Hope.

Her description :
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Full name: Amal Lakhssassi
Height: 158 cm🥰 (sghiwra)
Birthday: 06/01
Hair : curly brown hair
Eye color: (the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen) greenish gray emerald eyes.
Gorgeous pretty face.
Favorite color: yellow.
She likes sushi.
Loves Hawaii. (The drink)
Cute sexy body.
She is : Lovely, supportive, hard working, funny, passionate, intelligent,
intellectual, ambitious, generous, confident, clever, honest and sexy.
Looks good in everything she wears. (Especially in kaftans)
Really good talker.
She knows way too much. (In a good way )
Cares about others (mommy vibes)
She has amazing soft hands.
She gives the best hugs ever.
Clams to be a good kisser. (But I need to find out for myself) (update: we kissed.
Made out. It was the best tafyifa in 2022. Best kisser ever)
She can make you horny or get you hard with the slightest things. (Don’t tell her)
Really knows how to flirt. (REALLY)
If she wants something, she’ll get it (would doggy eye you until you do or give her
what she wants).
Really knows how to convince me.
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Things I need to figure out:
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Relearn how to express myself and say what’s on my mind.
Learn how to talk about feelings and what’s bothering me.
How can I love her correctly
Why doesn't she tell me what's wrong and how can I gain that trust?
Does she really love me?
Does she really like me or is it just a “phase”?
Does she trust me?
Does she want me in her future?
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Things I need to fix: (things I feel like she’s annoyed by)
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My stupid jokes and hurtful sarcasm .
My coldness.
My zero emotions .
My jealousy.
My overthinking.
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It’s a working progress. I’m trying my best man, and I think I’m not gonna make it
far, I’ve been fighting and pushing back the voices in my head but I just can’t
hold them any longer, I’ve been through a lot of shit and I’m still trying to find
myself again. I’m sorry if I ever hurt you or did something bad. If I ever hurt
myself.

When I'm with her I feel at home, she makes

me feel safe. I love that, I love that she always makes me feel happy and
good enough. She's always telling me how
Proud she is of me and I love it so much.
I feel like I'm in a corny romance movie that I'll never ever leave.
This pretty girl makes me feel loved and I'm
gonna keep her forever.

Hearing her voice always hits me with them butterflies . She deserves the world .
She deserves it all.

Today, she wrote me a letter, as a late birthday gift. And I can’t wait to read it.

Yesterday, September 17th. We gave each other gifts, we opened them. When it was
her turn to open mine, she hugged me, thanked me , and then, we kissed. It was the
best kiss ever, it was so full of love and so passionate we couldn’t stop kissing.
This girl is driving me crazy and I love every single moment of it. That night. I
dreamed
About her, she was at my house, I was teaching her how to drive a manual on my pc.
Things got outta hand, took her to my room. Took off the shirt she was wearing. It
was the one that I gave her. She got on toppa me, and started kissing the fuck
outta me like if I was all that she ever dreamed of. I loved it, I held up her
hands and stuck them on the wall . Went down to her neck. I started kissing her and
I gave her a little hickey. After that, she took off my shirt . Went from my chest
up to my neck and started sucking on it as if she was a vampire.

Yesterday. September 26th. I wrote her a song. It was very fun to do o it was so
full of emotions, tried to record it more than 30 times but I always because of my
heavy breathing and insanely fast pounding heart. She listened to it the day after.
She liked it I guess. She compared me to an angel. (Which I am.) but later that
night she got mad cuz she couldn’t find something to wear for some party. And she
became very cold with me. And I the pussy that I am. I said nothing and acted the
same. O now she’s sleeping o Ana swimming in my regret. Anyway. Hopefully she
doesn’t stay mad at me.

Its been a long time, (2 weeks), since i last saw her pretty face 9odami. I really
miss her, a lot. I just wanna hold her as close to me ass possible, hold her tight,
tell her I love her, smell her beautiful hair. I just want her next to me rn.
Before I wear something. I put her T-shirt (that still has her smell somehow)
inside my hoodie that I’m gonna wear. Let it sit for a couple hours. When I put it
on. The smell smacks me across the face and I love how I be smelling like her for
the whole day. I really love this girl. I hope she loves me as much as I love her.

It’s the 6th of November. Today marks the 2 year anniversary of my moms death. It’s
Been a rough Journey, I met a lot of people. some stayed, some did not, but for
those who stayed with me and helped me go through this bad chapter of my life, I
just want to say that I love you guys, every single one of you. thank you for
helping me. Thank you for being kind and loving towards me. Life is hard. Shit
happens, and you learn how to deal with it. It can have ups and downs but at the
end of the day, it’s just life. Focus on shit that deserve to be focused on.

Maria…. Maria ya Maria , you’re a very special person in my life, I literally have
no words to describe what you mean to me, you mean everything. I find in you a
sister, a friend, a mom, even a girlfriend sometimes (most of the time), a person
that I wanna spend my whole life with, a girl so perfect, perfection started to get
jealous mnha, (corny jokes🫣). Anyways. All I wanna say is: Maria , baby, russia
diali, zwina diali, i love you, I adore your ass, everything about you is
extravagantly amazing, you’re just so flawless, and perfect, I just can’t imagine
how my life would have been if I never met you and fell in love with you. Oh well,
I just want you all to me, myself and I. And I’ll be so stoked if I can live the
rest of my life next to your angelic ass.

.For l fezia Zina dial l3alam