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Max Dayley

Blake Bockholt

English 11

08 May 2019

A Dispute with life

I was never meant to have an easy life. I always fought for what I Have. I fight. Growing

up biracial while living in Utah, which is about 89.2% white. Isn't as fun as it sounds. I mostly

lived in Syracuse (94.6% White) For over 12 years now. Going to school, I got mocked for my

skin colored. Insecurities flooded my body from looks, body, and skin. Going to school every

day I woke up. Looking at myself as this failure. This has a toll on the human mind. It got so bad

I refused to go outside to get any more tan than I already was, it made me feel even worse

because I felt so fat (I was overweight) but I didn't want to go outside, so I was always

conflicted. By the time I was in fifth grade, I had shown signs of depression. In seventh grade, I

was diagnosed with clinical depression. A new chapter in my life began steaming from

negativity. How can I see light if my skin is dark?

Depression wasn’t a huge surprise in my life. At a point in my life, I knew I shouldn’t

have always been so sad with everything going on. From the build-up to the ending which is

close but I can tell a rebound is going to happen, but for now, I'm barely getting off the meds that

were given to me, and it is May 2019 currently. My life has always been a rollercoaster of

emotions from the start of medical help to now. But during puberty, I went from a young kid

worrying about his color of his skin and his weight to a kid worrying about everything but not so

much about skin color. I never meet anyone else who had this problem at my such a young age

(during those times of the late 2000s). Thanks to my depression spike in 9th grade, my grades
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started to decrease more and more. I had surgery during junior year and currently going off my

meds as well. My grades suffered… I’m barely doing a 2.9, and I’m trying to go up and up, but

my mind is going down and down.

Well, out of all that darkness and depression. I learned how to accept my skin color. I

worked out and lost weight and puberty helped a lot with my looks. So much happened since 9th

grade and my life has been getting better. I've been working hard for everything I have gotten,

grateful for what I've been given. I have been trying to get my grades up… not working as well

as I thought but hey at least I’m trying. I’m Max Dayley: a leader; who trucks through his

problems to make it into the light. I have been a Student government officer back in sophomore

year. Junior year I became the HOSA president for our school. I’m trying my hardest to push

through my hardest, so I can show my worth. My senior year is full of CE courses.

To wrap this up… I want to say hey, my grades and GPA have been going down, but this

year I’m about to go into my element to show that I can do something. I have made it through

challenges, and that’s what I’ll be doing again to get into a college, which is one of my biggest

dreams. I’m a dreamer and someone who can push through challenges time and time again. I’m

Max Dayley, a bi-racial leader ready for the future.

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