Scarcity is the root of bad feelings, and it tends to be worse, mentally and cognitively.

This is dry, desert

oxytocin that makes sour inside. The feeling of stuck rusting my tissues become slower. In the end
friends would reduced, because of me that makes bandwagon effect to person that effects other. I am
detached to society, don't understand how people interacted and felt, I feel lonely, yet this feeling will
attracting more loneliness. Once I closed my eyes I feel lighter, weightless, this will spend more time,
neglected reality. I don't feel anything in reality, what I have done having high tendency for being used
without any return or minimal return in the end. What the use, the reality is not all reality, without any
privacy makes society more free to judge and talked as they like, looking for flaws, or maybe there's
possibility for care even indirectly. Yet what the use, if nothing or no one want to have real sincere
conversation regularly. Then I opened instagram and looking at my family's photos at a city. Suddenly
my skin chilled, scent of freshest perfume and clean dress wrapped me. I touched my hair and it feels
smoothest and clean without any frizzle, my skin became clean and fresh. I looked at my hand hanged
leather bag, I looked inside the bag suddenly I have checklists on my memory and light as feather I
walked several blocks passed several stores, at the distance looked tall buildings and skyscrappers,
metallic building touches the sky, glasssed counters showed bakeries, outfits, or products of the stores
presented neatly. My feet moved fastest and energetically, this is almost 7 at the morning's. I get in to a
building open the door and there is a receptionist greets me friendly, and all.of a sudden talked to her
several minutes, this is unlike before became talkaktive and have it all right movements, walked passed
people and everyone are friendly sincerely, then give small talk which is meaningful to friends at the
office flawlessly. Opened glassed door walked to the canteen, free cakes and foods on the table neatly
and clean. Piles of bagels added by smell of fresh baked cake. I feel confident, without any burden and
lagged, because instinctively have projection of what I wanted to finish in entire 20 hours with plan B.
Looked at my watch, have to get back to my desk in 7.45, I have to have a conversation with friend or
friends as well. The dining table was full of free foods, from Asian to Western served neatly, abundantly.
It is widely surrounded by glasses walls that shows skyscrappers around the city, looked green trees at
the center of buildings and skyscrapers. I walk to the dining table which prepared various foods, lasagna,
cheese beef, meatballs, pizza, steak, all foods that gives more energy and bit of luxury. Then I take a slice
of lasagna and pizza, the smell of warm cheese with typical blend of beef and cheese give comfort while
I walk to blue satin bench between table lined at the side of the room. At every table there is dispenser
of drink which available drinking water and fresh tea. I try the lasagna and feels cheese melted, the
flavour of salty and little bit sweet sauce cheese complement taste of beef melted inside, thick and fluffy
feels right. While I eat I enjoyed the taste of food that is unlikely tasted before. I enjoyed balance of
taste of beef and cheese, and luxurious chocolate hazelnut which tasted slightly expensive, wrapped in
handmade thick outfit with asymetrical cut and high boots, neat and shiny smooth straight hair and a
scent of clean sane person wit which ready for encountering programatically bugs until finish, at least in
my alternate condition side of the dice.

Then there's my friend who join me at the table.

"Hi, how are you."

"I'm fine, actually there would be product presentation at 14.00 after this. How about you."
"I'll have meeting to discuss about the new design of the product package after this. Btw what your
reading there."

"Midnight Run by Clairence, it's actually looked amateur writing. Yet I read it almost finish, it only have 2
point of views, not really complicated though, like reading conversation transcript. Actually not bad for
the first debut writer."

"Really, let me see."

Then my friend look at the book and read it throughly.

"I don't know I guess I have to wait for your entire review regarding this book. Btw how's your writing
going."

"Not bad actually I've done 50ish pages. Would you like to give review so far."

"Okay, send me the pdf version to my wa."

I want to take office tour before I continue to work. I walked outside, there are park with colorful canopy
with chairs there and there are outside kitchen that prepared meals at the outside. The building are
wide and has colorful brand name at the corner of the building. The building is two stories building that
are connected each other like a connecting building at second floor. At the park has volley area, and at
the corner of the park there is a dinosaur fossil. I ask the counter for hazelnut chocolate mix. There are
blue driverless automatic cars moving around the office. I hop on one of those and look around the
office. It's gigantic office with green environment and ride along the path with green trees at left and
right the path. At the park there are cute display of candies.

I get into the office building with the sliding door. There are wide areas of hall which at the right there's
a canteen that looks like a cafe with many kinds of foods. Then at the left there is the stairs that widely
connecting to the second floor. At upside hanged many kinds of plane miniatures and banners.

At the second floor there are doors to enter the office rooms and can see the first floor. I am going to
have meeting at the meeting room. The meeting room has whiteboard and squared table and chairs
around the table. There are several staffs there who has came.

"How's the progress." One of my friend asked

"It's actually completed, here is the design details of new interview program."

"What program did you use."

"We only use plain PHP and JavaScript with WebRTC with some cryptography there."

"There's banking activity at this design what do you use."

"I used Paypal and Payment Gateway to share some donations or exchange money."
After that the supervisor came and starting the presentation.

"Hello, gratefully now we would have presentation regarding one of our colleagues' idea to make a
specified random conversation and interview medium. We have developed the beta version for these 3
months and now we would have discussion with marketing and production division to plan the
marketing campaign. Without further ado let's begin the presentation."

And after that I started to begin the presentation.

"Good morning, now I want to give some informations regarding the beta version of the new interview
which have been developed. We use PHP and JavaScript technology and WebRTC to be the chatting
protocol. I have printed the entire design of the program if you have any questions please ask. Okay,
actually this is the interview program to connect the investors and the investment pitchers. There are 3
kinds of interview types. Bidding, exchange, and job pools. So basically this is an interview process like
pramp interview, if you have known the program it's the platform to connect the interviewers and the
applicants and have random programming tests to be one of the test requirements for getting into the
companies. This program basically adapts Pramp Interview platform and expands the functions into
many kinds of interview experiences. It's pretty much like Pramp Interview but more comprehensive.
This program have all details of subjects which have been existed from datas. We could choose ranges of
subjects from Biology, Math, or Economy, or others you name it. All of the detailed subjects have been
available and like pramp interview there would be scheduled interviews every 2 hours and the level
continuously added by the expertise result survey from interviews process. So the results based on the
fluency and knowledge comprehension from the speakers, if needed there would be additional written
tests at the end of each interviews to validate the interview process. With this method it would be the
platform to connect the gap of certification. By that means the tests would be per level and if the users
have been passed all levels there would be verified certification directly from high end companies and
would have certain job opportunities based on the knowledge and the test results. So subtly it would
model the quasi education system where there is two way grading from the interview and test results.
The grading system is from survey questions which grade the conversation as the grading process itself.
At the end of each interviews there would be options to give some donations or not, so if user find it
useful there might be some income only from every interview process. Yet all of those are useless
without any tangible interactions. So to make the virtual process could be eligible formally if needed
there would be tangible meetup from the participants that have been passed the requirements and
have the tangible courses regarding the subjects that have been chosen. So there would be tangible
products which created from each subjects and could be chosen by investors directly if it is preferred.
That's from education point of view. Now from business model, it's business pitching random interview
which users prepare their products and business plans and connect with random interviews from willing
investors that would want to give their opinions regarding the feasibility and the reliability of the users.
This might seems risky since there is no tangible networking that has happened. But now the
background check is possible since the datas have been available at comprehensive levels. Yet actually
the business plans are could be executed by only the investors themself without any connection with
the pitchers. So it depends on the investors wanted to make the tangible work with the pitchers or only
take the business plan, or if the business is successful the pitcher could have some percentage of the
stocks and give the insights to make the business if the investors prefer. So there are two kinds of
business pitch, the mock interview business plans ideas, and the real business pitch. There have to be
verification first before get the real business pitch. Beside business plan, user could pitch their various
kinds of finished products or projects, or compositions, could be music or book drafts and pitched to
businessman or editors so that could be other kind of qualification process. Then there is the bidding
section which there is the categories of products and display of products and name of the makers. Users
could make the bidding to products that they chose and there would be tangible payment if the bidders
and the makers have the agreement to sell and bid the products or projects. If needed there could be
some meetup to showcase the products which wanted to be bidded. The other section is free random
product reviews like business pitch yet it is the specified reviews into the products itself. This method is
to make the medium to give the honest review to unpublished products and projects so they could have
the survey of feasibility check are those a feasible products or not. The other productions that we've
made is the public free tender process which could absorb as many small business as possible and they
could pitch their products with the tangible portfolios that have been made. The initial qualifications are
from the pitched products or portfolios are they have been feasible or not. The products have to passed
several conditions that have been conditioned. There are ratings from the entire tender process which
monitors the process of work performance of the chosen candidate. With this process would give the
natural marketing campaign and reviews from real practicioners. The next section is the information
exchange. User could choose the subjects they wanted to share by providing the subjects they have
been mastered so from the automated system could match the subjects proposed and subjects they
look for so there would be exchange of information regarding the subjects. This could be applicable to
language learning or many subjects learning For summary actually this platform is combination between
more structured subjects search engine withe the tangible conversation process via virtual and meetup
if preferable. The product presentation would be presented by ."

"We have made the mobile version of this platform. You could install the mock up by the link that been
sent to Slack. As you can see there are several menus, random chat, subject learning, business proposal,
tender, certification, formal interview, and bidding. If you choose random chat it would be still have
scheduled 2 hours interval and have the random subjects like pramp interview which each users have to
present the random subjects. So basically even the subjects are random it still have specified random
detail subjects which have to learned and presented. Occasionally the officials could disguised as regular
users who actually having disguised interview which if lucky user could land an official job if the users
preffered. We have made the UI for officials too. Next is subject learning. If you chose subject learning
user directly get all the subjects or detailed syllabus which represents the formal education with all the
lessons. Users needs to present each subjects fluently with the other user that learns the same subjects
so there would be grading from the other users which have passed the next level or maybe the disguised
HR or users which wanted to look for right candidates. After the interview process there is survey which
grading each other regarding the knowledge and fluency from the presenter and there is the written or
multiple choice test to validate the test results. Beside the survey and grading test there is tangible
donation which users could opt on to donate or not. So there is chance of getting income from every
interview sessions if the presentation or good enough.
After work I take my feet across the road of the city by feet eventhough it's extremely cold at the
outside. The tall buildings showered by white snow all over the building. I feel the cold air through all my
nose through my lung, the breeze of cold weather crawled inside my skin through my thick coat and
gloves. I walked quickly to reduce the cold through my body. I open my gloves and feel the direct
sprinkle of snow touched my palm. The flashing of gigantic christmas tree colorful lights embellished the
christmas decoration through all city. The soft snow touched the stores glasses and painted the whole
city with glowing of snow white. The cars moved by coated with the thick snow covered all over it. The
road goes white and cold all covered with soft touch of the collective crystal of ices. People walked
through the sidewalk with thick coat and fur hoodies around. I wanted to try the ice cream at the
Serendipity Cafe that is located at several blocks away. I ordered chocolate hazelnut ice cream to the
counter. The cafe is decorated by christmas tree inside. At the counter there is the staired plates which
has croissants and fluffy bread accessorized by bouquet of red roses. At behind of the counter there are
bottles of wines that sectioned by wooden and glassed mirrors. At corner left and right there are
bouquet of flowers embelishing the countertop. The counter is looked like the Victorian carved counter
which have European aesthetics carving at the marble materials with golden corner. I walked through
the cafe and walked at the second floor and look at the scenery outside sectioned by see through glass.
Then there is the barista gives the thick ice cream with a card there.

"Happy birthday Miss. Here is some complementary gift for you."

My heart stopped a moment.

"Really, is this for real. Thank you so much. That's all that I can say. Is that okay."

"That's fine."

Then I see the card, it is embossed printed with classical curly frames with victorian printed with my
name, Happy Birthday. The card printed with gold font and having dark blue satin all over the card.
Scent of chamomile and printed Waldorf Astoria at the back of the card.

"This card is valid from 29 - 30 December at Waldorf Astoria hotel for one night reservation with
complementary breakfast at Versailles dining room. Please enjoy."

Instinctively I gasped after looking at the card. I got a free ticket from Waldorf Astoria. I called directly to
Waldorf is this real ticket or not. It turns out it is real. Soon after I finish my ice cream I directly catch
Uber and goes to the place.

I stopped at the front of the Waldorf Astoria hotel, a gray concrete building which has stories high. I
stepped into the lobby, pushing the rolling door and there is stairs that opening the scene of the hotel. I
stepped up to the first section of the hotel which has benches and desk at the corner at the left and
right. Before enter there is three corridors which has two high guccis. That corridors that lit by flashing
light at several square pillars which at the left and right before going to the next section. At the inside of
the hotel covered with blue rags with the cabinets of antiques at the left and at the center there is
monitor that showed the navigation to the hotel. Heared the cling of jazzy piano melodies which
accompanies the guests during their experience. There are two corridors at the left and right which
behind the monitor there is wooden wall that sectioned the corridors.At the far right displayed various
diamond jewelries inside the glass walled counter. It's a high building that has the clock at the center of
the lobby, and the hotel is decorated with high christmas tree and christmas accents inside the hotel. At
the corner of the lobby there is the reception with racks of keys at the back of reception. At the left
having the counter of cake and ice cream shop with many kinds of cakes, tiramisu, chocolate cake,
pudding, chocolate pasta, chocolate pizza, over the counter there are muffin cakes and croissants. At
other corner there is the piano which plays fancy styles of christmas jazz melody. The marble has curved
pattern which symmetrically wide painted over the floor marble. The lobby has the lighted candelier up
on the hotel. At the lobby has the yellow lighting that dimmedly lighted at the center of the lobby. At
the front of the reception there are satin bench with carved table with glassed top as the furniture of
the lobby room. It's a wide view of classical interior style all over it. The scent of mint are decorating the
hotel experience.

I walked through the lobby to the receptionist to ask about the gift card,

"Enjoy our complementary dinner Miss.. Happy Birthday."

The opened door, dimmed lighted with bouquets of roses at the sight of the marbled desk with classic
mirror at the right. At the straight view looked scenery of New York outside with Chrysler Tower and all
the high skyscraper at the sight. The bench are covered with satin blue fabric. Feel soft and comfortable
around my palm. The right corner of the room there is the compact digital piano which directly faced to
upside view of Manhattan. The side of the bench there is fireplace. At the corner of the side there's
dining room with bar countertops with various bottles of wines sectioned by glasses counters. The
aroma of the hot steak with glass of wine has been prepared over the glassed dining table. Decorated
with bouquets of flowers around the dining room. There are full of cakes and chocolate cakes with dim
sums and teriyaki prepared over the dining table. First I try the dim sum at the dimmed environment of
this hotel. The soft warm feel of the dim sum flowed all over my senses, look outside with the sparkle of
New York City. Then I take a sip of wine and tasted the grape scent with ticklish of warm flavour. The
smell of the steak like a grilled cheese over the sauce. I feel the warm grilled beef on my flavour senses,
the scent of New York area gives the melodramatic feel at this hotel. Just me, myself, and I. I feel the
grilled beef steak, the sauce melt inside and fluffy tasted. After I tasted the dinner I walked to the
bedroom. There's wide cupboard and TV set at the center of the room. Wall is decorated with European
carved style at the corner of the wall. The wallpaper covered with dark blue satin background with gold
vintage pattern all over the wall. At left and right of the bed there are classic Victorian era style dimmed
lamp with fabric see through curved cover. The air is fresh with the scent of sweet chamomile. White
thick and cold white bed sheet covered the bed. At the right there is path to the bathroom, looked curve
of wide frame mirror with wide marbled wastafel with oval sink and golden carved knobs that flows the
water through it. The yellow dimmed light could be switched into light neon that lighten the peach
marble with Mediterranean styled bathtub and shower. There's standing shower with glassed square
sectioned. The edges of the carved countertop leathered with sparkling gold view reflected by the
dimmed light inside the bathroom. Displayed bottles of mini perfumes and bathing soaps and hanged
white towels upside the bathtub. The bathtub at the corner and directly shown the sparkling light of
gigantic and tall building with New York's Chrysler at top of the view, at farsight seen the curve of
Golden Gate Bridge over the seaside. White thick snow covered the entire city all over it. The scent is
memorable, the view is breathtaking, sound of warm crystalled water sparkled by the dimmed light that
lit around the bathroom. I put my head below the fragrant water inside with the right temperature over
my skin. I take my cellphone played my record and wasting time only with the view of sparkling
Manhattan even only one night only. At there already like a jewelry room with reflection of sparkling
hello rainbow from the glasses carved edges around the bathroom. The chandelier, this is so overrated,
inside the bathroom. The sparkle is like listening to melodies of piano's high notes. Toast to the top view
of New York. There's glassed corner around the tub that looked like a VR glass and PS. There's a note
with Maple Leaf printed at the corner inside the glassed cabinet noted please try this as our
complimentary gift. I open the glassed cabinet and try it into my head and pressing on. What's actually
inside the VR monitor. It displayed wide actual garden of tulips with the windmills around. Each
windmills have the level when I move my hands there's a pointer that could have exact 3d position, and
when I pressed my fingers there is clicked gesture to the exact same position without any errors and
seamless. When I slide my hands it could move to farther or previous direction with smooth movement.
When I chose the level 1, suddenly it moved to another flower garden like an exact replica of the real
garden. There are many subjects of math lessons. As I slide my hands back and forth written huge lists of
math formulas spread all over the garden sectioned every subjects. This is a real garden to math
enthusiast. The view eventhough only virtually rendered detailed almost blurred like reality. I chose the
basic algebra section, directly shown 1 problem at the center. I try to move my finger and it is seamless,
smooth, real technology which could literally draw and write 3d in the air with the depth gesture. As I
try to write, it is like writing on the paper try to remember the formula's like before. After several
equations I see the equations turned red at one row, it turns out that the system is autochecking to
every equations which gone wrong. Then I checked again and find the wrong part, and try to change it. It
turns out that it not red again and I continue until finished. Then after the equation right there is the
prize of a part of puzzle of plane ticket. I clicked it and goes another problem set it goes on and on like
walking in the real virtual garden. It's endless, the dopamine continues to stimulated while learning
inside the convinience class of the warm water sparkled all over the skin. I remember it over and over
again the most difficult part which I have been worked before, after hibernation it's started to wake up
and probably would meet again with actual conditions that needs logic of math. Yet as always these kind
of experiences is a certain temporary condition without any permanent consensus, based on my
patterned occasions which I usually get. Yet this experience could only recorded with the available
forms. If there are any spectators. I stopped it, and before shut down there's icons menus viewed Math,
Piano, foods, earth, and galaxy icon. Yet I wanted to see those later and try to keep entertained by eye
sight reality which sparkled before my eyes. After shower I couldn't sleep looking at the marvelous
details of every carving which classically imprinted on the woods and marbles at every side of the room.
Bouquet of flowers inside the vases at every top of the desks, even at the bathroom wastafel. The
scents, like a fragrance of a natural perfumes all over the room. Soft snow cotton flying through
skyscrapers up and beyond. Sound of fireplace warm up the temperature inside the room. I try the
digital piano at the corner of the room and try to capture all the beauty of the room with my cellphone. I
spent all my hours playing marathon improvised melodies which still have beginner dissonance effects
while transferring the euforia feeling inside this hotel. Arabesque no.1, Maple Leaf Rag, French Suites,
Magnetic Rag, The Entertainer, Ave Maria, Fur Elise, Blue Danube, I try to make it right at that digital
piano. After several hours I sit at the satin cushion near the fireplace. Suddenly I notice something at the
table, and there are binded hard cover novels and book music compositions which familiar. Wait a
minute, I see it again through all the pages. Those are my previous compositions, who's behind all of
these. Edited, binded, these gifts, it's extraordinary. All of these by myself, no actual conversation, no
tangibility, But that's okay, at least there is some attention to what I have done and as usual that's not
reciprocal looking at no tangible person who show up between all of these. Yet I only could have these
moments not to be forgotten. I look through the pages all perfectly brand edit. Oh my God, there are
signage from the readers, and the reviews. One book full of handwritten reviews from actual people.

Amateur, yet not bad

Cringe

Forcing

I laugh a lot that's too much

Nice try, just try again it's not good enough

I know it I'm ashamed those are full of mockery, I felt a usual rejection as always but not in this level of
draining emotion. It's like everyone looking at me laughing and hiding like usual. At the back of the book
there is URL link.

I opened the URL at based on that book.

Welcome, at this point you only have several hours. The countdown is at the top right of this
information. You would meet us at breakfast with condiions. There are several informations regarding
the acess that you would get if you can make it right. There is music sheet paper that you have to run, if
you can make it we will give another clue. You only got 5 hours.

Then there is the several first pages of the Moonlight Sonata's sheet music. Wait I've known this. I have
to learn this. I remembered the VR and opened it again, there might be some clues in it. And I looked
again at the VR and pressed the piano, and there viewed thousands of music sheets and I looked for
Moonlight Sonata. And found the Moonlight Sonata's piece. I try to run it at the digital piano sees if
there is something could be work on it. I actually forgot those piece. Yet the tutorial is so detailed. It
checked on the errors right away by giving the slow tempo tutorial. It's been 3 hours, I have to play
again and again from the top. This is blimey difficult. Yet it's close and closer. Finally several uncertainty
yet there is successful attempt.

Then there is the clicked of sound box opened at the side of the piano at the corner from wall. At inside
there's a machine like with handle and monitor looks like a barcode scanner at the cashier. And there is
the small printed booklet that have some instructions in it.
Congratulations, you've past phase 1 of your test. Now follow the instructions here to go to next phase
of your recruitment test.

Then I followed the instructions like written on the booklet. It said that I have to take my room gift card
and update it by the next instructions.

Look at your previous music sheet and transcribe it as numbers like the next step. Each notes have to
multiply by each tempo value. If there is decimal number you have to add it with numbers you have. If
there are key signature multiply it with chromatics which transcribed as follows.

Then I started to change the notes one by one and follows the instructions said on the booklet. An hour,
finally the final result. I try to input the numbers to the barcode reader machine. And, there's nothing. I
still have time. I have to check again if there's any errors. It's not that simple. After I checked again for
several times. Then there's beep sound card copied.

If you've heard beep sound and green led that means you have passed second phase to your test. The
next is to use your card and look for another clues. Bring your card and swim at the swimming pool.
There's a hatch inside that looked like a door. Go there.

I walked out from the room and go down by looking at the swimming pool. I swimmed and looked at the
inside of the swimming pool there's a door that on the bottom of the pool. I push the card to the card
reader around it and suddenly the door opened.

The compartment has the door before the room after. After the automatic sliding doors opened there's
a person with light brown hair looked and there are servers behind the glassed section.

Congratulations, you have made it this far. You've recruited to become one of our trainee at our
academy. After this you would have the conversation with well known people. You'll have breakfast with
these people. Your task is to give these informations regarding the topic that they wanted to talk. This is
the new invention which never been revealed from your timeline. I came from 2050 when the earth are
expired. Eventually population haven't give regards from the drastic decline of climate condition. Sit
down I want to share something to you.

It's been a century, the technology has been developed, yet there's no change at regulations, or
substitution of the resources. There has been conditions when it all gone what's next do you think. The
resources fast and sure is declining year after year, the pandemic is only the beginning. There would be
the time when nothing left and there's nothing that population can do, except if there is the significant
change in resource consumption. The technology has been there and could slow down the reduce. Here,
see this.

Arctic has gone

Oil, coal, nickel, all those limited resources gone, nothing left. There is no substitute.

The earth surface is covered with water.

With this development of technology there should be any movement to energy substitution. Yet it's not
directly applied and if those too late you would see this condition. When the commodities are rare and it
could not supply the entire population of course you have to be strictly keep the commodities to
mitigate the drastic decline of the amount. One by one the countries restrict the distribution of the
resources. That condition is inevitable when the supply is at critical amount. It's the only thing that have
to be realized. Eventually the energy substitution have been invented yet the year is to late. At your time
the percentage of supply has been completely empty at several sites. And in correspondence to the
world supply have been reach 30%. Yet the fossil fuel vehicles still increasing. Here I'll show you the
research reports.

Then he showed all the limited resources name, compound, and chemistry details of each components.

"Here are the list of limited resources, sites, and remaining supply at your time, most of it have been less
than 50%, some of those have been completely exploited. From that facts concluded that the earth
consumption only last less than decade. The only way to mitigate the drastic decline of consumption is
by applying the energy substitute like solar, wind, hydrogen ,or electricity which have been developed
decade ago but not yet implemented, if it corresponds to your time of resources supply at least we
could spare some decades before those rare resources not utilized at the right place. Here's more."

Then he play the footage of the right and left screen.

There are two kinds of reality at my time.

At the left and right actually the condition is the same. Those limited resources are having drastically
high price, that means there would be secluding areas to those who could pay and those who can't. Yet
you see the different alternate reality here. At the left you would see the world without any plans and
concern, the resources are having less time and there are survival of the fittest which is inevitable. You
could see by yourself. At the right is the world with direct response to the critical condition which
happen, the fluctuation is stabilized with same income distribution to every household while actually the
resources have been at the critical condition. Unless at your time there is full substitution to the energy
resources that could give some more decades. These are individuals which you would give conversation
with tomorrow. All these probably you have known, network, energy sources, government, scientists,
director. Your task is to eavesdrop what conversation that would happen tomorrow and capture all the
documents exists. Do you know how to mirror and copy nearby mobile phones."

"No, I don't know how to do that. Wait.. Is that possible."

"Yes that's actually possible. Lend me your mobile phone. First you should download cmd. After that
type ipconfig/mobile. You would see all the nearest proximity IPs and the mobile phone username. Then
type user/password. You would see password to every username mobile. You have to find out fast
which ones are their mobile phone, or you could download all datas around yet it would not sufficient
enough since you only have limited bandwidth speed. You could show similar name file with this
command samename.*. That could quickly show which files they share. That's fine if you're not get it at
this time, I hope you could finish this task well so I can give you other tasks which is classified. I have to
be here all the time and I ask you to exchange all informations there. At our time there's this drug which
could give starving free through all time and this is only made limited since after the advanced
technology operates, the soil suddenly became dry and could not grow any foods. The time is only
matter of years and if these not strictly regulated there wouldn't be any utopia like the right monitor
shows. All limited resources are strictly prohibited and replaced by Biomass and the need of limited
resources could be utilized until next decades. Yet after that we're still can't figure it out. At our time
there are space exploration which mined more compounds that are similar like the limited resources,
yet you know how much the price is. At several years after this there are many devices which operated
by algorithms and codes, it could be easily manipulated by people who has access, if there are errors
there is nothing that could be done. Only who has the programming ability could access it. Yet there's no
stack overflow you have to figure out yourself how to operate. The intelligence resources are drastically
slurred down and we have to start over since everythings gone those limited elements are completely
gone. There's no more time. Everyday energy consumption equals to additional more month of those
resources. I've been here for more than centuries because I have to meet someone who could decode
Moonlight Sonata 3rd directly. There are other who understand it yet who passed the calculation is you
at this century. I have to keep here because I have to keep the history without changing it. I have all
psychic abilities and I have been seeing you years before you're born."

"How do you know about what happening here."

"That's my psychic ability, I could see all the occurences happen from all perspectives. You know the
world's time is up. Less than 5 decades means something, viruses, radioactive wastes inside sea water,
the most confusing is how regulations are still the same looking at this scarce limited resources fossil
fuels supplies. At decades soon there would be scarcity, the technology has been developed yet there's
no significant change. You know what it means when scarcity are everywhere. Recession is inevitable.
Btw I never seen a tangible person in century would you mind if I shake your hand? You haven't
introduced yourself."

Suddenly there are flashing hundreds fragments of images quickly seen inside mind.

I try to sort it out. I looked at it all might be there is something good, only 1 motivating, but better luck
next time, nothing, this is hurting. My emotion boiled up against these all, my palm is sweating, the tears
are started to come out. I have to switch these emotions, this might only to test me, but that's the
pattern, and it turned out to be this level of hurt at deep of my heart. I know it that's useless without
any consensus there would be no guarantee. I still couldn't sleep, it feels wrong. I have to make it right,
yet it's useless without any friends that could help. I want to make this temporary moment could be
forever remembered at least with a person to talk to. No, this is enough given all these luxury even
without any people to talk to. I walked again to the bathroom and curious about the VR. I put again the
VR and chose the galaxy. Blo.... Gigantic sphere of millions of planets at sight with all the details, names,
distance from earth, water elements at planets which has it. Are these even real, where do they get all
of these. The pressure after the vacuum air, is that even possible to digest. Yet all of these datas. Every
single name of the planets, orbits, stars, hundreds of names and details completely at sight. And I looked
at Mars.
What is these, a not hoax elements of liquid at that foreign planet, bacterias found there. All those hoax
or not hoax are covered at some point, and these datas. There are no explanation which completely
describe the actual conditions before this. It's more then vast, the earth is so small like smaller than
marbles.

That book, I still can't get over it. My palm still cold and my heart beating fast, I can't sort my emotions. I
begin to overthink and drink some water to sort my emotion. I begin to unstable. My forehead is
unstable. Relax, breath, repeat. I started to play the reel of the patterns that always happened, hide and
humiliated, repeat from the early stages of my life. At the table there is another novel, and I read the
novel. Those are reflection of the perspective behind all real consensus, group think, and the reality
behind social engineering and conditioning. Then there is knocking on the door.

"Hi.. how are you.."

My mother came and meet me.

"Mom, this is a surprise. How do you know I'm here."

"Actually I gave all the presents without you know."

"Mom, thank you these are the best gift I ever have. As always this is not all from the consensus. But
because of you."

"Yes, you know I'm part of them right. And you would never know how to get there because it has been
made it from the start. It is difficult, you're like you know who. And that has become your label. It's
difficult to change it. And with your instability what would you think if I am not came here. You're so self
centered and dreaming to have gifts like those kinds of woman and those are from the heart, it can't be
forced, the wavelength is different. I can't describe it. There's something about talking about other
people's flaws, we'll appreciate who still stable eventhough everyone like not connecting, but
sometimes we'll do the opposite just for fun, or we're not mean to make you upset yet you're suddenly
angry, mean, yells, cry, and suddenly hate someone at that moment. That's the sudden inconvenience
which make the condition became completely different, the unconvinient way with you. So that's the
reality, you won't get group of conversation with all the light laugh flowing from the conversation. Yet If
there's some completely different set of conversation yet all might not completely natural like used to."

"Yes mom, I know. Do you think I can change."

"Yes if you could have a friend that could make you get used to this kind of life."

"Mom do you know all these people."

"Yes, most of them. Actually I wanted to greet them to you."

 Daze back into reality, dirty, cluttered, sluggish, there my husband yelled "You are coward in real life
SHUT UP, EAT SCARCELY, WORK, you can't keep your jobs how could you survive!! SLEEP AGAIN! That's
fine SHUT UP!! You can't cook and I don't want to eat them SHUT UP!! You are indifferent here, I can
take care much better myself and my daughter than with you, SLUGGISH!! No matter how much effort,
everything you have done you will way below the standard!! LOSS!!" Then he pick a binder with metallic
holder and fiercely swinged right at my head, suddenly feel dizzy and numb. I feel pressed in my head
like squeezed and slightly blurred vision. Not enough he throwed blatantly his bag that filled with metal
dimes and heavy at my face, blood covered at my cloth. Nothing that can be done, instead fiercely I fight
back with yelling back at him the most hurtful words that exists. His feet kick me savagely until can't feel
everything. That was near almost painful experience that makes me say, it's over. Won't give any effort
at all. Irresponsible or not this is my choice. I am irresponsible, no conversation means an answer. My
feeling is gone, empty. Who trust and understand me sincerely are my parents. I used to know my
husband the person who most sincerely take me as I am and when time passed, maybe the spark has
gone, maybe there are more people better, maybe can't do simple things confidently, maybe can't do
good housekeeping, maybe can't cook, yet certainly was slower, at least after slightly mild seizure.
Actually I can choose to do good, yet the exposures won't let me, not when the exposures until the part
not supposed to be watched publicly. Or I simply chose to let go more difficult ordered condition and
live as I like. Everything fast, good decisions and outcomes are past tense, leave conditions that have no
retirement plans. Tomorrow goes loose again no time no discipline, no care, no conversation, no
investment plan, no financial topic and understanding efforts, yet thankful for all things happened,
which is indifferent, only things different is dynamics of conversation, outside. Understand that I have
disorder flaws, that is difficulty how to understand people, how to perfect the mundane tasks, right
momentum once again in past tense. Time rolls unplanned, loosen, foggy, unclear, those momentum of
order and freshness still at past tense, at least they have carved inside the timeline.

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy, this temptation to be intimate to bed always have to be fighted. I was raised
super spoiled, sleeping were considered normal, which not normal for most population of people.Then
thats me irresponsible mother leave my daughter watching TV, while I irresponsibly sleep without any
shame. Mind was wandering around, unfocused, lost, without any attempt to become decent person at
decent house. Blaming everything, everyone for loss which she done by herself, detached by her
husband, not meet criterias and standards for becoming mother. Every hour heard toddler cry, and
again, and again, dirty laundry, dishes, everywhere. Anxiety of small mind in isolation can't decide
anymore, chained into submission to one way communication what's the difference with slavery. Yes
there are many married couple who one way command and no problem with that. All the time I can't
decide what to do at entire day.
 slow, how come this haven't done yet, lices, fly, bugs, I can't stand this, no food, useless! This is no use,
I will leave you fix yourself no matter what! I won't give you everything.

Please give me chance once again, I'll fix these.

No, enough is enough. Give your files, you won't go anywhere outside this town, move from this house
now.

Empty, that's I feel in everyday. Empty can't think and decide, sitting for hours wasting time find out to
add additional income. The focus is wrong everything about dimes and cents, while there are much
important matters more, our child that leads to my reputation as mother. Time's up been years and I
can't understand how to cope with these. Empty, this is what I've been afraid all the time.

Countless hours of abandonment, speculation, null existence, this real life without planning set
everything falls apart, trust is failed for the closest one. Hope of intimate with close one in decades
scattered by distrust. What should I do.

Then suddenly door knocked and I opened the door.

"Hi... How you doin.."

"Annaaa... How are you."

"Of course fine of the finest as always."

"Come please here. Where have you been. I'm sorry this house is so cluttered like barn. I couldn't think
anymore. I think my head was damaged."

"Are you sure. I think nothing wrong with you. What you wearing.. That's hurting my eyes. Here here. I
get you some of my newest designs and of course the standard Tiffany and LV. Yeah I know you blank
like a page and I mostly there to draw some into your idea. So yes your house is cluttered, bad bad
outfit, dull face no make up, odor as always. Ok so shall we not waste your time again. You clearly
looked depressed. Let me help you."

Then she directly opened her baggage, that were so fragrant and many lines of perfumes, bags, outfits
full in the gigantic size baggage. Then she gave dress with blue and white striped fluffed skirt and white
top, a bottle of LV perfume and squared medium bag, and a box printed green Tiffany's & Co.

"Here I got you this when I have breakfast at the Tiffany at New York before. I remember you and I think
this is something that you've been waiting for. I'm sorry that I give this to you before. I know you are
more deserve to earn this by yourself. While we working on this house."

As always she is the most active and confident, she always pampering herself even when everyone
against her, at first I known her when she likes simple things to be done perfectly, don't need many
luxurious goods then, and she was so lucky for knowing and communicate with many people and
synchronize and trusted easily. Momentum became faster and continuous for convinience which most
of population feel enjoyed. She loved to read and being logical as well for it would prove sincerity of
incremental positive or negative results, loss, or profit. When there is loss, please revision, looking at
history which has most accelerated results and profits, when conditions became slower and more
difficult there is time threshold, when too high difference in daily basis simply negate.

There some constance of sincerity which still have to be proven.

"How is your condition, is there any problem lately. You look pale and stinks. Why don't you let loose
and bit relax, don't be so serious. I heard from your mom you always sleep and not doing anything the
entire time. What's wrong. "

"I don't know thare's something burdened me yet actually there's nothing happen. I couldn't let go the
thinking that I am unemployed and only have limited things to do without any additional income for the
rest of my life. I've tried everything yet all those not getting any return and it's getting further from my
wish."

"You know by yourself right that majority of the people have exactly the same with your condition now
and they don't overthink. They just do what they allowed to do, experience what they allowed to
experience, making efforts yet not really too much. All of those are the best they can do and what they
can experience. At the right time you will meet the right people. If you haven't, then you have to keep
doing what you do or try something new. But of course you have to wake up and do your main
obligations. If the nature not allowed something to happen then it might not for you at least wait for
some time which it is not certain. Just enjoy your life as the way it is. That's the only things that you can
do. Just imagine the people become the client of everything you do. What ratings that they will give to
you. Do they wanted to make the deal with you again or not. I know you will continuously live like this if
there is no consequences or reward that makes you wake up. Think ot every people you've met and
would meet is the rewards of the good ratings of work that you have done. Btw may I look your closet."

She directly walked to my closet and looked at the mess, the wood color became uneven, air is pasty,
once she scratch her head while looking at piles of clothes folded less than neat. Then she looked at
hanged clothes, there hanged several clothes like unfinished yet. While she took one there like uneven
cut of scrap fabric that doesn't have shape yet.

"Can I try this."

"Of course, but that's not finished yet."

This kinda good, where did you learn this.

"I only want to try add something, I'm way too indifferent in years ago, i have hunch this will be years
and years maybe decades. I want my daughter to be abundantly secure. She still sleeps now. Actually I
have difficulty now to take care of her recently, I think too much, and my husband better take care of
her than me, it's like relieve when you here. You're second person who understands me after my mom.
You know me right."
"Overreact, overthinking, overtime, overtrying and unecessary.. Sorry I'm too honest. No, I think i
certainly will invest in you in conditions if you are restore yourself before, recover these mess, your
health, I'll help you, I know it's difficult when yourself, you easily exposed to distrust from people who
prioritize peers, because you are looked weak and easily nulled in personality, you can't remember who
you really capable of when in pressure. Everything started in this house, if you can action in your best
decisions then you can do it again right now, what you choose became what you become."

Anna understand and concerns that this condition will soon get worse if she doesn't directly help her,
she worried when she looked at wooden parts of the house became almost slightly circled. Your house
needs deep cleaning inside out you've been blank for months and this place became completely
different, this need bit of intellectual and colors. You looked blank like zombie, is there something in
your mind."

"I'm numb, he has completely changed, I can't make him proud, he always, always resent the
conversation, feels like there is person occupied his mind. Might be only in my mind, it feels one step
closer to abuse, with yelling and no connection, I bet when he hears the same exact sentences from his
friend he would be most charming like he used to be. I miss him."

"Hello are you still online. Connecting.. Diagnose error.. Ahh.. There you are. At least you're not idle
now. Let's fix these bugs together like we used to do."

Then she directly walked to kitchen and make taking coffee sachet, sugar, milk and mix it at the blender,
rapidly, while I usually take back and forth steps, slow and confused, take more and more time.

"Empty fridge, no cold water, no desserts, no ice, no freshness what house is this. And you are like a
walking additional characters, I am here now, you are a main supporting character now, don't worry I
have most exquisite expensive outfits here. Let's pretend to be socialite now, wait a minute.. I am a
socialite, remove your gloomy make up, how sad sad face. Give yourself little bit pampering you know,
you try so complicated, that's certainly necessary to be complicated after you became the best version
of yourself basic civilized conditions, sanitation, if possible, grooming and fashion wherever you are."

She directly started to work on cleaning, doing dishes which piled up, without thinking anything, with
right movements. She called fogging and housekeeping to clean wooden and walls that been molded,
and grass cutter for doing the lawn. Quickly without lagging and stopping, instinctively I started to
sweep, with slower movements. Several time passed by, quickly the house is cleaner and empty, not
cluttered, the air is changed became clearer, all furnitures and walls been sprayed cleaned, I became bit
more sane with house that real neat. Clothes folded in the closet, ironed, entire bed sheets dried, until
every single materials in the house been cleaned.

"I knew everything going on in this house, you know by yourself right that you're being watched."

"Yes I consciously realize that, that's why I became bit less sane, I am a joke, maybe bit relieved because
actually there people who cares, yet not in tangible situations."
"You can choose to leave all these insanity, if you still love your daughter, make her grow up
intellegently, for now better here for your daughter, I see she grown up well here, but not for you, and
the financial with work ethics, your discipline, your sanity, you don't have role model, you tend to be
critizised, I know you are not stable under pressure, I have your footages before, when everything
normal, you finished on time, you are not recording yourself, you focused on your chores and your
daughter, when you learn piano while carrying, when your daughter smile when baby, when she first
walk, when she looked cartoon and you managed to take care your house, even your attempts of
reading news and latest complicated technology algorithms, while finishing your first book. That's quiet
accomplishments that actually people wants to help you, and reach out. Suddenly you record yourself
and became bit off, then everything recorded until "detailed", not only live streamed, recorded. Then
you lose your purpose, easily give up and don't give your best anymore, that's incremental reduced your
motivation, worse and worse only want to tell you the truth, the possibility is we will cut the live stream,
and you would continuously indifferent or not, you get attention, yet no one see and help you in
tangible reality, or help indirectly. Or you can go home and safe, both heart and sanity. What you want
in life really."

"Simple.. trusted, having conversation with person who really intended for listening seriousy, if possible
sincerely. And restoring like before and get rid of inside mental lagging that slowing me down."

"This been several times, I know you tired, rest yourself a bit."

It's like luxury, being pampered with a person like her is such a privilege, it's been time, I've left behind,
shut down, trapped, and no one like person who pity themself. I became more relaxed and accepted,
finally I can be myself. Been a while not being like this, sanity and loop of conversations, not needed to
figure out what proper response is, conversation became topics that connected one another.

While sleep, Anna took unfinished raw clothes at the closet and fix them, she took some of diamonds
and sew them to unfinished cloth. There.. Fixed, this kind of clothes design has potential. Then she
opened her laptop and sorted all files, most of them are junk, yet there are several projects which
technically worthed. She has sorted her projects that has been invested and have opportunity for
became subroutine, and sorted the tangible return value of each meaningful projects because she has
all the datas available, ups and downs of revenues, graphs of best outputs and corelation between her
best projects and conversation logs at several timelines.

I woke up feel fresh and suddenly remembered how I used to be, everything calmer and can be more
concentrated.

"I want to tell you something. You are trapped, until you meet the one in the society, everything is
reaction effect, there are many size of them, people placed on several places for a reason, and you are
not only like machine having instructions and have to be finished, you are a social person which about
moments, do you know why people easily forgotten, because they have bad posture, and not
comfortable with themself, when you can do and finish many useful tasks.. when there is sincerity from
your family or whoever feels right which there is sincerity there, if you can get trusted you will placed to
better place, if not you will be.. Something like this.. broadcasted, shut down, abused, silenced,
degraded cognitively and confidence, in tangible situations. While I, one of the spectator that happened
to have capital willing to help you because I understand you, what you are good at, what people hate
and like about you, your corelation of sanity or insanity, what you capable of level of working, that is not
tangible yet because you easily changed and not calm when peer pressured in public, you can't calm
when situation gets hectic and have many people conversation, you don't understand when in crowd
because you are not familiar with that kind of situation, that's why you are not really considered."

Then she opened her laptop and showed something.

"These are your datas. Started when you at Junior High, look at your grades, which you usually proud of
and continuously lagged you because you can't return anything lately. The graph of your grade are
stable, and the most complex subject like electro you can understand as well, not in grade A, but at least
you can finish the projects and understand the schematic every components and precision of counting
each voltage, resistance, and places of each components. No one care, yet I know what you considered
important, these are the most important to you and I feel the same because I realized how difficult to
solve it from start until finish, especially when it was your first time. Let's see overall graphs, every
subjects are almost grade A, there more difference graphs of late compared to your peers, that means
you are having tendency of late. Let's look at your posture, you can see yourself, how do you feel when
you look at yourself, do you wanted to hang out with her or not. This is the most important, what makes
you continuously compare yourself to other or your siblings, why you are difficult to make serious
friends for continuously having loop ideas of tangible investment. Let's look at how people actions and
conversation, there are tendency of time focused actions and preparations, they mitigate risks of late
without overthinking, while you focused on your own development and reducing other priorities
including time, you continuously want to proof your good grades at your youth, making investable
projects, and when you encountering society that's not really essential, what's more important is how
you treat your surroundings in proper time, that's all, without it you won't be considered eventhough
you have something to invest on because if you tend to be stuck when in hectic situation you can't keep
pace of usual system, unless for technical, yet that's still maybe. What certain is.. I can't decide what
certain, look at your files yourself and you can decide yourself."

Then opened terminal screen and typing some commands there. Showed name file of music and non
music recording files, and number of online downloader and streamer, completed with geographic
locations of each.

"See these are your datas" Then opened other terminal screen and type another command. Then
showed revenue of each months, number of clients, profits and loss.

"Look at this data that mean you are good at something, you can figure it out yourself. What's your plan,
maybe I can help."

"For now I intended to fix my relations and became more talkaktive. That's what I really wished to be."

"Okay, how about your basic responsibility at least you have to continuously restore your early morning
habits to prepare properly."
"Everytime I wanted to prepare always remind me the abuse, my head became dizzy, excuses piled up
every seconds more and more excuses, there goes wasted time, and can't return anything. I'm too worry
about many other things, hope to return some income, I'm still traumatized about abuses before and
difficult to get rid of it."

"I understand, now I want you to remember when you are most comfortable in crowd and accepted, the
most conversations and greetings from family or friends when working, who are people who regularly
wants to have serious conversation with you tangible reality, more than 3 4 times a week consecutively,
who are people who asked you for serious decision. This kind of conversation is unlikely you experience
because you tend to be excluded in group of people, while the serious investment involves capital needs
connection with people. Only people who has influence that has read your datas will have conversation
to you, and because you are the excluded you seldom considered, even with your closest tangible
people you know. If you have been abused that means he is tired with you, if person wants to be closer
and taking seriously especially close tangible family, know your flaws and understand you, hope and
support the best for you. Btw what do you wanted to spend your rest of waking time."

"Optimizing what I could do best.. Nah.. Nothing.. I only wanted to make my family happy, those are too
expensive, I don't deserve expensive things, only for them."

"There you go, pitying yourself, you are angry because you are trapped and abused verbally, you wanted
to return anything, reach out for help, doing whatever you can do, scrap music, scrap sewing, scrap
dance, scrap writing, scrap codes, until find trust, if not you still don't stop trying other things until
something works, someone sincere. There is probability of failed between that, health, emotion, or
cognitive and posture degradation, actually you wanted to add little bit income for your family, and to
return something from countless hours and investments, minus the communication with people which
significantly reduced chance of investment return. You know here, you experience before right, there
are another kind of angry before when you are at your home, not about socializing, only for
understanding education now you're ruined or not, indifferent, became object and actors.Why you are
detached when you are with people."

"I don't know, that's my flaws since decades ago. I'm afraid can't change it. Now that myself, realized
that easily unconfident when don't have person to share thoughts with. Feel trapped and wanted to
break down, have personality disorder, detached, have no idea how to fix these, also finance revenue.
Plus the way walk and bad posture with conversation that uninteresting. Feels like watched from entire
city yet like pretend not to watch, that makes different kind of reality. What do you think for
communicating naturally."

"Yes I know you have probability will not changed in the way of communicating. Chance of being normal
conversation needs learning, I actually saved bunch of conversations between people until the most
complex language like math, history, art, programming in the high level language, you can learn yourself
how people interacted with these footages and conversation logs. There are bunch of footages that
probably make you upset."
"Yes I know, recordings from embarassing situations that have happened. Btw thank you for giving some
conversation logs, finally I can learned how to interact."

"Now I will show you the reality, that's growing your saving that would work for you. First you needed to
learn about graph and concepts of average, mean, probability next point number. How many savings
you have now."

"1000"

"Several alternatives with 1000, when probability only one time investment you certainly can have
profits in trading and some bitcoins, please don't forget your password it can't easily recovered. I have
fixed some of your clothes, here look here."

Then she walks to closet and showed me clothes that been finished. Before it's like absurd shape and
only like sewed fabric not like real clothes, now became brand new neat and fits, added collars at one of
the cloth then looked at shining crystals there are diamond pins that sew at the entire collar.

"I'll add these kind of design to my line, you can wear this outside now, even at the party. If there are
purchase, I'll share several percent. I have modified them. I think that you should take care more this
house, only can give you these help, I'll stay here until you can take care of yourself and your daughter
like you used to be."

Anna worried for her friend's condition, she is slow, sick, pale, unmotivated, dirty, and her daughter like
abandoned, her daughter is beautiful and she has looked her daughter's recordings actually she has
good memory and creative, yet everyday she watch her friend irresponsibly leave her sleep while her
daughter watch tv herself in entire hours, and at night left looked at korean serials, all abandoned. Anna
knows that she lack of energy because lack of food, she knows before she always yelled when preparing
food, Anna has looked at the moment when her friend have prepared everything from 4 am and
continuously get the house tidy, Anna knows her intentions that about developing her skill at
programming because knows her before from college she has became helpful in group project because
understand the algorithm and could understand almost the subject. Actually Anna sees her friend now
to discuss and restore her motivation before, to have entire hours of coding non stop, yet Anna not
ready for give her job yet because she has flaws for socializing and for fostering communication needs
years of mentoring looked at limited time of interactions with community, she has difficulty because
community tends to make fun for her in many ways eventhough she has tried to became most friendly
to most friends. What she can help is listening her overthinking and focusing on her entire time, because
she will repeat again blank like before, even after several months after she leave she still has to
continuously check on her is she still can maintaining her morning routine or not. Anna concerns about
all the flaws, now after house cleaned one problem solved, now to give affirmation to her that she might
has several percentage of PTSD symptoms, yet Anna sure that she can restore her because she knows
conclusions of her behaviour looked at her history, she always sleepy because no one tends to listened
seriously, yet when she taken seriously will work nonstop until finished, for tasks at house she actually
lagged because trauma and recently she hasn't heard anymore plus live streamed and watched entirely.
Her acquaintances which range from real estate developers until many influental individuals at the city
even governments, she is used to communicate and understand how to have conversations with most
people and compared with her friend which completely introvert she knows as well how introvert's
behaviour patterns, too serious, sentimental, and especially when that person has injured verbally and
physically because she is too lonely and difficult to understand how she thinks, this will take much time,
she understands that she easily repeated the apathy if her friend not cared enough completely from her.
She understands that her behaviour is self centered, looked like a selfish person, attention, compliments
are needed because she knows that her friend's mother always compliment her, it makes if not
complimented she would be not tough when hear critics, yet if given chance and she accompanied her,
mainly because she and her friend can't stop conversation about many things, it's either her friend mom
or she. She has known her friend from younger age that she has never experienced in the common side
of conversation. She became completely different, used to be excited when trying understanding
concepts at high school, mostly good grades now she doesn't meet criterias even at the most basic level
of decision making, forgetful and degraded cognitively, this is too late most of it was gone soon would
be irreversible.

There goes tomorrow, heard vaguely slow music unlike before, I woke up and the house scented exact
lavender same like used to be, she has woke up ironing the clothes.

"Good morning, drink your tea it's on dining table, after this directly shower and prepare food for your
family with me. From now I want you to decrease your lagging by having 2 steps ahead, I know you used
to given instructions first if not you would be lagged and stopped idle that's what drastically reduced
your time, plus there piles and piles unnecessary thoughts on your mind."

I directly do as her talked because I used to finished my mother's instructions, now became more
degraded. After that I take the tea and talked with Anna at the ironing room.

"Anna, do you think I have possibilities for having life or more, like we used to be. How could you get
friends and they instinctively trust you and be where you are now."

"Well, I guess they are all good chances, started with college eventually I met right person who directly
have intention for invest in me, we discussed about technology, lessons at college, recent conditions,
eventually most of conversations are necessary, agendas, possibilities of this that, then more people
new acquaintances became more aligned to and more friendly. I don't know it's like coincidence and my
life became easier and I can have privilege for continuously optimized what I have learned at my
education and get more loop of trust and investments. At first I was stiff and not talkaktive more or less
like you, yet naturally everyone became more friendly, then I can appreciate myself and do more
necessary decisions which eventually aligned. I know that everything is depend on how you react with
people and how you chose your decisions, yet most of it in the end is from sincerity from your
surroundings. Whatever happens if they like you they still like you and will help you and communicate
with you regularly without considering this or that, not i will help you if this or that, they simply have
real conversation with you and listen seriously, understand what you intended to say eventhough
sometimes words are jumbled or difficult to understand. What I looked are you are to sensitive and
sentimental, they have plans, I have plans, I wanted to finish my plans now, while most people think like
that you are still at first stage that is motivating yourself, while everyone has finishing several plans you
are still looked at past and doing unecessary, like mind wandering and undisciplined with your plans and
worse there is no plan, with your lack of energy like this less likely to change. Honestly I can only help
with only conversation. and restoring what you used to have. The only way is to go home, you are
indifferent here, only make things slower and worse, I have to be here all of the time to make you more
confident and have conversations with you, yet can't continue to accompany you for entire time, you
have to be trusted and believe in yourself individually, pick 2 things that significant for you, family and
one detailed field you are most comfortable, high certainty of successes return, and welcomed. I think
that for technology you can't have progress significantly without any real tangible conversation because
now the frameworks are new and you have to reinstall and high chance of lagging because of your
limited ram eventhough actually if you given chance you could learn and return something from it. In
hectic of your activities as a mother there is low chance of return because of specifications issues, while
in other field you are most likely return in writing looking at geographic location of reader with review
from conversation log. There I give you review, wait more review while you finish what's important.
What time is this, don't waste more time, let's cook. I have filled your fridge with some groceries. There,
some avocado juice for you."

Then she directly move the ironed clothes to closet. Became clean and tidy.

"Chop the onion you can save more time afterwards. While I prepare food exactly like you have made
before."

Then she pick the ingredients to make fu yung hai. While chopping she can't stop talking.

"You surely changed, this is most basic activities of most mother, simple and quick, if you are not abused
before, you won't be like this, if your memory of abuses started to override you have to remember that
you regularly make these every morning, at noon, afternoon. With or without verbal or physical abuses,
you still have these responsibilities. You used to have full energy and speed when you learn new
understanding, if not you'll be apathetic. That's strange, something happens, maybe your husband give
premises that unusual, like you always can't manage kitchen, don't touch food before he opened it, turn
on or off lamp of kitchen, eat the food and sleep what difficult about it, your family never teach you
manage house and disciplined, don't need to buy any groceries, there is scarce food in the table, it
doesn't matter your wallet is empty, education, your family never teach about cleaning, you are coward,
you can't survive outside, it doesn't matter anymore you cook or not, he is not interested anymore,
looked disgusted, that's the most obvious, he probably know and pretending not watched, what's that
means. After months, you realize kitchen became dirty, more dirty, still neglected until it's difficult to
clean. Stove should be regularly cleaned after cook, entire kitchen at least every 1 week, fridge at least 1
month, if more than that it will be more difficult to clean when it became stinks." After chopping, Anna
mixed all chopped ingredients to bowl, whisked and add some onions with salt. Then she prepared
onion and tomato ketchup for the sauce.

"See.. simple, quick, no burden, no mental lagging, like you used to be, what makes you more excuses,
looking for right moment, looking for this, that, what if, why he became mean, can you make him happy
and proud, how to escape this, you don't want to live like this, you can't make your parents proud, you
are sick, slow, lazy, you can't take care people around you what else, you worry too much, you won't
realized it's 6 am and you missed early morning accomplishment to prepare breakfast."

Then she took clean pans and placed them on stove, pour oil at one of pan and started to cook the
whisked ingredients and close it, then another flat pan and cooked chopped onions, with tomato
ketchup for the sauce.

"If you are yourself, I know you will check Pinterest, which will spend more time again, unlike before you
focused finishing these, and you will cook more foods at the table. Vegetables, mashed potatoes. Don't
worry this still not finished."

While waited until cooked then she took spinach and several potatoes, and eggs. She cut the potatoes,
wash the spinach several times, and cut it. She looked at the pan of egg, looked cooked and flipped it,
then other pan and off the stove. She took the sauce into bowl, bring to table and put the pan outside
the kitchen and wash it. She checked the egg and looked almost cooked. Continued to boiled the
potatoes. After that bring to table.

"Finish, yet not finish. I bet after this you will continue to rest, looking for other excuses. Confuse, after
that sleep again. Do you realize, many mother wants to be a good mother with cooking as many as they
can, preparing everything before children wake up before 7, keep house and clothes clean because
when it is too late the bugs more difficult to cleaned, decorate house, preparing their children learning
at home, always talked with their children, sacrificing sleep, having plan entire hours even only at house,
make desserts, fresh drinks, and more. While you don't have any purpose and plan, leave your daughter
sleep, I know you will answer I don't have any energy, etc, no matter how painful or whatever happens
these are your responsibility. There, please I have chopped the spinach and make boiled spinach while
boiling these potatos.

"Thank you Anna, you came here make everything easier. It feels nothing matters in countless hours of
endeavours etc, in the end I only pity myself. I guess that's my habit."

"You know those are your flaws, why don't you change it. Been years and same outcome, why don't you
let loose and pampering yourself, of course after responsibilities done. What makes you comfortable,
writing, find who likes reading, play music, find who likes to hear music, coding, find someone who cares
about basic of coding or terminal prompt, if haven't find and you don't try to having conversation you
won't get any responses. Eventually your husband like to eat, and most people like to eat, you don't
meet criterias that required. When everything is made up chance is degraded, bullied or not, if degraded
why do you continue to take that, no matter how good you are or not really good if there is other who
occupied his mind regularly having loop of real conversation. I know you much prefer to spend your time
to learn concepts and rest, minimal actions outdoor, and conversation. Can't seem to connect, you have
your own world inside your books. Only attracted and trusted by who feels right. Keep continuously add
something to your shelf, consult, if read until finished that mean something right, in time probably you
would get reviews and fix where part that feels not right. Let's looked at your foods."
Then she started to boil the spinach and take the boiled potatoes, take them and started to mesh them,
separate yolks and whisked them with the potatoes. Then she shaped the potatoes into alphabets and
cook them. After cooked and spinach ready foods prepared at table neatly.

"There, finished, would you please wash utensils and clean stove and mop the floor."

I feel the following momentum of ordered, uncluttered habits which reduced for months. After head
trauma I feel difficulty and struggle only for starting simple activities, decluttering. Yet in other time I
have no difficulty everything is moved in right decisions. Struggling of mind after that sleepy. Insane,
cluttered, lazy, can't think and decide, needs this that what in the end wasting time, simple became
complicated. Then I wash utensils, mop the floor, clean stove, kitchen restored clean again.

"House cleaned, tidy, food ready, please fill this bucket with water,wait for 20 hours, boil it for saving
your money on drinking water. Now please fill these drinking bottles with water."

Then she boiled water, after boiled mix the chocolate milk to glass and bit of sugar and blend with
dispenser water that poured into water container. With the remaining boiled water she poured it into
glass and put the tea and mix it with bit sugar and into water container. Now the fridge has milk, tea,
and 2 bottles of water, there fresh water. Then they to dining room and have conversation while eating.

"Anna, I missed how I used to be, I feel worthless and exploited, redundant, you know me. Always pity
myself. Continuously asked for acceptance, insecure, worst is I abandoned real relation with my
daughter because I feel lack of natural gestures being a mother. I lost sense of urgency for taking care
closest environment, house and family, easily sleepy. What do you think that slowing me down, these
are most simple."

"You can't be on your own, you easily effected if no one support you at real situation if there are
pressure. I know you only wanted to pursue education, which you can't get naturally, first you have to
recover yourself and realize your responsibilities, if not no matter how skilled you are it doesn't matter.
Actually memory of abuse only became your excuses, I know the pain still remains, there is grudge in
you, don't want to repeated bullied again, yet that is usual that is reality, savage. If you surrender
became worse and lazier with that excuses, no one cared if you abused or not, they only care if you can
be helpful and catalyst. It's completely your responsibility for making yourself sane. If you think you are
yourself when listening news or memes that's okay, yet it's much better if you directly do what you have
to finish chores, without this or that. You usually finish homework, exams yourself and get almost good
grades. Now those became unecesary because you have completely different role, and you don't realize
your actual role. You are stucked in your past, that has high hopes of getting return in years of
endeavours, where are you, when, it's here and now. Not there in the past. The conclusion is focusing
on here and now, if you want to experience there in certain time, express it on writing in limited time,
because you are in here and now, and many unfinished in here and now."

"I felt apathy to reality around me. Feel like escaping I wanted to continuously sleep at my life. I don't
want to make any errors yet because many redundancy from all compilation of seen or unseen flaws. I
always blame outside which entirely my faults. Now I always think about money because there are
nothing works. Until I wanted to sell what I have from me, my body because all things don't work and
not valuable. Brain not work, actions slow, speech not work, cannot cook, free invaluable show."

"You actually have decent income, 90% population have similar condition with you. But they not
complaining. You've been broken, it could be broke or you can leave the broken from you because it
can't be fixed or you could fix the remaining unbroken parts of you and work something to optimize
those parts without breaking your remaining."

"I can't feel any motivation and inspiration anymore. I feel lame and slow there is nothing expected from
me anymore. I wanted to compile decades of my education become something real. I want to have
tangible return from what I have given and learned before which I don't find from myself. I always pity
myself from any blank situation that I have. I'm sick that I continuously watched without anyone there.
I'm sick of myself. I don't have anything to be trusted."

"Are you done pity yourself. Is there anything you want to say to yourself how lame you are. That's all in
your mind. If you are not happy with your condition look at what makes you most happy and certain.
Never think about return because you can't change any conditions outside you. What you can change is
how you perceive your surroundings, how you talk to your heart and thinking, how you imagine your
imaginary world which only exist inside. You can't change how others treat you, hidden or visible
condition from tangible people. What certainly visible is how you treat your inner world with or without
any kind of any tangible situation. You know that I always care to you. I want you to think the right or
not right condition. First write all right condition that you wanted to have. Then adjust them to what
tangible reality must happened. Many things that you considered right are nor right in the tangible
reality. From what I have looked from you in several months recently 80% are not right. That's the truth.
Before that you are most optimized because you are wake up early in the morning and continuously
consistently have certainty to believe in yourself. Your trust and confidence level are high because.. How
would you answer that from your point of view."

"Because I used to have confidence in piano, not anymore. I used to have confidence that in right time I
would get the job from my education which I have that job but in the end not anymore. So those
confidence are significantly reduced until nothing trusted. With recklessness, cognitive impairment and
awkward and laziness there is nothing trusted anymore. Those right became not right anymore."

"Let me tell you what makes me convinient and unconvinient. I love you when you love a person. You
would give all you could to make yourself best and suddenly there are many creations maybe there
would make many creations which not qualified but you became relentless yet you became dependent
and when everything actually imaginary and you realize those you became significantly unable to think
and became slow.How is your condition when you are optimistic and optimized completely yourself."
"Now imagine your time when you are most confident. There are minimum discount factors. What
actually you think at your entire time without regard any outside conditions. How is your inside
imaginary world look like. What are your discount factors that makes you significantly loss any
confidence recently became not right anymore."

"The discount factors, I have found out that I've been watched so I looked how people judgement
consistently, how easy they found my flaws and less and less standard until below standard. How can I
managed to be neutral when everyone watched me and pretend. That's the discount factors that I can't
change and won't be change. What I wanted to make efforts are fixing what I could fix which is volatile
because with flaws everything changed. Of course I should not blame everything to condition that
affects my conditions. Instead I have to carefully watch what are discount factors inside me and
continuously monitored. Which still more percentage. With this awkwardness discount factors which I
can't change at my entire time."

"You are stopped many times. I think what stopped you is yourself. You have many things in your mind.
You continuously looking for acceptance and return which are not certain. Now classify what certain and
not certain in tangible reality. What movement which certain and not certain at most basic level, eat and
clean. If that's not completed then nothing happen with less trust. Now tell me all your feeling inside."

"I hate my life, I don't have any future, I can't think, became more errors, idle, closer to non thinking
person, I am not taken seriously anymore, superficial surrounding, lazier, only dreaming, lose hope, lose
interest, blank, empty, not find any meaning, lose uncoditional love, changed became worst from a
person, hating everyone, don't care about anything, thinking money constantly, unfortunate, hating
myself, feel cognitive impairment, pity myself, begging any unconditional care or money, feel
invaluable."

"I'm here to you, why are you think like that. Don't you have any feeling to yourself. Why do you hate
yourself until you are not doing anything meaningful. I know you only have limited activities which really
don't have any choice anymore yet don't make those became excuse to became worst version from you.
You only have 2 choices became better version or not better. If there are something holding you that
means you certainly became worse and worse. You realize yourself right if you continuously hurt
yourself with your feeling that would stop any blessings and those feeling would continuously discount
your value. When value is minimum there would be more difficult to change. Actually I have plan for you
but there are preconditions from that. I believe you if you can independently confident by yourself. I'll
accompany you to do step by step instructions to make it there. First you have to be on your own and
stable with or without any external conditions. Btw I live here at Local Airbnb Hotel do you want to
come there, we will talk further there."

"Yes thank you to asking."

After house is cleaned and prepare my daughter she drive her rented Jazz and take me and my
daughter to her place.
Then she park her Jazz with automatic gate that opened and looked symmetrical garden at left
and right with fountain at the center with automatic railing that opened the garage.

After that she take me inside her mansion with wide entrance with spiralling stairs to second
floor and directly see the pool at outside and there is grand piano below the stair.

"There is play house there your daughter can play there. Here I want to show you something."

Then she goes to her room and takes something from there. At beside of the sofa there is to
cupboards that has their own books.

Then she takes some thick binders and show me her stories.

"It all starts alone like you now. No one to ask help, no acceptance, feeling of limited reach, one
trust me everything until that particular one tangible help change it all. It's like you only have
fish food but no one need you because that looks unimportant, until there is someone who
owns an aquarium that looks for a particular fish food. You know no one likes to read right but
you only got book to offer. I've read all your books and actually review those to our community.
But it only for hobbies so we don't consider to contact you, now I'm here because I think your
book became potential and I want to give you insights how this book industry happens."

Then she shows the cupboard with full of books, one a music book cupboard and the other still
not full.

"These are classical music books and some novel that existed, and the other cupboard is my
own books and music that have been 'appreciated' there. Of course with competitive objective
selective screening. You won't realize how appreciative they are with original material with the
simplest form so you listened the word copyright is underlined there. It all started with regular
ig dm that always sent, always ask and make conversation with me and share everything about
reading and writing clubs, and exchange stories. After that the academy gives personal coaching
to my first published book. Actualy I have to pay $50 but they gave me free at first until the first
published book. They lend me all the initial costs until give the tickets and accomodation but all
only loan. Everything until $3000 but they give all the guidance to pay all those. First time I have
a conversation with the other side is the most humble experience that I got. He shares all the
details about my work eventhough first they look unimportant. I understand about completely
new perspective about the untangible set of works like copywriting, writing, classical music,
talking about premises, logic, and how serious only to talk about concept that adapted
aesthetically."

Then she shows the bantex that have documentation in it.

"This is my journey from zero to my condition anxious like you before, don't have any jobs and
became low reputation at everything but I documented all my progresses, as I talked before
everything are unimportant until you meet the demand at that point your life would change
completely. He planned everything to me, until the tedious details because he believes me like
no one else. He was willing to share his knowledge regarding everything related to high end
businesses and coach me personally. Open a whole new perspective about the other side of
investments and the background everything about investing competently. All of this time I
never taken so seriously like that. He told me that to get what I want I have to take loan from
the bank, no other method. He loaned me my writing education but the other rest have to get
them from bank. For your credibility you have to introduce yourself to many people as possible.
Get out there, no one help if you're not asking. You see here it's an enormous money that never
could be reached when trust is not there at the equation. If sincere the trust won't be affected
with any circumstances until you meet demand. After the demand find you it's your job to
maintain it. No one could do that for you. For your type of person really difficult to get used
with fast conversation. Here is the first only handwriting drafts about the possibilities from
most possible until the worst case scenario to return the loan, after that list of universities and
majors with tuition fees from all, and the plane tickets. Those all summed and the cost is like
buying a house. Yet he believes me completely until making effort to find out the method to get
loan acceptance from the bank. I documented until my conversation with the customer service
with the recording. I don't know everything worked out as expected. Three months later after
applied and all documents sent everything are approved. That's the most unforgettable
moment of all. It's time to fly there, everything are ready. All of those loan returned with
surplus, now I became established writer there and those can't be possible without any tangible
plans. I've read your writings which are unsupervised that's not bad, I show my families and
friends your writings and most of them read those until finish. That's a good signs isn't it. Since
that's unsupervised and you never have any literature education I think you've accomplished
something. Being a writer is high demand here. Here from several of your books I've printed
those and revised some of those. Keep these and revise those. If you're done I'll fix the physical
books and promote those since I am a publisher too. You know actually you're difficult to get
any opportunities since you're a little bit different, but that's not a problem, keep writing I'll
keep ghostwriting your book and let's see if there is something worked. These are photos at
cities that I've been there, hope you could be there too. Btw let's swim with your daughter."

After swim together she showed me and my daughter dresses and make up at her room.

"Here I'll show you something."

Then she takes me to her accessories room with cabinets like in the store with shiny glasses and
showed many kinds of genuine crystals and diamonds with the reflection of color spectrum
with the light shining over them.

"Use as many as you like. I have videography thing and could make those kind of LV show thing,
and with a little make up I want to make you one of the model at my jewelry company."

"Are these your own brand."

"That's right"

The shiny curved at symmetrical left and right with root shaped and 9 blue diamonds edge at
left to right of the necklace. I touch the edges of shiny rocks which the reflections are like a
rainbow set of spectrum glossy shined between each other. I secretly gasped looking at that
beautiful scenery which tangibly presented in front of me.

"Actually I bought that only in 1 minute. $1000 fresh from the thin air."

"What! Are you insane, how is that possible."

"You should learn trading and investing that's why the rich getting richer and your kind have to
ruin everything only to earn several dollars for the rest of your life."

"I can teach you to trade and share several dollars from my profit earning every time I get the
profit. Actually with decent amount of capital, you can get 50 $ more dollars only in matter of
seconds. That's our secret why I could rent many kinds of things and even buy that at all range
of prices. Now I'll show you my library."

Then she takes me to the room beside the stairs and there are symmetrical set of blinking
server that covered in glass because there have to be right and clean temperature inside the
server room. At in front of the room there are racks of books from technical, novel, until music
books.

"May I look at those books."

Then I see racks of handwritten math books with good grades at all range of math problems.
There are Biology, Bioinformatics book, novels that at that rack.

"Have you read all these."

"Actually the left rack is the to do list to read, and if I have read that I will move that into the
right rack."

"Do you understand all these, genetics, dna, medical subjects, really."
"Yes, my parents always read those subjects before I sleep. So I'm familiar with those subjects."

"Structure building drafting, chemical compounds, lab experiments, are you kidding. Wait..
Rachmaninoff!"

"Yes that's too."

"Are you insane how could you understand so much, it might have to learn for the straight half
century."

"I guess I have something different in my mind. Actually since I was begin to write I could write
all occurrences and all frames that happened at that day by drawing it until the amount of each
materials that I've seen. And the music I could instantly remember as many music as I want only
with one time listening and lesson."

"Let me show you how these all happen."

Then after that she takes me to other room which there are two wide monitors with graphs and
slack channel that has real time chatting at the other monitor.

"Look at this, from all the informations from this slack channel all 100% signals are true. But
these only could be seen by subscribers, even there's a group which there is the collective
capital until million dollars as the main capital. In the matter of seconds that capital would
added into hundreds dollars, and divided into the number of subscribers, so the incomes are
constant and in multiple time."

"Why don't you open the information for free."

"I don't know I guess they have to make efforts by themself. Btw, I plan to make a new business
model do you have any ideas."

"Actually I have many ideas regarding education. I actually upset with the uncertainty of
education to several percentage of people. How successful they are at education there are the
uncertainty of income. What about people who take loan to pay the education but in the end
after they graduate hopefully, they still unemployed and the loan is still unpaid until years after.
Those are unfair to that percentages of population. Beside the syllabus are not make sense, we
have to learn about physics while the subjects are only computer code. And maybe after all
those efforts, not really have any application to real workplace hopefully if eligible. I have an
idea instead of building a mall with many stores which are consumptive and doesn't have any
added value or return income. What about adapting the mall environment focused on
education purpose. So it's like a public college where everyone could take the practical syllabus
regarding materials that they prefer so there are no additional cost that is not related to the
topics of study. At some counters there are the products of the students that directly displayed
and see by the customers and they directly get income from the sales, they trained to make a
business pitch to investors which interested in funding the students. So they get used to be in
business environment and consider the course as the main capital that practically could be
feasible directly. What do you think about my idea."

"I think there haven't been any kind of that business model. The problem is segmentation
which actually from the system is made to be difficult to bypass the financial system. These
world are only given to special ones which we willing to give access to, not to all people. With
your business model it would be easier to people get abundance and will make a different set
of distribution."

"What do you mean."

"Never mind, please continue."

"There should be general certificate which verified from the well known company that could be
guarantee to at least have job part time or permanent types. All students could present their
portfolios at the stages. And continuously pitching for the right investors which would like to
sponsor the students, with these kind of approach each students would have individual
sponsorship and no one left behind so the investments on term of time and capital won't vanish
in vain."

"Actually that's a feasible plan, and with right people it would realized into tangible results. You
should get used to how I think. I earned thousands dollars a day, I could go anywhere I like, buy
everything I like, what do you think the products we choose. I could afford the highest priced
products, why should I buy your un high quality and priced products when I could buy upper
type products. Can you figure it out."

"If I can't connect with anyone, like it or not I have to make the exclusive products in quality, if I
can't reach that standard I would have to figure out by myself and train myself no matter what
and turns out those might return nothing but that is the endeavour that for majority of people
are get used to have below the line kind of life, and there are several percentage of people who
are continuously pitching without any result."

"Actually we have at real time screening who eligible by looking the history of each individual. If
at some point the portfolios are match with our criterias our representative would immediately
contact them, yet there are people who are only taken the portfolios to be adapted into real
performance, in one way so there are no two way communication between the maker of
portfolios and the adaptor of those portfolios. So it's kinda difficult to get direct sponsorships
from real companies. The chance is you make the youtube or tiktok channel to showcase your
portfolios in your style. At Tuesday I'm gonna have a dining convention to several investors
from your city. We're gonna discuss about the local publishing and printing business. I'm
representing from the book or novel publishing which not really popular at your city, but
actually is popular at my city. Remember the people's name here from ig there are some who I
wanted to introduce you. You have to be confident to yourself, I'll give you information about
what you would talked at those dining convention. Btw do you have other portfolios?"

"I have several musics and paintings. My music is available at my IG, actually I'm still beginner at
improvisation music, and my paintings are at my notebook. Actually I bring it, would you like to
see them."

"Yes of course."

Then I showed my paintings notebook.

"Here are several drawn from pencil sketch."

"You draw these. Actually these are not bad. I'll show to several investors which into drawing
let's see what would they give reviews. This actually valuable and have aesthetic style."