leaving you a single word. A heavy sigh is all I could have had, and there is nothing I can do
further about it.