I feel immature laughing at your worst jokes but I feel too young to cry over all my now missing

dreams. Because everyone thinks love is for attention but I would hurt for you in secret. I would give
you my sunshine,my future, my best but the rain will always come if you’re staying with me. You left
me but I will always be here. And I’m talking shit with my friends, I feel like I‘m hiding my love and
I’m crying all over my pillow every single night of this warm July. School is coming to an end but I’m
slowly drifting away with your warm smile every single afternoon on the bus because I know I won’t
see you on the worst days when the coldest snow will fall on me. I promise that I will grow you the
best flowers out of your rain, I promise I will be the best ring for your sparkly essence, I promise I will
become fire to keep your little heart blistering even when I‘m burning at my very worst. But the war
will always be around the corner because it’s in me, so, will it be enough if I could never give you
peace?