NAME: MEGINO, ARMAINE YSSA R.

YEAR & SECTION: HRM1B

"MY REFLECTION PAPER"

For me the most meaningful topic or lesson is about "faith". Because mostly the time through my life, I am finding myself deeply challenged about the nature of my faith to God and to myself. But I often advice other people about having faith in self and God, and surely things will be better over time in our lives. I think I gradually have to face more and more of me that doesnt see the world that way, and certainly a big part of my life that doesnt act that way. I sometimes feel a bit jealous of people whose faith seems to be straight forward and never waver. They talk as though trusting God was simple and anyone who doesnt fine it that way must be unspiritual. My experience of faith is often battle to hold on in the moments when God feels a really long way away. That is not all the time, but I realize that often the confusing feeling that I am experiencing is possibly a good thing somehow.

Based on our lesson: "Faith means freely accepting what a person does and says because of one's trust to that person. Also, for a believer that person is God." Im realizing by this definition, that I often dont have faith in God. I guess maybe technically I am. I know faith is a very personal thing, I think. In many ways it gives hope and happiness, it sustains us during very hard times, a very internal peace and very hard to explain. As life goes on, I also realize faith seems like a roller-coaster ride. Because as I see my trust in something else, then let go of it, then see my trust in yet another thing, then let go of that, and over and over again. I would like to

think that I could get to a point where I completely and fully trust God, but somehow I doubt it. My battle experience with Faith is really a journey where slowly, and often painfully, more and more of me is eventually surrendered to God unconsciously forever.