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Oh shit.
I did it again.
It’s tough because that’s how I learned to adapt. Being first gen Pakistani American Muslim in
this country isn’t exactly as simple as it may seem.
I had to hide a lot from my family to protect them from the truth of my hedonistic pursuits. I
was always taught to be as close to religion as possible. In fact, my mom used her perception of
how good of a muslim boy I was to flaunt how great a job she did with raising 3 kids on her
own.
I made sure I ran with the right crowd and got my work done. I was gunna make my mom
I started to do as many extracurricular activities that I could fit in. I was a tough kid when I was
younger so I needed to make up for it all.
I got really into sports and started hanging around the football crew. I was finally fitting in and
doing something with myself.
One day my friend asked me to switch an item out while in the apple store and we got caught
up. The felony got knocked down to a misdemeanor and I had to do 60 hours of community
service and was on house arrest for 3 months. This was my freshman year of highschool.
I AGREE THAT I”VE BEEN ONE ROTTEN KID. SOME SON SOME PRIDE AND SOME JOY
On the court date I promised my mother I would make a change
I had a choice to try out for the travel soccer team or Legally Blonde. I turned myself away from
that crowd and joined the theater community in a choice that changed my life.
MOM I WILL TRY TO TRY HARD TO MAKE YOU PROUD OF YOUR BOY
And I was into this new image! I prayed consistently, I donated, I cared for others, I refrained
from se-…..
Well
You see
The first experience I had was with a cast mate when I was 15
One night we started to talk about intimacy and before you knew it
(Sexual Healing)
BABY, I’M HOT JUST LIKE AN OVEN, I NEED SOME LOVIN’
I never experienced something more exciting. All my preparatory work came through. I got all
the way to 3rd base.
As the years passed, I started to explore more but felt a guilt that drew me closer to my
religion.
I decided that I would do everything but go all the way. That was for when I got married!
BABY, I CANT HOLD IT MUCH LONGER. ITS GETTING STRONGER AND STRONGER
I went to the party as the good muslim boy that my mom bragged about but once the dance
was over,
I told myself she was the one. I would only go all the way with someone I’m committed to and
never anyone else.
Later that year, we broke up. Sad times, man. I was out. Done. No more screwing around.
I went to theatre program over the summer to hone in on my craft. I was there to work.
I made some very close friends.
One day I took a tour to the sound booth of our theatre after hours
That didn’t work out. I decided I would never do anything with multiple people
Okay, maybe I’ll refrain from exploring sexuality with anyone who wasn’t female
Well. Honestly I stopped giving a fuck and starting giving some fucks.
CHORUS
I was in it and it was good because nobody knew. Until my mom found a letter.
My girlfriend at the time thought it would be a cute idea to send a letter to my house explicitly
talking about everything we liked to do and what she was looking forward to.
I didn’t know this until a couple days after my mom had read it and kept it with her.
The confrontation was one of the WORST experiences. 0/10 would not recommend. It really
changed my mother’s perception of me. I don’t regret it though. I stand by my choices.
Though all of that was fun and beneficial for my growth, the more I experimented the less I felt
complete.
Things in my life started to shift and karma seemed to start working against me. Despite having
people around, I felt lonely and lost.
I started to look to my mother to see what helped her after all the years of abuse she faced
from my father and her family. For her it was the practice of religion. This didn’t mean just
praying non stop but rather implementing teachings into her lifestyle.
She was acting as the example of what she wanted to see. She was doing unto others as she
wanted upon herself. She was shooing away evil…
(Evil)
Full Song?