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BY JORIE GRAHAM
surprised. Sing, you hiss. Prosecute, sentence, waving your thin not-arms like dollar
bills, your bewildering moldy skin one or two of you are you, are you a god now,
you say swatting me away when I ask can I help, growing more
formed or not divided yet. Pre-conception. Just at the threshold. Almost falling in your
Which? Remember what it was to carry your load? Your you. That
cutting of water, sleeping audible, thrown about by breath, keeping a sharp lookout
real meaning of the word (you choose) consequence, capital, commodity, con-
occupied for now. The rest of the now. Its going to be a long
time. Why are you here. What are they lending you.
Who gets to keep it. No one gets to keep it. No one. None of it.
wish. I signed my name to this. Did you. In the hush. At the center.
ever at home. I dont know why. Had been told to live by any means
possible. Did. Beyond, the sea. You could feel this period coming to
an end. All of it. A bomb went off, legs went off, means went
off, blew off, like gossamer nothing stalled you couldnt get it to
stall seemed painted-on but it was not, was sleeping, reality finally was
wake yourself again it rained time sputtered now and then like a regurgitation
of space. Its a jail, light says, but it looks like just being
lost, full of the things we needed to learn, us ready to step up and offer
value ...
words, cracked glaze all over it, little holes over it, belief drilled through,
self, that boutique, gone under, such dark windows, history arrested ...
could catch a ride sometimes. How do you live in this end. I look at you. You have been
through. Your war is done. I try to squint it in. Do you really want to
begin again. Is that why youre here. I feel I could count your
fingers, each hair left on you, each thread of skin, each crease. Four or five times you
cast a glance on us. But then its done. Your passing by us now a
buzzing of flies. You stand at the window and the song begins. We dont know
what to do with it, the moon, that monster, the fame and the thirst,
the night out there a shirt rolled up to reveal what dusk had
But they are still there on the steps the money changers. The steps
of evening rise. They want you to exchange. That is the sacrament. Why does he
keep throwing them out.
Day after day. Forever. Listen to me, you say, you are going off into
just being in it makes it holy. Uphold it. Linger. Be eternal for this
instant. Lodge in. I cannot say in what. Have spent a lifetime saying in. In flow,
curl up, speak, promise, taste promise, laugh at the ignorance, cherish
slip away, the reverse of the watching and waiting is finally here, wasnt mine, wasnt
unbreakable. It is. You must believe me. I want to be here and also there where you
receive this but I cant. Thats the whole story. I will never know
what is there to know. You will not be changed. You must believe.