March 31, 2019

Dear Someone I knew long time ago,

I know it’s a bit odd to write you this but I would like to express my sincere
feelings towards you using this printed letter of mine, so I really liked you, like a lot,
your characteristics fits my type of guy, you were tall, broad and dark, its very
overwhelming, sorry it’s a bit awkward to talk about this but still.
When we were in high school you always got me beating, like my heart was
pounding with a thousand beats per minute, though that’s not biologically possible,
sitting right next beside you felt like heaven to me. Being up close to someone you like
and even love, felt like a wonderful gift from cupid, even though you never felt any of
my feelings and any of that in which I’m very glad that you don’t know, well I hope
you that you don’t know, even though I want you to know that I kind’a love you. Even
though it’s forbidden to love someone in the same sex but I have feelings for you. It’s
not really that shown as I am focused on my studies towards my honor role. But you
can at least notice it, by the answers I gave you in assignments and in exams even
though I might risk myself but its still worth it for a chance to get you to notice me.
From the time we got to be friends, it was a shocking break through in my
entire existence, even though its all just fist bumps and simple handshakes, mild
chats, some conversations and simple bro hugs. It was still amazing. Even though you
already got the love of your life, I still wish that I got to be the love of your life. After
that, the thought of losing you to someone else and being apart really sucks. In light
of our graduation, after all that joyous tears of finishing high school and me
achieving my accomplishments, I still cannot get enough of the thought of being away
from you, even though that we can still chat and with today’s technologies bringing us
much closer to one another but it still feels like we’re infinitely apart, and now that
we moved here to Zamboanga, making it a lot worst but from when I knew that you’re
here too, it kept my blood running, though we’re still apart.
The thought of forgetting you is really that hard, and studying is the only
thing that lets me do that. But damn you’re unforgettable, and I really hate Facebook
because of seeing you in it, together with that love of yours, it makes my eyes twitch.
But if it makes you happy, then I’m happy. So just recently, from your recent invites
in mobile legends, it made me want to play the game more, it made the game more
meaningful, fun and gleeful. Playing with you side-by-side, cooperating with you in
killing our enemies and accomplishing the game makes me want to do cling unto the
game even more, as it makes me feel closer to you. Its very awkward and really
strange that I still like you until now. I couldn’t say that I am really into you or am I
just admiring you as am still unfamiliar with my feelings, or maybe I’m just being
denial as I just ventured a part of myself like I’ve never gone before. Maybe its just a
phase like any normal teenagers, Sigh. But at least I got to express my feelings
towards you, and its nice to get it off my chest. Maybe I’ll start moving on, and its
pretty foolish anyway…

Yours Truly,

Broken Admirer