Am I Enough?

Venus M. Holgado

Guts,
I had too much of that.
Buts,
Im having too much of that.

For 5 long years I have been doubt,

By them;
Seems like I have to pay a debt
For being not as good as them

Id like to believe
That theyre just asking too much of me
Or maybe I am too nave
To think that it is meant for me

I am dreaming
And now Im drowning
Im fighting
Cause its worth keeping

For it gave me answers

To what if I cant?
What if I make errs?
What if Im not good enough?
It taught me how to find my substance,
Regardless of what forms and ways
It may be different from their stance
But we end up with same sense

For it will always be my sweetest downfall

It gave me scars that I loved to see
It gave me the most terrifying call
That I cant ditch and tell Im busy

Survival
Its not enough.
Existence and revival
That makes me more than enough.