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by Jane Gardam
I went back along the road the very next day and at first I could
find no sign of the house at all. Or at any rate I could not decide
which one it was. The fell that had looked so bare at night, by
daylight could be seen to be dotted with crumpled, squat little
stone farms, their backs turned to the view, two trees to each to
form a wind-break, grey with white stone slabs to the window
and only a tall spire of smoke to show they were occupied. It
was not the townsfolk-country-cottage belt41 so that there was
not much white paint about, lined curtains, urns on yard walls
- and any one of several little isolated farms could have been
the eerie one. In the end I turned back and found the bridge
where I’d stopped. I got out of the car again as I had before, and
walked back a mile or two until I came to a lane going alongside
a garden end. All I could see from the road was the garden end
- a stone wall and a gate quite high up above me and behind
that a huge slab-stoned roof so low that the farmhouse must
have been built deep down in a dip.
Now nobody stood at the gate - more of a look-out post,
a signalling post above the road. There were tangled flowers
behind it. There was no excuse for me to go up the lane that
must have led to the house and it was not inviting. I thought
of pretending to have lost my way or asking for a drink of water
but these things yotfgrow out of doing. I might perhaps just ask
if there were eggs for sale. This was quite usual. Yet I hung back
because the lane was dark and overgrown. I sat down instead on
a rickety milk platform meant for chums but all stuck through
with nettles and which hardly took my weight. It must have
been years since any chum was near it. I sat there in the still
afternoon and nobody passed.
Then I felt I was being watched. There was no sound of
snapping twig, no breathing and no branch stirred but I looked
quickly up and into a big bewildered face, mouth a little open,
large bright mooning eyes. The hair was waved deeply like an
41 the area where people from the towns buy country cottages to spend their holidays
and weekends in
It was no story.
Or rather it is the most detestable, inadmissible story. For I
don’t yet know half the facts and I don’t feel I want to invent
any. It would be a story so easy to improve upon. There are half a
dozen theories about poor Rose’s hanging and half a dozen about
the reason for her growing isolation and idleness and seclusion.
There is only one view about her character though, and that
is odd because the whole community in the fells and Dales
survives on firmly-grounded assessment of motives and results;
the gradations and developments of character are vital to life
and give validity to passing years. Reputations change and rise
and fall. But Rose - Rose had always been very well-liked and
had very much liked living here. Gertie and Millicent said she
had fitted in round here as if she were country bom. She had
been one of the few southerners they said who had seemed to
belong. She had loved the house - a queer51 place. It had been
the heart of a Quaker52settlement. Panes of glass so thick you
could hardly see out. She had grown more and more attached to
it. She didn’t seem able to leave it in the end.
“The marriage broke up after the War,” said the doctor. We
were sitting back after dinner in the housekeeper’s room among
the Thomas Lawrences. ‘He was always on the move. Rose had
no quarrel with him you know. She just grew - well, very taken
50 dialect: potatoes
51 old-fashioned: strange
52 a religious movement based on quiet reflection and personal beliefs