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Boy From Hell
Boy From Hell
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I always say that I grew up in the wrong place, but with the right people.
When I was 8 years old, I was playing in the square when the rst angel
crossed my path. This older guy was watching me doing my tricks against
the gangsters like a crazy bastard. He turned to the other people
watching.
“Who is the little kid??” “The kid? Antony.”
It was the director of Grêmio Barueri. He gave me my rst chance to
leave the slum and play for their futsal team. So then I started dreaming. I
remember one day I was walking with my mom when I saw this cool red
car driving through our neighborhood. It was a Range Rover. But to me, it
was like seeing a Ferrari. Everyone was looking at it. It was the shit, man.
I turned to my mom and I said, “One day, when I’m a footballer, I’m going
to buy that car.”
She laughed, of course.
I was dead serious.
I said, “Don’t worry, after a while, I’ll let you drive it.”
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Back then, I used to literally sleep in the bed between my
parents. We didn’t have money for a bed just for me. Every
night, I would turn to one side, and there was my dad. Turn to
the other side, there was my mom. We were so close, and
that’s what helped us survive. Then something happened that
changed my life.
When I was 11, my parents separated. It was the most di cult
moment of my life, because at least before, we all had each
other. Now, I would turn to my mom’s side of the bed in the
middle of the night and she was gone. That was devastating,
but it also gave me a lot of motivation. I used to close my eyes
and think, “I am going to get us out of this.”
My father used to leave the house for work at 5 in the morning.
He would return at 8 at night. I used to tell him, “Now, you are
running for me. But soon, I will be running for you.”
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If you talk to the media, they always ask you about your
dreams. The Champions League? The World Cup? The Ballon
d’Or?
Those are not dreams. Those are goals. My only dream was to
take my parents out of the favela. There was no Plan B. I was
going to make it or die trying.
At 14, I got my chance at São Paulo FC. Every day after school,
I would travel to the academy on an empty stomach.
Sometimes, if it was a good day, my teammates and I would
pool our money together to buy a cookie for the bus ride back
home. I did not have to pretend to be hungry for motivation.
The hunger was real.
Inside of me, there was an intensity — maybe you could say an anger. I
had some problems with my emotions. Three di erent times, I was
nearly dismissed from the club. I was on the list to be released. And
three di erent times, someone at the club stuck up for me. They
begged to keep me on. It was God’s plan.
I was so skinny, but I always played with “blood in my eyes.” This is the
kind of intensity that comes from the streets. You cannot fake it. People
think I am lying when I tell them this, but even after I made my
professional debut for São Paulo, I was still living in the favela. No, no —
this is the truth — at 18, I was still sleeping in the bed with my dad. It
was either that or the couch! We had no other choice. Man, even in
2019 when I scored the goal against Corinthians in the Paulista Final, I
was right back in the neighborhood that night. People were pointing at
me on the street.
“I just saw you on TV. What are you doing here???” “Brother, I live here.”
Everyone laughed. They did not believe it.
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One year later, I was at Ajax, playing in the Champions League.
That’s how fast things changed. I not only had my own bed, but
the red Range Rover was in my mother’s driveway. I told her,
“You see? I told you that I would conquer. And I conquered.”
When I told her that when I was 10, she laughed. Now, when I
remind her, she cries.
I went from the slums to Ajax to Manchester United in three
years. People always ask me how I was able to “turn the key” so
quickly. Honestly, it is because I feel no pressure on a football
pitch. No fear. Fear? What is fear? When you grow up having to
jump over dead bodies just to make it to school, you cannot be
scared of anything in football. The things that I have seen, most
football pundits can only imagine. There are things you cannot
unsee.
In life, we su er enough. We worry enough. We cry enough.
But in football? With a ball at your feet, you should only feel
joy. I was born a dribbler. It is part of my roots. It is the gift that
took me from the slums to the Theatre of Dreams. I will never
change the way I play, because it is not a style, it is me. It is a
part of me. A part of us as Brazilians. If you just watch one 10
second clip of me, then you will not understand. Nothing I do is
a joke. Everything has a purpose. To go forward with boldness,
to strike fear into the opponent, to create space, to make a
di erence for my team.
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In Europe, where there is bread on the table every night, sometimes
people forget that football is a game. A beautiful game, but still a
game. It is life that is serious, at least for those of us born in the little
hells of the world.
I always say that wherever I go in life, no matter what happens to me,
I represent the place that taught me everything. Without my home
and my people, none of this matters. On my boots, before every
match, I write myself a little reminder.
“FAVELA.”
When I tie my laces, I remember. I remember everything.
This is my story. If you still don’t understand me, or if you still think
that I am a clown, then I will just point to the ink on my arm....
Whoever comes from the favela knows a little bit of what I’ve been
through.
Those words speak for me. And for us all.