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Becca Hamilton
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October 14, 2015
Soul Exercise #1
Introduction and Explanation
For my first soul exercise I spent four weeks leaning about gratitude. Since the
beginning of the school year, I had been noticing an attitude of cynicism and ungratefulness that
T wanted to reverse. In past years, I have been very appreciative of my time at Wheaton,
especially after coming back from some difficult relationship situations at home over the
summer. However, coming back for my senior year I started to grow weary of Wheaton’s culture
and its constant Christian take on everything. As I am graduating in December, I did not want to
have my last semester be defined by this cynicism and so decided to work on my awareness of
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gratitude through these soul exercises. Sere See i
‘The first part of my soul exercise included separating myself from a friend who I had a
pattern of complaining with. For the purposes of this paper I will call her Sally. Sally and I
always seemed to end up complaining about other friends, homework loads, the amount of
practice we had for Concert Choir, and anything else that we had in common. Though it felt
good to have someone to share these complaints with, it began to be the only thing we ever
talked about, I would find myself thinking of things to complain about just so that I could
connect with her on something. This hyper awareness on the negative things in life was not
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helping my attitude of cynicism at all. 7 Cue f
When the four weeks began, I began my process of slow separation by switching my seat
in choir. As subtly at I could, I started to talk with other people around me and move around asmuch as I could, I would still talk with Sally, but I would make a mental point of finding ways to
engage with other people as well. When I did talk with Sally, I would be more aware of the
subjects I would talk with her about. If things started to shift towards complaining, 1 would try to
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find a way to change the subject or turn the conversation into something positive. Though maybe
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oe awkward ot confusing at first, the shift actually came fairly easily after a while. The
barrier of awkwardness dwindled away fairly quickly as Sally began to realize that I was,
changing how I interacted with her. I never wanted to be unkind or judgmental of her, but I am
grateful for this shift in our relationship and am very glad I committed to do this.
‘The second aspect of my soul exercise was to keep a gratitude journal. For the four week
duration, 1 attempted to write five things I was thankful for everyday. I started each entry with
the date and then the phrase “Today I am thankful for...” and then I would number through five
things I was thankful for that day. In the spirit of noticing God’s presence and faithfulness more
in my life, I hoped this exercise would an easy way of practicing this act of noticing. However, it
proved to be much more difficult than expected. I had a very hard time remembering to write in
it everyday, and would get frustrated with myself when I remembered I forgot it. In an effort to
help me remember I tried putting my journal in different places to jog my memory. It started out
on my desk, though this did not last long as many times I do my homework on the kitchen table
instead of my desk, After several days of forgetting to write in my journal I decided to move it
next to bed in the hopes that I would remember to write in it as I was going to sleep. This
‘Though I definitely had my eyes opened to the small ways God was faithful, I still felt like it was
a burden, Next I tried putting the journal in my backpack, hoping that by secing it with all of my
other books and homework I would be able to just jot things down as they came to methroughout the day. This proved to be the most successful out of all the option I tried. Having it
with me all the time cut out the hassle of having to remember things at the end of the day when
all I wanted was to go to bed. Though the journal proved to be more of hassle than expected, it
definitely opened my eyes to the constant working of God in my life. I became more thankful for-
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the things that I have and more aware of just how privileged I am. ee
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To reflect on mj experiences with Sally and with wilting ny Shuibe, joudst Ts sli use”
the a’Brakel model of reflection by looking at the experience in relation to Bibs texts that
guided me through them and then mentioning more texts that reflect my desired outcome of the
experiences. During my experience with Sally, I reflected on the verses Ephesians 4:29,
et any unwholesome talk come out of our mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up
according to their needs, that is may benefit those who listen”(NIV) and Philippians 2:14, “Do
everything without complaining or arguing” (NIV). By reading these verses throughout the four
weeks, I was constantly guided by ie examples, which encouraged me to continue in
my efforts and validated my process. The straightforwardness of the verse from Philippians
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inded me of the frankness of God’s commend on this subject. Paul wanted his teaching to be
clear because of the importance of this command. On the other hand, the verse from Ephesians
takes time to expand on the concept of complaining by offering alternatives. Paul writes the we
should speak “what is helpful for building others up”, instead of tearing each other down. This
validated my efforts to turn Sally and I’s conversations into positive ones, which was sometimes
slightly awkward to enforce. These verses encouraged me in my efforts and allowed me to have
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a foundation that pointed me back to why I was doing this as things got difficult, Cy cv /Reflecting more closely, my experience with Sally allowed me to become more aware of
other's affect on my attitude, As I separated myself more and more from complaining with Sally,
| found myself not wanting to complain as much in all other aspects of my life as well. Instead of
immediately dwelling on the negatives of the day, I allowed them to roll off my back. It really _
was exhausting trying to keep up the negativity with Sally, and I am astounded at how much it
really was affecting my outlook. Romans 12:2 acts as an example of how I want to continue in
this renewed mindset. It says, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be
transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's
will is —his good, pleasing and perfect will”(NIV). By renewing my mindset of negativity with
one of positivity I can better align myself with God’s will. God’s will is so good and pleasing
that why would I want to work towards anything else? This exercise has opened my eyes to
other's influence and how I need to be resilient in renewing my mind to work alongside God's
will.
Looking now at my experience with the gratitude journal, I used two verses to guide my
experience. The first is 1 Thessalonians 5:8 which says, “Give thanks in all circumstances, for
this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus"(NIV). The second verse is Colossians 3:17 which
states, “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus,
giving thanks to God the Father through him’"(NIV). These verses served as motivation to keep
trying as I resisted so much during the four weeks. Knowing that Paul encourages so many
people multiple times to be thankful during circumstances that were far worse than mine ever
were pushed me to keep noticing God’s faithfulness and be aware of all that He has provided for
me, Even in the smallest things, like not having bed bugs while my roommates did or having an
UGH!especially good conversation with someone at dinner, made me stop and realize all the blessing
God give me on a daily basis.
In thinking about how I want the outcome of my gratitude journal experience to look like,
am reminded of a verse in Luke when Jesus is talking about not worrying about the necessities
in life. In Luke 12:24 Jesus says, “Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no
storeroom or barn, yet God feeds them, And how much more valuable you are than birds!” (NIV)
T want to be constantly aware of how God is working in both the big and small ways. This,
‘gratitude journal opened my eyes to His presence in the tiniest act of faithfulness in my life,
which convey just how deep God's love for me really is. As the verse reveals, how much more
important am [ than birds to God! Sometimes it might not feel that way, but this verse states as a
reminder and testament that God is faithful and I should stand to notice this faithfulness more
and more,
CED) In the process of looking back at my soul exercise experience, I am so reminded of God's
grace throughout the process. Though I struggled during the four weeks to write in my gratitude
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journal everyday and was sometimes deterred by awkwardness with Sally, God was gracious in
my weakness, God granted me grace everyday and knew that I was trying. As I move on from
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this experience, I know I will be offered this continuous grace by a loving God as I continue to
try and notice Him in my everyday life. If I did this exercise again, I think I would definitely not
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start out with such ambitious goals with the gratitude journal. Maybe instead of saying I would
write in it everyday, I would say to think of 10-15 things I am thankful for at the end of the
week, Though these exercises were pretty ambitious, I am so happy I did them and I am also
happy to say that I have been lifted out of my cynicism, By simply forcing myself to take these
C (emde galtwo steps towards gratitude T am reminded of God’s faithfulness and will continue to work on
sustaining this awareness.CE 341/BITH 379 Spiritual Theology Soul Exercise 1 Due Wednesday 10/14 @ noon
Review carefully the directions given in your syllabus (p. 5) for the paper description.
‘Also review the important information for guidelines for Writing Papers (pp. 6-7).
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(1) How many weeks did you practice your various exercises?
Select as hindrances (or helps) and why did you select them?
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(3) What was the nature of your experien¢é over the four weeks of practice (including
bojh progress and resistance)?
(2) What items did
(4) How dithige use of theological reflection assist your processing of your experience?”
What Scripture’ in particular guided your reflection?
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(5) HoyYou would summarize your insights with particular awareness to God’s graée?
‘might you do differently next time?
ey uitoeared thesis statement or key ideas, ability to express yourself clearly,
organi ideas, sentence structure, weak transitions between sentences or
paragraphs, unclear or weak development of thoughts, etc.).
Structure and style (e.g. grammar, alin, np
appropriate academic style for wriktrgrattent
paper)
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