A vilify story

By Lisa Rose Published by Lisa Rose Smashwords Edition 2013 Lisa Rose

Part one. She cries herself to sleep e ery ni!ht " #now she does " can hear her at ni!ht$ She tries to stop herself by sho in! her face in the pillow but it%s no hope " can still hear it& her cries for help& for the pain to stop physically and emotionally& for me to stop hurtin! her$ E ery ni!ht while layin! ne't to her she thin#s "( e )oned out from my drin#in! but " don(t " close my eyes briefly and hear her sobs& " ow myself e ery day to not hurt her the ne't day but " can(t seem to stop she puts on a happy attitude when she(s around me when inside she(s slowly dyin! "t pisses me off& it ma#es me mad that she *ust acts as thou!h she(s happy when she(s really not$ She(s desperate to lea e me " #now she is but she can(t lea e me$ " need her to ma#e me whole or *ust to #eep me company or *ust to say she simple lo es me$ +ow can she, " hurt her too much but " still need her for my own comfort$ -ow she lies at my feet& on the floor sha#in! iciously while " beat her repeatedly my fist balled up into hu!e balls " punch her once and " punch her a!ain& once " start " can(t seem to stop it ma#es me feel a bit better #nowin! that she(s the bro#en one& that it(s her that needs to be fi'ed not me$ She be!s me to stop and apolo!i)es each time which only ma#es me more e'ed$ .S/sorry. She hea es with all her force blood tric#les from the corner of her mouth where " slapped her& " did it so hard she fell to the !round which a!ain pissed me off so " started beatin! her and to a result it released some pain from me$ " can(t stop once " start " don(t #now why but " *ust need to carry on a little bit more$ " stop for a second my chest pulls in air and releases hea ily she(s still curled up in a ball with her arms co erin! her face& still she doesn(t co er her face well " can still see her face " !rab a fistful of her hair and haul it up her distrau!ht face stares at me all the colour from her face has !one all emotions are placed on her face mostly ones that scream out that she(s scared stiff& her hair has !one all ratty " mess it up all the time chestnut brown$ " remember when " met her first it was the one thin! " always complimented on and now$ "t%s the only thin! " loath to see$ +er tears are always built up in her ha)el eyes e en when "(m not touchin! her " see them& " always see them she ne er stops cryin! e en when she(s not cryin! isually her body is$ .0+1 23-(4 135 E6ER L"S4E-. " scream in her tiny face while pullin! on her hair she tries to stop the pain by !rabbin! my hand which is twisted in them$ 7 hand !oes across her face ma#in! her scream in a!ony& my hand$ 8y hand !oes across her face$ ."/. " drop her on the floor before she can answer " #ic# her full force once more in her bac# and storm into our bedroom and slam the door and loc# it& it ta#es all my mi!ht to not !o in there and beat the shit out of her a!ain$ She could lea e anytime thou!h she chooses to stay& maybe because e ery time " hurt her she can(t stand up, Perhaps because her family ha e dis owed her, She chose me o er them& that ma#es e erythin! worse$ She claims to lo e me that(s not true it(s utter bullshit$ " pass out on the bed sin#in! my teeth into the pillow$ She does listen she always listens& she(s a saint and "(m a monster althou!h it doesn(t stop me from hurtin! her& " en*oy it at times well that(s what monsters do don(t they, 4hey en*oy bein! the bad person and en*oy scarin! the shit out of people$ " shudder at the sound of her fallin! down she tried to !et up but her le!s had other plans and failed her& she screams a!ain and 9uic#ly be!s herself to stop she doesn(t want me to come bac# for round 2$ 8y eyelids drip down slowly: her screams are the only thin! that helps me fall into deep sleep$ ;;;; "f you wish to carry on readin! this on findin! on what happens ne't then please follow my 0attpad pa!e where "%ll continue postin! it$

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