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night shift
some nights
a fine day in hell he finished
the puked
And here she comes.
Monday night.
I'll hit the road
walking the night
death lives on the asphalt
earlier that evening
in a tin bowl
outside this fuckin bar
I ha(r)d him
she listens
on the pavement (hey, let's dance)
when love's away on vacation
lame fuck evenings washed out on the beach
a sugarplum on the carpet
on the pavement (II): on me
and what happiness is I dunno
ask
a fine way to die
i'd like to fuck you
on the pavement (III): hush, darling
dolor lurks next to us
white paint on your hair
the black cat
in this city
when your life is a joke
burning in daylight
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to Damon Boykiw, for the life, the madness and for whatever has left
to Till Lindemann, for Messer
to Tom Waits, for keeping me alive, on the road and on the search.
to Christiana too; for some strange reasons of mine.
night shift
some nights, I unbutton my shirt and remove my heart from my chesti let it beat... (you know,
to... to do its shit; the only shit it can do anyways...) in my palm; its so fetid,
bloody... fuckin cold.
and then I dress it with a mango skin, and place it in the fridge until yesterday
in order to request the tomorrow next to yogurts, putrid green butters and milks... and I
finish by holding a glass with melted ice, watching the film on my wet window... I stare at
the cars lights going by, the night, and a watermelon filled with grease...
fuck man... its raining again... and I forgot the cars top, down... fuck it.
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and then it was the smoke, the streets bright lights and the scotch... and a man running
naked down the street with a couple inches of limp hanging among his legs, next to stray
cats messing in the trash... and among those hisses and screeches, he stopped, bent down
and puked... torn skin for the hogs.
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for Chicliboom
After midnight and couple glasses of scotch theres not much to feed yourself. Some bread
and a can of sardines in salt water. I turn on the TV. Its a couple of white trash from
ol Dixie fighting about who cheated who, and who the fucks more loyal and who the fucks
more and more I walk to the fridge, take the sardines and open the can, spill the water in
the sink and take a piece of wheat bread from the counter.
And here she comes.
Walkin with her chubby hairy body. Shaking her tail, jumps on the couch next to me
and rubs her face on my legshe owns me. I give her one sardine and eat the rest with my
bear hands. We both finish our meal; I wipe the oil on my hands on my black pair of
trousers and lay on the couch. She climbs on my body and lies on my stomach, she meows,
and continues purring.
The couple on the TV seems to be fine now. Jerry Springer did some fine job too,
and everybodys happy for now.
Monday night. The bars empty. Just few regulars drinking and smoking. She stretched her left
leg and crossed the right one on top of it, and then she leaned her head on top of her two
crossed front legs.
It is as if nothing stands right anymore, but a blonde cat sleeping ON the stool next
to a drunk who just ordered another glass of sweet red wine: 13.5% vol.
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I
on your wet cotton sheets
as your fists
are tearing them along with ma flesh
apart.
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death lives
while life
dies;
and gets unhappily
happy,
as the stars fall down on the floor, sparkling
like cigarettes thrown down
on the asphalt. the lights get so dark, and the murkiness gets
so much
darker that the whole thing starts to make some sense now
and then
milieu for oblivion.
I ha(r)d him
talking of sex
in a fraternity party; he didnt really
like it
with his
current girl, so
he took
a load out
of a friend
of mine.
as for me?
not much happened, had
few more drinks
and a slender blonde
ha(r)d me
in her
then
we fall
asleep
in the bathtub .
she
listens
before she
listens;
that old lady
with the golden
canine, shes now
half way
through the bottle.
on the pavement
I saw you running behind
flying bottles and cigarettes;
murderer gods
gamessongs of the mass
a happy
dolor
(hey, lets dance)
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and quite
chubby,
clean shaved smelling old
spice smoking a cheap
cigar (you wont
tip himyou think; takes too long
for the next
round).
the red-haired
keeps goin on, now talkin
about her
ex and you walk straight
to the jukebox
pick a random
Tom Waits song
& Dylans
Senor; you get lost in drunk
says,
and to the lyrics and you feel you
own the world (and its only
2 am, deadly silence outside
in the street, not a single
car, just the cold, the
cats and the
wind)
but you really own
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nothin
but lay-lies and your
drink.
well, youre broke at some point, so you leave
your last buck as a tip underneath
your glass,
kiss goodbye the red-haired &
walk out.
as you step out you see a cat
jumping off an iron
waste bin,
and then you remember that your car is parked
only a block away;
you get in the car, light a smoke and drive
while listening to
classical music thinking
that you should have been
dead
by nowbut you
aint,
and Strauss just knows
some serious
secret; some magic trick to drive the car itself.
at home youve got plenty of
scotch
yea... well...
I guess
it is fine
just fine?
ehm... exquisite?
care for
eating
it, dipshit?
jeez Jess, what the fuck...
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and you
languid
laying on
the
floor.
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ask
the
the
the
the
the
the
the
the
the
sun
cats
tears
gaze
poem
clock
banjo
poet
book
ask
everything
and everybody
theyll all
hoOOOOwl;
the world
has failed
us
and love is
bleeding
in a glass of scotch.
I was thinking
a fine way
to die
and I couldnt find
anything
significant;
dying when is not instant,
its kinda
lame and perhaps
inconvenient
to
certain
people
associated
with you
when it comes to feel your last breaths
as you lay on a hospitals white
bed.
so I remained
alive
and went
to bars listening
to others
telling their problems
and talking on
economy
and how some guy
fucked another guys
wife,
and how everythings
wrong
and the worlds
messy
and how poets
ended up
losing
poetry while
gaining
emptiness
yea
I remained alive
accidentally.
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our hearts
are full of money
and our pockets
keep the blood
on the rocks
hush, darling.
dolor lurks
next to
us,
sitting with the legs
crossed
on the stool,
sipping
scotch,
smokes
and coughs
without saying
a word;
so
taciturn.
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for A. Z.
for christiana zenonos
at night
the taste of tequila
on your lips (perhaps
zivaniaI dunno)
got me so drunk
that I sucked
them
tenaciously.
and in the morning
next
to you,
you seemed
like a
sculpture (an ancient
with white
paint
on few of your
hair.
in this city that smells bad quality of weed and extravagant junk, a city that is elapsed by
rusty luxurious unshaven filthy cunts, which is besmirched by the cleanness of a sold out
ethos; death lives, and life dies seated in cheap bars and cafes full of rigmarole.
in a happily pathetic life... where stars fall without anyone noticing them, and the
glitter elements of happiness spark on the asphalt like the cigarettes that hit with power
the cement... the lights blacken so fast, and darkness is dressed on intense colors.
make a wish. the waysides was always a place to totter... dont make a wish... just
because theres always a chance to get enslaved in a clan of unfulfilled wishes...
Love me two times... on the speakers... finishing the first bottle; the whole world
is a bottle behind... you light a smoke... the first kiss, by a chick sitting next to you.
you met her about an hour ago and you cannot recall her name, her lips are juicy...
aha-ha-ha, I love ya too... oh yea, ya, ya, more than ever... like never before... like a
memory that gets old when our roads split and the first facing that affects the airs of a
young man,
in the sanctum of a faded glance.
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and you
probably drunk
almost
shitfaced,
day dreaming
the moment youll hit
some
big time.
you order
another one,
you shake the glass
staring at the
ice cubes
in the
scotch
and of course
at some point
things
get out of
hand
and its right then
that you become
the story
in the others
miserable decorous lives,
the story thats to come
right
next morning
in the cafe;
youre a laughable
stroke
in a white
canvas.
eventually gods bow
to your magnificent show;
they know that really love
belongs
to everybody
and they smile to the
fucked &
eventually somehow
in the most
unsuspected places
they introduce you to the
most
groovy
amazing
people.
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burning in daylight
for Stella C.
its morning
& drunk I sit on the chair
staring at the plant
exactly
across me,
oh youre young
and lonely
and beautiful
and marvelous in any
aspect.
no one
cares about
ya,
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please sometime
come
on the boat
to see me,
to lie
with
me,
to die
next to me;
its all
a moment
served on the table
la
carte
a tree
a mountain
a deer
a glass
of
scotch
a poem.
all life
less
and too young to get
seen
or felt
by a
man
whos
nothing but
a fish
wriggling
on the saddle
of a rusty
bike.
I was young
and she was older
and so
beautiful
and she let me
lay
next to her,
her nipples
erected
her mouth so
wet
her hair
so
soft,
her flesh like
satin
her cunt shaved and
so warm.
I woke up
naked
next to her
dry
hangover
empty
reeking of scotch
& tar
hit by
the sunbeams,
wounded
and lonely
I tried to
touch her
and she
vanished
I remained on the
mussy sheets
for a while
staring at
a rammones poster
and thought of me
as a teenager
with acne
and long hair
smiled at
joey and dee dee and all the rest of the punks
standing
for my youth
feeling as I was left
alone
and I was something so
machine-like
made for somebodys else
purpose,
I walked in the bathroom
shaved
washed ma teeth
I lit a smoke and had some
fine
coffee
I opened the door and left
for work
my
sun & my car
was still out there
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your flesh
is something
id like to tear
apart
in a moment of
passion
your scent moves
in the room
as you
shower
(the condom stills
on ma cock)
youre happy
singing
and im just bored
petting the
cat;
she purrs
jerking
her tail,
and your home
is the cave
I always try
to escape from
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the reaSON
Emergency exit somewhere in the edge of time; entrance in the silence of the shy mind
and permanent escape from a setup ugliness, and a really enough warm coat for the cold
nights of the others endless aestival winter; the whole world can go to hell now. Thanks.
female/male
for Damon Boykiw
ah theres a turtle
its a dog you dumb-ass
then why does it snow in the summer?
because it is incumbent upon the when of some since that eavesdrop an as far that
drinks in the very same cafe next to three whereas
huh?
a star just fell
you think its gonna barge into us?
nah... perhaps the wishes it carries
have you ever seen how words are gettin dressed before a levee
oh yea, like the ashes in the mud
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your enslaved
freedom
boils inside that pimple on your
forehead,
underneath
your make-up.
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hello queer
gimme
a tear
every time you
stay
alone in the dark room
with the Jim Morrison
poster
& Kerouacs On the Road wide open
on the bed
listening your
mom
calling you
for
lunch.
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loneliness
walks hand in hand
with the wrinkles
of your face,
the sorrowful
gaze
after a hangover
it is the sugar
in the morning
coffee
and the salt
kids
pour over
slugs;
it burns you
that way
as you flinch
on the balcony
and the clouds
keep moving
slow;
the sky turns
to be dull;
nobody feels
the state
of not
feeling
and thats
something
most people
forgot
as they remain
locked
in the car
during
rush hour
and
work;
mmm
theyre emotional
ooohhh Im so but
SO
jealous.
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theres a coin
on
the carpet;
a dollar
from some other
days,
a glass next to
the laptop
& a dead mosquito;
drowned in the melted
ice.
and its sunny outside
and the breeze
pets the leaves of the trees.
I play some classical music
on the pick-up
and lean back, I need a shave
but
perhaps Ill get shaved
later.
but
what do
they take
photos of?
what do they
see,
I dont?
ah, I know...
all they see
is themselves hanging
by some
ramshackle
balcony
& its still
nothin
but
a gray
afternoon.
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some time
when I was on the
run
with D.
and our car broke down,
somewhere in Ohio,
we started
drinking beer
and eating raw cabbage
inside the car.
the roof was
down and the
clouds were moving
in strange
shapes;
he put his arms
around
ma shoulders
and said:
oh man,
thats the most
wonderful thing that could happen
to us.
and we stared
at the sky
for about
an hour.
then it started
raining.
strange days
or
strange
personas?
persona gratas?
or peronas non
gratas?
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enslaved
are the buried
ones, the needs, and the
desires
free
are still the waves, and the scent
of the brine
that covers your flesh and your beard;
free
are the burned
and drownedthe ashes
in the wind.
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you].
some
people
are
so
fucked
&
lived
nothing
at
all
that
they
remain
enslaved...
hanged
by
a
tree;
they
call
themselves
naturalists.
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dream
a
dream
&
fear
a
fear;
but
why
to
try
get
a stone,
stoned;
aint
it
already?
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stepping on Lethe:
a puddle
on the asphalt
of a
city
drowned
in
noise
kissed by
the steps
of lithe figures
goin
to work.
saw a dream;
it was you
dreaming.
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my paths
are
soaking
in a
glass
of
scotch
next to
a
bottle of
fear &
tolerance
on the very same
counter.
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a dead cockroach
by the edge
of the door:
has she
ever
been
loved?
you think
that being
alone
is a nasty
curse, or
perhaps a prob,
but actually
it all makes sense
when you
think you ought
to love and
you cant, and especially
when you like
a person
you
do not like.
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time
running through
your veins;
the clock on
the wall
a god died the
other night,
broke
outside a bar,
laying on a bench
freezing
until his
heart
STOPPED.
a clocks
festinate
indexes
and
a car
moving
down the
road
cutting
through the
horizon.
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rain at last__
listening, again,
before
you even listen__
|a shape
precisely
very shaped
has to
shape
{suck me}
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