Stricken Desire

Book One S.K Logsdon

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Acknowledgements
1 & nted to give spe$i l sho#t o#t to #thors S " nth .o&le nd -i$helle A. 3 lentine. ,ho inspired "e to &rite this series. And th nk "y !riend 8oldie &ho h s been !#ll o! inspir tion nd en$o#r ge"ent thro#gho#t "y &riting ende vors. 1! it & sn2t !or her 9.he : #n$hier the better; theory 1 "ight not h ve &ritten these stories s $olor!#l s they h ve be$o"e.

.his book is &ork o! !i$tion $re ted by the #thor S.K Logsdon nd is not sso$i ted &ith ny re l b nd% lives or stories.

Table of Contents
Ch pter One Ch pter .&o Ch pter .hree Ch pter 6o#r Ch pter 6ive Ch pter Si' Ch pter Seven Ch pter )ight Ch pter Nine Ch pter .en Ch pter )leven Ch pter .&elve Ch pter .hirteen Ch pter 6o#rteen Ch pter 6i!teen Ch pter Si'teen Ch pter Seventeen Ch pter )ighteen Ch pter Nineteen Ch pter .&enty Ch pter .&enty One Ch pter .&enty .&o Ch pter .&enty .hree Ch pter .&enty 6o#r Ch pter .&enty 6ive

Chapter One
St nding in the !ront ro& o! this hot s hell o#tdoor ven#e in L s 3eg s 1 think "y skin is bo#t to "elt o!!. <#ly in 3eg s &e ring gr y t&eed / $ket nd " t$hing pen$il skirt e"broidered &ith big pink roses &h t & s 1 thinking= 1 sho#ld h ve prob bly &ent &ith less $lothes b#t 1 & nted to ppe r h l! pro!ession l &hen 1 !in lly get the $h n$e to introd#$e "ysel! to the b nd. 12d !in lly stepped #p in the &orld. L#$k o! the dr & s 1 see it. .h nks to "y very !riendly% very " le best !riend St $y. +e &orks the "#si$ bi> nd is ro d " n ger to Stri$ken n overnight ro$k pheno"enon. ,ith eight ye rs2 tot l e'perien$e #nder his belt he & s pl#$ked spe$i!i$ lly !or this /ob !o#r ye rs go on$e the b nd $ t p#lted into st rdo". B#t no& it2s been too "#$h to h ndle. ,ith his "o" si$k deterior ting th nks to de"enti he & s !or$ed to pl $e her in the best n#rsing ho"e "oney $o#ld b#y. All be$ #se he2s been so b#sy th t he h sn2t h d the bility to t ke $ re o! her hi"sel!. Not th t she deserves it. .h t2s &here 1 $o"e in. 1 got $ ll three &eeks go to the d y !ro" St $y. ,e2ve been long0 dist n$e best !riends !or "ost o! o#r lives. 8ro&ing #p in the s "e s" ll rink0 0dink to&n in 1ndi n it & s h rd not to kno& everybody their brothers% $o#sins nd #n$les. O#r entire s$hool K012 $onsisted o! less th n eight h#ndred kids. St $y & s !ive ye rs he d o! "e in s$hool b#t "y seventh gr de ye r nd his /#nior o#r destiny2s $ollided on the sports !ield. 1 & s r#nning the tr $k th t s#rro#nded the !ootb ll !ield. 1 & s long0dist n$e r#nner !or o#r s$hool nd & s good% &on !e& $h "pionships lo$ lly nd 1 even $o"peted st te &ide !e& ti"es. And he & s b#sy being the hottest !ootb ll pl yer in the distri$t. 6ro" n e rly ge St $y & s #sed to h ving girls dripping o!! his r"s. 1t2s not like he $o#ld help it being si' one% ne rly t&o h#ndred po#nds o! ll "#s$le &ith sh ggy dirty blonde h ir nd pie$ing bl#e eyes. Se' is &h t "ost people $o#ld think o! &hen looking t hi". 1n$l#ding "e. B#t th t ! ted d y & s &hen o#r p ths !in lly $rossed. 1 & s r#nning% "inding "y o&n b#siness "y $d pl yer tt $hed to "y hip in spe$i l ! nny p $k 12d gotten !or Christ" s% / ""ing to N0syn$ the best boy b nd ever. 1 & s going !or end#r n$e "ore th n speed nd 1 & s oblivio#s to &h t & s going on ro#nd "e. .oo b#sy !o$#sing on the s$ien$e test 1 h d $o"ing #p the ne't d y on the periodi$ t ble o! ele"ents. .hose re so"e tri$ky b#ggers let "e tell y . 12" not e' $tly s#re ho& it ll h ppened b#t 1 & s r#nning% "y ne& bright bl#e did s po#nding into the dirt &hen 1 & s p#""eled !ro" behind. 1 hit the gro#nd h rd "y entire body &ent do&n in !ree0! lling dive. And St $y & s the one &ho l nded on top o! "e. Ne rly ll t&o h#ndred po#nds o! hi" nd it !elt like h ving "y ss h nded to "e by bri$k & ll. Needless to s y he & s !ine% not d "n s$r t$h b#t 1 !r $t#red "y nkle nd tore the shit o#t o! "y h nds. .here & s no "ore tr $k !or "e th t ye r. 1 !ig#red being ! "o#s

!ootb ll pl yer nd ll he2d /#st shr#g it o!! nd le ve "e to !end !or "ysel!. B#t inste d St $y !elt terrible nd s$ooped "e #p into his big r"s nd $ rried "e to the n#rses. ,here "y p rents &ere $ lled nd 1 h d to go to the hospit l. ,ore $ st ro#nd "y nkle nd !oot !or ne rly "onth. +e sent "e !lo&ers nd even visited "e on$e 1 got ho"e. So"eho& &e2ve been gre t !riends ever sin$e. 1 & s his pl toni$ d te to pro" his senior ye r nd on$e he gr d# ted he &ent o!! to $ollege t ?CLA to st#dy "#si$ bi> nd pl y !ootb ll. 12ve held his h nd thro#gh not one b#t t&o divor$es. No kids res#lted in either o! the". .h nk god be$ #se &ith those "oney h#ngry bit$hes 1 " s#re he2d be s$re&ed even "ore th n he lre dy & s. At le st &ith the se$ond he & s s" rt eno#gh to get pren#p. 12ve been thro#gh one " /or bre k#p nd he & s "y ro$k thro#gh it ll. Altho#gh 1 never dove too deep into ny rel tionship. 1t2s never been "y thing. 1 $ n2t get tt $hed. 1 think it "ight be de!e$t in "y @NA. St $y2s greed &ith "e !e& ti"es on th t one. +e d tes &o"en like it2s n Oly"pi$ sport nd 1 $o#ld $ re less. .h nk!#lly 12ve never been into hi" nd he2s never sho&n ny interest in "e e'$ept " ybe &hen he2s s#per dr#nk nd bo#t to go ho"e lone. Al$ohol pl#s St $y e(# ls boobs% p#ssies nd #s# lly "ore th n one o! both. 6ro" &h t 1 he r !ro" his d tes i! yo#2d $ ll the" th t. +e2s ro$kin in the s $. So no& t the ripe old ge o! t&enty !o#r "y best !riend h s $ lled in ! vor. 12" bet&een /obs ny& ys th nks to "y old boss &ho de$ided "y position s 4: " n ger !or his s" ll p#blishing $o"p ny & s no longer e"ploy ble. All be$ #se 1 re!#sed to sleep &ith hi". 1 g#ess !ter &orking there !or eight "onths nd not opening "y legs to !i!ty0ye r0old% over&eight% " rried " n &ith !o#r kids "e nt 1 $o#ldn2t keep the best /ob 12ve l nded sin$e 1 gr d# ted !ro" N5?. Not th t 12" bitter or nything. ,hen 1 told St $y he ne rly $ro ked nd o!!ered to $o"e to N5 &here 1 live to person lly ki$k his ss. ,hi$h kno&ing St $y he2d do it. .h t2s /#st the kind o! " n he is. Loy l to his !riends nd 12" the longest one he2s ever h d nd the only !e" le. ,ell " ybe not the longest% 1 think he "ight still t lk to Kyle "y old ne't door neighbor &ho pl yed !ootb ll too. B#t 1 don2t kno&. So &hen he sked "e to $o"e to 3eg s to see Stri$ken2s pl y nd t ke /ob s his ssist nt 1 $o#ldn2t resist. +e needed so"e o! the press#re o!! hi"sel! nd the re$ord l beled greed to p y "e only be$ #se they $ n2t !!ord to lose St $y. So here 1 " st nding in the !ront ro& s&e ting "y ss o!! &ith "ob o! s&e ty "en nd &o"en behind "e. St $y & nted "e to get the !#ll e!!e$t o! the sho& so he !or$ed "e to t ke !ront nd $enter. 1 $o#ld l"ost re $h #p nd to#$h the st ge i! it &eren2t !or the big ss bodyg# rds dressed in ll bl $k st nding in the & y. So"e p#nk ro$k b nd $ lling the"selves Atre"e Se' /#st e'ited. .hey &ere the opening gig nd to be honest 12d he rd lot better. Not s#re ho& they de$ide &ho opens !or the b nd b#t 1 $ n only hope "y /ob entitles "e to help in the s$oping o#t ne& b nds be$ #se they &ere

serio#sly #nder p r. - ybe not !or so"e 4od#nk ro$k sho& b $k ho"e b#t in the big le g#es they s#re s hell don2t belong. .he ! ns ro r s the ro dies set #p the st ge !or the " in event. 1 $ n !eel s&e t dripping do&n the b $k o! "y ne$k. .h nk god 1 &ore "y h ir #p tonight nd & terproo! " s$ r . No r $$oon eyes !or "e. Stri$ken2s dr#""er enters !irst pl ying ro#nd &ith his bright p#rple set. ,hi$h /#st drives the $ro&d &ilder nd they ll "ove !or& rd to get !e& in$hes $loser. -y body is pressed tightly #p g inst the b rs le ving i"prints in "y sto" $h. .his is so not "y s$ene. @rinking $o!!ee nd re ding book in bed re the re l highlights o! "y li!e. Not h ving &o" n2s s&e ty bre sts pressed g inst the b $k o! "y t&o h#ndred doll r s#it. 1 " so going to kill St $y !or this. And 1 &ill " ke s#re it &ill be slo& p in!#l de th. +e deserves it !or p#tting "e thro#gh this. 1t2s so not s nit ry. Ne't on st ge enters the b nds t&o g#it rists. ,ell 1 think one2s b ss g#it rist. ,h tever th t "e ns. 1 " not into the "#si$ bi>. 1 love "#si$% ll kinds o! it $t# lly. And 12ve listened to ll o! Stri$ken2s lb#"s% only be$ #se St $y " iled the" to "e prerele se. 1 even h ve one lb#" they2ve signed the $over o!% th nks to St $y. 12d never sk !or th t. .hey2re good. 1 "e n re l good. + rd ro$k &ith to#$h o! so!t into the "i'. 1 $ n see &hy the &o"en love the"B e $h "e"ber is like se' on sti$k. 1 t#rn "y he d to & t$h the $ro&d nd th t2s &hen <ohn th n enters the st ge in ll his 8re$i n god glory. Stri$ken2s le d singer. Se' god nd &o" ni>er e'tr ordin ire. 1 kno& ll this be$ #se St $y tells "e not be$ #se 12" so"e "edi &hore. 1 don2t do gossip nd 1 s#re s hell &on2t b#y " g >ine &ith it. Books re the only thing 1 re d nd " ybe the Ne& 5ork post i! 1 & nt $h nge o! p $e. ,hi$h isn2t o!ten. 8od <ohn th n is hot tho#gh. +e gr bs the "i$ like he2s " king love to it nd belts o#t the !irst song to ki$k o!! the night. ,o"en ll ro#nd "e re s$re "ing his n "e nd shirts st rt to $o"e o!! in " sses. 12ve never seen so " ny &o"en2s boobs in "y &hole li!e. Big% little% old% yo#ng% t ttooed. Oh god 1 think 1 "ight be si$kC 1 $overed "y "o#th nd t ke in deep bre th. .his is too "#$h. 9+o&2s it goinD L s 3eg s=; he yells into the "i$. A &hole lot o! E1 love yo# <ohn th n2% ESho& #s yo#r $o$k2 nd E+ell ye h2s2 re s$re "ed in retort. 1 think 1 "ight go de ! by the end o! the night. .oo "#$h !lesh. 8od this li!e is so not !or "e. ,h t & s 1 thinking $o"ing here= 1 do 4: !or p#blishing $o"p nies not " n ging nd 4: !or ro$k st rs. 1 " so going to kill St $y. 91 & nt to give little sho#t o#t to "y !riends tonight. 5o# kno& &ho yo# re.; +e s ys g in " king love to the "i$. .hen /#"ps o!! into the ne't song. 1 $ n2t te r "y eyes !ro" the st ge. .hey re "es"eri>ing. .he t"osphere tot lly s#$ks b#t the pl ying is o#t o! this &orld. .hey re even better in person. 1 looked over to the side o! the st ge nd there st nds St $y his h nds t#$ked into his r tty

/e n po$kets t lking to so"e t ll blonde. She is de!i ntly his type. 1 think /#st bo#t everyone St $y2s d ted or even /#st !#$ked h s been blonde. .h t2s prob bly &hy &e2ve been !riends !or so long 1 do not in ny & y sh pe or !or" !it into the leggy blonde "odel $l ssi!i$ tion. 12" !ive t&o t best. Not s#re &here "y height or l $k thereo! $o"es !ro" be$ #se "y "o"2s l"ost si' !oot nd "y d d2s si' !o#r. So"eti"es 1 think 12" dopted. 1 h ve red h ir nd &hen 1 s y red 1 don2t "e n #b#rn. 1 "e n red% red. 1t2s & vy nd long% hits bo#t the "iddle o! "y b $k dry nd "y b#tt &hen it2s &et. -y skin is p le% 1 $o#ldn2t t n even i! 1 & nted to. No& th t is so"ething "e "o" nd 1 both sh re nd "y d d #sed to be red he d like "e b#t no& he2s b ld nd his eyebro&s re gr y &ith ge. 6in lly the sho& is over. 1 $ n2t s y 1 didn2t en/oy the "#si$ be$ #se 1 did. B#t needless to s y the e'perien$e s &hole & s 10 need0to0t ke0 0$old0sho&er0 nd0s niti>e0"ysel! &orthy. 1 h ve !eeling 1 &ill spend the ne't t&o d ys sho&ering the s&e t nd !e" le $rot$h s"ell o#t o! h ir. 5#$kC 9+ey )"C; 1 he r ! "ili r voi$e yell "y n "e. 12" o#tside the ven#e !ter p#shing thro#gh the hordes o! $r >y ! ns. 1 need to get to "y rent l $ r b#t it2s going to t ke ho#rs to get o#t o! this p rking lot. 1 t#rn "y he d nd 1 see St $y lone r#nning to& rds "e. 9,h t re yo# doing o#t here= 1 tho#ght yo# & nted to "eet the b nd=; he2s o#t o! bre th. )ven p nting "y best !riend is be #ti!#l. 8oing on thirty nd still looks like he2s t&enty one. L#$ky b st rd. 9A!ter ll o! th t 1 sho#ld !#$king kill yo#.; 1 s$ree$h s" $king hi" h rd on the r". 91t & sn2t th t b d & s it=; A dirty little s"irk & shes $ross his s&e ty ! $e. 9, s it th t b d= Are yo# serio#s= 5o# did this on p#rpose didn2t yo#=; 1 p#t "y h nd on "y hip !or e!!e$t. L #ghing lo#dly he s ys 9,ell 1 kno& yo# need to loosen #p little so 1 tho#ght night in "y &orld &o#ld help &ith th t.; 1 roll "y eyes nd s" $k hi" g in% h rder this ti"e. 9O#$h )"% it $ n2t be th t d "n b d; he dds r#bbing his reddened r". Serves his ss right. 9,ell &hen yo# live in "y &orld o! books nd $o!!ee nd ..3 sho&s th t don2t $onsist o! n ked &o" n% the s"ell o! s&e t% BO nd rotten $rot$h. .his is so not s nit ry.; 1 s y r#bbing "y h nds on "y skirt trying to $le nse the night & y. B#t 1 $ n2t help b#t think bo#t th t n sty br#nette behind "e pressing her s&e ty boobs g inst "y b $k. Oh shit 1 think 1 "ight $t# lly vo"it. 1 $over "y "o#th nd t ke deep bre th g in. 912" sorry )" 1 tho#ght yo# "ight like the !#ll e'perien$e.; +e shr#gs.

91 !orgive yo#. B#t don2t do this g in &itho#t & rning "e. 1 kno& yo#2re lose nd ! n$y0!ree. B#t 12" /#st not. 1 " y not be pr#de b#t there2s !ine line bet&een being pr#de nd h ving to end#re &h t 1 /#st did. 4 nties hitting the st ge like d "n & ter! ll. One even l nded by "y !oot be$ #se so"ebody $o#ldn2t i". A!ter "eeting the b nd 1 " so going to h ve to sho&er.; ,ringing his r" ro#nd "y ne$k to p#ll "e into h#g% he pl nts kiss on "y !orehe d. 91 pro"ise. Co"e on 1 & nt yo# to "eet the b nd. .here2s n !ter p rty t one o! the hottest $l#bs in the $ity nd 1 & nt yo# to $o"e &ith.; +e looks "e #p nd do&n nd sh kes his he d &ith obvio#s disg#st. 9B#t not &e ring th t.; 9,h t2s &rong &ith this=; 1 s&eep "y h nd do&n the side o! "y skirt s#it. 1 think it2s ppropri te. 8#ess not. 96irst o!! yo#2re not n $$o#nt nt yo#2re 4: sl sh $o ro d " n ger to very ! "o#s ro$k b nd. 5o# $ n2t dress like th t ny"ore #nless yo# & nt to get " de !#n o! nd st nd o#t like sore th#"b.; +e s$olds. 9.hen &h t " 1 s#pposed to &e r=; 1 !ro&n. 1 $ n2t look th t b d. 91! yo# tell "e !ishnet sto$kings nd $rop tops 1 " going to hit yo# in the b lls. .hen $ str tions is ne't on the list. ; +e l #ghs g in% t#gging "e in $loser s &e & lk "y r" &r pped ro#nd his lo&er b $k% he ded to the in! "o#s Stri$ken to#r b#s. 912ll help yo# pi$k so"e $lothes o#t. B#t be!ore &e go in 1 need yo# to t le st t ke o#t th t d "n b#n nd th t $o ts gott go. .his & y yo#2ll look "ore like hot "ini t#re te $her inste d o! n $$o#nt nt.; +e &inks nd 1 pin$h hi" h rd on the side. +e h s no ! t on his body so it2s /#st skin 1 $ n gr b onto. +e doesn2t even !lin$h. ,h t b st rdC 91 " y be "ini t#re &o" n. As yo# $ ll "e. B#t t le st 1 h ve so"e ! shion sense. ,h t is #p &ith those /e ns= ,ere they "e nt to look like hobo &ore the" !or ye r nd then sold the" to yo#=; 1 s"ile big &ith lots o! teeth. .&o $ n pl y t this g "e. 91 h ve yo# kno&% 1 bo#ght these /e ns /#st like this.; 9,ell yo# overp id. 1 $o#ld go to the good&ill b#y p ir !or doll r nd r#n the" over &ith "y tr#$k !e& ti"es nd they2d still be "ore stylish then those.; 1 s"irk serio#sly. +e pin$hes "e on the ne$k nd 1 s(#e l lo#d. @r &ing ttention to #s & lking in the b $k o! the o#tdoor "phithe ter &here the b#s is p rked.

Chapter Two
.he b#s is h#ge nd bl $k &ith silver $$ents. 1 $ n2t help b#t be in &e o! it. 9No&% do it no&.; St $y s ys pointing to "y o#t!it. 1 roll "y eyes g in nd sti$k o#t "y tong#e " king s#re he $ n see "y e'pression. 1 t ke o!! the $o t nd he t kes point nd t#gs "y h ir o#t !ro" its r ther se'y $hignon. 8#ess he doesn2t think it & s se'y% b#t 1 do. B#t oh &ell. -y red h ir ! lls in so!t & ves over "y sho#lders. 91s this better=; 1 &hine r#nning "y !ingers thro#gh "y h ir. 1t2s d "p &ith s&e t. 9-#$h.; +e s"iles nd t kes "y h nd nd inside the b#s &e go. .he pl $e looks even bigger inside th n it does o#tside. .he !irst thing 1 see is h#ge &r p ro#nd red le ther $o#$h. .he kit$hen is si> ble !or b#s nd it2s ll st te o! the rt st inless nd bl $k. 12" /e lo#s. C n lights ill#"in te #s !ro" the $eiling nd gi nt !l t s$reen .3 is pl stered on the & ll. , lking !#rther in St $y h s yet to s y nything to "e. ,e & lk bet&een ro& o! si' b#nks. .hree on e $h side &ith red $#rt ins !or priv $y nd then in the b $k is si> ble bedroo" nd b th. .ot l l#'#ry. 9So &ho sleeps here=; 1 sk pointing into the "odern bedroo". 9<ohn th n does. +e2s the le d singer so he get the roo". 1 h ve b#nk s does @#n$ n% 4ri$e nd Keith. 5o# -iss )"ily Bron&yn &ill be sleeping in the b#nk /#st belo& "e.; +e e'pl ins pointing to the "iddle b#nk on "y right. A b#nk oh /oyC 1 $ n he r b#n$h o! noise $o"ing into the b#s deep voi$es spe king over the ne't. B#t 1 $ n2t see nyone% St $y2s st nding right in "y line o! sight. 8r bbing "y h nd g in he p#lls "e in to& into the living roo". ,here st nds ll !o#r b nd "e"bers nd t&o r ther sl#tty &o"en in tight $lothes nd bre sts bo#t to ! ll o#t o! their glittery tops. 1 resist the #rge to roll "y eyes t the". 9+ey St $y &e &eren2t dist#rbing yo# nd yo#r g#est &ere &e=; the " n 1 re$ogni>e s the dr#""er sks hi" &ith &ink. St $y $hokes like he2s got so"ething $ #ght in his thro t. - n " 1 th t terrible to think he2d sleep &ith "e= 1 let go o! his h nd. +e2s o!!ended "e. So"e best !riend he is. 9No g#ys this is )"ily. -y ne& Co ro d " n ger.; 9Assist nt.; 1 $hi"e in. 95o# hired $hi$k to &ork &ith #s=; <ohn th n the le d singer sks hi". 1 s&e r it2s like 1 " not even in the d "n roo" right no&. 6#$king "en. 95es. 1 did. 1 told yo# g#ys th t% i! yo# &o#ld h ve listened to "e. 12ve kno&n )" ne rly "y &hole li!e nd she &ill be helping "e &r ngle the !o#r o! yo#.; +e points to the" ll one by one.

<ohn th n $h#$kles nd 12" ins#lted g in. <es#s $ n this introd#$tion get ny &orse= 9She2s /#st kid. Look t her% ho& she $o#ld help=; he looks "e #p nd do&n like 1 " the &orst thing he2s ever l id eyes on. 9@oes she even kno& the !irst thing bo#t being o#r " n ger= Or Co " n ger= ,h tever the !#$k.; <ohn th n s ys his tone sti$ky &ith $id. - n% he is di$k. ,h t did 1 ever do to hi"= 12ve /#st "et the d "n g#y nd he lre dy thinks 1 " too yo#ng nd ine'perien$ed. 6#$k th t. 6#$k hi"C Not liter lly. 912" t&enty !o#r !or yo#r in!or" tion nd 1 " st nding right here. 1! yo# h ve so"ething to sk "e yo# $ n t lk to "y ! $e. 1t &o#ld be "ost ppre$i ted. And yes 1 h ve so"e e'perien$e. 1 gr d# ted N5? &ith b $helors in 4#bli$ :el tions. 1 think 1 $ n h ndle it.; 1 s ss. - n% 12" being tot l bit$h. B#t 1 re!#se to be tre ted like so"e h l! ss &o" n be$ #se 12" short% look yo#ng nd h ve v gin . 9Oh she told yo#.; .he one g#it rist $h#$kled. .hen the entire b nd l #ghs nd St $y looks t "e like 1 /#st hit hi" in the ! $e &ith book. 1 shr#g. +e sho#ld kno& "e &ell eno#gh to kno& 1 &ill not be tre ted less th n 1 deserve. +ello% th t2s &hy 1 st y single. -en re /#st $l#ster !#$k & iting to h ppen. - n% 1 h ve tr#$ker2s "o#th. ,ell "y d d is tr#$ker so 1 g#ess the pple doesn2t ! ll ! r !ro" the tree. 9Listen short st $k.; <ohn th n s ys t king step to& rds "e. St nding ne rly toe0to0toe. +ot d "n he2s t ll nd &ell 12" short. B#t he2s got to be t ller th n "y d d " ybe si' !ive or " ybe he /#st ppe rs th t & y be$ #se his body is so b#ilt. 9,h t=; 1 dd pl $ing "y h nd on "y hip. 5ep th t2s right 12" b d ss. A short one b#t 1 $ n h ng in the big le g#es. Bring it on yo# big "isogynisti$ ss0&ipe. 1 $ n2t help b#t $r $k $r#de s"irk. 91! yo# $o"e nd st y here% living on b#s &ith b#n$h o! d#des. 5o#2ve got to get one thing str ight. ,e h ve $o$ks. ,e !#$k hot $hi$ks% drink% !#$k so"e "ore nd &e2re lo#d nd sloppy. 1! yo# $ n2t h ndle it 1 s#ggest yo# hop the ne't !light b $k to &herever it is yo# $ "e !ro" nd go b $k to yo#r little s&eet li!e &ith p#ppy dogs nd $r $ker / $ks.; St $y nd the rest o! the b nd re & t$hing this &hole d "n thing pl y o#t. 1 " h l! te"pted to $ry be$ #se he is being so "e n. B#t 1 s#$k it #p nd 1 " so do&n &ith this. 1! he & nts to be di$k 1 &ill sho& hi" 1 $ n t ke it. 12" no &e k &o" n. Bring it onC 1 t ke nother step !or& rd. 1 $ n s"ell hi". +e s"ells so d "n good like $ig rettes% spi$y $ologne nd s&e t. ,h t he dy $o"bo. 5#". Oh noC 1 better stop th t right no&. 1 h te this pri$kC :e"e"ber th t )"C 9Listen.; 1 bl#rt !ir"ly &ith n ttit#de nd poke hi" in the $hest h rd &ith "y !inger. Oh "y godC 1t2s like this " n is " de o! ro$k. Not ro$k nd roll b#t the sedi"ent ry kind. 91 don2t $ re &ho or &h t

yo# !#$k. 12" not here to pl y "o""y. 12" here to do "y /ob. ,hi$h !r nkly 1 kno& 1 $ n do nd 1 ,1LL be good t. <#st be$ #se 1 don2t h ve penis doesn2t "e n 1 $ n2t do this. Be s lo#d nd p rty s h rd s yo# & nt. .h t2s yo#r -O% not "ine. No& get the !#$k o#t o! "y & y so 1 $ n go get "y l#gg ge nd /oin yo#r sorry ss on this b#s.; 1 p#sh hi" g in nd he doesn2t "ove so 1 slide o#t beside hi" nd o#t the b#s door 1 go. 1 " so pissed 1 think 1 $o#ld spit. On hi" &o#ld be even better. St $y $o"es r#nning o#t o! the b#s behind "e. 9,h t the hell &ere yo# thinking=; he de" nds /#st s he gr bs "y r" nd p#lls "e g inst hi". 1 looked #p into his lovely bl#e eyes. +e2s bl >ing " d. 95o#2re shitting "e right= 5o# let hi" t lk to "e th t & y nd e'pe$t "e to bend over nd t ke it #p the ss=; 1 p#sh hi" & y nd !ollo& the p th o#t to the p rking lot. 1 sn t$h #p "y b g o#t o! the b $k nd roll it b $k to the b#s &here St $y is o#tside & iting !or "e. 912" sorry.; +e s ys nd so#nds like he "e ns it. 96or &h t p rt=; 1 s ss% letting go o! "y b g nd $rossing "y r"s over "y $hest. 9All o! it. <ohn th n "ight "e right yo#2re not $#t o#t !or this li!estyle. 1 h ve been so desper te to !ind so"eone to help so 1 $ n go see "y "o"% th t 1 didn2t think bo#t &h t yo#2d h ve to de l &ith here.9 +e gest#res &ith his he d to& rd the b#s. Blonde h ir ! lls into his ! $e. +e p#shes is b $k nd t#$ks !e& str nds behind his e rs. 91 " ybe book re ding% $o!!ee drinking% (#iet g l "ost o! the ti"e St $y. B#t 1 $ n do this. <ohn th n doesn2t s$ re "e. 1 $ n h ndle di$k he d. 1 spent "onths &ith boss trying to !#$k "e. 1 think 1 $ n h ndle !o#r ro$k st rs nd "y best !riend. 12" here s "#$h !or yo# s 1 " !or "ysel!. 1 h ve to prove to "ysel! th t 1 $$o"plish so"ething this $h llenging. Stop &orrying bo#t "e nd /#st let "e do "y d "n /ob. <#st pro"ise to keep "e !ro" s&e ty boobs pressing g inst "y b $k is ll 1 sk.; 1 $h#$kle nd give "e sy"p theti$ s"ile. 1 kno& St $y h s been going thro#gh lot &ith his "o"2s di gnosis nd it2s progressing r pidly. .he l st ti"e &e spoke on the phone he & s terri!ied th t he &o#ldn2t be ble to see her g in be!ore she !orgot bo#t hi". 1 don2t kno& &h t 1 &o#ld do in his position it2s re l h rd one. +is "o" & s b#sive or th t2s &h t 1 &o#ld $ ll it. She $ lls it p renting. 1 $ ll b#llshit. B#t she2s ll he2s ever h d. 1 & s l#$ky eno#gh to h ve "o" nd d d "y &hole li!e. 4retty &eso"e ones t th t. 8oing into the b#s 1 t ke sho&er in the st nd#p st ll. .he bl $k nd &hite b throo" is st#!!ed &ith tons o! " le prod#$ts. ,hoever tho#ght "en don2t #se s "#$h prod#$ts s &o"en re !#ll o! shit. + ir gel% blo&0dryer% deodor nt% $olognes. A b#n$h o! n#dy " g >ines re t#$ked into the $hro"e & ll " g >ine holder long &ith !e& sports ill#str ted nd g "e in!or"er. Not to !orget the

i$ing on the $ ke th t2s sitting on the !loor in !ront o! the v nity% it2s h#ge bo' o! $ondo"s nd &hen 1 s y h#ge 1 don2t "e n like t&enty p $k. 12" t lking Cost$o si>e bo' o! .ro/ ns. 1! they s$re& th t "#$h " ybe they sho#ld do $o""er$i l !or .ro/ n. 1 "ight h ve to look into th t. 1 only &ish 1 kne& "ore bo#t "en nd &hy they do the things they do. .hey re &eird $re t#res. 1 gre& #p &ith "y "o" nd "e% &ith "y d d o#t o! on the ro d lot. 1t & s ll !lo&ers% " ke#p% " ni$#res% $hi$k !li$ks% $ooking nd books. 1 never le rned bo#t sports or $ rs or nything " nly. )'$ept !ro" St $y &ho s$hooled "e "ore bo#t se' nd !ootb ll th n 12d never need to kno&. St nding &ith to&el &r pped ro#nd "e the door to the b throo" !lies open. 9,h t the hellC; 1 yell nd look &ho is it the dr#""er ll re dy to go o#t !or the night. 9Sorry.; +e s"iles tot lly $he$king "e o#t. 1 p#ll "y to&el tighter ro#nd "e. 91t2s ok y.; No it2s not b#t 1 & nt to be polite to hi". .h nk!#lly he didn2t get !#ll sho&. A to&el doesn2t " tter. @oes it= 9+ey @% yo# get e" " n=; 1 he r so"ebody s y. 1 think its 4ri$e. 95e h 12" getting the". .he l dy &e2re living &ith is in here. 8ive "e se'. 1 "e n se$.; +e l #ghs eyeing "e. 91 need those.; +e points to the bo' o! $ondo"s. 1 bl#sh !i!ty sh des o! red nd t#rn to the side !or hi" to retrieve the". 9.h nks.; +e s ys e'iting the b th &ith gi nt h nd!#l o! the .ro/ ns. 91 got e". Let2s hit it.; +e s ys to so"eone other th n "e. 1 get re dy to step o#t o! the b th to&el !#lly int $t nd he $o"es b $k nd pops his he d in. 95o# $o"ing tonight Bell =; he sks. 1 sh ke "y he d yes 9B#t 12" )"ily.; 91 kno& th t. B#t yo# re be #ti!#l.; +e r#ns his eyes #p nd do&n "e g in% li$ks his lips nd d#$ts o#t g in. .h nk the lord. -y he rts be ting !i!ty "iles n ho#r. Close (# rters &ith ro$kers is going to be h rder th n 1 tho#ght.

Chapter Three
4#lling #p o#tside Cl#b F &ith St $y nd o#r bodyg# rd $h #!!er < "es% &ho looks like bee!ier vision o! . ylor L #tner. .he o#tside o! the $l#b is p $ked &ith gro#pies% the s "e sle >y sl#ts th t &ere t the $on$ert. 5#$k. B#t 1 kno& 1 h ve to get #sed to seeing this. 1t isn2t going to be the !irst or l st ti"e 1 " st#$k vie&ing boobs nd p#ssies !ro" dist n$e. As long s they don2t to#$h "e 12" going to be ok y. Or 1 hope. St $y gr bs "y h nd nd es$orts "e !ro" the bl $k tinted &indo& -er$edes. 1 love riding in style. B#t 1 love driving "y tr#$k even "ore. 1 h ve bl $k G02s version s#b#rb n 1 ride ro#nd in b $k ho"e in 1ndi n . ,ell it2s "y d d2s no& th t 1 don2t live t ho"e b#t 1 still love it nd 1 re!#se to let hi" sell it. So it sits in o#r b rn $olle$ting d#st. 4#shing thro#gh the " ss o! people. < "es le ds the & y nd gently n#dges nyone in o#r p th. 1 "ight h ve to b#y hi" !r#it b sket one o! these d ys. 95o# look very ni$e.; St $y $o"pli"ents on$e &e get inside. 12" gl d he !in lly pproves o! "y o#t!it. 1 &ent little o#t o! "y $o"!ort >one nd thre& on p ir o! ! ded /e ns th t h#g r ther tightly g inst "y big b#tt nd !itted pink t0shirt &hi$h no& gives !#ll vie& o! "y r" t ttoo. 5es% nobody &o#ld h ve g#essed little short str ight0l $ed )" &o#ld h ve t ttoo. B#t 1 do% 1 h ve !o#r $t# lly. -y right r" is h l! sleeved do&n to "y elbo& &ith !lo&ers nd !e& other intri$ te det ils. All done in !#ll $olor. 1 s t over thirty ho#rs !or th t one. 1 h ve s" ll $#p$ ke on the top o! "y le!t !oot% tr "p st "p on "y lo&er b $k th t 1 got &hen 1 & s eighteen. And s" ll b#tter!ly on "y le!t hipbone th t b#rned so b d &hen 1 got it done th t 12ll never ever get nother t ttoo on "y sto" $h re g in. .he $l#b is to $ p $ity. 1t2s h#ge% & ll0to0& ll &ith people. .he !loor is like bl $k l $(#er nd the $eiling is ind#stri l !#ll o! $olor!#l lights. .he b r &r ps ro#nd the entire e st & ll nd it2s bl $k too. -#si$ is lo#d nd "i' o! "odern / "s. 1 spot <ohn th n inst ntly only be$ #se th t2s &here "ost o! the &o"en re !lo$king to. 1 $ n2t bl "e the". +e2s e sily si' !ive% b#ilt like bri$k shit ho#se% t ttoos sleeve his r"s nd 12" s#re other pl $es too. +is h ir is d rk bro&n spiked into short ! #' h &k. Big lips nd h s green eyes si"il r to "ine. @re "y s ll get o#t. And &h t do yo# kno& &e h ve o#r o&n little gro#p o! se'y &o"en he ded o#r & y. 5ep% St $y2s hot too. 98o get so"e t il.; 1 le n over nd #tter into his e r% s" $king hi" h rd on the ss. 912" not le ving yo# in here. 1 le rned "y lesson.;

9S$re& th t. 1 told yo# St $y 12" going to h ve to le rn to get do&n &ith the p rty s$ene. 12ve never done "#$h o! it be!ore. B#t 12ll do it. No& do &h t yo# do best nd !#$k so"e hot $hi$ks.; 1 s"ile. 95o#2re the best.; +e le ns do&n nd kisses "e $heek nd he ds o!! to& rd the ho rd o! &o"en he ded str ight !or #s. C#tting the" o!! on$e he re $hes the" nd &r ps his r"s ro#nd there ne$ks. .ilting his he d b $k he gl n$es over his sho#lder to "e nd "o#ths Eth nk yo#2. 1 & ve hi" o!! nd !l sh hi" big over0the0top s"ile. 9So yo# nd St $y re lly don2t !#$k do yo#=; 1 he r voi$e s y ne't to "y e r. 1 t#rn nd !ind one o! the g#it r pl yers o! the b nd t lking to "e. 9No &e don2t. Never h ve nd never &ill.; 9N "es Keith.; +e s ys holding his h nd o#t !or "e to sh ke. 9)"ily.; 1 sh ke it (#i$k nd !ir". 9Ni$e to "eet yo# )"ily.; +e s"iles. - n% his "o#th is per!e$t too. +is h ir is blonde% lighter th n St $y2s nd it2s str ight nd spiked. +is r"s re lso $lo ked in t ttoos nd so is his ne$k. .ot l ro$k st r person r di tes !ro" hi". B#t 12ve never he rd St $y s y th t he2s &o" ni>ing di$k. Like <ohn th n. 1 " s#re he s$re&s lot o! &o"en. B#t t le st he h sn2t ins#lted "e. Bro&nie points !or hi". 95o# too.; 1 s"irk. 91 love yo#r ink.; he br#shes the b $k o! his h nd over t ttoo. 8oose b#"ps rise ll over "y body he d to toe. 1 h ven2t been to#$hed0to#$hed by " n in prob bly ye r. -y one nd only serio#s boy!riend ended ne rly t&o ye rs go nd 12ve only ever h d se' &ith hi". ,e d ted !or little over eight "onths nd &hen 1 !o#nd hi" kissing nother &o" n in $o!!ee shop on "y & y to &ork 1 broke #p &ith hi". +e begged "e to st y nd s id he & s sorry. B#t 1 d#"ped Chris nd ever sin$e 12ve been single. 12ve d ted !e& ti"es here or there. Set #p $o#ple o! ti"es on blind d tes. -y "o" insists 1 d te t le st t&i$e ye r. So 1 do !or her s ke. 12ve kissed lot o! !rogs in "y li!e b#t 12ve never gotten or l or given it. Chris & s str ight l $ed nd v nill . ,e h d se' " ybe ten ti"es &hile &e &ere together be$ #se &e didn2t st rt #ntil si' "onths in. +e & s !r id to pop "y $herry. ,hi$h h#rt like son o! bit$h. B#t !ter th t 1 loved to h ve se'. Altho#gh ever sin$e 1 $ #ght hi" &ith th t other &o" n 1 $ n2t s y th t 12ve been e'$ited to llo& so"ebody b $k into "y bed or "y he rt. St $y2s only been the " n in "y li!e ne't to "y d d. 1 like it th t & y. +e2s strong nd he doesn2t try to !#$k "e. 4l#s he kno&s 12ve only ever slept &ith one " n nd doesn2t try to press#re "e to sleep &ith others. O#r !riendship &orks gre t. 1 s#pport his horniness nd he s#pports "y l $k thereo!. 9.h nks.; 1 s y to Keith.

9, nt to get drink=; the blonde g#it rist sks. 9S#re.; 1 gest#re &ith "y h nd !or hi" to le d the & y. 4l $ing his h nd on "y elbo& he es$orts "e thro#gh the " ss o! people !illing the entire $l#b. 1 $ n2t see St $y ny&here nd <ohn th n ro$k st r "isogynist e'tr ordin ire h sn2t "oved. )'$ept no& he2s got big boobed bottled blonde on his l p nd his h nd is #p her pl id skirt. 1 & nt to y $k. 9So &h t2ll it be=; A t ll br#nette b rtender sks. 912ll h ve b#d nd she2ll h ve=; Keith looks t "e. 9A !#>>y n vel do#ble on the s$hn pps nd shot o! te(#il &ith le"on nd so"e s lt.; 1 r ttle o!!. Keith looks t "e like 1 h ve t&o he ds. 9,h t=; 1 shr#g. 1 kno& &h t 1 & nt so s#e "e. 9- ke th t si' te(#il shots nd ll the rest.; +e s"iles t the be #ti!#l &o" n. 9Oh nd p#t it on <ohn th n Strikers t b.; +e t#rns nd &inks t "e. And 1 $ n2t help b#t giggle like giddy s$hoolgirl. 1t doesn2t t ke long !or the shots to ppe r in !ront o! #s long &ith s lt% !e& le"on &edges on n pkin nd o#r other drinks. 1 le n on the b r nd sip o#t o! the tiny str & nd Keith $h#gs his beer. 9SoH re dy to do so"e shots=; he &inks% sl ""ing his e"pty beer bottle do&n on the b r. 91 & s born re dy.; 1 &iggle "y hips. 9,hy don2t yo# #se li"e=; he eyes the le"ons &ith r ised bro&. 91 h te the t ste. 1t2s n sty. .r#st "e it2s better &ith le"on.; 1 $o ' nd gently pl $e "y h nd on his t ttooed r". +e looks do&n #pon "y h nd nd b $k #p t "e &ith gi nt toothy s"ile. A s#rge o! ele$tri$ l energy b#rsts thro#gh "e ending not so $onveniently bet&een "y legs. 1 slide hi" over one shot nd the s ltsh ker nd divide the le"ons bet&een #s. 4#shing "y h ir o#t o! "y ! $e. 1 li$k "y h nd do#se it &ith sh ke o! s lt% li!t "y shot nd he !ollo&s s#it. ,e $link o#r gl sses together li$k o#r o&n h nds nd !ires b $k the !irst ro#nd o! li$k% drink% s#$k. 1t tingles ll the & y do&n !iring "y belly0#p t its destin tion. 1 kno& drinking te(#il isn2t the best $hoi$e o! drink !or "e be$ #se 12ll be s&e ting like &hore in $h#r$h by the end o! the night. 1t & r"s "e #p like so"ething !ier$e b#t 1 LO3) it. 9,h t do yo# think o! the le"on=; 91t & s better th n 1 e'pe$ted. 5o# h ve good t ste.; +e s"iles r#nning his h nd over "y !ore r" g in. <#st s so"ebody !ro" behind gr bs p l" !#ll o! "y ss. 1 t#rn to see &ho the $#lprit is nd so"eho& Keith lre dy h s his h nds lo$ked on the " n2s bi$ep. +is eyes re h#ge &ith !e r. 1 &o#ld be too i! Keith gr bbed "e like th t. 95o#C ,ill pologi>e !or groping "y !riend2s ss.; +e st tes r ther lo#dly% his voi$e is d rk nd d ngero#s. ,o&% 1 !eel spe$i l to h ve so"eone sti$k #p !or "e like this. 1t2s kind o! hot.

91t2s ok y Keith.; 1 to#$h his $hest. Oh "y% it2s like ro$k too. ,h t the hell is &ith these "en nd h ving ro$k h rd bodies= <ohn th n% St $y nd no& Keith. 1 think 1 "ight h ve /#st died nd gone to he ven. 9No it2s notC; he st res d ggers t "y ss gr bber. 95o# &on2t do it g in &ill yo# "ister=; 1 sk r ther $ l"ly. Altho#gh 12ve got hot b#tter!lies tingling in "y t#""y th nks to this s#perhot ro$k st r " nh ndling g#y !or "e. .his is !irst. .he " n sh kes his he d &itho#t &ord nd looks like he "ight piss his p nts. 1 re $h over &ith "y h nd nd t ke hold o! Keith2s re"oving its !ir" grip on the " n nd &ith "y other 1 shoo the ss gr bber o!!. 95o#2re l#$ky she2s ni$e sshole be$ #se 12ve h l! te"pted to ki$k yo#r ss.; +e sho#ts giving the ss gr bber nother "en $ing look. @ "n he2s so hot. Looking do&n 1 re li>e 1 h ven2t t ken "y h nd o!! o! Keith2s nd he2s !olding his !ingers &ith "ine. C#e the sp rks% g in. Looking deep into "y eyes &ith s"irk 1 think he "ight le n over nd kiss "e. Shit% 1 hope he does. 1 re!#se to " ke the !irst "ove. 1 $ n2t look like $o"plete h#ssy. 12" not one t ll !or th t " tter b#t he doesn2t kno& th t. 9+ey 1 tho#ght 1 /#st he rd yo#r ss yelling t so"e d#de. ,h t the !#$k & s th t ll bo#t=; <ohn th n sks Keith nno#n$ing his dis ppointing ppe r n$e. .o&ing di!!erent girl th n be!ore behind hi". .he br#nette is de!i ntly dr#nk s& ying b $k nd !orth on so"e r ther shinny hooker heels nd she2s prob bly hopped #p on so"e $oke. ,o& this is so not "y &orld. 1 drop Keith2s h nd nd he !ro&ns t "e. 9So"e ss b g gr bbed )"2s ss; 9AhH.; <ohn th n tilts his he d do&n nd e' "ines "y ss &ith his eyes. 1 s&ing ro#nd nd p#sh it g inst the b r to hide !ro" his g >e. 1 " not d "n pie$e o! "e t. 91t2s ni$e ss. B#t she &o#ldn2t be getting ll th t ttention i! she2d stop &e ring s#$h tight o! /e ns.; +e eyes "e sh rply. 91 " right here y kno&= And /#st be$ #se 1 &e r tight /e ns doesn2t give "en !ree reign to ogle it.; 1 sn p. .he br#nette st res t "e !or se$ond nd goes b $k to trying to st nd ste dy in those st#pid hooker heels. @esper te "#$h= 9Listen short st $k.; +e p ts the top o! "y he d. Oh th t "other !#$kerC 1 " so $lose to hitting hi". 1 b ll "y h nds into !ists t "y sides nd $lin$h "y teeth together. 91! yo# don2t & nt "en to & nt to try nd !#$k yo# then don2t dress like yo# & nt it=; +e s ys s s"ooth s silk. .h t2s itC 12ve h d itC

9Listen di$khe dC 1 " so tired o! yo#r shit lre dy. +o& 1 dress or ho& 1 present "ysel! is none o! yo#r godd "n b#siness. 8o !ind yo#rsel! &hore.; 1 point "y st re bl t ntly t his $o"p nion. 9And le ve "e the hell lone. 1 ,AS en/oying "ysel! &ith Keith over here.; 1 nod "y he d to& rds Keith. 9?ntil yo#r d#"b ss sho&ed #p. So go t ke yo#r "isogynisti$ si' !oot !ive% t ttooed% bling bling &e ring ss ! r & y !ro" "e. No&C Or 1 &ill " ke s#re yo# regret ever "eeting "e. @o yo# #nderst nd=; 1 s$re " st ring ngrily t hi". 1 !eel like te pot bo#t to e'plode. 9,hy don2t yo# tell "e ho& yo# re lly !eel=; he l #ghs "o$kingly. 9,h t 1 #nderst nd short st $k is th t 1 get #nder yo#r skin r ther e sily nd thre tening "e isn2t going to " ke "e "ove n in$h #nless 1 ,AN. to. 5o#r little girly thre ts re s e"pty s yo#r po$kets. B#t 1 &ill t ke "y very ri$h% very se'y% ro$k st r ss & y be$ #se 1 $hoose to.; +e goes to t#rn ro#nd nd le ve. 95o#2re not se'yC; 1 s$re " nd 1 sl#g hi" so h rd &ith ll o! "y "ight right in the nose. +e yelps nd inst ntly $overs his nose &ith both h nds. C#e the bloodC +#ndreds o! onlookers /#st & t$hed "e de$k prob bly the "ost ! "o#s ro$k st r in the &orld in the nose. Serves hi" right. 1 " so d "n s"#g. B#t 1 don2t give shit. St $y $o"es b rging #p thro#gh the $ro&d o! g &kers. - n% he looks pissed. Shooting "e de th st re he es$orts <ohn th n by his r" !ro" the $l#b. 1 sh ke "y h nd re li>ing ho& "#$h it $t# lly h#rts to p#n$h so"eone in the ! $e. ,hen 1 t#rn b $k ro#nd 1 shoot both te(#il shots nd the lovely b rtender h s b g o! i$e re dy !or "e. 95o# so ro$k.; She s"iles sliding "e over nother shot. 1 do&n it. 9.h nks.; 1 s"ile b $k. 6#$k% "y h nd re lly h#rts. Note to sel!0 Ne't ti"e 1 & nt to p#n$h " n in the ! $e. @ON2.. ?se $h ir or !rying p n it &ill h#rt "e "#$h less. 1 t#rn "y he d nd Keith is still there. +is eyes re s &ide s s #$ers nd his be #ti!#l "o#th is liter lly h nging &ide open. 9,h t=; 1 sk. 9.h t & s so hotC; he s ys% $losing his "o#th. 9,ell the "other !#$ker deserved it nd then so"e. 1 re!#se to be t #nted like th t. 1 "ight be short b#t 1 &ill dress nd $t ho&ever 1 & nt. - ybe he2ll think t&i$e bo#t tre ting "e like shit g in.; +e nods. 912ve never seen nyone st nd #p to <ohn th n like th t. -ost o! #s h ve & nted to ki$k his ss one ti"e or nother. B#t yo# /#st did.; +e s"iles &ide. 91 /#st $ n2t believe it. 5o#2re serio#sly "y hero.; 1 snort l #gh nd shoot b $k nother shot the br#nette b rtender slides "y & y.

Chapter Four
1 ride b $k in di!!erent -er$edes s" shed bet&een Keith nd @#n$ n the b nds dr#""er. 1t & s (#iet ride $onsidering 1 think Keith & s still in nd &e nd 12" s#re @#n$ n "ight be pissed. 9,here re yo#r se' p rtners=; 1 sk the" both looking side to side. 9-ine is s#pposed to be "eeting "e b $k t the b#s. @idn2t h ve roo" !or her in here nd 1 don2t & nt to h ve to !ind her ride ho"e.; @#n$ n ns&ers. 9No se' !or "e.; Keith $hi"es in &ith s"irk% ki$king his bl $k "otor$y$le boot on top o! his knee. Settles b $k into the se t o! the $ r nd stret$hes his r" over the b $k. .he $ r stops right o#tside the b#s nd Keith slides o#t !irst nd @#n$ n gets o#t opposite o! "e. 1 & it !or the" to enter the b#s &hen 1 " gr bbed by the r" nd dr#g over to the side o! the b#s by St $y nd he looks !lipping pissed. 9,o#ld yo# like to tell "e &h t h ppened b $k there=; he sks his "o#th is !ir" 1 think he2s trying not to s$re " t "e. 9,hy don2t yo# sk <ohn th n= Or sho#ld 1 s y -r. ,o" n>ing sshole.; 1 shoot b $k. 9.his little ttit#de yo#2ve got going on )" h s got to go.; +e sh kes his !inger t "e. <es#s% 12" not in !irst gr de here. Stop tre ting "e like $hild. 9Listen St $y 1 love yo#. 12" not trying to be p in. B#t 1 re!#se to be tre ted th t b dly. 1 "e n% $o"e on 12ve p#t #p &ith lot o! shit !ro" "en over the ye rs be$ #se 1 &on2t sleep &ith the" b#t this it "#$h &orse. +e t #nts "e nd degr des "e nd 1 & rned hi". And he &o#ldn2t stop so 1 t #ght hi" lesson.; 9Oh yo# t #ght hi" lesson lright. 5o# ne rly broke his nose.; +e bl#rts his tone dripping in resent"ent. 9B#t 1 didn2t% did 1=; 9No yo# didn2t b#t 1 " s#re it2s going to s&ollen nd bl $k nd bl#e. ,e h ve nother sho& in t&o d ys in .#$son 1 /#st hope it looks better by then.; 9And &h t i! it doesn2t= @oes it " tter th t "#$h= ,o"en re still going to thro& the"selves t his !eet. .he d " ge to his nose "ight " ke hi" hotter. ,o"en like to n#rse "en b $k to he lth; 1 st te r ther bl#ntly rolling "y eyes. 9No it doesn2t th t "#$h. B#t yo# don2t kno& hi" )" nd &h t2s gone on in his li!e th t " kes hi" the di$k he is. 1! 1 &ere yo# 12d l y o!!.; +is tone so!tens. 6in lly.

91 didn2t sk to be tre ted b dly St $y nd 1 didn2t st rt it. +e did.; 1 point "y !inger to the b $k o! the b#s &here 1 kno& his roo" is lo$ ted. 91 " sorry he h s been thro#gh so"e shit. 1 $ n2t $h nge th t. )veryone h s b gg ge. B#t /#st be$ #se he2s been h#rt doesn2t "e n he h s right to tre t "e th t & y.; 91 never s id it did.; +e shr#gs &ith sigh. 9All 1 " s ying is i! yo# pl n on sti$king ro#nd th t yo# try to be little "ore #nderst nding. <ohn th n is the & y he is be$ #se o! lot o! shit he2s been thro#gh nd be$ #se he2s ro$k god /#st "pli!ies it.; 9Ok y 1 &ill try to be ni$er. 1 " sorry. 1 sho#ldn2t h ve p#n$hed hi".; 9@on2t tell "e th t )"% tell hi".; +e s ys pointing to the s "e pl $e 1 did. 1 dis"iss "ysel! !ro" "y pissed o!! b#t very h ndso"e best !riend nd go b $k into the b#s to dress !or bed. 1 step three !eet into the living roo" nd "o ns !ill the ir. .&o "en2s nd $o#ple &o"en2s. ,el$o"e to the &orld o! living &ith ro$k st rs. 1 !ind "y b#nk nd p#ll o#t "y b g. 1 pr y 1 don2t see ny body p rts. 1 kno& there re &o"en in those b#nks nd th t2s &here ll the se' is $o"ing !ro" be$ #se 1 don2t he r ny noise $o"ing !ro" <ohn th n2s roo". So 1 stop by the b throo" nd t ke o!! "y br nd b ggy or nge t0shirt. 1 t#$k "y $lothes b $k into the s#it$ se 1 h ve le!t sitting on the dining t ble by the kit$hen nd de$ide no& is s good s ti"e s ever to tell <ohn th n 1 sho#ldn2t h ve so$ked hi" in the ! $e. B#t do 1 & nt to= No. B#t 1 " only doing it be$ #se it &ill " ke St $y h ppy. 1 & lk over to his $losed bedroo" door. 1t h s "irror on the b $k. So &hen 1 kno$k 1 $ n see "ysel! kno$king. Kind o! $reepy 1 lightly kno$k three ti"es. 9+ey &h t re yo# doing=; 1 t#rn ro#nd nd see Keith is t lking to "e. 91 told St $y 1 &o#ld pologi>e !or p#n$hing <ohn th n.; 1 shr#g. 9Ok.; +e &hispers nd the se' "o ns get lo#der. 12" ! irly $ert in 1 he r &o" n org s" nd 1 he r &ho 1 " s#re is @#n$ n s ying 9Oh ye h b by t ke it ll.; And she s ys post org s". 98od% yo#2re so hot nd so big.; 1 $over "y "o#th holding b $k giggle nd 1 look #p t Keith nd he2s doing the s "e. B#t &hen 1 g >e do&n% Keith h s boner r ther big one tte"pting to bre k !ree o! his /e ns. +e noti$es 1 " looking nd shoots "e sly s"ile be!ore $#pping his p $k ge so 1 $ n2t st re ny"ore. ,h t sh "e. Ok y not re lly. 1 h ven2t seen " ny $o$ks% so e $h one 1 do see is r ther interesting. 1! th t2s the proper &ord to #se. Shit 1 h ve no $l#e. nd slip into p ir o! !lo&er bo'ers

1 rot te b $k ro#nd nd <ohn th n is st nding in the door& y behind "e% h nds gripping the top o! the door !r "e. 1 didn2t he r hi" open the door. ,ell &ith the "o ns 1 " s#re 1 $o#ldn2t. <es#s his nose is ll b nd ged #p nd he2s &e ring nothing b#t p ir o! bl $k silk bo'ers. +is entire torso is ripped nd the 3 t his hips is s&oon &orthy. 1 $ n2t help "ysel! !ro" st ring. -ost o! his $hest nd p rt o! his sto" $h is $overed in "ore t ttoos. 5ep% even tho#gh he2s /erk he2s still hot. 9,h t do yo# & nt )"ily= Are yo# here to glo t=; <ohn th n sks. +is voi$e is ho rse nd deeper th n 1 re"e"ber. 9No% $ n 1 $o"e in nd t lk=; 1 sk pl ying #p s&eetest voi$e 1 $ n $on/#re #p. @ "nit% looking t hi" ll b nged #p be$ #se o! "e is " king "e !eel like pie$e o! shit. 9@o 1 h ve $hoi$e=; 95es% <ohn th n yo# h ve $hoi$e.; +e s"iles nd it2s not di$k he d one. 9S y th t g in.; 9S y &h t g in=; 1 sk $on!#sed. 9-y n "e.; +e s"iles g in. 9,hy=; 9Be$ #se% /#st do it.; +e de" nds. And the sshole is b $k. 96ine i! it "e ns 1 $ n t lk to yo#. <ohn th n.; 9S y it g in.; 1 so & nt to sto"p "y !oot on the gro#nd like d "n !ive0ye r0old. .his is getting ridi$#lo#s. 9<ohn th n% <ohn th n% <ohn th n.; 1 repe t nd he sighs big sigh nd "oves o#t o! the door& y !or "e to enter his bedroo". 9No& &h t do yo# & nt )"ily=; he sks r ther ni$ely resting hi"sel! g inst the & ll o! his bedroo". .#$king his r"s $ross his bro d $hest. 1 plop "ysel! do&n onto his r ther so!t bed. .he bl#e $o"!orter is still t#$ked into pl $e telling "e he h sn2t been sleeping yet. 91% <ohn th n.; 1 s"ile nd so does he. 9, nt to s y 1 " sorry !or hitting yo#. 1 kno& th t & sn2t ni$e o! "e. 1 " NO. sorry !or being bit$h be$ #se yo# deserved it. B#t p#n$hing yo# like th t & s #n$ lled0!or nd !or th t 1 " very very sorry. 1 /#st hope &e $ n get p st ll this nd h ve se"i !#n$tion l &orking rel tionship.; 9,h t i! 1 don2t & nt one=; 9One &h t=; 9A &orking rel tionship.;

9OhH. ,ell% 1 $ n (#it.; 1 sl#"p. 91 kno& th t2s &h t yo# & nted nd 1 think !ter p#n$hing yo#. 1 prob bly deserve th t.; -y lip t#rns do&n into po#t nd 1 st re t the !loor% "y h nds resting on "y knees. 9.h t2s not &h t 1 "e nt &o" n nd yo# kno& it.; 1 gl n$e #p be"#sed. 9?"H no 1 don2t nd $ n yo# de$ide &h t yo#2re going to $ ll "e <ohn th n be$ #se one "in#te 12" short st $k% nother "in#te 12" &o" n nd o$$ sion lly yo# #se "y n "e.; 91 like short st $k. 1 think it2s $#te pet n "e.; +e s"irks d rkly. 912" not yo#r pet sshole.; 1 "#tter. 9See yo# & nt "e to $ ll yo# so"ething ni$e &hi$h 1 think short st $k is better th n Bit$h% be$ #se th t2s &h t yo#2ve been to "e sin$e yo# & lked thro#gh th t b#s door. B#t to yo# 12" n sshole nd di$khe d nd ll those other &onder!#l things yo#2ve n "ed "e. .hose re the &orst ter"s o! ende r"ent 12ve ever he rd.; +e $h#$kles. And 1 h ve this s#dden #rge to sl p hi" g in. - n "y e"otions ro#nd this " n re like !re king roller $o ster. +e gets to "e b d nd it2s not in good & y t ll. No& Keith th t2s good & y nd St $y &ell he2s "y best !riend so it2s di!!erent b#t good. No& <ohn th n. +)LL to the NO. 9Listen 12" sorry 1 hit yo#. @on2t " ke "e regret s ying th t be$ #se St $y &ill kill "e. C ll "e &h tever yo# & nt. 1 don2t $ re <ohn th n. B#t &h t 1 $ ll yo# is never "e nt to be t ken in ny ni$e & y. .r#st "e ter"s o! ende r"ent &ill N)3): be spoken to yo# o#t o! these lips.; 1 point to "y "o#th &hile 1 pop "y lips together. 91 like "ysel! to "#$h to sleep &ith or to#$h yo# in ny & y sh pe or !or". Let lone get to the point &here 1 & nt to $ ll yo# honey or s&eetie.; 1 $over "y "o#th nd bend over to prove point. 9Oh god ple se don2t " ke "e si$k.; +e l #ghs t "e. 5ep 1 think 1 proved &h t 1 needed to. 9Ok y &ell short st $k. 1 $$ept yo#r pology nd 1 too hope &e $ n get long in the !#t#re. No& get o#t o! "y bedroo" so 1 $ n stroke "y $o$k nd go to sleep.; 1 get #p nd le ve. +e ne rly sl "s the door sh#t behind "e nd 1 $ n2t help b#t s"ile. 12" not !ired nd 1 think &e2ve $o"e to so"e sort o! r ther !#$ked #p gree"ent. .he se' noises re gone nd 1 $ n he r !e& snoring so#nds. 1 don2t even think to bother Keith or St $y. So 1 re dy "ysel! to $li"b #p into "y b#nk &hi$h o! $o#rse isn2t e sy !or "e being so d "n short. 1 sho#ld h ve re(#ested botto" b#nk. 1 step #p on the edge o! the botto" b#nk to hoist "ysel! #p nd person gr bs "y nkle nd then p#lls b $k the red priv $y $#rt ins. 1t2s -r. @r#""er. ,ith his bro&n h ir nd $ho$ol te bro&n eyes nd &ho &o#ld h ve g#essed he2s n ked s !#$king / ybird. 9+ey b#nk " te.; +e &inks.

- n% $o#ld "y night get ny &orse= 9+i% @ $ n 1 go to sleep no&=; 1 try to t#g "y nkle o#t o! his gr sps. 1t doesn2t &ork 9,hy don2t yo# sleep do&n here &ith "e= 1 $ n keep yo# e'tr $o"!y.; +e p ts his !ree h nd on his " ttress. 1 st re t his ! $e. B#t his $o$k is h nging o#t nd it h rd nd it2s r ther big. ,ell not th t 12ve seen " ny to $o"p re it too. Only t&o n ked in "y entire li!e. +is " kes three. 9No @ 1 think 1 &ill sleep in "y o&n bed. B#t th nks !or the o!!er.; 1 lie be$ #se 1 " tired o! the night2s dr " &on2t let #p. 9So 1 he r yo# p#n$hed the big " n tonight.; 95ep% no& let "e go.; 1 try to t#g & y g in nd his grip tightens. - n% 1 " st rting not to like this sshole. Are ll the "en in the b nd &o" ni>ers= 9.h t2s re lly hot. 5o# kno& sti$king #p !or yo#rsel! nd p#n$hing hi". 1t " kes "e h rd /#st thinking bo#t it.; +e &inks r ther disg#stingly nd !ists his $o$k &ith his !ree h nd. 9.h t2s re lly gre t @ b#t 1 & nt to go to sleep. Stroke yo#rsel! nd go to bed too ok y. 12" s#re &e h ve lots o! things to do to"orro&.; 1 s y ni$ely% st ring t the $eiling. 1 $ n2t look do&n t hi". 1t is /#st gross. 1 $o#ld s$re " or " ke s$ene b#t 1 don2t & nt to & ke the rest o! the "en #p. 1 &ill /#st h ve to de l &ith the perv lone. 912d like to do yo# to"orro&. 5o#2re !eisty nd hot. ,hy don2t yo# $o"e do&n here nd let "e sho& yo# &h t 1 $ n do &ith "y $o$k.; 912d r ther not.; .he bedroo" door beside "e sl "s open nd 1 t#rn "y he d nd !ind "ysel! st ring t <ohn th n g in nd he2s still in his bo'ers nd he ded to& rds the b throo". 1 don2t s y &ord to hi". +e enters the b throo" nd se$ond l ter sti$ks his he d o#t. 9,h t2s going on here @=; he $h stises his b nd " te% peering do&n t his gr sp on "y nkle. 9Nothing. <#st bo#t to go to sleep.; @#n$ n ns&ers (#i$kly. 5#p% he2s g#ilty. ,e ll kno& it. <ohn th n steps o#t o! the b throo" nd & lks to& rds #s. @ still &on2t let go o! "y nkle. 1t2s like he2s gl#ed to "e. 95e h right @.; he s$olds g in. 91s he trying to get yo# into bed=; he sks "e. 1 don2t s y &ord. 1 don2t need "ore shit tonight% espe$i lly !ro" hi". 9See &e2re !ine here ren2t &e s&eetie=; @ s ys his tone is !ogged &ith l#st. 9+er n "e is )"ily; he shoots hi" &i$ked gl n$e. nd be$ #se i! he lets "e go 1 $ n go to sleep. 1 " s#ddenly beyond e'h #sted. +e still

9And is everything lright here short st $k=; he sks kindly% looking t "y ! $e% his eyes re so!t nd it2s like 1 " seeing tot lly di!!erent person. B#t 1 !ree>e nd bite "y lo&er lip. Con!#sed on &h t to do. 9Listen short st $k 1 pro"ise not to be di$k. <#st tell "e i! everything is ok y.; +e dds. 1 look do&n t @ nd b $k #p t <ohn th n. 91 & nt to go to bed% th t2s ll 1 & nt to do.; 1 "#tter. 9,ill @ let yo# go to bed=; he sks "e nd 1 sh ke "y he d. 9Listen #p !#$ker. She2s n e"ployee no& so yo# let her leg go nd !ind di!!erent &o"en to !#$k. She2s not going to s#$k yo# o!! or let yo# bet&een her legs. She2s obvio#sly not like th t. So yo# le ve her lone or 1 &ill be sleeping in bed ne't to yo# #ntil this entire to#r is over. K pish=; he spits o#t. 1t2s h rsh b#t not r#de. 1 " /#st gl d 1 didn2t h ve to " ke s$ene nd he s ved "e. .he "isogynist $t# lly helped "e. . lk bo#t br in !#$k. 96ine.; @#n$ n "#tters o#t o! $lin$hed teeth nd thro&s the $#rt ins b $k over !or priv $y. 9.h nks.; 1 s y nd &itho#t thinking re $h over nd to#$h his r" to sho& "y ppre$i tion. +e !lin$hes nd steps b $k like 1 /#st b#rned hi". 95ep% gott go t ke piss. Night )".; +e s ys nd t#rns nd d shes b $k into the b throo" 1 $li"b b $k #p into "y bed nd its lights o#t.

Chapter Fi e
- n it2s noisy. Nothing like & king #p to the so#nd o! g#it rs str#""ing nd shit lo d o! "en trying to t lk over one nother. .he b#s is "oving. 1 $ n !eel it. 1 le n #p in "y b#nk. Shit% 1 "#st h ve been tired be$ #se i! ll those ro$kers re lre dy & ke it "#st be l te. 1 thro& b $k "y priv $y $#rt in nd sit #p "y legs d ngling over the edge. Looking over the lip o! the bed it looks like long & y do&n to the gro#nd even tho#gh 1 kno& it2s not. 1 slide o#t nd th#"p onto the !loor. Being so short s#$ks. 1 t#rn nd there re !ive sets o! eyes st ring t "e. ,h t= @o 1 look th t hideo#s &hen 1 get o#t o! bed= 1 pivot to& rds the b throo" go in lo$king the door this ti"e nd t ke long pee. .h nk god 1 don2t h ve h ngover. 1 dr nk (#ite bit l st night. B#t th nks to "y 1rish blood 1 h ve one hell o! n l$ohol toler n$e. Not s#re i! th t is good thing or not. B#t it2s &orked !or "e th#s ! r. 3ie&ing "ysel! in the s" ll "irror bove the sink 1 t#$k "y h ir behind "y e rs nd & sh "y ! $e nd h nds. 1 re!#se to #se the h nd to&el to dry "y ! $e so 1 #se "y shirt inste d. 12" s#re it2s "ore s nit ry. 12d h te to kno& ho& long it2s been sin$e th t h nd to&el h s been & shed nd 1 " (#ite $ert in it h s "#ltiple "en2s se"en dorning it so"e&here. 12ve never h d " n2s sper" on "y ! $e nd 1 " not bo#t to st rt no&. 1 e'it the b throo" nd go to /oin the $re& in the living re . 1t2s (#ieter no&. 9@id &e & ke yo#=; Keith sks. )ven in the "orning &itho#t sho&er he looks ! b#lo#s. 1 &ish 1 & s th t l#$ky. 9No not re lly. 1 needed to get #p nyho&. 1 told yo# ll 1 " not going to $ re i! yo# re lo#d or h ving se'. 1 h ndled it l st night !ine. @on2t &orry 12" not !r gile.; 1 shoot the" $olle$tive gen#ine s"ile. 1 s&e r they &ere ll holding their bre ths t the s "e ti"e be$ #se 1 he rd si"#lt neo#s sigh $o"e o#t o! every " n2s "o#th. 1 open the !ridge nd !ro&n. .he only thing in there is $old pi>> % beer nd "ilk. 1 open the $#pbo rd nd !ind $r p lo d o! s&eets% protein po&der. Not bo' o! $ere l or gr nol b r in sight. 1 " going to h ve to go shopping in .#$son to sto$k #p. 1 $ n2t live on beer. St $y $o"es over to "e s 1 " r#"" ging thro#gh the $#pbo rds. 1 need $o!!ee. 9C n 1 t lk to yo#=; +e le ns in nd &hispers in "y e r. 1 nod. .he "en ll st rt their "#si$ session g in nd 1 !ollo& St $y to& rds the b $k o! the b#s &here &e st nd in !ront o! the b throo" door.

9,h t2s #p=; 9App rently <ohn th n isn2t " d ny"ore. +e s id yo# t&o t lked nd it2s $ool. 1 " so h ppy yo# don2t h ve to le ve #s. Like 1 s id l st night 1 kno& he2s h rd to get long &ith b#t i! yo# do it2ll be e sier on #s both.; 9Ok y.; 1 $l sp "y h nd over his sho#lder nd give it gentle s(#ee>e. 95o#2re so &onder!#l )".; +e sn t$hes "e #p into big h#g. 91 hope yo# kno& ho& "#$h 1 love yo# Annie.; 95o# kno& 1 h te &hen yo# $ ll "e th t.; 1 pin$h his r". Annie is ni$kn "e 12ve h d sin$e 1 & s in s$hool. So"e l "e girl 1 don2t even re"e"ber the n "e o! g ve it to "e. And it & sn2t given o#t o! love% she & s " d th t St $y nd 1 re s#$h good !riends. She & nted to d te hi" nd tho#ght 1 & s preventing th t. 1t2s not like 1 $o#ld ever prevent St $y !ro" doing nything. +e2s n independent " n. .he n "e $y$led ro#nd s$hool nd st#$k. 1 got l#$ky eno#gh !or it not to !ollo& "e to $ollege. Altho#gh t ti"es St $y still brings it #p to te se "e. ,hi$h 1 h te. B#t 1 love hi" lot so 1 toler te it. 1 sne k into the b throo" nd $h nge into so"ething less 4< like th t !its "y style. A dress. 1 love dresses. 1 $ n2t get eno#gh o! the". Skirts% dresses% yo# n "e it% 1 love it. <e ns 1 &e r i! 1 h ve to b#t only i! 1 h ve to. 1 lso $ n never get eno#gh o! high heels. Not hooker ones b#t $l ssy ones. 1 h ve !i!ty p irs b $k in "y p rt"ent in N5C. 1! it & sn2t !or this /ob nd "y &onder!#l roo"" te <oe nd his girl!riend C r 1 $o#ldn2t live &here &e do in N5. 1 rent three0bedroo" s#blet $ondo. B#t it2s ! b#lo#s nd $lose to /#st bo#t everything. ,e h ve gro$ery h l! blo$k do&n% $o!!ee shop one blo$k nd the s#b& y is t&o blo$ks. Convenient nd &ell de$or ted th nks to "y ! nt sti$ ! shion sense 1 !o#nd the $ondo on "y o&n &hen 1 & s still ttending N5? nd 1 l nded /ob (#i$kly #pon gr d# tion nd s#blet the pl $e. Co#ldn2t !!ord it on "y o&n !or long so 1 !o#nd <oe b#ddy !ro" &ork nd his "odern d n$e girl!riend C r . So &e split the rent three & ys. <oe2s like "y brother 1 never h d nd &e kind o! look like. ,ith o#r " t$hing red h ir nd p le skin. B#t he h s !re$kles nd 1 don2t. C r is " >ing too b#t 1 think 1 " ke her nervo#s. Not s#re &hy b#t i! 1 h d to g#ess 12d s y she thinks <oe2s nd 12s !riendship is "ore th n th t. B#t it2s not nd never $o#ld be. St $y h tes th t 1 live &ith <oe. ,ell 1 think it2s "#t# l be$ #se they h ve "et 1 think t&i$e " ybe three ti"es nd t lked on the phone $o#ple o! ti"es. B#t !or one re son or nother they $ n2t st nd e $h other. <e lo#sy= - ybe. )ven tho#gh 1 $o#ld never #nderst nd &hy. 1 ret#rn to the living roo" nd slide "y belongings b $k into "y s#it$ se. Se r$hing !or $lo$k nd !ind the ti"e on the stove. +oly shit 1 & s right. 1 did sleep in long ti"e tod y. 1t2s three lre dy nd 12" st rving.

9So boys did yo# lre dy e t=; 1 sk interr#pting so"e sort o! $onvers tion. 9No% &e2re l"ost to .#$son so &e $ n gr b bite there.; St $y s ys. 1 nod nd ret#rn b $k to "y b#nk le ving the "en to the"selves. 1 h d slid "y Nook into the po$ket on the inside o! "y b#nk. 1 don2t think 1 $o#ld !#n$tion &itho#t th t thing. 1 re d ll the ti"e. On ver ge t&o books &eek " ybe three i! 12" not s#per b#sy. 1 &ish 1 $o#ld re d "ore b#t #n!ort#n tely "y ti"e doesn2t llo& !or it. 12" ne rly !inished &ith 6i!ty Sh des 6reed. 1 kno& re ding ro" n$e B@S- book isn2t the s" rtest &hen yo#2re sleeping in b#s !#ll o! horny "en. B#t 1 gott get "y loving !ro" so"e&here. -y g#ess s to &hy 1 " so $ontent &ith being single nd not s$re&ing ro#nd is be$ #se 1 get to live vi$ rio#sly thro#gh "y books. Not th t 1 think th t2s he lthy or nything b#t !ter &h t h ppened &ith Chris nd the other b d thing th t h ppened &hen 1 & s s" ll &ith "y #n$le. .h t only "y "o" nd St $y kno& bo#t. Kind o! le ves "e sh#t o#t nd 1 kno& "y books $ n2t bre k "y he rt% be t "e% $he t on "e or "olest "e. 1 so"eho& !ind "ysel! & kened by St $y &hen &e rrive to the hotel &e re st ying in !or three d ys. 1 "#st h ve ! llen b $k sleep on the b#s. 98et #p sleepyhe d &e2re here.; +e s ys n#dging "e &ith his h nd. 1 sit #p hop do&n o#t o! the b#nk nd go to $olle$t "y things b#t 1 $ n2t !ind the". 9,here2s "y $lothes St $y= 5o# didn2t thro& the" o#tdid yo#=; 1 s$old hi" pointing "y !inger to &here 1 le!t "y b g. 9,ell the ones 1 tho#ght &ere ok y 1 h d one o! the bellboys t ke #p to yo#r hotel roo" b#t yes 1 did thro& so"e o! the" o#t.; +e s"iles nervo#sly% nd r#ns his h nd thro#gh his h ir. 95o# did &h tC; 1 shriek. 95o# $ n2t be on this to#r !or t&elve "ore &eeks nd h ve those kinds o! $lothes. .hey ren2t s#it ble !or this kind o! gig.; 91 &ill &e r &h t 1 & nt yo# po"po#s !#$ker.; 1 s$old% sh king "y !inger t hi". 9Not here yo# $ n2t. ,e h ve n i" ge to #phold. 5o# sho#ld kno& ll bo#t th t being in the 4: b#siness. 5o#r p rt o! te " nd the te " doesn2t dress in !oo0!oo dresses nd p nts#its. 1t doesn2t &ork.; 1 & nt to s$re " nd r#n & y. 1 love "y $lothesC 1 p $ked &h t 1 tho#ght & s sensible !or sensible b#siness&o" n. Not !or ro die bit$h &ith $rot$hless p nties nd "i$ro "iniskirts. St $y & nts "e to be re son ble b#t he s#$ks ll the re son o#t o! it. 94le se tell "e yo# didn2t thro& o#t "y heels or "y bl#e le ther skirt.;

9No those re so"e things 1 think re ok y to &e r. B#t 1 did thro& o#t ll the dresses e'$ept the tight bl $k one nd 1 tossed the tennis shoes nd ll those n sty gr nny p nties. Serio#sly )"% yo#2re t&enty !o#r not si'ty !o#r. ,e r p nties like &o"en yo#r ge not yo#r gr nd" s.; ,h t the hell does he kno&= +e gets to str#t ro#nd in bo'ers. ,hi$h re b si$ lly shorts to &e r #nder yo#r p nts. .hose re "e nt to be $o"!ort ble. 80strings re notC 12ve tried the". -y p nties re not gr nny. ,ell 1 don2t think they re. .hey2re &hite brie!s nd $o"e in p $k o! si' str ight !ro" !r#it o! the loo". 12" on !ire on the inside. 1 " so pissed t hi". 6or being "y best !riend he s#re s hell s#$ks t it so"eti"es. 96irst o!! St $y they2re #nder&e r &h t does it " tter &h t kind 1 &e r= .his is bo#t ! shion. .hose re not going to be seen. 1 don2t think it sho#ld " tter i! they re gr nny or not. 1 like the" be$ #se they re $otton nd $o"!ort ble.; 1 s" rt o!!. 95e h% b#t 12ll KNO, yo#2re &e ring the" nd th t2s not se'y. 5o#2re be #ti!#l )". 5o# need to &e r p nties th t sho&$ se th t.; 9,hy does it " tter i! yo# think 12" se'y or not= NOBO@5 is going to be ne r "y p nties St $y.; 9B#t " ybe they &ill. - ybe one d y yo# yo#2ll !ind " n to sh re yo#r bed g in. And tr#st "e yo# don2t & nt hi" t king those things o!! yo#r body. .h t2s /#st e"b rr ssing.; 91 don2t & nt to sleep &ith nyone St $y yo# kno& th t. So no one &ill be sh ring "y bed. 1 $ n pro"ise yo# th tC And yo#2re telling "e i! yo# &ere ttr $ted to &o" n nd !o#nd her &e ring those kinds o! p nties yo#2d be t#rned o!!=; 1 r ise n eyebro&. 5ep 1 sked th t /erk0& d. 912d h ve to love &o" n !or long ti"e to be ok y &ith her &e ring p nties like th t. So yes i! 1 /#st "et &o" n nd 1 &ent to !#$k her nd she &ore those "onstrosities 1 &o#ld go li"p.; +e nodded &ith ttit#de. 9,ell% it2s ni$e to kno& &here &e st nd B)S. 6:1)N@.; 1 st lk p st hi" nd /#st s 1 " bo#t to go o#t o! the b#s 1 !ind <ohn th n st nding on the se$ond to botto" step in "y & y. 1 stop nd st re right t hi" lo$king "y green eyes &ith his nd the g#ilty look on his ! $e s ys it ll. +e2s been listening to o#r entire $onvers tion. Son o! bit$hC 9,ell ss0&ipe 1 hope yo# en/oyed the sho& no& get the hell o#t o! "y & y.; +e hesit ntly b $ks do&n the st irs nd lets "e p ss. 1 r#n in "y !lip0!lops nd "y only !lo&ery dress le!t into the hotel Ch derell nd !ind Keith st nding in the lobby &e ring his #s# l pl in shirt nd /e n shorts &ith le ther !lip0!lops.

.e rs re po#ring do&n "y $heeks. 1 " serio#sly n e"otion l "ess. .he p st t&o d ys h ve been terrible. Bet&een the shit &ith <ohn th n nd @ nd no& the &hole p nties thing. 1 $ n2t help b#t bre kdo&n. Keith t#rns ro#nd nd sees "e $rying. ,ithin se$ond he2s got "e &r pped tightly in his r"s% his h nd $ ressing "y b $k. 8od he !eels so good nd & r" nd loving. 1 " never to#$hed "y "en. St $y yes% b#t th t doesn2t $o#nt. 9,h t2s &rong )"=; he sks his voi$e is so & r" nd s&eet. 1 &r p "y r"s ro#nd hi" tighter nd &hen 1 look over 1 see both ssholes & lking into the hotel together $h tting like nothing h ppened. 1 hide "y ! $e into Keith2s $hest nd "y sobbing ki$ks #p not$h. +e keeps $ ressing "y b $k his h nds re ro#gh yet sens# l. ,e re st nding in vie& o! the p#bli$ nd 12" h ving "eltdo&n. B#t he doesn2t see" to "ind. 9,h t h ppened g#ys=; 1 he r hi" sk the ssholes. 91 s id so"ething to her th t she didn2t like nd it2s the d "n tr#th. <ohn th n overhe rd #s.; 1 & nt to h #l o!! nd s$re " bloody "#rder t hi". B#t 1 $ n2t do it. 1 " "ore h#rt no& th n 1 " nything else. St $y serio#sly /#st told "e he tho#ght 1 & s be #ti!#l b#t th t "y p nties t#rn hi" o!!. Not th t 1 need hi" to be t#rned on by "e. B#t th t is tot l p#n$h in the sel!0estee". -ine is b d eno#gh s it is. 1 don2t need hi" telling "e 1 t#rn hi" o!! too. 9,h t h ppened=; Keith sks nd p#lls "e o!! o! hi" on$e they le ve so 1 $ n see hi" ! $e0to0 ! $e. 9,hen 1 & s sleeping St $y thre& o#t "ost o! "y $lothes% told "e th t they don2t !it the b nds i" ge nd then s ys th t "y #nder&e r re gr nny p nties. So he thre& the" o#t too be$ #se they re t#rn o!!.; 9Serio#sly=; he $o$ks his eyebro&. ,o&% he is so !ine. 1 &ipe "y $heeks nd nod. Keith sho&s "e #p to "y roo" nd le ves "e t the door. 1 sh#t it &ith good0bye. +oly shit "y roo" is h#ge. .his is so not st nd rd roo". 1t2s !re king s#ite. ,hy in the &orld &o#ld 1 need s#ite= 1 sleep in b#nk nd no& 1 " #pgr ded to this= .h t " kes no sense. 1 & lk into the b throo" nd th nk the he vens it h s t#b. 1 so need n $t# l b th. 5ep% so king in "y o&n !ilth !or &hile &ith so"e b th s lts sho#ld do "e so"e good. 1 !ind "y b g &hi$h is $o"pletely g#tted nd !ind 1 h ve like t&o o#t!its le!t nd ll "y heels. 4l#s 1 h ve >ero p nties to &e r e'$ept the ones 1 h ve on nd 1 " so not going to p#t those b $k on. 1 "ight be desper te b#t 12" not th t desper te. 1 !ind "y i4od nd "y e r0b#ds in the >ipper po$ket nd t ke the" &ith "e into the b throo". 1 t#rn on the & ter nd $$li" te the te"per t#re to "y liking. +ot nd ste "y to " ke "y legs ni$e nd

red. .his lovely hoity0toity hotel h s $o"pli"ent ry b th s lts. 1 toss the" into the t#b% letting the" dissolve &hile 1 #ndress. 1 dip into the t nt li>ingly hot t#b% l y "y i4od on to&el nd p#t in "y hot pink e r0b#ds. -y "#si$ $olle$tion is e'tensive. 1 love "ost kinds o! "#si$. : p% :IB% 6i!ties% Si'ties% Seventies nd )ighties% + rd :o$k% Boy b nds% Altern tive :o$k% Co#ntry. 5o# n "e it 1 prob bly love so"e "#si$ gro#p or "#si$i n !ro" it. ,hen 1 & s yo#nger 1 loved N0Syn$% Keith S&e t% Bri n -$Knight% 8#ns N roses nd shit ton o! others. 1 still love the" ll nd even "ore. 1n$l#ding the b nd 1 " no& &orking !or% Stri$ken the hottest or one o! the top !ive hottest in the &orld. 1 " going to be st#$k !or three &eeks o! to#ring. 1 &ill get short bre k !or &eek nd then 1 " b $k on the ro d &ith the" nother eight &eeks. Not th t 1 h ve "#$h to go b $k to. <oe 1 " s#re he !ine &ith "e being & y. -y d d still drives tr#$k so he2s r rely ho"e nd "y "o" no& &orks !#ll0 ti"e s n#rse. Not s#re &here 12ll go or &h t 1 &ill do &hen 1 get o#r bre k b#t " ybe 12ll go &ith St $y to visit his "o". 1 kno& she2s si$k nd 1 kno& he2s prob bly going to need h nd to hold thro#gh this terrible ti"e in his li!e. ,ith being divor$ed t&i$e nd no kids. All he re lly h s is "e nd the b nd. 1 $ n2t think o! " ny other !riends he h s. +is &ork is his li!e nd 12" the only other person th t !ills the e'tr sp $e in bet&een. -ost o! &hi$h is t lking on the phone or Skyping. 8od this hot & ter !eels &onder!#l. 1 $ n2t help b#t relish in it. 1 h ve so needed this sin$e l st night. 1 $lose "y eyes nd tilt "y he d b $k rel 'ing it on the ri" o! the t#b. Oh this is the li!e. 1 " / ""ing to so"e Christi n Ag#iler the e rly st#!! nd 1 !eel &eird. Like 1 " being & t$hed. -y h ir on "y body is st nding #p nd 1 h ven2t $l#e &hy. 1 open "y eyes nd "y he rt /#st bo#t e'plodes in "y $hest. 9Oh "y godC ,h t the hell re yo# doing in here= <O+NA.+ANC; 1 s$ree$h. Sitting #p like slingshot 1 thro& "y e r0b#ds o!! the side o! the t#b nd $over "y priv tes &ith "y h nds. 9SoH sorry.; +e "#tters his ! $e is in p#re sho$k% nd so is "ine. +e t#rns ro#nd% le ving his b $k to ! $e "e. 9+ey )"% 5o#r door & s open 1 & sn2t s#reH; 1 he r St $y s y nd he $o"es into the b throo" too. No& it2s d "n threeso"e. +is eyes &iden nd nger pier$es his g >e on$e he sees <ohn th n st nding there. 9,h t the !#$k d#de=; he s ys to <ohn th n. 91H; St $y $#ts hi" o!!. 9@id he see yo# n ked=; he peers ro#nd big le d singer to "e. 1 nod. 98od d "nitC; he s$re "s nd both "en r#n their h nds thro#gh their h ir. ,o& "y li!e h s serio#sly hit So p Oper st nd rds.

9+ey $ n yo# both step o#tside nd let "e !inish & shing #p. @on2t & nt to t#rn yo# o!! or nything.; 1 shoot n ngry st re right t "y best !riend. 9.hen &e $ n t lk or !ig#re o#t &hy the !#$k yo# both re doing here.; .hey both le ve in r#sh nd sh#t the b throo" door !or "e. -y he rt is be ting ! st nd i! 1 & sn2t in the t#b 12d h ve stress s&e t po#ring do&n "y ! $e. 1 & sh #p (#i$k nd get o#t. 1 &r p to&el ro#nd "y "op nd hotel robe ro#nd "y body. 1 open the door nd & lk into the bedroo" to !ind both "en. St $y sitting on the bed peering o#t the &indo&. 12ve got ! irly de$ent vie& !ro" the ninth !loor nd big <ohn th n is le ning g inst the & ll. 9Ok so &ho &o#ld like to go !irst=; 1 sk% ni$ely. ,hi$h is big s#rprise to "e. 1 h ve $r ving to be sn rky bit$h. .hey like to bring th t o#t in "e. B#t 1 de$ide g inst it !or the gre ter good o! the d y. 1 need t le st !e& ho#rs &itho#t so"e kind o! dr " . 9Keith $ "e to "y roo" nd s id yo# &ere #pset &ith both o! #s. So 1 tho#ght 12d $o"e nd t lk to yo#.; St $y s ys% his body still ! $ing & y !ro" "e looking o#t "y &indo&. 9So no& yo# de$ide to be "y best !riend g in=; 1 dd nd here $o"es the s ss. 912ve l& ys been th t & y )"% 1 love yo#. 5o# kno& th t. B#t 1 $ n2t llo& yo# to keep thinking the & y yo# dress espe$i lly in the #nder g r"ents dep rt"ent is $$ept ble. 12" too honest to llo& th t.; 95esH B#t thro&ing & y ll o! "y $lothes nd other belongings &itho#t dis$#ssing it &ith "e is bit h rsh. @on2t $h think= 1 &o#ld never do th t to yo#. 1 " not h#ge ! n o! the #gly bro&n le ther / $ket yo# insist on &e ring every ti"e 1 see yo#. B#t 1 h ndle it !ine nd $$ept yo# !or &ho yo# re be$ #se 1 &o#ldn2t $h nge yo#. 1! yo# & nted to &e r leop rd print bikini brie!s. 12d still s#pport yo# nd love yo#. )ven i! 1 think they2re #gly or t#rn o!! !or "ost &o"en. 1t2s &h t yo# $hose to do nd 1 &o#ld s#pport yo# in ll things be$ #se 1 " yo#r best !riend. .h t2s &h t 1 " s#pposed to do. <#st like holding yo#r h nd thro#gh t&o very s$re&ed #p " rri ges. .o t&o &o" n 1 never liked. B#t 1 s#pported yo# be$ #se th t2s &h t 1 do.9 1 !inish nd te rs re pri$king "y eyes. 1! 1 blink they &ill es$ pe. And they do. 91 kno& 1 & s h rsh. 1 get th t. B#t yo# h ve to see it !ro" "y vie&.; 9And &h t2s th t=; 1 p#t "y h nd on "y hip. -y te"per t#re is rising. 95o#2re n e'tre"ely be #ti!#l &o" n. And 1 "e n e'tre"ely. 5o# l& ys h ve been. 1 kno& yo# don2t see it &hen yo# look in the "irror be$ #se 1 kno& yo# so &ell. B#t 1 kno& th t2s &h t "en see &hen they look t yo#. 1 " h rsh bo#t the $lothes be$ #se yo# &e r st#!! to $over yo#r be #ty nd not enh n$e it. 1 h te th t. 1 l& ys h ve. 12ve &ent ho& " ny ye rs de ling &ith loose !itting dresses% gr nny p nties th t /#st keep getting &orse= .hey #sed to be t le st $olor!#l )"% no& they re pl in

&hite nd they #sed to be !ro" - $y2s no& they $o"e !ro" b g t , l" rt. 1t ll keeps getting &orse. - ke#p #sed to " ke yo# !eel be #ti!#l. ,hi$h yo# re &itho#t it. B#t no& yo# never &e r it e'$ept " ybe lip gloss nd " s$ r . 5o#r skirts h ng do&n to yo#r knees or p st nd yo#2re tiny. 1 "e n not s#per skinny be$ #se th t2s /#st gross b#t yo#2re se'y si>e si' &ith r ther pl#"p booty nd bre sts. .hose re the be #ty o#tside o! yo# )". 5o# hide it so nobody &ill try to "eet nd get to kno& yo#. 5o# don2t & nt to be loved or desired. B#t yo# don2t kno& th t. 5o#2ve only been &ith one " n in rel tionship. .here is so "#$h "ore to be dis$overed. 5o# h ve to believe th t.; +e s ys nd "y he rt is bre king in t&o &ith every &ord. Cr#"bling inside o! "e. 1t h#rts to he r the tr#th. ,hen people s y the tr#th h#rts. .hey "e n it% be$ #se it2s like kni!e st bbing yo# over nd over. St $y kno&s "e so &ell. 1 kne& !or ye rs he h s been "y best !riend b#t 1 never re li>ed he s & everything th t 1 didn2t even spe k. 1 don2t t lk bo#t "en desiring "e be$ #se 1 don2t & nt it. 12" !r id% so !r id. -ost t&enty !o#r0ye r0old &o"en h ve e'perien$ed lot in the bedroo" by no&. 1 h ven2t. -ost o! the" h ve been loved nd $herished. Chris never did th t !or "e. +e s id he loved "e nd 1 like hi" lot. B#t it & sn2t love not even !ro" hi". 1! it & s he &o#ldn2t h ve $he ted. ,hi$h looking b $k no& 1 " s#re he did the entire ti"e &e &ere together. 1 g >e over nd !orget &e re h ving this $onvers tion &ith sshole <ohn th n in the roo". B#t hey it2s not like it " tters. +e2s lre dy he rd the p nty story. So "ost o! the $ ts lre dy o#t o! the b g. 95o# think 12" be #ti!#l St $y be$ #se yo#2re bi sed. B#t 12" not yo#r type. So "y be #ti!#l to yo# is like sisters. 1 think "y "o"2s be #ti!#l be$ #se she2s "y "o". B#t is she gorgeo#s= No% b#t she is to "e be$ #se she is "y "o" nd 1 kno& her inside nd o#t. 1 #nderst nd the $lothes be$ #se yo# kno& &h t yo#2re right. 1 don2t !eel se'y. 1 don2t & nt to. 5o# think it2s e sy h ving one p rtner in "y entire li!e nd th t s "e " n $he ts on "e= .h t is not going to open "e #p &illingly to others. 12" not gro#pie &hore &ho &e rs short skirts nd lo& $#t tops. @o 1 h ve the ssets= 5es% 1 kno& 1 h ve big b#tt nd h#ge boobs !or "y si>e.; +e t#rns nd & t$hes "e t lk nd 1 pivot so 1 $ n see both "en t the s "e ti"e. <ohn th n2s ! $e is ne rly pri$eless. 5ep% he kno&s "y se$rets. -ight s &ell !ind the" o#t no&. 12ll be de ling &ith hi" !or long ti"e i! St $y keeps "e ro#nd. 9So no& yo# kno& <ohn th n. 1 g#ess th t2ll give yo# "ore shit to tor"ent "e bo#t. Sorry 1 don2t & nt to get !#$ked nd #sed like the &hores yo# gr $e yo#r bed &ith. 12" !#$ked #p in other & ys 1 s#ppose. So ye h 12ve been $he ted on by the only " n 1 h ve ever slept &ith.; 1 e'press. +olding "y he d high. 1 $ n2t be &e kling ro#nd hi". 1 h ve to try nd be strong. )ven tho#gh inside 1 /#st & nt to $ry nd h ve St $y hold "e nd tell "e everything2s going to be lright. And he2d do th t too.

+e holds his h nds #p% s#rrendering de!e t. 91 pro"ise short st $kH erH#"H)"ily. 1 &on2t let nything yo# dis$#ss le ve this roo". 1 " ybe n sshole b#t 12" not th t big o! one. And 1 think &hoever the di$k is th t $he ted on yo# is obvio#sly n idiot.; 9.h nks <ohn th n.; 1 s"ile t hi". 1t looks s d 12" s#re% b#t it2s the best 1 $ n $on/#re #p no&. 9)hH. +e"... Best !riend over here not done t lking.; St $y $hi"es in r ther s r$ sti$ lly pointing his !ingers ni" tedly t hi"sel!. 1 giggle nd then <ohn th n /oins in nd the &hole roo" bre ks o#t into !#ll on l #ghter. - n% it !eels good to l #gh !ter s#$h n e"otion l d y nd it2s /#st p st dinnerti"e.

Chapter Si!
.he rest o! the night be!ore 1 spent &ith St $y e ting b#tt lo d o! roo" servi$e in "y s#ite &hi$h t#rns o#t is even ni$er th n his roo". 5 h "eC Not s#re ho& 1 l#$ked o#t nd he didn2t. Not th t it " tters nyho&. <ohn th n le!t shortly !ter the little in roo" $onvo nd never did t lk to "e bo#t &h t he $ "e to dis$#ss. 1 think 1 s$ red hi" o!! &ith the &hole Eyep 12ve only h ve one se' p rtner2 thing. Shit% !i!ty ye rs go tons o! people $o#ld s y by the ti"e they die they2ve only h d !e& p rtners. Not no& d ys. 1n the gro#p o! people 1 person lly kno& !i!teen see"s to be the going n#"ber nd "ost o! "y !riends re less th n !orty ye rs old. So they h ve plenty o! ye rs le!t to r $k #p their bed not$hes. -y roo"" te <oe 1 kno& h s slept &ith t le st t&elve &o"en nd St $y 1 $o#ldn2t even g#ess nd neither $ n he. 1 kno& be$ #se 1 st#pidly sked on$e. 1 kno& ll the b nd "e"bers re " le &hores or h ve been one ti"e or nother. )ven s&eet nd se'y Keith. 1 &oke #p e rly th nks to the l r" $lo$k th t St $y set &itho#t "y kno&ledge. 8ott love hi". .he b nd is pl ying tonight t n indoor $on$ert h ll. Air0$onditioning so#nds so &onder!#l espe$i lly being in Ari>on in the "iddle o! the s#""er. And here 1 tho#ght 3eg s & s b d. Silly "e. No& 1 " st nding in l rge - $y2s dep rt"ent store th t2s tt $hed to t&o0story " ll &ith "y best !riend nd <ohn th n the b nds le d singer. ,hy in the &orld they both dee"ed it ne$ess ry to t g long to !ind $lothes nd #nder&e r shop is beyond "e. -en nd shopping don2t #s# lly "i' nd 1 kno& St $y h tes to shop. At le st !or nor" l $lothes. Lingerie on the other h nd 1 " s#re he $o#ld do ll0d y long s long s his leggy blondes &ere the ones "odeling !or hi". ,e &ere getting re dy to le ve &ith < "es the bodyg# rd &hen <ohn th n slipped into the b $k o! the tinted -er$edes &ith #s in$ognito. Not th t% th t2s going to do "#$h good. 6 ns kno&ing he2s in to&n% h s sleeves o! t ttoos visible nd st nds s t ll s gi nt nd l"ost s &ide s one. +e st nds o#t in $ro&d. And th t2s p#tting it "ildly. B#t ever sin$e the &hole 12"0not0 0&hore reve l he2s been s#per $ool. - ybe too $ool. Or " ybe he2s $o"ing do&n o!! o! so"ething like l$ohol% dr#gs or " ybe se'. Or possibly $o"bo o! the". Not th t it " tters one0& y or nother to "e. As long s he keeps his &o" ni>ing & ys to hi"sel! 12" gre t. 1 slip into dressing roo" "y r"s re piled !#ll o! $lothes. 12d prob bly never think to try on. B#t th nks to St $y nd so"e !ro" <ohn th n 1 h ve been !or$ed to try on plethor o! $olor!#l ite"s. 1n$l#ding "iniskirts% short booty shorts nd lo& $#t tops. Not dropping lo& $#t b#t too lo& !or "y st nd rds.

1 try on the entire lot nd only de$ide on keeping si' ite"s. 1 re!#sed to even sho& the "en. 1 h te doing th t. ,hen yo# go shopping &ho $ res &h t others think= 1t2s bo#t ho& the $lothes " ke yo# look nd !eel to yo#rsel!. And to "e those si' ite"s look de$ent. 4l#s they &ill keep St $y h ppy be$ #se they "esh &ith the &hole ro$k st r the"e 12ve got going. @o 1 like it= No. B#t &ill 1 do it= 5es. 1 & nt to keep "y /ob nd "ost o! ll 1 & nt to keep "y best !riend !ro" h ting "e or his /ob be$ #se 1 look like n $$o#nt nt. 8#ess it2s good thing 1 h ve t ttoos th t sho#ld help #thenti$ te the style 12" going !or. St $y h s no t ttoos. +e2s pretty boy &ho h tes needles. 5et% it2s i"port nt !or "e to look the p rt. 1 think 1 sho#ld serio#sly $onsider pressing the need !or hi" to get vis# l t ttoo. 8ott look the p rt nd ll. And ro$king longside the n#"ber one b nd in the &orld is l rge p ir o! shoes to !ill. 9)"ilyC; 1 he r St $y yell into the &o" n2s dressing roo". 9)"ilyC; 9,h t=C; 1 yell p#lling o!! the l st stit$h o! $lothes be!ore &e ring the only other dress 1 h ve le!t% the tight bl $k one th t sho#ld be "e nt !or $o$kt il ho#r inste d o! "id"orning shopping. At le st St $y & s ni$e eno#gh to b#y "e so"e Welcome to Tucson #ndies in so#venir shop $lose to o#r hotel so 1 didn2t h ve to go $o"" ndo tod y. 91 need to send <ohn th n in there &ith yo#.; +e &hispers o#tside "y dressing roo" door. 1 g#ess he $ "e in &itho#t being invited. 12" lone% so it2s not big de l. 9,hy=; 9.here2s like ten people &ho2ve noti$ed hi". 1 think. 1 need to get hi" o#t o! the line o! sight be!ore they $on!ir" it nd &e h ve " ssive "ob to $ont in. .&itters bit$h. 12ve lre dy spoken to - $y2s be!ore &e got here to let the" kno& &e &ere $o"ing. B#t 1 don2t think t&o "e sly se$#rity g# rds $ n h ndle "ob o! horny &o"en.; 1 sigh lo#dly so St $y kno&s 1 " so not on bo rd &ith this pl n. +e2s the " n ger so 1 le ve it go. 96ine.; 1 sl#"p even tho#gh 1 kno& he $ n2t see "e. 95o < $o"e.; 1 he r hi" s y. 9)" yo# gott open #p nd let hi" in &ith yo#.; 1 #nlo$k the dressing roo" door nd "ove to the side to llo& the gi nt to /oin "e. Not (#ite s#re ho& 1 $ n !it into sp $e this s" ll &ith hi" b#t 1 g#ess &e h ve no $hoi$e b#t to " n ge. 1 &ish they h d h ndi$ p dressing roo" ne rby b#t there isn2t. +e slides in beside "e nd sh#ts the door nd lo$ks it. 8od &e &ere $lose% re lly $lose together. -y bre sts re br#shing g inst his sto" $h $lose. 9Sorry.; +e &hispers r ther s&eetly. Looking dire$tly into "y eyes nd not t "y bre sts th t re $onveniently br#shing #p g inst hi" ti"e to ti"e.

91t2s ok y.; 1 s"ile nd let o#t nervo#s l #gh. And !or on$e 1 "e n it. 1 kind o! !eel b d !or the g#y. C n2t even go o#t in p#bli$ &itho#t getting "obbed. .h t2s pretty shitty e'isten$e even &ith the ! "e. Not to be ble to & lk do&n to $o!!ee shop &itho#t h ving so"eone noti$e nd sk !or n #togr ph or pi$t#re% or &orse. ,e st nd st ring into e $h other2s eyes. 1 $ n stop looking into his nd 1 think he !eels the s "e. - n is it getting hot in here or &h t= -y h nds re $l ""y 1 &ipe the" on "y bl $k dress. 9+ey )".; 1 he r St $y s y !ro" right o#tside the dressing roo" door. 95e h=; 9.&o things. One0 @on2t p ni$ there is gro#p o! people se r$hing the store !or <ohn th n. B#t don2t yo# &orry 1 h ve it $overed. And t&o0 1 $ n2t st nd ro#nd here t&iddling "y th#"bs it2s boring nd obvio#s. And &e $ n2t le ve #ntil yo# h ve $lothes. So h nd over the ones yo# h ve de$ided to keep nd 12ll bring so"e in !or yo# to try on.; 9?"H. .h t2s not possible St $e.; 9,h t= ,hy=; he &hispers. 9Be$ #se it2s $r "ped in here. .ell "e &hy he doesn2t go in the b throo" to hide or in nother st ll=; 9+e h s to st y in there &ith yo#. 6or one the b throo" is too $$essible nd t&o i! he goes into nother dressing roo" nd person $o"es in nd kno$ks he $ n2t very &ell t lk $ n he= B#t i! they kno$k on yo#r door yo# $ n nd they2ll be none the &iser.; 12d h te to d"it it b#t he2s got good point. .his is the only re l & y &itho#t " king gi nt s$ene th t &ill be posted to the internet long &ith "e p#n$hing <ohn th n in the nose. ,hi$h o! $o#rse hit the ne&s big ti"e% even on !o'. A !e& pi$t#res &ere $ pt#red vi $ell phones nd tons o! $ ptions bo#t it being a lovers quarrel or one-night stand gone awry. Nothing bo#t the re l tr#th th t he & s n sshole nd 1 so$ked hi" good one !or it. 9+ey < yo# good=; St $y sks. 95ep.; +e &hispers. 1 $ n !eel "y b $k st rting to get & r". 1 &ill never look t dressing roo" st lls the s "e g in. 1t2s h rd not to st re t si'0!ive gi nt &e ring pl in &hite t0shirt% kh ki $ rgo shorts% bl#e b nd n on his he d nd vi tors h nging into the top o! his shirt. Not very good on the in$ognito p rt b#t bon#s points on the se'iness. .he b nd n is hot on hi". 9,h t re yo# st ring t=; he r ises n eyebro& pl y!#lly nd s" ll n #ghty s"ile $reeps o#t o! the $orners o! his big /#i$y lips.

9Oh stop. 5o# lre dy kno& yo#2re hot. ,o" n tell yo# th t ll the ti"e.; 1 bl#sh. 1 don2t "e n to. B#t 1 $ n2t help it. 1t2s hot nd &e h ve been pinned together !or too long. ,h t h s it been eight ho#rs= ,ell prob bly ten "in#tes b#t it !eels like & y longer. 95es% b#t yo# never tell "e th t.; +e &hispers his voi$e is d rk nd se'y. .hose !e& &ords 1 don2t kno& &hy b#t 1 get inst ntly & r" in "y belly nd "y toes $#rl. 6or$e "ysel! to $lose "y eyes nd sh ke "y he d to $le r it. 9,hH; "y voi$e $r $ks. 1 $le r "y thro t. 9,hy does it " tter &h t 1 think=; 1 !in lly " ke o#t. +o& !re king e"b rr ssing. 9Be$ #se yo#2re "y short st $k.; +e s ys. ,h t the hell is th t s#pposed to "e n= 12" +1S short st $k= 1s th t good thing= 1t doesn2t so#nd b d. B#t god he is so in!#ri ting "ost o! the ti"e. ,hy $ n2t he /#st s y &h t he "e ns like #s# l= 9,h t2s th t "e n=; 6ine% 1 let it o#t nd sk. 1 h ve to kno&. 9+ey )"% 1 h ve so"e p nties nd st#!! o#t here 1 sele$ted !or yo#. 12" gonn toss the" over. . ke look nd pi$k &h t yo# & nt to keep nd &h t yo# don2t le ve on the !loor.; St $y s ys !ro" the other side o! the door. . lk bo#t b d ti"ing nd 1 s#re s hell don2t & nt to be pi$king o#t p nties in !ront o! the hottest ro$k st r in the &orld. A$$ording to :olling Stone nd 4eople " g >ines. .h t is. 96ine.; 1 hiss #nder "y bre th !r#str ted. <ohn th n re $hes over0the0top o! the dressing roo" & ll nd sn t$hes the gi nt st $k o! #nderg r"ents !ro" St $y. +oly shitC Co#ld this be ny &eirder= <ohn th n gives "e this look% it2s so n #ghty nd sed#$tive b#t s&eet t the s "e ti"e. 8od he2s gorgeo#s. No &onder &o"en drop their p nties !or hi" ll the ti"e. And 1 " st nding here letting hi" pi$k the" o#t &ith "e. 1 " s#re lot o! !e" les &o#ld p y good "oney !or this $lose en$o#nter. 12d /#st p y good "oney to get o#t o! it. One by one he h nds "e p ir by p ir. And one by one "y ! $e gets redder nd redder. . lk bo#t h#"ili ting. 912ve t ken o!! lot o! &o"en2s p nties b#t 12ve never bo#ght p ir.; +e &inks t "e. 1 think 1 /#st $ "e in "y p nties. Oh & it no 1 didn2t b#t 12" &et s hell. <es#s this is so not good. 1 " s#pposed to lo the this " n. +e is &o" ni>ing di$k & d. 12" not s#pposed to & nt to !#$k hi" in dressing roo" o! - $y2s b#t do. 1 inh le deeply to $ l" "y nerves nd &o#ldn2t y kno& it 1 bre the hi" in even "ore. ShitC 1t2s b d eno#gh 1 get &hi!! o! his dele$t ble "ind !#$king p nty dropping s$ent. B#t 1 " st#pid ss nd /#st inh led b#n$h o! it. 12" on serio#s <ohn th n le d singer o! Stri$ken high. 12" in so "#$h tro#ble. -y "o#th is so dry. 1t !eels like 1 dr nk bottle o! s nd. 91 g#ess there2s !irst ti"e !or everything.; 1 /oke.

1t2s not good one b#t it2s ll 12ve got. 1 h ve to get o#t o! this d "n dressing roo". 1 $ n2t t ke it ny"ore. -y $lit is throbbing to be to#$hed% "y h nds re $l ""y% "y "o#th is dry% nd "y bre sts $he to be pl yed &ith. No " n h s ever " de "e & nt hi" this b d be!ore. -r. Se' on sti$k doesn2t even h ve to try. 1t2s one d "n gl n$e &ith those be #ti!#l green eyes nd 12" done !or. ,h t the hell is &rong &ith "e= Serio#sly. 9St $y.; -y voi$e $r $ks. 9St $y; 1 $ ll g in s& llo&ing h rd% looking #p into the gi nt2s big green eyes. B#t St $y2s no&here to be !o#nd. <ohn th n2s been le ning g inst the & ll the entire ti"e &ell s "#$h s he $ n nyho&. B#t 1 $ n !eel hi" shi!ting. Any "in#te nd 1 "ight /#st drop to "y knees nd t ke hi" into "y "o#th. Oh god% 12ve never even & nted to do th t be!ore. 1 " si$k in this he d. .his is so &rong. .his is &h t he & nts. @id he & nt this to h ppen= O! $o#rse he did. +e2s d "n " le &hore ro$k nd roll singer. @#h )"ily. 8et grip nd s#$k it #p. 1t2ll be over soon. 1 gl n$e do&n nd 1 $ n !eel his eyes se ring thro#gh "e. Oh no he2s shi!ting g in. 1 look b $k #p nd he2s in$hes !ro" "y ! $e. -y he rt le ps into "y thro t. -y ro#s l is pooling in "y p nties. 1 pr y th t he $ n2t s"ell it. 1t2s s&eet nd 1 kno& the s"ell nd 1 $ n s"ell it. Oh god this $ n2t be h ppening. +e pl $es both o! his big h nds on either side o! the & ll beside "y he d. 4inning "e g inst his body. 6#ll body to#$hing !#ll body. 9,h t2s &rong short st $k=; he &hispers. 1 $ n s"ell $ig rettes nd spe r"int on his bre th. Never tho#ght 12d !ind th t hot. B#t% oh 1 doC +e2s even hotter #p $lose. 1 $o#ld li$k hi" i! 1 & nted. 1 &onder &h t he t stes like. Stop thinking th tC 9Nothing.; 1 bl#rt o#t. 1 " lying. 1 kno& nd he kno&s it. +e r#bs his pelvis g inst "e in $ir$les nd ,o&C 1 $ n !eel n ere$tion in his shorts nd it2s h#ge. ,ell 1 &o#ld $ ll it th t. Not s#re &h t se soned &o"en &o#ld s y. 9,h t do yo# & nt <ohn th n=; 1 sk. And s#rprise "ysel! th t 1 $t# l so#nd h l!& y nor" l. Not horny or dry "o#thed t ll. .his is goodC 95o# kno& &h t 1 & nt.; +e p#rrs% it so#nds so good to "y e rs. 1! 1 "ove "y h nds 1 $o#ld re $h do&n nd $#p his $o$k in the". B#t 1 &on2t nd 1 $ n2t. 1t2s &rong so &rong on "illion di!!erent levels. ,hy $ n2t 1 /#st & nt to !#$k nor" l g#y= Not hot ro$k st r. .his is terrible. 9?"H nopeH no 1 don2tH 1! yo# & nt to kno& the &e ther 1 " s#re 1 $ n rr nge th t.; 1 s"ile or try to. B#t 1 kno& it $o"es o#t ll distorted. 12" so nervo#s. Silky s&e t is dripping do&n the b $k o! "y ne$k. 9+o& bo#t the &e ther bet&een yo#r legs= 5o# s"ell so goodH. -""""; +e inh les.

Oh shitC 1 kne& he $o#ld s"ell "e. 1 $o#ld s"ell "e. .his is the "ost e"b rr ssing d y o! "y li!e. 1 thro& "y h nds over "y ! $e. 12" so sh "ed. 1 pr y0 4le se god get "e o#t o! this "ess. - ke this stop. 1 pro"ise 12ll never t lk to hi" g in. <#st get hi" & y !ro" "e. 1 $ n2t h ve se' &ith hi". 1t2s &rong. 4le se godC 91 $ n2t do &h t yo# & nt "e to do.; 1 st te. 6eeling little less dr &n to hi". - ybe "y pr yers &orked !or on$e. 91 don2t & nt to !#$k yo# i! th t2s &h t yo# think short st $k.; 9.h t2s e' $tly &h t 1 think.; 1 bl#rt. Oh th nk yo# <es#s "y s ssiness is b $k. Oh ho& 12ve "issed itC 9Nope.; +e p#shes b $k !ro" the sides o! the & ll nd "oves s ! r & y !ro" "e s he $ n &hi$h still le ves #s to#$hing in so"e & ys b#t 1 !eel lot better nd less in$lined to do so"e n #ghty things. +e looks s d ll o! s#dden. +is !#$k "e ! $e is gone. B#t 1 $ n still see the o#tline o! very h rd very big boner in his shorts. 91 don2t & nt to !#$k yo#. .h t2s not &h t this is.; +e s ys "otioning his !inger b $k nd !orth bet&een "e nd hi". 9.hen &h t is it=; 1 g#lp nd r#n "y h nds nervo#sly thro#gh "y h ir% st ring t the gro#nd. 9+eyH +ey g#ys.; 1 he r St $y s y on the other side o! the door. 9,h t=; <ohn th n gro ns. 9Sorry. Open #p% the $o st is $le r. 8r b yo#r st#!! )"% 12ll p y !or it nd "eet yo# o#t in the $ r.; 1 open the door nd e'it !irst nd <ohn th n !ollo&s !e& !eet behind. 1 d#"p "y $lothes in St $y2s r"s. 1 " kind o! relieved to be o#t o! th t sp $e. Altho#gh 1 " so /#i$ed #p on n t#r l horny pills by the n "e o! <ohn th n th t 1 think 1 $o#ld go !or n org s" or t&o or !ive or h#ndred. 1 le ve nd 1 sit in the !ront o! the $ r & y !ro" <ohn th n. ,hen St $y gets in he see"s little t ken b $k by the se ting rr nge"ent. 1 l y "y he d b $k g inst the se t nd let < "es drive #s b $k to the hotel. 1 don2t spe k nother &ord.

Chapter Se en
.he rest o! the d y &ent by r ther (#i$kly. St $y nd the boys le!t to set #p &ith the ro dies nd do so#nd $he$k. Le ving "e in the hotel ll by "y loneso"e. 1 took long sho&er &hi$h l sted !orever th nks to the hotels never ending hot & ter s#pply. 1 spent ti"e p inting "y n ils hot pink% both "y !ingers nd toes. Nor" lly 12" t #pe or light pink enth#si st b#t 1 &ent hot pink !or E"y i" ge2. St#pid= 5es. B#t it2s p rt o! the /ob des$ription pp rently. 1 p "pered "ysel! in roo" o! $o#rse. 1 don2t h ve the "oney to spend on sp tre t"ents ltho#gh d"ittedly 12d love to be ble to. ,ith "y ne& in$o"e signi!i$ ntly less th n "y previo#s /ob 1 h ve to tighten #p "y belt. .he re$ord l bel - gi$ :e$ords re the ones &ho signed Stri$ken. .hey re lso the ones &ho sign ll o! o#r p y$he$ks. )ven tho#gh 1 & s de ling &ith boss &ho tried to !lirt &ith "e every $h n$e he got on "y l st /ob. 1 still " de do#ble &h t 1 do no&. ,hi$h s#$ks b#t so"e "oney is better th n no "oney t ll. -y l $k o! !#nds no& re p rti lly d#e to the ! $t th t 1 & sn2t pl nned e"ployee. 1 & sn2t so#ght o#t. 1 think - gi$ re$ords or the hot blonde < s"ine th t St $y &orks h nd in h nd &ith on the $orpor te side o! things de$ided to do hi" ! vor. All be$ #se 1 " s#re they2ve either !#$ked like r bbits be!ore or she h s every intention o! doing so in the !#t#re. )ither & y 1 don2t $ re be$ #se 1 " gr te!#l !or the "oney nd opport#nity to spend &eeks e'ploring ne& /ob &ith the gre test g#y ever. St $y "y best !riend. No& 1 " st nding b $kst ge in p ir o! "y ne& $lothes the opening $t /#st le!t the st ge. .hey &ere so "#$h better th n Atre"e Se' !ro" the sho& in 3eg s. 9See those $lothes !it yo#r hotness /#st !ine.; 1 he r St $y s y to "e !ro" behind. 1 h ven2t seen hi" ll night long. App rently he & s b#sy &ith the b nd else&here. 1 hired $ b to t ke "e to the ven#e nd th nk!#lly "y n "e & s on the b $kst ge roster so 1 didn2t h ve to &orry bo#t $$ess. Ne't gig 1 " going to get b dge. 9.h nks. 5o# kno& &h t= 1 do like this better th n 1 tho#ght.; 1 s"ile nd r#n "y h nd do&n the side o! "y ne& :o$k0 0Billy skintight bl $k sleeveless dress &ith bold $herry print. -y bright red p tent le ther !o#r in$h high $losed toe p#"ps lo$k the style in the b g. 1t2s kind o! hot. And 12" even &e ring bl $k l $e boy shorts. 12ve never o&ned p ir o! boy shorts be!ore b#t " n re they se'y nd s#per $o"!ort ble. So"eho& St $y tossed in !e& br s !ro" - $y2s so 1 no& h ve " t$hing set nd 1 !eel like "illion b#$ks. -y red h ir 1 le!t do&n nd let it do its n t#r l & vy thing. 1 !o#nd !lo&er

h ir $lip in "y b g so 1 $lipped it into "y h ir. And viol 1 " $$o#nt nt t#rned ro$k goddess. Ok y " ybe 1 &o#ldn2t t ke it th t ! r. 9See 1 told yo# yo#2d like it.; +e $o"es #p behind "e nd &r ps his r"s "y sto" $h. .#$king his ! $e into the $rook o! "y ne$k. ,hi$h is tot lly #nlike hi". 9,h t re yo# doing St $e=; 9S"elling yo#. 5o# s"ell ! nt sti$. ,h t re yo# &e ring=; A tingly !eeling !lo&s do&n "y body. -y belly is & r"ing #p. Oh no not this g in. ,h t is &rong &ith "e= 1 kne& 1 sho#ld h ve !li$ked the bi$ &hen 1 h d the $h n$e in the sho&er. 1 don2t " st#rb te "#$h " ybe on$e "onth i! th t. B#t &hen 1 do it2s only &hen 1 $ n2t $on$entr te &itho#t the rele se. Being sh $ked #p &ith !ive "en prob bly "e ns 1 " going to h ve to !li$k "y bi$ on reg#l r b sis or 1 "ight /#st !ind "ysel! !#$king r ndo" d#des nd ! lling into the ro$k nd roll li!e style. ,hi$h is so not "e. 9Love the t ttoo.; So"e " n !ro" the opening b nd s ys pointing to "y r" &hen he & lks p st. +e2s ! irly hot too. ,h t sho#ld 1 e'pe$t= ?gly ro$kers= 1 think not. 9.h nks.; 1 s"ile nd it2s gen#ine. 1 don2t #s# lly &e r st#!! to sho& "y t ttoos so it !eels pretty d "n good to h ve it re$ogni>ed. 1 did spend shit lo d o! "oney on it nd lots o! ho#rs end#ring p in. ,ell it & sn2t th t b d b#t it & sn2t p inless. 9See 1 told yo# proper $lothes. ,ill sho& o!! yo#r se'iness.; St $y s ys so!tly in "y e r. Another & ve o! tingliness pools in "y veins nd dips do&n bet&een "y legs. -y body is on !ire. 9,ell th nks. 1 like the" too.; 9-"""H )"% yo# s"ell divine.; +e n#>>les his nose g inst "y ne$k inh ling "y s$ent g in. 91t2s /#st so p nd body spr y the s "e body spr y 12ve &orn !or ten ye rs. ,h t is &rong &ith yo# tonight St $y= 9 1 &iggle in his r"s. +e2s got hold ro#nd "y belly. 9And &h t did yo# do &ith "y best !riend= Oh ple se don2t tell "e yo# h ven2t h d se' in &hile nd th t2s &hy yo#2re $ting ll &eird.; 1 e'h le lo#dly. +e lets go nd p#lls & y. 1 t#rn to ! $e hi" nd he looks terribly h#rt. - n 1 !eel like n ss. 91 & s /#st sho&ing "y best !riend so"e !!e$tion. @o 1 rep#lse yo# th t "#$h=; he sks his voi$e is ne rly shrill. 9No.; 1 re $h o#t nd sn t$h his h nd #p into "ine. 6olding o#r !ingers together. 95o#2re /#st not th t loving to "e. .h t2s the only re son &hy 1 sked.; 1 shr#g. 9+ey hot st#!! looking good.; @ s ys & lking p st "e. 1 try to ignore hi" b#t he sl ps "e h rd on the ss. 1 yip t the $ont $t nd St $y gl res t hi". O#t o! ll the b nd " tes 1 serio#sly dislike @e $on the "ost. +e2s po"po#s di$khe d. 1 tho#ght <ohn th n & s b d b#t @ is ten ti"es &orse. At le st <ohn th n doesn2t try to !or$e &o" n into s#b"ission t le st 1 don2t think he does.

9@ "nit @ 1 told yo# to le ve her lone.; 1 he r <ohn th n yell on st ge. -y b $k is to the". 12" trying to !o$#s "y ttention o! "y best !riend &ho2s !eelings 12ve obvio#sly h#rt. 9,h teverH @#de. 1t2s not like 12" trying to !#$k her. ,ell " ybe by the end o! the to#r 1 &ill. She2s hot nd spi$y. <#st ho& 1 like e".; @ s ys. 1 he r lo#d gro&l like dog $o"e o#t o! so"eone2s thro t. 1t2s not St $y2s so 1 h ve no ide &hose it is. 1 $ n2t help b#t roll "y eyes t @. And not s y &ord. .he b nd is setting #p on st ge nd the l st thing 1 need is n ll0o#t br &l &ith "e nd @ in !ront o! thirty tho#s nd s$re "ing ! ns. Altho#gh 1 think 1 $o#ld t ke hi". A good ki$k in the b lls &o#ld prob bly do hi" so"e good. . ke hi" o#t o! $o""ission d y or t&o. 1 sh ke "y he d b $k nd !orth to $le r "y he d. 1 $ n he r the g#it rs st rt behind "e nd @ st rts in on the dr#"s. 1t2s so lo#d &ith tho#s nds o! s$re "ing ! ns. 9No& &h t & s 1 s ying= Oh ye h. St $e 1 love yo#. 5o#2re "y best !riend. Like serio#sly. + nds do&n the best !riend 1 ever h d. 1 didn2t "e n to h#rt yo#r !eelings.; +e s"iles "eg & tt s"ile t "e. +is blond h ir is like se'y "op on top o! his he d. +e le ns over nd ,OA+C ,h t the hellC 4l nts big kiss right on "y lips. -y skin sp rks t his to#$h. Letting go o! "y h nd he ggressively p#lls "e into his r"s nd tte"pts to p#sh his tong#e bet&een "y t #ght lips. .rying to $o ' the" open. 12" bre thing he vily. Oh "y godC 1 $ nnot believe this is h ppening. ,h t the !#$k is this " n thinking= 1 try to p#ll & y !ro" hi" b#t he keeps trying to inv de "y "o#th. - n% he is not s"ooth t ll. 1 $ n2t spe k% his lips re tr pped g inst "ine. 1 he r lo#d gro&l e$ho in the st di#". 1 try to t#rn ro#nd to see <ohn th n be$ #se 1 kno& he h s to be the one &ho2s " king th t so#nd he2s the only " n &ith "i$. B#t St $y h s "e in this less th n se'y lip lo$k. 1 shove "y h nds g inst his sto" $h h rd to " ke hi" rele se "e nd he does. Bending over 1 p#t "y h nds on "y knees to $ t$h "y bre th. 1 t#rn "y he d nd see <ohn th n st ring right t #s. 1 & ve hi" o!!. -o#thing E12" !ine.2 +e gro&ls g in into the "i$rophone nd shoots the h rdest ngriest st re t St $y th t 1 h ve ever seen. 1t2s serio#sly s$ ry. +e lets go o! the "i$ nd st lks to& rds #s. Oh noC 9,h t the !#$k re yo# doing <ohn th n=C; @ yells. 1 lo$k eyes &ith hi" on his & y over to "e. St nding #p 1 point over to the "i$rophone nd then to the ! ns. E8o.2 1 "o#th be$ #se 1 kno& he $ n2t he r "e over the ro r o! the n'io#s nd not p tient% 1 "ight dd $ro&d. +e !ro&ns deeply &ith $lin$hed !ists t his sides his kn#$kles re serio#sly &hite nd he gl res t St $y g in. +e2s pissed. Not little pissed b#t r ging. 1 h ve no ide &hy. 1 didn2t do

nything &rong. - ybe he s & St $y !or$ing "e to kiss hi". 1 h ven2t d "n $l#e. B#t he st lks r ther ngrily b $k over to the "i$ nd gl n$es b $k t "e !or re ss#r n$e 1 nod nd he st rts singing. 9,h t the !#$k & s th t=; 1 yell &hen 1 t#rn to St $y. 912" so so sorry )".; +e pologi>es% he2s kneeling on the gro#nd. 1 $ n see the p in on his ! $e &hen he looks #p t "e. 1 re/e$ted hi". 1 s#re s hell did. +e2s hot b#t <es#s he2s "y best !riend nd 1 don2t kiss "en. 1 don2t d te the". 1 s#re s hell don2t " ke o#t &ith the" on the st ge o! ro$k $on$ert. 9,h t &ere yo# thinking=; 1 t p "y toe on the gro#nd. 1 " so d "n !idgety. 91 don2t kno&.; +e sh kes his he d b $k nd !orth. 95es. 5o#. @o. No& o#t &ith itC; 1 s$ree$h !or"ing "y "o#th into thin line. 8etting "ore pissed o!! s e $h se$ond p sses. .h nk god the b nd is pl ying or this &o#ld be tot l sidesho& $t. 95o#2re so be #ti!#l 1 d#nno &h t $ "e over "e.; +e ple ds. 9,e2ve been !riends !or over ten ye rs. .en ye rsC St $y. And not on$e h ve yo# tried to kiss "e or h ve se' &ith "e.; 91 kno&. B#t 12ve tho#ght bo#t it.; +e so#nds so sh "e!#l &hen he spe ks. 1t !eels like "y he rt is bre king !or hi". 9,hy=; 1 t p "y !oot g in. 9Be$ #se 1 love yo#. 5o#2re "y best !riend. .r#st "e it2s h rd h ving best !riend &ho looks like yo# nd not " ke "ove.; +e gest#res to "y body. 95o# like leggy blondesC Or did yo# /#st !orget th t=C 12" short redhe d. +elloC; 1 t#g on "y h ir !or e!!e$t. .his is /#st ridi$#lo#s. .his " n h sn2t h d se' in &hile. .his h s to be it be$ #se i! not 1 need to t ke hi" to the d "n looney bin nd h ve his ss lo$ked #p. 9No 1 don2t; his eyebro& (#irks #p. 9Oh re lly= 1s th t &hy ne rly every single &o" n yo# d te is t ll blonde= Both o! yo#r &ives &ere t ll blondes &ith ro$kin bods. 5o#2ve never been &ith red he d nd yo# s#re s hell h ven2t been &ith nyone shorter th n !ive !ive.; 1 p#t "y h nd on "y hip. .his is /#st st#pidC ,h t the !#$kC 95es. 1 kno& &h t 12ve !#$ked.; +e s ys slo&ly nd st nds #p. 9B#t 1 don2t pre!er leggy blondes. As yo# $ ll the".; +e eyes "e #p nd do&n nd b $k g in. 9.hen &hy is the entirety o! yo#r se'# l e'perien$es &ith the"= 1t2s p ttern St $e. 5o# like the". .hey re hot nd yo# & nt to !#$k the". )nd o! story. 8 "e over. No big de l. -ove on.; 1 thro& "y h nds in the ir nd & lk o!! the st ge. 9, itC; he gr bs "y r" nd spins "e ro#nd. 9,h t=; 1 sn p.

9Ok y. 12ll tell yo# b#t yo#2re not going to like it.; +e !ro&ns. +is lips re so po#ty 1 $o#ld re $h #p nd bite it i! 1 & nted. B#t 1 &on2t. 9Like &h t= 5o# think 12ve like ny p rt o! the p st t&o d ys= NotC So dding little shit to the pile isn2t going to " ke th t "#$h o! di!!eren$e.; 1 " so ngry nd horny this is so d "n st#pid. 1 serio#sly sho#ld h ve " de "ysel! $o"e in the b throo" b $k t the hotel be$ #se ngry nd t#rned on do not "i' &ell. 91 only sleep &ith blondes be$ #se they re the !#rthest !ro" yo#r h ir $olor.; +e r#ns his h nd thro#gh the side o! "y h ir. - n th t !eels ni$e. Oh stop itC No it doesn2tC 6#$king horny bit$hC 12" going to h ve go to the l dies roo" nd t ke $ re o! "y se' drive on$e nd !or ll. 1 &ish they h d pill !or this kind o! st#!!. No0-ore0+orney !or &o"en. .h t &o#ld be " gi$ pill. 1 need right no&. -y "o#th drops open nd "y nose $rinkles in $on!#sion. 9,h t=; 91! 1 h ve se' &ith red he d 1 kno& 12ll be thinking bo#t yo# &hen 1 do. 1t2s b d eno#gh 12ve spent the p st ten ye rs trying not to " st#rb te to yo#r ! $e in "y he d &hi$h is di!!i$#lt. And !or the leggy p rt 1 try to !#$k &o"en &ho look the opposite o! yo#. 1! 1 don2t 1 kno& this &hole !riendship thing $ n2t &ork.; +e s ys gest#ring &ith his !inger bet&een #s. 1 pl $e "y h nd on "y hip nd $o$k "y he d to the side. 1 " so not #nderst nding d "n &ord this " n is s ying. 1t2s like he2s spe king !#$king !oreign l ng# ge in the &orst pl $e possible% 1 "ight dd. 9+#h= 12" so $on!#sed. Co"e g in=; 1 $#p "y !ree h nd behind "y e r% bending !or& rd slightly tilting "y he d in his dire$tion. 9-e; he points to his $hest. 9+ ve & nted yo#.; +e points to "e. 96or ten ye rs.; Oh gre t no& 1 h ve Ne nderth l spe king to "e. 5ep 1 think "y he rt /#st !ell o#t o! "y $hest nd is rolling ro#nd so"e&here b $kst ge. .his is not right. No.No.NoC 1 $ n2t be th t d "n st#pid to NO. kno& th t "y best !riend h s & nted "e !or. ,h t= .en ye rs= Oh yep ti"e to lo$k hi" #p nd thro& & y the key. 9Are yo# ins ne=; 1 sk nd 1 " $o"pletely serio#s. No /oke. 91 "ight be !or not telling yo#. B#t it2s ll tr#e.; 1 sh ke "y he d. 9No. .h t2s not possibly tr#e.; 91t $ n be nd it is.; +e $orre$ts. +is voi$e is s&eet nd sens# l. Oh god here $o"es the d "n b#tter!lies g in nd this ti"e they re pooling in "y p#ssy. 1 so h ve to e'$#se "ysel! to the l dies roo" be!ore 1 !#$k nything th t & lks. )'$ept St $y. .h t is so not h ppeningC )3):C 912" sorry St $y b#t 1 $ n2t believe th t.; 1 s y ni$ely. 1 try to be s gentle s 1 $ n. 1 $ n2t bre k this poor " n2s he rt i! he is being tr#th!#l. ,hi$h to be honest 1 don2t think he is. +e2s !#$ked lot o!

&o" n. And 1 "e n &hole hell o! lot nd he2s been " rried t&i$e. Both ti"es to hot blondes one th t & s "odel nd one th t $o#ld h ve been. 95o# don2t h ve to )"% 1 don2t e'pe$t yo# to & nt "e. Like 12ve & nted yo# !or so long. 1t2s not going to $h nge o#r !riendship. 1 pro"ise. 1! yo# don2t & nt ?S.; +e "otions his h nd bet&een #s g in. 9.o be together in the & y th t 1 do. 12ll t#$k ll "y !eelings b $k in nd &e $ n go b $k to the & y things &ere.; 1 sh ke "y he d. 91! &h t yo# re s ying is .:?) St $y. 1 $ n2t !#$k yo#. 1 don2t & nt th t &ith yo#. 5o# kno& "e &ell eno#gh to kno& 1 $ n2t !#$k ro#nd. 12" not b#ilt th t & y. 5o# re. <ohn th n% @ nd the b nd re.9 1 nod to& rd the st ge. 9B#t 1 $ n2t nd yo# kno& &hy. 1t2s not /#st bo#t Chris nd yo# kno& th t.; 91 don2t & nt to !#$k yo#% 1 & nt to be &ith yo#.; +e s ys he serio#sly so#nds desper te. 12ve never he rd desper tion $o"e o#t o! this " n2s "o#th even on$e in "y entire li!e. 1 re $h "y h nd o#t nd t ke his into "y o&n. 9Listen. 1 love yo# &ith ll o! "y he rt St $e. 5o# re the best " n 12ve ever kno&n s !riend. B#t yo#2re " le &hore &ho h s serio#s $o""it"ent iss#es. 1 $ n2t h ve rel tionship &ith so"ebody like th t. 1 love yo# !or &ho yo# re. B#t rel tionship spe king 1 don2t & nt to d te nyone. And espe$i lly not person &ho in$l#des 6#$king $hi$ks nd threeso"es #nder his hobbies list on 6 $ebook.; 1 s"ile. .rying to lighten the "ood. B#t 1 s#$k t this. 9Ok y. 1 #nderst nd. 12ll lo$k it ll b $k #p. No& $o"e here.; +e s"iles nd t#gs "e into his r"s !or !riendly h#g. A&e% no& this is the best !riend 1 kno& nd love. 9.h nk yo#.; 1 h#g hi" tighter. .&enty "in#tes p ss nd St $y nd 1 st nd together to & t$h the b nd !inish #p there set. <ohn th n is ro$king e'tr h rd tonight. +e looks so hot in his AAL bl $k nirv n . nd holey /e ns. 1 $ t$h hi" look "y & y !e& ti"es s 1 " d n$ing r ther &ell in "y red heels to his se'y singing. +is voi$e so#nds so "#$h like "i' bet&een Chris @ #ghtry &ith the deepness nd h#skiness o! S#lly !ro" 8ods" $k. 1! th t2s possible. 1 don2t kno& b#t th t2s the best $o"bo 1 $ n $o"e #p &ith th t rel tes to ho& <ohn th n sings. 1 " so st rting to dig this ro$k s$ene. 1t2s ddi$ting. - ybe not the tr shy &hores nd str nge $onvers tions &ith "y best !riend b#t other th n th t it2s e#phori$. L rger th n li!e.

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1 ride &ith /#st St $y in one o! the bl $k -er$edes to the !ter p rty. .his ti"e it2s t o#r hotel. .here2s gi nt $l#b in the b $k tt $hed to it $ lled Apples. App rently th t2s &hy St $y sele$ted it !or #s to st y here. Not th t yo#2ll he r "e $o"pl ining. .h t /#st "e ns 1 $ n get s" shed nd only h ve to & lk b $k to "y roo". ,ell i! 1 $ n get dr#nk. 1t t kes lot !or "e to get to th t point. ,e p#ll #p o#tside the $l#b in the b $k o! the hotel. .here h s to be t&o h#ndred ! ns nd p p r >>i & iting behind red ropes !or the b nd to rrive. St $y p#lls #p to the v let th t h s been reserved !or b nd "e"bers nd e"ployees only. .he rest o! the g#ests re re(#ired to p rk the"selves nd yo# $ n only get in i! yo#r n "e is on the list. ,e slide #p% St $y gets o#t nd 1 " dvised to st y p#t #ntil he retrieves "e. +e2s s#$h gentle" n. As soon s he gets o#t blonde v let driver &ho $ n2t be over t&enty slips into the driver2s se t ne't to "e. 9+i " 2 "; he s ys &hile d/#sting the se t the !it his "#$h shorter !r "e. 1 nod o#t o! politeness. -y door opens nd St $y e'tends his h nd o#t to "e. 1 glide o#t o! the $ r "y h nd in his. 6eeling like 1 " bo#t the roll onto the red $ rpet. 95o# re dy !or this=; he &hispers $lose to "y e r. .he h ir on the b $k o! "y ne$k e'$itedly st nds ttention. 9As re dy s 12ll ever be.; 1 s y $on!idently. )ven tho#gh 1 " nything b#t. 1 $ n h ndle $ro&ds s long s they ren2t to#$hing or b#"ping into "e. Altho#gh &hen 12" to#$hed repe tedly by #nkno&n "en nd &o" n 1 &orry bo#t &here their h nds h ve been. 1 kno& th t " y so#nd st#pid. B#t 1 $ n2t help th t the & y 1 !eel. ?rine% se"en% !ood% ger"s% !e$ l " tter% s&e t nd "ore ll live nd breed on person2s !ingers. .h t2s &hy 1 & sh "y h nds like it2s going o#t o! style. .he tho#ght o! h ving th t n sty st#!! r#bbed on "e " ke "y sto" $h t#rn. 6o#r steps into the line #p to get into the $l#b nd &e re inst ntly bo"b rded &ith !l sh photogr phy !ro" every dire$tion. -y eyes $ n2t t ke it. .his is $r >y. 1 $ n see spots in "y line o! sight. No ide &hy they insist on t king St $y2s nd "y photo. B#t they do over nd over g in. On o#r & y in 1 see nother -er$edes stop t the entr n$e o#t o! the $orner o! "y eye. < "es gets o#t o! the driver side nd the $ro&d goes &ild re li>ing &ho is in the $ r. < "es !#ll body blo$ks <ohn th n &hen he dise"b rks !ro" the b $k o! the $ r long &ith @% Keith nd 4ri$e. .he ho rd o! ! ns s$re " nd the p p r >>i shoot photos one sn pshot !ter the other. 1t2s (#ite ridi$#lo#s re lly. 1 " s#re there re h#ndreds o! tho#s nds o! photos o! Stri$ken ll over the &onder!#l ,orld ,ide ,eb. B#t they h ve to sn p nother !ive h#ndred tonight. 1t2s not like they look ny di!!erent nd there 10

!#$k0 nything0&ith0 0p#ssy person is &ell0kno&n nd do$#"ented ti"e nd ti"e g in. ,h t2s nother pi$t#re &ith sl#tty br#nette &ith big ! ke boobs nd hooker heels= 1t gets old (#i$k. .h t2s &hy 1 don2t do t bloids or gossip " gs. 1t2s ll b#ll $r p nyho&. 9Co"e )"% let2s get yo# inside.; St $y s ys pl $ing his h nd on the $#rve o! "y lo&er b $k p#shing "e !or& rd. 1 t ke t&o "ore steps nd b#n$h o! lo#d over0the0top yelling bre ks o#t. 1 peer b $k g in nd &ho &o#ld h ve g#essed it. <ohn th n is plo&ing p st < "es nd he ded str ight !or #s. 9)"ilyC; he yells nd this ti"e 1 $ n he r hi". 1 stop $o"pletely. St $y doesn2t 1 !eel hi" press his h nd !ir"ly g inst "y b $k to try nd " ke "e "ove into the $l#b. 1 don2t b#dge. -y !eet gl#ed in pl $e. .&o "ore long strides in bl $k "otor$y$le boots nd <ohn th n is no& st nding in !ront o! "e o#t o! bre th nd looking !ine s hell. +e gl res t St $y g in. 1 pretty $ert in he2s still ngry bo#t e rlier. 12" not% 1 h ve no $hoi$e b#t to "ove on !ro" it. Or lose St $y nd th t2s never going to h ppen. 9C n 1 help yo#=; 1 r ise both "y bro&s. 1 no& h ve lines on "y !orehe d 1 $ n !eel the". C ll the Boto' do$tors% )" h s linesC Seeing hi" st nding toe to toe &ith "e is serio#sly "#sing. 1 $ n see the he dlines no&. ERock star misogynist extraordinaire pushes through crowd to seek out midget redhead.2 ,ell it prob bly &on2t dd the "isogynist p rt b#t it sho#ld. 5ep% o#r pi$t#res &ill be in the p pers to"orro&. Big ti"eC <ohn th n to&ers over "e. 1 !eel like "inno& ne't to gre t &hite sh rk. B it "eet prey he2ll e t yo# #p nd spit yo# b $k o#t to"orro& be$ #se he & nts nother "inno& th t2s prettier nd s#$ks better b rn $les. 8osh% $o#ld 1 be ny "ore o! bit$h= 1 think it2s #to" ti$ &ith this " n. +e brings it o#t in "e. .h t nd so king p nties. ,h t re lly s$re&ed #p $o"bo th t is. 91 & nted to " ke s#re yo# &ere ok y.; +e l t$hes his h nd onto the $rook o! "y elbo& nd p#lls "e $loser to hi" nd o#t o! St $y2s gr sp. 1 $ n2t see St $y b#t 1 $ n i" gine he2s ngry right bo#t no&. 1 $ n2t stop st ring #p into the gi nt ro$kers eyes. 1n this di" light the $l#b sign el#des gives his eyes this bl#ish green $ryst l like ppe r n$e nd they re even "ore bre tht kingly be #ti!#l. 912" !ine big " n.; 1 p t hi" gently on the $hest. +e sighs nd gently s"iles do&n t "e. 1 $ n see the d "n p ps re e ting this #p. 95o# $o#ld h ve & ited to h ve this $onvers tion inside yo# kno&=; 1 s y toned do&n bit. 1 don2t need ll o#r b#siness ired. +e bends !or& rd pl $ing his ! $e right ne't to "ine. +is lips br#sh g inst "y e r. .he to#$h is so so!t nd s#pple. Closing "y eyes nd inh ling hi" deeply he s"ells so &onder!#l like $ig rettes% l #ndry detergent nd so"e kind o! body spr y or $ologne. 1 hold b $k sens# l sigh 1 " desper te to

rele se. )ven in the "iddle o! this $ro&d it !eels like s#$h n inti" te "o"ent. A b#bble ll o#r o&n. 1 serio#sly need to get "y he d s$re&ed on str ight. 1 $ n2t be !eeling this & y. 91 & s &orried th t on$e yo# got inside 1 "ight not !ind yo#. Or yo#2d not t lk to "e i! 1 did.; +e &hispers in "y e r. -y he rt th#ds like ro$ket in "y $hest like it trying to bre k !ree. 1 /#st & nt to gr b onto his shirt $oll r nd p#ll hi" do&n into h#g nd hold hi" !or &hile. So l "e 1 kno& b#t 1 $ n2t help the & y 1 !eel. +e so $lose nd s"ells so good. 1 $ n2t tell i! he2s pl ying g "e or being serio#s. .&o $ n pl y t th t. 1 le n $loser to his ! $e nd br#sh "y o&n lips !ro" the side o! his so!t $heek to right o#tside his e r. 9No need to be &orried. <ohn0 0th n.; 1 s y slo&ly nd sens# lly then 1 li$k "y lips lo#d eno#gh so he $ n he r. - n 1 " so good t this. 12ve never been sed#$tress b#t 1 " le rning (#i$kly. 91 &o#ld t lk to yo# ny....ti"e.; 1 n#dge "y nose g inst his e r lobe. 1 he r light !er l so#nd rise o#t o! his thro t. 1 kno& 1 " !!e$ting hi". .his is so hot nd it2s t#rning "e on. 1 /#st hope it2s &orking on hi" too in the s "e & y it is "e. 1 !eel t#g t the b $k o! "y dress. 1 st nd str ight #p g in & y !ro" the &onder!#l pl $e g inst <ohn th n. -issing his skin on "ine lre dy nd t#rn ro#nd to !ind St $y in ll his se'y glory t pping his !oot r ther nnoyed on the gro#nd behind "e. +e is pissed. <ohn th n h sn2t rele sed his h nd !ro" "y r" nd 1 $ n !eel the sli$k he t se ring into "e. St nding bet&een t&o very hot nd nnoyed "en 1 $ n2t de$ide &h t to do. S& pping "y he d b $k nd !orth bet&een the "en holding #p the line into the $l#b. 1 y nk "y r" rel#$t ntly o#t o! <ohn th n2s h nd nd & lk ro#nd St $y. ) t "y d#stC 12" going in lone. A t ll d rk skinned bo#n$er &ith the "ost gorgeo#s h >el or nge eyes p#lls the he vy steel door open !or "e. 9.h nks.; 1 bo& slightly. ,h t is &rong &ith "e= 1 " so !l#stered nd hot nd horny nd $on!#sed. .his is so not going to be good night. Best !riend tells yo# he2s been in love &ith yo# !or ten ye rs0 Che$k. +ot ro$k singer !lirts0 $he$k. ,h t else sho#ld 1 dd to this list= .he $l#b is !#ll nd ne rly everyone is &e ring so"e !or" o! deni". -#st h ve been serio#s prere(#isite to $hill &ith ro$k st rs. 1 kno& it & s in the eighties b#t shit &e2re in 2013. At le st the !lores$ent $olors re o#t nd no& bl $k% red nd gr y re the st ples. 1 !eel o#t o! pl $e. S#re pin #p !i!ties inspired ro$k0 0billy dress is hot nd 1 !eel r ther se'y in it. B#t the &o"en in this pl $e re in nothing b#t shorty short shorts nd t nks or less th n t nks like br s &ith rhinestones nd 12ve never seen so " ny hooker heels in "y entire li!e. 1 tho#ght the l st $l#b & s b d. .his is & y &orse. Slo&ly 1 "ove to the side nd tte"pt to blend in &ith the $ro&d. 1 !ind s" ll t&o se t bl $k nd $hro"e t ll t ble nd prop "y b#tt #p on the stool. 1t2s &ell $#shioned. -y b#tt is th nking "e. 1! ny

o! the g#ys re se r$hing !or "e 1 h ve yet to be !o#nd. ,hi$h is n $t# l relie!. ,h t & s 1 thinking doing this ro$k st r li!e= 1t2s e'$iting s#re. B#t% <es#s there is &o" n ten !eet in !ront o! "e sliding her ss into so"e not ttr $tive d#de2s $rot$h &ho2s ll sleeved o#t &e ring &hite t0shirt nd d rk /e ns. And she2s sporting d isy d#ke $#to!!s% bl $k $o&boy boots% nd n pple red b#tton #p shirt tied /#st #nder her very l rge% very ! ke bre sts. - ke#p is gl#ed to her ! $e. B#t she is pretty in tr shy kind o! & y. 1t prob bly helps the ! $t th t she2s !ive nine0ish nd her legs re per!e$tly long nd s"ooth. ShitC She even h s so"e kind o! shi""er on the". 1 &o#ld h ve never thro#gh to do th t to "ysel!. 1 tho#ght &e ring this dress & s ni$e eno#gh. 1 did &h t St $y s#ggested nd pplied eyeliner% &hite eye sh do& nd even " s$ r tonight. All o! the" !irst !or "e &ithin the p st ye r. 12ve never told St $y this b#t 1 think 1 "ight h ve be$o"e re$l#se. S#re he prob bly !ig#red th t o#t on his o&n. B#t serio#sly 1 h ve. No& 1 !ind "ysel! thro&n into this &hole other&orld o! se'% dr#gs nd ro$k n roll. And &hen they s y th t on ..3 or " g >ines &hi$h 1 don2t re d. 1t2s tr#e. .here is so "#$h se' nd dr#gs. ,ell 1 don2t kno& &h t kind o! the g#ys p rt ke in b#t 1 kno& it2s "ini" lly l$ohol nd $ig rettes. 12d h te to sk &h t else. .h t is so"ething 1 /#st h ve no interest in kno&ing. 4rob bly be$ #se 12d so"eho& !ind "ysel! le$t#ring the" on the do2s nd don2ts o! li!e nd snorting $oke is serio#sly on the @O NO. list. 95o# & nt to d n$e=; 1 look ro#nd like !ool to see &ho is t lking to "e nd !ind "ysel! st ring t h ndso"e% long d rk h ired% t ttooed $overed " n 12ve never seen be!ore. 9?"H+i=; 9@o yo# & nt to d n$e be #ti!#l=; he o!!ers his h nd. 1 g >e do&n. No &edding ring nd it2s big nd $ llo#sed% &hi$h tells "e he h s to be "#si$i n. Another d "n ro$ker. 8o !ig#re. 9@o 1 kno& yo#=; 1 sk. Altho#gh 1 " s#re 1 h ven2t "et hi" be!ore. Not th t 12d "ind or nything. +e2s r ther t sty nd his n "e isn2t St $y or <ohn th n. Or t le st 1 hope it2s not. +o& &eird &o#ld th t be= 9No% b#t 1 kno& &ho yo# re.; Oh this is even /#i$ier. +e kno&s o! "e or " ybe /#st o! "e. 9And &ho " 1=; the $orners o! "y "o#th instin$tively r ise into !lirty sly s"ile. 1 /#st pr y it doesn2t " ke "e look $onstip ted. 12" /#st le rning this rel tively n$ient thing $ lled !lirting. ?niversities sho#ld serio#sly o!!er $l ss in it. 1 &o#ld h ve enrolled !irst thing. 95o# &ork !or Stri$ken. N "e2s )"ily.; Ok% &o& th t2s hot. A se'y long0h ired "#si$i n not only kno&s &here 1 &ork b#t &h t "y n "e is. +o& odd is th t= -ost "en &ho !#$k ro#nd &ith &hores $o#ldn2t spit o#t !irst n "e i! their li!e

depended on it nd this h#nk o! b#rning love kno&s "ine. C#e the b#tter!lies in "y t#""y. 1 !eel like giddy teen ger being sked to d n$e by the hottest boy in s$hool. ,ell% 1 & s teen ger on$e nd 1 did d n$e &ith the hottest boy in s$hool. B#t th t & s tot lly di!!erent. 5ep. .ot lly. 95es. 5o# re $orre$t !ine sir. And ho& did yo# $o"e $ross this in!or" tion=; 1 le n sed#$tively nd o!!er "y e r% t#$king str nds o! "y h ir behind it s 1 do. An obvio#s invit tion to !lirt b#t hey 1 don2t kno& &h t else to do. 1 $ n2t /#st sit on this d "n b r stool nd t&iddle "y th#"bs together. No& th t &o#ld look even "ore ridi$#lo#s. +e le ns in !ollo&ing "y le d% 1 $ n !eel his hot bre th on "y skin. A shiver !lo&s over "e. +is s$ent is enti$ing "i' o! "int nd $love= 1 $ n2t be s#re. 912" g#it rist !or lo$ l b nd here in .#$son $ lled Bl des o! - $e. 1 lso h ppen to be one o! Stri$ken2s biggest ! ns. Seen yo#r n "e pl stered ll over the internet% !ter th t hot st#nt !e& d ys b $k &hen yo# " nh ndled <ohn th n Striker. And "y b#ddy <osh o#r b ssist is !riends &ith Keith. ,ho $$ording to hi" h s been going on nd on bo#t yo#.; +e &inks nd slides his h nd into "y l p% sn t$hing #p "y h nd. +ot d "n is he s"ooth. 1 sho#ld get so"e tips !ro" this d#de. 9So no& $o"e d n$e &ith "e.; +e s"iles big "eg & tt s"ile. Oh shit there goes "y sto" $h 1 think it /#st pl#""eted to the gro#nd. 1 nod nd he gently $o 'es "e o!! the se t &hi$h !eels like lot !#rther do&n th n 1 re"e"ber. + nd in h nd 1 t g long behind hi" onto the !#ll d n$e !loor. .he dis$o b ll nd spinning bove o#r he ds nd red nd &hite strobe lights re lighting the & y. .he $l#b is "ediev l ppe ring or to "e it is% or " ybe $l#b version o! Christi n 8rey2s :ed roo" o! p in. .he & lls re deep red% the !loor is bl $k. .he b r is lso bl $k b#t h s str nge bl $k le ther p dded & ll e!!e$t. .he $eiling is ll "irrors &ith thi$k silver $h in s& gs. .ot lly trippy &hen yo#2re not into'i$ ted 1 $ n2t i" gine &h t it2ll look like on$e 1 get !e& do>en shots in "e. .o "e the sp $e s$re "s bond ge% se' nd dr#gs. .his d "n dis$o b ll th t2s dire$tly top o! "e is the only h rsh light in the roo". .he rest is d rk nd sed#$tive. .ot lly hot nd the $orners re ne rly pit$h0bl $k. 1 " s#re tons o! people h ve !#$ked in the" ti"e or t&o. Song $h nge Pon e Replay &el$o"es "e to the d n$e !loor. .his is "y / ". @ n$ing in "y bedroo" gro&ing #p is going to p y o!! no&. .i"e to sho& o!! &h t 1 do in "y !o#r in$h heels. -y ne& d n$e p rtner st nds nd s& ys like typi$ l " n. S" $king hi" se'ily in the $hest 1 p#ll hi" $loser to "e by his shirt. +is eyes &iden. 5ep th t2s right b by yo#2re going to get sho&. :o$king "y body b $k nd !orth popping "y hips nd rolling "y sto" $h nd b#tt le!t0right0le!t0le!t. :ight0 le!t0 right0right. ,hipping "y h ir ro#nd gently p#lling "y h nds thro#gh "y h ir% do&n "y sides% over "y p nties% to "y inner thighs nd b $k #p. 12" b it nd 12ve /#st hooked "y $ t$h. Biting his pier$ed lo&er lip he eyes "e #p nd do&n. 1 $ n !eel "y /#i$es pooling in "y p nties. .his is so hotC Living in

o#r o&n little d n$e b#bble 1 $ n !eel ll other d n$ers on the !loor "oving & y. Sp $e is opening #p ro#nd #s. +e keeps doing the g#y d n$ing. 1 t#rn ro#nd nd b $k "y b#tt #p g inst hi" &ith se'y s& ys. +is h nds lo$k onto "y hips nd 1 le n b $k into his si' !oot toned !r "e. Song $h nge0 EPour !ome !ugar on me.2 .he best song everC 1 r#b "y b $kside g inst hi" to the be t o! the song. +e t#$ks his ! $e in the $rook "y ne$k kissing it sens# lly. 1 $lose "y eyes s voring his so!t pe$ks. +is bre thing is he vy in "y e r " king "y toes $#rl. -"""" this is so good. Slo&ly his h nd glides over "y !l t sto" $h do&n over "y p nties nd onto "y inner thigh. .he $ore o! "y body is b#rning &ith desire. 1 don2t kno& this " n b#t 1 & nt hi" to to#$h "e. 1 & nt hi" to r#b "y $lit nd give it to "e h rd. 1 stret$h "y r"s over "y he d nd the" ro#nd b $k o! his ne$k nd p#ll hi" in $loser. .he "int on his bre th is into'i$ ting. Oh god his h nd is so $lose to "y p#ssy. One !e& "ore in$hes nd &e re in !#$k "e territory. 1 open "y eyes. 1 need to t#rn ro#nd. 1 h ve to t#rn ro#nd. 1 desper tely need his "o#th on "ine. 1 & nt this str nger in "y p nts nd 1 h ven2t even h d d "n drink. 1 let go o! his long eno#gh to ! $e hi" nd press "y bre sts g inst his sto" $h. +is eyes re b#rning &ith hot ste "y #n d#lter ted l#st. 95o#2re so hot.; he li$ks his lips. Oh yes this is going to h ppen. 1 " going to " ke o#t &ith "y !irst ro$k st r. +is eyes &iden like s #$ers not in good & y nd 1 !eel !oreign h nd !ir"ly pl nted on "y r" nd 1 " y nked o#t0o!0the0& y. Oh shitC Not g inC 9,ho in the !#$k do yo# think yo# re=; <ohn th n yells $hest to $hest &ith "y h#nky d n$e p rtner. <ohn th n2s ne rly t&i$e the si>e o! this d#de. -y poor d n$e p rtner2s ! $e is $ontorted &ith "is#nderst nding. -ine looks the s "e. J#i$kly his eyes gl >e over to nger. 9,h t do yo# "e n &ho the !#$k do 1 think 1 "= 1 " Coby. .h t2s &ho the !#$k 1 ".; +e presses hi"sel! #p g inst <ohn th n h rder. Oh no this is not going to end &ell. 1 step #p to the side o! the". 1 $o#ldn2t !it in bet&een the" even i! 1 & nted. 9. ke it e sy boys.; 1 s y !ir"ly. 91 & nt to kno& &ho this "other !#$ker thinks he is to#$hing yo# like th t.; <ohn th n yells. +is h nds re $lin$hed into !ists t his sides. +e is s#per pissed. ,hy= 1 h ven2t the slightest !#$king $l#e. +e2s like d "n roller $o ster o! e"otions. .his d#de serio#sly needs so"e A n '. 91s he yo#r boy!riend=; Coby sks "e looking into "y eyes. +e is so s&eet nd gentle &ith "e even tho#gh he h s big gi nt bo#t re dy to p#""el hi" to the gro#nd. +e e'tends his h nd to the side nd r#bs longside o! "y r". -y he rt skips be t. 9@on2t yo# !#$king to#$h her g inC; <ohn th n gro&ls. +is ! $e is d rk nd r & nd s$ ry s hell.

9No% he2s not.; 1 gl re t <ohn th n he kno&s he is being !#$king ridi$#lo#s nd $re ting nother big s$ene. ,h t is &rong &ith hi"= 9Bet&een yo# nd "e Coby 1 think he h s so"e my-testosterone-levels-are-"ucked-there"ore-#ma-complete-douche-$ag-syndrome.; 1 s ss &ith lo#d over the top sigh. St $y r#ns over. 91t2s bo#t d "n ti"e.; <ohn th n $#ts in. 9,h t=; St $y looks $on!#sed /#st like the rest o! #s. 9,h t <ohn th n "e ns to s y is. 1t2s bo#t d "n ti"e yo# $o"e nd t ke hi" b $k to his roo" be!ore this gets into n even bigger s$ene.; 1 s y &ith big over the top Eoh0ye h0!#$k0yo#%2 s"ile t the big gi nt ro$ker st nding t&o !eet !ro" "e. 9Ah; St $y dds nodding &ith t #ght lips. 1 $ n2t re d hi". - ybe he2s " d b#t he doesn2t ppe r to be. B#t hey &h t do 1 kno&= 912" not going ny&here St $e. ?ntil she le ves; he points !ir"ly t "e. 1 roll "y eyes. 9@on2t roll yo#r eyes t "e short st $k.; +is eyes re on !ire. 91 &ill do &h tever the !#$k 1 & nt yo# gi nt "isogynisti$ " n &hore.; 1 spit o#t nd p#t "y h nds on "y hips. 1 " bo#t three se$onds !ro" !lipping hi" the bird. Not th t% th t2ll do "e ny good b#t it &ill dd "ore to the sho& th t he2s st rted nd it2ll " ke "e !eel little better. 91 &ill st nd &ith this !#$ker.; +e nods to& rds Coby. 9?ntil her ss le ves. 1 don2t tr#st hi". +e & s p &ing her nd 1 don2t like it.; +e gro&ls. ,h t the hell is &ith hi" nd this gro&ling= 12d s&e r &e /#st & lked into s$ene !ro" .r#e Blood. Not th t 12d "ind% give "e so"e Al$ide ny d y. Oh "y god% listen to "e. 1 so#nd like !#$king horny teen ger. .his h s got to end. 1 h ve no $hoi$e. <ohn th n2s not going to le ve #ntil 1 do. 1 serio#sly need to go b $k to "y roo" nd pl y &ith "ysel!. 1 dvert "y !#ll ttention to big di$khe d nd St $y. 9@id yo# ever think 12d like to be p &ed !or on$e= 1t2s not like he & s !or$ing hi"sel! on "e. Look t hi" he $o#ld !#$k /#st bo#t ny &o" n in this pl $e. 1 kno& it nd he kno&s it. B#t <es#s Christ &h t does it t ke !or girl to get little di$k ro#nd here=C; 1 sn p. Oh% hellC 1 $ n2t believe 1 /#st s id th t. ,ell in the &ords o! - $beth* ,h t2s done% is done. All three "en2s / &s ne rly hit the !loor. 1 giggle nd sh ke "y he d. 9,h t= Co"e on g#ys. @o yo# re lly think 1 don2t get horny= 1 " &o" n.; 1 shr#g s"iling. .his is so e"b rr ssing. 1 "e n on the top ten "ore e"b rr ssing things o! "y li!e this tops the $h rts t n#"ber three or so. <ohn th n le ns over to "e.

9B#t &h t bo#t the thing in the hotel roo"= 5o# kno& the ON) person thing.; +e s ys% trying to keep it #nder &r ps. 1 sl p "y h nd on "y !orehe d nd sh ke "y he d. .his is so not h ppeningC 9.h t & s priv te. And 1 $ n2t st y t n#"ber ?no !orever. 12" le rning !ro" the best.; 1 gest#re "y h nd bet&een the three o! the". Coby t kes step b $k. <ohn th n !ollo&s hi". 9Listen g#ys this is ni$e nd ll b#t this is & y too "#$h dr " !or "e. +ey% )"ily i! yo#2d like to go on d te so"eti"e give "e $ ll.; +e slides b#siness $ rd into "y h nd. 91 hope to he r !ro" yo#.; +e blo&s "e kiss nd & lks & y. 1 " o!!i$i lly ti$king ti"e bo"b o! hor"on l r ge. 9,h t the !#$k did yo# do th t !or=; 1 sl p st#pid ss in the $hest. 95o# better not $ ll hi".; +e b rks his tone h#sky nd d rk. 91 &ill do &h t 1 & nt. 5o# &ill do good to re li>e th t. 1 tho#ght &e h d this d "n dis$#ssion on the !#$king b#s. 5o#.; 1 point to hi". 9-e.; 1 point to "ysel!. 9+ ve &orking rel tionships. @o 1 need to spell it o#t !or yo#= 5.O.?; 1 poke "y !inger into his ro$k h rd $hest. 9Are not "y keeper. 1. A". .he ssist nt to#r " n ger to Stri$ken. .h t. 1s. it. .h t2s ll. -ove long. + ve ni$e !#$king h ppy horseshit d y.; 1 b rk. 95e h nd 1 don2t !#$king think yo# get it either. Short st $k. ,e; he & ves his h nd r ther irrit tingly bet&een #s &ith " /or pi> >>. 9@o NO. h ve &orking rel tionship.; 9St $y.; 1 point "y st re t hi" nd ignore &h tever else / $k ss is bo#t to s y to "e. 9Sin$e Ne nderth l doesn2t & nt to listen nd $hooses to be $o"plete idiot every ti"e &e re in p#bli$ together $ n yo# ple se es$ort "e b $k to "y hotel roo"=; 9S#re.; +is ! $e is even "ore $on!#sed th n be!ore. .h t " kes t&o o! #s. 1 &hip "y h ir in ssholes dire$tion nd st lk to& rds the e'it o! the b r &ith ttit#de. - king d "n s#re 1 sh ke "y ss /#st right. St $y t ils "e.

Chapter #ine
1 !eel so "#$h better dropping o#t o! this dress nd sliding o#t o! those se'y red heels. .hey look so good on b#t they2re ! irly ne& so 1 h ve lot o! &orking the" in to do. St nding in "y bl $k br nd boy shorts. St $y is l ying $ross "y bed &idth &ise. +e d propped #p. 12" r#bbing so"e e'pensive <osie - r n body b#tter ll over "y body he d to toe like 1 do l"ost every night. 1t "ight $ost "e !i!ty b#$ks "onth to sl ther "ysel! in this st#!!. B#t 1 s&e r by it. 1t2s silky s"ooth nd h s s" ll hint o! $itr#s s"ell behind it. .h t p irs ni$ely &ith "y Str &berries nd Ch "p gne per!#"e spr y !ro" 3i$tori Se$ret. St nding 1 prop "y !oot #p on the side o! the desk to get to "y $ lves nd !eet. 9So &h t & s #p &ith <ohn th n=; St $y !in lly sks "e. 1 shr#g. 9@#nno.; +is g#ess is s good s "ine. 9,ere yo# serio#sly going to sleep &ith th t Coby g#y=; his voi$e l"ost so#nds h#rt. 1 shr#g g in. 9Not s#re. Sin$e 12ve been here &hi$h h sn2t been very long 12ve !o#nd "ysel! hornier th n 12ve been in "y entire li!e. )ven &ith Chris. 1 don2t kno& i! it2s "e or the $ re!ree t"osphere. 1 /#st !eel like i! 1 &o#ld give into "y desires 1 &o#ldn2t be /#dged.; S&it$h legs. 95e h. 1 get th t. 1 kno& 1 $ n2t e'pe$t yo# to keep yo#r legs $losed !or the rest o! yo#r li!e. 1 /#st never pi$t#red yo# & nting to do it &ith so"e r ndo" g#y th t yo#2d prob bly never "eet g in.; +is voi$e is slo&% lo& nd s&eet nd he2s st ring t the $eiling. Ah% th t2s "y &onder!#l best !riend l ying on "y bed. +e2s so gre tC 91 don2t $t# lly. B#t 1 $ n2t do it &ith so"eone 1 " going to be ro#nd lot #nless 1 pl n on being &ith the" long0ter". 1 $ n2t do the !riends &ith bene!its. Or 1 don2t think 1 $ n. A one0night st nd /#st see"s e sier% is ll. Better= Not re lly. 1 "e n 1 tho#ght the ne't ti"e 1 h ve se' 1 "ight get l#$ky nd spend the rest o! "y li!e &ith th t spe$i l so"eone. 1 & s kind o! hoping 12d st rt !eeling th t & y &ith Chris on$e 1 g ve it #p to hi". 5o# kno&= 8et tt $hed to hi" !ter& rd b#t it didn2t &ork. Like &e2ve s id !or ye rs "y @NA is broken.; Legs do&n% ti"e !or r"s. 95o#2re @NA isn2t broken. 1 think o! th t s /oke. Look t "e 1 !#$k "ost things &ith p#ssy nd 1 still think 1 "ight !ind the one !or "e so"ed y.; S dness penetr tes his voi$e g in. 9Blondes yes.; 1 $r $k &ith giggle. 95o# kno& &hy 1 do th t no& nd 1 &ill $ontin#e th t & y.; 9,hy don2t yo# try redhe d= Not "e o! $o#rse. 1 &ish 1 $o#ld !eel th t & y bo#t yo# b#t it2s not possible; Sl thering other r".

91 "ight do th t. No& th t yo# kno& &h t yo# kno& nd 1 kno& ho& yo# !eel. - ybe 1 $ n stop pining !ter yo# nd "ove !or& rd. 1 l& ys tho#ght redhe ds &ere hot. 6o#nd "ysel! l"ost sleeping &ith !e& !ro" ti"e to ti"e. 8#ess no& 1 $ n.; Oh th t s dness in his voi$e is bre king "y he rt in t&o. And the g#ilt is ne rly p r ly>ing. +e is so s&eet nd gre t. ,hy $ n2t 1 /#st love hi" nd & nt to be &ith hi"= +e2s l& ys been there !or "e be!ore. B#t 1 g#ess yo# don2t $hoose &ho yo# ! ll in love &ith. Or th t2s &h t people s y nyho&. 1 h ve >ero e'perien$e in th t dep rt"ent. 912" sorry St $e. 5o# kno& 1 love yo#. :ight=; 91 kno& th t. 1 love yo# too. 1 /#st &ish things $o#ld be di!!erent th t2s ll.; +e gro ns nd tosses his !ore r" over his ! $e. 8osh 1 hope he2s not bo#t to $ry. 1 $ n2t do $rying. 1 l& ys $ry &hen so"eone else does. )ven on "ovies. 1 " s#$h girl. .here2s series o! kno$ks t the door. 1 p d "y tiny si>e !ive !eet over to the peephole% get on "y tippy toes to see &hose o#tside. 9Open #p short st $k. 1 kno& yo#2re in there.; 6#$kC Not <ohn th n g in. 1 " so tired o! his e"otion l b gg ge b#llshit. 9No% spe k% no% )nglish.; 1 "#tter in the best Sp nish voi$e 1 $ n thro#gh the door% holding b $k l #gh th t2s ne ring the s#r! $e. 9Sh#t #p &o" n nd open the d "n door nd let "e in. Or 1 &ill po#nd on the door ll0night or #se "y sp re key to yo#r roo" nd let "ysel! in. 1! 1 h ve to. 5o# de$ide. 12ll pl y this g "e ho&ever yo# & nt.; <es#s% his voi$e is s #$y. .his son o! bit$h is serio#sly sking !or big b ll b#sting ki$k. +is nose only took d y to he l. 1 &ill s#re s hell " ke s#re his $hildren2s% $hildren2s% $hildren !eel this oneC 95o# $ n2t l& ys h ve &h t yo# & nt <ohn0 0th n; 1 yell thro#gh the door. 9Oh yes 1 $ n nd 1 &ill. And do yo# & nt to be h ving this $onvers tion thro#gh this door=; 9No. 1 don2t & nt to h ve ny sort o! $onvers tion &ith yo# t ll. J#ite !r nkly. And St $y is in here nd 1 " in "y p nties. So 1 &ill t lk to yo# so"e other ti"e.; 1 he r lo#d gro&l e$ho in the h ll& y o#tside "y door. .his " n h s got to get his @NA $he$ked. -ine h s proble"s &ith "en " ybe his ss% is p rt &ol!. 95o# &ill open the door. N ked% &ith p nties on% p rk or &h tever. ,e &ill be h ving this o#t tonight. :ight no&.; +e st tes nd his voi$e is very stern nd deep. 1 &o#ld love it $o"ing !ro" ny other person the" hi". Anyone else nd 12d open it #p n ked nd s$re& their br ins o#t. B#t &ith hi" 12d love to get !rying p n nd b sh hi" over the he d.

9<#st let hi" in.; St $y "opes% his body propped on the side g inst the s#ites & ll% his "o#th is in serio#sly he rtbre king !ro&n. 91 don2t & nt hi" in here.; 1 &hisper. 91 $ n still he r yo# t lking in there.; <ohn th n $hi"es in. 95e h0ye h0ye h don2t get yo#r p nties in b#n$h.; 1 sn p. 912" not &e ring ny p nties% :ed. 1 do bo'ers. Silk pre!er bly.; +e "o$ks &ith l #gh. + rdy0 h r0h r0h r di$k & dC 1 so &ish 1 $o#ld /#st kill hi". +e is the "ost in!#ri ting person on the ! $e o! the e rth. 9<#st let hi" in )"% he2s obvio#sly not going to le ve #ntil yo# do. 12ll go b $k do&n to "y roo" nd i! yo# need "e /#st $ ll or $o"e do&n. 5o# need to !i' &h tever this proble" is bet&een yo# t&o. 1t2s going to get &orse be!ore it gets better i! yo# don2t t ke $ re o! it. 1 & nt yo# to still &ork &ith "e. 1 serio#sly need to go see "y "o" nd 1 $ n2t live like this. .he dr " bet&een yo# t&o is e'h #sting.; +e r#ns his h nd thro#gh his sh ggy h ir. Still gorgeo#s &ith deep !ro&n on his ! $e. 9SeeH.S" rt " n. 1 kne& 1 hired St $y !or re son.; @i$khe d s ys !ro" behind the door. 1 sh ke "y he d. .his is getting o#t o! $ontrol. St $y is right 1 need to nip this in the b#tt no&. 1 /#st don2t kno& ho&. - inly be$ #se 1 don2t kno& &h t the iss#e is to begin &ith. 1 y nk the door open &ith !or$e. 1 don2t even both to p#t on ny $lothes. +e $ "e to "e. So 1 don2t give shit &h t 1 &e r% i! he2s in "y presen$e he2ll h ve to de l. 96ine.; 1 gest#re !or hi" to $o"e in nd St $y pe$ks "e gently on the $heek nd e'its peering do&n t the gro#nd nd doesn2t s y nother &ord. 4oor best !riend. 1 /#st & nt to h#g hi" nd hold hi". B#t 1 kno& th t2s /#st $r#el t this point. 9C n2t yo# p#t on robe or p rk =; he $o""ents% & lking into the bedroo" living roo" $o"bo nd sits on the $orner o! "y bed his elbo&s resting on his knees. +e2s $h nged into p ir o! bl $k &orko#t s&e t p nts. No el sti$ ro#nd the nkles% slippers nd pl in &hite &i!e0be ter. :o$ker deli$io#s% is &h t 12d $ ll it. 91! yo#2re going to $o"e into "y hotel roo" t; 1 gl n$e over t the l r" $lo$k. 9One !i!ty t&o in the "orning 1 " going to &e r &h tever the hell 1 & nt nd yo#2re going to de l &ith it. 1 didn2t sk yo# here <ohn th n. 1 & s b#sy p#tting on "y nightly body b#tter &hen yo# kno$ked.; 1 go b $k to the desk nd slide "y !ingers into the b#tter% r#b it g inst "y p l"s nd st rt s"oothing it on "y sto" $h. 95o#H&e ; his voi$e $r $ks nd he $o#ghs. ;&e r body b#tter to bed=; he sks & t$hing "e. 9@oesn2t it look like 1 do= 1 lso & sh o!! "y " ke#p nd $le nse "y ! $e. @o yo# & nt "e to e'pl in ho& 1 ho& 1 pee nd &ipe too=; 1 sn p.

9,hy don2t yo# like "e=; his voi$e is so!t nd lo&. 3ery se'y. ,ell it &o#ld h ve been se'y i! it $ "e o#t o! less o! n ssholes "o#th. 95o# " ke "e not like yo#. 1 never kne& nything bo#t yo# or "#$h bo#t the b nd &hen 1 got this /ob. 1 did it !or St $y nd his "o"% "ore th n nything else. Altho#gh 1 don2t think his "o" deserves shit !ro" hi". B#t th t2s neither here nor there.; 1 "ove to the tops o! "y boobs. 9C n yo# stop th tH yo#2re distr $ting.; +e gr#nts. 9No% 1 $ n2t% don2t look i! it2s proble".; +e /erks b $k &ith Eh#"ph2 nd thro&s his r"s over his thi$k bro d he vily t ttooed $hest. 1 p#t hi" on ignore. 9So ny& ysH5o#2re the " n &ho /#"ped do&n "y thro t the !irst ti"e &e "et. So it2s ll ste""ed !ro" th t. 1t see"s like &o" n on yo#r b#s & s going to kill yo#. 1 don2t think it " ttered i! 1 look like this; 1 "otion "y h nd #p nd do&n "y body. 9Or i! 1 & s so"e hot leggy blonde th t St $y &o#ld prob bly end #p " rrying in t&o &eeks. 5o#2d still h ve proble". 1 kno& yo#r rep o! being n sshole to &o"en. 1 kne& th t !ro" the get go. <#st !ig#red 12d be $ool nd h ng s one o! the g#ys nd yo#2d not tre t "e like yo# do other &o"en.; 9+o& is it 1 tre t other &o"en=; +e sks s#rprised. 9B dly.; 1 bl#rt. 1 re0dip "y !ingers nd "ove to "y ne$k. 9,h t &o" n th t 1 h ve been &ith h ve yo# spoken &ith=; 9None.; +e belts o#t n rrog nt l #gh. 1 sn p st re t hi". 9,h t2s so !#nny= Ch#$kles.; 95o# think 12" s#$h "isogynisti$ pig. B#t not one &o" n 1 h ve slept &ith h ve yo# ever spoken &ith.; 9,ell. No. B#t 1 " s#re it &o#ldn2t be th t h rd. Considering 1 " s#re th t yo#r n#"bers h ve hit. ,ell let2s thinkH.; 1 t p "y !inger on "y $hin 95o#2ve been ! "o#s !or !o#r ye rs. Se"i ! "o#s !or t&o be!ore th t 12" s#re. 4l#s the ! $t th t yo#2re se'y nd prob bly /#st bo#t thirty le ves yo# tH tH +old on.; 1 p#t o#t "y !inger to h ve hi" & it se$. So !o#r in high s$hool% pl#s s y ten o#t i! he didn2t h ve girl!riends !or long% &hi$h 12" s#re he h sn2t be$ #se he h s the ro" n$e $ p $ity o! to d. .hen one &eek !or ye r the !irst t&o ye rs o! the b nd so th t brings hi" to one h#ndred nd t&enty t&o. 4l#s !o#r ye rs o! being ! "o#s so th t &o#ld "e n one " ybe t&o "ore &o"en &eek "ini" lly. So th t2ll t ke hi" #p to 12d g#ess right ro#nd three h#ndred nd t&enty. 8ive or t ke thirty% to t ke into $$o#nt !or his e'tr s or do#ble or triple ti"ers% nd " ybe the o$$ sion l short0ter" rel tionship.

9.hree h#ndred nd t&enty se' p rtners. So ye h th t2s plenty o! &o" n 1 $o#ld seek o#t. .h t 1 " s#re &o#ld gree &ith "e.; 95o# think 12ve slept &ith th t " ny &o"en=; he so#nds s#rprised. 9- the" ti$ lly= 5es. 1t see"s $$#r te o! n ssess"ent.; 1 nod $o#ple ti"es biting "y lo&er lip. 1 le n g inst the ! r side o! the roo" g inst the & ll. 1t2s $hilly on "y b $k b#t 1 &el$o"e it% "y te"per t#re sin$e he2s & lked into "y roo" h s skyro$keted. 91 don2t think it2s th t " ny.; +is ! $e s$r#n$hes #p nd his r"s rel '. +e looks deep in tho#ght. 9@o yo# kno& ho& " ny=; 9NoH B#t th t see"s like lot.; +e ! $e looks p ined. Like " ybe 1 " right nd he2s /#st re li>ing it. 9- ybe% b#t it2s prob bly tr#e. @o yo# even re"e"ber ny o! their n "es=; 9,hy= @o yo# & nt to serio#sly seek the" o#t= Be$ #se 1 don2t kno& " ny o! the" t ll. - ybe ten 1 $ n re"e"ber.; 1 s$o!!. )yes &ide. 9.en=; 1 ne rly $hoke on the &ord. 95e hH listen 1 don2t & nt to t lk bo#t this &ith yo#. 1t doesn2t2 " tter 12" not th t " n ny"ore.; 9Sin$e &hen=; 1 roll "y eyes. +e is so !#ll o! shit. 9Sin$e yo# $ "e onto the b#s.; 1 l #gh nd gr b onto "y sto" $h. Oh god th t is so hil rio#s. .e rs re po#ring do&n "y ! $e. 1 $ n2t help it. .his is so d "n !#nny. 1 bet he t lks to ll his di!!i$#lt l ys this & y. 1 " so not s#$ker. @oes he think 12" g#llible ret rd or &h t= 4le seH..@on2t ins#lt "y intelligen$e. 95e h nd 12" 4rin$ess @i n .; 1 l #gh nd &ipe "y te rs !ro" "y eyes. 9No yo#2re not nd it2s tr#e. 1 vo& to yo# tonight th t 1 &on2t h ve se' &ith nyone else ever g in. 1 &on2t. 1 pro"ise.; +is deep nd d rk voi$e is & kening so"ething pri" l. -y $ore s$re "ing his n "e. -y p l"s re s#ddenly sti$ky. .his $ nnot be h ppening. 1 sh ke "y he d to rid the $lo#diness. 91! yo# think s ying ll this is going to get yo# into "y p nts= 1t2s not. 1t " y &ork !or so"e &o"en b#t yo# don2t like "e nd 1 don2t like yo#. 4l in nd si"ple. 5o# $ n de l. 1 $ n de l.; 8od this is so &eird. ,h t kind o! $onvers tion is this= 9No yo#r right 1 don2t L1K) yo#. 1 love yo#.; +e st nds #p nd t kes step to& rds "e. 1 press h rder g inst the & ll. Oh ple se don2t $o"e ny $loser. 1 don2t & nt this. And shit " ybe 1 sho#ld h ve thro&n on p rk . .his is not good ide . +ot ro$ker &ho is trying desper tely to get into "y p nts. 1 tho#ght Coby & s sli$k. B#t <ohn th n is in &hole other le g#e.

1 g#lp h rd. +e t kes nother step. Oh noC 9+o& " ny &o" n h ve yo# s id th t to= 1s this yo#r -O=; 1 sp#tter o#t bet&een tre"bling lips. 912ve never loved nyone in "y &hole li!e.; +e p#rrs. Oh kno& not th t p#rring g in. +e2s $ t then he2s dog nd both so#nd so hot. 95e h &h tever <ohn0 H 1 "e n di$k & d. 5o# don2t kno& &h t love is.; 1 s y st ring str ight t the gro#nd. 1 $ n2t look t hi" nd 1 kno& it $ "e o#t ll /#"bled nd ro$ky. 1 kno& it so#nds st#pid b#t 1 $ n2t help it. 12" on edge. 8ood or b d= 1 don2t kno& b#t 12" there. 95es 1 do. 1 kne& &hen 1 s & yo# st nding in the $ro&d t the $on$ert.; 1 sn p "y he d b $k 9,h tC; Oh% holy "other o! god. +e2s st nding t&o !eet !ro" "e. So $lose 1 $ n !eel the he t r di ting !ro" his skin. 9,hy do yo# think it took #s so long to get b $k to the b#s=; 1 shr#g nd 1 h ve to think h rd. 1 h ve no ide . 1 tho#ght it didn2t t ke th t long. - ybe it did b#t 1 didn2t noti$e. 91 d#nno% to get p#ssy= +onestly% 1 didn2t think it took th t long.; 9.he g#ys & ited !or "e in the b $k nd 1 sent < "es o#t to !ind yo#. 1 & s pissed &hen 1 got b $k to the b#s be$ #se yo# &ere gone. .hen yo# pop ro#nd St $y nd &ho &o#ld h ve kno&n yo#2re o#r ne& !#$king " n ger. .he s "e &o" n St $y h s been going on nd on nd on bo#t !or the p st !o#r d "n ye rs. .he s "e d "n &o" n he & nts to " rry nd h ve b bies &ith is the s "e &o" n 1 kno& 1 & nt to be &ith. One hell o! he d !#$k i! yo# sk "e.; 9,ho C Let2s b $k #p !e& steps. 6irst o!! yo# $ n2t ! ll in love &ith so"eone &hen yo# !irst see the". Se$ondly St $y doesn2t & nt "y b bies or to " rry "e nd thirdly yo# re li>e ho& !#$ked #p ll this so#nds nd !o#rthly.; 1 s& llo& h rd nd look #p into his be #ti!#l " t$hing green eyes. 95o# need to go sit b $k do&n yo#2re " king "e nervo#s.; 1 point to the bed. +e gr bs "y h nd nd brings it to "y lips. 1 inh le deeply. Oh% no not the lips. 4le se not those. .hey re so se'y nd s#pple. 4ressing his lips so!tly g inst the b $k o! "y h nd. +e inh les "y s$ent. 9-"" yo# s"ell so good.; -y body $onv#lses t the $ont $t nd "y belly does vigoro#s /#"ping / $ks. -y he rt o!!i$i lly $hes nd 1 $ n2t bre the. 1 pl $e "y !ree h nd over "y he rt nd 12" serio#sly !l#shed. .his is not good. Not good t ll. 1 dr & "y h nd b $k nd "y he rt ne rly sh tters into "illion tiny little p in!#l pie$es.

9.o yo#r !irst tho#ght yes yo# $ n ! ll in love th t (#i$kly. 1 didn2t believe it either. Not #ntil 1 s & yo# st nding in the !ront ro&% yo#r h ir #p% &e ring th t hideo#s t&eed s#it top% s&e t glistening yo#r ! $e. 5o# looked so se'y nd p#re nd re l. <#st like yo# l& ys do.; Oh "y god. +e $ nnot serio#sly be s ying this to "e nd "e n it. +e so#nds like he believes it. So"e p rt o! "e% the dirty p rt o! "e & nts to believe it too. 1 $ n2t deny th t he2s hot nd 1 !eel so"ething !or hi". 1t " ybe si$kness b#t " ybe it2s /#st p ssion or so"ething else 12ve never en$o#ntered be!ore. 1 " $h rting in &hole di!!erent kind o! & ters. B#t the sel!0preserv tion side o! "e & nts to think he2s !#ll o! it nd /#st trying to sleep &ith "e. B#t he $o#ld do th t &ith /#st bo#t ny &o" n he & nts. 1 " $on!#sed. +orny nd $on!#sed. Not good. Not good t ll. 9)"ilyH ) rth to )"ily.; +e2s & ving his h nds in !ront o! "y ! $e. Oh shit. 1 >oned o#t. 95e hH Sorry.; 9,h t 1 & s s ying to the n#"ber t&o o! yo#r observ tion is th t yes St $y does !eel th t & y. 12" $lose !riends &ith the g#y. )very ti"e he2d t lk to yo# on the phone he2d be going on nd on nd on bo#t ho& he !eels !ter& rd. +e so#nded like $hi$k. B#t 1 listened be$ #se &e2ve been b#ds !or longti"e. Also th t2s ho& yo# got the /ob. 5es% he & nts to see his "o" b#t 1 think it g ve hi" re l re son to t lk yo# into $o"ing here. 1 & s the one &ho greed to hire yo#. :)ALL5 gl d 1 did no&. B#t be!ore 1 & s /#st doing it !or hi" be$ #se he2s been s#$h gre t " n ger.; 95o# hired "e= 1 tho#ght the re$ord $o"p ny did=; -ore $on!#sion this night $ n2t get ny &eirder. 1 s&e r. 9@o yo# not kno& nything bo#t "e= 5o# didn2t re d #p on ny o! #s did yo#=; 1 t&iddle "y th#"bs together nd e'h le lo#dly. 9?"H No=; 9.h t2s &h t 1 !ig#red. -ost &o"en kno& everything bo#t "e there is to kno& in the &orld2s vie& th t is. B#t &hen yo# s id 12" thirty nd kno& nothing bo#t the re$ord $o"p ny. 1 !ig#red s "#$h. 9 9Sorry.; 1 po#t. +e is right 1 kno& nothing bo#t the". 1 didn2t $ re to !ind o#t. 1 kno& t bloid shit is #s# lly only b sed little on ! $t nd the rest o! " de #p. So 1 !ig#red $o"ing into this &orld 12d !ind o#t !irsth nd. Looking b $k no& it &o#ld h ve been little s" rter to prep "ysel!. +e l #ghs nd r#ns his l rge h nd thro#gh his d rk nd se'y h ir. 9No it2s ok y. And 12" not thirty 12" t&enty eighty. .he re$ord $o"p ny is "ine. 1 o&n it so yes 1 g#ess it & s "e by "e ns o! the re$ord $o"p ny &ho hired yo#.; 9AhH th t " kes sense no&.; 1 bob "y he d. 5ep% $h rting into ret rd &k& rd territory. 9SeeH,e re le rning "ore nd "ore nd &e h ven2t rg#ed in like !ive "in#tes. ,e re he ded in the right dire$tion. And !or n#"ber three it2s not !#$ked #p it2s the tr#th nd so"eti"es ! te de ls

di$ey set o! $ rds. And !o#r 1 &ill sit do&n i! th t &ill " ke yo# !eel better. B#t 1 " going to be honest. 1 & nt to to#$h yo#. 9 Oh ye h there is $o"es. 8et to it no& nd /#st tell "e yo# & nt to !#$k "e. .h t2s &here this is he ded ny& y. .he ir is $lo#ded &ith phero"ones 1 $ n even s"ell it. 9And No don2t be over thinking this.; +e gest#res to #s. 91 don2t & nt to !#$k yo#.; 1 s$o!! nd on the verge o! rolling "y eyes he $#ts in. 9Ok y. Ok y. 1 do & nt to " ke love to yo# b#t not right no& 1 don2t. +o&2s th t !or honesty=; he perks #p his eyes bro& nd grins. 96ine. 1 &ill t lk nd try not to be bit$h. <#st sit do&n on the edge o! the bed.; 1 !old "y r"s over "y $hest. 1 !orgot 1 h ve been st nding ro#nd in "y br nd p nties. + ving $onvers tion this n ked% & sn2t ho& this sho#ld h ve gone do&n. +e sits do&n g in. A l rge &eight is li!ted o!! "y sho#lders b#t t the s "e ti"e 1 kind o! &ish it & s still there. +is dist n$e h#rts. -y he rt is tr#ly $hing. 8l n$ing do&n t the skin over "y he rt 1 r#b it little. 9See 1 kne& 1 & sn2t the only one.; 1 look #p t hi" 9+#h=; 1 b#n$h #p "y nose. 95o#r he rt h#rts doesn2t it=; he s ys serio#sly% not "o$king or r#de. <#st !ir" nd sens# l. 1n his very & r" p nty dropping voi$e. .h t2s its ne& title. 9No.; 1 bl#rt% & y to (#i$kly 1 kno& he &on2t believe "e. 1 sho#ld h ve pl nned th t e'pression o#t little better. @ "nit. +e grins. 95es it does.; 9So &h t. 1t doesn2t "e n nything.; 1 &hine nd $ross "y r"s over "y $hest g in. +#gging "ysel!. 91! th t2s &h t yo# & nt to think th t2s ok y. 5o#2ll re li>e it soon eno#gh. 1 get to yo#. B d.; +e grins g in. +is grin is se'ier th n his s"ile. 1t2s sed#$tive nd sinister. <#st looking t it "y belly /#"ps g in nd "y he rt th#"ps h rd in "y $hest. 1t h s to be like !ive h#ndred degrees in this god!ors ken roo". 4he&C 95e h so. 1 get yo# to too=; . lk bo#t l "e. 1 $ n2t even so#nd str ight!or& rd &ith th t. 1 " so losing "y g "e. ,here2d it go= - ybe 1 sho#ld look #nder the bed= Or in the b throo". 1t h s to be hiding so"e&here in the hotel roo". 95es. 5o# do. 1 & lk ro#nd &ith h rd on every ti"e 1 see yo# or think bo#t yo# nd it doesn2t ever & nt to go do&n either. .r#st "e it s#$ks h ving sti!!y eighty per$ent o! the d y.; -y "o#th ! lls open. 1 never tho#ght o! hi" being honest. An sshole yes% to p#shy yes. B#t bl#ntly honest. Not so "#$h.

1 $o#gh 9.h t "#$h=; +e l #ghs nd it2s !#ll belly $ont gio#s one 1 $ n2t help b#t /oin in. 95es% "y d rling. .h t "#$h.; C#e the singing he rt. <es#s. +is " n h s & y &ith &ords. -y p#ssy is sopping &et. 1 $ n2t stop b#t think bo#t &h t he is doing to "y he rt nd no& "y nether regions. -y bre sts re sore desper te to be to#$hed. -y $lit nd po#nding bet&een "y legs 1 $ n !eel the be t o! "y he rt in it. 1 look do&n to see i! it2s gro&n in si>e nd is p#lsing be$ #se th t &o#ld be even "ore e"b rr ssing. 1 g >e #p nd he2s & t$hing "e look t "ysel!. Oh ple se no don2t t lk bo#t this too. <#st ignore it ple se <ohn th n. - n his n "e is se'y b#t it2s "o#th!#l. +e serio#sly needs ni$kn "e !ro" "e. 12ve see"ed to h ve dopted !e& !ro" hi" one th t 12" serio#sly beginning to like. <ohn so#nds st#pid nd re"inds "e o! <ohn S"ith !ro" 4o$ hont s. So not ho& 1 see hi". < is ok y b#t not good. 1 don2t like the & y it rolls o!! "y tong#e. Big " n no& th t so#nds like good one. +e2s big nd he2s " n. Sel!0e'pl n tory nd r ther se'y too. - ybe he2ll let "e $ ll hi" th t. 12" s#re it2ll " ke hi" h ppier th n sshole or di$khe d. .hose &ords 1 #se on hi" o!ten &hen 1 re!er to hi" b#t !ter tonight 1 kno& 1 $ n2t do th t ever g in. ,ell prob bly not. ,e sh ll see. 9) rth to short st $k. Co"e in short st $k.; Oh no% 1 >oned o#t g in. 1 sh ke "y he d b $k nd !orth to $le r "y boggled "ind. 9.here yo# re. ,h t re yo# thinking bo#t=; 9+onestly% &h t ni$kn "e 1 sho#ld give to yo#.; Oh% there2s th t "eg & tt e r to e r s"ile o! his. ,o& it2s so be #ti!#l nd &hite nd he rt po#nding. .his he rt o! "ine h s got to stop &ith the gy"n sti$s. 1 $o#ld r#n " r thon nd it still &o#ldn2t $t this $r >y. 9And=; 9@o &e re lly h ve to t lk bo#t this tonight too=; 1 t p "y !oot on the gro#nd nervo#sly. 95es% nd &e2re going to t lk bo#t th t look yo# &ere giving yo#r priv tes bit e rlier.; 1 sh ke "y he d no. 9No% &e re not. )spe$i lly i! yo# & nt to kno& the proper ni$kn "e 1 h ve !or yo#. 5o# kno& besides sshole nd those others.; 1 giggle nd shoot hi" !riendly s"ile. 9,ell 12d r ther skip the ni$kn "es i! 1 h ve $hoi$e o! the t&o.; +e &inks sin!#lly. 9.hro& "e bone here. Serio#sly. 12ve told yo# ho& 1 !eel. 12ve told yo# ho& "#$h yo# t#rn "e on nd yo#2ve s id nothing to "e. <#st give "e little so"ething. Not se'% /#st honesty. 1 pro"ise to l& ys be honest &ith yo#. <#st be honest &ith "e too.; +e2s ne rly begging. Not (#ite b#t 1 $ n he r the desper tion in his deep voi$e.

9OhH 6ineH B#t only be$ #se yo# sked so ni$ely.; 1 s"ile% nd serio#sly & nt to blo& hi" kiss !ro" $ross the roo" !or his honesty nd s&eetness. Altho#gh 1 " s#re th t2s prob bly not good ide . 1 $ n2t get his hopes #p too ! r. 9.he ni$kn "e is big " n. 1 think it e'pl ins yo# r ther &ell nd it2s kind o! $#te. 1 tho#ght bo#t <ohn or < b#t they see" so i"person l.; 9A&e. 1 love itC 1 $o#ld so h#g yo# right no&.; .h t2s so $ n2t h ppen. 1 think 1 "ight $t# lly h#"p his leg i! he does. ,h t this " n does to "e is in$redible. 1 & nt to kiss hi" so b d or li$k his $hest. Oh ye h th t $hest. .hi$k ribs o! "#s$le nd t ttoos &ith so p nd s ltiness. So deli$io#s on "y tong#e. ShitC Stop thinking bo#t th tC Or 1 " going to h ve to go $h nge "y p nties. 9AndH; 9OhH!ineH5es% yo# t#rn "e on. B#t honestly is th t so h rd to believe= 5o# t#rn every &o" n on. .h t2s &h t the &o" n t yo#r sho&s go !or. .o see yo# nd hope th t they $ n get into yo#r p nts on so"e o!! $h n$e.; +e gro&ls. 5ep% the &ol! is b $k nd se'y s everC C n yo# die !ro" being too horny= Be$ #se i! th t2s possible 1 "ight serio#sly die tonight. 91 don2t $ re &h t other &o"en & nt !ro" "e. 1 & nt 5O?. 1 & nt ll o! 5O?. And right no& 1 & nt 5O? in "y "o#th !orever nd ever.; %ulp& 'elpC 9,hH Ht=; 91 kno& yo#r horny tonight b by. 1 $ n s"ell yo#. Not s#re ho& be$ #se 12ve never s"elled &o" n2s ro#s l ever #nless "y ! $e is $lose. B#t 1 $ n s"ell yo# !ro" here.; 912" sorry 1 kno& th t2s gross.; 1 $over "y $rot$h &ith both "y h nds nd look do&n. -y he rt sinks. 1 /#st think this p in "ight " ke "e $ry. 9Stop itC; he2s & lking to& rds "e% oh no. 1 $ n !eel the shi!ting in the roo". 1 peer #p nd he2s toe0to0toe &ith "e his eyes re on !ire. +e $#ps "y $hin &ith his !ingers nd tilts "y he d #p to see hi". 1 s& llo& h rd. +is !lesh on "ine is b#rning "e &ith !#ll on desire nd 1 & nt to drop to "y knees nd h ve hi" in "y "o#th. 1 kno& he &o#ld & nt this. 1 & nt this. 1 & nt hi". +e2s so se'y nd so!t nd h rd t the s "e ti"e. 9.h t is not gross. @on2t yo# ever s y th t.; +is eyes re b#rro&ing into "ine. 1 $ n2t see nything b#t hi" nd $ n2t !eel nything b#t hi". +e2s $ons#"ing "e. O&ning "e. Loving "e. 9B#tH; Sliding !inger over "y lips to (#iet "e he le ns do&n beside "y e r.

95o#r s$ent drives "e &ild b by. 1 $ n2t tell yo# ho& "#$h it t#rns "e on to kno& yo# & nt "e s "#$h s 1 & nt yo#. Al"ost three d ys b by% three &hole d ys 12ve been dying to hold yo# nd $ ress yo#. 5o# re everything to "e. 5O?. A:). -1N). 6orever.; -y knees give o#t nd 1 ! ll into hi". +e $ t$hes "e. +is h nd on "y b $k he li!ts "e into his r"s like 1 &eigh nothing. 9Short st $k re yo# ok y=; 1 t#$k "y he d g inst hi" sn#ggling "y ! $e g inst his so!t & r" ne$k. +is s$ent is into'i$ ting to "e too. ,ho &o#ld h ve tho#ght= +e $ rries "e over to the bed nd l ys "e do&n length&ise. 9.h nks.; 1 &hisper. 9Anything !or yo# b by. No& lie b $k nd rest.; +e p#shes "y h ir o#t o! "y ! $e nd $ resses "y $heek &ith the b $k o! his h nd. )le$tri$ity sp rks nd "y he rt le ps o#t o! "y $hest nd s" shes into hi". So this is &h t p ssion !eels like= +e st nds nd 1 /erk #p inst ntly nd grip onto his h nd tight. 1 $ n2t let hi" le ve. +e $ n2t go. Not tonight. Not% no& nd " ybe never. 91t2s ok y b by. 1 " /#st going to go nd t ke o!! "y slippers nd $lothes nd 12ll $li"b in &ith yo#. 1 pro"ise 12ll be right b $k.; +e spe ks so!tly nd s&eet &ith grin. 1 let go o! his h nd. +e goes into the b throo" nd 1 settle do&n into the bed. 1 !eel ll & r" nd !#>>y inside. 9See 1 told yo#.; +e s ys $li"bing in ne't to "e &e ring only p ir o! green silk bo'ers. 9Sorry 1 don2t kno& &h t $ "e over "e.; 1 "#tterer desper tely. 91 do.; +e n#>>les his ! $e in "y h ir nd 1 "elt inside. +e2s not $lose eno#gh. - ybe he2ll never be $lose eno#gh. ,o& this is &hole ne& e'perien$e. A &hole ne& &orld !or "e. 1 don2t kno& i! 1 like it or not. B#t 1 need it. 1 need hi" right no&. 1 t#g hi" $loser nd t#rn onto "y side so 1 $ n sling "y leg over his. +ot d "n his legs re h#ge. 1 g#ess 1 never p id ttention be!ore. .hey h ve light d#sting o! d rk h ir "i'ed &ith !e& t ttoos b#t they re ribbed nd $#t /#st like the rest o! his gorgeo#s body. 1 p#sh "y ! $e g inst his $hest nd bre the hi" in. +is h nds re t ngled #p in "y h ir nd he kisses "y !orehe d over nd over in per!e$t so!t kisses. -y he rt is bloo"ing nd po#nding so h rd. -y $lit is po#nding t the s "e speed. 1 re d/#st "y leg. 9Ohhhh...; 1 "o n "y $lit r#bbed his leg. 1 think 1 "ight $o"e ny se$ond. 9+ey b by. @o yo# & nt "e to help &ith th t=; he kisses "y !orehe d g in. 9,ith &h t=; 1 don2t #nderst nd.

95o#r p#ssy b by. 1 $ n help. 1 pro"ise 1 &on2t do nything else. 1 &on2t even try to h ve se'. 1 &ill t ke $ re o! yo#. 1 kno& yo# need it nd 1 need to to#$h yo# there. 4le se let "e to#$h yo# there.; +e ne rly begs. +is voi$e is & r" nd h#sky. +is p nty dropping voi$e. 12" even &etter no& i! th t & s possible. 1t is no&. 9,ellH 1 don2t kno& ho& to s y thisH 12veH #"H never h dH. ?"H nyone to#$h "e there be!ore. Anyone other th n "ysel! th t is.; .h t & s so s$ ry to tell hi" b#t didn2t !eel s e"b rr ssing $o"ing o#t s 1 tho#ght it "ight. .h nk the he vens. )ither "y horniness oversh do&ed "y &orries or it & sn2t th t e"b rr ssing. +e pl $es his !ingers on "y $hin nd tilts "y ! $e #p to his. +is eyes b#rn into "e g in. +is & nt is $ rried over in /#st & s g >e. 9B by. 1! yo#2ll h ve "e 1 &o#ld love to be yo#r !irst in th t nd everything else 1 $ n be. B#t only i! yo#2ll h ve "e.; +e &hispers nd li$ks his lips. Oh yes <ohn th n li$k "e% !#$k "e% 1 don2t $ re /#st to#$h "e. -y need !or hi" is so intense 1 $o#ld l"ost $ry. 1 nod nd "y "o#th r#ns dry. 9.h nk yo# b by. .h nk yo#.; +e s ys nd he so#nds sin$ere. +e presses his lips g inst "ine nd they re so!t nd l#s$io#s nd & r". 1 open "y "o#th slightly to invite hi" into the !irst p rt o! "y body ever. +e slips in his so!t gently tong#e nd &e kiss so p ssion tely nd s&eetly. 1t2s not r#shed. +e2s " king love to "y "o#th. So!t strokes% s&irling together. -y body is b#rning !or hi". 1 so need this " n. 1 press "ysel! g inst hi" "y bre sts p#shing !ir"ly into his h rd sto" $h. 12" ne rly sh king &ith desire nd & nt nd nervo#sness. +is h nd dri!ts do&n ro#nd the b $k o! "y b#tt nd bet&een "y legs. +is !inger inst ntly hits th t sensitive b#"p. 1 "o n into his "o#th nd he gro&ls &ith ppre$i tion. Cir$ling th t little b#"p thro#gh the thinness o! "y boy shorts. .he /olt o! ele$tri$ity h s "e on the brink. 1 $ n !eel it t#rning nd b#rning in "y belly. 1 need it. 12ve never been to#$hed like this be!ore. 1 "o n into his "o#th g in nd he l ps his tong#e g inst "ine h rder nd needier. +is h rd $o$k is pressed #p g inst "y belly &ith only thin l yer o! bo'ers holding hi" b $k. +e ro$ks his hips g inst "y sto" $h his $o$k is r#bbing g inst "e. 1t2s so se'y nd hot nd 1 /#st & nt to to#$h it. B#t 12ve never to#$hed one be!ore. Not #p $loser nd person l nyho&. +e e'tr $ts his tong#e nd 1 " p nting nd so is he. -y he rt is $hing &ith desire. 9Oh god b by yo# re so "#$h "ore th n 1 ever dre "ed.; +e p nts his $hest he ving in nd o#t h rd. 1 r#b "y !ingers !ro" his pe$ks do&n his & shbo rd bs nd $ir$le the bones o! his lips nd the lip o! his bo'ers. +e inh les deeply nd !ree>es.

9Oh sorry.; 1 "#tter. 9No. B by no. 5o# $ n to#$h "e &herever yo# & nt. 1t /#st !eels so good. 1! yo# to#$h hi" tho#gh 1 think 1 "ight /#st b#rst. 12ve h d to / $k hi" like three ti"es d y the p st !e& d ys b#t ll he2s & nted is yo# nd yo#r so!t be #ti!#l skin.; +is !inger /olts "y spot h rder nd 1 sh#dder. 9See b by th t2s &h t 1 & nt to & nt to " ke yo# !eel good. @on2t &orry bo#t hi". Let "e to#$h yo#.; +e p#rrs. 9Ok y.; 1 &hisper o#t o! bre th. +e le ns #p nd 1 drop "y leg !ro" his. +oly $r p his $o$k is h#ge. 1 tho#ght it & s b#t it so is. 1t2s like n n $ond bed. 9C n 1 to#$h hi"=; +is eyes light #p nd his body (# kes. 91! yo# & nt. B#t yo# don2t need to b by. 1 /#st & nt to to#$h yo#.; +e to#$hes "y so!t spot. 1 r$h "y b $k o!! the bed nd shriek o#t "o n. 9See b by yo#2re re dy !or "e to to#$h yo#. 1 & nt "y "o#th on yo#. 1 need to t ste yo# nd s#$k ll o! those s&eet /#i$es.; 1 nod biting "y lip. 1gnoring the ! $t th t 1 desper tely & nt to to#$h his $o$k. +e settles do&n bet&een "y legs nd r#bs his !inger #p nd do&n "y se'. 1 s(#ir". .#gging o!! "y p nties 1 le n #p o!! the bed to help hi". And it t kes only se$ond nd 1 " botto"less. 1 re $h ro#nd "y o&n b $k nd #n$l sp "y br gyno !or over t&o ye rs. +is bre th his hot on "y $ore. -y /#i$es re sli$k nd "y $lit is needy. 9-""""" yo# s"ell so good b by. Like 1 s id 1 h ve to t ste yo# b#t not /#st yet.; +e r#ns his !inger bet&een the !olds o! "y se'. 9Oh god.; 1 "o n. +is th#"b rests on top o! "y $lit nd " kes s" ll little $ir$les his bre th is t "y entr n$e. Oh yes. :ight there. .o#$h "e. 1 s(#ir" nd !ist the sheets. 94le se.; 1 beg% p nting. And he dives right in. +is tong#e l pping "y tight hole nd 1 s$re " o#t his n "e in the biggest nd "ost /oyo#s org s" 12ve ever h d in "y entire li!e. -y body $onv#lses over nd over. ,hen 12" !inished 1 look do&n nd see hi" peering #p nd "e !ro" bet&een "y legs. 1 give hi" sly s"ile. nd slide it o!!. @ropping it onto the !loor beside the bed. :e li>ing this is the !irst ti"e 1 h ve been !#lly n ked in !ront o! " n other th n "y ngry to get lose. 12" st ring t it. 1 $ n2t stop "ysel!. +e l #ghs &hen he $ t$hes "e. 95ep th t2s the big " n.; +e2s kneeling bet&een "y legs on the

95o#2re so be #ti!#l b by.; +e li$ks nd r#bs. 95o# t ste like honey; he bre ths. :#bbing "y $lit h rder te sing "e% t nt li>ing "e. 1 never kne& nything $o#ld !eel this good. +e !eels so good. 1 & nt hi" so b d. 1 need his $o$k in "e. 91 need yo#.; 1 "o n. 9Oh god b byH 1 love yo#H 1 & nt yo# so b d.; +e p#rrs r#nning his !inger #p nd do&n "y hot sli$k slit. 95o#2re so &et nd hot !or "e b by. @o 1 " ke yo# !eel good=; he &hispers h#sky. 9Oh yes <ohn th n. 1 need yo#. 5o# " ke "e !eel so good.; 1 r$h "y b $k. +is to#$hes re like ele$tri$ity sp rking into "e. 4ooling into "y body. : ising $r ving 12ve never h d be!ore in "y li!e. +e li$ks nd l ps t "y p#ssy. +is h nds kne ding "y hips holding "e into pl $e. 6 ster nd ! ster he li$ks. +e nibbles on "y $lit. 9Oh god 12" so $lose don2t stop.; 1 gr b the b $k o! his he d nd !ist his h ir. 9Co"e !or "e b by.; +e "o ns bet&een "y legs. And 1 do. 1 s$re " o#t nd "y body sh tters into the best org s" o! "y li!eC 12" h#!!ing nd 1 $ n2t $ t$h "y bre th. -y body $onv#lses nd 1 $ n2t stop. 9.his is /#st the beginning; he s ys nd slips !inger into "e. 12" on the verge g in. 1 $ n !eel it b#ilding inside o! "e. A $ rn l need to be s ted g in by this per!e$t% be #ti!#l% se'y% ro$k god. ,ho !or i! only !or one night 1 &ill sh re "y bed &ith. 9<ohn th n oh god.; 1 r$h "y b $k nd !ist "y h ir% biting "y botto" lip h rd. 9.h t2s it b by yo#2re so & r" nd so!t inside. -y $o$k is bo#t to sp#rt hot /#i$es in "y shorts /#st by to#$hing yo# "y s&eethe rt.; +e li$ks "y $lit g in &ith he vy bre th. +e2s bre thing /#st s h rd s 1 ". 4#"ping his !inger in nd o#t o! "e 1 $ n2t help b#t "o n. 1t !eels so good nd tight nd sens# l nd eroti$ nd everything else &onder!#l nd be #ti!#l nd per!e$t in the &orld. 9Co"e !or "e b by. 1 need yo#. 1 need yo# to $o"e. 1 need everything b by. 8ive "e this. 4le se.; +e begs. 1 re $h bet&een "y legs nd " ke the biggest de$ision 12ve " de in ll "y li!e or ne rly ll "y li!e. 1 still his h nd &ith "y o&n nd he kisses it. 9B be.; 1 "o n. 95es% "y &onder!#l &o" n o! "ine=; 91 need yo#.; 91 kno& b by th t2s &h t 12" doing 1 " giving yo# everything 1 $ n right no&. 5o# t ste so good. B by. 5o# " ke "e so h ppy. .h nk yo# so "#$h !or ll o! this.; +is voi$e $r $ks. 1 look do&n nd

his eyes re & tery. +e2s on the verge o! $rying nd i! he $ries 1 " going to $ry. .his is the s&eetest " n everC 8od he !ills "y he rt &ith s#$h love. 1 & nt hi" ll o! hi" !orever. <#st like this. 4er!e$t. 9@on2t $ry b by.; 1 &ipe the te rs $linging to his $heeks. +e2s so r & nd open nd it2s so hot. 95o# /#st " ke "e so h ppy.; +e s"iles. 91 kno& b by. 5o# " ke "e h ppy too% so h ppy. So be &ith "e. All o! "e.; 1 p#rr this ti"e. And bite "y lip nervo#sly. 91 $ n2t " ke love to yo# b by. Not tonight.; +e st tes. Less e"otion l th n 1 & nted. 9,hy=; 1 &hine. 91 didn2t $o"e here !or th t nd 1 don2t & nt yo# regretting it to"orro&. 1 /#st & nt to " ke 5O? !eel good. 1 don2t $ re bo#t "e. 1 & nt yo#.; 9And yo# h ve "e nd 1 & nt ll o! yo# too. 1 & nt to to#$h yo#. 1 need yo# inside o! "e. 4le se do th t !or "e. 4le se " ke love to "e. 4le se p#t yo#r $o$k in "e b by. 1 need it. 1 need it so b d. 4le seH; 1 tr il o!!. +e d/#sts nd kneels bet&een "y legs 1 $ n see his shorts re so ked !ro" pre0$o"e on the !ront &hi$h /#st !#els "y !ire. 1 b#rn "y eyes into his. 1 need hi" to kno& th t 1 & nt this 1 need hi" inside o! "e. 1 h ve never been "ore $ert in bo#t nything else in "y li!e. -y p#ssy is po#nding /#st !or hi". E4le se2 1 "o#th. +e looks do&n over "y entire body nd r#bs !e& "ore te rs !ro" his eyes. And nods. +e steps o!! the side o! the bed nd steps o#t o! his bo'ers. +is $o$k springs !ree nd !#$k yes it2s /#st like 1 tho#ght it2s h#ge. And bre tht kingly be #ti!#l nd 1 $ n !eel "y "o#th s liv ting over "y & nt to s#$k it. B#t 12ll h ve to do th t nother night i! 1 get th t l#$ky. +e speeds bet&een "y legs nd re dy2s hi"sel! bove "e 1 $ n !eel his thi$k he d slide bet&een the !olds o! "y hot & iting se'. 9Are yo# s#re=; he sks. 95essss...; 1 hiss. +e presses the he d in slightly holding his h nd on his $o$k to g#ide hi"sel! into "e. +e2s h rd nd 12" so tight. 912" sorry b by 12" so big. 1 don2t & nt to h#rt yo#. 5o#r still s#re right b by= ,e $ n stop no&.; 1 s"irk nd let o#t short giggle. 9<ohn th n look t "e.; +e does dire$tly in "y eyes. +e looks so yo#ng nd v#lner ble. 1t l"ost bre ks "y he rt. 9@oes it look like 1 don2t & nt yo#=; +e sh kes his he d no.

9.h t2s right b by be$ #se 1 don2t /#st & nt yo# inside "e s&eethe rt. 1 N))@ yo#. 1 need to !eel yo#% ll o! yo#.; +e e'h les h rd his body rel 'es relieving lot o! #n& nted tension. 6eeding hi"sel! into "e in$h by in$h 1 spre d open !or hi". 1 !it like glove over his $o$k. +e stops nd p #ses on$e he2s $o"pletely inside "e. 1 p#ll his h nd !ro" bet&een "y legs nd t#g hi" into "y r"s. +is $hest rests on "ine sort o!. 12" !ive t&o nd he2s si' !ive. So 1 " $o"pletely $overed by gi nt "#s$le0bo#nd se' god. 1 tr $e the lines o! his b $k &ith "y !ingers. 95o#r skins so so!t.; 1 $o""ent. 91t2s ok y to st rt honey.; B#t he2s still. +e &on2t "ove in o#r o#t o! "e. 1 $ n2t see his ! $e b#t his body is so!t nd "elded g inst "ine. +e so ro" nti$ nd s&eet nd per!e$t. <#st like "y !irst ti"e sho#ld h ve been. .h t & s terrible e'perien$e. .his is " >ing &ith n " >ingly p in in the ss " n. B#t " n &ho 1 dore. 6or no&. 91 $ n2t.; he "#"bles 9,hy=; 1 &hispers nd li$k his $hest &ith "y tong#e. 1 & s right it2s s lty nd so py nd deli$io#s. )ven better th n &h t 1 tho#ght. 1 $ n he r light "o n es$ pe his "o#th. 912" going to be very b d in bed.; 1 l #gh r ther lo#dly nd he t#rns to ! $e "e nd his ! $e is stone h rd serio#s. 1 $ ress his b $k. 9No yo# $ n2t be b d in bed. 1t2s not h#" nly possible.; 1 s"ile. +e is so nervo#s. 6or " n &ho2s slept &ith lot o! &o"en. Oh god don2t think bo#t th t right no&C .ot l t#rn o!!C 95esH 5esH it isH 1! 1 "ove in nd o#t /#st on$e " ybe t&i$e i! 1 " l#$ky 1 " going to $o"e nd 1 "e n h rd. And 1 & nt to $o"e in yo#. 1 kno& 1 sho#ldn2t b#t 1 do. 12ve never h d #nprote$ted se' in "y entire li!e not on$e. 1s th t ok y=; ,ell yes 1 g#ess 1 & s st#pid nd didn2t even think bo#t th t. Sho#ld be !ine. -y periods re irreg#l r nd "y do$s told "e like t&enty "illion ti"es 1 &ill prob bly never h ve b by. Oh " n " ybe &e sho#ld h ve h d th t t lk be!ore he de$ided he loved "e. 1 $ n2t h ve kids. 1 h ve tilted #ter#s nd endo"etriosis. .h t &o#ld be b#>> kill no&. So 1 g#ess 1 sho#ld /#st let this h ppen. No #se in over thinking everything in li!e. 6or on$e 1 need to go &ith the !#$king !lo&. St $y &o#ld be so pro#d o! "e. Ok y " ybe not. Oh shitC Stop thinking. Stop thinking right no&C 5o#2ll r#in thisC 9B by yo#2re t#ning o#t g in. A" 1 not t#rning yo# on eno#gh=; 91 & s /#st " king s#re 1 " ok y &ith &h t yo# sked "e silly. +o& re yo# still h rd &itho#t "oving= Sho#ldn2t he be sleep by no&=;

9+e2s never sleep ro#nd yo# nd never &ill be. +e $o#ldn2t even i! he tried. 1 kno& be$ #se 12ve tried to " ke hi". 5o#2re like his o&n person l dr#g " de /#st !or hi".; +e s"iles. 9SoH=; 9S&eethe rt $o"e in "e. 1 &o#ld love th t &ith yo# nd only yo# nd &hen yo# !inish i! yo# $ n keep hi" & ke &e2ll go !or ro#nd t&o.; 1 &ink. +e lo&ers his he d nd rests his !orehe d on "ine. 91 " never ever going to be ble to get eno#gh o! yo#. 1 hope yo# re li>e th t.; Oh "y god he2s so s&eet. -y he rt re $hes o#t "y $hest nd the b#tter!lies in "y t#""y re going $r >y. C n he be ny "ore per!e$t in this "o"ent= 1 think not. 9<#st get on &ith it &ill y .; 1 /oke nd s" $k hi" on the ss. +ot d "n it2s ro$k solid too. -ilk does body goodC :e l goodC 95es - 2 ".; +e "o ns nd p#lls o#t nd gently slides b $k in. 1 " so &et !or hi" nd stret$hed /#st to his si>e. 9Oh b by 1 told yo# this & s going to beH.OhH..; he slides in nd o#t slo&ly 1 $ n !eel hi" ll the & y into "y belly. +e2s so big nd thi$k. 9OhH)"ilyH OhH 5essss. 5o#2re so s&eet nd so tight.; +e thr#sts h rder. 9.h t2s it b by. 1 & nt "y big " n to $o"e !or "e. 6ill "e #p b byH !ill "e.; 1 "o n. 9AhhhCCCC )"ilyCCCC; he $o"es h rd sl ""ing into "e over nd overC +is body r$hes nd 1 hold onto his hips &r pping "y legs ro#nd hi". +is hot se"en sp#rts into "e nd sets "e o!!. Oh god th t !eels &eso"e. Oh yes. 5es. 1 s$re " o#t his n "e nd $r &l t his b $k. -y p#ssy tightens ro#nd his $o$k s#$king it dry. 1 need "ore 1 & nt "ore. .he $r ving is intense. +e p#"ps h rder never going so!t. +is $o"e /#st " kes !or "ore l#be nd &e " ke love three "ore ti"es be!ore he goes li"p nd $oll pses on top o! "e. 1 &r p "y r"s h rd ro#nd hi" "elding hi" to "e. 9.h t & s &eso"e.9 he s ys nd kisses "e on the !orehe d nd then pe$ks "e on the lips bre thing he vy. 98#ess yo# &on2t be needing $ rdio to"orro&.; 1 kid. 9No% 12ll never need it g in no& th t 1 h ve yo#. 1 $ n2t get eno#gh o! yo#.; +e n#>>les into "y ne$k% pe$ks it !e& ti"es nd rolls o!! top o! "e. 1 inst ntly !eel lost. -y he rt $hes g in. 1 need hi" $lose. - n 1 " p theti$. .his is st#pid nd ridi$#lo#s. 1 need help. Serio#s help. ,ho in the &orld kne& th t h ving "ind0blo&ing se' &ith the se'iest " n live &o#ld " ke yo# this $r >y= 1 &ish 12d h ve kno&n or 1 prob bly &o#ld h ve steered $le r. ,ell " ybe not. B#t &ho kno&s. 12ve got hi" no& t le st !or tonight. +e l ys on his side nd props his r" #p #nder his he d.

9SoH.=; +e tr ils his !inger do&n "y sto" $h nd b $k #p $ir$ling ro#nd one o! "y ere$t nipples. 9SoH. ,h t=; 1 dd. 9, s this oneti"e thing or not=; his v#lner bility is gone nd his voi$e is on g# rd. 91 don2t kno&.; 1 shr#g. 91 tho#ght it & s ! nt sti$. - ybe &e $ n do it g in on$e or t&i$e.; 1 &ink nd give hi" n #ghty little s"irk. 12" not s#re i! he2s b#ying it. 91 hope so b by. 1 don2t kno& &h t 1 &o#ld do i! 1 $o#ldn2t " ke love to yo# ll the ti"e. 5o# !eel so good. 1 love yo# so "#$h b by.; +e le ns over nd kisses "y sho#lder. -y he rt "elts g in. 1 don2t & nt to r#in the "ood by telling hi" 1 don2t kno& ho& 1 !eel bo#t hi". S#re in the throes o! p ssion 1 needed hi" nd & nted hi" nd yes "y he rt $hes &hen 1 " not to#$hing or ro#nd hi". B#t th t doesn2t "e n this is so"ething. 1 don2t believe in love t !irst sight like he pp rently does nd 1 don2t even kno& i! &h t 1 !eel !or hi" is love or e'tre"e p ssion or "i't#re. 1t $o#ld /#st be 12" horny bit$h nd need good ro"ping. 1 lso don2t kno& i! 1 sho#ld tell hi" th t he /#st $ "e "e "y !irst 8 spot org s"s. Chris nd 1 h d se' b#t 1 never $ "e th t & y 1 pl yed &ith "ysel! be$ #se he &o#ldn2t to#$h "e nd th t2s ho& 1 got o!!. B#t <ohn th n he hit ll the right spots. ,hi$h 1 kind o! e'pe$ted hi" to $onsidering his v st "o#nts o! e'perien$e. 1 $ "e t&elve ti"es tonight. 1 $o#nted. +e h d !o#r nd th t2s i"pressive !or " n. -ost o! "y !e" le !riend &hi$h 1 don2t h ve " ny. .here "en re one ti"ers nd 1 kno& St $y $ n go #p& rds o! t&i$e. 5e h &e2ve h d th t $onvers tion be!ore. 1t & s &eird on "y end b#t he2s been "ore th n &illing to sh re his se$rets &ith "e nd see"ingly only "e. ,hi$h 1 g#ess 1 $ n s y the s "e !or hi" !or "ost things in li!e. B#t sleeping &ith <ohn th n "ight not & nt to be s#b/e$t 1 sho#ld broo$h &ith hi". 6irst o!! he /#st told "e he & nted "e !or o#r &hole !riendship nd 1 go o!! nd !#$k his boss. ,ell &e didn2t !#$k. ,e " de love. And 1 "e n th t. .here & s p ssion nd !eelings behind the &hole thing !or both o! #s. )ven i! 1 h te to d"it it. 1t2s bloody tr#e. Altho#gh "y ti"ing $o#ldn2t h ve been &orse in reg rds to St $y. +e "ight /#st h te "e !ter this. And 1 don2t "e n the !ighting nd 1 h te yo# !or &eek b#t the !orever kind. .his &ill "ost likely !#$k #p his he d. - n 1 !eel like bit$h no&. ,h t the !#$k & s 1 thinking= Oh ye h 1 & sn2t 1 & s !eeling nd to#$hing nd li$king. 8re t no& 1 !it into theB 12ve0 !#$ked0<ohn th n Striker $ tegory nd 12ll be nother not$h in his very long bedpost. +e tho#ght 1 "ight do this. 1 "ight regret it. 1 " serio#sly st rting to. 8od $o#ld 1 be "ore o! n idiot= Nope% prob bly not. Nothing like letting yo#r hor"ones nd p#ssy t lk !or yo#. .hey s$re& yo#r li!e #p. <ohn th n h s " gi$ &ords nd " gi$ $o$k. No &onder &o" n open there legs !or hi". +e &o#ldn2t h ve to p#t in th t "#$h o! n e!!ort b#t 1 " s#re he does. .h t dirty t lk nd re ss#r n$e

does &onders in the s $k. 1 kno& it " de "e & nt hi" "ore. 1 " s#$h terrible person. C n he $ry on $#e= 1 bet he $ n. 8od% he prob bly think2s 1 " s#$h s#$ker nd $ n2t & it to le ve on$e 1 p ss o#t. 1 look over nd holy shit he2s lre dy sleep n ked ne't to "e. Ok y " ybe he doesn2t $ re bo#t the sleeping p rt. -y bed is $o"!ort ble. 1 " ss ge "y te"ples. Oh nd ho& st#pid & s 1= .he 10don2t0& nt0to0h ve0se'0&ith0yo# ploy% " kes yo# & nt it even "ore. +e2s got g "e nd &hole bo t lo d o! it. -y p#ssy is in serio#s tro#ble. 1 " not going to !eed her !or very very very long ti"e. No to#$hing% de!i ntly no se'. NothingC .h t2s &h t she gets !or being greedy little &horeC 1 " going to h ve to go to the do$s nd get tested soon. 1 don2t & nt n S.@. S#re they h ve bo' o! $ondo"s in the b#s. B#t he didn2t bring ny &ith hi" or he &o#ld h ve #sed the"% &hi$h tells "e right there th t he does this ll the !#$king ti"e. 4l ying the &hole* Oh% inno$ent "e 12ve never h d se' &itho#t $ondo". 1 $ ll B?LL S+1.C 1 kno& 1 h ven2t% &ell e'$ept no&. B#t 12ve lso only ever h d one p rtner nd no& t&o. Still lo& in the n#"bers. Nothing to be &orried bo#t% other th n " ybe $ontr $ting herp gon syphil ids Kherpes% gonorrhe % syphilis% idsL. ,h t the hell & s 1 thinking= Oh !#$k it. 12ll en/oy tonight nd to"orro& 1 $ n ! $e th t ! $ts th t 1 /#st got pl yed by the " ster. .he se' & s " >ing nd to be honest 12ll never !orget it !or the rest o! "y e'isten$e nd not be$ #se it2s <ohn th n Striker% the le d singer o! Stri$ken b#t be$ #se it $t# lly & s the best. 1t & s so!t nd "e ning!#l nd he & s so ttentive nd $ ring. So"ething 12ve never seen o#t o! hi" be!ore. +is v#lner bility or &h t looked like it & s o#t in !#ll !or$e nd "y he rt & nted hi". 1t still does b#t th t2ll $h nge to"orro&. 1 h ve to not let this h ppen g in. 1 $ n2t be se' &ith bene!its kind o! g l. And th t2s thinking he2ll still & nt th t &ith "e. 1 slide o!! the bed sn t$h #p the $overs th t so"eho& " de their & y onto the !loor. 1 l y b $k do&n nd toss the" over both o! #s. 1 $#ddle #p $lose to hi" nd &r p "y body ro#nd his. +e looks so be #ti!#l nd pe $e!#l &hen he sleeps. +e2s ne rly so#ndless nd his ! $e is so!t nd gentle. Oh there goes the he rt $hing g in. 1 $ n2t help it. .he s"ell o! se' is !lo ting in the ir nd it s"ells divine. ,ho &o#ld h ve tho#ght se' s"ells good= B#t it does% t le st &hen &e do it. 1 " !#ll o! his $o"e. 1 $ n !eel it seeping o#t bet&een "y legs. B#t 1 don2t & nt to & sh hi" o!! yet% not no&. 12ll let it st y in "e. 1 need it to. 1 need to " rk this d y !or the rest o! "y li!e. 1t &ill go do&n s the "ost p ssion te se' ever nd &hen 1 gro& #p nd " rry nother " n &ho $ n2t give "e th t kind o! p ssion b#t loves "e nd s#pports "e 1 $ n look b $k nd s y th t 12ve !elt th t kind o! p ssion be!ore. 1 did tonight nd !or th t 1 &ill l& ys $herish <ohn th n. )ven i! "ost o! the ti"e 1 & nt to /#"p hi" &ith b seb ll b t.

Chapter Ten
1 sit #p nd stret$h nd 1 " lone in bed. 1 !ig#red this &o#ld h ppen. 1 kind o! $ lled it. 1t !eels e"pty nd $old in "y hotel roo" nd 1 h te it. 1 t#rn nd see th t it2s% holy shit three thirty in the !ternoon. 1 slept long ti"e. ,e didn2t get to sleep #ntil little !ter !ive b#t 1 slept re lly long. 1 never sleep th t long. +is $lothes re gone. No% note% no nothing. -y he rt bre ks /#st little "ore. ,h t sho#ld 1 e'pe$t= 1 g#ess 1 & s /#st pr ying deep do&n th t 1 & s &rong bo#t &h t l st night & s. B#t 1 $ lled it. N iled it right on the he d. +o& dis ppointing. 1 slide o#t o! bed nd "y p#ssy is gooey &ith $o"e. .i"e to pee nd t ke sho&er. 1 get into the b throo" nd yep it2s the s "e s be!ore. Nothing di!!erent. 1 t#rn on the sho&er nd go pee then slide #nder the hot & ter. Oh it !eels so good on "y skin. :e/#ven ting. - ybe it &ill & sh ll the p in & y th t 1 " no& s#ddenly !eeling. .his p in in "y $hest 1 pr y stops $hing soon. 1 $ n2t t ke it. 1 &ish they h d pill !or this b#t 1 kno& &h t it is. .his is &h t he rtbre k $t# lly !eels like. 8o !ig#re 12d kno& &h t sel!0lo thing nd he rtbre k !eels in less th n &eek. .&o nd h l! "ore &eeks &ith hi" nd then 1 &ill !in lly $ t$h bre k. 1 need th t bre k no&. B#t it2ll h ve to & it. 1 h ve no $hoi$e. 1 dry o!! nd get dressed in nother one o! the pproved o#t!its. <e n shorts% b by bl#e printed . th t s ys E1t2s only ro$k nd roll b#t 1 like it.2 1n bl $k. 1 still &e r heels. 1t2s /#st "y ! shion style. 1 love the" nd 1 p#t on p ir o! bl $k shiny ones. .h t 12ve o&ned !or !o#r ye rs " ybe longer. .hey re #ber0$o"!ort ble nd only three in$hes% so 1 &on2t kill "ysel! in the". 1 st rted &e ring heels not be$ #se 1 re lly & nted to b#t &ith being only !ive !oot t&o in ! "ily o! gi nts 1 did it to !it in. .he three or !o#r in$hes "ight not see" like "#$h b#t !ro" "y short st t#re it2s big di!!eren$e. 5o# don2t re li>e th t height " tters #ntil yo#2re the only one in the $ro&d o! ten% si' !oot pl#s "en nd &o"en nd they don2t t lk to yo# be$ #se yo#2re short nd they don2t see yo#. .h t2s h ppens to "e lot. St $y god love hi" h s never done th t to "e. +e2s l& ys told "e to e"br $e o#r eleven in$h height di!!eren$e. 1 try so h rd. 1 don2t $t# lly h te "y shortness or nything bo#t the & y 1 look !or th t " tter. B#t in the pro!ession l &orld yo# don2t st nd o#t s "#$h. -y red h ir helps so"e to bring the ttention do&n to "y level b#t sitting in bo rdroo" "eeting &hen "y !eet $ n2t even to#$h the !loor. 1t2s r ther e"b rr ssing nd 1 !eel #nder (# li!ied be$ #se o! "y $hildlike st t#re. 1 sn t$h "y phone o#t o! "y only p#rse. 1t2s bl $k nd silver. 1 love this thing. 1t2s de!i ntly seen better d ys. 12ve #sed it every d y !or the p st three ye rs. 1t !its "e nd it !its "y st#!! or l $k o! st#!! 1 sho#ld s y. 1 don2t $ rry "#$h in the & y o! p#rses. ,o"en tend to sh#$k nd sto$k lo d o! g rb ge in their p#rses. 1 don2t. 1 do the essenti ls th t2s it. Lip gloss% & llet% "y Nook% h nd s niti>er% Kleene'%

"ints% "y $ell nd pen. 1 don2t $ rry !e" le hygiene prod#$ts be$ #se "y !e" le org ns r rely " ke "e bleed. 1t2s like on$e ye r. 1 kno& lot o! &o" n &o#ld be /#"ping #p nd do&n to be th t & y. B#t honestly 12d r ther bleed nd kno& th t 1 h ve higher $h n$e o! being "o" th n the !ive per$ent the do$tors g ve "e. -y gyno @r. Shells told "e i! "y proble" keeps progressing s b dly s it is 1 " going to h ve to h ve "y #ter#s nd possibly "y ov ries re"oved in the ne't t&o to three ye rs. .he only person 12ve told this to & s "y "o". 1 kno& St $y &o#ld never #nderst nd nd "y "o"2s n#rse so 1 $on!ided in her. 12" not s ying it didn2t sh tter her to he r her only $hild $ n2t h ve $hildren b#t 1 l& ys !ig#red sin$e 12ve been si'teen th t 12d dopt. .h t2s &hen 1 !o#nd o#t bo#t "y $ondition nd it gets &orse nd the p in t ti"es is debilit ting. 1 h ve s$ript to help &ith the p in b#t so"eti"es they don2t even &ork. 12ve looked into doption options. 1 !ig#re i! 1 don2t " rry nd dopt &ith "y h#sb nd by the ge or thirty 1 &ill /#st do it on "y o&n. So"e $o#ntries llo& single p rent doption nd 1 h ve h#ge binder b $k in N5 &ith ll the spe$i!i$s. 1 ring St $y he pi$ks #p on the !o#rs ring. 9+ey )"% yo# !in lly de$ide to $r &l o#t o! bed this "orning=; he l #ghs into the phone. 1 h ve to p#ll it & y. +e2s too lo#d. 95e h didn2t get to bed #ntil l te.; .his &o#ld be the ti"e 12d $hi"e in nd s y 1 h d se' l st night% b#t 1 $ n2t. .his se$ret is /#st going to h ve to be held bet&een lo$ked lips. 1 thro& "ysel! !#lly $lothed onto the bed. 9So &h t2s yo#r pl ns tod y= ,e2re he ding o#t tonight.; +e s ys nd 1 $ n he r lo#dness in the b $kgro#nd like h ir dryer or so"ething. 9,h t re yo# doing= And 1 tho#ght &e &eren2t le ving #ntil to"orro&.; 9OhH 12" doing nothing. 12" in "y roo". And no 1 de$ided to le ve tod y 1 r n it by the g#ys nd they2re $ool &ith it. So &e re p#lling o#t t eight !ter &e ll hit dinner together.; 5ep% he2s in his roo" lright nd he2s not lone. So "#$h !or pining & y !or "e. Oh shitC Sh#t #p yo# h#ssy. 5o# h d big $o$k in yo# l st night. 1 $ n2t be getting ll overprote$tive nd pissy. 1 h ve >ero right. 9@o yo# h ve l dy !riend=; 1 "#se nd s"ile% !ingering "y & vy h ir like d "n teen ger t lking to her girl!riend lying on her bed ll giddy nd $hildlike. 12" p theti$. 9?"H it2s not &h t yo# think )". 4le seH don2t.; 1 $#t hi" o!!. 9St $e it2s ok y. @on2t &orry. 12" gl d yo# got /iggy &ith it l st night. 5o# needed the rele se.; +e e'h les lo#dly into the phone. 1 $ n tell 1 /#st took &eight o!! his sho#lders.

91t2s not 1FFM ny"ore )" nd yo#2re not ,ill S"ith. So !or yo#r s ke nd "ine don2t ever $ ll it th t g in.; +e $h#$kles. 9B#t yes 1 did t&i$e% $t# lly. 8#ess it2s been pent #p &hile.; 5e h &ell 12" so not telling yo# 1 did it t&elve ti"es l st night !ter yo# le!t nd it & s &ith <ohn th n nd he got o!! !o#r ti"es. No& th t &o#ld be & y too "#$h sh ring. 9,ho C .-1% 1 /#st sked bo#t the se' 1 don2t need the spe$i!i$s. )'$ept is she blonde too=; 1 sni$ker into the re$eiver. 9,ell% to be honest. Nope.; +e so#nds ok y. +e so#nds like he likes th t it & sn2t blonde. 8ood !or hi"C 1t2s bo#t d "n ti"e !or hi" to $h nge it #p. 912" h ppy !or yo# St $y 1 & nt yo# h ppy th t2s ll 1 ever & nt.; 9.h nks s&eetie. 1 &ill $ t$h yo# l ter. .hink &e "ight hit it !e& "ore ti"es. +e2s soH She2s so se'y. 12ll te't y the det ils &here to "eet !or dinner. Love y .; 9Love yo# too St $e nd yo# h ve !#n.; Oh "y godC 1 think "y best !riend /#st told "e he does d#des too. 1 kne& itC 1 kne& he didn2t /#st !#$k &o"en. 1 don2t think he2s g y. +e $ n2t be. B#t he2s too e"otion l to be $o"pletely str ight. 12ve l& ys h d "y s#spi$ions b#t 12ve never sked. 1 g#ess 1 never $ red either & y. 12ve he rd hi" "ention tight nd h rd bodies be!ore &hen he des$ribes d te to "e b#t never thing bo#t th t body h ving $o$k bet&een its legs nd not p#ssy. B#t to think o! it "ost &o"en re so!t nd s"ooth not h rd nd tight. 1 &onder is he pit$her or $ t$her= 1 " so going to h ve to sk hi" th t. 1t doesn2t " tter b#t 1 $ n see St $y s $ t$her big ti"e. +e2s got th t se'iness to hi" like &o" n. +is eyes serio#sly look like &o" n2s. 12ve l& ys been /e lo#s o! the". A bi se'# l best !riend. +o& str nge. B#t t the s "e ti"e 1 dig it. - ybe no& 1 $ n t lk to hi" bo#t "en too. Or not. Shit% 1 d#nno.

Chapter "le en
12ve spent the entire d y lo#nging in "y hotel roo". ,ell not "y entire d y be$ #se 1 did sleep #ntil "id !ternoon. St $y te'ted "e the rest #r nts lo$ l ro#nd si' nd &e2re to "eet #p ro#nd eight. 12ve got < "es to drive "e or th t2s &h t St $y s id. Not s#re &hy he2s not driving the g#ys b#t he2s not. 1 h ven2t he rd peep o#t o! <ohn th n ll d y. No te'ts% no kno$ks t "y door. Nothing b#t silen$e. 1 $ n2t s y it doesn2t h#rt% be$ #se it does. B d. B#t t the s "e ti"e 1 kne& this & s h ppened. 1 sho#ldn2t h ve kidded "ysel! thinking other&ise. .h t & s !oolish on "y p rt. A kno$ks t "y door. -y sto" $h /#"ps into "y thro t. - ybe it2s hi"C 1 t#rn the nob nd p#ll it open. < "es nd his big b#!! . ylor L #tner glory is st nding on the other side o! the door de$ked o#t in ll bl $k g#n holstered $ross his $hest. .ot lly hot. Not "y type b#t he &o#ld serio#sly " ke &o" n h ppy. 9+ey < "es.; 1 s"ile. 9-iss. Bron&yn; he nods. 91 " here to es$ort yo# to dinner tonight.; +e holds o#t his r". 1 d sh b $k into the roo" sn t$h #p "y p#rse nd then t#$k "y r" into his. 9Sho#ld 1 get "y b gs=; 1 sk sh#tting the door to "y s#ite. 9No% th t h s lre dy been rr nged to be pi$ked #p nd t ken b $k onto the b#s.; 1 ride do&n the elev tor &ith "y es$ort. .he elev tor h s three people in it &hen &e step in nd t&o o! the" re very ttr $tive &o"en &ho $ n2t stop st ring t hi". 1 #nl t$h "y r" o#t o! his nd re $h ro#nd to goose his ss. 1 " so going to p#t sho& on !or these t&o &o"en. - king the" /e lo#s is on "y list o! things to do tonight. ,e ride do&n nd he doesn2t s y &ord nd /#st lets "e r#b "y r" long his nd pin$h his b#tt !e& "ore ti"es. .he &o" n re st ring h rd nd 1 & nt to l #gh b#t then 12ll give "y intentions & y. .hey ne rly sprint o#t o! the $ r nd the " n /#st looks b $k eyes "e r ther sed#$tively nd " kes his & y to &herever. 1 t#$k "y r" b $k into < "es2s nd &e he d o#t to& rd the -er$edes th t 1 see is p rked right o#tside. 9Sorry.; 1 "#ttered. 9,h tever !or= -iss Bron&yn.; he $r $ks tiny s"ile o#t o! the $orner o! his "o#th. 9.he &o"en in the elev tor &ere ogling yo# 1 /#st tho#ght it only ppropri te to p#t little sho& on !or the". .o " ke the" /e lo#s. 1 kno& th t & sn2t ni$e o! "e. B#t 12ve h d !e& ro#gh d ys.; +e opens the $ r door !or "e. 95o#2re &el$o"e to to#$h "e ho&ever yo# ple se -iss.; +e nods.

9< "es don2t be like th t.; 1 to#$h his r" th t2s rested on the door !r "e. 91! yo# don2t & nt to "e to do th t yo# $ n tell "e no. 1 pro"ise 1 &on2t t ttle.; 1 slide in the b $k. 9-iss Bron&yn i! 1 h d proble". .r#st "e 12d let yo# kno&.; +e &inks nd sh#ts the door. ,e drive !ive blo$ks or it see"s bo#t th t ! r nd &e p#ll o#t !ront o! bri$k !ront pi>>eri &ith the n "e EAngelos2 on the !ront in big red letters. .he p ps re st tioned o#tside only h nd!#l o! the" nd " ybe ten ! ns. 1 " s#re "ore re bo#t to sho& #p b#t th t2s the n "e o! the g "e. < "es let "e o#t nd es$orts "e to the door. A p p thro&s voi$e re$order in "y & y. 9-iss Bron&yn% -iss Bron&yn. So#r$es s y yo# nd <ohn th n Striker re $o#ple no&. @o yo# h ve $o""ent=; the ne tly dressed p p sks. < "es le ns do&n nd &hispers in "y e r. 95o# don2t h ve to s y thing i! yo# don2t & nt to.; 1 nod #nderst nding th t 1 don2t h ve to. B#t 1 & nt to " ke this $le r. 9,h t2s yo#r n "e=; 1 sk the p p. 9: $hel. -iss. Bron&yn.; She s"iles. 5e h% she kno&s it2s $o"ing. An e'$l#sive &ith the s "e &o" n &ho so$ked <ohn th n the le d singer o! Stri$ken in the nose. She2s going to " ke so "#$h "oney over this. ,ell good !or her. :ight pl $e% right ti"e% 1 g#ess. 9,ell : $hel% -r. Striker nd 1 re NO. in rel tionship t this ti"e. Nor h ve &e been be!ore. 1 " the b nds Co0- n ger !or this to#r. .h t is ll.; 9@o yo# & nt to d te hi"= Or does he yo#=; she presses on. 91 $ nnot $o""ent !or -r. Striker yo# kno& th t : $hel. B#t !or "ysel! 1 do not kno& &h t 1 & nt t this ti"e.; 1 t#rn nd le ve nd he d into the pi>>eri "y r" t#$ked into < "es. 1 he r 9.h nk yo#C .h nk yo#C; being sho#ted !ro" : $hel &ho2s still $ro&ded o#tside the door. 94le se tell "e yo# did not /#st give p p re l (#oteC; <ohn th n sn ps s soon s 1 & lk into the door. +e2s st nding there & iting !or "e. Se'ier th n the night be!ore in &hite b#tton do&n dress shirt slo#$hed #p to his elbo&s% p ir o! d rk deni" ripped /e ns% ! n$y & t$h nd d rk bro&n !lip0 !lops &ith " t$hing belt. Se' on sti$k in living nd bre thing pissed o!!0$olor. .he other "en re st#!!ed into gi nt booth in the b $k p ying no "ind to #s &ith !e& &o"en t#$ked #nder their r"s. St $y h s one too. B#t 1 " s#re it2s ne& one be$ #se 1 " positive the one !ro" this "orning & s d#de nd not $hi$k. + s to keep #p ppe r n$es 1 s#ppose. 95ep 1 did.; <ohn th n observes "y r" t#$ked into < "es nd points bl nk st re t his bodyg# rd. < "es slips & y nd 1 " st#$k de ling &ith " $ho " n &ith n ttit#de proble". 9,hy= ,hy &o#ld yo# do th t=; he sh kes his he d. +e looks $on!#sed. .h t " kes t&o o! #s. 1 " $on!#sed s to &hy he &o#ld even $ re. +e2s the one th t le!t "e this "orning !ter &e " de love

ll d "n nightlong. Not th t 1 " bitter or nything. 1 "e n 1 kne& it & s $o"ing. B#t shit% it doesn2t h#rt ny less nd st nding in !ront o! hi" looking this hot is like r#bbing s lt in "y &o#nds. 9.hey sked "e i! 1 & s yo#r girl!riend nd 1 told the" no. 1 didn2t think th t & s proble".; 1 shr#g nd tilt "y he d to the side to peer ro#nd hi" t the g#ys engrossed in $onvers tion in the e"pty pi>>eri . 1 gl n$e #p t hi" nd he looks serio#sly p ined. 9@id this "orning "e n nothing to yo#=; he s ys (#ietly. +is voi$e is d#ll nd !#ll o! "el n$holy. 95es... O! $o#rse it did. A lot $t# lly. B#t 1 kno& &h t is & s !or yo# nd 12ve lre dy " de "y pe $e &ith th t so let2s /#st pretend this never h ppened nd get on &ith dinner sh ll &e=; 1 &hisper h rshly% st ring t his $hest voiding his g >e. 1 $ n sense it boring into "e. 9Ok y &e &ill e t b#t this $onvers tion is not over.; 9Never is.; 1 s y to h ve the l st &ord nd s$oot ro#nd the side o! hi" nd sit ne't to St $y &ho instin$tively thro&s his r" over "y sho#lder. <ohn th n t kes his se t t the end o! the t ble on $h ir he slides #p. 9+ey yo% < " n &hy2d yo# dit$h #s l st night= -issed y b#d. ,e got hooked #p &ith these hotties nd !e& others h d #s big !#$king orgy nd Keith2s roo".; +e eyes ll the &o"en t the t ble e'$ept "e. 5e h 1 kno& 1 & sn2t there / $k ss 1 & s !#$king yo#r b#ddy in "y hotel roo". 95e h. B#t @ &e t lked bo#t this l st night tho#gh. ,e didn2t & nt < there. Sorry <H B#t yo# kno& ho& it is. ,e h ve !#$k !est nd yo#r $o$k gets "ost o! the ttention. 1 kind o! liked not !eeling like 1 h ve serio#s de!i$it h nging bet&een "y legs !or on$e.; 4ri$e s ys nd p#n$hes <ohn th n in the sho#lder. -#st be so"e kind o! d#de $ode !or d#de yo#r $o$k is h#ge nd &o" n like it "ore th n "y ver ge one. Or th t ho& 1 re d it nyho&. <ohn th n see"s to #nderst nd nd $l sps his h nd on his b nd " tes2 sho#lder. 91t2s $ool. Bro. 1 & s tired so 1 hit the he d e rly l st night.; +e s ys. - n he is so lying nd it & sn2t even good lie. St $y peers over t "e nd 1 st re str ight he d t the & ll behind 4ri$e2s he d. 1! 1 look t hi" 1 " !r id he2ll /#st kno&. +e $ n serio#sly re d "e like d "n book so"eti"es. 91 $ ll b#llshit bro.; Keith $hi"es in &ith &i$ked s"ile. 95e h "e too. .ot l b#llshit. ,e stopped by yo#r s#ite t like three this "orning nd nobody ns&ered the door nd 1 $ lled yo#r $ell b#n$h. So either yo# &ere !#$king so"e $hi$k in yo#r roo" or in theirs. B#t there & s de!i ntly so"e !#$king going on. 5o# don2t go d ys &itho#t it nd it2s been !o#r or so !or yo# so 1 kno& l st night & s so yo#r night.; @ dds.

4le se don2t see the g#ilt on "y ! $e% ple se don2t let this give "e & y. 1 g >e over t St $y nd he2s st ring str ight t "e. +is h nd tightens on "y sho#lder. Oh% !#$k he kno&sC +e2s p#tting it together. B#t i! he sks 1 " still going to deny it. 12" not !essing #p. , ter bo rd "y ss nd 12" still not letting this o#t. 95o# g#ys re serio#s d#"b sses yo# kno& th tC 1 go to sleep e rly kno$ked the !#$k o#t &ith "y ringer o!! nd yo# think 1 #to" ti$ lly h ve to be bet&een &o" n2s legs=; <ohn th n s$o!!s his tone r#thless. 95ep.; Keith $o""ents. 9@#de% &e kno& yo#. ,e2ve kno& yo#r ss !or ye rs. 5o# don2t go !o#r d ys &itho#t !#$k. A tight hot p#ssy is &h t gets yo# o!! " n. .hree% !o#r ti"es &eek #s# lly on the ro d. Shit 12ve seen yo# binge like t&i$e d y every d y !or !e& &eeks str ight. .hree t ti"e in the b $k o! the b#s. 1 kno& yo# &eren2t in there pl ying $he$kers.; @ dds g in &ith very dirty l #gh. C#e the s lt. .his is so p in!#l "y $hest is killing "e. 1 r#b "y he rt nd 1 $ n see hi" looking t "e o#t o! the $orner o! his eye. 1 !eel like de th & r"ed over nd 1 " s#re 1 don2t look ny better. All the $olor h s dr ined !ro" "e nd 1 s#ddenly !eel ill. 3ery ill. .his is so not the $onvers tion 1 need to be listening to right no&. 1 need to le ve nd go b $k to the b#s nd $ry in the sho&er nd t ke .ylenol 4- nd kno$k the !#$k o#t !or !e& &eeks. 1 " so st#pid to think he2d "e nt everything l st night. )ven "ore d#"b% thinking i! &e got together 1 $o#ld s tis!y hi". .hree t ti"e. 5e h 1 $ n2t do th t. 1 don2t sh re nd 1 don2t h ve tenth o! per$ent o! e'perien$e th t those &o"en prob bly h d. 12ve never even rode " n or done doggy style% &hi$h 1 he r is " >ing. 12ve never to#$hed $o$k let long h d "y "o#th on one. .his " n is & y o#t o! "y le g#e on h#ndred di!!erent !ronts. -y h nds re st rting to s&e t% 1 r#b the" on "y shorts. 1! 1 don2t stop "y !re k o#t no& 1 " going to hyperventil te. 9Listen g#ys 1 don2t think 12" th t b d. 1 kno& 12ve h d "y "o"ents b#t l st night 1 serio#sly /#st &ent to sleep. 12" gl d yo# d#des got so"e hot t il. 1 needed the rest. 12ve been o#t o! it l tely.; +e voi$e is lo& nd $ l"er. 1 $ n see his eyes on "e. 1 kno& he $ n see the p in on "y ! $e 1 $ n2t hide it even i! 1 & nted to. 9@#de yo# re th t b d. B#t th t2s $ool. ,e dig it. ,e2re ll b si$ lly the s "e. Breed !ro" the s "e $loth the !ive o! #s. 1 bet yo# re tiredH oh shit 1 tot lly !orgot bo#t l st &eek yo# h d those !ive hot &o"en !#$k yo# senseless. 1! 1 re"e"ber $orre$tly yo# $o#ldn2t & lk the ne't d y. 1 think St $y h d to $ rry yo# into the sho&er.; @ dds. 1 !#$king h te this " n. 1 " going to be si$k. 1 need to go 1 h ve to go. 1 t ke bite o! the $ rdbo rd pi>> on "y pl te nd st nd nd le ve. 1 h ve to !ind < "es to t ke "e b $k to the b#s. 1 $ n2t sit nd he r bo#t this

nother "in#te. 1 r#n% "y heels $li$king the &hole & y into the roo" ne't door se r$hing desper tely !or < "es. 9,h t re yo# doing=; St $y s ys !ollo&ing "e. 1 bend over nd p#t "y h nds on "y thighs nd bre the in nd o#t slo&ly. Oh shit 1 " hyperventil ting. -y he d !eels di>>y nd 1 think 1 "ight ! int or thro& #p or both. .his is so &rongC 1 h te <ohn th nC 1 sho#ld h ve never !#$ked his " gi$ $o$k. So "#$h !or " king love. 1t "ight h ve been th t & y !or "e b#t it & sn2t !or hi". 8od 1 " so d "n st#pidC 91. Need. .o. Le ve.; 1 he ve o#t bet&een long bre ths. 9Oh% no )"% ple se don2t do this.; <ohn th n begs% r#nning into the roo" !ter "e he kneels do&n in !ront o! "e r#bbing his h nds on "y sho#lders. ,h t the !#$k does he think 1 like !eeling this & y= @o 1 like h ving s lt po#red into "y veinsC NO 1 @ON2.C +e did this to "e. +e h#rt "e nd 1 llo&ed it. 12" s#$h d#"b bit$hC 1 he ve "y $hest in nd o#t. 1 need to $ l" the hell do&n. 1 $ n2t% "y "ind is t&irling nd s&irling nd 1 $ n2t see right side #p. 9B by% Oh b by. 4le se $ l" do&n. 1t2s going to be ok y.; +e keeps r#bbing. All the &hile 1 kno& St $y is st nding very $lose nd & t$hing this &hole !#$king this pl y o#t. 1 " s#$h bit$h. 1 kno& this h s to be h#rting hi". 9@on2t. 5o#. )3):. C ll. -e. B by. Ag in.; 1 h#!! o#t slo&ly bet&een bre ths. A $h ir is bro#ght #p to by b $kside. 9Sit do&n -iss. Bron&yn; 1 he r < "es s y nd 1 $oll pse into the $h ir. 9.h nks; 1 p nt. S&e t is tri$kling do&n "y ! $e oh nd shit so re te rs. 1 " $ryingC NoC Be strongC @on2t $ry in !ront o! hi". 5o#2re letting hi" &in. Asshole s$oots $loser nd pl $es h nds on "y thighs $ ressing the". 1 " sh king nd $rying nd 1 $over "y ! $e &ith both "y h nds. 9@id yo# do this to her=; 1 he r St $y !in lly $hi"e in% his voi$e is like $id dipped in $id nd !ried in it to " ke it e'tr $rispy. 1 & nt to s$re ". 5)S +) @1@C B#t 12" /#st s "#$h to bl "e. 1 llo&ed hi" in nd he h#rt "e. 1 st y (#iet nd "y sobbing &orsens. 9B by% look t "e. )"ily. 4le se. 12" so sorry. <#st look t "e. 1 need yo#. 1 need yo# to look t "e.; +e begs. 1n his p nty dropping voi$e. 1 don2t "ove. 9Ans&er "e "other !#$ker did yo# do this to her=; St $y b rks lo#d nd !ero$io#sly% he2s like lion prote$ting his N l . 1 $ n !eel <ohn th n shi!t in !ront o! "y body ngling to& rd St $y.

91 didn2t do this to her. No. .hey did in there. She doesn2t need to he r this shit bo#t "e.; +e sn ps. 9She lre dy kno&s th t <ohn th n &hy the !#$k &o#ld she $ re nyho&=; Oh% NoC +ere is $o"es. +ere $o"es the tr#thC 1 pr y% 4le se 8od don2t let St $y h te "e. 4le se " ke this p in go & y. 4le se /#st ple se let St $y st y "y best !riend. 1 need hi". 9She $ res /#st like 1 $ re St $e. 1 love her nd 1 told her th t l st night.; <ohn th n s ys his voi$e is even% giving nothing & y. 9,+A.CC=; St $y s$ree$hes it pier$es "y e rs. 95o# !#$king love her= 12ve loved her "y &hole godd "n li!e nd she &on2t h ve "e. ,h t " kes yo# !#$king think she2d ever $onsider h ving yo#r ss= 12ve never h#rt her nd never &o#ld. 5o# on the other h nd &o#ld sell her into se' tr !!i$king i! it s#ited yo#r needs.; +e spit2s% r & nd to the point. 91 kno& she2d h ve "e St $y be$ #se 1 think she "ight !eel the s y & y 1 do. 12" sorry " n. 1 kno& yo# love her nd 1 #nderst nd &hy. 1 love her too.; +e t lks lo& nd ni$e. .re ding lightly &ith !r gile St $y. 1 sob lo#der% sh king. 9@id yo# !#$k hi" l st night= )"ily S#e Bron&yn% did yo# !#$k hi"=; his voi$e is h rsh nd it shreds "y he rt. .his p in is so #nre l. 1 l& ys tho#ght physi$ l p in & s the &orst. No this is the &orst p in in e'isten$e. 1 nod. 9O+ -5 6?CK1N8 8O@C 5o# !#$ked hi"C A!ter 1 le!t l st night. Son o! bit$h.; 1 $ n2t see hi" b#t 1 $ n he r hi" p $ing nd bre thing h rd. Anger s t#r tes the ir. 1 r#b "y eyes !ree o! te rs nd look !or hi". +e h s his h nds on his he d t#gging his sh ggy h ir. 4 $ing in long strides. <ohn th n is kneeling his h nds still on "y thighs. Not p ying bit o! ttention to St $y his eyes re !ir"ly pl nted on "e. 94le se don2t h te "e St $e.; 1 "#ttered #nder "y bre th. +e he rs "e% stops% $o"es ne't to "y side nd g >es do&n #pon "e. 1gnoring <ohn th n. 9)"% 1 &ill never h te yo#. 1 love yo# yo#2re "y best !riend. 1 don2t like th t yo# !#$ked this / $k ss.; +e nods to& rds <ohn th n. 9B#t 12" here b be. 5o# got "e !or li!e &hether yo# & nt it or not.; +e s"iles. 1 e'h le h rd 1 didn2t re li>e 1 & s holding "y bre th. 9As !or yo#.; +e st res d ggers t <ohn th n. 91 " sh "ed o! yo# <on th n. 1 tho#ght yo# &ere "y !riend nd 1 tho#ght yo# respe$ted )"ily in so"e & y. Or "e t le st eno#gh not to t lk yo#r & y into her p nties.; +e sn rls.

91 didn2t t lk "y & y into her p nties. 1 think she & nted "e there. 1 & nted to be there St $y. 1 don2t & nt yo# to be h#rt yo#% one o! "y $losest !riends. B#t 1 need her nd 1 love her. 12" not going to pologi>e !or " king love to the &o" n 1 & nt to spend the rest o! "y li!e &ith. 1 $ n2t do th t even i! yo# & nt.; +e s ys so!tly nd "y he rt so"eho& s&ells nd throbs h ppily in "y $hest. .he b#tter!lies re b $k nd !l#ttering t !#ll speed. .he p in is slo&ly de$re sing. 91 $ ll b#llshit <ohn th n. 12ve &orked &ith yo# !or !o#r ye rs. @on2t think 1 don2t kno& &h t yo# do. 5o# $l i" to h ve never !elt this & y be!ore. 5o# pl y the love $ rd. 5o# pl y the inno$en$e E1 only & nt to to#$h yo# b by /#st let "e ple se yo#.2 Shit. 1t &orks% 1 kno& it does. 5o#2re pro. .h t2s &hy 12" not s#rprised it &orked on the "ost &onder!#l &o" n on the pl net.; +e looks t "e nd there goes "y he rt g in into the v t o! s lt& ter. St $y kno&s the di$k & d. 1 !#$king kne& <ohn th n pl yed dirty. 1 kne& he did this. 8od% &hy didn2t 1 listen to "y br in nd not "y p#ssy= She2s in so "#$h tro#ble. St#pid horny bit$h. 1 think 1 "ight h ve ! llen in love &ith hi" l st night. 1 kno& th t so#nds $o"pletely irr tion l nd &hen 1 think it. 1t so#nds like 1 need str it/ $ket nd lo$ked into &hite p dded $ell. B#t 1 serio#sly !eel th t & y. No& ll 1 $ n do is "end "y broken he rt. 4#ll it b $k together nd hope it &orks g in in t&enty ye rs &hen 1 de$ide se' nd love is ok y g in. <ohn th n is st ring t "e horri!ied. 5ep 1 $he$ked o#t g in nd it & sn2t in his ! vor. Serves hi" right. 91t2s not like th t this ti"e.; +e "#r"#rs st ring t "e. +is lips re po#ty nd s d. 9S#re it2s not <ohn th n. 5o# do this ll the ti"e. 5o# "eet hot !eisty $hi$k on the ro d nd she !ires yo#r engines #p !or &hile. .&o% three &eeks o! he vy !#$king nd 1 love yo#2s. 5o# s&e r yo#2ve never !elt the & y be!ore nd then yo# get bored &hen yo# re li>e it2s /#st one0di"ension l. .here is no !#t#re. .hen yo# do the s#per ni$e thing nd b#y her pl ne ti$ket b $k ho"e% slip her $o#ple tho#s nd !or her tro#bles nd send her on her brokenhe rted & y. 1t2s not like 1 bl "e yo# d#de. 5o# &ere never loved right s kid. 5o# $ n2t kno& ho& loving is s#pposed to !eel like. .h t2s not yo#r ! #lt. And !r nkly s long s yo#r $ool nd the b nd is good 1 don2t "ind helping t ke the &o" n to the irport or being sho#lder !or the" to $ry on &hen yo# d#"p the". B#t this ti"e is & y di!!erent. 5o# $ n2t do this to )"ily. 1 &on2t let yo#. She is !r gile &hen it $o"es to love nd rel tionships nd 1 &ill NO. llo& yo# to h#rt her like yo#2ve done to ll those other nobodies. She is so"ebody nd "y best !riend. .his ends tod y. 5o# s y yo#2re sorry nd yo# pro"ise "e nd her both th t yo# &ill never ever try to !#$k her g in. No "ore 1 love yo#2s% no "ore 1 $ n2t be &itho#t yo#. And i! 1 see or he r nother over0the0top pri" l " n prote$tive b#llshit $o"e !ro" yo#. 1 &ill serio#sly (#it. .he only thing she needs is dist n$e !ro" yo# nd s#pport i! she ever sks !or it. B#t S+) h s to

sk !or it. 5o#2re not $r &ling bet&een her legs g in. 1 better not he r nything else. @O 5O? 8). -)= -5 6:1)N@C; ,o&C @id this /#st h ppen= @id "y best !riend serio#sly p#t the hottest ro$ker on the pl net in his pl $e= 1 kno& he2s /#st looking o#t !or &h t2s best !or "e. So 12" /#st going to sit here nd sh#t #p. 12d r ther not rg#e ny"ore nd "y he rt is shredded. .he only person to help "e no& is St $y. .he best " n in "y li!e. 1 look do&n t <ohn th n nd his ! $e h s lost ll $olor nd he looks lost. 1 & nt to p#ll hi" into "y r"s nd tell hi" it2s going to be lright. )ven &ith broken he rt 1 & nt to help hi". 1 & nt hi" to be ok y. B#t 1 h ve to let hi" go. 1 $ n2t let this go on. St $y is right. 1! he2s seen <ohn th n pl y this ro#tine ti"e nd ti"e g in. 1 &o#ld /#st be nother to dd to the list. .h nk god !or best !riends. <ohn th n t#rns his he d "e$h ni$ lly to& rds "e. :etr $ts his h nds !ro" "y legs% st nds #p. 91 " sorry shortH. )"ily. 1 didn2t "e n to h#rt yo# or bre k yo#r he rt.; .e rs re !illing "y eyes g in. 94le se don2t $ry b by. St $y is right 1 " !#$ked #p. 5o# deserve better th n "e. 5o# need " n &ho $ n love yo# nd give yo# lots o! b bies. ,ho isn2t s$re&ed #p in the he d.; +e s" $ks hi"sel! in the he d. 91 $ n2t h#rt yo# like 12ve h#rt " ny others.; +e t#rns nd & lks & y. No& it $li$ks. .he others. .hen ten &o"en he & s t lking bo#t l st night. .h t "#st be &h t he is t lking bo#t. +e2s done this &ith ten other &o"en. .h t " kes sense no&. 12" n#"ber eleven or &o#ld h ve been. Shit% 1 d#nno. - ybe 12" in " ybe 12" not. .h t2s $on!#sing nd it doesn2t " tter nyho&. 95e h 1 s & the &hole thing. < h d this hot blonde &ith s"oking hot bod% big /#i$y tits nd p#ssy to die !or. +e & s n ked. ,ell his shirt & s on b#t th t "onster $o$k o! his & s o#t. 1 & s /#st hoping th t "y l dy didn2t see it be$ #se she2d be ll over th t. SoH 12" & t$hing hi" sit on the kit$hen t ble nd this $hi$k is bet&een his legs% pl ying &ith hersel!. -o ning r ther lo#dly. +e2s got his h nds in here h ir nd shit. She2s got his di$k in her "o#th nd she2s s#$king nd p#"ping his h rd &ith her h nd. :e lly going t it% y kno&= ,hen she t kes it o#t o! her "o#th $o"ing #p to the tip the !#$ker is serio#sly !l $$id. 1 don2t think there & s ny blood in th t $o$k o! his. +e is broken d#des. 1 "e n serio#sly !#$king broken. 1 don2t kno& i! it2s his p st !#$king &ith his he d or &h t. B#t 12ve never seen this " n go so long &itho#t !#$king nd he2d never p ss B< #p or !ive in d "n night.; @ dded. 1 h d never he rd o! s#$h terrible thing b#t the ! $t th t <ohn th n $o#ldn2t get h rd th t night kind o! " de "e !eel tri#"ph nt in str nge% very !#$ked #p & y. Not th t "y p#ssy is " de o! gold or nything b#t on the o!! $h n$e th t he $o#ldn2t get it #p be$ #se o! it. - kes "e !eel s#per se'y nd &eso"e on the inside. S d !or hi" tho#gh be$ #se th t2s gott be p in not to be ble to get o!! &ith

se'y &o" n s#$king on yo#r " nhood. Not th t 1 like the tho#ght o! nyone s#$king his $o$k. @eep do&n 1 &ish it & s "e. 4 theti$= 5es. B#t th t2s the s d tr#th o! it ll. So no& the to#r bre k h s t ken over nd &e ll h ve split o#r sep r te & ys. 1 " b $k here t ho"e &ith St $y in "y old bedroo". ,e re sleeping together in "y old !#ll si>ed bed &ith the bright pink $o"!orter nd 1 " serio#sly st ring t "y old $eiling th t h s <#stin .i"berl ke pl stered ll over it. .he yo#ng <.. !ro" Nsyn$. 1 & s s#$h d "n girl b $k then. Boy $r >y s ll get o#t. St $y l& ys h ted these posters. B#t 1 still love the". 1 bet so"e o! the" "ight be &orth pretty penny or t&o !or the right b#yer. B#t !or no& 1 " going to let "y p rents keep this bedroo" the s "e & y it & s &hen 1 "oved o#t nd &ent to $ollege. Nothing like being b $k in good ol2 Bettysville. N "ed !ter so"e l dy% t&o h#ndred or so"e ye rs go &ho b ked d "n good pie nd they n "ed to&n !ter her. Or so"e st#pid shit like th t. A to&n th t i! yo# blink yo#2ll "iss it. One "o" nd pop gro$ery shop% pi>> /oint% g s st tion% b nk nd little diner. .h t2s ll yo#2ll !ind here. 5o# even h ve to go to the d "n post o!!i$e to pi$k #p yo#r " il. ,hi$h 1 l& ys h ted. -y p rents !ind it $h r"ing. 1 !ind it in$onvenient. Lots o! people &ho gro& #p in s" ller to&ns either love the" nd & nt to st y in the" or re the opposite nd $r ve the big $ity lights. 12" the l tter. 1 love $ities% the bigger the better. 12ve only been to LA on$e to visit St $y !or !ive d ys nd 1 loved it then. +e took "e ll over% &e hit #p the & lk o! st rs% the Chinese the ter% :odeo @rive% - lib# t the be $h nd bo#t ten other !#n nd "e"or ble pl $es. 1 &o#ld love to live in LA or ny&here long the $o st. Ne& 5ork City is "y ho"e no&. Or #ntil 1 get tired o! it nd "ove to so"epl $e & r"er. 1 need & r"er. @on2t get "e &rong 1 love the &hole !o#r se sons. ,here there re long s#""ers th t r#n !ro" the beginning o! <#ne &ith ne rly h#ndred degree he t &ith the h#"idity so high it2s like yo#r bre thing in & ter. .h t l sts #ntil Septe"ber. O$tober yo# hit the $ool do&n point nd the le ves ! ll in s#$h be #ti!#l $olors. 4eople h ve big $olor!#l tr sh b gs st#!!ed &ith le ves in their !ront l &n in the sh pes o! p#"pkins nd spiders !or + llo&een. .hen by the "iddle o! Nove"ber its !rigid $old nd yo# &onder &here the hell ! ll &ent. .he &inter tri$kles in le ving #s $old (#i$kly nd the sno& st rts &henever it & nts. .here is no rhy"e or re son to it. - ny ti"es it sno&s ste dily !ro" @e$e"ber thro#gh April. Other ye rs &e get light d#sting in < n# ry nd it2s "ild &inter !ter th t. 1 $ n2t begin to #nderst nd "y li!e let lone "other n t#res !#$ked #p hor"one $y$les. .hen &e hop into spring &hi$h is prob bly "y ! vorite p rt o! the ye r. 5o# h ve ) ster nd !lo&ers nd th#nderstor"s. Spring &o#ld be the only re son &hy 1 &o#ldn2t & nt to le ve the northern st tes nd t ke #p in so"e pl $e like .e' s% 6lorid or So#thern C li. Lying ne't to h ndso"e lightly snoring St $y 1 $ n2t help b#t !eel little gr te!#l !or &here 1 " in li!e. S#re "y li!e s o! l te h s kind o! s#$ked nd "y love li!e h s l& ys s#!!ered. B#t 1 h ve the best

"o" on the pl net &ho &hen &e $ "e in l te tonight o!! red eye !light o#t o! North C rolin she h d "y bed !reshly l #ndered nd her ! "o#s b#tters$ot$h $ookies on pl te in the kit$hen. St $y $o#ld prob bly e t his &eight in the". 1 love the" b#t 1 think he loves the" "ore. 4rob bly h s so"ething to do &ith the ! $t his "o" never b ked d y in his li!e= 1 (#ietly slip o#t !ro" #nder the $overs nd tiptoe in "y or nge p / " short set into the h ll nd sh#t the bedroo" door behind "e. -y bedroo" is on the se$ond story ! $ing the ro d in "y p rent2s three bedroo" one nd h l! b th 3i$tori n. -y "o" h s l& ys h d night0light in the h ll sin$e 1 & s kid so i! 1 &ent do&nst irs l te t night 1 &o#ldn2t trip nd ! ll do&n the st irs. 1t "#st h ve &orked be$ #se 1 never did. .he st irs $reek s 1 & lk do&n the". .hey2re h rd&ood nd &ell " int ined !or h#ndred nd thirty ye r old ho#se. 1 tiptoe "y & y into o#r si> ble living roo". ,ell one o! the living roo" sp $es. ,e h ve three. +o#ses like this one re l& ys broken #p !or so$i l events in the eighteen h#ndreds. .here2s p rlor o!! the !ront door th t2s " #ve nd very !e"inine &ith 3i$tori n er rose prints every&here. .h t2s &here the book shelves re nd "y "o"2s $h#nky e'e$#tive desk. .h t 1 spent ye rs doing ho"e&ork on. .he living roo" is $ross !ro" th t nd is less st#!!y. ,ith its $re " le ther so! nd love se t nd big s$reen ..3 !or "y d d to & t$h his "onster tr#$k r lly2s on. 1t2s sitting on top o! d rk bro&n ele$tri$ !irepl $e. 1t2s eleg nt% 1 s#ppose b#t & y "ore "odern th n the ho#se itsel!. 1 l& ys loved gro&ing #p in this pl $e. 1t seeps history into yo#r bones &hen yo# sleep. 1 drop onto the so! nd the le ther &el$o"es "e &ith $r#n$h. .h t ir $on is bl sting high in this he t & ve 1ndi n is $ons#"ed by. -o" s id the ! r"ers re " d be$ #se there h s been less th n de(# te r in nd it2s sti!ling one h#ndred nd t&o &ith high h#"idity "ost d ys. .h t2s n 1ndi n s#""er !or y . +ot s hell. At night s kid 1 loved sitting nd gliding on the por$h s&ing. No& 1 &o#ld r ther rel ' inside. 6ive "in#tes in this he t nd yo#2re bre king s&e t. 1 $li$k on the .3. 1t !eels like "onths sin$e 12ve & t$hed nything on the $oo$ tu$e% s "y d d $ lls it. .he .3 on the b#s is hogged by Abo' /#nkies nd &e don2t h ve $ ble nyho&. .he "ovie $hoi$es the "en o&n re /#st s b d. -ostly sl sher !il"s "i'ed &ith little 8od>ill love it. No &onder they lose so " ny br in $ells. @on2t get "e &rong 12" not opposed to br in0de d $o"edies they do h ve so"e v l#e b#t 1 think 12d r ther sti$k to sho&s like the Big B ng .heory nd 6riends to get "y sh re o! t#""y r#"bling h#"or. +ell% 12d even & t$h Ar$her. .h t2s do&nright hil rio#s t ti"es !or $o"edy $ rtoon &ith se'y " in $h r $ter. So#nds o!!0the0& ll% 1 kno&% to h ve $r#sh on $ rtoon b#t i! yo#2ve & t$hed the sho& he2d be the & llp per on yo#r $ell% $o"p#ter nd t blet. +e2s not "ine b#t 1 think th t "ight nd the only se sons they h ve re the $o"plete $olle$tion o! 6 "ily g#y. ,hi$h 1 h teC App rently Keith nd @

$o"e to repl $e .he :o$k th t 1 h ve on the" right no&. ,ell% "y $ell is pi$t#re o! "e nd St $y b#t the other t&o re o! @& yne .+) :OCK <ohnson. 1 /#st love hi". 4rob bly be$ #se 1 gre& #p eyes gl#ed to the ..3 & t$hing hi" &restle. 1t & s love t !irst sight !or "e. And &hen he2d sk i! 1 $o#ld s"ell &h t he & s $ookin2% 12d be st rstr#$k nd !eel like he & s t lking only to "e. 5ep% 1 & s dr#nk on .he :o$k love ll the & y b $k to the ti"e o! ,,6% ,C, nd N,O nd the - $ho - n : ndy S v ge 9Ooh 5e hC; 1 $h nge it to Ni$k t Night nd 6riends is on. -ost likely the only good sho& on t three in the "orning. .his is the episode in se son one &here <oey te $hes :oss ho& to dirty t lk. So !#nny nd brings "e inst ntly b $k to the dirty t lking &ith <ohn th n. Oh th t & s s#$h sens# l nd "e ning!#l night th t h ppened t&o &eeks go. A!ter the initi l he rtbre k 1 think 1 " doing ! irly &ell !or "ysel!. 12ve $o"e to $$ept the one0night st nd !or &h t it & s nd lo$k it & y in spe$i l pl $e in "y he rt nd "y "ind. 1t2s p in!#l to dr & b $k on no& b#t 1 think s !e& "onths p ss nd the to#r is over 12" s#re it &ill be$o"e "ore o! !ond E,h t i!2 "e"ory inste d o! the Ehe lied nd h s done this &ith ten other girls2 "e"ory th t it2s t right no&. 1 toss the bl nket do&n over "y o!! the b $k o! the $o#$h nd sn#ggle "ysel! in !or good t&enty "ore "in#tes o! !riends nd prob bly nother episode !ter th t. - ybe 1 $ n ! ll sleep b#t "y "ind "y r $ing &ith so "#$h sin$e 12ve been b $k ho"e. .o"orro& 1 need to $ ll "y gyno nd set #p n ppoint"ent this &eek. 1t2s been !i!teen "onths sin$e "y l st $he$k #p nd 1 " s#re he2ll need to re0 e' "ine "y endo nd r#n p nel !or S.@2s. 1 /#st pr y th t 1 don2t h ve ny. St $y s&e rs th t <ohn th n & s tested si' "onths go nd ll $ "e b $k $le r b#t th t "e ns he2s h d si' "onths to $$#"#l te ll those not so !#n S.@2s. - ybe one o! the !ive &o"en he !#$ked the &eek be!ore 1 got there g ve hi" so"ething. 6#$k 1 h ve to stop thinking bo#t th t. 1 h ve to stop thinking bo#t the ! $t th t &o" n & s s#$king his $o$k !ive &hole d ys go. She "ight not h ve gotten hi" o!! $$ording to @e $on b#t she & s s#$king it. .h t2s b d eno#gh. <es#s% listen to "e. 1 h ve got to stop this obsession. -y p#ssy h s one overly ! nt sti$ se'$ p de nd she $ n2t help b#t " ke "e think bo#t hi". 1t2s gott stop. No&C

Chapter Twel e
9, ke #p honey.; 1 !eel n#dge t on "y r". 9+oney get #p nd go b $k to bed.; 1 kno& th t &onder!#l voi$e. .h t $ l"ing% s&eet% loving voi$e. 1 stret$h "y r"s over "y he d nd open "y eyes. 9+i "o".; 1 s"ile. 9+ey honey it2s e rly b#t yo# sho#ld go b $k #p to bed.; 1 p#sh "ysel! #p into the sitting position t#gging the bl nket &ith "e. +#"... 8#ess 1 !ell sleep on the $o#$h. 91 don2t & nt to "o".; 1 r#b "y eyes nd $le n the sleep o#t o! the". 91 !ig#red yo#2d s y th t so here.; She h nds "e n oversi>ed $#p o! <oe /#st the & y 1 like it. .&o te spoons o! s#g r% spl sh o! "ilk nd sprinkle o! hot $o$o on top. 1 kno& th t "#st so#nd str nge b#t the $ho$ol te " kes the !l vor bolder. 1 $ n t ke it &itho#t b#t the $o$o sets it p rt nd "y "o""y is the best nd kno&s "e oh so &ell. 9.h nks " " . 5o#2re so s&eet.; 1 sip the & r" $#p o! he ven nd she plops do&n beside "e in her pl id p / " botto"s nd &hite oversi>ed .. 1 t#$k "y legs #p so she $ n !it better nd she p#lls the" over her l p. Sitting &ith "y " " on the $o#$h in ho#se 1 gre& #p in. 1 don2t think this "orning $o#ld get ny better. 1 sigh% &ith h ppiness. 9So% 1 kno& 1 & s sleep &hen yo# t&o got in l st night b#t ho& & s the !light= +o&2s St $y=; 9+e2s good. 1 think. 12" s#re he2s nervo#s bo#t seeing his "o". 1t2s been like eight or nine "onths sin$e he2s l st seen her. Not th t 1 bl "e hi" i! 1 h d her s "o" 1 &o#ld prob bly &rite her ss o!! nd le ve her to the st te.; 1 bl#rt. 9Oh% )"ilyC @on2t s y s#$h things like th t.; She p ts "y leg h rd. 95o# kno& th t2s not ni$e. )ven tho#gh she2s not the ni$est &o" n she2s still his "other.; She s$olds b#t it2s "y "o"2s deli$ te & y o! s$olding. 1t2s like she $ n " ke yo# !eel b d &itho#t r ising her voi$e. 1t &orks &ell !or "e nd it brings "y d d do&n to his knees &hen he2s been b d boy. - ny ye rs o! pr $ti$e 1 ss#"e. 91 kno& she2s his "other. .h t2s &hy 1 " here !or hi" nd to see yo#. B#t it doesn2t $h nge the ! $t she2s !#$king bit$h &ho2d 1 r ther never see g in in "y entire li!e.; 1 s y n stily. 9.here yo# go g in t lking /#st like yo#r ! ther. .h t "o#th o! yo#rs h s never $h nged.; She grins. Like she2d h ve #s ny other & y= 1 think not.

95ep% like ! ther like d #ghter.; 1 shr#g nd sling "y !ree h nd ro#nd "y "o"2s sho#lder nd p#ll her into h l! h#g. 1 serio#sly h ve the best "other on the pl net. 1! St $y didn2t h ve #s &hen he & s gro&ing #p 1 don2t think he $o#ld h ve s#rvived his l st t&o ye rs s /#venile nd 12" s#rprised he s#rvived be!ore th t. +is "other & s &!#l. She & s beyond &!#l. She &o#ld binge drink ll the ti"e &hen he & s kid nd being n only $hild like "e he & s le!t to pi$k #p the pie$es nd " ny o! the ti"es th t & s his "o" p ssed o#t o! the !loor in the b throo" sleeping in pile o! her o&n p#ke. Or other ti"e2s she2d get h ""ered nd be t hi". A gro&n boy took it like " n &hen she2d le ve &elts &ith belt or $h#$k shit t hi". All be$ #se she bl "ed hi" !or his ! ther le ving the" &hen he & s only !o#r. +e doesn2t even re"e"ber the " n. So his "o" &orked t the lo$ l g s st tion nd !#$ked /#st bo#t every tr#$ker nd b $k&oods hillbilly ro#nd !or p $k o! s"okes% $ se o! beer or &h tever else s#ited her ! n$y. St $y h d to &ork to b#y his o&n $lothes nd $ r nd !irst g#it r. ,hi$h he $ n2t pl y s &ell ny"ore be$ #se right be!ore he gr d# ted his "other broke t&o o! his !ingers nd they never he led /#st right. No& th t2s &hy 1 h te her. +e2d spend " ny nights sleeping t "y ho#se or t Kyle2s !riend o! his th t /#st so h ppened to be "y neighbor. 1 never $ red !or Kyle "#$h. +e & s so possessive over St $y% it & s like i! he & s his !riend 1 $o#ldn2t be. ,hi$h & s ridi$#lo#s be$ #se 1 never tried to split the" t&o #p !ro" h nging o#t% ever. B#t either & y &e &ere both there !or hi" to shield hi" !ro" th t "onstrosity o! &o" n St $y $ lls his "other. 9C n 1 " ke yo# so"e bre k! st=; -y be #ti!#l "o""y sks "e. She is so d "n s&eet. Br#shing her long d rk bro&n h ir o#t o! her ! $e% nd t#$ks it behind her e rs. -y "o" nd 1 look nothing like. 12" short% $#rvy% & vy red he d &ith p le skin nd green eyes. -y "o" is t ll like !ive !oot ten% thin s r il% olive $olored eyes% str ight long bro&n h ir nd p le skin &ith !re$kles. She looks ten ye rs yo#nger th n she $t# lly is. So h l! o! the ti"e i! people don2t kno& she2s "y "other they ss#"e &e2re /#st good !riends. 1t2s $reepy b#t over the ye rs 12ve gotten #sed to it. 9No " " 12d love to help " ke so"e tho#gh. 12" s#re St $e &o#ld love so"ething ho"e" de &hen he & kes #p. ,e2ve been living o#t o! the b#s !or &eeks nd hi" even longer nd he2s yet to h ve ho"e $ooked "e l.; 9Ok y then.; She sl ps "e on the legs nd shoves the" over the edge o! the $o#$h. ,e both st nd t the s "e ti"e nd go into the only re l kit$hen 12ve ever kno&n like the b $k o! "y h nd. 1 $r $k the eggs nd be t the" in "i'ing bo&l% she !ry2s the b $on. And &e both t ke t#rns po#ring p n$ ke b tter into the Belgi n & !!le " rker th t 1 bo#ght "y "o" !ive ye rs go !or

Christ" s. 1t2s st te o! the rt nd $ost "e pretty penny b#t kno&ing ho& "#$h "y "o" nd 1 love & !!les it & s &ell &orth the invest"ent !or both o! #s. 9,oo ,eeH ,h t s"ells so good in here=; St $y s ys &ith big s"ile st nding in the door& y o! the kit$hen. +is eyes h ve th t se'y 10/#st0&oke0#p ppe r n$e. 9- king bre k! st do#!#s.; 1 te se nd & g the !ork 12" &hisking eggs &ith t hi". 95o#2re " king bre k! st= Or is this se'y &o" n st nding in the kit$hen ne't to yo# doing it nd yo#2re /#st t king ll the $redit=; he te ses. 9Oh% $o"e here the son 1 never h d.; -y "o" s ys nd opens her r"s !or n e"br $e. +e ne rly r#ns $ross the roo" nd sn t$hes her #p pi$king her #p o!! the !loor t&irling her ro#nd. She l #ghs like $hild nd "y he rt "elts to see the t&o "ost i"port nt people in "y li!e so h ppy nd in the s "e roo" t the s "e ti"e. 9Be #ti!#l s ever "o". 12ve "issed yo#.; +e sets her do&n nd kisses her $heek. .he s"ile on both o! their ! $es &ill !orever be b#rned into "y "e"ories. 1 $o#ld l"ost $ry t the h ppiness 1 !eel t this very "o"ent. 9No& get b $k to &ork &en$h nd " ke "e "y bre k! st.; +e s ys to "e &hen he t#rns ro#nd nd sl ps "e h rd on "y behind. 1 yelp nd he l #ghs s does "y "other. 1 sit the eggs ne't "y "o" nd her old b#t !#n$tion l ele$tri$ stove. 1 think th t thing is older th n "e by " ybe ten ye rs b#t she loves it nd !or so"e st#pid re son she re!#ses to #pgr de. 4 rt 1 think is the nost lgi b#t she s&e rs it $ooks better th n ne&er stoves. Altho#gh 1 do#bt th t% be$ #se it2s not like she2s tried ne& one o#t. 9.he do$s o!!i$e is /#st opening 1 think 1 sho#ld shoot the" $ ll nd see i! 1 $ n get in tod y.; 1 s y he ding to& rd the door to $ ll "y gyno. 9No% honey. 1 t lked to St $y !e& d ys go nd 1 lre dy " de yo# n ppoint"ent !or tod y t one. Sorry 1 !orgot to tell yo#. Co"pletely slipped "y "ind.; -y "o" s ys h#n$hed over the stove !inishing #p the s$r "bled eggs nd b $on. - king the ho#se s"ell ! nt sti$. 1 shoot look t St $y. 4le se oh ple se don2t tell "e he told "y "o" 1 h d #nprote$ted se' &ith <ohn th n. .h t &o#ld so r#in this &eek !or "e. +e s"iles nd sh kes his he d. 1t2s like he kno&s &h t 1 " thinking. .h nk the lord she doesn2t kno& or she &o#ld kill "e. ,e e t o#r bre k! st t the ! r"ho#se t ble. 1 e t t&o & !!les nd si' pie$es o! b $on nd h#ge pile o! eggs. 9<es#s )"% re yo# !ro" )thiopi =; he te ses nd pin$hes "y thigh #nder the t ble. 9No 12" /#st st rving. 1 h ven2t h d re l bre k! st like this !or very long ti"e.; 91 $ n tell nd yo# te the &hole pl te o! b#tters$ot$h $ookies l st night too.; +e $h#$kles.

Oh% no 1 didn2tC +e did. 1 h d three. +e te the rest nd 1 " s#re "y "o" h d like t&elve on the pl te. 9No 1 didn2t% yo# did. 5o# l& ys e t the" ll. 5o# $ n bl "e e ting too "#$h bre k! st on "e b#t those $ookies re ll on yo#.; 1 giggle nd ste l pie$e o! b $on o!! his pl te. 9So h C; 1 rip it bet&een "y !ront teeth% tor"enting hi". 1 kno& ho& "#$h he loves b $on. )spe$i lly the thi$k $#t th t "y "o" l& ys b#ys nd !ries #p e'tr $rispy% /#st like &hen &e &ere kids. 9So &hen re yo# going to see yo#r "o" St $y=; "y "o" sks sipping on her $o!!ee. She l& ys t kes it bl $k. 91 & s thinking tod y so"eti"e. - ybe &hile )" goes to the do$s. 1 think 1 sho#ld go by "ysel! !irst i! th t2s lright=; he looks t "e !or v lid tion. 9Ok. 1! yo# need "e there 1 &ill be yo# kno& th t.; 1 re $h over nd give his h nd th t h d the broken !ingers% gentle s(#ee>e. 91 kno& yo# &o#ld. And th t2s &hy 1 love yo# so very "#$h. 1 /#st think it "ight be better !or "e to get it o#t o! the & y on "y o&n. 5o# h te her nd 1 kno& she2s not yo#r biggest ! n.; +e le ns over nd kisses "e on the $heek. 95o# t&o re so $#teC; -y "o" s(#e ls. She h s been rooting !or "e to d te St $y sin$e 1 $ n re"e"ber. B#t 12ve l& ys s id &e re /#st !riends. And #p #ntil ne rly three &eeks go 1 tho#ght he vie&ed "e the s "e & y. .hings h ve serio#sly $h nged sin$e then. 95e h% &ell tell her th t. 1 proposed " rri ge like !i!ty ti"es nd she keeps pl ying h rd to get.; +e n#dges "e &ith his elbo& nd $h#$kles% shooting "e sly s"ile. 1 resist the #rge to sl p hi" $ross the b $k o! his be #ti!#l he d. So 1 go !or very h rd pin$h on his thigh inste d. +e r#bs it nd his legs is red 1 $ n see it #nder the t ble. Serves his ss rightC All the blood r#shes o#t o! "y ! $e. +e $ n2t s y th t st#!! to "y "o". She &ill get her hopes #p nd there re no hopes to h ve #p. 1 don2t & nt St $y th t & y% )3):. 9-o"% no he didn2t. 1 pro"ise.; 1 bl#rt r ther lo#dly nd de!ensively. 95es% yes 1 did. She s&e rs 1 " the se'iest " n live nd ll b#t so"ething bo#t the ! $t th t 1 don2t " ke eno#gh "oney nd 1 sleep &ith too " ny &o" n. 1 g#ess those re de l bre kers !or her.; +e t #nts "e "ore. Oh this ssholeC +e $ n2t be doing thisC Not hereC 96irst o!! -O-; 1 shoot hi" "e n st re. 9@on2t believe thing he is s ying. 5es% he sleeps &ith too " ny &o" n b#t th t2s not &hy &e ren2t going to be together. ,e re <?S. 6:1)N@S.; 1 prono#n$e tossing "y h nds over "y $hest. 6r#str ted.

-y "o" bre ks into lo#d nd $ont gio#s l #gh nd 1 st rt in &ith her nd soon so does St $y nd th t bre ks the tension 1 !elt b#ilding inside o! "e. 95o# t&o re n#ts.; She te ses% st nds nd st $ks the dirty pl tes to t ke the" to the sink. 91 $ n help $le n #p "o".; 1 s y nd st nd #p to help. 9Nonsense yo# t&o t ke yo#r $o!!ees nd go en/oy the "orning on the por$h. 5o#r d d gre sed the s&ings hinges so it sho#ld be ni$e nd (#iet.; She & ves #s o!! to le ve. 1 "eet St $y on the por$h both o! #s still in o#r 4 / " s !ter 1 !ill #p "y $o!!ee. +e doesn2t do $o!!ee so he2s sipping on hot $ho$ol te &ith "ore " rsh" llo&s th n hot $ho$ol te. So"ething he2s loved sin$e &e &ere kids. 12d get the $ho$ol te nd he2d ste l ll o! "y " rsh" llo&s. No& d ys they sell the " rsh" llo&s sep r tely nd l st ye r !or Christ" s 1 bo#ght hi" $ se nd h d the" sent to hi" in the " il s one o! his presents. 1 drop do&n beside hi" on the &hite% high b $k% !lor l $#shioned s&ing "y d d b#ilt. 9So yo# de$ided t #nting "y "o" this "orning & s the & y to go bo#t telling her th t yo# re in love &ith "e nd th t she sho#ld kno&=; 1 elbo& hi" g in in the side. .his is so not over. 9@o yo# serio#sly !ind yo#r "o" th t n ive )"= .h t she h sn2t kno&n ho& 12ve !elt !or ye rs=; 95es. ,ellH no not n Nve b#t 1 didn2t kno&. So ho& $o#ld she=; 91 think yo# $hose not to see s&eetie. She2s no d#""y. 12" s#re she kno&s deep do&n lre dy. 1 /#st like /oking ro#nd &ith her nd 1 like to get yo# ll riled #p.; +e s"iles% pl $ing his $#p to his "o#th !or sip. ,iggling his eyebro&s. 1 st re over t Kyle2s ho#se nd 1 $ n2t help b#t think bo#t &hen &e &ere kids. +e2s spend ll his ti"es split bet&een "y ho#se nd Kyle2s. Al"ost s&it$h o!! nightly. 9,h t $h thinkin bo#t=; he sks. 9Kyle nd #s gro&ing #p. 1t see"s so long go. 1 never liked Kyle. 1 & nted to. B#t he & s so intense &hen it $ "e to yo#. 1 re"e"ber sitting on this por$h s&ing one night &hen yo# &ere on his por$h.; 1 point over to the Kyles. 95o# t&o &ere rg#ing bo#t &hose pl $e yo# &ere st ying t. +e & nted yo# to st y nd pl y s#per Nintendo nd yo# & nted to $o"e b $k to "y pl $e. +e ended #p p#n$hing yo# in the r" nd yo# t&o didn2t t lk !or like &eek or so.; +e l #ghs nd tilts his he d b $k. 95e h th t & s so"e intense night.; 9@o yo# still t lk to hi"=; 9Kyle= No% not !or !e& ye rs. ,e lost to#$h !o#r ye rs go right !ter 1 st rted &orking !or Stri$ken.; 91s he " rried= + ve kids=;

+e r#ns his !ingers thro#gh his h ir his ! $e is gri". +e see"s #n$o"!ort ble t lking bo#t this. 9?"H Kyle & s g y so 1 don2t think he2s " rried #nless it2s in one o! those st tes th t llo& it nd kids= 1 h ve no ide . 4rob bly not.; ,ho C .h t & s bri$k serio#sly /#st thro&n t "y ! $e. Kyle & s g y= 1 never s & th t. +e & s so intense nd " nly nd do"in te. B#t g y= ,o&. 9SoH @id he kno& he & s g y in high s$hool= Or /#st !ter& rds=; 1 sk. 1 serio#sly & nt to kno& this. 1 h ve no proble" &ith g y or bi or str ight or bl#e or bl $k or pink people. 1 $o#ld $ re less. 4eople re people nd s long s they re h ppy th t2s ll th t " tters to "e. 95es.; +e bl#rts nd r#ns his !ingers thro#gh his h ir g in. +e2s so nervo#s 1 $ n !eel the n'iety r di ting !ro" hi". 9SoH; +e $#ts "e o!!. 9Kyle & s the !irst " n 1 ever h d se' &ith.; +oly shitC 1 kne& 1 & s rightC St $y is BiC Oh "y god nd nothing like telling "e no& !ter ten d "n ye rs. .his is "onth o! revel tions !or hi". ,hy 1 h ven2t d "n $l#e b#t it2s like one bri$k & ll !ter nother. 1 t ke deep deep deep bre th in. 9OhH; 1 $hoke o#t. -y "o#th is dry ll o! s#dden. 1 t ke sip o! "y $o!!ee. 9SoH & s he yo#r !irst ll together= Or /#st yo#r !irst g#y=; +e l #ghs nervo#sly nd tosses his he d b $k g in. 1 $ n tell this is $onvers tion he doesn2t & nt to t lk bo#t. B#t 1 " not letting #p. +e kno&s ll bo#t "e. ,ell e'$ept "y "edi$ l proble". B#t everything else he does. 95o# !ind o#t 12ve !#$ked d#de nd the !irst (#estion yo# sk "e is th t one= 5o# don2t so#nd " d or ngry or nything.; ,ell no shit 1 don2t. 1t doesn2t " tter to "e i! he is g y or str ight or Bi. +e2s still St $y "y best !riend% the se$ond gre test " n in the &hole &orld to "e. :ight behind "y ! ther. 91 kind o! !ig#red yo# "ight be Bi St $e in .#$son &hen 1 !o#nd o#t yo# h d Enight $o"p nion2 nd yo# slipped #p $ lling Eit2 hi" !irst.; 95o# don2t h te "e or think 12" gross be$ #se 1 do g#ys s &ell s &o" n=; he sks $ #tio#sly. +is v#lner bility is o#t nd shining. 9No% 1 don2t $ re. As long s yo#2re h ppy nd yo# like it.; 1 shr#g. 1 serio#sly h ve no ide &h t to s y bo#t th t. 12" not $o"!ort ble t lking bo#t "y best !riend possibly botto"ing !or b#n$h o! "en. Like b#!! Kyle "y old neighbor. 9So i! 1 told yo# "y !irst se'# l e'perien$e & s &ith boy nd not girl yo#2d not think 12" si$k=;

S"ooth St $e% re l s"ooth. .ell "e th t yo# h d d#de be!ore $hi$k by !or"ing it in (#estion. .h t2s so not the & y 1 & nted to he r this $o"e o#t. 12d r ther get it o#t nd l y ll the $ rds on the t ble. 1t $ n2t $h nge things no& nyho&. Not th t 12d & nt to. 9St $e% yo# "#st h ve h d yo#r !irst e'perien$e &ith boy or yo# &o#ldn2t be telling "e this. 1 tho#ght it & s &ith Sheil Otherton yo#r senior ye r b#t !ro" &h t yo#2re s ying it & s so"eone else be!ore th t. 1! yo# & nt to sh re 1 " here to listen. 1! not th t2s !ine too.; 1 s y $ l"ly nd " king s#re 1 $hoose every &ord $orre$tly. +e sits is $#p do&n on the &indo&sill nd &r ps his r"s ro#nd "e tight. 1 p t his b $k nd h#g hi" the best 1 $ n &ith "y $o!!ee still in h nd. 95o# don2t kno& ho& "#$h th t "e ns to "e )"% yo# re " >ing.; +e kisses "y $heek nd p#lls & y. 9,ell th nks b#d% right b $k t $h .; 1 &ink &ith grin nd give his r" good re ss#ring s(#ee>e. 912ve been & nting to tell yo# this !orever. Kyle & s "y !irst. .h t2s &hy &hen &e &ere in high s$hool he & s so possessive over "e. ,e sort o! d ted behind $losed doors !or like t&o ye rs be!ore 1 "et yo#. .h t2s &hy he h ted yo#.; Oh th t " kes tot l sense no&C 9SoH 1 kno& this so#nds &eird b#t ho&2d did yo# kno& Kyle & s the one yo# & nted to do it &ith= Or h ve the #rge to do it &ith=; 1 sk nd 1 !eel ll gross inside o! sking. 1 sho#ldn2t need to kno& this b#t 12ve never h d $lose bi or g y !riend be!ore nd this is so"ething 12ve l& ys kind o! &ondered. +e $h#$kles nd shoots "e n over0the0top s"ile. 9Oh )"% ho& 1 love yo#C 5o# $ re !or "e so "#$h. 1t never $e ses to " >e "e. 1 d#nno Kyle nd 1 h d lot o! sleep overs. Kno&n e $h other sin$e !irst gr de. So he & s ! "ili r. One night &e &ere sleeping ne't to e $h other in his bed nd his h nd kind o! $$idently br#shed "y $o$k in "y bo'ers. 1 liked it eno#gh to get boner nd th t2s sort o! &hen 1 re li>ed th t 1 like both se'es. 12ve l& ys $he$ked o#t other "en. 6o#nd so"e o! the" to be hot b#t 1 never tho#ght nything o! it t the ti"e. 1 $h lked it #p to $#riosity. ?ntil th t d y nd then 1 kne& di!!erent. Kyle !elt the s "e e'$ept he never liked girls. So &e e'peri"ented &ith e $h other !or ne rly !ive ye rs. .hen 1 $#t hi" o!! &hen 1 "oved to LA nd he & nted serio#s rel tionship &ith "e nd 1 never & nted th t !ro" hi". 1 !eel kind o! b d being &ith hi" !or so long nd not & nting th t. B#t 1 never loved hi" like 1 love yo#. 1t & s "ore se'# l th n e"otion l. 1 think &ith "en !or "e it2s the se'# l need nd "en re so "#$h hornier th n &o" n nyho& so th t t#rns "e on. B#t e"otion lly nd estheti$ lly &o" n re &h t 1 pre!er i! 1 h d

to $hoose. 1 love the so!t skin% bre sts% long h ir% $#rves nd the !olds o! p#ssy. Co$ks re hot b#t it2s p#rely eroti$ not e"otion l. 1 hope th t " kes sense.; +e s ys. 1 nod. )verything he s id " de sense. J#ite bit o! in!or" tion !or "e to pro$ess b#t 12ll get ro#nd to it one o! these d ys. 95e h 1 g#ess it does " ke sense. 1 /#st $ n2t &r p "y he d ro#nd the ! $t th t yo# botto" nd yo# s#$k di$k. 1 "e n 1 kind o! tho#ght yo# "ight sin$e yo#2ve l& ys been open &ith telling "e this g#y or th t g#y is hot. B#t it2s kind o! h rd to ! tho". 5 kno&=; 95e h tell "e bo#t it. .ry gro&ing #p $he$king o#t those hot "en nd not kno&ing &hy yo# !ind the" ppe ling nd &hen yo#2re in the lo$ker roo" yo# $ t$h yo#rsel! looking ro#nd desper tely !or gli"pse o! nyone2s $o$k. B#t /#st so yo# kno& not th t this " tters. 1 don2t l& ys botto". 1t2s bo#t !i!ty0!i!ty !or "e. .he $o$k s#$king thing. 1! 1 & nt "y $o$k s#$ked 1 h ve &o" n do it% r rely do 1 let " n #nless he begs !or it. 1 /#st !ind th t &o"en believe it or not% do it better. .hey2re "ore sens# l bo#t it. -en /#st & nt to do it ro#gh nd !ir" nd 1 don2t like th t. 1 &on2t lie nd tell yo# 1 h ven2t s#$ked g#y o!! "ysel!. 1 h ve espe$i lly Kyle nd sin$e hi" " ybe t&o or three "en. B#t "ost g#ys 1 r#n into re g y nd they & nt g y " n not bi " n. So 1 sti$k to $hi$ks &ho $o#ld $ re less.; ,o& th t & s too "#$h .-1. 1 g#ess 1 & nted to kno& those things deep do&n. B#t there goes "y very h ndso"e best !riend l ying it ll o#t on the t ble nd 1 $ n2t s$r#b this i" gine o! hi" s#$king on Kyle2s $o$k o#t o! "y he d. 1t2s not good i" gine either. 1 h ted Kyle. Ok% 1 never h ted hi" b#t he did "e. So in t#rn 1 didn2t like hi". 1 g#ess th t2s ho& things &ork &hen yo#2re teen ger. 9@o yo# "iss Kyle=; 1 sk &itho#t even thinking. 1 " s#$h "oron. 9+onestly= 5es. A lot so"eti"es. .he !riendship p rt yo# t ke $ re o! $o"pletely b#t th t h l! g y " n inside o! "e re lly & nts to be in his r"s g in. 1 kno& he h tes "e be$ #se the l st ti"e &e t lked he told "e he & nted to try nd be together g in. Like together% together s in $o#ple nd 1 told hi" to !#$k o!! nd th t 12" not bi ny"ore. 1 s id he & s /#st n e'peri"ent gone b dly. 1 & s s#$h n sshole b#t he &o#ldn2t stop trying to get "e to $o"e b $k to hi". .he se' is &h t 1 "iss the "ost. +e & s "y !irst nd th t 12ll never !orget. 1 h ve big so!t spot !or hi". ,h t $ n 1 s y=; A&e% 1 think "y he rt /#st broke !or hi". )ven tho#gh 1 $o#ldn2t st nd Kyle ll those ye rs 1 $ n see &hy he & s so prote$tive o! St $y. +e2s gorgeo#s nd 1 &o#ldn2t & nt to sh re hi" either. )spe$i lly i! 1 & s in love &ith hi" s "#$h s it see"s Kyle & s or " ybe still is. 95o# sho#ld $ ll hi" St $e. .ell hi" the tr#th. .ell hi" &h t yo# /#st told "e. - ybe he2s still pining over yo# nd i! he is 1 $ n2t i" gine ho& p in!#l th t "ight be. 12" only t&o nd h l! &eeks o#t o! "y pining over one0night !#$king st nd nd look &here 1 "=;

+e p ts "e lovingly on the leg. 912" sorry b be% 1 sho#ldn2t be shoving ll this he vy st#!! on yo#. 5o# did $ re !or <ohn th n didn2t yo#= 1 g#ess it sho#ldn2t s#rprise "e. 12" sorry.; +e &r ps his r" ro#nd "y sho#lder nd p#lls "e into hi". 1 l y "y he d on his sho#lder &ith sigh. 95e h the "ore 1 think bo#t it. .he "ore 1 !eel like 1 & s in love !or the !irst ti"e. 1t only l sted d y. B#t 1 think it "ight h ve been the re l de l.; 1 shr#g s dly. 91 kno& b be.; +e kisses "y !orehe d. 9<ohn th n is h ndso"e nd 12ve seen hi" &ork his $o$k. +e2s got skills. And &hen he gets ll e"otion l in bed 12" s#re it t#gs t yo#r so!t he rt.; 95e h.; 1 e'h le. 91 /#st tho#ght &hen he s id he !ell in love &ith "e &hen he !irst s & "e t in the !ront ro& o! the $on$ert. .h t he & s being honest. 1t !elt honest t the ti"e% 1 g#ess. .hen &hen he s id 1 & s his nd he & nted to be &ith "e nd t ke $ re o! "e. 1 h d to beg hi" to h ve se' &ith "e. Looking b $k 1 kno& it & s ll g "e. B#t it "e nt so"ething to "e. )spe$i lly &hen he $ried.; 1 t#$k "y r" thro#gh St $y2s resting "y h nd on his thigh. 9+e $ried=; he sks so!tly. 95e h. .&i$e. Al"ost " de "e $ry too. Like 1 s id he2s good.; 1 "#tter. 91 kno& o! his g "e b#t 12ve never he rd there &ere ever te rs involved. 12ve kno&n hi" !or over !o#r ye rs nd never seen hi" $ry on$e.; 98#ess he2s #pping his g "e this ti"e.; 1 po#t. 9Ok y eno#gh o! the he vy !or no&. 1 need to sho&er. 1 stink. And yo# need to get ro#nd to go see yo#r "o". 1 h ve to hit the do$s nd t lk to the" bo#t "y girly shit nd then &e $ n "eet #p b $k here !or dinner tonight. So#nd good=; 95ep.; +e s ys &ith lovely so!t s"ile. ,itho#t sho&er still in his 4/2s nd he looks like d "n ! shion "odel. 1 st nd% "osey into the ho#se% drop "y e"pty "#g in the sink nd he d str ight to the best b throo" in the entire &orld. Ok y% it "ight not be the best b#t its $lose. -y "o" h d the b th g#tted &hen 1 & s eight nd kno$ked o#t $loset ne't to it to " ke roo" !or bigger b th. No& "y p rents 3i$tori n h s gl ss & lled ste " sho&er% $l & !oot t#b% sl te tiled !looring nd $re "y b#tter"ilk & lls. 1t2s serio#sly interior design " g >ine (# lity.

Chapter Thirteen
12" in "y &onder!#l s#b#rb n lone diving to "y do$tor2s ppoint"ent &ith @r. Shells t one. 1 t#rn #p the r dio. .he only st tions "y be #ti!#l tr#$k pi$ks #p is the lo$ l $o#ntry st tions. 12" not s#re i! it2s !#nny /oke or th t its ntenn /#st s#$ks. 1 le ve "y &indo&s h ng open. 1 got to !in lly &e r so"ething Non ro$k nd roll tod y. .h nks to being b $k in hi$kville ?.S.A. 1t2s ok y to &e r !lor l knee length A0line dress to the do$s. 1 even opted o#t o! heels nd &ent !or &hite !lip0!lops. Bettysville is too s" ll to ho#se ny do$tors o!!i$es e'$ept s" ll t ho"e vet right o#tside o! to&n. So 12" driving ten "iles to , y!ort &here "y do$tor2s o!!i$e is lo$ ted ne't to the only hospit l &ithin !orty "ile r di#s. , y!ort is the h#b o! ll the s#rro#nding $o#ntry to&ns. 1t2s $ity o! bo#t thirty !ive tho#s nd. + s the only , l" rt ro#nd nd s" ll " ll. 1t2s the best yo#2ll get #nless yo# & nt to drive t&o ho#rs to 6ort , yne. 1 p#ll #p o#tside% le ve "y &ido&s do&n nd "y doors #nlo$ked. So"ething 1 &o#ldn2t ever do in l rger $ity. B#t here it2s doesn2t " tter. No one is going to ste l yo#r st#!!. 9+ey )"ily.; - ry% the re$eptionist & ves &ith s"ile &hen 1 $o"e in. 1 don2t sign in. .hey kno& "e by n "e be$ #se "y "o" h ppens to &ork ne't door !or @r. Botkins nd @r. L rson both pedi tri$i ns. @r. Botkins & s "y do$ &hen 1 & s kid nd @r. .ed L rson is &h t &e ll like to $ ll @r. +ot p nts. +e2s thirty !ive nd se'y s hell nd he2s single. -y "o" tried to set "e #p on blind d te &ith hi" on$e b#t 1 b $ked o#t l st "in#te. 1 didn2t think it &o#ld be right to go on d te &ith pedi tri$i n $onsidering "y body $ n2t h ve b bies nd it &o#ld be like r#bbing it in both o! o#r ! $es. 1 e'pl ined it to "y "o" s gently s possible nd she #nderstood nd even pologi>ed !or being so in$onsider te. Like 1 l& ys s y 1 h ve the best "o" on the pl net. 9Co"e on b $k )"ily.; N#rse Lind !#ll !ig#red br#nette in her !orties s ys &ith big over0the0 top !riendly s"ile. 12ve kno&n Lind sin$e 1 & s si'teen &hen 1 !irst st rting $o"ing to the gyno. )ven tho#gh 1 & sn2t se'# lly $tive yet "y "o" & nted to introd#$e to the &orld o! &o" nly !#n$tions nd &ith "y periods being irreg#l r sin$e 1 !irst st rted she tho#ght it "ight be best to get $he$ked o#t. .h t & s &hen 1 !irst !o#nd o#t 1 h ve endo"etriosis nd tilted #ter#s. 1 !ollo& Lind b $k to one o! the !ive e' " roo"s. .od ys the d y 1 get to be n ked. 1 go inside !ter 1 get &eighed &hi$h 1 never & t$h. 1 don2t $ re to kno& ho& "#$h 1 &eigh. 1 " s" ll nd !re king o#t bo#t ten po#nds g ined or lost &ill /#st " ke "e &orry "ore. -y "o#th is s#ddenly dry. 1 need so"e & ter.

1 go into the e' " roo" nd sit do&n on the t ble. Lind t kes "y vit ls nd here $o"es the &onder!#l p rt. 9,hen & s yo#r l st "enstr# l period=; 9)ight "onths go.; 9,hen & s the l st ti"e yo# h d inter$o#rse=; 9.&o &eeks go; 9+o& " ny se'# l p rtners h ve yo# h ve in the l st "onth=; 9One.; 9+o& " ny p rtners in the p st ye r=; 9One; 9+o& " ny in yo#r li!eti"e=; 9.&o.; 9Are yo# on ny kind o! birth $ontrol=; 9No. 1 don2t h ve se' "#$h nd 1 $ n2t get pregn nt.; 1t2s like r#nning ti$ker t pe. J#estion !ter (#estion. She !ires one o!! nd !ire right b $k. 1t2s kind o! e"b rr ssing in so"e $ ses b#t 12ve only ever been &ith t&o people 1 g#ess th t2s so"ething to be pro#d o! t t&enty !o#r. .he l st (#estion !in lly $o"es !ter ten "ore. 9@o yo# h ve ny (#estions or $on$erns !or the do$tor=; 95es.; She looks t "e like 1 need to "ove !or& rd nd tell her &h t 1 need to dis$#ss. 91 &ill dis$#ss it &ith hi" on$e he rrives.; 1 s y s&eetly. 9Ok.; She st nds #p nd $ rries the l ptop in her h nd th t she & s /#st entering "y ns&ers into. 94le se t ke ll yo#r $lothes in$l#ding yo# #nder&e r o!! nd p#t the go&n on nd dr pe yo#rsel! &ith the sheet nd the do$tor &ill be &ith yo# shortly.; 1 nod nd she le ves. 1 strip (#i$kly. 1t2s !ree>ing in this o!!i$e. -y nipples re inst ntly h rd nd sore. 1 sling on the bl#e nd &hite go&n opening to the !ront like l& ys. 4rop "y $old n ked b#tt onto the p per th t2s lining the t ble nd dr pe the &hite sheet over "y legs !or & r"th. .h nk god "y do$ is old eno#gh to be dinos #r or 1 &o#ld !eel so &rong being this n ked. Ok y% he2s not th t old b#t he2s not spring $hi$ken. +e2s h ndso"e nd r ther b#ilt !or do$tor. +e h s !#ll he d o! s lt nd pepper h ir nd his eyes re i$y bl#e. +e l& ys s"ells so good like $ig rs nd pepper"int nd there is no do#bt th t he & s se'y in his yo#th nd no& he2s /#st h ndso"e. .o "e t

le st. 1 " s#re his girl!riend or &i!e or &h tever &o#ld s y he2s se'y b#t 12" s#re he2s bo#t !i!ty !ive nd th t2s & y too old !or "e to $o""ent on in th t dep rt"ent. A kno$k 9C n 1 $o"e in=; 1 he r @r. Shell s y nd he slo&ly opens the door. +e s"iles t "e nd p#ts o#t his h nd !or "e to sh ke. 9)"ily it !eels like it2s been !orever. +o& re yo#=; +e2s so $h ris" ti$. 912" good do$ nd yo#rsel!=; 98ood. 8ood.; +e o!!ers nother & r"ing s"ile. 9So &h t brings yo# in tod y=; he st nds ne't to the instr#"ents l id o#t !or "y nn# l. 91 $ "e to get "y nn# l 1 " little behind nd 12" s#re yo#2ll need to do S.@ &ork #p.; 1 s y $on!idently. )ven tho#gh 1 " nything b#t. 9Oh= + ve yo# been h ving #nprote$ted se'=; his eyebro& rises s#rprised. 95es% st#pidly 1 did bo#t t&o nd h l! &eeks go &ell it2s $loser to three &eeks no& b#t 1 did nd only th t one ti"e.; +e doesn2t need to kno& it & s !o#r ti"es th t night. .h t2s too "#$h in!or" tion. B#t it & s on$e. <#st one !#ll night. 9Ok% 12ll do the &hole &ork#p. 1 sho#ld get the blood res#lts b $k in &eek nd the other2s 1 $ n do in o!!i$e nd let yo# kno& be!ore yo# le ve.; 9So#nd gre t.; 1 s"ile. +e does the typi$ l r#n do&n like every ye r. Che$ks "y bre sts !or l#"ps% !eels ro#nd "y bdo"en &hi$h is l& ys tender th nks to "y endo. B#t he2s l& ys gentle. @oes "y vit ls g in. .hen 1 p#t "y heels #p in stirr#ps nd the #n$o"!ort ble p rt begins. +e shines light t "y $rot$h nd inserts th t #n$o"!ort ble nd $old instr#"ent to $he$k "e. 1 get s$r ped nd prodded. On$e he2s done 1 get #p he le ves the n#rse $o"es in dr &s three vi ls o! blood nd h nds "e $#p to pee in. 1 go into the b th nd pee nd 1 $o"e b $k nd no& 1 " sitting g in in the roo" !#lly dressed. A& iting "y res#lts. .&enty "in#tes p ss nd nother kno$k t the door. .his ti"e he doesn2t hesit te nd he /#st & lks in. 9,ell )"ily. + ve yo# been e'perien$ing ny kind o! proble"s l tely=; he sks looking over "y !e& res#lts. 9Not re lly &hy= ,h t2s &rong=; 1 !ro&n. +is ! $e is serio#s b#t it2s not &orried. +e2s not giving nything & y. 9@o yo# it$h or b#rn &hen yo# pee=; he sks.

9Oh god no.; 1 sh ke "y he d nd $over "y "o#th &ith "y h nd. 91s th t &h t 1 " s#pposed to be !eeling= So"ething is &rong isn2t it=; 9So no sy"pto"s% nothing o#t o! the ordin ry t ll=; 91 !eel little $r "py% "y bre sts re tender% 12" thirsty nd 1 $o#ld prob bly e t $o& the p st t&o d ys. B#t it "ight be 4-S. )ven tho#gh 1 don2t h ve reg#l r $y$les 1 do h ve 4-S o$$ sion lly nd god kno&s th t l tely 12ve been going thro#gh lot o! stress b#t no b#rning or it$hing.; +e le ns over nd h nds "e booklet. E5o#r pregn n$y.2 1 look t hi" nd b $k t the p#rple booklet. 91s this /oke or so"ething=; 1 " so not l #ghing. 9No. B#t yo# re pregn nt.; +e s ys &ith str ight ! $e. 9,+A.C; 1 s$ree$h. 912ve been told !or ye rs 1 $ n2t h ve b bies nd no& 1 get pregn nt !ter one0night st nd. Are yo# shitting "e=; 12" & r" nd 1 " so ngry. .his $ nnot be h ppening to "eC 1 $ n2t be pregn nt. 12ve been told !or the p st eight ye rs 1 h ve less th n ten per$ent $h n$e o! $on$eiving nor" lly nd &ith the & y "y $ondition h s progressed "y do$ h s &ent to s y th t 1 h ve even less th n !ive per$ent be$ #se o! "y irreg#l r periods nd tilted #ter#s. .his is ridi$#lo#sC .hey "#st h ve s&it$hed the tests. 91 kno&% &e serio#sly tho#ght th t yo# $o#ldn2t th t2s &h t " kes this so r re.; 1 sh ke "y he d b $k nd !orth trying to $le r "y very !#$ked overly st#!!ed he d. 95o#2re s#re 1 " pregn nt= 5o# didn2t s&it$h "y #rine &ith so"eone else2s=; +e nods 912" s#re nd 1 &ill roll in the #ltr so#nd " $hine no& nd &e $ n see the b by i! yo# & nt to " ke s#re everything looks good. 5o# $ n2t be ! r long b#t &e $ n see so"ething.; +e s ys. 912" only three &eeks 1 h d se' three &eeks go nd th t & s the l st nd only ti"e. 5o# $ n see b by t three &eeks=; 95es nd it2s not three &eeks it2s $l ssi!ied s !ive be$ #se th t2s &hy the egg "#st h ve dropped nd set yo# into yo#r !ertility $y$le. )ven &itho#t bleeding yo# $ n drop eggs.; 9,ell th t2s ni$e to kno&. 8ee th nks do$. 5e h go get the d "n probe nd let2s do this thing.; -y li!e h s t#rned !ro" b d to &orse in the " tter o! "in#tes. 9Ok y b#t yo# &ill need to t ke o!! yo#r #nder&e r. 5o# $ n keep on the dress b#t 1 &ill h ve to n intern l #ltr so#nd.; +e d#$ks o#t. 1 sl#"p b $k g inst the b $k o! the t ble li!t "y hips slide o!! "y bl#e p nties nd toss the" on the !loor. 1 $o#ld $ re less bo#t the" right bo#t no&. Less th n !ive "in#tes p ss nd in $o"es "y

do$tor. Along &ith Lind the n#rse. - ybe he2s s$ red o! "e. 1 " (#ite inti"id ting &hen 1 !ly o!! the h ndle nd 1 " on the $#sp. 1 $ n !eel it. .oo "#$h stress in too short o! ti"e. Lind opens the stirr#ps g in nd 1 p#t "y heels into the holders. Lind $o"es ro#nd nd st nds $losest to the & ll nd o!!ers her h nd. 91 kno& this $ n be s$ ry to do lone. 1 /#st he rd nd tho#ght yo# "ight need so"e s#pport.; ,h t s&eet &o" nC 9.h nks; 1 grin sole"nly nd t ke her h nd. 9Ok y )"ily 1 " going to insert this.; +e sho&s "e this long &hite probe. 91 &ill insert it little bit in nd it &ill help "e see the b by. 5o# &ill see the b by on this s$reen.; +e points to the "onitor. 9Lind or 1 &ill e'pl in &h t yo# see &hen yo# do. 1t &on2t look like "#$h. .his ! r long nd &e "ight not even h ve he rtbe t yet. B#t 1 /#st & nt to " ke s#re this isn2t n e$topi$ pregn n$y be$ #se &ith yo#r $ondition it2s $o""on.; .h t2s &hy 1 like "y do$ he e'pl ins everything nd his voi$e is l& ys gentle nd s&eet. 912ll be ok y do$ /#st do it. 1 need to see i! this is h ppening to "e.; +e inserts the probe &ith $ondo" over it nd so"e /elly !or l#bri$ tion. At le st it2s & r". +e tilts it #p nd "oves it #ntil 1 $ n see "y #ter#s on the s$reen. 1t2s in 2@ so it looks like b#n$h o! &hite " tter to "e &ith t&o bl $k holes nd t&o little $ir$le things inside those bl $k holes. 12ve never & t$hed inside "y body be!ore it2s kind o! $ool. Not "#$h to see tho#gh. +e looks #p t "e nd presses the b#tton the " $hine !e& ti"es. .hen he gl n$es t Lind h s yet to s y &ord. 91s so"ething &rong &ith the b by=; 1 sk. St ring t the s$reen 1 h ve no ide &h t 1 " looking t to be honest. 12" not do$tor nd the b by isn2t big eno#gh to h ve r"s nd legs yet. Lind holds one o! "y h nds &ith both o! hers nd s(#ee>es then nods to the do$% so"ething is #p. 9)"ily see th t=; he points to one bl $k hole &ith little $ir$le thingy in it. 95e h.; 9@o yo# see th t=; he points to the opposite one. 1 nod nd look bet&een "y do$ nd "y n#rse to tell "e &h t the !#$k is going on here. @o 1 h ve t#"or or so"ething= 9S&eetie; Lind $hi"es in. 9.hose re yo#r B bies.; 1 st re t the s$reen nd look b $k t her $on!#sed. 9B bies= As in pl#r l= Not /#st one=; 95es% )"ily yo# re pregn nt &ith t&ins nd yo#2re /#st like &e tho#ght t /#st bo#t !ive &eeks. And i! yo# look $lose eno#gh to the s$reen yo# $ n see little !li$kering. .h t2s their he rts be ting. 1n nd

!e& &eeks &e2ll be ble to pi$k the" #p on @oppler nd yo#2ll be ble to he r the".; -y do$tor s ys $ l"ly. 1 think 1 " going to be si$k. Not /#st one b by b#t 1 " h ving t&oC .&o little <ohn th n Strikers. B bies &ith " n 1 " never going to be &ith. -y li!e is shit in !#$king h ndb g. 9)"ily re yo# ok y= 5o# don2t look so good.; Lind s ys nd r#bs her h nd long the side o! "y ! $e. .he do$tor re"oves the probe. 91H 1H 1 think 1 "ight get si$k.; 1 $over "y "o#th 1 $ n !eel it $o"ing. -y do$tor $ts ! st nd sn t$hes #p nd $losest thing% tr sh $ n nd 1 sit #p legs still in stirr#ps nd thro& #p he ving "y entire bre k! st nd "y $o!!ee into the tr sh bin. 1 sit #p &hen 1 !in lly !inish nd Lind h s &etted p per to&el !or "e to &ipe "y "o#th &ith. 1 t ke it nd $le n "ysel! #p. 9Sorry.; 91t2s $o"pletely #nderst nd ble yo#2re in sho$k. 1 &o#ld be too i! 1 & s in yo#r shoes. .hinking "y &hole li!e 1 prob bly &on2t be ble to h ve b by nd no& ending #p being pregn nt &ith t&o.; Lind s ys &ith so!t re ss#ring s"ile. 95ep th t2s the #nderst te"ent o! the ye r.; 1 $h#$kle n'io#sly nd toss the to&el in the tr sh nd sit #p re"oving "y heels !ro" the stirr#ps. 9)"ily do yo# h ve ny (#estions !or #s=; -y do$tor sks so!tly. 9A !e& i! th t2s ok y.; 9O! $o#rse it is.; +e s ys nd 1 kno& he "e ns it. 9,hen re "y b bies d#e= A" 1 going to be ok y &ith $ rrying the" to ter" &ith this little body o! "ine nd "y $ondition= And &h t " 1 to stop doing i""edi tely so 1 don2t h r" the"= 1 &ill re d books nd lots o! the" nd t ke ny pills yo# & nt. B#t 1 need to kno& those things right & y.; +e $h#$kles. 9Ok slo& do&n. 5o#2re d#e - r$h t&enty0ninth b#t 1 " s#re yo# &ill go lot sooner th n th t. .&ins l"ost l& ys do. 1! yo#2re going to be ble to #se "e s yo#r do$tor 1 &ill gl dly help b#t i! not 1 $ n &ork longside nother do$tor to get yo# s !ely thro#gh this pregn n$y b#t &e don2t need to &orry bo#t th t right no&. As !or $ rrying the t&ins. 5o# sho#ld be !ine. 5o#r $ondition "ight "e n yo# e'perien$e little "ore p in nd dis$o"!ort nd yo# sho#ld be ble to $ rry the" like ny other &o" n. Altho#gh yo#r body $o#ld be proble" b#t there is no rese r$h to sho& th t being shorter " kes $ rrying b bies h rder. 1t2s person to person b sis. ,e &ill /#st keep $lose eye on yo#. .h t2s ll. 5o# &ill st rt to sho& r ther (#i$kly tho#gh be$ #se o! yo#r si>e nd the ! $t th t yo# re $ rrying t&ins. So " ternity $lothes &ill be "#st in the ne't ten &eeks give or t ke. As long s yo# ren2t drinker or do street dr#gs yo#2ll be !ine he th &ise. 1 kno& yo# don2t s"oke so

th t2s not ! $tor. @on2t t ke ny ib#pro!en b sed prod#$ts. Sti$k to $et "inophen only% like .ylenol. 5o#r "o"2s n#rse she $ n go over ll this "ore &ith yo#. 1t2s not s h rd s it so#nds.; +e s"iles. 9Ok.; 1 look do&n nd $over "y h nd over "y belly. .&o b bies re living inside o! "e right no&. 9.h nks do$ nd th nks Lind .; 1 s"ile or try to. 9. ke this s$ript to the ph r" $y nd get it !illed it2s /#st pren t l vit "ins nd i! yo# need nything !or n #se don2t hesit te to $ ll nd sk. 9 +e h nds "e slip o! p per nd !o#r sonogr " pi$t#res o! "y little b $k dots. 1 le ve in sho$k% listen to so"e .oby Keith on the lo$ l r dio st tion. 4i$k #p "y pren t l vit "ins nd re d the booklet the do$tor g ve "e &hile 1 & it. 1 p#ll #p o#tside "y p rent2s ho#se nd sit inside the tr#$k !or t&enty "in#tes deb ting i! 1 sho#ld go in or not.

Chapter Fourteen
6or the rest o! the d y 1 l y in "y bed. -y "o" is t &ork !or h l! d y "y d d is going to be ho"e !or dinner nd 1 l y on "y b $k nd st re t the $eiling tr $ing <#stin2s ! $e &ith "y eyes over nd over. -y b by2s pi$t#res re in "y h nd. 1 $ n2t believe 1 " going to be "o". A single "o". 1 never tho#ght 12d be "o". 1 $ n2t be s d bo#t this. 1 " so s$ red. B#t 1 don2t regret it. - ybe this &h t & s "e nt to be= 1 & s "e nt to sleep &ith " le &hore so 1 $o#ld get pregn nt &ith t&ins= .&o little ro$kers re living in "y t#""y. 4oor kids 1 !eel sorry !or the" lre dy. 1 don2t h ve "#si$ l bone in "y body. ,ell t le st their #n$le St $y does. .h t so#nds so &eird ?n$le St $y. B#t th t2s &h t he2ll be the !#n% loving% bise'# l #n$le. And "y "o" nd d d &ill " ke ! nt sti$ gr ndp rents. 1 h ve been l ying here !or prob bly three ho#rs nd 1 $ n2t stop &ondering &hen 1 sho#ld tell the". - ybe 1 sho#ld & it. B#t i! 1 do nd they !ind o#t so"e other & y like Lind bl bbing to "y "o" t &ork. She2ll be so ngry &ith "e. So 1 don2t h ve $hoi$e b#t to tell the" ll tonight t dinner. 1 g#ess th t2s the s" rtest $hoi$e s ny. 9)" re yo# #p there=; 1 he r "y "o" yell. 95e h -o" 12" here.; 1 yell b $k. 9Co"e do&nst irs dinners bo#t re dy nd St $y /#st got b $k.; Oh ye hC St $y spent the &hole d y &ith his "o". - ybe 1 sho#ldn2t d#"p this ne&s on hi". 12ll /#st & it nd see ho& he looks to de$ide. 1 $olle$t "y b by2s pi$t#res% "y booklet nd t#$k it b $k into "y old p#rse nd t ke it do&nst irs &ith "e. 1 don2t h ve ny po$kets on this dress so the big reve l &ith h ve to h ppen &ith the help o! "y p#rse. 1 "eet the" ll do&nst irs. -y d d is no& ho"e. 9+ey shorty. 12ve "issed yo#.; +e pi$ks "e #p !ro" his gi nt si' !o#r st t#re nd be r h#gs "e. Oh% d d don2t h#g ny h rder yo# "ight h#rt the b bies. .h t2s ridi$#lo#s so#nding b#t 12" "o" no&. 1 h ve right to be prote$tive. 91 "issed yo# too d ddy.; 1 kiss his $heek nd he sets "e b $k onto the !loor in "y b re !eet. 9Co"e on nd dig in g#ys.; -y "o" $ lls !ro" the kit$hen. 1 !ollo& behind "y d d nd St $y is lre dy sitting do&n t the t ble nd he looks good. ShitC ,ho " 1 kidding= +e looks ! nt sti$. B#t he l& ys looks th t & y even i! he2s not sho&ered !or t&o d ys nd h s been o#tside &orking. Not s#re &here he gets his se'iness !ro" b#t he h s eno#gh !or !ive people.

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nd g rli$ bre d "o" this looks deli$io#s.; 1 look over the spre d. -y "o" the

&onder!#l $ook. No& th t 1 did pi$k #p !ro" her. ,e serve o#rselves nd the roo" is (#iet. 1 think &e re ll on edge to he r bo#t St $y2s visit &ith his "o". 9Ok... g#ys. Sheesh% don2t p#ll "y r" o!! or nything.; St $y s ys &ith s"irk. 9.he visit &ent !ine. Better th n !ine in so"e & ys. -y "o" & s ni$er th n nor" l nd she still re"e"bers "e nd &h t2s she2s done nd she spent h l! o! the d y pologi>ing. 1 think &itho#t ll the l$ohol nd dr#gs in her syste" she h s !in lly h d ti"e to re!le$t on "y $hildhood nd she see"ed s d bo#t it. She even s#rprised "e &hen she sked to see yo#.; +e nods t "e o#r eyes lo$ked into e $h other2s. 9Oh ye h= ,ell th t2s ! nt sti$.; 1 !ork pile o! l s gn into "y "o#th. .he $heese nd "e t is so dele$t ble. 1t t stes better th n 1 re"e"ber. 4rob bly h s so"ething to do &ith the ! $t 1 " no& $ rrying t&o b bies. 1 don2t think th t2ll ever sink in. 912" h ppy bo#t it. +elped $lose !e& p in!#l "e"ories & y 1 g#ess yo# $o#ld s y.; 91 " so gl d yo# nd yo#r "other re getting long no& St $y. 1t2s l& ys been h rd on yo#. B#t /#st re"e"ber &e re yo#r ! "ily nd i! ever need #s !or nything don2t hesit te to sk.; -y "o" s ys. Al& ys the hospit ble s&eet &o" n. 9.h nks g#ysH so ho& & s the do$s tod y=; St $y pro"pts obvio#sly trying to get o!! the topi$ o! his "other. 96ine.; 1 "#tter nd bite into pie$e o! bre d. Oh this b#tter nd g rli$ nd s lt is divine. 1 li$k "y !ingers. -y "o" eyes "e like 1 h ve t&o he ds. So s#e "e "o" 1 love yo#r $ooking. 9@id the do$tors h ve nything to s y bo#t yo#r $ondition=; "y "o" sks. 9+er $ondition=; St $y $hi"es in. Oh not nother !#$king thing to de l &ith. 1 never told hi" bo#t "y proble" &hi$h doesn2t see" like so "#$h o! proble" no&. 95e h )"2s )ndo"etriosis.; 9+er &h t=; he sks his voi$e is !#ll o! $on!#sion nd "is#nderst nding. 1t2s big &ord 1 g#ess to try to s y let lone #nderst nd. 9@on2t yo# kno&=; she gl n$es t "e p#>>led. 9)"ily & s di gnosed eight ye rs go &ith it. 1t "e ns she h s ne't to no $h n$e o! getting pregn nt ever. .iss#e gro&s &here it sho#ldn2t inside her body nd $ #ses in!ertility. +er $ se is dv n$ed $$ording to @r. Shells.; 1 " serio#sly beginning to think &e "ight need to $he$k his $redenti ls. 9.he l st ti"e she & s in there they &ere &orried she $o#ld only keep her #ter#s " ybe t&o or three "ore ye rs be!ore they2d h ve to re"ove it nd ll the tiss#e.; +e looks t "e nd his eyes &iden.

91t isn2t s b d s it so#nds St $y.; 1 dd. 9And 1 don2t kno& bo#t this &hy=; he so#nds h#rt. 91t2s "y !e" le p rts. 1t2s not gener lly $o""on topi$ o! o#r $onvers tions. 1 didn2t think it & s big de l. 1t2s p rt o! &ho 1 ". 1 $ n2t $h nge it nd it2s not li!e thre tening.; 9OkH B#t yo# $ n2t h ve $hildren nd yo# didn2t think th t & s so"ething 1 sho#ld kno&=; he s$o&ls. 1 $hoke on "y spit nd pi$k #p "y gl ss o! & ter nd sip on it. 9.h t2s not the $ se ny"ore.; 1 "#r"#r #nder "y bre th. 1 re $h do&n nd p#ll "y p#rse #p !ro" the !loor nd into "y l p so 1 $ n sho& the b bies pi$t#res ro#nd &hen the ti"e $o"es. .he ti"e is $o"ing 1 $ n !eel it. 1 " so nervo#s "y he rt is po#nding in "y $hest. 9,h t did yo# s y=; "y "o" sks. 1 #n>ip "y p#rse nd sn t$h #p the pi$t#res nd the p "phlet. 91 don2t h ve in!ertility proble"s like the do$tor tho#ght. 1s &h t 1 "e nt to s y.; 1 gently l y the sonogr " pi$t#res nd the booklet in the "iddle o! the t ble. -y "o"% d d nd St $y ll le n in nd peer t the booklet th t2s lying on top o! the photos. 9,h t2s th t=; "y "o" looks t it nd b $k t "e nd the pile g in. +er voi$e is so!t nd !illed &ith $on$ern. - n "y d d is (#iet he h sn2t b rely s id t&o &ords ll night. .his is so not like hi". 9.h t.; 1 / " "y !inger on the booklet. 91s &h t the do$tor g ve to "e tod y !ter "y e' " nd tests. And those.; 1 slide the sonogr " photos o#t !ro" #nder the booklet. 9Are pi$t#res o! yo#r gr nd$hildren.; )veryone eyes &iden l rge nd ll "o#ths drop open si"#lt neo#sly. +ey% t le st 1 & sn2t the only one in sho$k &hen this h ppened. .hey h ve e $h other !or s#pport 1 h d do$tor nd n#rse nd 1 " the one this is h ppening too. 9Co"e g in=; "y "o" sks slo&ly nd St $y nd "y ! ther re s still s st t#es. 91 " pregn nt. ,ith t&ins. 6ive &eeks long.; 1 bl#rt &ith "y $#p to "y "o#th. .hen 1 t ke sip. 9,ho2s the ! ther=; "y "o" sks $on!#sed nd looks over to St $y. 91t2s not hi".; 1 dd. 91t2s !#$king <ohn th n Striker th t2s &hoC .he "other !#$ker le d singer !ro" the b nd 1 " n ge. Son o! bit$h )"ily. Not only did yo# serio#sly !#$k #p by s$re&ing the d#de on$e. 5o#2re no&

h ving not one o! his b bies b#t t&oC; St $y yells nd thro&s his $h ir b $k it ! lls over &ith lo#d $r sh% nd st lks o#t o! the roo" &itho#t nother &ord. .e rs po#r do&n "y ! $e. 1 sn t$h #p "y b by2s pi$t#res nd "y p#rse nd 1 r#n o#t o! !ront door nd le ve in "y s#b#rb n. -y he rt h#rts so "#$h. 1 $ n2t believe St $y is th t ngry. 1 sho#ldn2t be s#rprised b#t 1 ". 1 drive nd 1 drive in the d rk o#t into the $o#ntry. :o&s nd ro&s o! $orn line the t&o l ne ro ds. 1 t#rned "y $ell phone o!! &hen 1 le!t. .he te rs keep $o"ing nd 1 $ n2t help b#t $ry. 1 h te thisC 1 h te the p in. )ver sin$e 1 &ent to &ork &ith St $y p in h s been !ore!ront in "y li!e. 1 & nt to be s d bo#t being pregn nt b#t 12" not. 12" h ppy in & y. 1 & nt these b bies. ,ith or &itho#t nyone2s help. 1 p#ll over into n b ndoned "otel p rking lot. 1t2s no& !o#r in the "orning nd 1 " too tired to drive ho"e tonight. 1 lo$k the tr#$ks doors. +op into the b $k over the se ts. C#rl #p &ith "y s&e tshirt 1 h d in the b $k nd dri!t o!!.

Chapter Fifteen
.he s#n is shining thro#gh "y tr#$ks &indo& &hen 1 & ke #p in the b $k o! "y tr#$k. 1t2s so be #ti!#l in the $o#ntry. .h t2s so"ething yo#2d never get in the $ity this "#$h !l t r#r l l nd. 1 sit #p nd stret$h. .i"e to ! $e the "#si$. 1 $li"b over into the driver2s se t nd po&er on "y $ell. 1t pings !or t&o "in#tes str ight. 6ive voi$e " ils nd thirty !ive te'ts. 1 serio#sly don2t & nt to re d the" b#t 1 &ill be$ #se 1 h ve to kno& &h t 1 & lking b $k into &hen 1 go ho"e. 1 kno& "y "o" is going to be !#rio#s one be$ #se 1 skipped o#t nd t&o be$ #se 1 " pregn nt &ith ro$k st rs b bies. Not very responsible% she2ll prob bly s y. Not th t 1 bl "e her it & sn2t responsible t ll on "y p rt. 1 $li$k thro#gh "y te'ts ll o! the" re !ro" St $y. St rting &ith* What the "uck were you thinking( 6ollo&ed by b#n$h th t s y Where are you( #m sorry) please come home. # shouldnt have said that its not your "ault. *ust come home and kick my ass "or $eing a dick. .he l st te't & s /#st sent bo#t ten "in#tes go $$ording to "y log. +ou are scaring me $a$e. Please. Please. ,ome home. We need you to come. +our mom is "reaking out. +our dad le"t "or work. Please dont do this. We will work this out. *ust come home. 1 p#t the tr#$k in drive nd t ke the s$eni$ t&enty "in#te ride ho"e. 4 ssing bright green $orn!ield !ter $orn!ield on the & y. 1 p#ll #p o#t !ront o! "y p rents $re " 3i$tori n nd "y "o" nd St $y re both sitting on the por$h s&ing. .hey both st nd i""edi tely nd $o"e po#nding do&n the !ront steps nd "eet "e t the driver2s side o! "y tr#$k. 9,here the hell h ve yo# been=; "y "o" sks her voi$e is so!t nd lo& b#t 1 $ n tell she2s ngry. ,hi$h is !ine% she is entitled. 91 drove ro#nd nd then ! ll sleep in p rking lot.; 1 p#sh "y & y p st the" nd go #p the st irs. 95o# $ n2t & lk & y !ro" this little "issy. 5o# need to t lk to #s.; St $y $#ts in on$e 1 hit the por$h. 9OhH So no& yo# & nt to t lk=; 1 stop nd hiss% st ring str ight he d. 1 $ n2t even look t hi" or so"e serio#s violen$e "ight bre k o#t.

95o# & nt to yell t "e nd tell "e "y b bies re "ist ke nd 12" s#pposed to ,AN. to t lk to yo#=; 1 prote$tively $over "y belly &ith "y h nd% ngrily y nk the !ront door open nd st lk the rest o! the & y into the ho#se le ving it &ide open. 91 kno& 1 deserve th t.; +e2s right on "y t il. 9B#t 12" sorry. 1 $ n2t s y 12" h ppy bo#t ll o! this b#t 1 don2t & nt to lose o#r !riendship.; +is voi$e is lo& nd t inted &ith s dness. 1 toss "y !lip0!lops on the gro#nd nd sn p "y body ro#nd to ! $e hi". 1 !ind "y "o" is st nding in the !ront door !r "e. A s#llen look " rking her yo#th!#l ! $e. 9.hese.; 1 point to "y belly. 9,ere never s#pposed to h ppen.; 1 inh le gi nt bre th. 9)3):C 1n "y li!e. A$$ording to "y do$tors. Not &itho#t "edi$ l help nyho&.; 1 shr#g !r#str ted. 91 " y not & nt to be "other right no& nd this " y not be the -OS. 1@)AL $ir$#"st n$e. B?.000 1 " NO. going to s y 1 " sorry !or being pregn nt &ith the". 16 this is "y one $h n$e in "y ,+OL) li!e to h ve b by nd 1 get t&o. 1 $onsider "ysel! l#$ky. )ven i! these b bies /#st so h ppen to h ve "isogynist sshole !or ! ther. As ! r s 1 " $on$erned he doesn2t h ve to h ve !#$king thing to do &ith the". 1 $ n do this on "y O,N nd 1 ,1LL. ,ith or &itho#t yo#.; 1 / " "y !inger thro#gh the ir bet&een #s t hi". 1 t#rn to le ve nd he gr bs "y r" p#lling "e into h#g. 1 let "y h nds ! lls to "y sides nd he2s the only one doing the h#gging. 91 &ill be here. 1 &ill do &h tever yo# & nt.; +e $ resses "y b $k so!tly #nder "y long h ir. 91 $ n2t lose yo#. Asshole ro$ker ! ther or not. 1 " still their #n$le or "ore i! yo# & nt th t.; A gentle kiss is pressed to "y !orehe d. 9,e don2t even h ve to tell hi" nd 1 $ n r ise the" s "y o&n. 5o# don2t h ve to be &ith "e !or #s to do th t. 4eople do th t ll the ti"e. .hey h ve b bies together nd don2t even sleep in the s "e ho#se. ,e $o#ld. 1 $o#ld h ve bedroo" nd yo# $o#ld h ve nother nd the kids $o#ld sh re. 1 d#nno; he shr#gs his sho#lders. 9,e $o#ld &ork nything o#t. <#st don2t h te "e nd don2t t ke yo#rsel! nd the" !ro" "e. 4L)AS).; +e2s begging. 1 &r p "y r"s ro#nd hi" nd sob into hi". .e rs !lo&ing do&n "y $heeks. 1 l& ys kne& St $y & s &onder!#l b#t this is &hole other level. .o o!!er to t ke $ re o! the" s his o&n. 8od $o#ld 1 h ve gotten ny l#$kier in pi$king best !riend= +e is " >ingC On ll !rontsC -y ! $e is st#!!ed into his ro$k h rd $hest nd 1 $ n he r his soothing he rtbe t. B#t 1 $ n he r "y "o" $rying in the door& y. 1 #nl t$h h l!& y !ro" St $y "y right r" still l t$hed onto hi". 1 open "y other o#t &ide to &el$o"e "y "other2s e"br $e. She r#ns into "y r" nd &e ll three h#g nd "y "o" nd 1 sob together like little kids. 9.h nk yo# St $y !or being so &onder!#l.; 1 sob% $linging to the t&o "ost i"port nt people in "y li!e other th n "y little !et#ses.

912d do nything !or yo# )"% yo# kno& th t.; +e kisses the top o! "y he d% 1 $ n he r hi" inh ling "y s$ent. And 1 /#st "elt. .his is the "ost " >ing " n on the pl net nd 1 $ n2t see" to #nderst nd ho& &o" n $ n2t keep hi" or " n !or th t " tter. +e deserves to be h ppy nd loved nd h ve ! "ily o! his o&n. 1 &ish 1 $o#ld give th t to hi". 1 $ n2t b#t 1 &ish 1 $o#ld. 1! only 1 $o#ld t p into "y br in nd " ke "ysel! love hi" in the & y lovers do. 1 &o#ld do it !or hi". B#t the tho#ght o! sleeping &ith St $y isn2t se'# l one. 1t $reeps "e o#t nd " kes "e & nt to thro& #p. 1t2s like h ving se' &ith yo#r brother &hi$h is so not good !eeling. ,e bre k & y !ro" the h#g nd 1 kiss hi" on the $heek. 1 $ n2t bring "ysel! to tell hi" th t &h t he is proposing &ill prob bly never h ppen b#t 1 $ n2t r#in the s$ending "ood. ,e go into the living roo" nd 1 $#rl #p ne't to hi" on the $o#$h. 1 thro& the bl nket over "y legs nd &e t ngle o#r bodies together. +e !eels so good g inst "y skin. 1 love this " nC 9+o& bo#t 1 " ke #p so"e te .; -y "o" s#ggests &ith s"ile st nding in the door& y to the kit$hen. ,iping her p#!!y eyes $le n o! te rs. 9C n 1 h ve te still=; She $h#$kles so s&eetly. 95es d rling b#t it &ill h ve to be de$ !. 12ll " ke #s so"e nd &e $ n t lk bo#t yo#r pregn n$y. St $e do yo# & nt so"e=; +e nods &ith s"ile nd pl $es gentle loving kiss #pon "y te"ple. 1 s(#ee>e hi" tighter. 9+o& did 1 ever get so l#$ky to h ve s#$h &onder!#l best !riend=; 1 n#>>le his $hest &ith "y nose. +e s"ells like $ologne nd $ho$ol te. 91 &onder the s "e thing every d y o! "y li!e.; +e s ys nd p#shes "y & vy h ir !ro" "y ! $e nd kisses "y !orehe d g in. +is lips re so so!t nd he rt& r"ing. 8od 1 " l#$ky to h ve hi". )spe$i lly no&. -y "o" reenters into the living roo" nd h nds "e &hite "#g o! te .h t "ight !i' "y " /or ever gro&ing n'iety iss#es. 9SoH&onder!#l d #ghter o! "ine. 1 kno& 1 h ven2t gotten $h n$e to &eigh in. 1 /#st & nt yo# to kno& !ro" yo#r ! ther nd 12s perspe$tive &e re h ppy. 1 kno& it2s not the "ost ide l !or yo# to be pregn nt &itho#t h#sb nd. B#t yo#2re pregn nt% &hi$h is "ore th n &e $o#ld h ve ever dre "ed !or. And i! yo# need nything !ro" #s yo# l& ys kno& &e &ill be there.; 9.h nks "o" yo# kno& th t "e ns lot to "e. 5o# nd d d h ve l& ys been gre t to "e nd St $y.; 1 kiss his shirt $overed $hest. 912" sorry 1 $o#ldn2t bring " n &ith "e into this sit# tion. B#t 1 pro"ise 1 &on2t sk !or "#$h. 1 /#st need yo# to be gr nd" nd gr ndp nd spoil the $r p o#t o! nd St $y the s "e. 9.h nks "o".; 1 s y &ith $rooked gen#ine s"ile. 1 " e'h #sted. 1 need n p nd loboto"y.

these little t&o.; 1 r#b "y t#""y nd St $y sets his te do&n on the end t ble nd pl $es his h nd over "ine. 91 &ill t ke $ re o! her -o" 1 pro"ise.; St $y s ys r#bbing his h nd $ross "y belly. 91 kno& yo# &ill St $y% yo# t&o h ve "ore o! !#n$tion l rel tionship th n "ost " rried $o#ples.; She re d/#sts on the love se t% $rossing her legs. 9So honey do yo# h ve ny (#estions on yo#r pregn n$y= 1 think 1 $o#ld help &ith the (#estions. Not only !ro" "others point o! vie& b#t n#rses. 1 do &ork &ith little b bies every d y.; .h t g#ides #s into t&o0ho#r $onvers tion o! "e nd St $y sking "y "o" tho#s nd (#estions. Like ho& "#$h &eight 1 " going to g in= ,hi$h 1 g#ess depends on the &o" n. B#t "y "o" s id &ith $ rrying t&ins 1 &ill "ost likely g in !i!ty% i! 1 " nything like her. .h t see"s like lot o! &eight on "y s" ll body. 1 kno& 1 don2t kno& ho& "#$h 1 &eigh b#t 1 !ig#re 1 " so"e&here ro#nd one t&enty only be$ #se "y b#tt is h#ge nd "y boobs re l rge. No& dding !i!ty po#nds to "y !r "e 1 &ill look like the 8oodye r bli"p by the ti"e 1 " re dy to deliver. 1 & s even l#$ky eno#gh to !ind o#t th t 1 &ill "ost likely h ve "orning si$kness !or the ne't t&o "onths% "y bre sts &ill s&ell nd !ill &ith $olostr#"% 1 &ill get " ssive "o#nts o! stret$h " rks nd 1 "ight s &ell kiss "y tiny !eet good0bye s they &ill prob bly pl#"p #p to be the si>e o! & ter"elons long &ith "y ss. Oh% the /oys o! be$o"ing "o". And to be honest 1 &o#ld t ke th t nd !i!ty "ore things i! it "e nt in the end 1 deliver t&o he lthy b bies. .he lighter notes "y "o" de$ided to t $k on s !iller to " ke "y n'iety level si""er do&n & s the ! $t th t 1 &ill "ost likely glo&. Not like lightening b#g b#t "y skin &ill r di te & r"th. Or so"e h ppy horseshit like th t. Also% 1 &ill be ble to !eel the b bies "ove in !e& "onths% &hi$h 1 " serio#sly looking !or& rd to nd to top o!! the 8OO@ list. 1s th t 1 " s#pposed to be horny ll the ti"e. Like & lking org s" or th t2s kind o! ho& "y "o" p#t it. 1 re!#sed to sk i! she & s th t & y &hen she & s pregn nt &ith "e. Kno&ing her nd "y d d h d to h ve se' to $on$eive "e is b d eno#gh. .he tho#ght "ight $t# lly s$ r "e !or li!e. .he rest o! the night goes r ther s"oothly. 1 t ke dip in the $l & !oot t#b. 4 d ro#nd the ho#se in "y ne&est 4< p#r$h se. A p ir o! s"iley ! $e bo'ers they h ve g#it rs on the" nd the s"iley ! $es h ve -oh &k2s. .hey2re "en2s si>e "edi#" nd r#n little big b#t 1 pre!er the" th t & y nd !inding o#t bo#t the b bies 1 "ight get l#$ky eno#gh nd be ble to &e r the" "y entire pregn n$y. 6ingers $rossed. -y "o" ordered pi>> % St $y nd 1 lo#nged on the $o#$h t ngled #p together like l& ys. St $y holding "e l& ys !eels so ni$e. 1t2s like big $o"!y bl nket &r pped in #ni$orns dipped in $ho$ol te nd rolled in p#re h ppiness. -o" s t on the love se t in her pl id night p nts nd b ggy .. St $e h d

on bl#e gy" shorts nd yello& shirt. 4op$orn & s st#!!ed by the !ist!#l into o#r "o#ths thro#gho#t the night s "ovie !ter "ovie pl yed on "y p rent2s !l t s$reen. 1t & s so rel 'ing !ter spending &h t !eels like the p st "onth dro&ning in n'iety nd stress.

Chapter Si!teen
.he entire &eek &ith "y p rents nd St $y &ent by in the blink on n eye. A!ter the initi l pregn n$y revel tion nd St $y2s pologeti$ s#rprise !ro" his "other the rest o! the &eek p ssed r ther si"ply nd $o"!ort bly. 1t & s the :I: &e needed. Over ten "ovies &ere & t$hed% o#r ! $es &ere st#!!ed every d y &ith deli$io#s !ood "y "o" $ooked. ,e slept in l te every "orning nd & t$hed the s#n go do&n s&inging on the por$h. 1t & s the kind o! li!e yo#2d l& ys dre "ed bo#t b#t r rely lived. ,ith o#r b#sy lives nd s$hed#les it2s h rd to sit b $k nd en/oy li!e nd the s" ll things yo# t ke !or gr nted. Like & t$hing St $y e t !i!teen b#tters$ot$h $ookies in one sitting nd $o"pl ining o! sto" $h $he !ter& rd. Or going to bed l te nd st ying #p re"ising bo#t li!e &ith yo#r best !riend in the s "e bedroo" yo# spent ye rs bonding together s teen gers. .his &hole p st &eek &e r rely t lked bo#t Kyle or <ohn th n or the b nd e'$ept &hen 1 r n so"e ide s 1 h d $h n$e to &ork on by hi". 1 spent ho#rs &hen he & s visiting his "o" nd his #nt /otting do&n ide s nd se r$hing "y l ptop. 8oogle is the best invention kno&n to " nkind% 1 s&e r. 1 kno& St $y bro#ght "e into the b nd to help &hen he t kes ti"e o!!. 1 " $ p ble o! doing nd the ro dies re set on ho& they sse"ble nd dis sse"ble the sets. +e2s t #ght the" so &ell% they r rely need ddressed. So in ddition to " king s#re the b nds gigs go o!! &itho#t hit$h 1 de$ided to p#t "y 4.: degree to so"e #se. 1 st#died " inly &ith p#bli$ rel tions t N5? b#t 1 lso took e'tr $l sses in " rketing to " ke "ysel! "ore $o"petitive in the &orkpl $e. ,ith those both #nder "y belt 1 h ve so"e gre t ide s 1 & nt to propose to the "en on$e &e get b $k to the b#s &hi$h is p rked in , shington @.C re dy !or o#r ne't gig. )ight "ore &eeks o! this to#r both in the ?S nd "oving into C n d nd 1 " hoping to #se the ti"e !ter& rd to pro"ote the b nd !#rther. 1 &ill &ork the "edi nd " rketing nd St $y greed to help &ith pl nning nd ven#es. ,e serio#sly " ke n " >ing &ell0 ro#nded te ". ,e re no& !lying !ro" 6ort , yne to @.C. in $o $h. 1 re!#se to #se p rt o! "y "e sly 32k ye r s l ry to !ly !irst0$l ss. 1 $ lled @r. Shells to be s#re 1 " llo&ed to still !ly be!ore 1 booked o#r @.C !light. +e & s $on!ident th t 1 &o#ld be !ine to !ly #ntil 1 hit bo#t t&enty !o#r &eeks% !ter th t he & nts it stri$tly gro#nd tr nsport tions. +e s id &ith nor" l pregn nt &o" n he2d dvise the" to stop !ter thirty t&o &eeks b#t "e $ rrying t&ins he didn2t & nt to $h n$e it. 1 " !#lly on bo rd &ith th t. So no& St $y is sleeping &ith he dphones on / ""ing to "#si$ on his i4hone. 4rob bly Stri$ken or 1$e the -onkey. ,hi$h is ne& b nd - gi$ re$ords signed bo#t si' "onths go. .hey /#st

rele sed their !irst lb#" <#ngle Bit$h th t /#st so h ppens to be the title o! their n#"ber one hit. A$$ording to St $e the b nd &ill be opening !or Stri$ken the l st !ive sho&s o! this to#r. 12ve spent the p st ho#r nd h l! on o#r !light re ding pregn n$y book on "y Nook. 12ve do&nlo ded t&elve nd gotten thro#gh t&o so ! r. 12" no& in "y si'th &eek nd $$ording to "y phones ne& pp e $h b by is ppro'i" tely the si>e o! po"egr n te seed. 1 h ven2t h d ny "ore si$kness sin$e vo"iting t the do$s. 1 & s n #se ted one night !ter 1 te sp ghetti nd "e tb lls. Other th n th t it2s been s"ooth s iling nd the e'$essive horniness h s yet to ki$k in. 12" still leveling o#t t "y nor" l horniness &hi$h is "ild nd only needs t ken $ re o! on$e or t&i$e "onth. Altho#gh 1 do h ve !eeling th t &ill $h nge soon eno#gh. 5 h "eC Or not. .he pilot /#st nno#n$ed o#r de$ent into @.C. 1 n#dge St $y &ith "y elbo& nd p#ll one o! his e r b#ds o#t. 9:ise nd shine be #ty (#een.; +e doesn2t s y &ord or "ove n in$h. No& 1 h ve the $hoi$e do 1 pl y ni$e or do 1 pl y dirty= .he n #ghty p rt o! "e s ys gr b his di$k% th t2ll & ke hi" #p. .he $onserv tive side is telling "e to be ni$e nd & ke hi" on$e &e l nd. 1 de$ide to go &ith so"ething in the "iddle nd 1 le n #p nd li$k his ! $e !ro" his $hin to his !orehe d in one r ther &et s&oop. 9Ah% hellC )"% &h t & s th t !or=; he & kes his ! $e is s$r#n$hed% grossed o#t. +e #ses the b $k o! his h nd to &ipe the slobber o!! his ! $e. 1 giggle little n #ghty l #gh 91 tried to & ke yo#. 5o# didn2t "ove so it & s either th t or gr b yo#r b lls. 1 de$ided the li$k & s ni$er. 5o# l#$ked o#t.; 1 te sed nd pretended nd in slo& -o th t 1 & s going to gr b is b lls. 1 e'tend "y r" over his se t r" nd 1 st rt "y des$ent bet&een his legs. +e gr bs "y h nd ! st nd s(#ee>es it. .hen he gently l ys it on o#r "#t# l r"rest. 9See th t2s better. 5o#2re right the li$k & s better.; +e shoots "e &i$ked s"ile. 91 kne& yo#2d see it "y & y.; 1 r#b the side o! his r" lovingly. O#r &eek together h s bro#ght #s even $loser together i! th t & s possible. +e2s " de "e h ppier th n 12ve been in long ti"e /#st being ro#nd hi". .he "o" st#!! &ith hi" 1 think h s helped lot &ith his intern l str#ggles nd in t#rn he2s st rted to he l !ro" his p st. 1 $o#ldn2t be "ore th nk!#l !or th t. 1 le n over St $y2s l p% "y h ir ! ll ro#nd "y ! $e nd 1 peer o#t the &indo&. ,e re /#st bo#t to l nd. 1 $ n see the r#n& y #nderne th the pl ne. 9Sit b $k &e re bo#t to l nd.; +e s ys. 1 sn p #p nd p#t "y h nd on the se t on !ront o! "e. ,hen the &heels hit the p ve"ent "y body le $hes !or& rd nd 1 br $e "ysel!. .his is the &orst p rt o! the &hole !lying e'perien$e.

8etting o#t o! the pl ne nd do&n to the b gg ge $l i" & s (#i$k nd p inless. < "es p rked -er$edes S?3 by the e'it nd St $y nd 1 got in &itho#t hit$h. 9+o& & s yo#r bre k < "es=; 1 sk hi" &hile 1 re $h over nd ! sten "y se t belt ne't to St $y &ho de$ides to ni' the s !ety h rness. 93ery ni$e -iss Bron&yn. .h nk yo#.; +e s ys politely. Al& ys so p#n$t# l nd proper. 1! he & sn2t driving #s to the to#r b#s right no& 1 " s#re he &o#ld h ve bo&ed. 9Are the boys b $k t the b#s lre dy= Or re they rriving l ter on=; 9Ah yes% -r. Striker% -r. -oyer% -r. @ob2s nd -r. ,elling ll rrived e rlier this "orning. - 2 ".; 9@o yo# ever #se o#r !irst n "es or is it l& ys this !or" l &ith yo#= < "es.; 91 h ve been given instr#$tions to #se &hi$hever. Being in the - rine Corps !or t&elve ye rs nd eight ye rs &orking !or intern l !! irs 12ve been tr ined to #se s#rn "es% not !irst. An $(#ired t ste 1 s#ppose.; +e replies evenly. @igni!ied nd !or" l. ,hi$h p#ts hi" little over !orty. 9So &hy do &e #se yo#r !irst n "e=; .h t see"s like logi$ l (#estion to "e. ,hy &o#ld he be the only one #sing proper s#rn "es nd &e re st#$k #sing his !irst. 9< "es is "y l st n "e " 2 ". C lvin is &h t "y "other n "ed "e.; 1 $ n he r s"ile in his voi$e. +e kno&s he $ #ght "e o!! g# rd. 9Ah% &ell C lvin < "es 12" gl d to see yo# g in.; 1 voi$e & r"ly. 1 need to sho& hi" 1 do $ re !or hi". 1! he is going to be o#r n#"ber one bodyg# rd 1 & nt hi" to like "e. .en "in#tes l ter nd &e p#ll #p o#tside the to#r b#s p rked behind the 3eri>on Center. .he ! ns re lre dy lined #p o#tside trying to get ny gli"pse o! one o! the g#ys. 8ro#pies re relentless% 1 s&e r. < "es gets o#t !irst nd opens "y door nd o!!ers his h nd. 1 t ke it nd St $y s$oots o#t behind "e. All the & y into the b#s < "es blo$ks "y body !ro" the $ro&ds vie& th t is gro&ing in n#"ber right behind !en$e. 1nside ll the g#ys re sitting on the $o#$h 1 b rely look t the". 1 don2t & nt to see <ohn th n yet nd they2re pres#" bly t lking bo#t ho& their short v $ tion &ent. < "es $ rries in "y b g nd drops it on the !loor by "y b#nk. 9,e $le ned o#t t&o dr &ers !or yo#.; 1 he r Keith s y eyeing "e !ro" the $o#$h. 9.h nks. ,hi$h ones=;

9.he shortest ones o! $o#rse.; +e $h#$kles nd gets #p nd & lks over to "e. 9.hose botto" t&o.; +e ki$ks the" &ith his did s. 95o# kno& yo# g#ys didn2t h ve to do th t. 1 & s doing !ine living o#t o! "y s#it $ se it & s so ro$k nd roll !ter ll.9 1 s y bending over to open the dr &ers nd #n>ip "y b g to #np $k. 9.h t2s &h t 1 told the g#ys b#t they didn2t listen.; @ $hi"es in !ro" the $o#$h. 1 $ n2t see his ! $e. 9,h tever @ yo# /#st & nted to keep those t&o !or yo#r si$k shit.; Keith s ys. 9,h t shit=; 1 t#$k "y h ir behind "y e rs nd t#rn "y g >e #p to hi" !ro" the !loor th t 1 " no& kneeling on. 9@on2t yo# d re !#$king tell her Keith.; @ & rns d rkly. 9Oh% $o""on @.; Keith t #nts% 1 $ n he r the s"ile in his tone. 1 l y "y !olded $lothes on the !loor ne't to the open dr &er. 9@e $on h d th t botto" dr &er st#!!ed !#ll o! &o" n2s p nties th t he2s pi$ked #p over the to#r s so#venirs.; St $y $hi"es in kneeling beside "e &ith n #ghty s"ile. +e2s so going to he r it !ro" @. 1 don2t $ re% it2s !#nny nd 1 $over "y "o#th to hold b $k l #gh. 9Ah. 1 see.; 1 s y ne rly $hoking on "y &ords. 1 don2t kno& ho& "#$h longer 1 $ n hold this l #gh b $k. 1t2s re lly disg#sting he2d keep p nties th t &o"en h ve &orn b#t it doesn2t s#rprise "e. Nothing bo#t th t " n does. 91 hope they & shed o#t the dr &er.; 1 &hisper to St $y. +e s"iles "y & y holding b $k his o&n l #gh 91 do#bt it so 12d gr b the Cloro' &ipes !ro" #nder the sink to " ke s#re.; 9,h t the !#$k is &rong &ith yo# St $y=C; @ b rks% "y he rt /#st bo#t /#"ps o#t o! "y $hest he2s st nding right behind #s nd his ! $e is !illed &ith nger. 91t2s tr#e b#d. She & s going to !ind o#t one & y or nother.; St $e dds &ith grin. 8re t " ke hi" ngrier &hy don2t $h = 1 le ve the" to it nd t#rn ro#nd to $r &l bet&een @2s legs nd Keith2s. <#st ! r eno#gh p rt th t 1 $ n !it. 1 need to go get those &ipes nd 1 need to p#t "y $lothes & y. .hey re ll lo$ked into bit$hing " t$h &ith St $y nd 1 kno& he $ n h ndle his o&n. +e2s bigger th n do#$he b g @e $on nyho&. 1 get thro#gh the legs nd t&o very l rge !eet ppe r in "y line o! sight. 9+ello )"ily% looking !or these.; +oly% "other o! god "y b bies d ddy is st nding right in !ront o! "e holding the Cloro' &ipes nd he is /#st s se'y s 1 re"e"ber. - ybe little less se'y be$ #se he looks like he h sn2t slept in

like &eek. @ rk $ir$les en$ se his be #ti!#l green eyes. 4rob bly !ro" ll the se' he2s been h ving. ShitC No 1 $ n2t think bo#t th t. ,hy do 1 $ re= Oh% th t2s right 1 !re king love this " nC Oh shitC No 1 don2t. 1 h te hi". Ok y% " ybe h te isn2t the best &ord. 1 dislike hi" lot. @islike hi" !ro" h#rting "e% dislike hi" !or bre king "y he rt nd h ting hi" right no& be$ #se 1 $ n !eel "y he rt $hing g in nd it h sn2t !elt like th t in ne rly !ive d ys. And the b#tter!lies re b $k !l#ttering in "y d "n sto" $h. .his h s got to stop. 1 need to go thro#gh <ohn th n deto'. - ybe i! 1 $ ll one o! his l st ten &o" n they $o#ld give "e tips on ho& to get p st this. No% th t2s prob bly b d ide . .hey "ight be &orse o!! th n 1 " nd 1 &o#ld h te to r#b s lt in their &o#nds. 1t2s b d eno#gh "ine re b rely "ending. 9)"ily.; +e sn ps his !ingers to get "y ttention. Oh !#$k 1 >oned o#t g in. ,h t2s &rong &ith "e= @ "nit "y "o#th is h nging open like !#$king dog nd 1 " on ll !o#rs% st ring str ight #p t this hot ro$ker. 1 h ve got to get "y shit together nd ! st. Step one sh#t yo#r !#$king "o#th. 1 sh#t it. Step t&o s y so"ething. 9Oh #"% sorry.; 1 "#tter. Oh gre t )"% s"ooth% re l s"ooth. Ne't ti"e &hy don2t yo# /#st kiss his boot nd tell hi" ho& "#$h yo# &orship hi"= 12" p theti$C +e holds o#t his h nd. 1 ignore it nd get #p o!! the !loor ll on "y o&n. 1 " going to h ve to do lot o! things on "y o&n in the ne't $o#ple o! "onths. Consider this test "ent to "y gro&ing "otherhood st t#s. ) t th t ssb gC +ell yesC 12" b $kC 6 $ing hi" 1 br#sh o!! "y /e ns like 1 h ve so"ething on the". 5ep% 12" b $k in ro$ker ge r. A$t# l /e n p nts L#$ky br nd 1 think. 1 d#nno e' $tly St $y s id they &ere bit$hen br nd or so"ething like th t nd 1 h ve on tight yello& t0shirt printed &ith nerd $ ndy on it. .ot l high s$hool geek lert b#t 1 tho#ght it & s $#te. 9C n 1 h ve those=; 1 re $h o#t to t ke the &ipes !ro" his h nds. 1 look #p to his ! $e to see i! he is going to do this ni$ely or is the ngry b nter going to st rt #p s soon s 1 get on this d "n to#r b#s g in. Not th t 1 "ind. 12d r ther rg#e &ith hi" into stronger dislike th n hi" be ni$e to "e nd " ke "e & nt to to#$h hi" nd $ ress his so!t t ttooed skin. ,hi$h is so d "n !ineC <es#s% listen to "e 1 " t#rning into gro#pie. 9,hy don2t h ve 1 h ve @ $le n o#t the dr &er= 1t & s his so#venirs th t $ont "in ted it.; +e s ys ni$ely. Oh &hy don2t yo# be di$k= .h t &o#ld be so ni$e right bo#t no&. 91 $ n do it /#st give "e the &ipes. 4le se.; +e sh kes his he d.

9@.; he s ys nd gets no response. 1 t#rn nd see @e $on in deep $onvers tion &ith Keith nd St $y. Not n ngry one either. 9See he2s b#sy. <#st give the" to "e <ohn th n.; 1 hold o#t old "y h nd. +o& h rd does it h ve to be to get so"e !#$king &ipes= 9@C 6#$king listen to "e " nC; he yells ignoring "e. 9,h tC=; @e $on yells nd t#rns ro#nd. <ohn th n & lks p st "e nd sl ps the &ipes into @2s h nds. 95o# &ipe o#t both o! those dr &ers yo# #sed. She; he peers b $k t "e. 9@oesn2t need to be $le ning #p p#ssy /#i$es o#t o! her ne& dr &ers. .h t2s yo#r "ess% yo# $le n it #p.; +e s ys !ir"ly nd "oves p st the $ro&ded h ll nd goes into his bedroo" nd sl "s the door sh#t &itho#t nother &ord.

Chapter Se enteen
.he rest o! l st night &ent s"oothly. 1 p#t & y "y $lothes !ter @ $le ned o#t "y dr &ers. All "y ne& $lothes !it in !ine. ,hen &e &ere visiting "y p rents St $y nd 1 took so"e ti"e o#t nd hit #p !e& vint ge shops in , y!ort nd .he b#$kle store in the " ll. .h t2s &here 1 pi$ked #p the l#$ky /e ns nd the nerds shirt t "iddle o! the " ll kiosk. 1 lso dded !e& "ore ro$kin dresses to "y & rdrobe ones th t re little less tight be$ #se &ith "y gro&ing belly 1 don2t & nt to sho& it o!! right & y. ,e got so"e "ore /e ns th t re lo& $#t so pregn nt belly $ n !it over the" nd !e& shirts. 1 got l#$ky to !ind so"e &eso"e vint ge ite"s. St $y & s s#rprisingly re l h ppy &ith the p#r$h ses over ll. .he g#ys !or the rest o! the night pl yed video g "es nd te delivery pi>> th t < "es bro#ght in nd te &ith ll o! #s. <ohn th n didn2t le ve his roo" !ter the Cloro' in$ident nd < "es bro#ght hi" b $k so"e pi>> . 1 don2t like to see <ohn th n be$ #se it h#rts nd even "ore so no& th t 1 kno& 1 " h ving his t&ins. B#t 1 !eel like o! b d !or hi". 1t2s !ive in the "orning nd 1 /#st &oke #p nd he2s been lo$ked in his roo" sin$e l st night &hen &e got in. 12" & ke be$ #se there is h#ge "ob o! ! ns o#tside s$re "ing so 1 $ n2t sleep. .here $on$ert is tonight b#t 1 g#ess th t2s not good eno#gh !or the". @o they re li>e these "en re /#st th t= -)N. .hey don2t h ve s#per po&ers or godlike bilities. .hey pl y "#si$. 8ood "#si$. B#t this &hole $r >y ! n thing is getting on "y nerves. 1 slide open "y red $#rt in nd hop o#t o! "y b#nk. .o !ind St $y sitting & ke typing on his $o"p#ter on the le ther $o#$h. 9+ey yo#.; +e looks #p t "e &ith tired s"ile. 9+ey% &hy re yo# #p=; 1 sk plopping do&n beside hi" n#>>ling "y he d onto his sho#lder. 91 & s /#st going to sk yo# the s "e thing. 1 got #p bo#t n ho#r go. Co#ldn2t sleep "y "ind is reeling bo#t !e& things nd those !#$king &o" n o#tside re driving "e $r >y.; 95e h th t2s &hy 1 &oke #p too. 8#ess 1 better get #sed to being #p t !ive A.-.; 1 p t "y !l t belly. 95es yo# do.; +e rests his he d on top o! "ine th t2s still resting on his sho#lder. 9So &h t else y reeling bo#t=; 91 got !e& e" ils th t 1 $ n2t stop thinking bo#t.; 9And=; 1 press. 1 $ n tell he2s rel#$t nt to t lk bo#t it. B#t 12" lso too nosey to b $k do&n.

91 got n e" il !ro" "y se$ond e'0&i!e. App rently Kyle " iled so"ething to her ddress thinking 1 still live there nd she /#st & nted to let "e kno& nd tell "e she is !or& rding it to "e here. Not s#re ho& she kno&s 12" here #nless she $ lled the o!!i$e.; 9Kyle is sending yo# so"ething= Like &h t=; 91 h ve no ide . .h t2s &h t &orries "e. .h t l st ti"e 1 spoke to hi" & s !o#r ye rs go. She didn2t s y it & s p $k ge or note. 1 h ve no ide . 1! it h s his $ont $t in!o 1 think 1 &ill get hold o! hi" nd pologi>e like yo# s id. 12ve been thinking bo#t it nd 1 !eel horrible ho& 1 le!t things.; 98ood.; 1 kiss his sho#lder. 95o#2re gre t person St $e.; .he s$re "ing /#st got lo#der. 9.he &o" n o#t there h ve got to stop. 1! they & nt these g#ys to be re dy to ro$k to"orro& night they better.; 1 s y irrit ted. .he b#s door opens nd < "es ppe rs t the top o! the steps. 9+ey; he & ves t #s% s#rprised. 91 & s $o"ing to & ke yo# St $e. .he $ro&d is getting b d. .here re bo#t !ive h#ndred people o#t there p#shing on th t !en$e nd s the d &n ho#r ppro $hes it2s getting &orse. ,e re either going to h ve to go to hotel or $ ll the poli$e to $o"e nd o!!er so"e b $k #p to t "e the $ro&d. 1 h ve !eeling in the ne't ho#r they re going to p#sh thro#gh nd try to get into the b#s.; < "es s ys his eyes look sleepy. 1 don2t think he slept "#$h tonight. St $y st nds #p 9,here2s <i""y=; he sks < "es 9+e didn2t " ke it b $k in yesterd y. +is !light & s $ n$eled. .e' s h d h#ge stor" nd ll pl nes &ere gro#nded. +e sho#ld be here by tonight tho#gh.; 9And 1 " !inding o#t bo#t this no&= ,hy & sn2t 1 in!or"ed l st night=; St $e s$olds. +e2s in "eg &ork "ode. Ki$king ss nd t king n "es. +e2s s#perhot in his ele"ent. Best !riend kind o! hot. Not 1 & nt to s$re& his br ins o#t kind. No& th t2s gross. 912" /#st !inding o#t "ysel!. 1 got $ ll t&o ho#rs go &hen yo# &ere sleeping. 1 didn2t kno& he & sn2t lre dy in. 1 !ig#red he & s o#t doing r#ns. O!!i$e $ lls "e nd tells "e his pl ne is $ n$eled nd no& &e re st#$k &ith one less " n.9 < "es $#ts in. 9Ok y% yo# $ ll the lo$ l 4.@ tell the" &e need !o#r $r#isers to hold o!! the "ob. 12ll & ke Bri n #p nd tell hi" to st rt the b#s nd &e &ill get o#t o! here in the ne't ho#r% t&o " '. 12ll $ ll nd book #s into hotel &ith high se$#rity. ,e h ve to get this #nder &r ps no&. Or it "ight get #gly.; St $y b rks o!! orders in his serio#s voi$e. 1 think he "ight be s$ red. 9,hy is this going on no&=; 1 $hi"e in $on!#sed s to &hy &e2ve been on to#r !or &eeks nd &e never h d " /or "ob proble".

91t h ppens !ro" ti"e to ti"e. - inly &hen &e get e'tr press th t & kes the ! ns. 4l#s @.C is the only pl $e &e re pl ying t&o sho&s t the &hole to#r nd the only pl $e on this $o st. ,e didn2t book Ne& 5ork be$ #se 1 $o#ldn2t get #s de$ent ven#e &ith good se$#rity. All the ones 1 needed &ere booked solid on the d tes 1 needed. So &e h ve people tr veling to @C !ro" ll over the $o st. Not s#re &hy it " kes the" $r >ier b#t it2s h ppened be!ore. 4l#s &e re in h#ge $ity nd $lose to b#n$h o! other h#ge $ities. So !or those ! ns &ho didn2t get l#$ky eno#gh to get ti$kets &ithin the !irst !ive "in#tes they &ere posted !or s le they $o"e in to try nd get gli"pse nd prove they re the b nds n#"ber one ! n. 1t2s si$k b#t it2s ho& it &orks &hen yo#2re the n#"ber one b nd in the &orld right no&.; St $y ns&ers. 9All !orty tho#s nd ti$kets &ere sold in !ive "in#tes=; 1 " " >ed. 95e h% e'$ept like !i!ty &e get to keep !or spe$i l people or h ndo#ts.; 9+o& "#$h re the ti$kets !or ven#e like this=; 1 sk re li>ing 1 " t king #p to "#$h o! hi" i"port nt ti"e nd < "es lre dy le!t. 9,e h ve !o#r kinds t this ven#e. So nosebleed re O1MP then ne't step do&n re O2P0. .he !loor is O3MP nd the 314 &hi$h &e only h ve three h#ndred $ost OP2P. 1! yo# & nt b $kst ge p ss yo# h ve to be 314 nd p y n e'tr O2P0 to "eet the b nd nd &e only o!!er !i!ty o! those.; 1 think "y br in /#st !ell o#t o! "y he d nd is rolling $ross the gro#nd. 1 $ n2t believe people $t# lly p y th t kind o! "oney to see these g#ys. .h t2s n#ts. And here 1 " living in b#s &ith the"% bre thing the s "e ir% #sing the s "e b throo" nd sho&er nd sitting on the s "e $o#$h. +o& !#$king $ool is th t= 9Sorry 1 g#ess 1 didn2t think people &ere $r >y eno#gh to p y th t kind o! "oney. 1s there nything 1 $ n do to help=; 95e h $ ll hotel nd 1 need to hire so"e "ore bodyg# rds !or the ne't three d ys &e re here.; +e s ys. 1 gr b his l ptop nd $ ll ro#nd to three di!!erent hotels. .he - rriot is the only one in the re to o!!er #s the best $$o""od tions on s#$h short noti$e &ith the e'tr se$#rity needed. 1 book !o#r roo"s !or three nights the only roo"s they h d v il ble. All t&o bedroo" s#its. St $y nd 1 $ n sh re one nd the g#ys &ill h ve to b#nk #p. 1t2s si' thirty by the ti"e 1 !inish #p nd 1 " e'h #sted. 1 p d over to the !ridge gr b bottle o! & ter nd go into "y $lothes dr &er !ish #nder ll "y $lothes !or "y pren t l vit "ins% open the bottle% po#r one o#t nd shoot it b $k &ith big s&ig o! & ter. .hey re l rge% pink nd t ste like $h lk. 1 " lso on !ish oil s#pple"ent !or br in develop"ent b#t 1 t ke th t &ith dinner. 1 $ n2t do it in the "orning or the !ish oil t ste " kes "e n #seo#s.

St $y $o"es #p the st irs. +e le!t shortly !ter giving "e the orders to !or hotel. 9,e2re books !or the - rriot they s id they $ n t ke #s no&.; 1 s y be!ore he h s $h n$e to t lk. 9Ok y gre t% Bri n2s #p nd is lre dy to go. .he $ops h ve $orr lled the !ive h#ndred person "ob o#tside the !en$e so 1 think &e2re ll set to roll.; 1 lo#nge g inst the b $k o! the $o#$h. 1 $ n2t go b $k to sleep no&. 12" e'h #sted getting only !o#r ho#rs o! sleep l st night. 1 & s #p & y too l te in "y $ ve re ding nother pregn n$y book on "y e0re der nd s&it$hing o!! to re d -over .t -ast the l test book by one o! "y ! vorite #thors. .he b#s is no& rolling nd St $y is in the sho&er. 1 don2t kno& ho& he does it. 12" $ert in p rt o! "y iss#e is the ! $t th t 1 " pregn nt nd $r ving $o!!ee so b d. 1 $ n2t drink it ny"ore. 12ve h d $#p every d y !or the p st si' ye rs nd 12ve !or$ed "ysel! to go $old t#rkey o!! the st#!!. St#$k sipping & r" de$ ! green te in!#sed &ith pe $h. 1t2s not the s "e on ny level nd 1 !ind "ysel! $r nkier in the "ornings be$ #se 1 $ n2t h ve the one st ple% the one $onst nt in "y li!e% Co!!ee. 12" /#st th nk!#l th t no one on this b#s drinks it besides "e. -ost o! the" re protein sh ke /#nkies or "ilk. 1 kno& <ohn th n loves $ho$ol te "ilk. 12ve seen hi" drink it str ight !ro" the /#g h nd !#ll o! ti"es. 1t2s kind o! se'y to & t$h. Not th t 1 $ re or nything. .he b#s p#lls into the b $k o! the hotel. 9+ey b be &hy ren2t yo# sleeping=; 1 he r St $y sk $o"ing o#t o! the b throo" r#bbing to&el in his be #ti!#l dirty blonde h ir. 9,e2re here t the hotel nd 1 $o#ldn2t ! ll b $k to sleep i! 1 & nted. Sho#ld &e & ke the "en or let the" get #p on their o&n= @o yo# think the "ob &ill !ind #s here=; 95es% they prob bly &ill. 12" s#re there re so"e here lre dy. :e"e"ber% good ne&s tr vels ! st. And ye h 1 s#ppose &e sho#ld & ke the "en.; +e s ys tossing the to&el in the h "per in the b throo". 9@o yo# & nt "e to help= 1 kno& they $ n be p in so"eti"es.; +e t#rns nd looks t <ohn th n2s $losed bedroo" door. 1 inst ntly get the hint. 9Ok 12ll & ke hi" yo# get the rest o! the g#ys.; 1 & ve to the b#nks. 95o# don2t h ve to b be% 1 /#st kno& the l st ti"e 1 &oke hi" this e rly he ne rly killed "e. 12" s#re he2d be little ni$er to &o" n.; 1 nod 91t2s ok y.; And get #p o!! the $o#$h in "y 4/2s nd p d "y & y to <ohn th n2s door. 1 don2t even bother to kno$k 1 /#st & lk right in. ShitC ,h t is he doing= 1 !ind hi" spr &led o#t over the bed thr shing his he d b $k nd !orth s&e t po#ring do&n his ! $e% he2s "#"bling so"ething obs$ene #nder his bre th nd ki$king his legs !or$e!#lly t so"e invisible thre t. +e2s de!i ntly in so"e serio#s night" re. 1 so didn2t sign #p !or this.

4oor g#yC -y he rt is bre king !or hi". ,h t do 1 do= 1 h ve to & ke hi". 12ve never &oken nyone !ro" night" re e'$ept St $y. +is &ere nothing like th t. +e /#st yelled in his sleep there & s never ny violen$e or body "ove"ents involved. 1 & lk over to the edge o! the bed his body is thr shing nd it2s getting &orse. 1 & nt to $ry !or hi". 1 $li"b on the side !#rthest !ro" hi". Cr &ling over the bed he thr shes nd he ne rly ki$ks "e. Close $ llC .oo $lose. 9<ohn th n.; 1 &hisper "oving $loser to his ! $e. 9<ohn th n & ke #p yo#r h ving night" re.; 12" !r id i! 1 to#$h hi". 1 "ight get hit. 1! 1 & sn2t pregn nt 1 prob bly &o#ldn2t $ re b#t the l st thing 1 need to do is lose these b bies be$ #se o! his night" res. 95o# son o! bit$h. @on2t yo# !#$king to#$h "e. NoC ,hy did yo# do th t to her. No. 5o# killed her. No. No. No. 1 & nt "y "o""y. ,hy= @ ddy. ,hy=; he "#"bles thro#gh $lin$hed teeth his he d thr shing b $k nd !orth on his s&e t so ked pillo&. 1 get in $loser p#shing "y & y to& rds the top o! the bed. So his legs $ n2t re $h "e. 9<ohn th n.; 1 p#sh his sho#lder gently. 9<ohn th n yo#2re h ving night" re. 8et #p.; 1 s y lo#der this ti"e. Still nothing. 9<ohn th nC; 1 s$ree$h nd p#sh his sho#lder. +is eyes !ly open nd he d rts o#t o! bed !r nti$ nd ! lls onto the !loor in !ront o! the door &ith gi nt th#d. 9)"ilyC Are yo# ok yC; St $y s$re "s !ro" o#tside the door trying to get in. +e2s p ni$ked. 912" !ine St $e. <#st le ve #s be.; 1 s y $ l"ly s to not &orry hi". 9Ok y. 5o# better be. 12ll be inside &ith the g#ys. < "es &ill be o#t here & iting i! yo# need nything.; +e s ys !ro" the other side o! the door. 98re t. .h nks.; <ohn th n is sitting on the !loor ro$king b $k nd !orth in gi nt " n b ll his eyes re &ide nd he looks terri!ied. 9<ohn th n re yo# ok y=; 1 sk $ l"ly nd gently s$ooting $loser to the edge o! the bed. +e keeps ro$king his eyes &iden !#rther. 9<ohn th n it2s "e )"ily. 5o# kno&= )"ily Bron&yn yo#r !riend=; 1 slide o!! the edge o! the bed !e& !eet !ro" hi" on the !loor. 1 t ke it ni$e nd slo&. .his gi nt " n is terri!ied nd his bre thing is lo#d. 9<ohn th n. 1t2s "e. 1 pro"ise no one is going to h#rt yo# here. 1t2s /#st yo# nd "e nd everything is going to be lright.; 1 soothe% in$hing "y & y $loser. +e doesn2t s y thing nd is bre thing even ! ster no&. +is eyes re no& $losed. ShitC 4le se don2t s y he2s ! llen b $k to sleep.

.his night" re "ight $ontin#e on !ro" there. +e doesn2t need th t. Oh% this poor be #ti!#l !rightened " n. 9<ohn th n 1 " going to $o"e over nd h#g yo# ok y. @on2t be s$ red. No one is going to h#rt yo#. 1 &ill never let nyone h#rt yo# g in. 1t2s )"ily. <#st ple se don2t hit "e.; 1 e se in $loser. 1 h ve no ide &h t the hell yo# s y in these kinds o! sit# tions 1 h ve no tr ining in this. 1 !eel terrible !or hi" nd "y sto" $h is ll in knots. Not !or "ysel! b#t be$ #se 1 /#st re li>ed &h t St $y & s s ying bo#t <ohn th n going thro#gh lot o! shit in his li!e nd th t2s &hy he is the & y he is. And the &hole thing bo#t the ! $t he doesn2t kno& ho& to love. So"ething h ppened to hi" nd it & s b d. 1 don2t kno& &h t. B#t by the terror on his ! $e nd his body l ng# ge 1 $ n2t help b#t & nt to help bring hi" o#t o! this. -y he rt is bre king /#st & t$hing this " n like this. 1 sit #p on "y knees nd he2s body is still ro$king. +e2s hyperventil ting. S&e t is po#ring o!! his ! $e. +is r"s re $l sped ro#nd his legs in the !et l position. 912" here.; 1 pl $e "y h nd on his b $k gently. 1 " going to h#g hi" !ro" the side. 91t2s going to be ok y.; 1 t lk slo&ly nd so!tly. 1 pl $e "y other r" over his so 1 " to#$hing his $hest nd 1 in$h "y & y in $loser so "y bre sts re resting g inst the top o! his le!t r". 9C l" do&n <ohn th n. C l" do&n. 1t2s going to be ok y.; 1 soothe% &r pping "y r"s tighter ro#nd hi". 1 press "y lips to his te"ple. One o! "y h nds re holding onto his right side !ro" the b $k nd "y le!t his do&n $ross his $hest $#pping the botto" o! his ribs on his other side. 9. ke deep bre th big " n. 1t2s going to be ok y.; 1 s y so!tly "y "o#th on his te"ple. +e !in lly responds nd t kes in deep bre th. 9.h t2s good. No& t ke nother one nd let it o#t slo&ly.; +e does. 9)"ily=; he h#!!s in &hisper. Oh th nk yo# <es#s he2s b $kC -y he rt is po#nding. 1 bro#ght hi" b $kC .h nk godC +e2s going to be lright. 1 & s so s$ red. 95es% it2s "e. 5o# &ere h ving b d dre " &hen 1 $ "e in to & ke yo#.; 1 s y% "y lips still t his te"ple. No& 12" bre thing h rd. 1 g#ess 1 didn2t re li>e 1 & s s !re ked o#t s 1 & s. +is h nd #n$l sps !ro" his leg nd r#bs it on the r" 1 h ve &r pped ro#nd his $hest. 91s it re lly yo#=; 95es% <ohn th n. 12" here 1 pro"ise 1 &on2t let nything h ppen to yo#. 5o#2re s !e.; 1 kiss his s&e ty te"ple. +is h nd r#ns #p nd do&n "y r". Sp rks !ly nd "y he rt so rs. +is to#$h is " >ing. ,hy do 1 h ve to !eel this & y bo#t hi"= ShitC No& "y he rt $hes &ith deep loss. 1 resist

the #rge to r#b "y he rt be$ #se 1 don2t & nt to let hi" go. 1 don2t think it2s right yet. +e2s still $o"ing o#t o! this night" re. 91 h d nother night" re b d one this ti"e. 12" sorry i! 1 s$ red yo#.; +e s ys his voi$e is l"ost b $k to nor" l s is his bre thing. 91 kno&. 1 tried to & ke yo# !e& ti"es. Are yo# ok y=; 1 loosen "y hold nd st rt to p#ll & y. +e gr bs "y r". 94le se /#st hold "e little longer. 4le se. 1 need it.; +e begs s dness s t#r tes his voi$e. 9Ok y.; 1 retighten "y grip ro#nd his sto" $h nd 1 $ ress his b $k &ith "y other. .r $ing the tight "#s$les &ith "y !ingers. 1 $ n !eel goose b#"ps rise on his b $k nd he gro ns. 9.his !eels so ni$e. 1 "issed yo#.; +e s ys. C#e the b#tter!liesC )ven i! he is !#ll o! shit &hen it $o"es to getting "e into bed he still h s "o"ents like this &hen 1 think he2s per!e$t in so"e & y2s. +e h s s&eetness t the $ore o! hi" th t 1 think he tries to hide to be strong nd to#gh. B#t 1 $ n !eel it in ti"es like this &hen he s ys &h t he !eels. 1 kno& he2s not trying to get "e into bed no&. .his is the re l " n behind the " sk nd ro$k st r person . 912" gl d yo#2re ok y. @o yo# & nt to t lk bo#t it=; 1 instin$tively kiss his te"ple g in. +e s(#ee>es "y !ore r" nd sighs. 1 think he "ight h ve liked th t. 9No% 1 get these so"eti"es nd 12ve gotten the" lot l tely. .his one & s /#st &orse th n the rest. 1 don2t #s# lly end #p s&e ting.; +e s ys $ l"ly. ,hi$h " kes "e !eel so "#$h better. +e2s l"ost b $k to the s r$ sti$ /erk &e ll kno& nd love. Ok y% 1 don2t love b#t others do. 91s t lking nd thr shing p rt o! the nor" !or yo#=; 91 & s t lking= And thr shing=; By the tone in his voi$e 1 $ n tell he didn2t re li>e th t. - ybe he needs to get help !or &h tever is bothering hi". 95e h. A lot.; 9And yo# still got onto th t bed &ith "e to try nd & ke "e #p= Are yo# $r >y=; his tone is sh rp. 9,e h d n in$ident this "orning t the 3eri>on $enter nd 1 got #s booked into hotel inste d o! the b#s so St $y sent "e here to & ke yo#. 1 didn2t kno& yo# &ere h ving night" re b#t 1 & sn2t going to le ve yo# like th t. So i! $li"bing into bed &ith yo# to & ke yo# !ro" n intense nd s$ ry night" re " kes "e $r >y. .hen so be it.; 1 dd sternly nd let go o! hi". +e t#rns nd looks t "e !or the !irst ti"e sin$e yesterd y nd his ! $e is so s d nd his $ir$les ro#nd his eyes re &orse nd no& they2re p#!!y.

95o# look tired short st $k ho& "#$h sleep did yo# get l st night=; he sks ni$ely. B#t 1 !eel it dig into "y sel!0estee". 5o# look tired is #s# lly polite !or. E5o# look like shit.2 1 $o"b "y h nds thro#gh "y h ir s 1 st nd #p nd sit "y b#tt on the $orner o! his bed. 912" sorry 12" not s vis# lly ple sing.; 1 "#tter. +e !ro&ns deep. 91t2s not th t nd yo# kno& it.; +e s ys sitting on the !loor his legs str ight o#t in !ront o! hi". 1 didn2t re li>e b#t he2s in p ir o! red silk bo'ers nd th t2s ll. ,hen he s id he likes silk bo'ers 1 g#ess he & sn2t kidding. 9NoH 1 don2t kno& it. And 1 got three " ybe !o#r ho#rs l st night. Been #p sin$e !ive. 1 &ondered ho& yo# slept thro#gh ll the s$re "ing. B#t no& 1 kno& &ith th t night" re.; 912" sorry yo# h d to &itness th t.; +e s$r#bs his h nds on his ! $e. 91t2s not big de l !or "e. 1 /#st !eel b d !or yo#. - ybe yo# sho#ld t lk to so"eone bo#t it. 8et so"e help=; 1 st te gr $e!#lly. 912ve been to h#ndred di!!erent psy$hi trists. .hey $ n2t !i' "e. 12ve gone ye rs &here 12" !ine. .hen &hen 1 " stressed the night" res res#r! $e. 1t2s not th t big o! de l. As long s 1 don2t go o!! the deep end everything &ill be /#st !ine.; +e st nds. 91t is big de l. 5o# s$ red "e. 1 don2t & nt yo# to get &orse.; 1 ple d. 9,hy do yo# $ re )"ily= :e lly= 1 &ill be !ine.; +e le ns g inst the & ll% r#bbing his h nds over his r"s like he2s trying to & sh so"ething invisible o!!. +e still isn2t !ine. )ven i! he is st nding there $ting ll !ine he2s not. 1 $ n tell. 91 $ re be$ #se 12" yo#r !riend <ohn th n.; 1 s y be$ #se 1 $ n2t s y &h t 1 & nt to. .h t 12" in love &ith hi" or 1 & s. And EOh% by the & y 1 don2t & nt yo# to be he d $ se be$ #se yo#2re going to be d d soon. .o set o! t&insC2 1! th t &o#ldn2t " ke his night" res &orse 1 don2t kno& &h t &o#ld. .his o!!i$i lly tells "e 1 $ n2t let hi" kno& bo#t the b bies. 1 &ill !inish the to#r nd then b#gger o!!. +e &on2t h ve to ever see "e g in nd 1 &ill h ppily ever !ter in N5 or so"e&here &ith "y t&ins nd " ybe St $y. So#nds like good pl n to "e. 91 don2t & nt nother !riend. 1 h ve plenty o! the".; +e bl#rts ngrily. 1 h ve no !#$king $l#e ho& &e &ent to s&eet E1 need yo# to hold "e2 <ohn th n. .o h rd% 12" !ine% 1 don2t like yo# ny"ore <ohn th n. 1 h te hi" like this. 1 &o#ld r ther h ve the other " n b $k in he rtbe t "in#s the terri!ying night" res. 9Ok.; 1 st nd. 912" sorry yo# h d b d night" re. 1 &on2t bother yo# g in.; 1 open the door to le ve nd he gr bs "y r". 9.h nk yo# )".; +e s ys &ith gentle s"ile.

9No prob% /#st be $ re!#l the "ob o! &o" n o#t !or yo#r n#ts h s gro&n e'ponenti lly the p st !e& ho#rs. < "es &ill help get yo# into the - rriot.; 1 t#g o#t o! his gr sp le ve his roo" sh#tting it behind "e nd t#$k so"e $lothes into "y l#gg ge.

Chapter "ighteen
9+ello -s. Bron&yn. - y 1 help yo# &ith yo#r l#gg ge=; < "es s ys &hen 1 "eet hi" o#tside the b#s "y b g in h nd. 1 sh ke "y he d 9No% /#st & it !or -r. Striker nd 1 &ill see "ysel! inside. 9 1 drop "y red b g into the gro#nd to roll. 912" not llo& to do th t " 2 ". 1 " s&orn to !ollo& yo# nd prote$t yo#.; 9,h t= By &ho= 12" not ro$k st r < "es.; 1 look to hi" !or ns&ers. 9St $y nd -r. Striker h ve both pl $ed yo#r s !ety s the n#"ber one $on$ern. 1 " only !ollo&ing orders " 2 ".; +e bends over nd pi$ks #p "y l#gg ge !ro" the gro#nd. 9B#t &h t bo#t <ohn th n= ,e $ n2t le ve hi" in there lone= ,h t i! so"ething h ppens=; 1 sk% !r nti$. 1 $ n2t le ve hi" #ng# rded. 12" not th t st#pid even i! he did /#st h#rt "y !eelings g in. 9- d " &e &ill h ve to le ve hi" nd 1 &ill $o"e b $k s soon s 1 see yo# to yo#r roo".; 9,h t bo#t the other se$#rity St $y hired=; 9.hose "en re t their posts. And 1 " t "ine. 5o# re it. ,herever yo# go 1 go " 2 ".; +e bo&s. 95o#2re going to le ve <ohn th n #nprote$ted= 5o#2re not very good bodyg# rd i! yo# do th t.; 1 st te !r#str ted nd &orried. 91 don2t " ke the r#les " d " 1 /#st !ollo& the". -y d#ty is to prote$t yo#. -r. Striker h s nother bodyg# rd b#t he2s been ssigned to st tion o#t !ront to keep the $ro&d !ro" " king its & y b $k to the b#s. On$e he dise"b rks into the hotels b $k entr n$e his g# rd &ill le ve his post nd st nd ttention in the hotel to prote$t -r. Striker. B#t s o! right no& " 2 " 1 " doing to /ob nd yo# re it.; +e st tes r ther elo(#ently. 6or bodyg# rd he is &ell0spoken. 91! 1 st y nd & it !or hi". .h t "e ns yo# h ve to st y right= And yo# $ n es$ort #s both in=; +e nods. 95es " d " i! th t is &h t yo# &ish.; 9,h t 1 &ish is to go into the hotel by "ysel! b#t sin$e th t2s not going to h ppen < "es. 1 &ill go b $k inside nd & it !or hi".; 1 le ve "y l#gg ge o#tside &ith "y o&n person l bodyg# rd &hi$h is ridi$#lo#s. < "es is h ndso"e " n nd polite b#t 1 don2t need hi" t iling "e every&here. B#t it see"s 1 h ve no s y in the " tter. Looks like "e% St $y nd -r. Striker &ill be h ving $onvers tion bo#t priorities nd 1 " not it.

1 " ke "y & y to the $o#$h nd drop do&n on it. 1 don2t kno& ho& long it2s going to t ke hi" to get re dy b#t 1 " not going to r#sh hi". +e /#st &oke #p !ro" night" re. .h t &o#ld /#st be $r#el to p#sh hi" to le ve i! he isn2t re dy yet. 1 he r the b throo" door open nd Oh "y god. O#t & lks n ked <ohn th n &ith to&el sh king the & ter o#t o! his h ir. ,o&>ers th t ss o! his is "ighty !ine% espe$i lly in this lighting. 9AhHhe".; 1 $le r "y thro t. +e t#rns ro#nd b#t doesn2t bother to $over #p his n $ond . 9<es#s )"ily &h t re yo# still doing here=; he s ys st nding sho&ing "e his $o$k nd b lls in ll its !#ll n#de% &ell lit glory. 1t2s i"possible !or "e not to st re t it. So 1 don2t even try. 91H.; 1 $le r "y thro t g in nd s& llo& h rd. 9< "es & s ssigned to "e nd &ell yo#r ne& bodyg# rd isn2t ro#nd to es$ort yo# into the b#ilding.; S liv is pooling into "y "o#th st ring t the glorio#s $o$k bet&een his long "#s$#l r legs. 1 s& llo& it do&n. 9So 1 tho#ght it only the right thing to do is & it !or yo# to !inish #p here nd he2ll es$ort #s both into the - rriot.; 1 !inish &ith lo#d e'h le. +is eyes re be "ing t "e &hen 1 look #p. 5es% he $ #ght "e st ring t his $o$k. 1t2s not h rd to noti$e &hen so"eone2s eyes re s &ide s "ine. 1 h ven2t seen " ny di$ks in "y li!e nd his th#s ! r h s been the "ost be #ti!#l. So s#e "e !or lookingC 9@o yo# like &h t yo# see=; he shoots "e &i$ked grin nd &iggles his hips side to side% his gi nt " nhood sl ps !ro" one leg to the other !e& ti"es. 1 giggle. 9,h t do yo# e'pe$t= 5o#2re n ked nd yo#r $o$k is be #ti!#l. ,h t $ n 1 s y=; 1 bl#sh !i!ty sh des o! red b#t it2s tr#e. 12" not going to lie. ,h t $ n he do to "e nyho&= 12" lre dy pregn nt nd he2s lre dy broken "y he rt. ,h t2s le!t= 1 gl $e #p t his ! $e g in. +is eyes re &ide. 1 think 1 sho$ked hi" &ith "y honesty. +e2s !ro>en. 9,h t=; 1 shr#g. 91 $ n2t believe yo# /#st s id th t.; +e dds nd then he bl#shes% !inishing #p drying his h ir &ith the to&el. 91t2s tr#e. ,h t " 1 s#pposed to s y &hen yo# $ t$h "e st ring t it= Oh no it2s hideo#s p#t th t "onster & y=; 1 s$o!!. 91 think not.; 1 eye it g in nd he2s yet to "ove to go b $k into the bedroo" so &e $ n le ve. +is $o$k is like st ring right t "e nd 1 $ n see it t&it$hing. Oh noC 1t2s getting h rd. 1 $ n see it be!ore "y eyes. And still 1 $ n2t stop st ring t it. 12" bl#shing $onst ntly nd "y belly is doing " /or !lips nd 1 $ n !eel "y p nties getting &et b#t 1 still $ n2t bre k "y eyes !ro" it.

A gro&l er#pts the silen$e bet&een #s. 1 look #p into his eyes nd they re b#rning &ith l#st. 1 " too s" rt to ! ll !or th t g in. Altho#gh 1 don2t "ind the vie&. 91 don2t & nt to s y this be$ #se yes 1 like the & y it looks. B#t 1 & nt to t ke n p be!ore the sho& tonight nd e t so"ething. So $ n yo# ple se get dressed so 1 $ n go to "y roo"=; 9,hy don2t yo# $o"e to "ine nd 1 $ n give yo# so"ething to e t.; +e s ys serio#sly &ith &ink nd &iggles his h rd $o$k it hits his legs like b seb ll b t &ith lo#d sl p. 1 look do&n t "y belly & nting to r#b it. B#t 1 $ n2t " ke it th t obvio#s. So 1 gl n$e b $k into his be #ti!#l l#st!#l eyes. As "#$h s 1 " $r ving this " n nd "y p#ssy is s$re "ing bet&een "y legs. 1 $ n2t do it. 1 $o#ldn2t s#rvive this g in. On$e & s b d eno#gh. 1 h ve to be strong e"otion lly !or o#r $hildren. .h t2s &h t " tters no&. Not !eeding "y $hing $ore. 9Sorry <ohn th n. 5o# pro"ised St $y nd 1 don2t & nt to h ve to tell hi" yo# broke yo#r pro"ise.; 1 sp#rt o#t bet&een "y po#ty lips. 96#$k St $y. 1 & nt inside yo# no& b by. 1 "issed th t s&eet p#ssy ro#nd "y $o$k.; -y he rt is th#dding h rd in "y $hest. 1s it !ive h#ndred degrees in here or &h t= 1 s(#ee>e "y legs together nd "y $lit s$re "s !or ttention. Nope yo# st#pid bit$h yo#2re not getting !ed tod yC 1 kno& ho& to bre k this se'y t lk. )ven s hot s it is. And god 1 & nt hi" b dC No 1 don2t. 6#$kC .his h s to stop. +is $o$k looks so /#i$y nd it2s so re dy !or "e. Stop itC Stop it no&C 912" s#re yo# didn2t "iss "y p#ssy ro#nd yo#r $o$k &hen th t blonde & s s#$king yo# o!! !e& &eeks go.; 1 s y. 12" not r#de bo#t it. 1t $o"es o#t s"ooth nd re!ined i! th t2s possible. 1 kno& it2s lo& blo& b#t it2ll get hi" o#t o! this b#llshit "ind0set nd 1 $ n !in lly get to "y hotel roo" nd t ke !#$king n p nd n i$e0$old sho&er to $ool do&n. -y $ore is begging to be pl yed &ith. B#t th t bit$h is going to h ve to get over it. No !ood !or her tod yC 9+o& did yo# he r bo#t th t=; he sn ps. +is eyes $li$k !ro" l#st to nger. 8oodC 4issed o!! <ohn th n is better th n horny. 1 $ n de l &ith pissed o!!. 1t2s the horny one 1 $ n2t h ndle. 1t does !#nny things to "e th t 1 like & y too "#$h. 91 he rd the boys t lking be!ore the bre k. S id she & s giving it to y re l good. -#st not h ve been needing "y p#ssy then.; 1 s y nd g in 1 " not bit$hy. 1 " so!t nd $ l" nd ll together. 1 " so pro#d o! "ysel!C 95e h &ellH Oh !#$kC 1 don2t $ re.; +e t#rns &ith n ttit#de nd str#ts into his bedroo" sl ""ing the door sh#t behind hi". .en "in#tes l ter he $o"es o#t !#lly dressed &ith d#!!le b g sl#ng over his sho#lder. 1 st nd nd & lk to the steps &itho#t s ying &ord to hi". +e t ils "e o#t to greet < "es &ho h sn2t b#dged !ro" his post o#tside the b#s & iting !or "e &ith "y l#gg ge. And &e both go into the

hotel. < "es st nds &ith #s t the $o#nter nd retrieves o#r keys nd roo" n#"bers. All three o! #s ride #p the elev tor to the top !loor. All !o#r roo"s re ne't to one nother in line #p. 1 stop in !ront o! "y door nd &e re ne't door to e $h other. 1 b ng inste d o! getting "y key o#t o! "y p#rse nd St $y opens &e ring p ir o! bo'ers nd nothing else. <ohn th n gets n eye!#l o! "y roo"y nd he looks none too h ppy. 9+ope yo# h ve ni$e st y.; 1 s y nd t ke "y l#gg ge !ro" < "es &ith polite th nk yo# nd in 1 go into "y roo" sh#tting the door behind "e.

Chapter #ineteen
St $y nd 1 h ng in o#r roo" ll d y. +e2s been tripping over the p $k ge th t rrived !ro" Kyle this !ternoon. 1t & sn2t /#st letter it & s bo' !#ll o! the". App rently Kyle h d been sending St $y letters !or the p st ye r trying to get hold o! hi" nd they &ere ll ret#rned to sender be$ #se St $y & s too $hi$ken shit to open nd re d the". +e never told "e th t. So Kyle & s " d eno#gh he p#t the" ll into bo' nd sent the" to his e'0&i!e2s ddress inste d. S" rt thinking on his p rt be$ #se no& St $y is !or$ed to re d the &hole bo' !#ll o! #nopened letters Kyle &rote to hi". 1t kind o! ro" nti$ i! yo# think bo#t it. +o& " ny people &rite letters ny"ore= ,ith e" il nd $ell phones it2s be$o"ing dying rt !or". 91 $ n2t re d the" )".; +e &hines !lipping thro#gh the st $k. 9Oh yes yo# $ n or 1 &ill nd yo# &ill listen to &h t he h s to s y.; 91 & s $o"plete di$k yo# don2t #nderst nd they re prob bly "e n. Like re lly "e n. 1 & s "e n to hi" so &hy &o#ldn2t they be=; he is p $ing the roo" his h nds sh king !#ll o! letters. 1 never kne& Kyle $o#ld get to hi" like this. - ybe St $y h s been d&elling in g#ilt !or &h t he s id to Kyle !o#r ye rs go. 96or Christ s ke St $e% t&enty t&o letters $ n2t be ll h te!#l. - ybe he2s r#de b#t 1 do#bt he2d p#t in th t "#$h e!!ort to send yo# h te " il.; 1 s y. 1 & nt to re son &ith hi" nd " ke hi" re d the letters not "e doing it !or hi". .his is step he needs to t ke. 1t2s !or his o&n good nd "ine. 1 h ve to kno&. 1 kno& Kyle & s kind o! do#$he &hen &e &ere kids b#t this ro" n$e h s "e ll /e lo#s nd e'$ited t the s "e ti"e. 1! 1 $ n2t h ve "y o&n ro" n$e 1 " going to live vi$io#sly thro#gh St $y i! 1 h ve to. 1t2s even better in person th n it is in "y books. 91 d#nno.; +e po#ts nd drops do&n on the bed beside "e nd l ys his he d on "y sho#lder !or s#pport. 1 p t his he d. 9,hy is this bothering yo# so "#$h= 1! yo# didn2t $ re !or Kyle like yo# s y yo# don2t then &hy &o#ld it " tter ho& he !eels or &h t he s ys=; 91 don2t kno&.; +e po#ts g in nd this is the g y p rt o! St $y o#t in !#ll $olor. +e2s like d "n &o" n " ybe even &orse. .his &ish & shy shit is so !e"inine. 9Listen 1 think yo# do kno&. 1 think yo# !eel g#ilty bo#t possibly h#rting the only " n yo#2ve ever $ red !or ro" nti$ lly. 1 kno& yo# s y th t yo# don2t $ re !or "en th t & y nd only ,O-AN

$ n do th t !or yo#. B#t i! th t & s the tr#th then &hy &o#ld yo# !eel this & y bo#t b#n$h o! letters= 1t doesn2t " ke ny sense.; +e sighs 91 &ish yo# didn2t kno& "e like yo# do so"eti"es. 1t2s e sier t lking to <ohn th n bo#t !eelings he doesn2t #nderst nd nd doesn2t $ re.; 9.hen go t lk to hi" bo#t the". 1 " s#re he2ll listen. +e loves yo# in his o&n & y nd 12" s#re he2d be sho#lder i! yo# need it.; +e &r ps his r"s ro#nd "y sho#lders. 91 don2t need hi" )"% 12" /#st s ying it &o#ld be e sier. 1 didn2t s y 1 & nted th t. 1 /#st tho#ght i! 1 held o#t long eno#gh !or yo# th t yo#2d !in lly ! ll in love &ith "e nd &e $o#ld be together.; +e "opes. 9@o yo# honestly think 1 $o#ld " ke yo# h ppy= .hink bo#t it. 1 kno& yo# think 1 " be #ti!#l b#t do yo# serio#sly see yo#rsel! being h ppy " king love to "e !or the rest o! yo#r li!e= No "ore "en. <#st "e nd "y p#ssy.; 1 sk so!tly. - ybe i! 1 get hi" to see 12" not ll th t he2ll get o!! the )"ily is so gre t ki$k% be$ #se serio#sly 12" not. 95es% 1 do. 5o# " ke "e h ppy everyd y )".; +e kisses "y !orehe d. 9Ok y... 1 kno& th t. 5o# " ke "e h ppy everyd y too St $e. B#t the " in (#estion is do 1 " ke yo# !eel p ssion= ,hen yo# see "e do yo# !eel like yo# h ve to be inside o! "e to !eel &hole= @o 1 t#rn yo# on every ti"e &e re ro#nd e $h other= @o yo# !ind yo#rsel! & nting to !#$k "e ll the ti"e= @oes yo#r he rt blosso" every ti"e yo# hold "e nd yo# !eel like i! yo# let "e go yo#2ll bre k into "illion pie$es=; 9No not ll th t st#!!.; +e shr#gs% his ! $e is so s d it h#rts to look t. -y poor best !riend is going thro#gh so"e serio#s $o"ing to iss#es. .he "ore 1 think bo#t it. 1 re li>e th t 1 think St $y is "ore g y th n Bi. 1 think he #ses &o" n !or se'# l rele se nd !riendship b#t 1 don2t think the p ssion lies &ith o#r gender. 1 think he !eels the p ssion nd the l#st !#ll throttle &ith "en nd Kyle espe$i lly. .h t2s &hy he2s so $on!#sed. 1 &o#ld be too i! 1 & s in his position. 9,h t st#!! then=; 1 sk gently $o 'ing hi" into the dire$tion he needs to he d into. 91 get horny ro#nd yo# so"eti"es. B#t 1 don2t !eel like 1 need to !#$k yo# ll the ti"e or nything like th t. 1 don2t h ve th t need. .he only need 1 h ve &ith yo# is love. 1 need to love yo# nd sho& yo# ho& "#$h yo# "e n to "e. B#t it2s not bo#t the !#$king. 1t2s bo#t the $ ring nd the s#pport nd the "e ning!#l !riendship &e h ve. 1 $o#ldn2t live &itho#t yo# ever. 1 "e n th t. 1 &o#ld prob bly &ither & y nd die. 1 kno& th t2s st#pid 1 " dependent on yo#r love b#t 1 ". B#t it is tr#e yo# re gorgeo#s nd 1 &o#ld love to s$re& yo#r br ins o#t. 5o# /#st &on2t let "e.; +e s"iles. 9See th t2s &h t 1 tho#ght. Ok y so &hen yo# think bo#t s y Kyle ho& do yo# !eel=;

,e re so "oving in the right dire$tion. +e doesn2t kno& it yet. B#t 1 do. 1 " !eeling lot better bo#t this not trying to be &ith St $y ro" nti$ lly. O#r lives &ere never "e nt to be th t & y. 91 !eel g#ilty !or h#rting hi". +e & sn2t n e'peri"ent ever. +e & s the best " le e'perien$e 12ve ever h d.; +e s ys 9Ok yH side !ro" the g#ilt. @o yo# !eel p ssion= ,hen yo# &ere still together% ho& did yo# !eel= @id yo# /#st & nt to t lk nd be !riends nd need his love= ,h t did yo# need or & nt !ro" hi"= 95o# s#re yo# & nt to kno&=; 95es.; 9+onestly= 1 & nted to !#$k hi" ll the ti"e. 1 & nted to be b lls deep in hi" or hi" in "e. B#t " inly 1 & nted to do hi". .o $l i" hi". 1 kno& this "ight be too "#$h. B#t yo# sked. 1 loved s#$king his $o$k. 1 "e n re lly loved it. 1 h te doing it to other "en. B#t he & s so good t s#$king "ine too. +e & s like &o" n in so"e & ys he & s gentle nd kne& e' $tly &h t 1 needed ll the ti"e. Other "en ren2t the s "e. 1 love !#$king "en b#t it doesn2t !eel right. Kyle & s the only " le 1 !elt right botto"ing !or. +e & s tender nd l& ys " de s#re 1 & s &ell l#bed nd 1 kind o! !elt spe$i l. Shit. 1 kno& th t so#nds ret rded. 12" $hi$king o#t t lking bo#t this. B#t it2s tr#e. 5o#2re the only person 1 &o#ld )3): tell this too.; +e s ys. 9,ell 1 " gl d yo# told "e. And t&o "ore (#estions nd 12ll stop pestering yo# nd &e $ n get re dy nd le ve. ,e2ll $o"e b $k nd re d the letter to"orro& be!ore the sho&. 1 gott !eed these b bies be!ore &e le ve tonight.; 1 p t "y t#""y. 9Ok y so#nds good.; +e gr bs "y h nd nd intert&ines o#r !ingers together. Oh 1 love "y best !riend. -y very g y best !riend. +e2s g yer th n he kno&s. B#t th t2s ok y 1 still love hi" &ith ll "y he rt. 9,hen yo# &ere not &ith Kyle did yo# think bo#t hi"= And i! he & s to d te nother person ho& &o#ld th t " ke yo# !eel= Oh% shit one "ore. Sorry. ,hen yo# t&o &ere lone in bed ho&2d yo# !eel &ith hi"= ,h t did yo# do=; 9Ok y )". 1 think th t2s like !o#r "ore.; +e l #ghs. 9B#t i! & sn2t &ith hi" 12d be thinking bo#t h ving se'y ti"e &ith hi". ?nless 1 & s &ith yo# nd 1 didn2t think bo#t hi" "#$h t ll. @ ting nother person= 1 d#nno. 1 g#ess 1 don2t like the tho#ght o! hi" d ting nother b#t he & s "y !irst. So 1 don2t think "y !eelings on the " tter sho#ld be di!!erent. 1 "e n ho& " ny people &ho lose their virginity & nt their !irst love to be &ith so"eone else=; he shr#gs. 95o# /#st $ lled hi" yo#r !irst love.; 91 did=; he sks nd looks deep in tho#ght.

95e h 1 g#ess he & s in & y. And &hen &e &ere lone in bed= ,e $#ddled nd t lked lot. ,e &ere best !riends like yo# nd 1 e'$ept 1 !#$ked hi" l"ost every d y. +o&2d 1 !eel= Shit yo# re lly re " king "e $hi$k o#t tod y. 1 g#ess there2s no better person to do it &ith.; +e s(#ee>es "y h nd th t he2s holding. 91 !elt loved by hi". 1 still do in & y. 1 liked being &ith hi". .h t2s &hy it h#rt to le ve hi" to "ove to L.A b#t &h t $hoi$e did 1 h ve= 1 & sn2t going to "ove nd try to h ve so"e sort o! long0dist n$e thing nd 1 & sn2t looking !or $o""it"ent. ,e tried to be !riends vi the phone nd internet nd &hen 1 &ent b $k to visit "y "o" &e2d l& ys $ t$h #p. ,hi$h l& ys ended #p "e !#$king hi" like ten ti"es nd 12d s#$king hi" o!! nd then &e2d p rt & ys.; 9.h t2s &h t 1 tho#ght.; 9,h t2s &h t yo# tho#ght=; he sks $on!#sed. 95o# loved hi" nd yo# still love hi". Not the love yo# h ve !or "e. @o 1 think yo# love "e= 5es. B#t not th t s "e kind o! love yo# h ve !or hi". 1 think yo#2re $on!#sed bo#t yo#r !eelings !or &o" n nd "en. 5o# think yo# &ill event# lly !eel &h t yo# !elt &ith Kyle &ith &o" n. 12" the $losest thing to th t. So yo# $ling to "e thinking it $o#ld be the p ssion te% 1 & nt to !#$k yo# ll the ti"e kind o! love. 1t2s not like th t bet&een #s nd yo# kno& it $o#ld never be. 5o# h ve it &ith Kyle nd 1 think yo# & nt it b $k b#t yo#2re !r id o! $o""it"ent. B#t yo#2re l"ost thirty St $e. Not eighteen ny"ore. 1! he still !eels the s "e & y bo#t yo#. ,hi$h 1 " s#re he does. 1 think yo# sho#ld try to &ork it o#t so"eho&.; +e sh kes his he d. 91 don2t kno&.; 1 kno& 12ve got hi". +ook% line nd sinker. +e kno&s 12" right. Shit% 1 kno& 12" right. 91! 1 & s to get n ked in !ront o! yo# right no& &o#ld yo# get h rd nd & nt to !#$k "e=; 1 sk. .his is "y !in l test. 9No. 4rob bly not. 12d & nt to $ ress yo#r skin nd h#g yo# b#t not !#$k yo#.; 9B#t i! Kyle &ere st nding in !ront yo# kno& his d rk bl $k h ir h nging over his sho#lders his thi$k body% his big $o$k he vy nd h rd bet&een his legs ,h t &o#ld yo# do= +o& &o#ld yo# !eel=; 912d get h rdH Shit /#st thinking bo#t his body " kes "e h rd. And 12d !#$k hi". 1 &o#ldn2t h ve to !eel or think bo#t it. 12d /#st do it nd he2d let "e.; 9See no& yo# kno&.; +is eyes &iden nd 1 think the revel tion !in lly hits hi". +e kno&s 1 " right. And it2s bo#t d "n ti"e. - ybe he &ill !in lly " n #p nd be &ith Kyle on$e nd !or ll.

Chapter Twent$
A!ter St $y nd 1 t lked &e &ent bo#t o#r b#siness to get re dy to !or o#r !irst $on$ert b $k on the to#r. ,e b thed. +e thre& on bl $k . nd <e ns &ith his bl $k boots. .he & y he dresses is like he2s lre dy p rt o! Stri$ken "in#s the t ttoos th t is. 1 let hi" pi$k "y o#t!it !or the night. ,hi$h 1 think kind o! " de his d y !ter ll the hot nd he vy &e t lked bo#t be!ore o#r sho&ers. Altho#gh 12" not e'$ited to be st nding here st ge side in this get #p. ,hen &e &ere b $k in 1ndi n nd &e did ll th t shopping. ,e h ppened to drop by +ot .opi$ store. 1t2s tot l .oys:#s !or ro$kers nd e"o peeps. St $y & nted to pi$k #p !e& b nd .2s. B#t on$e &e got inside he s & this ridi$#lo#s girls o#t!it on " nikin. +e !elt #p the !loor "odel nd pretended to h#"p her leg. 1 l #ghed so h rd 1 $ried. Needless to s y 1 so"e&here long those lines " de /oke bo#t ho& 1 & s /e lo#s the " nikin & s getting "ore ttention th n "e. And he s id so"ething long the lines 9,ell i! yo#2d &e r this 12d h#"p yo#r leg.; So so"e&here in "y l #ghing st#pidity &e bo#ght the d "n thing in "y si>e long &ith the !ishnet sto$kings nd ll. 1 pro"ised 12d &e r it t&o ti"es in "y li!e nd !ter th t it & s going in the tr sh. So pp rently tonight & s the night to sport "y ne& ense"ble !or the &orld. At le st 1 !it in &ith the ro$kers no& in "y red pl id "ini skirt th t h s t&o bl $k b#$kles on the !ront nd 1 h ve on those oh so ! b#lo#s !ishnet tights nd bl $k le ther s&eethe rt $orset &ith r#!!les t the top nd bl $k $lose toe heels. 1 look se'y in hooker kind o! & y. So"e b nd by the n "e o! @irty + rry or so"ething like th t /#st !inished there set nd no& o#r ro dies re !i'ing the st ge !or Stri$ken to pl y. 1 h ven2t seen ny o! the g#ys tod y. A!ter o#r t lk &e ordered roo" servi$e &hile St $y helped "e get dolled #p in this s#per sl#tty o#t!it. Se$retly 12ve been hoping to see <ohn th n $ #se !ter this "orning 1 need to sho& hi" little so"ething se'y. 1 kno& th t2s b d nd #n$ lled0!or b#t 1 $o#ld give shit. As long s 1 don2t !eed the h#ngry bit$h bet&een "y legs. 1t2s ll good. 95o# kno& th t o#t!it $o#ld be #sed !or roll pl ying in the bedroo".; St $y s ys n #ghtily% t&irling one o! "y $#rls &ith his !inger. 95o# kno& yo#r b lls &o#ld prob bly be better le!t int $t.; 1 s ss nd gr b hi" &here it $o#nts. +e /#"ps little. B#t 12" not "e n bo#t it. 95o#2re little !eisty tonight b be.; +e s"iles nd kisses "e $heek. 1 rele se his s $. 9All dolled #p looking like se'y s$hoolgirl. +o& $o#ld 1 not=; 1 te se &ith little &iggle. 95o# kno& &hen @ sees yo# it "ight be proble" keeping his h nds o!! yo#r hot pregn nt body.; St $y s ys l #ghing nd r#ns his !inger do&n the "iddle o! "y $orset to the top o! "y skirt.

9,ell yo#2re "y d te tonight so 1 think 1 sho#ld be !ine. ,e /#st h ve to keep the &hole NO l$ohol thing #nder &r ps so"eho&. 1 $ n h ndle @.; .he set is !in lly sse"bled nd the ro dies h ve o#r g#ys ll set #p to pl y tonight. .he t&enty tho#s nd ! ns re ro ring lo#der th n 1 re"e"ber nd the $h nting is /#st beg#n &ith tho#s nds o! !ist p#"ps going nd ! ns yelling EStri$ken% Stri$ken% Stri$ken.2 @e $on /oins the st ge !irst% !ro" the opposite side !ro" &here &e re st nding. +e looks o#r & y nd his $ho$ol ty eyes &iden. 5ep% th t2s right @ 1 look like hooker tonight. +e points his !inger t "e. 1 r ise n eyebro& to see &h t he "ight $t# l s y. +e "o#ths E5o#2 nd points his !inger g in in "y dire$tion. E.#rn2 nd he t#rns ro#nd. 1 l #gh. E-e.2 +e points to his $hest &ith his th#"b. EOn2 nd he gr bs his di$k in his /e ns. 1 bl#sh &ith s"ile% roll "y eyes nd sh ke "y he d like he2s "oron. +e shr#gs "o#thing E,h t=2 1 & ve hi" o!! nd t#rn to ! $e St $y &ho is in the "iddle o! $onvers tion &ith st geh nd nd $o"pletely "issed the @e $on -i"e sho&. 95o# "issed it.; 1 s y s he #shers o!! the st geh nd. 9+#h= ,h t2d 1 "iss=; 1 e'pl in @e $on2s little displ y. 91 told yo#.; +e t#gs "y h ir. 95o#2re hot. And th t2s &hy 6r nkie /#st $ "e to "e. App rently there2s ! "o#s d e'e$#tive in the 314 se ts tonight th t s & yo# st nding #p here. , nted to re(#est yo# $$o"p ny hi" to the !ter p rty tonight s his d te.; -y "o#th drops open nd "y !orehe d $rinkles% $on!#sed. 9,h t=; 95o# he rd "e. 1 don2t kno& &hi$h e'e$#tive it is. 6r nkie didn2t give "e n "e. +e /#st s id th t th t i! yo# greed the e'e$#tive s id they2d " ke it &orth yo#r &hile.; +e s ys. 9,ell 1 don2t & nt to s$re& so"e d e'e$#tive be$ #se he thinks 1 look like glori!ied prostit#te.; 1 rg#e. 95o# don2t look like hooker )"% yo# look hot. .he per!e$t i" ge o! ro$kers girl!riend e'$ept yo#2re single nd the & y 6r nkie p#t it% it2s not bo#t se'. +e & nts to give yo# so"ething in ret#rn !or d te to the !ter p rty nd th t &ill prob bly h ve so"ething to do &ith e'tr p#bli$ity !or the b nd. So it2s like /ob propos l e'$ept yo# d te so"ebody to help the b nd.; +e e'pl ins% his tone is even nd 1 $ n tell he2s not trying to p#sh "e into doing this b#t 1 get the !eeling he & nts "e to. 9So b si$ lly 12" &hored o#t !or the night nd the b nd is "y pi"p=; 1 b rk &ith "y h nd on "y hip. 12" going to do the d "n thing. 1 /#st & nt hi" to #nderst nd th t 1 " not &hore !or hire ll the

ti"e. .his is oneti"e de l nd th t2s it. 1! "y ss didn2t &e r this get #p% 1 &o#ldn2t be &orrying bo#t this. 1 g#ess &e ring sl#ttier $lothes does get yo# "ore ttention. 1 t#rn b $k ro#nd nd ll the g#ys re on st ge <ohn th n enters !ro" the opposite side o! the st ge s did the rest o! the b nd nd belts o#t his !irst song o! the night. 912ll do it. .ell 6r nkie to go tell this d e'e$#tive 12ll es$ort hi" to the !ter p rty tonight nd be his d te b#t nothing "ore% nothing less.; 9.h nk yo# b be.; St $y kisses "y $heek e'$itedly nd r#ns o!! like he /#st &on "illion doll rs. A!ter t&o songs go by nd 1 " sh king "y groove th ng like go0go d n$er on the side o! the st ge. 1 love their "#si$. 1 "issed it the &hole &eek &e &ere in 1ndi n . .he song . nt li>ing ends nd <ohn th n "oves into Broken @re "s. +e g >es over t "e. .his is the !irst ti"e he2s seen "e sin$e this "orning in the b#s. +is eyes &iden /#st like @2s did &hen he s & "y o#t!it. 1 shr#g nd press "y knees together nd bite "y lip inno$ently. B tting "y eyes t hi"% te sing nd t #nting hi". .his is &h t he deserves !or sho&ing "e his $o$k this "orning. 12ve h d th t d "n i" ge b#rned into "y retin s ll !#$king d y long. 1t &ill t ke d ys to s$r#b it o#t o! "y br in. +e sn t$hes the "i$ o!! the st nd% singing% he & lks "y & y slo&ly. +is be #ti!#l green eyes re glo&ing &hile he " kes love to the "i$ &ith his be #ti!#l voi$e. +is eyes re tr veling #p nd do&n "e% shivers tr vel the length o! "y body. 1t !eels like he2s !#$king "e &ith his eyes nd 1 $ n !eel "y greedy &hore & king #p. She2s $r ving his ttention. 1 kno& he $ n2t do nything &hile he2s on st ge b#t t#rn "e on. ,hi$h is &orking. .h t "o#th o! his is "oving to the lyri$s b#t his eyes re #ndressing "e. Oh godC +is eyes l nd on "y tits nd 1 think 1 "ight $t# lly $o"e. +e needs to stop this. <es#s% he2s se'y in &hite b#tton do&n dress shirt #nt#$ked &ith gi nt sk#ll doring the b $k o! it. +is sleeves re rolled #p e'posing his hot t ttoos nd the top t&o b#ttons re open. 1 li$k "y lips. .he p#lse in "y $lit is throbbing. 1 r#n "y !ingers thro#gh "y h ir. +o& does this " n do this to "e= +e t#rns his body to the #dien$e b#t 1 $ n see it per!e$tly. +is eyes re lo$ked into "ine his !inger r#ns do&n this $hest nd pops t&o "ore b#ttons open on his shirt. .he $ro&d goes $r >y. 1! he2s going to te se "e nd the &o" n in the $ro&d 1 " going to do this too god d "nitC 1 bend do&n nd slo&ly sens# lly r#n "y !ingers !ro" "y nkle to "y knee% 1 $ir$le "y !inger ro#nd "y knee$ p "y eyes still lo$ked in his nd gently " ke "y & y #p to the he" o! "y skirt. Sliding "y h nd into "y inner thigh 1 "ove #p nd #p #ntil 1 $#p "y se' nd give hi" n 9O; ! $e &ith se'y grin. +e "isses &ord in the song nd the g#ys /#st re li>e &h t he2s looking t. Keith is giving "e E$#t the shit o#t.2 Look.

B#t 12" not bo#t to stop no& he & nts it 1 $ n see the l#st pooling in his g >e nd the slight o#tline o! his h rd $o$k in his /e ns. Keith t kes $enter st ge to t ke #p the sp $e <ohn th n is ignoring th nks to "e. 1 pop "y !inger into "y "o#th nd slo&ly s#$k it. +is eyes gro& &ider i! th t2s possible then they (#i$kly shi!t into so"ething d rk nd !er l. +e bends over the ki$ks o!! his boots nd the entire $ro&d is s$re "ing his n "e. +e bre ks o#r g >e nd looks o#t to the $ro&d ripping his shirt open. B#ttons !ly every&here. ,o" n re s$re "ing nd p nties st rt !lying onto the st ge in " ss (# ntities. 1 $ n2t help b#t l #gh t the st#pidity o! those &o" n. B#t 12" not ny better. - king love to "y !inger to t#rn on ro$ker th t 1 /#st so h ppen to be $ rrying the b bies o!. Not very s" rt. B#t it2s s#re s hell !#nC 9,h t the !#$k is going on=; St $y sks ret#rning to "y side. +e looks on st ge nd sees <ohn th n2s shirt &ide open% his shoes o!! nd it2s h rd not to re$ogni>e boner &hen yo# see one. 9,h t the hell is he thinking= ,o" n re going to h ve poster o! this on their bedroo" & lls by the end o! the &eekC; 1 l #gh. 9+e & nts to pl y dirty &ith "e so 12ll sho& hi" dirty.; 1 t&irl "y h ir in "y !ingers. 9Oh% 1 sho#ld h ve kno&n yo# &ere the $ #se !or this. Look t yo#.; +e b rks o#t l #gh. 9.his is the !irst ti"e in !o#r ye rs he2s sho&n o!! his ro$kin2 bod t $on$ert.; 1 shr#g &ith n #ghty s"ile. 9,ell !ter this "orning2s st#nt 1 tho#ght it only ppropri te he gets p id b $k in !#ll.; 9,h t h ppened this "orning=; he sks $#rio#s. So 1 tell hi" the &hole story% le ving nothing o#t. +e l #ghs the &hole ti"e. 95e h yo#2re right he deserves this.; +e kisses "y $heek nd s" $ks "y ss. 95o#r !ine s hell nd 1 " s#re it2ll kill hi" i! yo# d n$e in this get #p tonight &ith yo#r ne& d te.; +e &hispers into "y e r. ,h t n ide C ,h t n &eso"e ide C

Chapter Twent$ One

,e listen to the rest o! the $on$ert nd 6r nkie the l nky st geh nd $o"es to $l i" "e right !ter the l st song !inishes. 1t2s good thing too be$ #se 1 " s#re <ohn th n is none too h ppy &ith "e t#rning hi" on &hile he & s on st ge tonight. .he rest o! the $on$ert &ent o!! &itho#t hit$h nd !or the s$re "ing ! n2s <ohn th n re"oved his s&e ty shirt nd $h#$ked it onto the #dien$e !ter the $on$ert. .hey &ent &ild nd 1 think 1 s & so"ebody p#n$h nother person to get it. 1t2s like d "n hyen s !ighting over the l st pie$e o! "e t. 9- d " 1 " to t ke yo# to the li"o th t is & iting !or yo# o#tside.; 6r nkie s ys & lking he d o! "e. 9,here is < "es= 1s he riding long=; 1 sk. 1 kno& the r#les th t < "es st ted to "e this "orning &here 1 go he goes. ?nless so"ething $h nged. 9+e2s o#tside & iting. +e &ill be riding long &ith yo# to the $l#b !or the !ter p rty.; 91s "y d te lre dy in the li"o or &ill 1 be "eeting hi" there=; 1 g#lp nervo#sly. 1! < "es is there th t "e ns this d#de &hoever he is $ n2t try to !#$k "e in the b $kse t &itho#t so"e serio#s ss &hopping. 95es. No& $o"e they re & iting !or yo#.; ,e re $h big rein!or$ed steel door nd 6r nkie opens it !or "e. < "es is /#st on the other side% dressed in ll bl $k & iting !or "e. 9+i < "es.; +e bo&s his he d. 9-s. Bron&yn. .his & y.; +e gest#res &ith his h nd 1 !ollo& his le d nd he opens the door to shiny bl $k st te o! the rt li"o it2s be #ti!#l nd glossy. .ot l l#'#ry. 1 d#$k in nd he sh#ts "e in. 1 t#rn "y he d to !ind n ttr $tive &o" n sitting in the se t $ross !ro" "e. 9+i=; 1 "#tter &ith ! ked s"ile. 9+ello )"ily. 12" Cl ire; the long shiny d rk bro&n h ired% big bre sted &o" n &ith b by bl#e eyes introd#$es. She looks like se'y "odel &ith $#rves in ll the right pl $es. 1! 1 & s " n 1 &o#ld pi$k her o#t o! the $ro&d nd t ke her ho"e &ith "e. 9+i.; 1 nod nd s"ile politely. 9Are &e & iting !or yo#r boss=; 1 sk. 9No. @idn2t 6r nkie tell yo#=; 9.ell "e &h t= 1 didn2t spe k &ith 6r nkie "y boss St $y did.; 1 s y so!tly.

.his &o" n is so be #ti!#l. 1 !eel like slob nobody being in the s "e $ r &ith her. 1 re d/#st "ysel! in "y se t. 1 "#st look ridi$#lo#s to her in these st#pid !ishnets nd &hore o#t!it. She prob bly think2s her boss hired "e by the ho#r. She giggles nd it2s so $#te. 1 &ish 1 giggled th t dor bly. 9Oh de r.; She giggles g in nd $overs her po#ty "o#th &ith her per!e$tly " ni$#red h nd. 91 don2t kno& ho& to p#t this )"ily. B#tH; she r#ns her h nd thro#gh her be #ti!#l long bro&n h ir. 1t2s so thi$k nd shiny 1 &onder &h t kind o! sh "poo she #ses= 912" yo#r d te.; She bl#rts &ith sly s"ile nd !li$kering bl#e eyes. 9,h t=; 1 sk (#ietly "y tone do#sed &ith $on!#sion. 9@o yo# need "e to do so"e &ork !or yo# nd yo# tho#ght yo# $o#ldn2t $ ll the o!!i$e to set #p n ppoint"ent= 1 kno& o#r s$hed#les re b#sy b#t 1 $o#ld do video$on!eren$ing i! yo# needed nything.; She s"iles so!tly. 9No. No.; she sh kes her he d. 912" lesbi n. 1 & nted to "eet yo#% "eet yo#. Not &ork st#!!.; She shi!ts in her se t like she2s #n$o"!ort ble. +er bre sts press tightly g inst her &hite b#tton do&n blo#se. 9Oh. B#t &hy= + ve yo# looked t "e=; 1 r#n "y h nd long "y side. 1 " so not be #ti!#l. Not like her. 95es% Silly. .h t2s &hy 1 & nted to see yo# tonight.; She s ys so!tly her voi$e is like ngels singing. So be #ti!#l nd so!t nd deli$ te. 1 $o#ldn2t pi$t#re this &o" n being n d e'e$#tive ny&here. 9.r#st "e Cl ire yo# $o#ld get &o" n ten ti"es better looking th n "e. + ve yo# seen yo#rsel! in the "irror l tely= 5o# re hot. -odel hot.; 1 bl#rt% $o"pletely inserting "y !oot in "y "o#th. 1 $ n2t believe 1 /#st s id th t to &o" n 1 don2t even kno&. ,h t " 1 thinking= B#t it2s tr#e. She2s hot. 1 don2t do &o"en b#t i! 1 did she2d be the kind o! &o" n 12d pi$k. She li!ts o!! her se t nd slides over beside "e. .he &o" n &ho looks like prostit#te ne't to &o" n &ho dresses like 1 nor" lly dress. See 1 kne& &e ring this !#$king o#t!it & s terrible ide . 1 !eel like sl#t nd even less se'y. No& &h t she2s &e ring is b#siness se'y. 1 $ n see &hy "en or &o" n &o#ld & nt to d te her. She $ rries hersel! ni$ely nd her voi$e is to die !or. 12d p y good "oney to h ve voi$e tr nspl nt nd it so#nd like hers. Shit 12d p y good "oney !or her h ir nd her boobs too. Not th t 12" $he$king the" o#t or nything. 9.h t2s s&eet o! yo# to s y )"ily. B#t &o" n 1 r#n into re so b#siness oriented nd boring. 1 hope it2s not proble" 1 sked yo# o#t tonight.; She s ys so!tly in th t per!e$t se'y voi$e. Oh% shit. No it2s not se'y it2s s&eet nd dor ble. Like kittens. She2s like kitten nd kittens gro& into p#ssy$ ts. And she h s p#ssy. Oh godC 1 h ve got to get "y he d o#t o! the !#$king $lo#ds. ,hen

"y "o" s id 1 &o#ld be horny thro#gh this pregn n$y 1 didn2t kno& she "e nt the &hore bet&een "y legs "ight $t# lly like &o"en too. .his is getting ridi$#lo#s. .he &o" n /#st & nts d te &ith "e she2s not sking "e to sleep &ith her. ,h t is &rong &ith "e= - ybe it2s the bi best !riend shit on "y "ind. ,e did /#st h ve h#ge $onvers tion bo#t hi" !#$king "en nd &o" n nd ho& he2s in love &ith Kyle still or 1 think he is. - ybe 12" (#estioning "y se'# lity= A" 1= No. .h t2s st#pid. 12" &o" n &ho likes di$k. Big ! t /#i$y $o$ks like <ohn th n2s. Oh "y godC <ohn th n is going to see "e &ith this &o" n tonight. ,h t is he going to think= ,ho the !#$k $ resC +e $ n go s#$k it. 12" going to get o!! "y !#$king high horse nd go on pro!ession l d te &ith this very hot &o" n sitting ne't to "e nd 12" not going to think bo#t <ohn th n2s $o$k or her p#ssy or either one o! their very se'y very kiss ble lips. Son o! bit$hC 12" doing it g inC - ybe being pregn nt "e ns 1 be$o"e &hore. 1t s#re !eels like it. -y p#ssy h sn2t stopped throbbing sin$e this "orning nd no& it2s /#st getting &orse being si' in$hes !ro" so!t s#pple bre sts. +oly $o&C 1 don2t even like bre sts. )'$ept "ine. 1 like "ine. - ybe 12ll like hers= 6o$#s )"C 6#$king 6o$#sC Stop thinking bo#t it ll. 6o$#s on yo#r d te nd try not to !#$k her. 8o l tonight is to go ho"e ALON) nd !li$k the bi$ in $old sho&er. So#nds like per!e$t pl nC 9)"ily re yo# ok y=; she sks. @ "nit% 1 >oned o#t g inC 1 only do this &hen 1 think too "#$h. .i"e to stop thinking nd /#st do. Not do. @o. B#t go on d te. @ressed like ro$ker sl#t nd get the night over &ith be$ #se 1 need n org s" b d nd i! 1 don2t get one be!ore bed 1 " going to die. 95e h sorry "y "inds kind o! /#"bled. Been long &eek is ll.; 1 s y so!tly. She p#ts her h nd on "y thigh. 1t2s & r" nd so!t like only &o" n2s to#$h $ n be. 8od she !eels ni$e. 1! 1 like it th t "#$h " ybe 1 " bi= NoH .h t2s not possible. 12ve never tho#ght o! &o"en th t & y be!ore. 9@o yo# & nt to t lk bo#t it=; she sks. Oh bless her s&eet lesbi n he rt. She & nts to t lk to "e. .he &o" n &ho is dressed like hooker. 9No .h nks.; 1 p t her h nd th t2s resting on "y thigh. 9Oh nd ple se !orgive this o#t!it. 1t & s n inside /oke &ith !riend o! "ine th t 1 &o#ld step o#tside the ho#se in this get #p.; 1 look do&n t "ysel!. 1 look so st#pid. ,h t & s 1 thinking= 91 think it2s hot.; She bl#rts% bites her po#ty lip nd her ! $e t#rns be t red. 95o# think=; 1 sk "y voi$e t#rns #p like !o#r o$t ves.

She nods nd bites th t be #ti!#l lip o! hers g in. - n 1 &ish 1 looked s se'y s she does. She2s got it ll. Be #ty% br ins% tits% prob bly ni$e ss too. And th t h ir it2s so str ight nd thi$k nd per!e$t. 1 bet is s"ells &onder!#l. .he li"o stops nd 1 he r $ r door open. She t kes her h nd o!! "y thigh nd 1 !eel s d to see it go. 1 liked the s" ll "o#nt o! ttention. 1t did " ke "e !eel kind o! se'y. 9L dies re yo# t&o re dy to go inside=; < "es s ys opening the door !or #s. She t#gs "y r" to get "y ttention. 9.his is going to be !#ll o! lot o! press. 1t2s like red $ rpet event. And 12" sort o! big de l in the d ind#stry so i! yo# & lk in &ith "e they &ill sk #s to pose together.; She s ys her ! $e looks &orried. :e lly &orried. 1 don2t think she likes the "edi 2s ttention t ll. Not th t 1 bl "e her. 12" not re l !ond o! it either. 9@id yo# sk "e to $o"e so yo# $ n pose &ith "e=; 1 sk. 1 think it2s v lid (#estion. Ad e'e$#tive nd Stri$ken2s ssist nt " n ger. Co#ld be good !or both o! o#r $ reers. 9No.; she re rs b $k like 1 sl pped her in the ! $e. 91 sked yo# here be$ #se 1 & nt so"eone to spend "y ti"e &ith. 1 & s going to s y yo# $ n h ng b $k nd let "e go !irst so yo# don2t get bo"b rded.; Ok y% so no& 1 !eel like tot l ss. 1 pl $e "y h nd on her thigh. 912" sorry Cl ire. 1 didn2t kno&. .his is /#st so s#dden th t2s ll. B#t i! yo#2d like to pose &ith "e nd &on2t be e"b rr ssed. 12d like to be yo#r d te.; 1 s y so!tly. .rying to s"ooth over the p in 1 $ #sed her. +er ! $e lights #p nd she s"iles big. And th t2s nother re son to be /e lo#s o! her. 1t2s per!e$t s"ile. Str ight% &hite nd she h s s" ll di"ples. 91 $o#ld never be e"b rr ssed &ith yo#. 5o#2re gorgeo#s.; She s ys still s"iling. 95e h &ell 12" gl d one o! #s thinks th t. B#t is this ! shion ble eno#gh or sho#ld 1 t ke o!! these=; 1 pl#$k t the !ish nets. 9No% no those re hot. B#tH; she $r &ls over to the side o! the li"o in $ binet nd p#lls bl#e $ boodle o! st#!! o#t. 91 think &e $ n " ke yo# look "ore ! shion !or& rd. 5o#r ro$k look is hot b#t &e $ n " ke it even se'ier. B#t only i! th t2s ok y=; she s ys in th t s&eet ngeli$ voi$e o! hers. 1 nod giving her the go0 he d. She pplies thi$k pink tinted gloss to "y lips nd hers nd tilts "y he d do&n so 1 $ n !lip it over nd she spr ys it to p#"p #p the vol#"e. She h s this shi""ery glitter spr y th t she spr ys on "y r"s nd $ross the top o! "y $hest nd into "y h ir. App rently it &ill glisten in the lights d#ring the photo shoot. .hen she spr#$es #p "y eye sh do& nd 12" done. She h nds "e "irror nd 1 look even better th n be!ore nd she2s right it2s "ore ro$k. 9See even better.; She s"iles.

9.h nks.; 1 s y s 1 !ollo& her o#t o! the li"o nd she o!!ers her h nd. 1 $l sp it into her p l" nd she !eeds her !ingers thro#gh "ine. ,e look like $o#ple. B#t honestly 1 don2t $ re she2s se'y nd 1 sho#ld be pro#d th t she &o#ld even & nt "e to look like her lesbi n lover. .his is going to " ke the ne&s to"orro&. So 1 better prep re "ysel!. 1 slide "y !ree h nd do&n the side o! "y skirt nd pop "y lips together. .hey2re sti$ky &ith lip gloss. 9@on2t &orry )"ily. 5o# look be #ti!#l.; She le ns in nd &hispers in "y e r. 1t !eels str nge to "e l"ost the s "e height s so"eone !or on$e. She2s " ybe t&o in$hes t ller th n 1 " in "y heels nd she h s on bl $k heels too nd lovely / de green br $elet nd ne$kl $e. +er blo#se is open t the top nd 1 $ n see her $le v ge. +er boobs ppe r to be re l nd they2re per!e$t "ilky &hite. 1 $ n2t help b#t look. So s#e "eC She is lesbi n nd she thinks 12" hot. 1 h ve right to $he$k o#t her ssets. @on2t 1= Ok y% " ybe 1 don2t b#t the greedy bit$h bet&een "y legs thinks di!!erent. < "es is by "y side ll the & y to the bl#e $ rpet le ding into the $l#b. She & s right this is h#ge de l. .here re ropes lining the & lk& y nd h#ndreds o! $ "er s nd ! ns re lined long it t king pi$t#res s the g#ests rrive. 1 h ve no ide &hy St $y didn2t tell "e bo#t this to begin &ith. 1 &o#ld h ve dressed better. .h t2s &hy. @#hC +e kne& this &o#ld h ppenC ,h t n ssholeC 1 &ill be s#re to $ str te hi" on$e this is over. 9<#st hold onto "y h nd nd s"ile into the $ "er . @on2t be nervo#s.; She &hispers to "e g in. +er voi$e is live he ven. 1 nod nervo#sly% to let her kno& 1 #nderst nd. .he &hole & y into the $l#b it2s " dho#se. +#ndreds o! people re yelling her n "e nd "y n "e nd sking #s to pose !or the". .o look there & y or this & y or th t & y. ,e /#st s"ile nd st nd $lose together. -y h nd in hers nd pose !or the $ "er s. She le ns over on$e nd !ingers "y h ir & y !ro" "y ! $e $o"bing it b $k. 1t !eels ni$e. Like so"ething only lover &o#ld do. +er bl#e eyes shine so be #ti!#lly in this light. 1 &ish "y eyes &ere th t per!e$t. ,hy doesn2t this &o" n h ve girl!riend= .his see"s $r >y th t she doesn2t. A!ter bo#t ten "in#tes o! ll this $r p &e re !in lly ble to go into Toutolgous. 9,o& th t & s $r >y.; 1 s y still holding her h nd. < "es is & lking behind #s. 91 told yo#.; She s ys g#iding #s over to n open t ble $lose to the b r. 1 get #p on the t ll high b $k stool nd she $o"es over to "y side st nding right in !ront o! "e. -y legs re &ide open nd she p#shes her & y bet&een the" her bodies $lose to "ine. +er sto" $h is nestled g inst "y throbbing $ore.

9@o yo# & nt nything to drink be #ti!#l=; she sks r#nning her h nds #p "y thighs. <es#s% she2s s b d s <ohn th n% !lirty nd is s"ooth s s"ooth $ n be. 1 s"ile nd le n in% "y $heek gr >ing the side o! hers. 9No th nks Cl ire 1 don2t drink l$ohol b#t 12d love $l ss o! i$e & ter.; 1 &hisper s&eetly into her e r% letting "y n #ghty $ore $ontrol "e. 1t2s h rd to !ight her. She &ins lot o! the ti"e. At le st this "orning 1 & s ble to & lk & y !ro" <ohn th n. Cl ire poses no e"otion l or physi$ l thre t% so 1 $ n2t help b#t love the ttention. 9Ok y s&eetness.; She s ys nd p#lls her h nds o!! "y thighs nd goes to get #s so"ething to drink. ,o&% she looks nd t lks like the !e" in lesbi n rel tionship. B#t the & y she /#st h ndled "e sho&s "e she2s the tot l b#t$h. A hot b#t$h t th t. 1t doesn2t t ke long nd the b r st rts to get lo#d nd the people st rt piling in "ore in "ore thro#gh the !ront door. .his b r isn2t "#$h di!!erent th n "ost yo# see. 1t2s d rk% h rd&ood !loored% high (# lity dQ$or nd good "i' o! "#si$. 1 keep "y eye o#t to see i! 1 $ n $ t$h St $y. 1 so & nt to introd#$e hi" to Cl ire. +e2d love her. 9+ere.; She slides "e over $#p o! i$e & ter &ith le"on &edge on the ri" nd props hersel! #p on the stool ne't to "ine. 9.h nks. So &here do yo# &ork= St $y s id so"ething bo#t yo#2re n d e'e$#tive. B#t 12" not ! "ili r &ith " ny.; 1 sk her le ning over nd t lking lo#d eno#gh so she $ n he r "e. -y bre sts re pl#nging o#t o! "y top. She t kes drink o! her S " Ad "s. 912" the Kennedy% in the Kennedy in , its d gen$y b sed o#t o! LA. B#t &e /#st opened #p ne& o!!i$e in Ne& 5ork so 12" o#t here helping "ove things long.; She s ys her voi$e is still s&eet b#t 1 $ n tell this is her b#siness voi$e. 9.h t2s gre t. ,ell $ongr ts.; 1 s t nd hold #p "y gl ss !or $elebr tory $link nd she !ollo&s "y le d. Not s#re &h t to s y ne't 1 s$ n the " ssive roo" !#ll o! & r" bodies nd "ini" l $lothes to !ind nyone 1 kno&. < "es is p rked in the $orner by gi nt &ooden pill r looking ll b d ss in his bl $k $ rgo p nts nd shit ki$kers. B#t no one else is to be !o#nd. 1 $ t$h his g >e nd 1 shr#g &ith "y elbo&s bent% "y p l"s #p "o#thing E,here=2 to hi". +e gives "e the s "e gest#re in ret#rn nd "o#ths E1 don2t kno&.2 9So ho& do yo# like &orking !or Stri$ken=; she sks trying to $ rrying on polite $onvers tion. She2s re lly s&eetC 9+onestly= 1t h s its #p nd do&ns. 1 love it be$ #se 1 get to &ork h nd in h nd &ith "y best !riend St $y. B#t 1 don2t be$ #se it2s h rd to &ork &ith b#n$h o! horny% r#de% "o#thy "en ll the

ti"e. Altho#gh 1 "#st s y 1 " d/#sting !ine.; 1 shoot her n over0the0top s"ile. 1t $ n2t hold tenth to the be #ty hers h s b#t 1 h ve to try to ppe r ttr $tive. She did sk "e here nd 12" !l ttered. 95es% 1 he r <ohn th n is h nd !#ll. B#t 12" gl d yo#2re d/#sting &ell. 1t2s h rd&orking !or $elebrities. 1 kno& 1 do it ll the ti"e nd so"e o! the" re so rrog nt.; 1 nod. 95o# got th t right girl!riend.; 1 dd &ith s ss. She l #ghs. 95o#2re gorgeo#s nd yo# h ve sense o! h#"or. ,h t $o"bin tion.; She s ys in her per!e$t voi$e. 1t sends $hill do&n "y spine. 9.h nks.; 1 bl#sh. She re $hes over nd br#shes the side o! "y ! $e &ith her so!t deli$ te h nd nd it tingles on $ont $t. .he throbbing in "y $lit /#st got &orse. 9,o#ld yo# like to d n$e= 1 s & yo# on the st ge tonight yo# h ve so"e "oves.; 1 bl#sh g in. 9S#re.; 1 o!!er her "y h nd nd hop do&n o!! the stool. .his one is "#$h shorter th n other2s 12ve s t on. .he b r ll o! s#dden gets e'tr lo#d nd the doors to the o#tside bl st open. 1n $o"es the "en. 12ve &ondered &here they2ve been. 1 $ n see @% nd St $y nd then $o"es 4ri$e nd Keith nd <ohn th n $o"es in l st in !ront o! t&o bodyg# rds 12ve yet to "eet. 9.he ento#r ge h s rrived.; She s ys t#gging "e to the d n$e !loor. 1 gl n$e b $k to see hordes o! &o" n dressed like "e or sl#ttier !lo$king to the se'y "en. Wo$$le $a$y !li$ks on over the spe kers nd the entire d n$e !loor is br#ptly $ro&ded &ith d n$e enth#si sts. Nothing like line d n$es to " ke yo# !eel like p rt o! d n$e $ro&d. 1 t ke "y pl $e ne't to Cl ire nd lines !or" to get do&n. 1 /#"p !or& rd sh ke "y ss% /#"p b $k sh ke "y ss. .o the right s&irl "y hips to the le!t s&irl "y hips. 1t2s e sy to get lost in this song nd bre k into yo#r o&n se'y version o! the d n$e nd th t2s e' $tly &h t 1 " doing. 1 he r her &histle t "e. 1 look t her nd she2s eyeing "e like 12" lollypop she & nts to s#$k on. 1 bl#sh nd keep doing &h t 1 " doing. ?ne'pe$tedly 1 " b#"ped !ro" behind nd h nd tt $hes itsel! to "y b#tt. 1 t#rn ro#nd to ki$k "y o!!ender2s ss nd !ind St $y l #ghing nd he ! lls in line nd d n$es longside #s. 1 shove hi" pl y!#lly in the sho#lder &ith s"ile. On$e the song ends the $ro&d on the d n$e !loor dissip tes nd St $y gr bs "e #p into gi nt h#g li!ting "e o!! the !loor. +e sets "e b $k do&n nd 1 t#rn to !ind Cl ire &ho is st nding right behind "e her h nds re on her hip nd she2s not looking too h ppy. 9+ey Cl ire 1 h ve so"eone 12d like yo# to "eet.; 1 & ve her over. +er ! $e t#rns b $k into his be #ti!#l so!t !or" nd she /oins "e nd "y best !riend. 9St $y this is Cl ire. Cl ire this is St $y "y best !riend.; 1 s y.

9+i Cl ire.; +e o!!ers his h nd &ith gen#ine s"ile th t only St $y $o#ld prod#$e. She pl $es hers into his nd he bends !or& rd nd pl $es gentle kiss on top o! her h nd. A shy s"ile !or"s t the $orners o! her po#ty "o#th nd 1 kno& inst ntly she2s hooked. 1t2s i"possible not to love St $y he2s l rger th n li!e nd so d "n s&eet. 9+i.; She giggles like s$hoolgirl. 912" going to go get nother beer re l (#i$k nd 12ll re/oin yo# t&o in "in. K.; she s ys nd he ds o!! to !et$h hersel! so"e "ore l$ohol. 9,here2d yo# "eet her= She2s deli$io#s.; St $y sks lo#d eno#gh so 1 $ n he r over ,ra/y 0itch. 1 s"ile &ide. 1 kno& he2s going to love thisC 9She2s "y d te. .he d e'e$#tive th t sked to bring "e here. .h t2s her.; 1 s y eyeing her sn t$hing beer !ro" the b rtender. 9A &o" n= She2s g y=; he so#nds s#rprised ,h t= +e2s b si$ lly g y too nd he thinks he & nts "e. ,h t2s so &rong bo#t &o" n digging &h t 1 got= )ven tho#gh 1 don2t think it2s "#$h. She likes it !or &h tever $r >y re son. 1 bob "y he d t&i$e. 9,ell she2s !ineC; he s ys & t$hing her " ke her & y b $k over to #s. 1 p#n$h hi" in the sho#lder. 9Le ve her lone. She doesn2t like the $o$k.; 1 s$old. +e thro&s his h nds #p d"itting de!e t. 9+ey be #ti!#l.; She s ys sn t$hing "y h nd #p nd bringing it to her lips &ith gentle s#ltry kiss. 1 $le r "y thro t. 9+i.; 1 s"ile shyly. St $y is eyeing "e like 12ve gro&n t&o he ds. ,h t= 1 $ n2t h ve &o" n like "e= 1 $ n h ve !#$ked #p ro$k st r kno$k "e #p% bi best !riend tell "e he & nts to be &ith "e ltho#gh th t2ll never h ppen nd 1 $ n2t h ve &o" n hit on "e= 8et grip. At le st she2s hot nd she2s s&eet nd she2s &o" n 1 $o#ld prob bly see "ysel! being good !riends &ith. 1 h ve no ide &h t the !#$k it is &ith "e nd g ys b#t 1 "#st ttr $t the". Look t St $y% 12ve h d hi" !or ten ye rs% gr nted 1 didn2t kno& he liked $o$k. B#t 1 $o#ldn2t $h nge hi" even i! 1 $o#ld. S "e goes !or Cl ire. She likes p#ssy nd &ho " 1 to /#dge= 12" in b r% dressed like ro$ker sl#t% pregn nt &ith <ohn th n Strikers t&ins% &ho 1 re!#se to tell hi" bo#t. 12" got eno#gh b gg ge o! "y o&n. So 1 h ve no right to /#dge nyone else. )ven i! 1 & nted to. ,hi$h 1 don2t. 9,o#ld yo# like to d n$e so"e "ore=; she sks l $ing her !ingers &ith "ine nd #sing her !ree h nd to pl y &ith str nd o! "y h ir. She2s s&eet nd s"ooth nd 1 kno& by the end o! the night she2s prob bly going to try to h ve se' &ith "e. +o&ever it is &o" n h s se' &ith other &o" n. ,hi$h &on2t h ppen. Altho#gh 1 $ n en/oy the ttention &hile it l sts be$ #se by this ti"e to"orro& 1 &ill be

b $k to pregn nt )"ily% popping pren t l vit "ins nd !ish oil s#pple"ents. Not drinking $o!!ee nd & t$hing b#n$h o! very " le% very se'y ro$kers !#$k hot $hi$ks. Oh the /oys o! "y /ob. 1 don2t s y yes 1 /#st p#ll her to "e nd press "y bre sts #p g inst hers. She t kes th t s n open invit tion nd let2s go o! "y h nd nd p#ts both o! the" on "y ss $heeks. St $y is still & t$hing it ll pl y o#t nd 1 give hi" the get0on0bo rd0or0go0so"e&here0else look. +e nods like he gets it nd le ves the !loor blo&ing "e kiss. ,hi$h 1 $ t$h like !ool% bl#shing. +e is serio#sly the best g#y !riend everC Red light !pecial rolls over the spe kers. 1 love this songC 1t2s se'y nd sens# l nd hot s hell. Cl ire tightens her grip on "y b#tt $heeks nd 1 str ddle her le!t leg o#r legs t#$ked together. 1 $ n2t de$ide &here 1 & nt "y h nds to go so 1 !inger "y o&n h ir tossing "y he d b $k nd slo&ly roll "y hips on her leg grinding "y $lit g inst her thigh. 1t2s begging !or rele se. ,e2re the per!e$t height to d n$e like this. 1 $lose "y eyes s voring the $ont $t &ith "y $lit. 12" b#rning inside. -y he rt is po#nding. She t#$ks her he d do&n nd !inds "y $oll rbone &ith her tong#e. Li$king "y s&e ty sensitive skin. She2s p#rring% kne ding "y ss &ith her h nds her bre sts pressed !ir"ly g inst "ine. Oh% god this !eels so good. +er hot &et tong#e nd so!t lips " king love to "y ne$k nd $oll rbone. 1 press "y p#ssy h rder on her leg. 1 think she kno&s &h t 12" doing be$ #se 12" p nting nd 1 $ n he r her "o ning bet&een her lips $lose to "y e r. 12" so !#$king horny. 1 need to $o"e. 1 need this so b d. Oh !#$kC -y $lit. Oh ye hC 91t2s ok y s&eetie. 1t2s ok y.; She p#rrs into "y e r #rging "e !or& rd. 1 let so!t "o n le ve "y lips. .his is so !#$king hotC 1 " bo#t to $o"e in the "iddle o! $l#b% r#bbing "y $lit on lesbi ns leg. +o& hot is th tC So !#$king hotC Oh god. 12"H. 12"H. oh ye hC She nips "y ne$k &ith her teeth. O+ 6?CKC 1 e'plode into tho#s nd o! needy little pie$es nd &r p "y h nds ro#nd her ne$k p#lling her into tight h#g. -y bodies sh king &ith org s" tre"ors. 1 $ n2t stop. She lets go o! "y ss nd holds "e $lose $ ressing "y b $k. -y body tre"bles. 91t2s lright. 1 got yo#.; She &hispers into "y e r nd "y p#ssy th#"ps to be rele sed g in. 1 kne& "y $ore & s needy &hore b#t 1 never re li>ed she & s this b d. 9.h nks.; 1 h#!! $ t$hing "y bre th $o"ing do&n !ro" n " >ing org s"i$ high. She t#$ks her ! $e in "y ne$k nd s#$ks gently. 1 press the b $k o! her he d inviting her into "y ne$k "ore nd s vor the $loseness. 1t2s been &eeks sin$e 12ve h d nything like this nd she !eels so good nd silky so!t. 1 $ ress her h ir nd she2s bre thing he vy t "y ne$k. .he & r" o! her bre th is so hot. 95o#2re be #ti!#l )"ily. So very be #ti!#l.; She s ys li$king "e &ith so!t "o n.

95o#2re the "ore be #ti!#l one.; 1 $o""ent "y voi$e ho rse &ith need. She gr bs "y ss nd p#lls "e $lose. 91 & nt yo# to !ollo& "e to the b throo" in the very b $k.; She &hispers ne't to "y e r nibbling the lobe &ith her teeth. A b#rst o! $r ving s& llo&s #p "y insides. 9,h t= ,hy=; 1 sigh thro#gh the ple s#re. 1 $ n2t believe &e re doing this on d n$e !loor. 12" s#re h l! o! the b nd g#ys re & t$hing b#t 1 " too engrossed to $ re. .his !eels so &onder!#l. 12" single d#lt 1 $ n en/oy lesbi n i! 1 & nt. 912ll sho& yo# &hen &e get there. 1 pro"ise 1 &on2t " ke yo# do nything yo#2re not lre dy thinking o! doing.; She &hispers in th t ngeli$ voi$e nd she2s hooked "e. 9Ok y.; 1 "o n bet&een "y teeth. She sn t$hes #p "y h nd nd p#lls "e thro#gh the $ro&d r ther ! st. 1 see <ohn th n o#t o! the $orner o! "y eyes. +e h s three &o" n ll over hi". 1 think 1 /#st s & one li$king his ne$k. -#st be the going thing tonight. She p#lls "e thro#gh so"e b $k doors nd into n o!!i$e re . .his isn2t the nor" l p rt o! the $l#b ny"ore. 9,h t= ,hy re &e here= .his isn2t the $l#b p rt ny"ore.; 1 stop nd she tries to keep p#lling "e. 91 kno& - nny the o&ner. 1 do his pro"otions. .his is the o!!i$es there2s &o"en2s b throo" right ro#nd the $orner.; She t#gs nd 1 st rt "oving g in. And into three0st ll r ther ! n$y b throo" &e go. 1t s"ells like v nill she2s s hot s 1 ". 91 kno& yo#2ve never been &ith &o" n.; She s ys. ,ell is it th t obvio#s= 1t $ n2t be th t h rd $ n it= @o 1 & nt to do it= 5es. 1 do. 12" !#$king horny nd 1 & nt it. 1 & nt her. 95e h.; 1 !ro&n. She $o"es $loser nd slides her silky h nd do&n "y r". 9No% )"ily it2s ok y. 1 & s /#st s ying 1 kno& yo# h ven2t nd th t2s ok y. 12ve never been &ith " n i! th t helps. B#t 1 don2t & nt yo# to do nything yo# don2t & nt. <#st let "e steer nd i! yo# & nt to /oin in do. 1! not 1 &ill do it ll. 1 don2t "ind.; She s ys so!tly in her he venly voi$e. She2s so s&eet nd se'y nd 1 h ve no ide &hy &o" n this hot &o#ld & nt "e. B#t pp rently she does. 9Ok y.; 1 e'h le s$ red. 9+ere.; She s ys gr sping "y hips. nd it2s i"pe$$ bly $le n. 1 stop in !ront o! the sinks not s#re &h t 1 " s#pposed to do. +er eyes re on !ire nd 1 kno&

98et #p on the sink.; 1 /#"p nd she li!ts nd "y b#tt l nds on the $hilly s&irled " rble $o#nter. 912" going to t ke o!! yo#r shoes.; She re $hes do&n nd slides the" o!! slo&ly nd drops the" o!! onto the !loor. Kissing "y instep nd r#nning her !inger !ro" "y heel to "y knee nd #p to the thin ! bri$ $overing "y $ore. 1 s(#ir". Oh she2s so so!t nd so gentle. So #nlike " n. She steps #p bet&een "y legs nd 1 li!t "y b#tt nd help her glide "y !ishnets nd p nties o!!. Cl ire br#shes "y h ir & y !ro" "y ! $e nd n#>>les "y e r. 91 pro"ise to go slo& nd tell yo# everything 1 " doing. 1 don2t & nt yo# to be s$ red.; She p#rrs into "y e r in hot ste "y &hisper th t ignites "y p ssion "ore. 1! th t2s possible. 1 nod nd t ke deep $le nsing bre th. 1 " so nervo#s. 12ve never been this nervo#s be!ore. Not th t 1 h ve "#$h e'perien$e or nything. 9,o#ld yo# like "e to to#$h yo#r bre sts )"ily= Or do yo# & nt "e to le ve the" lone.; She sks s&eetly kissing "y ne$k. +er body t#$ked bet&een "y legs. 1 &r p "y legs ro#nd her nd p#ll her to "e. -y $ore is s$re "ing to be to#$hed. 9,h tever yo#2d pre!er.; 1 " ke o#t. 1t2s $hoppy &ith nerves. 91 &o#ld love to s#$k yo#r nipples. 5o#r bre sts re so be #ti!#l.; She "oves !ro" "y ne$k nd st nds peering do&n t "y $le v ge o#t o! the top o! "y $orset. :#nning !inger $ross "y bre st she ignites the b#rning in "y sto" $h nd "y he rt th#ds in "y $hest. 1 li$k "y lips. 9,o#ld yo# like to to#$h "ine=; she sks looking into "y eyes% !ingering "y $le v ge. 1 nod. S#ddenly 1 $ n !eel the s liv pooling in "y "o#th. 1 do & nt to to#$h her nipples. 1 bet there /#st s hot s she is. She slo&ly #nb#ttons her blo#se nd drops it o!! her sho#lders. 1t2s so eroti$ nd sens# l to & t$h her do th t. +er br is &hite like her shirt nd l $y. ,ith e'pert only like &o" n h s she !li$ks her &rist nd #n$l sps the b $k letting it !#ll !or& rd e'posing the so!test he vy bre sts 12ve ever seen in "y li!e. +er nipples re big h rd nd pink. A!ter tossing the rest o! her br & y she #nb#$kles her p nts nd lets the" ! ll to the gro#nd ki$king the" nd her shoes o!! le ving her in only p ir o! se'y bl $k thong #nder&e r. 8od she2s be #ti!#l. C#rvy nd per!e$t nd !l &less. 12" /e lo#s o! ll she h s to o!!er. ,itho#t &ord Cl ire nd her per!e$t d inty h nds " ke their & y do&n the !ront o! "y $orset #nl t$hing the &hole & y do&n. On$e it2s open 1 $ n bre the ten ti"es better nd she h#gs "e $lose o#r b re bre sts s" shing into the other. 1t !eels so &onder!#l nd se'y nd so!t. 1 never tho#ght being &ith &o" n &o#ld t#rn "e on this "#$h. B#t 1 love it. 912" going to t ste yo# no&. 8o he d nd to#$h i! yo#2d like.; She $#ps her o&n bre st nd o!!ers it to "e.

She bends her ne$k do&n nd s#$ks "y nipple into her "o#th 1 let o#t lo#d g sp t the $ont $t. +er "o#th is & r"% s#ltry nd per!e$t. S&irling her tong#e nd nibbling on "y nipple 1 "o n re $h o#t to to#$h her. 1 need to to#$h her. +er skin on "ine is like he ven on e rth. 1 $ ress the side o! her bre st it2s like big !l#!!y se'y pillo&. 91t2s ok y to#$h the nipple. 1t & nts yo# to to#$h it.; She s ys &ith "o n "y nipple bet&een her teeth. She bites do&n nd 1 g sp pressing her ! $e into "y $hest. -y $ore is & nton. 1t & nts her to#$h. 1 need to $o"e g in. 1 $ n !eel it b#ilding nd po#nding bet&een "y legs. -y /#i$es re pooling bet&een "y hot needy slit. 1 roll her nipple bet&een "y th#"b nd !inger nd she s(#ir"s nd h#"ps into "e. 1 "o n &hen she hits "y $lit &ith !or$e o! her thr#st. S#$kling "y nipple 1 pl y &ith hers nd get lost in the "o"ent o! e$st sy. She p#lls b $k s#ddenly% bre thless her ! $e is !l#sh her eyes re glo&ing. 1 !eel s d 1 lost the grip on th t be #ti!#l nipple o! hers. 1 re $h o#t to sn p it #p g in nd she t kes "y h nd nd presses it to her bre st. 9-y body & nts yo# to to#$h it. .o !eel it.; She "o ns o#t o! bre th% biting her po#ty botto" lip. 91 like to#$hing it. 1t2s so!t.; 1 s y so!tly. And "e n it. 12" not good t this. 91 & nt to t ste yo#.; She looks do&n "y bre sts nd p#shes b $k "y skirt to reve l s" ll p t$h o! red h ir /#st bove "y b re p#ssy. 9Oh it2s per!e$t.; She gro ns. 9C n 1 t ste it=; she sks s&eetly. 1 $ n2t deny th t voi$e nything. 1t2s so per!e$t nd se'y. 1 nod biting "y lip. 912" going to " ke yo# !eel so good nd 1 " going to pl y &ith "ysel! &hile 1 do it.; She s ys l"ost greedily. She kneels on the !loor bet&een "y legs 1 open "ysel! #p to her nd s$oot !or& rd so "y b#tt is little over the side o! the $o#nter. .his is so hotC She looks #p into "y eyes !ro" bet&een "y legs. She2s so be #ti!#l nd se'y nd per!e$t. 1 &ish 1 looked h l! s good s her. And th t l#st!#l glint in her eye p#shes "y b#rning over the edge. 1 need her "o#th on "e. 94le se.; 1 ple d in &hisper. 9Oh yes.; She "o ns in hiss nd t kes !inger% sliding it #p nd do&n "y &et slit. 1 thro& "y he d b $k nd gr b the edge o! the $o#nter. 9Oh godC; 1 p nt. 95o#2re so &et nd so so!t nd per!e$t.; She s ys se'ily r#bbing her !inger #p nd do&n "e. 12" on edge nd her !inger !eels so good. 9@o yo# & nt "e to to#$h yo# here=; she sks r#bbing "y $lit in $ir$le. 9Or here=; she pokes her !inger /#st little into "y tight hole. 1 s(#ir" nd &hi"per & nting

"ore. 91 think yo#r greedy little p#ssy & nts "e to to#$h both.; She st tes sed#$tively. +er hot bre th t nt li>ing "y skin. 1 bob "y he d lot greeing% bre thing he vily. +er !inger t "y $ore h s "e on !ire. -y body is $hing !or rele se. 1 & nt her on "e. B d. So b dC 9+ ve yo# been good eno#gh girl= .o be to#$hed=; she sks her voi$e is dripping &ith se'. 912ve been very good girl.; 1 &hi"per tightening "y grip on the edge her !inger s&irling ro#nd "y hole. 9@oes yo#r greedy little body & nt "ore= +o& bo#t 1 give it even "ore o! &h t it & nts.; She "o ns nd slides her !inger over "y b $k entr n$e. 1 $lin$h #p nd !ree>e. 12ve never h d nyone to#$h "e there be!ore. 9Oh b by it2s virgin isn2t it. +o& bo#t 1 " ke it !eel re l good.; She $ir$les "y b $k hole &ith her !inger. 1 &hi"per. 1t !eels so good. 1t ll !eels so good. 1 & nt her to to#$h "e. 1 & nt her on "e. +er skin is so so!t nd she2s so se'y. Oh god ple se to#$h "e "oreC 8ive "e "oreC 1 bob "y he d. 9@o yo# & nt "e to !inger "y p#ssy= ,hile 1 !#$k yo#r ss &ith "y tong#e=; she gro&ls. 95es.; 1 "o n begging to be to#$hed. She2s te sing "e nd t #nting "e nd 1 /#st & nt to $o"e. 1 & nt to h ve her ll over "e. 1 need it so b dC 95es &h t )"ily=; she de" nds. 95es. 1 & nt yo# to pl y &ith yo#r p#ssy.; 1 $ro k o#t. -y body is sh king &ith desire. 9And=; She2s stern 91 & nt yo# to !#$k "y ss &ith yo#r tong#e.; 12" p nting so h rd. 1 $ n2t h rdly sit still. She /#st keeps $ir$ling "y hole &ith her !ingertip. 12" on edge. 9.h t2s right b by.; She s ys nd she shoves her tong#e t "y re r hole. 1 s$re " o#t in ple s#reC 1 " bo#t to $o"e. Oh godC 95es.; 1 hiss bet&een "y teeth b#$king "y ss to her tong#e. 1 $ n he r her lo#dly !ingering hersel!. .he sl pping o! her !ingers in her p#ssy is driving "e &ild. She2s tong#ing "e h rd nd "o ning. Oh godC 5esC Oh yesC 96#$kC; 1 s$re " nd !ist "y h ir nd 1 $o"e so h rd 1 sh#dder nd gr b her he d nd !or$e her tong#e to "y ss. 95esssss.; 1 "o n " king her bob her tong#e t "y hole. 12" still t&it$hing !ro" n org s" nd 1 $ n inst ntly !eel nother one $o"ing. 1t2s b#rning in "y belly. .his h s never h ppened this (#i$k be!ore. Oh godC

She2s "o ning nd po#nding her s&eet hot p#ssy &ith her !ingers. .he #rgen$y o! her tong#e on "y ss tells "e she2s bo#t to $o"e too. So 1 gr b her h ir nd thr#st "y ss g inst her tong#e ! st nd h rd. 1 kno& she2s loving it be$ #se she2s "o ning so lo#d it2s e$hoing &ith "ine. She $o"es lo#d nd s#$ks her lips to "y hole s$re "ing. +er bre thing he ving in nd o#t. 12" still on the edge. 1 kno& 1 need to $o"e g in. She t ke "in#te to stop t&it$hing nd 1 let go o! her h ir. She gr bs onto "y hips kno&ing 1 need "ore. And l ps "y ss h rd nd ! st &ith neediness. 1 $ n !eel it b#ilding g in. Oh 12" lre dy $lose. 6#$kC 9Oh ye h.; 1 "o n. 9S y itC; she de" nds. 9S y itC; 96#$k "y ss b by. 6#$k "y ss.; 1 $ry o#t nd she plo&s it &ith her tong#e 1 r$h "y b $k nd sh tter into per!e$t org s"i$ pie$es. 1 gr b her h ir $o"ing do&n !ro" "y rele se nd t&it$h #ntil "y toes #n$#rl. She stops l pping "y hole on$e 12" done nd lets "y legs ! ll. .hey !eel he vy nd 1 " per!e$tly s ted. She st nds her ! $e red !ro" !#$king "e &ith her tong#e. A per!e$t s"ile dr &s !ro" her po#ty lips. 9.h t & s so hot.; She s ys bre thing he vily. 1 s"ile still p nting% "y "o#th is dry. 9,o&.; is ll 1 $ n "#ster. ,e get dressed. And &e " ke s#re o#r h ir is b $k looking h l! & ys nor" l. ,hi$h 1 think &e s#$$eed. She intert&ines her !ingers &ith "ine nd &e & lk o#t o! the b throo" h nd in h nd like nothing h ppened. ,e re $h the $l#b nd 1 !ind < "es st nding o#tside the door &e entered in thro#gh to go into the o!!i$e re . +e shoots "e sly s"ile. 5ep% < "es kno&s 1 /#st got s ted by lesbi n. +orny pregn nt t&enty !o#r0ye r0old $ n2t help th t she likes very se'y &o" n n "ed Cl ire &ith h s " gi$ tong#e like <ohn th n h s " gi$ penis. - ybe th t2s &hy he n "ed his re$ord $o"p ny - gi$ re$ords. .h t "ight be topi$ o! $onvers tion one o! these d ys. 9.h nks.; She s ys s(#ee>ing "y h nd. 96or &h t= 5o#2re the one th t did ll the &ork.; 1 s y st nding ne't o#r t ble. 95e h% b#t 1 & nted to. And " ybe so"eti"e &e $ n do th t g in. 1! not% th t2s ok y too. B#t &h t 1 & s pl nning on t lking to yo# bo#t is. 1 & nt to t lk so"e $h "p gnes &ith yo# to #se the b nd !or. .here re b#n$h o! $o"p nies &ho &o#ld die to get their h nds on Stri$ken to pro"ote their prod#$ts. .he g#ys &o#ld " ke bo t lo d o! $ sh nd likely get b#n$h o! !ree ge r. 1t2s kind o! like sponsorships. 1 &ork t the LA o!!i$e "ostly nd 1 kno& yo# h ve eight "ore &eeks o! to#ring b#t " ybe i! &e t lk in the "e nti"e 1 $ n set so"e st#!! #p nd " ybe test o#t the & ters. 1 &o#ldn2t sign

Stri$ken to #s e'$l#sively be$ #se 1 kno& th t2s sking bit "#$h. B#t 12d love to &ork &ith the". 5o# think it over.9 She s ys nd slides "e over t&o b#siness $ rds. 9-y &ork n#"bers nd &ork e" il re on the !ront nd 1 lre dy p#t "y $ell n#"ber nd "y person l e" il on the b $k. 8et hold o! "e bo#t this ple se or get hold o! "e !or other things i! yo#2d like. 1 kno& 1 &o#ld.; She eyes "e #p nd do&n. 1 bl#sh. 95o# re $h r"er yo# kno&.; 9No% 1 /#st kno& &h t 1 & nt nd 1 &ill do &h tever 1 $ n to h ve it.; She s ys li$king her lips. She2s so be #ti!#l. 1 &onder &hy she &ent into the dvertising &orld to &ork behind the s$enes &hen she2d " ke the per!e$t "odel. 9,h t re yo# thinking=; she sks. ShitC 1 "#st h ve looked too deep in tho#ght. 1 h te &hen 1 do th t. 91 & s /#st thinking yo# re very be #ti!#l nd 1 $ n2t believe yo# don2t "odel.; 1 bl#rt honestly. She $h#$kles. 912" not the one &ho sho#ld be "odeling% yo# re. Serio#sly. 1 h ve !e& gen$ies &ho &o#ld die to h ve petite big bre sted red he d &ith l#s$io#s ss.; She gooses "e. 94l#s 12" too old to "odel.; She dds. 95o# re lly like sses don2t yo#= And there is no & y yo#2re too old.; 9Oh honey yo# h ve no ide ho& "#$h 1 love sses.; She s"iles d rkly nd slides her h nd over "y b $kside g in so!ter this ti"e. 8oose b#"ps !lo& over "y skin. 9)spe$i lly yo#rs. 5es% 1 " too old. - ybe i! 1 & s t&enty !ive 12d "odel b#t 12" $losing in on !orty in the ne't t&o ye rs. 12" p st th t pri"e.; +oly shitC 1 resist the #rge to llo& "y "o#th to ! ll to the !loor. 1 don2t & nt to ins#lt her. .his &o" n st nding in !ront o! "e looks no older th n " ybe t&enty seven on b d night. And she2s thirty eight. 1 /#st s$re&ed thirty eight0ye r0old lesbi n in the b throo". She2s !o#rteen ye rs older th n "e. +ot d "nC B#t she2s gorgeo#s. 91 &o#ld h ve never g#essed.; 1 s y politely. 9Abo#t &h t= -y ge or ho& "#$h 1 like sses= C #se there2s &hole lot "ore 12d love to do to th t hot ss o! yo#rs th t &o#ld in$l#de lot "ore th n /#st #sing "y tong#e.; She &inks sed#$tively. -y belly b#rns g in. 1s it !ive h#ndred degrees in this $l#b or is it /#st "e= 95o#r ge.; 1 $hoke o#t. 9,ell ho& old re yo#= 1 kno& 1 don2t look thirty eight b#t so"eti"es 1 !eel it. Other th n tonight o! $o#rse.; She eyes "e se'ily. - n she "#st still be horned #p &ith ll these hot little inn#endos. 912" t&enty !o#r.; 1 bl#rt. No&% her "o#th ! lls open in disbelie!.

9,h t= Are yo# serio#s= She sks $o"pletely t ken b $k. 9.h t2s &h t it s ys on "y birth $erti!i$ te nd driver2s li$ense.; 1 kid. 9Shit% &ell yo#2re the yo#ngest &o" n 12ve been &ith by !o#r ye rs.; She s ys. 91s th t ok y=; 1 sk eerily. 9+ell yes s&eethe rt% yo# keep "e yo#ng.; She gr bs "y ss g in. +er !etish &ith sses is de!i ntly so"ething to be t ken serio#sly. ,e t lk little "ore nd s y o#r goodnights nd 1 ride &ith < "es b $k to the hotel. 1t & s good night tonight. 1 don2t !eel g#ilty t ll !or en/oying Cl ire nd 1 look !or& rd to &orking &ith her in the !#t#re. She2s "ore do"in te th n 1 !irst tho#ght espe$i lly in the se' dep rt"ent b#t 1 don2t think &e2ll be he ding do&n th t ro d g in nyti"e soon. Altho#gh 1 like her nd 1 $o#ld see #s be$o"ing !riends. 1! she $ n st y & y !ro" trying to li$k "e the ne't ti"e 1 see her. B#t ti"e &ill tell.

Chapter Twent$ Two

1 open "y eyes. ,h t the hell= ,ho in the &orld is po#nding on the door t= 1 look over t the l r" $lo$k ne't to "y bed. )ight ten in the d "n "orning. .he po#nding $ontin#es. So 1 slide o#t o! bed. 9+old on "in#te.; 1 yell s 1 thro& on hotel robe. 1 $ "e b $k to the roo" l st night nd took (#i$k sho&er nd &ent to sleep n ked. 1 & s e'h #sted !ro" those three per!e$t org s"s. 1 peek o#t the hole t "y door. Son o! bit$hC 9,h t do yo# & nt <ohn th n=; 1 sk thro#gh the $losed door. 91 need to t lk to yo#.; +e2s begs. 9At eight in the "orning= Co#ldn2t it & it #ntil l ter or " ybe never=; 1 sk !r#str ted. 9Let "e in ple se.; +e begs g in. 9<ohn th n% St $y is in here sleeping. 1 $ n2t & ke hi" &ith o#r bi$kering.; 91 don2t $ re 1 need in no& nd 1 need to t lk to yo# nd !ind < "es ple se.; +e2s resorted to &hining no&. 96ine.; 1 t#g the door open nd p#ll "y robe tighter ro#nd "e. 9.h nks.; +e s ys $o"ing in. +e2s bre thing he vy nd his ! $e h s lost ll its $olor. 9Are yo# ok y=; 9@o 1 look ok y=; he points to his ! $e% he2s l"ost hyperventil ting g in. .he se$ond ti"e in t&o d ys. 9Sit do&n on the $o#$h nd tell "e &h t2s #p.; 1 gest#re to the $o#$h in the living roo" re . +e sits do&n nd pl $es his elbo&s on his knees% his !ingers in his h ir. +e bre ks do&n nd st rts to $ry. .e rs re po#ring do&n his ! $e. 9<ohn th n &h t2s &rong=; 1 s#$k b $k sni!!le. 1 $ n2t do $rying. 1 $ry l"ost every ti"e. S#$k it #p Bron&ynC 5o# $ n do thisC 9)verything.; +e sobs !isting his h ir to the point his kn#$kles re &hite. 9@o yo# & nt "e to $ ll < "es= ,h t do yo# need hi" !or=; 1 sk $ l"ly. .&o "ornings in ro& he2s been $r >y. - ybe he h d nother night" re. 4oor " n. 95es% tell hi" there re three &o" n $r shed o#t in "y roo" nd 1 need the" gone s p.; +e s ys nd his $rying &orsens /#st s "y he rt sinks nd drops o#t o! "y $hest nd ! lls onto the !loor. 1 never tho#ght getting $on!ir" tion th t he !#$ked b#n$h o! $hi$ks &o#ld h#rt this b d b#t it does. 1 resist the #rge to r#b "y he rt. 1t2s so p in!#l 1 !e r i! 1 r#b it the p in "ight get &orse.

9Ok y.; 1 s y on deep e'h le nd 1 go into "y bedroo" retrieve "y phone o!! the nightst nd nd $ ll < "es tell hi" &h t2s #p nd he s ys it2ll be t ken $ re o! right & y. 1 lso " ke s#re to tell hi" to st y $lose be$ #se so"ething is &rong &ith <ohn th n. 9@id yo# $ ll hi"=; he sks &iping his nose &hen 1 $o"e b $k into the roo". 95es% he s id he2ll h ve the" re"oved.; 1 s y $ l"ly even tho#gh 1 " nything b#t. 9So &o#ld yo# like to tell "e &h t2s re lly &rong=; 1 sit on the !loor in !ront o! hi" "y legs t#$ked #nder "e. +e t "e. +is eyes re p#!!y% bloodshot% his skin is $l ""y nd he2s sh king. Oh noC 9<ohn th n.; -y tone is & rning. 1 think 1 kno& &h t this isC 6#$kC 912" so !#$ked #p in the he d short st $k.; +e s" $ks his "essy h ir on his he d h rd. 9,h t h ppened= ,h t do yo# need "e to do to help=; 1 sk $ l"ly nd so!tly. 1 " trying to be $ ring !riend even tho#gh he ripped "y he rt o#t. 91 !#$ked #pC; he yells !isting his h ir. 9,h t did yo# do <ohn th n=; 1 sk !ir"ly nd h rd b#t not "e n. 912ve been h ving night" res !or the p st t&o l"ost three &eeks. B d ones. .here b $k. 5o# s & one yesterd y. ,ell% bo#t &eek go /#st !ter yo# le!t to go to 1ndi n to see yo#r "o" nd d d 1 got dr#nk t b r in North C rolin nd 1 "et #p &ith this d#de. +e o!!ered "e so"e $oke nd 1 took it. .hen 1 &ent b $k to the b#s th t night nd slept the high o!! nd "y night" re the ne't "orning & sn2t s b d. Or 1 didn2t think it & s be$ #se &hen 1 &oke #p 1 & s still "essed #p b#t 1 $o#ldn2t re"e"ber "ost o! it.; +e s ys l"ost $hoking o#t every &ord. -y he rt bre ks !or hi". 1 $ n2t believe he did dr#gsC 91 st yed on the b#s the &hole v $ tion nd !o#nd "ore $oke nd 12ve been bingeing on it !or the p st &eek. 1ts help keep the night" re "e"ories & y. .hen l st night 1 s & yo# h#"ping th t lesbi n $hi$k nd 1 s & yo# org s". -y he rt broke. 1 "e n !#$king sh ttered. So &hen 1 s & yo# nd her dip into the b $k 1 kne& yo# t&o &ere bo#t to do so"ething else. So 1 took those three $hi$ks yo# s & "e &ith nd bro#ght the" b $k here. ,e ll doped #p on $oke nd dr nk beer nd &hiskey. 1 !#$ked the br#nette nd thre& #p !ter& rds. 1 didn2t $o"e b#t <es#s 1 & s so dr#nk nd hopped #p 1 & sn2t !#$king thinking.; +e s" $ks his he d g in. 912" so sorry 1 sho#ldn2t h ve done it. 1 sho#ldn2t h ve to#$hed her. 12" so sorry.; +e !ists his h ir g in his kn#$kles re &hite. .e rs ! ll !ro" his eyes g in. 912" so st#pid b by. 12" so !#$king st#pid. 1 sho#ldn2t h ve to#$hed her &ith "y di$k. 1t2s yo#rs ll yo#rs. 1t2s not hers. She t inted it no&. 1 !#$king t inted "y di$k &ith her p#ssy. Oh godC ,h t h ve 1 doneC; he s$re "s.

A te r es$ pes do&n "y $heek. 1 !eel so b d !or hi". .his is terribleC 1 did p rt o! this to hi" 1 !eel like horseshitC 1 sho#ld h ve kno&n not to "ess &ith so"eone else in !ront o! hi" 1 h te &hen he does it to "e. 1t !#$king h#rts so b dC 12" so horrible. +e looks t "e thro#gh & tery eyes. 9Oh no b by don2t $ryC NoC 6#$kC @on2t $ry Short st $k.; he ple ds. 1 $ n2t help b#t $ry. 1 !eel horrible. Oh shit 1 think 1 " going to be si$k. 1 $over "y "o#th nd r#n s ! st s 1 $ n into the b throo" nd thro& #p bile into the toilet. 1 he ve nd 1 he ve #ntil there is nothing le!t. 1 &ipe "y "o#th &ith & sh$loth nd he2s st nding the door& y o! the b th his eyes re p#!!y nd d rk $ir$les re en$ sing the". +e looks like hell. 9,e need to get yo# help.; 1 s y & lking to& rds hi". 1 gr b his h nd nd es$ort hi" b $k into the living roo" nd p#sh hi" to sit b $k do&n. 91 don2t need help b by 1 /#st need yo#. 1 $ n2t do this ny"ore. 1 " dying &itho#t yo#.; +e s ys s dness penetr ting his voi$e. 95o#2re h ving night" res <ohn th n yo# need help nd no& yo#2re doing dr#gs. + ve yo# done the" be!ore= And &hy didn2t yo# go see yo#r ! "ily d#ring bre k. .h t "ight h ve helped &ith ll o! this.; 95es% 12ve done dr#gs be!ore. 6ro" thirteen #ntil 1 & s t&enty t&o. 1 l& ys st y on the b#s &hen &e h ve bre k. St $y st ys &ith "e so"eti"es be$ #se he !eels sorry !or "e. 1 don2t h ve ! "ily to go see.; +e s ys po#ty. 9No "o" or d d=; 1 sk so!tly kneeling on the !loor in !ront o! hi". Not to#$hing. 9-y p rents re de d% h ve been !or so"e ti"e no& nd "y sister is b#sy living her li!e &ith her kids nd h#sb nd nd 1 $ n2t be r ining on their lives. 12" too !#$ked #p !or th t. 1 h ven2t spoken to her sin$e 1 got o#t o! reh b !ive ye rs go.; 1 $ n2t help b#t think b $k to the night" re yesterd y. +e & s yelling t his d d bo#t killing so"ething. Or & s it so"eone= 1 don2t kno&. B#t he & s $rying !or his "o". ,o& this poor " n. 1 /#st & nt to hold hi" nd t ke $ re o! hi". +e needs th t. 912" so sorry yo# &ere lone. 1 &ish 1 &o#ld h ve kno&n. ,e &o#ldn2t h ve st yed s long. +o& long &ere yo# in reh b !or=; 91 & s in !or ne rly ye r. .h t2s &here 1 "et the g#ys. ,e &ere ll in reh b together. 6or"ed b nd there. 8ot o#t nd de$ided to try to do so"ething bo#t it. And here &e re.; +e shr#gs. 9,o& th t2s inspir tion l <ohn th n. :e lly.; 1 give hi" s&eet s"ile. 1 & nt to lighten the lo d on his he rt ny & y 1 $ n. )ven i! "ine is torn to pie$es. 95e h re l !#$king L #r 1ngles story.; +e sn ps.

9+ey% don2t be like th t. So do yo# think yo# $ n stop the dr#gs g in= Or do &e need to p#t yo# thro#gh deto'=; 1 p t his leg re ss#ringly. 91t2s getting b d lre dy. 1 $ n !eel the it$h right no& to snort nd 1 /#st did like t&o ho#rs go.; +e &ipes his nose. 9+o& "#$h h ve yo# been doing=; 9A line or t&o every ti"e 1 get the it$h. 1t2s b d. 5esterd y !ter 1 got #p into the hotel roo" 1 did it like si' ti"es be!ore the $on$ert l st night nd t&i$e !ter nd then g in this "orning &ith those $hi$ks.; +e $overs his ! $e &ith his h nds. 91 " going to & ke St $y &e re going to $ ll the best dr#g reh b in LA nd &e re going to t ke yo# there to get better.; 1 s y% s " tter o! ! $t. 91 $ n2t do th t. ,h t bo#t the sho&s= ,e h ven2t even gotten thro#gh h l! o! the" yet. 1 don2t & nt the ! ns to h te #s.; 95o# h ve no $hoi$e.; 1 bl#rt. And 1 & nt to r#b "y belly b#t 1 $ n2t. 1 & nt to tell hi" he h s to get $le n !or his b bies b#t in tr#th he h s to get $le n !or hi"sel! so " ybe so"ed y i! &e get p st the h ting nd !ighting he $ n be d d. 1! he & nts to th t is. 1 &o#ld never !or$e hi" to be. So"e "en re /#st not $#t o#t !or it. 1 get #p 95o# st y.; 1 s y to hi" nd go into St $y2s bedroo". +e2s o#t $old in p ir o! hideo#s pl id bo'ers &ith hole on the botto". See he t lks shit bo#t "y p nties nd look t &h t he2s &e ring. @ "nit% 1 don2t h ve ti"e to &orry bo#t th t right no& 1 h ve to $ n$el this to#r. 1 h ve to help <ohn th n get $le n. 9St $y & ke #p; 1 /iggle the end o! the bed. +e t#rns over nd r#bs his eyes. ,o& th t & s e sier th n 1 tho#ght. 9,h t= 1s everything ok y )"= Or $o#ld yo# not & it to t lk to tell "e bo#t yo#r hot lesbo e'perien$e l st night=; +e sks r ising his eyebro& nd shooting "e st#pid sleepy &ink. Only he $o#ld " ke th t look hot s !#$k so e rly in the "orning. 8od love hi"C 1 roll "y eyes. 9<ohn th n is in the living roo" h ving "ent l bre k do&n nd he2s b $k on dr#gs. ,e h ve to $ n$el p rt i! not ll o! the to#r nd get hi" b $k into reh b right & y.; 1 st te !ir"ly. .h t does it !or hi". +e shoots o#t o! bed thro&s on p ir o! 4 / " botto"s nd . shirt. Sn t$hing his $ell !ro" his nightst nd nd his l ptop !ro" the !loor. And into the living roo" &e go. <ohn th n is sitting sole"nly g inst the b $k o! the $o#$h d >ed. 9,h t re yo# on no&=; he sks st nding in !ront o! <ohn th n. 9Coke nd lot o! it.; +e !ro&ns nd r#bs his nose.

95o# & nt "ore no& don2t yo#=; St $y sks. 95es. 5o# sho#ld kno& yo#2ve been there. 1t2s not e sy to ki$k the shit. 12ve been h ving those night" res g in. Cokes been helping "e !orget the" &hen 1 & ke.; +e s ys. ,o hC B $k the !#$king tr#$k #p. St $y kno&s ho& it is= Sin$e &hen= 1 didn2t think he2s ever done d "n dr#g in his li!e. 9St $y=; 1 r ise "y voi$e st ring right t hi". +e kno&s &h t 1 " t lking bo#t. +e kno&s "e &ell eno#gh to kno& th t 1 don2t kno& bo#t his little se$ret. St $y eyes "e nd looks t <ohn th n then b $k t "e g in. 9+o& do yo# think 1 "et <ohn th n nd the others= 1 & s in the reh b &ith the" !or si'ty d ys. 1 & s de ling &ith Kyle nd 1 got ddi$ted to $oke nd pot !or &hile. B#t 1 h d to ki$k it. So 1 did the sobering #p shit nd "et #p &ith <ohn th n in the s#pport gro#p. ,e h ve !e& things in $o""on other th n th t. So &e got to t lkin2 th t shit o#t &hen &e &ere in there. Be$ "e !riends th t & y; +e s ys. .he only other thing &o#ld be the p rent shit% they2d h ve in $o""on. St $y $ n de!i ntly rel te on th t !ront. +is "o" & s bit$h his &hole li!e #ntil re$ently. 9Oh% ok. ,ell &h t re &e going to do bo#t hi"=; 1 nod to& rd <ohn th n. 9<es#s &o" n re yo# going to s inthood= 1 tell yo# bo#t ll this st#!! &ith Kyle nd "y !eelings yo# kno&. And bo#t the dr#gs nd yo# still love "e h#h=; 95es% idiot. )ven tho#gh 12" pissed in so"e & ys th t yo# never told "e those things be!ore. 12" gl d to kno& the" no&. And o! $o#rse 1 still love yo#. 5o#2re "y best !riend. ,ho is getting on "y l st !#$king nerve be$ #se 1 & nt to kno& &h t &e re going to do bo#t hi". 12" very $on$erned.; 1 t p "y !oot on the !loor b re!oot. So it doesn2t $ rry the e!!e$t 12d like. 91 &ill $ ll nd $ n$el #p #ntil S n 6r n. 1 think he $ n do the l st !o#r sho&s th t2ll give hi" good "onth to $le n hi"sel! #p. 1! he2s not re dy to le ve then &e $ n /#st t ke hi" o#t !or those d ys in bet&een nd h ve hi" go b $k !ter& rd. ,e $ n2t dis ppoint C li !olks &e h ve to live there.; 9Ok y so#nds good. 1 &ill $ ll the reh b $lini$s &ith the best se$#rity nd yo# t ke $ re o! the other. And <ohn th n 1 & nt yo# to go t ke sho&er% t ke o!! those gross $lothes they s"ell like l$ohol nd then $li"b into "y bed yo# need so"e rest.; 1 instr#$t de$isively. - n% 1 " on the b ll tod y. ,orried nd he rtbroken nd s$ red o#t o! "y ever lovin2 "ind b#t 1 $ n p#ll "y shit together &ith the best o! the". 5e h "eC

Chapter Twent$ Three

1 !ind l#'#ry reh b $lini$ in the o#tskirts o! LA% open nd re dy to re$eive <ohn th n. ,e &on2t kno& ho& long he2ll h ve to st y b#t the &o" n on the phone & s inviting nd s&eet. 12" s#re it h s so"ething to do &ith the ! $t they &ill h ve the hottest ro$ker on the d "n pl net t their ! $ility. 1 sign hi" #p to sign in the !ollo&ing d y. ,hi$h is tod y. 1 spent ll yesterd y &orking h nd in h nd &ith St $y $le ning #p the to#r "ess. ,hi$h o! $o#rse "e ns &e re going to h ve to give press rele se. So 1 &rite one #p nd h ve < "es drop it &ith the lo$ l p per to $le n #p this gro&ing $l#ster !#$k. ,e2re b $k on the b#s no& driving to& rd the irport. ,e de$ide to go &ith on little !#rther & y !ro" @C2s " in h#b be$ #se let2s ! $e it the p ps nd ! n "ess &o#ld be h rd to h ndle. And pp rently the b nd o&ns s" ll /et th t 1 h d no $l#e bo#t. Not th t it " tters. So &e re no& !lying o#t o! s" ll irport bo#t !orty "iles !ro" @C &here the /et is t 'iing on the r#n& y !or #s to get there nd hop bo rd. ,hen St $y nd 1 in!or"ed the rest o! the b nd yesterd y bo#t the $ n$el tion it &ent over s"oother th n 1 intended. All three o! the" kne& so"ething h d been going on &ith <ohn th n !or &eeks no& nd s#rprisingly they &ere relieved th t he is so (#i$k to sk !or help. App rently !ter short t lk &ith St $y d"itting yo# re ddi$ted to s#bst n$e is the h rdest thing. So <ohn th n $o"ing !orth nd p#tting it on the line so e rly in his rel pse is $o""end ble !ro" !or"er /#nkie2s perspe$tive nyho&. 12ve never done ny dr#gs in "y li!e not even tried pot. So 1 $ n2t #nderst nd the point o! vie& o! !or"er dr#ggy nd to be honest th t2s one point o! vie& 1 $ n do &itho#t. 1 &o#ld h te to spend ye r in ! $ility getting $le n like they ll h d to do one ti"e or nother. 6or the p st ho#r the "en h ve been / ""ing to g#it rs on the red le ther b#s $o#$h nd in0 bet&een songs t lking bo#t the good ol2 ti"es &hen they &ere high on $oke or other dr#gs o! $hoi$e. Or " ybe not so good ti"es. All o! the" h ve been $le n !or the p st !o#r ye rs e'$ept !or "inor slip #p Keith h d t&o ye rs go &hen he did so"e A. ,hi$h 1 g#ess is short !or e$st sy. +ey% give "e bre k 12" ne& to this shit. No& ll they do is s"oke $igs nd drink like !ishes. B#t to be honest 12ve seen the" drink. .hey $ n get do&n &ith the best o! the" b#t it2s not n everyd y thing. -ostly !ter gigs nd o$$ sion lly t night they shoot b $k beer or t&o pl ying h lo on the '0bo'. 1 &o#ldn2t $ ll the" l$oholi$s by long shot. No& St $y2s "o" gro&ing #p= She & s n l$oholi$ to the ten!old. And s "e n s @ober" n &hen her veins r n bro&n &ith li(#or. ,ho &o#ld h ve tho#ght get being di gnosed &ith n ggressive !or" o! de"enti &o#ld bring her do&n to e rth g in to he l ll those

g ping &o#nds she in!li$ted on her son t s#$h yo#ng ge. ,e2ve only been b $k on to#r going on !o#r d ys nd he2s lre dy $ lled to $he$k #p on her on$e. ,h t s&eet " nC 9+ey g#ys p $k #p &ere bo#t ten "in#tes o#t.; St $y s ys $o"ing o#t o! the b throo" &ith b g o! his toiletries in h nd. A b#n$h o! gro ns er#pt nd the l rger th n li!e ro$kers slide there g#it rs b $k into their $ ses nd >ip #p their s#it$ ses. <ohn th n2s been b $k in his roo" !or$ing hi"sel! into solit ry $on!ine"ent. 1 kno& he !eels terrible !or doing this to his !riends nd 12" s#re he2s h ving h rd ti"e $o"ing do&n !ro" $oke. St $y s id he $he$ked on hi" this "orning nd he & s s&e ty nd !idgety ll the signs o! /#nky needing !i'. B#t sin$e yesterd y &hen he h nded St $y the l st o! his $oke &hi$h &e ll & t$hed it being !l#shed do&n the toilet. 9@o yo# & nt "e to get hi" or do yo#=; 1 sk St $y eyeing <ohn th n2s $losed door. 91 $ n b#t 1 think he2d r ther see yo#. +e $ "e to t lk to yo# yesterd y bo#t his proble"s not "e. And th t2s not like hi".; +e s ys. 1 think St $y "ight h ve !elt little t&inge o! s dness &hen he !o#nd o#t <ohn th n $ "e to t lk to "e bo#t his dr#g rel pse nd se' &ith th t one &o" n. Over the &eeks &h t 12ve $o"e to noti$e is St $y nd <ohn th n re r ther $lose. 1 think $loser th n ny o! the other "en on the b#s. - ybe it2s be$ #se they $ n rel te to one nother "ore= 1 h ve no ide b#t they both respe$t e $h other nd St $y is str ight &ith <ohn th n. 1 & lk ro#nd St $y nd kno$k on$e on <ohn th n2s door be!ore opening it. 1nside he2s lying on his bed on his side in the !et l position his body is po#ring &ith s&e t nd he2s tre"bling like he2s $old. -y he rt inst ntly sinks. 1 $ n2t believe he2s been in here the p st !e& ho#rs end#ring this lone. 1 &o#ld h ve $o"e in. All he h d to do & s sk. ,hy didn2t he= Oh ye h 12" !#$king bit$h th t2s &hy. ,ho shoves the ! $t th t 1 /#st !#$ked ro#nd &ith nother &o" n in his ! $e. 8od 1 " so horribleC 9+i.; +e s ys his teeth $h ttering his body $lin$hing h rder into big b g. 9Oh "y god big " n re yo# going to be ok y=; 1 sk so!tly nd $o"e to the edge o! the bed re $h o#t nd p#sh his h ir o!! his !orehe d. 1t2s gotten re lly long the p st !e& &eeks. 91t2s p rt o! deto' b by.; +e dds &ith shiver. 9,e2re l"ost to the irport. St $y s id to $o"e get yo# re dy to le ve.; 1 $ ress his s&e t so ked $heek. 9Ok. .h nks.; 9@o yo# & nt "e to l y &ith yo#=; 1 sk s&eetly. +is eyes &iden h ppily nd he s"iles thro#gh $lin$hed teeth.

9Ok y 12ll be right b $k 12ll tell St $y to $o"e get #p &hen &e p#ll in.; 1 dd nd le ve the roo" nd !ind St $y digging $lothes o#t o! his dr &er beside o#r b#nks. 9St $y% <ohn th n is sh king nd deto'ing b dly is this nor" l=; 1 sk &orried. 95e h. 1t2s nor" l !or hi". +e didn2t b#y p#re $oke. )verything he see"ed to order is l $ed &ith other "i'es o! dr#gs. ,e $ n2t be s#re &h t else he2s ddi$ted to. Coke doesn2t #s# lly h ve th t !!e$t &hen yo# $o"e do&n so th t tells "e it2s so"ething else in th t dr#g he2s been snorting #p his nose the p st &eek.; +e e'pl ins. , y $ l"er th n 1 &o#ld h ve. 12" $r &ling in "y skin over here. 9Ok y.; 1 s& llo& h rd nd r#n "y terri!ied !ingers thro#gh "y h ir. 9,ell 1 kno& &e re $lose to the irport b#t 1 told hi" 12d go in nd sit &ith hi". C n yo# ple se /#st $o"e get #s t the l st "in#te to lo d #s #p=; 95e h th t2s !ine.; +e s ys d#"ping b#n$h o! his $lothes into his s#it$ se. 1 t#rn nd go b $k. <ohn th n is still shivering in the !et l position. +e s"iles &hen 1 enter. 1 go ro#nd the opposite side o! the bed nd $li"b in behind hi". 1 l y on "y side nd &r p "y r" ro#nd hi" "y bre sts pressing into his thi$k "#s$led b $k. 1 t#$k "y legs ro#nd hi" like &e2re spooning nd p#sh "y $heek to his sho#lder bl des. 91 &ish yo# didn2t h ve to see "e like this.; +e "#"bles. +is body is so king &et. 91t2s ok y.; 1 soothe nd t#$k "y r" ro#nd his torso tighter pressing "y body !ir"er to his. 9No% it2s re lly not. 5o#2re not s#pposed to be like this in !ront o! yo#r so#l " te. 1 sho#ld be t king $ re o! yo# not the other & y ro#nd. And 1 " h ting "ysel! !or it.; +e gro ns nd his body (# kes h rd. 1 $ n2t s y th t 1 think he2s !#ll o! shit like 1 nor" lly &o#ld. +e doesn2t deserve th t right no&. 1 so /#st hold onto hi". 8iving hi" the love he needs even i! holding hi" like this " kes "y he rt $he. @ "n even &hen he2s s&e ting he s"ells so good nd his skin is so & r" in "y r"s. 1 love being $lose to this " n. So very "#$h. 1 !eel the b#s stop nd he r b#n$h o! lo#d noises !ro" #nderne th it. .hey "#st be #nlo ding the ge r to p#t in the pl ne. 9.hey "#st be getting re dy it2s bo#t ti"e to go.; 1 &hisper s dness $lo king "y tone. 1t2s too soon 1 don2t & nt to let hi" go. +e needs "e. Ok y " ybe 1 need hi". B#t either & y &e re in need o! e $h other right no&. 9.here2s bedroo" on the pl ne &ill yo# hold "e there=; he sks like s" ll $hild. +e2s so !r gile like this. +is v#lner bility is o#t g in. 1 love the so!tness b#t 1 h te &hy he2s $ting this & y. +e2s going thro#gh ll this. And 1 $ n2t help b#t !eel like it2s ll be$ #se o! "e. 1! 1 didn2t do this or th t. 1! 1 didn2t sleep &ith hi" or ! ll in love &ith hi" or tre t hi" like bit$h. +e &o#ldn2t be this

& y. B#t 1 kno& th t $ n2t ll be tr#e. )ven tho#gh it !eels like it. @eep deep do&n 1 !eel like b g o! dog shit. 1 nod g inst his b $k% r#bbing "y !ingers g inst his shirt $overed bs. A kno$k $o"es t the door nd it opens. 9+ey g#ys.; St $y peeks his he d in. 9+ey; 1 le n #p to see hi" better. 9,e2re re dy !or yo#. ,e2ve got the bedroo" ll set #p. All the l#gg ge is on bo rd ll &e need is yo# t&o.; 1 give St $y s d s"ile 9Ok y let "e get hi" #p nd &e2ll be there in "in#te.; +e sh#ts the door nd le ves #s. And 1 let go o! <ohn th n nd he sits #p. ,e t ke o#r ti"e. +e2s &obbly on his !eet on$e he st nds. 1 o!!er "y help b#t he br#shes "e o!!. 1 think 1 "ight h ve br#ised his ego bit. 1t t ke !e& "in#tes b#t &e re o#t the door% do&n the steps nd into the hot A#g#st ir. ShitC 1 !orgot to t ke "y vit "in this "orning. Oh% &ell 1 $ n2t be &orrying bo#t th t right no&. 12ll s#rvive one d y &itho#t it.

Chapter Twent$ Four

,e get into the pl ne @% 4ri$e% Keith% St $y nd even < "es "y o&n person l bodyg# rd re on bo rd nd so is so"e other g#y dressed like < "es &ho" 1 h ven2t "et yet. 1 sh#!!le "y !eet behind <ohn th n & lking hi" to the bed o! the pl ne nd into the bedroo". +e opens the door &ide nd it2s ni$e roo". 6#ll si>ed bed% $re "y linens% t n $ rpet% s" ll $loset. : ther $o"!y looking. 95o# lie do&n nd 12ll be right b $k.; 1 s y nd he listens. 9@on2t be gone long ple se.; he ple ds% desper tion s t#r ting e $h &ord. -y he rt drops. .his is terrible so terrible. 1 $ n2t believe he h s been doing this to hi"sel!. 91 &on2t; 1 re ss#re &ith give hi" s&eet loving s"ile. 1 le ve nd the pl ne is /#st st rting to g ther speed. 1 l t$h onto the & ll !or st bility. 9Sit yo#r ss do&n.; @ s$olds. Keith re $hes o#t his h nd nd gr bs hold o! "y r". +e2s the $losest to "e nd he y nks "e into his l p &ith (#i$k t#g. 95o#2re $r >y &o" n. No& sit here #ntil &e re s !ely in the ir.; +e s ys "y b#tt in his l p. <ohn th n &o#ld h ve !#$king $o& i! he s & #s right no&. Keith &r ps his r"s ro#nd "y & ist prote$tively like 1 "ight !ly & y or so"ething. 9St $y 1 need to get <ohn th n so"ething to e t nd drink on$e &e2re s !ely in the ir.; 1 s y ignoring the ! $t th t 1 h ve se'y blonde ro$kers r"s se$#red ro#nd "y & ist nd his di$k his pressed g inst "y b#tt. And 1 think it2s gro&ing. Oh !#$kC 5ep. Ne't stop tot l Bonerville. ShitC +e &iggles in his se t bene th "e. 1 think he "ight be trying to get $o"!ort ble. As long s he doesn2t try nything &e &ill be !ine. 1 $ n de l or t le st 1 think 1 $ n% &ith " n2s $o$k being pressed h rd g inst "y ss $heeks in /#st p ir o! thi$k bl $k /ogging p nts. 12" so &ishing he h d /e ns on. 1! he did 1 &o#ldn2t been !eeling the !#ll0length o! his ro#s l right bo#t no&. @ "nC 1 h ve /#nky needing "e in the bedroo" nd g#it rist &ho2s t&o se$onds & y !ro" dry h#"ping "y ss. Co#ld "y d y get ny "ore !#$ked #p= .he pl ne re rs b $k nd &e re s$ending into irsp $e. Keith2s grip tightens nd he h#"ps on$e g inst "y b#tt. @ "nitC .hree "in#tes l ter nd &e re !in lly leveling o#t nd 1 $ n bre the g in. 9.here is !ood in the g lley; St $y in!or"s "e pointing his !inger to the s" ll $losed door. 1 li!t o!! Keith2s l p le ving his boner !or hi" to de l &ith. 1 open the s" ll g lley door gr b s" ll bottle o! & ter o#t o! the "ini !ridge nd b g o! gr pes nd pret>els. 1 " ke s#re to gr b little

e'tr so 1 $ n !eed these t&ins gro&ing in "e. 1 h ven2t te sin$e l st night be!ore the $on$ert nd 1 " st rving. 1 go b $k into <ohn th n2s roo" nd he2s lying on his side. +is shirt is no& o!! nd he2s stripped do&n into his nothing b#t p ir o! n vy bl#e silk bo'ers. 9Sorry.; +e s ys &hen he re li>es 1 " little t ken b $k by the ! $t he2s ne rly n ked. +is body even i! he looks &orn o#t is be #ti!#l. + rd rippling bs% thi$k h rd pe$ks% veiny r"s% b#lging bi$eps nd tri$eps. .he 3 t his hipbones 12d love nothing "ore th n to r#n "y tong#e over. 6#$kC Not no&C Sh#t it do&n greedy &hore bet&een "y legsC .his isn2t bo#t se'y ti"e it2s bo#t t king $ re o! "y b by2s d ddy. Oh god th t so#nds st#pid. B#t it2s tr#e. 95o#2re thinking too "#$h g in.; +e s ys nd p ts the bed. 91 /#st took o!! "y $lothes be$ #se they &ere so ked. Not be$ #se 1 & nt to " ke love to yo#.; +e shoots "e sly s"ile nd sh kes his he d. 9Ok y% ok y. 1 do & nt to b#t 1 pro"ise 1 &ill be per!e$t gentle" n.; ?h h#hC 5e h rightC 1 sit ne't to hi" "y legs h nging over the edge o! the bed nd d#"p the $ontents o! the !ood onto the bed. 91 tho#ght yo# sho#ld e t. Altho#gh yo# re looking he lthier lre dy.; 1 noti$e. 9-#st be ll this good n#rsing yo# give.; +e &inks nd opens s" ll b g o! pret>els. . kes one o#t nd e'tends his r". 9Open; he instr#$ts pl $ing the s lty sn $k to "y lips. 9No; 1 sh ke "y he d. 9.hose re !or yo#. 1 $ n !eed "ysel!. 12" not n inv lid yo# kno&.; 1 s ss. 91 kno&.; +e !ro&ns. 9B#t &hen " n & nts to !eed the love o! his li!e she lets hi".; +e gro&ls. 1 roll "y eyes. 912" not the love o! yo#r li!e <ohn th n.; 1 dd. Only be$ #se 1 kno& he2s !eeling little better. 6or the ti"e being nyho&. 9Oh yes yo# re. No& open th t pretty little "o#th o! yo#rs nd e t this. 1 kno& yo#r h#ngry 1 $ n he r yo# t#""y gro&ling.; ,o&C +e2s right "y sto" $h is gr#"bling. +e "#st re lly p y ttention or "y sto" $h gro ned re lly lo#d% lo#d eno#gh he he rd it. 1 open #p nd $$ept the d "n pret>el. 1t2s divine. .he per!e$t $o"bin tion o! s lty nd $r#n$hy. 1t !eels like 1 h ven2t e ten in d ys. 9See th t & sn2t so b d.; +e s ys !eeding pret>el into his per!e$t "o#th &ith s"ile. 1 sigh. 95o# re p in so"eti"es. 12" /#st gl d yo#2re !eeling little better. 5o# look better.; 1 $ st "y g >e #p nd do&n his se'y body. Spending little too "#$h ti"e !o$#sing on his nether region. +e b rks (#i$k l #gh. 96or not & nting to h ve se' &ith "e yo# s#re do spend lot o! ti"e looking t; he gr bs hi"sel!. 9.hese.; +e !inishes &ith gi nt "eg & tt s"ile. 1 shr#g. 12" not e"b rr ssed. 1t2s tr#e 1 do. 1 $ n2t help it. ,hen yo#2ve only been &ith t&o "en nd sort o! &o" n. 1t2s h rd to s$r#b the i" ge o! so"ething s per!e$t s his $o$k o#t o! "y "ind.

4l#s it "ight h ve little to do &ith the ! $t th t "y greedy $ore is on lert ll the ti"e no&. )ver sin$e &e2ve been b $k !ro" 1ndi n . -y "o" & s right. 1 " horny ll the ti"e. -y $lit does nothing b#t throb & nting "ore nd "ore. 1t2s no /oke &hen they s y pregn nt &o"en re ins ti ble. 1 !li$ked "y bi$ three ti"es this "orning in the sho&er be!ore 1 got o#t nd thre& on "y gr y yog p nts nd this pink t nk. 95e h so=; 1 s ss. 9+ ve yo# l& ys been this horny or is this ne& thing=; he li!ts his nose into the ir nd inh les. Son o! bit$hC +e $ n s"ell "eC 1 so !#$king !orgotC No& 12" e"b rr ssed. 1 bl#sh nd "y ! $e is b#rning hot. 912ve been this & y sin$e yo# " de "e this & y.; 1 sn p p#shing "y h ir !ro" "y ! $e. S$ooting $loser to the edge o! the bed !#rther & y !ro" hi". B#t it is !#$king tr#e. )ver sin$e he i"pregn ted "e &ith his ro$k0n0roll b bies 12ve been horny ll the ti"e. ,ell not !irst b#t 1 " no&. And it2s b d. All the ti"e sli$k slit kind o! b d. Ch nge "y p nties t&o ti"es d y b d. 9Sin$e 12ve done &h t to do=; he gro&ls. 6#$k he2s got th t se'y p nty dropping voi$e g in. .his is going to end b dly nd &e h ve si'0 nd h l! ho#r !light to be $ooped #p in this !#$king pl ne. 1 $ n2t get & y !ro" hi" even i! 1 & nted to. 9Sin$e yo# st#$k th t h#ge $o$k o! yo#rs in "e. -y $#nt is greedy nd it liked it.; 1 b rk ngry. 9Oh so "y b by liked "y $o$k= @oes "y b by & nt "ore o! it=; +e eyes "e% his g >e is l#st!#l nd oh so !#$king hotC 1 gl n$e b $k nd holy shitC +e2s h rd s ro$k nd those silk bo'ers give it ll & y. 1 $ n see his thi$k long sh !t. +is pre0$o"e st ining the ! bri$ le ving be #ti!#lly hot &et spot in its & ke. S& llo&C 1 need to s& llo&C Or "y pooling s liv is bo#t to po#r o! "y "o#th. 1 g#lp b $k h rd. 912" good.; 1 "#ster o#t $hoppy. 9No yo#2re not b by.; +e s ys sed#$tively nd slides nother pret>el se'ily into his "o#th !ollo&ed by his !inger. +e s#$ks his !inger !or se$ond s his eyes #ndress "e. 1 inh le sh rply. Oh holy hellC +e2s se'yC 95es 1 ".; 1 bl#rt% it2s !ir"er. .h nk the lordC 9:e"e"ber "y b by. 1 $ n s"ell yo#. 5o# s"ell so s&eet nd so re dy. 1 kno& yo# & nt "e.; Ok. .h t "ight h ve so#nded hot b#t it $li$ked so"ething else in "y "ind. .his "other !#$ker is so $ #ght #p th t he thinks 1 !#$king & nt hi" th t b d. Ok y. +e2s right 1 do. B#t he so#nds so !#$king s"#g bo#t it. .h t is s#$h t#rn o!!. .i"e to tighten #p this p#ssy nd s y s yon r to his sorry ssC 1 don2t need his di$k. 9Listen di$khe d. 1 &ill help t ke $ re o! yo# "edi$ lly be$ #se 1 " yo#r !riend. B#t 1 don2t need yo#r " gi$ $o$k. 12" !ine &itho#t. 12ve been !ine &itho#t it !or &eeks. So 1 " going to le ve nd yo#

$ n t ke $ re o! th t.; 1 eye the b#lge. 9And St $y nd 1 &ill see yo# to the reh b $enter on$e &e h nd in LA.; 1 st nd br#ptly &ith !or$e nd s&ing "y h ir ro#nd !or e!!e$t. 6#$k hi"C ,h t di$kC ,h t sho#ld 1 e'pe$t= 1! yo# pl y &ith !ire yo#2re s#re s hell going to get b#rned. 9, itC; he begs nd d rts o#t o! bed sn t$hing "y h nd &ith his. 9,h t do yo# & nt <ohn th n= 5o#2ve !#$king torn "y he rt in t&o nd 1 " trying to help yo# &ith this. 1 & nt to be yo#r !riend.; And 1 & nt yo# to be ! ther to yo#r t&ins th t re the si>e o! po"egr n te seeds inside "y belly. B#t 1 $ n2t s y it. 95o# kno& &h t 1 & nt.; +e s ys his eyes re $hing do&n into "ine. .hey " t$h the s "e be #ti!#l green s "ine re. )'$ept they look so "#$h hotter on hi" &ith his d rk h ir nd hot body. 12" /#st "e. 12" /#st )hH 95es% yo# & nt in "y p nts. 5o# & nt to !#$k "y p#ssy nd yo# & nt to bre k "y he rt into "illion pie$es &hile yo# do it. 1 kno& yo#r -O nd 1 $ n2t be #sed like th t.; 1 ne rly yell. .his is $o"plete b#llshitC 91t2s not "y !#$king -O. ,hy don2t yo# get th t=; he sn rls b $k his ! $e ngry nd $overed in !r#str tion. 95es. 1t. 1s. 1! it & sn2t then yo# &o#ldn2t h ve st#$k yo#r di$k in !#$king &o" n2s $#nt l st night nd let nother one s#$k yo# o!! be!ore &e le!t !or bre kC; 1 s$re " nd poke hi" h rd in the $hest. +e gets $loser to "e nd "y b $k is pressed g inst the door to le ve. 98od @ "nit &o" nC .h t & s !#$king "ist keC 1 told yo# th t. 1 don2t & nt hers or ny other $#nt. 1 & nt 5O?:SC 1 & nt yo#C All o! yo#C Bit$hy yo#% se'y yo#% s&eet yo#. )very !#$king p rtC @on2t yo# get itC=; he s$re "s lo#d nd 1 kno& everyone $ n he r hi". +is voi$e is boo"ing nd his ! $e is be t red &ith nger% his body is sh king &ith it. 95o# $ n2t h ve "eC 5o# #sed "eC 1 $ n2t h ve "y he rt !#$king broken g inC No "ore o! thisC; 1 yell looking #p into his ! $e nd #se "y h nd to re $h !or the nob o! the door. 1 gr b it !ir"ly nd st rt to open it. 91 need yo#C 1 !#$king love yo#C; he gr bs the sides o! "y bi$eps h rd nd p#shes "e h rd g inst the door so 1 $ n2t le ve. +is h nds re h#rting "e. O#$hC 6#$kC +e h s to let go. A te r !or"s nd po#rs do&n "y $heek. Oh god. +e2s $r#shing "y r"s. 12" in sho$k nd p in% e"otion l nd physi$ l. 12" so s$ red. Oh god ple se don2t hit "eC 1 $lose "y eyes nd t#rn "y he d & y. 4le se. 1 don2t & nt to be hit. 9Oh godC; he s$ree$hes nd lets go. 1 open "y eyes nd he drops to the !loor nd $overs his ! $e &ith his h nds $rying. 912" sorry. 12" so sorry.; +e ro$ks !or& rd nd b $k.

91 $ n2t believe 1 to#$hed yo#. OhC 8odC 12" so sorry )"ily. Oh ple se !orgive "e.; +e begs sobbing on his knees. 12" !ro>en. 1 $ n2t spe k. 1 $ n2t "ove. 1 look over nd "y r"s re bright red &here his h nds &ere. .hey "ight $t# lly br#ise to"orro&. +e re $hes o#t to to#$h "e. 1 b ng "y body g inst the door. 1 h ve to get & y !ro" hi". +e $ n2t to#$h "e. +e needs helpC A lot o! helpC ,h t i! he p#n$hed "e or kneed "e in the sto" $h= Oh godC 1 $o#ld lose the b biesC 1 $ n2t lose the". 91s everything ok y in there=; 1 he r St $y s y !ro" behind the door. <ohn th n is $rying "ess on the !loor in !ront o! "e. ShitC ,h t do 1 do= ,h t do 1 s y= 1! St $y sees "y r"s he2s going to kill <ohn th n. And 1 don2t "e n !ig#r tively. 95e h &e2re ok y.; 1 so"eho& get o#t. 95o# s#re= 1 /#st he rd so"e b nging nd b#n$h o! yelling. +e didn2t hit yo# did he=; +e sks g in. 1 $ n he r the &orry in his tone. 9No% &e2re ok y St $e. 12ll be o#t in !e&. .h nks.; 1 s y slo& nd $ l"ly. )ven thro#gh "y he rt is po#nding in "y $hest nd it h#rts nd 1 & s /#st ne rly " #led by si'0!ive% t&o h#ndred nd !i!ty po#nd bee!y ro$ker. 1 "ove ro#nd <ohn th n nd go nd l y on the bed le ving hi" to his o&n "isery. Serves his ss right. 1 $ n2t b by hi" !or this. +e deserves to !eel like $o"plete shit right no&. 1 t#$k "ysel! into little b ll on "y side nd p#ll the $overs over "e to rest /#st !or little &hile. 1 need to $ l" do&n nd 1 " ll o! s#dden e'h #sted. 6ighting &ith hi" &e rs "e o#t.

Chapter Twent$ Fi e
9)" & ke #p. , ke #p )".; 1 open "y eyes nd St $y is knelt beside the bed looking str ight t "e. +e s"iles. 9,ell hey there be #ti!#l girl. .i"e to get yo#r booty #p. ,e re in LA.; +e s ys p#lling b $k "y $overs. Oh "yC 1 slept the &hole & y b $k. 1 sit #p nd look ro#nd. ,here2s <ohn th n= St $y didn2t kill hi" did he= 9,e2re in LA lre dy=; 1 r ise bro&. 95e h% <ohn th n s id yo# !ell sleep bo#t !ive "in#tes !ter 1 $ "e to $he$k on yo#. +e $ "e o#t bo#t t&enty "in#tes l ter looking like hell. B#t < "es is in the h#""er no& & iting on #s to t ke <ohn th n to 4 ss ges.; +e s ys. 1 get o#t o! bed nd &e ll lo d into the +#""er. App rently it2s /#st #s !o#r nd the other d#des re o!! their o&n sep r te & ys to l y lo& !or &hile #ntil <ohn th n gets $le n. .he drive to 4 ss ges is little & ys !ro" LAA so 1 /#st en/oy the be #ti!#l vie& o#t the &indo&. .he rolling hills nd be #ti!#l !oli ge is " >ing in C li!orni . .here is no pl $e in the &orld like it. ,e p#ll into drive th t le ds #p to this gi nt $re "y b#ilding. 1t looks /#st like !ive0st r resort. < "es opens "y door nd &e ll slide o#t. <ohn th n & s in the !ront se t. ,e h ven2t s id &ord to e $h other sin$e the bedroo" s$ene. 9,el$o"e to 4 ss ges.; A be #ti!#l t ll leggy blonde &ith sleek dress s ys on$e &e get o#t. 9+i.; 1 s y. She o!!ers "e polite grin. 9-r. Striker &e h ve yo#r $$o""od tions this & y.; She & ves her h nd s"oothly thro#gh the ir gest#ring to& rd the l rge b#ilding. ,e !ollo& her inside nd this pl $e is like be #ti!#l over0the0top ll0in$l#sive resort !or dr#g ddi$ted $elebrities. 1t2s " >ing nd se$l#ded nd right on the o$e n. L#sh g rdens en$o"p ss the l nds$ pe 1 s & th t p#lling in thro#gh the !ront se$#rity g te. She t kes #s ll on to#r. ,ell not < "es he st ys o#tside to " n the +#""er. B#t St $y% <ohn th n nd 1 do. 1 $o#ldn2t !!ord to st y in pl $e like this i! it & s nor" l resort. Let lone !or re$overy. ,e see <ohn th n to his roo" nd it2s h#ge &ith gi nt king0si>ed bed% gi nt < $#>>i t#b. .he thi$k p ned &indo& looks over the " gni!i$ent o$e n. She r#ns do&n ll the pl $e o!!ers nd &e ll "eet do&n in pl#sh o!!i$e to sign so"e do$#"ents.

9Ok y so &e &ill need to go over !e& pro$ed#res &ith yo# ll. Sin$e <ohn th n h sn2t been here be!ore.; She s ys nd slides ll three o! #s over set o! p "phlets. 9.he r#les here t 4 ss ges it th t &e h ve o#r g#est ssign one po&er o! ttorney !or the d#r tion o! the p tients st y. .his person &ill be the only one llo&ed to $ ll nd $he$k #p on his st t#s nd the only one llo&ed to pi$k hi" #p nd sign hi" o#t !ter his re$overy pro$ess is over.; 9,e do not llo& o#tside $ont $t &ith nyone &hile the p tient is in o#r ! $ility e'$ept one phone $ ll &eek o! his or hers $hoi$e. No $o"p#ters nd no $ell phones re llo&ed. 1! do$tor dee"s it ne$ess ry !or <ohn th n to need !#rther $o#nseling &ith p rent or loved one th t he2s been h ving proble"s $oping &ith. 1 &ill $ont $t the po&er o! ttorney nd it2s their /ob to $ont $t th t person to get the" to $o"e into the $enter to do $o#nseling session or sessions &ith hi" nd tr ined pro!ession l. ,e !eel it2s i"port nt to h ve o#r p tients le ve he led the best &e $ n in the short ti"e they re &ith #s nd th t doesn2t /#st "e n their body2s re$overy b#t lso their "inds.; She !inishes her voi$e is so!t yet ssertive. 9@o yo# h ve ny (#estions=; 95e h% is "onth here going to help "e= @o yo# think 12ll need longer=; <ohn th n sks. 912" not s#re -r. Striker b#t 1 kno& &e &ill do the best &e $ n to he l yo# in the ti"e &e h ve. 1! yo# need longer yo# re &el$o"e to st y s long s yo#2d like nd i! yo# ever need to ret#rn to #s ple se kno& o#r door is l& ys open to yo#.; She s ys s&eetly. S#rprisingly she2s not $he$king hi" o#t. .his &o#ld be !irst. 9Ok y% &here do 1 sign=; he sks s$ooting !or& rd he2s knees to#$hing her desk. 96irst 1 &ill need yo# to sign those.; She slides over t&o sheets o! p pers. 9And yo#r po&er o! ttorney i! they re present needs to sign these.; She slides t&o "ore !or"s !or& rd. St $y s$oots #p nd gr bs the pen. <ohn th n st rts !illing o#t his !or" nd looks over to #s. 9No St $y.; <ohn th n s ys. :e $hing over nd $overing the p pers St $y & s /#st bo#t to &rite on. 9)"ily is "y po&er o! ttorney.; +e st tes gently. St $y eyes "e nd 1 shr#g. 1 don2t get it either. 9Are yo# s#re <ohn th n= 5o# t&o ren2t getting long &ell right no&.; +e sks hi" !or& rd b#t ni$ely. 912" s#re.; +e s ys nd doesn2t look #p he keeps !illing o#t his !or"s. St $y slides over the p per&ork to "e nd 1 r#b "y h nd over it. .his is str nge. And not right. 9Are yo# s#re <ohn th n= 1 "e n re lly s#re= 1 don2t think 12" the rightH; +e $#ts "e o!! &ith gl re. 91 " going to get $le n )"ily. 1 " going to get "y he d b $k on str ight nd &hen 1 do 1 " $o"ing !ter yo#. 5o#.; +e points the end o! his pen t "e. 9,1LL B) -1N) by the ti"e this is ll s id nd done &ith.; +e !inishes pointedly.

C#e the b#tter!liesC 1 "ight not like hi" lot o! the ti"e b#t god he $ n be so d "n s&eet so"eti"es. @o 1 think he "e ns it= - ybe. B#t 1 & nt hi" to. 1 & nt hi" to be $le n nd 1 & nt to be ble to tell hi" bo#t the b bies. 1 need hi" to kno& !or "y s ke nd !or his. As "#$h s it p ins "e to s y it 1 need hi" to be ! ther. Like "y ! ther & s to "e. A gre t one% loving one nd brilli nt one. .here2s only so "#$h St $y $ n2t do s their #n$le. +e &ill love the" nd be there b#t <ohn th n is there d d nd he needs to be there d d. 1t2s the "ost i"port nt thing in li!e being p rent nd 1 " going to be the best "o" 1 $ n be to the". 1 le n over nd st rt !illing o#t the p pers &itho#t s ying &ord. 12" not going to rg#e &ith hi" bo#t this. 1! he & nts to #se "e s n e'$#se to get sober. 1 &ill t ke it be$ #se 1 &on2t be h ving ny dr#gs ro#nd o#r kids on$e they !in lly gr $e #p &ith their presen$e in thirty !o#r "ore &eeks or less. RRR