HB H

HB B
B
H
H
HB
B 2010 - 2018
 The rattled heart finds calmness in seeing your name appear on the screen.
The troubled mind suddenly finds serenity in knowing you're still there.
This broken soul finds happiness on feeling you still care.

But then comes the memory of the thunder and the rain
The great storm that turned two minefields into stones

Was it right they did not explode?

Was it good to know that two lost souls were not meant to be…

to be found all along?

 He wanted me to write a book, but our story was too
complicated, so I decided to write whatever I felt writing about it
instead.
 To that person who’s the reason behind all these,
Never going to be sorry for caring so much about my grades
What I want to be sorry for is not letting you know how important
and special you are to me
Those four years, I thought I was doing a great job in balancing
my academics and you
So I'm sorry for making you feel like just my number two
…
Table of Contents Honestly, Honest, Honesty
How And Why
A How Do You Know Who You Miss
Almost Perfect How I Loved You
Andito Na Naman Tayo How It Really Is
August 4, 2016: My Dead Giveaway How She Moved On
A Future With You
I
B "I Love You"
Bakit Kita Hinayaan I Still Miss You, Occasionally
Between The Pages I Tried
Birthday I Wish I Could Tell You
―Bye‖ In Case You Want To Know How My Days Went
Indulgence
C Is It Bad?
Chaos Isang Taon Na Naman Ang Lumipas
Clearance "I'll Never"
Clueless? It's Us
Confession
Consider Me A Risk Taker J
January 14, 2016
D
Daydreaming K
Destiny Kant, probably
Kaya
E Kwento
Effort
Ends at 3:05 – Dec 7 2016 L
Every Valentine‘s Day Late
Learned Helplessness
F LOVE
Filed Under: Stuff I Write Down When I Remember You LRT
Finding Someone New
For The Questions I Did Not Get To Ask M
Friends Magandang Umaga
Mga Alaala
G Midnights
Game? MK54
Gone And Away Moments And Memories
Guess I Stopped My Anxiety, My Questions, My Doubts
My Hulk
H My Mind Lately
Habituation
Haunted N
HE Natatakot Ako
Heart And He Not Your Battle
Her Valium
O Too Late
Of Course Tuwing May Maaalala
Old Perfume
Once Upon A Time U
Our Ending Unfinished
Our Favorite Game Unfinished II
Unspoken I
P
Paano Kaya Kung? W
Pagod Wala Nang Dapat Balikan
Phases We Cried Ourselves To Sleep
Photograph What If
Piece Of Advice What To Do
Practically When I Should Have Known
Who To Blame?
Q Who Was The One That Got Away?
Questionable Choices? Why It Didn't Work
Questions That Keep The Mind Awake At Night Why We Broke Up

R Y
Rationalization #WhySettle YES
Repeat Until Hindi Mo Na Siya Mahal YOU
Recollection You Remind Me Of A Starry Night

S #
Salamat 1976
Simple And Complicated All At Once 2 Types Of People
Slipping Away 3 Years After
Sorry 7 Years
Split Of A Seconnd Moments
Star Wars
Still
Still Haunts Me After All These Years
Still The Same
Strong, Independent Woman

T
Teka lang
Text "Extend" Until 100%
The Aftermath
The Power Of One
The Thing I Hate About Being Alone
The Things That Stayed
Then And Now
This Is My Goodbye
TIS A LOVE STORY
To My Other Half But Not My Meant To Be
Almost Perfect ♥

She tries
her best
to hold back

Every
laugh

To hide
every smile

Because she knew

someone‘s falling

Sadly,
On Repeat:
Unfortunately,
he should not. Girl At Home
By

Taylor Swift
Andito Na Naman Tayo August 4, 2016: My Dead Giveaway

Andito na naman tayo sa Two years after

Kung gusto mo talaga akong makausap Again on January
Maraming paraan I died
Andito na naman sa panahon na In that moment
Kung saan hindi kita hahayaang makapagsalita I stopped breathing
Hindi ako makikinig My heart stopped
Lalayo at iiwasan And I believe
Para lang hindi pumatak ulit ang mga luha I stopped existing
Sa mga matang akala kong tapos nang mapagod And you were gone too
Para hindi na ulit mawasak ang pusong
Katatapos lang mabuo Now, months after that
Every time I miss you
Or come across something
That reminds me of you
I call out your name
Not hoping you would even hear or feel it
But I always say "hi"
Sometimes I smile after that
But more often, I sigh.
A Future With You Bakit Kita Hinayaan

Marriage, children Natanong mo kung bakit

I‘m only willing because it‘s you Hindi na kita pinaglaban
Being with you made me open to the idea
Oo nga naman
That maybe perhaps love can really do conquer most,
Tama ka
If not all
But plans for two never works out Pero ang hindi mo nakita
If only one knows about it Kaya pinili kong sumuko na
Kasi pinili mo na siya

Hindi tulad ng sa iba

Na nagpakita ng motibo
Pero hindi mo pinuna

Kaya patawad sa pag-alis

Ano pa naman kasing magagawa
Kung ang gusto mo na
Ay siya
Na laging nariyan
Siya na gusto nila
Siya na mas nakakasama
Siya na kayang ibigay
Ang 'yong hinihingi
Tawag man o landi

Patawad kung pinatagal ko pa

Takot lang kasi ako--
Hindi rin sigurado
Na tatagal tayo hanggang dulo
Na matatapos ang kwento
Na tayo pa rin
Ikaw at ako--
Ikaw at ako sa harap ng kampana
Sa altar
Sa harap ng bintana
Sa silid
Sa harap ng mga bata
Sa hardin
Between the Pages ♥ Birthday

Between the pages Ilang ikapito ng Setyembre pa kayang

of my favorite book masasabik, maghihintay hanggang hatinggabi
are the gifts you gave para lamang malaman
that I chose to keep kung babati ka
And in between the pages
of my life you'll find Ilang buwan ng Setyembre pa kayang magpapatuloy
the memories of you and with you, na sa bawat paggising pipiliing ilaan ang araw
and of what we were and what we could have been sa paghihintay na isa sa mga araw sa buwang iyon
that I just could not ever let go ay babati ka
still
Ilang tanong pa kaya ang aking tatanungin hanggang
Tama na
Tapos na
Natigil na

#MurderOnTheEiffelTower
“Bye”
Time lost is lost time
Chances lost are lost chances
Last straw, this is it
Not holding back
Finally letting go.
I finally knew what word—
Chaos ♥
You‘re the poem I couldn‘t understand
How I thought I do, but man
I was a puzzle piece
Not knowing you were a jigsaw
You and I, the end of time
Sorry if that‘s what I saw
Wished for the winter
When I wanted was the rain
Looking back, I realized
I never asked for the pain
Was dreaming for an ever after
Not a goodbye
But I was a verse in a song—
Had so much to say
So you skipped to the chorus
And then walked away.
Clearance Clueless?

Woke up just in time when I can still stop myself from dreaming
And getting my hopes up once again
But would I have looked at life differently if I‘m still with you?
Maybe I‘ll still believe we'll get through anything still sane because
We're together
My best sleep is still with you
And now I‘ll remember you every time I eat for breakfast
Rereading our emails even became a birthday tradition
It‘s the little things really
That keeps me fixed to the moment you left me
It was the happiest time for me
I never understood why you had a change of heart

In this hallway,
Three months after the storm,
You said ―Hi.‖
You were wearing my favorite shirt of yours,
I walked away.
You followed me,
Then suddenly
Placed your arm over my shoulders
--Like you always did,
And that‘s when our best friends said,
―Parang kayo pa rin.‖
Confession Consider Me A Risk Taker

What I will tell you: He was the only risk

Will I trade the silence to calm my curious mind and troubled heart? I have always been willing to take
--has always taken
Over and over again
What I want to say:
We may want to be there for each other
But I know we don't need each other anymore
So though I know it's now okay for us to be friends again
I'd rather let us be out of each other‘s' lives
and not let there be fights once more
Daydreaming Destiny

Maybe someday we'll meet again and realize that we were always Salamat sa kapalaran
meant to be At hindi tayo pareho ng tadhana
And we just met when the timing wasn't right Na walang dahilan para
Because we had a different priority ang landas nating dalawa ay
Maybe we could try again Magkrus pa't tayo'y
And finally take that walk Magkita, magsama, mag-usap
Then maybe dance under the moonlight,
A forehead kiss before we say "Goodnight"?

Yes, I'm daydreaming

Isn't it what most of us do?
But it finally hits me
This life's non-fiction
It doesn't end how we dreamt it would
No one starts to sing a song
To which her lover will sing along
There's no narrator who will start to fast forward the days
Then show the line: ‗And they lived happily ever after‘ at the end
No, those things never happen
But it can feel like that,
doesn't it?
Effort Ends at 3:05 - Dec 7 2016

Rain droplets can look as if I grew tired of waiting

They were infinite stars in the dark sky For someone to arrive
You just have to see them under certain conditions To call
Or text
Maybe that is how we fell in love Or chat
And also perhaps why we stayed To do something wonderful
To surprise me
To be with me
To show up on my front door
When I least expect it
To come running
When I needed him the most

That's why being single is better

So I'm not expecting for someone to
Arrive
Or call
Or text
Or chat
To do something wonderful
To surprise me
To be with me
To show up on my front door
When I least expect it
To come running
When I needed him the most

And if ever someone will

Call
Or text
Or chat
Or do something wonderful
Like surprising me by
Showing up on my front door
When I least expect it
Or coming down running
Just to be by my side when I need someone to be there for me
It will be a beautiful, magical, extraordinary feeling Every Valentine’s Day
And that's a thousand times better than waiting
The clouds looked like mountains today
And the raindrops on my umbrella looked like stars
But the picture of you in mind is still the same
And I wished I just listened that day
When you were to give your speech
But again, I had it my way
 napunta,
wala kang agad
tinawagan para
i-share gaano ka
katanga,
gaano ka
katakot,
gaano mo na gustong
umiyak na lang
kahit alam mo namang
wala naman yung magagawa.

Filed Under: Stuff I Write Down When I Remember You

Yung nagmamadali ka nang makauwi kasi

10pm na tapos ang dami
mo pang gagawin tapos
8am pa first class mo bukas, pero
Imbis pa-Taft, pa-North Ave
Yung nasakyan mo.
Naulit na naman,
pero unlike last time Naaalala mo pa ba nung napadpad ako sa Recto?
na sa kabilang direksyon ka
Finding Someone New For The Questions I Did Not Get To Ask ♥

I want someone who‘ll appreciate looking at the sky for long hours Some questions are better
Loving that experience of seeing more stars the longer you stare left unanswered
Or maybe until now I just want you For the magic to remain

Or maybe
For some,
Just not to add to the pain
Friends Game? ♥

For three years If after some years we ever meet again

I constantly chose you over my friends Will you still know how to touch me
For three years And will it feel the same?
I had and lost and had them—over and over again If it does, will I be able to hide it
For three years Or will I lose the game?
I took them for granted
For three years--as a fool I was in love
You were all that I thought I ever wanted

But how funny life is

Because in less than a year with them
You have chosen your friends over me
In less than a year
You chose to lose what we fought hard to be
In less than a year
You believed in them
Rather than on the relationship we built for years

In less than a year

You chose to lose what you really wanted
Then all that was left with us were these tears

It was horrible, terrible,

Yet extremely typical
What we had become
Is toxic, enigmatic,
Could have been magical but ended up awfully tragic
So now that I think about it
What has happened
Is maybe what was supposed to
For me to realize
That right from the start,
I should have chosen my friends
Over you.

Two years after, I see a picture of you hanging out

Gone And Away Guess I Stopped

Gone away are her dreams, How do you know you love someone?
Just like him. It's when you've got a million things to juggle
Gone away are her smiles, And you're still choosing to add one more
Just like him. Because you know it'll complete you,
Gone away is her idea of a happy ever after It'll make everything make sense
After being left by him.

Gone away are her hopes

of being with the man she first loved forever
All because of him.
Gone away is the twinkle in her eyes,
Her beautiful mind and her smart mouth

And now she settles for something

to just keep her here, still
Cause she'll never be alive again.

High school is such an early time

To stop believing in love
And entering college
Made it worse
Habituation Haunted ♥

One message. Because I never knew why he left,

One greeting. Never knew what he felt,
One ―hi.‖ Why he loved me and why he walked away
During the time when I told myself, "Finally,
I found someone
Replies, Who's gonna stay."
Then nothing.

Years,
But I survived.

Because it took you months to email me back

HE

He makes you feel

Safe, secure, warm
Complete

The only one

Who can make your heart smile
When you‘re totally down

Mere presence,
Existence
Happiness such brings

He‘s good for you

Yet the worst for you,
Too

Bad boy, playboy

Played with numerous hearts
Knows the game and how to play it

Will make it seem like you‘re winning

So you wouldn‘t be expecting
The Ace he still has up his sleeve

You lost, you weep,

You cry,
You‘ve gone

It was the right thing to do

You moved on.

He can make a girl stay but that doesn't mean he treats her right
every single day
Heart And He

Eyes, smile,
Hair, voice,
Hand, heart,
Lips, Words...
Ever so charming
But never ever thought
Have the capacity to be completely disarming.

He was my strength,
My only strength,
Also my greatest weakness.
I think that happens
When you make him your life
And that's not bad at all
On Repeat:
You just love—
The most noble thing in the world, Holy Ground
I'm just thankful
I did not completely By
Lose myself
Taylor Swift
But, Oh how I wish
I could soak my heart
In an ice cold bath
To numb the pain I felt
When he decided not to stay

Oh how I wish
I could restore this broken heart
As if it was a computer
And erase all the pain

But then, that never happens

It never will be…
Just like us
Never really meant to be.
 Her Valium

She was
too afraid
to get hurt
again
That she shielded herself
from feeling
any pain
Not knowing
in the process
she has kept herself
from feeling
Sadly,
it‟s this state—this
nothingness
that‟s keeping her
sane.

Personal Note:

I wake up to this every morning
Perhaps the saddest thing that happened after losing him was, in
the process of trying my hardest to forget him and everything that
has happened between us, I also have forgotten my memories with
other people, even those of my best friends, and I have become
apathetic to almost everything.
Honestly, Honest, Honesty

He‘s been nothing but honest

Before.
He‘s been nothing but honest
Now.

He told me he misses me,

I do miss him too
But he must not know
Now
No.

It‟s for the best On Repeat:

For us,
Lips of an Angel
Or maybe just
still By
For me.
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
How and Why

They said
If
You could imagine
Your future
With him
That‘s it

Well,
I tried hard
—nothing.

Never liked this one, but you did—funny how I was

then willing to compromise
How Do You Know Who You Miss

―I MISS YOU,‖
You said.

Do I, too?

The answer
I‘m not quite sure

Is it my best friend
I long?

Or maybe
Just the company
Or the feeling On Repeat:
Of it
I Hate U I Love U
Or because the memories
Were just too many By
They‘re still there
That‘s why I do? Gnash feat. Olive O’brien

But you?
I guess,
I do too

All of it—
Surprisingly—I
Still do.
May 27, 2015; 3:37 a.m. How I Loved You

Part I
When you said "I MISS YOU," napaisip ako. Do I miss you too? Yes, you usually ‗Cause baby I wrote you letters I know I‘ll never send
come to my mind—more often than welcomed, more frequently every time na Confessions of my love and hate—secrets I never tell.
magpaparamdam ka. I wrote you poems I know you‘ll never ever read
Even sang you songs you‘ll never ever hear
I'm not really sure if that meant I miss you. „Cause that‟s how I love you—
still.
I do miss...something. I'm not quite sure what. After you said you miss me, I
started questioning what is it I miss. Is it really you? Or just the kind of comfort Part II
and security I find in your company? If I miss you, as you, I would want to see ‗Cause baby I wrote you letters I know I‘ll never send
you in person. But I don't. I don't want to be anywhere near you or even see you. Left them and let them be found by some other men
Seeing you makes my heart feel heavy. Makita lang 'yong mukha mo sa facebook, Confessions of love and hate and doubts—
nararamdaman kong nanghihina ako bigla. So maybe it's really just your my secrets I never ever tell—
company—missing those times when I had someone to talk to about everything. Except to the pen and the paper and the house I plan to sell.
But then, every time I settle with that answer, my mind would bug me with the
thought that we should meet, one last time. To get this over with. Nakakasawa na
e. Ikaw ba hindi ka pa nagsasawa sa ganitong sitwasyon? Sa ganitong set-up? Ako
kasi sawang-sawa na. Your ability to find a way to reach me (na sobrang
nakakatawa kasi sana nakuha mo 'yang skill na 'yan nung mayroon pang tayo,) it's
the only thing that's holding me back from fully embracing my new life. But I
guess I still don't have the courage to meet and have a talk with you.

Another thing, remember when you said na sabihin ko na lahat 'yong gusto kong
sabihin sayo? I'm telling you, it's tempting to do so. It takes so much control to
hold onto all those stupid feelings para lang hindi ko malabas. One part of my
mind was saying, "sabihin mo na lahat, para matapos na," while the other half
tells me to hold onto my pride. Iyon na lang kasi 'yong pinanghahawakan ko e.
Iyon na lang 'yong natitira sakin kaya nakukuha kong magalit kaysa mag-
breakdown tuwing kinakausap mo 'ko. Kaya hindi kita kayang makausap sa
personal, kasi simula't sapul, you're my weakness. Kaya ayaw kong sayangin 'yong
effort na ginawa ko ng halos isang taon para lang makangiti ulit.

He told me his dreams

I chose to dwell on our past
Diba Civil Engineering ako? Tapos Architecture ka? How It Really Is

Why does no story talk about the rollercoaster ride?

On how to deal with every day,
With every passing second,
After a relationship is over?
And so others expect
That we live the next chapter
Like the characters in those films
Who can move on in a matter of days
Yes, it is possible
But no one talks about how you
Cry in the morning,
Choose to sleep the whole afternoon
Then forces yourself to party at night
Forget about him for a day
And miss him again at the very next
Accept what has happened and meet someone new
Then all of a sudden all the feelings will just rush back in to you
Question your choices, and then rationalize
Convince yourself you are happy
Then after a few minutes cry
The urge to reconcile then the urge to curse him for everything
Decide this is for the best but realize if it‘s with him
Your eyes would still be smiling
How She Moved On “I Love You”

I stopped taking notes Every “I love you” meant “I‟d marry you”
Of dates In times when my heart would smile
When something special happened Or was breaking
So there's nothing to
Every ―I love you‖ became a reminder to stay
Remember
Or forget But of course,
In the end,
I love you meant I‘d have to let you walk away

It‟s hard to forget so I don‟t think about it instead

I Still Miss You, Occasionally I Tried

I'm not afraid to admit Changed my hair

That it'll be a different level of happiness Changed my clothes
If it was I instead of her Changed the colors in my wardrobe
Changed how I act
If it was us instead of you who are now together
But I can't change the fact
That I love you still
But I'd also admit But I don't want you back
That even so,
I'm really happy
that you are happy
And that you have stayed
in one relationship for this long
I'm glad that you've found someone new
And it'll be really wonderful if she's the one
I'm not expecting to be invited to your wedding after this
I just wanted to say I'm glad
Of what you have become

Tinanong mo ako noon kung mahal pa rin kita.

Ang sabi ko, oo, mahal pa rin kita pero
hindi na sapat „yon para gustuhin kong bumalik pa.
I Wish I Could Tell You In Case You Want To Know How My Days Went

Every time I remember you Lately, I've always dreamt of you

What immediately comes to mind Not quite sure if those were when I was asleep
Is your happy now, Or perhaps day dreaming
Even happier is what I actually think of It has become difficult to tell
And maybe this shows that,
Even without having someone new,
I have already accepted everything--
What happened, how it ended
How it made us feel and the kind of person it made us become
Indulgence Is It Bad?

It was the twentieth Was it bad?

I was walking home To hold back?
I draped my jacket over my shoulders To not give it all?
To not be all out?
Because it was a bit chilly
To love you with reservations—
I don't want to get sick
But I also wanted to enjoy the rare occasions when the world blesses us Because in the back of my mind
with a cold air that hugs us at night I'm saving myself
After a few steps, I paused to fix how it was draped Because in the back of my mind
Scared it will slide off me I knew this wouldn't last
It was slowly falling
Was it bad?
No one wants her favorite jacket to fall on the wet and muddy ground
That's when I remembered the there was this person known for wearing
a school jacket that way
I don't think he ever knew I always found that cool
Always making an entrance to class because he was always late
But also has that certain charm that's probably because of the jacket--
debatable but not worthy of my time
But I smiled remembering that
And then a few steps more
I passed by a food park
Playing was the song I learned in a ukulele during the time I was moving
on
It was only after a few years when I realized the lyric from the song holds
true
You indeed only know you loved him after you let him go

I was a lot of things

But never completely yours
 Isang Taon Na Naman Ang Lumipas

Napapagod na ang isip ngunit hindi tumitigil

Ayaw magpatulog, madaling araw na naman
Patuloy lang sa pagpapakita ng mga panahon
Na tayo'y magkasama, na tayo'y masaya
"Tama na, pwede ba?"
Daing ng mga matang masakit at mabigat na
Natuto nang makinig ang mga tainga, naisarado na rin ang bibig
Tanging isip na lang ang 'di tumatanggap
Sa desisyon ng pusong tigilan nang mahalin ka pa
Nakakatawa, nakakaloko, at nakakabaliw
Na sa rasyonal na isip pa manggagaling ang mga katagang:
"Maaari pa, kaya pa"
Pero ang puso ko,
On Repeat: Sumuko na

I Love You, Goodbye

By

Juris
“I’ll Never” It’s Us

In this lifetime You've always thought he wasn't doing enough

I unpurposely had Then after 3 years, you looked back
A list of things And the long list overwhelmed you
I swore You just weren't appreciating all those back then
I'd never do:
Divide my hair in the middle Too busy hoping for something
Cut my hair short, Missed out what was there
Wear short shorts, Three years too late
Keep all my hair away from my face, We can‟t start all over again
Keep my hair this long,
Wear loose clothing, So I spend my days rereading
Wear platform heels, the few conversations I have saved
Wear heels without straps, Reliving the good and the bad--
Buy myself some shoes I say this is brave
That are not pairs of Chucks For I know there will be no more,
Said I'll never own The universe has stopped giving us our chances
shoes that are not black or white You‘re not free and I‘m still scared
Said I'll never buy a skater skirt We know this story has to end
Or buy my own make up Maybe should have been earlier than before
Walk that far
Or curse or swear
Said I'll never take a lead role and present on stage
And just be that girl that
stays behind the curtains
telling people what to do
Said I'll never wear a one piece
Or buy a brassiere that‘s not black
Said I'll never buy pointed shoes
So when I said
I'd never fall in love with you
I should've known
I'll do.

For The First Time

starring KC Concepcion and Richard Gutierrez
January 14, 2016 ♥
When you‘re ready to let it go
But then the pain becomes more
But you can‘t let it show
Because you know there‘s no ―us‖ anymore
Kant, probably
Ayon sa Ethics, happiness daw ang ultimate goal
ng isang nilalang
Pero ikaw ang happiness ko at
Alam kong hindi ka lang daan pero ikaw ang patutunghan
Dahil kahit sa lungkot at sakit, ang pipiliin pa rin...
Ikaw
Kaya
Kaya kong magpaakbay
Kasi sa hawak kamay mo naman ako nasanay
Kaya kong magpayakap
Pero hindi nang nakangiti
Kaya ko ring sabihin ang ―mahal kita‖
Kahit ilang ulit
Pero sa bawat pagkakataon
Ikaw pa rin ang naaalala
Kwento
Nandito ka naman
Lumabas na ulit ang karakter mo
Kung kailan patapos na ang kwento
Ngunit hindi na ako nababahala dahil kilala na kita
Ikaw yung hindi magtatagal sa susunod na kabanata
Sayo lahat nagsisimula ang mga nakalipas na umpisa
dahil lagi kang sa dulo dumarating
Pero wala kang tinatapos
Kaya gigising na mula sa panaginip na pinagbigyang makasama ka
Tapos na ang mga pagbalik
Kahit na masakit
Para lang may maramdaman
Pati ang ilang beses na pagpili sa kamatayan
Para makaramdam ng buhay kahit panandalian
Lahat ng pamamaalaman
Na sa gitna ng kwento laging natutunghayan
Ngayon ko na tutuldukan.
Late ♥ Learned Helplessness

Kung kailan naitago na

Saka hahanapin.

Kung kailan paalis na

Saka may sasabihin.

Kung kailan matutulog na

Saka tatawagan.

Kung kailan naka-move on na

Saka babalikan.
LOVE ♥ LRT

How I used to believe in you, Nagmadali ka

How I thought that you were true.
But then one day,
A guy came my way.
Who had sworn by his heart
That we will never be apart.
Nagmamadali ka kasi
May naghihintay sa pang-anim na istasyon
Nasasabik ka
Ngayon lang kasi siya ang nauna
Na magsabing hihintayin ka niya

‗Twas a promise of forever, Ikalawang istasyon

And a life of happy ever after. Nagtanong "Nasaan ka na?"
He said, "It would always be you and me." ―Sorry kasi biglang bumagal ang takbo‖
But now, I guess, I just have to set him free... Paliwanag mo
Na may halong lungkot at pag-asa

"Sige bilisan mo"

Natuwa ka,
Minsan lang siya maghintay nang ganito
---Tatlong taon

Isang istasyon na lang

May ngiti na sa labi mo
Naitype mo na
"Malapit na ako"
…

"Umalis na ako
Hindi ko na mahihintay"

Parang noong isang Enero lang

Isang taong na lang
Pero hindi niya rin nahintay.
Magandang Umaga ♥
May isang text na hindi ko binubura
Pero hindi ko naman binabasa
ang bawat isang salitang naroon
Hindi ko kasi kaya
dahil hanggang ngayon
Matapos ang lagpas tatlong taon
May epekto pa rin
May luha pa ring tutulo
At buong maghapon
hanggang gabi o kaya hanggang
bukas pa ring magugulo
ang isipan at damdamin
Itatanong na naman
kung bakit humantong sa ganito
ang pag-iibigang akala na ng lahat
ay hanggang duo
Mga Alaala
Kailan lang noong bumalik ang lahat ng mga alaalang
nagpaalala sa akin kung bakit kita minahal
At hindi ko akalain na matapos naman noon ay sunod kong maaalala
ang napakaraming dahilan kung bakit ako tumigil
Hindi pa rin pala tapos ang kwento ng buhay kong kasama ka
Sinasanay pa rin ang sariling makita kang may kasamang iba
Hinihintay pa rin ang panahong iba na ang maiisip tuwing sumasakay
ng tren
At malilumutan na ang isang hapon na pinili mong wag na ‗kong
hintayin
Kung magkukrus pa man ulit ang mga landas
Sana para lang mapatunayan ko nang di ka na mahal talaga
Hindi tulad ng sa ngayon
Na puro pansamantala
Midnights MK54 ♥

My happiest nights Dawalang salita

Are still the times Dalawang salita lang ang kailangan
Up to midnight when Para maramdaman ko ulit
I'd listen to the songs you play Para maalalala ko ulit
And guess what Taylor Swift songs those were Bakit ako hindi umalis
Also, the unfamiliar lyrics you sent Bakit tayo nagtagal
Then I'd figure out from what Taylor Swift song Bakit kita minahal
And then sing the rest of it Nakalimutan ko
Remember when Na ikaw nga pala ang unang taong
I've always thought it went ―…it was cold‖ Ipiniramdam sakin na
Then you told me ―no, Ako'y mahalaga
It was the air was cold.‖ Na maaari naman palang
Kapag nagmahal ka, pinapakita
It was all smiles and wonderful feelings Pero tulad din ng dalawang salita
But all these will end in the morning Na madalas nating sinasabi sa isa't isa
with me singing the songs Hindi na rin sapat ang alalaang ito
Superman and Over you Para piliin kong balikan ka pa
And I'd see you Dahil muli ko ring nabasa ang mga dahilan
Not giving a damn Kung bakit umalis na rin ako
And then you'd log off Patawad kung sa hirap
And I'll always wait til 3 Ay umayaw na lang ako
Hoping I'd see your face again

If a promise was broken, can you call it a lie?

If I decided to stop loving you, would you call me a coward if I
only grew tired?
Moments And Memories My Anxiety, My Questions, My Doubts

Isang message na hindi pinag-isipan, I dreamt of you again

Ilang araw mong iisipin. It was my birthday, I believe
I woke up with you and found out that
Ilang gabing alam mong hindi plinano, As usual, you haven't prepared anything
Ilang gabi mong aalalahanin. But then I know you saw me
Drooling on my pillow
Isang larawang hindi sinasadyang madaanan sa News feed, as my hair covers my whole face except
Ilang tanong ang tatanungin, my mouth that's making a mess
Sa sarili And you just laughed
That kind of laugh that makes one tilt his head as he laughs with his
“Ano nga ba ang nangyari?” heart open
and you can see the sparkles in his eyes...
And maybe that's why I stayed
My Hulk I knew
I cannot stop
Why I stopped Nor control
Why I didn‘t …
So, sorry
I said, ―I trust you‖ I chose to walk away
I did. Than to be strong
I had that faith—
You wouldn‘t. So sorry
That I have told you
But still, You were weak
Deep in my heart When it was me all along
…I‘m sorry
I was afraid So sorry
When I said,
Afraid that if ―You did not fight for us‖
I said ―yes‖ When it was I
Everything Who chose not hold on
Will change
Anymore.
Demands
I know I cannot comply
Demands
I know, will be against my will
But
I know
Will be your right

You are one sweet little thing

I have loved all my living life—
With all my broken yet happy heart

But sometimes there is that

Boy I didn‟t tell you…
In you— Maybe I should have…
Full of rage
But…would you have stayed?
My Mind Lately Natatakot Ako

Ako na lang ang naghihintay sayo Natatakot ako

Ako na lang Tuwing nagva-vibrate ang cellphone ko.
Ako?
Ikaw na lang... Natatakot ako
Ikaw pa rin Tuwing maririnig ko ang tunog ng phone kapag may nag-text.
Ikaw
Sayo Natatakot ako
Tayo Tuwing makikita ko ang envelope na icon sa notification bar.
Sila Natatakot ako
...kita
Wala Natatakot
Hindi Ako
Pala Na matakot ulit.
Not Your Battle ♥

Cause he said,
―I‘ll be the one who‘ll
Rescue you from the dungeon
Save you from the misery‖
Promised you won‘t be lonely

So you said,
“Tell me please what happened
Were you just late?
Or on the way you realized you shouldn‟t have stayed?” On Repeat:

He left without a goodbye Mine

Turn around and just cry?
But girl, I know you‘re stronger By
Say, ―Thank you for the goodbye!‖
Taylor Swift
Of Course Old Perfume

Who am I kidding I rode an fx today

What was I thinking Beside me
We both knew you wouldn't Was a man

He wore...
He smells...
It reminds me of...

You.
Me.
Us.
Dark and sad.

That same familiar smell

Enters my body
Without asking
I struggled, I protested,
Heart whimpered.

The smell stays and lingers

It did it again and again.

Your ghost still haunts me after all these years

Once Upon A Time ♥
Once upon a time,
There was a girl who loved a boy,
And she spent her whole life asking
Asking why he smiles
Every time he's not
With her
Our Ending
We stopped by a bridge
You stared at the horizon
I got lost in the stars
No talking
Then,
We walked some more
You suddenly stopped, looked up
And admired that one moon
...But I did not seem to notice
I continued and looked for a higher place
Left you, climbed up, looked down
And fell in love with the city lights
There I stayed for quite some time
Until I realized I'm alone
But, funny how the night makes me feel safe
So I decided to stay a little more
And every time, every day, I try
Try my best not to look for you
As I try my best not to be seen anymore
By you
Our Favorite Game
Hindi ko sasabihing ―salamat‖
Sasabihin ko: Hindi kailangan
Hindi mo sasabihing ―patawad‖
Sasabihin mo: Mahal kita
Paano Kaya Kung?
Hihiling
Pero hindi sigurado sa mararamdaman
Dapat bang hayaan na lang
O pwede namang subukan
Wala namang mawawala
May magbabago lang
Hindi man sigurado kung maganda ang maidudulot nito
Matatapos naman ang pagtatanong mo sa sarili mo
Ng ilang ulit na 'Paano kaya kung'
Pagod ♥ Phases

Ipipikit ko na ang mga pagod na mata Phase !:

At kung sa pagdilat makikitang wala ka na Lahat naman masasaktan tayo
Ngayon mahal, matatanggap ko na Kailangan mo lang piliin yung tao na kakayanin mong balewalain yung
sakit
Kasi mas matimbang yung pagmamahal niyo sa isa't isa

Phase 2:
Mahal kita pero hindi na ikaw yung pinipili kong makasama kapag
nandyan na yung sakit at hirap

Phase 3:
Sigurado akong hindi na kita mahal, pero kapag nalasing ako, alam
kong ikaw pa rin ang unang hahanapin ko
Photograph ♥
I believe
Once in everybody's life
One becomes an old photograph
Once precious
Holding some special memory
But then becomes an
Unnecessary baggage
That takes up so little space
But requires a bigger heart
To keep it
Piece Of Advice
Stop telling a girl
all the things you think
she wanted to hear
Because they are not
as comforting as you think
they are when
your actions already
says it all
 Practically

"Impractical," she said

When asked about marriage
Such description coming from a girl
Who only three years ago
Told herself she would marry the boy
She's been in love with for four years
Right after college
She dreamt of being his fiancée
On the night of her graduation
Wait for him to finish for a year
Then tie the knot and live happily ever after
On Repeat:
Three years ago
How You Get The Girl Three years after
When was she more foolish?
By She does not know.

Taylor Swift
Questionable Choices? Questions That Keep The Mind Awake At Night ♥

I remember the afternoons Were we really lovers?

When my smiles would reach my eyes… Or just best friends?
But my eyes are closed Was it really love?
Ah, high on love Or just pretend?

Did we stay for love?

Or for security?
Did we wait for a forever?
Or just for our sanity?
Rationalization #WhySettle Repeat Until Hindi Mo Na Siya Mahal

Shouldn't THE ONE be Hindi kita mahal

someone who's more Natutuwa lang ako sayo
than you ever thought Hindi kita mahal
you wanted, Masaya lang makipagkwentuhan sayo
needed Hindi kita mahal
… Natutuwa lang ako kapag kasama kita
rather than Hindi kita mahal
someone you're willing Nasanay lang ako sayo
to settle for just because Hindi kita mahal
you think Pabayaan mo na ako
there's no one else
?
Recollection ♥
I was sitting on a pew
in the church above the hill
I was staring at a boy
who looked like you
Who tilts his head
the way you do
Who slouches and
holds his forehead while he sits
And I stayed there
and watched far longer than
I'd like to admit
And I
continued to stare
until a tear already fell
Then I asked myself:
Why bring yourself again to hell?
Salamat ♥
Pakiusap ko sana sinta
Makinig sa aking sasabihin
‗Di ko gustong ika‘y mawala
Pero dito tayo dinala ng tadhana
Hindi ko balak manggulo
Dumaan lang ako para sabihin sa‘yo
Salamat sa pag ibig
Na hindi ko pinahalagan
Salamat sa pagmamahal
Na kailan ko lang sinubukang tumbasan
Salamat sa alala
Ng kahapon na ngayo‘y lipas na
Wala na sa mga labi o isip mo sinta
Andito ako para sa huling alala
Na iiwanan ko na
Salamat sa panahon
Pinaramdam mo na ako'y may halaga
Salamat sa panahon—
Sa panahon na andito ka
At dito, tinatapos ko na
Paumanhin at salamat talaga.
 Got the idea for my next note from a post of a
friend. Immediately after I read the caption, I told
myself that it exactly describes what I was feeling.

On Repeat:

Send My Love (To Your New Lover)

By

Adele
Simple And Complicated All At Once
I miss you like
How I miss the sun
But how I don't want the heat it brings
I miss you like
How I miss the sound of the sweet pouring rain
But I should only be in my room
I miss you like
How I miss that kind of wind
That makes walking under the heat tolerable
And I miss writing these kinds of stuff
Just to make missing you
Bearable.
Slipping Away ♥
Because I‘m slowly slipping away
Away from the memories of you.
I‘m slowly slipping away
Away from the pain and hurt and you.
And I‟m slowly slipping away
In a pace wherein
It‟ll be too late for you to realize I already left
And you‟ll ask yourself, “When did it begin?”
Sorry Split Of A Second Moments

Isn't it sad Heart skipped,

That the moment In shock
You realized Or surprise?
He really did
No thinking.
Give you
What you wanted One smile.
He's already gone?
Troubles you all day.
He already left
And moved on.
Star Wars Still ♥

I saw a video about Star Wars today Twelve months stupid,

I loved it so much One year waiting
My immediate reaction was to send it to you
And funny enough, the first problem that came to my mind was: Thinking you‘d be different,
Does Instagram support sending videos? Hoping you‘d try
If not, I can't screenshot this
Or should I just send him the link? Bridge the gap,
Then I remembered we're not friends anymore Dry the tears
So I go back and scroll some more
Fix what broke down…
Ha! Such wishful thinking.

Because you emailed me that day

Trivia: Still Haunts Me After All These Years

If I danced with you that night

There’s actually something written by Lang Leav Would that be easier to forget
that says the same thing as “Slipping away.” I read that Than that lingering question
That may forever stay?
specific poem, entitled “When,” almost two years after
making “Slipping away” and it was the reason why I And if I told you my dreams
Would our ending be the same?
decided to edit the Word document that contains all the Or it would just be like all of them
poems I have written for the past two years and add Who thought love was an easy game?

some trivia and stuff.

Still The Same Strong, Independent Woman

And yes, my heart still skips a beat After months of avoiding it

My breathing still stops Again,
Whenever I see or hear or smell I find myself
Something that reminds me of you With tears
You still have that same effect on me starting to pool in my eyes
And I seriously don't know what to do As I ride the LRT

I was thinking of
that one moment
And suddenly realized
How special it was

So now I will confess

That my only memory of you
smiling
Was that only time
I gave up trying
And I let you
Carry my
Stuff

I still remember how

Your face lit up
Your eyes sparkled
And you gave me
Your biggest smile
When I made you
Carry that heavy wooden box
--Full of my books and notes
Then we walked

Do you remember?
Do you still remember?

But you don't have to.

Teka Lang Text “Extend” Until 100%

Pipiliin na lang na walang alam Handa na ulit akong maging masaya

At walang nararamdaman Ngunit ang masaktan ay hindi pa
Kaysa masaktan Kaya hindi pa dapat magmahal
Hanggang kailan? Dahil baka maiwan lang kita
Hanggang pinipili ng kapalaran na ako'y pagbigyan Kapag ako'y napagod na
Hanggang may pagkakataong iwasan
Hanggang kaya pang tumalikod o ipikit ang mga mata
Sa katotohanang alam ko naman matagal na
Pero masakit pa rin hanggang ngayon
Kaya taympers muna
The Aftermath The Power Of One

Because our friends stayed One encounter

And us, lovers,
Well, we chose to walk away
A thousand words follow
One meeting
Next are a hundred questions
Of How and Why and When
Did we end
Like this

How and Why and When

It all changed

Just
How and Why
Her
and not me
The Thing I Hate About Being Alone
The voices have calmed down
The noise is now harder to hear
It's now easier not to care
Only when there's silence in the room
That I become deaf within
The Things That Stayed ♥
The things I didn‘t say
And decided not to write down
Are the things that are hard to remember
But harder to forget
And I've tried hard—everything
To experience it again
The feeling, the intensity
The release, the calm
The relief
But it's never the same.
If I did tell you my plans,
Would you have stayed?
Or would that give you more reason
To just walk away?
Then And Now ♥ Trivia:
Too much sadness
Too much madness The poem was entitled “Then and Now” because
Everything because of one wrong move.
the first draft of the poem was written when I was still
This lack of happiness in second year high school, and while on the process of
Is the reason of my sudden weakness
Why does it have to be you? compiling all the poems I’ve written in the past two
It's hard to smile. years, I happened to see the draft at the back page of
It's even harder to pretend to be okay. one of my notebooks then. It was actually quite a
I hate that it has to be this way:
realization that the feelings were still the same even
I love you still—
And this is too much after all that we have been through. I thought that we
I'll let you go,
have matured and grown enough in our relationship,
I've had enough. but I was completely surprised to see that he still has
that same effect on me after all those years. So, with
that, I revised that draft, added my current feelings into
the poem, and what is in the book is the finished
product.
This Is My Goodbye TIS A LOVE STORY ♥

I miss your smile and the shine in your eyes A rose bud.
I miss your warmth and embrace making me feel like And a flower in bloom.
Everything is going to be okay, Came pouring was the rain.
Fine Then shine was the sun.
I miss the feel of your chest on my back Lived in the sky—
The feel of your chin on my head for a while—
Your hands intertwined with mine so high.
Down to rocky slopes.
If we meet again A leaf on the end of a branch,
I'll hug you Then we let go.
If ever that's allowed
A hug that is long enough to be cathartic
But short enough to forget you

There‘s nothing left to save

I‘m happy you‘re okay
But I‘m happier that I‘m now alive
To My Other Half But Not My Meant To Be Too Late

To the guy who has Probably the saddest thing was

Always Knowing we tried to remain as best friends
Left me hanging, Only to later find out that
Others' opinions are just more powerful
Than what we thought we had
Hi.

Now, I can say

You are a just
A memory;
Some prized possession—
A collection
Of all my What Ifs
And Could Have Beens

But still,
I confess,
After four long years,
It‘s still a mystery to me

I just realized
I should stop trying
To solve
A mystery that wasn‘t mine
To solve
Anymore.

You're another puzzle Jessie and J Forever

I chose not to finish starring and
Tuwing May Maaalala
Ipipikit ang mga mata
At palilipasin ang pagkakataon
Magbabakasakaling ang alalang lipas na
Ay hindi na babalik at magpapakita pa
Unfinished
They said if you see your future with them
In a house,
happy
Or if you experience that slow motion moment—
When everything is a blur
And he‟s the only one you see…
Must Be Love starring
Daniel Padilla and Kathryn Bernardo
__________________________
It‟s funny how I feel so uncomfortable when watching kilig movies
with you
Unfinished II ♥ Unspoken I

And I used to end up writing your name beside forever She walks around town all day saying,
Used to think we'll get through this together ―Love you!‖
Used to tell everybody "Boy how lucky am I" ―Miss you!‖
And they would agree, for they saw how in love I am with this guy
But never again
But now it's all gone
Had the courage
The laughter, the feelings, the shine in our eyes—now they're all wrong
To utter the word ―I‖
What we thought would last forever meant to end all along
And I tried to think about it, maybe we're just not that strong
Still because of that one guy.
But sad be not
For all that, remember this my love:

I'd say we'd played the game

We lost but had fun

We struggled to fight the tide
But our time is really done

It's time to stop

Time to walk away

From this madness
That led us go astray

It was three good years

Good three years
Still got no regrets
Thinking
It could have been us...
'Til the end.
Wala Nang Dapat Balikan ♥ We Cried Ourselves To Sleep

Sabay lang mai-inlove He knows everything

Pero hindi sabay aalis except my dreams for the two of us
Ngunit salamat pa rin
Sa pagdaan at pagtapos ng libro He knows everything
Tanggap ko nang tapos na except my fear of losing him when I finally said ―yes‖
Simula na ng bagong kwento
Sa‘yo nagsimula Because I was always the one who told him
Ako ang tatapos that change is inevitable
Pagod na ang nakaraan sa ating dalawa And that we must all accept it when it happens
Kailangan nang matapos ang storya
Ng dalawang taong inakalang panghabambuhay ay sila And he did
Pero hanggang sa alaala na lang pala I can‟t.
What If What To Do

Kapag nagmahal ulit ako, Look at me in the eyes

Gusto ko yung hindi ko siya kailangan
Yung gusto ko lang siyang makasama habambuhay,
sa lahat ng masaya at masakit.
Kaya, saka na kapag buo ka na.
Wag kang mag-alala, sanay akong maghintay.
Meron ka pang babalikan.
Wag mo nga lang masyadong tatagalan,
kasi baka pagbalik mo,
ako na yung hindi buo,
kasi kailangan na kita.
To see the lie behind my smiles
Try to
Fall in love with the eyes
That show you how much I love you
Kiss me
If you're not gonna stay
Talk to me
If you have no plans of leaving
When I Should Have Known

When you did not let me open your phone

Nor hold it,
When you did not greet me on our special day
Even if we were under the same roof,
When you were never around when I achieve something—never even
cared to say ―Congratulations!‖ or ―So proud of you,‖
Funny—
Always the last to know,

When you chose to be with your friends on that day when I needed you
the most,
When you started to listen to them and ignore what I would feel, On Repeat:
When you did not wait for me in that train station,
When you refused to ride The Moment I Knew
That one more train just to be with me—which I would gladly do for you
I can, but I won‟t And
Because you said you won‟t
I should‟ve known. White Horse
By

Taylor Swift

SciCamp
September 27-28, 2013
Trivia: …which first inspired me to revise her poem so that it
would fit into my story (something I was fond of doing
“When I should have known” was inspired by
to some of Taylor Swift’s songs back in grade school.)
something that I’ve read on my Facebook timeline…

The Revised version:

Sabi mo, "Hintayin kita,"

Sabi ko, bakit hindi?
Naghintay ako, ka
Pero... "Bakit ang tagal mo?"
Pagreply ko,
Nandoon ka na sa kabilang kanto.
Hindi mo naman nasabi
Na Nagmamadali ka pala.
Bakit ba kasi hindi pa ako natuto.
Who To Blame? Who Was The One That Got Away?

I am afraid to fall in love again The thing that‘s hard about relationships that end like this
Not because I might get hurt Is that the love always stay
But because of the thought It‘s just that
That it might not be worth it It‘s not enough anymore for two people to be together

The love was never gone

They just can‘t be with each other anymore

So I guess you‟ll always be the one I‟d think of every time I hear
the song “Style” by Taylor Swift
Why It Didn’t Work ♥

I
You‘re where the green grass grow
Over the hills, behind the gates
There your castle stands,
Hand in another hand.

In the other end

Endless rivers in between
Distance I chose not to cross
Pairs of white leaves, following.

II
I here stand, bright blue moon
Over the hill, close to the sky
Here, my solitude lies
Here, the feeling died.

Let us meet again

When the eagles fly
I‟ll go where the castle stayed
Get the key, close the gate.
 Why We Broke Up

The new excites you

Then the familiar brings comforts
And gives you security
But then sameness bores us
So we start all over again

On Repeat:

Wonderland
By

Taylor Swift
YES
Sabi ko baka kapag college
Hindi na ako mahihiya
Hindi na iintindihin ang iisipin ng iba
Pero hindi na tayo umabot dun
YOU ♥
You gave me riddles, my love
But you're still the hardest one
You already left
Because the answer is still none
You Remind Me Of A Starry Night

What I love about a starry night sky

It's quiet and peaceful
But it calmly gently whispers to have an adventure
An invitation to journey, for a journey
It's magical that it brings serenity and danger together
Where you can enjoy your solitude but you're not really alone
because you connect with the stars
1976 ♥ 2 Types Of People

Gusto kitang kasama kapag malungkot ako May mga taong gusto nating mapasa‘tin
Gusto kitang kasama kapag natatakot ako At may mga taong gusto nating makasama
Gusto kitang kasama kapag gusto kong umiyak Mga taong pangkasintahan
Gusto kitang kasama kapag wala akong mapuntahan At mga taong nakikita natin bilang asawa
At kapag napagod maglibot, uupo, titingin sa malayo Mga taong naiisip mong kasama para ngumiti at tumawa
Tapos tatabi sayo at ilalagay ko lang ang ulo ko sa balikat mo At mga taong kapag kasama mo, kuntento ka na
At tahimik na palilipasin ang oras Patawad kung para sa akin, doon ka sa una
Ang sandali
Ang bawat minuto na iniregalo sa akin ng tadhana para makasama
kita
Hindi kita yayakapin kasi hindi pwede
Hindi kita hahagkan kasi wala nang tayo
Hindi ko hahawakan ang kamay mo kahit gusto ko
Maramdaman ko lang na nandito ka sa tabi ko,
Okay na ako

Some people come into our lives not to stay forever but help us
become better versions of ourselves for our THE ONE.
3 Years After 7 Years ♥

Every time I go out our door Kailan ko kayang ibigay ang closure?
I feel ready to meet you Siguro 'pag katapos ng pitong taon.
But every time I happen to see someone Para iba na ang balat
Who looks like you sa kamay na dati mong nahahawakan
Who, for a split second, I thought was really you sa balikat na laging mong inaakbayan
I still don‘t know what to do sa noo na madalas dampian ng 'yong mga labi
at sa braso na lagi mong nadidikitan kapag tayo'y magkatabi
Para wala na talagang bakas, wala ng mantsa.
Nakalilimot ang isip, napapalitan ang damdamin.
Siguro naman makalipas ang pitong taon
Magiging totoong malaya na rin
Kasi ikaw mukhang okay na, talagang masaya na
Ako na lang pala talaga
Ang natitirang umaasa.

Cause I went to the craft store near your house today

She‘s too scarred and still scared Jan. 10, 10:25am
Too scared and still scarred Kung magkukrus pa man ulit ang mga landas, sana para lang mapatunayan
---------------------------- ko nang di ka na mahal talaga
I have a habit of pushing people away but give my best to those who chose to
stay January 19, 3:08pm
---------------------------- At maglalakad dito
Intramuros made me wait for the golden hour which I did not experience Minsan may kasama, madalas mag-isa
Ateneo gave it to me as a birthday surprise
---------------------------- Feb 9, 2:30pm
Bravest thing I've ever done? Pinanood ko ang 'If I stay' with the one I loved, at Minsan bumabalik kahit masakit para lang may maramdaman
nang narinig ko siyang natawa at saka ako tinanong kung bakit ako umiiyak, Pipiliin ang kamatayan para makaramdam ng buhay kahit panandalian
mabilis kong sinabi: Hindi naman ako magkakaganito kung hindi dahil sayo
---------------------------- March 27, 9:09pm
Rizal Library: Kumusta ang tulog mo? Salamat sa pagdating kung kalian okay na ako
Parang kami, hinihintay ko kailan babalik sa dati O salamat sa pagdating dahil nalaman kong okay na ako
----------------------------
Bat takot na akong magmahal: ayaw ko nang dagdagan ang mga taong May 16 6:07am
hindi ko nabibigyan at mabibigyan ng panahon Kapag nagsimula ka nang makita sa panaginip, panahon nang gumising
----------------------------
Kapag ba hinahanap-hanap, kailangan? May 31 11:02pm
---------------------------- Hindi kita kakausapin hanggang may masasaktan
Kakausapin kita ‗pag wala nang nasasaktan
______________________________________

But sometimes,
You just miss him
Because you saw, heard, smelled, tasted,
felt...
something that reminded you of him

But most often, he just enters your system without

any stimulus whatsoever
He's like a natural phenomenon in your being--
occurs and ends and leaves

He's a cycle really

And you live your life according to it
Because he never really left your system
He's still there--and you're still holding on
…..

__________________________________________________________