What happened to me? Why am I doing this?,...addict!,crazy!,thief!

,that's all I
hear from those people around me.,. But before that let me introduce my self I am
Marvie San Jose and I am 18 years old, we have four siblings and I am the eldest.
when we were young, we didn't have any parents, they died early because of an
accident. When our parents died, I was so hurt that it was as if I refused to live
in this world, I tried to ask myself how can I do this? How can I revive my
brothers and sister? Will I be able to face the various trials without my parents?
It's hard to live without them, I have so many of questions I ask myself that I
don't even know how to answer all of this or what I should do? Where should I
start? Until one day, my aunt and her husband came into our house, they took me,
and my siblings and they were the ones who took care of us. I thought we would live
peacefully and our lives would be better with them. because we thought they would
be the ones to stand as our parents but I guess I was wrong. as time went by they
became bad, so they adopted us to be slaves like animals. Hurt, beaten, all of the
bad things they do to us So I say to Myself "I will take revenge! I will return
you!"