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Hired Girl
The
Hired Girl
L AUR A A MY S CHLITZ
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either
products of the authors imagination or, if real, are used fictitiously.
Text copyright 2015 by Laura Amy Schlitz
Art acknowledgments appear on page 388.
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First edition 2015
Library of Congress Catalog Card Number 2014955411
ISBN 978-0-7636-7818-0
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Part One
Part Two
63
Part Three
The Maidservant
107
Part Four
195
Part Five
Joan of Arc
245
Part S ix
309
Part Seven
Girl Reading
379
PART ONE
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Sunday, June the fourth, 1911
Today Miss Chandler gave me this beautiful book. I vow that I
will never forget her kindness to me, and I will use this book as
she told me to I will write in it with truth and refinement.
Im so sorry you wont be coming back to school, Miss
Chandler said to me, and at those words, the floodgates opened,
and I wept most bitterly. Ive been crying off and on ever since
Father told me that from now on I have to stay at home and
wont get any more education.
Dear Miss Chandler made soft murmurings of pity and
offered me her handkerchief, which was perfectly laundered,
with three violets embroidered in one corner. I never saw a
prettier handkerchief. It seemed terrible to cry all over it, but
I did. While I was collecting myself, Miss Chandler spoke to
me about the special happiness that comes of doing ones duty
at home, but I didnt pay much heed, because when I wiped my
eyes, I saw smears on the cloth. I knew my face was dirty, and I
was awful mortified.
Then all at once, she said something that rang out like a
peal of church bells. You must remember, she said, that dear
Charlotte Bront didnt have a superior education. And yet she
wrote Jane Eyre. I believe you have a talent for composition,
dear Joan. Indeed, when I used to mark student essays, I always
put yours at the back of the pile, so I could look forward to
reading them. You express yourself with vigor and originality,
but you must strive for truth and refinement.
I stopped crying then, because I thought of myself writing a
book as good as Jane Eyre, and being famous, and getting away
from Steeple Farm and being so rich I could go to Europe and
see castles along the Rhine, or Notre Dame in Paris, France.
So after Miss Chandler left, I vowed that I will always
remember her as an inspiration, and that I will write in this book
in my best handwriting, with TRUTH and REFINEMENT.
Which last I think I lack the worst, because who could be
refined living at Steeple Farm?
is stuffed to the seams with the dirt that the men track in. Even
though I clean the surfaces of things, underneath is all that filth,
aching to get loose. It sweats out the minute I turn my back.
I scrub and sweep the floors, but the mens boots keep bringing in the barnyard, day after day, year after year. Luke is the
worst because he never uses the scraper, and when I look at
him fierce, he smiles. He knows I hate to sweep up after him.
Father and Matthew never think about it one way or the other.
Mark is my favorite brother because he wipes his feet sometimes, and when he doesnt, he looks sorry.
But it isnt just the men. They bring in the smells from the
cowshed and the pigsty, but Im the one who has to clean out
the chicken house and scrub the privy. My hands are always
dirty from blacking the stove and hauling out the ashes. Theyre
as rough as the hands of an old woman.
But this kind of writing is not refined.
I put on my Sunday dress and took the packet with Miss
Chandlers handkerchief. I so hoped she would be in church. It
seems a hundred years since I saw her last.
We dont go to church at Steeple Farm. When I was little,
and Ma was alive, she used to take me to the Catholic church in
Lancaster, but thats nine miles off, and Father says the horses
need to rest on Sunday. They arent resting today; theyre harrowing the lower field. But the Presbyterian church is less than
three miles away, so I can walk.
Ma married outside her Faith, but she told me Father used
to be very pious and religious before I was born. Thats why he
named my brothers Matthew, Mark, and Luke, and if Id been a
boy, Id have been John, instead of Joan. When I was a baby, we
had three bad harvests in a row, and Father made up his mind
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just shoveled in his food. Every now and then Father would fall
silent, and wed think it was over, but then hed start up again.
It was an unpleasant meal, even for Steeple Farm. But the
men ate just as much as usual. When I stood up to clear away
the plates, I felt frail and shaky. I wondered how much blood Id
lost and if it was enough to make me faint. I wished I could
faint, right in front of everyone. But I didnt. I cleared up the
dishes and slipped my diary out from under the dish towels and
brought it upstairs.
I looked at myself in the mirror, and oh, I wanted to cry.
My face is all swollen and out of shape, and bright purple, and
then there are those four black stitches, each one crusted with
dark-red scabs. I thought about praying, but I wasnt sure what
to pray for because whats done is done. I said, Dear Mother
of God, and for a moment I imagined the Blessed Mother shifting the baby Jesus into the crook of her arm, so that she could
reach out and lay her soft hand on my cheek. I imagined her
saying, There, now, the way Ma used to do, and all at once I
missed Ma so much I couldnt stand it.
Then I was very pathetic. I went to my chest and took out
Belinda, the rag doll Ma made for my sixth birthday. I crawled
into bed with Belinda in my lap and rocked her. When I was
six, I thought Belinda was the most beautiful doll in the world,
better than any wax or china-faced doll. Now that Im fourteen,
I wonder how Ma managed her. Belindas pigtails are merino
wool, and Ma made her wig so beautifully you cant see her
scalp through the yarn. And Belindas dress is silk, which Ma
embroidered with flowers. The silk must have been a remnant,
but even so, Ma must have spent a lot of her egg money to
buy it. All the time that went into making me that doll her
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she might have books for me in her satchel. Then I felt a pang of
shame because it was miracle enough that Miss Chandler had
come to visit me. I shouldnt have thought beyond that.
Dear Joan, said Miss Chandler, are you quite well?
Id forgotten how awful I look. The bruises have changed
color since Wednesday. They arent bright purple and shiny
anymore; theyre a sort of thunder color. The swelling on my
forehead makes a puffed-up ridge that looks like a third eyebrow. When Miss Chandler gazed into my face, she winced,
and I remembered how frightful I look. Of course, I would be
wearing my oldest dress a loose Mother Hubbard that used
to be blue; its a nasty shade of yellow-gray now and my feet
were bare. I looked awful and I knew it, but its been so hot all
week. And who puts on a good dress to do the laundry?
I had an accident, I began, and together we turned to
climb the hill. I made my steps short to match hers. I walked
backward in front of her, so I could feast my eyes on her face.
Its a curious thing, but I always remember Miss Chandler
as being taller than she is. Shes really a little woman, but I
think of her as being bigger than me, so when I see her, its a
surprise. Shes beautiful, though, for an older lady. Even though
she was warm and out of breath, she looked perfectly lovely.
Her snow-white hair was done up just right, and her suit fit so
elegant. Ma used to say that if I became a schoolteacher one
day, Id have pretty clothes. They have suits for girls my age
Peter Thompson suits, theyre called but Ive never had one.
Hazel Fry has two: a dark-blue one for everyday and a pale-blue
linen for good.
It turns out Miss Chandler knew about my accident. Dr.
Fosse told his wife about it, and their hired girl, Betty, is sister
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to Emily, the girl who works at Miss Chandlers boardinghouse. Then its true, Joan? Miss Chandler stopped to rest
under the shade of a maple tree. You were kicked in the face
by a cow?
Kneed is more like, I said, and I acted it out for her. She
looked so worried that I made fun of myself as I told the tale. I
clowned for her, heaving away at the leg of an imaginary cow.
Miss Chandler was still flushed from climbing the hill, but she
smiled, and something smoothed out in her face.
But even as I was telling my story, making it funny to set
her mind at ease, I was worrying. If a lady pays a call on you,
you ask her in, of course, but I didnt want Miss Chandler to
see inside our house. Everythings so coarse-looking and oldfashioned and falling apart. And I didnt know what to give her
to drink. Its too hot for a cup of coffee. The prettiest thing to
give her would be a glass of lemonade, but we never buy lemons. Theres a tin of tea in the pantry, but its awfully old. Ma
was the one that drank tea; Father likes only coffee and beer.
Then an idea came to me, and I was so excited I interrupted
dear Miss Chandler, who was saying how providential it was
that my eyesight hadnt been damaged. We can have a picnic!
I said. Wait here, and Ill fetch you a chair to sit on. Its cooler
in the shade than in the house.
I mustnt stay, Miss Chandler said, and I saw her eyes
pass over the fields. I wondered if she was looking for Father.
Please, I begged, just for a little while! I have a surprise
for you. And I still have your handkerchief, with the violets on
it. Please stay.
I could see in her face that she wasnt sure if she wanted
to stay. But she laughed a little and handed me the flowers. I
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brought you these, she said. Mrs. Lansing at the boardinghouse said I might pick them. She sends her best wishes and
hopes youll soon be feeling better.
I said, How very kind in my best manner, but I wanted
to laugh. I could see that Miss Chandler had imagined me like
an invalid in a book, lying in bed and having flowers brought
to me. Instead I was up and doing the wash. Why, I cleaned
the chicken house the day after the accident I figured if I was
going to be miserable, I might as well get the chicken house
cleaned at the same time. I hate that job.
I took the snowballs into the house and set them in the
sink. I smoothed out the pieces of wet newspaper, to read later
on, and dashed out with one of the kitchen chairs. I set it in the
shade for Miss Chandler, and I went back in to prepare our picnic. Thank heavens I had the strawberries! Ripe strawberries
and real cream are good enough for anybody. If the Queen of
England came to Steeple Farm, I shouldnt be ashamed to give
her our strawberries and cream.
I charged upstairs to Mas hope chest. There were linen
napkins inside hemstitched and little china bowls with
roses on them, too fragile for everyday. I found silver spoons
and rubbed the tarnish off them as quick as ever I could. The
kitchen trays all scratched and stained looking, but I covered
it with a napkin, and I sugared the berries well brown sugar
is tastier, but white is daintier, so I used white. Then I poured
on the cream. For a moment it puzzled me what the tray would
sit on, because the kitchen tables too heavy to drag outdoors.
But I picked up a stool, and set the tray on that, and carried the
whole kit and caboodle out to the elm tree.
Heres the surprise, I said, and set down the stool and the
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tray. I picked the strawberries just this morning, and the cream
came from the cow that kicked me in the face.
Miss Chandler laughed. She has such a sweet laugh, not
loud like mine, and she looked quite happily at the strawberries
and cream. They did look lovely.
Im afraid I interrupted your work, she said, and you have
no chair.
I dont need one, I said, and sat down at her feet. I almost
forgot and sat cross-legged, which I do when Im on my bed,
but in the nick of time I sank down gracefully and tucked my
feet under my skirt. At that moment with my own bowl of
strawberries and cream, knowing that Miss Chandler had come
to see me because I was hurt, and knowing but trying not to
think about the books she might have brought me I was perfectly happy.
But I didnt stay happy. Not perfectly happy, anyway. The
first trouble was that I couldnt think of what to say to Miss
Chandler. Usually I saw her in school, where she was always
teaching me something, and I could think of tons of things to
say my opinions about poetry and famous writers and so
forth. But shed never come to call before, and I felt shy. I think
she did, too, because there were pauses between everything we
said. Then she began to tell me about a new pupil shed met
at an ice-cream social: One who reminds me of yourself, dear
Joan. This new girl is named Ivy Gillespie, and Miss Chandler
says she is like me: A regular bookworm and, I think, quite
clever. My joy was poisoned by jealousy as I imagined Ivy
Gillespie going to school when I cant, and Miss Chandler liking her better than me.
It seems to me that teachers are a little bit heartless. They
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greet each new wave of pupils and choose which ones theyll
like best, and then, when the students grow up and leave
school, they forget all about them and turn to the next wave. I
thought those thoughts and I was in a kind of panic, because I
was sore with envy. I didnt want to be. Miss Chandler was sitting there right in front of me, and she might never come again,
and if I couldnt enjoy myself having strawberries and cream
with her well, I didnt know what was the matter with me.
Then I noticed Miss Chandler looking over my shoulder,
nervous-like. I turned to see what she was looking at, and there
was Father, coming up the hill. I forgot all about Ivy Gillespie
and worried about Father. I could tell from the set of his shoulders he wasnt in a good humor, and all at once I recollected that
I hadnt finished the laundry, and his trousers were lying on the
grass. I knew Father wouldnt like seeing Mas silver spoons or
the little china bowls. Or the strawberries, either, because most
of those we sell.
But there wasnt anything I could do. I couldnt hide the picnic things or make Miss Chandler vanish into thin air. I stopped
listening to Miss Chandler and started to pray. Holy Mother of
God, I thought, dont let Father be ugly to Miss Chandler.
His footfalls came closer. At last I couldnt stand waiting
any longer. I got to my feet and turned to face him. I saw him
with Miss Chandlers eyes. Fathers a powerful man, and big.
He was wearing his barn clothes, and you could smell them. His
shirt was soaked with sweat and he had his sleeves rolled up,
and he didnt smile. Father, I said, this is Miss Chandler. She
came to call on me. He didnt say anything, the way he does, so
I added, My teacher.
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glad when people are sorry for me, but this was different.
Father never said before that no one would want to marry me. I
didnt know hed thought it through.
If Joan does not marry, Miss Chandler said tremulously,
she will need an education more than ever. I understand that
her mother
Fathers face darkened. Her ma filled her head with nonsense, he said. She wanted Joan to be a schoolteacher. Well,
she cant be a schoolteacher, because shes needed at home.
Shes got work to do here, work shes fit for. He fixed his
eyes on the trousers, then looked hard at Miss Chandler. You
neednt come back, he said, and went up the path to the house.
I stood dumbstruck. I couldnt believe that hed spoken to
Miss Chandler that way to Miss Chandler. I heard her take in
her breath, and the way she did it, I didnt have to look to know
she was almost crying. I understood. Theres something about
Father that weakens you. Its the choked-down anger inside
him. Its like stagnant water, heavy and murky and sickening.
Whenever I have words with Father, I feel poisoned, even two
or three days after.
And of course, Miss Chandler isnt used to being treated
like that. Everyone in these parts knows shes a good teacher
and a real lady. I put out my hand to touch her sleeve. Please
I didnt rightly know what I was saying please for. Please dont
cry, maybe. Or: Please dont let him keep you from coming again. But
she said under her breath, Id better leave, and her hands were
shaking as she jammed the books back in her satchel.
I followed her down the hill. I found myself jabbering, saying that Father hadnt meant what he said, that it was just one
of his humors. I told her she must come again and told her the
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times when Father is usually out. But she wasnt listening. She
wanted to get away so bad. She hadnt even fastened the satchel
properly, and through the open part I saw the gold letters on
the green book. The Mill on the Floss. Miss Chandler had told
me about that one, and Id so wanted to read it. I felt the sting
of that loss, and shame swept over me, because I was thinking
about myself, instead of Miss Chandler. It isnt that I dont love
Miss Chandler. I do I do with all my heart! Its just that I
couldnt help seeing the title on the book.
I gave up pursuing her when we reached the spot where
the hill leveled out. She wasnt answering me, or even listening,
because she was too busy pretending she wasnt crying. I ought
to have thanked her for all her kindness, but I didnt think of it.
Thank you goes with good-bye, and I wasnt ready to say goodbye. But at last I blurted out that I would never forget her. And
then we separated, and both of us were weeping.
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