I do not want anyone to see me crying but deep

down you wish you saw me cryingi want to you feel how my
heart it's so sad :/
I know you love me........
but u went..........u was most sleep and,
I understand it.
i was need u so much......
but
i was not want to force u to stay....
to stay and your body want to go........
maybe u think it silly.
u think when iam sad...i turn my face for hapnes fast.........I dont
my heart realy burning...firing and hurting ..idont know why
no, u dint did nothing.
I amm sad with myself..
my heart empty, in this enpty bathroom....thinking...what i have done and in
what im doing.............maybe im doing everything wrong, and i know i am...im
doing bad for you, for al my family......for al people around me i do something,
i do a wrong. even in my self im doing wrong.
but know that if i was can change and dont hurt people around me, i was wil
change.........but now is too late....if i say i wil stop making wrongs , i wil be
ling. because my way its hard , I am selfish, pride ,jealous,cold
outside..................the people dont know how my love is big....I dont feel good
in say my feelings for all ......maybe for anyone.....yes for anyone.my feelings
are like pearls buried,in deeper sands of an ocean,the ocean is cold, the
people be afraid to enter on it, and they canot see the pearls , but there is a
pearls........pearls hidden, buried.....that the people wil never see......but there
is......the people dont see my lovethat i feel in my heart, but i feel my pearls, i
feel my feelings inside ,in deep .
And tomorrow when i stay good again, i wil read this text and feel want to
delet from those stupeds words that i'am saying, but...i know I most not delet