Past

Past shapes the present

Why is my personality this way?
One person is outgoing
Her past shapes her
She was always around people
Her past shapes her present
My past shapes my present
Oh my!
Ive never forgotten, its a part of me
ut its !een so long
So long sin"e I "onsidered it
In high s"hool I #new
I #new when I dealt with the hurt
How "ompletely it had affe"ted my life$
%etermined who I would !e"ome
&ow the reali'ation is fresh
(gain
It surprises me
)ings S"hools
&o, it was )ings *arden then
(nd I in the elementary s"hool
+he !ig !us !arn, the par#ing lot for
all the !usses with its "hain lin# fen"e
the deep !rown house on the little hill
!ehind it
&ow its the ,arly -hildhood -enter
+hen it was the )indergarten and .irst grades
+he larger white !uilding a little way off
&ow the /unior high0
+hen .ourth grade !ottom floor$
Se"ond grade, middle$
+hird grade, top0
+he playground !elow it is deserted now
(n out1of1the1way par#ing lot
(n empty dirt field
Luoweezaa! taunting
Youre retarded.
( field trip 2 was it third grade?
I dont remem!er
I dont even #now to where
Tag
Louisas germs, pass it on.
Louisas germs, no returns, guaranteed to give you worms.
Luoweezaa!
Youre retarded.
Am not!
Youre retarded, Louisa, did you know that?
y mom says ! wou"dnt
#e at $ings i% ! was.
Youre sti"" retarded.
Luoweezaa!
&etarded!
Molly ird
My !est friend
Its !een long
She moved away after first grade
.irst grade, I thin# it was
Some twenty years ago
Or was it yesterday?
-lear !lue s#y, s"hools over0
In the !us
Waiting to go home0
*ood old num!er five0
Louisa, youre retarded.
'o !m not.
I pro!a!ly said that
+he ne3t thing I #now, Mollys "rying
eside me
o""y, whats wrong? ! am puzz"ed
(hyre you )rying?
sni%%"e
*e)ause ! know youre not.
-rystal "lear memory
My "learest early memory
Louisas germs!
Louisas germs, no returns!!
Luoweezaa!
)ids taunting
On the !us, on the playground
Mainly !oys0
%ont #now their names,
%ont #now who they are0
&ever thought a!out that aspe"t
+ill now
Something to "onsider$ the past shapes the present
Its shaped who I am
I #new that in high s"hool
%ealing with the hurt
Luoweezaa!
Louisas germs, pass it on.
Youre retarded!
o""y, whyre you )rying?
*e)ause ! know youre not.