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Kenzie's Portfolio - Musings On The Self
Kenzie's Portfolio - Musings On The Self
KENZIES
PORTFOLIO: A COLLECTION OF
MUSINGS ON THE SELF
Suhir Hammad’s Poem
the poem, I decided to compare exactly what this poem represents, to an “exotic”
Repeated multiple times throughout the text, the narrator – a woman – voices how
much she doesn’t want to be men’s exotic. While reading the poem, I was reminded
of the fabricated images of women portrayed by the many modeling industries, who
industry calls for very unrealistic women – women who are in other words unique in
appearance, or should I say “exotic”. They are expected to live up to roles
that model elegance, grace, perfection, and in a sense become malleable to any
other person or image that their company wants them to mold to. Models are to be
shaped into any “form” that will demand attention, and ultimately an image
that will advertise well enough to sell a product. In the poem, some of these images
are shown though descriptive word choice, Hammad choosing words like “delicate
fragile colorful bird”, “Harem girl,” and “geisha doll” – the list goes on and on, all
men, or something of a doll. The narrator rejects the thought and denounces herself
from these roles, even so much so as to say that some of her physical features
describe her “other” self, like her hair that wasn’t meant to entice, or her eyelashes
that don’t have a beat but rather just a blink (1364). She achieves her purpose in
separating her identity in personality from her physicality, ultimately shedding the
notion that any value at all is beheld in a woman’s appearance. She stands strong
against what society defines as a beautiful and important person, most importantly
refuting any sort of merit that men have in perceiving women as “exotic” beings,
and giving women their own title as WOMEN – as they rightfully deserve.
After reading Immanuel Jal’s Warchild, one would never walk away untouched
things that don’t hold heavy significance. The music that Emmuel Jal has presented
to the world embodies a hope for an end to the fighting in Sudan as he stands up
Immanuel Jal’s background story is far more fascinating and truly horrific
compared to most rap artists today, thus creating something real and worth rapping
about that sets him apart from other artists. Brewing at the center of the hope that
Jal raps about is his faith in Christ, which he came to accept and acknowledge after
escaping the horrors as a child soldier. The reason Jal raps today mirrors very
closely to the purpose of Lecrae, a Christian rap artist who suffered a different
kind of suffering, but his end result yields the same as Jal, where he now raps about
the hope that Jesus has for the people of his world, against the sin in this world. Like
Jal, the life he lived before accepting Christ was sinful and full of violence, being a
part of gang activity ranging in many different areas, ranging from the south side of
Houston, all the way to San Diego and Detroit. Again like Jal, he was raised by a
single mother (Jal’s father wasn’t a present father figure while growing up) and
found the gang life as much an outlet for his anger and feelings of weakness, similar
to Jal’s security found in the SPLA as a child soldier. Though Lecrae’s experience is
not that mundane as Jal’s, his message all the same is just as significant
– he raps about something that has meaning to himself and a community, and
any person of any culture, that meaning being to remember what you represent for
culture and owning your heritage – who you are and what you represent. The
narrator takes pride in who she is, and the traditions and beliefs her Native
“remember”, also being used as a command, ordering one to stand up for what
Pocahontas stays true to who she represents even in the midst of opposition that
John Smith brings, his view of European perspective that her culture is uncivilized,
and to teach and show him to accept the differences in their culture in order to
through the images that both works heavily show. In Pocahontas, Pocahontas’
dependence on Grandmother willow for advice and guidance about which path to
take in life suggests the significance that ancestors throughout the generations are
there to direct their descendants, which is also suggested in the poem
“Remember” in line 16 where Harjo commands them to listen to them for they are
alive poems (1364). Not only is there a connection believed to be present between
family as well, being “the earth whose skin” one is along with all other
nationalities who are “red earth, yellow earth” etc. respectively (line 11-13). Being a
part of the earth’s family is further depicted in the song “Colors of the Wind” in
Disney’s Pocahontas, when Pocahontas sings that “the river and the water are (her)
brothers,” and “the heron and the otter are (her) friends.” An intimate
relationship is present between an individual and the nature around them with the
After learning more about the symbols in the poem and that they
represented a family-like tie, and comparing that to how Pocahontas defends her
way of life against colonization and educating John Smith on their way of life at the
expense of putting her tribe in danger, I understand how meaningful it is for Harjo
to write to her Native American brothers and sisters. Her purpose for them is to
“Remember” who they belong to, and what they stand for. I believe that her
culture.
from the emotion and sincerity put into letters. Personally, I journal quite
frequently, and often address a reader although I know very well that no one will be
unknown reader, even though I know very well the reader doesn’t exist. Willingly
one is not alone. Much after reading “Children of the Sea”, I came across an
article talking about letters written from a little girl of age 12 named Melissa
Martinich to a U.S. marine by the name of Kevin Preach, and the effect it had on
both of them – ultimately when the letters were passed to the hands of the Marine’s
mother after he passed away (Walker 1). Finding this article made me want to
reflect and draw upon the influence writing can have over people, over their
emotions and their mindset as well. For the student and her teacher, it
was sharing in the experience that they could provide a mental escape for the
soldier for just a brief moment, as well as giving support by expressing their
gratitude in his service to the country. Different in “Children of the Sea”, neither of
the journals ever gets to one another, but just the journaling itself was a
{distraction} from the realities that they were experiencing. Being at sea, the
man writes about his hardships during his immigration to America that are
incomparable to the insignificant realities that the girl is facing at home, for she
writes about strife with her parents. Similarly, Melissa Martincich wrote about her
day to day realities, like “her excitement for dancing” and the numerous questions
for him to answer (Walker 3), in turn showing her lack of understanding exactly
them. For both the woman and the man in Children of the Sea, they were able to
preserve each other in the journals they wrote to each other, keeping one another
Melissa’s letters to Preach had touched his mother, for the letter preserved part
of her son’s character – he kept it, for she knew it held value to him. These two
works I n t e n s i f y the power of writing, and the effect it can have on a person.
grow up”, if maybe I’d be a teacher, or maybe a doctor, the options being
endless since “growing up” was such a thing of the future that couldn’t possibly be
Fadwa Tuqan, reminiscing how care free life was before I actually grew up and
how I used to play without a care and with only dreams like the boys in the first
stanza of the poem. “Song of Becoming” mirrors very much one of my favorite
childrens’ books by Shel Silverstein, The Giving Tree, in that the leaving behind of
one’s childhood is a way of accepting that our dreams might not always come true –
or maybe that happiness and honor comes at a higher price. We are challenged
to do more, be more, change more as life moves on.
The Giving Tree tells of how a young boy would once play with the tree,
eating its apples and swinging from its vines – simply enjoying the nature of the
tree. As the boy grows older, he doesn’t have time to play, and instead asks from
the tree all it offers little by little, using it up until nothing but a stump was left. The
life moves on, the tree seems less and less exciting
operate in the same way – in that the boys are no longer “assuming the roles of
great heroes in history” (lines 8-9) but now have the responsibility and the capacity
to change history with experience, having “grown more than the years of a lifetime”
(line 26).
noting the simplicity of that time, and how our desire for what we want out of life is
perceived from that naïve perspective. Reality is so much different seeing it from
the future, and hindsight view looking so much more promising. I think like the boy,
we’ve got to be happy in the end with whatever life gives us versus what we want
waking up one day to find myself a “gigantic insect,” with “numerous legs [that]
waved helplessly before [my] eyes” (428). From there on, his life is completely
changed – he no longer is able to provide for his family, let alone even
an insect.
Kevin Leman says that firstborns are natural leaders, and from this stems
their need to provide for others… not only to adequately provide but to also do it
perfectly without any surprises (Neal 1). They are also reliable. Like Gregor,
his role in the family before he became a vermin was to provide financial help to the
family, and his need to care for his sister even came down to wanting to send her to
violin school. The fact that first born children don’t like surprises to their plan
is satirical when compared to Gregor’s fate waking up all of a sudden as a bug. The
caterpillar into a butterfly, into something completely new and original from the old
self. However, this idea is also satirized, since Gregor instead went from an able-
bodied leader to a worthless insect. With this drastic of a change that Gregor has no
control in overcoming, he’s forced to live in dependence apart from his past, self-
reliant lifestyle.
I also being a firstborn, see similarities in how I feel the need to provide for
others and how surprises often throw me for a loop. If it were I in Gregor’s case, I
think I’d also fall into decline, and feel {unimportant} and {unheard}. As
depressing as this story is, it’s humbling to me to realize that even when I
might have the ability to control how things to a certain extent play out from day to
day, anything could happen, for I need others and can’t do everything.
stumbling upon it by chance, others motivated and working at all costs to grasp it,
others only ever meditating on what owning success would be like. Thus, the
understanding something
alternate way to look at what knowing success is, exposed through her main point
that success or victory is only completely understood by the defeated, even though
families, money - for the chance of winning and attaining a dream set in stone, or a
rigid goal. It’s as if they crave the search itself and the idea of victory over the
actuality in possessing it, that when they do lose all, the seeking is the only chance
of hope and the only vision they want to see. I have witnessed this personally
so much more from so far down than those who have the ability to reach out and
take it effortlessly like fruit from a tree. Further, I see this pattern of
Salesman by Arthur Miller, who identifies similarly with my dad in yearning for
success. His sense of self-worth is put into what he can build himself up to be in the
business world as a salesman, not valuing knowledge but rather finding worth in the
number of people that he could know – in his madness he makes up lies and
exaggerations in order to make himself more worthy, saying to his boys that he’s
known all through New England by the most prominent people (Miller 19). To play
the part is the closest Willy can get to tasting success. Willy’s mindset is so skewed
evidence to prove him a person of having high spirits, and also discourages his son
Biff in the pursuit of knowledge and urges him to seek glory in sports, for his sons
“are built like Adonises,” giving them the advantage in being well liked, which he
upholds over intelligence (Miller 21). This shows the weakness in his character, in
that all satisfaction of the self is based off of others’ approval. In the end, after bills
and the mortgage were long since due, after his family was falling apart, his craze
for success drove him to death; evident to just how precious victory can
seem to those who lack it. In Emily Dickinson’s poem, the parody of the value of
success is juxtaposed between the victors of a war and the narrator who “as he
defeated – dying –,” challenging the notion that the dying soldier may have lost in
battle, but outdid them in the understanding of their own victory (line 9). The value
taste and richness of success; however, to understand its value Dickinson writes in
line 4 that it “requires sorest need,” which the defeated soldier in the poem has
nothing but death to look forward to, and for Willy in Death of a Salesman nothing
but failure in making sales at his old age… both are in sorest need and know
Making this connection was significant to me, seeing that my life shouldn’t
“M.D.” for the sole purpose of seeking glory – my drive should be for keeping an
EVER-PRESENT JOY in the midst of troubled times and good times. It’s living for
the people I love and the advancement of others, and not about always succeeding.
Having experienced hardships financially all my life and not always having the
Gabriel, Mike and Goldberg, Eric. Pocahontas. Walt Disney Company, 1995.
Miller, Arthur, and Gerald Clifford Weales. Death of a Salesman. New York: Penguin, 1996.
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Silverstein, Shel. The Giving Tree. New York: Harper & Row, 1964. Print.
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