From Letters by a Modern Mystic

FRANK LAUBACH (1884–1970)

INTRODUCTION TO THE AUTHOR

In 1915 Frank Laubach went with his wife to the Philippine Islands as a missionary. After founding
churches on the island of Mindanao, he established and became dean of Union College in Manila. In
1930 he returned to Mindanao to work with the Mohammedan Moros who regarded the Christian
Filipinos as their enemies. Laubach, however, went with a heart filled with the presence of God and
sought only to live among them, not trying to coerce them into Christianity, but living each moment
with a sense of God’s presence.

It is estimated that through his educational efforts he was responsible for teaching one-half of the
ninety thousand people in that area to read and write. More than that, he has brought thousands of
people to a richer experience of God. The following reading comes from the letters he wrote during
his Mindanao days.

EXCERPTS FROM LETTERS BY A MODERN MYSTIC

1. Open Windows

January 3, 1930

To be able to look backward and say, “This, this has been the finest year of any life”—that is glorious!
But anticipation! To be able to look ahead and say, “The present year can and will be better!”—that is
more glorious! I have done nothing but open windows—God has done the rest. There has been a
succession of marvelous experiences of the friendship of God. I resolved that I would succeed better
this year with my experiment of filling every minute full of the thought of God than I succeeded last
year. And I added another resolve—to be as wide open toward people and their need as I am toward
God. Windows open outward as well as upward. Windows open especially downward where people
need the most!

2. Submission: The First and Last Duty

January 20, 1930

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Submission is the first and last duty of man. That is exactly what I have been needing in my Christian
life. Two years ago a profound dissatisfaction led me to begin trying to line up my actions with the
will of God about every fifteen minutes or every half hour. Other people to whom I confessed this
intention said it was impossible. I judge from what I have said that few people are trying even that.
But this year I have started out trying to live all my waking moments in conscious listening to the
inner voice, asking without ceasing, “What, Father, do you desire said? What, Father, do you desire
done this minute?”

3. Feeling God in Each Movement

January 26, 1930

For the past few days I have been experimenting in a more complete surrender than ever before. I am
taking by deliberate act of will, enough time from each hour to give God much thought. Yesterday
and today I have made a new adventure, which is not easy to express. I am feeling God in each
movement, by an act of will—willing that He shall direct these fingers that now strike this
typewriter—willing that He shall pour through my steps as I walk—willing that He shall direct my
words as I speak, and my very jaws as I eat!

You will object to this intense introspection. Do not try it, unless you feel unsatisfied with your own
relationship with God, but at least allow me to realize all the leadership of God I can. I am disgusted
with the pettiness and futility of my unled self. If the way out is not more perfect slavery to God, then
what is the way out? I am trying to be utterly free from everybody, free from my own self, but
completely enslaved to the will of God every moment of this day.

4. Moment by Moment

We used to sing a song in the church in Benton which I liked, but which I never really practiced until
now. It runs:

Moment by moment, I’m kept in His love;

Moment by moment I’ve life from above;
Looking to Jesus till glory doth shine;
Moment by moment, O Lord, I am Thine.

It is exactly that “moment by moment,” every waking moment, surrender, responsiveness, obedience,
sensitiveness, pliability, “lost in His love,” that I now have the mind-bent to explore with all my
might. It means two burning passions: First, to be like Jesus. Second, to respond to God as a violin
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responds to the bow of the master. Open your soul and entertain the glory of God and after a while
that glory will be reflected in the world about you and in the very clouds above your head.

5. Only One Thing Now

January 29, 1930

I feel simply carried along each hour, doing my part in a plan which is far beyond myself. This sense
of cooperation with God in the little things is what astonishes me. I seem to have to make sure of only
one thing now, and every other thing “takes care of itself,” or I prefer to say what is more true, God
takes care of all the rest. My part is to live in this hour in continuous inner conversation with God and in
perfect responsiveness to His will. To make this hour gloriously rich. This seems to be all I need to think
about.

6. Undiscovered Continents of Spiritual Living

March 1, 1930

The sense of being led by an unseen hand which takes mine while another hand reaches ahead and
prepares the way, grows upon me daily. I do not need to strain at all to find opportunity. Perhaps a
man who has been an ordained minister since 1914 ought to be ashamed to confess that he never felt
the joy of hourly, minute by minute—now what shall I call it?—more than surrender.

It is a will act. I compel my mind to open out toward God. I wait and listen with determined
sensitiveness. I fix my attention there, and sometimes it requires a long time early in the morning to
attain that mental state. I determine not to get out of bed until that mind set, that concentration upon
God, is settled. It also requires determination to keep it there. After a while, perhaps, it will become a
habit, and the sense of effort will grow less. But why do I harp on this inner experience? Because I feel
convinced that for me and for you who read there lie ahead undiscovered continents of spiritual
living compared with which we are infants in arms.

But how “practical” is this for the average man? It seems now to me that yonder plowman could be
like Calixto Sanidad, when he was a lonesome and mistreated plowboy, “with my eyes on the
furrow, and my hands on the lines, but my thoughts on God.” The millions at looms and lathes could
make the hours glorious. Some hour spent by some night watchman might be the most glorious ever
lived on earth.

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7. How Infinitely Richer

March 15, 1930

Every waking moment of the week I have been looking toward Him, with perhaps the exception of
an hour or two. How infinitely richer this direct first hand grasping of God Himself is, than the old
method which I used and recommended for years, the endless reading of devotional books. Almost it
seems to me now that the very Bible cannot be read as a substitute for meeting God soul to soul and
face to face.

8. Can It Be Done?

March 23, 1930

We can keep two things in mind at once. Indeed we cannot keep one thing in mind more than half a
second. Mind is a flowing something. It oscillates. Concentration is merely the continuous return to
the same problem from a million angles. So my problem is this: Can I bring God back in my mind-
flow every few seconds so that God shall always be in my mind as an after image, shall always be one
of the elements in every concept and precept? I choose to make the rest of my life an experiment in
answering this question.

I do not invite anybody else to follow this arduous path. I wish many might. We need to know, for
example, Can a laboring man successfully attain this continuous surrender to God? Can a man
working at a machine pray for people all day long, and at the same time do His task efficiently? Can a
mother wash dishes, care for the babies, continuously talking to God?

If you are like myself, this has been a pretty strong diet. So I will put something simpler and more
attainable: “Any hour of any day may be made perfect by merely choosing. It is perfect if one looks to
God that entire hour, waiting for His leadership all through the hour and trying hard to do every tiny
thing exactly as God wishes it done.”

9. Difficulty and Failure

April 19, 1930

If this record of a soul [sic] struggle to find God is to be complete it must not omit the story of
difficulty and failure. I have not succeeded very well so far. This week, for example, has not been one
of the finest in my life, but I resolve not to give up the effort. Yet strain does not seem to do good. At

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this moment I feel something “let go” inside, and lo, God is here! It is a heart melting “here-ness,” a
lovely whispering of father to child, and the reason I did not have it before was because I failed to let
go.

10. Letting God Control

April 22, 1930

This morning I started out fresh, by finding a rich experience of God in the sunrise. Then I tried to let
Him control my hands while I was shaving and dressing and eating breakfast. Now I am trying to let
God control my hands as I pound the typewriter keys. There is nothing that we can do excepting to
throw ourselves open to God. There is, there must be, so much more in Him than He can give us. It
ought to be tremendously helpful to be able to acquire the habit of reaching out strongly after God’s
thoughts, and to ask, “God, what have you to put into my mind now if only I can be large enough?”
That waiting, eager attitude ought to give God the chance He needs.

Oh, this thing of keeping in constant touch with God, making Him the object of my thought and the
companion of my conversations, is the most amazing thing I ever ran across. It is working. I cannot do
it even half a day—not yet, but I believe I shall be doing it some day for the entire day. It is a matter
of acquiring a new habit of thought. Now I like God’s presence so much that when for a half hour or
so He slips out of mind—as He does many times a day, I feel as though I had deserted Him, and as
though I had lost something very precious in my life.

Poetry Far More Beautiful

May 24, 1930

The day had been rich but strenuous, so I climbed “Signal Hill” back of my house talking and
listening to God all the way up, all the way back, all the lovely half hour on the top. And God talked
back! I let my tongue go loose and from it there flowed poetry far more beautiful than any I ever
composed. It flowed without pausing and without ever a failing syllable for a half hour. I listened
astonished and full of joy and gratitude. I wanted a dictaphone for I knew that I should not be able to
remember it—and now I cannot. “Why,” someone may ask, “did God waste His poetry on you alone,
when you could not carry it home?” You will have to ask God that question. I only know He did and
I am happy in the memory.

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BIBLE SELECTION: PSALM 139: 1–11 17–18, 23–24

O LORD, you have searched me and known me. 2You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you
discern my thoughts from far away. 3You search out my path and my lying down, and are acquainted
with all my ways. 4Even before a word is on my tongue, O LORD, you know it completely. 5You hem
me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. 6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is
so high that I cannot attain it.

7 Where can I go from your spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence? 8If I ascend to heaven, you
are there; if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there. 9If I take the wings of the morning and settle at the
farthest limits of the sea, 10even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me fast.

17 How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18I try to count them—
they are more than the sand; I come to the end—I am still with you.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. 24See if there is any wicked
way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

REFLECTION QUESTIONS

The following questions can be used for discussion within a small group, or used for journal
reflections by individuals.

1. What led Frank Laubach to experiment with practicing God’s presence? (See section 2.)
Describe how you feel about your spiritual life right now.
2. Laubach refers to this practice as an act of the will. To what is he directing his will? What
thoughts? What actions?
3. The author describes this practice as a habit. What thoughts are you in the habit of thinking?
How does your thought life shape who you are?
4. Laubach writes, “There is . . . so much more in Him than He can give us.” Over the past few
years, what things has God given you? What keeps God from being able to give you more?
5. According to Psalm 139, is there any place we can go to escape the presence of God? How do
you feel about the constant presence of God?

SUGGESTED EXERCISES

The following exercises can be done by individuals, shared between spiritual friends, or used in the
context of a small group. Choose one or more of the following.
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 1. Try Laubach’s experiment of thinking of God each moment. Try it for ten minutes. Try it for
an hour. Try it for a whole day. Record your experiences.
2. Submission, according to Laubach, was central to his experiment. As you go about your
tasks this week, deliberately pause to listen for God’s counsel, and attempt to line up your
actions with God’s will as often as you think of it.
3. Put some reminder (e.g., a note, a cross, a Bible passage) in your work space that will trigger
thoughts of God’s presence each time you glance at it throughout your workday.
4. Make the prayer of the psalmist (Ps. 139: 23–24) your prayer this week. Ask God to search
your heart and mind as you endeavor to live a whole and complete life.

REFLECTIONS

I marvel at the prayer experiences of Frank Laubach. Here is a giant of a man, a man who developed a method of
literacy training that has been used worldwide, compassionately declaring, “I want to learn how to live so that
to see someone is to pray for them.” He has helped me tremendously.

Even today, I like to thumb through his letters and journals until I encounter one of his prayer
experiments that seems right for me for now. Perhaps it is an experiment in praying for people on a
plane, inviting Jesus Christ to go from passenger to passenger, bringing His love into their lives. Then
I’ll try it for a while and see what I learn. It’s a great adventure, this life of prayer, and Frank Laubach
has pioneered the way for many of us.

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Days 1 – 5 (Jeff Borden – a response to the devotional reading of F. Laubach)

• What led Frank Laubach to experiment with practicing God’s presence? (See section 2.) Describe how you feel
about your spiritual life right now.
• Laubach refers to this practice as an act of the will. To what is he directing his will? What thoughts? What actions?
• The author describes this practice as a habit. What thoughts are you in the habit of thinking? How does your
thought life shape who you are?
• Laubach writes, “There is…so much more in Him than He can give us.” Over the past few years, what things has
God given you? What keeps God from being able to give you more?
• According to Psalm 139, is there any place we can go to escape the presence of God? How do you feel about the
constant presence of God?

I don’t think I have been more touched by the parallel of “soul hunger” than when I read this excerpt from the
letters of Frank Laubach. The magnitude of desire for God that Laubach shows is an inspiration and challenge
for my own life. The “profound dissatisfaction with his own spirituality” led him to experiment with God’s
presence. Laubach writes:
Submission is the first and last duty of man. That is exactly what I have been needing in my Christian
life. Two years ago a profound dissatisfaction led me to begin trying to line up my actions with the will
of God about every fifteen minutes or every half hour. Other people to whom I confessed this intention
said it was impossible. I judge from what I have said that few people are trying even that. But this year I
have started trying to live all my waking moments in conscious listening to the inner voice, asking
without ceasing, “What, Father, do you desire said? What, Father, do you desire done this minute?”
Then later, he writes again:
“…You will object to this intense introspection. Do not try it, unless you feel unsatisfied with your own
relationship with God, but at least allow me to realize all the leadership of God I can. I am disgusted
with the pettiness and futility of my unled self. If the way out is not more perfect slavery to God, then
what is the way out? I am trying to be utterly free from everybody, free from my own self, but
completely enslaved to the will of God every moment of this day.”
While I fall miserably short, this is the attitude that my heart desires in following my LORD and my GOD. I say
this with the full understanding that actions speak louder than words. I don’t want to be caught in the push
and pull of the Romans Seven Man; I prefer to live in the freedom of the Romans Eight Man…passionately free
to pursue the life in the Spirit, led only by the winds and desires of Jesus…bringing glory to Him with every
breath I draw. Ambitious? Yes. Practical? Probably not. Possible to achieve this life? It depends.

Laubach refers to this practice as an act of will… The question is whether or not I am willing to submit my will
to what my heart and my spirit desire. This, then, is the question and the true test; do I want the life of
Jesus…the Spirit of the Living God to be the Fuel that drives everything that I say, do, and think? I say yes, but
what do my actions reveal? Am I caught up in the world of the Carnal R7‐Man, or can I be freed to live in the
promises of the R8‐Man that Jesus illustrated as He walked among us? It was He who said “I only do what the
Father has told me…I only act as I have seen the Father act…” He also said, “Why do you marvel; these things
you have seen me do, you will do also…and even greater.” It seems that if I really believed this, I would take
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the strides and make the efforts to live in a manner which moved me closer to reaching that life. What are my
efforts? Have I made strides? I answer; yes. I have made strides, and I do continue efforts. The problem lies in
my dissatisfaction and realization that my efforts are not “full‐on.” I could give more of myself…I could fully
submit my life to the measure of creating space for God in everything that I do. Although I am cognantly aware
of God’s presence in my life, I have a tendency to marginalize and compartmentalize His existence in my life as
it suits my needs and mood of the moment. I don’t want to live this way.

Section Eight shares another letter from Laubach:

We can keep two things in mind at once. Indeed we cannot keep one thing in mind more than
half a second. Mind is a flowing something. It oscillates. Concentration is merely the continuous return
to the same problem from a million angles. So my problem is this: Can I bring God back in my mind‐flow
every few seconds so that God shall always s be in my mind as an after image, shall always be one of
the elements in every concept and precept? I choose to make the rest of my life an experiment in
answer in this question.
I do not invite anybody else to follow this arduous path. I wish many might. We need to know,
for example, Can a laboring man successfully attain this continuous surrender to God? Can a man
working at a machine pray for people all day long, and at the same time do his task efficiently? Can a
mother wash dishes, care for the babies, continuously talking to God?
If you are like myself, this has been pretty strong diet. So I will put something simpler and more
attainable: “Any hour of any day may be made perfect by merely choosing. It is perfect if one looks to
God that entire hour, waiting for his leadership all through the hour and trying hard to do every tiny
thing exactly as God wishes it done.”

To this letter and these thoughts of FL, I say; “I want to be in this place…I want to go here and try this grand
experiment.”

There are several final thoughts concerning this journey of Laubach’s that he shares, and I think they are good
for us to hear, but before sharing them I think it is good to realize that the Bible depicts this way of life as the
expectation for those who follow after Jesus. It is (this life described by FL) not just the crazy experiment of a
religious zealot. Paul admonishes believers to pray without ceasing (1 Thess. 5:12‐18; Eph. 6:18; 1 Timothy
2:8). The psalmist speaks of meditating continuously on the word of God night and day (Psalm 1:1‐2). Jesus’
teaching illustrates a continuous connection to the presence of God. There are examples of saints (Jean Pierre
De Caussade and Brother Lawrence) who have practiced this teaching and lifestyle. I suppose my point is that
the idea of living connected continuously to God is not a new, or farfetched, idea.

Final thoughts from Laubach:

If this record of a soul [sic] struggle to find God is to be complete it must not omit the story of difficulty
and failure. I have not succeeded very well so far. This week, for example, has not been one of the finest
in my life, but I resolve not to give up the effort. Yet strain does not seem to do good. At this moment I

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 feel something “let go” inside, and lo, God is here! It is heart melting “here‐ness,” a lovely whispering of
father to child, and the reason I did not have it before was because I failed to let go.

And I find this to be (probably) the most comforting and encouraging:

There is nothing that we can do excepting to throw ourselves open to God. There is, there must be, so
much more in Him that He can give us. It ought to be tremendously helpful to be able to acquire the
habit of reaching out strongly after God’s thoughts, and to ask, “God, what have you to put into m y
mind now if only I can be large enough?” That waiting, eager attitude ought to give God the chance he
needs…Oh, this thing of keeping in constant touch with God, making him the object of my thought and
companion of my conversations, is the most amazing thing I ever ran across. It is working. I cannot do it
even half a day—not yet, but I believe I shall be doing it someday for the entire day. It is a matter of
acquiring a new habit of thought. Now I like God’s presence so much that when for a half hour or so he
slips out of mind—as he does many times a day—I feel as thought I had deserted him, and as thought I
had lost something very precious in my life.

I truly believe that God is calling me (I believe He is calling all of His children) to seek Him at this level and
beyond. I determine not to be discouraged, but to persevere. I believe that, giving God the opportunity in my
life, will produce the continual experience of His leading and acknowledgment of His presence in my life. In
other words, effort to develop the habit of His presence will reap the reward of awareness of His presence.

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