Comfort Romance Series

Dating Silence
By
Author: Patricia Redman
Copyright 2015 by Patricia Redman

This work of fiction has places, incidents, names, characters that

are from the authors imagination and not to be construed as
real. Any persons resembling a live or dead, locality,
organizations or events is actually all coincidental.
The rights are all reserved. This book can not be used, part or
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Editor: Eva Leo

Synopsis
It is also important to choose to dwell on the good things rather
than focus your attention on the negative ones, particularly at
times when the relationship seems like on the verge of breaking
apart. In the event of huge conflicts, take time to think if the
love's worthy to fight for or if it's already time to let go. Since
you have already invested time and effort and emotions into it,
don't you think the relationships worth saving at first? Anyway,
you'll know if you got no more reason to continue with the
relationship and to just call it quits between you and your
partner. The bottom line here is that always choose to continue
loving and understanding the person if you still have enough
reasons to do so.

Table Of Content
Synopsis
Chapter One: Why stay?
Chapter Two: Depressed advice
Chapter Three: How I got here
Chapter Four: Stress of the broken hearted
Chapter Five: To talk
Chapter Six: Live in silence
Chapter Seven: Lost in love
Chapter Eight: On the way back

Chapter One: Why stay?

My head was hurting so much, I could not think clearly.
What were good reasons for staying? This was the question that
was pounding on my head. I, Jack the lad, asked Todd my best
friend and best mate.
Look Jack! When you got married, Todds voice was normally
calm and quiet but today it seemed to be above the pounding
drum in my head and I heard Todds voice in full volume.
I knew this would happen. I told you so, dont you remember!
Todd loved doing this. Reminding me of all the ideas, all the
times he had told me so, along with all the other things he had
done for me.
He continued I pre-saw that it would require a great deal of
effort, might even be a push up hill on your part to keep this,
your marriage on a balanced even level, keeping it interesting
and loving. He stopped for breath.
I knew you hadn't considered the changes being married would
bring. Jack you are an individual. A mans man. He paused for
a five second break and finished with I think you should
remember all my advice Ive ever given you
The look on his face made it look as though he'd just planted the
flag on the moon. That smile on his face backed it up with an I
told you so.
Now he had me thinking of all the little squabbles Id had with
Nina. She would shout Cant go out with those friends, for a
night. What was wrong with my friends?
Todd added to his unfinished speech Cant go to the odd
fishing trip etc. Next thing you know cant go out period.

Look Todd, I hear you! I told you once before and Ill tell you
again. Ive got this one, there is one approach to getting back
into love mode with Nina. I need to listen to her. Its all about
understanding what she wants.
Todd cut in this time and his voice was even louder than before.
The stress is on both of you and neither of you, are happy with
the situation!
Silence rang in the air as it carried itself on each of his words
across the room to the corners of the room.
Yes, you both love each other and yet youre not really with
her, are you? If its so simple, why cant you even talk to her?
Of course, he was right. I was dating silence.
Why dont you take a week out, and spend it together Todd
nodded at his own advice. Take it from me, Ive had my fair
share of marriage problems. Just make sure that you take at least
one night a week or one day in the month, to spend together.
That will help keep your love going solid until the end of time.
I sighed and shrugged my shoulders. I suppose it's worth a try. It
made sense and if it works Ill be healthy and happy with Nina.

Chapter Two: Depressed advice

Jack at least you're trying. Todd stated.
He looked at me for a moment, put his hands up in the air then
lowered them slowly accompanied with a few growls and sighs.
Then, Todd the drama king started another speech When
youve found your genuine romance youll know. When you
have, you said it his voice slowing down to help me see the
point he was making. Found somebody you believed was the
most wonderful person on the planet, who could do no wrong,
until she did now his eyes locked with mine.

This was the one for me you said when you spent every
weekend dating and spending time with Nina.
She was the one you could converse with and in whom you
could express your love. She is the one, the one you will spend
the rest of your life with you said I thought I saw a glimmer of
jealousy.
Dont forget Ive been there for you Jack. Todd had to add on.
Todd I know you have, you have. Im aware youve heard the
story, your story over a hundred times I confirmed his
knowledge.
I could write the book for you, Im a good listener and I give
sound advice Todd added with a smile.
I know how it all began with that first date, where you found
out how much you appreciated each others company. You both
had such a great amount in common, when you went to that
paint-ball weekend Todds words began to sound like whispers
of bla, bla, bla...

Chapter Three: How I got here

My memory fell backwards, I was now dressed for combat.
Goddamnit, I muttered as the mortar exploded close to my
position, sending dirt and shrapnel flying high in the air. I
quickly patted myself down, making sure I was in one piece.
Seeing I was alright, I stood and brought my paint-ball rifle up
to my shoulder and fired off a quick burst of shots before
dropping back down to the ground for cover. I tried to see as
much as I could when I was up there.
The plan was easy, but everyone was playing to win. The office
company was divided into departments and staff members put in

opposition. I thought I saw the mortar emplacement and where

most of the guards were, but I was not sure. Luckily we were
still in range to hit our targets; but unluckily we could still be hit
by the guards or the group headed by the I.T systems
department, Michael.
Jill, I called out to my left, referring to my team mate by the
code-names assigned to us for the mission. Six hostiles on our
path. No! Maybe seven, or so at least thats what I could see.
Jill looked to me and nodded. She got to her knees behind the
rock she was hiding behind. Three seconds passed. Jill then
stood and fired from her paint-ball rifle, followed by me.
Go! Go! Go! I shouted.
Jill turned and ran up the steep hill they were trekking about
twenty feet before positioning herself behind another rock.
Jack, lets move! Jill ordered before she laid covering fire
from her paint-ball rifle.
I shot off another two rounds before I heard the horrible sound
of an empty chamber. I lowered my weapon and scooped up the
bag I placed at my feet. I slung it across my back and started to
run. As I moved, I exchanged the magazine in my rifle with a
new one. I chambered a round from the new magazine.
I ran past Jill and kept running another twenty yards before
kneeling down and sending rounds back at the pursuers. I did
not even need to call out to Jill. She just picked herself up and
immediately charged up the hill, just like she was trained to do;
just like I was also trained to do.
Take the bag! I ordered. I stopped firing to undo and sling the
bag. Get it up and running!
Jill quickly adjusted her trajectory to swing close to me. She
snatched up the bag and kept running up the rocky hillside. As I
continued to fire, watching the pursuers fall as we hit them.
Changing! I yelled out as I swapped magazines again.
Keep them back, Jill said as she knelt down and unzipped the
bag.

I looked back for a split second, making sure Jill was doing
alright. She pulled out of the large bag a breaching charge. Jill
wiped at the ground, finally pulling off the fake grass, revealing
a large metal plate.
Then I continued firing at the advancing enemies as Jill set the
charge.
Breaching! Jill shouted, diving down onto the ground away
from the metal plate. She depressed the trigger.
Not a second later, there was a tremendous boom from where
the charge was placed. It even gave me a small jump at the
shockwave, but I still shot at the guards team.
Jill then pulled out two paint grenades. She pulled the pins and
dropped them in the hole. The ground shook again as the target
was destroyed by the shrapnel or large blobs of paint from the
dropped grenades.
Zero, this is Jill, she said into a radio she carried on her vest.
The pail has been fetched. I repeat the pail has been fetched.
I smiled as I heard her over the radio. Everything was going to
be alright. We destroyed the pail of wateror what the
codename referred to. When they were briefed, Jack and Jill
were told this was the site of an old town and up on the hill was
a well.
After being abandoned for centuries, a rising dictator came in
and set up base in the area. They were led to believe that under
the old well was vital Intel the dictator had procured on the
black market that needed to be destroyed.
Jack lets move! Jill shouted down to me. She started to fire at
the ever-closer guards.
I then stood up and dashed up the hill. We need to get to the
extraction point.
We can slide down the hill, she replied, cut through the fence
and hike through the forest. Double back to the rendezvous and
well be clear.
On three, you start moving. I turned back to the guards.

I then counted to three. Once I hit three I stood up and yelled

numerous curses at them as I sent multiple rounds down at the
pursuers.
Jill secured her paint-ball rifle, making sure it would not get lost
as she slid down the hill.
I FELL!
Jill watched as I, hit the ground, the highlighted green blood
oozing from the top of my head where a bullet of green paint hit.
She told me later that she felt as if she was stuck in time for a
second when I fell.
I began to slide down the backside of the hill. She reached out to
grab my leg but she missed.
Jill fired the rest of her magazine at the guards before she began
to tumble after me. She tried to move as fast as she could.
Luckily she was able to travel down the slope faster than me.
She turned around and caught me. We continued to roll together
down the hill until we hit the bottom of the slope and the metal
fence.
Jill then shook away the disorientation before checking if I was
ok.
Thankfully the round of green only grazed the top of my head,
but it was still a wound, that hit me hard and the fall had sent me
into unconsciousness state of off balance.
Within my slow motion Jill seemed to have moved fast. She
yanked free the wire cutters from her vest and snipped away a
hole at the fence. She wiggled her way through before pulling
me with her. She hefted me up onto her back.
Jill turned back, watching the smoke rise from the old well in
the hill and the heads of the guards just beginning to clear the
ridge.
With as much strength as she could muster, she began to run to
the rendezvous point with me on her back. She was so strong I
told her but she just dismissed it. Saying I only hoped we could
make it in time.

Chapter Four: Stress of the broken hearted

Our hanging out time had started from when we were young
college men. We had set it up for our enjoyment, a little aside
time, to do what we wanted to do. Our time out to eat as much
as we could, go to some car shows and go to football games
together. It was on one of these trips that Todd let me know what
was really going on, behind the screen. Because he had been
playing the role of everything things cool man, when it was far
from it.
I noticed he was behaving somewhat different. This new Todd
was getting out of hand. In fact this extraness took the form of
unbearable. He kept saying So many women, such little time
over and over it became a chant I didnt need to hear.
When I made a comment about this quote, he snapped Im
going to keep my distance from my ex. Physically and mentally.
Ive removed her from every social network she uses. In fact
anything that can be used for communicate with her.
I wished I had not hit this sore point.
I have to make a complete break from her. Im not keeping
contact with her in form or fashion. It will only prolong this
painful break-up He seemed very hurt.
What's happening? Todd this isn't you. I asked.
Im grieving for her. She's still there, yet out reach. he
answered while looking down at the ground.
Why did Xandria-- I dared and used her name.Is she alright?
Has she? My voice now sounding softer, to avoid causing
any more pain.

Todd shouted No! But it feels real, not at all like grieving over
the passing of a friend or family member but Im hurting for her
because shes off of the compass. Shes taken herself off of my
compass. This is the reason why Im, in so much emotional
strain. A tear ran down, which was quickly wiped away. Caught
in its escape.
With death at least you know you can't see that person any
longer and you can acknowledge that. Yet a separation is harder
because a little piece of you still wants to see them again. He
sighed. But I need to acknowledge thats shes gone for good
and Ill have to get past this. Todd said while breaking down.
This is an unknown state, for me Id never seen him like this
before in my life. The guy behind that mask was one trying to
get over a broken heart. The man, who would offer us, all his
brilliant advice regarding women matters.
I found out later that many people like Todd found getting over
a broken heart to be one of the most difficult and stressful things
they could ever deal with. It puts immense pressure on them and
can cause chaos in daily life if they let it.
Todd at times was like this, when I think about it. One minute
happy, full of play and jokes, the next down in the hole.
The playing of two roles in his own life drama, with act one
ending in tears, this showed me what a good actor he had
become.
Hed have to show extreme maturity and self control while at
work but conquering his emotions all the while he was learning
how to get over a broken heart and survive it, with sanity intact.
I had no idea what he had been coping with it.
I feel as if I became his councillor, therapist and his rock. He
wrote lyrics down for songs, so many all about or with the same
theme of being broken hearted.

I needed help listening to Todd, Not you again became the song
I could relate with most maybe because it became trapped in my
mind.
He started carrying his guitar around as if he felt the need to be a
street musician. Singing his woes away. He was trying to find a
tune that fixed with his unbearable pain. Todds voice began to
get on my nerves as he repeated the words over and over and
over again and again and again.
He began to sing again, eventually his voice improved around
the hundredth hour.
Don't Rush It! Seemed to be another favour one or come to think
of it, it was one of his first songs I heard on a frequent manner. I
knew it so well I could sing along, now.
Don't Rush It! Give yourself time to get over this situation,
Allow yourself time off work or take a vacation.
Don't burden yourself with other stresses,
When, you already have as much as you can stand.
Don't Rush It! Don't Rush It! Don't Rush It!
Don't rush the healing process as May you run the risk of losing
control of your emotions.
Take it slow and keep control.
Dont Rush it! But this said; do not dwell on your loss.
Change is hard for us all sometimes but it is character building.
Don't try and change the past but make plans for the future.
You don't know what's around the corner and a new happiness
can come along at any time.
Don't Rush It! Don't Rush It! Don't Rush It!
Don't rush the healing process as May you run the risk of losing
control of your emotions.
Take it slow and keep control.

I witnessed another Todd after Xandria and he broke up.

Then I was thinking to myself please! Rush It., get a plan but
will he? He will, but in a way he had a plan, but he had know
idea and that was not the time to tell him what to do.
I advised him to Get Rid of Physical Reminders he really did not
need any at that time.
You need to remove all evidence of your relationship. Your ex
has possessions at your home, box them up, tape them up and
make sure they, get out.
Still better give it, blaze it, eBay it all these strategies can work
fine if you dont get too emotional.
Ok! Verify you have uprooted some. Ok, not all recently but
things that remind you of your ex..
I felt so tempered to say her name Xandria every time I said ex.
Any way! Anything! That reminds you of that relationship.
Surround yourself with some new love Todd.
I can see this is, unfair portion of the pain you are feeling.
Is it because youre getting more than your fare share of
rejection now..?
You have a broken heart, but is it really the feeling of not being
adored? I dared to utter.
Todd clearly, feeling disliked was not beneficial for anyone. So I
said it again indifferent words. To deal with this you need to
surround yourself with people that love you. Friends, family
even work colleagues that you know care about you. They can
become your emotional crutch and use them to their fullest. I
wanted to add not just me but I kept that bit of information to
myself.
They won't mind if they love you, spend time with them as
much as possible and avoid negative people. If you find yourself
with someone that is moaning or being negative, make your
excuses and leave the area as soon as possible. I made my
excuses and told him, I had to go meet Nina.

Chapter Five: To Talk

Keeping in my mind, the idea of getting married, I asked Nina at
the end of the summer holiday. I had to plan, and make a perfect
moment perfect so I invited her out every evening for a month.
We went to the theatre, night clubs and sometimes during the
day I took her on big shopping trips so I could lavish her with
designer clothing making me sweet in her eyes.
So after we had dinner on the river trip I had booked, then and
only then would I carry out the climax. I had planed it all out,
from the violin players with roses, a small firework display and
the cake with the diamond ring as the cherry on top making my
prefect moment perfect.
Wed had a lovely meal several glasses of wine and I ordered a
bottle of MOET imperial & Chandon Cassock Rolpal Brut
champagne to round off the night so I got down on both knees
when, I pointed out the cake she should take, and asked her if
she'd please marry me and fortunately she said Yes!
I was in heaven! To be loved and to love, is the sweetest feeling
in your life. Love made me feel crazy and when I get lost in love
with Nina, I knew that life was worth living because I have
somebody who adores me. I heard the voice I knew before birth
chanting at me Thats why before getting married youll need
to know if she is the one
My mother had told me Its important know if it is for love or
does she just want you to buy her items, earthly things because
shes materialistic, a gold digger not good enough for my boy.
Believe you me; if you get married not because of love, then
your marriage will most likely not last. Mother would say
nodding her head with her black hair sitting on her shoulders.

Thats why some people are married for twenty odd years only
to hear their partner say I don't love you anymore, she would say
looking down at her hand.
Such surprises can be avoided in marriage; no man or woman
would want to be told that. She seemed to hold a secret I had
not met yet.
I dont wish my boy to ever know the hurt caused when the
love that he used to share his life with, is all over with a
sudden... she would hold my hand tighter than ever then
continue to speak the last words in her sentence an abrupt end.
It can be so devastating and traumatizing, so son when you get
married remember what you need to do, so as to avoid such
surprises as not being loved by anymore. Learn this, its the best
tip I can give you in order to help you to sustain your married
life until death do you part. Vows to each other are your way of
telling the world, we swear at this altar or that day of the
wedding: We marry out of love. I could always hear bells
ringing when she stopped talking.
So, then why did we or I seem to be spending such a great deal
of cash on our wedding? I had to answer myself, it was not
necessary to have a decent and happy marriage? Cash is
exceptionally helpful to have all the things you would like in
life, however is not expected to have a sound and happy married
life. What was I thinking?
Accepting that the other person or I had committed a mistake?
Could the facts be faced but maybe that involves, moving on
completely in different directions.
Was she being materialistic, for materialistic sake?
Did we really need all these items? Was I getting married to a
materialistic person?
Why all these questions? I told my self keeping a grudge and
merely forgiving for the sake of avoiding but prolonging the
issue will do you, no good.

If you want a peaceful, lasting, and constantly harmonious

relationship, always be willing to forgive and forget. I heard my
own voice inside my head.
You wouldn't want your partner to remember your past
mistakes, would you?
Therefore, show her that you can still love her despite her
imperfections.
Nina would say It all relies on upon what you look like at it,
what you wear and how many guests we can invite ha! Ha she
had to end it with that giggle of hers that sounded sweet then,
but now like a witch.
123Forgive, forget, and move on like nothing happened.
Respect, for each other, dating for married individuals and
cooperating to get the things you need are crucial.
Forgive, forget, and move on like nothing happened.
I wanted to maintain the marriage; well Im not sure until when!
Till Death Do You Part.? Marriage is a strong bond between two
people and at times maintaining it till death do you part-as they
normally say. When they tie the knot is a bit challenging, not all
marriages last for that long.
Divorce cases have risen and most people are opting to staying
out of marriage after testing it for some years and others months.
I repeated to myself, that love can also make people go crazy.
I dare say honest and faithful couples always respect and trust
each other and the chances of their marriage lasting for ages is
better, but is that always right.
So if you want to sustain your marriage for life, then to be open
and avoid any of your side plans in your marriage. That would
mean being true to your partner and always do everything
together, share ideas and be friends aside from lovers.

Now, I could understand how and why keeping communications

open at all times was so important. Even, when you dont want
too, let me rephrase that! Even, when. I dont want too.
Talking has got to be a big key factor in any marriage, for
examples if you have any burning issues do not hesitate in
letting your partner (me) know about it, I said to Nina Please
talk to me. I don't want to be dating silence.

Chapter Six: Live in silence

Up until now I used to think a lot could be solved by a simple
conversation because being in love is one of the most precious
things that someone can go through in this life. I kept telling
myself this, because I really believed it.
It is unfortunately, also the thing that can bring the most pain.
Pain that sometimes is unbearable and many people choose to
end the pain either by drowning their sorrows in alcohol or
going out with different people with the hope that they will
eventually forget all that hurt.
Some people, when things go wrong in their relationships, just
choose to carry on without never looking back at any probable
solution to fix the in-hand problem.
Nina was in that camp. She shut out feelings get over it!
Man up,
You will get over it by yourself,
Leave it alone! Were a few of her quotes I would hear often?
If I came to her speak about something that was bothering me.
I told her if we go to a consultant, and we talk to them before
I had finished the sentence I got my answer. No!!! I need them
not! I dont need conversation because really dont need you.
Then she carried on making her sandwich with her new
boyfriend, Mr Silence, I hated him.
He made me change.

I spoke to Nina, and I found my self so far on the outside that I

started speaking as if she was the third party.
I became very formal; I think it just made it easier for me to
speak from a safer place. So, I began keeping a small journal of
my feeling, notes and plans.
June 11th
Talking to your significant other half can really help in mending
things as well as avoiding all the torture that you have to go
through with just keeping things to yourself. But, Nina was it
seems as if she is locking all that emotion inside and letting it
consume her. It is very inappropriate health wise and
psychologically.
June 12th
The silence was the question?
June 13th
Sometimes, we tend to blow things out of proportion by not
talking about it and asking what is wrong. We just conclude for
ourselves and inadvertently move on without talking, so each of
us is with silence. Were not talking so how on earth can I get
my complaints out to Nina; the person she wont even hear is
my side of the story.
June 14th
The silence was the answer?
June 15th
The silence again was the question?

June 16th
Nina did not come home last night.
June 17th
The silence was the question?
June 18th
The silence was the question? But what is the question?
June 19th
I looked at the newspaper this morning and the head line was
getting the other person's perspective on things.
I knew this was a sign to help workout what to do. It has an
article on something I require.
It's forever advisable to talk in order to understand what is going
on and to get the other person's perspective on things.
If only she would open her mouth.
The first step is to swallow ones pride and approach the other
person
In my mind I saw the word NINA in large print.
our egos are always like, to think that "he/she did the wrong,
so let him/her be the first to talk to me". But by creating this
negative energy around ourselves we find that we can't or
couldnt approach unless approached is really unnecessary no
matter how reflexive it comes to us. Just be humble.
This can be so hard to do but since you want answers instead of
hurting Ill have to try it. The second and most important step is
to keep your cool during the whole talking process. Don't let

your emotions get the better of you and you become abusive or
violent.
Jack myself and I had come to terms with this stuff. Well really I
have concluded by myself and approach the idea that the other
party Nina what was her side of the story?
June 20th
Silence
June 21st
Silence
Don't shut her out,
Also, if she comes to talk to me.
June 22nd
Still waiting
June 23rd
The silence was the question?
Silence was the question?
June 24th
The silence was the pain?
June 25th
Questions, living in my head?
June 26th

I think my is going to blow!

June 27th
A little help is all I need.
June 28th
Plan B
Just listen to what she has to say and respond where necessary
with the right words. Don't be too judgemental as this will put
her the other party in a defensive mood and the talking will turn
into an argument and you can't achieve anything with that. Find
also a neutral location for this talk as you want a neutral mood
to the conversation where emotions can get the better of you and
you end up doing other things that are totally opposite of what
you had intended.
June 29th
Don't draw conclusions by yourself without first getting her the
other person's side of the story.
June 30th
Shes carrying on like nothing has happened.
So Im going to get my speech ready.
Ok, Nina you want to carry on with this Mr. Silence, sadness
will eventually catch up with you and you will hurt more than
you had imagined in the first place.
So, be humble and talk to me.

It costs nothing and it will save you a lot of time, bother and
hurting for something that had never been wrong in the first
place.

Chapter Seven: Lost in love

I could not understand what on earth was going on. Nina had
changed so much. We had always said expressing yourself
above everything else was crucial. Expressing your feelings is
the best way, to show our love to the world and to each other.
This love I have has been burning a new hole inside me.
I had to start facing facts, the only way to know if our love was
still on fire or now smoke.
Was she still in love or did she have feelings inside for anyone
apart from Mr Silence. Ill have to find away to really talk to her
heart. She will get complete once she has to tell me or someone
about her feelings and the moment she does then Ill tell her the
feeling is mutual.
Unless, it goes all pear shape? Which, I really hope it does not.
Thats the last thing I need is for it to go crazy and start
drowning in the unwanted, the unloved and in shame followed
by pity. I reassured myself you will only to talk. Then share and
make love and in no time you will be lost in love again.
The next afternoon I came back home early and saw Ninas
large car pulling out of the driveway?
When I entered the hallway I saw that letters, papers and files
were all over the floor as if she had been looking for something.
Handling her life and emotions without me seems so difficult for
her, looking at the mess.
I also think it was to do with her childhood, baring in mind the
lack of information and details I was never given.

I knew Nina is the oldest of seven sisters that in-it self may have
been a problem or two.
Her parents were very young and had very little help from their
families.
Their father was left to bring them up most of the time as their
mother had many male friends which took her attention. This
had made varies problems, plus having to deal with not always
nice experiences from men with different ideas and ways.
Then her bad behaviour would arrive hand in hand with a good
friend called Mr Silence. About all her childhood she would
only say to me was we love each other and protect each other.
Getting her back now and to be lost in love with me again, Id
have to show how much I cared for her. To prove this point
I knew would take it slowly. Real slow because when you are
madly in love with someone all you want to do, is just be by her
or his side, just to show that love which is burning inside you.
Butterflies in your stomach and I wanted to show it, to the
whole world. They do say love is blind and the moment you get
lost in love it becomes more and more blinding so that all you
want is never to let that feeling pass by. Maybe shes in a dream
state, or in the nightmare of cross roads that have signs marked
with, in and out of love. But if you have never been for a deep
swim in it you could be wondering if this is really true love.
Questions like wheres the exist and do people really get lost in
it?
Yes, they do, but how? Well I was really working up a storm.
I had to stop and say out loud so could hear myself and what I
trying to say. The best tips that you need to this problem and
start with that might help you get lost in the real memories you
have of love and experience the best feeling ever.
I remembered my CD collection some of the best love songs of
the times past and present.

Above everything expressing your feelings is the best way to

show that love which has been burning inside you can come out.
I started to sort the pile of music.
The only way to know if, that love she has is still inside and was
real would be to sing to her heart. I was having a bit of a Todd
moment but I am desperate.
There is no way in hell that you can lose her or let her go.
Impossible love! I am sounding a bit like a stalker. Thats not
me I know better its two people equally and squarely. Expecting
not to maintain it, then you are only cheating on yourself.
Love is only supposed to be directed to one heart and one soul.
Therefore if I want to give the best feelings out and get to feel
good factor back or I just want to be loved back then, Ill direct
all love to Nina.
Love is so hard to work out it is doing my head in! To one
partner it is, sharing love between two people and from the other
person it is reducing the strength of that love. Instead of it being
deep, it will be shallow of which you won't feel so much
affection plus they may end up spending not nearly enough time
with their partner.
The best way to let the love grow and expand is having time
with your partner, they say. Time is everything, it heals, loves,
unity, forgets etc., etc. When I am once more together with Nina
all the time, then I will be able to always feel madly in love and
I won't want to leave her sight even for a second and that my
friend is getting lost in love.
It is crystal clear that people still fall in love, like me! I am
already head over heels and its always the best thing for me
when Im lost in love with Nina.
Even if it does not look like it now! Too the whole world and
Todd, because I look like a state of depression, lost and maybe
sad but they would too if they were missing out on the sweetest
feeling ever.

Chapter Eight: On the way back

Or find other love? Is that what Ive done?

The lights are so bright, I feel really cold but my blood feels like
its at boiling point, thats too hot, is it not? Hot sweat is that
possible?
My eyes opened slowly blinking more than twice. It was as if I
had dust in them. My whole body ached no I felt as if I had been
hit by a truck. My head felt like it was being used as a drum in a
major rock concert and the throbbing applause of the fans that
stood over me come in to view.
Dizzy feeling, which was the best word dizzy, dizzy. Where was
I? What was happening to me? What had happened to me?
All I could hear was people shouting and one softer voice that
stood out in solo. Hello, hello
Hi doctor. His name is Jack, Jack Toddington hes in my
department at our work. Im Michael head of the I.T systems
department, is he all right, his head looks a mess?
Hello Jack, hello! How are you feeling?
The surest approach to recognize love from fascination is to
give your relationship the test of time.
Why is he speaking in such a rumbled way? asks Michael,
with a look of some concern on his face.
Lookslike . anyway, while you are sitting tight for time to
tell, there are things you can look for.
Is he alright? Whats he going on about?

Its alright Jack, you just hit your head when you landed. You
were in state of unconsciousness when I arrived, well take you
to the hospital to check you over and make sure everything is
working fine. Tell me does this hurt you if I press here?
Look hes starting to close his eyes again Keeping talking
Jack we dont need you asleep yet! Stay with us Jackwhat
were you saying about love?
Will you be open and fair with your accomplice without
apprehension of dismissal? Is it is .. True is it. That what
we want too you are ready to act naturally? Then again do you
conceal your shortcomings or attempt just to show your
qualities?
Get the team over here!
When you really love one, two, three heres another, you don't
worry about awing your beloved. Maybe, you are more
intrigued by serving your lover and you know that is less
demanding to do when you are fair.
Michael have you got some blankets to keep him warm?
He shouts for blankets from the others side round. Here you are
Dr. Nina, will he be alright?
Yes, I think he will, hes in good hands now, mine!