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AnnaDostoyevskyontheSecrettoaHappyMarriage:WisdomfromOneofHistorysTruestandMostBeautifulLovesBrainPickings
AnnaDotoevkontheSecrettoaHapp
Marriage:WidomfromOneofHitorTruet
andMotBeautifulLove
Howtonurturealovethatwouldtandaafirmwall,thatwontletou
fall,anditgivewarmth.
Y M A R I A P O P O VA
Intheummerof1865,jutafterheeganwritingCrimeand
Punihment,thegreatetnovelitofalltimehitrockottom.
Recentlwidowedandedeviledepilep,Fodor
Dotoevk(Novemer11,1821Feruar9,1881)had
corneredhimelfintoanimpoileituation.Afterhielder
rotherdied,Dotoevk,alreaddeeplindetonaccountof
higamlingaddiction,hadtakenuponhimelfthedetof
hirothermagazine.Creditorooncameknockingonhi
door,threateningtoendhimtodetorprion.(Adecade
earlier,hehadnarrowlecapedthedeathpenaltforreading
annedookandwainteadexiled,entencedtofourear
ataierianlaorcampothepropectofeingimprioned
waunearalterrifingtohim.)Inafitofdepair,heagreedtoelltherighttoanedition
ofhicollectedworktohipuliher,amannamedFodortellovk,fortheumofhidet
3,000rule,oraround$80,000intodamone.Apartofthedeal,hewouldalohave
toproduceanewnovelofatleat175pageNovemer13ofthefollowingear.Ifhefailed
tomeetthedeadline,hewouldloeallrighttohiwork,whichwouldetranferredto
tellovkforperpetuit.
OnlafterigningthecontractdidDotoevkfindoutthatitwahipuliher,acunning
exploiterwhooftentookadvantageofartitdownontheirluck,whohadpurchaedthe
promiornoteofhirotherdetfornexttonothing,uingtwointermediarietoull
Dotoevkintopaingthefullamount.nragedutwithoutrecoure,heetouttofulfill
hicontract.uthewaoconumedwithfinihingCrimeandPunihmentthathepentmot
of1866workingonitinteadofwritingTheGamler,thenovelhehadpromiedtellovk.
WhenOctoerrolledaround,Dotoevklanguihedatthepropectofwritinganentire
novelinfourweek.
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PortraitofFodorDotoevkbVailPerov,1871
Hifriend,concernedforhiwell-eing,propoedaortofcrowdourcingcheme
Dotoevkwouldcomeupwithaplot,thewouldeachwriteaportionofthetor,andhe
wouldthenonlhavetomoothoverthefinalproduct.ut,areoluteidealitevenathi
lowetlow,Dotoevkthoughtitdihonoraletoputhinameonomeoneeleworkand
refued.
Therewaonlonethingtodowritethenovel,andwriteitfat.
OnOctoer15,hecalledupafriendwhotaughttenograph,eekingtohirehietpupil.
Withoutheitation,theprofeorrecommendedaoungwomannamedAnnaGrigorevna
nitkina.(tenograph,inthatera,waaradicalinnovationanditmaterwaotechnicall
demandingthatofthe150tudentwhohadenrolledinAnnaprogram,125haddroppedout
withinamonth.)
Twent-ear-oldAnna,whohadtakenuptenographhortlaftergraduatingfromhigh
choolhopingtoecomefinanciallindependentherownlaor,wathrilledtheoffer
Dotoevkwaherrecentldeceaedfatherfavoriteauthor,andhehadgrownup
readinghitale.Thethoughtofnotonlmeetinghimuthelpinghimwithhiworkfilled
herwithjo.
Thefollowingda,hepreentedherelfatDotoevkhoueateleven-thirt,noearlier
andnolater,aDotoevkhadintructedafavoriteexpreionofhi,epeakinghi
tringenc.Ditractedandirritale,heakedheraerieofquetionaouthertraining.
Althoughheanweredeachofthemerioulandalmotdrl,oatoappearmaximall
uinelike,heomehowoftenedoverthecoureoftheconveration.theearl
afternoon,thehadeguntheircollaorationonthenovelhe,dictating;he,writingin
tenographichorthand,thentrancriingathomeatnight.
Forthenexttwent-fiveda,AnnacametoDotoevkhoueatnoonandtaeduntil
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four.Theirdictatingeionwerepunctuatedhortreakforteaandconveration.With
eachda,hegrewkinderandwarmertowardher,andeventuallcametoaddreherhi
favoritetermofendearment,goluchikRuianforlittledove.Hecherihedher
erioune,herextraordinarpowerofmpath,howherluminoupiritdiipatedeven
hidarketmoodandliftedhimoutofhioeivethought.hewatouchedhi
kindne,hirepectforher,howhetookagenuineinteretinheropinionandtreatedher
likeacollaoratorratherthanhiredhelp.utneitherofthemwaawarethatthideep
mutualaffectionandappreciationwatheeedofalegendarlove.
Inheraltogetherpectacularmemoirofmarriage,DotoevkReminicence(puliclirar),
Annarecountaprecientexchangethattookplaceduringoneoftheirteareak:
achda,chattingwithmelikeafriend,hewouldlaareomeunhappcenefromhi
pat.Icouldnothelpeingdeepltouchedathiaccountofthedifficultiefromwhich
hehadneverextricatedhimelf,andindeedcouldnot.
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FodorMikhailovichalwapokeaouthifinancialtraitwithgreatgoodnature.Hi
torie,however,wereomournfulthatononeoccaionIcouldntretrainmelffrom
aking,Whiit,FodorMikhailovich,thatourememeronltheunhapptime?
Tellmeinteadaouthowouwerehapp.
Happ?utIhaventhadanhappineet.Atleat,notthekindofhappineIalwa
dreamedof.Iamtillwaitingforit.
Littledideitherofthemknowthathewainthepreenceofthathappineatthatver
moment.Infact,Anna,inhercharacteriticimpulefordipellingthedarknewithlight,
adviedhimtomarragainandeekhappineinfamil.herecounttheconveration:
oouthinkIcanmarragain?heaked.Thatomeonemightconenttoecomem
wife?WhatkindofwifehallIchooethenanintelligentoneorakindone?
Anintelligentone,ofcoure.
Well,noifIhavethechoice,Illpickakindone,othathelltakepitonmeandlove
me.
Whilewewereonthethemeofmarriage,heakedmewhIdidntmarrmelf.I
anweredthatIhadtwouitor,othplendidpeopleandthatIrepectedthemoth
vermuchutdidnotlovethemandthatIwantedtomarrforlove.
Forlove,withoutfail,heecondedmeheartil.Repectaloneintenoughforahapp
marriage!
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TheirlatdictationtookplaceonNovemer10.WithAnnaintrumentalhelp,Dotoevk
hadaccomplihedthemiraculouhehadfinihedanentirenovelintwent-ixda.He
hookherhand,paidherthe50rulethehadagreedonaout$1,500intodamone
andthankedherwarml.
Thefollowingda,Dotoevkfort-fifthirthda,hedecidedtomarkthedualoccaion
givingaceleratordinnerataretaurant.HeinvitedAnna.hehadneverdinedata
retaurantandwaonervouthathealmotdidntgouthedid,andDotoevkpent
theeveninghoweringherwithkindnee.
utwhentheelationoftheaccomplihmentworeoff,heuddenlrealizedthathi
collaorationwithAnnahadecomethelightofhilifeandwadevatatedthepropectof
nevereeingheragain.Anna,too,foundherelfullenandjole,hertpicaluoanc
weigheddownanacuteaence.herecount:
Ihadgrownoaccutomedtothatmerrruhtowork,thejofulmeetingandthelivel
converationwithDotoevk,thatthehadecomeaneceittome.Allmold
activitiehadlottheirinteretandeemedemptandfutile.
Unaletoimaginehilifewithouther,DotoevkakedAnnaifhewouldhelphimfinih
CrimeandPunihment.OnNovemer20,exactltendaaftertheendoftheirfirtproject,he
invitedhertohihoueandgreetedherinanunuuallexcitedtate.Thewalkedtohi
tud,whereheproceededtopropoemarriageinthemotwonderfulandtouchingwa.
DotoevktoldAnnathathewouldlikeheropiniononanewnovelhewawriting.uta
oonaheegantellinghertheplot,itecameapparentthathiprotagonitwaaverthinl
veiledverionofhimelf,orratherofhimaheawhimelfatrouledartitoftheame
ageahe,havingurvivedaharhchildhoodandmanloe,plaguedanincurale
dieae,amangloom,upiciou;poeedofatenderheartutincapaleofexpreing
hifeeling;anartitandatalentedone,perhap,utafailurewhohadnotonceinhilife
ucceededinemodinghiideaintheformhedreamedof,andwhoneverceaedto
tormenthimelfoverthatfact.uttheprotagonitgreatettormentwathathehadfallen
deperatelinlovewithaoungwomanacharacternamedAna,removedfromrealit
aingleletterofwhomhefeltunworth;agentle,graciou,wie,andvivaciougirlwhom
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hefearedhehadnothingtooffer.
OnlthendiditdawnonAnnathatDotoevkhadfalleninlovewithherandthathewao
terrifiedofherrejectionthathehadtofeeloutherreceptivitfromehindtheguieof
fiction.
Iitplauile,Dotoevkakedher,thattheallegednovelheroinewouldfallinlovewith
itflawedhero?herecountthewordofliteraturegreatetpchologicalwriter:
Whatcouldthielderl,ick,det-riddenmangiveaoung,alive,exuerantgirl?
Wouldntherloveforhiminvolveaterrileacrificeonherpart?Andafterward,
wouldntheitterlregretunitingherlifewithhi?Andingeneral,woulditepoile
foraounggirlodifferentinageandperonalittofallinlovewithmartit?Wouldnt
thatepchologicallfale?ThatiwhatIwantedtoakouropinionaout,Anna
Grigorevna.
utwhwoulditeimpoile?Forif,aoua,ourAnaintmerelanemptflirt
andhaakind,reponiveheart,whcouldnthefallinlovewithourartit?Whatif
heipoorandick?Wheretheacrificeonherpart,anwa?Ifherealllovehim,
hellehapp,too,andhellneverhavetoregretanthing!
Ipokewithomeheat.FodorMikhailovichlookedatmeinexcitement.Andou
erioulelievehecouldlovehimgenuinel,andfortheretofherlife?
Hefellilent,aifheitating.Putourelfinherplaceforamoment,heaidina
tremlingvoice.Imaginethatthiartitime;thatIhaveconfeedmlovetoou
andakedoutoemwife.Tellme,whatwouldouanwer?
Hifacerevealeduchdeepemarrament,uchinnertorment,thatIundertoodat
longlatthatthiwanotaconverationaoutliterature;thatifIgavehimanevaive
anwerIwoulddealadeathlowtohielf-eteemandpride.Ilookedathitrouled
face,whichhadecomeodeartome,andaid,IwouldanwerthatIloveouandwill
loveouallmlife.
Iwonttrtoconvethewordfulloftenderneandlovethatheaidtomethen;the
areacredtome.Iwatunned,almotcruhedtheimmenitofmhappineand
foralongtimeIcouldntelieveit.
FodorandAnnaweremarriedonFeruar15,1867,andremainedeottedwithoneanother
untilDotoevkdeathfourteenearlater.Althoughtheufferedfinancialhardhipand
tremendoutraged,includingthedeathoftwooftheirchildren,theuoedeachotherwith
love.AnnatookituponherelftoliftthefamiloutofdetmakingherhuandRuia
firtelf-pulihedauthor.hetudiedtheookmarketmeticuloul,reearchedvendor,
matermindedditriutionplan,andturnedDotoevkintoanationalrand.Toda,man
coniderherRuiafirttrueuinewoman.uteneathheruineacumenwathe
ametender,enormouheartthathadmadelovingroomwithinitelfforarilliantmanwith
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allofhidemon.
AnnaDotoevkaabLauraCallaghanfromTheWho,the
What,andtheWhen
Intheafterwordtohermemoir,Annareflectontheecrettotheirdeepandtruemarriage
oneofthegreatetloveinthehitorofcreativeculture:
Throughoutmlifeithaalwaeemedakindofmtertomethatmgoodhuand
notonllovedandrepectedmeamanhuandloveandrepecttheirwive,ut
almotworhippedme,athoughIwereomepecialeingcreatedjutforhim.And
thiwatruenotonlattheeginningofourmarriageutthroughalltheremaining
earofit,uptohiverdeath.WhereainrealitIwanotditinguihedformgood
look,nordidIpoetalentnoranpecialintellectualcultivation,andIhadnomore
thanaecondareducation.Andet,depiteallthat,Iearnedtheprofoundrepect,
almottheadorationofamanocreativeandrilliant.
ThienigmawaclearedupformeomewhatwhenIreadV.V.Rozanovnotetoaletter
oftrakhovdatedJanuar5,1890,inhiookLiterarxile.Letmequote:
Noone,notevenafriend,canmakeuetter.utitiagreathappineinlife
tomeetaperonofquitedifferentcontruction,differentent,completel
diimilarviewwho,whilealwaremaininghimelfandinnowieechoingu
norcurringfavorwithu(aometimehappen)andnottringtoininuate
hioul(andaninincereoulatthat!)intoourpche,intoourmuddle,intoour
tangle,wouldtandaafirmwall,aachecktoourfollieandourirrationalitie,
whicheverhumaneingha.Friendhiplieincontradictionandnotin
agreement!Veril,Godgrantedmetrakhovaateacherandmfriendhipwith
him,mfeelingforhimwereeverakindoffirmwallonwhichIfeltIcould
alwalean,orratherret.Anditwontletoufall,anditgivewarmth.
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Intruth,mhuandandIwereperonofquitedifferentcontruction,differentent,
completeldiimilarview.utwealwaremainedourelve,innowaechoingnor
curringfavorwithoneanother,neitherofutringtomeddlewiththeotheroul,
neitherIwithhipchenorhewithmine.AndinthiwamgoodhuandandI,oth
ofu,feltourelvefreeinpirit.
FodorMikhailovich,whoreflectedomuchinomucholitudeonthedeepet
prolemofthehumanheart,doutleprizedmnon-interferenceinhipiritualand
intellectuallife.Andthereforehewouldometimeatome,Youaretheonlwoman
whoeverundertoodme!(Thatwawhathevaluedaoveall.)Helookedonmeaa
rockonwhichhefelthecouldlean,orratherret.Anditwontletoufall,anditgive
warmth.
Itithi,Ielieve,whichexplaintheatonihingtrutmhuandhadinmeandinall
mact,althoughnothingIeverdidtrancendedthelimitoftheordinar.Itwathee
mutualattitudewhichenaledothofutoliveinthefourteenearofourmarried
lifeinthegreatethappinepoileforhumaneingonearth.
ComplementthewhollenchantingDotoevkReminicencewithFridaKahlotouching
rememranceofDiegoRivera,JaneAutenadviceonloveandmarriage,andphiloopher
richFrommonwhatikeepingufrommateringtheartofloving,thenreviitDotoevk
onwhtherearenoadpeopleandthedahedicoveredthemeaningoflifeinadream.
PulihedFeruar15,2016
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