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KHAN
THE BEST MISTAKES OF MY LIFE
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To my father and mother who instilled in me a sense of honour and duty and
taught me to be compassionate, charitable and helpful towards my fellow
humans and to respect time and commitment
To my wife, Zarine, and our children Farah, Simone, Sussanne, Zayed and
Malaika for their enduring love and support
To all my grandchildren Azaan Ali and Fizaa Ali (Farah and Aqeel Ali), Armaan
Arora, Yuraaz Arora and Adah Arora (Simone and Ajay Arora), Hrehaan Roshan
and Hridaan Roshan (Sussanne and Hrithik Roshan), Zidaan Khan and Aariz
Khan (Zayed and Malaika Khan)
Any life will face what Shakespeare called the ‘slings and arrows of
outrageous fortune’ which buffet our lives about, but, as Cassius says, it’s what
we make of that fortune that distinguishes us and builds our characters.
The facts of life speak for themselves. But do they tell the whole story? I have
been the star of many major blockbusters that are remembered to this day. I
remember the rush of producers to sign me in as many as 100 films as a leading
man. I was heralded in the press and in public opinion as the most handsome star
of the Indian film industry and earned both fame and awards, national and
international. I worked with some of the leading producers and directors of the
industry and co-starred with talented and beautiful leading ladies, produced and
directed three major motion pictures, and produced several mega, monumental
TV shows. I hope that in the following chapters (and, gentle reader, I insist that
this is a youthful autobiography, so don’t go looking for my age on the Internet!)
I have successfully captured not only the excitement of those years, but
conveyed my thoughts and ideas of what films did and could mean for the
development of India.
In the midst of my rising film career, I was induced, much against my will,
because I am not superstitious, to allow a fortune teller to draw up my kundli,
my predictive horoscope. The fortune teller prophesied that I would meet with a
fatal accident around the age of forty-six; if I survived, I would make a big name
for myself.
Now, as my scientific friends tell me, stars are nothing but nuclear exploding
gases in space and constellations are merely patterns we create to explain them
to ourselves—but somehow, through the coincidences that haunt the world, his
prediction came true.
My life has been like a giant explosion, very exciting and vibrant. Even as a
child, I sensed that I was blessed with something special when my friends would
ask me to narrate stories and listen spellbound. My voice and style of narration
became popular in my gang and perhaps foreshadowed my life in film. Of
course, at that age, I couldn’t even imagine the experiences, challenges and
thrills, or the fame, flattery, disappointments, triumphs, awards and adulation
that awaited me, let alone the life-threatening accident which was to occur. I
could in no way have anticipated the exciting times and exotic places where my
career in films would take me.
Then, in my most ambitious venture, fate took an unexpected tragic turn. I
was producing, directing and acting in the historical serial The Sword of Tipu
Sultan. We had a cast of hundreds, elaborate artwork, fabulously ornate and
historically accurate costumes and sumptuous sets. But on that fateful day, either
by an act of God or man, the set was consumed by an inferno. Fifty-two
members of my crew lost their lives. I have distinct and haunting memories of
rushing into the fire to save my crew, being engulfed by the flames and smoke,
and almost losing my life. I was hospitalized for over eight months in India at
Jaslok Hospital in Bombay, and later transferred to Georgetown University
Hospital in Washington DC for a further five months for surgery and treatment.
In the later stages of my recovery, I began to get restless and aching to go back
to India. The shooting of The Sword of Tipu Sultan was in full swing and I knew
that several episodes had already been rescripted and shot without me. This
played on my mind and when Dr Bogomal and Dr Scott Spear were both visiting
me in my room one day, I asked them to release me as early as possible,
explaining that it was very urgent that I get back to work.
The two doctors looked at each other and then back at me with puzzled looks
on their faces. It was Dr Bogomal who finally exclaimed, ‘Mr Khan, you must
be joking. You can never work again. Your survival itself makes you a one-in-a-
billion case. Surviving the trauma of sixty-five per cent third-degree burns
combined with over seventy operations can only be described as a miracle. You
are a miracle man, Mr Khan!’ I did appreciate the gravity of what the doctor was
saying, but I was undeterred and replied, ‘I have to work. I will die if I cannot
work.’
Thirteen months later, like a phoenix rising from the ashes, I returned to claim
my life back and rebuild it once again. The fire merely interrupted the saga of
the sword but could not extinguish it; The Sword of Tipu Sultan is still
remembered as a classic.
Branching out from my acting career into something entirely different—real
estate—I built the luxurious five-star Golden Palms Hotel and Spa in Bangalore,
which became a popular destination for people from the city and abroad, and
was host to many artist friends who came there at my invitation to write
screenplays and compose music.
Yes, the facts speak, but they don’t tell the whole story. How much of a life’s
fulfilled ambition is the consequence of hard work and innate talent, and how
much of it is the hand of circumstance, of luck, of being in the right place at the
right time? It’s not a question that can be answered with any certainty. But what I
have found, in the course of penning this autobiography, is that in addition to
being a medium for sharing the facts and the stories, the act of writing itself is a
process of self-discovery. Yes, that happened, but how did it come about, and
why?
I hope that I have been successful in conveying to my readers the adversities
and joys, the twists and turns, the surprises and unexpected adventures in as
diverse places as Russia, Turkey, Iran, London, Dubai, Mauritius, New York,
Los Angeles and so many more. But in the midst of all these, I am most proud of
having fulfilled my duty as husband and father. My children received a good
education, learnt good manners, to be patient, to be giving and to help and
respect their elders and fellow human beings. These principles may seem like
standard fare in any Indian household, but they have steered my life, having
been passed on to me by my honoured father and mother whose kindness and
compassion for the weak and the poor remain a beacon in my life. I remember
my mother’s words, which have influenced me throughout my life: ‘Son, you’re
the hand of God, and God is guiding you to help people.’
My family is what I treasure most in this world. I am thankful to the Almighty,
who has blessed me with the most wonderful partner, guide and navigator on the
ocean of life: my wife, Zarine. Fortunate is the man who has such a loving
family: Zarine; our three wonderful daughters—Farah, Simone and Sussanne; an
adored son, Zayed, and his wife, Malaika; and three sons-in-law—Aqil, Ajay
and Hrithik, who, although divorced from Sussanne, is the father of my two
grandchildren.
A banker once asked me my net worth and the question made me smile. I
could have told him about the vast fortune I had accumulated, lost and regained.
But these are the ups and downs of material existence and I am not overly
concerned with them. The gains didn’t elate me and the losses didn’t defeat or
depress me. I smiled as I replied, ‘Please take a headcount of my wife, our four
children, our nine grandchildren, three sons-in-law and one daughter-in-law.
Now, attach a value to each one of them and total the figures. You’ll arrive at my
net worth.’ The banker smiled back and shook my hand.
I hope, through this book, to pay sufficient tribute not only to Zarine and our
children and grandchildren, but also to my late brother, Feroz Khan, who was
and is always with me; my guru, Satyen Bose, and Chetan Anand, both of whom
were my friends, who guided me on my path. Friendship means a lot to me, not
only with the rich and famous but those whom fame hasn’t touched, and who
wouldn’t want it to. All have been equally valuable and I honour them all. I must
mention one friend in particular: Raj Kapoor, my childhood idol and my
inspiration for entering films. He was a huge influence on my professional life,
and a very respected friend with whom I shared a special bond, and whom I miss
a great deal.
Chance meetings can often have a great impact on one’s life, as this small
anecdote exemplifies. In the late 1960s or early 1970s I was privileged to meet
David Lean, the director of classics like Lawrence of Arabia and Dr Zhivago. I
was rushing into a restaurant in the Oberoi, New Delhi, when I heard someone
calling out my name. When I turned and looked back, a woman introduced
herself as Leela Lean, who, I knew, was David Lean’s wife. In the same breath
she said that her husband was there and wanted to meet me. I was truly elated.
Leela led me to their table. David got up, shook hands with me and offered me a
seat, simultaneously asking the waiter for two double Scotches.
I said to him, ‘Sir, I’m a big fan of your work. I’ve watched all your films.
You are my god in films!’
David smiled and thanked me and asked me to call him by his given name. In
the conversation which ensued, I asked him two questions and I remember to
this date the answers he gave.
I asked him: ‘What is a perfect script?’
He replied: ‘A perfect script is one which answers all questions.’
My second question was: ‘What is perfect acting?’
He replied: ‘If the actor thinks right, that is perfect acting, because the camera
catches the “think”.’
I have treasured the memory of this chance meeting all my life.
I hope my readers will see that, through the pages of this book, I have tried to
convey truthfully my experiences, thoughts and beliefs, and how much I
appreciate the contributions which so many people have made to my life.
1
The Great Mysore Fire Tragedy
8 February 1989
The prediction of the astrologer who had prepared my kundli, that my life would
be like a giant explosion, was about to come true.
It was 6 a.m. I was in my bathroom, listening to soft music and filled with
excitement at the thought of the upcoming shoot on the sets of The Sword of Tipu
Sultan. While shaving, I looked at my naked self in the bathroom mirror and,
stretching my body, smiled as I felt a surge of happiness within. ‘God! Why have
you made me so handsome?’ I said, a little tongue-in-cheek.
Pride does, perhaps, come before a fall.
We had two stages in the Mysore studios: one was a massive set of Tipu
Sultan’s palace and the other was an auxiliary stage. Shooting started in the
evening and after a couple of shots, at around 8.30 p.m., as the lighting was
going on, I went out to chat with my writer, Nawa Lucknowi.
About half an hour later, I heard a huge commotion from inside. I ditched the
cup of tea I was holding and charged through the small wicket gate as the big
barn doors of the studio were closed. What I saw shook me to the core. The left
half of the studio was on fire. Above, on the catwalk, I could see a lighting man
trying to put out the flames with a piece of cloth. I shouted to him and ordered
him to jump down immediately. At the same time, I told somebody to open the
barn doors and another person to call for the fire brigade.
On the sets of The Sword of Tipu Sultan
Just then something hit me on the back of my head like a cannonball and I fell
to the ground. I later learnt it was a tin of paint. Undaunted, I carried on with the
gash it left in my head and focused on the job at hand: saving my crew. In
retrospect, I obviously didn’t realize the severity of that crater, one that would
bullishly remain with me for an excruciatingly painful nine months.
The fire had grown exponentially and was sweeping across the set with
horrifying speed. I shouted at my crew who were all running in panic towards
the barn doors, surrounded by the raging fire, trying to get out through the
wicket gate.
Suddenly, a huge ball of fire came at me as if it had been launched from a
flamethrower used by the military. I quickly covered my face with both my
hands, but the fire was all round me, devouring me. I rushed towards the wicket
doors and ran out with flames all over my body. Fortunately, even in that
horrendous situation, I was able to keep my presence of mind and remember
what I had seen in movies: I dropped to the ground and rolled to douse the fire.
I saw my make-up man and four others moving towards me, crying. The sight
of their bodies—black like chimney sweeps—horrified me. It never occurred to
me that I too might be looking the same. By now, the people who were outside,
the visitors and studio staff who were rushing out of the inferno, surrounded me
and a few of my crew. There was mayhem all around: flames leaping out from
the studio, people running from here to there, some crying and shouting in panic,
others in pain, clearly badly burnt.
I ordered my driver, who had rushed to my aid, to take as many injured as he
could get into the car to the nearest hospital. I got into the front seat next to the
driver while three of my assistants and my make-up man sat in the rear seat. In
the all-round commotion, screams, shouts, raging fire and panic stricken,
harrowing atmosphere, I desperately looked around to see if I could spot some
more of my team.
Those in the car were all crying and asking me, ‘Sir, are we going to die?’
Though I was traumatized myself and in terrible pain, I put on a brave front and
told them in no uncertain terms not to worry because everything was going to be
all right. I still remember, as the car left the studio and raced to the hospital, a
strong resolve was formed in my mind: ‘God, it’s not my time. I am not coming.’
The driver drove the car like a man possessed, coming to a screeching halt
almost on the steps in front of the hospital reception. I put my left foot out of the
car to get out, but instantly slipped and fell. The sole of my foot had peeled off
and blood was oozing out. I somehow managed to right myself and led my
unfortunate team into the hospital. The doctors and nurses were aghast at seeing
us and stepped back, frightened by our appearance. It was like they were seeing
ghosts.
On reaching Jaslok Hospital
Iwas born in Bangalore, 3000 feet above sea level and known as the garden city
of India, on 3 January 1940. Shah Abbas Mehndi Ali Khan was the name given
to me by my parents. The lush red blooms of gulmohar, the heady fragrance of
jasmine and mogra that floated in on the morning breeze, the sweet sound of
chirping birds, honeybees flitting from flower to flower, and the huge variety of
amazing flora were only some of the delights that nature had bestowed on the
idyllic city of my childhood.
Bangalore was known in the pre-Independence era and later as a pensioners’
paradise, and as a child I often wondered where all the people worked—there
was no apparent toil. When I was growing up, the city had a population of 3
lakh. The climate was so cool that we used to wear warm clothes for eight
months of the year. My family home was in Lloyds Road No. 3, Cooke Town,
Cantonment East. Even as a child I wondered whether I would spend my entire
life there, or if I would be able to see what lay beyond Bangalore. I wanted to
see the world.
My father was in the construction and real estate business and was a very
upright and honourable man. He instilled in me values I still hold dear today. He
would tell us, for instance, ‘Watch the ground you walk on.’ When I asked him
why, he said, ‘Asmaan dekh ke chaloge to thhokar lagegi.’ (If your gaze is
constantly on the sky, you are likely to trip over a stone.)
Sadiq Ali Khan, my father, was a tall, athletically built, handsome man who
was very warm and affectionate with all of us. I’m always pleased when people
tell me I resemble him. We were five brothers and two sisters: Feroz was the
eldest, followed by myself, Shahrukh, Samir, our sister Dilshad, and Akbar who
was only a year old when my father passed away in his mid-forties. My father
was elated when my sister Dilshad was born after four sons, and he doted on her.
With my father and brothers for our circumcision ceremony
Khurshid, our other sister, was my mother’s eldest child from her first
marriage. When she was fourteen my mother was married to her first cousin,
Majid Khan, who was the private secretary to the Aga Khan. After my sister
Khurshid was born, the family learned that Majid Khan had married a lady in
Iran and had a third wife in Pune. News travelled very slowly in those days, but
as soon as my grandmother, who was a strong-willed Persian lady, found out, she
had the marriage annulled and sued for divorce. My mother was then remarried
to my father at the age of nineteen.
My mother, Fatima Begum, was an altruistic, generous and extraordinary
person endowed with charismatic oratory skills. The goodness within her shone
brightly and touched people’s minds and hearts. People always told me that even
if they spoke with my mother for five minutes they felt as if they had known her
for a lifetime. For her, her family was her world. When she wasn’t planning what
to feed us, she would be attending to and solving the problems of our collection
of servants, to whom she was unfailingly kind and compassionate. My father
would complain that she was employing too many people and it was a strain on
his purse, but she would refute this by saying there were a lot of very poor
people in the world and it was our duty to help them in any way we could. I hope
that I have inherited a wee bit of her generosity and traits.
Every evening, my mother and her three sisters, who lived nearby, would sit
around my maternal grandmother, a grand lady with tremendous powers of
concentration and an endearing personality. Of her seventeen grandchildren, I
was her favourite and she affectionately called me ‘Bashi’.
My mother
My mother’s family goes back all the way to Aga Ali Asker, a Persian
businessman from Iran who settled in India in 1825. Ali Asker went on to make
a name for himself in Bangalore and a prominent road in the city is named after
him. He also built the Askari Mosque, the Ashur Khana, the Imamwada and the
cemetery in Richmond Town, now called Sir Mirza Ismail Nagar. Incidentally,
Sir Mirza Ismail, prime minister of the erstwhile Mysore state, then Jaipur and
Hyderabad, was my grandmother’s cousin. He had been a student in England at
Cambridge University whereas Muhammad Ali Jinnah was studying at Lincoln’s
Inn, and, just before the partition of India, is believed to have said to Jinnah,
‘Muhammad Ali, please don’t break the country. By having a wing on the right
and a wing on the left, the wing on the right will fall in twenty-five years.’ It fell
in thirty. How I wish Jinnah had listened to that wise man.
My father’s family came from Peshawar 300 years ago and settled down in
Hyderabad. My paternal grandmother was of Indian descent. My fourth great-
grandfather was a judge in Hyderabad and it is said that when he was refused the
hand of the girl he loved, he had charged into her house on horseback, lifted her
up on to the back of the horse, galloped out and married her. I’m glad I have
some of his genes!
My maternal grandmother, Bibi Khanum Muchul, was an extraordinary lady
of Persian stock who spoke fluent Farsi. She was alert and happy even at the age
of ninety-nine when she died. Her story was like a fairy tale. She was married to
Aga Hamid Khan, a cousin of Sir Sultan Mohamed Shah, the Aga Khan, who
resided in the Yerwada Palace in Pune where the British imprisoned Mahatma
Gandhi. At the age of seventeen, Aga Hamid Khan went to Bangalore on
horseback and came in contact, in the Persian settlement of Richmond Town,
with the Ali Asker family. There he saw, proposed to and got married to my
grandmother. His family in Pune, however, disowned him as they were Sayeds,
the direct descendants of the Holy Prophet, and thought the marriage to the
daughter of a mere Persian mogul was below their status. The couple’s first few
children died in infancy. Thereafter my mother was born, followed by her three
sisters. Aga Hamid Khan, my grandfather, was very fond of riding and hunting.
Unfortunately, he died at the young age of twenty-seven on a hunting trip where
he drank the plague-infested water of a well.
Bibi Khanum Muchul’s mother was Bibi Kaukab Sultan, a direct descendant
of Nadir Shah, the king of Iran, as inscribed on her tombstone in the cemetery in
Bangalore. She was betrothed to my maternal great-grandfather Ghulam
Hussain’s elder brother, Bawqar, in Bangalore, at the age of twelve; he was
seventeen. The story is that there was a horse-riding competition in Shiraz, Iran,
which Bawqar, who was a great horseman, had won, beating the king’s
champion horse. Having lost, the king gave one of his daughters in marriage, on
Ali Asker’s request, to his son Bawqar. The king was happy to part with one of
his many daughters! Unfortunately, the marriage ended about a year later when
Bawqar fell from his horse and broke his neck in an equestrian jumping
competition in Bangalore. As per tradition, Bawqar’s younger brother, Ghulam
Hussain, married the young widow.
Our was a very happy childhood. Feroz was a bit of a rebel and would often
do things which displeased our father. Once he got a cowboy outfit made for
himself complete with a ten-gallon Texan hat, ‘Tom Mix’ boots, and a red
checked shirt with double lapels. He even managed to buy two toy pistols. After
that he took to walking down the street like one of the characters in the
American movies we used to watch in the local Rex Theatre. Unfortunately, poor
Feroz was caught red-handed. As he was walking down the street, looking for a
cowboy-style ‘gunfight’ with the rest of us, my father’s car turned into the street.
Dad stopped the car and got out, aghast. He was very angry and reprimanded
Feroz soundly. ‘How can you dress up in that monkey suit?’ he shouted. Out
father said no more, but when we all got home that evening, he bundled up all
the cowboy clothes, boots and all, and sent them off to the Salvation Army. I
thought he was a bit harsh on my brother who was just having fun.
Feroz, being the eldest and the most handsome of us all, was the apple of our
parents’ eyes and he took full advantage of the fact to get away with mischief. I
remember the times when he used to come home from the local billiards saloon
on M.G. Road, way past his curfew. Dad would pace up and down in the library,
then walk into my room, which I shared with Feroz, and ask me where he was. I
would remain quiet, knowing he had gone to the billiards saloon, but not
wanting to betray him. One night even I got worried. It was 11 p.m., which was
late for a young boy of fourteen to be out. Then I heard a tap on the window and
saw Feroz asking me to let him in as Dad had locked the door. He told me to
loosen the ventilator so he could get in. I did as I was told and he came inside.
This became a frequent occurrence, until one night the inevitable happened and
Dad caught him on his way in. He got such a thrashing, but even that wasn’t as
bad as it might have been because our mother, who always took Feroz’s side,
stopped our father from caning him with his stick.
When I was about eight years old, my younger brother Shahrukh and I were
both stricken with typhoid. In those days, after the war, there was no medicine
available and our father had to source it from the contacts he had within the
army. Shahrukh and I were confined in a different room in our house.
Incidentally, this room was adjacent to the dining room. We could smell the
aroma of the food all day long, which intensified our craving, but the nature of
the disease was such that we weren’t allowed to eat that food. My other younger
brother, Samir (as Ahmed is popularly known), would come out from the dining
room and stand by my bedside and I would ask him to get me a potato from the
table. ‘Yes, I will,’ he said, ‘provided you give me a silver rupee from under your
pillow.’ He knew that I had a collection of these, given to me by visitors as per
tradition to help people get well. He got the potato and took the rupee. Samir
became a very good businessman later in life!
Dilshad was my father’s only daughter and he doted on her. Unfortunately he
did not live long enough to watch her blossom into a beautiful young woman.
When Dilshad came of age, we received a proposal for marriage from a very
eminent Punjabi Muslim family from Srinagar, Kashmir. On the appointed day
the boy, along with his parents, came to meet all of us at our home in Juhu.
Dilshad—her hair oiled and greasy, wearing a very simple salwar-kameez,
without a touch of make-up—entered the room with her eyes crossed, intent on
chasing away the groom-to-be. Everyone was shocked to see her in that state.
The tables turned on her soon, for she had hardly taken a seat when Javed, the
boy, looked at his father and told him in Punjabi, ‘Mainu kudi pasand hai.’ (I
like the girl.) Shock and surprise dissolved into laughter. Dilshad’s plan to chase
away the boy had not worked. The two got married and lived a very happy life in
a lovely house in Srinagar. Javed, my brother-in-law, who was a very handsome
man and bore a strong resemblance to Omar Sharif, tragically passed away at a
young age leaving three beautiful daughters to the family: Sheeba, Shelha and
Sabah. I am deeply attached to Dilshad and people have often pointed out that
she is my lookalike.
The dining table was central to our lives and a great place of learning during
our childhood. My father would teach us those life lessons which mattered most
to him: manners, loyalty, patriotism, and kindness to the fellow traveller in the
journey of life. He also taught us concern for the poor and helpless, and told us
never to be late for a meeting. When I asked him why the latter, he said that if
you keep a person waiting, you are insulting him. He added, though, that you
should not wait for anybody for more than fifteen minutes because if you waited
longer you would be demeaning yourself. In such circumstances, he said, one
should leave a note saying you came at the appointed hour and, having waited
fifteen minutes, have left. He told us that the other person would respect us for it.
He believed very much in carrying truth in one’s heart as it fills one up with
strength and honour and the ability to think right and do right. On a more
mundane level, he used to say that one should chew food thirty-two times as it
helps in digestion. He was full of ‘theories’ like this. He would routinely point
out to us the flight of birds which went north each morning and came back south
each evening. This was his way of telling us that, like the birds, which flew back
to their nests in the evening, we should all be home in good time to study before
dinner and go to bed by nine as we had to get up early.
The partition of India was a key moment in our childhood, one that left a deep
impression on all of us. My father was a great admirer of Gandhi, Nehru,
Maulana Azad and Sardar Patel and was very depressed by the turn of events.
Once, when some of his Muslim friends came to our house and asked him what
they should do and where to go, my father coolly told them, ‘Why would you
want to leave? Stay here and don’t ever make the mistake of leaving your
country.’ My strong belief in integration comes directly from my parents’
thoughts and behaviour. We had almost forty staff at our home, and they all came
from different yet distinctly Indian communities—Laxmi, Rauf, Anthony,
Narayan—and we never discriminated between them on grounds of caste or
creed. I never once heard a negative word about any member of any community
in our home. Years later, when I came to Bombay I discovered how deeply
entrenched social inequality was and it quite revolted me. It was totally alien to
me while growing up.
In school, both Feroz and I were studious but mischievous too. Feroz used to
top not only the routine Friday tests in his class, but also the middle school
examinations in the state of Mysore. In fact, on the rare occasion when he came
second, Father Pat Aranjo, the principal, would come to the class and reprimand
him. Though I could not equal Feroz’s academic success, I too was promoted
straight from the first to the third standard.
We studied in St Germain High School, a renowned Catholic institution of the
time. It prided itself on the breadth of its extra-curricular activities and I
participated in most of them, including sports and stage plays. Once, after
finishing my lunch on a bench near the principal’s office, l looked around and
since no one was there I decided to rehearse my role in the school play: General
Wolfe, the British commander of Quebec, fighting American rebels in the
American War of Independence. I imagined that I had been shot and fell to the
ground, moaning and writhing in agony. Suddenly, to my great shock, I saw the
stoic figure of Father Pat standing at the window of his room with a cigar in his
mouth, looking intently at me. It was one of the most embarrassing moments of
my life.
St Germain Boys High School, Bangalore
Blitzkrieg
I was now making friends with people in our area. Two of these were Zaida and
Sarwar, the niece and nephew of Nargis, Raj Kapoor’s celebrated heroine. They
lived in a different building—Chateau Marine—down the road.
Another building close by was called Ganga Vihar, and I often passed by it on
my way to the Parsi Dairy. A man called Anees, who was working as a chauffeur
in Ganga Vihar, used to sit near one corner of the building. He was fair-skinned
and blue-eyed and his colleagues called him Raj Kapoor. Each time I passed by,
he would taunt me with remarks till one day, I could not take it any more and
warned him that the next time I would beat him up.
Once, Sarwar, Zaida and I were returning from Nargis’s birthday party when I
heard someone behind me, hurling abuse. When I turned, I saw Anees with a
knife in his hand, and before I could stop him, he had slashed the side of my
head, which started bleeding profusely. The next moment he stabbed me in the
arm and was about to plunge the knife in my chest. Fortunately, I remembered
the karate the French hippie had taught me and jabbed my two forefingers into
Anees’s eyes. He screamed in agony and fell to the ground, clutching his head in
both his hands. The knife fell from his hand and when he recovered, he ran
away.
My friends took me to G.T. Hospital with a throbbing pain in my head. I can
still distinctly recall the faces of the doctor, nurses, policemen, Feroz, and
Nargis’s brother Nassir Hussain who were with me when I came to. Feroz was
emotionally charged, crying in anger and demanding to know the name of the
assailant. I told him. To my dismay, I discovered that the left side of my head
had been shaved. I was sent home after a few days with stitches on my partly
bald head, feeling a little worse for wear.
Some days later, I learnt that Anees had been found in the garage of the
famous Dhanraj Mahal, near the Gateway of India. Feroz had accompanied the
police and on his request had been allowed to enter the garage first as he wanted
to confront Anees alone. He went inside and closed the door behind him, not at
all afraid or worried that Anees might be armed. After a good five minutes,
Feroz emerged from the garage dragging behind him a badly bruised Anees who
he then handed to the police.
The police charged Anees with attempted murder, but the charges were
dropped on my request. I had found out that he was a married man with small
children. After this, he asked the police if he could see me personally to
apologize for his behaviour. I accepted his apology and we drew a line under the
episode. I never did find out the cause of his animosity towards me.
With Raj Kapoor
Raj Kapoor
Two years after coming to Bombay, at the age of seventeen, my dream to meet
Raj Kapoor came true. Seeing my absolute fascination with him, Randhir, the
famous comedian of his times, who I knew from Bangalore, was good enough to
take me to R.K. Studios for its famous Holi party.
I was now a tall, good-looking fellow, but still a teenager so my excitement at
meeting my idol in person knew no bounds. Even so, I couldn’t imagine what a
lasting impression that first meeting would leave on me.
I was but a fan, and Raj Kapoor must have been meeting many of them every
day, but when Randhir introduced us, the warmth with which he shook my hand
and welcomed me showed me what a fine gentleman he was, and how totally
unaffected by his superstar status and stardom.
Something clicked between us that day, and marked the beginning of a long
association and a bond of brotherhood.
During that first meeting, I felt the pulse and pounding heart of this magic
kingdom of films. R.K. Studios was the Mecca of the Hindi film industry and it
was celebrating Holi with great pomp in its usual style. I met a lot of illustrious
personalities, including the charismatic Shammi Kapoor and the beautiful
Nargis. I was mesmerized as I watched Sitara Devi dance ecstatically, like a lady
possessed, glancing from time to time at Raj Kapoor to fuel her spirit.
I also met producers, directors and technicians at the party. It was an
enthralling experience and I wanted it never to end. I was by now very keen to
learn how this formula worked and was sure that this first meeting with Raj
Kapoor had brought me closer to my dream of becoming a part of this magic
world.
As I watched these stars, it occurred to me how small these big stars looked in
person compared to their larger-than-life images that I was used to watching on
the silver screen. It crossed my mind that they were actually just as vulnerable,
in their own way, as I was.
What was even stranger though was how at home I felt with them, how
confident, almost as if I knew that I belonged there—perhaps a little too much!
As the day progressed, I had got so deep into the swirl of the celebration that
when someone offered me a glass of sharbat, I took it. Little did I know that this
innocent-looking sweet drink made out of almonds, pistachios and milk was
spiked with bhang, which I know now is traditionally drunk on Holi. The effect
on me was instant! I felt quite dizzy and my head started spinning, but the
funniest thing was that the thought that I had a red sports car embedded itself in
my mind. For the remainder of the celebration, and even when we got back to
Randhir’s house at Khar, I pestered everyone about where my red sports car was.
It wasn’t until the next morning that I realized it had been the bhang talking.
Everyone thought it was hilarious, but I was so embarrassed that I’ve never had
bhang again in my life.
Defining an Indian
I make no apology for including in my autobiography a short digression on Raj
Kapoor and what I see as his unique place in the history of Indian cinema. He
was not only my idol from childhood, but encapsulated for me the power of
films.
In 1947, after nearly a century of struggle against British colonial rule, India
gained independence. During the protracted freedom struggle there were many
reformers, scholars and movements which contributed to the idea that the ancient
civilizations of India made it a nation worthy of governing itself. This struggle,
preoccupied with winning political control from the Raj, defined India’s past, its
glories and many cultures but didn’t give it the voice which would define what
an Indian was. Serendipitously, the medium that would be used to construct such
a definition had already been born and was making rapid technological
advancements. This was the medium of the silver screen, the moving, dancing,
speaking, singing, image—the cinema!
Two of the idols of Indian cinema in the era immediately after Independence
were Yusuf Khan, who took the screen name Dilip Kumar, and Raj Kapoor, from
a family of consummate actors with a long association with theatre and now a
prominent presence in cinema.
Dilip Kumar was a phenomenon. I believe an actor can be paid no higher
compliment than to be acclaimed as the characters which he or she brings to life.
Such is the enduring magic of Dilip Kumar whether it is his portrayal of the
eponymous Devdas, or Prince Salim in Mughal-e-Azam or the dacoit in Ganga
Jumna.
However, it was Raj Kapoor who, as a conceiver of stories, director and actor
in his own films, had the genius to set about constructing the idea of who an
Indian was. At the time of Independence, 70 to 80 per cent of India was still
rural. Our cities were not the metropolises of today but they held the promise of
development. Raj ji, probably through a subconscious drive, conceived the idea
of the noble Indian—most often a wanderer from rural India, lost and bewildered
in the big city. He was innocent and pure of heart and would bring to the harsh
realities of urban life the compassion, generosity, innocence, honesty, piety and
even the sense of humour which his upbringing endowed him with.
Raj ji’s heroes were the Awaaras, the Shri 420s, the boatmen of the Ganges
who brought a sense of generosity and large-heartedness to the characters they
encountered. They were Robin Hoods but also more, for they weren’t dedicated
to operating through militant force and swashbuckling heroism (that came to
Hindi cinema with later heroes). They were simpletons who triumphed through
the force of goodness. The anthems he inspired and used in his films
demonstrate this time and again:
Hoton pe sachchai rehti hai
Jahan dil mein saffai rehti hai
Hum uss desh ke vaasi hain
Jis desh mein Ganga behti hai.
My name is Raju
Homeless
Where the Ganges flows is my home.
Furthermore:
And:
Given my immense respect for Raj ji, I was delighted when he agreed to do a
cameo in my directorial debut. It was 1976 and the film was Chandi Sona
(1977), which broke new ground in Indian cinema, being technically ahead of its
time, with underwater sequences and exciting visual effects which had not been
seen before.
Raj ji completed his three-day schedule most professionally. Since it was a
guest appearance, no formal agreement was signed nor was a fee discussed. It
was a goodwill gesture on his part and while I was deeply indebted to him for
gracing my film, I felt he should be paid for it. Later that year, when we were
together at a wedding, I tried to give him Rs 1 lakh. His response was
characteristic of him. ‘Abbas,’ he said, ‘you are like Shashi to me. Do you think I
would have charged Shashi if he had asked me to do a guest appearance in his
film? I’ll quote you my price when you formally sign me for a film, okay?’
Shaking his hand, I said, ‘Done.’
Just then the women walked in. He grabbed my hand and held it beside to his
own, wrist to wrist, and said to his wife, ‘Dekho ji, hum do Pathan. Ek Hindu, ek
Mussalman.’ (Look, we’re two Pathans. One Hindu, one Muslim.)
I was extremely touched. That day, he had set the code of understanding
between us. The man I had seen on screen as a ten-year-old in 1951 had called
me his younger brother. I had indeed come a long way.
One fine day, Feroz told me that he had found a beautiful, large flat in Juhu.
This was an area of Bombay which I knew little about, except that it was away
from the city, where all my friends lived. In fact, I hadn’t even realized that Juhu
was, at the time, an island—though it has been connected since.
I didn’t have very high expectations when I drove there with him. However, I
soon discovered that I was wrong, and it wasn’t long before I fell in love with
the area.
At that time Juhu was a very quiet place with the atmosphere of a village and I
found many aspects of it quite charming. It had, for instance, gaslights which
were lit every evening by a fellow from the municipality who would come on his
bicycle, carrying a long pole with a hook at the end. Then there was Juhu beach,
which drew me from the moment I set eyes on it, with its clean, silver-brown
sand and lush palms fringing the island.
As we entered Jussawalla Wadi, now known as Oberoi Enclave, we stopped
right opposite what would be our home for many years to come. Feroz finalized
the deal and signed the lease agreement and a couple of days later, we moved
from our apartment in Marine Drive to our lovely airy apartment overlooking the
sea and surrounded with palms which swayed in the breeze. That evening, we
celebrated with our friends and I knew we had made the right decision.
The atmosphere of Jussawalla Wadi was enchanting. Beautiful villas with
lovely gardens were awash with bright, soft sunlight, shaded by towering palms
and cooled by the breeze from the sea. From the very first day when Feroz and I
moved in, the community welcomed us with open arms and made us feel right at
home with neighbours dropping in to see if we needed any help. Over time, we
got to know each and every member of this wonderful community—people like
the Shroffs, the Engineers, the Katraks, the famous writer Rajbans Krishen
Khanna with whom I used to discuss ideas on history, politics and other matters.
He was a close associate of Nehru and Sheikh Abdullah. I shared his concerns
for the highest ideals of nation building and humanity. He was a guiding light in
my early life. He and his wife Usha Khanna, founder of the popular Samovar
Café, were both wonderful human beings and an extraordinary couple. I also got
to know respected actor Balraj Sahni, famous writer–director K. Abbas and a
host of Parsi and Bori Muslim families. I remember Mrs Jer Jassawala, an
elderly Parsi lady who wore shorts all the time.
Another couple, whom I used to great on the beach every day, was celebrated
director Satyen Bose and his wife, Ruby. One day, they invited Feroz and me to
their home for dinner, a night that marked the beginning of a long friendship
between us. I didn’t know it then, but Satyen would have a big hand to play in
my future.
Some weeks after moving in, I was sitting in the spacious balcony of our
apartment overlooking the access road to Jussawalla Wadi and reading Leo
Tolstoy’s classic War and Peace when I heard a girl’s voice. Something about it
caught my attention and I looked up from the book to see who it was. An
extraordinarily beautiful young girl in shorts was chasing after an elderly obese
man. She repeatedly called him by his name—‘Nana Bhai’—until he stopped.
When she caught up with him, she took his hand and said in Gujarati, ‘Tamune
Mummy buleway che,’ (Mummy is calling you) and together they walked back
past my flat.
I had never seen such a beautiful girl in my life. Though she was totally
oblivious to my presence on the balcony, I could not take my eyes off her. It
really was as if an arrow had pierced my heart, and I felt the pain of pleasure
surge within me. As I watched her turn into the house next to my immediate
neighbour’s, I was determined to get to know her. Thoughts of her dominated the
rest of my day and that night I even dreamt of her.
Until then, I had never felt a lasting interest in any of the girls I had met in my
active Bombay social life, though a few of them had been keen to be my
girlfriend. I remember, in particular, two very pretty Sindhi girls who had a crush
on me and even though I enjoyed their company, my interest in them was not
serious. But this girl was different—she was an enchantress!
Our first picture for one of the magazines
The next day, I was up early so I decided to go for a jog and a swim in the
ocean. As I passed the small house into which she had disappeared the day
before, the thought of her infused my mind and body with energy and I jogged
ten kilometres that day! Just seeing this girl from a distance, without meeting or
talking to her, filled my heart with the kind of joy you feel when you’ve found
something you’d lost. I was eighteen, a lanky, skinny boy just shy of 6'2". She,
as I found out eventually, was just thirteen, but to me had looked like a sixteen-
year-old beauty. Years later, she confessed that she had fallen for the intense look
on my face and my baritone voice.
The story of our romance began the day we met: 2 May 1960. I was preparing
to go out for a run and a swim in the sea when I spotted her walking towards the
beach with another girl. I started jogging and crossed them, purposely ignoring
their presence, but stopped some distance away. I looked for a twig but I
couldn’t find one, so I bent down and wrote a big ‘HI’ on the sand (which,
soaked as it was with the waters of the sea, made a big, clean writing slate) with
my index finger. Then I loped away, only to stop further ahead and look back. I
saw both girls curiously looking at what I had written on the sand, and then, to
my delight, my dream girl bent down, wrote something and walked back with
her friend. I waited impatiently for a short while then returned to the spot to see
what she had written on the sand before the rapidly rising tide washed her words
away. I got there just in time to catch a glimpse of her answering ‘HI’ before the
waves erased it. But it was enough for me! Emboldened with joy, I ambled
towards them and introduced myself with a warm smile, ‘Hello! I am Abbas
Khan.’
My dream girl was standing right in front of me with dots of sweat above her
upper lip. Her beautiful smile was like sunshine and I couldn’t help noticing that
she had a full mouth. She looked at me and said, ‘I am Zarine Katrak.’ We gazed
into each other’s eyes and in that moment, I knew hers were the eyes of someone
I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. After what seemed like ages, I broke
the silence; the words just spilled out of my mouth. ‘I want to marry you. Will
you say yes?’
Understandably, she was startled by my admission, but she quickly regained
her composure and said, ‘If after a year I feel the same way as I feel about you
now, I will say yes.’
Now, when I recall that encounter, it seems like I am watching a scene from a
movie in which two lovers meet, fall in love and the world stands still.
Her answer was intriguing but it made my respect for her soar. I had found my
girl and I felt I could spend my whole life with her in bliss. She was my destiny.
As we stood there, not quite knowing what to say to each other, there was a
sudden storm accompanied by the cool winds whistling through the tall palm
trees. I could visualize the two of us standing on the top of a mountain looking at
a magnificent golden-hued sky and listening to the rustling leaves of the trees.
The scene felt so real that I could smell the aromatic scent of the flowers mixed
with the freshness of the evening breeze.
That night I slept like a log and the next morning, jogged ten kilometres along
Juhu beach, bursting with energy and happiness.
Though I was blessed with a large loving family and many close friends,
Zarine very quickly became my confidante, the person I trusted the most and
whose advice I relied on. It didn’t take long for me to discover that not only was
she intelligent and mature for her age, but she also had the kind of common
sense which is so uncommon in most people.
Our courtship lasted six long years and they were some of the happiest years
of my life. We used to walk aimlessly for hours on Juhu beach, hand in hand,
whispering sweet nothings to each other and dreaming of our future. My dreams
were the only asset I had at that time; I had no money in my pocket, and
constantly worried about how I would ever provide for her. The thought haunted
me and hung like a dark cloud over my head. I was not one to be pessimistic for
long, though, and was determined to find my niche in life and become successful
so that we could build a good life together.
One evening while walking on the shore, I was feeling particularly confident
about the future. Pointing to a row of beautiful villas on Juhu beach, I asked
Zarine to choose one that she would like to own and promised to buy it for her
one day. She smiled, looked carefully at the villas, selected a very modest-
looking one, and said, ‘Absi, [that’s what she calls me] that small one will be
enough for us.’
I shook my head and said, ‘No, no, select a bigger one! That’s too small.’
As we strolled, we passed a large white house on the Silver Beach Estate.
‘That’s a beautiful house!’ she suddenly exclaimed. Little did we know then that
years later we would buy and live in that big house on Silver Beach, now known
as Sanjay House, our home of many years.
As she grew older, Zarine became a model and was swamped with
assignments, which introduced her to a completely new world. She would travel
for work not only within Bombay, but sometimes also to Delhi and Calcutta.
Even though I knew that male and female models worked in close proximity, I
was never jealous because it never, even in the remotest recesses of my mind,
occurred to me that Zarine would ever allow an outsider to invade our space. We
both knew that we were committed to each other and it was always going to be
‘till death do us part’.
* * *
One night, we were having briefing sessions and discussing the next day’s call
sheet which included the role of a pilot. Suddenly, John told me to be ready with
make-up the next day, as I would be doing that role. I was pleasantly surprised to
hear this and not a little excited. Of course I agreed and since I was the baby of
the unit, everyone helped me. As I sat on a biplane parked at Mysore airport, the
costume guys came and put a leather helmet and wind glasses on my head. I
looked in the mirror and I couldn’t see my face so I asked John Guillermin what
to do. I told him that I had an idea: while flying, I could turn around, look at
Tarzan and remove my goggles. He laughed out loud but agreed to my
suggestion and that’s how the shot was taken. It was a success.
The first shot of Tarzan Goes to India had two baby elephants running and
nudging Tarzan awake. We hid bananas in Tarzan’s lap, who was shown sleeping
under a banyan tree with his back to the camera. The handlers managing the
baby elephants at a nearby river would let go of them at the sound of ‘Action’
and quickly hide behind the bushes while the animals came running with lifted
trunks and nudged Tarzan. As he woke up, Tarzan would greet them with a
‘good morning’ and feed them the bananas. The trick was to keep the baby
elephants hungry during the rehearsals and feed them just one banana to provide
the incentive to run over to Tarzan.
I learned the craft of directing a film from John Guillermin: the intensity and
the concentration required for setting up each shot; the discussions on camera
movements with the cameraman; how to capture the highlights of the scene; how
to juxtapose the background action; the importance of understanding the
psychology of the actor; and last, but not least, how to make animals act. The
excitement of working in a real film unit was incredible. The words ‘Camera’,
‘Roll’, ‘Action’, ‘Cut’ became music to my ears and in the night, I used to look
up at the ceiling and wish to be able to make a name for myself in this business.
John was happy with my work and asked me to join him in South Africa. I
was flattered, but I didn’t accept his generous offer as I felt that my destiny was
beckoning me to stay. It was a good decision. John hugged me and gave me a
letter of recommendation saying I was a top-class first assistant director. I
treasured the letter for years.
I remember spending my first salary on buying an expensive silk sari for
Zarine, my sweetheart.
On the way back, in the pitch dark and terrible cold, as we approached our
camp we heard the word ‘Tham! (Stop!) Password?’
The moment I heard the sentry call out, all I could think of was Major A.G.
Singh, Camp Commander, telling us how a young captain had been shot dead a
few days before we had arrived at the camp for not responding with the
password at the call of the sentry. I braced myself to receive a bullet because
neither of us had even thought to ask for the password when we left.
When we did not respond again, we heard the terrifying sound of a rifle being
cocked. It was enough to make Dharmendra and me sweat even in the sub-zero
temperature. We knew we had to do something quickly or risk getting shot.
It was Dharmendra who spoke up in a faltering voice, ‘Arre, hum filmwaale
hain . . . filmwaale.’ (We are the film people . . . film people.)
There was a pause from the other side and complete silence for the next ten
seconds, the longest ten seconds that I have ever experienced in my life.
Suddenly, a torch was flicked on. As the bright light from the torch hit our
faces, blinding us, the sentry shouted a command, ‘Haath upar.’ (Hands up.)
We squinted in the bright light and immediately put our hands up. A voice
boomed, ‘Aage badho!’ (Come forward!)
Dharmendra repeated, ‘Main Dharmendra hoon, yaar . . . actor.’ (I am
Dharmendra, the actor.) While we waited anxiously for a response, we heard the
sound of gravel crunching underfoot coming towards us. A burly Sikh soldier
walked up to us, his eyes fixed on Dharmendra all the while.
To our great surprise, he let out a yell of excitement. We imagined him to be a
fan, but soon realized that the man was an acquaintance of Dharmendra’s from
his village in Punjab. Dharmendra cursed him good-naturedly in choicest
Punjabi while I simply let out a sigh of relief at still being alive.
One morning, soon after Haqeeqat was released, Satyen Bose came over to my
house in Juhu. I assumed he had come to ask me to push his old Morris car
again. This had become such a regular occurrence that I had even asked him why
he didn’t buy a new one. He had told me, laughing, that it was an English car
which he was very sentimental about and he wouldn’t get another one easily.
However, on this particular day, I was in for a surprise. He said, ‘No, I have
not come here to ask you to push the car but to give you a push—into films.’ He
explained that he had a good script about two boys, one blind and the other lame.
I would be the romantic lead with a pivotal role in the film. I was delighted and
accepted the offer readily.
The next day he took me to meet Tarachand Barjatya, the producer. He gave
me an assessing look, then turned to Satyen Bose and said, without consideration
for my presence, ‘You want to cast him?’ I am a sensitive person and I felt hurt.
This, however, strengthened my resolve to succeed so I looked at him and
smiled. He said, ‘He has a good smile.’ Just then I heard music coming from
somewhere in the building: Chahunga mein tujhe. Tarachand Barjatya stood up
and rushed out of the room. Five minutes later he came back and said he had
selected a song for the film and this had put him in a very good mood. The music
directors were Laxmikant and Pyarelal, whom I had the privilege of working
with in many of my films later on.
I was signed up for the film Dosti (1964), but then a question arose about my
name. Satyen Bose said that there were three Abbases in the industry already—
the director–producers K. Abbas and S.M. Abbas, and the third who was a stunt
choreographer.
‘You’ll get lost among them,’ Satyen Bose said. ‘We need to find you a stage
name.’ I just looked at him, wondering what he would come up with. ‘How do
you like Sanjay?’ he said. I immediately agreed as I knew about the character of
Sanjay in the Mahabharata, and he was a visionary.
On my first day, arriving on the sets of my first film as a lead actor, I felt
nervous and excited. I was guided to my make-up room where I spent some time
learning my lines, looking in the mirror and trying to think how I would deliver
them. Just then there was a loud knock on my door and an even louder voice
summoned me to the floor in the next five minutes. Later in life, when I became
a successful star, the knock on my door changed to a soft one, and was followed
by the assistant director entering my room with a big smile, and requesting my
presence on set.
I was about to learn what it was to start at the bottom in the industry. I refused
to be distracted by the attitude of the chief assistant director on the sets of Dosti.
I decided to ignore it and focus on my work. I was not a trained actor from an
institution with a diploma or a gold medal; I was my own institution, my own
teacher. I realized that I had to fend for myself and navigate my path to the best
of my ability. I was most grateful to my ever-smiling director, my friend and
mentor Satyen Bose, who patiently guided me, encouraging me to do my best.
He told me at the end of the day that I was good and to keep it up. His words
inspired me and boosted my confidence.
Dosti proved to be a superhit and did as well as Raj Kapoor’s Sangam at the
box office. I still remember Tarachand Barjatya calling me to his office and
showing me the statements and comparing the figures. Sangam had made Rs 1.6
crore while Dosti had earned Rs 1.64 crore. The production cost of Sangam in
colour was Rs 60 lakh and Dosti in black and white was Rs 4 lakh.
Although Dosti’s success was the talk of the Bombay film industry for many
weeks after its release, I had still not benefited from this. Discouraged, I told
Satyen Bose one day while going with him to buy fish near Lido Cinema, ‘Dada,
I am so frustrated that I want to commit suicide.’ He retorted, ‘Bakwas band
karo! (Don’t talk rubbish!) Soon you will be signing many films.’ He told me
that the industry had recognized my screen presence and my baritone voice and
that I was being hailed as the most handsome star of the Indian screen.
Even so, six long weeks passed and nothing happened. It felt like an eternity. I
had promised Zarine the world, and unless my career really took off, I wouldn’t
be able to fulfil the promise. I would lose my world.
One day, however, Satyen’s words came true. There was a knock on my door
and standing there was producer Tony Walker, brother of comedian Johnny
Walker. He seemed excited and anxious at the same time. He asked me to be the
leading man in his film Dillagi (1966) and told me that he had cast Mala Sinha
as the female lead, emphasizing what a big star she was.
That evening Zarine and I celebrated with Feroz.
With Mala Sinha
I walked on to the set of Dillagi with a huge surge of excitement. This was my
first film as the solo leading man and I felt closer to achieving my dream.
Everyone on the set applauded in welcome, the producer garlanded me and
laddoos were distributed to all present. Mala Sinha, the much celebrated leading
lady of the Hindi film industry, shook hands with me and gave me a sparkling
smile and invited me to sit beside her.
As work on Dillagi progressed, I noticed that Mala talked and giggled a lot
with the crew. She was also very warm and welcoming to me. I didn’t think of
this as patronizing but helpful; she did not flaunt her stardom at me and I held
her in the esteem she deserved, without showing the kind of sycophancy which
was the currency of the times. Between shots, Mala and I chatted, and it seemed
to me that she genuinely enjoyed my company. Which was a good thing, because
the floodgates of offers for other films had opened in the meantime and I had
already signed six films with her as the leading man.
It was as if there were no other stars in the entire film industry. It looked like
all roads were leading to my flat and I was swamped by producers and directors
wanting to sign me up for their next venture. I signed nearly 100 films within a
period of six months. Leading film industry magazines, including Screen, were
writing about this new star who had emerged. The phone kept ringing because
every journalist in the film industry wanted to interview me. The constant flurry
of activity around me was unimaginable. In one day I signed more than five
films; it might have been a record of sorts. There was hardly any time to pause
and think and it made me realize that I needed help to manage my affairs.
When I shared my challenges with Zarine, she asked, ‘Absi, what are we
going to do?’ I laughed and said that although there would be trials and
responsibilities, she would be my partner through the long journey. I also
thought that the challenges would help me grow and this sent a tingle of joy
down my spine.
Or was that a warning of the burden of stardom to come?
One day, while I was shooting, I was surprised to receive a call from a leading
actress’s father, who asked me to meet him. I invited him to my flat but he
suggested we meet elsewhere. I drove into the nearby Juhu Hotel, parked my
new sports car coupe and looked around as he had suggested we meet in the
parking lot. Very soon, a convertible Impala Chevrolet, which was the status
symbol in those days, rolled in. The gentleman stepped out of his car looking
unhappy—the smile he had on his face seemed forced. I wondered what the
matter was and why he needed to see me. He started telling me how his
daughter, the actor, thought I was a true gentleman, and liked me so much that
she wanted to marry me.
This was as ridiculous as asking Romeo, while he was climbing the vine to the
balcony where Juliet was waiting, to marry another girl who was tugging on his
foot from below. I was shocked beyond words and quickly thought back to my
conversations with her on the sets and tried to recall if her behaviour had shown
that she was smitten by me. ‘Oh my God!’ a voice inside screamed at me as I
realized that I had misinterpreted her feelings for friendship.
I quickly regained my composure and very politely thanked him for thinking
me worthy of his famous daughter. Then I added, ‘Sir, I can’t marry her. I am
already committed to my girlfriend whom I am in love with.’ The gentleman was
outraged by my refusal and threatened to cancel the five other films I was doing
with his daughter and destroy my nascent film career. He raised his hand and
snapped his fingers to make his point.
No one in my life had ever threatened me in this manner. I controlled my
rising temper, though, and responded to his outburst calmly, telling him that he
was free to do whatever he liked. I walked to my car and drove off. On the
principles of honour and self-respect, I would rather lose my career than lose
Zarine.
As soon as I reached home, one of the producers I had signed with called to
inform me that he had dropped me from his film. Two more such calls followed.
The fourth was from Devendra Goel. At first I assumed that he had called for the
same reason as the others, but he said, ‘No, I don’t like such attitude, and I am
not dropping you.’
Fortunately, the incident didn’t have a long-lasting effect, but it certainly gave
me food for thought and taught me a lot about the industry in which I had chosen
to work. I was growing up fast.
Within three years of our marriage we moved into our newly built villa, the
dream house I had promised her once. We named it Sanjay House, and it was
one of the largest homes in the film industry in those days, with six bedrooms
with attached bathrooms, a dining room, a large living room, my home office, a
private theatre and a gym. We added a swimming pool, a large compound garage
for the cars, and servants’ quarters.
We were a newly married couple and I had no idea about the numerous
imposing responsibilities of setting up a house; I left all that to Zarine. The first
thing she did was furnish one bedroom and bathroom, the dining room, the
living room and the kitchen. I asked her, ‘Why don’t we furnish the entire house
then move into it in style?’
‘First we move in, then plan the furnishings while living here. We can take our
time to think and get the right furniture and fixtures without making mistakes
and losing money,’ she explained and I was incredibly impressed with the
confidence and acumen she displayed.
Since then Zarine has managed our home and lives with such skill and grace
that I can’t help but marvel at my own fortune in finding her. In our early years
together I often wondered where she had learnt all this, but now, having lived
with her for so long, I can say one thing with confidence—that she is a natural. I
have always admired the manner in which she organizes the kitchen, the dining
table, including the selection of dishes and the delicious food, making the house
look warm and welcoming. From the start she kept everything running smoothly.
She would record the minutest details of the needs of the house, and take care of
all the maintenance—electrical, plumbing, interiors, exteriors and the garden. It
was like running a hotel.
Zarine has always been a wonderful mother. She knew exactly what the
children needed—whether it was their nutrition or their education or their
emotional needs. She took extraordinary care about their social behaviour and
responsibilities, such as their punctuality in reaching school. She instilled in
them the values of life we have always lived by. For instance, though the car
picked the children up from school in the afternoons, she made them travel to
school by public transport in the mornings. When they asked her why this
system was being imposed on them she simply told them, ‘To make you realize
the value of things in life; nothing comes for free. You have to work hard and
earn your place in the world.’ Each time I look at my beautiful daughters—
Farah, Simone and Sussanne—I thank the Almighty for painting my life with a
special brush.
Zarine is a great hostess. We love entertaining, and she has organized some
extraordinary parties in our house for anywhere from twenty to over two
hundred guests. She never brings in caterers from outside but has the food
prepared by our own chefs. Friends who visited our home openly admired the
decor of our house, and, encouraged by this and prompted by friends, she
ventured forth and founded her own extremely successful interior design firm,
Tradition. She designed not only some of the best homes at the time, but also the
interiors of public buildings such as the Maurya Sheraton Hotel in Delhi, the
Banjara in Hyderabad and the office of the chairman of the Bombay Stock
Exchange.
Zarine has always paid great attention to what I wear, not only on the screen
but otherwise too. My heroines often spoke to me about Zarine and jokingly
came up with reasons to explain why I did not bring her along on the sets; by
then she had been featured in several magazines for her work in interior
designing and had become extremely successful. They would say, good-
humouredly: ‘To spare our feeling. She is so beautiful, it might give us a
complex!’ When I narrated this to Zarine she would laugh it off.
In financial matters, we shared everything. In fact from the day we got
married I just handed over the keys to her and told her that she was an equal
partner in everything I earned. And that’s how we’ve remained till today.
I am indeed very fortunate to have a wife like Zarine. She has never allowed
the tranquillity of our home to be disturbed. She continues to hold the home
front with fortitude and courage. We have never discussed the unfortunate mess I
was in—it was too raw. Another woman might have revolted and sought divorce,
but Zarine has always believed that a human being has two sides, one good, the
other bad, and that we must always look at the good side. She saw the good side
of me and chose to stay with me despite some of the unjustifiable wrongs I have
done.
From Paris, we went to Nice on the French Riviera, famous for its beaches
and Mediterranean peaches. We checked into Hotel Negresco, one of the best
hotels on the Riviera, and as we were being ushered to our suite, I saw a plaque
with the name of the Greek shipping tycoon Aristotle Onassis outside one of the
suites. When I was a teenager, I had read a book on Onassis in which he had
mentioned that he had become a millionaire at the age of twenty-four. His words
had left a lasting impression on my mind and I too was a millionaire by the time
I turned twenty-four. I was very impressed that we were staying in the same
hotel.
The rooms, however, were not at all impressive as they were devoid of air
conditioning. It was the month of August and the lack of air conditioning made it
unbearably hot. The boom-boom sound of the Ferraris and the Mercedes-Benzes
throughout the night and into the wee hours of the morning was annoying and I
did not sleep well that night. Zarine was still fast asleep when I woke up so I
went out to have a look around. I walked towards the boutique supermarket
attached to the hotel and loitered in front of its vast fruit section. I love peaches
and my mouth was watering as I concentrated on selecting the best ones from
their display. At that moment I saw in the field of my vision a pair of naked
breasts which uncannily resembled the pink of the peaches. I slowly turned my
head and saw a stunningly beautiful, topless young blonde girl in white jeans
with a wicker basket slung on her left hand. She looked at me with an inviting
smile and said, ‘Bonjour!’
I smiled and said, ‘Bonjour!’ Her look was engaging but I just smiled and
concentrated on the peaches. I could feel her eyes on me for quite some time and
when I looked up, I saw that she was still smiling at me. I smiled back and kept
selecting peaches. When I told the story to my wife, she started laughing and
said that I was quite a hunk of a man and she couldn’t blame the young girl for
looking at me the way she had. But she also said that she didn’t believe that the
girl could be roaming around topless in an open market. I proved my point to her
when we went to the beach opposite our hotel and saw hundreds of women
roaming around topless, without any care or self-consciousness. Zarine was quite
amused by the spectacle. Later, we watched African dancers, two men and a
woman, in scanty leopard skins with white and yellow plumes and all sorts of
beads in their colourful headgear dancing away to fast engaging African music
which sounded like a cry of victory. We, and the large crowd assembled there,
watched the dancers spellbound.
Our next stop was Monte Carlo—an experience I shall never forget. Even
though I was not much of a gambler, the idea of visiting a casino in Monte Carlo
was thrilling. Zarine cautioned me, ‘Absi, please be careful. Do not lose our
money; we have shopping to do in London.’
She was standing behind me while I was playing and losing at the tables. It
was about three in the morning and the casino would close in an hour. Slightly
irritated, she kept nudging me to get up, so I left the table and we went back to
the car that was waiting to take us to our hotel. Zarine kept saying she hoped we
had enough money left for the shopping as in those days there were no credit
cards or ATMs. We were out there in the cold with whatever cash we had in our
possession.
At the hotel, when she saw I was not getting out of the car, Zarine angrily
slammed the car door and stormed away. The French driver, who though very
friendly was also a character, turned around to look at me and said, ‘Monsieur,
please listen to Madame.’
I told him to shut up and drive straight to the casino as there were hardly forty
minutes left till it closed. On reaching the casino, I quickly changed $2000, a lot
of money in those days, and sat at the very same table and started playing. I
selected number twenty-six and placed a bet of $1000, making a cheval. It was
unbelievable when I hit the number and won, so I repeated the number and, to
my delight, won again. I seemed to be in great luck that night so I placed another
bet on number twenty-six and won the third time also, making nearly $75,000 in
winnings. After I had won the third time, the croupier announced that the casino
was closed.
I was quite amazed with the bundles of francs I got as my winnings and did
not know where to keep all that money. So I stuffed it all inside my shirt and
walked out into the cool night looking like a fat man. My friend, the chauffeur,
was waiting for me. He looked at me and asked, ‘Did you win, Monsieur?’
I said, ‘You bet I did!’ and giving him a 500-franc note, told him to go home
and come in the morning.
However, after he had left, I was struck by the thought that with so much
money on my person at 4 a.m. on the Riviera, I could easily be attacked.
Nevertheless, I was feeling exhilarated and walked into a bar and had a brandy
to brace myself against the cold of the night. I started walking towards the hotel
which was just a block away and saw several girls and a bunch of boys strolling
on the streets. I inferred that they must be gigolos, remembering a recent movie,
starring Warren Beatty, where he played such a role.
As I was about to cross the road, I was intercepted by a car that came to a
screeching halt right in front of me. Just as I was regaining my composure, the
door opened and the driver, a lady, about ten years older than me, invited me in
French to hop inside. It appeared that she had mistaken me for a gigolo. I
politely said in French that I was sorry but I didn’t speak French. She at once
realized her mistake and scooted faster than she had arrived on the scene.
I slowly opened the door of our hotel room, trying my best to avoid making
any noise which might disturb Zarine’s sleep, but as I closed the door, she called
out softly, ‘Is that you, Absi?’
I said, ‘Yes, darling.’
There was a pause and the room was still dark. She asked me in a soft voice,
‘Did you win?’
I said, ‘Yes, darling.’
Snap! The lights came on. Zarine jumped out of the bed and embraced me. I
was too exhausted by the experience of the evening, so I emptied all the money
from my trouser and shirt pockets and from inside my shirt on to the bed and
collapsed on the bed to get some sleep. The last thing I remember was hearing
the sound of crisp currency notes as Zarine sat there counting all the money I
had won that night.
Later, when we were in the US, I was most thrilled to see the city of New
York, the Empire State Building, the Statue of Liberty and the American way of
life. I found American people to be warm and friendly. I could not have
imagined then that many years later I would be fighting for my life at the George
Town Hospital in Washington DC.
I remember an incident when I was walking on the pavement on Fifth Avenue.
Wanting to cross the road and accustomed to the Indian habit of looking to the
right for approaching vehicles, I did just that, but as I took my first step, a huge
truck swished past, barely missing me. By the time I recovered, the truck’s tail
lights could be seen disappearing down Fifth Avenue. It was yet another close
call, one of the many that I have had in my eventful life.
7
The Apples of My Eye
My family is the most precious thing in my life, and has always come first for
me. Zarine and I have been blessed with four lovely children—three girls and a
boy. During my heavy shooting schedules, when I was at the lowest ebb of my
energy, the very thought of my children would suffuse my body with happiness
like energy from a nuclear reactor.
Farah
From the day our daughter Farah came into our lives, everything turned to gold.
She was born in Ajinkya Nursing Home on Peddar Road. Dr Ajinkya, the
gynaecologist who delivered her, informed me that my darling child had Down’s
Syndrome. I remember it was 4 a.m. and he was reeking of the liquor he had
consumed the night before. I was stunned, confused and angry and repeatedly
asked him what he meant. He very matter-of-factly told me that some children
were born like that. I looked at my baby and her flat nose with anguish and tears
in my eyes, but remember Zarine holding her in her arms as though she was
infinitely precious and murmuring in a soft, soothing voice, ‘We love you, my
darling.’
With my kids
Luckily for us, the doctor was mistaken. It turned out that the forceps he had
used for the delivery had wrongly gripped the baby’s nose, leaving a deep mark
on it and flattening it for a while. Caroline, her nanny, massaged it every day
with oils she had brought from Goa until it regained its shapeliness.
One day, while she was playing in the sand on Juhu beach, an out-of-control
galloping pony jumped over Farah’s head and kicked her with its hind hoof,
injuring her face and head. She was just three years old at that time and Zarine
and I were distraught as we rushed her to the hospital. It was a very worrisome
day for us to see our child suffer. The sleepless nights, grief and sorrow clung to
us for months. It took Farah some time to recover from that experience and she
had a scar for a while, but eventually she grew up to be a charming, bright,
beautiful and happy child with a great sense of humour. As a young girl, she was
a natural leader and very creative. When her sisters and brother were born, she
also had full command over them; she was like a second mother.
With Farah and Zarine
Farah was a brilliant student and after finishing the tenth standard from
Jamnabai Narsee School, she enrolled in Sapphire College, where she obtained a
bachelor’s degree in arts and history. She then went on to California, USA, and
joined the renowned and respected Gemological Institute of America where she
topped in the final year. Today, she is a well-respected name in the field of
jewellery design and is considered an expert in gemology. She is the founder–
owner of her jewellery brand FKFJ (Farah Khan Fine Jewellery) which has a
showroom on Turner Road, Mumbai, and boasts clients from all over the world.
Farah’s wedding
Farah is married to Aqil Ali, the internationally renowned DJ, and together
they have two adorable children, the dashing Azaan and the gorgeous Fizaa who
has the most beautiful eyes in the world. Both are studious, loving and obedient
children to their doting parents. I’m very proud of Farah and love her deeply.
Simone
Our younger daughter, Simone, was born at Elizabeth Nursing Home, Malabar
Hill, Mumbai. She was a beautiful child with a delicious smile and I instantly
fell in love with her.
Though we had a large villa, as children, Simone and Farah shared a room
because Zarine felt sisters should be together and this would make them close to
each other. Simone was a studious, brilliant student and always stood first in
class and, later, first in the entire school. She was Assistant Head Pupil in the
eighth and ninth standards and then Head Pupil of the school. Like her sister, she
too studied in Jamnabai Narsee School and then joined Sapphire College from
where she graduated with a bachelor’s degree in arts.
One day, while she was still in school, for some strange reason which was
beyond my comprehension, Simone’s PT teacher instructed her, in spite of her
protests, to perform a long jump on a concrete floor. It was a disaster. She broke
both her shin bone and her hip bone in the incident. Zarine and I were shocked
beyond words.
With Simone
A black cloud of grief and sorrow hovered over us for months. It broke my
heart to see my child limping and in pain even after the plaster was removed. I
would cry at night in my bed and wonder if my beautiful daughter would always
limp and asked God why she had to suffer so much. I was ready to do anything
in the world to see her walk normally. We consulted the best orthopaedic
surgeons, and gave her the best medical attention available, hoping and praying
that she would recover. I’m proud to say that Simone conquered that disaster
with sheer willpower, courage and determination.
Today, she is married to Ajay Arora, an extraordinary man and her teen crush.
Their marriage has an interesting background story. One day, as I was coming
out of the men’s saloon at the Hotel Maurya in New Delhi I saw an attractive
lady in a white sari emerging from the ladies’ section of the same parlour; she
was looking at me and smiling. I smiled back, thinking she was probably a fan,
but when she introduced herself, she said, ‘We are going to be related soon.’
I was a bit taken aback but quickly regained my composure. She explained,
‘My nephew, Ajay Arora, is marrying your daughter, Simone.’
I was surprised and told her that I did not know anything about this, but she
kept chatting happily and expressing her delight at the alliance between her
nephew and my daughter. When I got into my car, I called Zarine and narrated
the incident to her. She was equally taken aback and said she would find out and
let me know. She called me back after a couple of hours and said that it was true.
Hearing that, anxiety gripped me. I wondered who this boy was. I was not
angry but disappointed that I did not know anything about it. I reached Bombay
the same night around 9 p.m. and I asked Zarine where Simone was. She replied,
‘Absi, she’s crying and is very upset. Please be tender with her.’ I called Simone
to my study as Zarine walked out; she did not want to intrude in the father–
daughter conversation.
Simone entered the room looking frightened. Her hands were clasped, her
head was bent and she had tears rolling down her cheeks. It broke my heart to
see her like that. She sat down quietly on the sofa while I looked at her. There
was silence in the room. My heart was crying out but at the same time my mind
was conjuring images of various boys I might have met in the past, trying to
place this one. I had never heard this boy’s name being mentioned in our home.
Even Farah had never mentioned anything; maybe she was protecting her sister
by keeping it a secret.
After a while, I simply asked her if we could find another match for her. She
did not answer but I saw that she was still weeping softly. Then, I asked her if
she loved him. She looked at me and said through her tears, ‘Yes, I love him,
Papa.’ I asked her if he loved her and she nodded confidently. By now, I was
overwhelmed by a surge of emotion and love for my daughter. Though who she
married was one of the most important decisions of her life, I got up and
embraced her tightly indicating my acceptance of her choice and then both of us
cried.
Simone’s wedding
Simone’s wedding was a very significant day in my life as she was the first of
my children to be married. We had a grand reception for over 5000 guests and
the streets leading to Hotel Leela were jammed with traffic. Cabinet ministers,
state chief ministers, high-ranking bureaucrats, Bollywood stars and their
families and scores of Punjabi industrialist families from all over mingled
happily with the Khans. I got along well with Ajay’s father and he kept telling
me, ‘Simone hamari ho chuki hai.’ (Simone belongs to us now.)
Simone and Ajay are a happily married couple with three lovely children.
Arman and Yuvraaz, their two strapping boys are pursuing academic excellence
in the USA and UK respectively, and their intelligent and beautiful daughter,
Adaa, is studying at Jamnabai Narsee School, Mumbai. Ajay is from an
industrial family and he and Simone have worked hard to build their company
D’Decor, one of the world’s largest and leading producers of home furnishing
fabrics. Simone is personally the founder of a large and elegant store, which is a
treasure trove for home accessories, including furnishing fabrics specially
designed for her by D’Decor. Her store, Simone’s, is located in Amarchand
Mansion opposite the Prince of Wales Museum in South Bombay.
Simone and Ajay own a large home in the Juhu JVPD Scheme and an exotic
villa in Bodrum, on the coast of the Agean Sea, known as the Riviera, in Turkey.
Sussanne
While we were enjoying the experience of having two lovely girls, both Zarine
and I craved for a boy. But when the nurses brought Sussanne and placed her in
my arms, she looked such a beautiful bundle of joy that I was immediately
captivated. The first thought that occurred to me was: ‘Gosh, she is the spitting
image of her mother.’
With Sussanne
Even as a three-year-old, Sussanne knew her own mind. One day she insisted
on being seated at the dining table with our friends. I was cracking jokes at the
table and making everyone laugh so she said that she too had a joke to tell and
asked for my permission. We all looked at her indulgently and I said, ‘Okay,
Sussanne, please let’s hear your joke.’ She glanced around the table with a sweet
smile and started off, ‘Then and then and then so . . . and . . . The dog was
barking at the cat . . . then somebody came in . . . Then . . . then they all ran
away.’ She clearly thought this was the punch line, so we all laughed, pretending
to have understood and enjoyed the joke. I admired her for having the
confidence to take centre stage at the table and tell her charming story. It was a
good quality, which would stand her in good stead in her adult life, I thought.
Sussanne passed her ICSE board from Jamnabai Narsee School, after which
she, like her sisters, joined Sapphire College. In 1993 she went to Brooks
College of Interior Design in Long Beach, California, and graduated with an
associate art degree in interior design in 1995. Thereafter, she returned to
Mumbai and joined her mother in the interior design company. Today, she is a
top interior designer and founder of The Charcoal Project, a flourishing and
respected interior design firm.
Sussanne has always had a special place in Zarine’s heart and always got more
concessions from her mother than her older siblings. Once, when she was only
seven years old, she was having an argument with her mother on our terrace
garden. Zarine had a foot ruler in her hand and was using it as a warning
instrument though neither she nor I have ever struck our children. Sussanne was
stomping her feet while her mother kept telling her not to do it. All of a sudden,
Sussanne screeched and it sounded like a cat. Coincidentally, there was a cat
sitting close by and it too screeched in sync, almost sounding like Sussanne. I
arrived in time to catch both the action and Sussanne’s reaction to it. She looked
surprised, but saw the funny side and started laughing, as did Zarine and I.
Sussanne, like her sisters, is not only creative but determined. I remember that
when she was learning to write her name she insisted that the spelling should be
S-U-S-S-A-N-N-E, with two Ns and two Ss. It has remained.
Hrithik entered Sussanne’s life through her brother, Zayed, and my purchase
of a bicycle. When I was younger, I used to be an exercise freak. I used to swim
religiously—I still do—as well as jog, ride horses and cycle from my residence
in Juhu to Versova beach. I was very fond of racing bikes that had gears and
wanted to buy one so I asked my son, Zayed, which one I should buy. He said
that the best person to advise me on that would be Hrithik.
‘Who’s Hrithik?’ I asked.
‘My friend. He is Rakesh Uncle’s son.’
I asked him to bring Hrithik over one day. A few days later, Zayed introduced
me to a young, handsome boy with hazel-green eyes who I found to be a trifle
shy but very well mannered and respectful. On my asking, he advised me on
which racing cycle to buy, explaining the finer points that needed to be
considered. I followed his advice and bought one that suited my purpose best.
Little did I know then that this well-mannered young man would one day
become my son-in-law.
By the time Sussanne and he fell in love and decided to marry, Hrithik had
become a popular film star. In our preliminary discussions on the proposed
marriage arrangements, Rakesh Roshan, Hrithik’s father, suggested that the
wedding venue be my deluxe hotel and spa in Bangalore, the Hilton Golden
Palms. It had recently been completed and was ready for operations but had not
opened as we were doing trial runs. I told him that the hotel could only
accommodate 400 people at a time in its 150 rooms but if we planned a
reception on the poolside, we could easily invite 3000–4000 people. Rakesh
suggested that we limit the guest list to the two families and a few close friends
and have a total of 600 people with the families sharing rooms.
I was hesitant at first as I thought that the wedding of a popular star like
Hrithik would be attended by the entire film industry as well as friends from
Mumbai and overseas, but somehow Rakesh persuaded me. I agreed to go ahead
with the plan and invited my good friend and renowned chef Imtiaz Qureshi to
create for us a range of delicious food, which he did, and which was talked about
for a long time after.
As the wedding date approached, the main gates of the hotel were closed and
a big security detail was put in place as thousands of Hrithik’s fans camped
outside for four days to catch a glimpse of the excitement inside. Many also tried
jumping over the walls to come inside. Even the national press was focused on
the happenings at the wedding site in the Golden Palms.
It was a fairy-tale wedding, superbly planned by both the families. The wining
and dining went on for seven days and the hospitality of the Golden Palms was
well tested. The atmosphere was simply enchanting.
Early on during the ceremonies, when there were new arrivals outside the
main gate, I got a request from the police to at least allow the journalists to enter
the lobby to take pictures of Rakesh and me. They said it would make things
easier for them, so I agreed. We gave an audience in the lobby, which is quite
lavish with a high atrium and a metal veranda. Hundreds of pictures were taken;
hundreds of questions were asked.
None of us will forget the night of the wedding. There is a large circular road
around the Golden Palms which gave us the luxury of having a real baraat,
complete with Hrithik mounted on a horse, looking striking in a sherwani and
pagri with a sword in hand.
Sussanne’s wedding
One of the lead dancers in the baraat was Rishi Kapoor who danced away the
night to the lively beat of the drums. He stopped after some time as he had been
dancing all the way and was out of breath. Rishi asked for a drink and I
beckoned a waiter and told him to give him a shot of whisky, which he gulped
down and joyously started dancing again.
Everyone was anxiously awaiting the bride’s arrival but Sussanne was making
Hrithik wait in the traditional way. The wait, however, extended to almost thirty
minutes and Rishi Kapoor had to stop many times to catch his breath and gulp
down a few more rounds of whisky. Though it was great fun, I was concerned
for him.
I sent messages to my wife to urge the bride to receive the groom. At last, the
Punjabi brigade gave a sigh of relief when Sussanne, along with her ladies-in-
waiting, finally approached the groom. Surrounded by almost 3000 guests, the
couple exchanged wedding vows on the island in the middle of the long pool
connected by a bridge.
It was a magical evening. In the midst of all the music and dancing, Ghulam
Nabi and Shammim Azad’s young daughter Sophia came rushing to me, saying
that she had found a diamond ring on the dance floor. It was large rock, at least
five to ten carats! I took the ring from her and went up to the stage to make an
announcement. Dimple Khanna, a close friend of our family, screamed my name
and said it was hers, but when I invited her to take it, she started laughing and
told me she was just joking. Then I saw my diamond merchant friend Farooq
Ratansi’s wife walk calmly up to me with a smile on her face to claim her ring
and tell me she was very grateful. I handed the ring to her and promptly
announced over the mike: ‘You will never lose a diamond in the Golden Palms
but you could always lose your heart.’ People clapped and the high-spirited
celebrations went on till late and the night was lit up with an amazing fireworks
display.
Zayed
Blessed as we were with three lovely daughters, I told Zarine that we were
indeed fortunate and should thank God that they were all well and healthy. But
she said that we must have a boy because it was my desire. We waited for almost
four years, during which time Zarine became obsessed with the idea of having a
boy. Seeing how keen she was, her close friend Lalita Giri persuaded her to visit
Balaji Temple and pray for a son. The prayers, it seems, were answered.
I was shooting at R.K. Studios when I was informed that I been blessed with a
son. I was so excited that I announced an early pack-up. The crew cheered and,
as word spread through the studio, everyone clapped and congratulated me as I
rushed towards my car.
With Zayed
Zayed was a bonny baby. When I saw him, I bent down and whispered the
azan in his ear as per Islamic custom. Zarine was so proud and she looked at me
as if to say, ‘Look, I have finally kept my promise and filled your life with three
lovely daughters and a son.’
Grooming my son from a baby to a teenage boy and to a young man was a
delightful responsibility. I enjoyed playing and doing things with Zayed right
from his childhood. I taught him swimming, snorkelling and underwater diving.
Few know that Zayed is an expert diver and water skier, thanks to Adi Godrej,
our family friend and a really great guy, who diligently instructed him.
Like his sisters, Zayed studied at Jamnabai Narsee School. He was accepted to
the Doon School in Dehradun from class six, but due to my fire accident he lost
not only his place but also a full year of schooling. In fact, all my children
missed a year of their studies due to that accident. Fortunately, we were able to
enrol him in the equally prestigious Welham’s Boys’ School in Dehradun where
he finished his eighth, ninth and tenth standards. He completed his eleventh and
twelfth standards at the Kodaikanal International School after which he got
entrance into Montgomery College, Maryland, near Washington DC. After
earning a degree in business administration from there, Zayed asked me if he
could go to the London Film School; his application was accepted and he
obtained a diploma from there.
Zayed’s wedding
The Hindi film industry existed long before it was called Bollywood but the
name has, perhaps appropriately, stuck. Manoeuvring through it is like working
one’s way through Mumbai traffic—unexpected twists and turns and dodges
before you get there in the end. As the old film song puts it: Zara hatt ke, zara
bach ke, yeh hai Bambai meri jaan!
A film, while being a work of art, is also an article of business, or, to put it
another way, unlike a poem or a painting which can be solo enterprises, a film
involves teamwork, contracts, technology, a sum total of a hundred functions
which make it both an artistic as well as a commercial endeavour.
While the Hindi film industry has been the beneficiary of and nurtured some
superb talents in acting, direction, writing, camerawork, music, dancing,
choreography, costumes, set design and all the rest, it has also been the favourite
operating theatre for crooks, con men, ego maniacs, pretenders, poseurs, frauds
and fools. During my time, by which I mean my thirty-three years in the
industry, I have been fortunate enough to interact and work with the top talents
but I have also come across the ‘darker’ side of Bollywood.
The challenges of being a Bollywood star began the day I started shooting for
Dillagi. Initially, my shooting hours were quite regular—9.30 a.m. to 6.30 p.m.
—because even when I was doing three or four films at the same time, shooting
took place in different studios and on different dates. The madness began when
Dus Lakh (1966) became a blockbuster. There was a sudden influx of producers
seeking dates and my schedule became really hectic. The 9.30 a.m. to 6.30 p.m.
single shift morphed into a 7 a.m. to 10 p.m. double shift, which meant I was
shooting for two films each day. This was not only stressful but affected my
personal life too.
Even though I accepted this, because that was the way Bollywood worked, it
was disturbing to my peace of my mind. I hardly saw, let alone played, with my
daughter Farah in those early years of my career. Our family grew, but the only
times I saw the children—before I left for work in the morning and when I
returned late at night—they would be asleep. The simple act of eating a meal in
the house with my family became a luxury for me; most of my breakfasts,
lunches and dinners were eaten in the studios.
Even though my family life was disoriented, Zarine stood firmly beside me.
Her cool and calm disposition was a source of great strength and inspiration to
me. Although incredibly busy, I tried as best I could to keep our social
engagements—weddings, birthday parties, dinner parties, including our own,
and celebrating the children’s birthdays and our anniversaries. We had made a
large number of friends by then, and they not only welcomed us with open arms
into their own homes but looked forward to being invited to ours. On most such
occasions I tended to make a grand entrance at almost midnight and more often
than not my arrival would energize the guests, so I had no choice but to be polite
and patient and join the party. I would go to bed at 2 a.m. and leave for the
studios at 6 a.m. sharp.
Unlike many actors of today’s generation, I adhered to the call time and was
always punctual. Over the years, in order to catch up on my sleep, I took naps
while being driven to the studios and back home or on a sofa on the set with
instructions to the assistant director to wake me up as soon as the shot was ready.
The hectic schedule left me so fatigued that I’d fall asleep instantly anywhere, in
spite of the din of the studio work going on around me.
After the grand success of Ek Phool Do Mali (1969), Intaquam (1969), Mela
(1971), Mera Vachan Geeta Ki Kasam, Shart (1969) and Daman Aur Aag
(1973), my situation became even more precarious. I would work sixteen to
seventeen hours a day, shooting for as many as three films in a day. Each shift
was five hours plus two hours driving from one location to the other.
Inevitably, the quality of work suffered, and though I was very aware of this at
the time, I was helpless to change much. The pace was so hectic that very often
we had no scripts until we were on the set. When actors asked for scripts at the
time of signing the film, we would be given a ‘story narration’ with the promise
of a script later, but very often it didn’t materialize until minutes before the first
shot was to be taken.
It has to be admitted that the storylines in those days were often very weak.
They were mostly love stories with three main characters—the hero, heroine and
villain—while a host of other, small characters (mother, father, sister, etc.)
meandered in and out of the story, often meaninglessly, and at the cost of the
main plot—as I frequently told my directors! Plagiarism was rife. But when I
protested the use of a story which was a complete copy of another film, probably
American, I was told, ‘Don’t worry about it; a good copy is better than a bad
original!’
Songs of course were central to every Bollywood film, with every film having
a minimum of six to eight. The nightingale of the Indian screen at the time was
Lata Mangeshkar who sang for many of my films. I am very proud that her last
song for television was for The Sword of Tipu Sultan and I am very happy that
we are still great friends. I was also very fortunate that more than sixty of the
songs in my movies were sung by Mohammed Rafi, one of the greatest voices of
his time, and are still remembered and played on all media platforms.
In the midst of all this chaos, the presence of a minimum of six producers
sitting on the sets with my secretary Prakash Chand Verma added to my anxiety.
I would feel their gaze on me even during rehearsals or a break in the shot. In
fact, at any time, a dozen pair of eyes—belonging to producers, journalists and,
inevitably, a few favour seekers—were on me with an expectant look. I would
look back casually, as if I was perusing the crowd, without stopping to engage
with any one person. My third eye, however, was busy absorbing the spectacle.
Prakash Chand Verma was entrusted with the responsibility of managing my
dates for over sixty out of the hundred films I signed. He was a prima donna who
relished his role a bit too much, and I heard from some producers that when one
enquired about me, Verma would say, ‘Sanjay Khan is in my bag, my dear sir,’
and lift his satchel up like a champion showing off the trophy he had won.
Verma loved being in the middle of this circus and enjoyed the attention he got
for being a go-between.
Once, I was leaving Gaylord’s restaurant with Verma in Bombay when I met
the reputed producer–director B.R. Chopra, who was also exiting the restaurant.
We greeted each other and I congratulated him on the big success of his film
Ittefaq with Rajesh Khanna and Nanda, who was working with me in four films
at the time.
Mr Chopra looked at Verma and exclaimed, ‘Ask your secretary. I offered
Ittefaq to you first!’
I was quite surprised and looked at Verma. Mr Chopra intervened and
informed me drily, ‘Your secretary asked me for a phenomenal signing amount.’
On our way home, I asked Verma to explain and was amazed to hear the story.
He had indeed asked B.R. Chopra for a sum which was in excess of what I
charged in those days, even though I was second only to Dilip Kumar in terms of
the asking price. I told Verma sternly that I would have loved to work for even a
quarter of my fee with a director like B.R. Chopra and he should have consulted
me before quoting a figure to him. Under my intense interrogation, Verma got
scared and blurted out that he and Chopra had been friends in Lahore, and that
he had used me as a pawn in his game of chess against him.
It was Verma’s job to meet all the producers and oversee my contracts. I often
suspected him of colluding with producers and signing away my dates to the
highest bidder. For example, Raj Khosla had wanted to sign me up for his film,
but told me that he didn’t have the money to pay up front. I told him that it didn’t
matter, and he could pay me when he had it. To my surprise, I heard nothing
further from him, and read in the papers some time later that Rajesh Khanna had
been signed for the film.
Verma had this strange habit of never looking at me in the eye while speaking
to me but instead at an imaginary spot over my head. I tried to question him. But
each time, he apologized and swore to atone for his misdemeanours, and having
a soft-hearted nature, I kept him on. I have never sacked any member of my staff
ever.
At Amitabh Bachchan’s seventieth birthday celebrations at Anil Ambani’s Big
Entertainment complex, Ajitabh Bachchan, who was sitting beside me at a table,
remarked, ‘When Sanjay Khan’s dates were being auctioned to his producers,
Amitabh and I would be travelling in a local train to Filmistan Studios to find
work.’
I felt a pang of sorrow on hearing this and I regret I couldn’t do much about it.
My Co-stars
My life in Hindi films did, of course, bring me into close contact with many
screen heroines, and this autobiography would not be complete without paying
tribute to and describing some of my experiences with them.
All over the world when you mention the word ‘heroine’ it creates curiosity
and interest in the minds and hearts of people, because they look so bewitching
and smart, oozing charm, verve and style. Their melodious voices and every
gesture and movement make them into goddesses incarnate.
I have been fortunate to work with some of the most talented and beautiful
heroines of Bollywood. In the first meeting with my leading lady, I always felt
the lady was sizing me up, and likewise I too was curious to know her mind. I
was quite sensitive about their manners and behaviour, the tone and tenor of their
voice and their disposition. I have to say that many of the actresses I worked
with were charming and had beautiful manners—but not all.
My close contact with these ladies made me realize how vulnerable they were
and how they sometimes confused the roles they were playing with their own
identities. For example, an actress playing a queen could perhaps be forgiven for
behaving like one, but what is less easy to forgive was the bad behaviour that
sometimes ensued. I have known it to have a damaging effect not only on the
actress in question, but also on her producers, her co-stars and her friends and
family, who had to suffer the tantrums and mood swings. I remember one
producer who had to provide gallons of milk, sweetmeats, fruits in silver
utensils, incense and flowers for a puja before ‘Baby’ would come on the set.
Relationships between the ‘hero’ and his ‘heroine’ inevitably affected the
production of a film.
Once I was shooting a song in a garden and I had to come dancing and singing
down the slope. Each time I was about to complete the shot, my co-star would
start making faces which distracted me. This happened over and over again.
When she had repeated this for what seemed like over a hundred times, leading
to that many retakes, I became exasperated and expressed my concern to the
director. In spite of being requested by the director to refrain from her antics, she
continued. Eventually I could take no more and after one such take just walked
past her to my car and went back to my hotel room. This led to a huge
commotion. The producer and director rushed to the hotel to apologize. News of
this incident reached Dilip Kumar who was also shooting nearby and staying at a
hotel next to mine. He called me to meet him, and in his hotel room that evening,
in an elder brotherly manner, he said something to me which I have never
forgotten (though I don’t agree with it): ‘Some young ladies can be a little
flippant. You must handle them with tact and care.’
For example, when I was working with Sadhana, who was a consummate
artist and a lovely human being, in response to reporters’ questions about how I
found working with her I would always say: ‘Like driving a Rolls-Royce.’
Sadhana and her husband, R.K. Nayyar, or ‘Rummy’ as she liked to call him,
were good friends of ours. Sadhana was intelligent, talkative and always full of
energy. She loved to crack jokes. One day, when we were working on Intaquam
she approached me and in a very serious manner expressed her desire to give me
a haircut. I thought she was joking and laughed the suggestion away. Then she
said that she had been planning it for a long time and that she had even bought a
brand new salon chair and had it installed at her residence for that very purpose.
Rummy confirmed that this was true, but advised me not to allow her to cut my
hair as it could affect the continuity of work in the film, which he was directing.
But the haircut was on. I didn’t have the heart to refuse her. While the haircut
progressed, the room was silent except for the clipping sound of the scissors in
Sadhana’s deft hands.
I was blessed with a good crown of hair that was admired by my fans and was
not a bit concerned, but Rummy was holding his breath, his mouth opening and
closing with each snip. He did not want to disturb her, as she would have blamed
him if anything went wrong.
The haircut was superb; I am sure she had trained for it. After it was over, the
room filled with our happy laughter.
Sadhana and I had immense respect and affection for each other, but lost touch
for many years owing to our hectic lives. When I was informed of her demise, I
rushed to her house to find her lying on the bare floor with just a thin sheet
covering her. Rummy had departed for his heavenly abode several years ago and
there were no friends or family there at that point of time. It broke my heart to
see her, my dear, dear friend, in that state and I ordered the maid to help me
place her dead body on a mattress. Sadhana was a wonderful person and I still
think about her and miss her. May she rest in peace.
One actress who I found very easy to get on with and always looked forward
to working with was the ‘Dreamgirl’ Hema Malini. Her mother was a very
charming and gracious lady; she always smiled happily at me when she
accompanied her daughter to the studio. Perhaps I was not a threat to her, being
already married. So she would always talk frankly to me about Hema in Tamil,
at which I was quite proficient.
Rakhee, who starred with me in Anokhi Pehchaan (1972), Wafaa (1972) and
Sub Ka Saathi (1972), was not only gorgeous, with her beautiful hazel-brown
eyes, but also warm and sentimental, and a fine artist. She would sit close to me
and chat with me in Hindi with her Bengali accent which I used to like to listen
to.
The most gentle, unassuming heroine I worked with was Nutan, who had a
subtle rustic charm and was always a pleasure to talk to. I particularly enjoyed
working with her on Maharaja (1970), in which she played the beautiful
daughter of a rich father who falls in love with the local Robin Hood character,
played by me. I was inspired working with Nutan, because she was such a
professional. I was deeply saddened when she died, at a young age, of cancer.
I also enjoyed working with the shy, introverted Nanda, who was a wonderful
human being and had a touch-me-not look and a warm smile. Though I worked
in four films with her, she remained as enigmatic as the Sphinx with its
inscrutable smile.
I shared a good rapport with Saira Banu, the reigning beauty whom everyone
was talking about at the time. We worked together in two films, Daman Aur Aag
and Mera Vachan Geeta Ki Kasam, and I remember her particularly for her
cooperativeness and openness to suggestions while shooting.
One actress who carried herself with a lot of self-confidence was Rekha. Since
I had shown her respect and support by launching her in my film, Haseenon Ka
Devta (1971), she and her sister would visit me on the set while I was shooting
in Chennai with Rakhee, carrying a tiffin box of biryani cooked by her mother. I
still remember how delicious it was.
I worked with Mumtaz in several films, including the big hit Shart, Mela and
Upasana (1971). Before I worked with her, I used to wonder how she made it to
the top, with her pug nose and round sweet face but I discovered the answer in
our very first shot together—she was a bundle of talent.
I was pleased to introduce some leading ladies to the film industry. One of
these was Parveen Babi who starred in my film Chandi Sona, after which she
made a very big name for herself in other films. She was an educated and
beautiful girl from a good family and a great actress. Then the world turned and
she went into a spin she never recovered from; she suffered some kind of
psychological break and left the industry, disappearing into thin air. Years later,
we heard of her tragic death, alone in her apartment.
Another intelligent girl with uncommon beauty and a very good nature was
Leena Chandavarkar; she was very personable and I enjoyed working with her.
Babita was also wonderful to work with and impressed me with her
performance in her debut film with me, Dus Lakh (1966), which was a huge hit.
Once, while we were shooting, the producer of the film was sitting beside me as
we waited for a particular shot to be arranged. He whispered into my ear, ‘Please
ask Babita not to eat so many chocolates. She might get pimples on her face,
which will prevent us from taking her close-ups.’ The same afternoon, I asked
Babita why she ate a dozen bars of chocolate a day. She looked surprised and
said, with an annoyed look on her face, ‘Sanjay, it’s not me, it’s my dad. He
takes the chocolate in my name from the production manager!’
I met Sharmila Tagore, a sophisticated and intelligent conversationalist, in
Calcutta in the late 1960s when she was co-starring with me in Milan Ki Raat
(1967). But what I remember most was playing Cupid for her, and my good
friend the Nawab of Pataudi. He had expressed to me his admiration for
Sharmila, so when she, in turn, asked me about him during shooting, I had my
cue. I was happy to recommend them to each other and was delighted when they
decided to marry.
Perhaps it would be suitable to end this section on actresses with the tragedy
queen of the Indian screen, the great Meena Kumari. I had admired her greatly
since I first began watching films as a young boy, and felt truly privileged when,
in her later years, she played my mother in Abhilasha (1968); it is something I
will never forget.
I walked out to the balcony and saw hundreds of people gathered down below.
They were screaming my name ‘Sanjay! Sanjay!’ and were clapping their hands
in sheer excitement. I was impressed but also surprised that so many people
knew me there. I waved to them and assured them that I was here for a few days
and would be coming back to make a film. They continued clapping and
shouting my name so I asked them to disperse, as there was a huge traffic jam
building up in the city because of them.
Eventually, they did.
Acres of Paradise
The people of Mauritius were thrilled that I shot my film with such a big cast of
actors, including Raj Kapoor, Pran, Prem Nath, Danny Denzongpa, Parveen
Babi, Kamini Kaushal, Ranjeet, Mukri, Iftekhar, Achala Sachdev and others, in
Mauritius. At a public function hosted by the prime minister, my comment that I
would request the Indian Navy to hook Mauritius with an anchor and pull it
closer to India so that we could visit the paradise more frequently was greatly
appreciated and everyone cheered.
Prime Minister Ramgoolam, or Chacha, treated me like his own son. So much
so that he once consulted me when writing his political speech, part of which
was a Hindi couplet: ‘Humne toofanon se kaha hum toofanon se nahin darte,
tum bahut door se aye ho zara dum toh le lo, kahin humse takraane mein
tumhara dum naa tut jaaye.’ (I told the storm I wasn’t afraid. You’ve come a
long way. Rest a while, lest in trying to confront me you can never rest again.) I
later heard that he had recited this, as coached by me, in one of his political
campaigns.
One day, he surprised me with an unannounced visit. He asked me to come
along with him as he had a surprise for me. I sat with him in his car and the
prime minister’s cavalcade came to a halt at a picturesque spot by the seaside
near Grande Bay; I remember casuarina trees swaying in the wind, making a
whistling sound. We got out of the cars and Chacha went and stood right there
on the beach. Gesturing to the area around us with a broad sweep of his hand, he
said, ‘My boy, with the power bestowed to me by the constitution as prime
minister, I am gifting these four acres to you on lease for a hundred years for a
token payment of Rs 1 lakh per annum for the services you have rendered to this
nation and the worldwide publicity that Mauritius has gained from the making of
your film, Chandi Sona, here.’
I was overwhelmed by the offer and thanked him for his generosity. I still
remember receiving a call from Sir Abdul Razzak, the urban development
minister of Mauritius, a month or so after we returned to India, reminding me to
fulfil the formalities.
I have no explanation for why I did not pursue the formalities to secure this
wonderful gift from the people of Mauritius.
In 2008, Feroz suddenly disappeared for over a year. I was curious and
concerned as to where he was, but his children, Leila and Fardeen, had been
sworn to secrecy. It was Tom Sleven, a family friend, who rang me from New
York to give me the appalling news that Feroz had been admitted to the Sloan
Cancer Hospital for treatment of advanced cancer of the throat and lung. I was
shattered by this devastating news, the suddenness of which caused a pall of
gloom on all the family. Feroz was flown to Bombay. His deteriorating condition
gave me deep anguish. Time was running out but he asked to be taken to his
beloved farmhouse. On his final night, the whole family was present till about 1
a.m., when the doctors told us to go and get some rest. We had hardly reached
the Golden Palms, when we received the news that he had breathed his last at 3
a.m. We all miss him deeply.
Ironically, in his last years he used to recite an Urdu poem ‘Kaun seh sakta hai
umre javedan ki talqivan? Zindagi pe maut ka kitna bada ehsaan hai.’ (Who can
endure the longevity of life? We owe our thanks to Death, who gives us the
relief.)
Devyani Chaubal
The press as we know is capricious. One moment I was Arjun looking in the pot
of oil as he aimed the arrow at the target above him—doing no wrong. The next,
I was Ravana who had kidnapped Sita—the villain of the piece.
Devyani Chaubal was a well-established film journalist in the industry, and
also the most loved and feared. In the process of her work, she had built a
reputation for being the most notorious film gossip columnist of India. We all
called her Hedda Chopper after the notorious American gossip columnist.
She could be real nice if she wanted to be but she was also a hard-hitting
journalist. I think she had a soft spot for my brother, Feroz, because she hung out
with him in those days when I was yet to arrive on the scene and begin my
journey to stardom. She had a pleasant personality, but she spoke with a slight
lisp and sometimes, a few spots of spit would shoot out from her mouth as she
spoke.
After I became a star, she seemed to admire my manners and my way with
words, and often came to the studios looking for me, sometimes without even
announcing she was coming.
I remember one particular time when she sought my help in writing her
column, saying, ‘Sanjay, you are the only person who can inspire me to write
this.’ When I asked her how I could be of help, she said, ‘I am writing a column
about Sharmila Tagore’s wedding with the Nawab of Pataudi, the captain of the
Indian cricket team, and I don’t really know how I should address her in the
headline.’
I said that since Sharmila was a sexy girl marrying into royalty, she should
combine the two and address her as ‘Her Sexellency’. Devyani screamed with
joy and said, ‘Wow, that’s perfect!’ with such excitement that a few tiny spots of
her spit hit my face which she immediately rushed to wipe with the corner of her
trademark white sari.
On another occasion, she came back with a classic question, ‘Sanjay, you
work with the most beautiful women every day of your life. Of course, I know
you have a beautiful wife, but are you telling me you don’t have any affairs at
all?’
I was amused by her question and decided to have some fun. I told her that I
could not answer her question then, but would tell her later. After I told her that,
she kept on pestering me for almost a year. Finally, one day when I was shooting
at Filmistan Studios, I asked her to sit down and have a cup of tea with me. She
was watching me with anticipation and excitement, pad and pen ready in her
hand, literally drooling.
I started very, very slowly: ‘Life is like a journey on a broad gauge train. The
train stops at several stations, some small whistle-stop ones and some big
junctions. I keep a scooter with me on the train and I take out the scooter when
the train stops at a big junction to take a little scooter ride in the town and then
come back to join the train to continue my journey.’
The next day, I saw the headlines: ‘So, it’s a scooter ride, says Sanjay Khan’. I
was deeply moved when she passed away and still miss her presence.
I noticed that some journalists wanted to carve a niche for themselves and to
become something in this world of magic. Sadly, the ones who could not
succeed took the pen and used it as a sword to slash the others in the industry.
Thankfully most succeeded and did a great job. I had many friends amongst
them.
Bob Christo
I first met Bob Christo on the eve of the departure of the unit to Rajasthan,
where we were going to shoot Abdullah. He was introduced to me by my dear
friend George Marzbetuny, the director of the American film Abdullah, and who
I had met in Iran.
George asked me to give Bob a job in the unit, which I was happy to do
because I found him to be very likeable. I asked my production chief to
accommodate him in the team and he was given a job as a gaffer.
One day, while shooting in the middle of the desert on the outdoor set of
Abdullah, I developed spondylitis in my neck which made it so stiff that I had to
turn my whole body to speak to someone. I was wondering how I would face the
camera the following day, when Bob, who was walking behind me, said, ‘May I
help?’ He said he was a trained physiotherapist and could help me loosen my
neck. Before I could give him permission he laid his two hands, which were like
sledgehammers, but very gentle, on my shoulders and started working on them.
‘For god’s sake, Bob,’ I protested, ‘don’t worsen it.’ He smiled and asked me to
relax. He jerked my neck, in a sudden movement and, like magic, my neck was
cured. I looked up at him and said, ‘Where are you staying?’ He said, ‘With the
unit.’ I asked him to shift to my guest house, which he did, that evening, with a
big guitar and a haversack full of his things.
I soon discovered that Bob was a very talented person. He was an ex-
Australian army commando, who had served in Vietnam, and had worked as
Paul Getty’s bodyguard. I once asked him what had brought him to India, and in
response he showed me the front cover of Time magazine, and said, ‘This face.
Parveen Babi.’ Ironically, and coincidentally, I had been instrumental in Parveen
being on the cover, because Gerald Clarke, associate editor, had asked me to
recommend an Indian actress, and I had named Parveen. I had a good laugh with
Bob over this.
Bob was an excellent singer and turned out to be a very good actor. He made
his debut in Abdullah when, one day, I felt that the principal villain needed the
support of another character, like a henchman, to strengthen him. I ordered Bob
to stop shaving his beard and to shave off his head. He was transformed into an
evil sorcerer who influences the villain. Bob looked fierce and suited the
character to a T. His performance was good, and he acted in over 200 films after
that.
Bob was very loyal and very dependable, traits which once made me money.
We were in London and I needed someone to pick up money from a distributor
in Switzerland, so I sent Bob. He was to take the flight in the morning, pick up
the money and come back in the evening. It was 9 p.m. and Bob hadn’t returned
as expected. A friend, with whom I was having a drink in the hotel bar, joked
and wagered 100 pounds that Bob would not return. I accepted his bet. An hour
later Bob still hadn’t returned, so my friend raised it to 200. I was so sure of him
that I said I would raise it to 500. My friend looked at the door of the lobby and
smiling, said, ‘Okay, done!’ Seconds later, Bob entered. He was a man in whom I
had absolute trust.
Raj Kapoor, too, was very fond of him. He would make Bob sing ‘The
Windmills of the Mind’ until 2 a.m. One night, it was disturbing my sleep and,
pretending I didn’t know he was with Raj Kapoor, I shouted at him to stop. I
heard Raj Kapoor whispering that I was getting angry and they had better stop.
Later, Bob went on to take the major role of General Matthews in The Sword
of Tipu Sultan and still later, the role of the Afghan king Ahmad Shah Abdali in
The Great Maratha. He gave memorable performances in both.
Bob was a wonderful friend on whom I could rely completely. I was
devastated when he died in 2011.
When I look back, I have no regrets; I feel very fortunate to have been part of
the beginning of the golden era of Hindi cinema. Its rapid growth in the 1970s
and 1980s provided a foundation for the industry as it is today, and gave birth to
some excellent directors, producers, actors and technicians. Although it was hard
work, it is the optimism and enthusiasm of those days that I remember most
vividly.
Dearest Papa,
What I see in you is a brave man: spirited, passionate, undeterred and iron-
willed. I love the fact that as a self-made man, you have withstood and
overcome numerous challenges and with each obstacle that came your way,
you emerged stronger, wiser and more accomplished. Through my growing
years, you instilled in me the core values of honesty, hard work, discipline
and perseverance.
I am thinking particularly of how you survived the fire. You really were
the ‘miracle man’ as you came to be named by the American doctors. You
were so determined to complete the remaining episodes of Tipu Sultan that
you rode horseback immediately after your recovery, unmindful of the hot
desert sun. You faced the camera undeterred, despite the scars on your face
and body, not allowing even a wince to give away the extreme agony you
must have felt. Always loyal to your commitments, you finished what you
had intended to complete.
This episode in your life is a constant reminder for me of your
perseverance and never-say-die spirit.
What I also appreciate is how you made sure that my siblings and I were
raised in an environment where we were treated equally. You used to say:
‘Pursue your dreams with focused dedication and you can achieve anything
and everything you set your mind on.’ You not only raised us to be strong,
confident and fearless but also urged us to believe in ourselves, to strive
hard, to excel and reach our highest potential. You believe, I know, that
from knowledge comes empowerment and so you always stressed the
importance of a strong education.
Yet you also exemplify for me what ‘going beyond the letter’ means. Your
compassion towards the needy and less fortunate is inspiring. ‘Be kind and
generous towards the needy and less fortunate. Charity is the best form of
prayer,’ is your firm belief and what you taught us.
Although you are fundamentally secular in spirit, you brought us up to
believe that all religions preached the same principles but in different
languages. To be religious is to be a good human being, to think good
thoughts and practise good actions. Even today we cherish the strong
values and life lessons you imparted to us.
I respect you for your integrity, your grit, your passion for perfection . . .
For being a man of honour who has always kept his word.
Thank you, Papa, for your strong presence in my life, for being a loving
and dependable father, for all your love and guidance through the hard
challenges in my life. Your support and influence has constantly
encouraged and inspired me and this strength has seen me through many
trials.
No words can accurately capture or describe my immense love and
respect for you.
Lots of love,
Simone
10
Abdullah and the Arabian Princess
Romance in Bollywood is legendary, and is, like fairy stories, fantastic in the
true sense of the word. But sometimes romance can reflect real life, and doesn’t
always have a fairy-tale ending.
The story of Abdullah lent itself perfectly to the romance of Bollywood. In the
film, set in an imaginary Arab land, Sheikh Mohammed Al-Kamal (played by
me), a man of honour, is asked by the government to assist them in bringing the
dangerous outlaw Khalil (played by Danny Denzongpa) to justice. Abdullah (Raj
Kapoor) is a Muslim man who is prepared to sacrifice his life for a Hindu boy,
Krishna, who is predestined to kill Khalil. It becomes a personal quest for the
Sheikh, when his wife, Zainab (played by Zeenat Aman), is kidnapped and
injured. Eventually Sheikh Mohammed defeats Khalil and his magician, and
saves Abdullah, Krishna and Zainab.
A romantic story deserves a romantic setting, and our choice of Rajasthan was
perfect. The atmosphere, particularly in the late afternoons when the scented,
cold desert wind blew gently on the brown sands which changed patterns with
every gust, and everything for miles around was tinged orange by the fast-setting
sun, was magical. The setting, the costumes, the music worked their charm,
bringing the intense passion of the Sheikh and Zainab to life on the screen. How
could the Arabian prince and princess not fall in love? She was not only
stunningly beautiful but filled the room with her presence and her intelligent,
scintillating conversation. The Sheikh was totally smitten. There was a fatal
attraction which seemed to pull them into a vortex with a billion twisters
spinning and lifting them into the air, into nothingness.
But there was another element to the Arabian prince’s infatuation—the
princess’s vulnerability, her lack of self-confidence which seemed at odds with
her other, confident side. The princess was in constant need of love, and the
prince wanted nothing more than to save her.
I had read a book called Beware of Pity by Stefan Zweig a long time ago and
those memories created undertones of the story where pity is trapped in the name
of love and misunderstood, even as long ago as the Arabian Nights.
I was particularly pleased with the casting of Abdullah. Not only with Raj
Kapoor, who I knew with all certainty would be wonderful as the title character,
but with Danny as the villain, Bob Christo as the magician and Zeenat Aman as
the Sheikh’s wife.
I had first met Zeenat Aman in B.R. Chopra’s office when he had called me in
to discuss the casting of his new film, Dhund (1973). I knew her from the
popular song Dum maro dum in Dev Anand’s film Hare Rama Hare Krishna,
and I had also met her father, Amanullah Khan, at our house in Juhu. He was an
affable man who had co-written, along with K. Asif, the script of the great epic
Mughal-e-Azam. He had warmly embraced me when Feroz introduced us and
remarked, ‘Mashallah! Chhote miyan aapse se kam nahin. (As God has willed,
the younger one is no less handsome than you). Good looks run in your family.’
Zeenat and I got to know each other better on the sets of Dhund. Since most of
the film was to be shot outdoors in Mahabaleshwar in a large villa owned by a
Parsi family, the entire unit was put up in a hotel in Panchgani.
Early one morning as I was getting ready, Nana Palshikar, the veteran and
celebrated actor who was part of the cast, breezed into my room carrying a
pistol. ‘Sanju, please do me a favour, try out my pistol as I have not shot it for
almost thirty years. I thought you could try it out in the scene where Danny is
shooting at Zeenat’s photograph,’ he said excitedly.
I had learnt that one must exercise extreme precaution while handling
weapons so I slipped out the loaded magazine and pulled the slide to check the
chamber. It was jammed, so pointing the pistol away from us, I squeezed the
trigger to see if it was loaded and to my consternation, the blasted thing went off,
making a hole in the dressing table and destroying a large chunk of wood on the
left corner. Nana and I were aghast. The silence stretched for what felt like
eternity as we stared at each other.
Moments later, the door opened and B.R. Chopra’s horrified face slowly came
into view. He had been waiting for me in his car right outside, as he wanted to
discuss a scene on the way to the location. He said, with great concern, ‘I was
shocked when I heard the gunshot; thank God you are both okay.’ We were
indeed fine, but felt suitably chastened when we saw the anxiety our
recklessness had caused him.
In the evenings, we would all meet for drinks, but B.R. Chopra was very
particular about these sessions not going on too late because we had to be up
early for shooting the next day. As Zeenat and I became friends, however, we
would sneak out for walks after everyone had gone to sleep. Sometimes, we
would go for a spin in my latest, brand new Mercedes-Benz. Since we had to do
this without waking up the others, including the ‘headmaster’, I would open the
driver’s side door and push the car while Zeenat did the same from the other
side. As the car started rolling down the sloping car park, we would jump in and
I would take over the controls as it rolled out through the gates. We would turn
left towards the highway and only after a safe distance in silent rolling mode
would I switch on the powerful eight-cylinder engine which purred gently but
powerfully like a lion. And as we zoomed ahead, Zeenat and I would burst out
laughing with joy, which helped release the pent-up tension that used to build up
in the course of our escape plan.
We would head straight to what became our favourite haunt, Table Top in
Panchgani, and drive around in circles on the vast flatland, listening to music,
laughing and chatting away. Then, when we returned to the hotel, we would
reverse the earlier process to let the car roll silently down into the parking lot.
My respect for Zeenat soared one night when she showed great courage. A
truck stopped while we were strolling on the side of the highway and the driver
and his two assistants—all of them burly north Indians—got out of the truck, one
holding the starting rod or ‘handle’ as they were called in those days, and walked
towards us. I could sense trouble heading our way. My apprehension was
confirmed once I heard their slurred speech, which suggested they were drunk. I
was not overly worried as I am over six feet tall and was 85 kilograms of pure
muscle then. I was also quite proficient in karate and knew that I could easily
take care of the three men. My sole concern was for Zeenat as I did not want her
to be harassed by these drunkards who were staring at her and muttering some
curse words. They must have recognized me because they started addressing me
in sarcastic tones as ‘Sanjay saab’. I told Zeenat, under my breath, to quickly run
away while I took care of the men, but she refused to go, saying that she couldn’t
leave me alone in that situation.
As they neared us, I quietly took out my licensed pistol that I always kept
tucked in the back of my jeans on outdoor shoots. Brandishing it, I simply told
the louts, ‘Even after shooting two bullets in each one of you, I will have one left
in my pistol.’ Though I said this to scare them off, as soon as they saw the pistol,
they beat a hasty retreat.
I didn’t see Zeenat again for about five years.
In 1978, when I was beginning to finalize the cast for Abdullah, she was
playing the heroine in Raj Kapoor’s Satyam Shivam Sundaram. She was
standing outside her make-up room when I came out of Raj ji’s cottage at R.K.
Studios. When I told her that I had signed Raj ji for Abdullah, she congratulated
me and expressed her desire to work in the film. I promised her I would consider
it and later, while casting, decided to offer her the leading lady’s role.
After our first shooting schedule completed, the entire unit shifted to Gotharu,
almost 100 kilometres west of Jaisalmer, near the Indo-Pak border. This location
was equally magnificent and atmospheric, but in a different way. I was struck by
the sheer beauty of the ethereal fort which was our setting. The structure was
made of baked clay bricks and was surrounded by desert brush. It stood like a
witness to time; I could not help but wonder how many love stories and how
many intrigues, heartbreaks, celebrations and sorrows had lost their way over
time within the confines of this resplendent fort. The shooting took fifteen days
to wrap up and the entire cast was present including Raj Kapoor, Zeenat, Danny,
Bob Christo, the comedian Mehmood, two hundred junior artists, two hundred
horses, buses and cars. It was a logistical nightmare for the production chief,
Asgar Ali. We owed a great deal to the commander-in-chief, Ashwini Kumar of
the Border Security Force, a remarkable gentleman who was also fluent in Urdu
poetry.
The final scene of the film was truly a fantasy straight out of the Arabian
Nights. We were filming a poignant song on the exquisite pristine light brown
sand dunes. The lyrics underpinned the tensions and the events to come: ‘Aye
Khuda har faisla tera mujhe manzoor hai / Samne tere tera banda bahut
majboor hai.’ (Oh God, I bow to your will and all your commands.) The Arabian
prince in his white tunic with the flowing cape hanging from his shoulders, black
cross belts on his body, and black boots, walked determinedly, looking up at the
skies and accepting his maker’s decision. The Arabian princess, clad in a black
robe embroidered with delicate gold thread, walked towards her prince and fell
into his arms. The prince, still singing the song, looked at her tenderly and saw
tears the size of pearls falling from her eyes. A few moments later, the forlorn
princess stood lost and lonely on the edge of the desert, watching her prince
galloping away into the distance on a white stallion and disappearing from her
life forever. The story ended with the prince and princess parting ways, each
carrying memories of their romance, now merely a mirage in the desert.
But that was Bollywood, and that was then. In the years since, I’ve often
wondered what the ending might be in a more realistic, contemporary story—a
film I might make now. Would the princess really watch her prince gallop away
and leave her life forever? Would not such a character, who clearly likes to get
her own way, want some kind of revenge?
In this ‘new’ film, I imagine the princess pursues the prince who has moved
on with his life, and has a new love interest. However, he still cares for her and
doesn’t want to hurt her.
Scene 1: The princess calls him and implores him to come and see her one last
time. The prince tells her that it would be pointless to stoke the ashes of their
relationship, but she is insistent. So the prince goes with a friend who knows
their story to meet the princess in a hotel in an exotic location. She is, of course,
looking particularly alluring, and persuades them to attend a party being hosted
by a mutual friend who is also on holiday there.
Scene 2: At the party, the princess is whisked off into the garden by the host,
who ogles her all evening, even though his wife is watching. The prince is
bemused; he had expected something of the kind. He pours his drinks
surreptitiously into the ground so that he can keep a clear head.
Scene 3: The prince learns that the host has taken the princess on a holiday
abroad and his wife is devastated. The princess calls the prince, though, hoping
to have made him jealous. She is disappointed.
Scene 4: The princess arrives at the prince’s home and announces that the host is
going to marry her. The prince congratulates her, but tells her it’s unlikely; the
man will go back to his wife. She soon finds out that this is true.
Scene 5: The princess arrives at a luxury hotel where the prince and his friends,
including his beloved, are having dinner. She insists on entering the private room
where they are eating. She is upset and announces for all the world to hear that
he has treated her badly. The prince tries to calm her down, but she is
unrelenting. He is stunned and outraged. He restrains himself; the princess
rushes out and disappears from his life forever.
Scene 6: The press has a field day. ‘A prince and a princess in a violent
altercation in a posh hotel!’ They add all manner of embellishments to the story
in an attempt to destroy the prince’s name.
I didn’t make that film. Nor did I make any other films after Abdullah, for
almost four years.
I accepted the inevitable; I forgave some and accepted the apology of some.
After making Kala Dhanda Goray Log, I felt ready to do something new, and I
was fortunate to come across Bhagwan S. Gidwani’s book The Sword of Tipu
Sultan at Bombay airport one day, and began reading it on the flight to Delhi.
I was quite intrigued to read on the first page that Bhagwan was born in
Karachi in 1923, and that his father had been the head of the Hindu Mahasabha
there. Bhagwan had specialized in the technical, economic and legal fields of
civil aviation, acted as the counsel for India in the International Court of Justice
and had served India in many other responsible positions.
The book was in its forty-fourth edition and had sold more than two million
copies. Bhagwan was inspired by a European history research scholar who
informed him in a chance meeting in London that Tipu Sultan had the distinction
of being one of only four kings in the history of mankind who actually died
fighting on the battlefield. This motivated him to research Tipu Sultan and he
borrowed Rs 3 lakh from his brother for the purpose.
Bhagwan shared the story with me when I met him with the intent to acquire
the film rights. Our collaboration made big news all over the country. I
remember at a press conference in Bombay Bhagwan and I were being
interviewed by a large number of journalists when one question came out like an
accusation: ‘Tipu Sultan chopped off the heads of Hindus.’ Bhagwan promptly
replied, ‘Yes, he did,’ but he went on to explain that it should not be taken as a
Muslim or a Hindu head; it was not a religious war, but a political war with
Hindus and Muslims on both sides. Tipu’s own army comprised large numbers
of Hindu generals and soldiers. He added that Tipu did what he had to for the
protection of his country which comprised 70 per cent Hindus, as certain Hindu
rulers in Kerala had aligned themselves with the British, usurping Tipu Sultan’s
territories.
The idea of making The Sword of Tipu Sultan on the big screen as a magnum
opus had to be dropped due to the rampant piracy of films in those days. This
had crippled and dislocated the entire Indian film industry. The conditions were
so bad that financiers and distributors were hesitant to invest in any film till such
time as a solution was found to this problem. Meanwhile, the advent of the
television and its promise of a great future inspired me to consider making The
Sword of Tipu Sultan as a grand serial for the small screen, telling the story in its
entirety.
We decided to shoot the series in Mysore, because it was the centre of Tipu’s
empire, which was called the Sultanat-e-Khudadad (The Kingdom of God). I put
together the best writers, technicians, visualizers and actors and before the fire,
we had completed the pilot episode, shot entirely in the palaces of Mysore and
other nearby locations. Doordarshan was very pleased with the pilot and we
were looking forward to filming the next episodes.
On the sets of Tipu Sultan before the fire
The production value was very high because the series was very well
researched and had the support of the Mysore government. The Mysore cavalry
had provided 100 of its best horses and the chief of the Archaeological Survey of
India, who was in charge of the palace and the historical artefacts in Mysore, had
been persuaded to allow us to use the twelve nineteenth-century cannons in the
palace. They were so heavy that we could only put two in one large truck. On
location, we actually fired them with blanks—probably the first time in 100
years.
Zarine did not tell me about the huge financial loss we suffered or the large
sums of money that were required for my recovery and the treatment of my crew
members. All our lives were blown away, scattered by the winds of destiny. We
had lost all my savings and were dependent on overdrafts from banks against our
properties. To make matters worse, the Film Producers Guild was completely
insensitive. Fully aware of the circumstances we were going through, they still
summoned Zarine to Rajkamal Studios for a meeting. They demanded full and
complete compensation and settlement for the victims or they would stop the
shooting of The Sword of Tipu Sultan.
This was many months after the accident. Confident of my recovery, and in
consultation with me, Zarine made the decision to resume the shooting of The
Sword of Tipu Sultan. The members of the guild were unsupportive. Only J. Om
Prakash, a leading producer–director and a true gentleman, came to her rescue
when Zarine argued that if they stopped the shooting they would be denying her
the revenue which she needed to settle all legitimate dues. She told them that we
were not running away from anything. Hearing this, J. Om Prakash rose in
support and influenced the members of the guild to accept her offer.
Success has a shadow following it. It’s called envy. When you are down, that’s
when they hit you.
The success of The Sword of Tipu Sultan convinced me that television was a
creative direction I wanted to pursue. I already had several topics in mind which
I thought would lend themselves perfectly to the form.
Jai Hanuman
My next television series, Jai Hanuman, has an interesting story behind it.
I was once sitting on the steps of the Samode Palace, 60 miles away from
Jaipur, signing autographs for a few busloads of students from Jaipur who had
come to greet me when a tall, gracious man wearing saffron robes and a
rudraksha mala approached me and greeted me warmly. I looked at his face and
found myself captivated by his large powerful eyes. He said he had prayed for
me after the fire accident in the nearby Hanuman temple of which he was the
priest and invited me to visit the temple for darshan and to offer thanks to the
great deity.
Being from Bangalore, I had grown up seeing Hanuman ji’s statues all over
wherever I went and knew that he was a supreme god of Hinduism. I readily
agreed but drew his attention to the frail condition of my health—I could not
even sit up without the assistance of my nurse—and promised him that, health
permitting, I would surely visit his temple.
If anyone believes in miracles then they will certainly believe what I am
saying. Exactly one week after my meeting with this wonderful man, I started
feeling the strength building within my body and, since I do believe that you
should respond with gratitude for a good deed done for you, I decided to walk
the 400 steps and three hills to the temple even though my nurse protested all the
way that I would get a heart attack.
On reaching the temple, I sat down on the cool stone slab, my gaze fixed on
the finely etched figure of Hanuman ji in charcoal on the saffron wall. The priest
was sitting beside me, chanting the Gayatri Mantra, which I heard seamlessly
change into a Koranic sura. Surprised, I turned towards him and, once he had
finished, asked, ‘Pandit ji, aapko yeh bhi malum hai?’ (Priest, you know this
also?)
He simply replied, ‘Maine padha hai.’ (I have read it.)
After exchanging pleasantries, we said goodbye to each other and on the way
back, inspiration struck me. I realized that I had never seen any film in India
produced in the last 100 years (it was 1995) which showed the childhood and
origins of Hanuman. I resolved there and then to make a grand serial with the
title Jai Hanuman.
In the extensive research required for this massive venture, my good friend
Iqbal Malhotra introduced me to a priest from Varanasi, who in turn reached out
to five other leading priests with a deep knowledge and understanding of the
Puranas and the Vedas and the scriptures of Hinduism. The first question I asked
them in the story discussion room in my office in Bombay was who was
Hanuman ji. Over several such sessions with the priests, I learnt many
enchanting facts about Hanuman ji. He was the eleventh Rudra avatar of Lord
Shiva. He is known as ‘Pawan putra’ but in fact, he was the son of King Kesar
and Angini, formerly Punjikasthala, a dancer in Lord Indra’s court.
Jai Hanuman was one of the largest blockbusters on Doordarshan and carries
the distinction of being charged the most—Rs 66 lakh—for a one hour prime-
time slot.
With Irfan Khan and Raju Shrestha in Jai Hanuman
The success of Jai Hanuman also led to my being honoured with a doctorate
by the Kashi Pandit Sansad in Varanasi. There was a grand reception held near
the precincts of the Jagannath temple in Varanasi in my honour. A huge crowd
was present—people had come from all over Varanasi to hear me speak. The
next day, a local Hindi daily carried a centre double-page spread with the
headline ‘Visit of a Second Great Muslim to Varanasi’. The contents showed that
the first was the crown prince Dara Shikoh who spent three years in Varanasi
translating the Upanishads into Persian and then distributed them across the
world. I was the second.
While in Varanasi, I could not resist the temptation to visit the 1000-year-old
Sankat Mochan temple dedicated to Hanuman ji. When I arrived there, I was
welcomed by the press and a reporter from Zee TV, who introduced himself as
Ansari. He greeted me with a ‘Salaam alaikum’ and extending the mike, asked
me, ‘Are you going in?’ The undertone of his question was, undoubtedly, one of
surprise. I simply said yes and walked in. When I looked back to see if Ansari
was following, I saw that he had vanished.
A havan was organized in my honour in the temple and I went around the
edifice seven times, as requested by the priests as a mark of respect to them and
Hanuman ji. I was clear in my mind that this act of mine would not be taken as a
surrender of my Islamic faith but as a humane act as it is ordained in all religions
that the path to God is humanity.
When I came out, the reporter from Zee was waiting for me. I asked Ansari
about the Gyanvapi mosque in that area and he volunteered to take me there to
recite our namaz as it was nearing the time for the midday prayer. As I entered
the mosque, I looked back and saw that Ansari had vanished, again. After
finishing my prayer, when I came out, I saw he was sitting outside as before. I
said to him that I could understand his not entering the temple but did not see
why he did not come inside the mosque.
He replied with a smile, ‘I am a communist, sir.’ I laughed out loud. Well, to
each his own.
After this, I made several other series, like Maharathi Karan, the
Mahabharata and 1857 Kranti.
Whenever I have put pen to paper to write a story or plan a film production,
my thoughts have always been directed towards national integration and unity
and harmony between the different communities that make up the fabric of our
great nation. The subjects of my films and television series have contributed to a
greater awareness of society’s needs and concerns, be it philanthropy for the
poor, handicapped and downtrodden as narrated in Chandi Sona, or national
integration and communal harmony in Abdullah or a fight against abuse of
drugs, to save future generations from this evil, in Kala Dhanda Goray Log. I
am proud that I have been able to contribute, in my own way, to my country.
13
Political Affairs
When we were filming there, the whole island was buzzing with the name of
Sir Charles Gaetan Duval, affectionately known as King Creole. He was the
foreign minister and the leader of the Parti Mauricien Social Démocrate (PMSD)
in Mauritius. He had been knighted by the Queen of England and awarded the
Légion d’honneur by the French. His people were mesmerized by his charm; he
was deeply loved, but also hated and feared by the opposition.
He had asked to meet me, so a meeting was arranged at the Continental Hotel
in Curepipe. He walked in wearing stylish jeans, his hair ruffled like a movie
star’s. He was accompanied by a group of young men. They were heading
straight towards where I was seated in the lobby when Suresh, the head of Air
India, who had come with me to the meeting, muttered under his breath, ‘He is
our foreign minister.’ After introducing himself and his friends, he told me that
he had heard about my arrival and the news was also all over the papers. We had
a good chat, and I found Gaetan to be an intelligent, friendly man with a good
sense of humour. Though he was a high-ranking minister, he had no airs, unlike
what we often see in India. He invited me to dinner the same day and when I
accepted, he held my hand, gave me a hug and simply said, ‘A friendship has
begun; it will last.’ It did. We remained close friends for the rest of his life.
The following day, I spent the first half of the morning at the prime minister’s
office, chatting with Chacha. The meeting had been officially arranged by his
political secretary so I was a little surprised that, although his greeting was
cordial enough, he seemed to be a bit peeved. I was informed later that this was
because the newspapers were full of stories about my meeting with Gaetan
Duval, who was the leader of the opposition. This was my baptism in Mauritian
politics.
Destiny had a lot in store for me but at that point, I was pleased to be able to
mediate between these two great leaders, the ‘king’ and the ‘prince’ of Mauritian
politics, and they formed a coalition government. By talking to both, I helped
ensure that the combination of the Labour Party with the PMSD provided the
right balance to run a steady and good government in the nascent days of the
young nation. To their credit, both these leaders contributed immensely to the
growth and stability of Mauritius. I look back with nostalgia to those amazing
days when the political chess game was so well played by both Chacha and
Gaetan.
Chacha passed an order in Creole and I saw two policemen from the prime
minister’s security opening the boot of his car and taking out two crates of wine.
This was a very unusual occurrence by the side of a highway, and I was deeply
touched by the gesture. Chacha told me that one crate was a Riesling German
white wine and the other was a Mateus red. It was not the delivery of the wine
but the style in which it was done that made me wonder if it was unique in
political history.
During our discussion in Orville’s office he said that he was trying to revive
his contacts in New Delhi and asked if I could help him since I was well
connected in Indian political circles in those days. This seemed like a reasonable
thing to ask, but his second question made me a little cautious. ‘Is Sharad Power
approachable?’ he asked. I replied, ‘It depends on what you mean by
“approachable”. Do you mean a friendly person? If so, yes, he is very friendly. If
you are implying that he may be corrupt, then I don’t think so.’ We left it at that.
In appreciation of the support Cameron and Pam had shown me, I agreed to
host Orville in Delhi, and introduce him to the political elite. I invited almost
fifty MPs and seven or eight cabinet ministers and a chief minister to a dinner at
the Maurya Sheraton, New Delhi; they consented to attend because they were
friends and acquaintances, but also because they were keen to meet the former
US secretary of agriculture.
It was a wonderful evening. Orville Freeman got more introductions than he
could have imagined. He looked happy and flushed and exchanged his card with
all the guests.
Congress Politics
In November 1972, my friend Mohammed Yunus, head of the Trade Fair
Authority of India, later rechristened the Indian Trade Promotion Organisation,
invited me to Pragati Maidan, New Delhi, to be the chief guest at the
inauguration of Asia ’72, India’s first international trade fair. The fair was
inaugurated by the prime minister, Mrs Gandhi, and Yunus introduced me to her.
Since I was established as a popular film star by then, she knew me and
expressed her pleasure at being there to hear me answering questions from
students about films and my life. Later, she introduced me to some of her cabinet
ministers, including Pranab Mukherjee and P.C. Sethi through whom I learnt
about some of the internal workings of the Congress Party.
Over time, I got to know P.C. Sethi well. I found that he was a very well-read,
intelligent man, perhaps even one of the more competent ministers in the
cabinet. Whenever I visited New Delhi, we would try to meet and catch up.
On one such occasion, he was busy in a meeting with some people so he
invited me into the house and suggested I make myself comfortable until he was
done. I had just had a sip of whisky when in walked the familiar figure of
Dhirubhai Ambani, holding a sheet of paper in his hand. I had met Dhirubhai
before and greeted him. But his response was a blank. Of course, he knew who I
was but at that point in time, he seemed totally focused on the sheet in his hand.
With a perfunctory nod in my direction, he started to say how it was so
important to make briefs for ministers. For a moment, I thought he was speaking
to me, but I realized quickly that his statement was directed to himself. I smiled
at the man’s ability to concentrate like that, and could not suppress my laughter
when suddenly, he said, ‘In ministers ko kuch nahin aata!’ (These ministers
know nothing.)
After a short while, P.C. Sethi walked in and Dhirubhai handed him the paper
that contained the brief. The minister read it and waited anxiously for the phone
to ring. He was expecting a call from Mrs Gandhi. So tense was he that when I
told him to fix himself a drink, he just mumbled, ‘Later . . . later . . .’
Suddenly the sharp ringing of the telephone pierced the silence in the room,
startling everyone. PC jumped up, hurriedly grabbed the receiver and said,
‘Namaskar, madam.’ The prime minister was on the line.
Over the next ten minutes he read out the brief. The call ended with him
saying, ‘Yes, madam . . . okay, madam . . . yes . . . yes . . . thank you, madam . . .’
in the most respectful tones I have ever heard in my life. Once the call ended, the
minister threw down the sheet of paper, wiped some imaginary sweat off his
forehead, let out a sigh of relief and asked his orderly to fix him a stiff one.
All this while I had been watching Dhirubhai watch PC rattle off facts and
figures to Mrs Gandhi. It was only after the call had ended that he turned his
attention to me, winked and said, ‘Now you know why it is so important to
prepare a brief for ministers? The prime minister is very perceptive but in
ministers ko kuch nahin aata.’
I smiled at him and nodded politely.
Even as I recount this anecdote today, there is a smile on my face. I vividly
remember the way Dhirubhai said to me, almost as if he was sharing a great
secret, ‘In ministers ko kuch nahin aata . . .’
Over the years, I have been privileged to meet many members of royal families
from India and other parts of the world.
Since the stars of the Hindi film industry were, in a manner of speaking, the
new emerging royalty of India it was perhaps inevitable that the old and the new
would meet at parties and social gatherings. I have always had a consuming
interest in history and was thrilled to be able to meet many of these people who
were steeped in India’s past, including the royal families of Jaipur, Mysore,
Gwalior and Kashmir. I found most of them charming and well educated and I
am proud to count some of them as friends. The one I was closest to and felt the
greatest fondness for was Bhawani Singh, His Highness the Maharaja of Jaipur,
whom we affectionately called Bubbles.
With Sundri Feroz Khan, Maharani of Gwalior Madhavi Raje, Zarine, His Highness Madhavrao Scindia
of Gwalior, Dilshad, His Highness Maharaja Bhavani Singh of Jaipur, Mahrani Padmini of Jaipur and
Parmeshwar Godrej
Kaash phir milne ki wajah mil jaaye, saath jitna bhi bitaya woh pal mil jaaye,
Chalo apni apni aankhen band kar lo, kya pata khwabon mein guzra huya kal mil jaaye.
I wish the hours we met would come again, for that fleeting time my heart does yearn,
But maybe if we close our eyes and dream, those moments of yesteryear would return.
* * *
Sheikha Sheikha, one of Nasser’s cousins, once asked me for advice on who she
should marry, which, according to the customs of the Kuwaiti ruling family, had
to be a cousin. Knowing that Sheikha was by nature a kind, affectionate person
who was involved in a number of charities for educating the poor, I
recommended Salem Al Jabber Al-Sabah. I had always found him to be very
straightforward, and thought he would make a good husband. She acted on my
advice and they married.
On the last lap of their honeymoon, which was in Mysore, Salem expressed a
desire to see the Dussehra festival and since the Maharaja was a friend of mine I
was able to arrange this for them. We entered the Mysore palace to the chanting
of the powerful Vijaya shlok and my guests looked around in amazement at the
glitter, splendour and majesty. They were particularly enchanted by the
maharaja’s elephant, decked out in all its finery with its golden howdah.
Amongst the huge gathering of men and women dressed in their festive best we
spotted the maharaja in his regalia sitting by the havankund along with his wife
and some pandits, reciting mantras. Salem Jabber Al-Sabah was mesmerized by
the festive atmosphere and was recording it on a video. ‘How splendid! All the
money in Kuwait couldn’t make this!’ Hearing this filled me with pride.
Since we were guests of the maharaja, we were ushered to his private
chamber. We were just noticing how austere the interiors of the private residence
were, when he entered, wearing a baniyan and his silk dhoti minus the pagdi and
his sherwani. He had stepped out from the ceremony to meet the Kuwaiti royal
couple; he welcomed us and then rushed back. As he left, we all noticed there
was a gaping hole in his baniyan. Sheikha asked me, ‘Is he poor?’ I had a good
laugh and said, ‘No, he is extremely rich, but a little eccentric!’
Sheikha and Salem were great fans of Mehmood, the comedian, whom I knew
well, so he invited us, the next day, to his farmhouse in Bangalore. When we
arrived, Mehmood, dressed in short pants, was standing around two cooking
stoves. His wife, Tracy, was sitting on a chair nearby. They both made us all feel
at home and Mehmood’s jokes, delivered in his pidgin English mixed with the
southern style which she had seen in his movies, made Sheikha laugh so much
she had tears in her eyes.
After a good lunch Mehmood made a business offer to Salem. He said if
Salem would sponsor a full circus to tour the entire Arab world, starting from
Kuwait City, he would play the role of the circus joker. Salem was highly
impressed and instantly agreed to be his partner in the enterprise. I liked the idea
of an Indian circus touring the Arab world and I congratulated them on the
business venture. Unfortunately, the idea didn’t materialize as the logistics were
too challenging.
We drove down from Bangalore to Ooty through the famous Bandipur forest
known for tigers. In one particular spot, near a mandir, hundreds of monkeys
leapt on to our car bonnet. Sheikha was delighted, clapping her hands and
offering them bananas, while Salem filmed the scene. In Ooty we stayed at the
Savoy Hotel. After dinner Sheikha went back to her room, but Salem and I sat
by the fireside in the hotel lounge sipping coffee and talking. We covered a huge
range of subjects and I was impressed by the breadth of his interests, particularly
in international affairs.
Over the years we maintained a warm and steady relationship and during one
of my visits to Kuwait, Salem informed me that his mother, Mama Maryam,
wanted to meet me. As I was ushered into the zenana, I realized I was the only
man there, amongst dozens of palace female staff. A lot of them recognized me,
and from their language and accents as they greeted me by name, I noticed some
of them were from Goa. They guided me to Mama Maryam, who I found to be
very charming and kind. She asked me to sit beside her and treated me like her
own son, enquiring about my wife and family and my films. She said she was
looking forward to visiting Bombay in the rainy season. At the end of my
conversation she presented me with bags full of perfumes and expensive
watches.
Some months later Salem called me from Kuwait and in his characteristically
humorous manner said: ‘Brother, your girlfriend is coming to Bombay!’ He
meant, of course, his mother, whom he asked Zarine and me to meet. Sheikha
was accompanying her, and we spent many pleasant hours with them watching
the monsoon from the windows of their hotel suite. Unlike us, Mama Maryam
loved the rains!
Sometime later Salem invited me to Kuwait. As we were driving deep into the
desert in his limousine he said, ‘I want to show you something different.’ True to
his word, right there, in the middle of the desert, we came upon a huge black tent
outside which dozens of the most expensive cars in the world were gleaming in
the sunlight. The black tent against the golden hue of the desert looked, to me,
like a gigantic landscape painting.
Inside the tent, the seating was Eastern style, with luxurious carpets and
bolsters and Arabic coffee tables with silken covers and tassels. Salem seated me
comfortably in an area a little further from the main gathering, where thirty-odd
people were sitting in a circle making conversation and drinking coffee. Salem
told me that it was a board meeting of one of their companies, and I was struck
not only by the splendour of the surroundings, but the unconventionality of it. It
wasn’t like any board meeting I had ever seen before. About half an hour later
the board meeting was over and the people stood around talking to each other. It
was then that I realized the huge profits that were the outcome of this meeting
and so when Salem asked me, on the way back, ‘What can I do for you, my
friend?’ I thanked him and said, ‘I’ll let you know!’
Zayed endearingly answered, ‘His Majesty is very kingly and very friendly.’
The king was very amused to hear Zayed’s impression of him. He got up from
his seat and hugged Zayed and then took him by the hand and made him sit next
to him.
Queen Aishwarya and Zarine were good friends too. The queen was an
admirer of Zarine’s interior designs and ordered lots of furniture from Tradition,
her company. She was genuinely warm, down-to-earth and unpretentious; her
laughter was musical and charismatic. We remember her very fondly.
With Zarine, His Majesty Bir Bikram Shah, a relative of the king, and Queen Aishwarya
King Birendra and his family visited us in Jaipur during the shooting of The
Great Maratha and spent hours on the sets watching the shoot. We loved it too;
it was a very exciting experience for the crew to see a real king and his family
amongst all of us, watching our work. Birendra got into the swing of things and
asked me to allow Princess Shruti to play a part for fun. Shruti was a very
confident girl, and very keen to act, so I gave her a few lines of dialogue which
she delivered with ease, laughing happily when she was done. Then, the king
jokingly asked me if Shruti had the talent to join films. I replied in the same vein
that she had the looks; all she needed was a three-year professional course in
acting from the National School of Drama. Everyone laughed heartily. It still
pains us a great deal to remember that that lovely child was a brutal victim on
that tragic night of Rathi Bhoj.
The king was a frequent visitor to Bombay and we looked forward to meeting
him whenever possible. On one of his visits, I received a call from him that he
and Aishwarya would be flying to Italy the same evening and would like to see a
shooting at Film City. I agreed and we spent an hour on the sets of B.R. Chopra’s
Mahabharata, the TV serial being shot by Ravi Chopra. While driving back
home after bidding them goodbye, I was so engrossed in a conversation with my
chief assistant director, Shiv Dutt Sharma, that when I received a call from a lady
saying that she was Aishwarya, I disconnected the call, not for a moment
imagining it could be the queen. When I reached home and stepped into our
sitting room, the landline rang and Zarine picked up the phone. I heard her
exclaim, ‘Oh, Aishwarya, hello!’
She spoke to her for a moment, then covering the mouthpiece with her hand,
she asked me if I had hung up on the queen. I had a good laugh and took the
phone from her hand to explain to Aishwarya why I had disconnected the call.
As I told her, I could hear her musical laughter from the other side. Then,
Birendra, whom I could hear laughing in the background, came on the line and
told me that it was he who advised Aishwarya to call on the landline.
King Birendra told me, in one of our conversations, that he was highly
concerned about the rise of the Maoists in his kingdom and also the bureaucratic
hassles and the political jingoism which existed between Nepal and India. He
expressed his ardent belief that the best course was to keep India close, and the
Chinese friendly, but at a distance. I felt privileged that he took me into his
confidence in this way.
King Birendra and Queen Aishwarya had their last dinner at our home about
six months before they were assassinated. It was a wonderful evening, full of
fun. My whole family was there, and Farah was in her element. At one point she
told me, ‘Papa, I was born on 28 December, and so were His Majesty the king,
and Dhirubhai Ambani and Ratan Tata. I can clearly see where my future lies.’
Their tragic end, when the whole family was ruthlessly assassinated at their
weekly dinner, was a personal blow to me and my family. We remember them
with deep fondness and I am glad to have so many happy occasions to remember
them by.
Later, after reaching the hospital and greeting our newborn baby girl, I had to
tell Zarine about my purchase. She flared up in surprise. She sat up, looked at me
and said, ‘Absi, oh my god, Parmeshwar and Adi Godrej were asking us to buy
the four-bedroom flat in their building, Usha Kiran, on Carmichael Road, where
Dhirubhai Ambani also stays, for Rs 1,25,000. What have you done!’
I could not explain the rationale of my decision to her. Perhaps it was my
destiny. But later, thankfully, Zarine too fell in love with him and we jointly
decided on the name, Prince Khartoum.
Prince Khartoum did not enter any races as a two-year-old owing to sore
shins. He ran his first race as a three-year-old with three horses, each of which
had won three races already. In the 1200-metre race, Prince Khartoum finished a
flying short head second, beating two of the other horses. Rashid Byramji’s, the
trainer’s father, put his right hand into my jacket and said, ‘The Indian Derby is
in your pocket.’ I asked him what he meant. He said, ‘Do you realize this is his
first race and the distance is only 1200 metres? You saw the way he was moving.
He comes from behind. He needs a longer distance; all the classics are a
minimum of 1600 metres and above. This is a classic colt.’
I respected Rashid’s father’s expertise in these matters, so we entered Prince
Khartoum in a one-mile cup race in Bangalore, prior to the Colts’ Trial Stakes.
When the horses turned for the home run which was only 400 metres to the
finishing post, he was ten lengths behind the last horse; it looked impossible for
him to win. He left the entire racecourse agog, however, when he came up from
behind and finished a flying first. Many experienced owners congratulated me,
saying that this would be one of the greatest horses to hit the turf. After this
victory, we were confident of him winning the Colts’ Trial Stakes, a 1600-metre
race. However, mysteriously, a horse called Thundering, belonging to the
maharaja of Gwalior, who later became a very good friend, won the race.
Two weeks later, on the eve of the Bangalore Derby, I found out that someone
had hooked my horse in the Colts’ Trial Stakes, which confirmed our suspicions.
To our delight, Prince Khartoum won the Bangalore Derby in style. This was his
first big classic.
After that big win, he was the favourite for the prestigious Ramnivas Ruia
Gold Cup. He was trained to run from behind to stay in the striking position of
the third and fourth places as he came closer home and then, depending on the
pace, open up to strike in the last 300 metres. In the Gold Cup race, jockey
Jagdish did not keep to the orders of the trainer and took Prince to a flying start,
leading the pack and blew him up in the first 800 metres to finish a poor fourth.
This was disastrous and when Rashid Byramji, the trainer, and I rushed to the
paddock, the brazen jockey had the gall to tell us that the horse’s career was
finished. It was a blow that was hard for us to accept.
We now needed a new jockey, so I asked a friend in Bangalore to arrange for
the number one English jockey, Wally Swinburne, who was in Bangalore in
those days, to ride Prince. Early one morning, a few days later, Wally and I were
at the Mahalaxmi Racecourse when Wally said he would like two class-one
horses with which to match strides in a trial run of 2400 metres and to also check
the condition and stamina of Prince. I watched this run from the Gallops
Restaurant and could see the three horses moving through the morning mist. The
other two horses were running first and second and Prince Khartoum was
running third with one length separating each of them. Soon after, Wally joined
me at my table. He was also looking a bit dejected and striking his right leg with
his crop. ‘Sir, the touts are watching us; you are an actor and you know what to
do.’
I looked at him and understood what he meant. Then, he told me that he
weighed 55 kilograms while the other two jockeys weighed around 47 kilograms
each. He told me that even after his conceding 8 kilograms to them, his hands
and legs were aching from holding Prince Khartoum tightly to stop him from
showing a clean pair of heels to the two horses. He added that Prince was so
good that only God could stop him. I did not show any emotion, as per Wally’s
advice, but felt the hand of destiny on my shoulder again.
The odds on Prince Khartoum for the Indian Derby were four to one. A few
nights before the race Zarine dreamed that the number of the winning horse was
five and to her delight, when the numbers were declared two days before the
race, this was the number Prince Khartoum had been allotted. The entire racing
fraternity in Bombay, mostly from the Parsi community and other rich families,
was very superstitious, whether about the day of the race, the horse, the colour of
their clothes, the hat they wore or the cigar they smoked so Zarine ordered a
white Jodhpuri suit for me to wear on the race day, to match what she had seen
in her dream.
Zarine’s dream came true; we went on to make history by winning the Blue
Ribbon in the Indian Derby in Bombay, but not without angst. I had instructed
Wally to keep Prince Khartoum in the middle position before reaching 800
metres so I was very surprised when I saw my orange and white colours coming
round the bend, leading the pack. Then my heart was in my mouth when he
veered towards the tan, while Storm, ridden by English jockey Eldin, rode
towards the finishing post. Within seconds, however, Wally brought Prince
Khartoum back into the race, and the two horses were neck and neck as they ran
to the post. It was a photo finish, but I only found out Prince had won when I
came round—I had blacked out!
Following this Prince Khartoum won the Turf Invitation Cup in Chennai.
Interestingly, two days before the big race, the trainer, Rashid, came and
informed me that it would be good if it rained. When I asked him why, he said
the soft going was good for Prince.
I had invited a few friends for a dinner party, including some people from my
rival camp, a very powerful owner of over 1000 thoroughbreds who held sway
over the Madras racecourse. At the party, everyone asked me if my horse was
going to win and I assured them that Prince Khartoum would win provided, I
said according to the plan, it didn’t rain.
Winning the Turf Invitation Cup
Early next morning, Wally walked into my hotel suite and showed me his
running shoes. ‘Sir, they have taken the bait and watered the racetrack the entire
night with hundreds of water tankers,’ he informed me.
In the journey of my life, I have learnt that reverse psychology works
beautifully. There is a saying that if you want to put a donkey into a well, tie a
rope around his neck, pull him in the opposite direction and as he moves back to
resist, he will himself fall into the well. It was this psychology that had worked
again and Prince Khartoum won the Turf Invitation Cup by almost 200 metres,
creating a new turf record, while Star Heaven, the southern favourite, came last.
I had a huge bet on my horse, which ran into millions. That was the first and last
bet I placed but I am told that it may have been the largest bet ever in racing.
Funnily enough, just two or three weeks before the Indian Derby, I had
received a letter from the stewards of the Royal Western India Turf Club
(RWITC) stating that I was required to meet them the following Sunday. The
letter cited the ‘disparaging remarks’ I had made against the stewards of the
RWITC as the reason for the summons. I was truly surprised because as far as I
knew, I’d never even met any of the stewards, let alone insulted them. I went,
however, to the meeting. When I walked into the stewards’ room, it was full of
elderly men, none of whom were known to me except one, a Mr Kanga.
Suddenly, one of them started speaking to me in anglicized Hindi, struggling
with the words. He said haltingly, ‘Aapne hamaray stewards ke khilaf
disparaging remarks pass ki hai.’ (You have made disparaging remarks about
our stewards.) I interjected and suggested that I could speak to them in English if
they were finding it difficult speaking to me in Hindi. All of them looked at each
other in surprise, probably thinking I was like Mehmood the comedian, or Agha,
both racehorse owners who could not speak English.
It was now my turn to have fun. I pointed out that except for Mr Kanga, I had
never met anyone present in the room in my life, so it would be very difficult for
me to have passed disparaging remarks against them. This really put them in a
fix. Mr Kanga looked at his colleagues sternly and asked me to step out so that
they could have an internal discussion after which they would invite me back to
conclude the meeting.
The chairman of the RWITC, Mr Ruia, had invited me to step in for a coffee
when I was walking towards the stewards’ meeting room, so I decided to take
him up on his offer. He greeted me graciously and asked me how the inquisition
was going. I told him and he had a good laugh about it. Just then, an officer of
the club came into the chamber and asked me to return to the stewards’ room. I
was informed that the investigation was over and they could not find any
substance in the accusations contained in the letter. When I insisted on knowing
the source of this canard, they all looked at each other but Mr Kanga informed
me that Mr Joshi, a steward appointed by the government as per the rules of the
club, had complained. He looked towards Mr Joshi to point him out to me, and I
followed his glance and saw a man with a lantern jaw, looking guilty and
uncomfortable.
The story behind this was that one of the owners of the contenders at the
Derby had tried to stop Prince from taking part by any means, including trying to
create a cause célèbre. I was learning the tricks of the trade fast.
After winning the Bangalore Derby, Indian Derby and the Turf Invitation Cup
—the Triple Crown of Indian racing as it were—I sponsored a trip to Europe for
my trainer and his wife. Prince Khartoum had earned a well-deserved rest and
was sent to Bangalore but after a month, a devastated Rashid Byramji informed
me that some unknown persons had damaged his tendons. It was a huge shock
for my wife and me and I felt a twisting pain inside me. I rushed to Bangalore to
meet the champion and looking at his handsome face and beautiful expression, I
saw that he looked sad, as though he knew that his racing days were over.
About a month before the St Ledger’s race where my Prince would have been
the favourite, two people came to see me in Mahabaleshwar where I was
shooting a film and proposed that I enter Prince in the race. When I asked them
if they did not know that he had been sent to the stud, they awkwardly explained
that if I entered him in this very big race, he would be the natural favourite and
when he lost the race, the public that had betted on him heavily would lose their
money but I would walk away with a huge profit. I have no idea how I
controlled my anger and the fury that was raging inside me—that they should
want me to become part of their nefarious racket was unbelievable. I screamed at
them for trying to involve me and my champion horse in cheating the public in
this way and I ordered my staff to throw them out. This was the ugly side of
racing I abhorred.
During our racing days, perhaps due to my star status, many influential and
rich horseowners from the higher echelons of society would invite us to their
parties at their homes. Cyrus and Zaware Poonawalla, leading industrialists and
owners of the Poonawalla Stud Farm, are friends till today. In fact, Cyrus
Poonawalla invited me to be a fourth partner in one of his classic horses, as he
believed that I was lucky, but I politely declined.
With Feroz and Cyrus Poonawalla at Mahalaxmi Race Course, Bombay
When I look back there was so much elegance and style in those gatherings,
which sadly I find missing today. The world of racing is a complex, beguiling
place, easy to lose oneself in. I lasted there for a brief period of two and a half
years and made some good friends, but I got out of it at the right time.
Shooting Skeet
We were staying at the Bikaner Palace Hotel while shooting for Abdullah, when
I received an invitation from His Highness Maharaja Karni Singh, whose palace
was nearby.
I noticed that there was skeet shooting apparatus and that several double-
barrel twelve bore guns were laid out on a table in the palace. When His
Highness asked me if I could shoot skeet, I replied I could shoot a gun but had
never shot skeet. He then personally selected a double-barrel gun from the lot
and handing it over to me, suggested I take a shot. Maharaja Karni Singh was a
champion shooter who had medalled in many international events, so I
concentrated on his tips when he explained to me the nitty-gritty of shooting
skeet.
I waited for the fling from the apparatus and when it went up like a flying
saucer, I shot twelve clay pigeons in succession. His Highness was delighted and
congratulated me. He also reconfirmed quietly that this was really my first skeet
shoot. He then ushered me into his library, pulled out a ledger from the shelf and
sat down to induct me in the membership of his private skeet shooting club and
asked me to sign the ledger. I did so happily.
16
Living on the Edge
From an early age, I loved reading about adventures of all kinds. I was
particularly inspired by Ernest Hemingway’s books, including Death in the
Afternoon, The Sun Also Rises and Homage to Catalonia, as well as the Shogun
series, in which the central character was full of courage.
Perhaps enthused by these stories, I have never shied away from danger,
whether it was horse riding (I’ve always loved the speed of a thoroughbred);
mountaineering (I was trained by Captain Sharma of the Indian army) or
undersea diving and motorcycling (I had a Norton 650 cc when I was sixteen and
once touched 103 miles an hour). I also did my own stunts in my films, some of
which were very dangerous—like the one in which I fought with a leopard.
Given this love of adventure, it’s not surprising that I have found myself in some
very tense situations.
In Search of a Tiger
In 1975, the film industry came to a standstill owing to widespread industrial
action in Bombay. This meant that we had a lot of time on our hands, and Feroz
suggested that we go to the jungle on a tiger hunt. I was quite averse to the idea,
because I found it cruel and despicable, but environmental awareness at that time
was dismal and the media was full of hunting stories. People were always going
on hunting trips to Africa and the rest of the world while many from abroad
came to India; it was something to discuss over cocktails and dinner. So, not
wanting to dampen Feroz’s enthusiasm, I agreed to join him after he organized
the necessary licence. He had previously shot twelve leopards but his great
ambition was to shoot a tiger. The list of animals mentioned on the licence
included a tiger, two leopards, four deer and wild pigs.
Besides Feroz and me, the hunting party comprised our respective wives,
Sundri and Zarine, our younger brother, Sameer, Captain S.C. Singh of Air
India, who was a close friend, Mohan Bijlani and his wife, Mohini, Rajshree, the
celebrated actress of our time and my co-star in Mohan’s film Dil Ne Pukara,
and her American husband, Gregory. Munzeer, Feroz’s good friend, who was an
excellent spotlight expert, also accompanied us; his role would be to spot the
animal with his powerful light while Feroz took the shot. I noticed that everyone
in our hunting party was a bit wide-eyed; maybe I was too, as this was a new
experience for all of us. After an exciting journey through the thick jungle and
over bumpy roads, with the sound of birds and animals around us, we drove up
to a large, charming, sprawling colonial-style bungalow. I was very impressed
with the cleanliness of the house, the well-organized furniture, the dining table
and the plentiful stock of food and drinks.
All the ladies immediately went to work to set up the house and plan the
menus while the boys sat outside on the veranda, eating freshly fried eggs on
toast with coffee and oranges. Gregarious Gregory was a coffee addict and lots
of fun, but not so much for our south Indian chef, Rauf, because he had to cook
on a wood fire and it was impossible for him to provide several cups of coffee at
short notice. Gregory hauled Rauf to me, complaining about his service. When I
asked him what the problem was, he replied, ‘Bhaijan, har do minute ke baad
“Caffe caffe” poochte hain . . . Choolha phoonk phoonk aakhen phoot gayee
hain.’ (Brother, he keeps asking for coffee after every two minutes . . . My eyes
are smarting from the smoke from blowing on the fire wood.) This sequence
repeated each morning and we all used to have a hearty laugh at it.
Feroz barbecuing
Feroz called for a meeting of the hunting party and that is when I met an
unforgettable Muslim man called Chacha, a 6'5" local with a weathered face,
wearing a long kurta and pyjama. His manner of speaking, along with his raspy
voice and choice of four-letter words while referring to leopards and tigers,
captivated us all. It was Chacha who arranged for four buffalo calves to be tied
as bait in areas believed to be tiger territory.
A large group of Adivasis would stand outside the compound and watch us
with great curiosity. We were informed by Chacha that this was a normal
occurrence as they expected deer or wild boar meat from the hunt and that was
their source of badly needed protein. Sameer was deeply concerned about the
health condition of the tribals and set up a chair and table laden with our medical
supplies to generously help anyone who needed medication or bandages. We
jokingly started referring to the area as the hospital of Dr Sameer Khan.
The watering hole turned out to be surrounded by large, round, black rocks
and had the most divine crystal clear sweet water. The jungle heat during the day
was scorching, and we would take turns diving off a high rock that jutted out
over the cool waters like a diving board. For fun, we told the ladies that there
could be crocodiles in the pool. Surprisingly, they were not at all scared at
hearing this; they simply rebuked us for trying to scare them and continued to
have fun in the water. Our schedule in the jungle was quite simple. During the
day we would relax by the pool and head back to the bungalow before sundown.
In the evening, we dressed and were served a barbecue dinner. We also had a
well-stocked bar and a professional bartender at our service. Zarine made sure
we had good music. The government had provided an officer to accompany us
on our hunting trips; he was affable but he kept to himself.
We broke up into three or four groups each night and went hunting in separate
jeeps. One night, Mohan and Mohini persuaded me to take them for a wild boar
hunt and after searching for a while I spotted a huge boar crossing the road from
our right to left. Mohan, in his excitement, could not take the shot and begged
me to instead. I shot the boar on the run but was surprised to see him keep
running. We followed the boar in the jeep until a second shot brought him down.
We all jumped out to see this big wild boar with the huge tuskers. The animal
was so large and heavy that the driver and I could not lift it into the net
contraption behind the jeep. We asked the officer, who was a Muslim, to give us
a hand but this upset him and he refused to lift the pig. Mohan, however, was
very keen to take some meat to Bombay to make pork pickle and only after great
coaxing did the reluctant officer finally help us lift the big boar into the net. The
next morning, I saw him soaping his body several times while having a bath.
Later, he confessed with a smile that he had prayed to God to forgive him. I felt
bad on hearing this, as well as for having shot the poor animal. However, it was
a consolation to watch the meat being gifted to the tribals in the area.
Eventually, Chacha came along with his two assistants to tell us that one of the
buffalo calves set up as bait had been killed by a big cat. We all immediately
jumped into several jeeps and drove down to the spot and saw the dead buffalo
calf which had been tied to a small tree.
After inspecting the dead calf, Chacha took stock of the pug marks and told us
that they were slightly smaller than a tiger’s but larger than a leopard’s, so it
could either be a large leopard or a small tiger. He sat down, looking intently at
the carcass to see if any teeth were embedded in the throat; the stomach had been
torn out and some intestines eaten.
Chacha told us that a machan would have to be set up. I asked if the machan
could be put up on the big tree which was away from the little tree where the kill
happened so that when the cat was dragging away its kill, it would give us more
space to shoot. Chacha agreed and a charpoy was hoisted up and tied firmly on
the big tree. Then, the old man explained in his raspy voice that we were to be
very very quiet; so much so that we should not breathe through our noses but
only from our mouths. Hearing him, the picture of a dog panting crossed my
mind. I thought it was funny but practical because in the silence of the jungle
even a dead leaf falling on the ground makes a sound. That evening, around 5.30
p.m., Feroz and I sat on the machan along with Munzeer, the spotlight specialist
who was a frail, skinny man but quite strong.
The ladies were quite concerned about us and before they returned to the
bungalow, they told us repeatedly to be careful. ‘We hope you guys know what
you are doing,’ they said. I just smiled, as this was my first experience, and I
wasn’t that confident, but Feroz, with all his characteristic style, assured the
ladies, saying, ‘We are big boys. We will take care of ourselves.’
Suddenly, the lonely isolation of the jungle hit us. It was also getting cold and
we were wearing only light woollen sweaters. It was agreed that Feroz would be
the number one shot with his .375 Magnum; I was the backup, holding a loaded
double-barrel gun with LG’s number one making it a single powerful shot in
both barrels. Munzeer, with the spotlight and a 12-volt battery resting on his lap,
sat between Feroz and me. We waited, sipping black coffee extra gently to avoid
any slurping sound.
The jungle started getting quite dark as early as 7 p.m. and we could hear
every small sound. It was eerie and pitch-dark. All of a sudden, we heard a
snuffling sound followed by what seemed like the sound of bones being crushed
by the powerful jaws of an animal. The cat was right there but we could not see a
thing. Feroz nudged Munzeer and seconds later the powerful spotlight
illuminated the area. It fell a little short of the target but Munzeer quickly
corrected its position. I will never forget the sight that I saw in that light.
The large head of a huge leopard with its mouth open, blood dripping from its
jaws as it growled angrily at the spotlight, its eyes red with fury. Feroz,
forgetting that I was to shoot a leopard and he was to shoot a tiger, instinctively
fired his .375 Magnum. The leopard gave a big growl, buckled almost eight feet
in the air, fell to the ground and then leapt towards us with all its anger and fury.
Seeing how close the snarling leopard had come to us I let loose a volley by
pulling both the triggers. I certainly diverted the leopard from his aim and he fell
straight down and ran into the jungle. Feroz, turning around at the same moment,
released another shot. He was furious and kept on repeating, ‘Oh my god, I
missed.’
I was fairly certain, however, from the sound of the impact of the shot that it
had found its mark. I told Feroz that he had hit him in the stomach, which was
perhaps why he had buckled. We quickly jumped down from the machan. Feroz
insisted we go after the animal, but I told him it was a crazy idea. ‘A wounded
leopard is the most dangerous animal in the jungle. A leopard is only dead when
you see his skin on the wall,’ I cautioned, quoting Jim Corbett, the famous
hunter.
But there was no stopping Feroz when he had made up his mind. He said, ‘If
you call yourself my brother, then come with me; we will find him.’ Saying this,
he sped off in the direction the leopard had taken. I had no option but to follow
him, so I loaded my gun and went after him. Munzeer came too. We had hardly
gone ten steps when we slipped on a long slope. The 12-volt battery which
Munzeer was carrying, the wires, the spotlight, and all three of us tumbled to the
bottom of the nala; we landed near a thick bamboo grove, the guns still clutched
in our hands. Feroz and I got into an argument while Munzeer searched for the
battery and the lights. I insisted that we call Chacha by firing the signal shot and
after a lengthy argument, Feroz finally relented and I fired the single shot.
When Chacha came charging in, he confirmed that Feroz hadn’t missed. He
told us to go back to the bungalow while he would organize a search for the
leopard’s body. Munzeer stayed back with them with the lights.
Early the next morning, as I was brushing my teeth, I heard the tooting of the
jeep horn and the sound of three gunshots. I quickly rushed out on to the veranda
and there it was. The huge carcass of the mighty leopard strapped to the bonnet
of the jeep. All of us except Feroz rushed out; he remained in his chair, sipping
coffee coolly, looking dejected about shooting a leopard instead of a tiger.
Thank god those days are over. The very thought of killing animals is
repulsive to me. Together we must all protect our environment and the
ecosystem to ensure the planet’s survival.
The Storm in the Indian Ocean
It was a glorious day in Mauritius. The sun was shining brightly on the blue
waters of the Indian Ocean. The large ocean liner aboard which we were
shooting the climax of Chandi Sona was cutting through the translucent waters,
rhythmically keeping in time with the pitch. It was the lunch break so I was
standing with my co-stars and crew, watching the menacing tiger and bull sharks
which were following the ship, looking for food.
The captain, a stocky, blond, bearded Swede with a jovial look was standing
next to me, and suggested that we feed the sharks. We thought this would be fun
so we began to throw whole dressed chickens, supplied by the ship’s chef, to the
hungry sharks. Within minutes the scene erupted into a frenzy, with dozens of
sharks fighting each other for the meat and the lucky ones grabbing the chickens
and darting away.
All of a sudden, in yet another extraordinary aquatic display, a pair of shiny
black whales came out of nowhere. It was as if they were competing with each
other, one following the other as they surfaced, arced and disappeared into the
blue waters of the Indian Ocean. Their movements were like those of dolphins,
except that they were gigantic and this made the show unbelievably dramatic.
None of us had witnessed such a spectacle before.
Soon after, the captain took me aside and informed me that he had received an
early warning message on the ship’s radio that we were in the line of an
approaching storm. It was estimated to hit us in the next thirty minutes. Greatly
concerned about my crew and the cast, I asked him how severe the storm would
be and how long he thought it would last. He gestured with his hands and said
gravely, ‘This one could be bad. That’s why it is essential that all of you go
below deck. I also suggest that you don’t tell them about the high danger the
storm poses.’
I did as he advised and told my crew to cooperate with the ship’s captain and
go below deck. They all looked a bit concerned, but I assured them that it was a
very sturdy vessel and we were in good hands. I asked Pran, who was not only a
highly respected actor but also the most senior of my colleagues, to guide the
crew below deck. I did not disclose the seriousness of the situation to them
because I wanted to avoid panic, but of course they sensed that it was an
emergency. Pran, Parveen Babi, Danny Denzongpa, Ranjeet, Asrani, Mukri,
Paintal and all my technicians—all of them showed a lot of courage by keeping
their spirits up and not giving in to their fears.
Although the others went below deck as asked, I remained on deck, and the
captain was surprised to see me. In response to his raised eyebrows, I told him,
quite firmly, that I would stay with him no matter what happened. He looked at
me for a moment, smiled and said, ‘If you’re looking for the big show, this could
well be it. It will be really turbulent. For God’s sake, do not loosen your grip on
the railings when the storm begins.’
The change in the seascape as the storm approached was very dramatic. The
wind blew sharply and howled around us. The ocean heaved with giant swells.
The bright day turned into a looming dark sky. As I watched the changing scene,
a strong gust of wind hit us. I lost my balance and dropped down to a nearby
railing. The ship started to roll and pitch, as 50-foot tall waves lashed the sides,
making it almost impossible for the captain to keep the wheel steady.
As advised, I held on to the rails as tightly as I could as I stood there next to
the captain. It was hard to believe that I was actually experiencing a raging storm
in the Indian Ocean, just 100 kilometres off the coast of Mauritius. It was
strangely invigorating, and though I was excited, I was mindful of the danger.
The captain kept telling me to be careful.
An hour later the storm had worsened. The ship was being mercilessly tossed
on the waves, rolling and pitching helplessly, like a tiny cork adrift on an angry
ocean. The captain had to abandon the first deck. As I started to follow him to
the second deck he warned, ‘For God’s sake, be careful! You can still go down
below deck, you know!’ But I persisted.
Even from the second deck we could not see a thing. The sky was pitch-dark
and enormous waves crashed over the deck amidst screaming, raging winds. It
was a truly terrifying sight and I have to admit that for a moment I felt the end
could well be near; it took all my spirits to stay optimistic about pulling through.
The captain abandoned the second deck and I followed him right to the top on
the third deck. He looked grim. We were standing very close to each other—I
was hanging on tightly to the rails while he steadied the wheel, doing his best to
control the ship. We exchanged a worried look. I could see the fear in his eyes
even though he was putting up a brave front. He really looked like he could use
some positivity and encouragement, so I congratulated him on the great job he
was doing and added that I was sure the storm was going to end soon. He
seemed grateful for my words, even though it took a while longer for the storm
to die down.
The storm disappeared as fast as it had appeared. As the waters settled, my
fellow actors and crew came up from below deck with relief on all their faces. I
praised them all for the courage they had displayed. I don’t think any of us will
ever forget that experience; I certainly won’t.
We were met very warmly by the welcoming committee and escorted to a tent
that was equipped with a very modern washroom. After we had refreshed
ourselves, we were taken to the beautiful terracotta tent that I had admired. The
tent was appointed in the most opulent manner: fitted from end to end with
luxurious Persian carpets, illuminated by sparkling glass chandeliers, lamps, it
evoked an Arabian Nights-esque atmosphere. In the middle of the tent, there was
a designated Eastern-style seating area with bolsters and a large dastarkhan in
the centre, buckling under the weight of fruits and sweetmeats.
Each seating arrangement was equipped with large silver trays consisting of
the finest wines, the best whiskies, vodka, cognac, and any other alcohol that one
could desire. Each tray had a glass, an ice bucket, soda and water.
I was admiring the super luxurious tent, when in breezed a handsome young
man, around my age, wearing blue denim jeans and a black turtleneck pullover.
As I looked up, slightly taken aback at his sudden appearance, he came up to me
with outstretched hands and said, ‘Hi, I am the Khan.’ I got up and shook hands
with him. I had expected to meet an old mullah in long flowing robes and was
taken aback at the sight of this dynamic English-speaking young man.
‘Welcome! Mr Khan, I am a big fan of yours,’ he said, embracing me. ‘We are
both Khans; we are brothers.’
After the pleasantries were over, he asked us what we would like to drink.
‘Whatever you are having, Khan,’ I said politely.
‘Vodka,’ he informed us. And so vodka it was for all of us.
He beckoned to his attendants to invite his wives inside and a short while
later, as we were talking, four very beautiful ladies in traditional attire that
looked close to bridal finery entered the tent and greeted us with courteous
salaams. The Qashqai Khan introduced the women as his four wives and after
motioning them to sit across from us, he asked them to sing for the gathering.
Each lady carried a musical instrument, the name of which I do not recollect
now, and started singing for the guests in their melodious, lilting voices.
I was enjoying the lovely songs that the women were singing for us and,
maybe, my eyes lingered a tad longer than they should have because as I glanced
at the Khan, I found him looking straight at me with an amused look in his eyes.
He winked at me and said, ‘Sanjay Khan, you can look at the other three, but the
youngest is mine.’ I just smiled.
The magical evening went along nicely and we enjoyed the sumptuous spread
that the Qashqai Khan had laid out for us. After dinner, the Khan asked me if I
would like to smoke the hookah with him, but I politely declined and accepted a
small cognac instead. I didn’t know what the Khan was smoking; it was
probably opium, and I certainly didn’t want that, never having smoked it in my
life. Also, I wanted to make sure that I remained in my senses. George, too, was
happy that I had declined the Khan’s offer.
Suddenly, the Khan put his hookah down, pulled me up by my arm and said,
‘Let’s go meet my mother; she lives only a short distance away. She’s a big fan
of yours and will be thrilled to meet you.’
Before I could say anything, I found myself sitting with him in his open jeep
and speeding into the inky blackness of the dark desert night. Being at the mercy
of a young man who had consumed a good amount of alcohol and opium and
was now zipping at breakneck speed into the cold desert night should have
terrified me, but possessing an adventurous nature myself, I quite enjoyed it.
As the Khan swerved abruptly, my 300-dollar brand new Nikon camera flew
out of my lap and into the darkness of the desert.
‘Khan, my camera!!’ I said to him.
‘We’ll pick it up on the way back,’ he told me, laughing.
I looked up at the heavens but decided to keep quiet and write the camera off
as a total loss.
About ten minutes of speeding later, we reached an area that had some
apartment blocks. The Khan slowed down in front of one of the blocks and
called out, ‘Mama, Mama . . .’ I looked up and saw a charming elderly lady
standing in one of the first-floor balconies, waiving at the Khan.
‘Look, Mama. I had promised you that I will bring Sanjay Khan to meet you
and I have kept my promise. See, he’s here!’ the Khan yelled at his mother from
the jeep.
She greeted me warmly and said in perfect English, ‘Son, I am happy to see
you. How are you, joonam? I watch all your movies and am a big fan of yours.
God bless you.’
I thanked her and marvelled at the immense reach of Hindi films. It was a
sobering experience that made me feel more responsible about the kind of films
that I ought to do.
The Khan said a quick goodbye to his mother and we shot out once again into
the darkness of the desert like an arrow. About halfway to the camp, he brought
the jeep to an abrupt halt, jumped out, picked something up from the sand and
came to me.
‘Is this your camera?’ he asked.
‘Yes, it is,’ I said. We hadn’t even heard of GPS back then, but I am sure the
man had one fitted inside his head. I was amazed, thankful and relieved, all at
the same time.
He was a remarkable young man, with a lot of style, and I still remember him
fondly.
That evening, a lavish banquet was arranged at one of the most famous
restaurants overlooking the River Bosporus which divided European Turkey
from Asian Turkey. I noticed many luminaries and important people who would
walk in, go straight to the charismatic man, kiss his hand and move on. I’d never
seen anything quite like that before, except in the movies!
At our table were his wife, his daughter, and son-in-law, Ilmas’s wife, a friend
of mine, Abdul Rahim Karam from the UAE, Zarine, a few other friends. Some
time into the party the godfather stood up and raised a toast welcoming Zarine
and me, and praising the film for its quality. Then he added, ‘I am taking a drink
of vodka, even though I had stopped drinking for seven years, in honour of my
good friend Sanjay Khan, and his wife.’
After he sat down, Ilmas whispered that I should say a few words. I got up and
thanked our gracious host for the warm and lavish hospitality which had been
extended to us. I said I didn’t have words to describe the moment but said that
we had an avenue in New Delhi named after Mustafa Kemal Ataturk as a tribute
to the founding father of modern Turkey. I then described our host as Mustafa
Kemal Ataturk the Second. As soon as I said this, there was a thunder of gunfire
and at least thirty-odd bullets were fired into the air so fast that tiny pieces of
plaster from the ceiling fell around us. The gunfire was accompanied by a round
of clapping and loud cheers from the people in the restaurant. Ilmas Duru kept
repeating softly to me under his breath to keep talking as the gunfire was a salute
offered to me.
My friend, Abdul Rahim, looked quite irritated at all this and kept whispering
to me, ‘I told you these Turks are crazy!’ Of course that might have been just a
reflection of the traditional rivalry between the Arabs and the Turks from the
time of the Ottoman Empire that had colonized the proud Arab world.
It was soon time to return to Bombay but as we were preparing to take the
flight that night, I received a message from Ilmas Duru saying that the godfather
had invited me to have tea with him in his office. When I reached, I was
impressed with the huge building and on entering the reception area of his office
I noticed a neat photodrama of framed pictures of ships going to ocean. I
inferred that he was in the shipping business like the Greek tycoon Aristotle
Onassis. After the usual exchange of pleasantries, he again expressed his
appreciation for Abdullah and praised my work. I thanked him for his kindness.
Then the room fell silent and I saw him look away, deep in thought. The silence
was pregnant.
After a while, he turned and looked back at me for quite a long moment, still
without saying a word. Then, he asked me how much money I made in a year in
my work. My intuition alerted me that this might be important so I replied
simply, ‘I make enough money each year to also give to charity.’
He said he had something to offer me by which I could own several
apartments in New York, London, Paris, a private jet, a yacht, and of course, as
many cars as I liked. I was quite intrigued by this offer and asked myself what
kind of a business this could be; maybe a slice of his shipping business? I asked
him to describe the nature of his offer. There was a moment of silence after
which he looked at me, smiled and said, ‘I will make you the head of my
business in India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, Nepal and Sri Lanka.’
I was now sure that he was talking about his shipping business, so I asked him
to elaborate. In reply, he simply said, ‘You will head my cocaine empire in these
regions.’
I was stunned and my bones turned to rubber but I quickly recovered my
composure; I needed to give him an answer which would neither insult his
intelligence nor offend him. I replied, ‘I am most grateful to you for your kind
offer, but I am an actor and a film-maker. I am not a businessman, so I cannot
accept this generous offer—it would lose you money.’
For a brief and incredible moment, he looked at me intensely. I wondered
what was going on in his mind. He was obviously bewildered as to how anyone
could refuse such an offer. After a minute or so, however, he got up and
embraced me. Then he whispered in my ear that any time, anywhere, if I needed
him, he would be there for me.
In 2001, many years later, I was staying at the London Hilton when my good
friend Farrukh Dhondy dropped in with Shekhar Kapoor to have tea with me.
We were sitting in the lounge when I felt a slight headache and asked Farrukh if
I could get a Panadol. A lady sitting nearby heard me and walked up to me. She
opened her purse, took out a Panadol and offered it to me.
Farrukh interjected and told me in Hindi, ‘Mat lena. Pata nahi kaun hai.’
(Don’t take it. You don’t know who she is.)
She said immediately, ‘Sanjay Khan, the godfather of Turkey had introduced
my husband and me to you.’
I accepted the Panadol and asked her how he was. I told her it had been a long
time since I had met him. She was surprised. ‘I am sorry to tell you that he was
killed, along with his whole family, by his rivals.’
It was perhaps not surprising, given the nature of his business, but I still felt a
stab of pain on hearing this news, especially for his family.
A Helicopter Crash
I have always been fascinated by helicopters and at one time even owned a
company for spraying insecticides on crop fields. I have also had more than a
few close shaves in them, but the story which follows is the one that stands out.
In 2003, I travelled by helicopter to Balkhot in Karnataka, where I was going
to address an election rally for a new political party created by Vijay Mallya.
Before taking off, there was a thirty-minute delay, and I wondered if there was
a snag. We took off eventually, however, and started on our journey. As we
approached Balkhot, the weather deteriorated and I heard the pilot and co-pilot
talking about it on the earphones that I was wearing. I didn’t think much about it,
though, because we were very near the airport and I could see a large number of
people on the ground waiting to receive us.
We were flying at about 800 feet when the pilot turned the chopper to the
right. It shuddered, at which Mallya started giving instructions to the pilot. ‘Left
rudder! Left rudder!’ I realized that there was something seriously wrong
because it was clear that the helicopter was not responding to the pilot’s
manoeuvring. There was a horrific sound and the helicopter nosedived towards
the ground. The last thing I heard was Vijay shouting, ‘Sanjay bhai, we are going
down!’
I was quite calm; something told me that everything would be all right but at
that moment, both Mallya and I blacked out. When we came to our senses, we
realized that the helicopter had crashed in a muddy field; it was lying at an angle
on its left skeet. The pilot and the co-pilot were unconscious and Chikita,
Mallya’s secretary, was crying out loudly from the rear, ‘Please help me, Sanjay.
Please help.’
When I looked towards the rear end of the helicopter, I saw the NDTV
cameraman sitting with blood flowing profusely from his head, and an obviously
broken arm. Mallya was also groaning in pain, saying, ‘Sanjay Bhai, my leg, my
leg. Please help me!’
I realized then that I was unhurt, miraculously without a scratch and was still
clutching my mobile in my left hand.
The imminent danger was that the engine was still running and the rotor with
the broken blades was still spinning. It looked like a deadly weapon and was
hardly a foot or two from Vijay’s head, so, thinking quickly, I pulled his head
away. Fortunately, Vijay had the sense to shout out, ‘Cut the engine!’ and I saw
the co-pilot feebly lift his hand and press a red button to stop the engine.
Surveying the wreckage after the helicopter crash
During this drama, thousands of people had circled us, watching the spectacle
from a distance, in spite of me urging them in Kannada to come forward to help
us. I realized later that they hadn’t moved because of the fear of the chopper’s
full tank exploding.
I pushed Vijay out of the helicopter first, then his secretary. Then I took
charge of the NDTV cameraman, pulling him out of the debris. By the time I got
out of the helicopter, people had arrived to help. As I surveyed the damage,
people told me that they had seen the tail breaking and going into a spin just as it
hit the ground.
I tried to call Zarine so I could let her know I was all right before she saw the
news of the accident on TV, but there was no answer. My daughters didn’t
answer either, so I called Zayed. Fortunately, he picked up the phone and I was
able to speak with him. He, of course, expressed alarm and asked if I was all
right. I assured him that I was fine. He retorted, ‘Oh come on, Dad. You said the
same thing after the fire accident!’ I repeated that this time I really was
unharmed and asked him to convey the message to his mother and sisters.
That was the season of chopper crashes. Prior to that crash there had been
fatal accidents—at Vaishno Devi, Hyderabad and the Bombay High oil drilling
rig. I felt lucky that the hand of destiny continued to rest on my shoulder.
17
A Phoenix from the Fire
Just before I relocated to the US for the next phase of my treatment after the
fire, Nurse Roxanne was given a daunting task: breaking the news to me that the
fire had resulted in the death of all but four individuals. With every syllable she
uttered, I went further into shock. I had just automatically assumed that everyone
else was recovering too, guided by the specialists and regimented by the
medications, just as I was. At Roxanne’s words, however, reality hit me. That
night I wept inconsolably in my hospital room, the faces of my crew streaming
through my mind and obliterating my consciousness. The magnitude of that
tragedy persisted within me for several months and I carry the scars of that
wound with me even today.
I was transferred to Georgetown University Hospital in the US for intense
grafting and rehabilitation under the supervision of Dr Scott Spear and chief
orthopaedist Dr Bogomal. One of the first steps was examining my completely
mangled left hand. I was given two choices: either be fixed with a perfectly
configured artificial hand with extremely limited functionality, essentially a
glorified showpiece, or be subjected to surgery attempting to unlock and declaw
my real hand for actual use. The hand wouldn’t look ideal but if the surgery was
performed successfully, it would allow me to drive, write and play golf. After
careful pondering and despite the risk, I opted for the latter with serious
trepidation but implicit faith in God.
My surgery was scheduled for a cold and cloudy February morning in 1990,
and my anxiety had evolved into acute depression. As I was being rolled into the
lift en route to the operation theatre, I was grindingly and wearily fighting
memories of my lost splendour. But as I entered the lift, I unequivocally believe
that I received a sign from God. At that moment, to my right was an African
American woman with both her arms and legs amputated. I saw the dark rings
under her eyes which had a surrendered, inward look, as if trapped in the past. I
remember being struck forcibly by the realization that I still had my hands and
feet, that I wasn’t in that dire a condition and that things could have been so
much worse. It was an epiphany and armed with this renewed vigour, I entered
the operation theatre with a full heart and thirteen hours later had the successful
outcome Allah had destined for me.
Today, whenever I play golf, drive, write or even pick up a bag with my left
hand, I always think of Dr Spear and Dr Bogomal. Their skills, warmth, and
explicit factual explanations gave me immeasurable comfort. I will forever be
grateful to the US for their ingenuity and will always remember the kindness and
concern of the American medical community. I do think, though, that it was my
belief in that sign from God that rekindled in me the resolve to get well and
ultimately be called ‘miracle man’ by Dr Spear and Dr Bogomal. I never lost my
faith in my Allah, and it was this faith which, along with the courage in my heart
and the passion to complete The Sword of Tipu Sultan, kept me alive to strive, to
seek, to find, and not to yield.
However, despite my single-minded determination to go on, I was, inevitably,
susceptible to the natural ebbs and flows of apprehension and uncertainty that
plagued all my surgeries. I was devastated to see my face after many months and
wondered, in moments of intense pensiveness, if I could ever face the cameras
again. My wife urged me to fulfil my promise to my people and my fans of
playing the role of Tipu, as the initial nineteen episodes brought a plethora of
expectations from millions of fans whom I simply could not disappoint.
When I was finally discharged from the hospital after the long battle for my
survival, I wanted, in the best interests of the serial, to set up a face and dialogue
test for Shabaaz Khan, who was playing the role of Hyder Ali, in order to
determine if he would be a more compelling Tipu. Yet, on screen, it was evident
that I was personifying the tragic character of Tipu quite seamlessly and I took
that as another sign from God—I was destined to complete the series by playing
the role. Even so, when I returned on set, I was so frail that I couldn’t even sit on
the horse by myself. Everyone wondered whether I had the stamina and ability to
do justice to the role which was so inexplicably intertwined with my destiny.
The true test presented itself on a hot June afternoon. Zarine was sitting by my
side as my stunt double prepared to act out a scene involving a battle between
Tipu Sultan’s army and the British cavalry. All eyes were fixed on Tipu’s
favourite white horse, and as the scene was about to commence, a burning
thought refused to leave my mind: ‘Today, if I don’t take the shot myself, I’ll be
running like a white rabbit . . . helter-skelter, destination unknown.’
My wife was very reluctant to allow me to do this but she understood that I
needed to exorcize my fears and conquer my demons. We exchanged looks, and
with a tone of loving resignation, she only said, ‘Please be careful.’
The crew carefully helped me mount the horse. Even Though my left hand
was mostly incapacitated, I held the reins of the horse with that very hand and
tightly squeezed the sword with my right. I couldn’t feel my left leg in the stirrup
as it had lost nearly 50 per cent of sensation. Still, I went to the point of the
charge with terrified exhilaration coursing through my entire body. Behind me
were 200 horses with riders from the 61st Cavalry of Rajasthan, carrying drawn
swords and lances. I kept telling myself, ‘There’s no way I can fall. If I do, I’ll
get pierced by a sword or a lancer.’
As the cue for action was only a few precious moments away, I surrendered
myself to Allah’s will. It was His blessing that allowed me to complete the
charge, but my personal tour de force was only beginning. The horse ran even
faster after passing the camera, and unable to control the horse with my left
hand, I had to drop my sword on the ground. Fearing that a carelessly flung
sword could injure the riders following me, I leaned down in the saddle so that I
could drop the sword on the ground without endangering the riders behind me.
That done, I quickly regained my position and controlled the horse with both my
hands just in the nick of time, and prevented it from jumping into a thick thorny
bush. The crew erupted in a roaring standing ovation as I looked at my wife with
a proud and mischievous smile.
However, unknown to everyone, my left hand was bleeding profusely and the
blood was spilling down to my thighs, so I sneaked into the make-up room to
change my clothes and clean myself. I returned to the set, quietly sat down, took
a smooth reflective breath and smiled. That was the day I came back to life. My
unit and my crew were delirious with joy to see me take charge. Literally.
I experienced an exponential recovery in self-esteem after that day. I had
returned from the depths of despair, better than ever. The Sword of Tipu Sultan
was completed to rousing adulation.
On our way back from Georgetown University Hospital, I asked her if I could
do something for her: open a trust, deposit a large sum in a fixed deposit, buy her
a flat, etc., for all that she had done for me so that she could be financially
comfortable. I still remember what that self-respecting and wonderful woman
told me.
‘Mr Khan, you hired me to do a job. I did my job and you paid me well. What
more do you want to do for me? You getting well and getting back on your feet
is my reward.’
I was overwhelmed by her beautiful response and felt a lump in my throat.
Roxanne and her daughter still visit our family from time to time to enquire
about our welfare. I wish her the best. God bless her.
I have realized that there are some people who are born to heal and comfort
others. Roxanne, my Florence Nightingale and Mother Teresa rolled into one, is
one of them.
Dear Papa,
Much like the way the finest swords are forged in the hottest fires, the
courage and determination with which you have faced the trials and
tribulations in your life, constantly defying the odds and ruthlessly
following your passion, have led me to believe that you are nothing short of
the same ‘blue steel’ that comes out of these fires. You are the backbone of
our family and I know that you have always put us first.
Being a man of great ambition doesn’t come easy. Most of the time there
is a heavy price to pay, but that has never deterred you from achieving what
you set out to do. As your son, I always found your incredible willpower
hard to match, but it has nevertheless inspired me to do better, be better—
now and forever. As a father, you have always taught me to take the higher
ground and to never be distracted by small talk; I’ve tried to achieve this,
and pass on the same example to my own children.
In all honesty, I find it extremely hard to define you, and that is why I’m
glad that you are sharing your story in your own words, in this way.
Papa, you’re the man!
With Omprakash
With Sanjeev Kumar in Mauritius
With Sunil Dutt during the campaigning for the North-West Bandra constituency
At Pragati Maidan, New Delhi, as chief guest of the International Trade Fair sponsored by the
Government of India
With Purushottam Swami and his colleague, of the Swami Narayan temple, at my residence in Mumbai
With Prime Minister Narendra Modi
With Sussanne, Gauri and Shah Rukh Khan, Rakesh Roshan, Zarine and Hrithik at the launch party of
Kaho Naa . . . Pyaar Hai
With Dharmendra and Amitabh Bachchan
With Bob Christo and Mukesh Khanna on the sets of The Great Maratha