THE BLACK DAY

When you feel everything is rite and going in your assumed

way .Believe me there is something big twist which u couldn't
even imagine is planned for you. Life is so strange. Sometimes
it gives you so much that you dont know how to handle it and
sometimes it takes away all that it gave you in the same
breath.
It was last exam of 8th semester so obviously last day of
engineering life .Even everyone waits eagerly for this day and
planned so much to make that day remembered for long time.
But on that day, no one was ready to accept the fact that there
will be no more classes, no bunks, no more preparation for copy
chits, no get outs from lecturer .It was like full stop to everyone
and everything.
I was very emotional on that day .When I came out of exam hall
expecting at least some happy faces for this full stop. But
everyone was in the same position as I am .That silence was
unbearable. I hugged Ranju,jungle and Goggu ,and was trying
to tell something but my voice isn't coming out .I felt like I may
cry there if I opened my mouth .I tried to control ,because it will
look so filmy if I did something of that sort .
Then ranju announced that we have so much to talk and we ll
gather by evening 4 in the park near to my house and then

going to gundi circle which was our common chatting point

during those days .Gundi circle was like Chat centre of
davangere and famous for its chats. So all four of us left college
and headed towards home.
Surprisingly everyone came to park at correct time, it was
something like Unexpected .We refreshed all memories of our
college life, it was a sense of joy .Then we turned our bikes to
gundi circle to enjoy the evening with chats .Still today I wish, I
wouldnt have gone there, truth won't change with my absence
but definitely the shock would have postponed.
When we were busy in getting chats by waiting in a long
queue , I heard some familiar voice there ,but I didn't
concentrate .When we got our chats ,that voice again disturbed
me .I turned towards the direction from where I heard the
voice , my guess was rite .It was pallavi ,I was surprised and
about to move towards her .I saw a guy was sitting with her
and they were behaving as if they are very close to each
other .I felt extremely jealous and get back to my place .My
mind started to think ,who is that guy might be ???? Friend????
Boyfriend???.My nerves are on I felt a shiver ran through my
body .Just assuming the word "Boy friend" makes me feel worst
. I don't know what's the fact is, I tried to ignore it, but I
couldnt.
Was it really pallavi??
The guy whom she was with might be her cousin??

How did she come from chitradurga to davangere???

All questions started troubling me, I couldn't even sit idle for a
minute. I should crack this somehow, but how???
The only person with whom I can clarify this is, Ruksana close
friend of pallavi .She even became close friend of mine after
that meet in Ruchi sagar .I always try to be close with her so
that I ll get to know abt likings of pallavi .Eventually we became
close, but I could never tell her how much I love pallavi.
Immediately I messaged her
Me:Hi ruk,how are u ??
After 2 mins she replied
R: hey hi, I m fine .how abt u???
I knew if pallavi came davangere ,Ruksana ll be surely knows
that .They are very close that she doesn't hide anything from
her .so I msgd
M:yeah good , have u met pallavi today ??
R: Yeah I do, she came today after her last exam
M: oh, I saw her today, there was a guy with her.
R: Is it???
M:Don't act ruk,u must have known him
R:Hey I really don't know
I know abt ruk , she never lies if she promises on god .She has
great faith on god
M: is it ??? Swear on god .then I ll believe u
R:its bad to swear for small things like that
M:What happens by telling abt him , u r behaving very odd .let

it be, U don't trust me that's all.

I knew I m trapping her, but I don't have any choice.
R: Listen, its prashanth, pallavis close friend.
M: Close friend means???
R: close friend means friend , Why are u so curious abt that .I
can explain only this much
I know ,stressing more on this will make the matter more
complex .
M: It was just curiosity, nothing else.
I chatted with her for some more time just to cover up the
things.
Its already 10 30 now, I can message her but I can't ask abt
that guy. So I just hold on and decided to ask her next morning.
I am sure that I won't get sleep with all these questions in my
head :( :(.
Its 10 o clocks in the morning and never waited for anything
like this .With all the courage I sent her a message
me:Hi pal, how r u??
Yeah she doesnt like calling her name so it was her short name
P: Hi rakesh, yeah good .how abt u?? How was your exams??
M: Yeah good .It was last day, I miss my friends lot after this .Do
you have any close friends???
When in doubt, stick to open-ended questions.

P: Not many. I miss my college and of course some friends.

Me: Any special friends? ;)
I had placed a strategic smiley after the question- It hid my
intense curiosity
P: Cmon rakesh
R: its okay Tell me. You wont tell it to your best friend??
P:U r trapping me yard
My heart started to beat fast ,I typed one character at a time
M: Tell tell, Let's hear it :) :) .
I overdid the smileys just to make her feel comfortable
P: Well, there is someone special.
I almost lost my heart beat, its like, and no it can't be
compared. :( ;(
M: Who's that lucky guy
R: he is very good and very caring ...Prashanth
Just lost my memory on the spot, I am able to type only one
msg.
M:Sorry yar , my battery is low .don't mistake if u didn't get
replies
I just switched off my mobile . I am trying to cry but not getting
it .How bad my luck is, I lost my love, I couldn't even cry :( ;(
I went to nearby park and sat there .I was a guy who don't have
hopes in future and the only thing left for me is to live my
entire life with just her memories .All I have to do is, earn well

and try to keep my parents happy at least ....But god has

cursed me and snatched that opportunity also :( ;(
I sat in a park for abt an hour and consoles myself and started
walking towards home .I saw my mobile, it was switched off .I
switched on my mobile and it was 5 missed calls from ranju .I
called ranju but he wasn't speaking, I just lost my temper and
shout at him .Hello pls tell me why u called 5 times in last 10
mins??
He told me to check my Gmail and disconnected the call.
I was not in a mood to listen him, but if he Calls me 5 times
then it should be something important, so I went to cyber cafe
and opened my Gmail. Yeah he was rite, there was an
important mail. Mail from Infosys regarding date of joining. I
opened mail with so much expectation .I felt so happy when I
saw the date it says MAY 05th is my joining date. I sighed a
relief, at least something good is happening.
My brain sent me an impulse ,I checked the Todays date .its
June 13rd ,what the hell how can I join may 5th ....When I read
my mail , it was written as MAY month of next year ... So I will
be jobless for an year :( .It was like, a giant animal called
destiny crushed, I was helpless, trying to escape, but couldnt...
I just got up and came to home .There were some relatives in
home ,mom was in full excitement telling them that my college
is over and I ll start earning from next few months ...

I couldn't even utter a word, just gone inside as usual .Had

dinner and slept on my bed...All the sorrows ,all the events
started torturing me .This is life , god snatched everything
means everything from me .Just 48 hrs before I was the
happiest man in the world, I had a job ,my love, respect,
everything.Now ?????? What's my mistake??? Why god made
this to me????I haven't asked anything .he gave it ,now he took
back sorry snatched it from me .I lost hopes ,stopped using
word GOD .he doesn't mean anything ....This is it, I couldn't
control it .My tolerance limit reached its peak, I was completely
broken and exploded, started crying like anything .The bed
sheet became half wet .Still today I didnt had such a bad day
in my life .It was nowhere less than a hell .With lot of crying ,I
lost my breath and cough started .Mom and dad got up with
that noise ,They came to my room ,switched on the lights :( ;(:(