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I HAVE
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MISHAEL
(Michelle T. Kenner)
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Table of Contents
PREFACE................................................................................................................................................18
SELF REFLECTION: A Look in the Mirror.......................................................................................23
SCRIPTURE REFERENCES ............................................................................................................24
Chapter 1..................................................................................................................................................25
BEFORE WE KNEW SIN.......................................................................................................................25
The Many Faces of Rebellion and Bondage.......................................................................................29
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FREE SPIRIT OR FREE TO BE ME?...........................................................................................35
CAN YOU WEAR FAITH AND HOLINESS?..............................................................................36
LOVE AND OBEY........................................................................................................................37
WHAT DO SPIRITUAL BEINGS WEAR?...................................................................................38
SCRIPTURE REFERENCES.............................................................................................................38
Chapter 2..................................................................................................................................................39
HERE I AM, READY TO RESIST AND PERSIST!..............................................................................39
CAN WE TRUST THE EYES, EARS AND HEARTS OF THE WORLD?......................................41
RESIST! .............................................................................................................................................44
PERSISTING IN FAITH.....................................................................................................................46
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SCRIPTURE REFERENCES.............................................................................................................52
Chapter 3 ................................................................................................................................................53
CONFLICT: ............................................................................................................................................53
FUNCTIONING IN THE MIND OF CHRIST.......................................................................................53
FLESH vs FLESH...............................................................................................................................54
IT ONLY TAKES A MOMENT.....................................................................................................54
GOT JESUS?.......................................................................................................................................57
PRAYING
FOR GOD'S WILL
AND KINGDOM ON EARTH...........................................................................................................58
COMMUNICATION:
But, what if they just won't listen?......................................................................................................59
SACRIFICE: Can You Drink From the Same Cup?...........................................................................65
PREDATORS......................................................................................................................................67
A NEW APPETITE.............................................................................................................................71
SELF REFLECTION: A Look in the Mirror.......................................................................................73
FLESH VS FLESH.........................................................................................................................74
IT ONLY TAKES A MOMENT.....................................................................................................74
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GOT JESUS?..................................................................................................................................75
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Chapter 8................................................................................................................................................184
Part 1 DRIVEN: ....................................................................................................................................184
Who and What Drives You?...................................................................................................................184
RELATIONSHIPS, GOD'S PROMISES, PURPOSE, FRUITFULNESS........................................187
Chapter 8...........................................................................................................................................192
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Part 2 DRIVEN:...............................................................................................................................192
SEEING YOU AS GOD SEES YOU................................................................................................192
RELATING TO OTHERS THROUGH GOD...................................................................................199
Chapter 8...........................................................................................................................................203
Part 3 DRIVEN:...............................................................................................................................203
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Chapter 11..............................................................................................................................................329
CARRYING YOUR CROSS AS YOU LIVE ABUNDANTLY............................................................329
SCRIPTURE REFERENCES...........................................................................................................341
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Chapter 14..............................................................................................................................................408
THE BLIND...........................................................................................................................................408
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................421
from the Heart of a Transformed Woman..............................................................................................421
Episode 13..............................................................................................................................................421
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................421
HONEST AND UNFILTERED.............................................................................................................421
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Chapter 15..............................................................................................................................................430
Part I.......................................................................................................................................................430
GOOD FRUIT: PREGNANT................................................................................................................430
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GOOD FRUIT ..................................................................................................................................431
VS .....................................................................................................................................................431
OVERINDULGENCE AND GOOD FOOD....................................................................................431
BECOMING A WOMAN.................................................................................................................432
REVISITING PREGNANCY...........................................................................................................433
HOW CAN I GAIN?.........................................................................................................................436
TEXT REFERENCES.......................................................................................................................437
SCRIPTURE REFERENCES ..........................................................................................................439
Chapter 15..............................................................................................................................................440
Part II .....................................................................................................................................................440
GOOD FRUIT: PREGNANT................................................................................................................440
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FAT VS HEALTHY...........................................................................................................................441
THE TEMPTER................................................................................................................................443
WHO ARE YOU? HOW DO YOU KNOW?...................................................................................446
WHOSE MIND-OVER MATTERS?................................................................................................448
TEXT REFERENCES.......................................................................................................................451
SCRIPTURE REFERENCES ..........................................................................................................451
Chapter 16..............................................................................................................................................452
Part I.......................................................................................................................................................452
GOD WANTS YOU IN FIGHTING FORM.........................................................................................452
ENTITLEMENT...............................................................................................................................454
BRIDGING THE GAP, COMPLETING THE GRAFT....................................................................457
AT WHAT POINT WILL MAN FINALLY SEE .............................................................................458
AND UNDERSTAND.......................................................................................................................458
GOD WANTS YOU IN FIGHTING FORM.....................................................................................463
SCRIPTURE REFERENCES...........................................................................................................465
Chapter 16..............................................................................................................................................466
Part II......................................................................................................................................................466
GOD WANTS YOU IN FIGHTING FORM.........................................................................................466
WHERE IS THE BATTLEFIELD?...................................................................................................467
SUGGESTED READING.................................................................................................................477
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SCRIPTURE REFERENCES...........................................................................................................477
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................478
from the Heart of a Transformed Woman..............................................................................................478
Episode 14..............................................................................................................................................478
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................478
Alpha Male, A New Identity?.................................................................................................................478
Chapter 17..............................................................................................................................................486
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Episode 22..............................................................................................................................................645
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................645
SEMPER FIDELIS, ALWAYS FAITHFUL..........................................................................................645
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................656
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman).........................................................................................656
Episode 23 .............................................................................................................................................656
Part 1......................................................................................................................................................656
AUNTIE YONNY: Murphy's Law, .......................................................................................................656
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Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................666
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................666
Episode 23..............................................................................................................................................666
Part 2......................................................................................................................................................666
AUNTIE YONNY: Murphy's Law ........................................................................................................666
Chapter 22..............................................................................................................................................674
MOVING BEYOND PRIDE.................................................................................................................674
Chapter 23..............................................................................................................................................685
MOVING BEYOND PAIN....................................................................................................................685
SUMMARY...........................................................................................................................................695
TAKE IT WITH YOU............................................................................................................................695
EARTHQUAKES..............................................................................................................................698
REMEMBERING WHAT WE'VE LEARNED................................................................................701
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................706
From The Transformed Heart of A Woman............................................................................................706
Episode 24..............................................................................................................................................706
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................706
PIGS FLY AND HELL HAS FROZEN OVER?...................................................................................706
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................717
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................717
Episode 25 .............................................................................................................................................717
Part 1......................................................................................................................................................717
AUNTIE YONNY: FOLLOW THE MONEY ......................................................................................717
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................723
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................723
Episode 25 .............................................................................................................................................723
Part 2......................................................................................................................................................723
AUNTIE YONNY: FOLLOW THE MONEY ......................................................................................723
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................728
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................728
Episode 25 .............................................................................................................................................728
Part 3......................................................................................................................................................728
AUNTIE YONNY: FOLLOW THE MONEY ......................................................................................728
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................734
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................734
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Episode 25 .............................................................................................................................................734
Part 4......................................................................................................................................................734
AUNTIE YONNY: FOLLOW THE MONEY ......................................................................................734
Intermittent Waves Recorded From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................746
Episode 25 .............................................................................................................................................746
Part 5......................................................................................................................................................746
AUNTIE YONNY: FOLLOW THE MONEY ......................................................................................746
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................751
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................751
Episode 26..............................................................................................................................................751
AUNTIE YONNY: AGAINST MY WILL ...........................................................................................751
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................763
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................763
Episode 27..............................................................................................................................................763
AUNTIE YONNY: THE PRISON YEARS...........................................................................................763
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................774
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................774
Episode 28..............................................................................................................................................774
AUNTIE YONNY: I AM NOT HIM.....................................................................................................774
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................784
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................784
Episode 29..............................................................................................................................................784
AUNTIE YONNY: WHAT A FELLOWSHIP.......................................................................................784
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................790
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................790
Episode 30..............................................................................................................................................790
AUNTIE YONNY: CONSEQUENCES ...............................................................................................790
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................799
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................799
Episode 31..............................................................................................................................................799
Part 1......................................................................................................................................................799
AUNTIE YONNY: THE AGREEMENTS ...........................................................................................799
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................807
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................807
Episode 31 .............................................................................................................................................807
Part 2......................................................................................................................................................807
AUNTIE YONNY: THE AGREEMENTS ...........................................................................................807
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................815
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................815
Episode 31 .............................................................................................................................................815
Part 3......................................................................................................................................................815
AUNTIE YONNY: THE AGREEMENTS ...........................................................................................815
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................824
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................824
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Episode 32..............................................................................................................................................824
AUNTIE YONNY: THE BOX...............................................................................................................824
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................828
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................828
Episode 33 .............................................................................................................................................828
Part 1......................................................................................................................................................828
AUNT YONNY: SINS OF THE FATHER ...........................................................................................828
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................837
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................837
Episode 34..............................................................................................................................................837
AUNT YONNY: ....................................................................................................................................837
SINS OF THE FATHER Part 2..............................................................................................................837
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................846
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................846
Episode 35..............................................................................................................................................846
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................846
SINS OF THE FATHER, Part 3.............................................................................................................846
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................854
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................854
Episode 36..............................................................................................................................................854
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................854
SINS OF THE FATHER, part 4.............................................................................................................854
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................871
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................871
Episode 37..............................................................................................................................................871
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................871
SINS OF THE FATHER Part 5..............................................................................................................871
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................881
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................881
Episode 38 .............................................................................................................................................881
Part 1......................................................................................................................................................881
AUNTIE YONNY: THINGS HAVE CHANGED.................................................................................881
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................889
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman).........................................................................................889
Episode 39..............................................................................................................................................889
AUNTIE YONNY: ................................................................................................................................889
THINGS HAVE CHANGED, Part 2.....................................................................................................889
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................904
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................904
Episode 40..............................................................................................................................................904
AUNTIE YONNY: SPIRITUAL SACRIFICES ...................................................................................904
Intermittent Waves Recorded ................................................................................................................910
From The Transformed Heart Of A Woman...........................................................................................910
Episode 41..............................................................................................................................................910
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PREFACE
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Father,
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Chapter 1
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Does man have the power to free his OWN spirit by an act
or thought without the knowledge and power of God? Or, is
this just another big fat lie from Satan to place and keep
billions of people in bondage?
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Honor God? Free our mind and body? There is no act that
man can create or do to free himself. Man cannot manifest
freedom of mind, body and spirit. It is a gift, paid for by
the suffering and crucifixion of God's only begotten Son.
Drugs and getting high cannot free your mind. Sex and
fulfilling fleshly desires cannot free your mind. Attaining
power, status and money cannot free your mind. Your mind
cannot be free until your heart is out of bondage.
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God?
14.Who is benefiting more from your nudity, you or God?
15.WHAT should your BODY be for GOD?
16.Is your BODY God's HOLY Temple? Does He dwell within
you?
17.Do you acknowledge God's presence within you in what
you say, think and do?
18.Can God be a part of unholiness?
19.Do you believe that "It is Finished," that is, man's
redemption and salvation was finished through the
sacrifice of Christ Jesus and He has shown us how to
conquer the flesh (self), sin, death and the world?
20.Do you believe that through dying to the flesh with
Christ and becoming One with the Father, Son and Holy
Spirit, we honor God by SURRENDERING ALL to Him?
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Chapter 2
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RESIST!
Ephesians 6:12
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are needy people who will believe him and the master of
evil he serves. All the while, his motivation is centered
upon the profits he will receive from international
business deals, by colluding with the enemy. HOWEVER, HE
SETS A TRAP FOR HIMSELF, BECAUSE THE TRUTH IS NOT IN HIM!
Matthew 10: 26
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make the wealthy even more wealthy;. We need not fear him
destroying our institutions, balance of power,
constitution, democracy or our nation. If ignorance is
bliss, then, it is definitely not the American people who
are living in complete ignorance. God has spoken. The
TRUTH shall be revealed, good shall prevail, and evil
shall be cutoff and fed into the fire. In the end, it is
neither Republican, Democrat, Independent, or Green Party
that wins, but the Kingdom of God!FEAR THEM NOT, saith the
Lord!
PERSISTING IN FAITH
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Ephesians 4:12,13
When we become born again, our work has only begun and
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Matthew 10:27
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Jeremiah 13:18(KJV)
Romans 8:38(KJV)
Ephesians 3:10(KJV)
Ephesians 6:12(KJV)
Colossians 1:16(KJV)
Colossians 2:15(KJV)
Matthew 10 King (KJV)
Titus 3 (KJV)
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Chapter 3
CONFLICT:
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FLESH vs FLESH
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The spirit knows that the flesh is weak and its days
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GOT JESUS?
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PRAYING
FOR GOD'S WILL
AND KINGDOM ON EARTH
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COMMUNICATION:
But, what if they just won't listen?
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John 13:34
John 15:9
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• isolation
• distrust
• suspicion
• disenfranchisement
• rumors, gossip and hearsay
• spying
• animosity
• hostility
• violence
• war
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your word, but in your ACTIONS. Can you CLING TO THE ROCK,
throughout the storm, holding fast because of your
undeniable FAITH in God's ability to keep you and that
which is the essence of you within...for ETERNITY? This
determines my quality of abundant life, within this
conflict I am faced with here and now, and if I will enjoy
abundant life without the frequent chaos and conflict of
the world trying to sink my ship, and drown me in the
depths of darkness.
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PREDATORS
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A NEW APPETITE
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death and this world, free and free indeed to live out our
lives in abundance, ...eternally.
Yahweh has renewed our minds and set us upon the path
of The Truth, The Way and Life, so that whatever comes our
way, we can continue to be fruitful, resting in the Mind
of Christ and His Holy Spirit. Hence, we can say, "It is
Well With My Soul."
With love, Your servant, and soldier, united with the One
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FLESH VS FLESH
1.How often do you argue and fight flesh with flesh?
2.What is usually the result of your approach to
conflict?
3.Have you been reborn?
4.Has your mind been renewed? How do you know?
5.Are you aware of the Mind of Christ?
6.Do understand what it means to STAND until Jesus
returns?
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GOT JESUS?
1.Do you feel that you have accepted Jesus into your
heart?
2.When do you abide or rest in Jesus?
3.How do you feel when you are resting in Jesus?
4.Do you think differently?
5.Are you at peace?
6.Are you resting in Jesus when you run ahead of Him and
try to solve problems in the flesh?
7.Are you picking and choosing the parts of your life
that you are willing to surrender to God?
8.Do you feel that you can recognize the True Light from
the counterfeit?
9.Can you recognize the Master's voice?
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PREDATORS
1.Have you been the victim of a predator?
2.Do you consider yourself to be a predator? Why or why
not?
3.Do you try to have healthy relationships, giving and
not just taking from the other party?
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Episode 1: BEE
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DEATH Part 1
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GOD HAS NOT CHANGED! He is the same god who will punish
an entire nation because of the sin of one man. Achan, son
of Carmi, son of Zabdi, son of Zerah, from the tribe of
Judah, whose disobedience and greed led him to take
tainted spoils of war (gold and silver and a Babylonian
garment), sinned against God and in doing so endangered
the entire nation of Israel. (Joshua 7:1-26)
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MATH TIME:
Is sin plus sin equal to sin? Or, can sin plus sin be
greater or equal to sin? Wait, I'm confused. What are we
talking about here, just more sin or greater sin? We need
numbers. Sin is not a number. How do we know one sin
equals another sin? How do we equate sin? What does it
matter? Jesus died for our sins and we can repent and be
forgiven. Can't we?
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MATH TIME:
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John the Baptist came telling the people that they were
living in sin and needed to repent. Jesus added to
repentance that the Kingdom of Heaven was at hand. Jesus
made the people look at sin differently. For those who had
ears to hear, He opened their eyes to the love, compassion
and forgiveness they should have for one another and the
sins that they committed by the lack of these things.
1.Can we simply look at all sin the same way? Why or why
not?
2.The adversary uses sin as a weapon, bringing waves and
plagues of a specific sin to destroy large numbers of
people. Sometimes he targets specific groups, genders
or age groups. When, we see an increase in a
particular sin, we know that there is a particular
demonic influence and plan of the adversary. Is it
fair to target this specific sin if others are
committing like sins?
3.Can we afford to ignore it?
4.Could God be trying to tell us something by allowing
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Definition of blasphemy
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https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/blasphemy
1 Timothy 1:13
Psalm 74:18
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thy name.
Ezekiel 20:27
Matthew 12:31-32
1 Timothy 6:1
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2 Timothy 3:2
Titus 2:5
John 10:33
Colossians 3:8
Revelation 2:9
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into sin and death? Should she put her love for him
above God, Truth, Holiness and Righteousness?
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church?
3.Are you involved in true DISCIPLESHIP or are you just
maintaining the status of a MEMBER?
4.Has God positioned you for CHANGE within the church?
5.Has God positioned you to bring growth to others?
6.Is God preparing you for your purpose or mission?
7.Are you still clinging to the world?
8.Are you still clinging to self?
9.Have you been fed lies by the adversary concerning
what the church is and the meaning and act of
fellowship?
10.Are you remaining faithful to religion, tradition and
rituals within the institutional church because it is
part of your heritage and loyalty to family
affiliation, denominational preference, education or
ordination?
11.Are you satisfied with just being a contemporary
designed Christian instead of a Disciple of Christ?
12.Is it easier for someone else to tell you what to do
and how to do it, instead of being ACCOUNTABLE and
RESPONSIBLE?
13.Do you serve the institutional church or do you serve
God as an Ambassador and Disciple of Christ?
14.Are you just going to church to look good in the eyes
of society and those close to you?
15.Are you able to see and recognize sin and bondage?
16.If you see and recognize sin and bondage, are you too
afraid to step out on faith and do something about it?
17.Perhaps, you just don't know where else to go, or
what else to do?
18.What is GOD telling you? Are you listening? Are you
obeying? Have you tried?
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RESTORING ORDER
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only to man, but to one nation under God; lies to the Word
of God; and lies to God's Holy Spirit--blasphemy.
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Word and if I was a godly woman. She and her friends began
to attack me through snide remarks and innuendos, accusing
and condemning younger, single women who come to church as
coming to steal their husbands. I was scrutinized for what
I was wearing and made to feel extremely uncomfortable
within the group.
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Psalm 37(KJV)
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Jesus knew that had Peter had the love within him,
whereby Jesus loved him, he would not have betrayed Him.
At that time, Peter had not been made perfect in love, for
perfect love cast out fear. Succumbing to fear of man and
the world, Peter betrayed Christ.
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You are One with the Father, Son, Holy Spirit, and the
Body of Christ. You are never alone! It is a wonderful
gift to have Christ in your life and God who will never
leave you alone! We must move past thinking of God as just
being a part of our life or existing only in the heavenly
and truly accept Him as the Head of our life and our All-
in-All, dwelling within us.
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to just SPEAK His name in LOVE to keep your eyes upon Him
and stay connected, following Him, letting Him guide you
in obeying the Will and Way of Our Father. If we are to
live abundantly, eternally, it is our abundant and perfect
love for Jesus that will bind us to the One, who has made
us Whole and keeps us in Perfect Submission!
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John 8 (KJV)
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James and John, the two brothers, and their mother were
still very carnally minded and could only see that which
was of the world, basing prosperity and importance on the
structure of class and status around them. Therefore, they
believed that within Jesus' Kingdom, they would find the
same thing and achieve status and glory because they had
CONNECTIONS with Jesus. They could not see that that which
they lacked was a connection with The Living Word of God!
They wanted to connive their way to the top behind the
other apostle's backs. They neither knew what they were
asking, nor the consequences of drinking of the same cup
as Jesus. Jesus' response to their request shows us that
ONLY GOD, the Father can lift someone up within the
KINGDOM. However, Jesus did not tell them that within the
Kingdom, there is only ONE MAN'S NAME that has been found
WORTHY of lifting up and praising with ALL HONOR, GLORY
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Jesus did not pray for the world, for He knew its fate,
seeing it blind and in darkness. He didn't worry about
offending the world or those still attached to it, or
those who claimed to be Jews and Children of God. He came
offering something more powerful and desirable--The
Kingdom of God, abundant and eternal life.
God knew that His plan would separate the wheat from
the tares. It was not intended to start a trend of
popularity and approval. Speaking boldly did not end with
Jesus, yet, speaking IN LOVE FOR THE GLORY OF GOD, BEGINS
WITH JESUS. We must speak out boldly, IN LOVE, to correct
our Brothers and Sisters, for God is seeking only ONE KIND
OF WORSHIPPER, THOSE WHO WORSHIP IN SPIRIT AND IN TRUTH.
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Now, is the time to LIVE for change. WHAT and WHO are
you willing to die to self for to LIVE in victory and
affect change in others? There is only ONE whom you can
live for who will change you and others, when what you
live for FIRST is God and His Kingdom.
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Ezekiel 37(KJV)
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It was hard for His mind to get around the pain He had
to endure, because the flesh is weak. It was hard for Him
to think about the hatred and betrayal that would be
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Yes, Jesus felt pain deep within His heart; the same
gut-wrenching pain we feel when we have lost someone dear;
the pain we feel when we've been severely, mortally
wounded ; the pain we feel, when our world has been
shattered; the pain that immobilizes us and all we can do
is cry out, "Father, Help me! "
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It's time for the Master Chef, our Chief Shepherd, who
really knows how to CREATE and not kill, steal and
destroy! JESUS has the RIGHT ingredients to turn things
around within our heart, IF WE LET HIM!
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You might ask, "But, how do we get around the PAIN and
the PRIDE? "
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Now, don't get me wrong, there are times when God wants
to use you, but, God can take care of Himself.
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Children of the Most High God, who seek His face and
undying love,
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glory.
Psalm 46, is not just a song about what God can do. He
is trying to increase our faith. He is trying to show us,
like He showed Abraham. If you fear me and withhold
nothing from me, I will provide for you. Look! There’s a
ram in the bush. God is demanding a show of faith! Watch
and wait on the Lord and see what I can and will do for my
children! I will fight your battles! It is Me the
adversary defies!
Your faith tells you that only God can do the work in
you and around you that needs to be done. Being still for
God is not a practice; nor is it a ritual. To turn it on
and then turn it off is unequivocally, by all
definitions--a ritual. You use it when you want to and
feel that it is needed to appease your god. Quite the
contrary, being still is the outcome of bearing the fruits
of His Holy Spirit; peace, long-suffering, faithfulness,
self-control.
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love yourself.
• The power of God's Holy Spirit is within you and works
through you.
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So, what do you do when you come into contact with your
enemy or that person who always wants to argue or out-talk
you and you can't get a word in edge-wise? How can you
have a relationship with them?
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accountable, so, you must decide, how much are you willing
to change or sacrifice for the sake of others? Are you
willing to FOLLOW JESUS and bear your cross? Then, you
can't always have things YOUR WAY if you are going to OBEY
God and show Him how much you love HIM.
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In the beginning WAS THE WORD. Until The Word was made
flesh, as Jesus, all man had to believe on was The Word in
the Spirit, Who is GOD!
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But, is this part of God's PLAN for your life? How does
this EMPOWER you? Is this part of ABUNDANT life, or are
you still waiting because you have been told that, "The
best is yet to come"? But, is it, if you don't understand
what "the best," is?
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Pray for JOY to come unto others. Do you know how much
that could mean to someone who is struggling, suffering,
grieving or depressed? Suicide is a huge contributor to
death. Many people don't have true joy in their life and
don't know how to acquire it.
Don't ever feel that God can't use you in another way.
He may not call you to do your usual work because He needs
you in another capacity. Perhaps, it is time for you to
rest; or, it is time for you to prepare; or, it is time
for you to BE STILL, watching, and always praying.
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a sigh of relief.
From his dark suit, build and serious face, Hal could
tell that the man coming down the hall was a man serious
about his job and people probably didn't get in his way to
prevent him from doing it very often. It had to be the
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However, I think that if she holds out for the next few
days, perhaps you can come back for a short time."
He wondered how much about her life and her family she
would reveal to him. Would he dare to ask her the hard
questions in her present state? He better save them for
last to prevent getting kicked out of the room too early
in the interview.
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"Oh, well, so, I lost a few bucks, I've got bigger fish
to fry today, a reporter's dream! I’m the winner today!"
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Come, come close Hal. She's almost blind and she can't
hear well."
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No, Hal didn't have much pity for Tanya. Like the rest
of her family, she was greedy and selfish, holding on to
her assets and prospering off of her station entrusted to
her by the people. Her eyes were wide open, she knew the
risks and the consequences, but like a few others, she
managed to get off with minor infractions.
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project.”
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You see, I’m too old to do this alone and take the
chance of not seeing it through to the finish. I have
writing experience, but, I’m not a leader and I don’t have
a lot of experience in business. I’ve read your resume and
I know your work. I’ve had others advise me. We all agree
that you’re qualified for the job and can offer you the
necessary support and staff to see that you succeed. We
believe that you’d be much farther than you are now, if
you only had a break. Well, here it is, should you decide
to take it. We hate to see you waiting for a senior
journalist to move out of the way, while wasting your
talent and potential.
“Miriam, please.”
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“NO HAL!”
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“Well….”
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Things were looking too simple and too easy. Deep down,
he knew that there were plenty of reasons that he
shouldn’t take the offer, beginning with what he had just
experienced. There was something deeper lurking within
this offer and within this bazaar family who seemed to
have their own distinct type of dynamics going on.
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"Yes, Hal."
"The hospital has reserved the West Wing and this floor
for my aunt for the last forty years. I believe that in
the beginning, someone believed it was an appropriate
honor to give her, being that she, like Eleanor Roosevelt
were two of the first women acting unofficially as the
president of the United States. It naturally became a
tradition to place her in the same location whenever she
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Yes, man can pass down harsh judgment upon his brother.
King David found it better to be punished by God than man.
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What will it take for those who cannot find their way
to PEACE to love their neighbors as themselves and as God
loves them? How can we help others as part of our
responsibility and accountability in OUR abundant life to
tear down the wall that is keeping them living in and for
a life led by legalism and strife; captured by the enemy,
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OH, OH, OOOH HOW IRONIC that as they look down upon
their brothers and sisters, the ENEMY places a YOKE around
their neck and shackles on their hands and feet. God is
the god of True Justice! But, let us not revel in their
blindness and ignorance, for, but for the grace of God, it
could be us, AGAIN! SOME of us are not long from outside
of the chains of bondage, but, God ALLOWS us to see our
brother in bondage so that we can REMEMBER where He
brought US from and if we have TRULY been delivered.
Instead of pointing a finger, we should get down on our
knees and cry, "FATHER, SAVE MY BROTHER LIKE YOU SAVED
ME!" Or, are you still standing behind your wall, your
man-made FORTRESS, throwing rocks at others, threatening,
and finding ways to make them yield to YOUR will through
legalism or SUFFER because of your hardened heart?
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the God you claim to serve and Whom you told everyone has
delivered you and set you FREE FROM SIN, FEAR AND DEATH...
EXPLAIN to He, who you claim is the HEAD of your LIFE and
His Son who still has the nail scars in His hands because
of YOU! PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD and for the sake of ALL
of us, take time to explain why you and so many others
build those walls?
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Even so, God promised you something and you DESERVE it.
Why and how do I know? Because JESUS said so!
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Mr, President, your way hasn't worked for you and it's
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Let us all give THANKS and PRAISE for His SACRIFICE and
His VICTORY! MY SOUL CRIES OUT HALLELUJAH, THANK GOD FOR
SAVING ME!
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Exodus 20(KJV)
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Sweat poured down his face and into his eyes from his
drenched eyebrows. His eyes stung from the salty sweat.
Pulling out his t-shirt to wipe his face, he squatted to
relax the muscles in his legs. They weren't use to all of
this exercise and neither was he.
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then, head out and get some breakfast. He could hear his
stomach growling during the interview yesterday morning
and he didn't want it to be in control of his thoughts
today, especially, since he hadn't had much sleep.
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"Yes, ma'am."
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"Very well then. I'll come back and get you, but, we
can prepare a room for you here to sleep if you'd like.
Auntie would be more accessible to you during the time she
is awake. There's an office for you to work out of and
we'll get you a card key for the private entrance and
elevator. We'll have someone buy you some clothes and
toiletries and notify the chef to add one more person for
meals.
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Tanya moved her head from side to side and lifted her
hand signaling for Hal to begin his line of questioning.
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"Yes, the bright and famed one. He was one of our major
donors who moved information and money around. He was a
back door.
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Then, there was the Crowned Queen who wanted too much
power and control. He began to make trouble and risked
ruining everything with his crazy white supremacist, anti-
Semitic extremists group. He threatened John and John said
he could take The Mad Hatter's money and his crazy website
and shove it.
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The Red General was gone and there was no real buffer
between us and the Russians. We had to play things by ear
for awhile. John and I had to keep a low profile because
of Feds looking into our businesses. We decided to keep
the visitor list secret so couriers could get through."
"Who were..."
"But, what about your kids? Didn't the two of you worry
about what would happen to them if you both were convicted
of treason and imprisoned? Didn't you think about them
living with that kind of shame and ridicule?"
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"But, if you really loved your kids, why take the risks
of making them motherless and fatherless and not being
able to watch them grow up?"
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Miriam was waiting for him to have lunch. She took him
into the private dining room, which was set with white
table cloth and napkins and a beautiful spread of gourmet
food with a choice of beverages. It wasn't Hal's usual
lunch set-up. Most of the time, he just ate at his desk.
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Now, the world will tell you you're weak and gullible
and leave it at that.
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You see, that's the role those accusers took on for the
adversary. They fell for the lie and now they're trying to
pass it on to you.
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He that has spoken evil over you has spoken words for
himself! Satan has used his tongue to kill, steal and
destroy, therefore, the messenger is not good enough for a
Child of God! Still, He who works on your behalf can and
will turn what was meant for evil into something good.
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so much that, His Son, Christ Jesus died for you! You are
Worthy and You are Loved! One with the Holy Trinity, you
are whole.
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Hal had forgotten how much Rachel was led by her faith
and liked to talk about God. He guessed that was why she
never went out with him again before getting her
promotion. He just wasn't in to all that.
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"Yeah, but, I wish you were around. Did you find out
who requested you?"
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"Me? Why me? You know I'd never hold you back, Hal.
I've told you how good you are. If you would have been
hired before me, you would have my job right now. When you
walked in the door and I read your first column, I said,
now there's some real competition. It was a good thing I
had already interviewed for this open position.
Rachel smiled.
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which would make them 'NORMAL' within YOUR LIFE, IF, these
are the things that God would have for YOU. It doesn't
make you any more or less 'normal', if God has chosen
another lot and has a DIFFERENT PLAN for your life.
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Yet, when we think of what God can do, our thoughts are
in the carnal world! However, we can't walk upon the
straight and narrow path guided by the carnal mind and
expect to reach the Kingdom of God! No, we will be
DISTRACTED by that which we feel we deserve within the
world.
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"Do you think there's any hope for Tanya and her
family?"
She handed him the paper she had been studying when he
walked in and leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheek.
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offered to take his coat and show him to his room. It was
clear that he had started to carry some clout around there
and wouldn't be having anymore problems from the bully
brothers. He decided it was best to be civil and be the
first to extend the olive branch of peace. When they got
to his room, he tried to be cordial.
"Jake."
Hall offered his hand, but, Jake was heading out of the
door. Hal smacked his forehead with the palm of his hand,
asking himself, "What do I have to do to make friends or
even get a smile from these guys? There has to be some
way.
The room was more than adequate and of course was very
tastefully decorated, above the standards of a usual
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Hal opened the bureau drawers and sure enough there was
an adequate supply of underwear, and an assortment of t-
shirts and socks.
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"Go ahead and have dinner without me. I'll see you in
the morning. Please say goodnight to Auntie Yonny for me.
Good bye, Hal. "
Tonya nodded her head. Hal set his recorder up and took
out his note pad.
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"Yes."
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Then, there was Ilya Yanovich, who many said had deep
connections with Russian Oligarchs, Russian mafia, and
government corruption. She ran his businesses for years
before turning them over to a board of directors and
making her step-son the chief executive officer. What had
Tanya Yanovich become? --Her Father? Or, more of a type of
philanthropic dictator?
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Mark 12:44(KJV)
So, if the widow did not have or give what others would
consider to be ten percent of her income to give back to
God, yet, God saw this as giving more than those who did,
is God in conflict with His own laws? Did the widow break
a law that had been handed down from God? Why did God
overlook this fact? Was it because He knew that this was
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all the widow had left in the world, although, it may not
have met her ten percent in the eyes of others or did the
fruitfulness of her giving result in INCREASE within God's
eyes; for like the woman with an issue of blood, who
risked being stoned to death or killed by other means,
this woman had also GIVEN HER LIFE and placed the FUTURE
of HER LIFE in GOD'S hands?
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Mark 12(KJV)
Jesus Rejected at Nazareth:
Isaiah 61:1-11; Matthew 2:19-23; Mark 6:1-6; Luke 2:39-
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Hal was thinking that Tanya Graves was the one too much
like her father and very dangerous. Was she mad? For some
reason, she felt she held all the cards within her family
poker game. However, she did inherit the bulk of the
fortune. Her stepmother, however complicit she was in the
crimes or cover-up, had taken her money and ran away from
the eye of the public. She had always been rather good at
that.
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the painful news that this voice always brought with it.
"The nurse told me that your urine test results are not
good and you have a slight temperature. We want to change
your catheter, check your bladder and kidney functioning
and get you started on an antibiotic. More pain medication
would not be good for you at this time. Still, we don't
want you to be in pain, so to prevent future pain, you
will have to experience some minor discomfort, now, so,
please bear with us."
That was the first time Hal had said those words and
the reality of them struck at his heart. He worked for the
Graves Family, at least one faction of it.
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"I can turn the lights up so you can see down the
hallway. Just wait a second. Ah! That one!"
"If you need me tonight, just press the button for the
security desk and I will be there in a jiffy. Oh! And the
nurse said that Mrs. Yanovich is asleep and must not be
disturbed."
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The story said that the hacking must have taken place
two weeks ago and last night the internet was flooded with
the hacked files. The source of the file upload and the
hacker(s) had not been traced, but authorities were
confident that they would apprehend the perpetrators in
due time. Hal gathered the papers and crawled into his
room, his mind racing too fast to coordinate with his
actions.
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professional.
"Thank you!"
Hal entered the room quietly, took his seat next to the
bed and quietly said,
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"Yes, the first woman and the most noble of all the
Presidents of the United States of America, President
Hillary Rodham Clinton."
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• There are many things God wants to share with us, but,
first, He has to HUMBLE us! He doesn't do it as an act
of vindictiveness, punishment, or to embarrass,
belittle, or to be critical of us. He does it because
He LOVES US!
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BIBLE STUDY
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• Jesus did not hold back when dealing with the Pharisee
and Sadducee. It wasn't about being patient or
impatient with them. It was about rendering TRUTH. He
called them what they were, "a brood of vipers." He
corrected their carnal ways of thinking and instructed
His Disciples not to do as they did. He stayed away
from them and tended to the flock they neglected to
properly feed, knowing they were not ready to accept
the message He brought from His Father. They had to be
HUMBLED! And, today, most still have not accepted Him
as The Son of God or heard the News of the Kingdom.
Patience? God would provoke the Jews to jealousy of
the Gentiles, by offering salvation to the Gentiles.
Sometimes God moves past patience for our own good.
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Romans 11:10-12(KJV)
SPEAKING TRUTH
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• Saints let no one tell you that gifts are not a sign
of spirituality, for only the Holy Spirit gives gifts
as He pleases and works those gifts.
1 Corinthians 12(KJV)
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• Yes, there are people with gifts who do not have the
knowledge, maturity or holiness to properly use their
gifts. But, to say they think themselves more
"spiritual" than others is not to understand
spirituality and being a "spiritual being." No one can
be more spiritual than someone else. We are ALL
spiritual beings descending from God. Just as one can
become holy, but not holier, by abiding in Jesus and
God's Holy Spirit; For it implies already being holy,
just as being more spiritual implies already being
spiritual, which makes it redundant.
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Ephesians 4(KJV)
1 Corinthians 12(KJV)
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Episode 9
AUNTIE YONNY:
What Putin Didn't Know and Couldn't
Possibly Foresee
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"Lost what?"
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Hal was trying hard to wrap his head around all the
details in the tangled web that the Graves had woven in
the White House, but Tanya kept going.
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"That was the plan, but, the Boy Scout put an end to
that when he infused that memo, proving my father tried to
get him to end the investigation."
Tell me, what role did Aaron Buoy really play in the
campaign?"
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"Evil...ignorant?"
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where his ignorance and pride got him in life, so, to him,
it was brilliance.
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ABUNDANT LIFE:
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Yet, you hear a voice in your head. You can even adjust
what it sounds like, if you wish. It can be male or
female. If you are inclined to, you can give it an age,
dialect or ethnic accent. It is all up to you. I have no
control over that, unless I suggest or give specific
instructions as to how you are to hear the words, but,
even then, it stands within your ability to meet that
criteria. In that aspect, I am at your mercy, so, read as
you will.
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Minutes went by. Hal had been watching the clock, not
knowing what he was waiting for, then, he decided to look
out of the window from where he sat. The color of the
atmosphere appeared to change to a mellowing shade of
peace, he thought. Tanya's hand had become still and limp,
no longer trembling and red from the strain of a shattered
heart.
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It was the first day of the civil war and there was
chaos everywhere. No one knew who was on one side or the
other. Those looking to harm others or take advantage of
the situation, roamed and ran the streets, while everyone
else was just trying to stay alive.
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For those who are awake and able to see, God is ALIVE
and does not lead men into darkness, nor will he cause us
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It was Jesus who came to SHINE THE LIGHT, not men like
Putin and Trump! AMERICA! MY COUNTRY' TIS OF THEE! Sweet
land of liberty? The BELL has stopped ringing!!! Freedom
and Democracy stand on the brink of destruction if you do
not act with conviction to blot out the stains upon your
history and embrace a new era of enlightenment in the Will
and Way of God!
JESUS, The Truth, The Way, and the Life came to show us
ANOTHER WAY! Yet, the pride of the Pharisee and Sadducee
kept them worried about someone being seen as HOLIER, MORE
POPULAR, and MORE REVERED THAN THEM! They wanted to be
EXCLUSIVE instead of INCLUSIVE; even to continue to stay
ISOLATED from the gentiles. Yet, that was not God's plan.
The adversary allowed their ignorance, selfishness, and
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Men like the Pharisee and Sadducee could not see that
man cannot be HOLY without being ONE with God, therefore,
one must be CONNECTED in a RELATIONSHIP with God!
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They prove that they lack ONE THING! They have not been
made perfect in LOVE, because...because...they have NO
RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD!
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gets its orders from God and even the winds and waves obey
His Will.
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The door opened and her husband walked in. Her heart
skipped a beat and began to race. If she were dead, she
wondered, why did she feel so alive, still?
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BUT, best of all they've got some more leaks to put out
there to blame on the FBI. Nobody, will trust them anymore
or believe what they say about the case. It will all be
lies coming out of there."
"He said that this should take care of it, but, they're
still working on another angle. We'll just have to wait
and see. He said to just keep quiet and stay away from the
media. He wants you to cancel that speech after the
testimony."
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GOOD FRUIT
VS
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We can be assured that God knows how much we can bear and
always has a plan and a way. He didn't bring Mary that far
to leave her. He was not going to allow anything to happen
to her or His child. So, it was put upon Joseph's heart
not to scorn her and continue with the betrothal.
First, let's think about the other young people today, who
find themselves pregnant and unmarried. We find that we
are faced with millions of teen-aged parents who have the
same needs as Mary and Joseph. In the past, I too, was one
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SCRIPTURE REFERENCES
(2)John 4(KJV)
(3)Psalm 51(KJV)
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FAT VS HEALTHY
Matthew 4(KJV)
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THE TEMPTER
John 4:13-15(KJV)
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Like the pregnant virgin Mary, are our needs being met to
insure that the life within us, is safe, healthy and
living by the Word of God?
Remember, that you are not alone. The Triune God dwells
within you. You, your body is His Temple, a building not
made by the hands of man, but, the Hand of God. Your body,
His Temple, needs His hands for sustenance, maintenance,
restoration and repair.
If you are like me, then you have tried many diets and
exercises in the past, only to be self-defeated by lack of
willpower, endurance and sustainability. This only goes to
show that we had not surrendered our will to God, who
cannot fail. We wanted immediate results, instead of
change from within; change that would make us think
differently about ourselves and about our needs. When, it
came to our health, we were living for one person--
ourselves. Now, what would Jesus do? He told us in:
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Matthew 4:5-11
5 Then the devil took him to the holy city and had
him stand on the highest point of the temple.
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Jesus!
Mind over matter can only work when led by the Mind of
Christ through God's Holy Spirit!
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During our Rebirth, each of us, man and woman alike was
impregnated, with NEW LIFE to be passed on, just as the
Apostles laid hands on the first Believers in the Son of
God. God's Holy Spirit gives new life. We were connected
to The Vine, Yeshua, in order to produce "GOOD" fruit. Our
abundant life lies within knowing and understanding our
REPRODUCTIVE CYCLE to produce good fruit, as promised by
God and our commitment to one another. We have a charge to
keep and a God to Glorify!
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Never forget who you belong to and that you know your way
back to Jesus!
Psalm 51:10(KJV)(3)
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With all love and hope for you, your servant and soldier,
united with the One
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(2)John 4(KJV)
(3)Psalm 51(KJV)
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Matthew 6:24(KJV)
ENTITLEMENT
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1 Samuel 1:45,46(KJV)
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Yet, how can you separate the Jew, the Christian, and
the Muslim from the God of Abraham whom they worship? Why
does man continue to separate the faith and belief that
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AND UNDERSTAND...
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When God gave new laws and doctrine to the Jews, He did
not recreate or change their identity! Yet, each time men
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If it were not for the fact that God did not create a
SEPARATE VINE and the gentiles were instructed to follow
various laws of Judaism, I might agree that God intended
the Christian Gentiles to remain separate from the
Christian Jews. However, God came to Peter specifically to
show him that He had no respect of person and it was no
longer unlawful for Jews to mix with the CLEANSED and HOLY
Gentiles.
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• Watchmen
• Missionary Work
• Strategic planning
• Training and Equipping and Empowering the Saints
• Instruction in wearing and using the Armour of God
• Fighting with the Sword, God's Word
• Commanding the troops
• Aiding and healing the wounded
• Praying throughout the battle
• Providing Food for the soul
• Encouraging the ranks
• Loving your neighbor and even your enemies
• And having the power, courage and unconditional love
to LOVE and FORGIVE
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With all love and hope for you, your servant and fellow
soldier, united with the One
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SUGGESTED READING
http://biblesforamerica.org/blog/
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Acts 10(KJV)
The Dispute over Circumcision: Genesis 17:9-27; Leviticus
12:1-8; Joshua 5:1-9)
Acts 15 King James Version (KJV)
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Part II
Luke 10:19(KJV)
2 Timothy 2:1-4(KJV)
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2 Corinthians 10(KJV)
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Ephesians 6:10-18(KJV)
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We may feel we're not cut out for that sort of thing,
or, perhaps, someone else can take care of that part of
being a Christian, Follower or Believer, because you
didn't sign on for any demonic warfare or intercessory
prayer, fighting battles with darkness and the adversary.
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Ephesians 6:18
God watches over our going out and our coming in, but,
He SENDS us out to do battle, calling us to arm ourselves
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Romans 14(KJV)
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unclean.
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Mark 12:30,31(KJV)
30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy
heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind,
and with all thy strength: this is the first
commandment.
With all love and hope for you, your servant and fellow
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http://biblesforamerica.org/blog/
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Acts 10(KJV)
The Dispute over Circumcision: Genesis 17:9-27; Leviticus
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Acts 15(KJV)
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Realizing the lie he had just told and how he had even
used God to validate his story, Hal felt a knot in the pit
of his stomach. He wanted to excuse himself and go back to
his room, but, Miriam was his boss, now. He thought about
that. He had just lied to his boss.
"Oh! I met Arturo last night, when I came in! Boy, he's
a character, but a really nice guy! I mean, he's got a
very pleasant disposition and tries to be so helpful! He
really seems to enjoy his job. Don't you think so?"
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"Exactly!"
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Chapter 17
BURDENED Part I
Matthew 11:28-30(KJV)
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Or, did God sacrifice His Son upon the cross to create
a NEW COVENANT? Where is your proof? Was the new covenant
only with Israel? How did the Gentiles become part of this
new covenant? These are things we need to know as
Believers, so that we aren't misled or swept into the
bondage of religion.
Jeremiah 31:31-34(KJV)
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Oh, we of little faith, who cry out, when the wolf has
stolen the sheep, or prevented them from following! God
has not forsaken us! Nonetheless, He expects us to do more
than just REACT negatively to this new event! He expects
us to ACT and act in a positive way! Therefore, the
shepherd must act in accordance to the Master's wishes and
follow a new path to find the lost sheep, instead of
expecting the lost or stolen sheep to return upon their on
volition.
God finds His sheep lost, confused, and not healed. Can
we blame the sheep, or, is it time for the institutional
church to wake up and remove the veil from its eyes and
the shackles from its feet? Will God's sheep wander
endlessly, in vain, looking for greener pastures?
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GREENER PASTURES
WHAT WAS MISSING FOR THE SHEEP TO STRAY AND NEVER WANT
TO RETURN? TRAINING? OBEDIENCE?
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sheep wander off, then, scolded all the sheep who had
stayed, for what the one sheep did.
"Why did the Master send you to help me? You're just a
boy! You're not even trained to be a shepherd! What can
you do?!" He angrily asked the boy.
The boy kept smiling. "I can talk to the sheep and
understand their hearts."
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"Only a shepherd can teach you about the Master and how
to take care of His sheep. I don't need your help and I
don't want it! You're just a burden! Now, go on, get out
of here!"
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"Did the sheep say anything?" The Master asked the boy.
The boy sang all the way to the pasture and the sheep
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Brethren,
1 John 1:7
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tasks, not for the love of self, but, for the love of our
neighbors, for love of God, and for the love of Christ
Jesus!
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God KNEW that Adam and Eve had disobeyed and eaten the
forbidden fruit, not only because they were HIDING, but
because they were FILLED with GUILT and SHAME, which He
did not instill within them. The darkness of the adversary
had stolen their innocence and CONVINCED them they were
CONDEMNED! STILL, God did not seek to CONTROL them.
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that they simply lack the One thing that could help them.
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Why did Jesus say we cannot set our hands to the plow
and look back? Why did His Disciples have to leave
everything behind, including their families? Why did Paul
say that as Disciples, it was better that we didn't marry?
Were they being cruel and heartless or was there a GREATER
purpose?
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Hebrews 4 (KJV)
Father, we thank you for Your Will and Your Way, which
brightens our pathway and lightens our load. That you
would not have us laden with heaviness upon our backs and
upon our hearts, shows how much you care for each and
everyone of us. Fill our hearts, Lord with that same love
for one another, so that present or absent from one
another, we cling to the Vine, bearing Good Fruit to share
and fellowship together, as we walk in Your Light.
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with love and joy, your servant and soldier, united with
the One
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SCRIPTURE REFERENCES
John 13(KJV)
Romans 8(KJV)
1 John 1(KJV)
Hebrews 4(KJV)
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Or, perhaps it's not that simple and there are several
reasons why people end up accepting a world of deception.
Perhaps, they were born into that world, or, thrust into
it and know no other way to think and behave.
We are told that this is what and how society is, then,
given the criteria and laws to know what is expected of us
in order to fit into it. We're told to concentrate on the
physical aspects as they relate to the flesh--our carnal
selves, in order to appease society and maintain its
status quo.
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"Is that what she and the Graves are trying to do again
and using me to do it? Did Derek Graves have a different
idea of what the world and reality should be and that's
why they wanted him out of the presidential race?
But, Rachel would say that that's not the case with the
Kingdom of God. God created the world and placed people
upon it to be part of His Kingdom; a Kingdom of only one
reality, the reality of truth. Nothing is real, unless it
is based on truth, God's truth which never changes,
because God never changes."
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You can't make His Kingdom into what YOU want it to be.
It belongs to God, created by God, and it is based on
clear, definite, godly principles that can ONLY be derived
from TRUTH, which and who is God. So, this man-made
society can only be perceived as a malleable illusion, for
it can't possibly be part of God's Kingdom, which like God
is Truth, which cannot change!
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Hal clinched his hair again and rolled over on his back
staring at the ceiling. He knew he had to do something to
fight against this anarchy, but, what and how and how
would he keep from being dragged under in the undertow of
this destructive wave? He decided to find time to talk to
Rachel the next day and see her if possible. Meanwhile,
he'd try to devise a plan and find a way to talk to Derek
Graves about Miriam, Tanya, and the late night visitor.
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Episode 16
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"Yes and no. I mean, I'm okay physically, but, this new
job is...well...it's a challenge and I'm living and
working out of a hospital. I still have my apartment, but,
I need to have access to Tanya Yanovich.
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What I have been given and what you have been given
belongs to God. He created it and if it's good enough for
Him, it's definitely good enough for man and the world!
What matters is how we use it!
God created and gave me and you our gifts and formed
who we are. I've got to remind myself every morning and
throughout the day that I AND ALL OF THIS BELONGS TO
GOD!!! AND
If I try to be who I was not meant to be (if I'm mean,
impatient, beat down, depressed, vindictive, giving up),
then, I am not being who God created me to be and I cannot
endure and that's where ALL the real problems arise and
continue. But, if I, who have been created and then born
again of His Spirit allow the character of God to be
manifested through me, then, I can say to the storms in my
life, "peace be still."
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"Rachel?"
"Yes, Hal?"
"Now Hal, you ought to know by now that you can ask me
anything."
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Tanya nodded her head towards him, but she was unable
to speak.
Hal made his way to Zenobia's room and found her either
asleep or unconscious.
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Hal blushed and stood up. She motioned for him to lean
down again, and pulled his ear close to her mouth holding
his head in place.
Tanya released her grip on Hal's head and her arm fell
limp. Hal stood up stunned and chilled by the icy words he
had just heard come out of Tanya's mouth. He backed away
slowly as she stared at the expression on his face,
knowing she had dropped the mother of all bombs and
Pandora's Box would be forever open.
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"What was she talking about? Was her mind damaged from
lack of oxygen? Was she hallucinating? Is it dementia?
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Chapter 18
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Helping the needy depends upon how they feel about what
they consider to be social welfare, handouts, charity, or
wasted money. They would rather the separate society heal
and preserve itself, because, their main objective, as the
elite, is to help the big businesses they own or have
invested in politically or financially.
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To love and obey God, you must know about God's Word
and His Kingdom to determine if you are living within
God's principles, His Will and Way. We cannot use our
refusal to repent from sin and love of the flesh as an
excuse for not fitting in or expecting people to accept
our sin. God expects us to die to our fleshly (carnal)
selves and overcome the world as Jesus did. Many want to
remain as they are, claiming that they were born that way.
However, we cannot say that we were born to live in sin.
We were born to overcome so that we would enjoy abundant
and eternal life.
mishael
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other than, he'd met with Miriam earlier that day and said
goodnight to Arturo when he came in.
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"Lieutenant, uh..."
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"No, it was too dark and I slipped and fell. Did anyone
find anything on the floor?"
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"I can't tell you much, Rachel. Just that I'm okay.
Lieutenant Hamilton over there will have my head if I say
any more. Look, I know we had talked about seeing each
other, but, as you can see, I've got a lot going on. Maybe
when things die down, we can get together. Okay?
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having seen them alive and being connected with them. The
two law enforcement officers observed his reaction
carefully, making their deductions about his guiltiness or
innocence of the crime. It didn't help the way he felt.
Hal hopped into the elevator and grabbed the rail for
support. Pressing his head into the elevator wall, he
imagined the details and horror of Miriam and Arturo's
brutal murder. What were their last thoughts? And, who
could have done such a blood curdling, insane, and inhuman
thing to another human being? Then, reality hit him and he
spoke the words out loud.
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Hal didn't buy that answer for one minute. He knew he'd
be interrogated and he'd better get legal counsel as soon
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as possible.
"We need the patient to fill out this form, first," the
clerk told Officer Mike.
It was the clerk who was the first to notice that Hal
was a little unsteady.
That was the last Hal heard and remembered when he woke
up on a bed in the emergency room, with an intravenous
needle sticking in his arm giving him fluids and oxygen
tubes in his nose. He noticed that he was wearing a
hospital gown, then, he looked down at his foot. It had a
new bandage on it, much better than the job he had done
wrapping it. They must have patched it up and drugged him,
he thought.
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Chapter 18
Part 2
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God can take away all of our pain and heartache, but,
we must first accept and forgive ourselves, as He has
ALREADY forgiven us. Will we accept His gift of
Forgiveness? Will we accept Christ?
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YOU are a child of God! Know and cherish what you are
and who God created you to be, always. Cherish your
relationship with your Father. You cannot fail with God,
for God never fails. God didn't create people who are
losers, just people who are nothing without Him. If we are
to change the atmosphere and the minds and hearts of those
in darkness who have become cruel and destructive people,
labeling people as failures and losers, we must change the
rhetoric and discourse from inside the person.
mishael
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"Simple Gifts"
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Chapter 18
Part 3
ACCEPTANCE,
GREATER IS HE THAT IS WITHIN ME,
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God had given Him something to keep Him and that was
unconditional love. Jesus' love for His Father was
unwavering because He knew His Heavenly Father. He knew
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Luke 23:34(KJV)
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Chapter 18
Part 4
"Simple Gifts"
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God did not create people who are losers and failures,
or people who are not equal to one another. He only
created people who are nothing without Him.
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2 Corinthians 10:3-6(KJV)
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Chapter 18
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"Simple Gifts"
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of your faith. You must believe that what God has done is
finished, for God is a god of completeness, therefore, He
will allow you to be tested in order to finish what He
began.
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urges of pride.
CREATED TO ENDURE
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enslavement.
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After some time I ran into a dead end with a sign, "To
Be Continued". Disappointed, but feeling strong and
refreshed, I turned around, crossed over Endurance and
headed down the other end of Acceptance. This part of the
road was occupied by all the things I SHOULD ACCEPT as
GIFTS from God.
- God's love
- God's promises
- God's forgiveness
- Forgiving myself
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- God is in control
- my life
- my body
- my family
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Episode 19
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During the next few days, the police were in and out of
the building regularly and Hal felt safe. He was staying
off of his foot as much as he could to help it heal, but,
he knew his days of rest and relaxation would soon be
over. No sooner had he thought about it, then, Darla
arrived with a letter from the law firm of Wellington,
Gallegos, Childress and Stein, Esquire. The letter was
marked confidential.
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"Who are you, Hal Siegfried? Do you know, now? How will
all of this effect you? Will you be the same person next
year?"
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Mr. Childress put his arm around Hal and guided him to
a chair at the table, pulled the chair out for him and
seated him.
"Wow, where did you get these photos? I've never seen
them before. Wait a minute. I was told that my
grandmother's maiden name was Johnson. Did Elizabeth
Howard remarry or was my grandmother illegitimate?"
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spoke.
"No, Hal."
"Okay and..."
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"NO...NO...you're kidding...NOOOOOO!"
Hal jumped up out of his seat and began pacing the room
and turning around from side to side. There was no calming
down or sitting down. His blood was boiling and his head
was spinning. Surely, this couldn't be true. Hal was
furious.
"You mean Tanya and Miriam knew this all along and
didn't tell me? Miriam wasn't going to let me know until
she was dead? THEY WERE ASHAMED OF ME AND MY FATHER! THEY
WERE ASHAMED OF MY GRANDMOTHER! AND SHE DIED BECAUSE OF
THEM?! WILLARD GRAVES, THAT SON OF A...HE RAPED MY
GRANDMOTHER? HE RAPED MY GRANDMOTHER!!!"
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"I DON'T WANT THE MONEY! YOU CAN KEEP IT! THE GRAVES
CAN SHOVE IT UP...!"
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"No, they haven't changed much. But, the way I see it,
you made out alright and you're better off without them."
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be too proud to accept the money. You can let your Black
pride cause you to hate and want revenge. Or, you can stay
humble, loving everybody, even your enemies."
"Then, they were never your friends and she never loved
you.
People have got to stop hating, son, if we're going to
make a difference in this world. The Graves hate, so you
hate them back. Whites hating and blaming Blacks. Blacks
hating and blaming Whites. It doesn't make SENSE! WE CAN'T
KEEP BLAMING PEOPLE FOR SOMETHING SOMEBODY RELATED TO THEM
DID IN THE PAST! IT'S GOT TO STOP!
"Oh, one more thing, Hal, remember that God has His own
way of righting wrongs. His ways are not like our ways. I
saw that your Grandfather Siegfried was a minister. I know
that he would tell you the same thing. And, I know you're
in a lot of pain right now, conflicted about who you are
and what you should do. But, the best thing you can do is
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accept what God has done for you and all that He allowed
to happen to you and your family.
Accept God's gifts, the white and the black and show
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men what love, equality and justice mean. Let God use you
to make the world a better place."
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AUNTIE YONNY:
GUILTY CONVERSATIONS
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"NO! Why you calling here! What are you trying to do,
hang me?!
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"I know, but, it's harder to get to him, now, with the
new general around. If I lie about what I'm going to see
him about, he has ways of going back and checking. He
can't be trusted. I think he's there to spy on us anyway
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"Not, yet."
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The security desk was empty and Hal only hoped that the
police officer, Chaudhary, was well ahead of him. He
wasn't prepared to kill anyone, but, he would if he had
to.
"TANYA! TANYA! IT'S HAL! IT'S HAL, TANYA! WAKE UP! IT'S
JUST A DREAM!"
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"I'll sit here with you for a while. Try to rest and think
about something good." Hal laughed. "I'm pretty good at
boring people and talking them to sleep. I'll sit here and
talk or read a while. Okay?"
"It seems you've got the touch tonight, Hal. I'll turn
it over to you."
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Chapter 19
Part 6
BE YOURSELF:
WHEN THE WORLD IS TELLING YOU TO BE
SOMETHING ELSE
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Chapter 20
Part 7
BE YOURSELF:
I AM NOT SIMPLY HUMAN!
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Have you been the same person all of your life? Has any
of us been the same person throughout our lives?
Hopefully, we've not only grown in body, but, in mind and
character.
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In knowing who you are and being who God created you to
be, you have the God given power to save lives and make
lives better. There are people who are just tired of being
hurt by others everyday; people who are afraid to face the
world; and people who are afraid to face who they have
allowed themselves to become. Tapping in to this to turn
it around, requires having a heart and love for God's
people. Abundant life was never meant to be a selfish
endeavor and cannot be achieved without sharing it with
others.
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Chapter 21
Part 8
BE YOURSELF:
A DIVIDED COUNTRY
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Thank God that I have found myself and I'm not just
HUMAN! I AM A SPIRITUAL BEING, like God and made in His
image! I am no longer OF the world. I belong to the
Kingdom of God!
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mishael
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AUNTIE YONNY:
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"Yeah...I'm okay."
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"Why did you leave me and my family alone for all these
years, watching us struggle, then put me in this position,
where I feel like I don't belong?"
Tanya was silent for a while. Then, Hal saw tears begin
to seep from her eyes exposing the pain and turmoil she
had carried for so many years, for her actions and the
circumstances surrounding his family.
"Hal, you and your family had more than I could ever
have within my family. You had genuine, godly,
unconditional love; love free of doubt, unattached to
money and corruption. You had all that I ever wanted.
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"I understand why you did what you did, Aunt Tanya,
but, you can't make things happen the way that you want
them to happen. That's what your family has been guilty of
doing from the start. That's why they were so corrupt!
They used any means possible to turn things in their
favor, regardless of the consequences or harm to others.
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Hal took Tanya's hands into his and looked at her very
seriously.
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is an honourable man;
So are they all, all honourable men–
Come I to speak in Caesar’s funeral.
He was my friend, faithful and just to me:
But Brutus says he was ambitious;
And Brutus is an honourable man.
He hath brought many captives home to Rome
Whose ransoms did the general coffers fill:
Did this in Caesar seem ambitious?
When that the poor have cried, Caesar hath wept:
Ambition should be made of sterner stuff:
Yet Brutus says he was ambitious;
And Brutus is an honourable man.
You all did see that on the Lupercal
I thrice presented him a kingly crown,
Which he did thrice refuse: was this ambition?
Yet Brutus says he was ambitious;
And, sure, he is an honourable man.
I speak not to disprove what Brutus spoke,
But here I am to speak what I do know.
You all did love him once, not without cause:
What cause withholds you then, to mourn for him?
O judgment! thou art fled to brutish beasts,
And men have lost their reason. Bear with me;
My heart is in the coffin there with Caesar,
And I must pause till it come back to me.
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Hal had been making his phone calls back home to his
father at least twice a week. He'd told his father that he
had left The Daily for a better opportunity. The two of
them had always been close and Hal never hesitated telling
his father about personal things in his life or asking for
advice. But, what he was experiencing now and the
information he had found out about their family needed to
be delivered in person.
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"No, no, NO sir! With all due respect, I hope you don't
think we had anything to do with what happened! No, sir!
We saw Mrs. Barrett as a fair employer and a good woman.
We wouldn't have done anything to harm her or place her in
danger. We should have split up our shift, but, we've
always worked together. Somehow, we feel responsible."
Hal sat down and began to think. The two men looked at
one another questioningly, then, took a seat, also. After,
about a minute, Hal spoke.
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"Yes, sir."
"Yes..."
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"Yeah, Hal. We see how you care about Mrs. Yanovich and
all that you've done to keep her safe. We just want you to
know that we've got your back. We've got guys who are
loyal to us because we've been through hell and high water
together and don't worry, we all will be loyal to you. We
understand trust, loyalty, and honor. You can count on
us."
"Thank you, guys. You don't know how much that means to
me right now."
The two men did some kind of bonding ritual that ended
with head butting and yelling simultaneously...
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Having not seen him for awhile, Hal noticed the subtle
changes in his face and his posture. The salt and pepper
hair color which had for so long covered his head in
beautiful tight curls had changed to just salt, framing
his caramel colored skin. There were more wrinkles merging
together and he stood with a slight slumping over from his
shoulders. At first sight, his appearance was somewhat
frightening for Hal, in that it forewarned of man's
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"I didn't bring you nothing! This is for me! I'm old
and weak. You're supposed to take care of me, now."
"Where are you getting all of this money, son? Since when
do you just waste food? We taught you never to waste food
or your money. If the food is nasty, we can take it home
in a baggy. I can stop at a fast food drive through."
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"I don't like seeing you upset, Dad. I worry about your
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heart."
Hal took the journal and started leafing through it, then,
began reading to himself. The waiter came with coffee and
appetizers and his father began helping himself, savoring
the food with each bite. Hal was pleased he was enjoying
himself.
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They are living out the lies that Satan has fed to
them. They become part of the scraps under the devil's
table that he has fed upon. They are fed a false illusion
that they can create, when Satan knows they can only be
like him and destroy.
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"Why didn't you tell me, son? Why didn't you tell me?"
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Hal called Zenobia and asked if there was any way that
she could meet him at the private entrance to administer
medical care to his father. Zenobia said she would post
one of her assistants with Tanya and promised that she
would be downstairs to meet him.
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Episode 23
Part 2
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"Hal?"
"I know."
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"Charlottesville, Hal?"
"Yes, I know."
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Hal went and got the journal and sat close to Tanya's
bed reading the paragraphs he had read in the restaurant.
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Chapter 22
Psalm 27:8(KJV)
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So, how do you put these things around you in the world
into perspective? How do you prioritize? How do you keep
from idolizing them and yourself?
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all that we have came from God and belongs to God. Does
this mean that we can keep buying things so that we can
say that they're for God? Do we obsess about our looks
because we want to look better for God? Are we being
truthful?
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Psalm 27:14(KJV)
Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall
strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.
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mishael
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Psalm 27(KJV)
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9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy
servant away in anger: thou hast been my help;
leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my
salvation.
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Chapter 23
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tears away. Although those things are true, I'm not going
to tell you that, not just yet. Those things may sound
simple to you, but, unless you've tried Jesus and God, you
know it's not that simple. God requires much more of you.
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Pain will hide itself and bury itself deeply within you
to prevent being rooted out. Not knowing why you feel the
way that you do, you may try to self-medicate, become
addicted to prescribed medications, or develop new
behaviors or latent behaviors may even be awakened, become
active or magnified. Most of us have come into contact
with angry people who have no patience for others, bully
people and lash out with profanity, hateful and angry
words. These are people who have never learned to deal
with their pain. They've buried it deep within themselves.
These are people who have no peace. These are unprotected
people who aren't wearing the Armour of God. These are
people who reject peace and in doing so, reject Christ,
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When you were hurt, you were not in control of the pain
that controlled someone else. You could not predict when
the bomb would go off and you would become the victim.
However, you can be in control of the pain that you carry
within you. You can root it out and prevent Satan from
setting it off.
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and who make you feel that it's alright to think that way.
Maybe you actually believe that everyone is entitled to
their opinion, no matter who it hurts, even if their
opinion is based upon lies and hatred. Maybe you believe
these people are good people obeying God. Maybe you don't
know that they are acting out of their pain. Maybe you
don't know what "good" is.
Those people telling you that you can love and obey
God, hold on to your pain and fear and still be hateful,
prejudice, selfish, greedy, violent, profane, and immoral
in any way don't know Jesus and wouldn't like Him if they
did. Jesus preached accepting and loving all people of
every race, ethnicity, creed, religion, and nation. One
day, if these people full of pain and fear don't turn from
their wicked ways, they will stand face to face with God
and find out that all of the time that they claimed to
know God, God never knew them or claimed them as one of
His children.
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Ephesians 6:10-18(KJV)
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SUMMARY
Matthew 19:26(KJV)
Romans 8:8(KJV)
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Matthew 22:36-40(KJV)
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EARTHQUAKES
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Live an abundant life knowing who you are and who God
created you to be! Never forget that you are WORTHY
through Christ Jesus and God has chosen gifts specifically
for you. If you allow God to use you and your gifts, you
cannot fail. Accept your life and who you are. You were
created to endure by being connected to God.
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looking into the eyes of sin, call it out by name and know
that "greater is He that is within you, then he that is in
the world." When you know your purpose, you can be driven,
but, you must know your mind and heart to stay focused.
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Episode 24
AUNTIE YONNY:
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Hal, turned over and sat up. Zenobia and his Dad were
howling with laughter. Startled, embarrassed, and still
not fully awake, he pulled the sheet and blanket up to his
chest making them laugh even more.
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"Jealous?"
"No, Dad. I'm grateful for Zenobia and all she's done
for us since you've been here. Look at you, you're up and
out of the bed, able to..."
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"Why not?"
"I don't want to talk to her because she let her father
and the rest of those crooks up in the White House get
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"Okay Dad, I get it! But, she's not like that any
more."
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"The way I see it, it's money owed to us, after what
Willard Graves did to your grandmother. You can't put a
price on a life. "
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"Dad?!"
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"Says who?"
"I hate to remind you, but, you know what the Bible
says, Dad."
"What?"
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"Boy!"
"Old MAN?!"
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Episode 25
Part 1
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"Karen, ma'am."
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Episode 25
Part 2
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Episode 25
Part 3
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to the press.
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money.
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Hal jerked away from Derek and stared directly into his
eyes. Clinching his teeth and fists, he stood there
defiantly, while the other Graves laughed. Natalie had
been pulling at him and one of the agents had been telling
him to move along, but, his blood was boiling and he had
tuned out the world. He would have remained standing there
until he exploded, if Martin and Vince hadn't been there
to pull him away.
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Episode 25
Part 4
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Stay away from women, she warned and explained how her
father basically used her to entice men he wanted to do
business with. Sometimes she felt like a glorified whore.
Hal thought about Natalie Tiledeler who practically threw
herself at him.
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"We both love you and think the world of you. And, we
both don't want anything to happen to you, so, listen to
everything your aunt tells you and don't give her any
grief. I'm going to find the lovely Zenobia and have
breakfast. Goodbye, Aunt Tanya."
"Dad?"
"NO, Hal!"
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"I told you to stay here with your aunt and take care
of business. It's time for you to be the man of this
family. I'll have room service bring you some breakfast."
Hal wondered what Tanya and his father had been talking
about, what had changed his mind about Tanya, and what was
so upsetting that he wanted to be left alone. He went back
to sit down. Tanya refused to comment and resumed her
lessons.
She told Hal about the people and banks they had used
to launder money and how money laundering worked. Then,
she continued with her list of "How To's, Do's and
Don'ts."
• How her father had avoided paying taxes and paying for
practically everything.
• How to tap into hidden money the government doesn't
know about.
• Surrounding yourself with the type of needy and
ambitious people you can control.
• Using the weaknesses and needs of others to your
advantage.
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"It works if you don't overly use it, Hal. Just to let
them know who's boss. Then, once you've established
yourself, gained their respect, and they see that you're
not backing down, you can ease up a little. It's just part
of human nature. We can be like animals in the wild when
it comes to challenging power and authority.
Anyway, Steve and Jake are with us. They know how
serious and dangerous things already are. They don't like
what happened to Miriam and Arturo. They said that it
makes them look bad. If they need to act, they'll act.
They already feel beholden to you and they respect you.
Don't be afraid to use them. They're used to taking risks.
They're decorated Marines and two of America's finest.
We're blessed to have them with us.
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Hal, had fallen asleep with his head lying on the bed.
During the night, he woke up, covered Tanya and laid all
the way back in the recliner chair with a blanket.
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Episode 25
Part 5
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"Sssh!"
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"I can have someone at the paper cover this story and
find out more information for you, Hal."
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Natalie threw her arms around Hal and gave him a kiss,
then, with a big wide grin on her face, she grabbed her
cellphone and began making calls.
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Episode 26
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Hal brought Steve and Jake into the office and they
each sat on one side of him. The air in the room to those
who did not wish to share it with one another was tense
and stifling.
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"Just as we expected."
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With Miriam and Tanya gone, Hal felt the weight of the
world upon his shoulders. Everyone around him seemed to be
falling apart, except for Steve, Jake, and their military
crew. Having fought numerous battles and lived through the
devastation of war, they were probably used to seeing
people close to them and around them come and go under
distressing circumstances. Watching them and their fellow
Marines working together was like watching a well-oiled
machine. They had an inseparable bond and a silent code
they lived and breathed by that kept them going, no matter
what. Death and suffering had taken away their innocence,
but, because of who they were, it had been replaced with
something more effective and lasting. They treasured life
and that which made it worth living, and even more, they
treasured one another. Their friendship defined
brotherhood and their actions proved it.
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Darla had sunk into deep depression and had taken a few
days off, although, she continued to work from home. Hal
doubted if Darla ever stopped working. Work probably kept
her going and kept her mind off of things in her life she
couldn't control, which reminded Hal that uncontrollable
things were infinite in number.
Karen, the new assistant was doing the best she could
to keep up with business matters and help with Tanya's
funeral arrangements. Hal tried not to pressure her, since
she had been thrust into the chaos that threatened to
consume everyone.
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"Hello Rache!"
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"Hal? Hal?"
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with them."
Hal called security from his bedside phone and gave his
clearance code to the guard. Then, he started picking up
clothes and things he normally left for the maid to do in
the morning. He decided that he'd really gotten dependent
upon her cleaning up after him and he needed to stop
taking advantage of her. Rachel had a long ride up, so he
had a minute or two.
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haven't had dinner yet and I just had a little lunch while
I worked."
Hal took Rachel down to the dining hall and the two of
them grabbed leftovers from the refrigerator. After,
warming the food up and grabbing a couple of sodas, they
went out onto the rooftop to eat. Rachel ate ravenously,
enjoying every bite. Talking with her mouth full, she
expressed how much she loved the food.
"Where are you going? Which house have you chosen, Mr.
Siegfried, since you've come a billionaire?"
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The way Rachel teased him about it, Hal was embarrassed
and ashamed.
Feeling left out and hurt Rachel got up and went to the
telescope at the corner of the roof to gaze up at the
stars. Hal came up behind her and scooped her up into his
arms, kissing her passionately. Rachel knew where this was
leading and had promised herself that she wouldn't let it
happen. She didn't want anything to come between her
relationship with God. However, her flesh was feeling
weak. She needed Hal and wanted Hal more than anything at
that moment. Her desire struggled against her will to
please God.
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Episode 27
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"Rachel,
Ed Haskins
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Philippians 4:13(KJV)
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Tanya had told him very little about her father and
husband going to prison, except that it was hard on them
both. She was able to get probation, and later her father,
due to his illness, was given a commutation of his
sentence, which allowed him an early release and the
ability to spend his remaining days in hospice with his
family.
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07:00 a.m........breakfast
11:30 a.m........lunch
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05.00 p.m........dinner
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Episode 28
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The waiter came over and Derek ordered drinks and his
favorite dish for each of them, first asking if Rachel
liked seafood. She nodded politely.
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Derek laughed.
"Well..."
"Let me get you just one small little drink to take the
edge off.
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Derek and the doorman helped her into the limousine. Her
speech was slurred and she was having trouble keeping her
eyes open.
"No, I know what you want and you're not going to get
it. Take me home or let me out. I'll walk or catch a cab.
There goes a bus. STOP BUS DRIVER! I've got to get home
and give Hal a piece of my mind."
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Episode 29
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Looking at her phone, she saw that she had ten calls
and three messages. Five of the calls and two of the
messages were from Hal. She groaned remembering she was
still angry about his betrayal. The other message was from
someone at the church wondering where she was. She played
Hal's voice messages.
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Rachel threw the phone down on the bed and let out a
scream, then wished she hadn't. Holding her head, she
stood up and walked slowly to the bathroom to take a
shower and get ready for church. She pulled a black suit
and a wide-rim black hat out of her closet, thinking,
"I guess it's true. People dress how they feel and I
feel like death warmed over, if there is such a feeling."
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After the song, they were about to sit down, when the
sanctuary doors opened. Rachel couldn't believe her eyes.
It was Derek Graves, guarded very carefully by two men.
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Episode 30
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"OWE!! OOOOH!"
"You want to go sit down and have the nurse check out
your legs?"
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"Bye, Rachel."
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The man beside her had opened a bag and started eating
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"Is it Hal's?"
Rachel shook her head yes and broke down into tears.
Hal's father grabbed her and held her close, comforting
her. He didn't know what to say, but, being who he was, he
made light of the matter.
"Don't feel bad, Hal made his mother throw up, too. She
was sick all nine months. He just has that effect on
people. Sometimes, I just look at him and tell him, "Get
out of my face, boy. You make me sick."
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"I know, baby. It's okay. God knows your heart. Shhh.
It's alright."
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Episode 31
Part 1
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Just as she was opening the door, Hal and Zenobia came
out on the mezzanine balcony, playfully hugging, kissing
and fondling one another. Hal was in his pajama bottoms
and Zenobia was in a revealing nightgown. When the door
opened, Rachel walked from the foyer into the great room
and looked straight up at the balcony. Hal's father
witnessed it all, but, Hal and Zenobia were locked in an
embrace, kissing. What he saw was sheer devastation in
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"Oh no, oh no! Father help her please. Protect her and
keep her safe on the road!"
"Dad?! Dad?!"
"Coming, son!"
David went into the great room shaking his head and
praying. Hal and Zenobia were still on the balcony holding
hands.
"Dad, Zenobia and I have some great news for you. We're
pregnant and we're going to get married!"
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"MR. SIEGFRIED!"
"Well, I'm happy for you and thank you for making me a
grandfather. Come here and give me a hug.
Congratulations!"
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"Alright."
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"I don't know what to say. Are you sure, Derek? Even
after what I told you? You want me and the baby?"
Derek took the ring out of the box and began to slip it
onto Rachel's finger. It was the biggest diamond Rachel
had ever seen. She looked at her finger and then at Derek.
Grabbing his neck, kissing him, and crying in his arms,
she answered.
"Hello?"
"Yes."
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wedding...
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Episode 31
Part 2
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"Thank you."
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bench.
"Thank you."
"I can see that you are a good woman of faith and I
know you wouldn't be in this predicament if you didn't
really love my son. That's why you need to really think
about what you're doing. You're hurt now, especially after
what you saw back at the house."
David shook his head and put it down, covering his eyes
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Now, you can have a girl, but, I warn you that I'll
take her and spoil her and never give her back to you, so
you better have a boy first. I'll spoil him a little bit,
but, also, toughen him up and teach him how to be a man.
Then have him whoop Hal up for you and teach him a
lesson."
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"I'm a big girl, with a good job and I can take care of
myself."
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"Derek Graves..."
"Derek has been good to me. I was a wreck and Derek and
I have been seeing one another since Hal and I broke up
and...
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Episode 31
Part 3
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"Where did you go, Dad? Sam said you went to the park
and then the cafe. Why?"
"Hal, please..."
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Hal looked at Zenobia and could see that his words had
hurt her.
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"I said I need some money. You said the money belongs
to us, now, I'm asking you for some."
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nothin'!"
"One million."
"I didn't raise you to treat women this way. You were
sleeping with Rachel. Now, you're sleeping with Zenobia.
It's like you don't have any respect for women, yourself,
or God. Never mind I live here, too."
"I know they're different, being rich has made you lose
your mind!"
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"Zenobia doesn't have to hear me. She has eyes. She can
see. That's probably why she let you knock her up so fast.
"DAD!!"
"Why should she have to know? She made her choice, she
has someone else."
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"NO, son, you don't need me. You need JESUS! You need a
relationship with your Heavenly Father."
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"Okay, Dad. You've got it, five hundred and ten grand.
It will be in your bank account by tomorrow."
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Hal left his father's room and closed the door. He took
a deep breath, not wanting to face the next battle with
Zenobia. Reluctantly, he set out to ask forgiveness from
the woman who would become his future wife, and the mother
of his child.
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Episode 32
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The files had kept her out of jail. She had leverage
whenever she needed it and intended to use it again, if
she had to. Things had gone haywire after her father was
impeached and she knew she had to do something to help
herself.
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She opened her safe deposit box and quickly placed the
contents of the briefcase inside. Taking a deep breath,
she smoothed her dress around her hips and put on her
sunglasses to leave the vault.
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Episode 33
Part 1
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Time and time again, she went through the same ritual
of convincing herself that since they were going to be
married anyway, it was okay for them to have sex. They
just wouldn't move in together. Somehow, in her mind, that
made it more respectable. At least for the time being.
The only times they had argued had been when he talked
about him wanting her to leave The Daily and travel with
him while he was campaigning and when she asked about his
visiting voters who worshiped in mosque and temples. She
had made the remark that he couldn't possibly be "the
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She had made up her mind to stay away from those two
subjects that had caused heated arguments and distance
between them. Still, Rachel couldn't help feeling that she
was losing herself and her identity and forgetting who she
was when she was with Derek. The day that they argued, she
had screamed,
But, who was really to blame for the argument and the
reason for the argument, she wondered? She was allowing
herself to live a life that felt uncomfortable and trying
to make it work.
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Episode 34
AUNT YONNY:
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roses. She'd tell him not to worry and that she and his
father would work things out and they would always be
together.
Hal laughed.
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Hal laughed.
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if we have to."
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"Your Honor!"
"Court dismissed!"
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Episode 35
AUNTIE YONNY:
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"Zenobia..."
"IT'S SAM!"
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Hal called one of his attorneys and had them check with
the ninth precinct police station. The attorney called
back and said that, from the description of the man, it
definitely sounded like his father.
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"Next case!"
"KUNTA KENTE!"
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"ORDER!"
"YES, MA'AM!"
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"No, Your Honor. I'm innocent. I'm innocent and I want the
world to know that I'm innocent and I was racially
profiled and falsely arrested because I'm a Black man. Two
little white boys threw those water bottles at the police
and I was the first Black man the police set their eyes
on, so, they arrested me, and the crowd tried to protect
me, and the riot started, and now, I'm here. We were
protesting peacefully, until the police started beating
us."
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"Yes, ma'am!"
"Yes, ma'am!"
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"I have a son, and the Graves Family, but, my son has
nothing to do with this and I'm protesting against my
family. This is my decision, alone."
"Your Honor,..."
"Thank you, Your Honor, for sticking up for me. You seem
like a very nice lady. Are you single?"
"If you EVER want to get out of jail, don't try to flirt
with the judge."
"BAILIFF!"
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AUNTIE YONNY:
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"I'm not doing this to you, Son. They did this to me.
I'm innocent. Two little white boys hit the police with
water bottles. A police officer turned around and spotted
the first Black man in the crowd and blamed it on me."
"You planned this all along didn't you? That's why you
keep going to these protest marches."
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"Your life is not all about you, Son. That's your whole
problem right now. Until, you can see that, you won't have
to worry about me sending you to an early grave, because,
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"Son, listen..."
"No, you listen, Dad. I'm through! I'm the one who's
going to end up dead worrying about YOU!"
"Son..."
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"Okay, officer."
"See, that's how they get you, Son. Maybe now you'll
believe I'm innocent."
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"I'm leaving."
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"Yes, officer..."
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"Well, let's say that I'm here for your benefit and
your son's benefit."
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"No, Mr. Siegfried, but, I know that you love your son
and your future grandchild and his mother and would hate
to see anything happen to them."
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"You have the nerve to come into a jail and bribe and
threaten somebody? You're nothing but a no good, dirty,
crooked lawyer...a thug."
David laughed.
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"NO! We're done here, but, you can tell MR. GRAVES,
that he hasn't heard the last from me. Now, get out of my
face! You sicken me."
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David opened his mouth and tried to get words out, but,
they wouldn't come. Hal could see the pain and agony that
he was going through. Although, he felt guilty for the way
that he had behaved when he last saw his father, the love
and compassion he felt in his heart would not allow him to
just stand there and do nothing. He went to his father and
stood in front of him, wrapping his arms around him,
tightly. Finally, his father, took a deep breath and cried
out through his tears.
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Episode 37
AUNTIE YONNY:
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"Yes, officer..."
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"Well, let's say that I'm here for your benefit and
your son's benefit."
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"No, Mr. Siegfried, but, I know that you love your son
and your future grandchild and his mother and would hate
to see anything happen to them."
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"You have the nerve to come into a jail and bribe and
threaten somebody? You're nothing but a no good, dirty,
crooked lawyer...a thug."
David laughed.
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"NO! We're done here, but, you can tell MR. GRAVES,
that he hasn't heard the last from me. Now, get out of my
face! You sicken me."
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David opened his mouth and tried to get words out, but,
they wouldn't come. Hal could see the pain and agony that
he was going through. Although, he felt guilty for the way
that he had behaved when he last saw his father, the love
and compassion he felt in his heart would not allow him to
just stand there and do nothing. He went to his father and
stood in front of him, wrapping his arms around him,
tightly. Finally, his father, took a deep breath and cried
out through his tears.
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Episode 38
Part 1
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"Too painful for her, so she won't tell me that I'm the
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Hal was beside himself with worry and the stress in his
voice showed how much he cared. He sat down on the bed
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"Your mother said that you came out of the womb doing
that and you were probably pulling the little hairs on
your head when you were inside of her. Lord, how I miss
that woman. I love her, but, I didn't always do right by
her."
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"Zenobia!...Zenobia! WAIT!"
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Lord, I pray for my enemy, for they know not what they
do. In their plotting and scheming out of greed and
hatred, they are blind and in darkness, not knowing that
they fight against God. You know their beginning and You
know their end. Have mercy, Lord.
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Episode 39
AUNTIE YONNY:
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"I love you, Zenobia. I'm not going to leave you. I'm
sorry for everything that's happened, but, I can't make it
go away."
With the baby on the way and marriage plans, this was
supposed to be a special time for her and Hal. Now, she
shared their moment of intimacy, expectancy, and future
joy, with another woman. She wanted to be the one to bring
happiness to Hal and be the mother of his children. That
hope had been robbed from her.
But, then, Hal was a Graves and she knew too well the
burden of sorrow and guilt that name carried. Caring for
Tanya Yanovich, she had watched part of the Graves Saga
play out before her eyes. She had tried to steer Tanya
away from all of the chaos and evil and bring her closer
to God, but, now, it seemed that they had succeeded in
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Life with Hal Siegfried was not what she had expected.
Right now, she wasn't even sure that she was in love with
him. What did it matter? She thought. She didn't want to
face reality, but, she knew that she would never be the
only woman in Hal's life. The pains became more intense as
did her loathing having Hal so close beside her then. In
her heart, she knew that it wasn't godly thinking, but,
placing some of the blame elsewhere, made her own pain
more bearable.
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"What is it Jake?"
896
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Reaching into his desk drawer and taking out a key that
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glance back their way, just long enough to see anger upon
the man's face and a shocked woman still trying to process
what was going on.
Sweat poured down his face and into his eyes from his
drenched eyebrows. His eyes stung from the salty sweat.
Pulling out his t-shirt to wipe his face, he squatted to
relax the muscles in his legs. They weren't use to all of
this exercise and neither was he.
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Miriam and Auntie Tanya had said that what he was being
asked to do was to defeat evil while keeping a pure heart.
He felt more than ever that he wasn't qualified for the
job, because, his heart was already too corrupted by evil.
Still, he had to try for the sake of those who depended
upon him and for those whom he loved, including...Rachel.
There wasn't a day that went buy that Hal didn't think
about his Grandpa Siegfried in some way. Sometimes, he
wondered if it was his way of remembering God, indirectly.
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Episode 40
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1 Peter 2:4-6(KJV)
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Zenobia had a strong mind, but, she knew that even that
was not enough to stand against the weakness of the body,
without God. Still, in her weakness, she felt disconnected
from God. It's hard to tell when she actually fell to the
illness, or what actually triggered the chemicals within
her body. It could have been stress upon her body from the
pregnancy; the morning sickness, or false labor pains. It
could have been the pain of a broken heart. We can look
for blame, but, does blame solve any problem? Will blame
cure any illness? By looking for blame, we ignore factual
evidence and prolong illness and suffering. Blame is a
distraction of darkness intended to keep us in bondage.
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Then, one morning she awoke from a dream and felt the
baby kicking and moving around inside of her. The dream
had been disturbing. She saw her mother crying and
remembered her mother cried almost everyday. It began
after her father died and never ceased, therefore, she
believed that her mother grieved for her father everyday
because she loved him so much. Then, in medical school she
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Episode 41
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"WAIT!"
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under control."
"Hal, you and I know who's behind all of this and it's
not going away that easily. Let me help you..."
"I'm not asking you, Hal. I'm telling you. And, I can
take care of myself. I'm going to publish everything with
you or without you. It's time somebody stopped the Graves
Family from getting away with crimes and murders. I'd
rather do this with you. I don't want the new editor
handling it. I'm not ready to trust him one hundred
percent."
"Natalie..."
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THE LETTER
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"Dear Hal,
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Hal laid the letter down upon his desk, folded it and
placed it back inside of the envelope. He stood and walked
to the huge windows looking out over the city beneath.
But, instead of looking out at the city, he stared at his
reflection in the window looking inward. Closing his eyes
and pressing his hands and forehead to the glass, he held
back tears, knowing he had let Auntie Tanya and everyone
around him down. His heart was weighed down with the
heaviness of knowing that he had turned his back on love
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Episode 42
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himself and his father and handed him the folder which had
been kept secret by Tanya, for so many years. Pastor Allen
took the folder, invited them to sit down and then took
his time perusing through the folder without saying a
word. Then, he looked up at Hal and his father and spoke.
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"...uh...afraid and...a-a-ashamed..."
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"Your cousin..."
"The baby?"
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"After the two of you had sex and you impregnated her?"
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"So, let me jump into the story at this point. You and
your son have come here to ask me to contact Rachel so
that you can finally tell her the truth about everything
and persuade her to leave Derek. Am I right?"
"OoooKAY! Now that I know why you are here, let me fill
you in on what I know...
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know.
David left and was happy to have the time to pray and
meditate in the sanctuary. He also hoped the pastor would
counsel his son and bring him closer to God. Pastor Allen
closed the door and motioned for Hal to take a seat.
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"Hal, you said you couldn't tell Rachel about your true
identity, but..., who benefited most from that? --You or
Rachel? If you can't answer that now. I'd like for you to
think about it. You also said that you were in love with
Rachel and she was in love with you, but, now, you're
marrying Zenobia and she's marrying Derek. What kind of
love did you have for one another that made it so easy for
the two of you to turn your backs on one another?
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Can't you see? It's not about what you want Hal. It's
not about the money, inheritances, businesses,
foundations, or vengeance. It's about what is right in
God's eyes! Things must be set RIGHT as GOD sees them and
you must become holy and righteous. Where is your FAITH
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Hal? Allow God into your heart and you can't go wrong!
Seek His Son and let Jesus lead you. It's time to follow
the RIGHT and the RIGHTEOUS path and example! Only He can
show you The Truth, The Way, and The Life..."
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Episode 43
AUNTIE YONNY:
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Then, God told him to take the focus off of himself and
think about His sheep, remembering who Rachel is in
Christ. God spoke to him and said, "My lost sheep must be
brought back into the fold. The battle isn't over. Stand
here. Stand NOW." Allen Fitzgerald put on the Armour of
God and within his heart, being led by the Mind of Christ,
continuing in prayer and holy communion with God, he
prepared for spiritual warfare to reclaim God's sheep.
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Episode 44
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you. I wasn't certain that this was the right thing to do,
but, I prayed about it and here I am.
"Now, I'd like for you to come and talk to me, if you
don't mind."
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"Okay, then, I'm not going to keep you from your work.
Call me if you need me before then, or if you can't come.
We can reschedule."
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those tricks and known what the enemy was up to," she told
herself. "You need to get your eyes back on Jesus, Rache."
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Now, where did all of this talk come from? What is its
relevancy to the current situation in the middle of our
story? Why have I gone there? Because, Rachel's story is
important to us in that it can help us find our way out of
darkness, and help to explain how we got there in the
first place becoming disconnected from God. Perhaps,
Rachel's story can better explain how what looks good on
the outside can actually be a trap. As we come to
understand how others fall into the traps of darkness, we
are able to have compassion and unconditional love for
others.
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Episode 45
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the people that she loved, or from the fulfillment she had
received from their fellowship.
"I could because I love you, Rachel and God loves you,
and because we love you, we want you to do this for
yourself. Please, Rachel. You can't keep running away from
it."
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"HE?!"
Hal didn't know how or why, but the word just came
blurting out of his mouth. He looked at Rachel, who put
her head down to avoid eye contact.
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on track.
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"The enemy knew our plan. So, it was never that simple.
He knew how we all felt and that was the give-a-way. We
may not reveal to one another how we feel, but, God and
the adversary always know because we are all Spiritual
Beings.
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"Well..."
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another.
"Let me explain..."
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"And you know I'm still your pastor, Rachel. You don't
have to go through this alone. You never did. We at the
church are here for you."
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suggested?"
"You've lied..."
"HAL!"
"But, I'm the one who got involved with Derek, Hal!. I
didn't plan to, but, it just happened."
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"Do you think there's any hope for Tanya and her
family?"
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Episode 46
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"I said that he's THAT WAY, MR. SIEGFRIED!" He and the
other guard began to laugh.
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"Yes, David, I know that you weren't there and you had
abandoned your wife, because, you were with another woman.
Of course, you didn't expect her to die so soon, but, you
knew that she wasn't going to live much longer."
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"She knew who I was, but, she had no idea why I had
come to see her, or why I knew so much about her family. I
expected her to be extremely shocked when I told her our
family secret about you and Hal, but, she laughed. "That's
where he gets those ways from," she said.
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She thanked God for being blessed with a good man who
was a good father to her son. She thanked me for coming.
Then, she said that she already knew her family would be
fine and taken care of, and that she would never be truly
absent from them, because, she would be in their hearts.
God had promised her He'd watch over them, she said. Her
faith and belief was very strong.
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"Oh, anyway...
Your wife and I had a good talk about Hal. She told me
how well Hal was doing in school; how bright he was, and
what a loving son he was. She cried as she talked about
not seeing him graduate from high school or college; not
seeing him get married; or, having children, one day. She
asked me to be her eyes for her and see what she would
miss.
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Aunt Tanya was looking for a new start for the Graves
Family through my seed. She was there for my family, when
I wasn't, Lord. Heavenly Father, help me to fulfill her
hope in Your name for Your Kingdom and not for the world.
Perhaps, that's why I feel I'm supposed to add Graves to
my name. I'm taking back what belongs to God! All praise
and glory be to God!"
She had agreed to let him sleep on the sofa for the
night, because, she was feeling uneasy, too. He had been
sitting next to her, when she called to tell Derek that
she would be going to her apartment to box everything up
and clear it out. She told him that she would be staying
there until everything was cleared away. Rachel had been
quick and decisive, but, her voice was shaky and insecure.
No doubt, Derek had to know something was up, and the
bodyguard who had come to the church, probably had given
him plenty of reason not to trust Rachel.
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Episode 47
AUNTIE YONNY:
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Louder and more rapid firing made his body jerk again.
This time his mind was able to recognize it as an outside
source. He realized that he was hearing gunshots. Not
realizing where he was, he rolled over and fell on the
floor. Just as the reality of the here and now began to
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"I don't know. Find out who this thug is under the car.
He's got some wire cutters over there. See what else he
had on him and run these plates to find out whose car it
is."
Rachel...the police would find out that was her car and
come knocking on the door. He remembered the gunman
waiting for him outside of the jail. Did they want Rachel
to be involved with the police, not knowing who they could
trust?
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"We don't know who we can trust yet, Rachel. We've got
to go, NOW! Show me where the back door is. Just throw on
a robe or a coat and some shoes. Lord, help us!"
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David heard Rachel tell Hal that she would talk to him
later. He grabbed her hand and felt it trembling with her
whole body. He wrapped his arms around her, but, she
couldn't stop shaking. David looked carefully around them
first, to make sure no one was watching them. Then, they
ducked into the coffee shop to wait for their ride.
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Anyway, we've got someone tailing the other guy who got
away. He'll lead us right back to the kingpin. It's going
to be alright. We're collecting evidence, Mr. Siegfried.
And, the more Derek Graves lashes out and tries to hurt
us, the more evidence we have.
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Hal had told his father about the letter from Auntie
Tanya and that there would be more to come.
"Water can put out most fires, but, tomorrow, for Mr.
Derek Graves, hellfire and brimstone is going to come
raining down on him on Wall Street. And since he likes
bonfires, so, much, we'll see how he likes watching his
money burn. There's no dousing this flame. If Satan could
have put out hell's fire, he would have done it a long
time ago."
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My Dearest Hal,
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Episode 48
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"CAROLYN?!...CAROLYN?!"
"FOREVER?! YOU KNOW BETTER! YOU KNOW HOW BAD HIS HEART
IS! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'D DO SUCH A THING!"
"I was keeping close watch over him and his vital
signs. I know what I'm doing! I'm just as good a nurse as
you are."
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Carolyn felt it, but, she never saw it coming. Her face
was burning and stinging from the blow of Zenobia's hand.
It had been a quick, hard slap, that sent Carolyn
careening, spinning and bumping into the kitchen table.
The maid jumped up and ran to the other side of the room.
Carolyn leaned over the table, holding her face, outraged,
then, turned to return the blow. Zenobia held up her arm,
blocking Carolyn's arm, then, pushed her away.
"Go ahead and I'll make sure you lose your license and
never work as a nurse again. Get out! You're fired!"
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Zenobia didn't know what came over her, but, she had
lost control. With her fists balled, ready to enforce her
command, she eased up and backed away from Carolyn, giving
her enough room to escape. Snatching her phone and keys
off of the table, Carolyn ran out of the room, sobbing.
Zenobia, yelled after her.
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"Yes, Hal. She's pretty shaken and beat from the cold
and rain, but, she's fine."
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Zenobia put her phone back into her pocket. She had
called Dr. Acharya, explaining to him that Carolyn had to
leave. She asked him to send out a new permanent nurse, as
soon as possible, and a temporary nurse for now. She rose
from the table to go finish packing.
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block it out.
David took her into his arms, crying and pleading. Two
security guards came into the room, followed by Jake. One
of the guards got on his radio. Zenobia knew that she had
to leave before they sent her limousine away.
"I'm going now and no one better try and stop me!"
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"ANY...one...Zenobia?"
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"DON'T MOVE!"
"Zenobia, I see you have your bags packed and you want
to leave, but, let's do this the right way. If you want to
leave, I'm not going to stop you and I won't tell anybody
else to stop you. You're free to go, but, please, let me
get some help for Rachel. She's in pain. I need to find
Carolyn."
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Episode 49
James 2:13(NKJV)
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heeded the advice. Opening her eyes, she saw Zenobia, who
headed for the bathroom to wash and sterilize her hands.
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Rachel felt dirty from the rain, so, she nodded her
head, yes. Zenobia saw her start to struggle to get the
gown off.
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"Yes."
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"Hal! Hal!"
Hal rushed into the room and stood by the bed looking
helpless. He looked at Zenobia with tears in his eyes.
Zenobia put her head down, went back to work, and barked
out a command to Hal.
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"Uh...uh..."
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James 2:14-18(KJV)
Zenobia went to the room she had shared with Hal to lay
down. She was filled with so many emotions, that she felt
drained from the stress. The delivery hadn't been
difficult at all, as deliveries go. She had experienced
many different types of delivery complications and a few
tragedies during her nursing career. Watching Rachel go
through natural childbirth with her first child, made her
realize that Rachel was tougher than she thought she was.
However, she also realized that she was, too. It took a
lot to do what she did, not just skill wise, but, heart
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wise.
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It had been easy to say that she had faith in God, when
little or nothing was required of her to prove it; no
personal attachments or responsibilities outside of her
job. Her job had become her life. What she did for others,
she was paid to do. But, God was looking at her heart and
how she extended her faith to others she didn't know, or
found difficult to love.
James 2:19-26(KJV)
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"Hello..."
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"Yes, but..."
"Like, who?"
"And Wendell..."
"NIGEL!"
"He asks about you every time I see him. He's been
calling since I told him you were coming home this
morning. I told him you were pregnant..."
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"I told him you were pregnant. You are, aren't you?
Well, he wants to deliver your baby."
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"I know, Zenobia, but, how will you know that you're
doing the right thing, if you don't give him a chance.
Please, big sister, do this for me and your other brothers
and sisters. We love you and we want to see you happy."
"But, Zenobia!"
"Bye, Nigel!"
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She had tried to hang onto her faith; the faith which
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James 2:1-13(KJV)
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Episode 50
AUNTIE YONNY:
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Hal put the phone down on the table beside his chair
and stared at it. He knew he had to talk to Zenobia, but,
he was afraid of what he might hear. Yet, he knew he had
to make the call. After a minute or two of going back and
forth with that thought, fighting hesitation, he grabbed
the phone and pressed her photo.
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"No need to thank me, Hal, but, you are welcome. You
helped me, too, and my life is all the better for having
met you. I have a lot to look forward to, being a mother,
and raising our daughter. For the first time in my life,
there are so many things I want to do and experience, that
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"Bye, Zenobia."
Zenobia had found peace for her pain, because, she had
returned to God. Hal put his head down and went through
his ritual of rubbing his head and pulling his hair with
his fingers. He had a lot of things eating at him inside.
He thought about how his father described Zenobia as a
strong woman. She found her strength in God. In that
moment, he could only see himself as weak. He was a weak
man, who was now the father of two children. Hal shook his
head. He wanted to find strength, too. But, how?
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Steve called him and told him that the arsonist was not
an employee, and so far they hadn't been able to connect
him with anyone at the company, which meant that he was
probably hired by someone. Jake had called him and told
him about the shooting. He said that they had located the
other man who had been hired to tamper with Rachel's car
and were interrogating him, before they handed him over to
the police.
"I don't want to make the same mistakes over and over
again," he thought. "I've got to change in order for
things around me to change."
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She knew her brother was right, when she went to visit
her father on his death bed. He used her to cry about his
wasted life and the mistakes he made. Yet, there was no
outward show of remorse or acknowledgment of the pain he
had caused others. She was fifty years old and he had had
plenty of time to make things right, to feel her pain, and
to show some sign of genuine concern for her happiness.
No, he had left that all to fate and her mother. He knew
nothing of giving true, unconditional love. Darla began to
wonder, "Am I like him? Am I able to be unselfish. truly
love others, and feel their pain? Do I know what it means
to be happy and to bring joy and happiness into the lives
of others? Have I wasted my life?
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Zenobia blushed.
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Seeing Zenobia in the room with him and his new nurse,
David was filled with remorse, believing it was his fault
that Carolyn was fired. He hung his head down to avoid
looking at Zenobia eye to eye.
Zenobia, laughed.
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"Anything, Zenobia."
"Do you think you can call me, Dad, from now on?"
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"Okay, Zenobia."
"Yes, I do. I love you. Come here and give me and your
granddaughter a hug."
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If you have been reading this book, then, you know that
life is full of the unexpected. The adversary roams to and
fro looking for opportunities to spread darkness and use
us and others for his purposes. Praise be to God, who has
given us His Living Word, Yeshua, Emmanuel, Christ Jesus,
and through the written and living Word of God, we have
been equipped with a dossier against the adversary which
proves His crimes, indicts him, and condemns him for
eternity. He is a defeated foe. Now, in our abundant
lives, we have leverage, through the sacrifice and example
of Christ Jesus, to use against him any time he stands in
our way.
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Now, this may sound all cheery and rosy and I apologize
if I have misled anyone up to this point. I would be
negligent not to inform you of what lies ahead. Is it the
end of the world? Not quite. Just remember that your life
ends the moment you stop believing in abundant and eternal
life.
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What can you keep from your old life and what must you
let go of in order to keep your hands upon the plow and
not look back? These questions lead us into our next
journey, where we acknowledge and respond to our being
"different" from those in the world and coming to accept
that being different does not have to be a bad or
difficult thing to be.
mishael
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https://fsasw.blogspot.com or
https://fssw-followers.weebly.com
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SIEGFRIED FAMILY
• Reverend David Siegfried, Sr, Hal's Grandfather.
• Elizabeth (Howard-Graves, Johnson) Siegfried, David's
Mother, Hal's Grandmother (Willard Graves' daughter)
• David Siegfried, Jr., Hal's Father
• Karina (Long) Siegfried, Hal's mother
GRAVES FAMILY
• Hal (Harold David Siegfried), Harold: His mother's
father's name, meaning:
War chief, chief of the army,"army" and wield "power,
leader, ruler", From the Latin Herald meaning King. A man
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HAL'S GIRLFRIEND
• Rachel Annalise Montgomery - Reporter, former boss at
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The Daily
• Ed Haskins - Editor in Chief, The Daily, Rachel's
Boss
• Pastor Allen Fitzgerald - Rachel's pastor
TANYA'S NURSE
Zenobia Agumanu: from Trinidad and Tobago, has position
open in Sweden if she wants it
• Wendell Baptiste, had a crush on Zenobia as a child,
now a surgeon, says that there are plenty of sick
people there for her to take care, nicknames the whale
as a child because he was obese, now tall and
athletic, was sent to boarding school as a teenager
• Yolande, Zenobia's childhood best friend, married with
children
Zenobia's Siblings
• Nigel, oldest brother, wife, Hazel, professors at the
local college, has teenage children, loud music
(Fabian, Lennox, Charles, Wendell were best friends
growing up)
• Keston, an accountant
• Ayanna, a model, working in Italy
• Valene, a teacher, husband is Andrei, a pharmacist
• Bertrand, away at college in France, working on PhD
• Kendall, a lawyer, Shandall's twin brother
• Shandall, a lawyer, Kendall's twin sister, husband
Evans, a banker
• Russell, an artist
• Cyd, a contractor, has a house for Zenobia and the
baby, hoping she'd come home
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TANYA'S DOCTOR
• Dr. Naveen Acharya, from India
ATTORNEYS
• Mr. Petway - Hal's attorney for Miriam's will hearing
• Christopher Holland - an attorney for Derek Graves
• Wellington, Gallegos, Childress and Stein
• Mr. Theodore Wellington – Miriam and Hal's
attorney
• Mr. Leon Childress – Miriam and Hal's attorney
2016 GANG
• Tex Tiledeler (The Mad Hatter) - Financial supporter
to Willard Graves campaign and the Republican Party
• The Red General – National Security Adviser
• Devon Monroe - Adviser to Willard Graves
• John Weinberg- Tanya's first husband
• Wheland Watermill - Special Prosecutor for Willard
Graves Corruption Investigation
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BUSINESS ASSOCIATES
• Natalie Tiledeler - Mad Hatter's great-granddaughter
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Alphabetical Index
1 John..........................................................500, 509 Alternate reality..........................................511, 516
2 Corinthians.....................................468, 579, 1069 Ambassador............51, 55, 106, 196, 226, 268, 526
2016 election.......................................771, 914, 919 Ambassadors.........................65, 467, 504, 506, 632
Aaron Buoy.....................................................384p. Ambassadors of Jesus.........................................632
Abraham...176, 205p., 337, 457pp., 578, 623, 676, America......121, 264, 269, 359, 385p., 403, 409p.,
693, 959p., 973, 1029 413p., 417p., 420, 426, 453, 542, 624, 646, 673,
ABUNDANT...20pp., 46, 48p., 58, 65, 67, 83, 89, 697p., 742, 778, 856, 966
100, 111, 151, 155, 158, 161, 166, 169, 171p., American..46, 119, 326, 348, 358, 409, 431p., 629,
185p., 189, 196, 204, 207, 213, 219p., 223pp., 827, 966, 1059
257, 261p., 266pp., 271, 298, 302pp., 314, 316, Americans........115, 117, 263, 308, 413p., 432, 453
360, 387, 391, 410, 419, 436, 442, 448pp., 454p., Anarchy.......................................................513, 518
471, 507, 545p., 565, 570, 583, 607, 625, 676, 680, Angels...........................20, 171, 313, 445, 501, 632
689, 691pp., 696p., 700p., 703p., 744, 936, 1038, Anxiety....54, 187, 220p., 266, 422, 435, 571, 700,
1062, 1064p., 1067p., 1070pp. 743, 772, 916p., 947
Abundantly........43, 46, 54, 67, 101, 107, 109, 118, Archangel Lucifer...............................................632
128p., 149, 189p., 194, 204, 209, 211, 216, 220, Arine...................................................................718
266, 268, 316, 329, 339, 372, 434, 440, 449, 487, Arrogance 265, 377, 542, 581, 672, 700, 940, 1001,
506, 584, 631, 676, 702, 947, 1038, 1065, 1070 1003, 1053
Acceptance.41, 93, 262, 435, 563pp., 567, 570pp., Artful Dodger.....................................................741
575, 577, 580, 584, 586, 588p., 607, 687, 692, Arturo......348, 350p., 480, 528pp., 548p., 556pp.,
703p., 969, 1066 609, 636, 646, 649p., 655, 709, 713, 718, 720, 730,
Accountable 60, 106, 108, 160, 164, 196, 198, 200, 735, 742, 841, 928, 1066, 1076, 1079
362p., 442, 483, 502, 927 Arturo Pallares..........................................730, 1076
Acharya. 345p., 816, 1012, 1016, 1052, 1056, 1078 Ashamed.....35, 566, 575, 580, 599, 659, 669, 690,
Achilles Heel......................................................960 743, 761, 766, 796, 928, 1044, 1069
Acts.................94, 98, 103, 109, 113, 130, 465, 477 Assange.......................................................294, 352
Adam.....26p., 29p., 35, 151, 313, 433, 459, 504p., Attributes of God................................................513
607, 679, 700, 703 Aunt Tanya.....237, 637, 639pp., 665, 668, 670pp.,
Addict.........................................................539, 541 738, 744, 992p.
Addiction..............................................28, 539, 704 Auntie Tanya 615, 710, 733, 735, 743pp., 757, 901,
Addictive.............................................................690 909, 918, 921p., 982, 1002, 1004, 1059p.
Adversary...29, 44, 65, 72, 74, 87, 105p., 116, 118, AUNTIE YONNY. . .229p., 237, 239, 244pp., 251,
146, 176, 302, 313, 367p., 413pp., 419, 450, 455, 273p., 279p., 285, 306p., 320p., 323p., 342p.,
462, 468, 470p., 473, 504, 540, 542, 584, 680, 682, 353p., 373p., 381p., 392p., 396p., 421p., 478p.,
701, 940, 971, 1062 481p., 510p., 520p., 547p., 550, 555p., 590p.,
Adversity......56, 65, 129, 170, 216, 220, 403, 434, 610p., 634p., 645p., 656p., 666p., 706p., 717p.,
449, 483, 501, 540, 564, 568, 573, 588, 619 723p., 728p., 734p., 746p., 751p., 763p., 774,
Algal biofuel.......................................................753 784p., 790, 799p., 807p., 815p., 824p., 846p.,
Allen Fitzgerald.............916, 925, 945p., 948, 1077 854p., 862, 881p., 889p., 904p., 910p., 923p.,
Alt-Right..................................288p., 292, 661, 699 938p., 962p., 983p., 994p., 1006p., 1018p.,
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1041p., 1061p., 1065p., 1074 161, 185, 196, 201, 337p., 455, 491p., 501p., 504,
AUNTIE YONNY: THE PRISON YEARS.......764 506, 527, 632, 1062, 1071
Author and Finisher of our faith.................188, 681 Bondage 27pp., 31, 33, 84, 89, 105pp., 111p., 151,
Author and the Finisher of your faith.................582 159, 171, 187, 196, 198p., 211, 262p., 311, 332,
Awaken....................................45, 83, 112, 492, 705 453, 462, 467, 471, 487p., 577, 581pp., 625, 663,
Awaken the sleeping...........................112, 492, 705 681, 687p., 692p., 697pp., 764p., 832, 906
Awakened............101, 290, 312, 350, 623, 671, 688 Born again 19, 40, 47p., 58, 60, 101, 105, 149, 371,
Back doors..........................................................740 491, 500, 503, 523, 545, 625, 678, 702, 1068
Bannon................................................................416 Boundaries....................84, 168, 199, 263, 538, 544
Barriers.........................................................19, 178 Brain................................223, 252, 538p., 564, 944
Behaviors....................................678, 688, 690, 692 Brainwashed.......................................................512
Believer......23, 34, 50p., 73, 76, 93p., 96p., 102p., Breastplate of righteousness.......................469, 694
112, 116, 121p., 128pp., 141, 162p., 263, 297, 335, Breitbart..............................................288, 292, 294
461, 468, 470, 539, 621, 671, 687, 691, 958, Bridegroom...........................................................21
1072p. Brother's keeper......38, 85, 112, 200, 416, 472, 502
Believers.....52, 56, 59, 66, 83p., 88pp., 98p., 101, Brutus..............................................................643p.
108, 110, 116, 118, 125p., 146, 149, 153, 175, 179, Bullying......................................................540, 631
194, 206, 208, 215, 257, 297, 299, 337, 340, 446, Burden27, 219, 266, 302, 435, 486, 488p., 493pp.,
449, 453, 455, 457, 461p., 487, 518, 538, 545, 625, 497, 502, 506, 508, 518, 542, 892, 934, 1059
632, 680, 698, 702, 941 BURDEN OF PROOF........................................493
Bigot...........................................................661, 834 BURDENED.................311, 486pp., 499, 506, 508
Bigotry................................................251, 414, 540 Caesar...................................................634p., 643p.
Biofuel................................................................753 Campaign 288p., 294, 325, 345, 354, 358p., 378p.,
Biracial................................................599, 603, 744 382, 384, 401, 481p., 518, 535, 771, 793, 863, 913,
Bitter fruit...................................................507, 680 931, 963, 1057p., 1064, 1078
Bitterness....................................194, 258, 304, 503 Campaigning.......................729, 764, 788, 830, 842
Black people...............................617, 630, 743, 852 Capitalist.............................................................544
Black President...................................................542 Cardinal Vinalli...................................................826
Blame181, 270, 293, 297, 393, 413, 427, 490, 492, Caretaker...............................................26, 224, 668
497, 505p., 638, 673, 679, 689, 780, 809, 831, 893, Carnal......27, 77, 83, 153, 314, 335, 337, 366, 458,
906, 971p., 981, 1047 468, 470, 512, 546, 579, 1068p.
Blaming............127, 482, 491, 500, 606, 810, 1057 Carolyn....835, 847, 856, 1008pp., 1012, 1014pp.,
Bless 50, 189, 258, 271, 508p., 592, 608, 679, 681, 1036, 1052p., 1078
1037p. CHANGED. 19, 23, 31, 40, 48, 57, 59, 80, 82, 118,
Blessings in Disguise..........................................588 125, 151, 157, 185p., 193, 250, 258, 321, 351, 414,
Blinded..29, 68, 105, 197, 204, 260, 332, 399, 413, 442, 480, 582, 604, 629p., 658, 686, 692, 735, 739,
417, 453, 467, 505p., 515, 542, 576, 585, 671, 909, 744, 793, 843, 870, 881p., 886, 888pp., 901p.,
941, 1001, 1036 920, 928, 1036, 1042, 1050, 1066, 1070, 1072
Blindness. .162, 263, 368, 410, 412, 505, 542, 544, Charlottesville.........................648, 661, 669p., 853
662, 699, 1037 Charlottesville, Virginia......................................661
Blood 29pp., 44, 57, 71, 166, 170p., 211, 251, 302, Chaudhary.......................................................614p.
314, 337, 460, 469, 500, 548, 556pp., 570, 599, Chauvinist...........................................................811
678, 694, 733, 812, 947, 966, 1042, 1052p. Chief Shepherd...........................149, 169, 702, 941
Body of Christ......47, 97, 108, 128, 145, 150, 155, Child of God....41, 135, 187, 193, 268, 302p., 528,
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Economic disparity.............................................699 267, 305, 317, 415, 419, 434, 436, 442, 448, 454p.,
Egocentricism.....................................................511 471, 546, 565, 570, 676, 691, 696p., 701, 744, 936,
Egypt...........................................180, 259, 487, 680 959, 982, 1063pp., 1067, 1070, 1072
Elder Joseph Brackett, Jr.....................566, 575, 580 ETERNAL LIFE19p., 22p., 32p., 43, 46, 48p., 54,
Election..238, 325, 344, 358p., 378, 382, 771, 788, 58, 66, 81, 83, 89, 95, 104, 107, 111, 155, 158, 166,
914, 919p., 946 172, 196, 213, 226, 267, 419, 434, 436, 442, 448,
Elite.............................111, 209, 230, 513, 517, 543 454p., 471, 546, 565, 570, 676, 691, 744, 936,
Elizabeth Howard............................................597p. 1064p., 1067, 1070, 1072
Embolden............................................................827 Eternity4, 18pp., 32p., 65, 128, 161, 225, 265, 314,
Empowered 35, 56, 204pp., 212pp., 216, 404, 449, 419, 455, 506, 703pp., 1062, 1068, 1072p.
471, 524, 564, 693, 701, 1069 Ethnicity........................................64, 398, 432, 691
EMPOWERING...........71, 454, 457, 463, 661, 693 Eve. .26p., 29p., 35, 151, 313, 504p., 679, 700, 703
EMPOWERMENT.............203, 207, 209, 327, 492 Everett......752pp., 805, 840, 842, 844p., 901, 1075
Endurance...72, 435, 444, 522, 524, 527, 544, 563, Everett Barrett.........................752, 754p., 842, 844
584, 586, 588p., 687, 692, 703, 1066 Everlasting life....20, 33, 55, 161, 223p., 443, 507,
Endure...30, 64, 166, 188, 212, 216, 434, 466, 511, 524, 545, 1038
521pp., 526p., 564, 572p., 584p., 588p., 698, 701, Example......40, 58, 60, 83, 98, 119, 157, 188, 263,
887, 1038, 1065, 1071 297, 334p., 457, 503, 506, 569, 630, 703, 756, 937,
Endureth......................................................257, 524 946, 981, 1038, 1062, 1069
Enemy....44p., 52, 83, 90, 102, 116, 127, 171, 187, Examples of Jesus...............................................698
198, 201, 215, 220, 223p., 243, 250, 262p., 267, Exhort.........................................................364, 503
297pp., 301, 330pp., 358p., 371, 401pp., 413, 416, Exodus................................................257, 271, 623
420, 427, 448, 453pp., 462p., 466pp., 471p., 528, Faith.31p., 34, 36pp., 46pp., 51, 58, 64p., 67, 101,
540, 542p., 561, 569, 577p., 580, 583, 619, 670, 106, 111, 120, 128, 159, 161, 175pp., 181, 187p.,
698, 704, 736, 741, 887, 936, 971, 996, 1004, 193, 201, 208, 212, 218, 221, 235, 258, 308, 316,
1063p. 334p., 351, 370, 399, 416, 434p., 442, 444, 453,
Enlightened.........................................155, 589, 621 457p., 460p., 469, 473, 475, 489, 492, 525, 538,
Entitlement........99, 454, 541p., 582, 677, 680, 958 545, 577, 582, 589, 621, 679, 681, 694, 701, 703,
Ephesians.....44, 47, 52, 161, 164, 338, 363, 367p., 809, 832, 921, 936, 940p., 978, 981, 990, 1018p.,
372, 469, 472, 693 1027, 1029, 1035pp., 1064, 1066, 1071
Episode....78p., 229p., 273p., 279p., 306p., 320p., Faithful....99, 106p., 129, 241, 257, 438, 448, 466,
342p., 353p., 373p., 381p., 392p., 396p., 421p., 644pp., 654p., 680
478p., 510p., 520p., 547p., 550, 555p., 590p., Fame. .76, 110, 186, 209, 265p., 292, 328, 447, 624
610p., 634p., 645p., 656p., 666p., 706p., 717p., Father in Heaven.......300, 302, 388, 534, 578, 1068
723p., 728p., 734p., 746p., 751p., 763p., 774, Father, Son and Holy Spirit....32, 36, 46, 201, 225,
784p., 790, 799p., 807p., 815p., 824p., 828p., 837, 632
846p., 854p., 862, 881p., 889p., 904p., 910p., Faults..................................194, 571, 573, 585, 632
923p., 938p., 962p., 983p., 994p., 1006p., 1018p., FBI.................324p., 358, 393, 422, 427, 780, 1057
1041p. Fear.....33, 45p., 51p., 70, 88, 90, 93, 97, 102, 110,
Equality............327, 331p., 411, 540, 545, 607, 945 156, 158p., 169p., 173pp., 178, 180, 182, 187p.,
Espionage........................274, 358, 736, 740p., 896 198, 206, 208pp., 220p., 224, 260, 264, 266, 292,
ETERNAL...19p., 22p., 32p., 43, 46, 48p., 54, 58, 335, 344, 386, 400, 402, 404, 413, 456, 479, 589,
66p., 81, 83, 89, 91, 95, 100, 104, 107, 111, 132p., 602, 641, 682p., 689pp., 700, 703, 766, 770, 834,
137, 140, 155, 158, 161, 166, 172, 196, 213, 226, 886p., 900, 928, 932, 936, 940p., 946pp., 964,
1087
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
1020, 1065, 1067 Freewill.......29, 48, 59, 82, 213, 260, 572, 581, 622
Federal prisons....................................................770 Friend....49, 64, 118, 126, 186, 215, 293, 299, 302,
Federal prosecutors..........................................769p. 304, 437p., 446, 451, 491, 526, 583, 644, 649, 652,
Feelings.....27, 35, 167, 169, 187, 194p., 201, 223, 698, 704, 787, 804p., 853, 867, 1031, 1055, 1077
252, 275, 277, 395, 435, 448, 480, 540, 554, 621, Fruitful22, 56, 67, 72, 97, 128, 190, 211pp., 215p.,
637, 679, 688, 692, 697, 704, 731, 765pp., 806, 220, 224, 226, 304p., 362, 388, 411, 430, 433p.,
820p., 844, 883, 887, 898p., 901, 971, 1028, 1050, 437, 440, 447, 449, 677pp., 681, 700, 1064p., 1068
1054 Fruitfulness....187, 189, 211, 214p., 297, 333, 337,
Feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of 339, 364, 411, 433, 449p., 697p., 1064
peace...........................................................469, 694 Fruits...................................176, 419, 679, 681, 957
Fellowship 21, 106, 156, 333, 365p., 500, 504, 508, Fruits of God's Holy Spirit..................................681
526p., 784pp., 924, 964, 1071 Function 47, 67, 108, 157, 193, 338, 491, 502, 504,
Fellowshipped.....................................................503 506, 511, 538p., 688
Financial gain..................................................624p. FUNCTIONING53p., 244, 338, 346, 504, 635, 702
Fire and brimstone..............................................608 Gallegos............................................591, 719, 1078
First Lady................................................629p., 831 Garment........................................................82, 524
Flesh 28, 31p., 35p., 43p., 47, 54pp., 60, 74p., 118, Generation.....60, 252, 257, 261, 269, 345, 490, 944
121, 148, 159p., 163, 166, 168p., 171p., 182, Gift....31, 81, 83, 95, 104, 182, 185, 247, 287, 312,
188p., 197, 205, 210, 219, 224, 236, 268, 315p., 328, 370, 496, 539, 564pp., 570pp., 575, 580, 681,
330, 366, 368, 371, 406, 416, 442, 444, 449p., 455, 696, 703, 788, 831, 1048, 1055, 1064
468pp., 475, 512, 546, 577, 579, 675, 677, 682, Gifts.150, 182, 185p., 213p., 332, 335, 370p., 523,
693p., 703, 762, 765, 786, 909, 941, 1069 564, 566, 569pp., 575, 580, 586, 607, 701, 705,
Follow 21, 40p., 43, 46, 51, 57p., 65p., 76, 97, 101, 736, 831
108, 110, 149, 169, 172, 174, 188, 190, 195, 201p., Global economy..................................................778
214, 219, 225, 233, 248, 261, 265, 270p., 313, Global warfare....................................................577
318p., 362, 366, 407, 414, 416, 419, 428, 442, 446, Glorification..................................35, 411, 524, 887
459pp., 467, 475, 488, 491p., 495, 500, 502p., Glorify God108, 160, 163, 411, 419, 464, 625, 678,
507p., 525p., 537, 551, 565, 583, 601, 607, 677p., 681, 705
681, 691, 701pp., 717p., 723p., 728p., 734p., 738, Glory. .152, 154p., 157p., 175, 262, 313, 334, 449,
741, 746p., 755, 937, 941, 963, 966, 1038, 1068 462, 579, 633, 678, 682, 993, 1039
FOLLOW THE MONEY........717p., 723p., 728p., God......19pp., 23, 26pp., 40pp., 45pp., 51, 54pp.,
734p., 741, 746p. 64pp., 68pp., 81pp., 86pp., 95pp., 104pp.,
Forceful assimilation..........................................581 115pp., 120p., 124pp., 145pp., 166pp., 170pp.,
Foreign agent......................................................780 185pp., 192pp., 199pp., 204pp., 219pp., 235,
Foreign policy.....................................................384 256pp., 297p., 300pp., 308, 312pp., 331pp., 351,
Forgive.22, 62p., 77, 102, 108, 191, 247, 251, 259, 362pp., 370pp., 377p., 386, 389, 391, 395, 399,
316, 332, 405, 412, 463, 488, 554, 564, 573p., 675, 409, 411pp., 419p., 426, 431, 433pp., 440pp.,
710, 712p., 725, 743p., 753p., 766, 792, 812, 452pp., 466pp., 480, 487p., 490pp., 500pp., 511,
834p., 884, 887, 891, 918, 1037p. 513pp., 522pp., 527p., 538, 542, 544pp., 564p.,
Forgiven 85, 91, 363, 406, 564, 572, 588, 625, 700, 569pp., 576pp., 581pp., 600, 602, 606pp., 613,
743 616pp., 621pp., 625pp., 630pp., 635, 639, 641,
Forgiveness....62, 72, 87, 91, 564, 571p., 582, 586, 654p., 657, 662, 667, 671pp., 675pp., 686pp.,
705, 766, 823, 834p., 947 691pp., 705, 714, 743p., 754, 762, 766, 787, 796,
Freedom of speech..............................................544 800, 809, 811, 819pp., 830pp., 835, 839, 848, 856,
1088
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
863, 887p., 890pp., 901p., 905p., 908p., 921, 307pp., 316pp., 321pp., 343pp., 354pp., 374,
924p., 928, 930, 933p., 936, 939pp., 945pp., 377p., 382, 393pp., 397, 399pp., 479pp., 511,
964pp., 969, 971pp., 976, 978, 981p., 989p., 513p., 516pp., 521p., 524pp., 548pp., 556pp.,
992p., 1004, 1012, 1028p., 1034pp., 1039, 1044, 591pp., 595pp., 614p., 635pp., 646pp., 650pp.,
1046p., 1059, 1062pp., 1075 657pp., 667pp., 672, 707pp., 713, 715, 718pp.,
God allowed. .300, 371, 573, 585, 587p., 617, 641, 724pp., 729pp., 735pp., 743, 745, 747pp., 752pp.,
687 765pp., 775, 782p., 785, 788, 791pp., 800pp., 806,
God SPECIALIZES............................545, 569, 607 808, 811pp., 816p., 819p., 822p., 830pp., 838pp.,
God's character........................................257p., 583 845, 847pp., 860p., 866, 869, 882pp., 890pp.,
God's Promises...........172, 187, 304, 413, 586, 621 907pp., 911, 913pp., 921, 924pp., 946, 964pp.,
Goliath..................................................69, 456, 578 979pp., 984, 986, 989pp., 998p., 1002, 1004,
Good fruit......170, 202, 228, 271, 301, 411, 430p., 1007p., 1010p., 1013pp., 1020, 1022pp., 1035pp.,
440, 447, 449, 508, 680, 940, 947, 1038, 1070 1042pp., 1056pp., 1066, 1074pp., 1078
Good news......20, 42, 145, 226, 463, 713, 895, 964 Hal Siegfried..236, 346, 511, 596, 640, 730p., 743,
Good Samaritan..................................................541 754p., 761, 782p., 806, 893, 935, 946, 966,
Gossip...............................................36, 52, 63, 689 1048pp.
Gossiping....................................................223, 489 Hamlet.................................................................537
Government.......45, 59, 116p., 119pp., 290p., 308, Hardships............................434, 541, 568, 588, 698
325p., 331p., 339p., 376, 379, 398, 401, 403p., Hate groups.................................................661, 699
424, 453, 472, 476, 539, 542, 565, 577, 623, 739p., Hateful rhetoric.....................................45, 406, 631
772, 780, 827, 944, 947, 1059, 1064 Hatred......45, 52, 96, 115, 158, 166, 194, 260, 400,
Government regulations..............................542, 944 402, 404, 410, 424, 503, 543, 565, 577, 581, 605,
Government spies...............................................740 607, 625, 629, 631, 638, 670, 675, 689, 691p., 698,
Governor.............................................................293 700, 703, 834, 887, 895, 921, 1001, 1063, 1068
Grand jury.....................................................769pp. Head and not the tail...........................................632
Grandpa Siegfried..397, 405, 516, 743, 901p., 1055 Heads of State.............................................772, 826
Graves Tower..............775, 782, 803, 808, 829, 963 Heal their land.....................................................675
Greed...82, 96, 99, 241, 328, 413p., 542, 544, 577, Healing89, 108, 220, 370, 463, 506, 542, 607, 689,
624, 638, 677, 692, 697, 699, 703, 887, 895, 921 692, 704
Greener pastures......................................492p., 496 Healthcare..............................237, 308, 453, 540pp.
Grey Zone...........................................................699 Heart....20, 23, 29, 31, 34, 37, 39, 48, 50p., 55, 57,
Grieving........................97, 102, 170, 221, 517, 757 59p., 64, 68pp., 73, 75, 77pp., 93, 98, 103, 105,
Growth.....21, 105p., 111, 158, 187, 189, 212, 366, 112, 118, 121, 127, 129, 150, 158, 162, 167pp.,
412, 432, 434, 444, 455, 544, 570, 585, 663, 680, 171, 179pp., 185, 194, 196p., 201, 215, 219, 223,
944 229p., 244, 258p., 263, 265pp., 270, 273p., 277,
Guilt. .27, 64, 96, 98, 108, 196, 304, 335, 410, 435, 279p., 287, 298, 300, 306p., 312, 314pp., 318pp.,
450, 489, 502, 504, 506, 518, 584, 588p., 635, 647, 332pp., 342p., 346, 351, 353p., 362pp., 368,
669p., 690, 766, 832, 890pp., 901, 909, 925, 373p., 381p., 388pp., 396p., 400, 405pp., 413,
927p., 930, 946, 972, 975, 1005, 1022 419, 421p., 426, 428, 434p., 437, 442, 444, 448,
Guilty..120, 243, 281p., 345, 393, 480, 488, 610p., 450, 453, 455, 460, 476, 478pp., 486, 490, 492,
639, 766, 869, 1040 495pp., 503, 506, 508, 510p., 520p., 523, 526,
Habits..................................................................690 541p., 545, 547pp., 553, 555p., 564, 568, 579,
Hacking.......325, 355, 481p., 895, 919, 1057, 1068 582p., 585, 588, 590pp., 595p., 605, 610p., 618,
Hal. . .230pp., 249pp., 274pp., 280pp., 290, 294p., 621, 625, 631, 634p., 644pp., 648, 656pp., 661,
1089
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
666p., 671, 674, 677, 681, 683p., 696, 703, Holy Ghost.................27, 91, 98, 128, 475, 1062
706pp., 710, 712, 717p., 723p., 728p., 734p., 743, Paradise..........................................26, 29, 32, 65
746p., 751p., 754, 758, 763p., 774, 784p., 790, Purity...........................26p., 189, 263, 501, 1028
796, 799p., 802, 807p., 815p., 824p., 828p., 834, Rebirth....23, 26, 28, 33, 55, 159, 161, 186, 449,
837, 842, 846p., 854p., 862, 869, 881p., 889pp., 703, 1072
896, 899pp., 904pp., 909pp., 921, 923p., 936, Temptation.....26, 182, 187, 450, 455, 572, 583,
938pp., 946, 948, 962p., 972, 982pp., 994p., 1002, 744, 756, 1065
1004, 1006pp., 1012, 1018p., 1025, 1027pp., Tree of Knowledge..............................26p., 29p.
1036pp., 1041p., 1048, 1055, 1061p., 1072 High profile prisoner...........................................770
Hearts. .21, 41p., 45, 55, 57, 59p., 117, 145, 177p., Hillary Rodham Clinton.....................................359
191, 201, 206, 258, 301, 313, 336, 365, 391, 395, Hispanics.............................................270, 418, 743
411, 413pp., 417, 473, 476, 488, 490, 494, 501p., Historical statues of the Confederacy.................409
508, 543, 565, 571, 576p., 618, 699pp., 786, 834, Hoax............................................................400, 773
887, 990, 1067p. Holiness. . .19, 21, 31, 33, 36, 38, 60pp., 66, 70pp.,
Heaven32, 38, 50, 55p., 61, 75, 82, 87, 105, 107p., 75pp., 84, 97, 100, 128, 158, 171, 174p., 177,
129, 144p., 153, 188, 190, 208p., 215, 227p., 257, 180p., 183, 206, 211, 215p., 220, 225p., 260, 262,
260p., 265, 271, 300, 302p., 313, 340, 351, 388, 298, 313, 331, 333, 364, 370p., 411, 415, 444, 450,
442, 462, 511, 516, 534, 578, 632, 671, 675, 678, 455, 464, 467, 473, 565, 578, 607, 677pp., 681p.,
701, 704, 992, 1064, 1066, 1068 697, 704, 887, 940, 1037, 1068
Heavenly Father....33, 66, 111, 172, 191, 219, 224, Holy 23, 26p., 29pp., 36, 38, 46, 48, 50, 57pp., 63,
265, 419, 456, 458, 546, 572, 700, 821, 893, 993, 71p., 74, 76, 84, 86p., 89pp., 97p., 100pp., 107p.,
1067 117, 124p., 127pp., 152p., 158, 161, 170, 173,
Hebrews...........................................................508p. 176p., 179p., 182, 186pp., 193, 196, 201, 204,
Helmet of salvation.....................................469, 694 206p., 211, 213, 219p., 225p., 263, 268, 271, 302,
Helpmate................................................................... 305, 313, 330, 332p., 338, 363pp., 370pp., 388p.,
Barrett. 236, 244p., 247p., 250pp., 282pp., 309, 416, 419, 433, 437, 445, 448p., 457pp., 472, 475,
323, 550, 557p., 591, 593pp., 608, 635, 649p., 500, 503p., 508p., 523, 538, 564, 569, 579, 581,
725, 729pp., 752, 754p., 838, 840, 842pp., 864, 583p., 586, 625p., 632, 677pp., 692p., 698, 700,
874, 927, 970, 1075 703, 705, 820, 905, 936, 946, 948, 967, 978, 1028,
Burdens......................28, 47, 190, 435, 489, 589 1037p., 1062, 1066, 1070, 1072
Church 36, 88, 105p., 146, 155p., 158, 197, 207, Holy Day.............................................................504
261, 340, 365, 417, 472, 488pp., 502, 504pp., Holy Spirit..23, 26, 29, 31p., 36, 46, 48, 57pp., 72,
516p., 525, 681, 702, 719p., 722, 727, 731p., 74, 86p., 90, 97p., 100pp., 108, 117, 124p.,
782p., 785pp., 836, 863, 916, 924, 926p., 929, 127pp., 152p., 161, 170, 176p., 182, 186pp., 193,
933, 963p., 970, 976pp., 990, 993 196, 201, 204, 211, 213, 219p., 225p., 268, 302,
Companion...............................................26, 843 313, 332p., 338, 363pp., 370p., 388p., 419, 433,
Freedom.....26pp., 31p., 59, 243, 263, 318, 327, 437, 448p., 457p., 460, 500, 503, 538, 564, 569,
331pp., 406, 411, 414, 450, 453, 544p., 618, 583, 586, 625p., 632, 678pp., 692p., 700, 703,
945 705, 946, 948, 967, 978, 1037, 1066, 1070, 1072
Garden of Eden..........26, 32, 151, 372, 700, 703 Honest 242, 246, 251p., 278, 421p., 424, 428, 483,
History....26, 84, 86, 120, 124, 146, 237p., 326, 517, 577, 652, 1004
328, 331, 345, 358, 377, 385, 400, 403, 409p., Honor. 31, 34pp., 150, 152pp., 160, 163, 179, 254,
414p., 418, 420, 431, 604p., 661, 692, 777, 827, 334, 403, 410pp., 416, 418, 449, 456, 577, 596p.,
920, 944, 965p. 654, 752
1090
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
1091
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
489, 492pp., 497, 500p., 504p., 511, 513pp., 517, Liberal.........................................................398, 544
526pp., 534p., 538pp., 545, 558, 564pp., 568, 575, Liberals...............................................................383
577, 580, 592, 601, 603p., 607p., 613pp., 617, Lies.23, 26pp., 34, 44p., 47, 50, 52, 55, 60, 73, 90,
642, 644, 659, 679, 686, 764p., 769, 773, 775pp., 93, 103pp., 108, 112, 115pp., 126, 129, 148, 151,
781, 913p., 931, 936, 946, 973, 975p., 980p., 162, 209, 223, 333, 399p., 412, 416p., 419, 423,
986pp., 1063 427, 449, 490, 511, 516pp., 525, 545, 568, 576pp.,
Justice....89, 261, 263, 411, 413, 577, 607, 771, 943 628, 632, 638, 662p., 670, 673, 677, 681, 689, 691,
Kari.......................................834p., 987, 989, 991p. 693, 699, 701, 703, 772, 779, 935, 1063, 1070,
Kick against the goad..........................366, 500, 692 1072
Kingdom. 20, 32p., 35, 38, 41, 46p., 51, 54pp., 58, Lieutenant Hamilton......551pp., 556pp., 647, 713,
61, 65, 68, 75, 82pp., 87p., 99p., 105, 108, 112, 748p., 1079
129, 144p., 149pp., 164, 171, 185, 190p., 194, Light. . .29p., 33, 49, 57p., 60, 75, 79, 85, 105, 118,
196, 204, 207pp., 224, 226, 228, 260p., 265, 267, 121, 124, 127, 146, 156, 158, 191, 198, 206, 212,
269, 271, 303, 305, 313p., 338, 366, 372, 415, 215, 221, 226, 253, 262, 266, 312, 321, 349, 351,
418pp., 433, 436p., 447, 464, 467, 470, 475, 490, 362, 365, 372, 389pp., 399, 412pp., 419, 449, 463,
502, 506, 513p., 516, 545p., 571, 626, 632, 671, 486, 489p., 500, 504, 506, 508, 514, 521, 527, 529,
676, 678, 681, 691, 697, 702p., 705, 832, 887, 940, 559, 571, 578p., 600, 614, 618, 629, 663, 671, 673,
992p., 1037, 1039, 1062p., 1066, 1070p. 677, 680, 682, 700p., 703p., 737, 779, 795, 829,
Kingdom of God 32p., 35, 46p., 56, 65, 82pp., 112, 869, 903, 936, 940, 1028, 1037, 1063, 1070
129, 145, 156, 158, 160p., 164, 196, 207, 209p., Limitations.......................................19, 263, 1059p.
224, 226, 265, 271, 314, 475, 490, 502, 506, 513, Loins girt about with truth..........................469, 694
571, 632, 691, 702, 714, 959, 992, 1066, 1071 Loopholes...........................................................740
Klan............................................................604, 661 Lord is my light..................................................682
Knowing how your mind works.........................583 Love. .20, 31, 33, 35, 37p., 40p., 50, 55, 57pp., 61,
Knowledge...20, 26pp., 35, 47, 118, 124, 153, 161, 64, 66p., 69, 71p., 75, 82p., 87, 97, 100, 103,
166, 190p., 206, 215, 330, 332p., 363, 365, 370p., 107p., 119, 126, 128, 145, 150, 152p., 155pp.,
413, 444, 458, 468, 488, 570, 579, 582, 589, 736, 160pp., 167p., 170, 172, 174, 176, 179pp., 185,
749, 755, 770, 826, 939, 947, 1060, 1069 188pp., 194pp., 198, 201, 206p., 211, 213, 215pp.,
Ku Klux Klan......................................................661 221p., 226p., 251, 257p., 262, 264p., 268, 270p.,
LABEL...................41, 83, 209, 401, 576, 588, 632 294, 301p., 304, 328, 330, 333pp., 360, 362pp.,
Lack of moral compass.......................................541 366p., 371p., 389, 394, 405p., 411, 415, 417, 429,
Laws of nature............................512, 657, 662, 667 433pp., 444, 446, 449, 451, 454, 456, 458, 463p.,
Lead by EXAMPLE...........................................503 467, 475p., 490, 492, 498p., 501pp., 506, 508p.,
Leadership.............................................45, 331, 577 517, 524p., 528, 536, 540, 544pp., 554, 564pp.,
Learning How To Endure...................................588 572p., 575p., 578pp., 583, 585pp., 603, 607, 625,
Left....199, 240, 262, 269, 275, 277, 294, 317, 337, 627p., 630p., 638p., 644, 655, 670, 676, 678pp.,
350, 355, 357, 365, 378, 404, 445, 488, 495, 525, 689, 691, 695pp., 700, 703pp., 738, 743, 752pp.,
528, 544, 584, 618, 661, 672, 686, 693, 742, 754, 758, 762, 766, 768, 776p., 786, 796, 802, 804, 809,
766, 779, 781, 783, 793, 805, 813, 822, 825, 833, 811p., 830, 832, 834p., 840, 864, 866, 869, 883pp.,
842, 861, 896p., 900, 902, 909, 911, 946, 963, 967, 887, 890pp., 909, 921, 925, 931p., 935, 940, 947,
986, 1025 964, 967p., 973, 981, 1004, 1028pp., 1032p.,
Legislature..........................................542, 629, 914 1036, 1039, 1045, 1047, 1051, 1055p., 1062p.,
Leon Childress..........................................608, 1078 1067p., 1070p.
Leverage...................................291, 393, 825, 1062 Love unconditionally............................75, 195, 830
1092
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
Lower security prison camps..............................770 70pp., 74, 101, 108, 118pp., 128p., 134p., 137,
Luke......................................80, 216, 341, 466, 573 159, 190, 201, 215, 219, 442, 448, 455, 502, 506,
Lust.......................................................28, 703, 762 677p., 697, 702, 705, 948, 953, 958
Lying....79, 96pp., 102, 119p., 242, 268, 289, 405, Minister.............62, 152p., 376, 505, 517, 525, 606
418, 422, 480, 511, 517p., 540, 664, 745, 765, 767, Minorities......................................89, 333, 398, 661
780, 887, 891, 901, 977, 981, 1068 Minority..............................299, 618, 631p., 1063p.
Mad Hatter..........................................................519 Miriam...........237, 244pp., 282, 284pp., 295, 309,
Mad Hatter's..........................292, 325p., 386, 1079 322pp., 328, 343, 350, 354, 357, 407, 479pp., 511,
Madhatter............................................................482 513, 518, 529p., 533, 548pp., 556pp., 591pp., 599,
Marc Antony.......................................................643 606, 635p., 646p., 655, 709, 713, 718pp., 724,
Marine.................................233, 652, 718, 733, 918 729, 732, 741p., 747pp., 752p., 755pp., 764, 833,
Marines.......................................650, 654, 742, 756 841, 901, 927p., 936, 968, 970, 1066, 1075p.,
Mark..................91, 210, 268, 335p., 341, 476, 714 1078p.
Martin.................331p., 719, 733, 748p., 911, 1076 Money laundered................................................771
Mary........................................................433p., 444 Money laundering.....................293, 378, 739, 1059
Master....44p., 49, 58, 75, 101, 116, 159, 169, 171, Monroe. .79, 288, 401, 423, 427, 661, 669, 671pp.,
473, 491pp., 502, 518, 578, 600, 663, 671p., 696, 1078
941, 946 Moral conduct.....................................................577
Matthew 33, 38, 45, 48p., 52, 56, 60pp., 77, 84, 91, Moral Decay.......................................................672
129, 144, 154, 164, 209, 260, 271, 340p., 441, 445, Moral laws..........................................................662
454, 486, 490, 498, 695p. Morality...................................................541p., 577
Maturity..............................204, 371, 434, 455, 679 More than conquerors...............................625, 1062
Media. 45, 93, 117, 245p., 253, 270, 290, 401, 403, MORE THAN CONQUERS..............................701
424, 427, 482, 673, 709, 720, 729, 780, 830, 920, Moscow......................................................352, 612
943p. Moses.................86, 157, 205p., 210, 460, 623, 673
Mega-church.......................................................720 MOVERS and SHAKERS..........................193, 701
Members 108, 145, 153, 159, 202, 249p., 431, 491, Mr. Shale.............................................................293
502, 504, 517, 548, 632, 720, 724, 732, 739, 741, Multinational conglomerates..............................753
780, 932p., 946, 964, 1003, 1057 Murphy's Law.......................................656p., 666p.
Membership.....................................................500p. Muslims......................263, 270, 418, 457, 661, 743
Memorial Day.....................................................409 Narcissistic personality.......................................511
Mental. 19, 234, 254, 275, 343, 515, 532, 585, 587, NARM.............................................397p., 401, 404
593, 605, 749, 897, 906 Natalie.....519, 724pp., 729p., 732p., 737, 747pp.,
Mentally disabled................................................747 766, 911pp., 1079
Mercy.........30p., 90, 100, 107, 110, 127, 158, 183, Natalie Tiledeler. 519, 724p., 727, 729p., 732, 737,
190p., 208, 235, 257, 260, 263, 268, 317, 333, 364, 747p., 766, 914p., 1079
371, 388, 416, 579, 683, 700, 714, 820, 834p., 887, Nation. .44, 46, 82, 88, 108, 115pp., 243, 269, 308,
941, 966p., 982, 1000, 1018, 1036, 1038, 1040, 385, 403, 409, 411p., 415pp., 459, 544, 577, 627,
1064 630p., 642, 672, 676, 689, 691, 773, 780, 827, 834,
Messenger...........................................303, 503, 507 1075
Messianic Jew.............................................461, 671 National politics..................................................623
Method........................189, 394, 506, 543, 753, 942 Nationalism.........................................404, 544, 631
Methods................................28, 190, 482, 542, 622 Nationalist...........................................................699
Mind of Christ........22, 32, 46pp., 53, 55, 64, 66p., Neighbor......33, 55, 97, 258, 270, 462p., 506, 540,
1093
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
569p., 576, 700, 862, 1066 698, 733, 791p., 810, 821, 832, 835, 869, 890pp.,
Neighbors 59, 262, 268, 404, 453, 475, 503, 541p., 906, 908, 930, 944, 967, 971, 1015, 1019, 1022,
701, 1062 1028, 1036, 1039, 1044, 1046p., 1050p., 1065
Neighbour.................................476, 488, 696, 1039 Panic attacks.......................................................772
New thing...................431, 436, 489pp., 500p., 697 Parents.....37, 58, 92, 168, 270, 280, 308, 365, 411,
No man is an island, no man stands alone..........544 434p., 594, 601p., 646, 720, 754, 957, 959, 966,
Nondenominational church.................................719 984, 1032, 1034, 1076
Normal life......................306p., 311p., 314pp., 606 Partisanism..........................................................631
North Korea......289, 374, 376, 403, 624, 826, 1059 Partitions.............................................538, 545, 564
North Koreans.....................................289, 374, 403 Pastor.....124p., 127, 153, 500, 505, 662, 787, 916,
Nurse practitioner.....................668, 833, 906, 1020 924pp., 937, 943, 945, 963pp., 969pp., 973pp.,
Obamacare..........................................................543 992, 1077
Obedience. .37, 58, 103, 175, 177, 179, 181, 207p., Pastor Allen. 787, 916, 925pp., 934, 937, 943, 945,
416, 458, 468, 493, 518, 579, 679, 703, 1069 950pp., 960, 963pp., 969pp., 973p., 976pp., 1077
Obstructed justice...............................................771 Pastor Fitzgerald......................927, 951, 977p., 992
Occupation..........................................................625 Pastors.........................................152, 161, 487, 491
Of the world. .28, 40pp., 46p., 49, 52, 57, 65p., 71, Patriotism............................................................582
82p., 88, 97, 116, 145p., 152, 154p., 157, 171, 182, Paul......47, 83, 90, 100p., 121, 124, 152, 156, 160,
201, 207, 209pp., 224, 299, 302p., 313pp., 330, 303, 364, 468, 503, 507, 1069
335, 367, 415, 419p., 445, 455, 488pp., 514, 524, Pavithra.............................................1052pp., 1078
623, 632, 672, 678, 682, 691, 697, 702, 756, 947, Peace...19p., 39pp., 56, 75, 176pp., 188, 202, 218,
1064, 1068, 1070p. 227, 262, 269, 304p., 315p., 322, 390, 397, 403,
Offices of authority.............................................577 406, 411p., 420, 433, 438, 444, 469, 475, 523, 583,
Old man...22, 169, 243, 450, 604, 608, 625p., 659, 589, 607, 688p., 694, 704, 812, 900, 907, 925, 984,
715, 840, 849, 862, 884 1003, 1036, 1047p., 1066
Oligarchs.....................................................326, 740 Penal system...............................................769, 772
ONE.....32, 46pp., 154, 158p., 172, 200, 262, 266, Pence...................................................................264
271, 338, 416p., 458p., 461, 503, 632, 819p. People of color....................................617, 689, 743
Only human........................................434, 632, 700 People's candidate...............................777, 831, 834
Oppressed.................................404, 544, 852, 1063 People's Republic of the United States Armed
Oppression..............28, 331p., 467, 630, 699p., 704 Forces (PRUSAF)...............................................397
Oppressors..........................................................544 PERFECT in love. . .67, 75, 211, 215, 219, 417, 490
Organization.......................253, 403, 482, 500, 502 Perfect man.....................................47, 83, 161, 607
Organized crime bosses......................................740 Pharisee.....42, 83p., 109pp., 153, 157p., 366, 414,
Outsourcing........................................................540 416, 488
Overcome...449, 491, 500, 523p., 546, 564, 568p., Philippians..........................................177, 462, 768
618, 1028, 1062, 1065 Philistine...............................................73, 456, 578
OVERCOMING.................................410, 491, 500 Physical..19p., 27, 30, 37, 175, 178, 181, 317, 411,
Overdosing..........................................................542 444, 512, 538p., 569, 605, 657, 667, 772, 843, 906,
Overindulgence...................................431, 544, 699 908
Pain 64, 108, 111, 166p., 170, 187, 197p., 219, 222, Physical law................................................657, 667
297, 300, 303, 346, 389, 395, 397, 406, 438, 446, Physics................................................657, 662, 667
467, 517, 528, 531, 539, 551p., 557p., 564, 568, Political beliefs.............................................64, 582
571p., 576, 606, 617, 631, 638, 664, 670, 685pp., Political climate..........................377, 386, 412, 631
1094
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
1095
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
882pp., 891p., 901pp., 909, 924p., 928pp., 932p., 111, 128, 148p., 166, 181, 187, 189, 389, 454p.,
935p., 942, 946pp., 950pp., 963pp., 992p., 462, 473, 702, 711, 766, 894, 945
996pp., 1001p., 1005, 1007, 1010pp., 1014pp., Resist and persist....39, 45, 47pp., 56, 59, 63p., 70,
1019pp., 1036p., 1042pp., 1047p., 1055pp., 1066, 93, 107p., 111, 128, 148p., 166, 187, 189, 454,
1075pp. 462, 473, 702
Rachel Montgomery......729, 765, 787, 792p., 929, Respect..38, 43, 60, 67, 76, 90, 126, 128, 145, 150,
942, 956, 963, 966, 977 153, 159, 179p., 195, 215, 253, 347, 461, 554, 577,
Racial diversity...................................................635 631, 636, 639, 649p., 679, 718, 742, 752, 811, 819,
Racism........................540, 576, 631, 640, 851, 857 835, 965, 968, 974, 1018p., 1032, 1039p.
Racists...................................................88, 581, 921 Responsibility.....83, 152, 209, 226, 243, 262, 311,
Rape....................................125, 398, 599, 704, 966 472, 501p., 526, 592, 630, 770, 928, 943, 974,
Rapes...................................................................604 1034
Real estate...........................................................293 Restoration108, 144, 147, 157, 159, 161, 280, 344,
Reborn....19p., 23, 27, 30, 66, 74, 151p., 155, 193, 404, 444, 692, 702, 912, 915, 1067
268, 302, 524, 1072 Revelation.....................92, 156, 262, 371, 578, 582
Red General..............................292, 345, 379, 1078 Ricardo.................................1017, 1020p., 1024pp.
Relationship23, 26, 34p., 41, 49, 51, 60, 68, 73, 82, Richard..................................748p., 752, 754, 1076
93, 103, 105, 108, 111p., 121, 129, 157, 162, Richard Graves..............................748p., 752, 1076
167p., 175, 180, 182, 187, 190, 195pp., 206pp., Righteous. .40, 60, 82, 89, 107, 117, 120, 158, 180,
211pp., 215, 224, 297p., 311, 330, 362, 365p., 385, 201, 257, 263p., 269, 458, 523, 542, 570p., 581,
413, 415pp., 419, 454p., 457p., 461, 470, 506, 672, 936p., 940
524, 526, 546, 565, 576, 581, 646, 648, 679, 692, Righteously.......................................161, 584, 1038
700, 753, 762, 789, 811, 821, 843, 901p., 909, Righteousness 31pp., 59p., 64, 66, 70, 72p., 84, 97,
973p., 1067, 1072 100, 110, 120, 128, 158, 171, 174p., 177, 179, 183,
Relationship with God......105, 108, 168, 180, 207, 205, 210p., 215p., 220, 226, 258pp., 298, 313,
213, 413, 415pp., 419, 454p., 458, 470, 506, 524, 331, 333, 364, 370, 411, 415, 444, 455, 464, 467,
581, 692, 700, 762, 901 469, 473, 475, 541, 565, 578, 581, 607, 678, 693p.,
Relationships 40, 60, 63, 67p., 75p., 170, 187, 189, 697, 701, 704, 887, 966, 1037, 1068
194, 196p., 199, 201, 211p., 215p., 297p., 300, Rights without righteousness..............................958
362, 436, 506, 528, 704, 821, 927 Rituals. . .37, 40, 106, 111, 149, 155, 157, 178, 182,
Religion. 34, 93, 106, 111, 158, 179, 206, 259, 330, 337, 412, 489, 500, 702, 1066
414pp., 457pp., 473, 487, 581p., 621, 691, 1066 Role models..........................................84, 698, 703
Religious. 42, 45, 278, 297, 435, 461, 472, 576, 581 Romans.....49, 52, 81, 95, 104, 159, 367, 473, 501,
Religious decrees................................................581 509, 643, 695
Religious people.................................................581 Root......................212, 297, 505p., 542, 689p., 692
REMNANT................................................107, 490 Russia. 291p., 325, 358, 374pp., 383pp., 402, 426,
Repent......32, 84p., 87, 204, 264p., 268, 420, 515, 624, 771, 825, 827, 1059
546, 570, 572, 1037 Russia investigations..........................................827
Republican.......46, 119, 379, 398, 400p., 628, 826, Russian 116, 290, 293, 325p., 352, 375p., 378, 383,
1078 386, 402, 594, 740, 771, 919p., 1059
Republican Party...............................379, 826, 1078 Russian operatives..............................................293
Republicans....119, 263, 270, 289, 383p., 397, 400, Russians. .288p., 291p., 294, 325, 352, 358, 384p.,
404, 417, 422pp., 427, 628, 642 401, 535, 919p., 1003
Resist. 39, 44p., 47pp., 56, 59, 63p., 70, 93, 107p., Sadducee....83p., 111p., 153, 157p., 366, 414, 416,
1096
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
1097
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
538, 545, 564, 569, 583, 586, 625p., 632, 677pp., Surrender.........28, 55, 71p., 75, 97, 149, 172, 188,
692pp., 697, 700, 703, 705, 946, 948, 967, 978, 201p., 204, 213, 265p., 268, 270, 301, 315, 371,
1037, 1066, 1070, 1072 391, 450, 681, 973, 1004, 1013, 1066
Spiritual......23, 26, 30, 33pp., 38, 44, 51, 56, 67p., Sword of God......................................................579
73p., 93, 103, 105, 112, 121, 129, 162, 170, 181, Sword of the Spirit......................................469, 694
193, 197, 204p., 211, 219, 222, 312, 364, 370p., Tanya.....237pp., 275, 278, 280, 282, 287p., 294p.,
469, 471pp., 511, 526, 538p., 569, 616, 622p., 632, 309p., 317, 324pp., 343pp., 351, 354, 356p., 359,
662, 675, 677, 694, 904p., 908, 948, 969, 971, 374, 377p., 382, 393pp., 397, 399, 401, 405pp.,
1072 422pp., 479, 518, 522, 528pp., 548, 591pp., 599,
Spiritual being38, 74, 205, 219, 371, 538, 622, 632, 601, 612, 614p., 635pp., 646pp., 655, 665, 668,
675 670pp., 709p., 718, 729, 733, 735pp., 743pp.,
Spiritual wickedness.............................44, 469, 694 756pp., 769, 825, 833, 892, 895pp., 901, 909, 911,
Spiritually.....28, 52, 204, 209, 222, 338, 433, 435, 917p., 921p., 926pp., 936, 968, 970, 982, 986p.,
470, 503, 506, 569, 670, 858, 909, 969 990pp., 1002, 1004p., 1058pp., 1066, 1075,
Stability.......................116, 295, 298, 316, 543, 577 1077pp.
Status 31, 68p., 76, 150, 153p., 197, 209, 225, 236, Tares............................................................158, 491
298, 303, 377, 415, 447, 512, 539, 544, 582, 618, Tax breaks...................................................541, 780
621, 625, 635, 677, 764, 927, 945, 980 Tax fraud.....................................................378, 771
Steadfast love..............................................180, 583 Teach.....31, 59, 110, 119, 126, 149, 152, 156, 179,
Steal, kill, and destroy........................................540 182, 186, 190, 204, 214, 261, 265, 364, 410, 466,
Stein..................................................591, 719, 1078 488, 495, 497, 683, 692, 702, 811, 821, 887, 940,
Stereotypical Black person.................618, 628, 630 1037p.
Steve......322, 355p., 556pp., 647pp., 651pp., 655, Teacher........126p., 153, 232, 363, 583, 1034, 1077
718p., 721, 733, 742, 752, 756, 758, 833, 841, 856, Temple.......36, 38, 110, 158, 179, 226, 337p., 365,
869, 886, 896, 911, 970, 982, 997, 1000, 1042, 444p., 447, 523, 683
1047p., 1066, 1076 Temples...............................................338, 490, 830
Stock exchange...................................................764 Terror................................................630, 900, 1025
Stock market.......................................................818 Terrorism.............................................630, 699, 704
Strength.....64, 72, 146, 173p., 188, 212, 216, 220, Tested.......................................................582p., 618
226, 249, 262, 270, 294, 331, 334, 358, 394, 403, The Daily 231, 280, 287, 295, 307, 310p., 318, 322,
435, 476, 544, 564, 589, 635, 641, 659, 682, 741, 355, 377, 526, 550p., 553p., 647, 653, 729, 731,
766, 800, 893, 907p., 969, 1037, 1047 749, 765, 767, 769, 771, 788, 792pp., 804, 830p.,
Strengthen. 175, 191, 228, 333, 377, 471, 585, 681, 929, 933, 941p., 963, 971, 977, 1077
684, 688p., 697, 887 The Helper..................................152, 507, 583, 703
Strengths.....................................................194, 587 The New Alternative Republicans Militia (NARM)
Struggle.......27, 182, 436, 446, 539, 638, 783, 944, ............................................................................397
1021 The Queen...............................288, 292, 294, 671p.
Struggling. 194, 204, 221, 290, 326, 397, 435, 450, The Tribune.............................................767p., 793
545, 588, 637, 689, 718, 832, 905, 1019 The Vine......32, 170, 228, 271, 315, 338, 364, 411,
Stumbling block....................31, 474, 506, 564, 588 447, 449, 459pp., 507p., 680p., 1068
Submit......23, 34, 51, 72p., 94, 103, 108, 112, 122, The War Room...................................396p., 399pp.
130, 149, 163, 189, 317, 507, 676, 941, 1072 Theodore W........................................................591
Suicide...........................221, 535p., 542, 704, 1057 Theodore Wellington.....591, 593, 604, 608p., 646,
Suppressed..........................................................544 753pp., 833, 841, 1078
1098
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
Thy Will Be Done.......................260, 340, 704, 836 638, 700, 834, 909, 940, 947, 973, 1036, 1051,
To thine own self be true. .537, 563, 567, 575, 580, 1062, 1068
616, 620, 627, 632 Under siege.........................................................625
Tranquility............................................................19 Unemployment...................................................540
Transformed...78p., 155, 185, 229p., 273p., 279p., Unhealthy..............................67, 200, 202, 431, 507
306p., 320p., 342p., 353p., 373p., 381p., 392p., Unholiness............................................36, 225, 692
396p., 421p., 478p., 510p., 520p., 547p., 555p., Unite the Right incident......................................669
590p., 610p., 634p., 645p., 656p., 666p., 706p., United States.42, 44, 254, 285, 289, 291, 325, 359,
717p., 723p., 728p., 734p., 746p., 751p., 763p., 384p., 397, 416, 418, 426, 624, 629, 661, 699, 778,
774, 784p., 790, 799p., 807p., 815p., 824p., 828p., 806, 826, 831, 966
837, 846p., 854p., 862, 881p., 889p., 904p., 910p., Unrighteousness..........................................186, 692
923p., 938p., 962p., 983p., 994p., 1006p., 1018p., Uproot.................................................................505
1041p., 1061p. Utopian...............................................................516
Trials and temptations...............191, 438, 697, 1062 Veil.......................27, 37, 148p., 180, 492, 515, 702
Trials and tribulations....188, 219p., 471, 527, 967, Venezuela..........................................646, 720, 1059
1038 Vessel...20, 55p., 74, 127, 149, 174, 219, 226, 291,
Trickle down.......................................................543 472, 678
Triune God,.........................................................632 Vessels...........................33, 153, 213, 366, 523, 577
TRUE WORSHIPPERS.............................462, 500 Victim..........68, 76, 125, 541, 637p., 687, 690, 692
Trump....51, 117, 119p., 264p., 270, 414, 416, 624, Victory......20, 43, 54, 58, 155, 159, 200, 223, 271,
628, 630, 699 282, 412, 568, 571, 578, 588, 796, 1004
TRUMPISM.......................................................631 Vince...................719, 733, 748p., 911, 914p., 1076
Trust41p., 97, 119, 145, 149, 156, 158p., 175, 189, Vine.....32, 170, 228, 271, 315, 338, 364, 411, 447,
201, 251, 258, 301, 303, 311, 316, 335, 337, 404, 449, 459pp., 507p., 680p., 1068
427, 449, 455, 458, 532, 538, 577, 585, 591, 593, Violence........45, 63, 115, 400, 403, 540, 565, 568,
612, 652, 654, 681, 686, 691p., 702, 730, 742, 762, 576p., 631, 689, 692, 700, 703, 827, 1064
809, 823, 831, 841, 892, 895, 913, 918p., 925, 931, Vladimir Putin............................................736, 772
936, 940p., 947, 977, 981, 993, 997p., 1000, 1037, Voice. .49, 54, 57p., 70, 75, 83, 101, 127, 149, 173,
1066, 1069 179, 181, 195, 219, 230, 240, 287p., 312, 318, 323,
Truth 32, 44pp., 65, 72, 84, 96pp., 107, 111p., 115, 340, 343, 346, 350p., 365, 386pp., 393p., 403p.,
118, 125, 145, 158, 162, 190, 197, 199pp., 204, 428, 495, 497, 526, 528, 559, 591, 618, 647, 683,
209, 211, 223p., 226, 257, 263, 266, 268, 270p., 702, 724, 727, 738, 758, 766, 785, 820, 884, 895,
316, 325, 343, 360, 362, 365pp., 372, 382, 399p., 901, 944p., 975, 987p., 993, 996, 1012, 1019,
403, 410pp., 417, 440, 444, 447, 449, 455, 458p., 1021, 1035, 1037, 1045, 1068
467, 469, 480, 500, 503, 505, 507, 511, 513pp., Voter fraud..........................................................780
569, 571, 577pp., 581, 623, 632, 663, 671, 673, Vulnerable...................182, 526, 631, 642, 692, 740
682, 694, 697p., 701, 703p., 744, 834, 920, 932, Walking by faith.........................................538, 940
937, 939, 963, 981, 1038, 1064, 1066, 1070 War........63, 82, 101, 115, 197, 221, 225, 227, 262,
Two-edged Sword...............................................507 290p., 293, 308, 315, 344, 359, 375p., 396pp.,
Unaccountable.............................................311, 699 405p., 411p., 452, 467p., 470p., 520p., 535, 540,
Unaffordable education......................................540 579, 601, 630, 642, 655, 683, 699, 704, 733, 741,
Unblinded...........................................................501 756, 780p., 811, 826, 833, 895, 997, 1004p., 1033,
Unconditional love........33, 61, 119, 188, 213, 219, 1063, 1069, 1074
257p., 270, 364, 371, 434, 463, 506, 565, 572p., Warden Zachary Keiler.......................................773
1099
I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME
Warfare. .101, 312, 468, 470p., 473, 577, 579, 625, Willard Graves599, 604, 638, 665, 669, 712p., 715,
736, 948, 1004, 1068p. 732, 769pp., 779p., 850, 870, 895, 913, 920, 928,
Watchman...................................................348, 591 943, 992, 1074pp., 1078p.
Weakness. .172, 181, 262, 270, 288, 364, 438, 589, William.............................537, 643, 752, 754, 1076
624, 632, 681, 906 William Graves.................................752, 754, 1076
Weaknesses 175, 182, 443, 515, 587, 625, 700, 739, William Shakespeare..................................537, 643
1004 Windmill.............................................................753
Wellington.....591pp., 595pp., 600, 603pp., 608p., Wisdom......31, 50, 170, 190p., 208, 261, 305, 329,
646, 658, 719, 752pp., 833, 841, 843p., 928, 1078 340, 370, 413, 435, 491, 564, 581, 671, 823, 864,
Wellington, Gallegos, Childress and Stein.......591, 887, 909
1078 Word of God21, 40, 42, 45, 56, 60, 88pp., 92, 105,
Western alliance..................................................826 111, 117, 120, 128, 145, 153pp., 157, 160, 170,
Wheat..........................................................158, 491 185, 202, 223, 226, 268, 331, 340, 365, 368, 444,
Wheland Watermill................................770p., 1079 453, 455, 470, 505, 507p., 572, 579, 582, 673, 682,
White collar crime..............................................736 694, 702, 948, 966, 1062, 1065
White House. .289, 325, 379, 382, 401, 422, 424p., Workaholics........................................................753
428, 672, 699, 709p., 742, 805, 831, 1057 World War III..............................................642, 826
White supremacists.............................398, 699, 827 Worship....36p., 112, 156, 158, 207, 291, 372, 410,
White supremacy................................................661 414, 445, 457pp., 472, 489, 500, 505, 526, 528,
White-collar crime prisons.................................770 630, 691, 785, 1064
Whole......28, 46, 48, 146, 162, 170, 206, 210, 230, Worship in SPIRIT and in TRUTH...112, 158, 372,
232, 305, 312, 315p., 328, 343, 367, 401, 413, 416, 500
432, 469, 491, 505, 546, 605, 663, 671, 693p., 697, Yeshua.....22, 60, 66, 191, 304, 419, 444, 449, 459,
759, 793, 796, 852, 856p., 870, 936, 963, 969, 999, 1062
1040, 1042 Yield to temptation.............................................958
Whole armour of God.................................469, 694 Yoke......................................92, 263, 486, 489, 508
Will29, 40, 51, 55p., 58, 60, 66, 71p., 75, 82p., 88, Zenobia....529pp., 591, 614p., 653, 665, 668, 671,
102, 108, 120p., 125, 129, 146, 148p., 153, 155, 707pp., 711p., 714, 719, 737p., 745, 757p.,
159, 179, 185pp., 200, 202, 204, 207, 209, 214p., 800pp., 814, 816pp., 832p., 835, 838pp., 848,
219p., 224p., 228, 260, 265, 270, 298, 305, 333p., 882p., 885p., 890pp., 896, 900pp., 906pp., 931,
340, 371, 390, 414, 418p., 433pp., 447, 473, 935, 968pp., 974, 981p., 984p., 1004pp., 1030,
491p., 501, 507p., 527, 546, 564, 569, 593, 596, 1032pp., 1038p., 1042, 1044pp., 1052pp., 1066,
602, 622, 646, 676pp., 681, 696, 698, 704, 762, 1075, 1077p.
766, 797, 804, 810, 836, 906, 933, 935, 940p., 980, ..........................................764, 1026p., 1038, 1071
1037, 1045, 1066p. Mark...................................................................341
Will and Way of God 71, 159, 202, 414, 622, 676p., Matthew.............................................................341
679 , Gallegos, Childress and Stein...........................591
Will of God...56, 60, 129, 148, 172, 200, 209, 219, "Cry 'Havoc!', and let slip the dogs of war".......535
228, 298, 371, 501, 507, 564, 569, 678, 681, 940
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I HAVE AN ETERNITY AHEAD OF ME !
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