Pride

If I could describe high school in one word I could say it was, CRAZY. I can say I am

proud of how far I have came throughout these four years. I have struggled in many ways I could

explain or even describe. It was all glory to God for guiding me through my worst days and

holding me up as one to continue and live my life to the fullest. I honestly can say that my high

school experience was always high and low when being positive. I struggled with a lot of

depression and stress starting high school and I wasn’t stable mentally and emotionally. I

constantly pushed everyone around me away because I didn’t want to be loved. I personally felt

that I wasn’t being treated fairly. As a young teenager I was so hard headed and I didn’t like to

listen. I lacked a lot of motivation in my life to do better, but as I grew older I became more

cautious about everything and began to love myself.

My Freshman year I started off a bit rough. I wasn’t the average good girl always doing

good in school. I loved to always go out and was never focused because I was going through so

much things that year. I overcame so many obstacles throughout high school, and as rough as it

was I still kept pushing for better mentally and physically. Half way through my Freshman year I

began to change my ways for me because I saw myself going a different route that I wasn’t

comfortable with.

My Sophomore year came around and I began to do much more better. My grades began

to go up and I was mentally and physically stable in my own way. I began to get involved in

school activities and I couldn’t be more happier. I was so focused on myself and school I didn’t

have space for things that weren’t going to help me grow individually. I am grateful for those
who helped me to where I am at now. Without there help I wouldn’t become the person I am

today.

As my Junior year came around I moved to Merced High. coming to this new school I

can say I was scared in a way because it’s a new town, new people, and making new friends. At

the time I was kind of antisocial and I did not like talking to people. It was hard for me to interact

with others because I wasn’t use to being the “new kid”. A couple of days went by and I began to

make friends. Then a week went by and I began to interact with others around me and just

students in my class. A month goes around and by then the whole school knew who I was. I then

got into a relationship, and at the time I wasn’t cautious about anything. I convinced myself to

believe that everything was going to be okay. This relationship then turned into something so

toxic, it turned my life around. I fell into depression again and everything was not looking good

for me. I was mentally and emotionally put down in this relationship, but I didn’t walk away

from this toxic situation.

My Senior year then came around. I couldn’t believe that I was finally almost there! I

personally have dealt with so much things that I dedicated this year to my grandma. She had

passed away the first day of my senior year. It was so hard on me, trying to function through the

day knowing that I was not going to hear, see, or touch my grandma again. I wasn’t able to make

it to her funeral because it was in the Islands, Tonga. My heart ached and everything was just so

heavy on me. It was the most hardest part of my life, trying to keep myself together. As I began

to fall off again, I know she wanted better for me. I slowing started getting back on track. My

escape from all the hurt was being able to work and push the younger generation to become

better. I am currently a Link Leader for the Freshmans, the class of 2022. I am currently a 4.0
student with only 2 more weeks of my senior year left and I couldn’t have been more proud of

myself. Through my downfalls I always found my way back up and I can thank God himself for

blessing me with these opportunities.