Ozzy Mendez

Lit
Cunningham

Healthy and unhealthy traits is the best way to put it. I like to believe that i am The
Enthusiast. The way I imagine myself living and what i want to do with my future
processes in my head with so much detail. Seek and explore the wonderful creations of
life. I don't mean that in a materialistic way either. My soccer coach often tells me i'm
like a swiss army knife just because of the fact that I'm comfortable, not the best but i'm
decent enough to play multiple positions and I relate that to the enneagram. What
comes around,goes around and there is a downfall on my negatives.

A huge challenge in my life if not the biggest is, my self observation. I tell myself do I
think to much or do I think enough. I can't express this enough but it's not insecurity to
anyone, its an insecurity to myself, which is still insecurity but you know what I mean. I
find it very difficult to agree with myself, I idealize myself from different perspectives and
that itself ruins my thought of process because of my negative thinking when I approach
situations. A Lot of negativity circulates from every action I take. Whether it's from the
outfit i'm wearing that day to the way i put i put my water bottle away. In this situation its
most definitely the small things that matter. Yeah it's a challenge but it's a challenge i'm
willing to take and try win the battle at all costs because at the end of the day it will be
worth it. I will not let this bring me down and it's never too late to work on it to better
myself being.

My next challenge is procrastination and timing. I would say this isn't my biggest
challenge but the challenge I need the most improvement on. I stated earlier in the
article that i'm a very long thinker and most of my time is spent thinking and that is
exactly the problem haha. As far as creativity and random thoughts goes im that guy, I
can go from playing in the Barclays Premier League on a rainy afternoon in Stoke City
to that guilt you get mentally when you don't finish that days homework. When I say this
is a challenge, I really mean it. Procrastination has stopped me from achieving and
completing things but also doing it on time. Its that mental state to keep giving myself
excuses and If I do it, it's most likely done at the last minute which affects the quality on
it because I did not take my time. For example, I know I have homework, I know I have
to go on a run but yet I don't do it till last minute. I need that urge of necessity to start
kicking in these situations and tell me to get my ass up. I know I won't stay like this
forever because I recognize that I need improvement on and know how to get better at
it.
Ozzy Mendez
Lit
Cunningham

My last challenge would have to be being uncommitted. It sounds very dull and usual
but i struggle with this on a different level. The ability to sticking to a game plan or even
keeping my word to going somewhere, I can never decide or make up my mind. It
irritates me and puts me in a negative point of view. Learning how to fulfill your word
and decision is very important because it most likely isn't going to about myself. It just
won't affect me but it will affect the people around the decision. For example, If im
uncommitted to a game plan throughout the game my skill will be involved around luck.
If i did my task on reading the opponent's strengths/ weaknesses then I know what to
expect and I would not be shocked during gametime. Uncommitment has put me in a
place sort of in the middle. Doing it without doing it,I would have to get better at this and
it's a challenge i'm willing to take. One thing I can do is learn to say no. How to be
distant and think my decisions.

Upon taking these challenges, I understand that nothing will be easy and it's a challenge
for a reason. Approach these situations with cautious and always be aware of my
surroundings. Im always up for a new obstacle and i'm ready to conquer it.