Benzrad Love Letter For His Absent Girl Zhou2

Friday, January 12, 2007
two sunny days.
the night in the newly open cafe was almost endurable,even dog frequently
delete my ftp download list and make files within a remote folder less in local
folder after download finished,by modifying my ftp clients downloading list on
the fly or deleted downloaded files on my hard disk,or cheat the ftp protocol
and let downloading broke.however i got some pda warez from pda
forums.gangsters around me rabbled for quite some times but later they lost 2006-11-20
their engergy.later also arrived another group of gangsters,including middle 17:51
aged,they can be cop in guise.they left about 6 am and then my neighbor seats
turned empty and some far seated player slept.on the way to dorm i felt in
right spirit.the administrators of the canteen all claimed i turning slimmer,the
female admin even warned me that i shouldn’t leave the world before my baby
independent in the world.i knew last night i was encountered by violent
threats.i asked for addition porridge at a price of 2 rmb.returned to dorm i just
watched if my sd card was sound for in the last minute before the cafe locked
the pc i was copying.my files copied all existed on the sd card,so i launched to
see my baby at once.my baby was slept when i arrived.so i started to sort my
downloadings.before i almost finished my work my baby cried and the kid son
of the kid sister of my baby’s aunt went to hold him up.then my baby saw me
in front of the pc and asked for my caress.i held him wander a moment then i
told him i just need some extra minutes to finish and tried to lay him aside.he
cried at once.so i picked him up again.later he let me finished my work swiftly.i
sang a lot to fight against the challenges around.then he slept near 10 am and
slept for an hour.her mother returned before we left to receive her.at lunch i
was open and commented that the cook was poor.after lunch my baby asked to
haunted outside.so i held him to the cult dragon supermarket.we picked goods
then waited his mother to arrive as she asked.i bought my baby some milk
candy against her opposing.then we went to the sports yard.i pushed my baby
sliding on the ice ground with feet,with his back,with his bottom,all tries let my
baby happily.a little boy about 4 or 5 years old can skate kept babbled with us
and refused my offer of a candy.he likely from a islamic family.then we sent his
mother to her school and his mother insisted standing along the way in
sunshine.we met some of her colleagues and most of them were friendly to
us.his mother insisted sending us back to home.then my baby was milked by
his mother and slept.so did his mother.and i dozed aside.after his mother left,i
wondered aside my baby.my baby woke up when i started to review the son of
my kid brother,who let my baby in his life on earth first time encountered cold
just after my kid brother’s family with my elder sister arrived,and my baby was
medically treated by his mother,at the time when i was trapped in the asylum
the third time in my life,and the second time in qiqihar.then i held my baby
playing with what he liked.later i sang a lot,just felt challenged and joyful in my
own.his mother returned home earlier than usual,just after a meeting as she
said.then she tutored a girl student.lunch was rich with a dish of fried fish and
a dish of pork with Garlic bolt,and a soup with tomato.we all enjoyed the
fish.after dinner my baby and his mother lingered quite some time in the room
the kid sister and her kid son now lived.my baby insisted played with notes of
the kid son but he refused.then my baby’s mother read the note as
homework.the air turned thick dirty so i left the room and meandered in the
waiting room.soon his mother left to see me and asked why i don’t leave.i
replied i want to see my baby slept.then my baby asked for my cares.in the
time i started to review fathership and parentship.his mother tried to milk him
and let him sleep,but my baby insisted to play.so i held him to play cooking
utilities and flavor powder.he slept when his mother secondly forcefully milked
him to sleep.i left after 8 pm and on the way felt freely to think in my way
toward my destiny.
in the dorm i wondered after 11 pm,tried some pda warez i just got.i slept
sound in the night but in the morning my sleep was unstable.i got up at 2:11
pm.then i was surrounded by nomen about my baby.i decided to get rid of it
and went to renew my borrowed magz.there is no new issues there,so i read
some new magz don’t lend.the woman librarian let my nose running.then i
passed the workers’ palace but left to dorm when my pda told me its near 4
pm.i headed to see my baby at once.on the way 2 taxi challenged me.my baby
was in her mother’s arms when i arrived.and his mother started to milk him
and want to let him sleep.then 2 girl students arrived.i held my baby eating
pine nuts,kidding the girl students,and sang.dinner was again rich with two
dishes.but i just before dinner started to operated on pc and when i finished it
the kid sister with her son finished their dinner.that’s my only meal today.after
dinner my baby again don’t want to sleep and insisted throw slippers onto the
head of the kid son of his mother’s aunt.the kid son didn’t show reservation
and thrown the shoes far away quite sometimes.when my baby slept with his
mother,i first stood then kneel then sat in front of his cradle to prevent
neighbor’s threats.i did felt the threat and fought against it for some
time.threats from the upper floor and lower floor ,whose own was in family
name of liu,an officer of city management bureau,with whom we dealt once for
my family’s tap water forgot to lock and leaking water spoilt onto his newly
furnished floor and we spent for the damage for 3000 rmb and more,in their
claim of favorite price.threats also came from the neighbor on the south
direction,who had challenged me for a long time before i fell into asylum third
time.the family likely a high rank of cadre,esp. secret cop.it monitored me for
quite some time,in very late night.it also hacked my pc for a long time.i later
some time before i left my baby’s mother’s home with only an underwear in
rain on the day i was sent to asylum found its evil.its doomed to death,on the
day we say.its a theft and a slaughter.its just an blocking stone on the way of
our raising,like god’s all training in front of us.my baby and his mother slept
very sound and snored.when the challenges from the room of the kid sister
woke my baby up,my baby kissed me when he was held to urine and returned
to bed and found me with his mother.his mother constantly demanded my
leaving,before she slept.my baby then asked my holding him to the room
where the kid sister slept and fetched a picture of the son of my kid brother.his
mother fetched him and tried to let him sleep with milk.i left when its 8:53 or
later.the kid son of the kid sister had been watching tv so far.
i wrote my blog in a nearby cafe near qrrs, but far than starsea.some dubious
men lingered around me.they r just barking upon me to try to coward me.god
knows who they r and where they will went.i won’t linger in cafe overnight
these days now that dog let my downloading problematically.
bye.i love u.near and far.i sometimes besieged by the sense of ur hostility
toward me,but i know that’s not real.dog tried all means to separate us but
they doomed to fail.i love u,like sunshine,like rain in spring field.kiss u with
beer.
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
bright sunny day yesterday,sunny today
last night dog bit heavily in the cafe very jammed and its front usb port was
disabled.however i got my sd card full.dog blocked my getting softimage from
the ftp server.it also tempered me getting another pdf reader,after i tried 3
copy of it all ill working.at dawn on the way to the dorm i felt glad.after
breakfast with which i ate an egg and some extra porridge at a price of 2 rmb,i
sorted downloadings on my sd card and immediately shifted some programs to
my pda,risking wireless hack nearby.i didn't doze at all and visited my baby at
once.my baby fetched me my slippers to reward my earlier visit and i held him
in arms without uncoated.later his mother told me he recently suffer choked
sleeps and worked sometimes in dreams in nights.the sunshine was quite
bright outside and on the wall indoor,like a spring sunshine.i sang a lot with my
baby on my shoulders.the kid son of the kid sister watched tv with volume
high.later i open the window on the balcony and sang loudly against the noise
produced by a working drill in the nearby factory,till my baby shift me about to
shut the window.we left to receive his mother after 11 am.i bought an ice
cream on the way.my baby insisted holding the stick of the ice cream
himself.his mother glad to see us.after lunch i started to sort and shift
downloadings to pc.the kid sister and her son chatted on the bed nearby and
sometimes my baby joined them with his mother.when his mother leaving i
halt my work and saw her leaving with my baby.in the afternoon,i again sang a
lot,in high spirit.i held my baby a shower,as i was told he didn't have bath since
suffering cold and when i urged his mother to bath him she refuted me several
times.my baby a little bit sleepy and felt anxious to water covering on his
head.i hugged him when he needed.the kid sister first kept watching,then
hurried to mop my baby's eyes with her towel while i thought its better to let
my baby see its safe with water covering head and face.after putting my baby
an suit of underwares i wrapped him in thick quilt and he soon slept.he slept
for more than an hour in my arms.i saw his nose was clean and his breath was
smooth.near 4 am he woke up and asked to see the grandma arrived for awhile
and busying in the lavatory.so i shifted my baby to his grandma and started to
copy my backup of my pda os including orneta reader mobile to my sd card
from my mobile hard disk,before we going out to receive his mother.just in a
few minutes i sensed dog controlled my pc via wireless gadget i didn't
recognized within my pc and infected my pc and my mobile disk.his mother
returned some minutes earlier,before we launched.she bought again a huge
orange and in high spirit.she let my baby hanged it to my front to let me praise
my baby and the orange.the dinner ready.my baby was let to urge me to eat
and he did well with his rabbles.i tried in hurry the reader mobile and found its
yet ill working,likely i had to endure its being handicapped for some time or
ditched it with alternative readers.dinner was mutton with vegetable.the
grandma or with her kid sister dirty me and let me in solitude.after dinner my
baby's mother asked me to leave with her for a short trip on the way to her
mother's home to fetch some books.so we headed.her mother left in advance.i
told her about the hacking of cop onto my surf and we departed near the cross
heading different directions.in the dorm i again felt doze among threats and
loathed to blog outside nearby.near 11 pm i turned clear mindedly and
wandered in room wondering the blond,jamie,about my longing for her,till 0
am.i then wondered my situation.i prepared to sleep when its 1:03 am.i slept
sound and in the morning the monitor of my once working place buzzed in,as
he did yesterday to my baby's mother's home just before i arrived there to
informed me visit the office.i admitted it but can't help sleeping till its alarmed
me again.so i put on and visit the office,where the monitor handed me 100
yuan as member of technocrat association of qrrs,and let me registered myself
as an applicant for aid of financial problem.the former was meanless,just a way
of chinese educated group to differenciated them from the labor workers to fool
themselves to contented,and as a way of bureaucrat to manage all strange
interest groups constrained themselves within financial interests.the monitor
had stamped instead of me,against my disagreement once i explained to him
when he asked for my stamp in his hand in my absence.the aid application also
a concoct,or even a plot of dog,without my permission in advance.i just did
what he suggested,registered my baby as my dependent applying for aid.i
needn't the aid and on the way i wondered if i can handed it to charity but i m
not sure if i bother the all process.i dozed in the dorm till 3 pm on bed.then i
listened radio and wandered in room till dinner time.dinner was my only meal
today, and i paid 4 rmb for extra food.then i rested on bed,waiting for cafe to
allow overnight service.i sensed hostility and spying around trying to
penetrating me.the host of a program titled ' college pioneer ' really
mediocre,but they can't be smarter and cuter in nowadays media for young
people.when its near 9 pm i walked about a mile to the newly open cafe where
i avoided last overnight.this time lcds were available and i picked one.dog bited
nearby heavily but later some near me left.but babbling gangsters lingered and
one of them approached my neighbor seat.
that's my two days.i will stayed here tonight,no matter beseiged with threats
and spies.i enjoyed working on my schema and the fresh dawn in sight after
several hours.
bye.i love u.in night and in bright.ur figure even dim in the view forehead.and i
don't know how u get along with ur task currently,like academy and job
perspective.kiss u with tear.i love u.like the surest star in dawn
sky,qimingxing(the star to tell dawn) in chinese,or Phosphor in western.kiss u
again.
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Monday, January 08, 2007
2007.1.7:snow overnight,bright sunny full day.today is a

pale day.
after returning to the dorm i tried to rest some time in the threats of dog
nearby.after 11 am i launched to see my baby.the grandma and the kid sister
there with my baby walking at the waiting room.the lunch including a large
fish,and i drank beer with it the grandma open to add flavor to cook fish.i also
let my baby tasted some and the rest was taken by his mother not to let me
fed my baby with it.soon she felt faint with its alcohol.she had to attending her
school for its students now taking term exams in weekends.i commented china
now use illegally the children labor of students overtimely.after lunch i busied
awhile to sort my downloaded to pc and my baby hampered me.the old sisters
left to shower,so i gave up pc and cared my baby.my baby slept in my songs
and slept for more than an hour,which was overstated by the kid sister.after
my baby woke up after 3:30 pm i felt very sleepy,likely threatened heavily,just
before the sisters arrived.then the kid sister prepared my showering
tools,including the mop and teeth brushed and towel she used.i ditched teeth
brush and the mop,just picked the soup,shampoo and towel.i bought a mop at
the common bathroom,costing 2 yuan.the bathroom increased its price to 3.5
yuan now.just when i uncoated myself,a doggie was let into the room and sniff
around me.i strode to drive it away and know its a plot of dog.when i started
shower,the dog of the nearby independent large house of former high rank ccp
carder of the railway station barked for sometimes.after returned home i held
my baby went out to receive his mother.we ate a ice cream,suggested by the
grocer in response of shortage of what my baby asked type.its milk with dry
grape in.my baby didn’t eat the grape each time he met.his mother almost
miss us and we called her back.at dinner i drank wine and let my baby tasted
it.after dinner threatens around let my baby irregular and his mother tried to
attracked him with multimedia for baby,but he just bump onto the lcd of the
notebook,and let his mother cluelessly.i watched aside and doubting if i should
left to alleviate the ill wills cast by dog around in the residential building.his
mother finally let me leave,and my baby farewell to me,likely not so
welcome.when i arrived the dorm,its a quarter to 9 pm.and i felt so sleepy and
i finally didn’t went to cafe to blog.its likely my first time missing a day without
blogging it after my adopted my current life style.i turned agile near 0 am and
wondered till about 0:47 am and then went to bed directly,with pills taken. i
dreamed a lot.in a scene i beset in a daguanyuan (titled after
hongloumeng,chinese classic literature)(garden of marvellous views) built by
corean.i woke up after 12 am and got up after 2 pm.i wandered awhile in the
room then went to renew my borrowed pc mag but the libray was locked so i
moved to the workers’ palace.i read some magzines there and a
newspaper,’world reference digest(cankaoxiaoxi)’.there r some reports about
china’s out-extended activities among africa,to laundry its bubble money.when
challenges turned thick with more dogs beseated around me,i finished my
reading and haunted the beijing opera lounge.this time less women and man
distorted.three old man sang,in the role of fortitude and lonely and enduring
heros.the final likely sang in the role of emperor himself.in a moment i felt
chinese tradition of history oriented and felt trust onto it,including common
people’s witness all seasons as parts of history in the form of opera and folk
story.after returned to dorm,i jogged in the yard with fresh snow for about an
hour.a girl leaving with baggage and i followed her outside of the gate and felt
she was blessed with her hometown,while i had idled for more than 15 years
without my hometown.esp.after my grandpa’s leaving i was deserted on this
earth.dinner i asked for additional food.that’s my only expense of 4 yuan today
on board.in the dorm i just waited for time for cafe overnight.neighbor room
started to introduce female.when i arrived the cafe i recently haunted a crowd
jammed on the reception desk.i waited for some time.when i peer around and
found its lcd was all occupied with 2 near the reception desk was declared
booked i shifted to a nearby cafe.its space was highly utilized,very jammed.its
front usb port was diabled but i tried the back usb port which working.but my
ftp account can’t connected with the servers.so far i busy with blogging,and
don’t know how to kill time without warez stuff to play around. bye.i love u.in
the afternoon and night i heard lots of songs of goodbye to love.but i insisted
getting u,i needn’t a love without u exactly being aside me in my life.i need ur
hands in my hands.today is the memory day for the leaving of zhouenlai,the
former premier of prc.and the sky was decorated with some clouds and blunt
sun.and i know its a merciless day under dog’s threat. kiss u with tear and
beer.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
after first real snow in this winter,smart sunshine all day
last night i posted for more than an hours and charged for 2 yuan.my backup
uploaded to my google group at http://groups-beta.google.com/group/
benzyrnill succeeded after the last minutes in this cafe now i will spent my third
overnight in it tonight with its enviable 19 wide screen lcd,but what i
downloaded from the backup files on google all different in size of the original
and can’t be unpacked,2 times from different cafes,likely dog broke in my
download byte flow.now i registered myself an domestic web disk service
provider and my upload now speedy.i also published 2 home movie of my baby
today on the skate ground in first real serious snow in this winter and some
pictures of my baby onto youtube.com and picasaweb of google.that’s
satisfying.
last night i went to bed earlier,after 10 pm.i slept sound and missed urgent in
love emotion.i got up at 0:11 am and went to see my baby at once.they had
already finished their lunch and my baby insisted my holding him for some time
before his mother accept him to let me eat my lunch.after lunch we played the
cotton pots,his mother’s once students’ presents,as my baby’s pastime.he also
tried to play with knife but later the kid sister took it away.the kid sister laid
herself on bed reading.when we felt boring we went to outside.on the skate
place in the sports yard,i first laid my baby on the ice ground and started to
take out the camera but my baby cried miserablely.so i let him play,push him
skating on the ice with his feet projecting forward.he enjoyed silently,and
sincerely watched the people aound skating.i later shot some pictures and
movies.his mother loathed to shot picture outside recently,refuted me
sometimes,including my suggestion at noon.dog aound let me tired when i pust
my baby half coutched,but i tried to arrived the other end of the yard and sat
on a bench among 2 little girls.we then moved to the south garden.my baby
asked for food but the grocer absent.my baby kept solemn all time outside.on
the way returning home he asked for icecream.we ated it at once.and he
urgent to return,and later i know he was urgent to make water or chill hurt his
hands without gloves.after arrived home and finished the ice cream i went to
urine with him,he made a abount water after me.and his hands and feet really
cold.he enjoyed my holding him out and i love him so.when time near to
receive his mother,he disliked to leave so we stayed.the kid son of the kid
sister arrived and teased my baby to laugh a lot.when dishes ready,he asked
me to feed him with potato and carrot slice.then the mother and the kid son
also started to eat.then his mother returned.i explained his son first asked to
eat dinner.she cared my baby to eat till my baby didn’t eat.i drank wine.after
dinner she told me cafes nowadays insecure,there were incidence of criminal in
cafes,including murders.after dinner i started to sort my downloads on the sd
card on her notebook and the neighbor monitored me via wireless.my baby was
milked and soon slept.so did his mother.i left after finished my work swiftily.i
kissed my baby and his mother with sorrow for the challenges around i
brought.the dorm room,challenges let me doze.till 8:55 pm i agile and decided
to surf the net.on the way i decided to spent overnight in the cafe about 1 mile
apart from the dorm zone.in the cafe i was asked to change computer 2
times.so far,i enjoyed my surfing.
bye.i love u.in this pure white world,i recently even eagerer to females,i don’t
know which road
leading to u,i just skating in my fate to my destiny.kiss u with fear.i in fact
sensed the snow last night.god knows the distance between us.i love u.kiss u
again.
Son in first real snow in his first

winter on earth
foggy sunshine all day
last night i felt enjoyable even i didn’t get workable orneta reader mobile and
dog modified files on my udisk at the last moment i unpluged it.my 1g sd card
was stuffed,which let me felt reaped.i ate breakfast with plaisure.at room dog
bited heavily and i can only shallowly dozed.when its after 11 am i felt restore
energy but i didn’t get up.when qrrsers returned to dorm i was bited heavily to
doze again.i got up after 1 pm and went to renew my borrowed pc magzine.but
he library was locked.so i went to read newspaper.a man ahead of me went to
return book,so i avoid him and went to neighbor room to listen beijing
opera.the singers were doing their best and i got understand different roles in
chinese traditional social relation pattern.when a man sang in the role of
female,i stayed there after he finished then left to newspaper room.a young
dog with very short hairs sat in front of me biting.the librarains babbled.i
enjoyed news about the changes internet brought to the world.after finished
reading i again haunted the opera practise.just after a middle aged woman
finished singing a man again sang in female role.i know some person distorted
in soul don’t fear death,they just want to be gay and enjoyed to be
gay.returning to the dorm i felt a bit relief about gay and lesbain.maybe
american people right,just let the distorted persons to be distorted,let them
be.they r dead,and they glad to fight with livings if condemned.so better way
just let them to death.
at dinner i asked for additional amount,with adding 1 yuan as payment.a cop in
uniform there already eating.
its a sad and resting day.i wondered a lot about my baby after gay push its
way into my consideration.
bye.i love u.in misery.kiss u with beer.
bright sunny day again
its really laughable,cop desperately retarded my getting oneta reader mobile

for ppc 2003.it modified my pda os backup and let the reader can’t go to a
page more than 40 or more pages and forced me to jumped over 10 or 20
pages times after times to arrive the location of ebook i last read.it ridiculed
me but also shown the dog system had ridiculed to what a redicule level.they
fool people in the way fooling its dog.
its second time over night in the newly open cafe,with which last time ruin my
posting in the mid.the state spent money on this kind of rubbishs,these dogs to
burn the deposit of chinese.i had alternative reader but i liked to equipped my
pda with two.dog doomed to fail,times and times again.the harness they adopt
doomed to break and loose.china and the world waiting a long time to see its
ruin so far,till the day i cover them with earth on this futile land over exploited
by dog and its dog-head host.i vow to kill them on the day.
last night i posted in a cafe where i can open my googlepages.com and
succeeded upload one part of the rar series of my firefox backup.i find some
download links within www.pxdxa.com which was blocked for quite some time
while recently free of block for me and they edit the files on the fly online and
on my harddisk.with a moment after i got it,or even at the time it sat on my
harddisk,the cab file was modified and ill working while other files within the
available downloadable pack working.dog right near aroud biting me,turning
heavily when i started to backup and retrive links to download orneta reader
mobile.they monitored me everywhere,just kept barking.they modified my post
on the fly when i typing and copying and pasting.shit,god know who will win in
the smart world equipped with software and democratic internet.they boast
their harness just like last play of pests before the autumn.not only they lose in
the smart soft,but they also lose in the social network.they doomed slept with
legacy warez under earth,just like as being dog doomed to extingush in the
tomorrow world.
last night i wondered in the dorm after 2 am.i got up today at 11:54 am.when i
arrived the lunch didn’t finish.after lunch i started to move downloaded stuff to
my pc.my baby was milked but when i finished works and went to see him in
bedroom he got agile and i cared him playing since then.he played awhile tap
water then cooking tools.then the grandma arrived.the kid sister had being
slept in the room,left to shop now.the grandma started to tidy the house and
manage the stored vegetable.after the kid sister returned my baby was bored
into sleep.he slept for about an hour.the kid sister kept watching,they just want
to see my baby had problem with sleep and humiliate him like humilated me in
my 30’s.just after 4:38 pm i shoke my baby up from low sleep and went out to
receive his mother,against the sisters warns and sidewatch.when we bought ice
cream his mother missed us and returned home.we stayed in the yard for his
mother and left when a colleague of his mother informed us.his mother
returned and got angery with us when met us and left alone to home.my
baby,however,enjoyed the ice cream very much.dinner was again dumplines.i
drank wine and beer.his mother also resumed to normal mood.after dinner i
continued my work of customizing firefox settings after updated it to newest
edition.the kid son of the kid sister returned and soon shifted to balcony to
show their sepreation with me while i working in the room they now
occupied.my baby haunted me sometimes but was held aside by his mother
and his mother gradually felt hard to deal with my baby’s need to bump and
crack to shift the evil will around him.i finished my work duely and tried to
pacify his mother.we then ate the remnant of the huge orange and we
including our baby enjoyed it.then my baby let me push him riding his bike
with which he still too little to operate the paddle.for i worried my bike outside
of the building on the ground i left in advance after 8 pm.my baby and his
mother all calmed down and farewalled to me gladly.
that’s my nice day.in the dawn i dreamed of liushuyun,my nankai unv.alumni

and my one year’s college girlfriend,called our alumni to visit a professor,who
had 3 dogs,2 big and a small.she bribed the teacher.she was enrolled by state
security bureau after graduate and trickily turned her name in alumni of
www.chinaren.com into blank in display while the placeholder visible.i just
wondering why she not hide her name totally,not to boast chinese secret cop’s
super power penetrating popular webhost among common people.
bye.i enjoyed the wide screen lcd so far in the night.i had nothing to worry
about.read or not read on my pda not a question of being.dog doomed to play
with its own shadow in the wind.for the summer and for the winter,they danced
in their hell day to come.
i love u.with feeling in steering light bolt.kiss u with tear.

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bright day
last night i finished update my firefox portable to newest version and also tried
ftp client portable.i was charged 5 yuan a night.returned to dorm i ate my
breakfast which fresh for hungery stomache.the rest of morning spent on bed
dozing but can’t sleep.after lunch i wandered around the area outside of
qrrs,esp.its eastern part directly connected to suburb.along the road
mushroomed many small vendors,likely those lost their flat house to qrrsers’
residential zone and had to find a new living.then i wandered about an hour in
the sunshine in the tree yard of the dorm area.the benches all rid,banished any
open social contact method,like we saw in the summer u practised here.that’s
machinery thinking,for their only interest.i met a beautiful young girl with her
friend lingered in the road.the rest of the afternoon spent on bed,most time
immersed in love emotion.after dinner i intended to surf but on the way a little
boy playing cracks and let me felt sorry for my baby,so i headed to see
him.there his mother’s kid sister again lean on the bed.she is in fact a
prostitude,her most liked poise was laid herself on bed or sofa,like a sex
animal.my baby was forced to try to lean against her and she just dirty willed
every day.and when my baby crawled across her body she can’t help but open
her cell phone.she is really evil and enjoyed being evil.she glad to show in front
of us attracting my baby.my baby’s mother would rather stayed in waiting
room,and i also soon left to operate the notebook in our bedroom to avoid her
nasty show.the grandma and her kid sister watched aside,but the grandma
soon left,likely can’t hold.the prostitude later left and proudly declared she
would visit tomorrow.she felt she gained,but god know what won and continued
to win.i never worry about my baby’s ability.when all challenges within the
home settled,neighbors challenges let my baby bumped and made a lot of
cracks,let his mother’s nerves almost broken.my baby felt a lot of joyes to
strike the ears spying around in the residential building.when he tried he was
milked and slept.i left in dark.his mother angery with me and slept on
bed,don’t talk to me.but after i left she called me back and handed me a clean
bedsheet as planned to replace the current one,and offer me 2 apples when i
asked.
we r under stern challenge now.my baby especially threatened.but god’s shine
forever cast on our soul and body.we doomed to brace the brighter and
brighter future.
bye.i love u.i today sometimes felt ur hostility.kiss u with freer.
special bright sunny day
dog ruined my works after 2 am at which i had worked on for 5 hours.there is

no way to avoid its nasty.
last night posted here a newly open cafe successfully with 3 yuan for 2
hours.after returning to the dorm i was trentched by temptations and fought
with it.rotten rat rabbled lately and first time ingnored my sleep and chatting
lasted for about 2 hours after i went to bed.i went to bed after 0 am and got up
at 11:14 am.my grand father appeared awhile in my dream.when i arrived,the
kid sister first time shown in proper mood.i kissed my baby’s leg.soon his
mother arrived.lunch was rich and she told me yesterday they prepared lots of
delicious foods and some of them missed me.after lunch she went to
shower.the kid sister slept in the room locked.the neighbors constantly probing
my relation with my baby,my god,they tried to seperate my baby from me.my
baby then started to play with scattering rice onto the floor,just echoed my
grand father’s ask in my prevous dream.when his mother returned and catch
sight of the mess she got angery and demanded my leave or cleaning the
floor.i didn’t acted upon,but started to sort files on my udisk and sd card.when
my baby and his mother woke up from bedroom,i started to clean the floor with
air cleanner.then i emptied the stuffed cleaner and let his mother happy.then
the grandma arrived and started to wash.the kid son of the kid sister also
returned and cooked with his mother.later we ate dinner,including a soup.we
drank wine.i felt in mood to share and turned talkative with them.my baby
finished his dinner first then the kid son.we couples and the old sisters chatted
on the table on balcony.then i visited my baby and found he was fed by the kid
son peacefully.i stayed awhile and let the kid son unease and laid himself to
bed.my baby later played with standing onto lofty stacked mats and stepped
down and found lots of joyes.his mother or the grandma bought me a new
thick trousers and i praised it.we all enjoyed a huge orange his mother
bought.my baby ate quite some.after returned to the dorm,i felt again
temptations.i reviewed my love for the girl fang(square) when i there in nankai
unv. preparing my entrance exam for master degree candidate.i don’t know if
she got married or kept single,had a child or not.i had reiterate the process of
my broken heart with love for her and the process of my can’t live with her
after returning to my hometown and finally got sleeplessly and refused to trust
anyone and being forced to be treated in asylum.in my view,each time i got
mad was in fact i died in heart and can’t live with the routine life and still can
live with losing all the settings i beset,to escape for freedom.i also told my
story with qrrs,my once working place in the process of my second falling into
asylum.dog clearly knew why they ruin my blogging in the mid.
i even more assured i m near my kingdom to reclaim and to recover.temptation
never can hide the reality that the highly enjoyed now threatening me,and my
threat to they,who had judged others’ lives so far so scar,for they r not the
judge,but the object of judge.
dog in this new cafe allowed me accessed more warez stuff within domestic ftp
sites,while foraign sites heavily blocked or retarded.they allowed my uploading
a clip shot today of my baby with his parents but defied other 2.its liked a
bargain but it didn’t start from tonight.temptation was one of its harness.
bye.i love u.in sunshine,in this overnight,in the bright moon light these
night.kiss u with beer.
my baby today.
Posted by benzrad at 3:10 AM 0 comments Links to this
sunny day till dark
posting to my blogs costed me 2 hours and more in the cafe at noon,till after
12 am.dog blocked my uploading to google and forced me haunted far to find a
cafe in their casual absence to upload.so far i uploaded my user data to my
yahoo account.but youtube.com still blocked.returned to the dorm i had to eat
lunch at the nearby pub,costing me 7 yuan for 2 fishes.in the room i rest
myself on bed and started to tired a pdf reader just got from the web on my
pda.then dog nearby via wireless hacked my pda heavily.i tried several ways
including registry editing and reinstallation but all in vain.they likely modified
the installation cab on my sd card within a day.after i started to customize my
pda’s connection setting in the aim to falsified it flocks of qrrser in the dorm
launched to leave.i waited on bed till dinner time.i ate dinner in the canteen
with a bottle of beer.then i walked a mile to a new cafe to upload.now dog
blocked groups-beta.google.com not to let me upload while groups.google.com
accessible previously.they just lost all their means and basic politeness to guise
their ugly appearance.on the way a minicar of cop blocked my way and i
spitted to it and cursed.in the cafe a cop in uniform sat right near the
entrance.shits,what a laugh.they want to know their presence but also know
nothing can change me,change my cling to my kingdom and my god.nothing
can change the rule of heaven.what they can do,beside this?they just marched
like a shadow gay around me and they did shadow me sometimes.that’s all the
Sun witness on my march toward my brilliant future,my unity with u in near
timespace.
i likely got what i needed.bye.i love u.kiss u with beer and fear.
bright sunny morning
last night the cafe charged me 5 yuan after i surfed 2 hours exactly according
my record,but the clerkwoman of the cafe claimed i surfed 2 hours and 5
minutes.i didn’t nothing but post.posting via post2blog or addons of firefox
problematic,while quite sometimes succeeded without any problem.the only
problem likely the dog captured my posting data package and modified it
before it was sent to the world web.most of my google service blocked,esp.
googlepages,and gmail where i can upload my files.youtube.com and
bloglines.com blocked to death,never displayed a single line after times
refresh.dog just need a play before its death.after returned to the dorm i
wondered till 0:30 then read ’terrorism between vietnam war and 9.11’,an
ebook i got several days ago from ftp stuff,till 1:20 am. i dreamed a lot.first
lots of concernings about the health and safety of my baby son.then on the
open yard of my hometown village near its entrance i met my second elder
sister who arrived to let me know she want to let my baby join a tv baby show
or make a solo show of my baby.i strongly opposed it for its would bother my
baby.but she left to persuade my baby’s mother.then on the cross of the
residential area of my baby’s mother’s home and the railway station,where
nearby there is a islamic restaurant farer and a supermarket titled
’kanglefu(healthy marry and wellbeing)’ nearer on the northeast district the
cross divided,and where there is a bike repairer whose owner is a thin middle
aged man,and on its farest end of its northwest district of the cross divided sits
the ’junzhengzhaodaisuo(hotel of army politics)’ where i with my baby and his
mother ate once in the summer,i holding a little fish in my palms and tried not
to spilt it onto the ground.but it did slipped from my hands to the
ground,where a team of building gathered and spoke.the officer asked me
about my house but i didn’t reply and walked toward the main street to the
center of the city.then i laid myself on bed in a house just on the northwest
district where the hotel of army politics sat,and my baby’s mother entered with
a woman,i let her near me to tell her my dream but she just want to let my
baby show public.the woman followed her likely busy aside to boast a real
estate.so i lost my temper and started to chase to beat her,my baby’s
mother,like each time she stupidly opposed me and after beat she just lived
well with what i ruled.then a crowd of workers marched on the street on the
east to west direction of the cross,and i found i sat on a lofty tables stack
against the wall of the supermarket of ’kanglefu’ and tried to eat some pickles
from a jar aside.the chairman of the workers’ association talked to me.then i
searched all rooms for my parents in the old house when its still new in my
hometown and only found my grand father weak on the bed of the room where
first occupied by our newly married second elder brother’s couples,then where
me and my kid brother grown up in the room,i found my grand father almost
faint in the quilt and cried.but he ruthly demanded me offer him 1.5 kg rice,or
3 jin in chinese unit,if i can’t find it right hand i can borrow from the wife of
eldest brother of him,or of his second elder brother’s eldest son,or of my eldest
brother’s.i cried loudly and asked why he suffered starves so long even i remit
to my hometown with 1000 yuan or more and my mother told me that’s
enough,but he told me that’s not enough.so i hurried to borrow rice from the
wife of the eldest son of the second elder brother of my father,her facial
express was dubious but she offer a cup with countable rice particles in water.i
intended to leave but i asked her why 3 jin rice results so few rice,she replied
the rice her family cooking was not ready.that likely all i can remember about
the dream in dawn.its my first time crying in dream in front of my grand
father.when i open my eyes i found its 9:45 am.i put on and headed here to log
it.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
ordinary sunny day
ordinary sunny day.these days dog energetic to show their

utilities.www.youtube.com,previously seldom blocked,these days also banned
my access.my backup of blogging tool and firefox portable on google error-
prone after downloaded.dog now even modified my working on my desktop at
the same time i working with.the ftp addons within firefox lost its configuration
just after i finished setting passwords for my ftp accounts.their play just evil as
they sensed it.
last night i spent 3 hour in the cafe far than starsee cafe,heavily hacked,just to
finished posting to my blogs.i left there after 0:30 am and still a man waited on
the way near the dorm talking with his cell phone.the neighbors of my room all
turned off light this time,for i turned off light before i left there after 10 pm and
intending spent overnight in cafe.before went to cafe i also read awhile an
ebook about intelligence work in vietnam and 9.11.the night before yesterday
also wasted 2 hours additionally to post being hacked heavily in the cafe i with
a member card.dog just need some taste to its blood and corpse.
last night i went to bed after 1 am and till 1 pm i woke up and got up after 2
pm.i dreamed luyongxiang,the former dean of china academy
association,visited qiqihar as the vice president of china,to collect survey and
criticism on government works.i also dreamed witnessing a consulting
company’s operation process.after getting up,i washed my bedthrob and went
to computer market to buy a sd card for my baby’s mother’s camera as
planned.i haunted the workshop i dealt with for quite sometimes but the
clerkwoman seemingly unhappily with me.after returned to my baby’s mother’s
home i also found newly pasted vendor token half ripped and can’t identify the
date it sell to me,so its 5 years warranty will had problem to satisfied.its speed
claimed 60x,when i tried on the pc within the workshop,coping 125 MB files
costed 4 or 5 minutes and copy a single file of 940MB costed 8 minutes at
home computer.it casted me 115 yuan.i really doubting if i should buy another
sd card for myself for download.
my baby’s mother glad to see the new sd card.her kid sister again there
watching movie on her notebook wrapped herself in the quilt.i really disgusting
her.and my baby slept on bed,likely threatened by the evil kid sister of his
mother.in a moment i strongly felt my disappointment to my baby’s mother for
her being as lazy and mediocre as her kid sister or her family.she never knew
how to make good use of her notebook or computer,except watching movie
and find courseware for her teaching demonstration.chinese education doomed
to lose,and the teachers doomed to meanless.
my baby’s mother again sneered my delaying there for dinner.and she
prepared my baby to shop with her mother and her kid sister.she complained
my baby suffering cold now,and asscrible that to my holding my baby outside
without enough clothes.but i know its just the evil and cold the nasty her kid
sister brought.after they left,i busy with customized settings for blog tool and
firefox settings.and till 6 pm i left to dorm and ate dinner at the pub i seldom
visited.its boss was a middle aged man from hunan prov. neighbor prov. to my
hometown.thats the only meal i had today.then i visited the cafe i enjoyed
surfing without serious hacking in the 2 overnight and got know it charged 7
yuan for overnight as usual,even on its reception desk there is a notice saying
the cop demanded increase its fee to 10 yuan an overnight in weekends,and 2
yuan for an hour in weekends.then i returned to dorm to rest,to ready for
overnight surfing.
bye.i love u,in near and far.i just can’t see the direction u working.holiday
near,and i don’t know if u care my loneliness.kiss u with tear.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
perfect sunny day
last night i went to bed after 0:17 am.i dreamed a lot but after my baby’s
mother buzzed in inquiring my password for my salary book from icbc i forgot
them totally.the salary book with icbc again lost its magnetism,likely another
plot of dog to hide their evil.i got up at 12:29 and headed to see my baby at
once.outside of the entrance of the home i met his mother leaving,telling me
she had carried my baby visiting the bank once and the password i told her
miss working.she returned to home with me and left again after i told her right
password.my baby welcomed me.i ate some banana with him and he played
some time with tap water and torch.the kid sister slept in the room for my
baby.after the grandma arrived i left to shower in the common bathroom.a
piece of paper pasted on the door of the bathroom saying the association of
bathroom of the city demand bath price increased to 4 yuan per man.but i was
charged 2.5 yuan as usual.returned home i soon held my baby to haunt outside
to buy him candy as i promised.my baby directed me passed the sports yard
where we stayed awhile and talked to 3 little girls who rested on the rim of the
ice ground.then we headed to the supermarket nearby,likely a affiliate of
islamics and hostile toward us before.on the way my baby asked me to buy him
a stick of sugar gourd and enjoyed it at once.he also played awhile on the
sliding board within the residential area.i bought him 3 kind of candy costing
me near 20 yuan,knowing i will gain 700 yuan from qrrs,my once working
place.then we returned.my baby enjoyed the candy and jelly very much at
home.soon his mother returned and condemned candy harmful to his teeth.the
grandma prepared dinner and her second daughter buzzed in and she left.the
kid sister complained a lot about her medcines and let my baby’s mother to
read the readme of the bottles.under my urge,they started to dinner.2
dishes,including a soup which i liked.my baby’s mother made a lot of demand
to let me leave but i didn’t.she also read the bonus dispatching sheet from her
colleague and at a lose finding some of my once workmates earned 5000 yuan
this time and sneered at me.when we started to watch tv on 2006 review the
kid son of the kid sister returned and watched aside me and challenged.my
baby laughed a lot with playing with standing on the lofty mat and stepped
down.i really love him.when his mother started to scorn me again,he was
milked to sleep.i waited till he slept.
its a nice day.the sun perfectly bright.the sky is blue.the moon appeared before
it turns dark,in the mid sky,faultlessly.my baby pointed to her quite sometimes
on the way to the supermarket.i love her the moon.
bye.i love u.in peace and still.kiss u with bear.
Friday, December 29, 2006
bright sunny day
this morning i ate my breakfast after surfed overnight.i tried to doze on bed
but challenge around let me awake.till 11:13 am i got up.after lunch i jogged in
the sunshine in the yard for some time till dog let me felt cold.when i turned on
my radio rotten rat in neighbor room stroke the wall to let me notice them ,as
they kept on doing so to boast their ugliness.later i went to renew my borrowed
pc magzines.i read some time there on the magzines not to lend.then i read
newspaper in the workers’ palace.a lot of digests committed to brag china’s
improved influence onto the world,to satisfy the trapped head of china in the
problematic situation within china and to avoid right evaluation.china nowadays
really a paper tiger.its dependence onto us and western world far less
recognized.and if us stopped to grow,china will suffer serious backslash.
in the dorm after returning i read the mag i borrowed.rat busy with challenging
me.they sometimes babble,sometime silenced and stick out their ears to
spy.they plotted to fish in my overnight surfing and want to ruin my
sleep.that’s all laugh in god’s view.
bye.i likely will enjoyed warez stuff again,now that my firefox equipped with ftp
function.i love u.kiss u with bear.
bright sunny day
its my third night surfing all night in the cafe.the cafe was my secondly visited
overnight.so far i was lightly hacked,i mean i likely did what i scheduled
without serious problem,including a reboot.i backup my firefox with addons i
needed and got some stuff from my old pastime warez forum.its sultry here,
but i felt placated without dog's pesting.
last night i spent 2 more hours in cafe to blog and tried to backup my working
environment.i stayed late in the dorm after 0:40 am,just wondering.in the
dawn my baby's mother buzzed in and let me go over to care my baby for the
kid sister need again to see the doctor.i don't felt sleepy so i headed on.there
my baby just welcomed me from the lavatory.after the kid sister left,i gradually
felt very sleepy.my baby slept around 10 am and slept for about 40 minutes,at
the same time i still can kept awake,holding him in arms to wander.when his
mother returned i didn't eat lunch but slept on bed.when his mother left my
baby cried for my care and refused the kid sister's care.so i got up and cared
him but still sleepy.my baby soon bored and asked to haunted outside of the
door.so i brought him to the corridor but he demanded to downstairs several
floors then i lost temper and beat his button and he cried.later he slept and the
kid sister suggested to lay him on the bed and i did.i slept aside him.i worried
him to wake up in the dream frequently.but he finally woke up when i shift my
head from the pillar less to bother him.so i got up to care him.soon the
grandma arrived and she let me continue to sleep and i did.i woke up later than
4 pm and stayed on bed wondering how to operate in cafe tonight.lately the kid
sister cooked.i at that time busy with sorting my firefox with addons on the
notebook and my baby approached me and bumped on the keyboard and let
his mother can't afford.i ate 3 bowl of rice at dinner.the kid sister likely first
time recently cooked 2 hot dishes even including a hot soup,which very
satisfied me.after dinner i put on my feather coat,replaced the suits i worn so
far.i also put on wool trousers. l left after kissed my baby and let him kissed
me.i love him so much.in the dorm i laid myself on bed waiting for time to
spent overnight in cafe.the room i lived was likely just seperated with neighbor
with thin paper wall,any sound can be clearly heard by those on the other side
of the wall.its just a plot.the day i returned to the dorm the administrator
insisted my living the room,without any alternative offer.its previously a
canteen.and the canteen also a product of change of usage.its original wall
should be as thick as others,likely all old style thick concrete wall under the
influence of the former soviet.when i lived here the left side neighbor room
near the entrance of the dorm was empty,occupied by tools and materials,then
the hooligans lived there. they not only hooligans as a common phenomeno all
over the organization of qrrs, but had complicate background to exert dirty and
spy onto me.the two buildings facing the dorm zone all 8 floors while other
buildings parallel to them all shorter,the obvious ill will was to conquer the
graduates ,quite some not of local offspring but the prc's citizen,with the local
hooligans here rampant.its gate of the dorm zone was also a huge block,all
refurnished as a pack with the dorm zone and its other efforts like memory hall
to boast locals' contribution to today's qrrs but in fact all product of central
planning system of soviet pattern, that's a miniature of northeast china in
today china tried to bargain with south and other parts of china and its gov. to
save its bankrupt,to show qrrs' dominating.i long time regarded its a dead
place fading to obscure.
bye.i love u,like sheer light.kiss u with bear.
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
a pecular sunny cold day
now i spent more than an hour in the cafe farer than starsea.god blocked
firefox from access its addons website.but with ie i later download some addons
i needed.some recent posts in my blogs missing,esp. the day i drove 4 or 5
miles to find a cafe to wrote my blog and set my blog clients but almost in
vain.these days really in a mess,being hunted by dog.this morning i arrived my
baby's mother's home before 8 am.the kid sister soon left to see doctors.my
baby asked to play tapwater and spoilt some water on the floor and let me
angery with him.he really now in a struggle against evils around him.in the mid
pains just under my chest very serious but my baby let it disappeared after
some time.i love my baby,and worshiped him,but today dog let me review my
stance.he was said didn't slept in daytime for 2 days.but today he slept about
half of an hour in the morning and so did in the afternoon.at lunch i felt lack of
energy but his mother in high spirit.at noon i dozed awhile on the bed with my
baby's quilt covered me.i started to care my baby after his mother left.the kid
sister slept and in the afternoon left to see doctor again with the grandma.we
had a good time in the afternoon.when the old sisters returned,we started to
receive his mother.we entered the school yard but my baby let me stayed near
the watch dog's outpost for sometime,less the watch dog sneered us.we played
with some children of the teachers.a middle aged woman kept talking with her
cell phone nearby and let my baby unconfortable.my baby directed me left the
door in advance but his mother soon caught us from back.my baby asked for a
stick of sugar gourd,but his mother want to refute.my baby cried for it and he
won.lunch was not ready when we arrived home.his mother shown her best
hospitality to the kid sister,with her mother.so i left and had my dinner at dorm
canteen.
dog now desperate for a show of their power.i don't know how problematic my
blog publish got involved,but i will stay.
bye.today its quite bright sunshine,even very cold.the moon appeared early
and caused my baby pointed to it when we went outside to receive his
mother.snow nearby.i hope a cleaner world in vision.
i love u.kiss u with bear.
pale day.
tonight i spent worthilessly in the cafe titled starsea, which doomed to lost its
shape in near.i was hacked heavily and failed doing anything except uploading
a movie clip of my baby in his second summer on earth.i previously intended to
work in the cafe i first time surf overnight but it locke its door before i arrived
there around 12 pm.its totally rubbished now.customers countable.its lcd and
usb port just wasted.it charged 5 yuan a night.its totally failure of dog put its
fingers into service.
last noon after i posted in the cafe i bought a member card,i went to renew my
borrowed pc magzines.new issues rare and when i found a new one i was told
its belong to a department and can't lend out.so i read there.a middle aged and
a young man haunted there and dog let me buttock painful in the rest of the
day.after reading mags in the dorm after 4 pm,i launched to see my baby.i
bought him 2 hanborgers from kfc on the way at a price of 15 yuan with a
coupon,but my baby ate less even its the warmest one among what i bought
for him.my baby late asked to drink gaoluogao,in a large jar for quite some
time since the old woman's arrival.i guessed its hard to comsume to let my
baby frustrate,so he just spoon the powder from it and scattered in the cup and
the floor.the air was tightened and i lost my temper and scorned my baby and
he started to cry.then the kid sister praised my scorning onto my baby aside.i
immediatley held my baby on my shoulders and he stopped to cry.after his
mother returned we enjoyed the hanborger and left one for the kid son of the
kid sister.the kid son later returned after his night class and enjoyed the kfc
food.we couples played with our baby in our bedroom and let him laughed
really a lot.when his mother stopped my throwing my baby onto the mat of
pillar and quilt,he started to bumped around and haunted the room the kid
sister and her son lived.when he scattered a stack of burned cds onto the
floor,his mother can't sit aside and forcily held my baby returning to bedroom
and milked him.my baby soon slept,in animosity.and i left to the dorm.in the
dorm i went to bed after 1:30 am.i woke up after 1 pm and got up at 3:44
pm.then i visited my once working place for the monitor buzzed me about 8 am
to inform me to hand in fee as a labor association member.there the only
female colleagure talked with me about the bonus and increase of salary.she
let me see the document of bonus disperse sheet and i caught sight of my
share of about 700 yuan.after dinnre i wondered awhile in the dorm doubting
what i should do in night cafe.then my baby's mother buzzed in and let me go
over to care my baby earlier tomorrow for the kid sister had to see doctor for
her pains in stomack in tomorrow morning.i admitted and told her about the
bonus as she was told by her colleagues whose relatives worked in qrrs,my
once working place,and urged me to inquire about it for some times.then on
bed i listening readio.dog neaby challenged heavily and i felt dozy.i reviewed
my hometown and her changes since my growth there.a lot of water and
stream disappeared now,likely a common phenomeno globally.
this morning i dreamed a lot.i remember in a scene i with my wife carried a
long fishing shaft passing a narrow corner gate around a lake and had
problem.then her mother catched us.then i saw a army officer let his men with
forklifter move pacels of beers onto the roof of his grocer shop.and nearby was
a hotel,one of its servant was an abnormally short woman.she was tidy
bedsheet.
since 2 or 3 am till now,i was blocked from most of sites i usually surfed
without problem.2 addons of firefox with a size no more than 200 kb lasted 1n
hour yet can't donwload.dog sure spent the night with open eyes,seeing its fate
and freight.i know a night wasted here and that's the reality of nowaday
china,rubbish stuffed.
bye.i love u.this everning on bed in the dorm i recalled u.kiss u with bright.
Monday, December 25, 2006
pale day
i spent an overnight in the cafe near my once working place busy with register
my baby and his mother their blogs synchoron with wordpress.com and
livejournal.com .i also tried a blog client,post2blog,which very handy,more
powerful than blogwriter for its can support proxy setting for individule blog
account.i added all my family blogs accounts to its account manager and found
its working.so great it is that i saw my struggle with speedier blogging leading
its fruits.dog hacked me first and even let all of my net connection failed and
force me backup my working and restart the pc.when working more time on it,i
enjoyed normal surfing speed and my works benefited a lot from the absent of
hacking.however,when its near 7 am while its still dark outside i didn't noticed
the warn to be time out and lost my work after forced shut down abrupt.the
overnight costed me 10 yuan including 3 yuan for a bottle of cola.i enjoyed its
19 inch lcd.when i returned to the dorm qrrsers heading to their working
place.in the dorm i felt dozy after wondered awhile so i went to bed,but dog
bited me heavily and let me alert.i finally gave up to sleep and got up and
wandering in the room till lunch time.
last afternoon i spent 3 hours in a cafe about 4 miles apart from the area of my
baby's mother's home.it costed me 6 yuan.when i returned a cop car followed
me.i rode my new bike with bare head and bare hands.when i arrived my
baby's mother's home they had finished their dinner but there were food left
for me.my baby cried a lot when i first busy with sorting the configuration of
firefox and later with copy some multimedia for baby onto his mother's
notebook.he later glad to interrupt the kid son of the kid sister,preventing him
from shut the door.his mother complained i spoilt him and i a time also felt he
was troublesome,but i finally spent time caring him.when he settled with milk
his mother let me left and did.
bye.i felt in high spirit even the weather remind me of dangers.i love u,like
sunshine over the sky.kiss u with bright.
pale sunshine
last night i spent 6 hours in the cafe where i bought a member card,at
a cost of 10 yuan.dog nearby let me unconfortable but i stayed.dog also
stealed my bike outside of the cafe.i finished backup my working
environment within firefox eventually.after i returned to the dorm,its
already after 3:30 am but the rooms neighboring to my room still stayed
in light.they bited me heavily after i went to bed.i backup my password
book on my pda and dog let my pda hanged a time.i went to bed after
4:30 am and fought with dirty willes some time then slept sound.i got
up at 11:21 am and went to see my baby at once.i bought an old bike
from a bike repairer and promised paying him next day.i bought my baby
a cup of cola and an hanbergar with a price of 10.5 yuan with a
coupon.when i left the kfc,a cop car ported outside to remind me i was
under surveilance.my baby gladly received me and demand instantly to
drink the cola.they almost finished their lunch and the kid sister
recooked dish,motton with vegetables as usual for me.after lunch my
baby was milked and slept,and so did his mother.the kid sister locked
herself inside the room.when the grandmom arrived,i left for
surfing.the nearby cafe was stuffed and some guyes waited there.i
haunted very long distance and found a cafe and started to work.dog
bited as usual.and the net connection under surveilance likely
unstable.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bear.
bright sunny day
yesterday i spent 10 hours in the cafe about 2 miles away from the
dorm,costing me 14.5 yuan,to try to find a solution to post my blog to
wordpress ,livejournal and blogger without login to its host repectively.near the
last 2 hours before i left i find the right solution,with a firefox plugin entitled
'performanceing',which has only a loveable size of 100 more kb, i found its
satisfying my need better than lots of larger client executeables.i really sensed
the power of open source softwares.when i left its already near 6 pm so i
directly headed to my baby's mother's home to have dinner.i stayed there
lately to 9 pm,for the kid sister and her son locked themselves in the room
challenged my baby and he liked to haunt there and can't find interesting
things around in the house.after returned and washed my feet,i felt i can
adding an hour to finished my backup more excellent.so i visited starsea again
and found there even bankrupt and dog pested. on first pc the spyware let my
working window shut each time when i typed 'd'.after tried varable ways i gave
up and changed a pc,and its os ran 3 or 4 minutes yet to open its
interface.after i changed another pc i waited its working and found its mouse
very tricky and surfing very slow.so i didn't finish my due works and left.then i
switched to another cafe nearby,it first let my downloading of my backup at
google failed,with broken file after download finished.and download software
was rid from the system while normally cafe pc usually equipped with this kind
of soft.then i tried another backup and i started to work in my settled
browser.all proxies were blocked.so i gave up due expectation to my task.when
my time near out,a cop in uniform approached a man on the front seat of mine
and chatted with him.the monitor of the pc started to abnormal.i can envision
that dog were assigned each domain and supervised their territory to banish
me.
returned to the dorm,i read and wondered after 1 am.i got up after 9 am.i
likely dreamed of some ulcer on the heel of my right foot.when i arrived my
baby's grandmom there busy.my baby welcomed me at once.then he played
with various matters on my shoulders.he also ate the candy i bought him last
time.we went to receive his mother before 11 am.when i saw 2 little girls
entered the grocer we haunted frequently in summer we followed in.i chatted
with the girls.after we left,the girls also left and my baby directed me following
the girls to the sports yard where flock of students skating.the 2 little girls left
to play seesaw.we followed and chatted with them.they said they will have
christmas day in their class.a cop car ported outside of the sport yard just near
the seesaw.i bought my baby an ice cream as i promised.we entered the yard
of the school and lately met his mother.lunch again was vegetables with
motton,seldom changed.after lunch my baby was held by his mother to shop
outside and i went to a nearby cafe to polish my backup of my working
browser,as well as another blog synchoron in memory of my grand father at
http://faezrland.wordpress.com .i spent 3 hours there and charged 3 yuan.so
cafes near the dorm charging more likely just cop's plot to cost me more on
web.the cafe i spent 14.5 yuan yesterday also charged 1.5 yuan an hour but
their monitor was 19inch lcd.after surfing i went to shower and haircut.when i
almost finished my shower in the public bathroom a cop in nuke bathed himself
just aside me,even there r quite some empty berth.i so changed a seat to avoid
dirty and threat.when i arrived home the grandmom returned from her office
and again visited.my baby now started to babble a lot at dinner table and let us
all glad.after dinner we couple spent some time played with our baby while the
kid sister slept on the bed and her kid son did homework awhile then watched
tv theatre on the three kingdoms in chinese history.my baby's mother started
to paste pictures of chinese traditional poems and cartoons and animal's
pictures onto the wall.my baby played with standing on the box of my pda with
a lot of joyes.he frequently haunted the kid son of the kid sister and
interrupted his learning or pretending to learn leaning on the bed along his
mother.we later entered our bedroom and our baby played with the stick of his
cradle for support the mosquito-curtain.i left after 8:30 pm.a cop car waiting
on the ground near the home of my baby's mother.and on the way i ported the
cafe i bought a member card.dog here aside me threaten me and let me back
painful.many proxies blocked.
bye.that's my happy day today.i love u with even more eagerness.kiss u with
blitter.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
a pale day
in the morning, i registered myself another blog to synchron at
http://www.bloglines.com/blog/benzillar .dog blocked access to bloglines.com
and i had to access it via proxy.in the night i registered myself other 2 accounts
at wordpress.com at http://benzillar.wordpress.com and
http://benzyrnill.wordpress.com .wordpress.com was blocked and the ie
settings baned to modify so it let my blogwriter can't find the right
confiugrations for the 2 accounts.they tried to vendor me an card for a discount
of 1 yuan an hour as member for the convinience to monitor my web serfing
more detailedly.
when i arrived my baby slept in the arms of the kid sister,who was watching
cop soup.i then operated on my pda for awhile.then his mother returned and
we had lunch.the kid sister occupied tv with cop soup while eating.in the
afternoon my baby played tapwater for some time.when its almost 3 pm he
asked for haunted outside.so i held him enter the sports yard where some
students there having their skate class on the ice.then my baby directed me to
go the direction toward the railway.we passed the undreground market
between the plaza and the railway station.then we went to the railway
telecom,where dog threaten us but we had some good time on our own.at
dinner the dish was again the motton with vegetables,the same of lunch and
last time i visited.the kid sister kept silent and after dinner she went to bed to
rest.we couples played with our baby for some time and let him happy.the kid
son of the kid sister arrived later and started to shut the door to do his
homeworks.my baby insisted to haunt the room sometimes.i tired to let him
stay in our bedroom.i then understood when my baby and his mother alone
suffered loneliness and challenge of silence by the mother and son of my
baby's mother's relatives.1 or 2 times when i suddenly arrived there i watched
the room for my baby now occupied by the mother and her kid son locked and
my baby's mother held him played in the dark waiting room.i really sorry for
my baby and his mother to let they suffered.however,we r expecting brighter
future.
bye.i spent a lot of extra time tonight by dog's hacking which let the surfing
slowly and pages error-prone.i love u.kiss u with tear.
warming sun,crisp fog in the morning air
last night before coming here again to upload my backup of firefox with plugins
and blogwriter to my google after 8 pm i buzzed my baby's mother and she
allowed me to visit my baby today.my baby also loudly accquainted me in the
phone.for my grand father manifest himself in my dream vividly last night his
first night in earth and on heaven,i so came here to write it down before i went
to see my baby.last night i read 'thinking on the web' till 0:01 am.the ambient
let me know i was highly evaluated and bubbled a lot of joy in the background.i
slept with conpact dreams.i dreamed first the couple whose wife was a
fateteller,a woman smokes and seldom chore in family name mao,and whose
husband with first name chunsheng(born in spring) and family name likely of
zhu,for our village all of zhus'.they commented on my charactor and i
contended that i m competitive.my dad,in his late life be close friend of the
mao before she passed after her husband left in advance,watched aside
complaisantly.then i dreamed i was,or the guy in dream's focus was,the 3rd
prince of east sea king in chinese,or the 3 son of sea god in western.a daughter
of dragon,longnv in chinese,loved the guy or me and tried to follow him or me
but the protagonist didn't admit.then my dad fired some wood to warm us and
let us feeding fishes.later we fried fishes to eat,with some white people.an even
longer dream of that evaded me after i trying to memory the dream after i
woke up.i got up at 9:37 am.
its a nice morning.the sun was mild and kindling.the road was left with some
white dust,likely frost or light snow.the air is crisp and moist.my heart was full
of freshing spirit of holy.
pale day
dog at noon let the monitor in the cafe frequently blacked out and flashed to
normal,indicating they want to adopt old skill to ruin my writings half way when
i wrote in blogwriter.that surely threaten my blog ,now that gmail which auto
saved when u type was frequently blocked and instable.
all afternoon i spent on bed,first listening radio,then dozed awhile.threats near

ahead but god let it all a miniature of his spiteful road leading me ahead toward
him.
bye.i likely can succeed to finished my work within an hour tonight.i backup
firefox with plugins and upload to my google accout,and this time very
speedy.thx god.
i love u.after dinner i buzzed my hometown and talked with my kid sister and
my youngest elder sister with whom i spent a lot of time when we r children.i
also talked with her husband.our father's funeral was markable splendid.that
let me relieved.kiss u with freer.
pale sunshine in pale cloud sea
last night i read my blog on my pda after 0 am.i reviewed my elder sister told
me my dad refused to eat several days before he left.at the same time i and
my baby shitted waterily.this morning i got up 11:36 am.when i arrived the
canteen there herds of qrrser there eating.the female administartor again
complained offering my 4 dishes and suggested i should hand in 4 yuan to
pay.i again ditched the dirty dish of belly manually.after lunch i woundering if i
should buzzed my hometown there likely holding ceremony to let my grand
father bodily slept in earth.but i finally didn't buzz but come here instead.my
father in the heaven knows my silence and my stubborn.
www.33367.com , where i got some ebooks,now was blocked from me after i

refered it in my blog.dog busy with hunting and enjoyed it totally,till its
death.the world had to get rid of it.
bye.in this sole morning i had nothing dear except u can enhence my
family.god let me have u.i love u.kiss u with bear.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
a sunny cool day again
last night after posted in the cafe and returned to the dorm i suddenly felt i
should spare no effort to return to my hometown to attend my grand father's
funeral ceremony.i buzzed my baby's mother but no one there.so i went over
by bike and found the line misworked.then i surfed,trying to find if air travel
available now that i had only a day ahead to catch up the ceremony.dog
blocked heavily and infected my pc.i finally decided not to return when i power
down the pc.when i buzzed my hometown again after returned to the dorm i
was told that my grand father was already turned into ashes by fire,as
demanded by the local rule.its already after 11 pm when i settled in the dorm,i
read awhile my blog on my pda.when its 0:03 am i laid my pda aside and
prepared to rest.i went to bed at about 0:37 am.i slept sound and when i
looked at the clock its already 7:46 am and i got up at 8:06 am.when i arrived
my baby walking in the waiting room while the kid sister watching tv.my baby
almost didn't left my arms or shoulders in the day.i sang a lot,esp.
'beiguozhichun' and its my first time recently years i recite fully its lyric with
the aid of my pda.my baby slept for about half of an hour in the morning.we
ate an ice cream when waiting for his mother leaving her school.at noon i felt
cold and dozed awhile while his mother cared him.after his mother left my baby
cried for me and refused the kid sister who tried to calmed him down.so i got
up caring him.we wandered peacefully some time but when i kissed his ear he
cried.i told myself he was crying instead of me for my grand father,his
granddad.since senior middle school i startled to cry after captured by
bookstore worker for i tried to steal a chinese martial book to enrich my
collection of chinese qigong(practise of breathing) and wushu(martial),i
seemingly cried seldom,except when i broke my heart for girl fang(square),in
my second being mad i cried for my ancestor and my profound blood
background.and except my third time being mad i cried for i can't protect my
baby son against evil.my baby son this time cried instead of me and reward
me,in my view.after i got know his mother due for night class i decided to hold
my baby haunted once outside before receiving his mother,for i found my baby
now lacks of his favorite candy.we visited shenlong (cult dragon) supermarket
where i bought him jelly,milk candy,sausage,sunflower seeds.and on the way
he asked me to buy him some dates.he enjoyed them very much,even the
saleswomen let me sensed my humble financial situation.i never seeing my
baby so placated when i fed him with sunflower seeds.he tapped his feet on the
floor while sat on the plastic mat.i love him so much.with my god of my grand
father watching me now from the heaven,i love him solely as i devoted to my
god.after we went to received his mother at 6 pm he got unconfortable on the
way near our building then slept on my shoulders till his mother lately fetched
us.his mother again blamed my letting him sleep in the cold and started to
milked him.when the kid sister urged to have dinner,i ate first and found the
atmosphere dirty,likely her son challenged me.i don't why where went wrong
while i chatted with him actively.after dinner i prepared some sample of the
food i bought for my baby,intending to lay them in my dorm room for sacrifice
to my grand father who has the last night bodily in our home in my
hometown,but my baby refused to let me fetch.so i told his mother i needn't
any more,for her home is exactly my home.i left with blank hand and blank
heart for my grand father.
dog desperate for death challenge now.last night they block my upload for
quite some time,and this time they let my downloading my backup of my
firefox and blogwriter on my googlepages failed for several times.last night
rotten rat rabbled constantly in neighbor room exactly till i went to bed.dog
now again block my uploading my backup to my google account.they just want
to see sooner their death.
bye.i love u.kiss u with tear.
a sunny cool day
my grand father,as my kid brother who returned to our hometown from

guangdong,south china where he tried to find a living there,told me when i
buzzed in after dinner for 3 times,2 times occupied,has passed.i never felt a
pain so far.i just felt pity,for both of us.i admired to show him i can with my
best to appease him,for so many years since my growth he kept silence to my
performance,i want to show him i faith to him and deep love him and
worshiped him.many times recently i want to talk to him but always retarded
by the inconvinience as my mother claimed that he was on bed for coldness in
hubei prov.quite sometimes i want to let myself remembered to buzz him
better in afternoon for at that time he likely will get up and my mother also
suggested a time in a phone that she can wait for my phone in that period time
in a day but i constantly forgot to buzz in afternoon,ie,in sunshine.long time i
missed his youth and middle age years as legends in the heaven,in the road
straightened for god.
my kid brother told me my grand father left around 2 pm,at that time i fought
with dog's blocks my upload my backup of blogwriter.exe and firefox with
plugins i needed for a convinient working environment to my google account
less i had to bring udisk or some cafe refuse udisks.they let me spent an
additional hour here a dirty cafe.at that time my grand father watching my
restless struggles with pests and he can know the world he was to is rather
easy with handling these kind of rubbish.he can know his son doomed to clean
the kind of rubbish from his land,his kingdom in half of an century,with his
grandson,with his ever prosporous offspring,with the behalf of his glory.god,u
know even in this saint moment dog still biting me.in a heaven u know i
needn't move a finger of mine to let them evaporate like fog in bubble,but now
on this futile earth i had to conbat with full of my source.on this land of dog
stained and evil poluted,i need ur guide and companion,as i dreamed for many
times.in a conversation in later summer,i asked u in the phone where i can find
u after u left,u didn't reply,or i can't hear what u told;in a talk in a phone i
asked if u r in family name of zhu as me,u didn't reply or i can't hear what u
told.i at least gain ur help when i lost assurance after thiefs in the dorm let me
cold and leaking,u told me it doesn't matter.i recovered the next day.
father,my god,u held dear ur comments onto me so much,let me grown sound

and selfrelied.so many years u let me wonder at large,letting me so many
years later retrospect ur road and followed ur footsprint for ur source,ur
memory in the world,ur testimony upon the visible and sensible as god's
singularity.god,less the world doesn't memory,less the men don't reason,u r
always in my heart.i m ur son,ur third son,as u r the third son of my
grandfather.i picked ur figure and ur face shape ,i admire i m urs.i took ur
dream,took ur vow,i took the kingdom of u,i picked the land u seeing and let it
blossoms like forever spring and summer in the most serene valley,that's my
vow,my deed of u.
god,if there is a way,god,if there r reasons.if there is a sideway to ur front,if

there is a channel can talk to u.god,my father,if i can hear u,if i can serv
u.god,let me know.let me know where i can touch u,god.god,u holy spirit
shrined me everytime,but i still need to talk with my father,with my dear father
silent so many years.god,i follow ur way without any hesitation,god,i listen ur
command without any obscure.god,i need seeing my father,my god.god,in this
position i stood too long,god,i need appeasing my father his proud his
proud.god,if there is a way,god,if there r reasons.
god,i don't know how many year i will kept my sorrow for not attending my
father's leaving,i don't know pains will how tear my heart for missing him,my
grand father.god,i know ur mercy to all these.
bye.i love u,dear zhou,my girl,my long waited my second wife to appease my
grand father but failed.i love u.kiss u with heart.

Labels: diary, heart
bright sunshine in the morning

last night i started to read 'thinking on the web' earlier after watching my
baby's 2 photos i bought with me.i rested on 0:17 am and hadn't any problem
to fall into sleep.i woke up after 7 am but got up lately after 10:29 am.then i
went to the tree yard to sunbath.its cool while refreshing.a man with his doggie
wandering around me and the man kept striking his foot.after i strode for an of
hour some girls returned to their dorm from the door toward the qrrs
hospital,likely for they r doctors or doctors in practise there.they went directly
to a pub to have lunch.then i know why the canteen sees few customers
recently and why the admini;strators a bit hostile to me.maybe my presence
hurts somebody,but i had no weakness in the following god.
after lunch my baby's mother buzzed in and told me my kid sister and his wife
buzzed her to let me know my grand father being on bed for some time.i again
disblieved.but she said the wife of my kid sister told her my dad fell onto the
bed even before she left qiqihar.i told her several days ago i buzed my mother
and she told me my dad was well,and on bed for several days for its
cold.storms may brewing.but with my father,my god,i had nothing to bother.
i enjoyed this cafe so far.its speedy,even dog definitely monitored me now.and

os let autocomplete function working as normal,unlike in the 3 cafes near the
dorm zone all disabled it to let me type more.
bye.i love u.kiss u with brim.
sunny lasted all day.
the cafe i posted at noon told me i had to pay 4 yuan even i spent 2
more hours there,for the price of its service increased to 1.5 yuan an
hour.so i now in a even farer cafe in whose first time service to me i
found lyric of 'beiguozhichun' via www.altavista.com some days ago.its
price now still 1 yuan an hour,which let me at a relief.maybe dog now
attempting to hinder my time on web,finding how i enjoyed and made
real usage of the web.
today its turned a bit colder,with which i first time felt cold and
even sore in my leg bone.when i returned to the dorm the sunshine over
the wall of the building,not letting me enjoyed it possible.however,i
jogged in the morning just before lunch time.i spent the rest of the
afternoon on bed listening the radio.i have not too much to review,so
i can't name out what in my review.when its dark outside i started to
walked in the room and rotten rat nearby started to bite
heavily,letting me open the door to wash it.dinner was enough,the
female administrator made a complain by claiming i had 4 dishes.but
the customers was few even its on time for dinner,ie.,5 pm.i finished
it without any remnant.
its likely a peaceful day,even changes inevitable will be launched by
dog,in god's view.i hope i can see u sooner.yesterday my baby's mother
told me my second elder sister buzzed there to let me see my grand
father,saying he was ill.i didn't believe,for i think my dad knowing
my struggle,knowing the process i moulding our kingdom as he
envised.and in addition when i buzzed my hometown the same day my
mother didn't told me that,even she unhappy with me.i love my
hometown,the mountains,the lake,the stream,the rock,the soil,the air
and the sunshine.i love the bushes,as well as the rice fields.that
exactly liked the poem i read last night,'Paradise Lost' of John
Milton.i missed the south,but the north here i worked so long is also
the lost paradise of my kingdom,with which i to recover and to
recliam.i believe my father knowing me.
bye.i love u.like picnic in summer sunset.like sunbath on the beach.i
need u to rest,like a long time journey to pass the triumph message,as
a herald.i need ur thick hairs to cover my drought nose,to forget the
chore and bearings.kiss u with light.
bright sun in pale blue sky
last night i wonered in room till 11 pm.then i picked <thinking on the web>
and till 1:02 i laid it aside.the ambient let me know my works reevaluated and
tired to capture me with contentment.that let my reading in low speed.when i
went to urine before going to bed,the tv room was shut and the corridor was all
empty.i fell into sleep smoothly.i got up at 10:28 am and reviewed a couples
each after a broken marriage with a girl and a boy respectively,trying to offer
restaurant service just near the dorm when its not organized into qrrs' dorm
zone and there r lots of single flat house among the buildings of qrrs 2
dorms.they r so poor when their restaurant near its close,only left me and
another guy haunted there frequently.quite some persons have nothing in the
world,but they need something to busy to be fed and play in the running
process in the world.i don't know what they now made a living,and i don't know
how many people suffered the killing winter now,the media seldom now reports
bare poverity,and i don't think the gov. can manage to feed chinese people
when the spotlight focused onto the wellbings earning bucks,seemed honest
earnings comparing with the american,and the shitting babble around the world
of the head.
this time i likely spent a lot after i tried my account at

http://benzillar.stumbleupon.com and adding www.pcmag.com to my google
personal homepage.
bye.i love u.kiss u with fear.
btw,in the post titled 'sunny afternoon ' posted Dec. Friday, 15 there is a line
'that's the failure of insanity of tribe cognation via uncontroled immigrate.'
where 'cognation' should be 'amalgamation'.and in a recent post i refered Nash
as an physical scientist but he in fact an economics scientist.

withering sunshine
last night i read in the dorm till 0:13 am.dog around bited furiously.i lost sleep
all the night.i had pills and urined as usual,but just after i settled on bed i had
need to urine.i guessed that's not real and i thought i'd better endured it for
my baby.so i sleeplessly.in late night the neighbor hooligans still made cracks
with their chair or something,likely stayed there sleeplessly.in the process i saw
the plot of dog to weave a web to trap me into the asylum and there they took
full control of my life,from eating to sleeping to medicine to communication,in
which they can plot and execute evil onto me without obvious obstacles.their
aim was to whitewashed my mind and my name from the world.but they just
unable to do as they liked.i got up at 7:13 am and went to see my baby at
once.my baby vomitted in the mid night and let his mother restlessly these
days.when i arrived he was held by the kid sister feeding while watching tv.my
baby was motionless to me.so i went to the room wondering if i can do some
works first on pc.but my baby asked for my caress and let the kid sister at a
loss.the full day my baby didn't leave my caress.he just loathed to walk or play
with his own.he shitted 4 times with watery shits.he suffering.his mother let us
not to receive her at noon.so we stayed at home in the morning.at noon the kid
sister of his mother arrived.i disliked her for her behavior since i engaged with
her elder sister.she seldom ate at home while her financial position was
shabby.i mean,she likely frequently accompany some rich men to eat
outside,at least those can afford her a treat.her last visit,dated the day before
yesterday,brought some grapes with which i tasted some and likely so did my
baby.and i shitted waterily last night,too.in my view she just too wicked,like
her mother's family.the afternoon she slept in the quilt in the room for my baby
and now occupied by the kid sister of my baby's mother's mother,watching
movies on her elder sister's notebook.later the kid sister of her mother also
slept on the same bed.i had to admit she was not nobody,she let me felt in the
hell for unconfortable and sleepy.my baby played with tapwater and cooking
utensil and grid frame of window and torch,but he also finally felt boring and
slept.i slept aside my baby.my baby woked up 2 times with cries.after finally
got up i still felt faint and lack of energy.my baby also loathed to play on his
own.after 5 pm the kid sister left.after another an hour i held my baby to
receive his mother,against her warn.my baby directed me visited a grocer shop
along the road where we haunted a lot in summer but seldom recently.we
chatted with the boss couples.my baby asked me to buy him a little bag of dry
beef and we entered the school for a lot of persons likely students' parents
entered by their bikes.a cop card ported outside the door,it my second time
seeing it ported there.my baby got energetic and talkative in his mother's
arms.it really let me happier.
dog likely weaving its web to trap me into prison or asylum,same place to let
me disappear.i had not worry or hindersight.my sleep can be ruined without
routine pill which now in my open drawer in the dorm free to replace,but i had
long time waited for god not to let me live with it and its in fact the cause of
my second falling into asylum for not taking pills for i think its unnature.maybe
i lived with less time to sleep,like Nash,the famous physisist survived mental
disease without taking pills.
tonight,no matter how distorted by the unnamed unease,or just can't sleep,i
live in god's sight and ready for god's call.that's absoluteness.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bear.i hope i deserve a snow tonight.kiss u with baring.
a old shot uploaded.
slightly snowed last night,full sunny day
last night i roamed in the room for quite some time.after finding neighbors
hacking on my mind i let the door open and continued to strode.then quite
some guys leaving, passing the tv room facing my room and picked their heads
into the tv room around 10 pm.i stayed wondering till 11:30 pm when i started
to read 'thinking on the web' and rested on 0:01 am.dog let me almost lost
sleep but finally i fell into sleep.i got up at 9:17 am.before i uncovered the
curtain i suddenly sensed it might snowed,and after seeing the sunshine from
the window i saw slight snow on the ground.what can i complain about?god let
me know i only need do what i liked and responded and left rubbishes all aside
to be cleaned by the superpower.
when i arrived the grandmom there already.my baby walking on the waiting
room.after i uncoated he approached me and soon i cared him playing with tea
pot and tea cups of his mother's,as the presents from her once students.he
broke 3 tea cups.we ate pine nuts.he received the nuts i broke for him but later
spitted it out and i ate them instead.we left the home for his mother after 11
am and i sang loudly qianbaihui's 'cafee cafe' along the road for hundred times
while my baby slept on my shoulders outside of the school in sunshine.when
the students leaving some of them shouted and let my baby wake up.we
entered the school to receive his mother.after lunch the old sisteres left to buy
winter clothes for theirselves while i backup logos i designed to my pda.my
baby's mother urged me speedy to hold our baby to have vaccined.she left in
advance to fetch the log book she left in her office.my baby in the way asked
me to buy him an icecream.when we met his mother she got annoyed and
demanded my leaving.i left but in half way returned to the hospital for i think
that's better.my baby cried shortly,but on the way home he seemed crabbed
and cried a lot.after getting home his mother again abused me and demanded
my leaving.i retorted to let her be well poised.then i started to back my blog to
my pda while my baby sent to sleep after milked with his mother.when i left to
shower in public bathroom,my baby woke up and i saw him awhile while his
mother milked him.when i returned to the home the old sister started to cook.a
girl student tutored by my baby's mother leaving.my baby tightly in his
mother's arms.i drank a tin of bear.his mother busy with tutoring the kid son of
her aunt and a boy of her colleague.after dinner i waited awhile while the old
sisters urged my baby played with me while his mother eating.for them time is
ripe to seperate my baby from me and set my baby under their affiliation.when
i left my baby didn't see my leaving against the old sisters urging,with his back
to the door.
its a nice day after all.i likely had to spend more money on the canteen,and
likely had to hold a more tightened budget on the web.maybe that's the dog's
plot.last night they close conbatted with me.they let my gmail via http error-
prone,and i switched to https of gmail,adopting secure channel of http against
surveilance my gmail content.then they cut off gmail connection,let both http
and https of gmail inaccessible.then i google proxy list and tired 3 or 4
proxies,some proxy tunnel displaying arriving contents of my gmail then being
cut off.they domineering to its brutalest.then when i logout my google services
and all went losing response.then i reset the pc and left.dog just need a way,no
matter how tiny or trifle,no matter how shabby and barely,to conpensate their
losing and failing feelings to proof their inferior.
bye.i love u.in tear and in seal.kiss u with ties.
sunny afternoon
at noon i got what i wanted for some time but were blocked so long: the lyric
of 'beiguozhichun(spring of north country) and zoundery blogwriter.after i got
them dog gave up blocks to www.goolge.com and proxies.i even surfed the
www.zoundery.com which was blocked for several days even its appeared in
the results of various searching engine.what can i comment all about it?
after posted here at noon i meandered awhile in the sunshine then went to
renew my magzines borrowed from qrrs.but the libray was locked.i went to the
newspaper room to read.the librarains put some of them on for a show and
soon i heared rehearsal in the stadium.a worker behind the glass wall
pretending sleeping on the table kept dirty onto me,but i finished reading to
'world reference digest' in time.the president of iran claim israel wouldn't exist
in the future,american finance ministry to visit china and world ,esp former
high ranks of german praised china a lot and look upon china's continuous
rapid growth driving world growth.that's skepticism and opportunism.old
europe long time used to be gambling on both sides.that's why they ignited the
2 world wars and they tended to seduce the third one.us had trouble to calm
down momies' cries for their lost sons,even the sons died worthily,and let the
world retreat to accept its bitter and bitter output.that's the failure of insanity
of tribe cognation via uncontroled immigrate.
returned to the dorm i roamed in the room for about an hour,leting the radio
on.at diiner i was offered 3 or 4 picecs of meat and i enjoyed my meal.after
dinner i buzzed my hometown and want to talked to my grand father but my
mother told me i needn't talked to him,who had been on bed for several
days,for he is too old.i felt a little bit hostility in the tone of my mother.
that's my day today.boring and trifle.but i counted it for our bright future,like
cat bite his paws in unrefrained thirt.
bye.i love u.near and far.kiss u with tear and bear.
sunny morning
its sunny however.last night in the cafe i first visited i finally got the lyric of
beiguozhichun(the spring of north country) just before i left.i skimmed it awhile
and elapsed extra 5 minute and was charged 0.5 yuan in addition.right i got
zoundery blog writer now and write within it to post.dog already let the pc
popup a err box to threaten my blogging via it.
last night i read my blog and later 'thinking on the web' till 1:47 am.rotten rats
nearby again urged me to rest in advance but i kept at guard.in addition the
book quite informative.i got know in searching engine design domain there r
quite some battle concerning the artificial intellectual techonogy,and likely lazy
chinese dotcom to lose,no matter the official how to promoted it via blocking
google and other searching engin.this morning i woke up at 9:41 am and got
up at 10:30.and i was under attacked before i woke up.after getting up their
force let me sat in silence.they sued me my relation with my baby.dog's eyes
set everyone foul licker,that's nothing specail.at lunch they again offered me
dirty dish of stuff of belly of pork or bull or sheep with a lot of spices to hide its
smelly,even i spilt several times.i know the male administrative likely in family
name of sun,gathering ill willes against me for some time.and they just
challenge their boldness to death.
bye.i love u this morning.i love u in still.last night my pda told me by quoting
shakespear's, all true love run no smooth.i was assured so much.kiss u with
bear.

pale sunshine.
last night i went to bed early just after 10 pm.i slept sound and got
up at 11:29 am.in the dawn i dreamed my best friend of
alumni,qiuxiaolin,and his once girlfriend,longhanjiang (dragon pertain
river) visited me.qiu told me their relation now breaking.i tried to
use our poor camera to shot them but Ms long constantly changed her
poise to challenge the poor camera which had problem to capture moving
object.all my sickness disappeared after the extroadinary long
sleep.so i hasted to see my baby.my baby almost didn't sleep in the
moring.lunch i almost eat less.i had a quarrel with my baby's mother
who echoed the kid sister and frequently blocked my baby playing
objects he liked to play,in the case a bag of suger,i told her she
should do her best to allow my baby to play what he want to play.the
afternoon spent playing tapwater,pc,grid frame of window and powder of
body smother.the kid sister left for shopping some time.after she
returned my baby got sleepy but he just can't fall into sleep,likely
at guard.the kid sister babbled persuadings aside frequently and after
the grandmom arrived she claimed even i can't let my baby sleep.but i
know just her ill will let my baby alert at sleeping.the grandmom
brought some cold dishes,likely remnants of a banquet.they fed my baby
with some and i launched a quarrel to urge the kid sister not feed my
baby many times except 3 meals with his parents.they didn't
rebuked.then we went to receive his mother.my baby asked me to bought
him a stick of sugar grape and a stick of fried susage.when children
of the teachers entered the yard of the school we slided in.when my
baby stepped on the dusty track of the sports yard his mother fetched
us.her friend,a woman whose husband was a cop and had a 7 month baby
girl watched aside awhile.dinner i again almost ate less,for i
disliked greese food now,even disliked any remnant of other's meal.the
old sisters chatted in low volumn on balcony while i watched tv for
some time.my baby haunted me sometimes.
its a nice day after all.my baby also in steady recovery.dog plot a
lot but they trying hold water with grid basket of bamboo.if tea is
sweat,if dog not to search for foul,the thing maybe can change.but
that's impossible.impossible is the dog not to bite,the thief not to
steal.for several days i can't access www.google.com,this time i
surfed in the cafe i first time visited,and i open www.google.com,but
just after searching result of blogwrite.exe's download returned,and
when i search for the lyric of beiguozhichun,a japanese song,with
which i tried many times all blocked just to let me upset,it again cut
off online with www.google.com.dog even block search.yahoo.com from my
access,just to let me upset.what they can do beside this,they doomed
to death and before that they can let anyone smell its rotten smell in
the underwater.
bye.i love u.like pourest snow.kiss u with bright and shrine.
a straight sunny day.
after posted here in the morning i went to renew my borrowed pc

magzines.i boroowed a copy of pc magzine and 2 econoic management
magzines.then i went to see my baby.on the way near the kfc store i
bought him 2 fried chiken legs,for i want to present him a
surprise.they costed me 15 yuan.my baby in the arms of the kid sister
who is watching cop soup.my baby started to eat the chicken
happily.but he didn't eat much,for he and me all suffered thirsty
after shitting waterily.today i shitted 6 or 7 times waterily.i ate
less but felt thirsty constantly.my baby's mother refuted my suggetion
to shot outside,blaming the snow was cleaned.she suggested shot indoor
but i didn't act upon and just played with our baby together in
bedroom while the kid sister (her aunt)cleaning dishes in waiting
room.i felt the kid sister at a loss in her attempt to build a closer
intimacy with my baby than mine,so i suggested my leaving and my wife
admitted.my baby asked me to hold him to the corridor but his mother
urgent to leave so she let him played with the doorring and let me
leave.
after returned to the dorm i read awhile magzine then dozed on
bed.till 4 pm i woke up in the dark.i farted a lot in the mid.being
sick now distracted me from ill wills around which had troubled me so
much so far.i know god putting us into a new training course now and i
look forward to it.
the snow was the thickest among the 3 snows in this winter,even
so,workers let it clueless on the road and obvious open space.so i
admire now the heavily snow recently haunted the western america,via
tv reports i seeing its beauty and mighty.
bye.i love u.in this cool early winter.kiss u with snow white.
white morning after snow
its just to auspicious,so propitious.after uncovered the curtain i was totally in a

bewildering joy.god presents his favor to my asked.i woke up early and turned
on radio on 7:13 am.i got up at 7:29 am.last night i waited in wondering after
0:07 am.i first time in near 3 months to have a fresh breakfast in the
canteen.then i shitted,partly waterily.then i stamped all my food steps on the
snow on the volleyball yard till full covered it.i will likely go to see my baby at
noon.last night when i parted with my baby i felt sorry and said to him i
couldn't see him tomorrow and he asked him to held him into the corridor and
played ball with lots of laughs in his mother's arms.now god accomplished me
by letting me surprised by another chance to be with my baby.in fact,hard time
in animosity let us more banded.i love him so much.no matter how his
mother's relatives envious on it,nothing can distract my love and holiness onto
him.
last night i spent 2.5 yuan here.a dog near me likely a cop,hacked me heavily
before i ready to finish my work.it again let the ie responded very slowly and
let some bottom of pages ill working and links redirected.i just doubting how
they can delayed my pages requests so long and delayed the arriving pages
tentatively.i guess that's all what they can do now,to mess up,to shit around.
bye.i love u.kiss u with this holy bright white.love u in chill.
sunny afternoon
in the afternoon i spent 3 yuan and 3 hours to modify my googlepage at

http://benzillar.goolgepages.com to let it show my blog update with date but
failed.dog's hack and maybe busy internet traffic (less likely) let the surfing a
torment.and dog biting nearby.i felt more or less upset when i left.i didn't
expected so costly.then i went to renew my borrowed pc magzines.new issues
arrived and i tried to borrow 2 copies.i read newspaper in the newpaper room
of qrrs.people of taiwan surely didn't echo mainland's media's distorted
reports,and they chose to support localized party.no one favors the outdated
dictator system of mainland of prc.when i returned to the dorm its near dark.i
read a pc mag till dinner time passed.dog bited heavily in the dorm.in the
canteen i was offered meat and full filled.here i registered my family members
to http://clipmarks.com to enjoy its bookmarks and clips sharing service.my
account at http://clipmarks.com/clipper/benzillar .i need more time to full
explore it.
home movie of my baby in his first winter.
Get this video and more at MySpace.com
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sunny afternoon
in the afternoon i spent 3 yuan and 3 hours to modify my googlepage at

http://benzillar.goolgepages.com to let it show my blog update with date but
failed.dog's hack and maybe busy internet traffic (less likely) let the surfing a
torment.and dog biting nearby.i felt more or less upset when i left.i didn't
expected so costly.then i went to renew my borrowed pc magzines.new issues
arrived and i tried to borrow 2 copies.i read newspaper in the newpaper room
of qrrs.people of taiwan surely didn't echo mainland's media's distorted
reports,and they chose to support localized party.no one favors the outdated
dictator system of mainland of prc.when i returned to the dorm its near dark.i
read a pc mag till dinner time passed.dog bited heavily in the dorm.in the
canteen i was offered meat and full filled.here i registered my family members
to http://clipmarks.com to enjoy its bookmarks and clips sharing service.my
account at http://clipmarks.com/clipper/benzillar .i need more time to full
explore it.
home movie of my baby in his first winter.
Get this video and more at MySpace.com
bright sun,clear cloud in pale blue sky
last night i read my blog on my pda till 1:03 am.dog bited heavily
before i went to bed.in the morning i dreamed riding a double seat
bike with my wife and watching a teacher painting on blackboard to
pormote a lecture will be offered by a chinese study 'master'.i woke
up at 9:50 am and got up at 10:39 am.dog started to bite before i woke
up and it forced me to rest in silence after i got up and sat on bed
motionlessly.in the canteen there r quite some girls i don't know
where they r from.a cop in uniform picked to sit aside me and drank a
bottle of soft drink and left.
in the cafe farer than starsea cafe,i powered 3 pcs but all hardware
failed after i login the cafe's register interface.dog recently likely
bargained with me.i can't access https of gmail but http of gmail
workable and i can compose email in it even err-proned.www.google.com
can't access directly from input in url,but accessible from ur login
gmail service.my personal homepage of google was blocked for 2
days.logout of google's quite some service lost response,likely cut
off by dog or stealing cookies from login pc.torpark on my writeproof
udisk also set to fail,and proxies i tried some were set to fail.dog
still felt they r charging all and allowed to work around within their
broken dog machine.
bye.its not a bad day even sunshine sometimes white washed by unclear
cloud around the sun.i hope i can hear u around the new year.i love
u.kiss u with bright.
sunny day
last night i read till 1:13 am.dog in the cafe farer than starsea let me dogtired
after returned to the dorm.i even felt dozy after read awhile 'thinking on the
web' but gradually i became agile and stayed lately.in the dawn i dreamed i
walked in my hometown and passed by a woman carrying shits as futilizer and
was stained by shits and felt anger.then i went to a countryfolk's home whose
husband was a cardre of ccp to ask for the skate the wife promised to my baby
free of charge.but the wife sneered at us and i got blank hands.on the way to
see my baby,i felt gloomy.after i arrived my baby in the arms of the kid sister
of his mother's mother.she avoided me when my baby asked for my caress.the
grandmom busy in the lavatory.soon i started restored old picture of my baby
from our backup cds and moved to my udisk intending to shift to google web
albums.my baby asked for my cares.i let him drink milk against the kid sister's
warn that he suffer watery shit.the liu left in the dawn for his hometown to find
himself wife,i heard this later by the kid son of the sister.my felt sleepy but
can't fall into sleep so he coutched on my head and was induced to vomit.he
vomitted several times.the grandmom fetched a towl to map the floor and let
me aside while my head full of dirty.
after my baby's mother returned i started again to the unfinished work to move
my baby's shot onto udisk.we couples later to have lunch.on the table i
introduced my work last night lately to add all my family members' google web
album into each favorite.i also designed a logo for my google group in memory
of my hometown at hubei prov.,centual china,at noon there at http://groups-
beta.google.com/group/zhudajiu .the logo at
http://zhudajiu.googlegroups.com/web/zhudajiulogoani.gif .welcome ur
comments.i also changed her google groups' icons.she admitted my works.the
sister listened aside.the kid son of the kid sister also there.after i finished my
shower in the public bathroom i cared my baby to play while the sisters left to
shower.soon the kid sister of my baby's mother arrived.my baby now open to
show his kindness to newcomers and he leaned onto the kid sister and the kid
son for sometimes,let all of us glad.his mother went out to buy some dishes
and we,all young persons,ate our dinner.the atmosphere gradually turned
unfavorable and the kid sister of my baby's mother locked herself sleeping on
our bedroom.the kid son and a little boy of my baby's mother's colleague's
son,just arrived there to be tutored,both slept on the floor while i sang loudly
with my baby on my shoulders.my baby later turned boring.i know energies got
conflict.so i soon left.my baby waved to me.the sisters of my baby's mother yet
didn't returned from bathroom.
that's our happy day today.i still felt laughable on the way home,reviewing 3
laid themselves down around us.my spirit was considerablely promoted
comparing that when i left the dorm.
bye.i love u.like morning star and sunset.kiss u with quice.
baby in his first winter
warren in-fant
btw,last post there is a line 'for the reception girl at starsea dispised me by the
excuse of no charges,i haunted a farer cafe and was told its fee lowered to 1
yuan
an hour again.'here 'charges' should be 'changes'.
sunny afternoon
after posted in starsea cafe i meandered in the sunshine for about

half of an hour.the air is warm.after returned to the dorm i read
awhile 'thinking on the web' then dozed.the family of my baby's
mother's mother,likely had a prone of strong feminism,exposed its
intention in my mind.dog let me felt cold and my radio finally turned
it off automatively.after getting up i went to make water and the room
facing the lavatory leaks out blow of laughs,including girls'.i knew
some of them felt lonely and boring even in crowd and gathering.i
review my solitude in which i missed u solely,i tasted joy and pure
and saint and plenty.love in its simplest form is just losing urself
in ur admire to ur beloved.i love u and pray for u,for our bright
future.the radio was elaborating on fable when i secondly turned it
on,and then on narcism,but nothing can distract my faith in god,in my
parents,in my son.i took u as my partner,with sometimes mindless
ignorance or leting ur being,i took u as my own,with pride and
criticism,with boring and with immersed,just as the bible claimed,u r
from my body and shaped by the creator to accomplish me.i don't bother
to attend u every minute,but we r always one together anytime any
place.in every smile between us we r assurrenced; in every word
outspoken we echo soul's harmony from heaven.god let his road spiteful
and as a compensation he let u accompany me,like fountain in
desert,and like lamb in bushes.
for the reception girl at starsea dispised me by the excuse of no
charges,i haunted a farer cafe and was told its fee lowered to 1 yuan
an hour again.last time the cafes increased their charges absurd in
compliance with cop's demand.what's business with cop with cafe's
service in market place?but in china they do charged every
things,every price.that's china's promise in wto.
bye.i love u.i first time since cafe's increased charge surfed more
than an hour tonight.i hope i can enjoy web more freely.kiss u with
bright and blight.
sunny morning,turns even thick at noon
i woke up at 9:50 am and got up at 11:20 am.last night i read

'thinking on the web' till its 1:39 am.dog got repentting after
fighted a war near around 0 am when i usually went to sleep at that
time,to urge me rest.some of them were hard core gays,some of them
wanted to finish their task to monitor me,some of them were tomb
sleeper and demanded seeing all living slept when they can dance with
evil in the dark after.i slept sound but being attacted after woke
up.i stayed in bed wondering,my baby 1 or 2 times cried in my ears but
that's his way to defend.the liu,in his early 30s' or late 20s' ,slept
with his mother on the same bed in different quilts.he born with
falling sickness but that can't be his mother's cause to sleep with
her mature son.they constantly challenge us,likes the lius in nowaday
china challenge people of china,and that's their due to walk out their
track of failure to testfy god's choice.god's glory manifests itself
through the rebellion of sins,through the doomed of those refuse
conversion,the doomed of those refuse the truth.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bright.
sunny day
last night i read 'thinking on the web' till 0:17 am.dog's biting
lately but under holy spirit i forgave and smoothly fell into sleep.i
got up 10:29 am and went to see my baby at once.when i arrived my baby
was sobbing and i was told he pointed to the clock when i due to
appear to the kid sister of his mother's mother and when the sister
said to him his dad he started to cry and demand open the door.how i
was touched.soon we went to receive his mother.i bought him an
icecream and a bag of soft candy.at noon he was settled to sleep by
his mother and i stayed wandering in the bedroom where he slept.after
he woke up i held him playing tapwater and teeth stick.the sister and
her son slept in the room for my son lately after 3 pm .when my baby
cried for i not to let him play with the grid frame of window,with
which he played for some time and attempting to lock it on his own the
mother got up and see.we had some unease time to concentrate to play
while they locked the room sleeping or pretend to sleep.the liu then
ate his lunch lately and his mother let him feed my baby with some
rice and my baby received it.then they watched tv and later the mother
started to cook.we waited and waited for the time to went out.his
mother due to have her night class and will leave her school after
6:30 pm.when its time to leave the mother insisted feeding my baby
with rice and pumpkin and i sensed her feeling of lose to seeing i
cared my baby well and enough and testing me if i can afford her
leaving.my baby let me wait to eat her feeding,but she threat my baby
to eat frequently and my baby finally didn't eat the last mouth she
and me suggested.the school open its door and we entered.his mother
left lately till we arrived half way to the teaching building.my baby
insisted walking on the dusty track of the sport yard.after dinner his
mother watched tv even my baby wanted to play.he finally sent to sleep
by his mother and i left.
its a nice day again for me and my baby.hope u enjoy ur everyday.
bye.i love u.kiss u with cool.
btw,last post there is a line reads 'since yesterday the idea
haunted me its time to testify if god chooses from his creators or
infinite turns around,suffers to exalt and wellbeings to
fell.technologically operating on some human species not a problem,but
the ethic of human kinship troubled god's chosen so much so far.'here
'creators' should be 'creatures'.then dog attacted me aside and let me
didn't check online dictioanry.the online dictioanry was responded
slowly by dog's hacking.
sunny afternoon.
after lunch i rest on bed.bitings around let me dozing.after woke up i

meandered awhile in the tree yard for about a quarter,after the shadow
of the tree casted on the rim of the flower garden.then i went to
renew my pc magzines.after fetched 2 copies i read newspaper in the
newspaper room of qrrs.when i sat there i was alone in the sunshine
facing the window.soon dogs arrived and one of them,a middle aged,kept
facing me and challenged me.i read 'world reference
digest'(cankaoxiaoxi) and read quite reports on illegal children labor
and migrates in abnormally dengerous labor situations risked and
resulted into body hurts.and america suffering too much responsibility
to correct the world in distort.bushes suffering shortsighted demand
of profits from us' operation on world.since yesterday the idea
haunted me its time to testify if god chooses from his creators or
infinite turns around,suffers to exalt and wellbeings to fell.mankind
sees quite some fates of animals and now its turn to see that of quite
some tribe of human.technologically operating on some human species
not a problem,but the ethic of human kinship troubled god's chosen so
much so far.nearer and nearer people will be confronted with the way
of god's,the way to choose and extinguished the bitchery,the evil.
www.google.com was blocked for 3 days.gfan of goolgegroup was banned
for access.that's china,a place rebut thinking while the web of the
world innovating everyday.the place being shitted all around,the place
gays and tomb sleeper rampant and attact in daytime.
bye.i love u , like steering star in deepest black sky. kiss u with
tear and bear,pity and cleanse.
brightest sunshine in early winter
so i got god's promission in double: the snow and the sun.the snow was
neatily cleaned by workers and letting me doubting if they r remnant
of previous snow,but the pour white scattered everywhere proved it
faultlessly.the sun was tiny round and demands more time before u can
see clear its burning round.i got up at 10:10 am and being bited at
once.last night i read the ebook 'thinking on the web' from
www.33367.com after 0:15 am.demons in neighbor rooms and in the tv
room near my room stayed there. in the dawn i dreamed i was told to
care my baby or the baby of my third elder sister.but i was told my
alumni gathering held in a place.i busy with something,like practising
handwriting or other,and when i held the baby left to attend the
gathering its raining.then i found the gathering just in the room on
the higher floor of the same building of our home and i returned the
left the baby at home and left.but i likely didn't find the gathering
but found my wife or my third elder sister at home complaining i
ditched the baby and let him cried into chill and soundless.my heart
was broken by sorrow and i kneeled down aside the cradle to kiss
him.but he was well after all.i was startled almost as his
encountering with silence and without cares.no matter how i sometimes
absent from my beloved,god assures us with the brilliant sun on
time.that's our being blessed.our pledge in one.
bye.i love u.like sunshine and snow white.kiss u with tear.
thin sunshine morning, gloomy afternoon
last night i got about 200mb ebooks from www.33367.com,let me really

in wilder.even downloading speedy my google service and blogs pages
responded slowly.in the dorm after returned i read awhile my blog on
my pda then worry about my baby and i buzzed my baby's mother,she
refuted my suggestion to visit my baby in the night.then i read the 3
pc magzines to 0:47 am.neighbor hooligans got irritated and bited
heavily.they likely totally got mad and evil.after going to bed,my
beloved blond within myspace.com,jamie,haunted my mind for about an
hour.however,i slept sound.i got up at 9:24 am then i went to see my
baby.when i arrived there my baby just stood behind the liu who is
busy with his parcel against the wall of waiting room and curious.then
he played tapwater in most time of the morning.challenge from the liu
and his mother let me sang and recited a lot.i held my baby went out
to receive his mother at 11 am.my baby loathe to leave and the liu's
mother also tended to retard us.the bike repairer ,who is small man
liked a crone always burning ditched tyre to warm his chamber aside
the road,let the air smelly and poluting.my baby soon slept on my
shoulders,which let quite some persons alarmed me,in good or ill
will.his mother left the school early among her colleagues and fetch
us.after lunch my baby was milked by his mother and slept.so did his
mother.i felt dozed but cold without any quilt.then his mother left
for her school and gave me 2 quilts of my baby.each time i felt dozed
but agiled again by challenge around.my baby slept for about an
hour,and woke up when i just thought about wangbin,my alumni i refered
last time in my blog,a guy also from northeast of china.then we
started to play.we ate pine nuts.my baby played with tapwater and let
the basin full.later a ball candy let him pacified for some time when
i just worried about boring will letting him irritated.the mother
started to cook toast pie and fed my baby with some.its time to went
out but my baby refused to leave.i beated him on his bottom 2 flaps
and he cried.when we arrived on the ground we found 3 girls after
their class and attending another class in the building conjoined with
our building and used as the office of street branch of the municipal
gov. .we played with the little girls awhile.then his mother returned
and found us.i then busy with back ebooks downloaded last night to my
pda and his mother busy with milking him.the liu urged to dinner
loudly.he cooked the dishes and cleaned the table and bowls.that let
us obliged.the mother and the son then watched tv silently and let us
couple distressed for our adopting their labor.the rule of religion
let me stadleless and let me lingered more time to wait my decisive
spirit.when i left my baby asked to go to the corridor to watch and he
watched my leaving.the moon was dim in the dark blue sky.i think it
would be blessing if tonight snows.
bye.i love u.kiss u with fright of the balance among the created.i
love like the serenading moon.
sunny all day
after posted i roamed in the tree yard of the dorm zone for some
time.then i went to qrrs' libray to borrow some mags.then went to read
newspaper with the 3 pc magzines i borrowed.there i also read some
mags.after returned to dorm i read a mag titled 'computer application
digest'(dianniao yingyong wenzai) till dinnr time.i was offered some
meats and i ate with pleasure and full fiilled.in the cafe i
downloaded some ebooks from a website at http://www.33367.com .i liked
it very much.its contents were from 0day,but i was blocked from access
to 0day staff for quite some time.o,that's really a pastime long time
ago.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bright.and with coming snow i love u in deep freeze.
Posted by benzrad at 6:24 PM 0 comments Links to this
bright sun,cloudless sky
i woke up at 8:21 am and got up at 11:23 am.last night spying eyes

trapped me for quite some time and continued even before i woke up.the
radio elaborating oil paintings collecting when i just turned it
on.that's my pastime when i was young.i love fine art and ready a day
i can pick it up again with u,with our children on we had time to
breathe freely.i some time ago had quite some collective works gallery
of famous impressionists and post impressionists,but i ditched them
when i broke my heart with the girl fang(square) when i prepared my
master degree entrance exam there in nankai.unv.,yes,i also collected
them at tianjin when i studied therre as a collegian.the morning i
fighted with spying with new and maybe higher level of skill,the spies
likely now stronger and trained.their broken web tried to trap me onto
it and smoother me.breath among men always poluted and i sometimes had
to breathe other ways.birds of the air sure nearer to god,but i had to
learn to launch now on the rock and earth.
today is a nice day,with the large and brilliant sun and clear sky.i
needn't any more warrent.the air is warm,likely brought chiller snow
days coming later.i however enjoy its warmth,now that i can partly
enjoy ur body temperature now.i look forward to u,to the wave and wind
of ur hairs,the wind and blow of ur sweat breath from ur warm armpit.i
love u,like round golden moon in these night sky.i love u like the
round cheek of the most lovable baby in the world.i love to kiss
u,kiss u red watery lips,ur kitty nosetip,i love u and kiss u now.kiss
u with sunflower brilliances ur brilliant cheek and beam.
bye.i love u.kiss u.
gloomy morning,almost sunny afternoon
last night after posted and roamed in the room i suddently decided to see my
baby.i arrived there about 7:30 and left there after 9:08 pm.we couple played
with our baby and let him laugh a lot.the liu locked himself in the room for our
baby for some time later went to waiting room to watch tv.the sisters watched
there silently all time.the eldest always chose cop soup and the night they
watch it.i read my blog lately to 0:43 am in the dorm.i got up at 9:42 am this
morning and went to see my baby.when i arrived my baby just watching the liu
and his mother and the old woman curiously and after i told him he started to
play with me.he played tapwater,salt and cooking utensil.we went outside to
receive his mother after 11 am.her mother watched us meeting her outside the
door but i mindedly didn't speed up my step with my baby sleeping on my
shoulders and she really got angered and left us behind while she returned
home directly.then my baby woke up when we encountered a crowd near the
elemental school aside the middle school.i bought him a toast tomato and he
ate some.lunch was consisted of 2 dishs,one is fried fishes.i ate 2 bowl of rice
and 2 fishes.at noon the sisters slept on the bed for our baby and my baby and
his mother later slept on our bedroom.i sat on the floor enjoyed the model of a
house,which is an attachment of a raiway toy of my baby.the liu watched tv
aside me in the waiting room.we competed each concentration.after his mother
left, my baby again played tapwater for quite some time while the sister
chatted in his room.the liu later haunted outside awhile.i sang and recited
chinese traditional poems till my baby boring into sleep on my shoulders.he
slept about 40 minutes.at this time i peacefully thought the way of god and
religion,and more parts likely echoes buddism's but i decided to let it be.then
the grandmom arrived.i left my baby her awhile and started trying to shift my
blog updates to my pda but soon my baby arrived and played with monitor and
the pc.later i turned on speaker and let its tremble to its largest volumn.my
baby was shocked for a bit and i held him in my arms to let him familiar with
it.for my ears recently losing some part of its hearing,the volumn let the sisters
close the door.then my baby' s mother returned.dinner is dumplines which i
always disliked.i held awhile after i first intended to leave after dinner.then
they ate water melon which is small and its inner meat colors yellow.my baby
ate quite some with his mother.i ate 2 or 3 slices later.then i left.the two sons
of the kid sister stayed in waiting room when i ate while the sisters entered my
baby's room.i didn't lay any comments and left.i kissed my baby heavily. that's
our happy day today.i love my baby and the life so much,even i know our
future with u would be more splend. bye.i love u.kiss u with the round large
golden moon.on the way to the dorm she let me being blessed so much. 2
heading works when i worked in the field of heading design.just a stamp and a
memory of pastime
my old heading work for my website.
my old heading work for my son's mother's class gathering.
btw,posted on Nov. 24 titled 'weak sunny day' there is a line 'the swallowing
freak and monster itself can't live in itself peace.its consuming more and more
living
spirits and living spices in peace.' here 'spices' should be 'species'.

sunny afternoon
i roamed in the garden of the dorm zone for about half and an hour in
sunshine.doubting my family,my kingdom,my god.qrrser constantly left
from the door behind me.last night i read luke of gospel lately and
much refreshed after leaving it aside.after returned to dorm i
listened radio music on bed.dog's biting.i dozed after the radio was
shut aftter 3 pm.even felt cold i still rested.and in it i knew my
baby's mother's family's intension on me and my son.but nothing can
left any dent on our free will.the royal of my family irrelavant with
nobody but god and it exists for a thousand and a hundred and nine
years.that's the rule.the rule from heaven.
my baby,this winter especially warm.but no warmth better than ur
warmth shadded in my heart and on my body.i look forward to ur red
lips and scarlet scarf near around the new year.my family warmly
welcome ur return,my long time thirst.
bye.i love u.kiss u with snow white.
sunny morning
i woke up at 8:37 am and got up at 10 am.after posted 2 threads in

google group more than half of an hour passed and i now in a rush to
write my blog and that hamper my smooth thinking.i know i can stayed
here longer but i hesitated about my independence.
bye.i had to leave now for my time out.i love u.kiss u with bright.
sunny almost all day.
i got up at 10:02 am.last night i read bible lately.i read luk.before

the night i had finsihed read john.demons left me for quite sometimes
when i read.last night near the door of my baby's mother's school,men
haunted us likely demons,they let my buttock painful but the pain
disappeared after i read.i went to see my baby after i got up.i
fetched the remain bag of rice.when i arrived,a young man sat in the
room left me doubting if he's my kid brother.then i found the kid
sister of my baby's mother's mother.they just arrived before me.the
young man was her first son in her first marriage,whose family name is
liu.i held my baby playing on the balcony soon.then his mother
returned.lunch was fried beef.then i went to shower.my baby's mother
left to hand in a form as her homework.in the afternoon the liu
babbled a lot with the eldest sister while his mother seldom
talked.later the atmospher was thick dirty and i left to surf in the
aim to modify my blog in memory of my grand father at
http://faezrland.blogspot.com but dog hamper me to open it while i can
open my baby's mother's web album.
its not bad a day for me and my baby.the old woman praised a lot on my
baby,in good and in ill.i left them quietly after kiss my baby in his
mother's arms.the newcomers in an close room leting the young son to
test his new coat his mother brought him.
bye.i love u.kiss u with snow white.
gloomy morning,sunny afternoon.
last afternoon i spent 5 hours to backup my blogs after httarck was

suggested by google blog group and in the process i knew i was hacked
to be slow to download but at least i think its working so i just
waited.then after 5:15 pm i ready to leave for dinner and i started to
stop httrack and logout of my google then the pc of the cafe hanged
and beeped,mimicing hardware failure,letting all my waiting in
ruin.dog really now lost their basic politeness and policy and
police.after returned to dorm i felt bitter with pity,and in my baby's
mother's call i commented dog fell into hooligan.i read awhile in the
dorm after dinner then i decided to see my baby after the need haunted
me for some time and challenged me.i arrived there after 8 pm,i
guess.my baby just being held by his mother playing on ground near the
cooking area.he asked for my caress at once.and i held him playing
tapwater as he asked.the old woman sat in front of the tv
watching,seemingly the owner of the house.his mother later felt boring
and went to bed,after i suggested her to play with her notebook but
she refuted.i backup my downloads to the old pc then powered it
down.my baby spared no effects to beat the keyboard and switch the
power button of the monitor.when we againt playing with tapwater her
mother lost her temper and held our baby back and demanded my leave.i
knew the old woman challenged us in silence.when i started to clean
myself while my baby was milked by his mother,he again catched me and
asked to play with tapwater.later he was calmed by his mother and fell
into sleep and i also slept.in dawn i dreamed of my second elder
brother and second elder sister,and my nephew taking drags in the
dream.my eldest sister commited suicide by throwing herself into
changjiang river in a summer night when i was at grade 2 in middle
school.that's the deepest dent in my heart for i love her so much.so
her son and daughter lived in our home for quite some years till their
father later fetched them home.my baby was put on by his mother early
for me,and we ate breakfast bought by the old woman.my baby asked for
my caress as soon as he getting up with only a shirt.i love him so
much and got up immediately.all morning i held him playing tapwater or
toddled in the rooms.when we all felt boring and i started to sing he
slept on my shoulders and later in my arms.when its 11 am we went to
receive his mother.he asked me buying him a icecream.in the afternoon
we sometimes ate nuts sometimes playing tapwater.the group monitor of
my once working place buzzed in at about 2:30 pm to let me fetch rice
dispatched by qrrs,my once working place.i carried a bag to my baby's
mother's home with my bike and left a bag there for tomorrow to carry.
later the grandmom arrived and my baby was sleeping in my arms.the
sisters talked and forced me again think in the way of god and
religion.i then know there is no way to testimony me among men,but god
and his gospels.the grandmom left soon after caressed my baby some
time while i busy with backup my recent blog to my pda.when we went to
receive his mother,some men haunted around us.we ate a stick of sugar
gourd and enjoyed it.that's our grand day.
today the 2 cafe near the dorm zone all increased its price for 1.5
yuan an hour.china likely steered into inflation now.but the stock
market still bubbling,recording high again and again and the office
media still hosting bubbling commentators to bubble it.and my baby's
mother was lured to try fund agency service.shits.i warned her but in
vain,like all my disappointings to her.she just being narrow minded
and hopelessly stupidly stubborn.
bye.i love u.the moon now very round and large.i love u in her
serenity.kiss u with coming snow.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
pale sunny morning
i woke up at 8:04 am and got up at 10:21 am.last night was not so peaceful for
me.but i slept sound as usual.in morning dog still biting and i had to urined
once.i dreamed my college girlfriend whose family name is liu,and left me after
1 year when we r sophermore.i dreamed she showed me her shot of movie of
my being mad in unversity.so i was told even when i was mad in my 20s'.after
dream i found its wrong.i was sound in my 20s'.another alumni,wenxiong(civil
male) appeared in my dream and tried to relate she and me.she gave me and
wangbin(king's army),a guy from northeast of china,her notes to show her
fondness.after woke up and meandered in the room i doubting if i was forced to
dream this by the neighbor hooligans,i always guessed one of them should
under family name of liu.lius now phenotype in nowaday china,after their sibs
of liushaoqi,the ccp's adhesive and kkb's(i mean secret security force) head
and died after torture.they appeared among the obvious higher social ladder.
i likely had not more to utter.silence covers me with due peace when i was
alone.u can enjoy ur peace so far,but only with me u can find final peace.i hope
ur hair's wave can touch me sooner and i will taste ur lips with ice cold.i love
u.kiss u with bright.bye.
btw,post entitled 'sunny morning,gloomy afternoon' posted Nov 29 there is a

line reads:'last night in a dream my worry of my blogs was hijacked by dog was
replied,i dreamed in a school or someplace in very haste i tried to test if my
blogs' pages returned to me in internet cafes was from a faked website cocted
by cops and redirected.' in which 'cocted' should be 'concocted'.'faked' better
replaced with 'forged'.i mean cop hijacking domain of world into its cheating
domain,just like many internet criminal categoried in title of 'fishing' in
chinese.however criminal can only cheating user with familiar domain but in
fact different domain while dog can hijacked ur page requests and returned u
fake page.
another line within the post reads 'its the last day of our monthly deposit and i
was told i was left one day to deposit duely otherwise missing one
compensating two month.'i quite sometimes think in chinglish,so here
'compensating' should be 'penalized'.the bank ruled missing a month due
deposit of fix term saving and withdraw wholesome,u had to deposit one more
month to get the due profits.i guess.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
propitious night
i returned to my baby's mother's home after posted in the cafe i first

time visited.my gmail was blocked to composite email two days even i
can see its interface.when click on compositing email it popups err
messages.that's dog's show.on the way a cop car passed by me and i
know its really that all the cafe was under dog's surveilance.my baby
welcome my return and immediately asked for my caress.he played with
tapwater all the time before we went out to receive his mother.the old
woman aside urged us not to play with water for sometimes and using
her will to force me think the way of religion and god.my baby lately
also asked to play with cooking utility and i demonstrated him using
knife to slice cabbage.he refused to go out to receive his mother but
i in a haste put him up.on the way he let me haunted on the cross of
the road for some time,then he fell into sleep near the school.we
entered the school yard till saw his mother near the entrance of the
teaching building.at dinner i again full filled.i inquired the price
of apple and in doubt if i can take an apple with me.i left but
returned for forgeting fetching mags his mother needn't any more,and
his mother offered an apple for me with the mags.
dog even hacked files on my udisk.i had a larger udisk from my baby's
wife's mp3 player,which had not a writeproof lock buttom and torpark
on it failed to open any google sites and livejournal.com.but with
torpack from my writeproof udisk i surfed swiftly.they hacked me
recently heavily just before i was ready to logout.they let me paid
more by forcing the web responded slowly to my logout.they succeeded
for 3 or 4 times when i surfed in the cafe charges according half of
an hour as a unit.last night i almost lost temper and complained it to
my baby's mother when she buzzed in for daily bless,saying dog now
descends to hooligan behavior.she let me shut up and i did.with dog,u
can't expect any humanity.
bye.i love u.kiss u with moonlight.
sunny morning,gloomy afternoon
i got up at 9:21 am.last night dog's biting was weak.i read mrs Thatcher's
autobiography late after 11:30 pm.politician's life was quite interesting and her
road to serv her motherland was step by step led by god.god place
responsibility on some prominances like an arrow on the bow.a single person's
life was really short.historic steam soaring with deafing sound.after geting up
and had a bag of milk from my baby's mother's home,i headed to see my
baby.last night in a dream my worry of my blogs was hijacked by dog was
replied,i dreamed in a school or someplace in very haste i tried to test if my
blogs' pages returned to me in internet cafes was from a faked website cocted
by cops and redirected.i can't clearly remember the result but i know i had to
trust god.including these chase and hunting and harass like most disgusting
virus and gay,all god's train onto me.god let israel suffered and let america
humiliated,that just let common sense and common people more sound and
selfsufficient.in the morning i help my baby playing with tapwater against the
old woman's sneers.after 11 am my baby slept in my arms.his mother let me
not to receive her in the phone last night.after his mother shifted him to bed i
copy my blog update to my pda.the lunch with big slice of pork let me full
filled.i just felt god's care and the power of my will.after lunch i secured her
notebook with modification on registry and security settings.then our baby
woke up.after ated some food we held him to have him vaccined.he cried likes
we wrong did him and stopped cry just after his mother held him from my
arms.then i held him to deposit for his graduate education.the branch of the
bank,communication bank of china,was under refurnishment and we were told
to another branch cross 2 streets.there 3 windows stopped service as a
common phenomeno in china stateowned bank.and the rest window quened
each with 2 or 3 persons but the handling process went very slowly.i waited
about half of an hour to let 2 women finished.in our back under the window
facing the street herds the aged,who can't find place with warming utensil and
can gather,as a common phenomeno in north china.my baby on my shoulders
sometimes got irritated.when my turn arrived i was told the magnetism of the
deposit book turned too weak and i had to fetch my id card and my baby's id
card or our residential book to rebuild our deposit book.i argued its their fault
but without any effect.its the last day of our monthly deposit and i was told i
was left one day to deposit duely otherwise missing one compensating two
month.i hated my baby's mother's delaying,but i hated more the stagnant
process of china stateowned banks.i just fed up with quene and slow
process.on the way back to home i complained to my baby how chinese lived
with all these dog shits.after returned i handed my baby to the old woman and
fetch certification as demand and went there again.a dog in yellow coat just
closely near me and biting.he was first on the farest window from the one i
handled but he followed me and sat on the chair i should sit when i dealing.i
intended to test my worry and found 4 or 5 internet cafes all stuffed.that only
indicated how many idle young men awaiting jobs.
bye.i m timing.i love u as usual.kiss u with coming snow white.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
pale sunshine all day
after posting i jogged in the garden for some time.then i went to borrow pc
magzines from qrrs' libray.after some persuading i borrowed 2 copy of
computer fans magzine.i then read newspaper in the newspaper room of qrrs.a
cop haunted there and left.i see religion battle in world.and god let america not
to afford full damage of the disaster of islamics.may or may not its time to see
the fate of dictatorship,but the nation deserted the midasia now boasting to
challenge the world in peace.russia like a half died dinosaur peering to rerivify
itself,letting the old man steal new energy from the updating world.the librains
behind the glass wall biting and later almost gave up.i finished reading a mag
in the rest of afternoon in the dorm.at dinner they didn't offer me any meat on
my routine budget of 3 yuan a meal.i enjoyed it as usual for i really hunger
after reading and being bited.after dinner i ate the apple from my baby's
mother.i waited awhile lest missing her phone.here i registered myself an
www.linkedin.com an account to have an experience of its service as refered by
the mags.some wiki sites were blocked from access now,as i known,but i likely
will enjoy google's soon from its acclaim of www.jot.com.i can't wait for it.life
can be easier via web,but the job market in reality so slumpy that let anyone in
season daunted.and world also see its stalemate in the dogged world with
unease of dirty spot of outdated dicatator systems.god let everyone in the
world a sincere choice to follow,to follow a brighter future with democracy
entended or cogged with sand in it like nowaday zipped world,spoted with fire
and torment.
bye.i love u.kiss u with coming snow white.
pale morning sunshine.
i got up at 10:20 am.dog last night bited lately,including the couples

from hunan prov.,south of china,they trying to peek into my baby's
situation.they have a baby son too.after woke up i stayed on bed
listening radio for awhile,on which elabrating ccp's cardres attracted
a lot of fishing service to let them comsume at cost of public budget
in the title of fishing.after getting up i jogged in the room and
found my murmur in silence in my heart.i was restored to silence when
i m alone.endure and hope like the firefly in summer night,waving and
blinking.i challenge nobody,except ur decision to keep mute to my
craving for u.my prosperous offspring and kingdom r right in the
reality in the future timespace as actual being now.what i enduring
and looking forward to is the pleasure u will bring to me,like fresh
water from deepest valley.i do felt frustrated sometimes,but that's
the recharging process for igniting fresh fighting will.
at lunch i sat a table with 5 girls or women.when a tall girl passed
me from my back i noticed her.i don't know if she was the tall and
strong girl i refered last time but i liked her at once.when she left
and passed by me i notice her leaving again without obvious notice.she
didn't eat lunch there,but just arrived and soon left.i need a girl,i
longing for love with girl.god know this.maybe i m no young,maybe i m
too fatigured.
bye.i love u.kiss u.
星期一, 十一月 27, 2006
sparse morning sunshine,turned thicker in the afternoon
i got up at 8:59 am and headed to see my baby son at once.first time i forgot
to fetch my pda with me.in the way i can't help doubting if my baby and his
mother ok now that dogs losing to their baseline.later at noon his mother told
me she attempted to buzz me last night but was interrupted by a need to shit
and then forgot it.she suffered faint when went to lavatory and almost fell to
ground.i know that's caused by animosity of dog.my baby avoided me in the
old woman's arms and accepted me after i uncoated and cleaned my cold
nose.he sat on my shoulders for quite some time and later asked to play with
tapwater which let the old woman very agonized.when its past 10:40 i had to
stopped my baby who intensively cried for contest not letting him playing water
for he wet his clothes and let the old woman really at a loss.i in a hurry put on
my baby and held him outside to receive his mother.he slept on my shoulders
after i toddled some time on the road near the school,still sobbing.his mother
sometimes lost temper to me and demanded me seeing my baby less
frequent.after lunch we had our baby a shower with the volumn of water
capable of 3 persons.our baby really enjoyed it and loathed to leave the
basin,but his mother fussy with coldness.we played awhile after his mother
left.then my baby tended to feel boring.so i started to sing with my highest
pitch and he gradually dozed on my shoulders.he slept for about an hour in my
songs.the old woman left when i switched singing to whistling.soon my baby
woke up and i felt nicer to hold him haunting new place than staying home.so
we launched.we visited a supermarket titled shenlong(cult dragon) where i
bought him candy,sausage and jelly.we rambled along the busy road and when
passing a district with baby playing tools he asked to play on the slide
board.we ate sausage and candy and jelly at once and ate a lot.for its chilly we
entered another supermarket where we didn't buy.both market attendants let
me sensed my shabby financial position.we also ported in the grocer near his
mother's school.when we played with the mirror of the electronic door of the
school 2 little girls of my baby's colleagues' daughter opened the door and we
followed in,but the watchdog left his room to let us leave.i quarreled with the
man and stayed there.his mother angered to me when heard our story.my
baby however was not seriously chilled.after dinner i let his mother know i
updated her blog and picasaweb album basing shots the day before yesterday
on her notebook while our baby looked aside and happy.the net was speedy
and we can watch her youtube video online and i commented maybe dog avoid
her but only hacking me.i asked for an apple to bring back to dorm,and 3 bag
of milk she disliked.that's our happy day today.
after his parents rejoin in the second
snow of the winter
i love u.last night i felt u r likely under deep threat for ur love to me.i love u
and hope u can let me know ur scent.kiss u with snow white.
new moon represents my heart for u tonight,which i let my baby seen in the
dusk.
发表者 benzrad 以 4:27 上午 0 评论
星期日, 十一月 26, 2006
full sunny day.
in the afternoon just after posting i wandered in the sunshine for

about half of an hour.the sun was bright and the wind was mild.quite
some young qrrser left the dorm from the door of the dorm in qrrs'
uniform.i toddled till ill willes let me uncomfortable.so i shifted to
room and continued to toddle in it.later i listened to the radio.the
first song from a familiar song sang in japanese.i knew i had a link
with it.i wondered my family,my baby son,and his mother.i know nothing
can hinder the step of our forward.dogs biting now in the cafe farer
than starsea.they r the remain of shits on this dirty coign of
northeastern of china.
bye.i'd better do some reading.i love u,in this waste piazza.dogs
around me chatted and smoked.i really troubled by the question why
they live in this world.
i love u.kiss u with beer to cleanse.
发表者 benzrad 以 2:31 上午 0 评论
Sunday, November 26, 2006
bright morning sunshine
i woke up at 7:13 am and got up after 11 am.i busy with restoring my

pda os and reading my posts on it.after lunch,i doubting if buzzed my
baby's mother but unsure if she returned from her school and give
up.the sunshine is so bright and warm that let me felt
blessed.www.google.com and its analytic is blocked for 2 days but now
available.and i found its analystic very pwerful in offering
analyse.yesterday i first time recently visited starsea cafe and now i
again here.more or less i enjoy its lcd and cheap price of 1 yuan an
hour.
bye.i likely timed out.
i love u.kiss u with bright.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
snowing in half day but didn't entitled a snowy day.
last night after posted in the cafe,i wondered in the dorm.till i felt
quite sure about myself and my previlege to see my baby at my will,i
headed to see my baby at once after 8 pm.before i went to the cafe,
his mother buzzed in inquired me about her problem with her
notebook,she didn't let me know she was alone with our baby.when i
arrived there she was breasting our baby and the old woman left for 2
days to see her relatives nearby.i felt very sorry for her loneliness
at once.my baby got energetic and played some other time before went
to sleep.we had a nice night.in the mroning her mother arrived to see
our baby as arranged in advance and i still loathe to get up.my baby
let me get up and i found his mother had left to her school.i held my
baby played some time and when his grandmom wanted to play with him i
turned on the notebook and tried awhile surfing on the web.blogger.com
was accessible but google.com and gmail.com inaccessible.soon i fed up
with very slow surfing speed and gave up.his mother returned awhile
and left again to her school.later i held my baby going out to receive
his mother.when we looked at the mirror of the electronic gate the
gate opened for a male staff and the man on his back talked to me i
can enter with an accquaintance with the watchdog.so we entered.soon
we saw his mother leaving.we asked by phone order a dish from the
neighbor restaurant for lunch.after lunch his mother milked him and
fell into sleep.so did my baby, with his mother's nipper in mouth.so i
went to public bathroom to shower.when i returned home,the son of her
aunt there studying.the grandmom returned and loathed to cook and
suggested to eat out but my baby's mother wanted to be economic.we
finally ate dinner at home with needle.my baby's mother tutored a girl
student lately.before the grandmom left i suggested to my baby's
mother let the grandmom stay there a night but she refused.but my
baby's mother also refuted my suggestion i stayed there a night
instead.she said now that it will be routine in the future so i
needn't worry about them.i respected her independence as her shown
many time in our marriage.after dinner she tried to work on her
notebook to prepare test paper for her school as homework and i held
my baby trying killing time.my baby wanted to play with her notebook
but he is always considerable and let his mother finished her
work.then we reunited to play games for about an hour.i left at 8:58
pm even i felt sorry for them.
the snow,as i know should be the scond snow in this winter,finally
didn't cover the road,just let the rim of the road white.i felt glad
to see its attempt,and hope it arrives more tonight.
bye.i love u.not matter how far u r now from me.kiss u with white.
Friday, November 24, 2006
weak sunny day
its a busy afternoon for me.after posted at noon i went to the libray
of qrrs to borrow 2 pc magzines.then went to the newspaper reading
room in the workers' palace to read world reference digest (in chinese
'cankaoxiaoxi').its very informative but dogs biting heavily.i felt
china in the path steadily leading itself into world war while its
head spare no efforts to boast its earnest hope for 'human
coexistence', just like many powder barrel in the prelude of 2 world
wars.there r some problems in the world concerning offering and
giving.china, like many inresponsible seeker after fed up with too
much taking while without thanksgiving.the fruits of democracy, of
god's leading, of western culture, were shared but the primitives took
a pirate and rober's stance.china sees its fastest improvement after
opening to the world but just crying for breedings without
feedback.its its problem.its bussiness pattern got bankrupt,got
insustainable.western world can't afford such a tumor under his
belly.god can't see sand in his eyes.the swallowing freak and monster
itself can't live in itself peace.its consuming more and more living
spirits and living spices in peace.it destroyed its most arable land
and dirty its most river.it squeezed into its most young bones and
destoryed its most vivid inspiring of the nation newly
fire-baptised.its now attempted to leak its troubled water into the
world.it bragged its good will all over the world under the title of
'human something' while in its backyard sparing no efford to arm it to
its teeth.it sells its responsibilty for expendience anywhere any
time.it can't hold its laughable shortsighted desire to sat in
limelight and babbled like shits.that's china in today's world
stadium.
bye.i love u.kiss u with coming snow.
weak morning sunshine
i woke up at 8:37 am and got up at 9:59 am.again i felt loathe to get

up.last night i can access blogger.com and blogspot.com without proxy
and now its also accessible directly.it lets me in doubts for quite
some moments in the night in the room.i even review my point and
position this morning.in the morning i listened to the radio after
getting up and dog around let my chest painful.so i launched to haunt
around the area of qrrs.i visited its sports stadium whose door now
was narrowed to allow a man to slide in (the fat even need to slide in
with turning his or her shoulders from 2 sides to a side
foreward.).and its field underwent innovation,covered totally with
clothes.then i went eastern of its part,where near the suburb and now
the cross over road was larged boardened and house aside the roads
enhenced with refurnished or rebuilt.a quite large house of qrrs
turned into the policestation of the municipal gov. ,just behind its
hostel.i doubting what's the deal,qrrs,a former stateowned enterprise
with some social functions under state planning mechanism,now strived
to extend its hand into municipal function.all those in army rank or
state plannying hierachy now shift themselves into civil service,but
in core still a dicatator,a rober and a stealer,in guise of public
service,like cop.it acting both public service and state force.but in
china they never can hide their brutal use of force to keep common
people from its dictating interest group.china in most history owning
powerer domestic force than its defense force against hostil foreign
nations,cops more than arms.that's the source of pressing and robery
and dictatory, and source of humiliation in china's fall in neoteric
history.no civil right,no nationality harmony,but prey of the
reined.they r in fact the biggest enemy of china and they indeed
defensed themself at cost of china,then and now.
after returned to the dorm i again felt unconfortable..i was deserted
in the dustbin and fight to live in rubbish in soundness.
bye.i love u.kiss u with coming snow.
sunny day
i got up at 10:55 am for my pda charging.when i fetched my bike the

gatewatcher insisted asking me how i will deal with the rice qrrs now
dispatching.and i knew its near time for chinese company to dispatch
their wellfare.they with this way to hole their staff tight and mute
to their blacksmith.almost there is no way for chinese company to
survive with legal methods and so every company,no matter how tiny or
how large,had to deal with theft and any other abnormal means against
the its counterparts and high level or low level counterparts to
survive.that's china's reality.dogs push anyone into need to
entrenched themselves with dogged method.that's dog's plot to turn the
world into dog's rein.from the basic ethic dog claims anything without
its admision is illegal,and its admision changing at its will,in no
place of a vow or a cord.that's dication in china,as prc's
foundamental rule sovereign the mainland.
my baby received me near the door of bedroom and he avoided me as
usual in the old woman's arms.after i took him he didn't left my
caress in the morning and afternoon.we went out at 11 am and we ate an
icecream and some soft candies.his mother seemingly not so happy with
me.but we reunited after lunch after she complained surviving priority
to a better life and i persuaded her leting mind overview the reality
and after she breaded our baby and i teased my baby aside.her mother
later arrived in the afternoon and i at once felt her hatred and even
dirty will.my baby asked for playing with water then,against the
sisters' scorns.i had to let my baby go out to receive his mother in
advance,for my baby got irregular.in outside he peacefully sat on my
shoulders.we went to the south garden where 3 little boys playing
under a tree while a man stood on the rim of a circle round the root
of the tree and talking with his cell phone.we avoided them and after
turned a round my baby still felt the group of playing little boy and
girls attracting him and let me followed them some distance.when we
approached the door of the school i asked about time with a woman
aside and we chatted in english.after received his mother we returned
and his mother told me today is thanksgiving day.i had complained
missing the tasty hunan dish in these day so i suggested we can
gathered for a taste to hunan dish.after dinner we played awhile with
our baby and let him very happy.his mother let me fetch 2 apples and 2
bagged milk,comparing yesterday she pretendingly refusing me fetching
an apple.
on the way to dorm,i met a lot of middle school students on bike or
waiting for bus.i really felt holiday month is near.so i headed to
dorm directly and buzzed my hometown and talked with my mother.on the
way here i felt this year very swift,for i still can remember last
spring festeval's merry atmospher.a cop car ported near the cafe and
when i arrived the boss laid one of his leg on the reception desk and
immediately 2 cops in uniform entered and one of them asked to talk
with the boss closely.they looked quite familiar.last night before i
left i felt heavily bited and a middle aged man haunted around,and my
torpark slow to respond.
i love u.kiss with with snow and bright.
btw,the torpark in rar at http://benzrad.googlepages.com/or.rar was
password protected against cop's unauthorized modification.its
password is 'shitdog',but still its likely broken.there is likely no
way to avoid surveilance now that they can manipulate byte flow and
remote control all internet cafe within china.torpark is freeware,but
quite some time i can't download it from its homepage or from any site
in the search result of google.i even can't download from my
googlepages as refered above.dog showily domineer.
bright sunshine all day.
in the afternoon i read pc magzine till 4 pm.dogs in the dorm bited

heavily and sometimes forced me notice their plots.after finished both
the pc mags,i left to see my baby.my baby avoided me in the old
woman's arms for awhile.later i held him playing.he played with
tapwater for quite some time and let the old woman very annoyed.i was
told his mother will leave her school after 7 pm for night lessons.i
felt very longthy.my baby dozed awhile on my shoulders when we toddled
in waiting room and bedroom,but he soon woke up.we ate pinenuts and
nuts.we left home to receive his mother after 6:30 pm and dogs in the
street let my belly painful.the lamps was bright and parents receiving
their children herd.my baby made some loud voice and i screamed to
echo.soon we saw his mother.i copied a soft to make gif file and then
ate dinner.dogs modified the anonymous surfing soft,torpack,i uploaded
to my googlepages at http://benzrad.googlepages.com/or.rar and let it
illworking,hardly open any officially blocked website like bogger.com
or blogspot.com,while i used it on my udisk to surf blogger and
blogspot hadn't encountered any problem.they broke my account into
midifying my documents and blogs at will,they enjoyed tracing and
stealing and messing as their pleasure,they born thief and
hooligan.and failures after failures they still bug me for their host
can't afford its losing,its collapse and evaporing.
its a quite nice day.it telling me nothing went wrong.god training me
to be patience and fortitude.nothing out of landscape.
bye.i love u.kiss u with coming snow,the white washed the dirty
black.glory to god.
uncompetitive morning sunshine
i got up at 9:51 am.these days in dorm i sometimes felt loath to get

up,let me doubting dog's biting in silence costly for my energy.in the
dawn i dreamed something but now i forgot.after getting up i listened
radio awhile then i went to borrow some pc magzines.more pc magzine
seeing absence there these days than when i first time haunted
here,indicating someone competed with me to borrow them.after retuned
to dorm i started to read one of them.at lunch i ate a fish but still
felt partly filled.the canteen full of qrrsers so i ate my lunch at
room.
i had not too much to utter now.at noon 2 songs in the radio lyrics
missing and i don't know if u r missing me.
bye.i love u.kiss u with the unbeatable sunshine.
transparent sunshine morning,turned thick in the

afternoon
i got up at 9:11 am and headed to see my baby at once.last night i

dreamed a lot,but the sunshine told me nothing special.my baby turned
back into the old woman's arms when caught sight of me.and i
forcefully held him back after uncoated.i accompanied him playing all
the day.he slept when i reciting chinese traditional poems in the
morning when its almost 9:45 am.the old woman had left to shop.my baby
slept on my shoulders and in my arms for about an hour.after woke up
we went out to receive his mother.the door of the school locked.when a
man on his bike entered we followed to enter but the man on the bike
let us left.i didn't move.then the watchdog went outside of the
outpost and poised to let us leave.so we left.that really disgusted
me.it let me doubting the reason why all chinese organizations liked
to enclose their territory and set watchdogs.for china was dominated
by dog,they fighted for prey,they divided china society into their
properties.they cleaned all livings alien to them,except their
prey.they r born inferor and they have no way to cooperate with other
living spices and enjoyed the plenty world together.so they r so born
to fight each other,to tear,to bite around.they r born to starve.they
r born to fear,and exert their fear and fright to anything in their
view.they deserve as a tool as a inferior product of human.opening is
their hate and their biggest enemy.human is their second hate and
their second biggest enemy.they r doomed to fight against human in the
end.and its hight time to extingush them from earth from now,as i
claimed in a post within google group,sci.language.
when we saw some of teachers leaving,we sat in front of the door
waiting.2 cops haunted 2 circles.and a car ported near the door block
our view partially.we soon saw my baby's mother.after lunch i sorted
my pda awhile.then his mother left.i held my baby playing.we both felt
a bit boring.after 2:30 pm he slept on my shoulders when i sang in my
full pitch.first he slept sound near my left ear.after an hour he
partially awoke but loath to open his eyes.i shaked him up and we
started to eat pine nuts.we had a good time eating while chatting.we
went out to receive his mother after 4:00 pm.we ate a stick of sugared
gourd.when teachers leaving my baby directed us slide in.but a tall
watchdog murmured behind us,likely saying their boss warned not to let
us in.so we left and his mother catched us just near the door.i ate
dinner there.my baby pretended to watch tv concentratedly to ignore my
leaving and let us both smile.he now showily kept distance from me.he
really emotionally smart.
today is a nice day as anticipate.the weather forecast in the radio
let snow for two days but its warm and sunny both day.but the night is
cold.maybe next morning i can see white.
bye.i love u as usual.kiss u with bright.
Date:
pale
afternoon
but
Subject: sometimes
the sun is
clear with
clouds.
Security: Public
the cafe charged me 2 yuan even i just used 1 hour and 7 minutes.i felt sorry for myself for
exceed budget.in the room i felt had to rest awhile,likely being bited heavily in the cafe
which is very hot and 2 boys later aside me let me quite unconfortable.i read my post on
my pda till 2:30 pm.then i went to the libray of qrrs to borrow 2 pc magzines.i went there
on foot.a young man arrived there just before me.i started to skim the encyclopedias when
the man chatted with the librarain.then the librarain let me wait her awhile for she had to
leav e for a moment.then i read a pc mag there and felt being bited.returned to the room in
the dorm,biting even heavier when i sat facing the window to read.however i finished one
copy.i just sense a new wave of challenge launched after some peaceful days of break
passed.
no matter how illwilled the surrounding things,i had no worry to hindersight.i know and
stand in my position.the world in my view rests on my shoulders.i had the id to respond to
it,as the bible says,my bread is the task my Father set to me.
bye.i love u.kiss u with the pure white of coming snow.i love u like the roll in rolling.
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Date: 2006-11-20 12:30

Subject: pale morning sunshine
Security: Public
i got up at 10:55 am.last night likely dirty willes thick and i almost wet dreamed.in the
dawn i dreamed attending the funeral of the eldest brother of my dad in my hometown.the
music for the funeral very coarse and loudly.then the watchwoman of the dorm knocked my
door to let me receive a phone call.its from the group mornitor of my once working
place,saying last time i admitted to attend work time why i didn't attend so far.and asked
me to call the department director.i returned to dorm to continue my sleep.till 10 am i
turned on my radio which elaberate if grandparents caring their grand child should charge
for the parents.i knew a new web plotted by dog aiming trapping me into machinery dog
system launched for years in the short history of prc.the group mornitor,a graduate once
boasting his coorperation with the nasty local hooligans within the organization now has a
taste to his descend.all the graduates now chose the pits set by the gov. to let him
temporarily partake the state power or public service left with the same outlet,the same
dustbin.they doomed to live in humdrum,in mediocre.china now manipulated and
monopolied by dog,which refute any inprovement and progress except its biting teeth to
steal and prey,its dirty spying eyes putting anyone into foul or criminal.anything original can
be stained,anything with grace can only be withered with the dominant dirty around.that's
the fate of prc.
bye.i love u.kiss u with mops of pale cloud.
dog hindered my download of anonymous surfing soft now.
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pale sunny afternoon
in the morning when i surfed in the cafe,it turned to be slower and

slower to return a page from the net.dogs these days determined to
show their unabled to afford to lose.soon after i arrived my baby's
mother's home his mother returned when i just prepared my baby to
haunt outside.then i want to show my blog update within my googlepages
at http://benzrad.googlepages.com ,and i launched to set my
googlepages on her notebook.the all afternoon spent fruitlessly
attempting setting it but dog hampered my googlepages to
published.each time when i attempt to save modification and publish it
it let the page popup windown saying can't save while its
disconnected.but it in fact online.it even let the popup window
showing from google.com.it really can shame anyone with its foul.
after i finished my shower in the public bathroom,my baby's mother
held him went to see her mother.i tried again.after again being hacked
i gave up and left.on the way i met my baby and his mother so we
returned her home.there i ate dinner.i drank a bottle of bear to let
go the dirty after dancing with dogs.
returned to the dorm i listened awhile radio.and i felt better surfing
with crowd to avoid concentrated hack when i single out in the few
cafe users.
after all ,it s a nice day.i did what i can envised.dog's hacking and
blocks only remind me how far yet the reality under dog's surveilance
lagging me,lagging the advance of china,and urged me to fight with
more energy.
bye.i lvoe u.kiss u with the pure white of the coming snow.
2006-11-19 09:35
Date:
Subject: limp morning sunshine
i got up at 8:41 am.last night the dog's bite is faint.i fell into sleep after some waits.the
cafe in which i lost its register card finally didn't return the key money i handed in of 10
yuan by delaying to deal with my problem and let me trying to find back.it can be safely
to claim that in nowaday china dogged by dog there is no grace anywhere anyway.every
vendors compete to be bitchy.for there is no way to warrent common people,common
cusumers' interests.social gathering banned or under tighten surveilance.individule
complains directed to cops or civil department where to detain.
in the dawn i dreamed one of my college alumni,chenxinjian,handling a task of
dispatching and returning a form in which likes a population survey to fill in ur name
detailedly.then i envisioned a web service to let people register their name online and
write down their tour to tourism on web and let the web constructs the virtual map of the
landscape,maybe a bit like google earth.in the end of the dream i saw a chinese .com
titled shushen(learner) or shutong(pupil) strived to offer this kind of service.
its a ordinary sunny morning.last night i worked here for 4 hours to modify my
googlepages as well as my baby's mother's.i will see my baby after posted here.
bye,i love u.kiss u.
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ordinary sunny afternoon
the cafe i surfed in the morning banned modifying its ie settings so i

can't use proxy.my email blog to blogger.com was blocked or captured
while email to post to googlegroup succeeded.when i arrived my baby's
mother's home his grandmom there.i soon held him outside to receive
his mother.on the way he fell into sleep on my shoulders.when his
mother appeared in the crowd of the students he woke up.we ate some
croakers at lunch.after lunch i busy with boasting my work last night
for making her googlepages ready and she admitted it.then the two old
sisters went to shower and my baby was held by his mother haunting
outside,leaving me alone trying to do some final touch to her
googlepages.but i soon fed up with slow speed and gave up.then i
operated on pc offline to sort my sd card of my pda,and attempting to
find my heading works when i worked for qrrs cable tv but in vain.time
glides and then all members returned.my baby slept sound in his
mother's arms and till i finished my dinner he woke up from bedroom.we
ate dumplines at dinner.then i docked a cafe far from qrrs dorm zone
but near then the cafe i surfed in the morning.i tried quite some pcs
but most of its front usb port was disabled.and in the process i lost
its registry card.it took me 10 yuan as key money and likely a dispute
awaiting me.
bye.i love u.kiss u with jeer.
heavily hacked.proxy mostly blocked.google logined but returned a
interface without due logined information while open www.gmail.com it
open ur email box.dog captured and manipulated byte flows.
ordinary sunny morning
last night my baby's mother asked for net storage for her video file
in our daily bless and i felt she now become enjoying cyberspace.so i
felt encouraged to went to cafe again after 9 pm to publish her
googlepages and registered her another youtube account.i finished
after 11 pm.before i finished some persons haunted around my seat and
i was heavily bited.however,i felt accomplished on the way returning
to dorm.in the night i felt weakest bite on me,but i however still
fell into sleep a bit late.i had to get up to make water before i fell
into sleep.in the dawn i remembered i dreamed first a man determined
to improve railway's efficience and offer people a cheaper and faster
railway.but he was hunted by a laidoff of railway,likely a foremore
watchman.but the determined man finally succeeded.then i was brought
into the western area of china and there an old woman whose hometown
was eastern of china collecting a lots of old coins of ancient china
and with a woman caring her.she had a nice sword and won anothe young
woman by only a poise in their compete.in the end we r on a train to
eastern china and its aftermath i can't memory now.
its peaceful cafe till now.i first time enjoy the widescreen lcd of
brand acer.gamers babbled but that's the pleisure of digital life.i
will saw my baby after posted here.i can't see the width and depth of
surveilance of dog but i enjoyed the peace by now.last night in cafe
after i posted my email to my blogger successfully via proxy and just
when i browseing a political group within google group the web was cut
off.and i had to switched to surf without proxy.so the surveilance
penetrating the proxy,through the byte flow.every internet cafe's
registeration card seemingly serialized in the united number
series,indicating from a centual monitor.
bye.i love u.china never can seperate from the world.the brutal
surveilance system by dog and its dictated host never survived a
century.changes underwent unnoticeable.i saw the world under god's
united kingdom all over.
kiss u with bright.
clear warm sunny day.
last night after returning to the dorm,my baby's mother soon buzzed in
and in our talk she was very cordial.then i do some reading to the
autobiography of Margaret Hilda Thatcher while leting the rodio
on.after 10 pm i wandered awhile in the room and fell into deep love
and deep sorrow for my baby.i sorry i didn't choose the internet cafe
near his mother's home when i knew i had choice to pick a closer cafe
with a more possible to visit him after posting, but i chose a near
cafe to discipline myself and my baby.in a moment i decided to visit
my baby and stay there a night to compensate my sorrow.then i headed
on when its almost 11 pm.when i arrived the house was dark and after i
turned on bedroom lamp i found his mother breasting him.i held his arm
and felt so dear.after i settled his mother spent quite some time to
let him sleep.and i had a very sound and consolidated sleep.in the
morning his mother got up early to put him on but i just felt
sleepy,for recently i never got up so early.when they ate their
breakfast my baby approached me to wake me up to eat,and i got up
immediately.the morning spent holding my baby playing in the rooms.he
just like to play with all the household materials.when its 10:30 am i
held him outside to receive his mother.just after we got to the ground
he slept on my shoulders and he slept about an hour outside.thx the
sun so bright and warm,he slept very sound.when we turned around and
found the door of the school open and we entered.just a few steps we
saw his mother coming on her bike.at lunch i turned on tv and watch
cctv news and commented the most thing i like to do with cctv was to
dissect it,for its really smothering,quite some original provincial tv
like hunan tv and zhejiang tv,all fade into humdrum for had no access
to independent news under the nowaday censory.then i talked about a
topic detailed last night radio about some universities limited their
students from using their pc by cut down power supply after 0 pm or
even 10:30 pm,i commented dog always likes biting.then i suddenly
recognized at least one of daughters of the old woman married a
cop.maybe her own husband also a cop.i laid aside the idea when i let
my baby playing most of the afternoon,but when its near 4 pm i took a
glimpse into the possiblity of the spy of the old woman and possible
plot concocted by cops around my baby and my old family.then the old
woman urged me to leave.she warmed up some bean juice with mahua(fried
needle) for my baby,when i commented its tasteless she replied my baby
liked it.since the old woman arrived the home was stuffed with all
kinds of biscuits and fruits.i never fed my baby soon frequently daily
with those boughted packed foods.she also seldom cook a changing
diet.most of time in winter our dish was carrot and cabbage sliced
into pieces.my baby sensed my leaving and asked for the caress of the
old woman in advance,leting me doubting her silent exertion on my baby
in these days.
however,she was leaving.my baby's mother told me last time she will be
replaced by the kid sister of her mother.no matter how the evils
brewing,none can harm my baby in fact and indeed.that's my
understanding to the final.
bye.i love u.in these days i also felt hatred toward u and sometimes
indifferent to ur presence.but quite sometimes i felt ur message,ur
love to me must be under deep distort by the animosity and i sure we r
the loved and the coupled with their fruits.
kiss u with bright.
weak sunshine afternoon
i finished registering my account at www.livejournal.com at

http://benzillar.livejournal.com then left.before i finished a dog
seated aside,likely a cop in guise.the cafe titled freedom cafe but
still its very slow when i open a web page,indicating under
supervision of dog.afternoon i laid on bed listening radio but later
the power was cut temperary for about an hour and i stayed in
silence.dog hunting around and let me uncomfortable.sometimes i felt
feeding up with dog but i calmed myself that they just let me remember
my responsibility to cover their corpses with earth on time the day
they doomed.the three cafes near the dorm zone all likely wired to
monitor me, and i lost most of my time on web these days to read my
google contents for i had to fight for a viable proxy to post to my
blog at blogger.its a hunting but i was just bugged to unease.the day
they lose seen by all foresighted people.
bye.i love u.kiss u with blossom.
sunny morning
i got up at 11:09 am.last night some illwishes lingered on my body

indifferent directions let me doubt if they r from women.i fenced it
lately and had to get up to make water in midnight.all the dawn i in
dream seemingly doubting if and where i should find myself another
blog site against the possible blocking and pretension by chinese
cops.my blog at myspace.com never blocked but any members of myspace
can't be open for quite some time,indicating hacking or hajacked.my
blog at blogger suffered blocking and hajacking.my only blog within
china at blogcn.com,likely under censory for posting had to wait a day
to display.dogs extending their tent to the most of their ability to
trap me.
bye.i love u.no near no far.kiss u with bright.
clear sunny day.
i woke up at 8:23 am and got up at 9:00 am.i dreamed the ceremony of

the prc's foundation,in which mao acted as a crabbed host and zhude
offer a lecture of reciting his poem in traditional chinese poem
form.i went to see my baby son at once.my baby again hide himself in
the hug of the old woman when caught sight of me.but he immediately
approached me and cried when i insisted kissing his leg.all morning i
held him playing at home,till near 10:30 he slept on my shoulders.i
tied him with a carpet of whose two side i held tight to keep warm and
rest his wrest when he slept on my neck.his mother's return woke him
up and his mother busy with let me restore her os and installed again
the domestic antivirus soft titled rising.after lunch we played with
our baby awhile while continuing installation and backup.then we
haunted outside.his mother headed to her school and we toddled on the
street toward the school.when we arrived there and found its door half
open we slided in.a class there having sport lesson and we played on
the yard and gradually approached the teaching building.some students
on the corridor cleaning the ladder and stainless steel bar of the
ladder.my baby stood motionlessly there watched them working.some
teachers acquainted with us.even i felt we r venturing to enter the
working area but we finally retreated to the outer yard again without
any retardment in the building while some men and women busy around.in
the sports yard we played awhile a ditched football till his mother
catched us and urged us to leave.my baby cried awhile after left the
school and i bought an icecream and a bag of inflation food for him
and he demanded eating the icecream at once and we did.he liked the
icecream.i bought some dates(zhao) from the fruit shop on the way,in
memory my search for u.we again played on the waiting room and when i
started to sing loudly my baby slept on my shoulders again.from 3:30
to 4:30 he slept sound on my neck.when i attempted to shift him to bed
he woke up.and i returned after my baby peacefully farewelled to me.
at dinner i sat a table with 3 girls likely middle school students.i
drank a bottle of bear for the dish is greasy.when i let out bubble
from my belly,the girl facing me responded and let me smiled a lot.
last night in the cafe i was heavily hacked.a website of www.pxdxa.com
was blocked for quite some time and let me doubting if its shut.so
when i surf with proxy i checked it and found its well working.so i
started to download my pda a doc editor but dogs not let me having it
to correct my blog they frequently modified within my account they
broke in and let the pc hanged.i reset two times but it still
illworking,so i changed a pc but it again being hacked to err and when
i killed some suspectable process it rebooted itself.then i left.dog
really saw more and more their losing.
bye.i love u.kiss u with warm heart.
all day sunny.
the air is warm.the sky is clear.i went to the library of qrrs to

borrow 3 copies of pc magzines.i read one of it thoroughly in the
sunshine in room.dogs bited around when i read.the cafe's boss likely
a dog.last time he pretending sleeping on the chair on my back and
laid a leg on a stool pointed me.that and other dogs in the cafe let
me unconfortable for all the time i surfed there.this time he peeked
his head around me and retreated when catched sight of me far from the
sight of the recept desk of the cafe.dogs just out of their track.
its a busy afternoon for me,for i kept reading till dinner time.in
fact i almost forgot the time to dinner.but i m also at leisure,for pc
magzine entertained me.at dinner there r quite some young girls likely
lodged middle school students of qrrs' middle school.i don't hesitate
a second to sit aside the table they sat.they r just so eyes
attacting.
dogs biting now.i had not so much to utter now.i just felt its a long
time in today and felt relaxed by tomorrow's visiting my baby son.i
love life like this,no matter how lonely my heart in search for
girls,in searching u.
bye.i will do some reading on web.i love u.kiss u with lightened heart.
beautiful sunshine.
i woke up at 8:03 am and started to listen radio when its just to 9:00
am.dogs let me urgent to make water but i held it till after 8 am.the
economic channel of beijing's centual radio reporting iron demands
slumping and retail price of agriculture and house increasing.but the
stock market soaring.i always felt puzzled when the cpc claimed from
their sovereign the country was a whole unity and all property share
and all member of the people r workers of the country,how can it
breeds so many stockholders.these interest groups or blocks or dots
within the unity or outside of the unity and bargain with the unity?if
within the unity,if the one unity died?if its outside of the unity
then from the start the unity was not a unity,but a dominating one
with other unities.if the prc was a mighty master with arm force,how
can its servants,those high rank cardres with well salary,hold their
restrains not to steal the property of his master,esp. when now they
earn high salary and bargain in the stock market with stateowned
enterprises' stateowned shares,ie the master,and those free
enterpreneurs and foreigh investors, with their salary as their
capital? or if the new products as surplus of the unity and dispersed
among its members including the master and its servants according to
their contributions,as the marxism claimed the source of the commence
of private property,who will judge the distribution righteous? i
always felt the china stock market just a unreal cheating arena to
money laundry the stealing cardres' theft.i only know russia dispersed
all stateowned enterprise equally to its people and after that can be
a free market to be found,and i think that's probably the only way to
deal with china's stateowned property.
Monday, November 13, 2006
started to uncomparable sunshine in afternoon.
i got up at 9:13 am.i dreamed temporarily lived in a family with a son and a daughter
and their parents.my elder brother and our once old bull also appeared in my
dream.after woke up i knew my second elder brother and my second elder sister endured
the hardest time in our grand father's youth as well as the new republic and they had the
will and reservation for a boarder dream not paler than mine.
when i arrived my baby received me happily.but he cried to refuse my kissing his leg but
i did on my own.i held him playing the basin in which there r some used water.he
messed up all cook utensils available.he slept on my shoulders when its near 10:30 am
and woke up when his mother returned at 11:30 am.after lunch we haunted outside as i
suggested to shot.we went to sports yard where a crowd of elemental school students
there and watched us shotting.after returned home i busy with sorting the sd card while
his mother milked him.when his mother left for her school he approached me to ask for
my attending him.all afternoon he insisted my caress him to play.we really had a good
time even i frequently want to continue my work on pc.he slept when its 3:30 pm on my
neck for an hour.i sang a lot when he sleeping.we watched tv peacefully after he woke up
till his mother returned.then i busy with backup shots to my udisk.after dinner i left and
ported here to write u and published our shots.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bright.hope the snow bring u clean and clear mind.
btw, the post titled 'pale morning,now snowing. ' posted on Nov. 12 including a line
reads 'who shown the caligraphy of his father,likely named xiaqing(summer cyan),who
experted at handwriting and crave and also a worker's model medalist as being a middle
school teacher for qrrs' school as i known.',in which the 'crave' should be 'carve',i meant
seal carving,in chinese zhuanke.
for blogger was blocked by chinese dogs.u can still read it via my google doc.
my blog from 2006.8.10--11.9
my blog update after 20066.11.9
baby in first serious snow in the winter
baby in the first serious snow in the winter
baby in the first serious snow in the winter in nearby sports yard.
afternoon snow finally let it like a real snow of winter.
when i left the cafe at noon its snowing and continously in the
afternoon.i roamed in the snow in the tree yard of the dorm zone.some
little students there attending class there sliding on the ice and let
me befirended.i toddled for about an hour.snow gathered on my suite
but it didn't wet it.then i returned room and wandering and
wondering.later i listened radio on bed.then read autobiography of
Margaret Hilda Thatcher,the former primer of uk.till 4:20 pm i laid it
down and ready to left for dinner.after dinner i sorted my family
email list within my gmail and most of the an hour passed.now i m
ready to leave.dog's biting restlessly.
bye.i love u.my seat near the lavatory which is smelly.so i wouldn't
kiss u.the white snow blesses u.its so refreshing,so ehchanting.thx
god.
pale morning,now snowing.
i woke up after 7 am and started to listen radio at 9:18 am.in the dawn i dreamed one of
my once colleague named xiaxiaodan(summer little red),who shown the caligraphy of his
father,likely named xiaqing(summer cyan),who experted at handwriting and crave and
also a worker's model medalist as being a middle school teacher for qrrs' school as i
known.the grandson and granddaughter busy practising handwriting under his
influence.then i in a sports yard and i jogged on the track and found soccor training
team.then some young men playing poker on the yard.they r likely offspring of wellbeing
and gangsters,both have lots of leisure time.then their wifes replaced them to playing
there and they shifted to a table farer the side of the yard to play.dogs biting while i
stayed on bed listening radio and then i recalled ur possible interaction with me.i got up
near 10 am.
after lunch i here busy with sorting my contacts list,mainly my own and my son and his
mother's email accounts.i likely to exceed 1 hour here this time even i felt sorry.but in
fact with the 50 yuan from my once working place i didn't bankrupt my budget of lodge
and board.
the snow likely stopped.i hope she can help me clean my hot brain with contnuous
snowing.
weak sunshine afternoon

i finished registering my account at www.livejournal.com at
http://benzillar.livejournal.com then left.before i finished a dog
seated aside,likely a cop in guise.the cafe titled freedom cafe but
still its very slow when i open a web page,indicating under
supervision of dog.afternoon i laid on bed listening radio but later
the power was cut temperary for about an hour and i stayed in
silence.dog hunting around and let me uncomfortable.sometimes i felt
feeding up with dog but i calmed myself that they just let me remember
my responsibility to cover their corpses with earth on time the day
they doomed.the three cafes near the dorm zone all likely wired to
monitor me, and i lost most of my time on web these days to read my
google contents for i had to fight for a viable proxy to post to my
blog at blogger.its a hunting but i was just bugged to unease.the day
they lose seen by all foresighted people.
bye.i love u.kiss u with blossom.
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sunny morning
i got up at 11:09 am.last night some illwishes lingered on my body

indifferent directions let me doubt if they r from women.i fenced it
lately and had to get up to make water in midnight.all the dawn i in
dream seemingly doubting if and where i should find myself another
blog site against the possible blocking and pretension by chinese
cops.my blog at myspace.com never blocked but any members of myspace
can't be open for quite some time,indicating hacking or hajacked.my
blog at blogger suffered blocking and hajacking.my only blog within
china at blogcn.com,likely under censory for posting had to wait a day
to display.dogs extending their tent to the most of their ability to
trap me.
bye.i love u.no near no far.kiss u with bright.

clear sunny day.
Category: Life
i woke up at 8:23 am and got up at 9:00 am.i dreamed the ceremony of the prc's
foundation,in which mao acted as a crabbed host and zhude offer a lecture of
reciting his poem in traditional chinese poem form.i went to see my baby son at
once.my baby again hide himself in the hug of the old woman when caught sight of
me.but he immediately approached me and cried when i insisted kissing his leg.all
morning i held him playing at home,till near 10:30 he slept on my shoulders.i tied
him with a carpet of whose two side i held tight to keep warm and rest his wrest
when he slept on my neck.his mother's return woke him up and his mother busy
with let me restore her os and installed again the domestic antivirus soft titled
rising.after lunch we played with our baby awhile while continuing installation and
backup.then we haunted outside.his mother headed to her school and we toddled on
the street toward the school.when we arrived there and found its door half open we
slided in.a class there having sport lesson and we played on the yard and gradually
approached the teaching building.some students on the corridor cleaning the ladder
and stainless steel bar of the ladder.my baby stood motionlessly there watched them
working.some teachers acquainted with us.even i felt we r venturing to enter the
working area but we finally retreated to the outer yard again without any retardment
in the building while some men and women busy around.in the sports yard we
played awhile a ditched football till his mother catched us and urged us to leave.my
baby cried awhile after left the school and i bought an icecream and a bag of
inflation food for him and he demanded eating the icecream at once and we did.he
liked the icecream.i bought some dates(zhao) from the fruit shop on the way,in
memory my search for u.we again played on the waiting room and when i started to
sing loudly my baby slept on my shoulders again.from 3:30 to 4:30 he slept sound
on my neck.when i attempted to shift him to bed he woke up.and i returned after my
baby peacefully farewelled to me.
at dinner i sat a table with 3 girls likely middle school students.i drank a bottle of
bear for the dish is greasy.when i let out bubble from my belly,the girl facing me
responded and let me smiled a lot.
last night in the cafe i was heavily hacked.a website of www.pxdxa.com was blocked
for quite some time and let me doubting if its shut.so when i surf with proxy i
checked it and found its well working.so i started to download my pda a doc editor
but dogs not let me having it to correct my blog they frequently modified within my
account they broke in and let the pc hanged.i reset two times but it still illworking,so
i changed a pc but it again being hacked to err and when i killed some suspectable
process it rebooted itself.then i left.dog really saw more and more their losing.
bye.i love u.kiss u with warm heart.
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all day sunny.
Category: Life
the air is warm.the sky is clear.i went to the library of qrrs to borrow 3 copies of pc
magzines.i read one of it thoroughly in the sunshine in room.dogs bited around when
i read.the cafe's boss likely a dog.last time he pretending sleeping on the chair on
my back and laid a leg on a stool pointed me.that and other dogs in the cafe let me
unconfortable for all the time i surfed there.this time he peeked his head around me
and retreated when catched sight of me far from the sight of the recept desk of the
cafe.dogs just out of their track.
its a busy afternoon for me,for i kept reading till dinner time.in fact i almost forgot
the time to dinner.but i m also at leisure,for pc magzine entertained me.at dinner
there r quite some young girls likely lodged middle school students of qrrs' middle
school.i don't hesitate a second to sit aside the table they sat.they r just so eyes
attacting.
dogs biting now.i had not so much to utter now.i just felt its a long time in today and
felt relaxed by tomorrow's visiting my baby son.i love life like this,no matter how
lonely my heart in search for girls,in searching u.
bye.i will do some reading on web.i love u.kiss u with lightened heart.
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beautiful sunshine.
Category: Life
i woke up at 8:03 am and started to listen radio when its just to 9:00 am.dogs let me
urgent to make water but i held it till after 8 am.the economic channel of beijing's
centual radio reporting iron demands slumping and retail price of agriculture and house
increasing.but the stock market soaring.i always felt puzzled when the cpc claimed from
their sovereign the country was a whole unity and all property share and all member of
the people r workers of the country,how can it breeds so many stockholders.these
interest groups or blocks or dots within the unity or outside of the unity and bargain
with the unity?if within the unity,if the one unity died?if its outside of the unity then
from the start the unity was not a unity,but a dominating one with other unities.if the
prc was a mighty master with arm force,how can its servants,those high rank cardres
with well salary,hold their restrains not to steal the property of his master,esp. when
now they earn high salary and bargain in the stock market with stateowned enterprises'
stateowned shares,ie the master,and those free enterpreneurs and foreigh investors,
with their salary as their capital? or if the new products as surplus of the unity and
dispersed among its members including the master and its servants according to their
contributions,as the marxism claimed the source of the commence of private
property,who will judge the distribution righteous? i always felt the china stock market
just a unreal cheating arena to money laundry the stealing cardres' theft.i only know
russia dispersed all stateowned enterprise equally to its people and after that can be a
free market to be found,and i think that's probably the only way to deal with china's
stateowned property.
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Monday, November 13, 2006

started to uncomparable sunshine in afternoon.
Category: Life
i got up at 9:13 am.i dreamed temporarily lived in a family with a son and a daughter
and their parents.my elder brother and our once old bull also appeared in my
dream.after woke up i knew my second elder brother and my second elder sister
endured the hardest time in our grand father's youth as well as the new republic and
they had the will and reservation for a boarder dream not paler than mine.
when i arrived my baby received me happily.but he cried to refuse my kissing his leg
but i did on my own.i held him playing the basin in which there r some used water.he
messed up all cook utensils available.he slept on my shoulders when its near 10:30 am
and woke up when his mother returned at 11:30 am.after lunch we haunted outside as
i suggested to shot.we went to sports yard where a crowd of elemental school students
there and watched us shotting.after returned home i busy with sorting the sd card while
his mother milked him.when his mother left for her school he approached me to ask for
my attending him.all afternoon he insisted my caress him to play.we really had a good
time even i frequently want to continue my work on pc.he slept when its 3:30 pm on
my neck for an hour.i sang a lot when he sleeping.we watched tv peacefully after he
woke up till his mother returned.then i busy with backup shots to my udisk.after dinner
i left and ported here to write u and published our shots.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bright.hope the snow bring u clean and clear mind.
btw, the post titled 'pale morning,now snowing. ' posted on Nov. 12 including a line
reads 'who shown the caligraphy of his father,likely named xiaqing(summer cyan),who
experted at handwriting and crave and also a worker's model medalist as being a
middle school teacher for qrrs' school as i known.',in which the 'crave' should be
'carve',i meant seal carving,in chinese zhuanke.
for blogger was blocked by chinese dogs.u can still read it via my google doc.
my blog from 2006.8.10--11.9
my blog update after 20066.11.9
baby in first serious snow in the

winter
afternoon snow finally let it like a real snow of winter.
when i left the cafe at noon its snowing and continously in the
afternoon.i roamed in the snow in the tree yard of the dorm zone.some
little students there attending class there sliding on the ice and let
me befirended.i toddled for about an hour.snow gathered on my suite
but it didn't wet it.then i returned room and wandering and
wondering.later i listened radio on bed.then read autobiography of
Margaret Hilda Thatcher,the former primer of uk.till 4:20 pm i laid it
down and ready to left for dinner.after dinner i sorted my family
email list within my gmail and most of the an hour passed.now i m
ready to leave.dog's biting restlessly.
bye.i love u.my seat near the lavatory which is smelly.so i wouldn't
kiss u.the white snow blesses u.its so refreshing,so ehchanting.thx
god.
pale morning,now snowing.
i woke up after 7 am and started to listen radio at 9:18 am.in the dawn i dreamed one of
my once colleague named xiaxiaodan(summer little red),who shown the caligraphy of his
father,likely named xiaqing(summer cyan),who experted at handwriting and crave and also
a worker's model medalist as being a middle school teacher for qrrs' school as i known.the
grandson and granddaughter busy practising handwriting under his influence.then i in a
sports yard and i jogged on the track and found soccor training team.then some young men
playing poker on the yard.they r likely offspring of wellbeing and gangsters,both have lots of
leisure time.then their wifes replaced them to playing there and they shifted to a table farer
the side of the yard to play.dogs biting while i stayed on bed listening radio and then i
recalled ur possible interaction with me.i got up near 10 am.
after lunch i here busy with sorting my contacts list,mainly my own and my son and his
mother's email accounts.i likely to exceed 1 hour here this time even i felt sorry.but in fact
with the 50 yuan from my once working place i didn't bankrupt my budget of lodge and
board.
the snow likely stopped.i hope she can help me clean my hot brain with contnuous snowing.
extraordinary sunny day.
i got up at 8:49 am and immediate to see my baby.his mother at home when i arrived and
she is busy with shot my baby and me.when i started to sort the sd card of the camera his
mother left.i held my baby playing till the old woman left and my baby became irritated for
being sleepy.i hurried to find his coat and left the home.he sat silently on my shoulders
when i passed the grocers aside the street toward his mother's school.when we started to
walk outside around the south garden and when i started to sing he fell into sleep.i stayed
in front of the front gate of south garden,facing the bright sun,and stalked.when i felt better
to see if his mother's school's door open throught the south garden western door,he woke
up on my neck.he directed me to turn back to pick a shortcut to the western door but i
hinted him to buy some snacks.he admitted it and i bought him a bag of rice biscuit and we
ate at once.the door of his mother's school later opened and we slided in.we entered the
classroom building and waited his mother on the first floor passway.he also practised to
move on the steep ladders of the passway with my hands in his hands.soon the crowd of
students leaving,some girl students kissed my baby's cheek.we finally met his mother and
he asked his mother to hold him to watch the side building's corridor.we all felt glad.at
lunch he insisted playing spool and till his mother can't afford his spoiling soup.after lunch
he was sent to sleep after milked.so did his mother and the old woman.i went alone to
shower.after i returned his mother again started to shot him with the old woman and the
son of his mother's aunt.then i bragged my knowledge on digital home to his mother and all
of them kept listening.my baby busy with playing aside till i finished my bubble and in high
spirit.at dinner i drank a tin of beer and my baby also tasted some of it.we had a good time
full day.
last night the dogs bited heavily but later i felt its u missing me and i started to consider our
relation.the bright sun in daytime let me feel i m under bless of u.
its really a nice sunny day.so auspicious.i know u r in the mood of deep love to me.i felt
glad seeing the bright of our piteful love.
bye.i love u.kiss u with sunshine.
some shots by his mother.
Son in winter at home
Son in winter at home in a extraordinary sunny day.
pale afternoon
i laid myself on bed most of the afternoon.first part i listening

music,then in silence,then listening then roamed in the room.i
reviewed my family life when i was a boy.my mother's love among our
brothers.i also recalled my best friend in college,qiuxiaolin,and
bianbaqiongda,a taibet paiting student in tianjin art college.they let
me smile and in understanding to their kindness.i also saw the girl
haunted in the dorm canteen these days in my mind eyes.she is a tall
girl with admirable figure,a little bit stronger than u.i always
prefer slim girl,but she also let me burning.i don't know where she
from and who she is,but i know i m weak in girl's fondness.days and
nights turns my heart for girl's love more drought.and fears and tears
turns me more prone to melt in sweet heart or sheep's eye.
at dinner,i arrived earlier in the aim to meet the girl.but just met a
cop in uniform there.regarding the authority of the state force i felt
laughable.i watched tv which live skill skate contest and i enjoyed a
couple show from us.i know i was blessed.
bye.i love u.kiss u with more snow in sight.
btw,in the post of nov. 9th titled 'sunny morning' there was a line :
'last night i dreamed of chenlong(become
dragon),the hongkang kongfu actor,whose son named
fangzuming,interviewed with our a semester including 4 or 5 children
including a white girl and teached by show his acting in movies.',it
likely should be 'last night i dreamed of chenlong(become
dragon),the hongkang kongfu actor,whose son named
fangzuming,interviewed with our a seminar including 4 or 5 children
including a white girl and teached by show his acting in movies.' i
sometimes confused by 'semester' and 'seminar'.
sunny morning.
i got up after 9 am.i stayed in quilt listening radio for quite some
time.the day light on the curtain is so bright that let me doubting if
its snow covered outside.after getting up i listened to the economic
channel of centual radio from beijing relayed by local radio in fm
band.the stock market soaring.the high cardres busying bailing out the
deposit of the republic to their private pocket for a ready to desert
the main land.they can leave a bankrupt government to the common
people,like a paper tiger as mao sneered once at us.most of the people
on mainland deserved it for their inactiveness to robery and pressing
in the short history of prc.
bye.i love u.kiss u with serious tear for ongoing loss to my kingdom.

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