Confessions From the deepest confines of my heart, I cry out to you, With everything in me, I simply look up,

Ignoring the strain in my neck. My arms are stretched out, upwards, Looking away from everything that spells fear, For in all sincerity, I fear, I fear the thought of been alone, It defies all reason trusting someone I cant see, Something, just a legend, a convenient story. But in my fear, I feel a drawing, A gnawing emptiness which only you can fillAt least you told meIf you indeed spoke. Forgive my doubt, for logic and reason cloud me, I struggle in blindness, though you tell me Im guided by your all-seeing eye.

Walking with you proves difficult, Yet you say you make it easy, And all I have to guide me are records, Recollections of acts done and past, Statements of the future, Maps of the present. Love like a blanket! Outside which Im blocked ice, hardened by the troubles without, Scraped to the bare by abrasive cares, The gnawing emptiness becoming A free-running bank overrun by loveThe simplest word for it. I confess, despite all these, I fail, I feel this pull back to the past, Records wiped clean play back, And I fall- another fear, For while I fall, though it grieve you You smile me up, resetting my path,

Only for me to fall again, While you look on with patience, All the while telling me to trust you. I hurt you so, why spare me? I kill you twice, why forgive? Unlike me, you think, My height not near your depth, Nevertheless. Scary as it is, You whisper to me: dont worry now Whenever I fall and feel alone. Careful builder you hone me, Till Im a complete replica of you, Perfect as the original plan. I always thought Ill never come to grips With your system, painful- Im slow Though you tell me youre at my pace, Like my shadow, only Im the shadow, You the man.

Forgive me when next I doubt, Just tell me the words Ive held dear so long, As quickly as you speak, Ill come running back into you. Hold my gaze up, if you please... Opeyemi 9/9/2011