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Chapter 1: What The Future Holds
Chapter 1: What The Future Holds
around me, but all I feel is gloom. Within the span of 24 hours, I went from getting
promoted to head marketer, to being out of a job. When will this nightmare
subside? No one ever expects life to be turned upside down by a world pandemic.
It’s not that I don’t have enough to support my twin girls, Graycen and Maisy, for
now. However, being a single mom with her income cut off and a nanny that can no
My extensive days of work often turned into late nights stressing over tasks
their normal classroom time. My lack of teaching expertise isn’t the only issue; the
girls would much rather traipse around in the yard, chasing butterflies and creating
worlds in their imagination. As the days begin to blur, I begin to question when my
life will change again. When will things be back to normal? And is that normal still
possible?
***
All I can think about is my feet. My tired sore feet. My shifts are longer and
more intense than ever. I used to love my job, and I still do. But I hate living in fear
that I may be infecting the people I care about every time I return home. As I stare
Despite these trials, I try to remember why I fell in love with nursing in the
first place. I spend my days helping those who can’t help themselves. The drive to
work each day is a reminder of this passion. Each morning, as the sun rises in the
Los Angeles sky, I remember all of my blessings- my roommate Luca who keeps me
strong even on my worst days, and our elderly neighbors, Joe and Christine, who are
full of life and laughter. Now, as I lay down in bed preparing for another strenuous
shift my thoughts weigh me down. Will this ever get easier? What untold stories
***
Go, go, and go. That is my life. Most days, I don’t even have time to catch my
breath. This quarantine is the escape I’ve desperately needed from my daily life as a
social worker here in LA. I have officially devoted my time to bettering myself. After
all, what better time to do so? I started meditating as of yesterday morning, and so
far, I’ve had little luck. Every time I sit down and begin to relax, floods of ideas,
issues, and thoughts enter my mind and I feel utterly overwhelmed. Panic consumes
It is okay that I have limited progress, because this quarantine is about the
little growths. I have time. It is okay that the littlest things upset me, because I can
work through them for as long as I need. I feel terrible that this virus is hurting
people, but the truth is I needed this break-mentally, physically, spiritually. This
break will lead me to a better future- a healthier future. This break was necessary,
before the real world broke me. Will I heal myself in time? Or will my life return to