Too Wait or Too Late to survive.

A lot of jobs who pays good wages were

zi closing their doors to me for I was not able to finish my
study. So, I looked and worked part time jobs to pay for
check-ups and follow ups for her pregnancy. Yet it was
“I should’ve waited.”
still not enough.
These are the words written on the note I saw in her
It was all really hard. I, sometimes, met people who
book as I cleaned our room.
mocked, hated, and disgusted in me because of my
A year had passed yet the regrets and guilt were still appearance. But I bore it all for Kara and my daughter.
hunting me. I never imagined that Kara and I would end
***** /beeeep/
up like this. I miss her so much. However, I agreed with
what she said in the note. We should’ve waited, so I A loud horn pulled me back to reality.
never would’ve lost her.
“Pa, are you okay?” Tina, my oldest daughter asked.
“Papa, I’m hungry.” My daughter pleaded when she “Yes, dear. I just lost in thought.” I answered.
entered the room.
We rode a jeepney. Tina was about to go to school while
I suddenly came back to reality as I heard my daughter’s I to work. We parted at the bridge. As I was walking, the
voice. I stood up while wiping my tears. memory played again in my mind.
“Alright, dear, I’m coming. What do you want for *****
breakfast?” I asked.
A year had passed a lot of things changed. Fights.
***** Misunderstanding. Lack of communication. Pressure.
Stress. Restlessness. All these things separated our
10 yrs. ago I was treated in the school clinic for the mild
hearts. We both bore frustrations and stress, so we ended
sprain I got while playing basketball.
up fighting each other. It was a terrible fight that led us
“Give way!” The lady shouted as she was running in the into something that I regrated most.
hallway to the clinic. She was carrying her friend- I
“I regret that I met you!” I shouted in tears and went
guess, that fainted.
straight to the room.
They entered the clinic where I was, and the school
The rain started falling. The room was quiet, but I felt no
nurse accommodated them. While I was observing, I
peace. Kara did not enter the room. She slept outside.
noticed something, so I came near them.
The next morning, I heard a loud cry from my daughter.
“She’s okay!” I told them and pointed to the lady they
I rose from the bed and saw it.
thought fainted.
The love of my life was hanging on the ceiling with the
The lady who carried her denied and got irritated. “What
note in her hand.
are you talking about? I saw her fainting in our room
while our class was ongoing. She isn’t waking up no “I’m sorry for putting so much burden on your shoulder.
matter how many times we call her.” She argued. “No, I never should’ve told you we were having a baby. By
she’s fine and awake. Look at her closely.” I told her that, you at least were to achieve your dreams. My love,
confidently. I ended it now for you. Go, live your dreams.”
We looked to her closely and then suddenly she burst in *****
laughter. Everyone sighed and laughed yet irritated of
the big scene she created.
“I’m sorry. I got bored in the class, so I was trying to
skip it. Our teacher is too terror so lame excuses would
not be effective if I ask her. So, I acted fainting. Haha!”
she explained.
Suddenly, the surroundings felt different. I started
hearing nothing except her laughter. The people around
us faded and the only person I was seeing was her.
That was the time I fell in love with Kara. I came closer
to her, got to know her, and courted her. At first it was
hard because she was very stubborn and firm, but
beyond that, she was the sweetest person I ever met.
A couple of months passed, she finally accepted me, and
we became officially couple. It was all perfect. Parties,
studies, hang outs, food trips, and moving up ceremony.
We were with each other. We were still in senior high
school when our dreams shattered, Kara got pregnant.
Our family raged in anger for what happened and both of
us had been cast out from our home.
Starting that day, life had never been the same before.
We stopped going to school because we needed to work