Struggles

Last semester was pretty hard for me, I could not seem to get any of the

lessons that was thought to us. I was even more frustrated when I can not seem to find

the cause of my problem. I thought deep and hard what was the root cause of my

problem. There were various possibilities and one of them was the recent vacation with

my family, that took place in a time a week full of quizzes,which resulted to a week of

absence in class. I strongly believe that this was the major source considering that after

the event happened everything came downhill for me.

I was never friends with math ever since I was in grade school. However I am

not the type of a person to fail in math. I am a person that does not need to take a

removal exam just to pull up my grade even though it is not the best. Although this year, I

am quite disappointed with myself, I kept telling myself why did I not do better, why did I

not study enough or I was just to dumb to understand anything. I was too sad that I could

not focus on anything. I was glad that I did not receive any letter from my pre-calculus

teacher Ms. Zerda, since that would mean I have to call my parents, which may result to

further disappointment. I did not receive any letter but does not mean I am safe from the

removal exam. Though my grade is not that low, that my parents need to be informed,

still I need to take the exam to pull up my grade.

Pre-calculus is not hard, if only I had enough time to understand the subject

itself then I would have perfected it. As I looked back at my previous exams, quizzes and

activities, I actually realized they were all the same just their values are different. Maybe

with a different mind set before then I would have probably do good at taking the exam. I

was too scared to fail that I failed to calmed down and think clearly. My mind was too

clouded with the idea of failure, disappointment and to make matters worse, it was
accompanied with the emotion of sadness. I was too pessimistic with myself, thinking

that if I fail, I will lose everything.

With the new semester coming I was so happy how I picked up myself from

the ground I was on. I was so afraid to take a leap, thinking that I would fall much further.

Nevertheless I took risk and I am enjoying the fruit of my labor. It was only a phase and I

will not let it hinder me any longer. If you keep crying without doing anything then you will

not progressed. Take a leap then you will explore things you never saw before.