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omeone else while I was around, but I don't buy it after that, not without a sin
cere apology. I mean, hell, I tried to apologize, I ALWAYS apologize over everyt
hing. I would have, anyway, if he weren't talking over it.
Also another instance where me trying to defend someone and do the right thing b
lows up in my face, I don't think Gak even cares that I tried.
--Potato: He doesn't really hang around anymore, but this is a prime example of me
trying to show care for someone, and it falling on deaf ears. He told me this s
tory about a group of friends that treated him really shittily and unjustly. So
I made it sort of my mission to be a good friend to him. I did my best to defend
him when people poked fun at him a little too hard or went too far with their t
easing, I know of one instance where Kitty went way too far one time. Or another
where someone made a voiceclip of him he didn't like.
But I guess after awhile I just realized he... didn't care either way, didn't ca
re about what I was trying to do for him, so I just gave up. We haven't really t
alked since.
--Kitty: One good thing is that she apologized for that time I called her out for
getting after Ruka about a League game, I apologized as well, no one -ever- apol
ogizes to me, so that's really big of her. But I still get the impression of her
being someone who wants to control things her way. Some other pet peeves as wel
l that don't come to mind.
-Glych: I don't really get the impression he's here to be a friend, he's just her
e to have fun. Before he took that long hiatus, I told him that it would mean a
lot to me if he showed up for my birthday. He says he did, but as far as I remem
ber, he didn't. I had gotten over the fact that he's gone forever and now he's b
ack like he never left.
--Kane: I do not want to be in the same fucking room as him, my first impression o
f him was him linking a death video of a man killed by an escalator and exclaimi
ng that he deserved it. I am not religious or spiritual, but I still believe in
evil. And he is it. He used to just stay in Gamer Furs, now he's here.
--Koja: He apologized, I'm cool with him. Though wary.
Sathix: He's cool.
Spitfire: I still dunno yet, neutral. Some good things, some pet peeves.
Vegrull: SUPER cool, he actually stands up for doing the right thing, which I fe
el like I'm the only one that does sometimes. We had a nice talk recently about
some of this stuff I've been feeling.
--Soarin, you're like, really amazing, you show care for me like I show it for you
, you listen to me (and I hope I've listened to you, too. Let me know if you eve
r need to get anything off your chest.) And you've got a ton of patience for peo
ple that I don't anymore.
--All in all, people would advise me to talk all this over with the people in ques
tion. But the thing is, I try to go out of my way to private message people** to
say how much I appreciate them, or to make sure everything is alright, but I fe
el I don't get it back. Some of the people here don't know I have a problem with
them, but some do, and haven't sought me out about it.
(**Admittedly, I haven't done the "I care for you" type of message with a lot of
people, especially not everyone on this list, it's mostly Hiku I'm talking abou
t. Maybe Potato, in the past. Half the people on the list I don't even care to i
nteract with.)
I feel like, if they don't care to talk to me about it on their own initiative a
bout it like I have done for them, then do they really care to even resolve it?
If they talk over me, then do they really care what I have to say? Even with Koj
a I had to actually bring it up with him first. So for all I know it may have be
en an apology to save face because I called him out on it publicly.
I can't always be the only one to try and reach out, I need to be reached out to
, as well.