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Ashley McCoy
Jamee Larson
ENGL 229
24 April 2019
A Little Red Wagon
When I was eight years old, my sister and I certified ourselves with licenses to operate small red
wagons. We spent weeks learning how to drive our wagon down a steep hill in the forest of our
yard and after many practice runs we declared ourselves professionals. For weeks, we would
grab our plastic wagon that my mother bought at a garage sale for ten dollars and trudge up the
gravel hill in our yard to hone our driving abilities. Our speed mobile had a dull red finish, cream
racing stripes, and a black handle that bent back at a perfect angle for a steering wheel. It was
covered in dents and scrapes that proved that it had been used and loved, and to anyone else it
would have looked like a worn-down wagon, but to us, it was the perfect racing car. It is true that
Now it is also true, if you believe truth to be a relative thing, that each of us is susceptible to
inconsistencies in our memory that can cause us to remember a mistaken history. Scientist call it
false memory, though I am not completely sold on such a firm definition. The most curious part
of this phenomenon, at least for me, is that a person may never discover that a memory they can
picture vividly is actually a lie they have told themselves and perceived it to be true. A make-
Research has shown that no one person is more susceptible than another to creating a fake
recollection. However, I may argue that my mother, who is a complicated mixture of intelligence
and gullibility, is the exception to this rule. Her persistent deceptive recall has confused me so
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much that I swear she sits in the corner observing almost every memory I’ve ever had. It’s an
unnerving feeling not being able to trust a memory. Yet, despite all that I know about make
believe histories, I know with certainty that my red wagon memory is absolutely real.
I like to keep my memories categorized for safe keeping. I store them away based on which state
I was living in at the time. Each preserved moment like a geographic pin on a map. In Kitsap
County of Washington state, I learned to ride a bike without training wheels. On the front porch
of a white house in Anderson, California I discovered the heartbreaking devastation that cancer
leaves on a family. In the forested evergreens of Oregon, I spent a summer learning to swim all
the while grasping with self-love and a bikini. I almost crashed through a post-office as my dad
bravely taught me how to drive in the small town of Remsen, Iowa. I kissed a boy for the first
time while sitting in the passenger seat of an Impala five miles from the Canadian border in
North Dakota. Five states each filled with carefully collected memories. All this to say, when I
want to find a memory that has been stored away, I first have to remember which state it has
Our little red wagon can be found in Belfair, Washington. At the time we lived in a small white
house with a dirt driveway that circled completely around a single standing tree. Just left to the
start of the driveway was a busy road that connected our make-believe world to the rest of the
town and to the right was a hill that led to our land-lords home. Surrounded by dirt and trees, my
sister and I thought of ourselves as great adventurers. We built impenetrable forts with couch
cushions and sheets in the trees and defended our land with sword sticks. We buried trinkets for
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treasure and created indistinguishable maps. In our spare time we were firefighters and zoo
At times when we were tired from being the Christopher Columbus’s of the backwoods of our
house, my sister and I would take our wagon out for a ride. We would grab the wagon from its
decorative place in our yard and trudge up the hill at the end of our driveway. Powered with
sheer determination and naivety, we would park our convertible at the crest of the decline and
climb in according to whose turn it was to be the driver. With the kind of luck that only children
possess, we would find our seats and prepare to travel down the road. My favorite part came
next. The absolute liberation that accompanied flying down that hill with our hair blowing in the
wind and a dust trail showing where we had been. We giggled loudly as we rumbled to the finish
line. Once we stopped we would climb out of our wagon on wobbly legs and again start the slow
trek to the top of our course. Our driving always left me with a tingling in my toes.
On one of those perfectly indescribable days when contentment seems to leak out of your bones
making your whole soul breathe deep, we met my parents and youngest sister at the bottom of
that hill after an impeccably driven route. Smiles on their faces they greeted us like adoring fans.
No harsh whispers of our lacking the necessary safety equipment, I think it’s hard to reprimand
someone when their laugh echoes the uncontrollable bliss of childhood. Instead they joined us