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A Pair to Draw To
ton’s Fourth Ward. San Felipe Courts, which was later renamed
Allen Parkway Village, was built by the city of Houston in the early
1940s. San Felipe Courts consisted of a series of long, two-story
brick buildings that faced inward to a courtyard with benches
where people gathered to talk and children played. Over the years,
many journalists have listed me as growing up in the Houston
Heights area, but it was actually San Felipe Courts. The Heights
was more upscale than my family could afford.
We were poor p
eople, but living in the projects, we really didn’t
know it because we were all in the same boat. Our apartment had
two bedrooms upstairs, one downstairs, and a kitchen. We basi-
cally had a revolving door with people always coming and going; as
the older kids moved out, the younger kids came in. I was closest
to my sister Barbara, who was two years older than me. The prob-
lem was that she beat me up every day of my life. Finally, the day I
reached the breaking point, I had her by her hair and was banging
her head on the fridge door. Thank God my dad walked in when he
did or I would have killed her. Barbara could be both my best friend
and my worst enemy.
My brother, Lelan, was ten years older and was gone all the
time. Lelan was really slick, smooth talking, a very sharp dresser
with his hair slicked back, and one thing was for sure—he knew
the streets. Lelan left home at seventeen. My sister, Geraldine, was
thirteen at the time, and my sister, Barbara, was nine. My younger
brother Billy was four, and Roy was just a baby. At this point the
twins, Randy and Sandy, weren’t born, but we knew with Mom and
Dad, more were coming.
No matter what age we were, our parents would send us outside
to play. They had no worries about us being harmed by strangers.
We played all over that area of town with no fears. Seems hard to
imagine now, and I regret, for most kids today, both that loss of in-
nocence and that loss of freedom.
Prior to the time the city built San Felipe Courts, the Fourth Ward
area had been primarily African American, including Freedmen’s
Town, so named because freed slaves had populated it in the late
1800s. The land was cheap because much of it was low swampland
prone to flooding. Initially, there were rumors that African Ameri-
cans were going to be included in parts of this public housing, but
after the Courts were built, the city put up a fence between the Courts
and what was left of the black section. At that young age, I didn’t know
why people were separated or even think to ask. It was just the way
things were. I’m sure there must have been some bad feelings among
the African Americans about that fence, but I never felt any hostility.
I spent quite a bit of time in the black section, going to the friendly,
always welcoming Italian store, Lanzo’s Grocery, for my mom or cut-
ting through the yards on my way to school, and my memories were
of friendly faces, elderly people sitting on their porches and waving
as I passed. I’d like to think I’ve always been color-blind, and my rela-
tionship with the p
eople in the black neighborhood next to San Felipe
Courts is probably the reason. I can only speak for my family, but in
our case, we were all poor people and felt a certain kinship.
Parents know their families are poor, but kids don’t until rich
kids at school notice. And they did notice and were quick to make
fun. My defense was developing a lifelong habit of blocking out
painful memories. Not too long ago, though, I got a letter from a
grade school friend that brought back one very hurtful moment.
Her name was Mary Gwynne Davidson (now Ridout) and we were
in the first grade together. She remembered me as someone who
kept to himself and was very quiet and very polite. And very self-
conscious, I might add.
As for cooking, she was proud of her banana pudding, and she did
love to sit and have a glass of iced tea.
My dad was easy to please when it came to food. He was truly
happy as long as there was a mason jar full of long jalapeños on the
table. Every night he’d crumble his beans and rice with a fork, take a
bite, then grab a jalapeño and bite it off at the stalk. He would literally
break into a sweat, his face turning so red it looked like it was on fire.
He couldn’t utter a word for a while after each one. I watched him do
that over the years and never failed to marvel at his ability to eat those
things. I tried it once or twice and that was it. Once, in grade school, I
finally asked him why he ate them. He just smiled, and as soon as he
could talk again, he said, “I just love ’em, son. I just love ’em.”
Remembering my father is important to me, but it’s also pain-
ful. I actually knew little about him. Like most men of his day, he
was pretty shut down. That was hard, but what was really difficult
was that he did not have a happy life and he drank to bury his
feelings about it. My older brother, Lelan, once described him as a
bitter man. I think that the Floyd Rogers Lelan knew and the one
I knew were different, though; by the time I really got to know my
father, he seemed more beaten down than bitter.
My dad was an alcoholic and alcohol costs money, money we
didn’t have, money that should have gone to buying food and
clothes. Drinking controlled his life, and he was always looking for
a way to pay for it. After Lelan had left home, my dad would always
hit him up for some cash when he came for a visit, sticking out his
hand and saying, “Will this be a ten-dollar or a twenty-dollar visit?”
It was his game, and we always knew it was coming.
On one occasion when he panhandled Lelan, Lelan snapped
back, “You know what, Dad? That question really offends me. I
spent a hundred and fifty dollars on a plane ticket to come here. I
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rented a car in Houston, drove here to Crockett, and took you and
Mom out to dinner. Next time would you rather I just send you the
money and not come at all?”
My dad thought this over and finally got a little grin on his face
and said, “Oh God, son. Don’t make me make that choice.” He
would’ve hated to admit it, but I think he was truly conflicted over
that question.
When I was older and started making a little money, my dad
began to treat me the same way—as the golden goose. It evolved
into another game he would play to get liquor money. He would
start out talking about money in general.
“If I could just get together a hundred dollars . . . ,” he’d say.
Or he might mention something specific, like “If a man just
had an electric saw.”
I’d play along. “So if this hypothetical man had an electric saw,
what would you saw with it? Would you build anything?”
Usually my questions didn’t get much of a response, but one
time my dad said, “I’d build birdhouses.”
“Really!” I said. “What’re you going to do with them? Put them
in the yard?”
“No, I’m gonna sell birdhouses.”
“How many of them could you make in a day?”
My dad shrugged. “I don’t know. Two or three.”
“So at the end of the week you’re going to have maybe twelve or
fifteen birdhouses. Where’re you going to sell them?”
“Somewhere, maybe on the street.”
“What about if it’s raining? Or are you just going to sell them
in good weather?”
“Well,” he’d say, “hell, son, I don’t know!” and off he’d go with
some new on-the-spot cockamamie plan. “If a man had a violin . . .”
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but also as I got older. Much later on—in the mid-1960s—I was
in a jazz group, called the Bobby Doyle Three. Jazz was a music
my dad neither liked nor appreciated, but our little group was hot
and I wanted him to see us. We were invited to play at the Houston
Petroleum Club, a private gathering place of many of the richest
people in the state of Texas. I invited my dad to come see the show,
assuming he’d never accept. It was not his kind of people or his
kind of music. Much to my shock, he said yes. I felt great—I wasn’t
going to let this father-son moment pass us by.
Keep in mind that my dad had only one suit, one tie, one pair
of nice shoes, and one dress shirt, and I’m not sure if I ever saw
him in them all at the same time. He arrived at the Petroleum
Club looking nice. As I got ready to play, I noticed him working the
room, introducing himself as Floyd Rogers, the bass player’s dad.
He acted like he belonged in that club. I was proud of him that
night, and I think he was proud of himself.
But as we played, I came to realize that his only interest was the
open bar. He shared a drink with every person he met and as he
drank, his face got redder, like the Irishman he was, and his voice
got louder. Oh God, I thought, what will he do next? I was afraid he
was going to do something stupid and get us both kicked out of
there.
As the show ended, I heard him announce, loudly, to the mayor
of Houston and some cronies, “Hi, I’m Floyd Rogers. I’m in the oil
and gas business; how about you?” Later, when I finally got him out
of the place and confronted him about his lie, he said, “Hell, son, I
am in the oil and gas business. I work at a gas station eight hours
a day, don’t I?”
At least for one night, and drunk as can be, he hobnobbed with
the rich and felt great about it. I did, too.
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What I loved most about Floyd Rogers was his constant laugh-
ing at life. He was a jokester, for sure. He always swore that the
following was a true story. A policeman pulled him over to write
him a ticket for speeding. “What’s the problem, Officer?” he asked
innocently as he handed over his license.
The trooper looked at the license and said, “Mr. Rogers, do you
realize you were doing sixty miles an hour in a thirty-mile-an-hour
zone?”
My dad sighed. “Officer, that can’t be true. This car won’t run
for an hour!”
The trooper laughed and tore up the ticket. My dad had joked
his way out of a big fine.
Through it all, my mom stood steadfastly beside my dad, and
I never saw him belittle or threaten her as some drinking men do
to their wives. In the fifty years they were married, I don’t think it
happened even once. My mom was a physically strong woman and
she was bigger than my dad. She wasn’t fat by any means, just a big
strong woman—five foot eight to my dad’s five foot six. I don’t think
he’d have dared to browbeat my mom even if he’d had the inclina-
tion. Well, there was one time. I have no idea why or what caused
their confrontation. The kids were all in the living room doing home-
work when my dad came around the corner yelling, “Lucille, don’t do
that!” I never saw her actually hit him, but she was wielding a twelve-
inch skillet. Submission and compliance were his only options.
I think I open every conversation about my dad with a remark
about his alcoholism, because I continue to feel a lot of sadness
about him. I wish I’d known him better. I knew his funny side,
his good-natured response to almost everything. And I knew his
drunken side, when he just seemed to be trying to hang on. But
there was a lot more to him that I never quite uncovered. He was a
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Mason, and it was important to him. One time after I was older, I
asked him about it.
“What’s it really all about, Dad?”
“If I told you, I’d have to kill you,” he said with a quick laugh.
Drunk or sober, he never even gave me a hint about his meet-
ings at the Masonic lodge. It wasn’t even that I wanted to know the
specific details of their meetings. But something other than drink-
ing tied those men together in friendship and camaraderie. I’d like
to have known that side of my dad.
Another thing I know about him is that he never stopped try-
ing to be a good provider, whether he failed or not. One time he
hung on to a job for what seemed like quite a while. It was back
when Coca-Cola bottles were delivered in those wooden crates with
separate compartments. My dad got a job repairing the ones that
got busted through the week. Every Saturday morning he would go
to the plant and rebuild boxes for twenty-five cents apiece. I helped
him with that job, and it was a good father-son time for us.
After my dad died, I found out that he once drove to Galveston
trying to get a day’s work. He slept outside that night, waiting in
the line of men applying for jobs, using his shoes as a pillow. It
makes you wonder about his drinking. Was it something within
him? Or was it the times? I know that back in the Depression, hard
times drove a lot of men to drink, and my dad may have been one
of them. But whatever the cause, he never lost his sense of humor,
his sense of the absurd.
I had a very close and enduring bond with my mother, and I
think my dad understood that. I remember when Terry Williams
(a member of the First Edition) and I wrote the song “Momma’s
Waiting” for the album Love or Something Like It. The song is about
a guy in prison on death row dreaming of making one last trip back
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home to see his mom, though the listener doesn’t know that fact
right away. In the song, the prisoner is driving home knowing his
mother will be waiting because . . . “I’m all she’s got to love since
Daddy’s gone.”
When he first heard that lyric, my dad jumped up and said,
“Well, you damn sure wrote me out fast! Seems like you could have
waited until at least the second verse!”
That was classic Floyd Rogers.
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