Fire We Make

by AlexxonFire

Anastasia is writing a series of interviews with most successful people from Seattle.
This is a fanfic with feisty Ana. There will be a chemistry between CG and AS but for
our lovely couple being together will not be so easy. HEA in the end.
Rated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Drama - Anastasia S., Christian G., Kate K. -
Chapters: 23 - Words: 48,353 - Reviews: 180 - Favs: 97 - Follows: 197 - Updated:
1/19/2014 - Published: 4/24/2013 - id: 9231694
URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9231694
Table of Contents

Table of Contents

1. Chapter 1

2. Chapter 2

3. Chapter 3

4. Chapter 4

5. Chapter 5

6. Chapter 6

7. Chapter 7

8. Chapter 8

9. Chapter 9

10. Chapter 10

11. Chapter 11

12. Chapter 12

13. Chapter 13

14. Chapter 14

15. Chapter 15

16. Chapter 16

17. Chapter 17

18. Chapter 18

19. Chapter 19

20. Chapter 20

21. Chapter 21
22. Chapter 22

23. Chapter 23
 Chapter 1
I am not a native speaker. So be prepared for some mistakes in this story,
especially with grammar ( sorry!). But I really hope you will understand what
I'm writing here ;) If not, I will just delete the story.

Anastasia is the one who did the interview, because she wants in future write a
book, not only work in publishing house. And she is not working at Claytons,
but is a Zumba instructor – it's more sexy ;)

Firstly, it will follow a little FSOG storyline but later, well you will see ;)

I do not own FSOG Trilogy, just have fun with characters.

Jeez, I run again through my questions. I am prepared. I am prepared. I can't fucked

this up.

I'm in Christian Grey office, waiting for him. He is late 20 minutes. That's pissed me
off.

"Ms Steele, Mr Grey is ready to see you". – blondie says to me.

Uhm, thank you.

As I enter the room, too much nervous I forget about my highheels and just fell on
the floor.

His strong arms helped me to stand up.

-Uhm, I m sorry, Sir.. These stilletos are just too high. – I smile feeling stupid about
my clumsy entrance.

-Well, I think they are fine on you. – oh gosh, he is checking me out!

Wow, he is fucking handsome. More than he was on pictures. I have to stop staring
at him and get more professional.

- Mr Grey, thank you for meeting me. You won't regret these publication. My aim is
with this interview to give some inspiration for young people who want to success in
business. That's why I want to ask some question about your opinion on "how to get
succeed" and things which inspire you.

He is talking about his business, wow that's very impressive. But he sounds like a
total control freak.

- Mr Grey, you talk very much about how to control people. Don't you trust people
with whom you work with?

- Well, people work for me, and it is business, so there is no place for trust.

Jeez, is he right? I shoudn't stare at him when he is talking. I can't focus. Does he
have a girlfriend? I didn't see him with anyone on the pictures. Maybe he is gay.
Fuck, now I am attracted to gay.

Maybe I can ask him.

- Are you gay Mr Grey?

- No Anastasia, I am not.

- Uhm, so maybe you can tell me more about your family.

- I am very private person so the answer is no.

Ok. He is not giving me anything that other journalists wrote about him. And I think
he is furious after gay question. So I am back with business stuff. After many
questions about his Company I think it is better time to go with more personal
questions. He has a chance to show more heart now.

- Mr Grey, can you tell me about books that inspired you.

And he is telling about Brian Tracy and all these motivational books.

- No sir, I am asking about book that are not related with business. I am asking about
books you are reading for fun.

- Why are you asking about this?

- Because Mr Grey, you sound too much stiff. And young people need to like you to
get inspired by you.

- I don't need them to like me. – Shit, now he is angry again.

- But they need to like you, get inspiration from people like you to do something with
their life. You are a young millionaire, a good example, you do a lot of charity work,
but nobody knows you. If you want people to follow you in charity thing, you have to
show them more of you. A leader is one who knows the way, goes the way, and
shows the way.

- Are you studying psychology Ms Steele?

- No sir, I'm studying English literature.

- So you know what people wants just from the books?

- No sir, I know this from life – I snaped. Ok, so what's your last book you have read?

And there is silence, and more silence. Fuck, I think that this interview is over. I bite
my lip no to show my sadness.

- Well, actually is Band of Brothers for second, maybe third time. – he is saying
eventually.

- Are you kidding? That's my favourite book! I read it like hundred times.

I' ve got him. Now he is talking! I ask him more about favourite characters, why he
likes them, and then switch to music stuff, his family. Now he is open. I 've just
needed to find a topic he is passion about. Wow, when he laughs he looks so relax.
He looks so young when he is talking about Mariners. Is he 27, serious? Boys and
his favorite teams.

The Blond nr 1 open the door :

- Mr Grey, you have another appointment in 10 minutes.

- Really, I thought it was supposed to start about 2 pm.

- Yes, and it is 1.50 pm. – and she walks out.

O jeez, I m here for 3 hours. I didn't realize it is so late.

- Well, I have a lot of material now, so I'm ready to go sir. Thank you for the interview.

- Are you sure you have everything? I can show you the building.

- No thank you, I' ve already did the tour before our meeting.

- I see.

He is following me to the lift.

- Just making sure you will make it through the door.

- Jeez, thanks – I roll my eyes and step in the elevator.

- Goodbye Anastasia.

- Goodbye Christian.

After the door are closed, I sit on the floor and breath harshly. OMG, what was that?
He is one and only sex on legs.

When I am back home, I' m talking to Kate about him and how the interview went.

- Steele, you blushing when you talk about him!

- Fuck, I hope I didn't during the interview!

-I bet you did ! – she is laughing at me.

- I won't see him again so it doesn't matter. I will be more professional on my next
interview. But Kate he was firstly a very demanding CEO, but more and more we
talked he just relax and talk with me like I was his friend. I think I'm kind of genius
because I have very personal answers from him.

- So some wine to celebrate?

- Maybe later, I have to write an article first. – I can't tell her how much I want to hear
his voice again.

After hearing the recording for the second time, I go to sleep. I am impressed by this
man. He could be a president with such thinking. Maybe he will. Maybe I've just
interviewed the next president of USA. WOW, It will look good on my resume !

Next day, after Zumba classes, I am waiting for Kate to pick me up. Of course she is
late like for hundred time. And then I see him approaching the gym. Am I dreaming?
 Chapter 2
-Well, hello Ms Steele – he smiled at me.

-Mr Grey, what are you doing here?

-As you can see, I am going to the gym – he is showing me his sport bag.

-Uhm, yes of course. It's just very late. – fuck, it's almost 10 pm.

-Well, work don't allow me to come earlier.

-I thought you were your boss. – I smirked.

-Well point, well made Miss Stelle. But let me ask you what you are doing here?

-I am an Zumba instructor in here. Just finished classes for today and I am waiting
for my friend to pick me up. But she's late. I didn't see you here before.

-Because I don't do Zumba, Anastasia.

-You should try, sir. It's music and dance. And I think you will like that.

-Do you, Anastasia? Are you offering me some private lesson?

-Uhm. I blush. -You can just join the regular classes. I have a lot of man who are
learning Zumba.

He is just staring at me. Saying nothing. Where the fuck is Kate?

-How is your article going?

-Uhm, actually very good. I have a lot of material. I will have it published next week, I
will send a copy to your PR department. I' ve changed a little the idea of this article,
and just wonder, I actually was about to call your PR to ask for… - just ask him, he
will say yes, no stupid he doesn't have time for some student paper's journalist.

-Yes, Miss Steele?

-I would like to have some original photo of you for this article. Do you have time for
some short photo shoot?

-Well, I don't know. Give me your phone – I will give you my number, I don't have a
card with me.
I gave him my phone and he type his phone number in it.

-Steele ! – oh Kate is finally here.

-Well, I will call you tomorrow. About 10 am is ok?

-That's fine Miss Steele.

-Goodbye Mr Grey – my friend is here.

-Goodbye.

He agreed. Just now I need to have him agreed for my idea of the photo shoot.

-Where do you want to do the photo shoot Ms Steele?

-Well, I was thinking about some place you like, which has nothing to do with your
business. A place which is more about you as a person, which show that you are a
young guy with lot of hobby, and just happened to be a millionaire.

And he laughed. Fuck, he didn't like this? And I don't want another photo shoot in
boring office, it's for student paper not New York Times.

-Miss Steele, I think I have such a place. I will send a car to your place tomorrow.
About what time?

-I have all my day free tomorrow so whenever it's suits you, sir. I can come by my
car.

-My driver will pick you up at 10 am. You don't know where the place is.

-You can just tell me the address.

-If I tell you, there will be no surprise.

-Mr Grey, I like surprises very much, so I think I will see you tomorrow.

-Looking forward Ms Steele.

Did I just flirt with him? Did he get that? What the hell am I thinking. He is Christian
Grey, not some random guy you can flirt with.

Next day, I am ready to face again Christian Grey. Just need to be more
professional. He sent a fucking limo for me! Does he want to impress me? Why the
fuck he would want that? He is not attracted to you Steele, you are to him! He is just
rich and rich guys have limos stupid.

-MS Steele, Mr Grey is waiting for you – his driver says to me. I bet he is an ex-army.

What is this place? Is this his apartment? Oh Gosh.

-Welcome to my home Miss Steele.

-Mr Grey, are you sure you want to do the photo in here? I know you are a private
person.

-You convinced me Anastasia with all this stuff that people should see ma as a friend
not as a some boring CEO. Come, I will show you the room where we do the
session.

-But could you changed first. Don't get me wrong you look very good in this suit, but
can you wear more casual?

-Casual? – he asking me as if I have two heads.

-Yes, clothes which you wear when you are not working.

-Ok, please wait a minute Miss Steele.

-Yes, sir. – he gave me that look again. What is on his mind?

-Gail give something to drink for Miss Steele.

-A white wine will be good. Thank you. – it is just for some courage, he doesn't know
that I am not 21. I will be just fine.

And then he is back with bare chest, with two t-shirts in hands, black and white. And
I am just standing and looking on his chest. He's been working out for sure. Not only
beautiful face but also beautiful body. Why is so hot in here?

-Which one is better for the photo?

-I think white one will be great – I've stopped staring and give him a fast answer.

-As you wish Miss Steele.

And he grabs my hand and showing me the way to the finest place I' ve ever been.
-Holy fuck ! I am in heaven.

Enormous library, books are everywhere, to glass roof. There is a big couch and
table near the window, with a view for Seattle. It would be amazing to read book in
here and just watch the city.

-Anastasia, I didn't know you have such a dirty mouth. It doesn't suits you. He
smirked at me.

-Mr Grey, you don't know me. And It suits me very much. I have very dirty thoughts
and I need dirty words to express them.

Ah, what the hell. Just a little flirt. I will be professional later. I smile at him with my
most seductive gaze and check on books he has. Wow. He is a reader for sure. Now
I think he lied to me during the interview.

-Now Mr Grey you can tell me about your favourite books. I won't write about them in
the article.

-I've told you already Anastasia.

-No you did not. You just tell me about books you think will look good in the papers.
But what can I see in here, you are a big fan of Harry Potter. – he has all copies
signed by JK Rowling

-Yes, I am. – is he embarrassed?

-Do you believe in magic?

-No Anastasia, but I believe that you can find a magic while reading a book.

-Uhm, you can call me Ana.

-I prefer Anastasia.

-And I prefer Ana.

-Do you now?

O jeez, my heart just melt. I am asking him about favourite parts, and I laughed
when he is talking about waiting for another parts of the book, about posters and
films. Harry Potter and CEO. Who would think?

Ok, but I have to end this little chat to get my pictures. He is sitting on his big couch.
But look very serious. He is back with CEO look. I have to make him more relax.

-Mr Grey, smile!

His smile doesn't catch the eyes.

-Mr Grey, but not smile like you just fired many people today, because that just scary.
Be more you know "Yes, Mariners won today with that fucking team from whatever
city "

And I have him laughing. I am taking pictures but I can see that he is shining too
much.

-Sir, I need to put some make up on you. You are shining in the picture.

-I think I am not comfortable with the make up. – he looks on me disapprovingly.

-Don't worry, I won't put too much on you. Readers need to see your cute face. –
have I said it out loud? What's wrong with me?

But he is not responding to my stupid mark, just smiled. I put a make up on him, we
sit very close to each other. I can hear his harsh breathing, and he is just watching
my eyes. I have to lighten the atmosphere…

-Ok, close your eyes, I have to put some mascara on you.

-Wait, what?

-Mascara on your lashes, sir – to open your eyes more. I will rinse it up later.

-If you say so.

I can't believe he agreed. I can't do this. I start to laugh. He look at me not knowing it
was a joke. Oh gosh, am I in trouble.

-Making fun of me, huh? It is not very professional Miss Steele. – he is angry, no he
is Hulk-furious.

-I'm sorry sir. I didn't uhm, sir I am really sorry it was just… I crossed the line. But I
just feel so right with him around.

-Gotcha !

-What? – he is making fun of me now. I rolled my eyes smiling at him.

-Anastasia, if you do that again I will put you on my knee and spank that beautiful
ass of your.

OMG, Am I turn on because of his compliment or because of spanking part. I need

to cut this.

-I think the make up its ok now, and we can continue with the photo shoot.

I am taking more pictures. Making him lough again when I talk how I was in love with
Syrius from Harry Potter.

-Ok, I think I have enough pictures. Thank you. – and I start packing my stuff. And
there is a noise coming for my stomach. Fuck! I am hungry.

-What was that? – he asked me.

-Uhm, my stomach tell me that he hadn't have his breakfast.

-What? – he almost yelled at me.

-I overslept and have no time to eat something before Mr Taylor pick me up.

-Anastasia, it's 11 am and you didn't eat anything today? Are you serious?

-Well, I eat fruit salad. – he just gaze at me with asking eyes?

-Actually it was grapes. I mean fermented grapes. – He is staring at me with more

open eyes. He doesn't get it. – Ok, I had wine only. – and showing him with a finger
a glass from his housekeeper.

And then he is laughing again.

-You laugh a lot Mr Grey. Who would say?

-I would say that is you Anastasia who is making me lough so much. I don't
remember when I lough so many times.

-I'm glad you find me amusing.

-Come, let's have some lunch. – and he grabs my hand and leading me to big room.

-Gail, make us some lunch, for me Ceasar salad, and for Miss Steele maybe fruit
salad. – he smirked at me.
-It is not necessary, I will eat something at home.

-Nonsense. You have to remove make up now.

-O yes, I will need some water to this.

-Come.

We are going through his bedroom, with enormous bed, like for some king. Wow. He
is now sitting on a chair and I am supposed to start remove the make up, but instead
of that I just staring at him. He is so damn beautiful.

-Miss Steele, can you start?

-Uhm, yes, of course.

I am standing very close to him, I can hear his rapid breathing. When I remove he is
saying:

-You are wearing stilettos today Anastasia, I thought you don't like them.

-I don't. But someone told me that I look sexy in it.

-So you wanted to pleased that person?

-Maybe, or maybe not.

He starts touching my legs, from highheels to my skirt. His touch, it feels soooo
good.

-Mr Grey, are you looking for something?

-I think I've just found, baby – he is waiting for my reaction. I won't back. I don't know
what he is doing to me, I feel so turn on and not shy at all. And before I think a lean
down and kiss him. I kiss him gently. But he is the one who is deepening the kiss.
Open my mouth with his tongue, and kiss me passionately. God, I think I can come if
this gonna be long enough. Now I am sitting on him, grabing his hair and our
tongues are dancing. I can feel his erection under my skirt. So he is attracted to me!

I can hear his housekeeper calling that lunch is ready. We stopped the kiss,
breathing harshly and he is looking at me, but I can't look in his eyes.

-Hey, look at me. Don't by coy.

-I'm sorry, it was very unprofessional. I' ve just…

-Anastasia, I wanted that too. Don't regret something you did enjoy. Come, let's have
some lunch.

I grab my stuff, but my brain is somewhere on the floor.

We eat lunch in silence for a while. I cannot think what to say after our moment in
bathroom.

But he is very pleased and even more relaxed. He asked me about my plans for
future, I am telling him about my series of article about successful businessman and
woman from Seattle.

-This sounds good. Do you want to be next Napoleon Hill?

Gosh, I hate this question.

-No Christian, I want to be Anastasia Steele, famous writer with her own style.

He says nothing. Just smiling at me, in very cocky way.

-What? – I snaped.

-You called me Christian.

-That's your name, as I remember correctly.

-I prefer Mr Grey.

-Do you now? - I ask him with a smile. He is laughing again. I like that sound. But
now he is so tense. Wow, he change his mood a lot. - Well, Mr Grey I better be
going. Thank you for the lunch, it was delicious. And again thank you for the photo
shoot.

And Taylor just show up from nowhere.

-Taylor, you will take Miss Steele to, you are going to Uni now?

-Now, I don't have classes on Friday. I am going to my apartment to finish this article.
It will be published on Monday.

-Ok then, sent one copy of your newspaper to my office.

-Of course, sir. Thank you and goodbye.

-It was a pleasure Anastasia, have a good weekend.

-You too Christian. – And I walked through the door.

In the afternoon, I am sitting with Kate and telling her about my little stunt.

-I can't believe you kissed him!

-I know, I can't believe myself. But he kissed my back and Kate, uhmm girl he can
kissed.

-You have a crush on him, Steele!

-Maybe, but I won't be seeing him again. He is the youngest and richest CEO in
Seattle, and I am just a student. We live in different worlds, Kate.

-So what. But he is the first guy since Jose you are attracted to. You should go for it.

-Kate, he is out my league. But I can tell you, even I don't know him well, I have
more feelings for him than I have for Jose in first place. And now let's get dressed.

I don't want to talk about Jose. Why she mentioned him? There is a ring at our door.

-A package for you Steele.

-From whom?

-A man from different world !

 Chapter 3
He sent me 3 books, and what I can see that they are his own copies. It's Secret
Garden, Into The Wild and Tessa.

I hope you will enjoy it.

Ladies know what to guard against, because the read novels that tell them of
these tricks...

Christian Grey. Stiff CEO

Why he sent me this, with this note? I don't have time for this. I have to get ready for
my party.

It's not even a midnight and I am drunk. We are in a pub celebrating my birthday
which are tomorrow, but we have party tonight. Kate is buying drinks for me,
because I will be 21 after midnight. I have fun. And now I want to play. Yes. I'm
calling him.

- Anastasia?

- Hi Christian. Why did you sent me these books Christian?

- What? What's that sound, where are you?

- I am in the bar. Tell me, why…

- Which bar?

- A bar in Seattle. What it is about note from Tessa?

- Anastasia, are you drunk?

- Nooooo, …. maybe baby.

- Tell me in which bar you are, now!

- Jeez, you are very domineering.

- You have no idea.

- Goodbye Christian.
- Ana!

And I hung up. Wow, I am turn on even we talk only by phone. Dammit, what is
going with me?

We take more tequila shots with Kate and waiting for midnight, it s only 20 minutes
and I will be 21. I feel someone is grabbing my hand.

- Kate, I think I have enough. Feel very druuuunk.

- Come on, we don't even started yet – Kate yell at me excited.

- I think you have enough Anastasia – he is here. Why are you drinking, you are not
21? - he is scolding me now.

- Christian, what you doing here? – how he knows that I am not 21?

- Tell me, do you have a fake ID to buy drinks.

- No, Kate buy them for me.

- Well done, Ms Kavanaugh. Get her drunk before 21. How he know her surname?

- So what, you were never drunk before 21? And what the hell are you doing here?

- I am taking you home. I will no allow such behavior.

- Excuse me? – I'm pissed. It is my party ! Even if it is only me and Kate.

- It is my club, and no underage will be drinking alcohol in here. Come on.

Oh shit. I think I can be in trouble if he call the police.

- Christian, ok I won't be drinking more. And I realyy want to go home becouse I

have enough. But I want to stay until midnight to celebrate my birthday with my
bestfriend

- Ok, but 10 minutes after I am taking you home. Btw ladies, this is my brother Elliot.
Now, let's go dance. We need to get this alcohol out from you.

I don't feel strong on my feet, but he is leading me to the dancefloor. Oh Gosh, he

can dance. And when is midnight, Kate is yelling to come to the bar so I show him its
time to go.
- Wait a minute MS Steele. I want to wish you a very happy birthday. And then he
kiss me and kiss me and kiss me. I melt in his shoulders and he needs to hold me
tighter.

- Uhm, thank you.

We are back with Kate and Elliot. Christian is talking with his brother.

- I 've seen that Steele.

- Shut up. I am going home. As I can see you are staying with Elliot.

- Yep, I think I will stay. Are you sure you wanna go with him?

- Yes, his driver will take me to our apartment, and I don't feel good after this tequila
shots.

- Ready to go? – Christian ask and I nod.

As we are driving, I feel more sick.

- Can we stop for a moment, I think I am gonna threw up. – but it was too late The
darkness consumed me.

Holy fuck! My head is burning. I need a glass of water, no not glass, whole sea of
water. I try to sit up. O thank god, I have a glass of water on my night table. Better.
Wait a minute, I don't have a night table. Where am I?

- Anastasia how you feel?

It is man's voice. He is sitting in a chair looking at me, I can see his eyes even it's
only moonlight in the room.

- Where am I? –

- You are in my apartment. You passed out in car after you threw up.

- O God. I am sorry. – I feel that I am only in ma panties and t-shirt which is not mine.

- You undressed me?

- Yes. Your clothes were kind of dirty. And when I saw you were braless, I give you
my t-shirt. Not that I mind if you were just in your panties.
- Please stop! – I put my head in my hands. It's aching so much. Think Ana! Think
what to do now. I am starting to get on my feet.

- Anastasia, you should sleep, it's only 5 am.

- Don't come near me! - I grab a night lamp and point and him. If you come nearer I
smash this lamp on your head.

- Calm down, I won't hurt you.

- Said the lion to the lamb. Give me my phone. I need to call Kate. – now I am
staying near bed still ready to hit him with the lamp if he is gonna come closer.

- She knows you are here. I texted Elliot – he says very calmly.

- Don't believe you. She wouldn't let me to stay drunk with some random guy in his
apartment.

- Apparently she allowed to stay my brother in her apartment, and as I know she met
him yesterday. But I see your point. I will get your phone. Your purse is in living
room.

And watching me, he is leaving the bedroom. Fuck, what I should do? Not thinking
too much, I run to the bathroom and lock the door. Drinking water from sink and
wash my face. Think Steele, what you are gonna to do now? You are in Christian
Grey apartment wearing only panties and his t-shirt. You passed out and he took you
to HIS, not your place. It's no good. I am not feeling sore, so he didn't… Is he going
to now…?Fuck, I am really scared. I feel he is kind of dangerous. Or am I imagine it
only, maybe it is only my brain which mess with me.

- Anastasia, I have your phone.

- Call Kate and tell her to pick me up from here.

- It's 5 am. I think she might be sleeping.

- So don't think and do what I said. I am not coming out from this bathroom until she
is not here. I am not stupid. You won't took advantage of me.

- Anastasia, I would never do that. Please, you are here because you vomited a lot
in my car, and I want Taylor to wash it as soon as it was possible. And I didn't want
to leave you alone in your place, in that state.

Fuck, it sounds right. Am I scared of him, or am I scared of this situation? Let sum
this up Steele. He does a lot of charity, earlier you thought that he is a good guy,
from good family.

- Ana please, I will not hurt you.

And I open the door. He is watching me.

- Here, it's your phone. Don't be afraid of me.

- Thank you. And I'm not. I think so.

- So what was that?

- I've panicked. And I have a huge hangover, don't feel very well.

- I have some Advil for you – and he show me the pills. I can't take them, there
maybe not be the right pills.

- No, thanks.

- You will feel better after this. Here, take it.

- I will not these pills so fuck off! – I step back.

- I see. Look these are the box of Advil, as you can see. I will take two pills to show
you there are just pills for hangover. Now, do you trust me Ana?

- Yes. – wow, are you trust him Steele? I think I am. It is just the stupid situation I've
put myself into. He is a really good guy. He is just taking care of me. I take the pills.

- Now, you should get some more sleep. I will drive you in the morning when you will
feel better.

I lie in his bed, saying nothing. He is about to leave when I ask..

- Are you not going to sleep?

- Will you feel safe if I will sleep in my bed next to you?

- Yes.

- I can sleep on the couch in saloon.

- No, that's ok. I know you won't hurt me.

- I am glad you finally realize that Anastasia.

- I am sorry for…

- That's ok. Sleep.

And we lie together in this big bed. God, I was dreaming about it, but not in such
situation.

I woke up again. And there is no Christian Grey in bed. Was I dreaming? I need to
go to bathroom.

- Hello Anastasia, I have some clothes for you – he saying as he enter the bedroom.

- Hi, thank you. Can I have a shower here?

- Yes, of course. Breakfast will be ready in 15 minutes.

- Thank you.

God, hot water is good for me. Hmm, I have to use Christian toothbrush. Dammit, I
shouldn't do that. Now I am turn on, thinking that little thing was in his mouth. Focus
Steele.

He is sitting at breakfast bar, reading a newspaper.

- I ordered some things from nearby hotel, because I didn't know what you like.

- Some things, huh? – he ordered more than 15 meals. I take pancakes.

- So you feel better now?

- Yes, thank you for clothes, and for taking care of me.

- You welcome. But tell me, why you freaked out in the morning?

- I told you, I' ve just panicked that you want to take advantage of drunk girl.

- Well, if I want to have sex with a woman, I don't have to make her drunk to get what
I want. I understand you don't know me very well, but believe me having sex with
comatose girl is not what I like. I like my woman to be receptive.

- Good to know.
- Now eat. I have a birthday muffin for you. – and he passed mu a blackberry muffin
with one candle.

- Make a wish. – a wish? O just kiss me one more time, Christian.

- Thank you Christian. That's very nice of you.

- So, what are you planning to do on your birthday?

- I don't have special plans. I was planning to go with Kate to "Chicago" musical
tonight but there are no tickets available. So we are staying home to watch Chicago
movie for like a one 3454 time. Tell me, how much do I owe for this clothes.

- Nothing.

- Please, I want to pay for this.

- Anastasia, believe me I can afford this.

- I know that. But despite the fact you can afford this, I want to pay back. And also for
cleaning your car.

- Stop it – he grabs my hand.- I won't take any money from you. I did buy them
because I want it to.

Gosh, it is very hard to say no to him. And some idea cross my mind.

- How did you find me yesterday?

- I've tracked your phone – he gave mi his answer to quickly. I bet he regret it know.

- How did you know that I am not 21.

- I did the background check on you, Miss Steele.

- Mr Grey, do you have a crush on me? – I smile at him.

- Anastasia, please don't bite your lip.

- Why?

- Because I want to do that.

- So why don't you. You know how it taste.

- I want do that again until I have your agreement on paper.

- What? I don't understand.

- You will. If you can cancel your plans with Kate for tonight I will tell you later.

- Why not now?

- Because I am enjoying the breakfast. I will pick up you at 7pm.

- That is not a question.

- No, it's not. Because I've already know the answer.

There is a phone ringing.

- That's ok Elliot I will pick you up. Right, Kate and Elliot spent the night together.

- Are you ready to go Anastasia?

There are only two of us in elevator. And the heat is toooo big. I bit my lip, to make
him a move. I won't be the first to kiss him again. Think about something gross
Steele, think about…

- Oh, fuck the paperwork! – he muttered.

And he kissed my with everything he got. He is crushing my mouth. Holy fuck, I am

so arouse now. Just don't stop please. Later in garage we pretend like nothing really
big happend. Ok, I can go with that. During the ride we were talking about music. Ha
has good taste. But doesn't like hip hop, I knew it that he is too stiff. He is kind in
shock with the fact that I like HH.

- Really, you a book warm and hip hop?

- There is a lot of poetry in rap texts.

- Wow, I didn't know that – he say laughing at me.

As we enter the apartment I can see Elliot hugging Kate, it is such a sweet picture.

- Hi guys.

- Hello to you two lovebirds – I snap to Kate.

- Ana, shut up. Good you are finally home, I need to postpone our film night for
tomorrow, because something else came up.

- I can see that – I smirked at her.

- Well, so you are free tonight. I will pick you at 7 pm.

- It is still not a question. – why he is domineering? And he just kiss me on forehead

and leave with Elliot.

- Laters, baby !

We talked and laughed a lot about Grey brothers. We spend all afternoon just talking
when another package come for me. A beautiful designer dress, and underwear from
Victoria Secret and fucking gorgeous louboutins. Even it is not signed from whom is
it I know exactly because of the question on the note :

Will you go out with me tonight?

Why he cannot ask me in person?

- Are you gonna to wear that? – Kate ask me with big disapproving look.

- No way ! I have mine clothes, I mean I have your dress. I smirked at her.

- But did you see these shoes, they are awesome!

Fuck, she is right. But I don't want to wear this. I am not his doll. I am waiting for him
with hair and make up done, I am wearing jeans and some kind of sexy blouse. He is
here. I open the door and I can see he doesn't like my look.

- You are not going? – ha asked, to my amusement with pure shock and fear.
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- Oh, I am going.

- I've sent you a dress.

- I know, but I prefer my clothes.

- Ana, please don't be stubborn. I want to take you for a dinner after my birthday gift
for you , and in this jeans, well it will be better if you wear the dress, because this
place is kind of exclusive.

- Oh.

- Yes, oh. So please go change Anastasia. We have some time.

I decided not to wear his dress for him. But I can't say no to this underwear and
shoes. It will be the only one time where I will be wearing Louboutins. He says
nothing about Kate's dress, although he is not pleased. But even I like myself in this
dress, its very sexy on me.

He took me to the Chicago Musical, which I couldn't afford before because all cheap
tickets were sold out. He remembered that I wanted to go. The musical was
fantastic. And of course Mr Grey have the best seats, balcony with the best view for
the stage. I could say that he was more watching me than the show. But I don't mind.
After show I am so happy, music always do that to me, it warms my heart and give
me strength.

- You like the show?

- Yes, of course. Dancing and music. What can be better?

- Well, I could think of some other things which are better.

- For example?

- This. – and he is kissing me.

That is the invitation I've needed. I sit on his lap, taking him astride. And give all
myself to this kiss.

- Jesus, Ana slow down.

- I can't. It's my body talking, not my brain.

- I can see that, but we are going to restaurant now, and I have to calm down now.

I can see and feel his erection through the trousers.

- We can stay here instead.

- I like your offer, but I want you to eat something first, do a little talk, and maybe
later we can continue what we started.

- Fine, it is a promise Mr Grey.

Wow, this place must be very expensive. He is really from a different wolrd. We have
a private room with a view for Seattle.

- So what do you want to talk about? – I asked.

- Well, this is NDA. I have something for you to offer, but you have to sign this first.

- Non Disclosure Agreement. Hmm, it is quite responsible that you are giving me
this. Of course I will sign that. Just a little too late, don't you think? You told me a lot
during the interview.

- I am aware of that. But if we are going to do things which I have in my mind you
need to sign this. And you cannot talk about it with anyone.

- I know how to keep a secret Christian. I understand you don't trust me. But it's not
right that you still feel free to ask me if I trust you.

- Well point well made Miss Steele.

He is still waiting for me to sign. I read fast, and add some note to this Agreement.

- What did you write in there?

- I add "Katherine Kavanaugh is the only person who Miss Steele is allowed to talk
about Christian Grey".

- No, Anastasia I can't agree to that.

- So I can't be dating you.

- It is a date?
- It is not?

- Fine. We can talk about NDA later.

- No Christian, I won't change my mind on this. Kate always has my back and we
talk about everything. She won't tell anyone.

- You are a very frustrating woman, Miss Steele.I don't know why I am agreeing to
this. But ok, you can talk to Kate. Still hope you keep some things only to yourself.

- I can do that, Mr Grey. So what's now. My place or your place? – I think is the wine
talking, but I can't help myself. I want him badly. I didn't want a man so badly as I
want him. Now. Here.

- Well, there is more paperwork for you to sign. But we can postpone it for tomorrow.
Let's go.

When we are in car, I am telling him that my apartment is closer. I am ready. YES!

- Taylor, take us to Miss Steele apartment. And he closes the window to separate us.
Good I have him all for myself.

We started kissing. I grab his hair and moan in his mouth. He is kissing my neck, my
jaw. Oh it feels good. I want this man right here, right now.

- I can't wait till apartment. – I say to him and start to unbutton his shirt. But he is
stopping me.

- So eager Miss Steele, well I think I should ease you.

He rolls up my dress, and take my panties off. And start to kiss me there. Holy fuck!

- Oh Anastasia, you taste divine. Relax, baby. You will like this.

And he is giving me my first orgasm. Holy shit! When I almost gather my brain, he
put his finger in me, and I still, its aching a little but I don't have bad memories. His
touch is nice. Dammit, I have to tell him now.

- Ana, are you ok?

- Yes, just need to tell you somethiiiiing. Ooooah ! - I feel I'm building again. He is
massaging my little spot. I've never felt like this before. I am on fire!

As he enter his two fingers again, I've stop breathing and then he knows.
- Are you a virgin?

- Uhm, yes. – I blushed.

- WHAT THE FUCK ! – he is watching me in kind of a shock. -Seriously, how can it

be possible?

- It is possible because I didn't have sex before – jeez, what a stupid question.

- But you are 21.

- So?

- Why are you a virgin for so long time?

And now he pissing me of. - Because, dammit Christian I…

- Fuck, you were waiting for some prince to deflower you. God dammit. I'm not. I
can't believe it.

- I wasn't waiting for some prince. I wasn't looking for Mr Right, just looking for you
Mr Grey. I smiled at him, maybe this moment is not over. - I've never met someone…
He is furious. Why are you so angry?

- Because you should tell me earlier!

- Maybe I should. But I didn't. So, are you going to continue making love to me? – I
tease him, smiling and biting my lip.

- Anastasia, I don't make love. I fuck, hard. – wow, uhm ok, I guess.

- And with this shit, with you being a virgin it won't happen. You waited so long for
some fucking prince, and believe me I am not. I don't do romance. You are pretty
girl, you should have all this hearts and flowers crap. And I can't give you that. So it
will be better if we stop this. You are very young, you will find some..

- Shut up Grey. I just wanted to have sex with you because you turn me on, like no
other guy. I didn't sign for romance. But apparently being a virgin is something such
dumbass as you don't like. – He is the first guy I have such a crush, and he is saying
no. I wasn't thinking of him as my boyfriend. Just wanted to be with him, have fun.
Forget about past, and have sex for the first time. I am awake sexually, and it is
because of him.

- Anastasia, you should be with someone better. With the guy your age, going on
dates…

- I've said shut up. – tears are falling from eyes. I can't believe he is such a dick.

- Here, have your panties on.

- Fuck you, I don't want them. And here, take your stupid shoes. – I take them off,
and then I'm starting to take a bra he bought for me. It's not easy in this dress, but I
manage to do that somehow, throwing it at him. Luckily, we are at my place. I run off
the car, angry more than Hulk. He is trying to stop me.

- Ana, it will be better for you, don't be mad.

- FUCK YOU GREY ! You don't know, you have no fucking idea what is good for me
– I yelled.

- Anastasia, calm down. Wear your panties, this dress is short – he reaches for my
dress to roll it down.

- DON'T TOUCH ME! – I yelled at him. And he stills. Not moving at all. Is he even
breathing? He looks scared, why? But he is not looking at me. I turned around. And I
know why. Fucking shit.

Kate is pointing a gun at him. She's furious. No, not that shit again.

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- Back off Grey, I knew that something wrong is with you. – but he doesn't move.

- Kate - . I say in the calmest way I can. – Nothing happened.

- I can see that nothing happened – she snaped. Well, it might not look well, I have
no shoes, Christian is holding my panties and bra, and probably I have all my
mascara on my face due to the tears.

- Kate believe me, nothing happen. It is not THAT situation.

- Do not lie to me Steele. I know you can lie to yourself that nothing happened. But
no more, sis. I can punish him right now. Come here, Ana.

I decided to cover Christian. And now Kate is pointing gun at me. Christian want to
say something but I say to him to keep still. I know that Taylor be out of the car
shortly.

- Kate, I am not lying to you. I would never do that. You know that. It might looks bad,
but he didn't do anything.

- So why he is holding you underwear, why were you crying? Maybe he didn't rape
you but was going to, so he need to be punished! – she screams in the end of
sentence. Dammit, Kate. Calm down, I don't want you to be shot by Taylor, I know he
is standing near the limo. I decide to come closer to her.

- Sis, he didn't want to rape me. He is a good guy. I cried because he said no to me.
For the first time in my life I wanted to have sex, and he said no.

- What, why? I thought he liked you.

- Apparently, virginity repels guys.

- What? What a douchebag.

- I know.

- Are you sure Steele? I know you like pretend that nothing bad happened.

- I'm saying the truth Kate. I threw underwear at him, because he bought it for me
and since he said I'm too young and too innocent for him, I don't want anything from
this moron.
Kate laughed a little. – Now Kate, give me your gun. You won't have Christian Greys
balls tonight. I took a gun from her. We hugged and I'm saying her to come home. I
know that cost her a lot of energy. I turned around and say to Christian to go.

- Ana, I didn't want to hurt you – he says to me with the saddest look in his eyes.

- I know. You were right. You should go now. Goodbye, Christian.

I slept that night in Kate's bed. I didn't cry. If I was alone for sure I would cry all night.
Crying for the man, for losing him. But I was there to comfort her. She needs to know
that I am safe. I love her for that. Even she is only one year older, I know she wants
to protect me. Even if I call her my sister, she is more like a mother to me. A way
better mother than Carla. Always has my back, always making me feel cherished.
There is no other person in this world than Kate that I love more. Yes Steele, forget
about Grey, it was just a crush. Do not fall for him girl. Yeah, right, isn't too late for
that?

On Sunday I was preparing for my next interview. I sent my article about Christian to
office on Friday. I could still change it, because I wrote a lot good things about him. I
could add now that he is fucking moron. But it would be unprofessional, it would be
the truth, but still not very pro. Well, it doesn't make him a bad person that he doesn't
like virgins. He just want his woman to be very experienced.

"… I fuck, hard" – I think about his words coming from his sexy mouths. Mouth that
were kissing my body, kissing me there. Stop it Steele, focus. You should be
preparing for you next job. Whole day I was fighting between thinking about Christian
Grey and focusing on my questions for Gideon Cross.

Monday

After classes I am working in newspaper's office. Have all questions for Cross now.
When I was about to leave for gym, some unknown number call me.

- Hello?

- Anastasia Steele?

- Yes, who is this?

- Hello, I am Grace Travelyn. You don't know me. But well I am a mother of Christian
Grey and I really need to talk with you about article you wrote in WSU paper today.

Oh shit, am I in trouble?
AN

Ok, a short one.

Yes, there will be Gideon in this story. No, Christian doesn't die. Just a little
competition.

So, you like or not?

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Thank you all for the reviews. It is really good to know what you think. Feel
free to correct my grammar mistakes, in that way there will be less of them in
next chapters.

Gideon will be in this story because I need him as a person with some
baggage. And he is also here to piss Christian off lol ;-)

But when it comes to CG and AS I am a hopeless romantic, so don't worry.

Oh shit, am I in trouble? I thought that I put his family in a good light.

- Uhm, but why?

- I really liked your article about my son, it's different from the usual. And the picture
– never seen my son so happy and relaxed. And just thought we could talk a little.
Maybe you could tell me more about Christian, because from what I read he was
very open to you. I know you are probably busy, but maybe we can meet for coffee?

- You want to ask me questions about your son?

- I know how it sounds, but yes, he is very private, and I've never seen him so open
and so honest to anyone. I really would like to know how did you do that. I am his
mother but he never say to me or to his siblings about his feelings for us. And in your
article… - she started sobbing, oh my god, is she crying now? - He really said these
things about me?

- Yes, he adores you M'am. And…

- Please just one coffee, it would means a world to me if you agree for a short
meeting.

- Ok, Mrs Travelyn. I start my work at 5 p.m Can you meet me at Coffee House on
Portland Street, near Gymnasium Building, at 4 pm?

- Of course, I am on my way. And thank you Anastasia.

- Ok, so see you soon. I will have a sport bag with me.
- Ok dear.

I can't believe myself that I agree to that. What does she want to talk about? A didn't
write everything he said about his family because I know that he is very private, and
didn't want to use that. Hope that I won't validate the NDA by talking to his mother.

In the Coffee House I can see that Grace Travelyn is a beautiful lady. I read a lot
about her before interviewing Christian. She is so famous in Seattle. Working for
hospital and organizing charity work in Coping Together foundation. I could write her
biography someday. After the meeting with her I am shocked that Christian keeps his
family on arm's length. From what she said, he never said "I love you" to Grace, or
even Mia, his favourite sister. He is polite to them, care for them, but as Grace said
"never shows his heart". Firstly, I couldn't believe a word she was saying. During the
interview he prayed them a lot, I had to change to subject because he wouldn't stop.

We talked about how he adores Grace, that she is his Angel, that she saved him by
giving him new home, where he feels wanted and cared. And that he is Mia's
favourite toy. When she was young - he played only with her, showing her the world.
He didn't feel embarrassed telling me that he had to wear a skirt and pearls,
because Mia want to have a girls nights. I couldn't put this in article, but well I said
about that to Grace. She was so happy that he remembered these things from his
childhood. We talked for an hour, Grace was crying a little, but she assured me that
it was happy tears.

After a meeting I am in awe with her. She loves him so much. She is perfect mother.
Christian is a lucky guy. But too stupid to show his true feelings for his family.

Later that day, reading in bed, I got a message from him.

- Thank you for the article. I thought that you would write bad things after what
happened on Saturday but I guess I was wrong.

What am I supposed to say to him. I want to forget about Christian fucking Grey and
now he is texting me? I decide to not reply.

- I should tell you that my PR team wants to hire you. My PR Director is over
the moon with your article, saying that it will help me in my business relations.
I am not sure if he is right but if you are looking for a job call my PR
Department.

Working for you? Never. Maybe I should block his number? Why is he calling me
right now?
- Hello?

- Anastasia, are you ok?

- Of course I am. Why are you calling me?

- You didn't text me back.

- I didn't know I had to. What do you want?

He sighed.

- Ana, I am sorry for Saturday. We got carried away a bit and things…

- Christian stop it. What's done is done. You have your needs and I understand that.
Maybe I overreacted. But please don't call me anymore, because I really want to get
you out of my head.

After long silence moment he says - Maybe we can be friends?

Is he kidding me? I am laughing now.

- Seriously? Maybe you should use the other line " It's not you, it's me".

- Actually, you are right. It is more accurate.

- Well maybe more accurate will be this one " LEAVE ME ALONE!"

And I hung up. Friends? Christian Grey and friends? I will take his offer when it will
be friends with benefits. Yeah right Steele, because when this ever will work for you.

He is calling again:

- Don't you dare hung up on me !

- So don't call me !

- You and your… - silence - Jesus Anastasia what am I going to do with you?

- I told you, leave me alone – I snaped.

- I don't want that. – I gasped, what? Is he playing me right now? - Ana, I read your
article like hundred times today. I've told you things that I shouldn't have. I don't
know if you have some magic to open me up so much. But, maybe we can start
again?

- Start what exactly Christian?

- We can figure it out over dinner maybe?

- Maybe not.

- Why? You don't like me anymore?

- I don' t know. We are from different worlds Christian. It will never work out. I am a
person who says openly what she thinks, who shows her feelings toward others. And
you don't let people to come close to you. You took me on a date only because you
wanted to fuck me later, but my virginity was a bump in a road for you. You probably
think that if I would give you my V-card than you will be stuck with me. And you want
only to fuck hard, right? So it will be better to stop whatever it is right now.

- I will never tell anyone what happened, and Kate will not also so don't worry. Grace
still will picture you as her perfect son. But please be open more to her. She is one
helluva woman.

- And how do you know that, huh?

I get the feeling that he is not gonna like it. - Christian about that, I talked with her
today.

- WHAT?!

- She called me, she wanted to talk about article.

- What the fuck did you say to her?

- Only the stuff we talked about during interview. Nothing more. Really.

- You have no right to talk to my family, you understand? Do I have to remind you
about NDA?

- Fucking shit! You know what you can eat your stupid NDA's paper. I don't care. I
didn't say her more than the fact that you love her, and that you love your family.
Yeah, it was what I said to her. You want to know why? Because she couldn't believe
that you spoke so highly about her to me. Yeah moron, your own mother isn't sure if
you love her. And there is no other woman in Seattle which I admire more than Dr
Travelyn so when she started crying I felt obligated to comfort her. So get your shit
together because having Grace as a mother should be a fucking treasure for you.
Now I'm going to say it last time LEAVE ME ALONE !

I switched off my phone. I lost all my energy. Friends, huh? More like enemies now.

Tuesday

I'm sitting in Crossfire Building. He is still talking through his phone and this piss me
off because it's rude.

- Well Miss Steele, we can now go with the interview.

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- Well Miss Steele, we can now go with the interview.

Finally. He is handsome, I would say he is gorgeous., yummy! If David Gandy was

standing next to him they would call him his ugly brother. Get a grip Steele. If you
want to be successful in journalism be more professional, ok? Ok, lets start with the
questions and stop staring at him.

- Mr Cross…

- Please, call me Gideon, I'm not much older than you. Can I call you Anastasia?

- Ana, please.

- Ok Ana, I really like your piece about Christian Grey. I didn't know he has so much
empathy for the world. I could even say that he has no heart, because he likes to
buy companies in very hostile way. But in your article he seems to look like good
person.

- It's only an article. But thank you.

- So, you didn't like him?

- It's not important.

- But you like me, don't you? – he is smiling at me in a very cocky way. I am not
gonna answer that.

- Gideon, I should also ask you if you agree to have this interview in Seattle Times
also?

- I thought it is for WSU paper?

- Yes, it is. But after article about Christian Grey, Seattle Times contacted me and
they want to have my series of interviews in their newspaper. So what would you say
about it?

- I would say congratulations and of course I am ok with that. In this way more
people will know how awesome I am.

- Right, but you know that I am writing an article not a fairy tale? – I smirk.
After an hour I find him like a cool guy. He is smart and funny. He likes hip hop. And
everybody who likes HH is an OK person. We talked about music, culture, his
inspirations in business. He is a very easy-going person. Not like Christian. Why am
I comparing Gideon to Christian? During interview he invited me for Good Cause
Gala, a charity dinner for children who were sexually abused. He will be giving a
speech there. It will be good for the article. So I decided to take his invitation.

- Thank you for invitation. Writing about this may help to get people attention to this.

- That's right. And there will be a lot of businessmen and women, who you can
interview. I could introduce you to them, Ana.

- Wow, thank you. That's really thoughtful.

- But only if you say yes to come with me, as my company. Can I pick you at 7pm?

Wow, he is asking not telling me like an order.

- Uhm, I will think about it ok? I have to go now. Thank you again for your time.

I gather quickly my staff and rush to elevator before he stops me. I don't know if I
want go with him. He is sexy as hell. And I can feel the tension between us. But it is
because he reminds me of Christian. Fuck. I need to get over him.

- Ana, wait. I have to ask you something. – he is standing next to me, when I'm
waiting for the elevator. He is too close for my liking. – Are you sleeping with
someone?

- Excuse me? – I look at him, like he was talking in Chinese.

- Do you have a boyfriend?

- It's not your business.

- But it will be. I want to have sex with you and I need to know if there is someone
who can interfere with my plan.

- Yes, there is. Me. I am not interested in you.

- Of course you are. You were mentally unzipping my pants during interview.

Fuck. I was thinking about Christian, about what could happen in limo. I decided not
to respond to that and fortunately the lift arrive. But he followed me. When the door
were closed, he clicked some code to stop and then pressed me to the wall, laying
his hand on my hip.

- How bad do you want to kiss me now?

- I really don't – I whisper.

- Are you sure? –he licked my bottom lip, and start to kiss my jaw, my ear,- are you
sure Ana?

Oh fuck it! I take his head in my hands and press his lips on mine. I kissed him. He
moaned. And then he kissed me back. Oh boy, he can kiss. Its Christian Grey fault.
He made me horny, he put fire in my body which only a man can put out. Gideon
grabbed my hips and pulled me towards him. Oh God, I can feel his erection. Wow, I
turned him on. But then he made a bad move. He reached his hand under ma skirt
and try to put his fingers in me. Very bad move. I hit him in his balls, while taking a
gun out of my purse.

- Don't fucking touch me. – I yelled pointing my gun at him.

- Ana, I'm sorry. I thought…

- What? That I wanted it? Because I kissed you? You thought that I wanna have sex
with you? In here? With this camera? You think I am fucking Kardashian's sister?

- No, I forgot about camera. But you should drop this gun because security is
probably downstairs waiting for you.

Fuck. What was I thinking? Fuck Ana, get yourself together.

- It's ok. But can you put your gun down?

- But no move. I know you are wealthy enough to rape me and cover it with your
money.

- Ana, I will not hurt you.

- Yeah, I heard it before.

- Listen, I will never rape anyone. Believe me god dammit, I know how it is when
someone forces sex to you.

- What? - I am staring at him, not believing what he is saying to me.

- Listen, I have some dark past with forcing sex, but I am a sexual abuse survivor. I
know how it feels. I understand that you want to protect yourself and you should. But
I would never force you to have sex with me. I don't know what I was thinking. I
thought that you are aroused by me. But I got it wrong. I am really sorry. You are
really hot, and I thought that you also were finding me this way. I rushed. I am sorry.
Ana…

- Ok, I believe you. – I whisper still being in shock. I will put my gun in purse. And
you can turn on the lift ok?

- Ok, stay where you are because security will be waiting for you downstairs. I will
tell them that everything is ok, right?

- Yes. I am sorry.

- That was a misunderstanding, right? – Gideon asked.

- Right.

- I told about my past off record.

- I know. And I am sorry. I panicked because of bad memories.

- What happened to you Ana?

- Nothing.

- Nothing, huh? You just carrying your gun for fun?

- I don't want to talk about it,ok? I have a gun because my roommate gave it to me
for my birthday. She wants to keep me safe.

- Calm down, just asking.

- Are you going to sue me?

- No I am not. But I am gonna to fire my security team.

- Oops.

- Yeah oops. Thank God it's was you who help me realize that anyone can come
with a fucking gun to my office.

- Well, they didn't check me because I am just a little girl. – I giggle.

- Yeah, little girl with a fucking glock.

We arrived to lobby. Gideon did really fire his security team. Should I be sorry for this
guys? Nope.

- Ana see you on Saturday.

- You still want me to go with you? After my little stunt?

- Of course. You think that this little glock can stop me from getting in your panties?

- Gideon, I…

- I am kidding. Relax. I will call you later, ok?

- Ok, thank you and I am really sorry that your security team sucks. – I smirked.

- Woman, you will be a death to me. – He laughed. Bye Ana.

- Bye.

Jeez if Kate wants me to carry this fucking gun with me, I need to be prepare for
paying a lot of money to lawyers. Or just deal with the past. Yeah, like that ever will
happen Steele.

Thursday

- Ok girls that's all for today. See you next week. Have a good weekend guys.

I finished my Zumba classes for today. Some new girl is approaching me now.

- Hi, it was awesome, you are really good.

- Thank you, and thank for joining my class.

- Are you free now? Maybe you can join me for a drink ?

Is this girl hitting on me?

- Uhm, actually I was heading for home.

- Please just one drink, we should get to know each other more.
- You know what I don't want to be rude, but I am really not in 'girl department' or bi-
curious.

- No no no, I am not hitting on you – she laughed. I am Mia, Mia Grey. And please
can you have with us one drink. My brother is waiting in a car outside.

Christian is here? Why he sent Mia?

Ok, I am not really happy with this chapter. Firstly, in my head it sounded more
interesting ;)

I am not sure if expression " girls department" is a good one, I think I heard it
in some american serial.
 Chapter 8
Christian is here? Why he sent Mia?

Ok, I want to see him. Even if our last conversation didn't end very well. I had a quick
shower. Why I don't have anything sexy with my tonight? Only tight jeans and T-
schirt. Too bad for you Steele.

Outside the gym I am telling Mia that we should go to English pub "Fifty's" which is
only two blocks from gym. Where is he? Could I be more excited?

- So where is your brother Mia?

- He is sitting in his pickup there. Let's go to him.

Christian and pickup truck? No way.

- Hi, Ana, it's good to see you again. I did tell Mia to leave you alone, but you know
when my little sister wants something, usually she gets that.

- Hi Elliot. – jeez Steele, can you hide your disappointment?

- Oh come on, Mum had a coffee with Ana, you already know her, and why I should
be the one who doesn't know my big brother girlfriend?

- What? I am not Christian's girlfriend. Who said that to you?

- Well, you two were on a date, right?

- Yeah, but it not ended… – shut up Steele, - I mean we are not dating anymore.

- But you are still Christian's first date! He probably is scared because he doesn't
know how to woo you. I will have to give him some tips. So where is this bar? Do
they have good drinks there?

- I think so, usually I am drinking beer there. I don't have my car tonight so I will go
with you guys ok?

I texted Kate that I will be home later tonight. What should I tell her about Elliot? She
should be here with us. Dammit, I didn't expect to meet more Grey family members.
When finally we are sitting with our drinks, Mia and Elliot wants to know more about
things Christian said to me during the interview.
He is seriously a very private person, even to his family. What can I say to them?
What about a fucking NDA? Why did I sign this? Am I allowed to tell Elliot that
Christian wants to be more like him, so cheerful and open? They should talk with
Christian, not me. Two beers later, Mia and I are now best pals. This girl is like a
Hurricane. She should introduce herself Mia " I like to party" Grey. I've never seen
someone dancing in Fifty's before. But dancing alone in a bar, yeah apparently Mia
it's not a shy type.

- Come on Ana, let's dance! We should celebrate our meeting!

- Oh, believe me I am celebrating it, it's my third beer. After this one I should go
home.

Kate will kill me for getting drunk without her.

- Not happening girl ! – Mia screamed.

- Stay Ana a little longer, my little brother will be with us shortly.

- What, why? Did you tell him that I am with you guys? He won't be happy about it.

- Chill, why not? He is actually on his way. I texted him that we are here.

Well, well, well. I am gonna see my hot shot CEO tonight. Why are you smiling
Steele? He is not interested in you. So what? But I am interested in him. Jeez, I
should stop talking with myself. I decided to join Mia on a dance floor she created for
herself. I need to get alcohol out from my body.

5 songs later I can feel that he is here. I can feel his fuckable smell. And hear his
yelling:

- Elliot, where the fuck is she? I thought that you are fucking her roommate? And
now you want to try with Anastasia? Do you seriously want to break their friendship?

- Chill lill bro, I am not interested in Ana, I was just teasing you.

- So what the fuck you are doing with her here?

- CHRISTIAN! – Mia yelled.

- Mia? What…? She hugged him. I can see that he doesn't like this.

- Oh, I am so happy you are here. Are you here to join us? Guess who is with us?
I decided to approach them. My, my angry Christian is hot ! And you are drunk
Steele!

- Anastasia – did he say my name or did he say fuck me? Seriously, I can't tell.

- Christian – I sighed.

- Holy shit! Are they like this always? I need a drink. There is too much fire in here.
Come on Elliot, you have to pay for drinks. – Mia laughed. Yep, she is as much
drunk as I am.

We are now alone at our table. I am just staring at him, looking in these beautiful
gray eyes. He smirked. Oh no, Mr Grey you won't be laughing at me.

- So, you and Grey family, huh? – he asked.

- It was Mia who came to me. And seriously, it is not easy to say no to her.

- Believe me, I know.

- I didn't say anything to her. It was actually her who was talking about you all night.

- Jeez, maybe I should make her to sign NDA. She likes to talk a lot.

- Yeah, and after tonight I can say that you are probably her favourite topic – I
giggled.

- Hmm, what a lovely sound.

He kept staring at me. Saying nothing.

- Oh I love this song ! – I yelled excited - I can't believe they are playing it here.

- Do you want to dance Anastasia?

- Are you offering?

- I think I am. Come.

Another order. I can live with that. For now. I looove this song – they are playing
Glorious by The Pierces. Now there are more people dancing. Manager should hire
Mia, one girl managed to change this English pub into a club in one night. I giggled
at this thought.
- What is so funny?

I am dancing in his arms.

- Nothing. I am surprised that you are not yelling at me for talking to your family.

- I am surprised also.

- So it is a night of wonders for you too. – I whisper.

- You can say that. When Elliot texted me, I was furious. I love my brother, but he is
not good for you. You should be…. – Are you interested in my brother Ana?

Oh, I am Ana now.

- Is it Elliot with whom I am dancing now? Is Elliot grabbing my ass while we are
dancing?

One, two, three. Yes, he gets the hint. Now I have Christian Grey's hands on my ass.
Thank God for my skinny jeans. He put me in his arms tighter. His smell makes me
high, his eyes see right through me, his touch weakens and strengthens my heart.

- We should get back to our table.

- We should – I sighed. When you are so close to me, I can't think straight. I maybe
not responsible for my actions – I giggled. Steele, you are officially drunk, alcohol
and Christian Grey is not a good match.

- Ana, what am I going to do with you?

- Whatever you want. – I smiled at him.

- You are drunk.

- Maybe I am a little tipsy. But not drunk.

- I think a sober person should be the judge of that. Come, I will drive you home.

- No. Unless you gonna stay with me for the night.

- Anastasia. How the hell did you manage to be a virgin at 21, and now you offering
yourself to me after one dance.

- Dammit. Because it is all your fault. You came in my life with your eyes, your smell
and fucking gorgeous body and make me horny. You give me a fucking orgasm in a
limo, and then left me hanging. Seriously, are you gonna fuck me tonight or I will find
someone else to do that.

- Ana – he whispered in my ear. There is no other thing in this world which I want
more than fuck you senseless. But even if I am not a romantic guy, I want you to
have a first time, that you deserve. You are a fucking goddess and I want to treat you
right.

I melted in his arms.

- Come with me Ana. We need to say goodbye to my siblings.

- Ok – it is everything I can say right now. He owns me with those arms of his and it's
the best place to be.

- Guys, I am taking Anastasia home.

- No, not yet ! The night is still young! And I want to catch up with my new girl – Mia
whined.

- Actually, Mia I have to go. My roommate will be worried where I am. Maybe we can
meet some other time.

- Of course. We need to go shopping together. I will ring you.

- Ok. And you - now I am speaking to Elliot - what I am supposed to tell Kate?

- What do you mean? – he asked uncertain.

- Well, why you two not dating anymore?

- Because she shot me down. – Jesus, could he be more depressed?

- So what? Do you like her? He nod. - Like no other girl? He nod again. - That's what
I thought. Listen Ell, being with Kate is not easy. She built some walls to protect
herself. And you just need to tear them down. I know she likes you. You made
Katherine Kavanaugh blushed. I know her all my life and no one, I say no one ever
done that. If you are not going to go for it, well you are gonna lose a lot. Because if
you can't handle Kate at her worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve her at her
best.*

- What if I call her again and she is going to say no?

- Surprise her with your visit. I am sure she is not gonna tell no while looking at your
smoking hot body.

- Anastasia, we are leaving. – Christian barked.

- Bye guys! – I laughed at them. Little of jealousy to speed up the things between me
and Mr Hot Shot. Yes. I am a genius.

Thank you for your reviews. They make me to post quicker.

Some of you don't like Gideon. Well I am not a fan of him also, I am Christian
Grey's girl forever ;-) But Gideon is gonna be a good guy in this story.

Sorry for the mistakes. I am still in shock that you understand my English ;-)

*Citation from lovely Marylin Monroe.

 Chapter 9
Why did I agree to this? I could have now one hot date with one hot man. Aah, right
Steele, you are here because of your career. Need to have one good résumé, don't
you? Gideon already introduced me to many influential and successful people of
Seattle. I now have two more interviews scheduled. Nice job Steele. So maybe you
can go home and call him and tell that now you have time? No, stop thinking about
that man. He is just a man. No you stupid subconscious, he is THE MAN.

Flashback In a car.

"So, looks like you can't say no to Grey Family." He smirked. "I suppose it is a good
sign for me. So I will pick you on Saturday at 7 pm."

"Why are you doing this?" I asked.

"Doing what exactly?"

"Giving me orders. Commands. Not asking if I want to go out with you but telling me
what to do. Sometimes you treat me like a possession. I do not like it," I say sternly.

"This is the way I am. I thought you liked me," he replied.

"I do…" I want to say something more but he interrupts me.

"So I will pick you at 7" he declares.

"No."

"Why the fuck not?" He bellows.

"Because I have other plans," I answered.

"Cancel them."

"Christian, fuck. I am not your employee or something. I will not be taking your
orders. Seriously, I have a life. I won't cancel my plans because you want me to. I
will cancel them if I want to. Of course I like you and want to date you. Damn it, I
wanted you to fuck me tonight. But you killed my libido just now. You said you want
to treat me right, but you're doing it wrong."

The rest of ride was silence. He didn't offer to go on a date on Friday, or any other
day. We said our goodbyes and later that night I cried a river.
End of flashback

The Good Cause Gala is hosted in Fairmont Olympic Hotel. The Ballroom is just
amazing. Gideon is talking with some business friends. He is going to give a speech
tonight. We didn't really talk about his past, but I know he's carrying a lot of pain
inside. It's strange for me that I feel so safe around him, feel the connection. I am
standing alone deep in my thoughts drinking some expensive champagne.

"Anastasia. What you are doing here?" Christian suddenly asks. He is surprised and
looks happy to see me.

"Christian, hi." I smile at him. "I'm here to write about this Gala."

"I didn't see you on the guest list."

"Well, actually I am here with a friend," I said, looking down.

"A friend?"

"Yes. But it is not what you think."

"So what am I thinking Anastasia? With whom you are here?"

"She is here with me ," Gideon said as he wrapped his arm around my waist. "Grey,
didn't know you would be here."

"Cross," Christian greeted. "I am here on behalf of my parents, they couldn't make it
so they sent me."

"Hope that presence of the great Christian Grey will help us to collect more money
for kids."

"Yeah, I hope that too. Excuse me."

"Christian." I whisper, but he walked away.

Fuck, I need to talk to him. But Gideon wants me to meet more people including chef
from Table One, yay!. So what Steele, career first, love later?

After lots of small talk I excuse myself to the bathroom but really I want to find
Christian. 76 seconds later I see him. Well that was fast. He grabs me and takes me
to family changing room near reception.

"Christian, what are you doing? Why are we hiding here?" I whispered.
"Because I want to do this." He starts kissing ma angrily. I feel his wet lips upon
mine. It is so passionate. My heart starts beating fast, I think I start sweating. I feel
as if low voltage electric current is passing through my body. "Anastasia you are so
beautiful." He places kisses all along my neck and gently begins to suck. I groan
from the feeling. After a while I break the kiss.

"Christian, stop. We can't do this here. Gideon is going to give a speech and I need
to be there."

"Are you with him as his date?" he asked.

What to say to him? He's not going to like it.

"Answer me," he demanded.

"I am not his date. We are here as friends," I answered.

"Friends? Didn't you just met him last week?"

"Well duuh, I didn't say friends forever, just more like colleagues, ok? He invited me
here and I said yes because I want to write about this Gala in my article. And he also
introduced me to some people who I can interview," I replied, defiantly.

"Anastasia, tell me the names and you will have the interview on the spot."

"Listen Master of the Universe, Gideon only introduced me to them, but it was me
who convinced them to give the interviews. He actually lets me do my job. And I will
appreciate if you would do the same. "

"You are a very frustrating woman Ms Steele," he tells me.

"Good thing you're aware of that."

"So if he is not your date that he doesn't mind if I do this."

He is kissing my collarbones and sucking my earlobe. Oh, it feels good. His hand is
going under my dress, from my feet, up to knees and go higher. I should say stop, I
should, ahhh. He is looking in my eyes, checking if I am ok with his hand down there.
I am. I really, really am. He deepens the kiss and starts to massage my clit. The
feeling is ooooooooooohhhhhhhh. His other hand is pressing my head to his. It so
rough but damn so arousing. Now I feel his finger inside me. Holy shit! I stiffen a
little. He notices that. And is giving me the more gentle kiss. I love how he can read
my body. He got me and ain't nowhere that I'd be than with his arms around me.
Rihanna is singing in my head now.

"Ana, relax baby. Do you want me to stop?" I know I should. But damn it, I don't want
that. I look at him. Hope that he can see the fire in me because I don't want to
answer that. I feel now two fingers in me. They are massaging me, giving me an
amazing feeling.

"Christian," I sigh between his kisses.

"Yes baby?"

"Faster." I am on the edge. He chuckles. I don't know if he is saying something to

me. I feel pure pleasure. And I don't want that ever to stop.

"Wow. You really are coming loudly. " He smirked.

Ok, my brain is back to thinking.

"Shut up Grey," I tell him.

He looks at me, seemingly very pleased with himself. Cocky bastard.

"Oh, Anastasia, you have no idea what are you doing to me," he whispers in my ear.

"Me? What am I doing to you? Rather, it is you who are making me forget about my
brain. I can't believe that I let you finger fuck my during some charity Gala. Fucking
shit, when did I become a slut?"

"Anastasia stop it," he says with anger. "You are right, it will be better if you leave
this place. Because I don't want them to hear you." He is laughing at me.

"Jesus Christian, can you stop? I have to go back to the ballroom."

"No, you are not going back there. You are coming with me," he orders.

"I thought I told you how I feel about your orders. So I am going back to the Gala.
And we can meet some other time. You have my number so call me."

"Why the fuck do you defy me all the time?"

"I don't. And hold your horses. I am here to write about this event, remember?"

"Fuck! He is running his both hands through his , I want to do that. "You can go back
out there but afterwards, you are coming with me."
"Oh, I don't know about that. I'm here with Gideon and it will be rude if I will leave
with you. Christian, maybe we can meet tomorrow? Do you like Sunday brunch?" I
asked.

"Anastasia, you are coming with me after the Gala and that is final." And his words
are so final.

I want to argue with him, but I don't have time. Maybe I can talk with Gideon about it
and he will understand. Yeah, right.

- Ok, Christian I will talk with Gideon. But I really need to go now. – I kissed him on
the cheek, and went back to main room.

Gideon has already started his speech. Did he see me with Christian? Hope not.
Gideon is giving a speech about sexually abused children. He's talking about how it
is to be abused as a child. That means the loss of many things - childhood
experiences, trust, innocence, normal relationships with family members. Do people
know that he is talking about himself? I am so moved by his speech. I can see that
he is carrying a lot of pain and guilt. Oh my God, what happened to you Gideon?
Who did this? Steele, calm down, you can't cry here. Too late for that. And I don't
give a shit. I see people around who are crying now.

Gideon ends his speech and he is coming to me now.

"Gideon, that was…" I trail off into tears.

"Ana, I don't want you to cry. Your tears won't help those kids."

"I know, I know. My tears are for you Gideon."

"Ana please. I am okay. I think we can go now. You ready?" he asks.

"Yes I am. Let's go."

Shit, I cannot leave him now. I decided to text Christian.

Christian, I am leaving with Gideon. As a friend. Please come to my apartment

tomorrow for brunch. I really want to spend some quality time with you.

When we enter the car, Christian is calling me. Gideon is sitting in a car already, I
decide to take this call outside the car. "Gideon, do you mind if I take this? It will just
take a minute." He nods, but his eyes are saying no.

"Anastasia, where the fuck are you?" he yells.

'Christian, I am going home with Gideon. I can't talk right now, I will call you
tomorrow."

"Don't you fucking dare hang up on me. Are you playing me? What the fuck is this?"

"Please, don't talk to me like that. I know that you are hot-headed but don't take your
shit out on me. I think you know how I feel about you so trust me. I will call you
tomorrow. "

"Ana. Please don't do this," he begs.

"I'm not doing anything."

"You're choosing him." I can hear pain in his voice.

"No I am not, damn it Christian, I really need to end this call. Bye."

I will deal with him tomorrow. Scarlet could do it, so can I.

"So you and Grey, huh?" Gideon asks.

"What do you mean?" I ask innocently.

"Ana, don't bullshit me. I saw both of you entering the family room." Oh, he saw that.
Well, shit.

"Uhm, that. We need some private place for talking," I reply evasively.

"If he can make you flush just by talking, he is better at this than I thought. And here I
thought he was gay."

I say nothing.

"That's ok. I got the feeling that you are not romantically interested in me. But maybe
we can continue this as friends.

"I would like that." I smiled.

We talk the whole ride home. Gideon declines my invite to chat more in my
apartment. We schedule for coffee next week. We don't talk about his past. I know
that probably after such event like Good Cause Gala, he wants to talk about
anything but this.
So we sit in the car listen to our favorite HH pieces. Music is our escape from all the
bullshit in life. I'm sure his driver isn't happy about it. Gideon is really an okay guy. If I
hadn't already fallen for Christian, maybe I could be with me, or at least try. But now
this is out of the question. I need to figure out what to do with Mr. Grey.

Sunday

I've called Christian three times this morning. He is not picking up his phone. I
decide to text him.

Hi Christian, I am preparing a lunch for you. I hope you can come to my place
at 12 pm. Call me when you get this message.

Christian, everything is ok? Can you call me?

Why isn't he calling me back? I baked fucking beignets for him and made my
specialty: milk-cinnamon coffee.

"KATE! Emergency!" I yell. She is still in her pajamas.

"What is it? It is lazy Sunday Steele. I am not getting out of my bed," she replies
groggily.

"You need to help me. Christian is not taking my calls. I need a fuckable dress, in
which I will look like a lady."

"Fuckable dress, huh? Someone is missing Christian's fingers?"

"Shut up! And yes." I giggled. I told her yesterday what happened during the Gala.
She wasn't happy with Christian, but she understands how I feel about him.

"My little Ana, you got it bad. But ok, You get your brown 'I am a lady-dress', and I
will give you my fuckable stockings. And maybe some fuck-me stilettos also?" she
suggests

"YES! Please ! You are life saver," I tell her.

"So you are going to see him?" she asks.

"Yeah, I am going to Escala."

"What if he has some girl there?"

"What? Why? He better fucking not! But if so, I will kick her ass, Kate. I need to clear
the atmosphere. I am sure he is over-thinking the fact I went with Gideon last night."

AN

Yeah, I know, it's been awhile.

Some things needed to be said in this chapter so we can speed up a little

soon. Hope you guys still enoying it ;-)

Special and big THANK YOU to Wrenagade for editing this chapter.

You need to check her story Fifty Shades of Grey Steele. I am sure you're
gonna like the twists in this one !
 Chapter 10
AN

Ok guys, my first lemons, probably the last one lol. So don't be too harsh, ok?
If you want to read good lemon try last chapter of Cluster-FK. It's the best !

A special THANK YOU to Wrenegade. You are my hero girl!

As always, all mistakes are mine. I also change the ratings to M.

At 3 pm I arrive at Escala. I park one block away. Then I have to wait at reception for
his approval. Yeah, you are not on a guest list. What did you expect Steele? Be
positive. You are now riding up so he approved, right? When the door opens I see
him. He is wearing jeans and tight white t-shirt. Holy shit, he is barefoot. Now I feel I
have too many clothes on. I'm staring at his feet. Steele, I think you found your fetish
– Christian Grey's feet.

"Hi," I whisper.

"Anastasia. Care to tell me what are you doing here?" His tone is so cold.

"I'm checking on you. I didn't know if you are alive because I was calling and calling,
and you didn't answer any of my calls. Why is that Christian?"

"I was busy." Liar.

"Busy, huh?" I am angry now because he is lying to me." Please don't give some
lame excuse. It is a fucking Sunday. I made a lunch for us, and I don't care if you are
busy now, you are going to eat my beignets, because believe me they are much,
much, much, much tastier than Café de Monde's fucking beignets. And I bake them
only for special occasions." He is silently watching me with his dark eyes. Gray
turned into black.

"Ana, I don't fucking get it. Why are you here, and why did you disappear with Cross
last night? I hate fucking games."

"Christian, please. I am not playing any games here. And you know that."

We stare into each other's eyes for couple of minutes without talking. Steele, he
thinks that you want them both, or that you can't choose? It is no matter of choice in
here. He probably thinks that I am after his money, or Gideon's money. Fuck, why do
they have to be so rich? It would be a lot easier if Christian was a normal guy.

"I want an answer," he says sternly.

"What answer? Please don't ask me if I fucked Gideon last night. Because if you
think so low of me it would be better if I go."

He is silent. Yep, that was the question he wanted to ask. Fucker. I am leaving!

"No Ana, stay." He is holding my arm. His touch awakens me down there. Because
when a man loves a woman it is all in his touch. Then words don't mean that much*.
I have too many lyrics in my head.

"I actually wanted to ask you if you want some wine?" Baby just shut your mouth.*

"That would be lovely, Mr Liar." Jeez, I must be really desperate. I am allowing him to
lie to me.

"Be careful," he warns me. Oh, he doesn't like his new nickname.

"So don't lie to me."

"Anastasia," he sighs. "Let's talk about yesterday."

He is furious with me for leaving with Gideon. But I assure him that Gideon is only a
friend. After a long talk when I start to think that we are on good terms now he still
doesn't let go of my leaving with Gideon.

"He is a friend who wants to get to your panties, Anastasia."

"But it won't happen. So please stop. I don't want to talk more about Gideon," I reply,
exasperated.

"So what do you want to talk about?"

"Well, we don't have to talk" – I smiled at him. I hope that my blushing show him
what I have in mind. I try not to show my disappointment when he asks me:

"Anastasia, it is dinner time. Are you hungry?"

"No." - Well not for food.

"I'm going to order something. What do you want?"

"Ok, I can have some pizza."

"Pizza? I can order something better."

"Pizza will be fine, Christian" – I am rolling my eyes.

"Woman, don't roll your eyes at me again. Or you will be spanked" – he smirks.

He is calling some Italian restaurant. Dammit, why he is keeping his hands off me?
He didn't do any move. When we were talking all I was thinking was "kiss me, kiss
me, kiss me. I wear this fucking stockings for nothing. I am standing near his piano.
It is beautiful. Baby Grand. I bet it costs a lot.

- "Do you want me to play something for you?" – he asks in flirty way. His moods
change a lot.

- "Yes, your favorite piece."

He plays some melancholy piece. Amazing. I could watch him forever. I sit next to
him on the piano bench.

- "Chopin. Prelude. Op. 28 nr 4. It is my favorite piece today. I played it last night

when I got home. It sooths my mood."

- "Christian, I… - I am sorry. I thought you knew how I feel about you."

- "No, Anastasia, I really don't" – he says coldly. Fuck, I thought that we already
explained everything between us.

- "Do you really want me to say it? Outloud?" – He nods. – " Ok, I will say it. I am not
shy when it comes to emotions. I am totally smitten with you Christian Grey. Fuck, I
invaded your privacy and came here today. I wanted you to spend the night with me
on Thursday. For fuck's sake's, I let you finger fuck me last night." – Now I am
standing, there are too many emotions in me, I can't just sit. – "I' ve been a good girl
all my life, but when you showed up my brain totally lost it, now I can't stop thinking
about kissing you, hugging you, being with you. When you are kissing me I feel like I
am immortal. When I look at you I see ale the kinky stuff we could do. And I know
there is something between us. I thought that you felt it too. But why the fuck did you
freak out when I told you about my virginity? Is that such a horrible thing? Christian, I
didn't have you in my plans, but you messed up with my head and with my heart.
You make me smile and it means something for me. And now I feel like I am
pursuing you, like I am the only one in this…" – tears are streaming down my face.
Fuck, what if he rejects me again? It was stupid to come here.
- " Ana… " - The next second he is wiping my tears away and kissing me slowly and
gently. I run my fingers through his hair and he moans. He presses me to the piano,
leaning me against the side of it. His hand rests on my hip and the other one around
my neck. The first soft gentle kiss turns into a deep passionate kiss. Is he telling me
with his body that he wants me to stay? Oh, I like that. He lifts me and sets me on
the piano. He stands between my legs and kisses me more. I need to breathe! He is
so intense.

- "Oh jesus, Ana you are wearing stockings ! This dress is too short for wearing
stockings!"

- "Do you really want to talk about fashion now?" I am saying between gasps for air.

- "This is mine! For my eyes only. Do you understand?" – He is cupping my sex with
his hand. His domineering voice overwhelms me. I can hardly breathe. He takes a
deep breath before saying: "Stay here." - What? Where is he going? Oh right. YAY
Steele! He is back with a condom. So it will finally happen Steele.

- "Are you sure about this?" His eyes do not leave mine.

- "Yes, Christian, take me."

He chuckles. – "In that case, I think you are overdressed Anastasia."

- "I think I am. What we do about it?" – I tease. I feel so playful with him, so sexy and
so fucking aroused!

He unzips my dress. Now I am sitting on the piano in my bra, panties, stockings and
fuck-me-shoes.

- "We don't need these" – he says as he takes off my panties and puts them in his
pocket.

- "Lay down baby, I will take care of you." He starts to kiss me there. O jeez, his
tongue is sliding between my drenched folds. Fuck, it is insane. I will never get used
to this. He puts my legs on his shoulders for better access. I am so close.

- "Christian!" – I say his name, or rather yell it when I come.

- "Yes, baby. Say my name. I am yours."

He puts his long finger in me. No, please. I can't do this anymore. My body cannot
climax again. Oooah! Fuck cannot. I am going to come again.
- "No Christian, I can't" – I am panting.

- "Baby, you need to be ready for my cock. I don't want to hurt you. I want to
pleasure you. You need to be soaking wet before I enter you."

I don't know what is happening but I am now standing with my face toward piano.

- "Bend over baby." – My body obeys him.

He enters me from behind. Is it a good position for the first time? I don't have time to
think because now he is sliding his cock slowly in and out. My body is vibrating.

- "Are you okay? The pleasure will come in a moment."

- "I am okay" – I am ecstatic!

His arms rests on mine, his lips kissing my neck. He makes me to lean more. Oh my.
The thrusts are deeper now.

- "Don't come yet." – What? How the fuck can I stop it? My brain can't control my
body.

- "Christian,ooooh".

I feel his lips on mine, I feel his rock-hard chest on my back, his hands on mine.

- "Okay baby. Give it to me." – he starts thrusting his cock faster and harder. Holy
fuck! I am going crazy!

- "Fuck, Ana" –he hisses pouring himself in me. We climax together. Oh God, fuck
the career, fuck everything. I want to be this man's sex slave! I just had my first on
the piano! My, my Steele.

I wake up in the morning before alarm clock. Where am I? Right, Christian's

bedroom. He is still sleeping. Last night was amazing. We had piano sex, couch sex,
and finally made sweet love in bedroom. I think he wanted to have more but I was
too sore. I have to ask him about this marks on his chest and back. I noticed that he
stiffened every time I was about to touch him. Like he was scared. Okay, I need to
get ready for classes.

- "Morning babe. What are you thinking so deeply about?" – he asks.

- "Oh, you are awake. Were you watching me?"

- "A little. Come here." – He wraps his arms around me and presses his body to
mine.

- "No, I have morning breathe! No please!" I blush in embarrassment.

- "You think it will stop me from kissing you?" He is holding my hands above me
head trying to kiss me but I press my lips in a hard line, not allowing him to enter my
mouth. But when he starts to massage my breasts a small moan escape from my
lips and his tongue take its chance. I surrender. Our tongues are dancing and I feel
butterflies again. He licks his finger and puts in my pussy.

- "Ana, damn you are so ready. I love it baby." He kisses my breasts and starts to
work with his long finger inside me. Oh gooooooood. "Not yet, Ana. Control it." Tell
me how? He withdraws his finger and is ready to enter me with his cock.

- "Christian, protection." - My breathing is erratic.

- "Relax baby, I know. Just want to feel you. I won't cum in you without a condom. I
need to feel you and I want you to feel all of me." He slides in and out. "You are so
warm and so wet." I start to move my hips to welcome his thrusts. "Ana, keep still or
I won't control myself."

Fuck, I like this domineering side of him in bed. I feel it between my legs. When I am
about to come he stops his rhythm to put a condom on. Damn it, I was so close ! I
need my release. He is inside me again but taking so damn slowly.

- "Harder Christian!" He starts to move faster and rougher. Fuck, I love it! If I thought
that I like sweet love making, I was wrong. I love fucking!

- "Christian!" – I come with his name on my lips.

Holy sweet jesus. What was that? I feel like I have some superpower now. That was
the best orgasm ever. I think I lost my mind. We are lying on our backs breathing
harshly.

- "Fuck, you are a screamer. I think I need to remodel my bedroom to be soundproof.

"

- "Shut up! You are not being a gentleman to says things like that to me. "

- "Who said I am a gentleman? I am going to make you blush every day my sweet
Ana so be prepared for some dirty talk. Come, let's have a shower. "
- "I need to get clothes from my car first."

- "You have clothes in your car?"

- "Yes, I came prepared. No walk of shame for Ana."

- "Where is it? I will send Taylor to get it."

- "It is on Market Street. But I will go by myself. I do want your goon to collect my
underwear. I think he has more important things to do."

- "Well, it is his job. Give me your keys and get in the bathroom to be ready for round
two."

It's been two days without Christian. Even if we talk everyday on the phone I miss
him. I miss his touch, his smile, his fuckable smell. Why the fuck do I need to work in
evenings? Jeez, cheer up. You are going to spend with him whole weekend Steele.
It is only one day left. Let's focus on your job, ok?

This is my last Zumba class for today. I don't like Wednesday's groups because it
has to be always in show room, when everybody can see while we dance. I know
that the girls don't like it also.

First, I smell him, then see him. He is standing on the balcony and watches us. I can
see him in a mirror but he doesn't know I see him. Good. Let's put this show on the
road. I need to show him what my body can do. Right Steele, like you didn't already.
I giggle at that thought. Girls look at me with their eyebrows high, I am choosing the
next song for too long. Ok, let's go with this. – "Sing girls!"

I, I'll do anything I could for ya,

Boy you're my only
I, I'm gonna flip the script on ya

Our eyes meet in the mirror, smoldering gray to bright blue. He is so beautiful with
his cocky smile. I bet he is enjoying watching hot girls dancing in front of him. Oh,
you are gonna regret this Mr Grey. Will I be a bad instructor if I choose next song
with a very complicated routine? Nope. And Pitbull isn't so complicated. They are
gonna do fine. But you better. I really should see a shrink. My subconscious is a
bitch.

After class and quick shower I head to reception. He is standing there, waiting for
me. He looks good in his navy suite with gray tie. I see that Tina is approaching him
and she is giving a piece of paper, shit, probably her phone number. SLUT ! Calm
down Steele. Please baby, please throw it away. He puts in his pocket. FUCK ! I
watch him with terror in my eyes. What does it mean? When he's done with me, he
is gonna call her? Fucker. I can't believe it. He sees me now.

"Ana, what's wrong?" He asks, concern marring his perfect face.

"Nothing. Umm no, actually, there is something. Could you pick up your sluts
somewhere else, not in my work place? I would really appreciate that."

AN

Yep, Ana is a green eyed monster. Please remember that, in this fanfic Ana
isn't so shy as in FSOG.

* Celine Dione In his touch

Disclaimer: Characters belong to EL James.

 Chapter 11
Disclaimer: I own nothing.

"Ana, what's wrong?" I can't hide that I'm hurt.

"Nothing. Actually, there is something. Could you pick up your sluts somewhere else,
not in my work place? I would really appreciate it."

"Watch it Ana!" he scolds me. " Taylor is waiting outside, come."

He grabbed my arm and leads me to SUV. I am thinking hard what to do. I will not go
ballistic, he didn't do anything, but he might in the future. Well, we didn't even talk
about being exclusive.

"You are sure you want only me? You can call Tina to join us". Why the fuck am I
saying this?

"What's wrong with you today?" he asks, irritated.

"I saw how you were hiding Tina's number in your pocket so don't fucking ask me
what's wrong!"

"Tina is the blonde girl? You are jealous of the Malibu girl?" He laughs.

"What is so fucking funny Grey?"

"You. Baby I told you that you are mine, and I am yours. Maybe I should be more
clear. I am not interested in anyone but you. Woman are always giving me their
phone numbers. I wanted to be polite and not hurt her feelings. Mia taught me that.
She said that I need to be nicer to women, because it's not so easy for them to ask
me out. Yeah, when I was younger I wasn't so nice to her friends who had crushes
on me. That girl was nice, but she was only attracted to my face. I get used to it. It is
just pretty face Ana. I know that women find me attractive, but I don't give a shit
about it. I am interested in one petite brunette, with one smoking hot body, who can
swear like a sailor but still blushes when she hears truth about being a screamer," he
teases.

"Are you complaining?" I smirk.

"No baby, I am not. Come here my green eyed goddess," he says playfully.
"I miss you. And I am sorry. I don't know what's got into me. She is so beautiful
and…" I giggled "I was jealous."

"Why the giggle?" He caresses my cheek.

"I've never been jealous before. I didn't know that I could be so possessive of
someone. When I saw her I was so pissed. And I called her a slut in my mind, don't
know why because I really like her."

"Ana listen, I am a monogamist. And if you think that you are possessive, be
prepared, because I am the Master of Possession. So there will be no other guy in
your life Anastasia. Ever."

His domineering words aroused every sensation in my body. I press the button for
the privacy panel to separate us from Taylor. I straddle his lap before he has a
chance to say anything. I need him now. We kiss like we are the only two people in
the world. I start to unzip his pants. He gives me a question look, but says nothing.
I'm stroking his enormous shaft. He is already hard.

"Ana, what you are doing?"

"Shhhh, I will take care of you Mr Grey," I tease. I pull down my yoga pants, then my
panties and lower myself on him. He fills me up completely. I start to move. Oh fuck,
it is deep in this position. His breathing is harsh. He is looking at me with his dark
eyes but I can't read his face. Doesn't he like it? I ride him harder and he starts to
groan. Oh, I love that sound.

"Look at me!" – I obey him and open my eyes to be captured by his gaze. I come
loudly. Again. Too bad for Taylor. I am still riding him, when I feel he relaxes after his
own release saying my name. I start to kiss him everywhere – eyes, cheeks, nose,
forehead, and gently his lips. I want to feel connected forever.

We cuddle for the rest of the ride saying nothing. We arrive at my apartment all too
soon.

"Are you staying for the night?" I ask him.

"I can't baby. I have an early meeting."

"So what's this? Sex in the car and a kiss for goodnight. You came only for a fuck?"

"Anastasia, I came to see you. And I would say that it was you who fucked me."
"Well, don't ever make me jealous." I try to be serious but I am happy.

"See you tomorrow baby, are we still on for the weekend?"

"Yes, I can't wait." I am so excited!

"I will send Taylor for you."

"I have a car. Wanda wasn't working today, but I will have her fixed tomorrow."

"Anastasia, Taylor will pick you up from Gym at 9 pm." Fucking command again. But
after the hot car-sex I don't have the energy to fight.

"Yes Sir". I see a gleam in his eyes. He stops breathing for a second. Yeah Grey, you
wanted to fight. Not happening tonight. I give him a kiss and leave the car.

Friday morning

Holy fuck. If I'm able walk today, it will be a fucking miracle. The man lying next to
me has some magic stamina. I don't know if I'll be able to keep up with him, and I am
a fitness instructor, for fuck's sake. He tied me up! He fucking tied me up last night!
And what is shocking is I fucking loved it! I was at his mercy. I wasn't scared, it felt so
right. Yeah Steele, sometimes not being in control is the best feeling in the world. I
need to have a shower before him. I can't have another round; I'm too sore.

"Hi baby, why didn't you wait for me with the shower?"

"You were sleeping like a baby and I didn't have the heart to wake you up."

"Yeah, I really slept well. It's probably because of Anastasia's Effect" He smile his
boyish smile at me.

"Anastasia's Effect?"

"Yep," he says very pleased; oh I like playful Christian. "Whenever I have you in my
arms, I am calm." – kiss- "I am relaxed." –kiss-

"Ok, I know I am awesome but well, apparently when I am around you my

awesomeness is getting better." He laughs at me cocky comment.

After breakfast he goes to his study. I don't have classes today but need to go to the
library for some research. Also I will be meeting Gideon and Kate today for coffee. It
is the second time this week. I haven't told Christian about it. Maybe I will tell him
tonight. Or when he is asleep. Good plan Steele.

Christian is in his study. I knock on the door, and not waiting for his response I open
it.

"Are you ready?"

"Yeah, find Taylor and tell him to be ready in five. He is probably in his office. I just
need to check one more thing," Christian says.

"Okay."

Where is Taylor's office? He needs to show me around this place. I know his
bedroom very well, but I wasn't even upstairs. I take mental note to ask him about
the grand tour. Maybe this door? No, it's a bathroom. Door next to the elevator? I
open them and see many TV screens. Screens show every apartment's room.
Kitchen, living room, his study. Every place where we fucked. He is recording
everything. He has tapes of fucking me. My heart is pounding, my chest hurts, and it
is getting harder to breathe. I can't breathe. I can't…. Blackout.

CPOV

I don't know what this girl is doing to me. I've never felt like this before. The worst is
that I can't control my feelings for her. I can feel that she is becoming the most
important person in my life and I've known her for five fucking minutes. Is it love? No,
Christian Grey doesn't love. So why do I feel like she is becoming my whole life? It's
like I can't function without her. With one smile she can make me feel better, forget
about my frustration and anger. Get a grip Grey. You didn't show her your playroom.
And when you do that, she is going to run for the hills. That's for sure. Fuck. I won't
show her. Can I do that? Vanilla is good with her. Good? It is fuck-amazing. She is
so feisty in real life, but in a bedroom she is one good submissive. She was so
aroused when I tied her up. Maybe she needs to rest from being such a firecracker,
from her independence and firmness. I love to watch her when she sleeps. She
looks so petite and fragile. She is a fighter in daylight but when she sleeps is just a
little girl who needs protection. I can't get her to tell me why she carries a gun. She
wasn't happy when I told her not to bring her Glock here.

"Are you ready?" She enters not waiting for my approval. She is not a submissive
outside the bedroom for sure.

"Yeah, find Taylor and tell him to be ready in five. He is probably in his office. I just
need to check one more thing." Fuck, I should have called Ros to tell her I won't be
at Grey House today but was only thinking about Ana.

"Ros, I won't be at Grey House today. If something important comes up, call Taylor
and he will contact me. I will be unavailable for the whole weekend."

"Is everything ok?" she asks.

"Yes, finally it is." I end the call with a big stupid grin on my face. This weekend is
going to be legend… wait for it… dary! Fucking Elliot, made me to watch that stupid
show.

I leave my study when I hear her scream. What the fuck is going on? I see Ana on
the floor next to Taylor's office. She wraps her arms around her knees and starts to
rock. Her eyes are closed but she is crying.

"Ana, Ana, what happened?"

She says nothing. Only swaying and holding her knees tightly.

"Taylor!"

"Yes sir?" – he shows up from the staff quarters.

"What the fuck happened here?" He looks at her and from his face I can see he
doesn't have a clue. "Ana, open your eyes baby. Tell me what's wrong." I ask her.

"No, no ,no. Please," she sobs. "Please, don't touch me. Please pleeeease!" She
cries and I think my heart will stop any second. I can't stand her pain.

"Ana, tell me what happened? Why are you so upset?"

"Please, please" - she sobs. I can see that she is shutting her eyes hard.

"Sir, I think she is having a panic attack," Taylor says.

"But why? We were about to leave. Everything was fine."

"I don't know sir. Maybe you should call Dr Flynn."

"He doesn't know her. I am not sure if he will help her. I will call her friend."

I take Ana's phone from her purse to call her roommate. There is no Kate Kavanagh
in this stupid old phone. How did she call her? Fuck. Yes, Sis Kate, that must be she.
"Hi, sis what's up? Are you bailing on us? Are you really so dicktamized?" She
laughs.

"Kate, it's Christian Grey."

"What's wrong? Why are you calling from Ana's phone? Where is she?" – her tone is
now protective.

"She is with me at Escala. But she is not feeling well. I think she might be having a
panic attack and I don't know why. Can…"

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?" – she screams, almost making me deaf.

"I did nothing. Fuck, Kate can you come up here. She is sitting on the floor, rocking
and singing some song. But when I talk to her, it's like she doesn't hear me. And I
can't touch her. It's like she thinks she is not here."

"I am on my way." I hear the car's engine. "What song is she singing?"

"What? I don't know. She is rather mumbling than singing."

"I will fucking kill you Grey." She hangs up.

"Taylor, Miss Kavanagh is on her way here. She probably has a gun. Call reception
to search her before sending her up." I watch Ana sitting in a corner with her head
hidden between her legs. She is singing. God damn it, this song will haunt me
forever.

"Sir, Mr Kavanagh and Mr Cross is here. They were checked." Why the Fuck is
Cross here?

"Send them up," I barked at Taylor. Cross. What does that fucker want? Is Kavanagh
banging him now? What about Elliot? Fuck, I don't have time for this shit.

When Kate enters my apartment her eyes are searching for Ana. When she sees
her, in nanosecond she is next to her. Singing with her this fucking song.

You and I will always be together

From this day on you'll never walk alone
You're a part of me, I'm a part of you
Wherever we may travel
Whatever we go through
Whatever time may take away
It cannot change the way we feel today
So hold me close and say you feel it too
You're a part of me, and I'm a part of you*

What the hell? She kisses her on forehead and Ana opens her eyes. They are red
from crying. And full of pain and fear.

"Sis…" Ana whispers.

"I am here Sissy. I am here. Everything will be ok." She comforts her. No one says
anything. Cross and Taylor are watching them with wet eyes. Fuck, what the hell
happened here?

"He has tapes." Ana tells after a while.

"What tapes?"

"Of me." Kate stops breathing but compose herself in a minute.

"I will take care of it Sissy," she says to her with the sweetest voice she has. "Now
stop digging your fingers in your arms. Ok, loosen it up. Good girl. I am here with
Gideon, you see?" She points to Cross. Ana looks up but I'm not sure if she can see
him.

"Gideon, can you find those tapes?" Kate asks.

"Kate, for fuck's sake, I don't have any tapes of Ana. I don't know what is she talking
about."

She doesn't care what I am saying. Cross enters Taylor's office and smashes
everything in there. CCTV cameras. Fuck. She thought I was recording?

"Those are security cameras. They are not for recording. The system erases itself
after 24 hours."

"You have no idea what you have done Grey," Cross hisses.

"You fucked her in front of cameras and your staff was watching it. What's wrong
with you?" Kate scolds me.

"Of course not. There is no camera in the bedroom. And when we were outside
bedroom… Fuck! Ana, baby, I wasn't recording it. It is not my thing. You need to
believe me. Baby…" She won't even look at me. Like I don't exist.
"Gideon, did you trash everything?" – Kate asks.

"Yes, there is no damn CD of CCTV records."

"Ok, let's go then. Ana Sissy, Gideon will take you on his arms, ok? He is your friend,
remember?"

"Hi girl, you are safe with me," Gideon says to Ana and lifts her up. She wraps her
arms around his neck and looks uncomfortable. Fuck.

"Kate, I didn't record it, it is only CCTV. Fuck. Why did she panic? What happened to
her? Kate, you need to tell me!" I hold her arm to stop her from walking in the
elevator.

"I don't need to tell you anything! You put her in this condition and I should cut your
dick for that. Well, she didn't tell you. She probably doesn't trust you to tell you about
it. So it is not my place to say why she panicked. But I can tell you that you fucked
this up Grey. Big time."

They are gone. What, how, why? Fuck, I can't control my brain now. Get yourself
together Grey.

"Taylor, I need a better background of Anastasia. I want to know about every minute
of her life. And about every fucking person she met," I barked.

-ANA POV-

"Noooo !" I wake up with a scream.

"Ana!" Kate walks into my room. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, just a bad dream."

"About what?"

"You know about what." – I snap.

"About Christian?" she asks.

"No of course not. Why are you asking that? You know I have only wet dreams about
him." I giggle.

"Ana Sissy, let's have some tea and some talking."

Kate told me what happened. Oh My God. I had a blackout. Never had one before.
But I remember some things. Did he really record us? What he was going to do with
those tapes? Did his goons watch us? OMG, the piano sex. No, we were alone.
Fuck! I can't believe this. Obviously trusting him was a fucking mistake.

"Kate, I can't be with him," I cry.

"Why? Because of cameras? I think they were really just cameras, no recordings of
anything."

"So what? We fucked in the living room, in the kitchen and he has cameras in there.
He recorded it. I can't believe this is happening to me."

"Hey, nothing happened. Gideon trashed everything. He has no films of you. You are
safe Sissy."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Ana, Christian said he didn't…"

"I don't believe him!" I interrupted her. "How could he fuck me while his goons were
watching usIt's sick!"

"Well, it is. Why didn't you tell him?"

"Kate! He can't know! You promise to never mention it. Why can't you forget about
it? I did."

"Ana, you have to stop pretending like it didn't happen. Maybe you want to go with
me to Doctor Lynn next time?"

"No, I don't need that" – I snap.

"I think you do. It is haunting you. You were so in love with Christian and now
because of security cameras you want to end everything with him. "

"I am not in love with him. He is a fucking pervert."

"You didn't see him when you had an anxiety attack. I really think he was going to
have a one too. And Sissy, you can deny it, but you allowed him to take your virginity
and I know that it is not because of sexual tension between the two of you. I know
there is more. You fell for him. I saw it when you came back after the interview. You
had sparkles in your eyes every time you spoke of him. At first, I thought you had
just a crush on him, but Anastasia Steele doesn't have a crush, does she?"
"Kate stop please! I can't think about it right now. And I was mistaken once,
remember?"

"Grey is different. You are different with him. I don't think he is going to let you go so
easily. Sissy, I need to go to work now, Gideon will come to check on you later, ok?"

"Why Gideon and not Ethan?"

"Ethan is out of town. You don't want Gideon here? He is your friend. You told him
about that night."

"Yeah, I know. I would just feel safer if Ethan would be here."

"Sissy, you will be safe with Gideon. He entered our little family. He has your back.
So calm down. Call me anytime, ok?"

"Okay. I love you, Sis."

"I love you too. You and I will always be together.*"

A/N Thanks again to everyone who reads and reviews and follows.

As always big thank you to Wrenegade for editing!

*Song by Glen Frey - Part Of Me, Part Of You

 Chapter 12
Characters belong to EL James, .

Saturday

What a day. Fuck, what a night. I am preparing a breakfast for me and well, for
Gideon. What the hell happened? I was living a very boring life and now what is this?
Apparently being a journalist helps you to meet some really interesting people.

Gideon enters the kitchen. Yeah, he is not happy to see me.

"Hi. Hungry?" I ask him.

"I should be going ," he says not looking in my eyes.

"You can go after breakfast. We need to talk about last night."

"Just drop it Ana."

"How can I drop it G? We should talk, it is not something I can forget, right? And you
either."

"I am a big boy. I can handle myself."

"Gideon you really need to talk about it with someone, some professional who can
help you. As much I believe in talking problems with friends, it is too damn serious."

"I didn't want to hurt you, I am sorry."

"That's ok G. You didn't. But…"

"Can we not talk about it right now? Tell me instead, what are you going to do with
Grey?"

If only I had an answer for that. I just freaked out. I know Christian thinks I am crazy.
How can I fix it?

"Go on with your inner dialogue, but I hope you can find time to answer me." He
smirks. But his smirking isn't panty dropping for me. Yep, there is only one man that
does that. Fuck, I miss him.
"Ok, I see," Gideon states.

"What do you see?"

"That you've already make up your mind. I can't believe that I'm saying this but call
the bastard."

" I can't. What will I say to him? He probably will want to know why I panicked.
Damn, for sure he will want to know."

"So tell him."

"Fuck, it this déjà vu? I've already had this conversation with Kate. It's my life and I'm
calling the shots here so back off."

"Chill. You told me. And if I am getting it right, Grey is the one for you. Why don't you
trust him? Had he done something more than recording?"

"No. And it is not about the trust. I don't want him to know. I don't want him to pity
me, ok?"

"Ana, it's not…" he was cut off by the doorbell.

Ding dong. Fuck, Kate probably lost her keys again. As I open the door I see him.
The most gorgeous man on the planet. How someone can look like that? It should
be forbidden. Stop staring Steele and say something. Maybe he will forgive you your
childish behavior. Maybe you can be his again.

"Christian." I sigh.

"Ana, baby, don't shut the door please." he pleads.

"Okay." I can say only this. I gather all my strength not to kiss him right now.

"Can I come in? I want to explain the reasons for cameras."

"Yes, of course. We are having breakfast."

"We? Oh right, but I want to talk with you in private, not with Kate listening. You can
tell her later."

"No, Kate is… well, I think she is with Elliot because she didn't come after work."

As Christian was about to ask with whom I am, Gideon came out from kitchen. If the
looks could kill.

"Grey," Gideon greets.

"Cross," Christian replies.

I feel cold. Are we in Greenland now?

"Ana, I will be going. Call me." Gideon looks at Christian and than at me and smirks
"Later." He walks out of the apartment and now I'm standing alone with one angry
Christian Grey.

"Tell me he just came here for breakfast," he barks.

"No Christian, he spent the night here." Why the fuck did you say that out loud,
Steele?

"Why?"

"Really – just why? And not your favourite line – did you fuck him? Well, well, well
Christian Grey can learn something in a relationship." I smirked.

"Is this still a relationship?" he asks, coldly. My heart just stopped. No beating. Fuck,
I didn't want to face him after my stunt in his apartment, but now I think I'll die if he
breaks up with me.

"Christian, I am sorry for what happened yesterday. I wasn't thinking." I want to say
more, but I feel that my body is shaking. I close my eyes to stop the tears. I can't cry,
I can't be a one silly woman. I am strong, I am strong.

"Baby," he wraps his hands around me. His warm body is what I need right now.

"I am so sorry." I sobbed.

"Why are you sorry, baby? I didn't know. I should have told you about the security
cameras. But believe me it wasn't for any recording purpose. I had a break-in last
year and after that I put CCTV in every room. Ana, being in relationship is new to
me. But I know that trust is important. So maybe we can talk, maybe you can tell me
about reasons for your hatred of the videos."

"I'd rather not. Can we just pass with that? Pretend like it never happened?"

"No, Anastasia we can't. I have my suspicion, and I want you to tell me. You can't
have another panic attack while we are at Escala."
"Christian, if you want me to be back at Escala, you need to turn the cameras off.
That is non-negotiable. I just, I can't be there with someone observing me."

"Ana, I need CCTV for my safety, for your safety."

"You have your goons for your safety, Christian. I won't put my feet at Escala with
those cameras on."

"Fuck, Ana why are you so stubborn?" He runs his hand through his hair. We stare
at each other. I won't back off. I can't. "Deal," he says finally. "But you're gonna to tell
me why. And I don't want to hear some half-true shit."

"Why the fuck do you need to know? It's in the past. Nothing can change that. So it's
better to forget. I did."

"How the fuck did you forget? By having a panic attack? Don't bullshit me Ana. I
know Gideon knows the truth. How come he can know and I not? I thought that I was
your boyfriend." Boyfriend? I laughed at that. "What so fucking funny?" He looks
shock by my laughing response.

"I'm sorry – I can't stop laughing – just THE GREAT Christian Grey called himself a
boyfriend. And it just doesn't suit him. I mean the title."

"So who am I?" he asks.

"My man." I bite my bottom lip.

"Woman, you will not distract me with sex right now. I know this technique. I invented
it. We need to talk. I want to protect you but you need to tell me what the hell
happened to you."

"Ok, just promise me to not pity me. I won't stand that."

"Ana…"

"And you will tell me why you flinch every time I am about to touch your chest. And I
want to know about those marks." He looks lost; I bet he didn't expect that. "Yes,
Christian, a trust is a two way street. Are you ready to ride this street?"

" Anastasia, only with you, baby." He kisses my forehead and leads me to the couch.
It is going to be a long talk…

Some time after the talk

Do I attract only damaged people? Between Christian's and Gideon's fucked-up-
ness, I can't tell who is more damaged. And I can't forget about Kate. What did I get
myself into? And he is into BDSM?! He is bossy in bed, and I love it but a Dominant?
WTF? What the fuck does it means for me? I won't be his submissive, fuck no , I
won't. Aren't you already Steele? Fuck me, I like when he takes control over my
body. But I don't know much about BDSM. Fuck, I need to do some research.

And what about his formative years? I thought that my family was horrible. Now I feel
like a brat. Damn, I am so grateful to Grace and Carrick for adopting him. At least he
had some happy place to live.

"Ana, I've told you enough. Now is time for your story." Christian interrupts my
thinking.

Yep, I think it is. Thank fuck for my journalist's abilities to make him talk first. Focus
Steele. What do you want to tell him? For sure not truth. Half of it? Well, it's sounds
reasonable. No, it doesn't. Oh my God, I need a shrink.

AN

First off, a big thank you to Wrenegade for editing. Also thank you for reviews
and for following this story. It's been a long wait, sorry for that. I have fallen
head over heels in love with Sebastian Hunter from Jane Harvey-Berrick's
books "The Education of Sebestian/Caroline and couldn't focus :)

I didn't want to write Christian's story because you all know it too well. The
only thing he didn't say - about Elena Bitch Troll Robinson. There will be a time
for that later.
 Chapter 13
Flashback

"Hi, come in." He kisses me.

"Hi José."

"Baby doll, I am so happy you agreed to come."

"José, let's talk first."

He looks at me confused. I know he thinks that tonight will be that night. But I can't
do this. I don't love him. Call me stupid but I want to make love to my boyfriend, not
just have sex. And I can't separate sex and love. Can I? Well, José is okay guy, but
he seems more like a friend. Maybe this boyfriend thing isn't for me. I like him, but
when he is kissing me all I can think is when he is going to stop. Maybe I am
asexual? So why the fuck does David Gandy turn you on? Holy shit, is Gandy really
a reason for my first break-up?

"What are you saying Ana?" he asks.

"José, I like you. I really do. But I think we should be just friends. I just think that all
this relationship stuff isn't for me. I really tried to enjoy it. And I did. Sometimes. You
are a very interesting guy and you can have every girl you want. But I think we will
be better as friends."

"Ana, I don't understand. We've been together for three months, and now you're
telling me that you don't want me. Is there someone else?"

"No, of course not. But I don't feel that way I should feel. I like you. But there is no
lust. And I know that there is no lust for me on your side, José. That's why I think we
should end this." He is silent.

"You're right, baby doll. There's not much heat between us. Maybe friendship will
work for us. I find you attractive, but you are sometimes too cold and too nerdy. So,
what now? Friends for life?"

Not after you tell me I am too nerdy for you. He has some nerves. Maybe this is his
way to not feel hurt by my breaking up with him.

"Hey, I just made some drinks. You remember, baby doll that I finished my bartender
course last week. Do you want to try my special cocktail? We could celebrate our
new friendship."

"Oh, I don't know José. I think I should go."

"So you didn't mean it. It was only pity talk, let's just be friends. Famous cheesy line."

"No José, I really mean it." I hesitate for moment, "Ok, let's try your special."

"You got it baby doll. I have special drinks for you; you are going to love this."

Well, his drinks are tasty. I feel really dizzy. And it was only two cocktails. How much
vodka did he put in it? OMG, I can't feel gravity. This makes me anxious. I don't have
such a light head. And I feel really relaxed and drowsy. And I know it is not because
of alcohol because alcohol makes me fun and give me energy to do stupid things.

"José, I need to use the bathroom. Where is it?"

"Ana, baby doll, are you so tipsy that you can't remember where the bathroom is? Is
right there."

"Oh, thanks, I really need to pee."

"Take your time."

While I'm in the bathroom, I really try to focus. I broke up with him. That is a fact.
Why is he serving me cocktails? He should be hurt or at least pissed at me. At least I
would if he did the same thing. His cocktails smell different. Thank fuck for being a
woman and taking my purse to the bathroom. Where is the fucking lipstick? "Cool
and innocent, the lip gloss comes with a set of pink test strips that can be easily
dipped into a drink to test for GHB and ketamine. The strips turn blue straight away if
the drink is spiked." Thank fuck Kate made me to learn it by heart. Let's check it.
OMG! I had blue lips. FUCK! I drank two cocktails. It's been 20 minutes. GHB works
after 15? After 30 minutes? I am in deep shit. I need to call Kate ASAP. Kate pick up
the phone, pick up, pretty please.

"Hi Sissy, is the break up done?"

"Kate! Listen carefully. José drugged me. I used the lipstick you gave me. I have blue
lips. BLUE LIPS."

"Fuck Ana, are you still in his room?"

"Yes, I am in the bathroom."

"Ana, DO NOT GET OUT FROM THE BATHROOM. Do you hear me? Stay where
you are. Do not listen to José, whatever he will say. Do you understand? Write it on
the mirror with your other lipstick."

I can't focus. Why I am talking to Kate? I can hear someone is calling me. "Ana, Ana,
are you there?"

"Kate. I feel so good, maybe it's not a drug, maybe I am just a little tipsy."

"Ana, focus ! You have blue lips. Remember BLUE LIPS. Stay where you are. I'm
coming to get you."

"Ana, you've been in there a while. Is everything ok?" José asks me.

"Yes José, I will be right there with you. Kate, I need to go."

"NO ANA!"

"Love you Sis, thanks for calling me." Was I supposed to write something?

I end the call. Where am I? Damn, this bathroom is messy. Maybe I should clean it
up?

"Ana?" someone calls to me.

Oh right, that's José. My boyfriend.

"Oh sorry it took my so long. But I really needed to pee." I giggled.

"That's ok. Why don't you lay down on a bed. You look exhausted."

"ANA! Open your eyes! Do you hear me? ANA!"

"So now you know. Kate saved me. She came with Ethan and got me out from his
apartment before he did anything. He gave me GHB in the drinks. Even Kate taught
me everything about rape drinks, I didn't notice it in the first place. He was my
boyfriend and at that time I would never thought that he might be a fucking rapist.
And the reason why I freaked out at Escala is that he wanted to film it." I burst into
tears, I feel so ashamed of myself. "I don't remember that, but Kate told me that he
was setting the camera in front of the bed. They found me lying on the bed. Naked. I
thank God every day for the Kavanagh family. They made it on time."
"Baby, I am so sorry." He hugs me tight. I feel so safe in his arms. "I want to kill the
fucker. What is his last name?"

"It's not important anymore. He is out of my life."

"Did you press charges?"

"No, I couldn't make myself to go through it. I wasn't so strong. Christian, you need
to understand that I liked him. I thought that he was a good guy, we had similar
interests and he was very smart. It fucking shocked me that a person you were
suppose to know could do something like that. I didn't want to press charges
because I wanted to forget all about it. Erase it from my mind. I don't want to talk
about it. You need to promise me to never mention it again. Today is the last time
we'll talk about it.

"Ana, did you talk about it with a psychiatrist?"

"No, I didn't have to. I have Kate."

"Ana, you should—"

"Please Christian, trust me on this," I reply, cutting him off. "I don't want to talk about
it, ok? And please never talk about it with Kate. Promise me this."

"Ana, I can't promise that to you. I have to think about it. Something terrible
happened to you, and if this guy hasn't been punished, I will fucking make sure that
he is."

"NO! You have to promise me not to do anything about it. I trusted you. It concerns
me, not you. I don't want you to be my rescuer. You need to forget what I did tell you.
It's my way of coping so accept this, Christian. Don't make me regret telling you this."

"Baby… " He sighed. "Okay, I will do whatever you want but I think it is a mistake."

My apologies for long wait, I'm really sorry for not updating earlier. Just life.

So yeah, Jose is a bastard. I really don't like him in original books, what kind
of friend leave you when you are drunk with some random guy?

THANKS to Wrenagade for editing :D

Thank you for reading!

 Chapter 14
This is rather a filler chapter. Hope you will enjoy!

I don't own FSOG. Although I would love to own Christian :P

After confessions, we spent the night in my apartment, only snuggling. We didn't

have sex, I wasn't in the mood for that and I think Christian either. It was good just to
have him by my side. He looks so fragile when he sleeps.

I don't want to think too much about his past, his BDSM lifestyle. Maybe we can be
together just like us, Ana and Christian. He is a billionaire, Steele. Yeah, I forgot
about that. It will be a short time until paparazzi find about me. Maybe I should ask
him if he wants to keep me out of his public life. No one knew about his submissives.
Am I his sub? Does he want me as his sub? He said no, but can I believe him?
Damn it. Focus on your day Steele. You will handle your man tonight. Again…

Evening

I'm riding in an elevator to Christian's penthouse. I'm staying with him tonight. He
promised he got rid of all the cameras.

"Hello Miss Steele."

"Hi Gail, it's good to see you again."

"Likewise. Dinner will be ready in 20 minutes. Mr. Grey is in his study."

"Ok, thank you. I can hear him in there." I giggle.

Christian is shouting so loud, I could hear him from Alaska. He is talking with
someone on the phone. I'm not actually eavesdropping, I'm staying in the hall waiting
for him.

"Welch, I want this report for yesterday, not to mention last week. How the fuck
couldn't you find out about him?! It's been three months! I'm telling you, sort this shit
out or you are out of work! I mean it!"

Wow, that was a little harsh. I am about to enter Christian's study when Taylor is
passing right through me at light speed. What the hell is going on here?
"Sir, we have a situation."

"What sort….?" He stops talking when he sees me. "Anastasia, hey baby, I didn't
know you were here already." He is looking at Taylor with his killer gaze.

"Hi, I've been here only two minutes. Is everything ok?"

"Yes, of course. Can you wait for me in a living room? I need to talk with Taylor for a
moment."

"Can I say no?" I ask.

"No," he says sternly.

"So why bother asking?"

"Anastasia, please I have no time for this childish game."

"Do you have time for this?" I stick my tongue out saying "pfff" and smiling. Before
leaving his study I notice a smirk on his face. Yep, I can feel there will be a response
to my not very grown-up behavior later. I don't have the chance to sit on the couch
because Taylor and Christian leave his study after only a few moments.

"Anastasia baby, can you wait for dinner in my library?"

"What the hell, Christian? Do you want me here or not?" I yell frustrated.

"Jesus Ana, of course, but I'm having an unexpected guest. I don't want you to meet
her. – Fuck!" I bet he didn't want to say the last part.

"So it's her. Okay, I am staying here. You can't put me in a closet."

"Ana, please baby. I don't know what this visit is about and I don't want you to be the
part of it."

"Christian, I am a big girl. Bring the slut in here."

"Anastasia…" he warns.

"I'm kidding. I will be good." I kiss him on the cheek assuring it will be fine. I can feel
he is very tense.

"Taylor, send Suzie up." Suzie? I hate her.

"Sir…"

"Taylor, I said send her up."

"Yes, sir."

"Is she…?" I don't end the sentence. He knows what I want to ask.

"Yes, but I haven't seen her for almost a year so…" he trails off.

We are interrupted by a ping from the elevator. Fuck me, if I can compete with it. It's
literally Giselle Bundchen who enters Christian's penthouse. Long legs, beautiful tiny
waist, big boobs, long brown hair, and face worth a million dollars. Ok, so apparently
my days are over here. And for sure the little toddler who is attached to her isn't
helping. Is this Christian's baby?

"Susannah, what a surprise." His eyes probably will pop up very soon.

"Christian, it's good to see you too." She smiles at him, not bother to look at me. I'm
sitting on the couch. I can't believe this is happening for real.

"Can you talk privately?" she asks, finally looking at me.

"We can talk in here. This is Anastasia…"

"Christian if I can ask you, I would appreciate if we can talk not in front of your
current sub," she says annoyed.

"Dear Suzie girl, I am not Christian's sub. I am his girlfriend so whatever you want to
say to him you can say in front of me." If this is his child, I want to know, and I want
to know now!

"I don't know if you are delusional, little girl, but Christian Grey doesn't do girlfriends.
It will be better for your little heart to understand it quickly."

"Susannah, stop it. Anastasia is my girlfriend, and I want you to respect that and her.
Or you can leave now," he says coldly, good to know that my boyfriend has my back.

"Well, changes. Okay, I see I don't have a choice. Well, it's about me and my son."
She pauses, doing that deliberately, what a bitch. What did he see in her? "No
Christian, this kiddo isn't yours. Although it would be much better for me if it was,
haha."

Neither Christian nor I say anything. I am glad he isn't amused by her fucking lame
joke.

"I have some trouble with money. Father of my child doesn't care about me and my
Pierre." Pierre – seriously?

"So I don't have anyone to ask for some help. I thought that maybe you, Christian
could help me a little? You can see I look like shit, and now being a mother I need
more than usual."

"Yes, I noticed you don't look good," Christian says. What?! She looks like Victoria
Secret's best model for fuck's sake.

"Okay Susannah, come to my study, I will give you a check."

I am dumbstruck. Apparently he doesn't know what to do with his money, and for
sure she doesn't need anything.

Dinner is awkward. We sit in silence. No one want to be the first to speak about what
happened before.

"So, you and Suzie," I say rolling my eyes, I can't stand that he use short name on
her.

"Yes, it ended long time ago."

"Why?"

"Why what, Anastasia?" Oh Anastasia again, he doesn't like my questions. Don't

care.

"Why were you with her? Why did it end? Why did you give her money? Why are
you with me not her? She is perfect." Fuck, I didn't plan sobbing in the end.

"Ana, please, I don't know why you need to doubt yourself, you are a beauty,
beautiful body, beautiful mind and what is the most important, beautiful heart."

"Yeah, right."

"Believe it, please don't let your unnecessary complex to stop you from feeling
something real. I am with you Ana, I'm the luckiest man in the world to have you
sitting here with me, eating dinner and enjoying our time together. Susannah is
history, I don't really care about her, that's why I gave her the money. If I cared about
her I would give her my time. As soon as she was out the door, I haven't spent a
single thought about her. It's her life, and there is no fucking way I want to be in it."

"But why you were with her? She is do different from me, can I say she is a cold
bitch?" He laughs at my honest comment.

"Ana, you can say whatever you're thinking and I love your honesty."

He said love. I swear my heart just stopped. He looks at me little worried about his
last comment. I smile at him assuring him that I'm okay with this.

"Good, honesty is very important for me. So tell me, was she a good fuck?"

I am awarded with belly laugh. "Ok, I'm recalling my last statement," he says
smirking at me.

"I'm all ears Christian."

"Well….

"Uh, that doesn't sound good." I pout.

"Ana, she wasn't. That's why I ended it. We were together only for a month. And I
didn't enjoy it."

"What? You gave up such a perfect body? Are you insane? Why?" I ask him
astonished.

"I don't know why I am talking about this with you… She wasn't the perfect
submissive."

"What do you mean by that? She didn't like spanking?"

"No, it wasn't about that. She didn't…um… obey me in the way I like. After we ended
she became a Dominant."

"Is that all?"

"She wanted more. From me. I wasn't interested." He looks ashamed of it.

"Thank you for telling me, I appreciate it Christian. Knowing whole story, now I can
put my mind at ease."

"Ana, listen…"
"That's okay Christian. Let's go to bed. I'm done talking for tonight. Are you up for
some moaning?"

"Always," he answers with a smirk. He pulls me into his arms and carries me to his
bedroom.

Morning the next day

Christian is taking a shower. I can't forget what he said last night. She wasn't a
perfect sub for him, not obeying him in the way he likes it. Should I ask him how he
likes it? Does he wants me to obey him in everyday life, or only in the bedroom?
Damn it, why I can't fall in love with a less complex man?

"Hi baby, did you sleep well?" Christian asks me leaving the bathroom only in a
towel.

"I can't remember much sleeping to be honest." I giggle.

"About that… Did you want to prove something Ana?"

"No, why do you ask?"

"Why am I asking? Maybe because we had sex 14 times and I feel like my dick
needs a month recovery."

"Really? Is it possible to tire out Christian Grey?" I smirk at him.

"I am not a Man of Steel. Of course it's possible. So was it about Susannah?" he
asks me looking deep into my eyes, searching for an answer. He knows that he can
read me well.

"No. Um, maybe a little. Gosh, I don't know. I enjoy sex as much as you. Are you
complaining or something?"

"No, not at all. But I want you to be yourself, you don't have to prove anything to me."

"Okay, I just wanted to show you what I am capable of."

"Baby, I know what you are capable of. I know your body better than you and I know
what I can do about it. Don't stress. I will lead you into world of pleasure. Trust me."
– his husky voice wakes me down there.

"I trust you Christian."

"Good, have a shower and meet me at breakfast."

"Yes sir!" I salute him and escape to the bathroom before he catches me. I can hear
him through the door saying to himself, "Oh Ana, Ana what I am going to do with
you?"

During breakfast

"Christian, about last night," I start.

"Yeees?" he smirks at me, his eyes still so playful. I love when he behaves so young
and carefree.

"I want you to care more during sex. I know we ran out of condoms, but you did it too
many times for my liking without a condom. I'm not on birth control."

"But every time I managed to pull out in time."

"I know…. But still it is very risky."

"You should start taking a pill. When do you start your next period?" he asks.

"Excuse me?! I'm eating breakfast here."

"You started the topic," he retorts.

"But not about my period!"

"I didn't know that your uterus can't hear about it."

"Shut up!"

"Ok, to the point, I will schedule a visit with a gynecologist for you, and she will
prescribe pills."

"I don't want to take the pill. After the pill, it's more possible to have twins or triplets
or even more."

"You know that you'd be taking the pill to not have kids, right?"

"Duh." I roll my eyes.

"Anastasia, please don't roll your eyes at me. I forgot to punish you for it yesterday,
but you distracted me with your hot body. And duh? Great response. Are you sure
you are graduating from English Literature?" He smirks.

"Shut up Grey. You know what I mean."

"So what about the shot?"

"You know a lot about contraception, don't you? I heard that shots can be
ineffective."

"Not when you remember about dates to take them."

"Ok, I will talk with my OB/GYN about options and let you know, Sir." I look him in the
eyes, not backing down, I know what calling him Sir does to him.

"You are playing a dangerous game here, Miss Steele."

"And you love it, Sir." I kiss him on the cheek and walk back to his bedroom to get
ready for classes.

AN

A chapter without drama and without cliffy :) Let me know what you think.
Thank you for reading!

Thanks to Wrenagade for her help with editing and discussion about
contraception hehe...

Please, check her story "The one that got away"!

 Chapter 15
Introducing playroom/ flashback

"So what do you think about my lifestyle?" Christian asks with concerned look

"I know you're not practicing it with me. I want to know why but I am a little afraid of
asking." I sigh deeply. "Do you want to beat me?"

"No Ana, I would never do that."

"But you sometimes spanks me during sex." I can't say "spanking" and not blush; the
two are inseparable.

"Yes, I do that, but only because I know you like it." He cocks his head to one side.

"I shouldn't," I say, looking at the floor. He presses his finger under my chin to make
me look into his eyes.

"Don't think about should or shouldn't. You like it and you shouldn't be ashamed of it.
Even if we are not using toys, we practice submission and domination. Baby, I've told
you several times – you are a perfect submissive. You like when I am in control. You
were shocked at first, but more and more you were waiting for me to telling you what
to do."

"No, I don't. I am a strong woman and will never allow anyone to tell me what to do,"
I say sternly.

"Baby, being a sub in bed doesn't make you a weak person in life. It means you trust
me with your body. It means so much to me that you allow me to take care of you,
that you know I won't hurt you. I am honored with your trust. Ana, you know you like
it."

"I do." It's my honest answer. "Will you show me more toys?"

"Do you want to? Or do want to because you think that I want that?"

" I am just curious." I shrug

"Curiosity killed your virginity." He smirks.

"Never regret it." I grin from ear to ear.

"Oh, I know. You're addicted to me. Addicted to my body and how I fuck you. Come
here. That's enough talking for tonight."

It's been two weeks of fairytale with Christian. We spend as much time together as
we can. Although usually nights and weekends. With me graduating and my job, I
don't have much time. Not to mention writing my pieces for The Seattle Times. I
haven't seen Christian for three days and I am practically dying. I love doing
ordinary, boring things like cleaning after dinner with him Being in love with someone
makes every ordinary thing extraordinary. With Christian such a lousy thing like
walking in the rain feels like something incredible…

Lucky for me Professor Emmerson is sick today, so I have my afternoon off. I'm
planning to surprise Christian. How the fuck do I do that with Taylor being with him?
He said he is working at Escala today, without cameras I have 50 % chance. I can
go with that.

At Escala

"Hi Taylor, did you tell Christian that I am here?"

"Yes Ma'am, he is waiting for you in his study."

"Why did you tell him? I wanted it to be a suprise for him" – I whine

"You did, Miss Steele, Mr. Grey was beyond angry today and now knowing that you
are here, he is probably just angry."

"Why? Is something wrong with GEH?"

"No Ma'am, just technical difficulties."

I enter Christian's study. He's sitting in front his computer, but lock it when he sees
me.

"Hello Mr. Grey. Can I come in?"

"Ana, of course. Come here."

I kiss him while sitting on his lap. It's a gentle kiss but after a while becomes more
passionate and life-affirming.

"Oh fuck, I missed you Ana," he hisses.

"I know." I smirk pointing with my gaze at his erection. "Trouble in the Empire, Sir?"
"Some." He sighs.

"Oh no no, we can't have our Great Emperor be so tense. I think I should ease you,
Sir."

I get on my knees before him, while unzipping his pants.

"Ana, what are you doing? We have no time for this."

"Sir, there is always time for this." I put Christian's cock in my mouth and he
surrenders. I look him in the eyes and kiss the tip. He closes his eyes and I can hear
him moaning. I love that sound. God, I missed him. And my position only make me
more aroused. I'm kneeling under his desk and fucking him with my mouth. Even if
he lied about the cameras no one can't see me here. No, he wouldn't lie. He
promised me. When he starts moving his hips, I know it won't take long for his
release. I suck harder and then I hear door opening.

"Grey, it's done."

Gideon? What the fuck? Christian put his hand on my head to stop but I don't want
to stop. Fuck, I don't want to continue either, with Gideon in his office. Why he is
here?

"Cross, can you wait 5 minutes outside the door?"

"Fuck no, I don't have time. I need to be in Crossfire in 10 minutes for my alibi. I just
want to clarify some things and decide what's next."

"Cross!" Christian barks. "NOW is really not a good time."

"Why the fuck not? It's done. I smashed his apartment. I left him a message to leave
town and never come back. I made it look like it was kind of drug mafia revenge. But
I talked with some guys and apparently this Rodriguez guy didn't have any debt with
dealers so I'm not sure if I buy that bullshit. Maybe he will think his apartment was
damaged by his competition. That's why I think we got rid of him and Ana will never
see him again."

I can't believe what I'm hearing! I'm so pissed!

"Ouch! Fuck, what the hell are you doing?" Christian yells suddenly. I didn't realize
I've bitten him.

I'm now standing totally dumbstruck from what I heard. "What the fuck did you do?" –
I yell looking at Gideon. He looks at me shocked probably not realizing yet what I
was doing under Christian's desk.

"You bit him?" He laughs.

"Yeah, I did. But it's nothing compared to what I will do to you so I would suggest not
being fucking happy, Gideon."

"Anastasia…" Christian starts.

"What the fuck did you both do? I told you to leave it alone, Christian. You promised
me. Now you put Kate in danger. I swear to God that if something happens to her, I
will make your life a fucking nightmare."

"What does Kate have to do with it? It wasn't her who José was obsessed with,"
Gideon states.

"And how the fuck do you know that? I didn't tell you everything. And correct me if I
am wrong, you weren't there. So you have no fucking right to interfere with my past! I
can't believe both of you! Did you beat him or something?" – I ask.

"No, we wanted to scare him into leaving town. I didn't interfere Ana, I just want him
to leave town and the state. I know you can still see him on campus." – Christian
says.

"You have no right, no right Christian." I may just lose it soon.

"Ana, listen. We probably should have told you. But we didn't want to rise this
subject again, you have finals in two months and a lot of stress with it. You won't see
him again in your life Ana, I promise you," Gideon says to me.

"I don't believe a word you are saying Gideon. You don't know José. You don't know
what you've started. Christian, I want to have a security on Kate 24/7. You owe me
this. And I want both of you not to mention this to Kate."

"Ana, what is with Kate? Did he threaten her?" Christian asks concerned.

"Of course he fucking threatened her, and me and Ethan. But he can't rape Ethan,
can he?"

They look at me shocked by my words. – "Yes, you morons, you wanted to play
James Bonds but forgot to check everything before putting your stupid plan in
motion. I'm saying this one last time. If something happens to Kate, you will regret it.
And from now on I don't want to see any of you again. Goodbye."

After the second worst day in my life, I spend as much I can with Kate, never leaving
her alone. She thinks I broke up with Christian. I can't tell her the whole truth. I told
her we're having silent days. Christian calls every day and shows up every night at
our apartment to check on us. He only talks with Kate, and sometimes with Elliot. I'm
glad that Elliot is actually living with us now. I am sure Christian suggested that to
him.

Christian. I miss him so much. I can't believe he went behind my back. Maybe it's
true. Maybe José is out of town. Haven't seen him on campus since that day. I heard
rumors he took a gap year. Is it even possible before graduation?

Christian sends me messages every day and I know I'll melt soon. Maybe we can
reconcile on Kate's birthday party. She invited not only Christian but also Gideon.
Why do I have a feeling it won't end well? Oh fuck it, I miss my man! I need a slut
dress to make him suffer more. But I won't let him touch me that night.

Kate's birthday party

I can't believe they didn't show up. They told Kate that they will come. Is it because
of me? Did Christian give up on me? He wouldn't dare. He can be angry with me but
he can't stand up my friends because of our shit. I'm calling him, he answers after
five signal, probably to piss me even more.

"Grey, where the fuck are you? You promised Kate you'd be here. Mia is here, Elliot
is here, what is missing is your sorry ass and you recently found best buddy Gideon.
Better have good explanation to this."

"Baby, we are on our way, tell Kate I have big present for her. And tell her BFF that I
miss her too," Christian says.

"Christian, what you are doing with Gideon?"

" I'm looking for a girl for him for Kate's party but it's really a lost cause. We will be in
40 minutes."

"10 or I will start to look for my own date instead."

"Anastasia, maybe we are not together now but you are still mine," he says in his
commanding tone.
"If you still want me you will be here in five." And I hang up.

AN

Thank you for reading/following/reviewing.

Big thank you to Wrenegade, she makes this chapter to look pretty. Of course all
mistakes are mine.
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...

CG POV

"Gideon, we need to hurry, Ana was calling and she wants us in her apartment in 5
minutes."

"I think we are done here. This place looks abandoned but I don't get why the door
was locked. I smashed them for sure…"

"I know, something is wrong. He needs to have something in here, otherwise why
was it locked? We know he left town." I check the time, Ana will be furious. "Fucking
shit. Let's go now, Ana will be suspicious about what took us so long. Taylor, look for
more crap here and call me if you find something."

Fucking Rodriguez, Ana was right. There is something wrong with this guy. His
family isn't talking with him, and after leaving Seattle he disappeared. My security
team can't find him, and I have the best security team in the world. Fuck, and I
thought that Leila was a problem.

Ana POV

It's been only 20 minutes. Don't freak out Steele. He will come, he will…. I'm gonna
cry. I fucked up. I was so fucking stubborn, damn it. No, I was right. He fucked up.
He broke his promise. That's right, I was right, he was wrong… Why I don't feel like I
am right? Damn it, I need a drink. No, I had two beers and feel a little tipsy already.
Fuck!

I look around our apartment and wonder who those people are. Gah, why did Kate
even invite all these people when she is hanging all night on Elliot's arm? Kate and
Elliot… they are so sweet together. My perfect Sis fell in love. She doesn't need to
be in center of attentions anymore. She has her man, and nothing is more important.
I'm glad she is happy; it's her day.

I'm sitting on the stairs deeply in my thoughts being more and more insecure of
Christian's feelings when I hear Kate's scream.

"Oh, you shouldn't have! I mean I am glad you did. They are awesome. Ana look
what Christian brought me! Aaaaa!" – she jumps - I can't believe it! Thank you, thank
you. I need to build a panic room for these, good that my boyfriend is in
construction!" she exclaims.

"Bro, you went all the way, you know that Kate is MY girlfriend," Elliot says.

"Don't you worry Elliot, I'm already taken," Christian says with his piercing eyes at
me. Some kisses are given by eyes. Oh fuck, I feel the sudden sensation in my
body. I gather all my strength not to jump on Christian. He walks to me and stands
very close not saying anything. We look into each other's eyes and I know I will lose
it and start to cry. I missed him so much but the bitch in me wants to say something
first.

"You're late." Nice Steele, very nice.

"My apologies. Like I said, lost cause." He smirks nodding at Gideon.

"Really Christian, 22 pair of shoes?" I try to change the subject.

"Ana, they are not shoes, please Sis don't insult my Louboutins." Kate hisses at me.
I roll my eyes on her childish behavior.

"Anastasia, it's rude to roll your eyes." Christian smirks.

"It's rude to be late for the party."

"And if I was on time, what would you do?"

"You will never know," I tease.

"Okay enough of you two, let's drink. It' s a party, right? Kate show me your best
alcohol," Gideon states. Everyone follows Kate to kitchen but Christian and I stay
behind.

"Ana…" Christian starts.

"Let's talk upstairs."

I take his hand and lead him to my room. I know what I should do but I can't be
responsible for my body when he touches me. When the door are closed and we are
all alone, I launch myself at Christian and kiss him with all I've got. Thank God he
responds to my kiss. I have to break the kiss before we go too far but Christian has
other plans. He rips my panties and lifts me, pressing my body against the door.
"Hey, I paid for those," I whine.

"Baby, I will buy you a new pair."

"22 pairs."

"As you wish. Someone is jealous."

"I am not. I'm happy for Kate. Really am. It was a perfect gift for her. 22 pairs of her
favorites shoes on her 22nd birthday. I approve," I state with a smile.

"Good. I tried to impress her best friend. Because I know that if Kate is happy her
best friend is happy too."

"Oh God, I missed you." I run my hands down his chest to pull his T-shirt from him
and kiss him hard. Christian unzips his pants and frees my favorite part of his body.

"You missed me? Let me show how I fucking missed you." He sets up a punishing
rhythm when a sudden thought invades my mind.

"Did you put a condom on?" I ask.

"No, aren't you on birth control? You said you'll take the shot."

"What for? We haven't seen each other for two weeks. It was a moot point."

"A what?" He chuckles.

"Moot. Has no sense. Christian Grey you are so stiff sometimes."

"I will show what is stiff." He puts a condom and starts his thrusts. I don't comment
that he came prepared…

" You show me this, you show me that, just stop talking and fuck me hard, damn it!"

"Fuck, I am a lucky man, aren't I? You're born romantic Anastasia" He smirks.

"Shut up." I roll my eyes, and Christian spanks me pushing his cock in and out. Holy
shit, it's so erotic. I feel myself building inside. I kiss him deeply and say, "Please,
hurry! Someone will check on us soon."

"Fuck Ana, I could come now, it's been two weeks for fuck sakes. But I'm waiting for
you to come."
"I don't need to come."

"Jeez woman, never say that to me. You will come every time we are fucking or
making love. You have my word Anastasia," he says thrusting harder and faster and
I know I will find my release soon. "Fuck Ana, you are so tight baby," Christian says
and stills. We reach heaven together.

"That was…." I start but can't find words for what I'm feeling.

"I wish I could stay in you forever…. Well minus the condom." He chuckles and I
start to giggle.

"Okay, I will go on the pill."

"You sure?"

"Yes, I am waiting just for my period to start."

"Did Anastasia Steele say period out loud? Dear God, what happened to my shy
girl?" Christian smirks.

"Haha very funny, it's you who makes me slutty."

"What the hell? What did I do now?"

"You are just being yourself. Never thought I would have sex during a party in a
house full of people. What the hell happened to me?" I say amused.

"I would say Christian Grey happened to you." He kisses my nose." - And you're not
slutty Ana, I don't want you to think about yourself that way, do you understand?"

"Okay, I was just kidding, jeez."

"Ana…." I know he wants to say more but instead he grabs me tighter and lays me
on bed.

"Christian, we don't have time for thiiissss." He starts to massage my clit. I love his
hands on me.

"Someone once told me there is always time for this." I can feel his fingers in me and
surrender.

"Christian, oh god, what about you?" My hips and his fingers start to dance together.
"I am okay baby, relax, just enjoy your pleasure, I love to watch you come, it's my
catharsis watching you come because of me."

"Christian!" I cry out.

"Good that music is loud." Christian chuckles.

"Oh shut up." I am panting after my second orgasm.

"Now when you are relaxed we can talk." He sits up licking his fingers. I will never be
okay with that, never.

"Can we just move on without talking about it? I was angry with you. You went
behind my back. I told you to drop the subject, remember? And I am sorry it took me
so long to forgive you this but well, it's just me being me. We are together but I will
live my life the way I want, so please stop interfering, ok? I've said you can
manhandle me in bed, not in life."

"Woman, you have no idea how much I want to manhandle you in bed for ignoring
me so long."

"You can always take me to your playroom," I say shyly. His eyes darken and I know
he likes the idea. "Will you?"

"I will think about it, now let's go back downstairs." Change of subject, again.

"Why don't you want to take me there? I am okay with the flogger and other stuff.
Why can't we try at least?" I pout. Why could he do all that stuff with his subs but he
can't with me?

"Anastasia, we've talked about this. I am not ready for taking you there. We have a
different relationship and I like it that way." He sighs deeply, annoyed by the topic.

"But I don't understand why you don't want me there," I whine.

"Fuck Ana, because I don't know if I can control myself having you there!" He yells
running his hand through his hair "You're my girlfriend, not a submissive. And this – I
mean us - is the fucking first time in my life that it feels right to me. So please, drop
this. You're not my sub and you will never be my sub. You are my more, Anastasia."

"Now when you put it like that, well I think I'm fine now." I throw my hand around his
neck and give him a light kiss.

"Put on some panties and meet me downstairs, I need to call Taylor first."
"Okay, I will be down in ten."

"Five or I will find a date instead."

"Stop throwing my words at me!" I laugh.

"Okay, but it still is five, I mean it wench!"

When I am downstairs I can't find Christian but instead find Mia flirting with Gideon.
What the hell? She is younger than him, 9 or 10 years? I don't like that and I'm sure
Christian won't like either. Ana Steele to the rescue.

"Gideon hey, can we talk for a moment? Mia do you mind?" I ask.

"No, not at all, actually I need to make Kate lend me some of her Louboutins while
she is drunk. I will be right back to you G," Mia says, touching Gideon's shoulder.
Damn, she's into him for sure.

"Gideon, what the fuck are you doing? Don't you know the rule, never hit on your
friend's siblings?"

"I'm not hitting on Mia. She is too young and too, well too Mia."

"Does she know that you aren't interested? It did look like you two were flirting with
each other," I explain.

"Are you jealous?"

"What? Of course I am not. But I know Christian won't be happy. Mia is his little
sister, he is very protective of her. Now when you two are friends you need to think
before…."

"We are not friends," Gideon cuts me off.

"You are not? How come? Christian says you are on good terms. He considers you
as his friend."

"I doubt that. We just bond a little because you weren't talking to us. But I can't be
Grey's friend when I desire his girlfriend."

"Gideon, please…"
"Ana, I know you are in love with him. I totally get it. But it doesn't make me want you
less. So excuse me, I need a drink."

Shit. I thought Gideon was over me…. Let's focus Steele. One drama in a time. Find
your man and enjoy Kate's party. Yes, good plan.

I find Christian still talking on his phone:

"Taylor, check everything you found, take it to Escala and send me a message when
you find the one with…" – he stops talking when he sees me.

"I gotta go, call you later."

"Is everything okay?"

"Now it is." – he says smiling and wraps his hands around me but I can feel he is
tense. I decide not to push what it was about.

"Do you want a drink? Let's get drunk together!"

"Sound like a very good plan to me. Alcohol makes you even sluttier." – he smirks

"Shut up Grey."

Three hours later

Fucking fantastic. Everyone is drunk but me. Christian Grey drunk? Check. Gideon
Cross drunk? Check. Kate Kavanagh drunk on Elliot's saliva. Check.

'Okay, time for us to go, babe. " Elliot says.

"What? Where are you going?" I ask.

"To my place. I have a present for Kate there." Elliot smirks. Oh, I know what kind of
present is that.

"If you think you will leave me here with these two drunk jerks and a house full of
people, I will say over my dead body. And Mia is already gone. So hell no Sister."

"It's my birthday Ana, and I want to celebrate it with my boyfriend. Will you really stop
me from it Sis?" – she asks licking her lips looking only at Elliot. Yep, it's better for
them to leave ASAP or I will have a peep show soon.
"Okay, but I want you here tomorrow. I won't clean it all by myself."

"Okay, we will help you to put these two in bed. Gideon can sleep in my bedroom. I
bet Christian will sleep in yours?" – she asks with raised eyebrow.

"I don't know. If he is going to throw up…. Let's put him in bathroom, just in case."

"Im nhot drunked" – Christian says.

"Of course you are not honey," I mock. "Can you add two to two? How much is it?" I
ask.

"69"

Everybody laughs. Yep, drunk Christian Grey is cute.

Party is over. Gideon is sleeping in Kate's bedroom and my favorite CEO's in mine. I
even find his snoring cute. I got it really bad. It's almost 4 am. I can't sleep, I need to
pee again. Damn beer. It makes you to pee every five minutes but can't make you
properly drunk.

As I'm leaving the bathroom, I hear a noise. Oh no, Gideon is having another
nightmare. Fuck! I can't go in there. Not after what happened last time. I hope he
won't hurt himself. Fuck, what if alcohol makes him more aggressive? I will just
check on him. I open the door but it's dark. I hear Gideon saying something but it's
not easy to understand.

"Do you like that…. Do you like that fucker?" he hisses. Shit.

"Gideon wake up, Gideon you are having a nightmare." I try to shake him to make
him to wake up.

And it was my mistake. Never touch someone when they are dreaming. Gideon
grabs me and pushes me on the bed.

"You want to have fun. I'll show you fun. I can show you good amount of pain," he
says in murderous tone.

"No Gideon, it's me Ana, please wake up!" – but he doesn't listen to me, he is still in
his dream. He rips my panties and tries to open my legs. Now I'm fucking scared!

"NOOO! WAKE UP! IT'S ANA! PLEASE!" – I yell. "Christian!" I'm screwed, he is
sleeping totally drunk and oblivious what's happening.
"You want this fucker, feel real pain" - I fight with Gideon but he is so much stronger
than me. I know Kate has baseball bat under her bed, but I can't reach it. Gideon
holds both of my hands with his one while with other hand he is stroking his cock. I
start to cry feeling totally helpless. My biggest nightmare is about to come…. And
done to me by my friend.

"GIDEON PLEASE STOP. WAKE UP PLEASEEEE!" – I yell. I've never felt so alone
in all my life. When José tried to rape I was drugged, I didn't know what was going to
happen. Now I know. I wish I could die now. Suddenly I feel Gideon loosen his hold
and free me. It's so dark that I can hear only a huge crack.

"Ana are you ok?"

Christian! Thank God.

"Yyyyes" – I cry, I can't stop my tears.

"You motherfucker, what the fuck is wrong with you?!" – Christian barks. I can't think
straight. I cry and can't stop. I'm still petrified. It takes me couple of minutes to realize
Christian is beating Gideon.

"Christian stop! Please, he was dreaming! He wasn't aware of what he was doing."

"What? How the fuck is this possible?" – Christian stops punching him.

"It is. He was…. He is having nightmares…. I can't…. He thought I was his abuser.
He didn't know it was me. He didn't want to hurt me. You need to believe me
Christian. Let him go."

"Not happening Ana, call the police. He tried to rape you." – I switch the light and
look at Gideon, sitting naked in the corner with his eyes open. But looking more
scared than me. Poor G. He starts to wake up from his dream.

"Christian, he was molested as child. In his dream… he was taking revenge on his
abuser."

"What the fuck? And I thought I was fucked up." – Christian says shocked. "How do
you know that? For fuck sake Ana, he ripped your panties and was about to rape
you. He knew what he was doing. I'm calling the police."

"No Christian, he needs help. Listen, I know because it happened before. And he
told me about his painful childhood, about his sexual nightmares. Gideon suffer from
sexual parasomnia, you know sleep sex."
"He tried this before? Fuck, when? Ana, fucking shit! I can't believe it! Why didn't you
tell me? He is dangerous!"

"Nothing happened, really. It was after camera gate at Escala. And I hit him with the
lamp. He woke up quickly. I didn't have anything to hit him tonight."

"Oh my god, I am so sorry baby I didn't wake up earlier." – Christian hugs me.

"I am okay. I'm just a bit shaken." I turn to Gideon " Hey G, how are you feeling, here
wrap your blanket around you. You are safe now. Everything is fine." I talk to him
with the calmest tone.

"I'm sorry Ana, I would never hurt you on purpose," Gideon states.

"Hey, I know that. I'm fine."

"I need to go. I am sorry." He stands up and leaves the room in hurry.

"Gideon, don't you dare to shut me down again. I've told you to do something with it.
You need to talk with someone, get some therapy. It's for you own safety."

"Ana, I can't do anything with it. There is no medicine for it for fuck's sake," Gideon
says angrily.

"You don't know that! You can stay here, if not I'm calling Angus. But if you don't get
help I…." I stopped searching for words.

"You what? Stop being my friend? Well, it will be better for you," Gideon snaps.

"No damn it! You need a therapy and I'm not giving you an option. That's it. If you
want me to forgive you what happened tonight you will go and get some help."

"Anastasia, you are insane if you think that we will be friends with Gideon after what
happened," Christian barks at me. For fuck's sake, one at a time, please!

"Christian, I know you don't mean that…"

"I totally mean that."

"No, you don't! You have nightmares too!"

"I… Ana." He looks uncomfortable that I revealed his secret, well I told him Gideon's
secret so. "I never hit you or tried to rape you."
"No you didn't. But you can see it wasn't intentional so stop being so bitchy, okay?" I
say annoyed. I want this night to be over.

"I gotta go, Angus is here. One more time Ana, I'm sorry for what happened." Gideon
says sincerely.

"I'm okay. I will call you Gideon and you had better answer. You owe me," I tell him.

"Okay, bye Ana." Gideon looks to Christian not sure what to say. "Grey."

"Cross."

Well, at least they're speaking to each other.

Well?

This story is about FSOG, but I put a scene from Crossfire in this chapter. Sue
me lol

"And I thought I was fucked up" – it's great line from Cary Taylor in Bared To
You. I really like this character and now I regret I didn't put him in this story
instead of Gideon.

If you find time to let me know what you think, I would appreciate it. Thank you
all for reading.

xo

Alex

I'm not a writer, just a reader having fun with characters. All credits to Sylvia
Day/EL James

Big THANK YOU to Wrenegade :)

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Hi all! Yep, shockingly I am updating. Just to show you this chapter and let you know
about Wordrunner's second book. On September 10th, Young Revelations will be
available on ! And from September 6th through the 10th, Young Lies will be available
for free! Author WR Kimble

Okay, enjoy! ( I hope)

One week later - Gala at Bellueve

Great. Another party. Hope it will be better than the last one. After Kate's birthday I
practically live with Christian. He doesn't let me meet with Gideon; I am allowed to
talk with him only through the phone. I let him think that he is in control, but just for
now. Gideon will be at the party tonight; maybe they can talk and clear the air. I know
Christian is actually sorry for what happened to Gideon, but still doesn't let me to be
with him one on one. He needs time. Everybody is here tonight, Kate with Elliot, Mia
with her eyes sets on Ethan, Gideon alone. Grace invited Gideon; she doesn't know
how her younger son feels about it. Just survive this night, just survive Steele.

I have a perfect dress for tonight. Long pearl dress with delicate lace on my back.
Christian of course bought it. After a huge fight about the car I really didn't have a
choice….

Flashback

"You bought me a car? Are you insane?" I stare at him not believing what I see. A
brand-new Audi is sitting in front of my apartment.

"You don't like it?" he asks.

"Like? It's not the point. I don't need a car. I have Wanda, remember?"

"It's not a car, Anastasia, it's…"

"What is it Christian? Tell me." I know he hates Wanda.

"It's a piece of crap Ana, and you know it. This Audi is one of the safest cars in the
world. You can't ride in your deathtrap."
"Wanda is very roadworthy," I try to protest. "I bought her with my own money.
Maybe there will be a time when I can afford an Audi, but for sure it's not now."

"I bought it for you. You don't have to pay for this Ana. I want you to have it."

"Christian, I can't. It's too expensive. I can't accept this."

"For fuck's sake, why are you defying me again? I'm your boyfriend so I can buy you
the damn car."

"Never heard of a boyfriend buying a car for his girl. You can try flowers first,
chocolate or earrings but a car, Audi R4? It's too much Christian. I won't accept it."

"How can I change your mind Ana?" He sighs.

"You can't. I don't want to be your trophy girl. Please, I know you have more money
than sense." He raises his eyebrow not pleased with my comment. "But I don't want
you to spend your money on me. I would feel cheap if you give me this car. You are
a self-made billionaire Christian; you told me you want to deserve things. It's the
same story for me. I want to buy my own car with money that I have made."

"Every girl would want this damn car," He snaps

"So maybe you should go be with every girl," I snap back.

"I couldn't kiss this smart mouth then," he teases, kissing me. The fight with Mr.
Mercurial is over. I thought I won this but Christian surprises me later with the
beautiful dress, earrings and shoes. He has perfect taste… Or he has hired
someone with perfect taste. This dress is the only reason why I'm glad he is so rich!

At the Gala

"Ana, you need to be in the First Dance Auction. It's the tradition of this Gala," Mia
whines.

"Mia Grey, I told you that I'm not going there with you." I've told her a million times
already. "Please accept my decision because I can't tell for the hundredth time why I
don't want to do this." Fucking dance auction. Not happening for me ever. Why
doesn't she understand that? Damn, Grace is looking at me disapprovingly and I
blame Mia for that. I should be a better girlfriend for Christian and say yes, but…. I
just can't. A dance auction is stupid and humiliating. Why are there so few dance
auctions for men? Because men are destined to earn and pay and women just to
look beautiful.
"Ana, I understand your reasons but it's just for fun. And the money from the auction
goes to charity," Grace says to me. Her tone is kind but I know she disagree with me.

"Grace, I can spend every minute of my free time working for charity, but I won't
participate in this particular auction. I'm not judging the idea of it, I just disagree with
it. Please, my participation is not so important. There are many girls here who want
to take part in it."

"Maybe you as a person aren't so important but the fact that you are Christian Grey's
girlfriend is. So I would suggest you grow up and take part when the mother of your
boyfriend is asking you." A blonde woman suddenly says that to me. Who the hell is
she? I am dumbstruck. I know Christian is listening to it but says nothing. Thanks for
having my back sweetie.

"Elena, that's…" Grace starts.

"Actually, I am grown up so…." What should I say? I want to bitch-slap her! Calm
down Steele, pick your battles. Yes, that's right. I won't spend my time on her. She
clearly wants to make me mad, but it won't happen. "I'm sorry, do I know you? Or
you just feel like Queen of England and you think you can interfere in someone's
private discussion?" She wants to answer me back but I turn to Grace. "Grace, I
hope I won't upset you with my decision. I'm doing it for my personal reasons. I don't
want to offend you or this Gala, I hope you know that." Grace nods at me but says
nothing. "Please, if you need different help for Coping Together, I will be there."

"Of course Ana, I hope you will still enjoy the gala," Grace says. Ouch!

"Mother, I will donate money to foundation, so don't worry about it. Please accept
Ana's decision. It's just as simple as it is. Ana doesn't want me to pay for a dance
with her. Maybe next year you will make girls pay for the first dance with the guys so
she can take part in it." Christian smirks.

"It's not about a man-woman thing, Christian," I snap while he raises his eyebrow like
he knows better. "Well, maybe a little. Can we just drop it? The auction is about to
start."

I want to go home. Fucking stupid Gala just for wealthy people who are here to show
how much money they have. Fuck me if I will ever belong to this society. Damn it!
After the argument is over, I start thinking about more clever shit I could have said.
I'm thankful for Ray's taciturn character. He raised me not to speak before thinking.
But if someone asks me one more time why I'm not in the First Dance Auction, I
think I might lose it.
'Hey babe, are you ok?" Christian asks.

"Why shouldn't I be?" I snap, maybe too harsh. "My boyfriend just left me there to
fight alone with women I adore, well most of them, who the hell is that blonde bitch?"

"Ana, don't be disrespectful. It's Elena Lincoln, family friend. She is just too bold
sometimes."

"Christian, I am too bold, she is a bitch."

"Anastasia, stop it. And I hadn't left you. I figured it was your fight and that you didn't
want me to interfere. I agree with your decision, I didn't want you to participate in
Auction either, I can't stand men ogling you already, and if you were on stage, I think
I wouldn't be responsible for my actions." I giggle because it's so Christian. "Better?"
he ask and I nod. We're back to watching the Auction. Mia is on the stage. Yep, this
girl loves the attention. Then the game starts…. Ethan bids first: $10,000, then
Gideon: $15,000. Gideon really? What is a better way to piss Christian off? Ethan:
$20,000, Gideon: $30,000, Ethan: $40,000, Gideon with $50,000. Okay, I know that
the Kavanaghs have the money but not as much as Gideon. I notice Christian is
typing something furiously on his blackberry. Finally Ethan says, "$80,000," and the
room goes silent. Go Ethan! Gideon doesn't bid anymore; he nods to Ethan and
disappears somewhere. I need to find him and ask him what this was all about.

"Christian, before you kill Gideon, can I talk with him first?" I ask innocently.

"Anastasia, in a public place only and no more than 10 minutes," – he says sternly.
Wow, that was easy. "I need to talk with Ethan," he adds. Oh, now I know what the
texting was about. Of course.

I find Gideon drinking his whiskey, standing alone and observing the people here.
His sad eyes show that he feels lonely here. I need to make him see a therapist.

"Hey G, what's up?" I say cheerfully.

"Hey Ana, Christian let you talk to me?" he mocks.

"He doesn't need to let me do anything." Well, he did let me but he doesn't need to
know that. "So what was this about Mia, hmm?

"Just having some fun…"

"You said you aren't interested in her. You wanted to piss off Christian?" I ask
annoyed by his behavior.
"Christ Ana, no…. not everything is about Christian. I did actually to please Mia, my
way to say sorry for rejecting her. Normal girls like her wants two guys to fight for
her…" He pauses for me to get that. "So I gave her what she wanted. Too bad for
Ethan's wallet but it's better for him to know what he's gonna deal with. Mia likes to
be wealthy, he should be prepared," he states.

"Do you want to dance?" I ask to change the subject and he laughs at me.

"Of course Ana, only you can ask such question. As much I hate my life, I actually
want to live some more days."

"Relax, give Christian more time. He will come around."

"He will come around with me wanting his girlfriend?" he asks, not smiling and I don't
know if he is kidding or not.

"Gideon, stop it. You don't want me. You just want what I have with Christian. You
will find your love, finally." I say to him.

"Is what you have with him Ana, love? Not lust?"

"Yes Gideon…. I love Christian. He is the love of my life," I say shyly. But it is the
truth; I love him more than anything.

"Good to know," says the voice behind my back. Well, just perfect. I turned to him
and he is grinning like a fool.

"I would prefer hear those words in different occasion, when we are alone, not
saying to the guy who wants to steal you from me. But maybe he will get the
message finally."

"I did," Gideon says.

"Good," he says to Gideon and turns to me, his eyes darkened and he says the
words I wanted to hear all night, "You. Me .Bed. Now."

After some time in Escala

We are all hands and kisses on our way to Escala, his mouth never leaving mine.
Christian practically rips my dress from my body. When we reach his penthouse it
seems like nothing can stop him from getting me naked.

"Christian, slow down." I giggle

"Oh Ana, sorry, I can't wait to be inside you baby." He unzips my dress but not in
very patient way.

"Christian, you will rip the dress!"

"So what? Now it is my biggest enemy. We need to say goodbye to it."

"Christian!" I yell, but it's too late. Such a beautiful dress…

It will be our first time without a condom, Christian's member is more than happy.

"Ana…." he starts but says nothing more.

"Make love to me Christian…"

"I always make love to you Anastasia… even when we are fucking like animals…
I…." he stops again. He rocks his hips and when I think I won't hear these three
words…."Anastasia, I didn't plan this, falling in love. There was no option for me to
love someone. But you happened. And…." – he stops talking for a moment… "God
Ana, it's so fucking great to be inside you." He starts to thrusts harder, and I know he
will find his release soon, just like me…

"You are with me every day, in my mind and my heart, you are soaking my dreams
and every millimeter of my body wants you, every new talk with you is a reason for
me to fall for you more. You are my every thought Anastasia, I see and feel you
incessantly. I love you Anastasia Steele," he says while reaching his climax.

I slide my arms around his neck. "I love you too, Christian, more than you will ever
know."

He smiles his shy smile at me. How can such a Dominant be so insecure?

It's not my fav chapter for this story, I had in my head for too long. To get more
inspirations for myself I created a Pinterest board for this story…. I know I should be
writing not doing it but well, too late :)

If you want to see Ana's dress – it's awesome! – you can find me on pinterest dot
com slash alexplayroom slash fire-we-make

Please review! If you have time and want to…

All the best to Wrenegade for editing :)

 Chapter 18
AN

I am sorry for not updating for so long. To be honest I almost deleted this
story... But decided against it as you can see. From now on I will be updating
once a week. I don't have a beta now so I hope you guys can bear with my
mistakes.
This update is for Ashley :)

„You know it doesn't count." – I snicker.

"What doesn't count?" – Christian asks.

"Saying I love you when you are about to reach climax."

"What? Why? I mean it. You are the first person I said this words to."

"Yeah I figured… still doesn't count."

"Ana… I love you, love you, love you" – he says while kissing and tickling every inch
of my body. I giggle like a schoolgirl. "Okay, okay please stop." – I scream.

"Ana…" – he sighs looking in my eyes.

'I know Christian, love you too."

Life has been perfect for this couple of days…. Until the day I came home to find out
Kate shaking in tears… and really concerned Christian next to her.

"What has happened?" – I ask her.

"Ana, we need to talk." –Christian says not looking in my eyes. I feel sick.

"Katie, what's going on? Why are you crying? Something with Elliot?"

"No" she hiccups between sobs –"No, let Christian tell you, I am gonna lay down for
a bit" I haven't seen her so sad for a long time. What the hell?

"Christian please tell me what's going on, my mind is running wild."

"Ana… please don't get mad." Oh, I already like the sound of this. –" We visited
Rodriguez's apartment sometime after he left… It's abandoned. He left town."

"Okay… and?"

"We found tapes in there. There was a hidden wall in his apartment. Taylor found it.
And we found couple of tapes. There is one with you."

"I don't understand. Kate with Ethan took the original tape…."

"He had different camera also set in his closet, looks like this fucking bastard tried to
film you from different angle. He probably was selling this films on the internet. But
my IT guys hadn't found any in web. We were looking for it for…"

"Have you watch it?"

" Yes, I did."

"Oh my god, why? Why the fuck did you watch it? What's wrong with you?"

"Ana, I had too." – he tries to reach for me but I don't want it now –"Don't touch me
Christian!"

"Ana, it's me. Please, I'm not him. Fuck, I don't enjoy watching films like that. Taylor
has shown me this because you omitted some things that happen that night."

" Taylor has watched it too?! Oh fucking hell, could I be more embarrassed?"

"Ana, you shouldn't feel embarrassed. It wasn't your fault baby." He finally reached
me and hugs me tight kissing my head. Why this night keeps coming back to me?

"What were you talking about with Kate?"

"Sit down baby. Look, we watched this film… and after you left, this bastard was
quite pissed that his plan well, you know. And he says to himself that Kate will pay
for this. For fucking with his plan. He says to himself "You don't know what will hit
you bitch", it looks like he focused his anger on Kate and Ethan, not you. I wanted to
warn her."

"Oh my god! Why didn't you tell me first? You don't put such bomb on Kate! I can't
believe this. I told you several times not to discuss this night with Kate ever!" – I yell
at him.

"I know Ana, but I had to tell her, I organized security for her and she had to know
that someone is following her. She should be aware…"

"Damn it Christian! Why you never listen to me?! I know that Jose wanted to punish
Kate for saving me! You think why I didn't press charges against him? To protect her!
He threaten that he would do to her what…. what they did to her little sister." I can't
hold anymore, I'm crying right now, my poor sister is suffering again My whole body
is shaking… I am scared to death. I don't want to hide it anymore. I want to share it
with Christian, even if it is not my secret to share.

"Ana, what are you talking, Kate has a sister?"

"Had. Little Sue. She.. she died. She was…fuck… she was raped at the party and
left with her injuries. She didn't make it. It was before Kate and Ethan moved to
Seattle. There were some football high school stars involved. No one was accused.
No one saw anything. Fucking silence. Kate… she as you can assume didn't take it
well. She feels responsible for what happened… for not protecting her little sister.
That's why she taught me everything what I should have known about drugs, about
not being a rape victim. That's why she pointed a gun at you the other night. She is
protecting me. And I thought I was protecting her. But it doesn't count anymore, does
it? Bastard is gone and we two are in danger, right? And that's because you can't
listen. I fucking told you to drop it!"

"Ana…:

"Don't fucking Ana me!" We stare at each other and I can't find good feelings for him
right now! He put me in this situation! Because of what? I know it's Jose who I
should hate, and I hate him more than everything in this world, but I never thought
that man who I love the most would put me in this position. I can see that Christian is
scared of my reaction… but I don't give a shit anymore.

"I want you to go." – I hear myself saying these words. I can't believe I am so calm.

"Please Ana, I will protect you baby. Both of you."

"I know. I hope you will. I hope you will protect Kate because it's your fucking mess
right now. No word to anyone about Kate's sister. She doesn't like to talk about it.
Don't mention it to Elliot, she will probably break up with him if you will…. She isn't
ready to share this."

"I understand Ana, I won't."

"Just go, Christian, just go."

"Baby, I am so sorry for this mess. But he is dangerous man, not only to you and
Kate, but to other girls. There are more victims out there."

"I know. I just need some time to wrap my head around it. For a long time it was me
and Kate only. Now brothers Grey are in our life and it's not so calm anymore. I need
some girl time, okay?"

"You are shutting me out again, Ana." – he yells.

"No! It's not about you. It's about Kate! She needs me now."

"She has a boyfriend. Elliot can comfort her." – he says sternly.

"You don't understand. She needs her sister, even if I am not her real sister. It's a
women's thing. I just…"

"I get it. You need some time alone. Be my guest. Have a lot of it." – he says angrily
leaving our apartment.

This time it's different. Christian doesn't call, doesn't come to check on us. He is
sending only security so we are followed by his men everywhere. He behaves like he
is angry with me, and that's me who is livid about this. I try to put aside this mess
with Christian. Kate isn't in good shape, all bad memories keep coming back to her.
Ethan have stayed with us for a couple of days but had to go back to Uni. To be
honest it's actually really bad this time… Kate bought antidepressants. That's big,
she is against drugs saying that she wants to be aware of everything. I agree with
that. That's why we are going shopping today, I'm trying to postpone taking her these
drugs. She just needs to focus on something else, on the bright sides of life.

So I am now the owner of too many beautiful dresses that I can't afford. Also some
slutty dresses which I am sure will make Christian mad. I wonder if these CPO's are
reporting to him…

"Ana, let's go eat something. There is cool Spanish Restaurant on the other side of
the street. I've been there with Elliot one time."

"Okay Sis, I could use some sangria." – I smile at her, she is better today. But my
smile fades when I see Christian walking in the restaurant with some hot brunette.
They are smiling and talking, he doesn't look reserved like he usually is with women.
What the fuck does it mean?

"Kate, did you see it?"

"Yes sissy, but I don't think it is what you think it is." – she says half-heartedly.

"Yeah, right. Let's snoop a little before I start III World War."

They are sitting in the booth next to the window so we can see them staying across
the street. He is smiling at her, I can't believe but he is fucking happy. What the hell?
He can't be happy with other woman! Is she….? No, she doesn't behave like a
submissive, she looks to confident. When I am about to decide to go there and make
a scene he touches her. But I can't see if he is touching her hand or…

I can't watch this anymore.

"Kate, we need to go home. Call Elliot to stay with you. I am going out tonight."
 Chapter 19
If Christan thinks that he can fool around with some random chick, he has another
think coming. But why he was so cozy with her? Maybe he is his cousin or
something? Yup, rather something. I don't care anymore who the hell it was. He is
mine. And I am planning to remind him who he belongs to.

That's why I am waiting in Escala's lobby for the lift.

"Anastasia." - the most beautiful voice say my name. He is standing next to me in his
sweats, probably after his run. He is so gorgeous. I can't decide if I prefer him all
man-up in his suits or like now, so boyish in running shorts.

"Christian…" – I breathe his name.

"What are you doing here?" – he asks me. His eyes are light up, he is happy to see
me but kinda surprised.

"I am here to see my boyfriend." – I say smiling.

"So now you remember I am your boyfriend? Interesting." – he says as we enter the
elevator. Thank God Taylor is not riding with us, the tension is slightly bearable.

"What do you mean? " – I scowl at him.

"Really Anastasia? Are we going to pretend everything is okay? That you are not
avoiding me for past few days? It's really not fucking easy to keep up with you. Tell
me, what are you want from me? I am…"

"I missed you." – I interrupt him. – "I want you to kiss the hell out of me. That's for
now, and for later you can do whatever you want with my body. I belong to you. I…"

He hushed me with his finger on my mouth. - "Shh, first things first."

I slid my hands around his neck… I am beyond aroused. I thought he put up more
fight but with Christian nothing seems predictable. He kisses me gently, like if he is
waiting for my approval. He slides his hand under my dress and discovers that I am
not wearing panties.

"Fuck! Ana, you are killing me." – he growls. "We don't have time for this, but don't
be mistaken that you won't be punished for it. Your dress is too short. Again."

'Yes, Sir."
"No, we are not playing. Not here, not until later. I fucking missed you. And if I won't
fuck you the next minute I am gonna lose my mind."

"I want you now." – I whisper. I knew it from the gleam in his eyes that I have him.
Always… and hopefully forever.

So we did it. He fucked me into oblivion. We didn't talk too much… Well, I think you
can't call "faster, harder, come for me, oh my god, say my name…" talking.

- Morning the next day -

Seating at breakfast bar.

"So, I saw you yesterday with some chick. At Spanish Restaurant on Cordell's
Street. Care to tell me who it was?" – I ask him calmly. I notice he doesn't tense like
he was expecting me to ask this question.

"You did, huh? She is a friend." – he says casually.

"A friend? What kind of friend?" – I snap.

"A friendly friend. What kind of question is this?" – he asks pretending to be

annoyed.

"For fuck's sake Christian, who the fuck was she? Is she from your work, a colleague
or something?"

"No." I have the impression he is enjoying this.

"Is she your sub?" – I ask finally.

"What?!" – he yells. "How can you ask me if she is my sub? You were telling me over
there" – he points to bedroom" all night long that I am yours. So I am yours and you
think I am fucking someone else? What the hell, Ana? I can't keep up with your
mind."

"It's me who can't keep up with you! Why are you not telling me who she is? You
don't have friends. Your words, not mine."

"So what, you think I fucked her and you coming here and throw yourself at me?"

"I didn't threw myself at you, you jerk. " – I pause for a moment, holy hell I totally did
that. – "You are my boyfriend, I…"
"This is so fucked up." – Christian states. I couldn't agree more.

"Yes, it is. But you can't be with her. – I state. "It's really pathetic but I don't care if
you had sex with her or not, I don't care if you are falling for her… I saw how you
look at her like she was the most adorable girl in the world. I hate that!"

"I am not…"

"Shut up. I am talking now. I am hopelessly in love with you, Christian. This love, I
have for you, is unreal. It should be illegal. Because it is very shallow of me thinking
that you had sex with her and not caring. Okay, I am angry. If you do that again I will
cut your cock and take it with me, kinda like this part of you so I am gonna keep it." –
I pause for a moment to make him understand that I am serious – " So you see
Christian, I will get you in every way I can. I won't shut you out again, I know I hadn't
been the best girlfriend for you. But you can't looking for a substitute when we are
having silent days. I just needed my time, this situation with Jose… it was too much.
I just needed to go back to my old life. I needed my time with Kate, she – until you-
was the best thing in my life."

"Ana… I didn't sleep with that girl. I wanted to make you jealous. I wanted a fucking
reaction from you!"

What?

"I don't understand."

"Well, I don't understand is why are you still seeing Gideon, spending time with him
even if he is responsible for the mess with Rodriguez also. And me, I am getting only
fucking silent treatment! You are angry with me and not with him. You are meeting
with him secretly for past two weeks for fuck's sake! If you think it's shallow of you
coming here for sex ,let me tell you, I am the same. I don't fucking care if you had
sex with him, I will get you every way I can. In this fucking mess, we both are the
same. I could forgive you everything because I love you so much! I want to be your
everything Ana, and it's killing me that you can just put on hold our relationship. I
barely exist without you. I am glad for this show with Gwen because I finally have
you here. I fucking missed you."

"I missed you, too."

"So tell me, please make me understand why you can forgive Gideon and not me?"
– he asks.

"Because I love you, idiot." – I laugh when tears are rolling down my cheeks. "I want
to trust you, unconditionally trust you. I have bigger expectations for you because I
love you. You already are my everything, Christian. Even it's not good to be so
obsessively in love, it's too late for me. I don't know, this relationship thing is new to
me, and for you too. But I want a healthy relationship with you. I want us to be
forever Christian. I don't like when you are not listening to me, telling me what to do,
doing things behind my back just because you think it's better for me. It's not better.
All my life people were telling me what to do or they were doing things that are good
for me, but these things - they are good only in their mind. Keeping me in a dark is
the worst you can do for me.

First part of my life, I spent with a mother who treated me like a biggest mistake in
her life. You want to know why I moved in with Ray? Because I was starving. I didn't
have at least one proper meal when I was staying with Carla. We were eating only
bread. For a long time hot meal meant a hot tea for me. We had money of course,
but there were more important things… like shoes, bags, dresses, visit at
hairdresser. ..

So when husband no 3 came to the picture, I asked her if I could stay with Ray. She
was fucking relieved. I was so stupid, I should have asked her earlier. So I stayed
with Ray, he isn't my real dad. But I stayed with him. And life with ex-military man…
Ray is good but he doesn't know how to show emotions. So I was getting only orders
"do that, do this, it's good, it's bad" and a lot of yelling. Until one day Kate told him he
isn't in the military anymore and he can't giving me orders because I am not a
soldier. Oh my god, if you could see his face. He was dumbstruck. He asked me if I
felt this way… I didn't say anything. But Kate did… "She is scared of you, she won't
say anything because she thinks you would send her to her narcissistic mother." And
from that day Ray started treating me differently. He started talking to me, not giving
me orders. Kate's magic. That's why I owe her. I owe her a lot. You and her are the
best things in my life. If she needs me I want to be for her. But now, I really want us
to be for her. "

"Ana" – he puts me in his arms. "I didn't know that you felt this way. I am gonna tell
you everything from this day."

"Christian, I want us to be partners in this relationship. I want to feel equal. You know
I don't mind when you are taking control in bed, but…"

"I know, baby, I know." – he interrupts me.

'So, what's now?" – I ask.

"We will try to communicate better. We are going to be for each other. I want to be
for Kate also, I know she is a part of you. And I am very grateful she is your friend."

"Thank you. Christian, don't get me wrong…."

"Why I think I am not gonna like this?"

"Shhh, please have an open mind. I just… I want us… Can we go back to dating?
Slow down a little?"

"Why?"

"Because my feelings for you are too intense. We are too much, Christian. I can't
spend a minute without thinking about you. Last two weeks were a torture, real
torture. I know I am responsible for this. But… "

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"No! Damnit, Christian. I want to go on a date with you, lots of dates. Learn more
about you, tell you more about me. Do things people do when they are in new
relationship. What we both did yesterday… I mean – not caring if the other part was
cheating… it was wrong. Cheating is a hard limit for me, Christian."

"For me too, Ana. I told you that I didn't sleep with her. What about you?"

"I didn't sleep with her either." – I say smiling at him. But he isn't impressed with my
joke.

"Joking about cheating is also a hard limit for me." – he says coldly.

"I have never slept with Gideon and I will never sleep with him. He is just a friend.
Mine and yours friend. We were meeting with his therapist. Your CPO's must have
reported it to you."

"He did. But you didn't allow him to enter the room. And you were meeting with his
shrink in hotel's room? Why?" – he asks.

"Of course he couldn't enter the room, it was private therapy session, I was waiting
in another room. I was there only to check if Gideon is really getting some help with
his nightmares. In hotels because Gideon didn't want to be caught by paparazzi. He
is ashamed that he needs to talk to shrink. "

"Oh, okay." – Christian says relieved.

"Now you believe me?" – I ask.

"I think… I knew you wouldn't…" – he stutters.

"Me too." – I smile.

"I don't agree with slowing down. We have our pace. You shouldn't care about what
other people usually do in relationships. We are different. Every relationship is
different. I love you, Ana. I know… I have the feeling we are going be forever, baby. I
don't want to scare you… But I want you to move in with me."

I gasp for air.

AN
Thank you for reading. Do you like it? Lots of talking in this chapter, right? Please
review ;-)

You can thank Santa Claus and spirit of Christmas for kind of happy ending in this
chapter because my first idea was big fight and Ana was storming out of Escala….

Check my pintrest's page for visuals. Link in my profile.

xo,

Alex
 Chapter 20
Hi all, a little warning, this is a dark chapter.

Christian. The love of my life.

When you are thinking that you're gonna live only one more hour you regret nothing.
You are happy that everything happened to you. You are happy that you lived. And
that you loved and was loved.

So I am happy now, sitting tied to the chair. I can't move, I can't speak with a gag in
my mouth. So I am focusing on everything good in my life. I am happy I met
Christian. He gave me everything, he was my reason to live fully. I only wish that
Kate can still get away from this nightmare. It is all my fault. For choosing the wrong
guy in the first place. I was so fucking stupid.

„So, do you like it, Annie? Do you loooove it? - Jose asks. I can't speak but I hope he
can see my hate for him in my eyes.

„I did great, didn't I? - he continues talking „It looks like his dungeon. Tell me baby
doll, do you like to be fucked in dungeon? I didn't know you are into kink Annie, my
little virgin. Or wait, not anymore, right?" he smacks me.

„Imagine my surprise when I was wandering in his apartment and found out his red
room. I was intrigued! But it makes sense, you know Annie. No one normal would be
attracted to you. There must be something wrong with this guy, isn't it? Tsk, tsk such
a businessman and no cameras, I would say it was too easy. So I had to make this."
- he points the room - „My own version. You know, I like when things are more
sophisticated. My place never looked better." - he laughs.

Oh my God, Jose was in Christian's apartment? And no one saw him because I told
them to get rid of cameras. I feel sick, it is all my fault! He is a fucking psycho, he
created a copy of Christian's playroom. Focus Steele. He has Kate for crying out
loud. She is lying on bed, probably drugged. I wonder what has happened to Kate's
security or worse what has happened to mine? Ryan is probably still waiting in the
car for me to finish my Zumba classes. Jose kidnapped my from locker room at my
gym. Maybe girls call someone? I hadn't been spending much time there lately. We
are so fucked up. Focus! Okay, I can see a window. There is no window at
Christian's playroom, you idiot. So it must be real window, not fake one. He said „my
place never looked better". Wait a minute, is this his old apartment, the one that
Christian and Gideon trashed? There is no secret wall for cameras. I wish I could
say the same about cameras. Three fucking cameras are pointed at me and Kate.
Oh Katie, please wake up.

„So baby doll, hear what our plan is. We are going to make a film… No, no a film. A
reality show with live streaming. Your kinky boyfriend should be at his apartment
right now, doesn't he? You see, I've been watching you for a long time. I know yours
and his schedule, you should be at gym, he should be waiting for you, right? Or
rather waiting for a call from you? Lovebirds had a little fight, didn't they? Your little
break-up with him or what the fuck was that… it messed a little with my plans. But
everything is good now, I have you here and your slutty friend."

I try to make sense from everything he says.

„So what will happen, Mr Dom will open his computer and find a link to a very unique
video. You watching how I will have fun with blondie, I hope she will wake up soon, I
want to see fear in her eyes. She needs to be punished for interrupting us that day,
doesn't she baby doll? I want to make him suffer for making me to leave Seattle. And
you, you need to feel pain also for breaking up with me. No one is say no to
Rodriguez, no one!" - he slaps me. „Okay, that's enough. I am sorry, Mr Dom needs
to recognize you, no more bruises. For now."

Escala

Christian's POV

Tomorrow is my date night with Ana. We managed to compromise. I agreed to dates

and she agreed to think about moving in. Although her first reaction wasn't the best.
She was pissed because she thought that I hadn't been listening again. I know our
love is intense, passionate. But it is good thing, it makes me feel alive. I want to
marry that girl. But first step is moving in. I can protect her here. I need to have her
here every day. So only two more dates and that's it. She needs to move in.

We had a little fight lately because I wanted her to stay the night with me, but she
had her period and was repulse from the idea of having sex in these days. And I,
being an idiot, had to say she would love it, that all my subs liked to have sex during
their period. I don't know why I said that. I have never compare Ana to my
submissives before. I just fucking needed to make her agree to stay the night with
me. I will fix this tomorrow, I will fucking fix this.

I open my computer just to see the one thing I wanted never too see.
Ana beaten and tied up to a chair. He has her. I know it. Rodriguez. I have the
feeling. I am going to kill the bastard.

„Hello Mr Grey. Welcome to your Red Room, oh no, welcome to my Red Room. Do
you like it?"

I run to playroom just to see it's empty, they are not here. What the fuck?

„Taylor!"

He shows up in milisecond. „Ana was kidnapped. He has live stream on my

computer, come with me to my study but don't make yourself visible for this fucker."

„Mr Grey, hello? So did you check your dungeon? No luck, huh? Ooopsie!"- the
fucker laughs. Fuck me, he is insane. -„ Okay, sit now in your fucking chair and
watch. I will kill her the next second you leave this chair, understood?! Nod your
head because I can't hear you. I was never good with technology, you know? But
you can hear me, right? I can see fear in yours eyes. Love it."

"So we are gonna have some fun. I mean, I am gonna have some fun first with blond
bitch and then with my precious baby doll" - he says while touching Ana's cheek. „
You just watch. You gave me no choice making me to leave town. Consider it karma.
Be back in five, need to set up my camera first. You must seat in this chair whole
fucking time. No move or you are gonna regret it."

„Sir, am I clear, he can't hear you?" Taylor asks. I nod because I don't know if this is
true.

„Sir, cover your mouth with your hand and describe what you see. Miss Steele and
Miss Kavanaugh phones are dead, we can't track them."

„It's copy of my fucking playroom. Everything looks the same. How did he managed
to kidnap her?

I want all team to search Ana and Kate. Like a fucking hour ago!"

„Understood, sir" - Taylor starts to calling everyone but isn't leaving my study.
Fucking shit. Ana was supposed to be in gym until 8 pm. It's 9. He had on hour. They
could be out of town. Fuck me. I just stare at my laptop. All I can see is Ana sitting in
the chair, all tied up with a gag in her mouth. She isn't crying. She is blinking. Way
too much. There is something different in her blinking. What the fuck? Is this Morse
code?
„Taylor, I know where she is, fucker's old apartment. Ana used Morse. Thank God for
military father.

How Fast you can be there?"

„30 minutes sir or less."

„No! we don't have time. He's gonna rape Kate in next 10 minutes. He is taking
picture of her now. Call Cross, he lives 10 minutes from this place. And go. I will
have you on speaker so speak everything you see, I want to be updated every
fucking second. And Taylor, I want him dead."

„Yes Sir." He nods and then leaves my study. Fuck!

ANA's POV

I can't fucking move. He tied me so fucking tight to this chair…. oh my god, it hurts
so much. I wish he killed me already. I don't want to see it or feel it. I want to puke
which is impossible with this fucking gag in my mouth. I can see Christian's worried
face. I am so angry with myself for leaving this world when we are not on very good
terms. Maybe we are but it could be always better. I don't want this to hunt him.
Christian….

"Fuck! I gave her too much rohypnol. Shit. I have somewhere a drip here, I need to
wake her a little to feel something, don't I?" – Jose says searching for something in
his bag. He is a psycho. I can see Kate lying unconscious on bed. Maybe it's better,
she can't feel anything. I think I need to accept that it's last day of my life.

I turn to Christian. He told using Morse signals that he sent Taylor to rescue us. I
hope he will be on time. I think there is possibility he drugged Kate to death. She
needs to be checked by doctor like an hour ago.

Christian, I love you. .. ._.. _ ..._ . _._ _ .._

I wish I could blink to him more but tears are streaming down my face. I am not so
strong. I wish he could see me this last time in better shape but I can't help myself.
It's ultimate nightmare for me.

Suddenly, Christians starts to blink something new to me. What?

Window.
I can see someone is moving outside the window. But I can't see who it is. Fuck, it
must beTaylor, oh please do something. Then I hear a gun shot and Gideon is
crushing the window. What? I can't focus. I feel so light-headed. Jose reaches for his
gun….

Christian's POV

Fuck! He shot Ana! Fuuuuck! Her arm is bleeding. She behaves like nothing
happened, I don't know if she is aware of it. Rodriguez reaches for his gun but Cross
is faster. He shot him in his stomach but the bastard is still standing. Where the fuck
is Taylor? Fuck, kill him, he is gonna…. No! Thank fuck.

Fucker's been shot to death. Taylor finally bursts through a door. Fuck him. If not for
Gideon…

"Taylor, get Ana and Kate to hospital asap!" – I scream to my phone.

I see Ana is fighting against Taylor who is trying to stop the blood. She screams:

"No, leave me and go help Kate. Please, cover her. He drugged her, she needs to go
to hospital. Please, please don't let him take her from me. Please."

Her last words before passing out are "Where is Christian? Why he didn't come for
me?".

AN

So, yeah. Sorry for the delay. I wanted to give you two updates because this chapter
is a little dark and it was very hard for me to write. I will try my best to update
tomorrow.

To improve your mood check my pinterest's page, link is in my profile. I posted there
a little snippet - a gift from CG to Ana, it gives hope that everything will be okay…

Thank you for reading, all mistakes are mine.

 Chapter 21
It's been two weeks since that night. I woke up in a hospital. Apparently, I slept for 30
hours because of loosing too much blood. I feel better now. I'm living with Christian.
Before that night I was planning to hold for some more time moving in with him but
sometimes life make decisions for you. After that night I wanted to spend every
minute with him, I wanted and I want to have him beside me etery fucking minute of
the Rest of my life. I need it to function properly. I am relieved that Kate had decided
to tell Elliot about Sue. It means that he is very important to her. I just adore this guy.
I know he cares for her. And after that awful night it means that Kate is trying to cope
with what happened before. She was heavy drugged by Jose so we decided not to
tell her every detail. She thinks his hatred was mostly for me. She doesn't know what
he was going to do…. Okay, I don't want to think about this. Never.

So, Elliot moved in with Kate… Even though I know he wants her to move to his
apartament. But Pike Market is closer to Escala which means closer to me. I am
seeing Kate everyday for coffee, for shopping, to study for my exams. Sometimes
Gideon shows up. He was released after 24 hours free of charges. He was acting in
self-defense… I had to zone out for a moment because I don't remember Jose firing
a gun too. Gideon saved our lifes and I will never, I mean never forget it. Because of
him I can spend more time with people I love. Eveything is good beside one thing.
My nightmares. Bad dreams about that night.

Flashback

„Gideon! Gideon please, save me, please! Gideon, save me, save m , please." – I
know I am dreaming but can't wake up.

„Ana, Ana baby, you are having a bad dream, wake up baby, wake up. It's me, you
are in Escala, you are safe." – I can hear him. Christian.

I know he isn't handling my nightmares very well. For fuck's sake I am screaming for
another man. I even had a meeting with a shrink to help me stop these nightmares.
But this overpriced charlatan ony told me it takes time to recover from such bad
memories. But I don't know much more Christian can take. I am hurting him even if
it's my subconscious which screams for Gideon at nights.

Maybe some change of scenery will help. Christian is taking me today to his boat,
Grace. We are going to spend whole weekend on water. Thank God that he is a
sailor, that's why he knows Morse Code and fucking Morse saved my life.
On Grace

„Oh baby, you look too much fuckable" – Christian says to me. I am wearing a black
bikini which Christian very much like.

„Hmm, what are you going to do about it?" – I tease.

„Well, we coud start with kissing this fuckable smart mouth" – he touches my lips and
his finger is travelling down – „then kissing these very, very fuckable tits…"

„Christian!" – I scream as I am offended. But the hell I am.

„ Then maybe I could kiss this very, I mean very fuckable part of your body. Your
pussy." – he slides his finger in me. A moan escapes my mouth. – „Do you want me
to fuck this pussy? – he asks.

„Uhm, I don't know. I want to catch the sun." – I say tring to sound bored.

„Oh, really? I think your pussy might disagree with you. You see, such a wet, and
when I say wet I mean abso-fucking-lutely wet pussy can't be expose to the sun, it's
not healthy" – he says as he slids two more fingers in me and starts doing his magic.

„Are you sure, Dr Grey?" – I ask him.

„Oh baby, I am gonna show you how much sure I am." I giggle when Christian picks
me up and carry to the bedroom.

Morning on Grace

I woke up with only one thing on my mind. I am sore. As Christian would say abso-
fucking-lutely sore.

We made love for hours. It felt like the first time. Since that night it was actually our
first time. But something is wrong, Christian is missing in our bed. Our Steele? Okay,
not time for thinking about that. Then I notice the envolope on his pillow.

Anastasia,

Four months ago you asked me which book was my favorite. I'never have favorite
book. There are too many good books to have only one favorite. But my view has
changed.

You are now my favorite book. You and I are my favorite book. Our life is my favorite
book and I cherish every page. I know you are a fan of happy endings so I promise
you Ana, I am going to write for you our happy ending.

Yours, Christian

PS. And this is for my favorite bookworm. It means everything what I feel because
your are my everything.

I - intelligence – you are the smartest woman I've ever known, your mind is my
favorite part of your body. (And your heart, your mouth, your tits, you get the idea…)

L - love – your love for world, for people, for books ;) made me to love you.

O – orgasms, I owned and will own your every orgasm, Baby, I promise you this.

V – vixen, yes you are, and I love that about you.

E – emotions, from the moment you entered my life I can feel every emotion which
exists. Before you I was numb. Thank you Ana for bringing me to life.

Y – youth. When I am with you I feel young. And I know that 50 years from now I will
be feel young too, as long as I am with you.

O – is for before P, and P is for passion. Passion you have for life, for your hobbies.
Passion we have for each other.

U – Us. Thank you baby for believing in Us.

I am stearing at beautiful diamond bracelet. With secret message… This secret

message says "I LOVE YOU" in Morse code. The dots and dashes are carefully
hand stamped onto a beautiful hand cut brass piece. Not only is this bracelet
gorgeous, it's also mysterious and sexy. My my, Mr Grey is very romantic.

„Do you like it?" – he asks suddenly. I didn't notice him while reading his note. I
decide to blink to him my answer.

„Yes, I love it and I love you." – he smiles against my mouth like he's so happy he
can't help it.

4 weeks later

The weekend on Grace is one of my favorite memories. We had such a beautiful

time with Christian. But my nightmares didn't stop. It's even worse now – I am asking
during my night terrors „where is Christian? Why didn't he come for me?" That's why,
at least is what I am thinking, Christian's mood changes so often. He is happy, he
smiles, he kisses me but the next minute his is so angry, angry with me. Sometimes
we fight, I know he is jealous of Gideon but he has no reason to feel that way.
Gideon has his own hell trying to cope with his past, I see him only when I am
meeting with Kate.

I know that Christian's asshole beahavior is my fault but he starts to hurting me too.
Recently, we are only fucking. I love rough sex but I need some love making too.
Christian beahaves like he wants to claim me, claim every part of my body, he brings
to bedroom too much bdsm toys for my liking . I feel like he is shutting me out. I don't
feel the connection when we are in bedroom anymore. And that's bad. So I decided
to take some medications to stop my nightmares beacuse they are tearing us apart.
Maybe the doctor will give me some depression drugs too. I am gonna lose my mind
if Christian's behavior won't change.

„Miss Steele, have a seat. Let's discuss your options. I have your blood results.
Everything is good. And I think congratulations are in order."

„Excuse me?"

„Congratulations. You are pregnant."

„Uhm, what?"

„Ana, you are going to have a child." – she says sternly.

„But how it is even possibile?"

„You have a boyfriend, don't you?" – she asks annoyed.

„Uhm yes, I mean, I am on the pill. And I am on the pill to avoid having kids. I am
graduating next month."

„ Were you taking your pill every day?"

„Yes, of course! I…" - fuck! I didn't take them for couple of days after being
kidnapped by Jose. But we didn't have sexduring these days. We had on Grace…
Fuuuuuck!

„But I don't have morning sickness. Are you sure? Can you check one more time?" –
I ask.

„Miss Steele, you are 4 weeks pregnant. On your next appointment you will have an
ultrasonograf. Dr Greene will be your doctor during your pregnancy. I wish you all the
best."

„Okay, thank you and goodbye."

Escala

Huh, I didn't see that coming. I am waiting for Christian to be home from work. I hope
he is in good mood beacuse I need to tell him today, it's a huge, I can't keep it to
myself. I don't know how he is gonna react. Holy shit, I don't know what to think
about it. A baby….

I hope it will be a boy, little Christian. Okay, now I know that I want this kid.

„Hi baby!" – he kisses and cups my face between both hands. I love this.

„Hi you." – I smile and tease himfor a second before actually kissing him.

„Have you eaten yet?" – he asks.

„Yes, you?"

„Yeah, I had long dinner with clients. But I could use some wine, want a glass?"

„Nah, I am good."

„Are you okay? You look different." – oh boy, you have no idea.

„ Christian, I am okay. But guess what. Your boys can swim! – I yell excited.

„What? What are you talking about?" - he runs his hands through the hair, bad sign.

„Well, it sounded so much better in my head. Uhm, Christian, I am pregnant."

Silence.

„What? You are on the pill. You can't be pregnant." – he argues.

„I had doctor's appointment today and apparently I am four weeks pregnant. I might
have forgot taking pill after you know, that night."

„FUCK! How could you…. Fuck! How could you be so careless? We can't have a kid
now!" – Christian yells.
"I know, I know! I am sorry. It just happened. You know, something happens by
chance - and when you least expect it. I think we can handle a little baby. It's not so
bad."

"Not so bad? How this cannot be bad? We are at shit moment in our relationship,
every night you scream for another man to save you! How long it will take to run to
him for help? I didn't come because the fucker told me the minute I leave my
chair…."

"I know, I know that! Please, I don't want to talk about my nightmares. I am dealing
with it. I am meeting with your shrink every week ."

"Ana, I am just waiting for our life to be normal again. And vomiting, child's
screaming, diapers. I don't have energy for this shit." – he sighs.

"Well, you need to find your fucking energy. You have 8 months for that!"- I snap.

"You are only one month late, you can still have a miscarriage."

'What the fuck did you just say?"

"I mean, you are only 1 month late. Usually people wait until 3rd month to tell about
pregnancy. I don't know why are you telling me this so quickly."

"Oh my god, what's wrong with you? I am telling you this because you are the father.
For fuck's sake we are in this pregnancy together. Couple are waiting until 3 month
to tell OTHER people. Holy shit, I can't believe what you just said."

"I don't want you to have a miscarriage Ana. But we should wait. We don't know
what will happen. Don't be too much attached to this…"

"Shut up, just shut up! I told you because I want US to do everything we can to have
this baby, to have a healthy baby together."

"I don't want this baby, Ana! I need to get out." – he says and storms out.

Huh, I need to call Kate. And have some wine to calm my nerves. No, she doesn't
need my drama. And wine isn't an option anymore. Looks like it's me and my blip
now.

We are not talking for three days now.

Christian leaves early in the morning and comes home late in the evening. Even if I
am staying late to study for my exams he comes when I am asleep. We
communicate through the phone but he still refuses to talk about my pregnancy. I am
so tired of this shit.

And let's not forget the text he got from Elena. One night he came drunk and I
helped him to get to the bed and accidentally, and by accidentally I mean I checked
his phone because I was pissed, I saw the message from his Mrs Robinson.

„Fatherhood is not for you. You need control, and you can't control kids. That's why I
never had children. People like us shouldn't have kids."

Bitch! She is messing with Christian's head again. I need a plan to cut her out of our
life. So far, I told only Gideon about pregnancy. Actually, I almost puke on him
because I don't have morning sickness, I have afternoon sickness. Kate had to stay
longer at work so I am now alone with Gideon.

„Gideon, could you help me with something?" – I ask. I think I need to do this. I trust
him but something is wrong.

„Yeah, what's up?"

„Can you track Christian's phone? He isn't at work and it's 6 pm already. I don't know
where he is."

„Where do you think he is? Did you have a fight?"

„Yes. And I don't know where he is." – Probably somwehere with blond bitch.

„Okay, I will help you only because you look like shit and sooner you reconcile with
Christian, it's better…. For everyone" – Gideon adds.

30 minutes later

„What the hell?" – I ask. Who? I don't know. Probably myself.

„Ana, are you sure you want to come in there? It's not the best in your condition."

„I want to see it. I need to. I won't be kept in the dark." – that's it. That is the
beginning of the end. I can feel it. My heart feels it.

„You think the door are not closed?" – I ask.

„No, rules in this club say that rooms cannot be close for safety reasons."

„How do you know that?"

„Ana, it's a BDSM sex club. I've been here couple of times."

„Oh God."

„Are you sure? We can…"

„I am. Open the door, It's time to face the music."

Gideon opens the door. I can hear classic music, probably Wagner. Firstly, I see her.
Lying on table with legs wide open. She is tied to the table. Is she wearing
underwear? That's not important. I see that my man is standing in front of her and
whips the girl with a belt. He is wearing only jeans and no t-schirt.

He looks so cold and distant. I hate him. I hate him for doing this to us. Gideon
rushes to him and then Christian notices that we are in the room. I see shock and
regret in his beautiful face. Gideon punches him into the next week.

„Gideon stop! Please, stop. He is not worth it. He is jus fifty shades of shit. Let's go."

In that sex club I left my man, I left the love of my life. I left myself right there. That
didn't kill me. I surivived. But what doesn't kill you, fuck you up mentally.

Uff…. Many hours of writing this chapter. Please, review!

You can check Pinterest to see Morse Code Bracelet and more pics for this chapter.

Thank you for reading!

 Chapter 22
Time jump! 18 months later so Teddy is 6 months old.

Okay, Ana Steele. Time to be awesome. You're gonna get that job. You need that
job. It's perfect for you. It's small publishing house – you can do it. You need money
to feed your kid. You need to be successful, you want Teddy to admire you, right?
Right! Enough for the pep talk.

Where the fuck is Kate? She needs to take care of Teddy during my interview. It's my
fifth interview so far. I need this job, I need it for myself. Christian is still paying for
food and all things for Teddy. I want to pay it with my own money. But I don't make
much money from writing books reviews and English tutoring. I am able to pay the
rent and buy some clothes for me and Teddy. I live in Kate's apartment on Pike
Market, she decided to move in Elliot's apartment.

After my break-up with Christian I spent some time with Ray in Portland. But as soon
as I got my diploma I decided to go back to Seattle. It's my city after all and I love it. I
can't run away because the love of my life broke my heart. No, I am stronger than
this. Or at least, I like to pretend that I am.

Seeing him in that club, it almost killed me. It felt like all butterflies in my stomach
died. But even then I didn't run away. No, I thought we could fix this. I thought we
were unbreakable. He was saying over and over that he didn't sleep with her and I
tried to believe him. But I didn't. My trust was gone. I felt betrayed. So we broke up.
We had couple of fights but it was better to split, I couldn't be in the same room with
him and not cry for the love we lost.

Flashback

"Was she good? Tell me, was she?" – I yell.

"I didn't have sex with her. It wasn't about sex, baby."

"Don't call me baby. You've just lost this privilege. I am not your baby anymore. So
what the fuck was this about? Are you back to this BDSM shit?"

"I… I don't know. I just needed control. Ana…"

"How many times? How many times you were there?"

"Ana…"
"Tell me, if you want to fix this, be honest. No lies because we can't build a
relationship on lies."

"Three." – he sighs.

"Why the fuck did you do this, Christian? I asked you many times to go to playroom
but you were always saying no. Am I not good enough?

"Ana, you are everything I ever wanted."

"Bullshit!" – this talk is getting nowhere – "So come on, use your belt on me, show
me I am good enough for you."

"Ana, for fuck's sake you are pregnant."

"That's right you asshole. I am pregnant with your child and you went to sex club to
whip some other girl. Can't you see how wrong is this? Why the did you do that,
Christian?" – I sob, " You are my Christian, mine. You are good, I don't understand
why?"

"Ana… I am sorry, I am so sorry." – he cries.

"Are you going there again?" – I ask.

"No, of course not."

"Of course not… that should have be your thought before this shit happened. You
are not sorry you did it, you are sorry I found out. You were there three fucking times!
You knew damn well what you were doing. You knew damn well what you were
breaking. You decided to push me away, now I am gone."

So, I am a single mom now. Mom of beautiful baby boy, Teddy. Theodore Raymond
Steele. No, Grey. In my thoughts Teddy is always Steele, even though I decided to
give him Grey name. I am not sure if I did this for Christian or Christian's grandfather
who came one day to visit me.

Flashback

"Hello Mr Grey, what a surprise."- I open the door to Christian's grandfather. All I
want is to eat and sleep, I am 7 months pregnant.

"Good morning, Anastasia. Call me Theo, please. Can I come in?" – he asks.
"Of course, I will make some tea."

"So, you know me Ana, I don't stir shit. Tell me, what happened? I know you broke
my favorite grandchild's heart but I can see that he broke yours too."

"You can't say that. Grandparents should love all their grandkids." – I try to change
the topic. I will not have this conversation.

"Sweet girl, I love them all. But Christian was always my favorite, he has such fragile
heart. So I am here to fix this, you young people tend to delete problems, not solve
them."

" We didn't do that. It's more complicated. And If I am not mistaken it's between me
and Christian." – nice Ana, let's make all the Greys to hate you.

" I will tell you how I see it. Christian is heartbroken, that is a fact. But with him it
means more. His mind, soul, heart and body is broken. He drinks too much, he is not
working, he isn't talking with his family. He is a mess. I know you love him, only your
love can fix him."

"I don't have energy for that. I am sorry Theo. But I am heartbroken too, and I need
all my energy for this little man growing inside of me." – please, go away, I just want
to crawl to bed and cry.

"No one knows what happened to both of you. Analyzing his behavior I'm thinking
my grandson made a mistake. Big one. It's very noble of you to keep that to yourself.
I have a big respect for you Annie. Sometimes the strongest women are the ones
who love beyond the faults, cry behind closed doors. And fight battles that nobody
know about. We, men, are very fragile. We need a woman to keep us going. It really
is unfair that society don't appreciate women more. But I do. And I hope all Grey's
men too. Christian made a mistake but I know he is worthy of redemption. You have
a big heart Annie, I know you still can find a little love in your heart to show Christian
you still care for him."

"I care for him. I've never stopped. And I've never stopped loving him. I just turn
down my feelings for him."

"I know, sweet girl. But this boy needs hope. Just show him that maybe in ten years
from now you can, at least, be friends. He needs hope now, nothing more. If he has
hope… What I am trying to say here… Life sometimes keeps two lovers apart just to
help them to find their way to be back together. You and Christian need to be
stronger to build stronger, unbreakable relationship. You are now both heartbroken
and there is a good side of it. It means there was love. And sweet Annie, there will
be. Trust me on this. My boy is a good man and he will make you happy again."

"Aren't you a big optimist?' – I say crying and laughing at the same time.

"I am a realist, sweet girl. I am too old to be an optimist. I've seen the two of you
together, if that wasn't love, I don't know what is."

And he left just to be back two hours later with groceries, books, clothes. Funny as it
sounds granddad Theo made shopping for me. He saw that I don't have much
money. I know he could feel the chill in the apartment. That's why I kept for a long
time Kate and Gideon out of Pike Market. I didn't want their pity. I also know that
Theo told this to Christian because we have big fight about it. He sent Gail to me.
But this time I agreed. I wanted someone to take care of me, even if it was Gail and
Taylor, I knew it was all Christian. It's amazing how someone can break your heart
and you still love him with every broken piece of it.

After Theo's visit I asked Christian to came to my next doctors' appointment – USG. I
really tried to be civil with him, I really tried to be nice, to give him hope. But it was a
disaster. I cried, I threw accusations. I wasn't ready. I was full of regret. But my
attitude changed when I was 8 months pregnant and was lying in hospital bed. There
was a chance of early labour for me. Probably too much stress… Christian decided
to check up on me.

Flashback

"Hi." –he opens the door but isn't coming in.

"Hey, come in."

"I just wanted to see how are you feeling. Are they treating you good? Do you have
everything you need?"

"Relax Christian. I am good. Sit down, let's talk."

"Oh, I don't want to upset you." – he says shyly.

"It won't be like the last time. I've been sedated." – I try to joke. It's really good to see
him. He looks better than the last time. Although I hate his beard.

"Ana…"

"Christian, we need to set up some rules. I want us to be civil for each other. I don't
want Teddy to feel that his mom and dad hate each other."
"I don't hate you." – he says. Fuck, I used the wrong words. After a moment he adds:
"All right, now I know you still hate me. I am sorry Ana."

"I want to be honest with you. I just don't know how to past this feelings. I don't want
to hate you."

"I fucked up. I deserve this. Let's not focus on this. I need to keep you calm. So
Teddy?"

"Do you like it? I thought… about naming our son Theodore Raymond, you are very
fond of your granddad…"

"Thank you, Ana. I appreciate it. Very much."

"I want to ask you something and I don't want you to be upset. Christian, please give
me time, I have this love-hate feelings for you, and every time I see you I imagine
what we could have, and I am bitter, sad and angry. I need more time. When Teddy
will be born could you send Gail or Taylor for him, I think I can't handle see you and
Teddy together. I know it's selfish. But I know that Teddy needs a happy mum, I want
him to be happy. Please, consider this. I really need some time without you."

He stares at me for a long time. It feels like breaking up again.

"Whatever you need Ana."- he whispers.

"Thank you."

" But I want to be at his birth" – he says firmly.

"No, better not. I have Kate. I can't be a mess during labour. I…"

"I need to be at my first son birth, Ana! I won't be a weekend father. I know how it is
to miss your parents. You think it is important for Ted to have a happy mum, it s also
important to have both parents in your first days, not every child has that, he is
blessed that he has us. This is nonnegotiable. I won't let my son down."

"Okay then, that's settle." I wanted him to be beside me during Ted's birth. I just
needed him to want this for himself , for Teddy. I wanted him to be dedicated to his
son. -" One more thing. Can you shave this awful beard? Even if I am not with you I
want to ogle your handsome face, please don't take this from me. As a pregnant
woman I have my needs and I sometimes I need beautiful men around me. "

He laughs. Fuck. I hate myself that I can't let him go. I still want to his reason to
laugh.

I hear a horn. Kate is here. Finally. She is still the most important girl in my life. Kate
and Gideon are the only ones who know about what happened in that club. My Sis is
the reason I am still walking. She made me to feel proud of being a single mom.
Every time when I feel blue I stare at pictures of me and Teddy which Kate took for
me. My favorite is collage of three pictures - one with pregnant stick which says
positive, one of me with big belly, and one with Teddy in my arms.

Door bell. Strange. She has a key.

"Sis, always late. Now I don't have time to tell you Teddy's schedule…" – I say as I
open the door.

"Hello Anastasia"

"Christian. What are you doing here?"

'Kate couldn't make it. I gave Gail free days before she will become a nanny for Ted."
– Christian says.

"But how? How could Kate switch with you?" – she hates his guts, they are not even
talking.

"Elliot."

"Oh…"

"I know it's big day for you. I will take care of Ted, I have a free day today."

"Uhm, but I didn't pack anything. Kate was supposed to stay here. Oh my god, I don't
have time now…" – I start to panic.

"Ana, I will wait for you here, okay? I will stay at Teddy's room. It will took you an
hour, maybe two. I think you can handle me being in your apartment for two hours?"
– Christian asks. He is so sure of himself.

Something changed in him two months ago. After our talk in hospital he gave me
space and time. But when Teddy reached four months old he started to show up
more often. Usually it was Gail who came to pick up Teddy, or Mia and Elliot. Firstly,
he started to pick Teddy up every 3 weeks, recently every 2 weeks. And damn, he is
now even more handsome than before. Or maybe I am horny as fuck. He is so
delicious right now. Almost like he wants me to drool over him. He is wearing white
shirt and blue faded jeans. He looks so casual in his ray-bans and he rode here in
his Spyder. I bet he is doing this on purpose. He knows I like him looking so young
and free. Fuck, I don't have time for swooning for my ex-boyfriend.

"Okay then. Take care of my baby boy."

"Will do. And good luck, Ana. Just be yourself."

"Thanks. See you later." – I say as I walk out.

"Yeah, laters baby." – he whispers.

AN

Thank you for reading!

And thank you for all your thoughts for last chapter, as my thanking to you – quick
update.

To clear things up for fragile hearts out there – first, it wasn't Elena, second - there
was no sex. Still, it was a betrayal.

Check my Pinterest for some pics of Christian and Ana from this chapter. I got real
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 Chapter 23
I suck really bad at math. So it's 14 months later, not 18. Sorry.

Trust takes years to build, seconds to break,and forever to repair.

"Hey, you are back. How it went?" – Christian asks.

"Where is Teddy?" – I ask him before giving my answer.

"He is sleeping now, we had fun. I am proud of making our son tired."

"Oh really, you managed to worn out my little devil?" – I ask amused. He stares at
me smiling and cocking his head on the side like he knows what I am doing.

"How much longer will you delay answering my question?"

"Uggh! I don't know. We talked for 2 hours. Two hours is a long interview, don't you
think?"

"It certainly is…"

"So I think I had a „book connection" with her. I got the impression she is a nerd like
me. I was her last interview and she would call me today with her decision."

"So it's sounds good. Now tell me what's wrong?"

"I… think... I think I showed too much nerdiness." – I cover my face with my hands.

"What, how?" – Christian asks but he doesn't even try to hide his smile.

"You know, I just stop thinking for a moment and talk and talk and talk about books. I
think she didn't know how to stop me. God, I feel so stupid."

"Ana, I know she saw how much passion you have for reading. She would be stupid
not hiring you." After a moment he adds – „You know, you can always work for
GEH."

"Not listening. That will never happen and I thought we already discussed this."

"Okay,but if you…"

"Christian!"
First time I told him I want to get back to work he offered me position in GEH. We
had a fight but he still asks from time to time if I want to change my mind.

Ring-ring

"Oh God" – I stare at my phone but don't have any energy and will to pick it up.

"Ana, answer it?"

"No." – what is happening to me? When I became so insecure about myself?

"Fuck, Ana, answer your damn phone!"

"Anastasia Steele speaking. Yes. Of course. That sounds very good. No, not
aproblem I can start on Tuesaday. Thank you for giving me an opportunity. Yes.
Okay, thank you and see you next week."

"Aaaaa, I got it! – I jump like five years old girl.

"Congratulations Anastasia. I am so happy for you." – Christian smiles. Oh god, I

want to kiss him. He looks so freaking hot today.

"Uhm, thanks. Wow! It feels good. Oh Gosh, I need to call Kate."

"Ana, can you wait one minute before…. ?" – Christian asks shyly. I turned around to
face him just to see that he has something in his hand. Little box. Fuck.

"Ana, from the moment you've started looking for a job I wanted to give you
something to celebrate your success. I knew it would happen soon. I am so proud of
you, baby." He looks me in the eyes and knows that he said too much. „I mean, I
know we are not together anymore. But, I just saw this one day, and thought it's
perfect for you."

I open the box to find a necklace with book charm. And on this little book a heart is
placed. Oh my good, it's gorgoues.

"Christian. I don't know what to say…" I am holding my tears because it's perfect gift
but I can't accept it, I am not his girlfriend anymore.

"Consider it a gift from me and Teddy. We had a pact on this one." I laugh. Damn, he
is so damn cute.

"Okay, thank you. It's beautiful." I stand on my tip-toes and kiss him on his cheek. He
gasps and locks his eyes with me. Bad move, Ana. I feel naked in his eyes but can't
look away. It's an invisible pull. He licks his bottom lip and my nipples harden. And
when I think he is going to kiss me… he takes the necklace and puts around my
neck. Fuck! I almost kissed him! What the fuck Steele?

"I don't want to push my luck but maybe we could go for a dinner. You, me and
Teddy."

"Better not. I bought groceries before coming home, I will just cook something."
Retreat, retreat!

"But you hate cooking." – Christian states.

"Christian, what are you doing? First, the necklace, now you ask me for a dinner." It's
better to hide my embarassment with anger.

"I thought… maybe at least… we could be friends."

„How can we be friends Christian? You betrayed me. I can be friends with someone I
can't trust." – I snap.

"I didn't fuck her Ana. You've seen the contract, you know there was no sex…"

„I don't fucking care if there was sex or not. You decided it's better to whip some slut
than talk to me. And you still fail to notice the wrong in taking a woman, naked
woman to BDSM club and be alone with her... in the fucking dungoen. I asked you
also to get rid of Elena. Have you done it?"

„I did. I withdrew from Saloons, I don't have any part in Esclava now. You know this."

„But she is still friends with Grace. You still keep seeing her."

„No. I am not! Sometimes on charity events, but I am not talking to her. I've accepted
your rules."

„Yeah, just for wrong reasons."

„What?" – he barks losing his temper.

"You are doing this for me, not for you. You don't see what you did as cheating
becaues let me quote you „ it was about punishment, not getting off". You don't see
Elena as pedophile, for fuck's sake Christian, she goes to charity events with kids,
how do you know she isn't into young boys? I don't want her near Teddy, fucking
ever!" – I yell at him all my frustrations.
"I know Ana, I know! I promised you that Teddy would never be at the same place as
her. I am keeping that promise. And I am not doing this for you, I am doing this for
us. I'm trying to fix us! I know I betrayed you, I will never forgive myself. I lost all my
self respect in myself."

"There is no us, Christian! Please, understand this. All you have to do is fix…
yourself. "

"I told you I'd do whatever it takes to change, to be a better person. Am I still so
fucked up that you can't be even my friend? I made a mistake, Ana. I gave you a
hard time. I broke your trust. But… I've never wanted to hurt you. I know you have a
lot of reasons of giving up on me. But I still believe in us. I know you don't want to
hear it… I love you Anastasia Steele. Always have, always will. I can't stop loving
you. I've even tried to stop loving you. I consider it… for a second. But my mind, my
heart and my soul denied this thought. You are my second half Ana. You know what
my grandpa said to me… when I was losing my mind after our break-up. That true
love has a habit of coming back. And Theo knows what he is saying. I believe him. I
believe in us. I believe that one day you're gonna love me again. And I will do
everything in my power to make it happen."

3 months later

It's been three moments from the day Christian told me he wants me back.
Somehow I knew it all the time. But when he told me he had tried to stop loving me I
felt like my heart disappeared. I don't want him to stop loving me. Never. But I am
still afraid to open my heart for him. We maneged to become friends… sort of. When
Christian is picking up Teddy, we talk a little, we laugh, we decide together on Ted's
upbringing. And Christian picks up Ted every time now, not Gail, not Mia, always
Christian. So I am seeing him every week. And he is always so fucking handsome. I
know he is teasing me. Bastard. But I love him for that. Wait, what? Who are you try
to kid Ana? You love Christian. Damn, sometimes I think I am my biggest enemy…

Now, I am sitting in my office. I got big deal today. I made very well known author to
choose SIP as his publishing house for his next three novels, three! I am so proud of
myself, I am so happy... So why I feel so sad, like something is missing? Or
somoene. Jon Krakaure was right: happiness is real when shared. Kate and Elliot
are out of town, Gideon has his couple therapy meeting with Eva today. Maybe I
could celebrate with Sawyer? Haha, yeah, I can see how Christian will react to my
bonding with my bodyguard. So it will be me and Ted. Christian should bring Teddy
at five pm. He always takes him to work on Fridays. Of course, all media call him
now„best Dad of Seattle". And I am jealous a little. I spend more time with Ted,
where is my fucking award, I am a working mom too. Okay, maybe a little more
jealous. I don't have my own Company so I can't bring Ted to work. Christian has
Ted on 3 weekends and every Friday. And Gail cooks for him and do all the cleaning.
It's so fucking unfair. Okay to be honest, he wants to spend more time with Ted and I
am saying no. I am relieved I made him sign joint custody rights. I know it hurt him
that I didn't trust him. Okay, again thinking about Christian… Jeez, I am hopeless.
Time to go home to my baby boy.

"Anastasia." – someone calls me when I am heading to busstop. I know this voice. I

turn around to see Christian in his suit… with Teddy in his arms. I could die happily
now. I love to perv on Christian when he is on his daddy duty.

"Hey guys, what are you both doing here? Come to Mommy little boy." - I smile and
take Ted in my arms. I feel so much better now.

"We wanted to suprise you. So…. Can I ask how the big deal went?" I forgot that
Christian knows about it, I told him week ago that I am working on my first big
project. Of course, he being himself asked thousand questions about it.

"It went well." – I grin like a fool. I want him to be proud of me. „He signed not only
for his next novel, but his next three books. You hear that baby boy, your momma got
her shit handled."

"Ana." – Christian scowls.

"I am sorry. I don't know why I said it."

"I always thought he will caught it from me. Now I am relieved." – he laughs.

"Shush. Why are you here?"

"Well, we as me and Teddy, want to ask you for a dinner to celebrate handling
your… I mean to honour your work." – Christian asks. I can see he is nervous I turn
him down again.

"You and Teddy, huh? Are you gonna always use my son to pick up a girl?"

"It depends if I have to use him… to pick up a girl… this very particular girl." – he
asks with his eyebrow high.

"You don't have to." – I say trying not to blush.

"Ana, will you do me an extraordinary honor and accompany me to dinner?"

"Uhm, I don't feel today like cooking so yeah, I can go."

"Thanks, I am flattered." – he snorts.

"You should be." – I tease.

"Taylor is waiting on the other side of the street."

"Okay, let's go."

"And Ana…"

"Yes?"

"It's our son."

"Our." – I reply softly.

AN
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