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anchor. A heavy object attached to a rope or chain and used to moor a vessel to the sea bottom,
typically one having a metal shank with a ring at one end of the rope and a pair of curved and/or
barbed flukes at the other.
When I was ten, my Aunt Stacy pushed me off a boat to get her sunhat. She knew I was
scared of the water. The air knocked from my rib cage—I heaved gasping breaths when I
reached the warm surface to see everybody laughing. Barbed wires piercing my chest. I forgot
about the ladder. I wanted to disappear—to sink like a submarine. Quiet and mysterious. I
stopped kicking and became an anchor. Sinking. Lumbering lead in my soft lungs. Pulling me
down to the depths of the ocean floor where the darkness shines brightest. Among all the
unsightly, bottom-dwelling creatures that lurk in the seabed of strange obscurity. Hidden in the
thick dust of littered plastic bags, beer cans, and other disposables. The distorted silence—the
pressure of the world on my shoulders. Do you think time stops at the bottom of the sea?
cove. 1. A small sheltered bay. 2. A concave arched molding, especially one formed at the
junction of a wall with a ceiling.
This is the place you hide. Where the hungry mouths of mountains and rolling hills wrap
their lips around you—caressing your naked frame as the spray’s knuckles kiss your weary face.
Swirling with the salty lingering of tears. Yet the ocean lies inside of you. Your own hidden
cove. With hollow grottos and growing pains like choppy waves—crashing upon steep cliffs and
dark caves. The steady collapse of the tide forms an incessant hum in the back of your mind.
Drawing you in with promises to remedy your thoughts. Sneaky sirens on sunken rocks. Cover
your ears.
oars. A pole with a flat blade at one end used to row or steer a boat through the water.
This is how they use you. Head first—dipped in honey syrup. The worst part is you will
let them. Greedy hands clasped tightly around your bruised throat as they row you through their
own shipwrecks. This is how they use you. An anchored buoy to keep them afloat. Drilled deep
into the sand like a roach cigarette. Deployed as a cruiser in a game of Battleship. Dropped like
an anchor into the sea. Sinking. Who taught you this is love?
rope. 1. A length of strong cord made by twisting together strands of natural fibers such as hemp
or artificial fibers such as polypropylene.
Keep it hidden under your bed. When your mom finds the piece of rope, tell her it’s for
kinky things and she’ll never ask again. Take it out when you need to—when the cord is strong
and you are not. Hold it tightly in your hand until the fibers burn your palms. Practice knots. Tie
the rope to the fan on the ceiling. Watch it sway back-and-forth. Put it back under the bed. Pull it
out a few months later. Tie it to something sturdier like a mast. Wear it as a necklace. Remember
your mom. Put it away. Promise not to do it again, even if it’s a lie. Don’t worry, I won’t tell.
starfish. A marine echinoderm with five or more radiating arms. The undersides of the arms bear
tube feet for locomotion and, in predatory species, for opening the shells of mollusks.
Did you know a starfish is not actually a fish? This is the tragedy of labels. To be a rare
species of distinct shape, submerged in the open sea just to be placed in a treasure chest. Bolted
by a lock with no key. They tell me I belong under the surface when I know I should be up there
with the full moon. I’m drowning in the sand. Sinking. Deeper into the dust of lost time. Flushed
rosy cheeks suctioned to the snaring seabed of the bathroom floor from crying—arms and legs
spread like the star I know I am not.
lighthouse. A tower or other structure containing a beacon light to warn or guide ships at sea.
This is how I find my way back. An experienced mariner lost at sea. I’m not too far gone,
am I? Because through the fog, I can see a sliver of light break through the sky once blanketed in
gray—like the cigar remnants in my father’s ashtray. Guiding me back to safety—navigating the
rough waters of a stormy existence. This is when you make a choice. For a lighthouse is not just
a beacon. It is a proposal and a warning—the mother welcoming you home with open arms or
the father crushing your bones beneath sharp rocks. Which scares you more? I shift the oar.
THE FALL
tell her the truth, but not today. Not after I see her
put the yellow dandelion behind her ear and smile.
REQUIEM FOR YOUTH
This is the place the dapple grey stallion rests its hooved heels
And I can let my silenced tears flow like thawed out snow
Since no one else is awake this morning—
Nor the frosted plants or hibernating animals in the forest
Yet the rabbit runs home with blood in her hair
As she is chased and hunted down by the shadow.
The orphans waited for days and then grieved in their mourning
As the maternal hare became a faded shadow
Haunting the chilled dirt and roots and trees of the forest—
But the drove of leverets in their nest made an effort to heal
That terrible winter as they scoured through snow
For food without their mother to nestle against their frosted hairs.
I feel as though I must find and carry and protect all the hares
Of the woodlands to keep them from morning
When the sun rises in the east and glitters upon the fresh snow—
Revealing the old hare’s footprints to be lost in the shadows
Like the hasty kick of her hurried heels
Never took place in the darkest part of the forest.
Caught in a trap, the smallest rabbit was left behind in the forest
Where he squealed in agony for the other hares
And I felt the scarred ache from the pups again in my heel—
Beneath an evergreen, I found his neck snared by a wire that morning
And set the hare free to walk beside him with my own shadow
As I followed the dappled grey onward to spring through melting snow.