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Life of A Baiulus (Barca/Pietros)
Life of A Baiulus (Barca/Pietros)
Even though we came to be, he must have known that I would not be able to procure another
protector, that what happened between us was not the usual fare amongst the slaves in the
ludus.
I am not a fighter, able to protect myself from their attacks; I am not a seducer, trained to
beguile bodies and minds with my own being.
I am simply another server, a server of slaves, at that.
Perhaps I could understand, even forgive, the choice he made to leave by himself. But I will
never be able to forgive leaving without saying goodbye.
One last kiss would have made this pain more bearable. One last kind word, a sigh of regret,
would make up a little for all the pain in my heart and make me able to ignore the pain in my
body.
Was I not worth a second look?
Perhaps I wasn't.
That's why these hideous new slaves come at me.
They use me, they hurt me, in mind and body, but that pain is nothing compared to the pain his
departure left. Because to him I was supposed to mean more.
These slaves are nothing, in the same way I'm nothing. They are dirt, as I am.
Does it matter what any of them do to me?
One of them is after me, he can see how weak I am and will use it at his advantage.
He has hit me before and the champion asked about it, but what, really, will he be able to do? he
is the Champion only until te next one comes, Crixus can bear witness to that.
He comes at me now, once more, he fucks me ahain, and I bleed, is this all my life will ever be?
Used and abused by those stronger than me? Left by those I love?
Over and over again until the day l die.
I can't say no, I can't fight back. There is nothing left for me, but this life as a slave.
I have no choice.
Except, I do...
I could change all of this. I could make my life different. I could keep them all away.
There is one choice I can make.