Mary Ann Villanueva Oppus

Submitted On October 24, 2014

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I'm tired and weak... My legs are heavy while I walk the streets to nowhere. Can you tell me where I am?
The road is long and my life lost its direction... Can you even see me or hear me? Ah! I don't think so. I
feel so invisible, like I don't even exist. In the eyes of the righteous, I AM INVISIBLE! Would you dare to
pause and think for a second - what I have gone through? What kind of life I had? Please don't condemn
me!

Life has been beautiful, but it was my choice why life has been hard to me. Years ago, we were rich. I
lived a life full of chances - chances to succeed and build a future out of my parents' hard work. But what
did I do? I was so stupid to set aside my dreams and just focused on enjoying life. Yes, I was a brat!!!!
And I was too carefree... I can't even remember if I REALLY HAD A DREAM. Ha ha ha ha! Those were the
days of sin - enjoying extravagance here and there, oh yes! It started out as fun, fun, fun!!! Little did I
know - I was getting hooked into drugs. Yes! I became an addict at an early age and I let it consume me
till the end of my days.. The thing is... I allowed to be enslaved by drugs and it was so difficult to break
the hold that the drug had on me. My urge was so strong that I can't control myself to the point of
betraying my loved ones just to acquire it. Yes I was a sinner... and all my miseries and tribulations are
outcome of my wrong choice. My heart broke as I saw my weeping parents slowly pulling away from
me... Little by little, I realized I was losing the most important people in my life.

I can feel my body slowly deteriorating. Oh God! Please help me get through this struggle! Forgive me
for being a failure to the people I love most - for striking their hearts with my wicked ways... I am
unforgivable! Yes... I admit, I tortured my family every time they saw me drowning in my shameful
addiction. But nevertheless, my parents decided to bring me to rehab. It was a stormy night I can never
forget. On our way, we had a tragic car accident that took my parents away from me. I wish I was the
one who died instead of them!!! And there, with my endless grief, I was left with no one in my quest to
change. I know my parents didn't die in vain... I know they wanted me to come out and show the world I
can change. Slowly I crawled out of the car and out of the blue, I heard a loud explosion. BANG!!! As I
looked back, I saw our car burning with my parents inside! I fell down on my knees, so helpless and
exhausted... Help!!! Will somebody please help us??? I'm so scared, I am shivering and cold.

The last chance I need, I thought was gone... gone too soon with my parents' passing... But no!!! Life
must go on... I need help, please listen to me! - Have mercy on a sinner like me! Take me to rehab, I beg
you! Please take me anywhere where I can be given a new hope.. I know God sent you... you are His
instrument to lead my way back.. I beg you.. Please give me the chance, the last chance I need to save
my life