"i just want too much"

By pb Hill

i just wanna feel like i'm real

like i'm whole
like i'm able
Like giving up on me,
Isn't the only way to be.
i want something else to see
Instead of you walking from me
Like i'm fake
And hard to take
i just wanna feel real

i just wanna smile.

like it's almost laughter
like i could giggle again
Like i don't stay sad,
Making living not so bad.
i'd love to feel glad
regaining joy i once had.
i'm tired of blue
with so little to do
i just wanna smile.

i just want to rest.

Draped over with Peace
Immersed in serenity
Like my mistakes could be hidden,
And my ways weren't forbidden.
Have i been driven
So far from the Risen?
From Whom calm could come
For all, not just some
i just want to rest.

i have much to learn

Growing in Glory
Gaining His Gifts
A dire debt i owe.
Aware His blood should flow.
For all the sins i know.
You thought of me a creation ago.
From start to end
My Father, my Friend.
i have much to learn.

So many Thanks i must give.

Praises to raise.
Hands to lift.
A new life of Blessing
No more flesh-guessing
No futile aggressing
Sins need confessing
His Graces abound
So much Love i've found.
So many Thanks i must give.